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I'm forced to go to a Catholic school, and my theology was trying to teach us about how some disciple was asked by Jesus to follow him out of nowhere and he did? She then made us write what we would do?
And I was supposed to give the classic Christian girl answer of "of course I would follow Jesus :3 <3" But I kid you not I wrote "Well, let's see...a random dude asking a teenage girl to follow him? seems sketchy doesn't it..."
No one knows i'm sacrilegious and a dystheist yet
Reminds me of when my youth group was asked how they'd react to a popular celebrity coming in the door then we were asked how we'd react if Jesus walked in and got shamed if our Jesus reaction seemed any less enthusiastic than our reaction to our favorite celebrity
#Autism got me so I was reacting scared until I saw everyone else#and realized it wasn't supposed to be a real thing we're just supposed to perform excitement#'Hey kids you better react more excited at the implication of the apocalypse over your favorite pop star#or else you'll go to hell when that time does come :)'#It's wild out here ur truly the strongest soldier#I was luckily never forced to go to a christian school#I did have to go to christian after school programs since my parents worked so late back then#but luckily my actual base education was public#good luck anon o7#anon tag
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In honor of my nth W359 relisten, here is the breakdown of how I accidentally independently headcanoned most of the characters as Catholic:
Eiffel: He was born in Boston, where Catholics are the largest religious population. I've been told the Lord's Prayer he mumbles is the Protestant version, but that prayer is used a lot in Alcoholics Anonymous, which is probably where he's remembering it from. Perhaps his issues with authority stem in part from having to go to Catholic school.
Minkowski: Her father's surname is Jewish, while her mother is French, where the dominant religion is Catholicism. I envision her as growing up in a mixed household (which I believe is also the case for her VA) but she leans harder into celebrating Christian holidays on the station as part of her attempt to assimilate into white bread apple pie Americanism. After the events of the show I like to think she reconnects more with her Jewish heritage, especially as she could relate to the theme of so many holidays being 'they tried to kill us, they failed, let's eat'.
Hera: Hera quotes St. Augustine, quotes the Bible to Maxwell in Memoria, and says "amen" during the funeral despite never being exposed to religious services. Conclusion? She had Catholicism installed in her to nerf her. Why? Because Pryce is also Catholic. More on that later.
Lovelace: I hc Lovelace as having a Puerto Rican mom. Puerto Rico is heavily Catholic. (Her dad is probably Protestant, but when it came to parents from different denominations choosing which to raise their kid(s) in, my mom won for us, so I shall assume her mom won as well. It's possible she also went to a private Catholic school. She may not have considered herself very religious at the start of her mission, but I think about her leaning on hopes of an afterlife when her crewmates start dying as a scrap of comfort.... only to be forced to contemplate the state of her soul later.
Cutter: It was at this point that I realized I was hcing a whole bunch of the characters as Catholic and decided to lean into it. Luckily for me, he's from Carmel-by-the-sea, which is in fact fairly Catholic due to the presence of a historic Catholic mission. (Did I know this because of a probably Buffy-inspired YA paranormal series I read in high school? Maybe.)
Pryce: Again, was leaning into it at this point, but also it makes sense. She was raised in an orphanage, and a lot of those institutions were run by religious organizations. How many of her problems can be traced back to being raised by nuns. She quotes the Bible to position herself as divine. Why Catholicism specifically? The cannibalism. It's all coming together.
Non-Catholics (Hilbert + the Midwestern Corporate Hit Squad):
Hilbert: Grew up in the USSR. Likely not religious.
Maxwell: Her father was a pastor in Montana, where the biggest Christian denomination is Evangelical. Likely ex-Evangelical. Sorry that happened to you Alana.
Jacobi: His name is Jewish, which is supported by his disdain for office holiday parties and ordering Chinese food on Christmas. Catholics are the dominant religious group in Milwaukee though so he gets to the station and goes ah not this shit again.
Kepler: I do not care about him and thus have not spent much time thinking about him, but probably not religious. When he is trying to turn everyone against Lovelace, he doesn't appeal to religious language while dehumanizing her. There are quite a lot of Catholics in Chicago though so he is also used to them.
What's funny about this is I'm not even Catholic. I did not start out doing this on purpose. Somehow Wolf 359 is a more Catholic podcast than Greater Boston, set in Boston, where the character who talks about religion the most is a Protestant.
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I'm a Christian, my child is a transgender woman (born male became female.)
I accept her fully I believe the God loves all cuz that's what the Bible says if you read the Bible it says Jesus loves all not just some of the people but all.
In today's world where groups hating another group and this person hate this person. it's really sad because that's not the way God wants.
read the Bible there's nothing in there (and I've read the Bible many many times) that says to hate transgenders, hate gays hate lesbians, hate people with purple hair and so on. but it does take he says love everyone.
My daughter's choices are between her and God and Jesus.
I raised my daughter to know God I took her to church, we did the VBS, Sunday school and listen to Christian music and when she became an adult she knew what was going on.
It doesn't not make me a bad parent because my daughter chose to be a transgender. It does not make me a bad person
And it does not make her a bad person for being a transgender person she's a good person, she cares she loves, she knows right from wrong and she makes me proud.
I will love her to her dying day or to my dying day.
there's nothing that will keep me from loving her.
she may never want to talk to me That's okay I still love her.
and I do pray for her NOT that she'll turn back to the person I knew growing up, that is a boy. I PRAY that she is happy, healthy and to know I love her. I also pray that she will find Jesus . Cause Jesus loves all... The body you have it is just a wrapping paper.. what's important is what inside.. that's what Jesus is concerned about .
I don't wish that if that's going to make her unhappy, if that's going to stress her out and if that's going to make her have problems. I don't wish that.
I want her to be who she is today a beautiful loving person
She wants me to go to therapy with her so she can discuss all the things I did wrong I did things wrong.
I was single parent when I've been married to an idiot ex-husband I was still single.
he didn't want to do anything with her I had to force him to do stuff with her.
All he wanted to do was hurt her.
All he wanted to do is make her feel bad and I tried so hard not to let that happen.
But as best as I could do there were times where I wasn't there to help her.
It wasn't my fault It wasn't her fault, The blame totally lays on the ex-husband.
I didn't have much money to give her everything that a child should have. I ran up credit card debt so she could have good Christmases, so she could have food and clothing.
I ran it up that so much I couldn't pay it off which left me with bad credit for years. luckily for me I had a father who came along and paid it off for me. God bless him cuz for that him I would be in jail
I wanted so much to get away from this guy (my ex) when my daughter was small but I didn't make much money, My ex husband made more money than me.
And I knew there was a very good chance that if I divorced my ex back then that he would get the child not me.
that he could provide my child with a stable future and a house
I couldn't at that time and sometimes it cried myself to sleep because I couldn't help My daughter. I wanted to get us both out of the situation we were in, but I stayed because I knew that if that monster abuser idiot ever got a chance to keep her, that she would have been so much worse off than she is now.
she would have been abused more there wouldn't be a life for her really and I couldn't stand that thought. so I stayed with the abuser so I let him hit, me I let him yell at me, I let him do whatever he wanted but I protected my daughter from that.
there was only a couple times I couldn't be there and I regret those times even now. it breaks my heart but I also knew I did the right thing cuz I did not let her go through that alone and I was knew that she was better off then without me.
anyway she wants me to see a therapist with her so she can tell me everything I did wrong.
Why don't I?
because I Went to a therapist when I was four or five or six years old. My mom took me to one, I looked at the guy and I hated him before even stepped through those doors and had a talk with him or whatever
I hated him I didn't know why that I really hated that guy she took me there because she thought I was lying too much. I was a kid, kids lie especially when they think they're going to get in trouble duh
So after a couple months of no progress My mom decided not to take me.
I remember one time coming out of his office he was carrying me and I so much hated that I mean every nerve every cell in my body wanted to kill that guy and I didn't know why.
I was crying so much and I think he told my mom the reason i was crying was cuz I stubbed my toe or something stupid like that
Well after a couple more months I heard my mom and dad talking about that this guy.. this therapist had lost his license probably put in jail .
Why? Cuz he was caught sexually abusing the boys in his care.
yeah I hated the guy before I met him. I have such a extreme good intuition about people that when I was young I knew that person was evil.
My family never talked about it never ask me if I remember being abused, never asked me any questions.
they just didn't talk about it and that's what they do.. they don't talk about what happened. It just goes under the rig and they act like nothing's happen.
Am I damaged because of that maybe.
The only damage I really know of is I will not go to therapist. I don't care if it's online/offline or anywhere I don't believe in them, I don't like them.
therefore this gal is never going to one. I don't care what you say I am like ___ years old and I've been doing good all my life I don't need a fucking therapist now at my stage of life.
#transgender#help#church#god#Jesus#love#ex husband#child abuse#abuse#divorce#i am good#better#no matter what
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[Update] The Book with the Highest Vibration
About a year ago, there was an article titled "The Book with the Highest Vibration". In this article, I introduce two books, "Shinshin no Shinyu" and "Divine Healing". However, once again, I noticed something by arranging these two books at hand. When the "Sleeping Prophet" Edgar Cayce once cited the "Bhagavad Gita" as the text that most accurately expressed the truth of the universe (even though Cayce himself was a Christian). He pointed out if the translator is different, the energy transmitted from the book will be different. Seikichi Nakazato, the translator of "Shinshin no Shinyu",translated Murdo Macdonald-Bayne's books "Beyond The Himalayas", "The Yoga of the Christ" and "Higher Power You Can Use". On the other hand, the translator of "Divine Healing" seems to have a deep knowledge of the Christian "Bible", but he cannot truly understand the spiritual background that led to the publication of this book by Murdo Macdonald-Bayne. Isn't it? Ultimately, as part of the work of the individual Jesus Christ, who is a historical figure, this work is seen in the "Fifth Gospel" by Jesus Christ himself in the band of "Divine Healing". It appears to be advertised as being there. Mr. Seikichi Nakazato writes as follows in the âTranslatorâs Forewordâ of âShinshin no Shinyuâ âŚâŚâŚ People are saved not by theology, but by the truth itself, by living the truth itself. Farewell, Jesus said, "Truth will set you free," never saying, "Theology will set you free." As is the case with many religions, modern Christianity is also shut up in the theology created by the human "I"'s little wisdom (and is therefore at odds with other sects). For this reason, most of them have lost the power to actually heal people's minds and bodies through the words/Logos (truth) spoken by Jesus Christ in the days of the Twelve Apostles. Therefore, Jesus chose the author (deceased) who lived in Johannesburg, South America after World War II and appeared before him. And while pointing out the errors of the present Christian church, this book reveals the true meaning of the truth/logos spoken 2,000 years ago. âŚâŚâŚâŚ Also, in the text of "Shinshin no Shinyu"⌠Because of your stubborn faith, too much God/Christ power is trapped in your hearts, unable to self-realize. âŚis what it reads. (Chapter 12-13) On the other hand, in "Divine Healing"⌠"There is so much Christ's power locked up in your hearts." You cannot appear because of your rigid beliefs. ⌠is translated. In the original⌠There is so much of the Christ Force imprisoned within your minds, unable to express Itself because of your rigid beliefs. ⌠and the last "rigid beliefs" seems to be translated as "stubborn faith" in "Shinshin no Shinyu" / "rigid beliefs" in "Divine Healing".
Speaking from my personal experience, I have read thousands of books, including books on the spiritual world, from when I was in high school until my second or third year in college. Among them, the book that I felt was the most energetic and wonderful was Murdo Macdonald-Bayne's "Shinshin no Shinyu/Divine Healing of Mind & Body" and "Beyond The Himalayas". Luckily, I had the opportunity to borrow and read "Beyond The Himalayas" in the Philosophy and Religion section of the library in the ward closest to my family home. I picked up "Shinshin no Shinyu" at the spiritual world corner of Kinokuniya Bookstore in Shinjuku. âŚAs soon as I saw that sentence, I felt a wonderful energy through my eyes. Therefore, 5,000 yen was expensive for me as a student at the time, but I decided to buy it on the spot. For a while, I always had it next to my pillow on my bed, and there was a time when I would go to bed after reading "Shinshin no Shinyu" and receiving energy. However, after my house caught fire, I never interacted with the real thing. However, only the "photograph of Jesus Christ" at the beginning of the book had been scanned and saved as data before. Then, when I searched the Internet for "Shinshin no Shinyu" for this blog article, "The Book with the Highest Vibration," I found "Divine Healing" translated by someone other than Seikichi Nakazato in 2014 and 2015. When I learned that the English-Japanese version was newly published, I decided to purchase only this one, as the price was cheaper at 3,000 yen. It's not just a translation book, it's an "English-Japanese bilingual"⌠because the original text is on it, the energy level of the book should be the same! With that in mind, in the previous article titled "The Book with the Highest Vibration," I wrote both "Shinshin no Shinyu" and "Divine Healing." And I used to put it by my bedside as an energy product like before. Then, about a week ago, I impulsively wanted to have "Shinshin no Shinyu" at hand at the same time as several other books, so I bought it. And when I read this book for the first time in about ten years, I was moved by the energy (waves) that came from each character. When I put it next to the pillow on my bed, I felt energy in my head and felt a warm feeling in my chest/heart. And once again I noticed the "difference" between these two books. "Book" is a tapestry woven from the thread of "words". And the words reflect the magnificent consciousness of the person. "What 'words' has the author or translator of the book come into contact with?" It can also be said that a "book" is the crystallization of the product produced from the inner world that a person has constructed. For those who want to transcend the sect of "Christianity" and experience the divine self speaking to them, I recommend Murdo Macdonald-Bayne's "Shinshin no Shinyuu/Divine Healing of Mind & Body" translated by Seikichi Nakazato. (The subtitle of the book is âThe Lord Speaks Again.â) *When I was a high school student, I once read a Bible distributed for free on the street. I thought what exactly is the "most read book in the world"?. My impression at that time was that "the energy is quite thin". I understand that Jesus' words are important, but the parts that are embellished and dramatized are large, and I intuitively felt that the energy that Jesus Christ was originally trying to convey was diluted considerably. These two books taught me that the energy gets diluted when you put it through the filter/lens of "Christianity". On the other hand, I've been to church masses at Christian churches several times. At that time, on the other hand, I experienced the significance and energy of what the Christian church was trying to convey as a dream and a site/field. This is not limited to Christianity, but can also be said of Buddhism and Shintoism, but it makes me feel the polar opposites of the raison d'etre of religion and its limits.
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Christle asked me to name all the things my family have done.. so here it goes..
(TW: Abuse, SA, Toxic religion, forced masculinity)
My father
My father was the heaviest hitter (physically). He was ex-military.. so we had military punishments. Unless of course, I did something in public. Then it was cigar burns.
My mother
Neglectful. Never cooked or did anything. 9 times outta 10, she would forget to pick me up from school. She DID like keeping food in places I couldnât reach.. and forcing me to run 4 miles at the age of 6.
My grandmother
HEAVILY religious. The one gave me a general distrust of Christianâs (No hate, just trauma). She constantly tried to force me to go to church, to get baptized, to read and follow the Bible. She whipped me when she found my altar. Luckily my aunt was there..
My uncle
My aunts ex-husband. Constantly sexualized me to his friends, causeing my hatred of older men. He threatened to kill me if I didnât wear these super reveling outfits when I was a childâŚ
My cousins
They were terrible. I had 4. One SAâd me untill I escaped, one keep trying to force me to do sports and âboy thingsâ, one kept saying I was too emotional and should stop being over dramatic, and the other would constantly fat-shame me and make fun of my physical appearance.
As you can see, this is why Iâm so scared⌠Christieâs gonna go bonkers..
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iâve been wanting to write this for a while, so lets see how it turns out:)
(ps, harry is 18 and y/n is 17)
i haven't forgotten about your guys' requests! i'm trying to get to them i promise, but i have a lot right now and i also have tons of school! however i really love all of them, i love what you guys come up with
y/n looked over to her window when she started hearing tapping noises coming from it. expecting to see a bird, she frowned when she didn't see anything. hesitantly, she walked to her window, opened it and looked down.
âoh my god, harry?!â she whisper-yelled.
harry grinned at her, tiny rocks in his hands, and motioned for her to come out.
âno no, no way. you need to go home harry, my mom will kill you.â
âshe's sleeping, isn't she? besides, that's not very christian of her,â he grinned.
y/nâs mom was a very christian woman. this meant she absolutely hated the idea of boyfriends. especially harry. with his tattoos, and slightly long hair, y/nâs  mother couldnât hate him more.
y/n had been very clear with the fact that she didn't care what her mother thought and that she would continue to date harry as she pleased, because it was her decision and not her motherâs. that didn't mean that she hated harry any less though. and if she saw harry, right there, outside her daughterâs window at 11pm at night she would absolutely lose it.
âyes harry, she is sleeping but she could wake up you know.â
âcome on love, just put pillows under your blanket and jump down. she won't wake up,â harry said. he knew she wanted to come, he wouldn't force her if she didn't.
y/n chewed on her lip. she wanted nothing more than to jump down and escape with harry for the night, but the consequences if her mother found out would be terrible.Â
âweâll be back by 2, right?â
âwe can even make it 1 if youâd like.â harry smiled.
she smiled nervously at him. âfine, give me a second.â
her heart was beating ridiculously quickly, but she knew this was worth it. yes her mother would be livid if she found out, but y/n knew she couldn't let what's left of her teenage years go to waste because of what her mother would think. many teens sneak out, and she wanted to be a part of them.
she disappeared out of harryâs eyesight as she changed into some slightly more presentable clothing. she grabbed her phone and peered down the window again.
âyou'll catch me?â
âof course i will.â
y/n nodded, not giving it much thought before she jumped out. she squeezed her eyes shut and braced for a hard impact, but all she felt was harryâs soft chest.
âtold you iâd catch you.â he whispered and kissed her.Â
y/n blushed, still getting flustered by something as small as a kiss even after 2 years with harry.
he set her down and took her hand.Â
âwhere are we going?â she asked.Â
harry motioned to the small bag on his shoulder, âi thought we could go stargazing.â
âthat sounds perfect.â
the couple walked in silence for a few minutes until they reached the field they'd grown accustomed to. they walked over to the tree they always sat by and set their things down.Â
harry pulled out a thin sheet from his backpack and laid it across the soft grass.
âlook,â y/n said softly, âitâs still there.â she lightly touched the tree, right where their initials were carved. they'd done it on their one year anniversary. âi thought it'd would've disappeared by now.â
â âcourse it didn't, it was there last week.â harry smiled and kissed her cheek. âcome on, lets lay.â
he took her hand and laid down, pulling on her hand slightly to get her to do the same. she smiled and did what he wanted.
harry pulled her close, kissing her temple as he did so.
âlook, the big dipper.â she pointed at the sky, looking over at harry to make sure he was seeing it.
âorion,â he said as he pointed to another one.
âtheyâre all so beautiful,â she said after they'd named all the constellations they could find.
âyes they are.âÂ
y/n looked over at harry, expecting him to be looking at the sky, but instead he was looking at her.Â
harry leaned over and pressed a soft kiss to the corner of her mouth. âyouâre so beautiful y/n.â he whispered. he didn't let her respond, pressing another kiss to her mouth this time.
âi love you,â he said between kisses.
âi love you too.â she mumbled.
harry elevated himself slightly by propping his head up his arm, giving him a better angle to kiss her.
soft kisses soon turned into a makeout session, harry on top of y/n, his hands cradling her face.
after a couple minutes, he pulled away. âmm- what's wrong?â she asked.
he layed back down by her and turned to his side, brushing the hair out of her flushed face.
âiâm not having sex with you in a field, my love.â
y/nâs eyes widened. truth is, her and harry had had sex before. it was the morning after their one year anniversary. y/n had spent the night over at harryâs house (she told her mom she was sleeping over at a friendâs) and it sort of just happened. despite both of them enjoying it, they had agreed to not do it again. they didn't want to risk getting pregnant, and besides, they wouldn't even have time to do it, since they barely hung out in a setting where sex could be possible. they usually had very few, short dates, because of y/n having to sneak around.
so when harry said that, it'd surprised her.Â
âdid you really think that'd lead to sex?â
âi don't know, it.. felt like it was going to.â
she swallowed, âdo you want to have sex?â y/n remembered enjoying it very well, and she remembered how amazing it was, but she also remembered how scared she was for the next month, wondering if some how she had gotten pregnant.Â
they were very careful and used protection, but things happened, and with her luck sheâd probably end up getting pregnant. but luckily, she didn't.
harry sighed. âof course i do. i want to do everything with you. but, i know why we never did it again, and iâm okay with that.â
âoh. so you're not mad at me or anything right? for not having sex with you?â
âno darling, of course not.â he hesitated, choosing his next words carefully. âbut do you really want to live like this all the time? missing out on things and having to sneak around, all because of your mother?â his words were soft, caring and tender. as if he spoke any harsher, glass would break.
y/n looked away, âno.. i turn 18 in a couple months. iâll be able to do whatever i want then.â
âbaby, do you really think that when you turn 18 your mom will let you do what you want?âÂ
âi- yes. iâll be an adult.â
âyes, you will be. but you'll be an adult living under her roof.â
she swallowed. she hadn't thought of that. she just figured that when she  turned 18 her mother would have to let her do what she wanted. but harry was right. as long as she lived under her roof, her mother would have control over her.
âi don't know harry.â she said weakly.
âi hate that you have to go through this.â
âitâs not your fault.â
âitâs still not fair, y/n. your mom is a monster that doesnât care about you.â
harryâs words were harsh, but they were right.
she turned on her side and looked at him. âi know h,â she said softly.
he sighed. âlets just enjoy the night.â
âi agree,â she murmured and cuddled closer to his side.
#harry styles#harry styles blurb#harry styles fan fic#harry styles fanfiction#harry styles fluff#harry styles imagine#harry styles one shot#harry styles x reader#harry styles x y/n#harrystyles
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Shelby x Toni Fic Rec Friday #13
MULTI-CHAPTER â¨
Lights in the Dark by SomethingGood (T) 1/5 Itâs been a hard year for Shelby. She came out to her parents who promptly disowned her, sheâs long distance with her girlfriend, Toni, and sheâs not sure how she can continue paying for school. Christmas is her favorite time of year, but this time, she canât find the holiday spirit. Luckily, Toni has a few ideas up her usually non-festive sleeve.
Out of Bounds by GetTheUhaul (NR) 1/26 Toni, late in the recruitment game, gets a full-ride to an incredibly conservative Christian College to play basketball. Knowing it's her ticket out of Minnesota, she jumps at it, no matter how much she's dreading the culture shock. She finds out there are a hell of a lot of people with views like hers, and a hell of a lot of people with views like Shelby Goodkind's, the first student she meets at move-in day. Forced into situations with one another over and over again, their relationship shifts slowly over time, but their outside factors never do, threatening any good thing that may happen between them.
People Throw Rocks at Things That Shine by buttercupkisses (G) 9/9 âYou donât have to go just yet,â the woman murmured, her voice hoarse from sleep. She stretched across to the bedside table next to her and picked up her phone to check the time. âItâs only five-thirty.â âYeah well I have a child and told my friend I would be back by one am so that might be a problem.â Shelby snapped, pulling on her dress from the evening before. OR, Shelby Goodkind has a one nightstand and she doesnât ever expect to see the woman again. She especially doesnât expect her to end up being her daughterâs new teacher.
ONE SHOTS
A Single Thread of Gold Tied Me to You by unburnttkhaleesi (T) Shelby Goodkind loved the thought of being swept off her feet in some amazing romantic gesture. Maybe it was because she was raised off way too many Disney movies and read too many fairytales. She was a pre-teen when she got the idea that maybe sheâd meet her âpersonâ at the park. To be fair, she now graduated from Disney movies to Hallmark movies and she had watched one too many to fuel this idea that if she just sat and waited, that her soulmate would show himself. Or, in which fate has a funny way of bringing Shelby and Toni together.
Maybe This Thing is a Masterpiece by dwoht (NR) Toni paints a painting of Shelby. Or, minor artist!Toni character study + meet cute.
You're as Chilly as This Polar Night (and I Hate You with the Passion of the Sun) by Leutik (M) Shelby is a botanist, Toni is an astronomer, they have to work together for sixty-five days in complete darkness.
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first show ~ aaron tveit
word count: 1756
request?: yes!
âI'll take anything Aaron Tveit. (There are not enough fics out there lol)â
description: after years of practice and studying, she gets casted in her first big broadway show, and finds herself falling for her leading man
pairing: aaron tveit x female!reader
warnings: swearing
masterlist (one, two)
I gasped as the costume person pulled out the beautiful black dress I was meant to wear for our run through of Come What May. I couldnât get over how beautiful my costumes were. I almost felt like I was undeserving of them. I was fresh out of college and already cast in my first big Broadway musical. If this was a dream, I didnât want to ever wake up.
âYou donât have long to get dressed,â the costume person reminded me. âThe dress rehearsal for Come What May is in 10. Although Iâd love to see you staring at all your costumes in amazement.â
âIâll do that after dress rehearsal,â I joked.
I took the black dress and quickly changed into it, longing to look at myself in the mirror but knowing I had no time. With my hair and makeup already finished, I rushed to the stage. Luckily, I wasnât the only one running a bit late as my co-star was yet to arrive once I took my place.
âThereâs our Satine!â the director proclaimed as I stood on stage. âWelcome to the stage, dear. How do you feel?â
âNervous,â I admitted. âBut I look damn good for a nervous girl.â
The director chuckled. âOur Christian should be here soon.â
âHeâs here!â
I tried not to seem as starstruck as I felt at the sound of my co-starâs voice. Aaron joined me on stage, dressed in his Christian costume. I had to try my best not to fangirl over him. He was basically Broadway royalty, and I was acting with him in my first show! I had to remind myself how to breathe.
I smiled slightly at him. âNice to meet you. Iâm (Y/N).â
âNice to meet you, too, (Y/N). Iâm Aaron.â
I had to stop myself from responded with I know as I shook his hand.
âWhile Iâd love for you two to get to know one another, Iâd like to run Come What May first,â the director told us. âItâs one of the biggest songs in the musical, and the one with the most chemistry. So, we need to nail this song before we can nail the entire musical.â
Aaron and I nodded and took our places for the song. The band started playing the song and I felt my nerves growing. I tried to focus just on Aaron, but that made me even more nervous.
âNever knew I could feel like this Like Iâve never seen the sky before Want to vanish inside your kiss Every day I love you more and moreâ
No shock that his voice sounded perfect. I already knew this, I had seen the show on its opening night years before. But it was different to hear the voice up close, too have him singing directly to me. It made my heart flutter and I almost forgot my cues.
âCome what may Come what may I will love you until my dying dayâ
For a moment I feared my voice wouldnât work, but when I opened my mouth the words came out effortlessly.
âSuddenly the world seems such a perfect place Suddenly it moves with such a perfect graceâ
I tried not to break character as pride swelled within me at the look on Aaronâs face. I could only describe it as a look of astonishment, as if my voice shocked him, and that made me so proud.
My heart spiked as Aaron took my hands and we sang together
âStorm clouds my gather And stars may collide But I love you (I love you) Until the end of timeâ
The music swelled as we reached the end of the song, our voices mixing together perfectly as we held the last line. I looked into Aaronâs perfectly blue eyes, glad that the song had ended because he had taken my breath away.
I had forgotten all about the small audience of crew members and our director until he spoke. âThat was great! But can we take it from that last chorus and can you guys end the song with the kiss?â
âO-Oh,â I stuttered, still trying to recover from the song. âY-You want to do the kiss now?â
âItâs better to get the first one out of the way now to get past any initial awkwardness.â
âAre you okay with that?â Aaron asked me, concern on his face.
I nodded. âYeah. He has a point, we will be kissing almost every night. We should get used to it now.â
The director motioned to the band and they began playing from the last chorus again.
âCome what may Come what may I will love you until my dying dayâ
I looked into Aaronâs eyes, the only thing keeping me calm in that moment. One of his hands reached up to gently cup my face, bringing me closer to him. The distance between us was small, but it felt like I was waiting for his lips to touch mine forever.
When they finally did, it felt as though something had exploded inside of me. My whole body felt warm and fuzzy, and my stomach felt like it was full of butterflies. I couldnât stop myself from putting a hand behind his neck, wanting to keep his lips on mine for a long time.
We were forced to pull away when the director began to clap, completely taking us out of the moment.
âThatâs what Iâm talking about!â he exclaimed. âThat was brilliant! See? Now thereâll be no awkwardness when we run that scene from now on.â
I wouldnât say that, I thought, glancing over at Aaron. I wondered if he had felt what I did, or if it was just another stage kiss for him. If he felt the latter, it would definitely be very awkward for me.
âOkay, you two take five and then (Y/N), I want you ready for your entrance medley.â
The crew continued on about their work while the director turned his attention to his assistant and began talking about the technical stuff having to do with the show. Aaron and I awkwardly stood on stage together for a moment, unsure of what to do next.
âI guess I should go get ready for my entrance rehearsal,â I said, trying my best to look at Aaron. How the hell did two actors who werenât already in relationships kiss on stage and not fall in love?
âIâll walk you to your dressing room,â Aaron offered. âWe can get to know one another.â
I smiled at this and the two of us exited the stage together.
âSo,â Aaron started, âthereâs a rumor on the streets that this is your first ever show.â
I nodded. âYeah, it is. Iâm actually not long out of college. I graduated maybe a month ago? Top of my classes because I was always an overachiever, and most of my teacherâs favorites. Actually, it was one of my teachers that got me this audition. She knows the director and when it was announced that Karen Olivo was leaving the show, she urged me to audition.â
âLooks like it worked out in your favor.â
âYeah, somehow,â I said with a slight laugh. âIâm sure there were dozens of better, more experienced girls who auditioned. My teacher mustâve slipped the director a bribe or something to get me this role.â
âOr, and hear me out on this one, you were actually that good and got the role on your own.â
I shook my head. âNo way. Thatâs nearly impossible.â
âNearly being the keyword. Newbies gotta start somehow or else Broadway shows would never have a cast.â
âYeah, but most newbies start as a part of the ensemble or the company, then make their way to very minor character, then less than minor character, and then, if theyâre lucky, they become main characters. Itâs not as easy as auditioning fresh out of school and getting the role right away.â
Aaron shrugged. âI donât know, I think itâs that easy for some people. You have a fantastic voice, definitely a voice worth of a Satine and not just an ensemble girl.â
I smiled up at Aaron. âI appreciate the compliment, and the confidence you have in me. I hope I donât let any of you guys down.â
âI donât think you will. I think youâre going to be amazing. Youâll probably steal the show from me.â
I laughed at this. There was absolutely no way that I, a newbie, could possibly steal the show from a Broadway vet like Aaron Tveit.
I was sad when we reached my dressing room, although I knew it wasnât that far of a walk from the stage. I wanted to talk to Aaron for longer, to have more time alone with him. But we were trying to prepare a show, and that meant that eventually I had to give up my time with him in order to rehearse.
Both of us paused outside of my dressing room. It was almost like we were waiting for the other to leave first. I glanced at the clock in my dressing room and sighed upon seeing the time.
âI have about two more minutes to get into my costume for my entrance medley and to get back to the stage. So, I guess this is where we say goodbye.â
âWell, only for now. Iâll be in the audience watching you absolutely destroy that medley, and then we have basically the entire play together that we have to rehearse,â he told me. âBut, if youâre not too tired after rehearsal, Iâd love to maybe go out and grab a drink with you. If youâd be interested in doing that, that is.â
Now was when my voice stopped working. I could barley believe that this was actually happening. Too many amazing things going on the one time, I was sure I was dreaming. I had to slip my hands behind my back to pinch myself, and I had to suppress a yelp as I realized I was very much awake.
âYeah,â I finally managed. âIâd love to.â
Aaronâs smile was as wide as a child on Christmas morning. âOkay! Well, I wonât distract you any longer. Break a leg out there.â
I watched after him as he went back in the direction of the stage before hurrying into my dressing room to prepare for my next scene. The entire time I had a smile on my face so wide that my cheeks were starting to hurt.
I guess dreams really do come true.
#aaron tveit#aaron tveit imagine#aaron tveit x reader#imagine#one shot#request#fanfiction#fanfic#fandom#broadway#moulin rogue#moulin rogue broadway
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Chapter 3 "Unexpected"(The Gentleman and the Assassin | CBS x Reader x Gentle Spy)
A/n: At this point, it's gonna be a combination of horror, comedy, and romance.Â
âAh, mon ami, where do âou think âouâre going?â
âYeah, roo, where do ya think youâre going?â
I stared at the men, panting. They stood before me, blood dripping down from their hands. I backed up, hitting the tree softly.Â
âTsk, Christian, âou scared her.â I gasped.
âWait, Christian?â I asked.Â
âWot do you want?â he asked.
âAre you Christian, as in Christian Brutal Sniper?â He chuckled.
âThatâs right,â he replied.
âSo the stories are true,â I whispered. âThat makes you Gentle Spy.â I pointed to the chuckling spy.
âYouâre smart,â Christian said.Â
âShe reminds me of your old friend,â Spy replied.
âYa seem like a good kid,â Christian said. âToo bad you wonât make it.â I whimpered as he pulled out his machete.
âHold it right there!â We all looked back. Mike, all wounded and missing an arm, held a scatter gun at the murders. âDonât touch her!â
âMIKE!â I yelled. âRUN!!â He shook his head.
âNo! Iâm not leaving you!â he exclaimed. âWeâll get out of here, alive.â
âI shouldâve made sure you were dead,â the assassin growled. âYouâre not gonna go anywhere.â
âTry me!â Mike exclaimed. He winced. His entire arm was completely severed off. Blood dripped like honey from a beehive.
âHm, seems âou still work,â Gentle replied. âEven missing an arm, you're still up and about.â
âYa shouldâve stayed dead. If ya did, ya wouldnât have to witness your friend die.â
âYou thought wrong!â Mike spat. âItâs gonna take more to.-â
BAM.
The spy had pulled out the revolver and shot Mike in the head. Blood oozed out from his head. His body dropped and rolled to my feet. I screamed as the men laughed.
âI never miss,â Gentle said, blowing the smoke from his gun. I scrambled away from the corpse.
âNo, no, no, no, no, NO!!!â I yelled. âThis wasnât supposed to happen!â I fell down to my knees, crying.
âDonât cry roo, itâll be over soon.â A hand ran down my back. I jumped up, backing up to the tree. Christian pinned my jacket to the trunk. âLoike Oi said, it'll be over soon,â he growled.
âLet go,â I begged. âPlease. What did I ever do?â I asked. His red eyes bore into mine. Christian pressed the edge of his machete into my stomach.
My father, before the death of my mom, told me to never let a man get close like this.
After the death of my mom, he taught me how to fight.
For my sixteenth birthday, I was granted his old butterfly knife.
I took it wherever, except school and public places of course.
It was lying in my pocket.
I grabbed it and slashed his face. Christian pulled back in pain. His partner came towards me but I grabbed his leg and pulled him down. I kicked both men down.
I turned around and began to run.
This time I wouldnât stop. I wouldnât stop until I was out of Teufort! The moon was high in the sky, but the clouds obscured the light. I couldnât see where I was going. I heard breathing.
Breathing from behind me.
I looked, no one was there.
I turned around and crashed into a tree. I landed on my bottom. My nose was broken and blood dripped from it.
âAw, did the little kangaroo get hurt?â Christian asked. He was hovering above me, machete raised over his head. I grabbed his feet and pulled them under him, causing him to fall. I scrambled to his feet, but Gentle grabbed my forearms and forced me to face him.
âItâs not polite for a cherie like âou to hurt people,â he said.
âYou killed them!â I yelled, kicking him in the place we do not speak of. He doubled over himself. I continued to run.
 I reached the end of the forest and came back to the car. Panting, I forced the car door open and jumped in. Luckily, Mike had left the keys in the ignition and forgot to lock the car. I started the car and screeched away.
The road turned into rough terrain back into the black concrete. The woods rushed by and the only source of light was the headlights. I cracked my nose back in place, which was a lot of pain. I reached for Oliviaâs bag. She left her phone there. I turned it on, but the screen never lit up. I groaned, throwing the dead phone onto the dashboard. The clouds morphed into a storm and it began to pour.Â
As if luck and life was hating me, the car began to sputter and slow down. I screamed and hit my head against the horn repeatedly, scaring any nearby wild life.
There was no way I was gonna survive.
If I did, Iâd be running from these guys for the rest of my life! Hollywood would turn my story into a slasher movie or something like that.
I lifted my head from the horn. The sniper stood in the road, laughing. The car lights illuminated his entire body.
âIt was woise for me to slash the gas loine,â he said, walking towards the car. âOiâm surprised the car was able to go this far.â I groaned. He harshly opened the door.
At this point, I didnât care whether I died or lived. Life was going down the drain. I dragged my body out of the car and dropped onto the ground.
âMake it quick,â I mumbled, grabbing his machete and sticking the tip on my stomach. Gentlespy and Christian hovered over me.
âOi donât think so,â he replied, grabbing his kukri back. He bent over so that our faces were close. âWeâre gonna make ya suffer.â
âWhy?â I asked.Â
âDonât ask whatâs in store, cherie,â Gentle replied. âJust know, we need a maid.â He grabbed my arm and hoisted me up.
âGet in.â I was thrown into the back seat of the car.
âWait,â I said. âIf thereâs no gas, how are you going to get the car moving?â I asked. Christian, who was already in the driverâs seat, turned around and faced me. He frowned.
âGentle, Oi think we need a plan B,â he said.
#cbs x reader x gentlespy#gentlespy x reader#x reader#christian brutal sniper x reader#christian brutal x reader#found footage#mystery#tf2 xreader#romance#horror#Long post
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TW: Transphobia, Homophobia, abuse, neglect, p3dophilia, s3xual assault, su!cide, alcohol
~Vent~
My mother is constantly saying that they is only two gender and is always dead naming me, the one time I get her to say my preferred name she rolls her eyes and scoffs as she says it.
My mother has told me my whole life that she owns me and that I don't get to make any decisions for myself, she was dressing me until I was disowned at 14.
My mother would threaten to k!ll herself is I ever did something she didn't like, this includes: having a panic attack, dealing with over stimulation, trying to dress myself, telling her to stop walking in on me while I was showering/changing, going to bed early, going to bed late, saying I was hungry, asking to be allowed to go outside, wearing my headphones, not being strictly christian/not eating kosher, ect.
My mother got rid of my pet hermit crabs without telling me and was constantly trying to release my turtles even though they would die in the wild and they were being taken care of very well with a large, clean tank and plenty of food and hiding places, a special light that was good for their shell, and a great water to land ratio.
My mother slut shamed me because I was wearing shorts that went above my knees (they were perfectly appropriate btw).
My mother would scream at me for hours if I got anything less than a 100% on a test and even if I did get a 100% she would ask me why I didn't get any extra credit even if there was none available and even if I'd did get extra credit she would ask why I didn't get MORE extra credit.
While I lived with my mother I had a diet of nothing but microwave meals and chips and chips because she spent all of her money on vape, cigarettes, and alcohol. I would constantly be near unconsciousness due to my low blood sugar because I had nothing to eat.
She has slapped me across the face multiple times, one time with sharp plastic that cut my chin, she did this as a punishment. One time she slapped me because my blood sugar was low and I was grumpy, this is how it went down:
Me: Hey I know you wanna talk right now but can I make some food first my blood sugar is low this should take me 20 minutes max"
Her: No, I'm you mother and your going to talk to me right now
Me: Can I please just get something to eat
Her: *yells at me wich causes me to get distracted*
Me: *spills uncooked mac&cheese because distracted*
Her: *yells at me then slaps me across the face*
My mother nearly beat me to unconsciousness because she was very drunk, I had bruises all over me the next morning but I was to afraid to say anything because I new she would scream at me and hurt me more.
She molested me daily, forced me to change in front of her, forcefully spooned me in bed for hours even after I said no, and would "playfully" spank me.
She was constantly talking about how sexy a 17 year old at her work was and even bought him vape. She would also talk about some of my friends like that and even tried to internet stalk two of them, we are all minors.
She would lock the door to the apartment and wouldn't give me a key and would force me to wait outside in knee deep snow for hours without any warm clothing because she stole it all. She also refused to drive me to school in -8 degree (f) weather because she didn't want to loose her parking spot. I was also forced to bike to and from band practice (with she forced me to to do because she wanted to live through me) in 30 degree (f) with heavy rain because she didn't want to loose her parking spot.
She would consistently make fun of me for reading or doing anything that I enjoyed because I was a "nerd" and a "looser"
She disowned me after she stole my phone, went through it and found out I was a lesbian.
I couldn't even go into my yard without telling her where I was going, if I didn't tell her I would be screamed at and not allowed out my room, for a day and then not allowed out of the house for two more weeks.
She routinely went through my phone and my belongings without my permission, knowledge, or consent, in case I had anything "suspicious".
I tried moving in with my dad and she sued him.
She stole my most prized pokemon cards, a bag, most of my clothes, all of my old toys, and over $200 from my in the span of two weeks.
My room didn't have a door and she positioned herself so that she had to go through my room to get anywhere else in the house.
She would frequently lock the bathroom door so that it was only accessable from her room.
I told her I like pop music and she called me a failure then continued to play her extremely s3xual, vulgar, music about dr*gs, alcohol, and r@pe.
From the time I was 8 she tried to force me to drink alcohol because its "cool"
She forcefully pushed me against a wall because I refused to give her a hug after she made an offensive joke and I called her out for it.
She screamed at me because I corrected her after she misgendered me.
I had to learn morse code just so I could speak to my friends without her knowing what I was saying.
When I started counseling because I wanted to k!ll myself and because I was having upwards and 15-25 panic attacks per day, she forced me to tell her everything that happened in counseling even if I didn't want to.
She always gangs up on me in fights but if I try to get back up she just yells at me more.
She refused to take me to the hospital when I had a concussion and forced me to go to school all week even though I could barely stand or speak and now I have verbal and motor tics which she makes fun of.
She would scream at me because I sit down in the shower even though I have arthritis. (Yes I have arthritis at 15, it runs in the family and before to long I might develop psoriasis, I have shitty genes)
I wasn't allowed to wear anything that revealed my shoulders, that was low cut, shower any part of my stomach or back, short that went above my knees, ect.
I wasn't allowed to get my hair cut below my chin because it " wasn't feminine enough"
I wasn't allowed to have anything that was "for boys" this included clothes, toys, books, stickers, blankets, posters, movies, ect.
She forced me to watch R rated movies with her even if I didn't feel comfortable watching them.
I wasn't allowed to have any friends over and I wasn't allowed to go to any friends house, the one time I did have friends over she judged all of them and tried me to stop hanging out with them after they left. My friends are all very good people and are the only reason I'm still alive rn, she was just mad that I was talking to people who weren't her.
She screamed at she because I got one (1) drop of dark green ink on her black coffee table that she got for free.
I wasn't allowed to draw any male characters because she was afraid I would get off to them or something idk (this was before I was forcefully outed)
She bought me a triple chocolate cake for my birthday once. I'm allergic to chocolate. She forgot my birthday the next year.
Anytime I would tell her about the terrible bullying that was going on she would tell me to get over it, even after I had been thrown to the ground and strangled by one of my classmates.
If I got into a new game or hobby she would either take it away or shame me for playing it.
She spent all day on the computer playing Sims 3 to the point where I had to feed myself, take care of myself, and play by myself as young as 5.
She screamed at me because while talking about Pokemon lore I mentioned how Arceus is the god of the Pokemon world and she said I shouldn't say that because it would "make god mad" ( I have nothing against christians or christianity btw, just the people who shove it down your throat like she does)
I wasn't allowed to eat or drink the last of anything (finishing a bag of chips, taking the last soda, ect.) If I did she would scream at me and slap me as punishment.
She threatened to forbid me form seeing my cousin (who for the first 11 years of my life was my only friend) if I ever "talked back" to her.
She wod frequently strangle me as a form of "tough love".
When I was 2 she tried to teach me how to swim by holding me under water over and over again, drowning is now one of my greatest fears. Luckily I did learn to swim with the help of cousin and granny and even enjoy swimming but it is hard for me to do things like wash my face in the shower or stay under water for more than a few seconds without panicking.
She never taught me how to cook but then would scream at me because I didn't know how to cook.
Her smoking inside and while driving has caused me to have some lung issues, she denies that she ever smoked near me.
She tried to take me away frome everyone in my life including my family and friends so that I could only spend time with her.
When I was in fifth grade she homeschooled me and forced me to do college lever reading, learn how to code, learn at least two other languages that weren't english, learn how to play guitar, do gymnastics, do jujitsu (japanese), do soccer, learn to sing (keep I mind I had no interest in music, but she did), do a digital homeschooling program set at a highschool level, and learn a bunch of useless skills like knot tying and making friendship bracelets because it was "feminine". This was in FIFTH FUCKING GRADE.
We didn't have a washer or dryer and she would never go to to town to get laundry done so I never had clean clothes.
If I had more that $10 I had to give the rest to her.
She tried to kidnap me once.
One time on accident I stood in a bull ant hill and got stung all over (if you don't know ants all sting at once), I was swollen all over and screaming in pain and she did nothing, not even give me ice or ointment, she just told me to be more careful.
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Johnny Joestar Headcanons
So, I was really bored and decided to write about my favorite Jojo, đđ¸đąđˇđˇđ! This is a mix of headcanons with some canon stuff.
So, here we go!
â° Johnny was that typical doll-like perfect baby: curly blond hair, pale skin, pink cheeks, little freckles and big blue eyes that followed everything with curiosity. The clothes he used to wear also helped to mantain that look: in the Victorian era, babies from wealthy families used to wear dresses with plenty of ruffles, laces, ribbons, buttons and frills -no matter their sex- and bonnets. Nowadays he still has freckles; although not that many. Theyâre mostly on his cheeks and arms.
â°As we know, Johnny is the youngest of two brothers (being Nicholas 5 years older tan him). This, plus the fact that he also looked really fragile, made his mother really over-protective of him. This was usually seen as Johnnyâs being Anneâs favorite, but she only wanted to protect his youngest son. The way his mom treated him made Johnny a shy, yet kind, child. That kindness made him adopt Danny, as well as taking care of Slow Dancer even if he knew that she was old and almost ruthless.
â° His hair gets wavy in humid weather. When he was a child his hair was a curly mess after taking baths, but now it simply curls in soft waves, which he tries to straighten as much as possible.
â°He was born in Danville, Kentucky; so he has a heavy Southern accent. But since the Joestar family used to constantly travel to Britain -and actually lived there for some years-, Johnny added some British idioms to his vocabulary, thus resulting in a funny combo of British slang said in heavy Southern accent.
â°He grew up in a wealthy family -his father was tied to aristocracy, and also was a famous racer and breeder, having won the Triple Crown seven times and owning farms to breed racing horses-, so heâs a little bit of a spoiled brat sometimes. This status also made him picky over certain things, like food or baths.
â°Johnny was educated to be a âBritish gentlemanâ and, even if his own personality sometimes makes him fail at it, he still tries to behave as polite as possible. One habit that stayed with him was the one to note everything down, showing off his fine calligraphy and his accountant skills. The Joestar kid also knows Latin and Greek, as he was schooled. He even went to Oxford for a short period of time.
â°Johnny has never been fond of dark colours; he has always preferred to dress up in light ones. Luckily, they suit him.
â°Since he was a child, he has proved to be very perceptive of his surroundings, as well as being able to read the mood quite easily. Johnny is also good at focusing, what makes him a really good shooter -probably hunting would have been one of his hobbies, if he wasnât kind and compassionate-. He has proved to being able to shoot at little and/or moving targets, even if firing from odd angles and perspectives.
â°Johnny loved his mother, and would try to follow her everywhere like a duckling would follow its mother. It wasn't surprising that his first words were "mama". His next word was "horsie", and would enthusiastically say it as he pointed to the horses in the fields when the family decided to take a walk around the farm.
â°In the Victorian era, it was common for toddlers to rarely be in contact with their parents; as they were mostly raised by a nanny. He did have a nanny -whom he loved deeply-, but his mother was still around at all times; she was always there for him. Despite breaking this usual thing, he was indeed raised to be like the stereotypical Victorian child: proper, polite and quiet.
â°The youngest Joestar loved to visit the horses in the family farms, enjoying their company. His fondness for these animals evolved into his skills as a jockey; as he also is well-versed in equine science.
â°Johnny was five when he first rode a horse, and his father quickly considered him a genius. The young boy quickly started to believe this as an irrefutable truth, his ego beginning to grow. Although he indeed is a genius with plenty of skills that allow him to ride across many types of terrain, or even challenge fellow genius jockey -ahem, Diego Brando-; having such a big ego ended up wounding him.
â°Even if George did praise his early horse-riding skills, the rest of Johnnyâs childhood was marked by a strained relationship with him. His father was unnecessarily severe, to the point of physically punishing Johnny. He also favored Nicholas immensely, belittling the younger one with constant comparisons. After Nicholasâ death, George was convinced that âGod had taken the wrong sonâ and took out his sadness and rage on Johnny. This cruel behaviour caused Johnny great pain, and an enormous feeling of inferiority.
â°Anne's death was a big shock for the youngest Joestar. He felt like he had lost the only support he had in the family; his mother would comfort him after his father scolds and punishments. She also happened to die a short time before Nick's accident. Johnny was 9 when his brother died; and around 7-8 when Anne died. His father cruel behaviour towards Johnny hurt him, and the little boy was upset because he didn't entirely comprehend why his mom wasn't coming back.
â°The only one who calls him by his full name -Jonathan- is his father, and he despises it. Nowadays, hearing his full name triggers something on him, reacting with some kind of fear. He was used to listen to his father call him only to point out his mistakes and scold him; so hearing âJonathanâ makes him have that kind of reaction.
â°He is a magnificent horse tamer, as seen with Slow Dancer: the horse was introduced as wild and ruthless, but she warmed up to Johnny, to the point of helping him get on her by hoisting him and rolling him down his neck and into the saddle.
â°After his father disowned him and threw him out of the Joestar household, Johnny, in shock, decided to shut himself off. With this, he also created a vain and narcissistic facade in order to hide the sadness this rejection caused him.
â°He tried to take Black Rose -Nicholasâ horse- with him when he was disowned.
â°After he was disowned, when Fatherâs Day arrived, Johnny used to spend the day in a sour mood, secluded and probably drinking, trying to forget his lame childhood.
â°With his pride harmed, he decided to prepare for the Kentucky Derby, winning it at the age of 16. He made it out of spite, trying to prove his father wrong and growing his own ego; maybe he couldnât defeat Diego back in the UK, but he won the Derby. He still believes that winning the Derby was his greatest accomplisment.
â°When he was shot and paralyzed, Johnny felt his own pride crushing him: everything he showed off suddeny vanished. Unable to ride again, the horse-riding promise fell into oblivion; he lost all the friends and respect he had earned as a jockey. No one came to visit, leaving him behind; even his own father disappeared from his life, not even visiting him in the hospital. For that, Johnny is used to being abandoned: he forces himself to not get attached to anyone, since he believes that theyâll probably leave him.
â°During his stay in the hospital, the nurses used to dose him with morphine. They did it in order to shut him up âthe poor boy was in terrible pain-, but for that, he got addicted to morphine. Luckily, it was only for a short time, since he managed to get clean several months after leaving the hospital.
â°Due to having such a big ego, now his past glory crushes him. He hates how he lost everything in such a pathetic way; but also believes he deserves it.
â°Surprisingly, his arms and chest are really strong; because he is always using them to crawl around and to lift himself.
â°Due to his light complex and weight, he is terribly ticklish.
â°He is a Christian, and believes in Fate and karma, but in a kind of wretched way. Johnny believes that, throughout the years, Fate itself was taking revenge on him for his misdeeds; and that he deserved every misfortune he received. His obsession with the Corpse showed his obsession with karma too, and how he wanted to reset it to a neutral state, paying off his negative debt. His beliefs in Fate explains his lack of confidence and constant panic of losing everything, since he firmly believes that Fate could at any moment take away his hopes.
â°Johnny has depression and, for this, a lack of confidence. He considers himself a useless person, a burden, and unworthy of love. This gloomy perspective of life came from his youth, making him a pessimistic man.
â°TW//suicide. He has considered -and tried- to commit suicide; but he couldnât. He claims that itâs because heâs a âcoward that hates pain, and doesnât have the balls to finish everythingâ; but, deep down, itâs because he holds on to even the smallest hope.
â°TW//self harm. He has several scars: the ones on his arms are smaller, and were self-inflicted -self-harm and suicide attempts-. He also has some scars on his legs, caused by wounds he got by trying to stand up, walk and ride; but the biggest scar is the one covering half his back, as a memento from the accident. The bullet left a mark, surgery made it ugly, and the abuse he endured during his stay in the hospital made it worse. Therefore, he now is ashamed and self-concious of his back.
â°Seeing his legs makes him feel weak, and he hates that. He also despises feeling as defenceless as when someone picks him up to carry him without his consent. He truly hates feeling powerless, and it also makes him incredibly angry -and lowkey sad-. He can only tolerate this if itâs someone who he deeply trusts and knows, and only if he has asked for it.
â°At first, he wouldnât let anyone touch neither his legs nor his back; but after warming up a little, he would tolerate caresses and gentle pats.
â°He also hates when people look at him with sorrow or as if they were pitying him. He may be disabled, but heâs still perfectly capable of plenty of things. Usually, he will reject any kind of help as politely as possible, but his anger will show.
â°Meeting Gyro made him throw away his harsh facade. At first, he was uncaring of everyone else save himself, only maintaining a polite but cold demeanour towards people he met; but Gyroâs influence made Johnny slightly more friendly.
â° Gyro also made a great impact in Johnnyâs perspective of life; not all of a sudden, but in gradual steps. The Italian man gave him hope, helped him to knock out his lack of confidence, gave him some assurance and optimism and also was genuinely nice to him, making Johnny grateful for meeting him. He treasures their relationship deeply.
â°Johnny doesnât belittles Slow Dancer for being old, as he knows that she has plenty of experience as a Racing horse, and plenty of stamina. He truly knows his mare, possessing great knowledge of her: he knows and perceives her abilities and limits, and is able to predict what Slow Dancer will be capable of. They have grown quite close to each other, and she ocasionally nudges and licks him gently. Johnny loves this.
â°Sometimes, to kill some time, he and Gyro will exchange curses and slang in their respective languages. Gyro finds American sayings strange.
â°Gyro and Johnny had a hard time understanding each other in the beginning of their relationship: the older man had a thick Italian accent, and Johnny had to decipher what the hell was he trying to say. After a while, they grew used to each other's accents, but Gyro still made fun of Johnny's.
â° His determination doesnât waver, despite having failed several times. Johnny focuses on his goals, and puts them above anything else. He is also willing to endure severe wounds in order to reach them. And if you also add his stubornessâŚ
â°The man is REALLY stubborn. If he wants to get something, he WILL, no matter what. If he has to, he will be violent or kill his opponents. This is called as âdark determination flickering in his eyesâ, indicating a ruthlessness which would make Johnny able to kill in cold-blood. For this, he may seem amoral and selfish, even extending this to the interest of his loved ones. Yet he isnât truly amoral, protecting defenceless people and taking damage to protect the ones he cares about.
â°Heâs rather impulsive and hot-headed, which makes him take action as soon as possible. Sometimes, he might end up regretting not thinking BEFORE acting.
â° Johnny would do anything for his loved ones:
Even if heâs afraid of his father, he has always tried his hardest to live up to his expectations.
He loved Nicholas deeply and looked up to him as an idol, and blames himself for his death. After he died, he became guilt-ridden, believing that his brotherâs death was his own fault and that he should have died instead.
He was willing to abandon the Corpse Parts he had to save Gyro.
(JOJOLION SPOILERS!) When Rina was struck with the Rock Disease, Johnny stole the Corpse to make it transfer the disease away from her, not caring who would receive it and suffer in her place. But when the disease transfered to his son, he healed him by transfering it to himself, dying in order to save his wife and son.
â°Heâs the CEO of being done with everyoneâs bullshit. Heâs angry 85% of the time, and usually cries out of anger.
â° Heâs also a sarcastic little shit. Any stupid questions you make him will be answered with his fine sarcasm.
â°Heâs HORNY! This is shown with his bug bite fetish and the fact that he has been involved in at least one threesome. He doesnât mind empty sex either -as he slept with several girls who came to him only for his fame-. Heâs also bisexual.
â°When it comes to affection, he prefers to show his emotions through actions. For him, they speak louder.
â°Regarding to affection, Johnny will deny it; but he is touch-starved. The man really loves hugs and physical contact. He likes to hold on tight and get as close as posible. Since he doesnât usually speak out loud his emotions, he will show them physically. However, he would rather be held, feeling loved and protected.
â°He feels guilty when someone falls in love with him, since he believes heâs not worthy of happiness nor love. He tends to think that heâs making them waste their time on him, when they could be with someone who could provide them with what they deserve. He canât help but compare himself to others, belittling himself.
â°When he has a crush, he will do anything to deny it. He doesnât want to admit how someone began to be so important to him, and is afraid that âFateâ might take them away from him. If he has to avoid them, he will; just to get away and not face his feelings.
â°George does reconcile with Johnny, and feels ashamed of how he treated his own son. He claims to be proud of him now, and even gives Johnny Nicholasâ boots. At first Johnny was resentful and wasnât planning on forgiving him, since he believed that his father was only coming back for his recovered fame. After a couple weeks he decided against that, forgiving George and honouring him by naming his only son after him.
â°Nicholasâ boots were one of his most beloved possessions, and were passed down as a family relic.
â°If Rina had allowed him to name their daughter, he would have called her Anne, in honour to his mother.
â°In Japan, the Joestar-Higashikata family lived in a farm. Although the place is designed in the Japanese traditional way, Johnny couldn't help but give it some Western touches, specifically to the barns. These ones were designed to be as similar as the ones his father had in Britain and Danville. It made Johnny nostalgic, but in a gentle and warm way; he purposefully made them like that, so he could remember his roots.
â°They were quite wealthy: not only for the Higashikata's fruit business, but also for Johnny's connection with the Japanese government.
â°As a horse-riding teacher, his pupils loved and respected him deeply. Johnny liked discipline -as he took his profession seriously-, but was also very kind to them, treating them with the respect he never received.
â°Obviously, he taught his children to ride as early as possible.
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My Note of National Coming Out Day
Happy National Coming Out Day to everyone! As much as I hate as a lesbian I had to âcome outâ to my family and friends because it isnât seen as normal to be a woman loving women, but I still take pride in this day! It has been a year since I came out to my entire family and I have never felt more myself since I did! I can wear my rainbows I can talk about my girlfriend without having to call her âmy friendâ all the time. It was a huge step for me, a small town, conservative family, farmerâs daughter to finally come out and accept who I truly am. I internalized my queerness for most all of my life. I started taking interest in girls when I was in high school that I can remember, but I had never really been into boys either. Everyone just told me that I needed to find a boyfriend or that when someone liked me I should like them back. The brain is a powerful thing and no matter how much you donât want to do something on the inside, when you think it will get people to like you it is easy to let it invade your brain.
 I kissed many âfrogsâ along my way of finding my queen, but the journey of finding myself was much harder. I went through peer pressure and abuse. I have been so low in my life that I wanted it all to end. Many times I thought about what life would be like for other people without me around. I told myself it would be better because I was a burden, but the only thing that was a burden was that I was scared to be myself. By the time I found a girlfriend and gave it a try this is where the abuse happened and I have never been in a worse place than where I was that year. I went back to trying to like men because I didnât get as attached to them so maybe it wouldnât hurt as bad. I kept telling myself I am bi that is believable. I was very wrong...I hated it and I then had a man try to take advantage of me at a party and I was so scared. Luckily I was able to stop him and nothing too bad happened, but it was the scariest thing ever. That is the night I told myself no more pretending...I wasnât going to force anything because I didnât need to have a significant other to be whole. Rewind a bit to before all of that happened...I developed a huge crush on a girl but kept telling myself no she isnât going to like you. You are at a Christian college where people probably wonât be like you...So if I would have listened to my heart instead of my head I wouldnât have dealt with the issues I did because turns out the girl I was crushing on was pining after me as well. 4 years later and here we are going strong! It is crazy what happens when you just let things happen how they are supposed to instead of forcing them.
I am a lucky girl who wasnât cast out by my family and they love me just the same. When I tell them this is who I have been my whole like they had questions, sure, but none that I couldnât answer. Do my parents still think it is a phase...sadly yes...but I just have to keep showing them that I can be who I am meant to be without any question about it.Â
So to all of those of you who are still waiting for the right time to come out; it will happen in itâs own time! Donât rush it or think it needs to happen by a certain time. Do this on your own terms and on your own time line because ultimately it is your life and people should only know what you want them to know about it! Donât let anyone tell you differently!Â
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In Our Bedroom After The War
[Broadway Kids]
Prompt:Â âFuck what they think. I respect you and if they donât, Iâll break their knees.â
Word count: 2944
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Tommy canât quite remember when Carrie stopped speaking. Some people said it was in the third grade after she brought that Bible to school and started praying in the middle of lunch, others said after the Christian Youth Camp incident and she swallowed so much water that she âpermanently clogged her vocal cordsâ or something stupid. Whatever happened, something had made Carrie White go silent, and sheâs been a target of mockery since.
Deaf and dumb. Thatâs what the other kids liked to call her. But she isnât deaf, Tommy knows, because she always reacts to what is said about her with great offense and pain, and she certainly isnât dumb because Tommy has seen her grades when her report cards are stolen and passed around by bullies. Sheâs a smart girl, very smart. If anything, he was the dumb one, because the amount of times heâs almost given away their little get-togethers was unbelievable.
It started a month into the school year, he believed. He went into senior year, while Carrie just started high school. He canât quite remember what caused them to start meeting up in the hidden bathroom under the staircase in the C hall stair well, and heâll admit that he had never imagined himself hanging out with the cityâs resident freak and actually enjoy it, but he would seriously miss their reclusive meetings every Friday after school if they were to ever stop.
Today in particular was very special. 1) because he was finally going to try and teach Carrie about video games (she was fourteen! she should at least know the basics like Pokemon and Mario!) and 2) he had noticed that Carrie seemed a little off the past week and he wanted to ask her about it.
When you saw someone like Carrie White, you would assume that she was constantly in a state of anxiety and depression, but Tommy has learned to pick up on little ticks she does over time. Like how lately, sheâs been tugging on her hair and biting her knuckles more often, something she only does if something is really bothering her. Because of their social status in the high school hierarchy, he was never able to ask her if she was alright, so non verbal forms of communication would have to do until their weekly meetup.
Thereâs the way he tried to avoid letting her out of sight, and if it isnât that, then it's the way they move around each other in natural synchronicity in the hallway, like celestial bodies that have been caught in orbit for millennia. It's the way he makes excuses to walk alone to class just to make sure she doesnât get any trouble on the way to her own. It's the silent conversations, an inquisitive look (âYou okay?â) answered by a minute nod (âAll good.â). Itâs everything he wishes he had done for her before his final year of high school.
He tried not to think about it. Tried not to think about how Carrie would soon be all alone again after he graduates. Tried not to think about what would happen to her when he isnât there as her silent guardian. Tried not to think about how sad he would be without seeing her every day anymore.
Tommy slipped inside the bathroom, shutting the door as quietly as possible to avoid alerting anyone who may have been lurking around, and turned to face the rest of the space. Carrie is sitting at the sink counter on one of two stools Tommy had smuggled in there for them. She turned her head to look at him sideways, but sheâs still got her nose buried in a sketchbook, which she still hasn't let him look at. He wondered what she's drawing. Maybe it's a treasure map. Or a secret code. Or that deer they saw earlier. Or him.
  âThe party has arrived!â Tommy has announced, his voice rebounding loudly off of the silent bathroom walls. He dropped his backpack on the floor, unlike Carrie had done, as hers was hung up on one of the hooks on the wall.
Carrie finally put her pencil down and swiveled around completely in her stool to smile at him. She doesnât show any teeth with her grin, and itâs slightly wry, but itâs a smile nonetheless and Tommy is honored to get such a thing from her. He examined her quickly, luckily finding no new wounds from bullying, then crossed over. She hastily closed her sketchbook.
  âOne day,â He said. âOne day I will see your masterpiece.â
Carrie gave him an apologetic look, her smile becoming a little more tight. She grabbed a nearby whiteboard to write on, but stopped when Tommy waved a hand.
  âNo, no,â He said. âNo need for that! Iâve been doing really well in my ASL class- you can sign to me!â
Carrie looked skeptical, but Tommy doesnât miss the flash of excitement in her warm honey eyes. Itâs not often that someone understands her when she uses sign language.
  âCome on, Iâm smarter than I look! Donât doubt my abilities to learn a new language!â
Carrie nodded. She held up her hands, shaking down the frayed sleeves of her shirt, and began to sign.
  âWhat (something) we (something) today?â
Okay, maybe he wasnât AS fluent as he thought, but Carrie looked so much more comfortable being able to sign! He could just use his context clues!
  âSomething very fun!â Tommy assured her. He took out his phone and turned on a playlist that theyâve been progressively adding more and more songs to (with Carrie having to write hers down and give the list to him, seeing as she didnât own any electronics). You can tell who added what like this: if itâs Christian related or something grungy-chill, Carrie probably added it; if it has folk music vibes and/or a lot of acoustic guitars, it was probably Tommy, surprisingly enough; if it just generally sounds like itâs ripped from an indie movie, itâs kind of a toss up.
He took out the Nintendo Switch he got last Christmas next and set it up on the sink counter. Carrie tilted her head at it as if it were a peculiar flower that had just sprouted out of the porcelain countertop.Â
  âEver played before?â Tommy asked, although he already knew the answer.
  âNo. (something) Iâve seen (something) (something).â
  âYouâve seen it before?â Tommy repeated, guessing just by the way Carrie had pointed to her eyes.
Carrie nodded.
  âWell, now you get to play it!â Tommy beamed at her and she smiled back, but it seems a little forced. Something is definitely on her mind- heâll have to ask once sheâs a little more relaxed. âHmm⌠How about Minecraft?â
  âM-I-N-E-C-R-A-F-T. Iâve heard (something) (something).â
  âItâs fun!â Tommy assured her, selecting the game. âTrust me, youâll like it.â He put the controllers in her hands and she rubs her thumbs over the rubber protectors. âSo the main goal is surviving,â He went on. âThere's a lot of objectives actually, but surviving is always the first one. Once you get used to it, you can play in Survival mode and start making a good base and start getting tools and armor and stuff, then you can move on to other objectives. But for now you can just play in Creative. What should we name the world?â
Carrie thought for a few moments, and Tommy could practically see all the random names cycling through her brain. After a moment, she signed, â(something)â
Tommy blinked.
  âOne more time.â
  â(something)â
  âCan you fingerspell it, please?â
  âV-E-N-U-S.â
  âOh! Venus! We havenât learned planets yet.â Tommy said. âWait- Venus?â
  âV-E-N-U-S (something) (something) (something) cool place (something) live.â
Tommy laughed. âCanât argue with that logic!â He helped Carrie type in the name and clicked through a couple of other settings before hitting âcreate worldâ. Within a few moments the world was up and running. Carrieâs character was off in no time, exploring the blocky landscape and sifting through her colorful inventory, although her movements were sporadic and jerky since it was her first time playing.
Decorating the base was by far Carrieâs favorite part. There were so many different flowers for the outside and wood types for flooring and even COLORED glass. The only thing that would make it better was if you could have animals and OH MY GOODNESS YOU COULD HAVE ANIMALS!!!!!!!!
For a moment, Tommy debated just leaving Carrie there and allowing her to design the base and play around however she wanted, but he couldn't. He was so worried that someone may waltz in and see her in the boyâs bathroom and then do something to her. Carrie being nearly drowned in one of the toilets, Carrie getting her head smashed against the sink counter, Carrie being raped, Carrie getting beaten into a bloody pulp- so many horrible scenarios forced their way into his head. Carrie getting her throat slit, Carrie getting her body stuffed in the air vent, Carrie getting sodomized with a mop stick.
Why? Why were kids so cruel to her? Why couldnât Tommy protect her from everything? Why does he know he canât?
There was a soft touch on his hand and he jolted out of his thoughts. Carrie flinched away, too, then signed something he couldnât understand, but knew she was asking if he was okay by the pinched expression on her face.
  âIâm okay,â He assured her. âJust thinking.â
She made the gesture of âwhatâ and tilted her head. Then she pointed to herself.
About me?
  âYeah,â Tommy admitted.
That made Carrieâs nose scrunch up in a giggle.
  âDonât (something) S-U-E know.â
  âIf you think that I would cheat on my girlfriend with a fish, then you are very much wrong.â Tommy said. âWhat about you? Whatâs been on your mind?â
Carrie put the Switch controllers down and shrugged her shoulders. She began to play with the cuff of her sleeve, not really making eye contact anymore.
  âCome on,â Tommy urged. âYou can tell me!â
  âPeople,â Carrie signed vaguely.
  âPeople?â Tommy echoed. âPeople being rude to you?â
Carrie shrugged again, and it was clear she didnât really want to talk about this anymore, nor did she seem to be in a mood to continue playing. Tommy packed up the Nintendo Switch and paused their shared playlist. He gave Carrie her backpack and they started to walk out of the school in mutual silence.
  âSorry,â Tommy said as they neared the parking lot. âI didnât mean to upset you.â
Carrie shook her head, then signed, âYou didnât. Donât worry.â
  âYeah, but-â
  âWell if it isnât praying Carrie!â
Carrie went rigid, like she had been struck by lightning. She stopped mid-step and didnât move as a group of seniors trot over, their faces alight with mischief and cruelty.
  âRoss!â One of them called. âWhat are you doing with this freak?â
  âIs she holding you hostage?â Another guessed, casting a look at Carrie.
  âI bet sheâs leading him out to his car to force him to let her ride him.â A third said. The group howled with diseased laughter at that. Tommy is appalled. Carrie looked ill. âIs that it, church girl? The need for sex has finally broken into you and youâre ready to sin?â
  âBack off!â Tommy growled, shoving the boy away. He put himself between him and Carrie, becoming a barricade of sorts. âLeave her alone.â
  âI wonder how loud sheâll moan,â A fourth member of the group mused.
  âCan she even moan?â The second wondered out loud.
  âIf you plowed into her hard enough I bet sheâll make some sort of sound.â The first said.
Carrie darted left and sprinted for the nearby line of trees edging the campus. Tommy glared at the group of seniors, then followed, concerned.Â
The darkness of the forest quickly closes around them. Carrie is fast on her feet, but Tommy was an athlete and he caught up quickly. He snagged the back of her jacket in a loose grip. They stumbled together over uneven ground and exposed tree roots until Carrie collapsed in a hollow between two moss-covered rocks. Tommy slotted himself in front of her so that sheâs shielded from all sides- the rocks and Tommy forming a barrier from the world.
He said nothing. He listened to the girlâs gasping breaths and knew that itâs nothing that words can cure- not anymore. Not after years of having no one, being stabbed in the back and spoon fed lies. He closed his eyes and immersed himself in the rustling of oak leaves, the distant calls of birds, the persistent harmony of crickets.
He wondered what Carrie used to ground herself.
He wondered if she grounded herself at all.
Slowly, softly, Carrie calmed to some degree. It comes faster than Tommy expected, but he assumed thatâs just because sheâs grown used to the treatment she gets. She shifted, wiggling her shoes beneath Tommyâs thigh. Tommy doesnât shift. He wonât leave until she does.
  âItâs okay,â He finally whispered. âIâm here. I wonât let them hurt you.â
Carrie whimpered and made a sloppy gesture- Why?
  âBecause I care about you.â Tommy said. âFuck what they think. I respect you and if they donât, Iâll break their knees.â
He wanted to make her laugh or smile or at least stop crying, but Carrie just whimpered again. She swiveled around to face him, eyes flashing with tears.Â
  âWhy?â She signed again, sniffling miserably.
  âWeâre friends.â Tommy told her. âYou know that, donât you?â The look he got said that she didnât believe it. âCome on. Tell me some things you know about me. Youâd be surprised how well you know me.â
Carrie hesitated, then began to sign, âYour name is Tommy Ross.â She winced at how bland it was, but Tommy only nodded, brushing a bit of his dark brown hair out of his eyes. Carrieâs face scrunched up like sheâs memorizing her timestaple in front of him, struggling to bring that gridded mess of numbers to mind.Â
  âYouâre the tallest (something) (something) everyone (something) your team,â She continued. The sky overhead is eye-wateringly blue, with crisply white cotton clouds scudding along the horizon. A light breeze shakes the leaves of a nearby oak tree that has the initials of some high school sweethearts carved into the base of its trunk. Theyâre a little crooked from where someoneâs hand had slipped, the flat of a switchblade arcing a little too close to the bark, and making a J thicker, almost a U when you looked at it dead on.Â
  âThatâs right,â Tommy said. He knows his role here is only background noise. Thatâs his job, whether Carrie knows it or not, and heâs more than happy to fulfill it. He doesnât mind being subject to the scrutiny of befriending olâ praying Carrie because of it. Not if itâs what she needs to feel better.
  âYour eyes (something) like a (something) green-brown, (something) (something) like slimy algae. You always have (something) stupid red sports jacket on. Your sneakers (something) (something) white, once upon a time.â She managed to tease him, uttering out a tiny giggle.
  âWhat can I say, Carrie, Iâm a filthy gremlin, like all boys are-â He joked, and she swatted him lightly on the arm. She bit back a laugh, and Tommy wished that she wouldnât- Carrie tips her head back when she laughs, unabashed and on the edge of hysterical, giggling and snorting, shoulders shaking with mirth until sheâs brought her gaze back down again, cheeks flushed from the exertion of being host to that much joy despite everything that sheâs been through. No one holds the weight of trauma and mistreatment as heavily on their shoulders as Carrie White does- Carrieta, the library to all of those scattered instances of would-beâs-could-beâs-shouldnât-beâs. And still, there is a smidge joy. Itâs beautiful. He thought that sheâs most beautiful when sheâs laughing (donât tell Sue, and if you do, make sure you let her know itâs completely platonic. but just donât tell her at all).
  âYou have, like, (something) favorite red shirt, with a light brown hood on it. And S-U-E thinks itâs hideous.â Carrie continued. Sheâs tapping her foot against his leg, a gentle soothing gesture, and he lets her. He knew that itâs more for herself than him.
  âYou have a golden ring (something) onto a necklace.â Carrie signed. âBut you donât wear it (something) you think it (something) you look silly. But itâs really pretty.â Pause, and when she signed again, it wasn't about the necklace anymore. âItâs (something) (something) like having a sibling.â Pause. Carrie looked up at him with glittering eyes. âYouâre Tommy Ross.â
The weight that she placed on his name makes his heart stutter, catching in his chest- the warmth that he felt towards her is almost unbearable, and he found himself grinning, mouth gone crooked in the gesture.
  âIâm Tommy Ross, thatâs right,â He repeated to her, as if theyâre introducing themselves at some shitty college icebreaker. âAnd Iâm not going anywhere, Carrie.â He went on, a touch of urgency in his voice- and she smiles, eyes closing, though hers are more reserved than his, somehow. Thereâs a tear bright in the corner of her right eye, and it traced a thin path down her face. More come. They pool at her chin, dripping off of her face, and soaking into the softness of the earth. His chest ached.
  âAnd youâre not going anywhere,â She whispered, voice hitching a little halfway through. He swiped a thumb over her cheek, flicked the tear off into the green grass behind them.Â
  âIâm not,â He promised. âIâm not leaving you, Carrie.â And his voice had gone soft, her name cradled gently in his mouth, like heâs afraid of breaking something precious.
#it hurts because carrie kills tommy in the musical#dont tag as ship or I WILL pee in your sink#carrie#carrie the musical#broadway kids carrie#carrie white#tommy ross#carrie fanfiction#my writing
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I Think I Have a Problem.... (A personal true story).
So as the title suggests, I have a strange problemâŚ. Just as a warning, this is about my view of my younger self. It is about religion, and gender identity. This is not how I see the world anymore. It was how I told how the world should look. If you are offended in any way, please know this is a vent post and nothing to hurt anyone else. This is just what happened to me as a child. ShitâŚ.. This is about to get very long winded, so buckle up and here we go⌠*takes deep breath*
So a little backstory on your Mother Llama: I was raised in a weird backward ass âIndependentâ Baptist church most of my young life. If you guys donât know what those are, be thankfulâŚ. But I guess I should explain it the best way I canâŚ. they are a borderline cult. Yes. I said it. Iâm not sorry. It may sound like an extreme accusation, but hold on. Just listen to me.
Now, I have no problem with Christians, or religion. You should believe whatever you want to believe inâŚ. I do however, have a problem when religion is used as an excuse to not educate minds about the real world, force them to not let them think for themselves, and when someone questions any of it, they are punished or shamed for it instead of thinking about an answer. If you canât tell, I am still a little angry about that shit. Imma try to keep on topic hereâŚ.
I wasnât taught science (real science anyways, it was all about âcreationâ bsâOH! And being anything but a cis straight person was compleltly unexceptable. Woman were the weaker sex and were made to raise babies and take care of the husband. Men were superior and should be taken care of.) nor about World history or about other cultures, other than biblical of course. And when they were mentioned, they made them look evil and behave like heathens because they didnât believe the same as they did. Everything changed when I went to public school half of fourth grade when my family moved to a different state and there wasnât any church school like I went to. I learned a lot those years, that âThe Worldâ wasnât as bad of a place as they said it was. It was vast and had many things to offer. (No, not the World, Dioâs stan power from Jojoâs bizarre adventuresâthat is what our pastors called anything outside of the Baptist approved realm. Something âWorldlyâ was basically something sinful and ungodly and therefor was bad and wrong).
So this may seem like a strange Segway in to what I am actually getting at, but I had a huge crush on this boy back when I was young and it started when I was about 12 or 13 years old and ended when I was 16. He was the same age as me, and he was the son of a pastor of a small church of about 20 people, mostly military familiesâ we will call him.... D.... for dick...
I thought for a long time that I âlovedâ D. I thought that âGod made him for meâ (yes I really said that and it hurt to even write it). I really thought I knew what love was back then, but I was very wrong.
D was homeschooled, he didnât have many friends and was also a navy brat like I was. So, naturally, we got along very well, and I would hang out with him at his house sometimes. We mainly played video games I was terrible at and he would always bet me. But I liked hanging out with him, so I didnât care if I won or not. My heart for some reason was totally head over heels over D. And he liked me too for a while⌠or at least I thought he did⌠He however never made a move. I always thought D was just too shy, and didnât know how to ask me. Any time I tried holding his hand, Iâd chicken out. It was a stalemate. But this particular church did a thing where people had to court. Yes... COURT someone, not DATE (Courting is where you had adult chaperones keeping an eye on you two, you were never really alone. Ever, because apparently you canât be trusted?). When we both turned 15 yo, D started a private Christian school. Being the awkward girl I was, I never told him how I felt, I just waiting for him to say something. Time passed, and I still waited and waited for him to ask me out.
But hereâs the thing! He didnât know the real me.
I was in public school, in middle school, and I started to become a weeb. Like a super cringy weeb that didnât like anything else but animeâI was also kinda emo/punk kid thought I was edgy. (Yeah rock music was bad too, it was âWorldlyâ).Not a very good mix for Baptist I know. At school, I was one person, and at church I was another.
Well, being an anime fan meant I was exposed to a lot of things like the LGTB+ community for the first time. A lot of my friends at the time started to come out other than straight and that was very new to me.
During that time, I soon was starting to secretly question my faith, my understanding of my own sexuality and gender. Like, maybe people liking the same sex or both is actually not a bad thing after all (if you havenât seen any of my works, hopefully you guys know that I know better that what I was taughtâI am a proud fuckinâ ally! I still consider myself cis-straight, but some days I feel like Iâm bi-curious, and thatâs ok! It took me a long time to realize that, but Iâm here now. Gender roles are dead and stupid.)
So here is the kicker~ One faithful day we had a guest pastor join us for a few weeks from another church. This mother fuckinâ nasty ass old white man from Alabama came with his âperfect quiet godlyâ wife. Who badly ever spoke a damn word. She always just sat in the corner all âladylikeâ.
âOh!!! Another fun fact, I didnât wear pants for a year when I was 10 yo becasue that was considered âcross dressingââ Iâm dead fucking serious. My parents then decided after attending sporting events and stuff like that to drop that ludicrous lifestyle, becasue it was stupid. So, Outside of church, my family and I still wore pants and shorts and whatever, but in church we pretended that we didnât wear anything but modest skirts, dresses, and long culottes. (Thatâs a little damagingâŚ. donât you think? Telling people your one thing, when in reality you're not like that at all??)
Anywaysâ I hated skirts, especially wearing them in the state we lived in, it was way too hot and Iâd get chafed (these had to be knee length or longer btw). And of course that guest preacher would preach about the sins of women wearing pants, but I didnât care. I wore them for so long, it just made me angry anytime someone would bring that up. I liked my jeans and I was starting to become a rebel teen who gave less than a fuck and started to speak my mind. Which was dangerous to that communityâŚ. Also I had a bad tendency of not keeping my legs together when I bent down, and one time I accidently showed my underwear (thatâs really embarrassing btw, itâs not cute, itâs not funny, itâs awful when you're 14 yo-- really any age actually).
So, one day I wore a long jean skirt for a youth outing with the church. I was required to wear it, but I always wore leggings underneath so I wouldnât accidentally show my undies if I fell down or the wind blew it. This fucker had to say something about it. The old man turned to me with a wrinkled smirk as I was passing by him and dared to utter, âNow, donât you feel most femine and ladylike in that skirt? Iâm sure Jesus would like seeing you like that.â
My shoulders clench up tight, my brow furrows. All I can remember seeing is fucking red and actually trembling with fury. (This was happening in my pastor, Dâs fatherâs, own living room mind you.) D was there watching as I blanched about ten shades of red in anger and embarrassed because that prick of an old man called me out in front of everyone. I turned to him and half shouted, âNO! I donât!â I could see my pastorâs mouth drop to the floor as I began to completely obliterate this old man. But I couldn't stop myself as I started to further cut into him. ââI hate wearing skirts! I donât feel ladylike! In fact, they make me feel vulnerable! What if some guy tries to rape me! They wonât have any problem getting to me!âWhy is something with a whole on the bottom more ladylike than something that actually covers me?! I like pants! They are comfortable and they make me feel safe! Why is that a sin to wear something that is more covering?!?! Iâm not cross dressing, my mom bought them in the girlâs session!! [Keep in mind that was a long time ago, I donât feel like people should care about what section they get their clothes from, wear what you want] And what do you know about wearing a skirt?! Youâre a man! You try wearing them! They suck! You need to stop telling me what I can and canât wear! Iâm not dressing like a whore for wearing something with a crotch!! SO LEAVE ME ALONE!!â Everyone in the living room was just stunned at my audacity to dare speak to this pastor like I did. But he was so fucking quiet after that. And I stormed out of the house and the guest pastor never spoke to me again about it. Luckily my mom came and picked me shortly after that. She was angry too after I told her what happened. That old fuck singled me out and I was pissed off. I was a teenager and that shit was embarrassing!
But I made the mistake of showing my true self. I think after that moment, D stopped liking me after that.
Some shit went down south with my parents behind closed doors of my household, and eventually they got divorced. They left the small church because the pastor didnât approve of it. Pastor said that my parents just needed more counseling but he didn't understand that they just needed to not be together. Sometimes you canât make things work. Especially when your dad is a toxic piece of shit that only cares about himself.
Anyways, everyone in my family left the church, but I stuck around that shit-hole just to see if D would ask me out. I was so desperate, I felt like I waited forever, but really it was like 2-3 years, and I felt like I couldnât give up. Eventually D and I turned 16. He started to become distant and a little mean towards me and I became confused and started to realize the worst. Finally, I was tired of waiting so I asked his older sister if he liked me on the way back taking me home. I could see it in her face, that she didnât want to have my heart broken, but reluctantly she told me no. He actually liked another girl at his new private school and was going to ask her parents to court her instead.
I was so devastated.... It hurt so much, I cried myself to sleep that night, and most of that week I was very sad.
Obviously, after that, I stopped going to church entirely, I couldn't show my face anymore. Finally let myself question my faith, sexuality, gender roles, and humanity all together. And realized that religion was stupid (in my opinion at the time) and I came u with the conclusion that people can be sheep. I was a sheep for a long time. And I refuse to be one ever again.
High school was very enjoyable after that, and I let myself grow and started to love other religions and world history, and tried to stop being so judgmental of others and what they felt like. I even got into a relationship with a sweet boy around my age.
Eventually in college, after a break-up with my high school sweetheart, I reconnected with D via FB. Apparently, the church went under and his parents moved away to Greece to be missionaries or something. D still lives in the same town Iâm in, but graduated from a âChristian academyâânot Catholic, Christian. Catholic colleges are accredited at least. But he basically told me he was a secret âbad boyâ now. He lost his virginity in highschool, (like I did) and he was totally trying to booty call me. Not even hiding it either! He was like, âHey, Llama, you wanna fuck?â.
And I was like, âD! You broke my fucking heart when we were young! Donât you remember that???â
And he was like, âOh no! I had no idea! (the fuckinâ liar). Well, we can fuck now!~ *wink, wink*â
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This is where I was a jerk.... Because he broke my heart. I led him on, told him I would meet up with him at his house to sleep with him, and just didnât show upâghosted him ever since. The worst part about that, is I still donât regret doing that to him. I hope I hurt his feelings and felt like an ass like I did.
So years have passed, I consider myself as a rather successful woman now. Iâm 27, I consider myself Buddhist (I am a terrible Buddhist I know), I am an Occupational Therapy Assistant and I have a great husband (I married the guy I was with in high school). And he loves the real meâthe crazy closet weeb, cartoon watching, creative, expressive, me! The person who also writes fanfiction about a romance novel and he is fine with it. Because he is a huge nerd too and we are both nerds together.
My husband is my best friend and I donât know what Iâd do without him. When I write about Rhemi and Muriel, I draw a lot of inspiration with our conversation we have and how relationship dynamics are and I think it makes the writing more authentic and makes them feel a bit more real.
I love my husband more than anything⌠So why do I keep dreaming about that stupid asshole that just liked the fake me? D was and always will be a total tool. He is like the basic bitch of a man. And yet I still find him creeping in my dreams and I try to cheat on my husband with him in them. I wake up feeling totally terrible and weird after them too. D is a terrible fucking personâthe worst person you can be in my opinionâThe kind of person why lies and tells people one thing, but hides the fact that heâs really just a nasty fuck boy. If you are one, just be honest! Donât tell another woman you're a good christan man, when really youâve slept with not just one, but multiple girls! That how you get fucking STDs! I hate being lied to, and Iâm sure other girls do too! So I guess thatâs why I do, because I felt like I was lied to my entire life. Then again, why should I even care?! Why do I feel like I still obsess over him? I hate him so much now! So why do I even care? Why do I still find myself stalking him on social media? Why does it even matter? Why do I want him to see Iâm happy without him? Why do I want him to see what he could have had with me? We were just stupid teenagers! Why did I care so much? Why did it hurt so much when I found out he didnât like me?! Itâs been over a decade, and we didnât even really date! Why did this affect me so hard? âŚ. FUCK!
So yeah. Thatâs my long ass rant for you all⌠thanks for coming to my ted talk.
#story time#mad llama momma story#true story#weird dreams#why does my brain do this?#anybody relate?#does anyone get me?#vent post
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Women of ABC News 'Lean In,' Share the Best Career Advice Ever Received
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When You Love Someone - Park Jae Hyung Chpt. 1 (Part 1/2)
Here's the thing.
You hated playing the guitar.Â
You were clearly a keyboard/piano person but when you heard that Jae had volunteered himself at the local music shop, you barely hesitate to put your name down on the form for the guitar lessons. It might have got something got to do with the crush you harbor on the guy.Â
Your hate of the guitar was mostly because of the fact that your fingers were never flexible enough to press on the strings, how loud and gritty the sounds of an electric guitar echoes and also how there were different ways to play with different songs.
Like what on earth was plucking?Â
Why are there different ways to play one instrument?Â
It didn't help that there were different ways to tune a guitar. The amount of time you struggled with the tuner was making you regret the decision but as soon as Jae smiles at you and helped you out, you found yourself back in the studio, practicing yet another song on the guitar.
"Have you been practicing your chords?"
You nod, totally forgetting that he was actually asking about guitar chords and not keyboard. He gave a small chuckle and settled in front of you.
"Great, let's see it!"
The next few minutes consisted of;
"Did you tune your guitar? It sounds a little weird.."Â
"That's the G chord."
"Bring that finger here and this one here..."Â
"Show me A chord..... Uh... That's C chord."
"That's not even a chord."
It was amazing how Jae was never frustrated with your inability to learn the chords because your limit was approaching fast.Â
Every mistake you made, you simply want to throw the guitar down and leave but Jae was always there to stop you from doing that. With his kind smile and carefree attitude, you could not stop yourself from falling for him even more. He was honestly your only motivation to learn the guitar.Your frustration was clear on your face but once he ruffles your hair, you can't help it but to come back for the next session.Â
"You did great! Just need a little more practice."
Jae flashed a proud smile when you get a chord right was the highlight of the entire lesson.
"That's it for today!"
Jae clapped his hands and pats your shoulder, as if signing to you that you did a good job. Your shy smile made its appearance along with a slight blush but luckily, his attention was on the notification of his phone. He briefly read through and perked up, catching you before you leave.Â
"Before I forget, here!"
He held out a shiny silver ticket out to you and grinned.
"Umm... What is this?"
"There's a gig, tomorrow at Club Eclipse. Thought that maybe it would be nice for you to see a few live performances."
You eyed the ticket for a bit before you glance up at him.
"You'll be playing?"
"Not this time but I'll be sure to invite you next time! Pinky promise!"
He stuck out his pinky, wiggling childishly to which you curled with a small giggle. Jae gave you a ruffle on your hair before looking at his watch.Â
"I'll pick you up at about 7 at the cafe near school?"Â
"You have a license?"Â
"Only one way to find out right?"Â
He winked, smiling while you tried to bite back your smile.Â
You might have went all out in trying to find the perfect outfit which had Seungmin groaning in pure annoyance at the fact that you just practically dumped a bunch of clothes infront of him. The amount of times that you ran into his bedroom's toilet and came out with a new outfit had him regretting his friendship with you.
As if he could break a childhood friendship that easy.
You and Seungmin met each other at a piano recital when the two of you were younger. Ever since then, it was as if it was fated for the two of you to be friends. Both of you kept getting into the same classes, courses and school with or without planning on it. Plus, it did not help that Wonpil, Seungmin's brother, was your partner for a piano recital which made the two of you even closer.
"Are you seriously doing this at my house?"
"I need fashion advice."
You pouted, turning away from the mirror for Seungmin's view. He barely gave you a glance and scoffed.
"Stop pouting. You ain't cute."
You pouted even more at his harsh words but it was just a Seungmin thing to do so you weren't offended in the slightest.Â
"Why aren't you asking Hyunjin for fashion advice? He is better than the rest of us at fashion."
"YOU'RE A GENIUS, SEUNG!"
You immediately grabbed your phone and called Hyunjin over to Seungmin's house. It didn't take long for him to arrive but not alone.
"Who invited the sunshine twins here?"
"We are here for mental support!"
"Get out of my house."
"Why do you like Jae anyways?"
Felix's question threw you to a state of flabbergast.
"Why Jae?"
Jisung added on, while Hyunjin was picking up outfits and trying to pair them together.
You sat on Seungmin's mattress much to the other's displeasure and thought about it to yourself.Â
At first, it was the smile. You always thought that Jae had a cute smile with how he smiles with his eyes. He had a variety of smiles from the playful mischievous grin to the tired yet blessed smirk. It stays in your mind every time and you could not help feeling warm seeing his smile.
"Who's that?"
You asked Seungmin, who had been re-reading his script for the tenth time that day. Your dear friend was a part of the MC line up for some after school event which he was extremely nervous for which was why you, his dear friend, was there to cheer him on.
"What?"
"That blonde? I don't think I had seen him before."
"Oh, Jae?"Â
You raised a brow as if trying to get him to explain more. "He was a student here, my brother's senior. They called him back to help us with the event."
Your attention went to the blonde who was joking around with some of the MCs to calm their stage nerves. The way he threw his head back to laugh caused you to smile a little.
"Cute."
Then, you fell for his personality. How friendly and welcoming he was with everyone, how thoughtful to those he held those dear and how mature and gives the best advice at times. He was like a canvas with similar yet different shades that you would only realize after looking closely.
Jae was not close to Wonpil by any means.Â
It did not mean that they hated each other or anything but it is just that their friend circles never really clashed. So, Jae had no reason to protect Wonpil like he did that one time during his third recital.Â
During his third recital, the seniors had Wonpil running around, forcing him to do stuff which would make him late to the recital. They went as far as to cut his formal clothes causing him to turn up with red slick back hair and blue button up which had caused a ruckus among the audience and judges for not being professional. But without a doubt, he was able to pull a performance that had the audience crying and reaching out for their tissues.Â
Unfortunately, Wonpil was disqualified and was banned from joining in another recital in the event hall for not being "professional" and was reported for "harassing" the seniors that he had helped.Â
That had caused you and Seungmin to fume in pure anger with how you had seen Wonpil going around to help the seniors, even going as far as to cut his practice time.Â
It was the first time you saw Wonpil getting upset that he walked away.Â
You and Seungmin were about to storm into the judges when Jae reached before the two of you could and provided them with evidence and eyewitnesses of the seniors bullying Wonpil and forcing him on errands. You watched in pure amazement at how the older glared the seniors down.Â
When you asked why would he stand up for a total stranger, his reply would always be the same.Â
"Why not?"
After, you just could not help but pay attention to him no matter where he goes. It's like your eyes would constantly be searching for him. There was just something about his presence that made you look at him in amazement.Â
What do you like about Jae?
"I don't know. I just like him."
You should probably trust Hyunjin more than you did because the outfit he put together really looked good. Not only you looked good but you also feel good in the outfit. So there you were with nervous jitters waiting outside the cafe for Jae, typing at your phone furiously, trying to calm yourself down.Â
Millennium Line Unite (5)
Memelix : Still cant believe u got boss to give u today off
Memelix : On short notice
J.ONE : Not fair :(
SeungSky : I dont get y u guys complaining
SeungSky : M covering her shiftÂ
SeungSky : If anyone want complain it be me
                                       lmao he saw my ticketÂ
                                       he just send me offÂ
Dramallama : boss said you need friendsÂ
Dramallama : hes sad Minnie is ur only friendÂ
Dramallama : WHO TF CHANGE MY USER NAMEÂ
Memelix changed Dramallama to PrettyJinnieÂ
PrettyJinnie : Aww
PrettyJinnie : Thanks baby
Memelix : Anything for my PrinceÂ
J. ONE : my eyes
J. ONE : NEED BLEACH
SeungSky : No flirtingÂ
SeungSky : Not in this christian householdÂ
Memelix : jokes on you
Memelix : im catholicÂ
SeungSky : And Jisungs a rapperÂ
Memelix : ???Â
J. ONE : ???Â
PrettyJinnie : ???Â
                               ???Â
SeungSky : it means idgafÂ
                              Ouch
                              taht got to hurtÂ
SeungSky : Idgaf bout ur date eitherÂ
                                 :(
SeungSky : u made me work on my off dayÂ
SeungSky : u officially out of my friend listÂ
J. ONE : at least u were in his listÂ
SeungSky : HanÂ
SeungSky : stfuÂ
Oh shit oh shit oh shit
Jae here gtgÂ
wish me lcuk
Memelix : Stay safeÂ
PrettyJinnie : Use protectionÂ
J. ONE : good lcukÂ
Private Chat : SeungSky
SeungSky : Text me ASAP if somethings wrongÂ
SeungSky : Don't accept drinks from strangersÂ
SeungSky : Stay close to Jae hyung
                              Must u do this everytimeÂ
SeungSky : U only have one braincell
SeungSky : It worries me that u dont have common senseÂ
                              I do haveÂ
                              hope I dont make a fool of myselfÂ
SeungSky : Tough words for a clown like uÂ
                              f uÂ
"Coming in?"Â
Jae's voice hollered from the car as you look up from your phone. You darted into the car taking the seat next to the driver's and greeted him casually. You tried to avoid his look, considering how he actually put effort in looking good and you could barely stop yourself from combusting at the sight.Â
"Looking good today."
"Thanks. You too, Jae. It's been awhile since I saw you in something other than a shirt."
"That's cause I'm usually half awake and late for work."
"Well, does that mean that you are late everyday?"Â
"Hush now little one."
Laughing quietly at his words, you guys started talking about random things and before you know it, you were already there in the club.
"Nervous?"Â
He asked, seeing how you hesitate after parking the car nearby. An arm over your shoulder had you calming down almost instantly. It was as if just knowing that Jae was there brought you calmer.Â
"Is this the wrong time to tell you that this is my first time going to a club?"Â
"You mean to tell me⌠you're a club fetus?!"Â
You giggle at his dramatic scandalised face and playfully pushed him away. He laughed and placed his hands on your shoulder leading the way.Â
"Don't worry and just stay close."
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