#I was so close to crying that day
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*through gritted teeth, rocking back and forth* Being bad at art isn’t a moral failing. You’re not bad you’re learning. It’s okay if you’ve been drawing almost daily for four years and aren’t at the level you want to be. Look back and see how much you’ve improved. Do studies. Practise areas you’re bad at. Stop drawing only the same characters chest up in 3/4 profile view. Step out of your comfort zone. Look at tutorials. Use references. Study anatomy and colour theory and how light and shadow work. Stop making yourself upset over it. Stop hating yourself for not being good enough. Stop comparing yourself to others and getting angry over how they’re better than you. Learn to have fun while drawing. Art is supposed to be fun. Why would you do it if it’s wasn’t fun? Stop crying.
#*deep sigh* I don’t know how many more 2 a.m hysterical fits over hating my art I’ve got in me chief#I don’t know why I’m like this#usually I explain my behaviour by blaming it on childhood trauma#but my art wasn’t a trauma point#as in. I just never really showed it to my parents so they couldn’t say bad things about it even if they wanted to#well… there were those art classes with that one girl whoshe mom wouldn’t shut up about how great she was#and my mom spent tons of time with her so if I complained I’d just be compared to the girl#actually… I was so much more confident in my art before those classes#like I look back at what I posted pre April 2022 and I had absolutely no shame#wonky anatomy? post it anyway. extremely amateur colour and shading and backgrounds? who cares#and no one in those classes was mean to me#everyone was so nice and supporting#but the very first time I was brought there was when I realised that I am objectively bad at art#and don’t understand the fundamentals and am only good at drawing the same thing over and over again#I was so close to crying that day#and I kept going back and it kept getting worse#holy fuck…#I enjoyed those classes a lot#even though I was having breakdowns left and right I was mostly satisfied with the end results#(yeah because the teachers usually ended up finishing everything for you ты рукожопая бездарная тварь)#but I guess that is where my problems started#god.. I wish I never went to those now#maybe I wouldn’t be like this#maybe I’d act even half well adjusted rather than sobbing into my pilllow every time my#(no reference no practice no knowledge of anatomy colour or shading)#drawing turns out less than perfect#good fucking god how pathetic can I get#and this is like the 10th time I’m making long ass tag rant posts about the same issue#and since writing them did I attempt to fix it? practise and study and improve? no. I just keep crying#like a little whiny bitch
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the seeds 🛐
#posting for the 5 active fans in 2024 out there <3#i promised myself i wouldn't spend too much time on these sooo don't look too closely lol#far cry 5#fc5#jacob seed#faith seed#john seed#joseph seed#made the cursed observation that all the brothers are rocking nearly identical facial hair#EDIT: thank you sm for the nice tags on this i didn't expect so many people to rb and reading through ur comments has made my day 😭🫶
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mom im tired
#me if drawing pathetic sad sad roman roy was illegal#i did not mean to post this so close to mother’s day i’m crying#rubbing salt in the wound#i wanted to draw their likeness and class of 2013 roy siblings is the most sorrowful thing in the wolrd#mooooommmmmmm iiiim tiiiireeeeddddddd#succession#roman roy#succession fanart#kieran culkin#roman roy fanart#my art#reblogs are welcome
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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you know what’s absolutely terrifying???? having to cut a baby’s nails………
Katsuki has to cut your baby’s fingernails when he discovers a tiny little scratch by her eye one morning. it’s barely there, a small thing, but it’s there, marring her little face nonetheless. he frowns at her when he holds her the next morning, her dreamy eyes alert and blinking up at him, she smiles.
“Now I gotta cut yer claws down,” he mutters to her, voice quiet as to not wake your sleeping form in the bedroom. he pads throughout the house with her chubby face resting on his shoulder, her gums gnawing at his bare skin, but he doesn’t seem to mind it.
he finds himself in a conundrum though, once he realizes just how fucking—how sharp the damn clippers are. they’re tiny, lavender in color, but they’re meant to cut though the nail with such precision. and yes, he’s a pro hero, has had to adopt the title of EMT, firefighter, emergency surgeon a few times in his life when need be.
but…those people weren’t his baby girl. they weren’t this tiny and precious, and they never looked up at him with a face so similar to his, it makes his heart squeeze tight in his chest. he frowns at her again, even deeper, and this makes her hiccup a little giggle, gummy smile spreading wide.
“You’re only gonna wear mittens from here on out,” he grumbles after a while, finally daring to pick up a tiny hand that she instantly curls around his thick finger. it’s the cutest image, he thinks to himself, but he catches sight of the jagged nail, the culprit. his heart squeezes even tighter though, when he realizes that he can’t protect her from every hurt in the world, even if the hurt comes from her own hands. and the realization is an aching one, but he tells himself that he, at least, can patch her up.
you walk in minutes later, find Bakugou curled over your daughter in the rocking chair he built for her room. his tongue pokes from the corner of his mouth in concentration, his eyebrows furrowed. your daughter babbles to him the whole time, her sweet voice cooing the softest little noises that he responds back to.
“I know, I know,” he mumbles to her. “Ya don’t like baths, and don’t like your nails cut, either. What other shit do you hate, huh?” he asks, and she seemingly responds with a long, sighed out coo. it makes him smile, despite the way his hands slightly shake when he cuts the next nail. he’s terrified, of somehow hurting her even more, of cutting too close, of scratching her. but he treks on, and kisses her fat little fingers every time he clips another nail.
#I thought about this earlier and it made me WEEP#bc cutting a baby’s fingernails is a TERRIFYING and terrible experience#and if you cut too close/low and make them cry???? ohhhh just send me to hell at that point#I’ve never actually done it sjdhdjd but I’m TRAUMATIZED seeing my sister do it#and I just think he wants to be so careful and sweet with his baby but he’s terrified of hurting them even more!!!#I love him goodbye#I’m sooooo freaking sleepy tho we had such a long day doing stuff w my family and nieces#I’m BEAT!!!!!#but Christmas is in a few hours and I’m excited ^_^#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#dad bkg
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"May I sit with you?"
#pit babe#pit babe the series#petekenta#garfield pantach#ping obrnithi#pitbabeedit#thai bl#thai drama#bl drama#bl series#i needed this scene in agonising detail#because i don't think anyone else but pete has ever seen kenta this happy#because yes kenta lived in pete's shadow#but that close-up of him smiling?#that's kenta illuminated#and i don't think pete in this moment even rejected kenta#maybe he didn't reciprocate his feelings but he didn't reject him#(why else stare at his lips in wonder?)#kenta rejects himself#kenta keeps himself in the shadows#but also pete's “may i sit with you?”#i don't think anyone else has ever been this gentle and kind with kenta#i don't think anyone else has ever given him a choice#so how would he even know how to choose for himself?#anyway that'll be me crying for the rest of the day#by pharawee
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#mine#aftg#kevin day#andrew minyard#cc#andrew hated it when drunk kevin got like this#screaming crying throwing things panicking. thats the kevin he can handle#but quiet drunk kevin.#the one that stares reverently up at him when he slots his hand against the back of kev's neck#the one that looks at him like a saviour#like he hung the moon and the stars all for kevin#the one that calls him things like 'talented' and 'amazing'#the one that clings to him like a lifeline#thats the drunk kevin andrew couldnt stand#not because he hated him for it#far from it#but because andrew was only a man#his self control could only take him so far when all he wanted to do#was hold kevins face and press their foreheads together and tell him how stupid he was#to share the same air as the drunken prodigy sitting in front of him#leaning close and breathing each other in.#to trace the contours of kevins pretty crying face with more than just his gaze#anyways ANYWAYS sorry if its ooc im tired and wanted kandrew#kandreil is my bread and butter my pride and joy i love it in every form. but.#something about kandrew.#something something projecting#something something saviour complex#dont look at me
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trick or treat!! 👻
here’s every shane and ryan hug that exists to this day! :) have a great october 🧡🤭
#(not including side hugs cause it’s a different genre of hug and they do that every day lol.)#(or group hugs. not including those either even tho shane and ryan are always partially hugging in them <3)#also there are some in here that never get talked about (like the one at buzzfeed where they are fake crying and start hugging.)#hope you enjoy#oh also I LOVE YOUR BLOG BY THE WAY 🧡#aly answers#besties fr#can’t believe they have so many hugs now that i had to go onto the website to make this#i love that#oh and yes I consider the Santa one a hug yk close enough 😭🙏
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@saimatsu-week Day 5: Touch.
"Compassion makes people trust you. If you offer them your hand, they'll reach for it..."
#saimatsu#saimatsuweek2024#for this prompt i wanted to depict moments in canon where kaede and shuichi showed support and comfort through touch#and the last square presenting that loss....that final would be touch#CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING#i love them so much#i might revisit this concept some day but i like how this turned out well enough!#teg's art#also jic the middle square depicts this moment that happens during the first investigation#where Kaede collapses onto the ground in tears...Shuichi offers her a hand and helps her up#there's even an interesting visual that occurs in that moment where the camera zooms in on Kaede and Shuichi once she's up#implying close proximity....I'm obsessed with that moment I genuinely wish it had a cg for it (the lifting up part specifically teehee)#AAAAND the quote is from shuichi's free time events kill me
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SHOVES THIS IN ALL YOUR MAILBOXES AND BOOKS IT
#every dog has his day#okay to rb#i couldn't bring myself to use 'hello and goodbye' for the drink decal because looking at it made me start crying#so i used 'farewell my lovely' because it's pretty and it's the one i made in-game. also “to unfinished business” indeed#ANYWAY#i'm worried it's too close to Angeal and I's wedding anniversary but I want to do it quick#but long enough away to be able to force myself to draw something for it#FUCK#I'M SO EMBARRASSED
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So I started watching the 2009 Monkey King after seeing it all over my For You and GOD ITS SO CUTE.
I want to adopt Liu’er, I will wrap Wukong in a pile a blankets, LITERAL DISNEY CHILDHOOD VIBES, animation is amazing, SONGS ARE FVCKING GORGEOUS (adding the op and ed to my list) and the king is funni despite that one time he slept while his people were probably gonna be brutally k!lled.
In episode 3, I love how when the generals are speaking to Wukong and trying to teach him the rules when interacting with the king or in life on FFM, it literally is like talking to a kid.
AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON LIU’ER AND WUKONG’S FIRST MEETING THAT SH!T WAS ADORABLE.
Major Fox & The Hound vibes and I wanted to bawl my eyes out.
JUST LOOK AT THESE BABIES I CANT—
#Monkey King 2009#Mei Hou Wang#Liu Er Mihou#Sun Wukong#I KNOW ITS GONNA GO DOWNHILL SINCE IM ONLY 3 EPISODES IN AND THIS IS WHY I HVE TRUST ISSUES#Ive never been so close to crying because something was so cute#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH#I’ve only had Peachbuds for a day and a half#but if anything happened to them I would k!ll everyone in this room and then myself
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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS
#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking#my immediate thought was#i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him#bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent#but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally#it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying#the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias#then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought#i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him#AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND#originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went#WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN#BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS#but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it#i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding#so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown#i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
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Digimon Adventure 02: THE BEGINNING countdown! Day 1: Daisuke and V-mon
02beginning x Digimon Survive
Something for @digimon02countdown uwu Sorry I'm still obsessed with Survive but I'm also very hyped for the movie so, why not smash them? Anyway, here have my attempt at drawing Dai and V in the Survive art style with a lazy bg of the spider lilies forest~
The next episode of Digimon Adventure 02, "THE BEGINNING" hits japanese cinemas this October 27th 2023. The gate for a new adventure opens now!
Static version below ;3
Also, this is what I mean when I say that I can't draw baby/child level Digis OTL As a V-mon oshi, I feel so ashamed that I can't draw V-mon OTL I want to cry.
#digimon02countdown#digimon#digimon adventure 02 the beginning#motomiya daisuke#v-mon#veemon#daisuke motomiya#davis motomiya#02beginning#can't believe the day is so close ;w;#I swear I'm crying ;w;#did you guys watched the special preview with target and a 'narration' for a 'next episode'?#yes it made me cry to listen 'the gate for a new adventure opens now' and now you know why I added that to the description :D
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HOW HAVE I NEVER NOTICED THIS
LAYTON USES TU FOR FUTURE LUKE BUT SWITCHES TO VOUS THE SECOND CLIVE'S IDENTITY IS REVEALED.
Tu and vous both mean you but Tu implies closeness : in the entirety of Unwound Future, Layton only ever uses Tu with Flora, the Lukes and Claire
#I'm shaking crying throwing up#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME.#He immediately uses tu for Future Luke which is A LOT#In real life we often stumble trying to know which one to use because vous is distance but also respect like for a boss or teacher#(Everyone except Claire uses vous for Layton because he's a highly educated adult and a gentleman)#Layton must really appreciate and trust Luke. He immediately went 'Oh that's a Luke of course he's a close one'#And it makes sense that he would discard the tu when he finds out that nope this is a total stranger manipulating us all#But also normal people would go from tu (affectionate) to tu (derogatory). Of course Layton doesn't as a gentleman but. Ouch#And he never goes back to tu not even after finding out Clive is the orphan he saved#I'm crying why are you doing that to me. It's so subtle I had NEVER noticed but it's there#Maybe the vous will go back to respect or pleasant distance one day but Clive isn't deserving of a tu. He's not Luke. He's a stranger#I HAVE to do a complete pronoun analysis one day. I've talked about it here and there but I need to do a big analysis#Professeur layton et le destin perdu#Professeur layton#hershel layton#clive dove#Been posting a lot of angst lately oops#Professor layton and the unwound Future#Professor layton and the lost future#Unwound Future spoilers#Lost Future spoilers
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Ooh palettes 🥰 Jasper and Faith in either Malabar squirrel or cherry pie?
@darkfire1177 — [ palette prompts ]
✨ The Unplanned Variables ✨
#at the risk of accidentally making you cry again with my word. I gotta say it#I love you jay#I am so grateful every single day that we met and became as close we did#I absolutely adore you to bits#you are one of my bestest friends and I cherish every ounce of you#you always without fail brighten my days you are always so so much fun and I can't think of anyone else I laugh harder with#I have loved every moment of being by your side since last year and I can't image not having ya around#the impact you've made on me can't be put into words#and god I am so fucking proud of you every goddamn day I am proud of you#you're incredible#thank you for being my bestie and one of the most wonderful people I have ever met in my life#now enjoy some silly art of the rat bastard space girlfriends#faith and jasper truthers come and get ur fuckin FOOD#dual captains au#my art#the outer worlds#captain of the unreliable#friend oc#aly stop drawing characters at weird angles/poses that make me second guess everything challenge#if u see any of my typos. no u didn't. I'm totally sober and not crying rn
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set your calendars guys bc on the 3rd november 2035 it will be 6000 days since good omens season 1 aired. we will celebrate
#i couldn’t exactly ask you to celebrate the 6000 year anniversary so this is as close as we can get#6000 years of pining#6000 days since good omens#i will cry#good omens 2#good omens#good omens s1#good omens s2#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#ineffable divorce#crowley x aziraphale#aziraphale good omens#crowley good omens
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