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Chapter 46 Nonsense Takes
Hello dear void. So, about that whole "I wish Hokazono-sensei would slow down just a smidge" thing... yeah. Not happening. Dude's writing like he still needs to stave off the infamous WSJ axe.
I don't know man. I have a lot of thoughts that all boil down to "I wish it had gone differently." Not because I think I could do it better myself- I can't even write fanfiction that I'm comfortable with posting anonymously. But this is the first time I've ever been disappointed because we didn't get a chapter of uninterrupted talking heads.
There was plenty of dialogue, and a lot of it was intriguing. I'm gonna go ham on it all in a bit. But the way the chapter ended kind of disappointed me. This is 100% Hestzhyen's Rubbish Opinion here, but fucking let the characters rest. I hate it when the characters jump from one crisis to another until the end of time. We've seen Chihiro running on fumes for far too long now and Hakuri's going to be even worse off. Guy can't even use the power they need him for without hurting himself so bad he passes out, but there's no time to let him recover. Gotta chase the bad guys!
It's ultimately a tone and pacing thing. Having the characters fight when they're already tired and/or meaningfully injured is a basic tool in the writer's kit for establishing tension. But we've done that for almost every major fight in Kagurabachi so far! Even against random Yakuza mooks! Chihiro's been operating at less than full capacity since the Hishaku's tree exploded the guy they tried to interrogate in chapter 2 for fuck's sake. He wasn't even fully rested going in to the Rakuzaichi- his arm was newly healed and bandaged up. The "ooh they're not at full strength, this'll be tough!" thing is getting old.
Okay me, no need to hit image cap with examples. But every major fight has involved using this tool in some way- every Char rescue and fighting Sojo, the Rakuzaichi infiltration and storehouse fight, and now we're starting an arc with it. I am adamantly against any series doing this without subverting expectations. If Chihiro isn't meaningfully punished for constantly risking himself when he's not at 100%, it's flawed writing in my opinion. (Passing out or losing a limb doesn't count when Char can reverse that.)
Enough bashing. Obviously this is early in an ongoing series and we've just started the arc. There's a ton of story left to go through so chill, me. In fact, Shiba being separated from Chihiro might be an indication that yes, finally, there are going to be lasting consequences of some kind for him.
I say this because Shiba's been the lone voice of reason when Chihiro decides it's time to go off the rails. He's ignored pretty much every time, but he's still there to manage the setup and aftermath. Chihiro won't have that safety net this time. I love Hakuri to pieces but he doesn't have the experience to do the intel groundwork, nor the ability to perfectly replace Shiba's clutch escape factor, you know? So I'll shut up and wait to see what happens for now.
Actual Analysis Section
Getting right into it, we immediately learn that Shiba's not coming along due to some bad blood between himself and some Kunishige antis in the Kamunabi leadership. (I feel you, man. The Kunishige we've seen so far was the best.) So while he could turn up, I think Shiba will be on the sidelines working on his own subplot. This is the "Kamunabi Classifieds/Secret Files" arc after all. Gonna be a lot of awful truths getting unearthed and Shiba is the best guy to give us insight.
Recall this conversation in chapter 7:
Despite having quit the Kamunabi under mutually unfriendly terms, Shiba's still got connections to them. Enough that he's still included in their plans when situations call for him. I think most readers clued in to the fact that Shiba was some kind of Special Ops guy when he worked there: he's very comfortable snooping around and doing a little "forceful interrogation" to get information. But the exact nature of his history might come to light this arc. And he'll be a very interesting viewpoint into the Kamunabi as someone who is deeply entwined with the org but is loath to cooperate with them for personal reasons. I suspect he'll have the most objective opinion out of the rest of the cast.
As for Azami, he was in a real bind this chapter- he didn't say a single word and was sweating bullets the entire time. He did move to protect Chihiro when Blond Jerkass threatened him at least. This arc is gonna be pretty painful for him I think. Bet most of the tension will come from his reasons for staying with the Kamunabi versus wanting to do right by Chihiro and Shiba.
Also, time to revoke my "guess the associations" privileges since I completely missed the mark on which Bearer is associated to which area. Kabuki monk guy ([ćźçž˝] Uruha! A name, thank god!) is in the hotsprings. Or was, rather. Hope he wasn't wishing for some excitement in his life because he got more than he bargained for with that Hishaku suicide raid I think. Is he running towards safety with the Hishaku, Kamunabi, or freedom from both...?
Another guy with a weird name too. ćź (uru, also read as nana in modern Japanese) is very, very old and likely derives from descriptions of the shine of wood that's been lacquered or varnished. In names it can convey strength, resilience, and uniqueness. çž˝ (ha) means feather and has associations with freedom, grace, good fortune, and lots of support through life. So "gleaming feather" or "lacquered feather"? Guessing he'll be a free-spirited dude with an unusual perspective! Ooh this has got me excited.
Anyway. How about that unresolved conflict at the chapter's end? Chihiro made a decent case for himself (seriously he was so cool cutting off Blond Jerkass to remind them of he good he's accomplished), but the major sticking point of him being unwilling to completely fall under the Kamunabi's control is still there. You can bet your sweet Bippy it's going to be a major source of conflict in this arc. "An enemy of my enemy is my friend" is the best way to describe the relationship between him and the government right now, and that sentiment is not a solid foundation for a lasting partnership.
I can see the Hishaku forcing the Kamunabi's hand in trusting Chihiro and Hakuri, fighting tooth and nail but still letting them get the swords, then swooping in as the Kamunabi self-destructs over what to do with them. God I can't wait suss out what they're actually doing though. John Hishaku, you are peak entertainment.
Poor guy is always surprised when he's relevant to a conversation.
More Hakuri than expected! Yay! He also got to have some good moments with Tafuku, which is really cool! Sad that he's nerfed going in to the arc, but it makes sense. Wonder if they shared that he can use Isou too... it's not relevant to this discussion so not surprised it wasn't addressed. Guess we'll see later! Love these little mysteries that hook us between the larger plot developments. Everything is explained when it needs to be instead of awkwardly blurted out or infodumped.
Best panel in the chapter by far.
Tafuku's such a bro, man. I really hope that he and Hiyuki are assigned to keep watch over Chihiro and Hakuri as they search for Uruha.
Speaking of Hiyuki, seems like she's got a lot of pull with some members of the leadership council. I wonder if that's due to her status as the Kamunabi's strongest fighter alone or if there's a bit more going on... Hiyuki backstory when?
ALMOST got to see Azami's sorcery again (ch 46 vs. 7). What a cock tease. Seems to be some sort of condensed energy ability.
Look at Hakuri! He was gonna whisk Chihiro away into the storehouse to protect him, even though it would mean putting himself at odds with the council! He's so willing to put himself at risk for Chihiro it's scary. Couldn't register and transport that notebook without knocking himself out but he'll do whatever it takes for his samurai. Seriously! God I love him. (Is this foreshadowing? I think it's character consistency more than anything else, but we'll see...)
Slightly prefer the fan TL of the line ("Place your bets on me!")
Another favorite trope of mine. Chihiro unintentionally echoing his dad's words from 20 years ago got me good- and I'm not the only one based on some of the council's reactions. I love Kagurabachi for a lot of reasons but moments like this are definitely near the top. The theme of legacy and the past influencing the present is handled so well- always there, but never overdone. Thank you for trusting us to get the point, Hokazono-sensei.
So Kunishige was willing to help the war effort but was unproven at the time. He had to convince them to trust in him at all. Interesting, very interesting. Something compelled him to be there to make his case- looking forward to finding out what that was. DEAD DIL-
Trial, Interrupted
What did we learn?
One, the Kamunabi do blood tests. Weird but alright, guess they've got records of all their members' blood types and profiles stashed away somewhere. No wait that's fucking insane. Why do you need that genetic information? Why does it have to be blood instead of saliva? Why do you store it apparently indefinitely even after death- and how? What happened to references, finger printing, and researching public records to verify identity? (Actually, Chihiro might not have been properly registered as a citizen at birth due to his circumstances... that would be a fun wrinkle in him earning a paycheck.)
Guess: drawing Chihiro's blood is going to reveal Something. Exactly what isn't something I want to speculate too hard on, but it's gonna be relevant to this arc so I'll put a pin in it for now.
Two, the Hishaku have precisely zero chill. John has been preparing for god knows how long to attack the Bearers and now is the time to strike. So this leaves me with two questions: why is Chihiro being there with the Kamunabi perfectly fine (perhaps even necessary), and did they somehow account for Hakuri's presence in their plans?
I have a list of unanswered questions about Hakuri and the Sazanamis in a text file and this adds more. No one knew he was a Special Boy with the storehouse ability until yesterday (in-universe)... theoretically. And his abilities seem perfect for throwing a wrench in the Hishaku's machinations. So if they don't know about Hakuri, how will they adapt- and what will that mean for Team Goldfish? If they do know, then how? And why let this go forward? Wow falling for the plot hooks driving the narrative, how unique! Reagrdless of which scenario comes to be, I genuinely fear for Hakuri's safety... maybe a bit too much.
Three, Kamunabi politics aren't divided into neat factions for easy comprehension. At last we have some insights into the leaders' personalities though.
Rude mfers
These might be the guys that Shiba had a disagreement with before leaving. Blond Jerkass in particular is trying really hard to look villainous; he's clearly not a fan of Kunishige and went out of his way to get us all to hate him. I think he is too principled to work with the Hishaku, but he'll definitely be a thorn in Chihiro's side.
"Principled? This guy?!" Yeah!
He disagreed vehemently with Kunishige's decision to hide the swords instead of letting the Kamunabi keep them, and he sees that same "selfishness" in Chihiro is my read of him. He's also got no qualms about killing Chihiro to make Enten available to the Kamunabi since Chihiro's wielding it without any kind of oversight. This is our "authority of the establishment" guy for sure. He's there for the mission in his own way, and I hope we learn his motivations before he's offed or put on a shelf.
Pencil 'Stache seems like a snobbish skeptic so I kinda wanna punch him too. He has a modicum of concern for the issues at hand at least, I'll give him that. Not much else to say about him right now.
Prince Nez, Azami, Mask, and Eyepatch are strongly implied to be the ones who helped Kunishige hide, so they're likely to at least be neutral. Even if they had no great love for Kunishige himself, they could have been persuaded to help on practical grounds.
Azami might be the only one with personal reasons since he was Kunishige's friend. Very interesting that Chihiro claimed not to know him though... did Shiba know or guess his circumstances and tell Chihiro to lie? Azami was off screen after chapter 18 so there's a time gap to fill there- when we left off with him, he was under investigation for secretly harboring Chihiro. He's not a happy camper about any of this and I want to know exactly why. (Also, Chihiro backstory?! He didn't always live in the mountains with his dad, and he knows or was old enough to remember leaving his old home to live there??? LORE PLEASE.)
Prince Nez seems like a rational guy based on his segments explaining why going to war with the Sazanami would be bad in Ch. 22. He's the only one who seems concerned about getting to the heart of the matter here as well, being less concerned with Chihiro's ancestry versus the feasibility of his plan. Not to mention being the one to bring up that Magatsumi needs to be properly resealed as soon as possible. So I think he's a guy who is motivated by practical concerns above all else. Logic over passion is my read of him. He'll take the best approach based on merits more than anything else.
Mask appears fairly neutral. He's one of the two who was impressed by Hiyuki's assessment of Chihiro's character, so he could share at least a few of her ideals about justice and protecting the peace. She didn't rebuke him like the other guy so he's probably sincere (or at least not an obvious faker).
Eyepatch had just one line- he thought that Chihiro did in fact look like... someone he knew. Context would lead us to assume it's Kunishige, but after decades of being baited by Nomura as a KH fan, I know a potential red herring when I see one. I won't go full tinfoil hat theory here without more info but I will demand a treat if Eyepatch was referring to Chihiro's mom.
Hairclips has a very neutral impression right now since this is the only time she spoke. She was one of the three who originally sealed Magatsumi but everything else about her is a mystery right now. She got a big panel to herself so I expect to learn more about her later.
The "this meeting could have been an e-mail" vibes speak to my soul.
Piercing Guy seems like he's in it for himself first and foremost between this outburst and Hiyuki calling him a creep for wanting her approval. Then again, he seemed pretty open to hearing Chihiro's arguments about judging him based on his actions rather than his lineage. He's also amenable to accepting Chihiro as soon as he unknowingly echoes his father's resolve from decades prior... despite starting the chapter by saying he doesn't see the resemblance at all.
There's two ways to read this: either he's careless and selfish and going with what seems good at the time, or he's careless and forgot details about Kunishige until Chihiro's testimony brought them back. I think he's the most suspicious one so far. I've got my eye on you, Piercing Guy. Careless people are easy to manipulate and corrupt.
Beard Guy seems like the first among equals. Someone who carefully weighs the pros and cons of every course of action before committing. He played the role of practical, fair-minded judge rather well this chapter. He's also quite decisive in a crisis, but there's a lot more to unpack with him. (Is he Hiyuki's supervisor? How does he actually feel about everything?) Reserving judgement until we see more of his inner thoughts.
So yeah. Chihiro and the Kamunabi have agreed to work together for now, but they certainly aren't solid allies. And the Hishaku are going all out with their datenseki stockpile to blow everything up for some reason... So much for getting to chill but hey, at least there's no time wasted either. Until next time, kind void.
#kagurabachi#long post#I want to make another long post about all the open questions I have since I'm tracking them anyway but that would be too indulgent#RIP to onsen chapter prospects and all the fan art it would have spawned#I still believe in Kazane coming back just hold on tight#-F LORE
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BUY ME PRESENTS | draco malfoy
summary; draco loves you, and you love him. he just needs a little push to make things official. OR, draco malfoy fighting for his life when he realises just how much everyone wants his girl.
word count; 8928
notes; this is based on christmas eve, but I'm posted a couple days later! this fic puts us half way through our slytherin boy holidays! I'm not sure how the one I expected to be the shortest became the longest one so far. like, seriously, I know I keep saying this but wtf? why can't I write a short fic?
Dinner had already been served by the time you made it to the Grand Hall, the smells of roasted meats and seasoned potatoes filling the air, your mouth watering as you navigated between the throngs of people. Your seat had been saved, of course. A spot on the bench between Draco and Daphne, and as you neared, your friends noticed, smiles rising and waves in your direction.Â
Sinking into your seat, you pressed a kiss to the cheek of the blond boy beside you, his face tipping up to receive it and lips twisting into a smile, attention moving to you as you sat.Â
âGood day?â
âBetter now that itâs over.â You smiled, a chuckle falling from him, and his hand came to rest upon your thigh, squeezing comfortingly while you helped yourself to a plate of whatever food was left. âWhat are we talking about, what did I miss?â
âNot much. Just Theo telling us all about Christmas in Italy.â Mattheo rolled his eyes, as though you all hadn't heard this exact same speech since that very first Christmas youâd become friends. Most of the group seemed to have simply tuned it out, laughing and nodding at the correct times as they whispered their own conversations.Â
A swipe of a thumb over your thigh as you finished filling your plate with food, and you shifted your attention to Draco. âSo, what are your Christmas plans, Dray?â
Shuffling a little bit closer now that your plate was full, his arm moved to lay across your shoulders instead, letting you snuggle up into his side. âOh, you know, the usual.âÂ
He smiled, and your world seemed to get a little bit brighter, his lips brushing your hairline as he left a barely-present kiss there.Â
âTypical Malfoy-family Christmas. I get to do the tour with my parents, visiting every other rich-arsehole couple they know. Christmas Eve party. The pleasure of my fatherâs annual âyouâre growing up now, son, itâs time to get serious about the worldâ over the dinner table on Christmas Day. Open some presents I donât want, on a schedule I donât like.â He sighed, clearly used to it by now, but it didnât make it sound any less awful.
âWell,â You smile, nudging him playfully with your elbow. âMaybe we could write to one another, or even get a little visit in?âÂ
The hope in your voice was evident, and Pansy gave you an encouraging smile across the table. Youâd been meaning to ask Draco this question for weeks now, and your last chance had been fast approaching. Since the summer, you and Draco had been hooking up. It was no secret among your friends, or even the students; your affections for one another were hardly contained, but it wasn't official.Â
You wanted the labels, the security, and the safety of knowing that he was yours and you were his, and nobody else could come between you. You wanted to be introduced to his parents, be his date at events, to have him be proud to call you his girl. But Draco had been hesitant, avoiding every conversation that might inch into the âso, what are we?â territory, keeping a safe distance from any kind of real commitment.Â
It wasnât enough for you anymore, not by a long shot, but trying to talk to Draco about it only ended up with him shutting it down, or skilfully diverting the conversation and you were growing tired of his games.Â
Draco only made a vague noise, neither an agreement nor disagreement, and looked away from you as he picked up his drink to take a sip. âI donât know⌠maybe. I can get pretty busy over the holidays, Iâd hate to let you down.â
Another skill of his, making it seem like cancelling or delaying or not doing something at all was your idea. He was clearly hoping youâd brush it off, and tell him not to worry about it, but instead, you kept quiet. Not giving him the satisfaction of any easy win, this time.Â
Pansy caught your eye across the table, shaking her head disapprovingly, and shooting a glare at an oblivious Draco. She had been your confidant these last few months, every update and development in your situationship, sheâd been informed of. Every decision, sheâd been a part of. She was practically as invested as you were, at this point, and she certainly did not approve of his nonchalant behaviour either.Â
âSpeaking of parties,â Mattheo cut Theo off, clearly having had enough of the annual rehashing of âthat one Christmas when Theo was eightâ for today, and changing the subject, âWhoâs got their dates sorted for the Malfoy Christmas Eve Ball, and whoâs daring to go solo and have Narcissa set them up like a matchmaker all night long?â
Chuckles rang out among the group, and Pansy smiled, leaning into Blaiseâs side with a love-struck grin. âI think weâre safe this year.â
âIâm going solo, but, I did tell Aunty Cissa that I have my eye on a girl in one of my classes, and Iâm seeing how it plays out. So, sheâs not setting me up anytime soon, since she believes Iâm already onto someone.â Enzo smirked, and Blaise congratulated him for his clever tactics.Â
You smirked through your mouthful of food, listening to Mattheo explain his complex excuse, to Reggie mournfully spill the story of how heâs already been set up by his parents witha âpotential bride to meetâ, and how he hopes she doesnât show up. You laugh with the others as Tom simply raises an eyebrow, knowing that even Narcissa doesnât attempt to set him up anymore, lest he scare away any more of her friendsâ daughters. Theo, ever the player he is, is looking forward to dancing with every single lady he can find, and taking his pick at the end of the night.
âI suppose nobody needs to ask Draco who his date will be.â Mattheo grins, wiggling his brows at the pair of you as you smile, leaning a little further into the man at your side.Â
âHey, who knows?â He chortles, and your eyes narrow a little, âIâve had plenty of offers. I havenât made up my mind yet.â
âOooh.â Enzoâs eyes went wide, the other boys joining in, and Pansy fixed him with a glare. Daphne leaned around you with her jaw dropped at his statement, and you sat up from his embrace, lips pressed flat and a brow raised.Â
The boys snickered, âheâs in shitâ and âsomeoneâs in the doghouseâ, but he lived for the spotlight, a drama queen at heart, and he smirked down at you.Â
âOh, câmon. Donât look at me like that, babe.â The playful nickname was one he only ever used when joking around. When he was sincere, he was much more romantic; darling, sweetheart, beautiful. âWhat am I supposed to say? âHi mum, hello father, meet the girl Iâm skipping class to shag! Thanks for paying my tuition!â, I donât think so.â
The boys all laughed, Daphne scoffed in sync with her sister behind you, and Pansy looked like sheâd lunge across the table at any moment, if it wasnât for her chastising Blaise for laughing, instead. âYou and Draco can share that couch youâll both be sleeping on tonightâ, sheâd said. âSee how funny you think it is thenâ.
The words stung as he spoke them, dismantling your relationship down to the bare minimum; to sex and physical connection and nothing else. Like the nights spent talking until the sun came up were nothing, the times youâd held him while he cried, or washed him in the bath when he was so exhausted he could barely keep his eyes open. Like he didnât rub your stomach for hours every month when you got cramps, or had a stash of your favourite snacks in his bedside table for whenever you came over.Â
You knew that Draco Malfoy lived you, just as much as you loved him. It was evident in everything he did, every kiss and every word. But, he needed a little push.
âI suppose youâre right,â You sigh lightly, giggling along with the laughing boys around the table. âIâm not so sure Lucius wouldn't burst a blood vessel then and there.â
âExactly.â Draco hummed, and you glanced back to Pansy. She was shocked, only for a second, before taking in the subtle signs of mischief on your face. Her own smirk stretched out in return, and her gaze flickered once to Draco, before back to you.Â
A new game was afoot, and Draco wasnât going to stand a chance.
Slipping your coat from your shoulders, the annual Malfoy Christmas Eve Ball was well underway. Your parents had disappeared into the crowds before youâd even stepped out of the carriage, uncaring of where you were as long as you werenât causing trouble. They were here to mingle with the other importants, and you were just here to learn the ropes of proper socialising.
The garment was taken from you, your small bag clutched in hand as a ticket was given to you for it, and you brushed down the front of your dress delicately. Pearls moved under your touch, beading along the bodice flat and perfected, and you felt your confidence rise as you looked at yourself once more in the reflection of a dark window. Adjusting the small lace gloves on each hand, you took a step towards the dining room.Â
Elegant music was playing from a live band up on a stage, the room was decorated this year to look like a winter escape. Pale and frosty, like a palace of ice, twinkling lights and glittering decor, crisp white tablecloths and ice sculptures. A layer of goosebumps travelled along your skin at the sight of it all, despite the warming charms that took place for the guests.Â
Scanning the room, you quickly found your table. The designated kids table, despite you all being legal adults and far beyond such status. Youâd all be the babies of the ball until the new generation emerged, no doubt. Moving through the bodies and crowds of people politely, Theo was the first to glance up and spot you, his mouth falling open, and a rush of confidence took over as he raised two fingers to his lips and whistled.Â
The sound caught the attention of the othersâ chatter fading to quiet as they all turned to look for the object of his cat-calling, Enzoâs eyes widened, Pansy cheered loudly, and even Mattheo looked momentarily speechless. Youâd had the same reaction when youâd seen yourself in the dress too, your stylist had truly outdone herself for this one.Â
You looked flawless, and you looked expensive, and utterly elegant. Doing a little spin as you approached, a smile broke free on your lips as you stopped before the chair with your name card before it.Â
âMerlin, babe,â Pansy started, drawing your attention straight her her, âYouâve got every eye on you tonight. If I was single, Iâd be all over you.âÂ
She winked when you laughed, and Blaise rolled his eyes but smiled, leaning in to kiss her cheek affectionately.Â
âPretty necklace,â She commented, and your fingers rose to the pretty string of pearls and diamonds that you had.Â
âIt was a gift,â You simply hummed, tugging at your gloves. Glancing at the others, you gave each a polite smile, eyes lingering on Draco as he stared. In any other style, this dress would be scandalous for an event like this. A low neckline, spaghetti straps, no sleeves. Tight and fitted to every curve of your body, and yet the classic designs and vintage nature elevated it to the kind of class Audrey Hepburn would be proud of.Â
He looked just as good, a dark suit, a fresh white shirt, a champagne-coloured tie that made the colour of his eyes and his hair stand out and your mouth dried out a little. Silver rings adorned his fingers, the Malfoy signet standing out, clenched so tightly around his whiskey glass that his knuckles were almost white.Â
Youâd worn soft, golden makeup effects today, a dusting of glitter along your cheekbones and eyelids, a shade of pink on your cheeks and lips that you knew was his weakness.Â
âSomeone really wanted your attention with that, huh?â Your best friend teased, and your eyes snapped away from Draco, back to her.Â
âI suppose so,â You muse, hand coming up to touch one of the beads on your ear, âSince they also got me this lovely pair of matching earrings.â
Pansy made a dramatic show of admiring them, and Blaise gave a funny look, glancing at the jewellery, and then back at Draco, who was frowning. Before you could reach for your chair after placing your clutch down, Enzo was shooting to his feet from beside you, tugging out the chair for you.Â
Draco scoffed as you gave him a thank you, settling into your seat, and he glared at the man beside you. Enzo didnât flinch, however, smirking at Draco as he spoke;
âWhat? Itâs called being a gentleman, cousin.â
Crossing your leg delicately, youâd hardly even removed your gloves, before a tray was coming down by your side, and a young waiter with a dazzling smile was looking right at you.Â
âChampagne, maâam?â Not a planned pawn in your game, but a welcome addition, you smiled sweetly in return.Â
âOh, Iâd love some. Thank you.â Taking the single glass by the stem, you lifted it from the tray and the manâs smile stretched wider as you sipped the bubbly, holding his eye.Â
âOf course, miss. If you need anything, anything at all, Iâll be at the bar, happy to serve.â His flirting was heavy enough that normally youâd want to roll your eyes, but tonight, you suppressed that urge, playing into it as you bat your lashes.Â
âIâll be sure to keep that in mind. Thank you.â
He took the dismissal, staring appreciatively as he walked away, another look over his shoulder to you as you watched him go.Â
âStop eye-fucking the help.â Draco snapped, and your focus moved to him slowly, just to find his icy glare on you. He didnât scare you, though, all that mean bravado, but you knew what was underneath.Â
âI was doing no such thing.â You tut, placing down your drink. âDonât be jealous, Dray. You look even better in that suit. If you want compliments, just ask. No need to be mean.â
He seemed rather placated by this, his ego settling down, even if the others did laugh at him.
The conversation seemed to continue around you as you settled in, avoiding Dracoâs heated stare and sipping at your champagne. The rush of warming alcohol through your veins settled every dancing nerve, and gave you the calm confidence to do what you had planned. Sitting forwards, just enough, you angled your body so that Draco might have the perfect view over your cleavage as you feigned interest in the chatter around you.Â
He took the bait, his gaze falling right where you wanted it, the gems of your necklace dangling just over the swell of your breasts, and he licked his lower lip, pulling it between his teeth.
Raising your hands and catching the swinging gem, you toyed with it carefully, letting it run over your fingers. Time melted away as Dracoâs gaze flicked between your nimble touch, your lips, and your chest, shuffling in his seat every so often, and gulping at the bubbly in his glass.Â
He was on his third refill by the time food started to be taken around, and you took pity on him momentarily, sitting back in your chair and angling away from him, ready to receive your first course.Â
As the starters came around, you turned to thank your waiter, surprised to see it was the same man from the bar who had brought you your champagne. Youâd given him little thought since heâd walked away, and youâd never spotted him again, but perhaps that was exactly why he was delivering your food now, as he beamed at you and set down the plate.Â
Men did love a little attention, after all.Â
Reaching for the bottle of champagne cooling in the centre of the table, the waiter never looked away from you as he refilled your glass without being asked. Draco finally seemed to notice as he finished adjusting his napkin, gaze narrowing on the man serving you. âYouâve got to be kidding meâŚâ He muttered.
You pretended to take no notice, smiling at the man and waving your fingers flirtily as he walked away.
âIâm going to get another drink at the bar,â He announced, leaving without his glass and without asking if anyone else wanted one. You knew where he was truly going, if the lock of his jaw and the stamp in his step were any indication. You doubted youâd be seeing that waiter again.
As you poked at your food, Pansy excused herself too, only a few bites into her meal before she disappeared with a wicked grin and no explanation to anyone. Enzo just chuckled beside you, glancing around the room like he was watching all the cogs of a machine in motion, before turning his gaze on you. âYou do look lovely tonight, do you know that?â
âOf course I do. I spent days on end trying on dress after dress to find this.â You sighed, admiring the gorgeous piece of art on your body as you set your cutlery down.Â
âAnd is it serving the purpose you need it to?â He teased, voice knowing, and you nodded. Flicking your gaze over the patrons and guests in the room, you searched for Draco, finding him talking politely to one of his motherâs friends at the bar.Â
âIt is, I think.â
âLetâs hope it stays that way.â He whispered, your focus still on the man who truly held your heart, who was making his polite excuse and walking way, back towards you all. His gaze locked on yours, only for a second, before Pansy was calling your name and drawing your focus elsewhere.Â
When you looked up to her, she was grinning, a man by her side. âThis is Elliot, heâs been wanting to meet you for some time. I promised him Iâd introduce you both tonight.â
You offered the best smile you could as his cheeks reddened, and Pansy merely patted him on the shoulder, slinking away as you offered your hand to him. âLovely to meet you, Elliot.â
âYou too. As embarrassing as that introduction was, itâs true. I have wanted to meet you for some time.â He had a kind smile and pretty eyes, and he seemed far too nice to be dragged into your game tonight, but he seemed almost like a willing participant, and you werenât one to look a gift horse in the mouth. As Draco took his seat, Elliot continued, âPansy has told me so much about you. You know, if youâre free one day before you go back to that fancy boarding school of yours, Iâd love to take you out.â
âYeah? What have you got in mind?â You smile, twisting a little more to face him, and your encouragement only brightens his expression as Dracoâs darkens in your peripheral.
âA night in London, perhaps. We could get dinner, and see the opera?â
âShe doesnât like the opera.â Draco sneered, openly staring at Elliot with enough contempt to scare away lesser men. Elliot tugged at his collar, glancing at Draco, and then back to you as you tried to hide your shock at his behaviour.
âThe theatre, then?â
Draco looked ready to snap again, and before he could, you nodded, sparing your unwilling partner. âThat sounds wonderful, Iâll see what my schedule says. Iâll get in touch with you through Pansy if I can find the time, is that okay?â
âPerfect.â He smiled, sneaking another wary glance at Draco who was not backing down from glaring at him unflinchingly, but Elliot shook it off, bravely. âIt was a pleasure to meet you, truly.â
âAnd you, Elliot.â
Soon after he left, the plates were being cleared. You tried not to smirk as a different waiter, and one who very pointedly did not so much as even catch your gaze, cleared your dishes away at record speed.Â
You knew that Draco had something, everything, to do with that. He was jealous by nature, a spoilt single child who did not like to share his favourite toys, and that is exactly what you were betting on tonight.
You stood, taking a lap around the room with Pansy to settle your food before the next course, and to get another drink. She took the opportunity to fill you in on how her first Christmas event with Blaiseâs family had gone, and when you returned, you made sure to surreptitiously place yourself behind Dracoâs chair.Â
You placed a hand on his shoulder, a friendly gesture, squeezing and rubbing enough that your thumb swept over his collar and across his neck. His pulse jumped under your touch, and he tipped his head closer, into your touch.Â
As he did so, your heart leapt in your chest. To others, it might look like a friendly gesture but to you, it meant so much more. You were tempted to cave then and there, to live with this being enough, to settle, but you couldn't. You didnât want this to be it, you wanted to follow this by leaning down to kiss him, to have him smile against your lips in public the way he did when you were alone.Â
To arrive at these events together, arms linked, and to stumble out tiredly together too. To sit by him, his hand on your thigh, to rest your head on his shoulder, to kiss him on the dance floor. The thought was enough to push you through.Â
He twisted his head, to kiss your hand like he often did when you did this. Carefully, you slipped your hand away just in time, knuckles brushing across the nape of his neck as you stepped away, and back to your seat.Â
His sights moved to you, but like a saving grace, the servers began to appear with more dishes, and dinner soon distracted you all. A delicious serving of salmon and potatoes, and the hall fell quiet enough for you to hear the beautiful music playing when chatter fell low.Â
Low conversation, drinks refilled, and that perfect mood set across the room, as people took to the tables and quieted down. Your favourite part of the night, usually. Good food, your friends, and a chance to catch up without the usual weight of it all sitting on you. Regulus was talking, telling the rare story that had him caught up in a long conversation where he usually just observed quietly, but your attention was fixed on your lover.Â
Until, Theo spoke up.Â
âOh, merda,â He muttered across Reggieâsâ story, his gaze cutting to you alarmingly quickly. âI forgot to tell you.â
âTell me what?â Your heart skipped a beat, a flash of panic.
âMy cousin flew in last minute for the party, and he wants to speak to you.â Theoâs words soothed your panic, and you offered him a flat look for the dramatic way heâd put it. Taking a sip from your glass, you raised a brow.
âWhen?â
âNow.â He confirmed, sights lifting to sit just behind you, and before you could even turn, a chair was being pulled up beside your own from another table. Turning your head to the owner, a smile burst across your face at the man sitting before you.Â
âDario!â Your arms were around his neck before you could stop yourself, and he was chuckling as he bundled you into an equally enthusiastic hug. He chuckled lightly, pulling back only far enough to press a friendly kiss to your cheek, and you cupped his face as you parted from him. âYouâre growing a beard!â
âMy mother hates it.â He chuckled, rubbing a hand over it. As you twisted a little more towards him, he reached down, practically manhandling you as he reached for the edge of your seat by your legs, tugging it sideways to face him. You squealed as the chair jolted, screeching on the floor, tugging you closer as he leaned in. âSei incantevole.â
âAre you charming me in Italian?â You smirk, a boyish smile on his face as he lounged back in his seat. âWhat are you doing here, anyway? Theo said none of you were flying in this year! I thought you couldn't make it.â
âI couldn't,â He sighed, shrugging, âBut, then I heard that you would be here, without a date, and I knew I just had to make it. So, here I am, la mia bella donna. You think a short flight from Italy would stop me rushing over here to you?â
Your giggle was against your control. Even if he was more like family than a romantic interest, the way his accent twisted around coyly spoken words, was enough to bring a blush to even the most unreceptive womanâs face. âCut it out, you flirt.â
âYouâll save me a dance later, right?â
âWeâll see.â He rose his brow, and you lifted your glass, taking a sip of bubbly to hide your smile, leaving him hanging. âDepends on how much more of your cheesy flirting I can endure.â
âYou mean my wonderful Italian charm?â He teased, pinching one of your cheeks, and deepening the flush he had already created. âDonât think I donât see the way I make you blush.
You could only scoff, mouth dry as you tried to think of a retort, and you didnât miss Theo muttering in Italian behind you, curse words youâd picked up on tumbling from his mouth.Â
âPerhaps this can convince you,â Dario reaches for his inner pocket, producing a small, slim box. An excited squeak breaks from you as he hands it over, your fingers brushing the elegant leather, an Italian name embossed across the front. âOpen it later, alright?â
You could only nod, admiring it happily, before slipping the box safely inside of your clutch. He took your hand, kissing your knuckles as he stood. A final wink as he offered you hid charming goodbyes, and a farewell to the rest of the table, before returning his borrowed chair to where he had taken it from.Â
You watched as your friend left, disappearing into the crowd, no doubt to mingle and socialise as he had always been so good at, before you swung back around in your chair.Â
âHe taught you everything you know, huh, Nott?â
Theo only shrugged, a cheeky grin on his face. âWhat can I say, tesoro? We Nott men just have charm. Weâll woo your panties right off.â He winked, the cockiness not lasting long as Draco swung at him, a fist landing roughly on his arm as the Malfoy heir scowled, glaring at his best friend.Â
âCut it out.â He growled the words through gritted teeth, and your hand shot up, rubbing at your lip to hide your grin as Draco made no effort to hide his own emotions. Theo only laughed, rubbing at the patch on his arm heâd taken the hit.
Dessert was served, a beautiful display of ice cream and winter berries that almost looked too good to eat. The key word being almost. You hadn't been able to resist, however, and the first small groan youâd let out as the sugar hit your tongue had Dracoâs gaze snapping straight to you. I did not leave, once, after.Â
Instead, he watched, through a dark gaze, every curl of your lips around the spoon, every swipe of your tongue to catch the juice of burst berries. If youâd put on a little extra show, just for him, nobody else had to know.Â
It was like he was staring right into your soul, so intense, even after the meal was long since finished. Finally, you indulged him once again, turning to look at him and raising a brow. âYes, Draco?â
âYou look beautiful tonight, I am simply admiring.â He let his gaze move across you slowly, making his admiration apparent, and his gaze lingered a fraction of a second longer on your neck. He stared at you with open adoration, the kind of look that told you exactly how he felt, even if he was fighting it, but he was close to breaking. He was close to losing this game he didnât know he was playing. Then, his gaze flickered over your shoulder, sweet observation morphing. His brows drew together, his open hand slamming down on the table hard enough to make the glass rattle. âOh, fucking hellâŚâ
Mattheo erupted with sudden laughter, loud and brash, and there was a tap on your shoulder before you could even ask him what had him in such hysterics. A young man you did not know, perhaps a few years younger than you, and glanced around the table to see which of your friends had put this one together. Each seemed to have caught on in their own time, and had a hand in adding to the fun, to watch Draco suffer more, but none of them were laying any claim to this one.Â
âIâve been watching you all evening, and you are beautiful.â He smiled, stuttering over his words slightly, and Draco made no shy show of his disdain, rolling his eyes and making a disapproving sound. âI was wondering if you might grant me the pleasure of a dance?â
âShe would dance with you,â Enzo interrupted, before you could speak at all, leaning forward toward the edge of your chair from his own, and you could have kissed him in gratitude for saving you. âBut, she promised me her first dance. Isnât that right, love? And I think now is the perfect time. Letâs go.â
Offering you his hand, you took it, letting him sweep you away without a secondâs delay, navigating you both to the dance floor and twirling you expertly into his arms. One hand clasped your own, the other sitting at a respectable place on your waist, your own on his shoulder, and he fell into the well-rehearsed steps of a classical ballroom dance heâd been doing since he could walk.Â
You let out a shaky sigh, relief flooding your veins as you looked back to your seat, noticing that the boy had taken Enzoâs rejection well and disappeared, not hanging around and waiting for your return.Â
âYouâre killing him slowly, like a predator playing with its prey,â Enzo smirked, neither of you needing to clarify who you were talking about, as he brought up his cousin.Â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âReally?â He chuckled, spinning you out before pulling you back in, sharp actions that made you dizzy with their accuracy, and you grinned as he brought you tumbling right back into his arms, perfectly. If heâd been trying to win you over, his dancing alone wouldâve had you swooning. âYou just show up to a fancy event like this, dripping in diamonds and pearls and looking like a million bucks, supposedly single. You mean to tell me you didnât know that all these rich London boys wouldn't descend on you like vultures?â
âNot my fault Iâm single and hot, Enz.â
He just laughed, dipping you a little. âWe do struggle, donât we.â You wove between people, a happy silence falling between you both once again as he guided you over the floor, back and forth, âAre you, though? Single, I mean.â
âThat is up to your cousin.â
âTouchĂŠ.â
You continued to move, until your feet were sore from all the twirling, clinging to Enzo in fits of giggles as he spun and twirled and dipped you more, hands on your waist as he lifted you through the air, making a show of his dancing.Â
He may have seemed altruistic in his gestures, sweeping in to save you and Draco from your dance with the boy, but he was using you too. Enzo was taking every opportunity to show off his moves to every lady around the room watching, a flirty smile on his face between conversations and he glanced around, and you wouldn't be surprised if he received more offers than Theo or Dario by the end of the night.Â
As the third song came to an end, and the music fell for just a second, you panted slightly, arm around his neck now, looking up at him with flushed cheeks and a bright smile. âCan we take a break?â
âTired, already? You only gave me three so far.â He smirked at the way your jaw dropped, your face going hot and you knew your cheeks were red. You untangled yourself from his body, barely making it a step away from his laughter before he wrapped an arm around your waist, tugging you into his side. âOh, câmon. I thought the aim was to flirt and make him mad?â
âHeâs not even here to listen!â
âIâm practising,â Enzo murmured, steering you towards the bar, and leaning on the wood as he flagged down the bartender. You were quickly served, by a woman who fawned over Enzo as she passed by, and you had to snap your fingers in front of his face to snap his gaze away from her retreating form. âSo, how long are you going to make himââ
A tap on Enzoâs shoulder cut him off, and he turned to look, straightening up instantly from his slumped position. As soon as he moved so you could see, your relaxation melted away too, as you found yourself face to face with Narcissa and Lucius Malfoy.Â
âLorenzo, Iâve hardly had a chance to talk to you all evening. I want to ask you about your schoolwork.â The impressively formal and deep voice of Lucius Malfoy settled over your skin like fresh snow, cold but smooth, and you shuddered.Â
Narcissa only chuckled lightly at her husbandâs words, her eyes on you. âYouâve been busy, though. Who is your lovely lady?â
âUncle Lucius, Aunt Cissa. This is my friend, (Y/n).â
It wasnât exactly the circumstances youâd wanted to meet them under, but you smiled nonetheless, nerves running wild as you offered your hand to them both, shaking politely just as your parents had taught you.Â
âAh, (Y/n). Yes. I make a point of knowing all of Dracoâs school friends, but Iâm in business with your father, arenât I?â Something like a small kernel of sweetness was buried in that statement, his interest in his sonâs life, even if he tried to hide it behind formalities, but it wasnât your place to comment.Â
âYes, sir. That is correct.â
âTheyâre very proud of your schoolwork. They were telling me about your latest project. You synthesised a new potion to grow murkweed faster, is that true?â
You were surprised he knew so much, your small project submitted for Herbology was the last thing youâd expected Lucius Malfoy to know of, or take an interest in, and your mouth felt like sandpaper as you tried to form words. âYes. Yes, sir. Thatâs right.â
âInteresting.â That calculating gaze scanned over you, analysing you from head to toe, like he could see right through you with a single glance. âThat is impressive, for someone of your age. Iâd be open to learning more. Are you considering making a future out of your alchemy talents? I have connections that I could contact for you.âÂ
You were speechless, your stomach going wild with butterflies born of both excitement and anxiety. He smirked, a look that would set you on edge if you werenât sure deep down that this was in your interests, not against them.Â
âPerhaps we can discuss it more soon, when we next see you. With Enzo?â
Enzoâs arm around your waist shifted, a reassuring weight that you were sure had been your only grounding presence for this surreal conversation. He patted your hip encouragingly. âOh, no, we arenâtâŚâÂ
Motioning between you both, Luciusâ brows furrowed, and Narcissa tried to hide her sigh.
âSorry to disappoint you, Aunt Cissa. (Y/n) isnât mine, though it is wonderful that you approve.â Before either could question him, or expand on their confusion, Enzo gave your waist a final rub, before removing his touch from you entirely, and stepping towards his family. âShall we go and discuss schoolwork then, Uncle? You have questions, and I have answers. I hope the ones you want.â
âIt was a pleasure to meet you, Miss (Y/l/n).â Lucius politely offered you his hand again, shaking it firmly, and that was about as friendly a dismissal as youâd ever get from him, youâd heard. This was only supported by the surprised look on Narcissaâs face, and the beam Enz gave you as he guided his uncle away.Â
âI hope to see you again soon, (Y/n). You look wonderful this evening, thank you for coming.â Narcissa murmured, before following her husband and nephew, glancing back at you only once over her shoulder. She knew. The woman was far more cunning than she let on, the true embodiment of a sneaky Slytherin, observing quietly and taking everything in. Her eyes glinted. She knew you knew she knew, too.
Your heart was pounding, cheeks warm as you lifted your fingers to them cautiously. The disappointed waitress placed down two drinks before you, Enzo long gone without his, but you smiled at her with appreciation, fingers shaking a little as you lifted the glass to your lips to take a sip.Â
Youâd spoken to Dracoâs parents.Â
Theyâd liked you. Lucius had offered to put you onto the career path, and Narcissa had complimented your dress. A soft laugh of disbelief slipped free, your eyes sliding closed for just a second as you revelled in the moment.Â
It hasnât been what youâd set out for tonight, but it was far more than what youâd hoped for. Opening your eyes again, to head back to the table and find Draco, you were met by the sight of a stranger leaning before you on the bar, grinning down at you in amusement. âHello.â
âHi.â You gave a terse smile, and a single nod. âIf youâll excuse meââ
âI didnât even get to ask you to dance yet. Saw you out on the floor with the Berkshire boy, earlier, and I thoughtââ
âIâm dancing with her next, mate. Piss off.âÂ
Draco rarely sounded that mad, a chill went down your spine as you felt an arm slide around your waist, tugging you back into his chest. âDrayâŚâ
The stranger only scoffed, glaring at Draco as he wandered away, and your hand reached for his forearm on your body. He snatched it away too soon, however, tugging on your hip to turn you around. His jaw was clenched tight, eyes more frozen than the coldest glacier. âDance with me.â
Not a request, and he didnât wait for an answer, before plucking your drink from your hand and slamming it down onto the bar, guiding you back to the swaying bodies. Standing before you, you offered him your hand, your hand sitting lightly on his shoulder. He didnât take the respectable route, instead, his arm wrapped tight around your waist, sweeping you close to his body, and beginning to move you both in simple steps.Â
It was several minutes before he relaxed, your arm sliding further around his neck in a more intimate hold, bringing the two of you much closer, swaying slowly. The tension in his body gave way with every step, and with a resigned sigh, he finally spoke, âYou met my parents.â
âI did. They were lovely. Very curious about Enzo and Iâs relationship.â
His hand clenched on your waist, and you tipped your head at him as his piercing gaze drilled into you. One more moveâŚ
âOh, donât be so mad, Dray. Weâre only shagging, after all. Youâll find a new girl if I get swept away by someone else.â
His eyes narrowed, jaw clenching, and a fire burned in those silver eyes now, melting the ice away with rage. Checkmate.
âYou win, alright? Iâm not playing this stupid game any longer.â He took a deep breath, and another, fingers twitching on your back as jealousy bubbled under the surface. âFor fucks sake, how many pieces of jewellery from other guys are you wearing? Who bought you those earrings, that necklace? I should be the only one buying you gifts. I should be the one spoiling you. You want the Malfoy family ring? Iâll go yank it off my motherâs engagement ring from her finger right now, just take all this off.â
He studied you for a second, confusion growing at the smirk that grew on your lips. Victory was yours, and you leaned in, pressing a delicate kiss to his cheek. Letting the hand from his neck smooth down his chest, his gaze stayed locked on the jewels around your neck, glaring angrily. âNo.â
âNo?â
âNo. Itâs pretty. Iâm going to keep wearing it all, let it remind you what you have. Next time you piss me off, forget a date, or use the last of my shampoo, Iâm going to put it all back on so you can remember how many guys would jump at the chance.â His nostrils flared, but he stayed silent, wisely knowing when to keep his mouth shut. âI donât want your family ring, Malfoy. Not yet. I just want a proper title, and the respect that comes with it. Iâm not your booty call, or your side piece. You donât want to play games anymore? Then donât.â
âYou already won.â He whispers, his head dropping down to let his forehead rest on your own. âYou know how much you mean to me.â
âYes, I do. But I want the whole world to know it, too, Dray.â
He didnât respond verbally. Instead, he twisted his head, enough to press his mouth to your own, silencing any more arguments between you both as he kissed you. His lips claimed yours, a tender and loving kiss, showing everyone just how much you meant to him. There was no mistaking the emotions within it, not as his arms wrapped around your body, holding you to him as the pretence of dancing was given up, your hand on the back of his head, fingers in his hair, meeting every push and pull.
When he pulled away, your smile took over, bashful now under his openly adoring gaze, and he stole several more pecks from your lips. A happy sound escaped you as he tugged you in, tucking his face into your neck, and swaying you both to the music.Â
âHave I told you how beautiful you look tonight?â
âYou have, but Iâd be open to hearing it again.â Your hand smoothed over his hair, and he chuckled against your skin, leaving a kiss on the crook of your neck before raising to meet your eye.Â
âYou are breathtaking, darling. Iâm in awe. This colour is my favourite, you know.â
âWhy do you think I wore it?â
His fingers trailed down your spine, eyes sparkling even more at that revelation. âHow about we get out of here? Weâll make our goodbyes to my parents, and head out.â
âOur goodbyes?â You repeated as he took your hand, lacing your fingers together.Â
âYes. From their son and his girlfriend. I think you deserve a proper introduction, after all.â
Tugging you across the floor, he gave you no time to prepare, and certainly, none to disagree, as you smoothed your hair and attempted to control the blush heâd brought to your cheeks. Through the crowds he wove, until he was pulling to a stop just shy of his parents, and Enzo looked as though he could have cried with relief when Luciusâ intense focus was taken away from him. The boy quickly slipped away as both of Dracoâs parents turned to face you.Â
âMiss (Y/l/n), when we said we hoped to see you again soon, I didnât realise youâd take it quite this literally.â He murmured, voice as low and calm as always, and your lips parted, a different kind of heat flooding your features.Â
âOh, behave now, Lucius,â Narcissa grinned, her gaze dropping to your clasped hands, before she reached up to her sonâs face, pinching his cheek with a smile. âDraco, darling, Iâve hardly seen you all evening.â
âWell, Iâm sorry to disappoint you Mother, but weâll be leaving early.â She only gave him a knowing look, ignoring Luciusâ displeased huff, as if she wasnât surprised at all.Â
ââWeâ?â
âMy girlfriend and I.â He said, proud and strong, before tugging you forward a little more to stand in front of him. His hand left your own, circling your waist instead, and she offered him a smile at the news.Â
âI see.â She smiled, patting her sonâs cheek affectionately, before turning that knowing gaze on you. âNow Lorenzoâs evasiveness whenever I asked him about you makes sense.â
âYou asked about me?â Your words were a rushed squeak, which only seemed to amuse Narcissa more.Â
âOf course, dear. I wanted to know more about you. Iâd ask you to sit and chat with me for a spell, but I believe my son might combust if I did.â
âMother!â He gasped, and Lucius only tutted.Â
âDraco.â His father growled softly, shaking his head, and the red on his sonâs cheeks only grew.
âYou both may go, for now. But I hope youâll visit me soon, and we might talk?â
âYou mean⌠just us?â Your words tapered off to a near whisper, and Lucius smirked to himself as Draco rolled his eyes.Â
âYes, dear. Weâll have tea.â
You could only nod, bidding your final farewells to them both in a state of awe, before Draco was hurrying you along. Tight hands gripping your waist, lips on your neck as he loved you through the crowds, swiping up your bag and giving you barely a moment to say goodbye to your friends before sweeping you away again. It was only due to the snow falling outside, you were sure, that he allowed you to stop long enough to get your coats.Â
Helping you, he lifted the garment onto you from behind, kissing your cheek as he reached around your body to fasten it. His elegant coat was already on, and leather gloves were on his hands as he offered you one. Lacing your fingers through his own, he smiled, tugging you out into the freezing night, and ushering you around the side of the Manor, away from the stream of cars lined up for guests as they left.Â
âWhere are we going, Dray?âÂ
âTo one of the gardens near the path.â He never turned back, leading you carefully around patches of ice and slippery snow as you moved, the light from the house fading. It was almost pitch black, before he mumbled a small spell, and the garden lights glowed to light, glittering on the fresh blanket of ice.Â
Sitting on the grass was an old-fashioned sleigh, enchanted to keep dry, even in the snow, and two reindeer sat happily in the snow snuffling at the grass and scattered food.Â
The landscape stretched out far before you both, trees and grass and walls all covered in snow like something from a Christmas card, and the sigh that left your lips clouded in the air before your face.Â
âOh, DracoâŚâ Taking a few steps closer, snow-tipped over the tops of your heels as you stepped off the pathway onto the grass, chilling your feet for only a second, before Draco was following. Scooping you up into his arms, you kicked the ice from your feet with a giggle, your arms looping around his neck. âWhatâs all this?â
âThis is your Christmas present. I didnât realise that was the kind of ice you wanted instead.â He muttered, eyes flicking down to your neck, as he carried you carefully through the snow and towards the ornate sleigh. As you leaned in to kiss his cheek, he smiled shyly, avoiding your gaze as he became embarrassed, âI wanted to do something romantic for you. We can take the sleigh back to the town, get a cab, and take the jet anywhere you want to go. Pansy already packed a bag for you.â
He placed you down on the edge of the sleigh, letting you shuffle across onto the warmed leather. With another kiss to your lips, he scoffed at your smile.Â
âMerry Christmas, my wicked little girlfriend.â
âI canât believe you arranged all this.â You were practically bouncing in your seat, watching as Draco nervously tugged on the reins, prompting the lazy animals to stand back up, before settling into the sleigh himself. Like they knew just what to do, they took off in a slow trot, tugging the pair of you along through the snow.Â
âMaybe if youâd have waited, instead of making me fight for my life tonight, youâd have been surprised.â
His arm was splayed along the back of the seat, and you snuggled in a little closer to him. Curling his arm around you, he pressed a kiss to your forehead, shaking his head and burying his nose in your hair. âIf I didnât make you fight for me, Dray, youâd probably have introduced me to your mother as your study partner. I gave you a little push, thatâs all.â
âIs that so?â He muttered, guiding your face up so he could peck your lips. âWho do you think helped me arrange all of this for my âlovely lady friendâ, hm? Iâve been writing to my mother about having an interest in someone for months now. You underestimate me.â
âYou never gave me any other indication!âÂ
âOh, please. You walk me like a damn dog, you knew how I felt.â His mouth closed over your own, stealing a kiss, and you couldn't help but smile into it. âI think tonight just proves it.â
The sleigh trotted on as Draco kissed you in the back, beyond thought and reason, your hands tucked into his coat for warmth as he kept you cuddled in close to his side.Â
Minutes melted away, the two of you lost in your own world as you jostled and trotted through the fields, back toward the town. Whatever he had planned, it had been in motion for days, and the thought only made you fall a little more in love with him. Perhaps you had underestimated him, but none of it mattered now, not when he was kissing you like you were his only way to breathe, and you had him in your arms, properly, at last.
âSo, Pansy knew about your little plan?â
âYes. I told her days ago.âÂ
âHmâŚâ You loved her, and it was perhaps her knowledge of Dracoâs actions that made this all the funnier. âSo, she knew about your plan, and mine. And still, she made sure to introduce guys to me all night. She played us both just for her own amusement.â
As you thought of her, your fingers lifted to your neck, sitting on the delicate jewellery there, and Draco huffed. Looping his finger underneath it, he tugged lightly. âCan you take this off now, please?â
âWhy would I do that?â His pout deepened, glaring at the offending item, and you gave in with an airy laugh. âPansy, Daph and Tori picked it out personally.â
âWhat?â His head snapped up, pout gone as his jaw dropped, and he was not laughing like you were. âYou let me believe another guy decked you out in diamonds all night! What about the matching earrings?â
âBlaise.â
âThe bracelet?â
âTheo and the Notts.âÂ
At that mention, his eyes narrowed again, searching for your clutch and finding it resting in your lap. âBut Theoâs cousin Mario gave you a separate gift.â
âDario.â You corrected, and he mimicked it childishly, scoffing afterwards. âWell, that part was real. He truly was flirting, and I have no idea what it is, I havenât opened it yet.â
âGive it to me.â He reached for your bag, a second too slow as you swiped it away from him with a gasp. He didnât give up, still trying to snatch it as he leaned over you, pressing you back into the seat through fits of laughter, the two of you fighting over the bag until it was pressed to your chest, your eyes wide as you stared up at him, shaking your head. âGive it to me! Iâm chucking it, hand it over!â
âNo, itâs mine!â He slumped back into his seat, panting for breath and smoothing his hair back down. He was pointedly staring away in the opposite direction, and when you leaned in closer with a chuckle, he leaned away. Grabbing his shoulder, you planted yourself firmly in his lap, kissing the underside of his jaw. âIâm keeping it, but your present is better, I just know it. Whatever it is, could never beat this.â
âPromise?â
âI promise, Dray.âÂ
He gave in, wrapping his arms around your waist, tugging you in closer to his body and pressing a happy kiss to your cheek. âFine, but Iâm buying you a new necklace when we get off the damn plane. I donât care who bought that one.â
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Part Three
Warning: If you don't like Taylor Swift, you're not gonna like this chapter that much, homie. But So Long, London is so fitting for this drabble series. (I guess a series since it's longer than a drabble at this point)
Canât stop thinking about reader just trying to move on
You had to remind yourself several times not to check in with the guys. It had almost become second nature doing something big like this. But going to another countryâŚ
Not that they would care. You told yourself. It was for the best that way.
The expo went better than you expected. You didnât believe that there would be a line out the door of eager readers wanting to read your book, but you got a decent amount. More than a few told you they couldnât wait to read it. Several asking for photos and asking questions on any future books, a spin-off or even continuing the series.
When one a particular large group of girls your age asked for a group photo, you could have cried. They were had found each other in an online book club. You had given them your book several months ago. All copies signed with a note thanking them for taking the time to read what you had poured your heart into.
You had spent a large chunk of your free time talking to them. Bonding more so as women than over your book.
"Have you listened to Taylor's new album?"
It had only been out for two days and you had been able to avoid it like the plague. You didn't need to even listen to 'So Long, London' to know it would fucking gut you. So you would enjoy your time in the states. Save the listening experience for when you were packing up their stuff.
They had posted and tagged you before continuing on with the rest of the expo. You had reposted the photo to your own social media. Or at least one attached to the pen name you had crafted. You only had twelve thousand instagram followers, but it was something.
The first day was much like the second. You had attended several Q & A sessions with a panel of more experienced authors and managed to go to a few meet and greets. Before you knew it, it was time to pack up shop.
The agent the publishing house had assigned to you had stuck with you for most of the day. You were able to pick her brain a bit about new ideas for possible future plot lines and her thoughts. Overall, the trip was great.
Not only were you able to make great connections and take a lot back home with you to reference, but for a few days you forgot what waited for you back home. Or rather what wasn't waiting for you.
By the time your plane landed back in London you could barely hold yourself up. You left the expo, went straight to the hotel to shower, pack and head to the airport.
Your flight was delayed. Your luggage was taking forever to get onto the belt. It was only seven, but fuck if you werenât ready to just call it a day. Tomorrow you would have to start again. Opening up the shop. Coming back to an empty flat. Maybe start gathering up the items the boys had left behind.
Should you give them in separate boxes or just one giant one and let them sort it out themselves? It was easy to discern whose sweatshirt and t-shirts belonged to who, but when it got to things like socks and chargers...
Yeah.
They could sort it themselves.
You could drop it off at Kyle's when you knew he would be at the gym. He was good at avoiding you anyway.
It wasn't until you stood in your apartment did it hit you.
You were alone.
For the first time in over a year you couldn't call one of them over to soothe that ache of loneliness.
For the first time in over a year, you had to relearn how to handle just being alone.
You usually showered at night. Washing away the grime of the day before settling into bed. But today was a new chapter. You woke up wanting to start it on a good note. Plus you went straight to bed after getting home so you still had a bit of airport funk on you.
It had been a week. One official since you had sent that text nailing the coffin shut. You had touched base with your friends who didn't bat an eye at you dating four men at once. They liked them, even if Simon scared them. You didn't give them the details of the breakup or the cause. You were pretty private in your problems and if you wanted relationship advice, you would seek an unbiased unopinion.
You had a good group of friends, but the moment you told them that you were well and truly heartbroken, they would insist the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. Something you were nowhere near ready for.
So you needed to look like you had your shit together. You put on a dress that was feminine and, most importantly, comfy as fuck. An A-line floral frock paired with a light sweater and some white trainers. You knew a few of your friends would be stopping by for tea so you need to look like you were taking the separation well. Even if you were barely holding it together.
With makeup and perfume on, you started the early morning stroll to your shop.
You loved openings. Starting up the register and selecting the playlist for today. Picking out the essential oil to put in the diffuser even though you mostly stuck with a lavender and vanilla blend during the spring months.
For the morning you stuck with a Taylor Swift Instrumental playlist you had found initially for studying, but you liked the peaceful feeling it brought. Even when it covered the most gut wrenching songs.
You had started to collect the online orders that had accumulated over the last week. Sending out the e-mails alerting to your patrons that their orders were ready for pick up. Luckily you weren't set to receive a delivery until tomorrow.
It was eight and everything was set. Although not many people came to a bookstore at eight in the morning, it really didn't bother you opening up that early considering you were the only employee that was on the payroll. It gave you the possibility of making money, but mostly you spent the morning reading or writing.
You flipped the sign over from CLOSED to OPEN. Ready to start take on the day.
You had turned the kettle on in the back room when your friends had stopped by around lunch. You always said it was just tea, but you always had an array of snacks on standby for you all to munch on.
Meredith was complaining about what a dick the new client at the law firm was being. An absolute slime who had been married to his wife for almost twenty-five years before he decided to fuck his twenty-two year old assistant.
Tabitha didn't want to talk about work. To her, her career in tech was just a paycheck. She did what she needed to do and left when she was done.
You talked about the expo and how your book. Although neither of them really read, they had promised that they would read your book. You didn't hold your breath. They had reposted your posts as well as making ones of their owns in celebration of you. Words of praise about your dedication and hard work.
You realized that even though they couldn't give you the support you needed as readers, they supported you blindly. You could have written absolute garbage, but they would still support you.
You talked about how many people liked your book and wanted pictures and to sign their copies.
Then came the question you had been rehearsing since you had texted them a week ago. They both shared a look before Meredith finally asked.
"How are you holding up?" You gave a half-smile and a shrug. So perfectly rehearsed in your head you were ready to deliver your lies lines.
"I'm fine," you lied. "It was just fading so there isn't much of a difference, I guess." Not necessarily a lie. "We just wanted different things and were on different paths in life." Not a lie. "It's for the best." You weren't sure if that last one was a lie or not just yet.
They both shared a passing look before returning their gazes back to you. "You know you can come to us about this stuff." Tabitha's hand reached across the table, placing a hand on top of yours.
"It wasn't going to work out." You added. "Situations like that don't and I should have known better."
"A situation?" Meredith asked. "When have you ever called it a situation?"
"It always was one."
"I love you enough to call bullshit." She raised her eyebrow at you, crossing her arms over her chest. "You loved them and you need to stop pretending this is easy."
"You're a divorce lawyer, Mere," You reminded. "You see marriages fall apart every day."
"I do. I get to see from across the table how a woman is still willing to take her cheating arse of a husband back. So the fact that you went from on cloud nine with all of them to not even talking about the break up is concerning to say the least."
"Tabitha," you looked at your only ally left. "A little back up would be nice."
"I'm with her on this one." She confirmed. "You loved them. Not that I cared, but if you weren't talking about books or the shop, you were talking about them. What you did, where you went. How they fucked you."
"I think I'll miss that part the most." Mere sighed. "I lived vicariously through you."
"You know you could actually date people." Tabitha suggested.
"I'd rather live with chronic carpal tunnel than a man." You almost choked on your tea. If you were wearing pearls you would have used the comedic relief of clutching them to break the awkwardness of the current topic of conversation.
"That should be put on a t-shirt." You suggested
"I wouldn't mind it on a welcome mat to be honest." Tabitha added.
"But in all seriousness, cut this bullshit." Meredith gave you an sympathetic smile. "We're here. Good, bad and ugly."
You returned her smile. "I know."
You had closed up shop for the evening. Your lunch had gone longer than expected so now you were left doing the dishes and clean up during closing. You were setting the last cup on the drying rack when you heard the front door chime.
Shit.
You must have forgotten to lock the door when you turned the sign.
âIâm sorry!â You apologized, making your way out of the back break area and to the front of the store. âWeâre-â
âClosed.â He said, locking the door behind him. âI saw the sign.â
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đđ đđđđđđ Ëâ⥠â satoru gojo
đ§đđŤđđđŹ â your husband is unbearably clingy.
đđ¤đŁđŠđđŁđŠ â0.9k words. no pronouns used or specified gender for the reader. intended lowercase. established relationship (#married).
a/n. â iâm warning u guys right now that this is not proofread đ .. i literally just typed this up rq and posted it bc itâs been too long since iâve last posted something on here
p.s. the prompt was in my notes from a longgg time ago, but i believe itâs from @/creativepromptsforwriting .. if not please lmk !!
"c'mere, hold my hand," satoru pleads for what has to be the third time. he pouts at you, whoâs sitting on the countertop.
your brows furrow as you look up from your phone, "but, you're washing the dishes?â
he twists the faucet handle, and a steady stream of water flows down. after a brief glance at you, he places the plate beneath the water and says, "i know how to multitask, baby."
clinginess is defined as âthe tendency to stay near someone for emotional support, protection, ect.â but there has to be another term for what satoru is, because you can't give any of those things while holding his hand right now.
you let out a deep breath and turn off your phone, watching as the screen fades to black. "satoru, there's no way i'm sticking my hand in that dirty dishwater," you say, sliding your phone into your pocket.
he practically shoves the plate into the drying rack. "i can't believe this," he huffs. "we literally had vows."
âwhat are yââ
âwe had vows that said youâd love me in sickness and in health.â
"wellâŚare you sick?" you ask, crossing your arms across your chest.
he pauses his task of washing dishes, leaving them untouched. leaning over the sink, he rests his arms against its edge. he steals a furtive glance at you, only to find your gaze locked onto him. with a hint of hesitation, he softly mumbles, "no..." before you can respond, he interrupts, "but iâm in health, and the vows said that you have to love and cherish me in this state too."
you lean back, searching your mind for what the alternative of holding his hand would be. because in no world would you hold his hand in dishwasher. then, it hits you. "for now, would a hug make you feel better?"
he answers your question with a hum, and you can't believe he's debating whether or not to accept your offer after all that drama over holding hands in dishwater. even so, he adds, "i'll have to give it some thought."
two can play that game.
âitâs okay,â you say, gracefully hopping down from the counter. a smirk spreads across your face. âi could just goâsit on the couch?â slowly, you start to walk in his direction and make your way over to the living room.
he doesnât say anything, letting you do as you please. itâs not until you start to pass by him, that you get the reaction you wanted.
or atleast, somewhat similar to what you wanted.
"on second thoughtâ" he exclaims, and the dishwater swirls around him as he turns around, his hands still wet and dripping.
you cringe as small puddles gather on the tiles. "heyâ" but he interrupts you as he reaches out to grab your wrist. âewâIâwhat the hell?â
you instinctively try to pull back, but he slips his wet hand in yours; sealing your fate.
âsatoruââ
âwhat happened to nicknames?â
âsatoru.â
"âm not sure who that is. i go by a lot of names, but not that one. lets go down the list, yeah?â he clears his throat. âi go by "babe, baby, sweâ"
"you should consider adding "gojo" to that list."
"now, when have you ever called me gojo?â
"right now, in exactly ten seconds.â your husband gasps, hanging his mouth open. âsatoru goâ"
âwoah woah woahâwhatâd i do to deserve this treatment?â
âyou put your dirty dishwater hand in mine.â you jerk your hand back, struggling to escape free of his grip.
his grip tightens on your hand, âif youâre feeling like not loving me today then just say that.â
âheyâdonât discredit me. i offered you a hug and you said you had to âthinkâ about it.â
âcause holding your hand âs better.â
you sigh, âafter youâre done with the dishes, you can hold my hand as long as you want.â
he lets out a soft, thoughtful humâthe same hum that got you both into this situation in the first place. at the same time you shake your head, a mischievous twinkle appears in his eyes, and a smile twists onto the edges of his lips. "deal" he says, shaking your hand. âbut before-â
you tsk, making him drop his excuse.
âwhââ
"the quicker these dishes get done, the quicker youâll be able to hold my hand. so get on with itâgo," you playfully command, and his grip loosens in response. seizing the opportunity, you slide your hand out of his grasp. you look down at it, seeing bits of food thatâve stuck to your palm. gross.
you walk over to the sink, feeling the cool water flow over your hand, washing away the food and dirt that clung to your skin. as you stand there, you hear satoru's voice grumbling from behind, "i hate doing dishes,â and you canât help but snort.
before you know it, you feel his presence close behind you, his body pressing against yours. his arms encircle you, creating a cozy pocket of space between the counter and his body. satoru leans over your shoulder, gets a sponge from the soapy water, and starts washing a bowl. you simply lean back and look at his features.
the sight almost makes you want to stay in his arms forever. that is, until you realize the predicament you're in.
âyou did not,â you whine. you desperately try to break free from the cage heâs trapped you in, but your attempts prove more and more pointless.
"oh, yes, i did," he declares with a smile. âwhat did you say earlier?" he clears his throat before proceeding. "the faster these dishes are done, the sooner you'll be able to hold my hand," he says, mockingly imitating your tone. "so, the faster these dishes are done, the sooner you can leave and do anything you want."
you sulk and moan while you reluctantly grab a dish and a spare sponge from the sink. âi hate you.â
âi love you more.â
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cw. a lil age gap, but everyone is well over 18 (Gojo and Reader are ~40, Yuta is ~30)
Imagine the way ex-husband Gojo's eye twitches seeing how Yuta Okkotsu treats you.
You and Yuta had only seen each other in passing over the years. In fact, you never even officially met until he was several years out of school on the account of your innate technique causing Rika to go haywire. So while there was always a possibility of you seeing someone after the divorce, Satoru would never in his wildest dreams have guessed who it'd be. He'd heard through the grapevine that you only started seeing more of each other last year.
Satoru has to see you at the biweekly joint staff meetings between the Tokyo and Kyoto schools, made especially awkward after not one, but two (2) post-divorce make outs. The last time he kissed you while you were fighting, you shoved him away and booted him out of the house using your technique. Granted, you kissed him back, but you're not exactly on great terms right now.
So, it's bad enough that he has to see you as much as he does. Even worse is now that everything's out in the open, he has to watch you fawn over someone that's not him.
"You're so sweet!" you cry when Yuta surprises you during your lunch break with takeout from your favorite restaurant. "Thank you so much, but you really didn't have to do all this for me."
Yuta places a hand on the small of your back and guides you towards the door to the courtyard. Adjusting the picnic blanket slung over his shoulder, he asks, "Why not?"
"It's so much effort," you reply.
"For you? Nothing feels like much effort," Yuta says with a cheeky grin.
Satoru just catches a glimpse of you covering your face with your hand - as you always do when you blush - and then the two of you are out the door. It takes all his effort not to gag at how cheesy that was. Never mind how genuine Yuta looked about it.
Of course Satoru had taken you out for lunch while you were together. All kinds of lunches. Mom and pop shops, food stands, upscale restaurants, you'd done it all. Your new suitor wasn't doing anything for you that he hadn't done.
Suitor. What was this, the 1800's?
Suguru appears at his side while he stares after you.
"Was that Yuta?" he asks. "I'm impressed. He's supposed to be at a week-long training in Ibaraki."
Ibaraki? The prefecture that's over two hours away? He came all this way to have lunch with you?
Alright, Satoru never did that. Not that he wouldn't have! He totally would've if he'd, you know, thought of it.
Suguru seems oblivious to the emotional bomb he just dropped on his best friend. "I'm starving. Let's hurry up and go eat. I'm good with anything except KFC," he complains.
It takes a couple tries to get his attention, but Satoru eventually pulls himself out of his thoughts. He comforts himself with the notion that Yuta would be gone by the time he returned.
Imagine that while Yuta himself may be absent, his presence damn near haunts ex-husband Gojo to death.
You're already back in the meeting room by the time he and Suguru return from lunch, only you now have a full water bottle (he noticed you pout when you drank the last of it earlier), a sleeve of oreos sticking out of your bag, and a cute travel mug full of some hot drink that you definitely didn't have before.
If Satoru wasn't so preoccupied with insisting to himself that, 'I totally did things like that back in the day!' and provided his ex-wife wasn't the woman in question, he'd be thinking, 'Yuta Okkotsu, I was unfamiliar with your game.'
Even more frustrating is how energetic you look. You have your notes out and are nibbling on an oreo, kicking your feet back and forth as if there's not another two and a half hours left of this meeting.
It's not that Satoru doesn't want you to be happy. Quite the opposite, actually, since he'd gladly give his life if he thought he could guarantee your eternal joy and safety. He's just not sure what Yuta has that he didn't. Or doesn't.
"What does she see in him?" Satoru murmurs to himself later, when a bunch of the staff members go out for drinks. You're at the bar laughing with Yuki and Shoko.
He regrets speaking out loud when Sukuna snorts from behind him.
"How much time do we have?" your coworker says with amusement. He slides into the booth, nursing his sake bomb with ice. It's a travesty of a drink, if you ask Satoru, but to each his own.
"Great, it's my least favorite person," Satoru gripes.
Sukuna seems to take great pleasure in Satoru's misery. "I think Okkotsu's earned himself that title."
Now, Satoru hates the taste of alcohol nor is it ever a good idea for someone constantly using a cursed technique to get drunk, but he can't bring himself to care at the moment.
He snatches the drink from Sukuna's hand and downs the whole thing in one go.
Imagine how baffled ex-husband Gojo is when his son delivers a cursed artifact to him instead of you.
"Where's your mom?" he asks.
Sen hands over the small box covered in talismans while his best friend, Nao, lingers by the office door. Rolling his eyes, he says, "We had a mission in the area, so Sukuna-sensei had us deliver this."
"Not what I asked you, kid," Satoru replies, leaning back in his chair. He gestures for the boys to have a seat, but neither move.
Nao, who has a tendency to stir the pot if he thinks it'll be funny, pipes up, "She's on vacation for a week."
Since when did you take vacations? And why hadn't he heard of this?
"What's she doing for a whole week?" he asks.
Nao replies. "Okkotsu finished his training and whisked her away to some onsen in Obanazawa."
Sen smirks. "That snowy place that looks like it's from Spirited Away? How romantic."
"Super romantic." Stir, stir, stir, Nao Zen'in.
Sen was not a fan of anyone trying to get close to his mom. He'd seen how the divorce hurt you, but so far, Yuta worshipped the ground you walked on, so Sen was at least willing to not be too hostile towards him if it meant antagonizing his father.
Sen and his friend quickly say their goodbyes and head out to do whatever it is high school boys do. Once they're gone, Satoru pulls out his phone and searches 'onsen obanazawa.' The results show Ginzan Onsen, a place with traditional Japanese architecture with a beautiful snowy landscape. But according to the reviews, though a wonderful and charming place, it wasn't from the best onsen in Japan. He wants to scoff at the fact that his supposed 'replacement' chose anything but the best for you, but then he sees where Obanazawa is, which is in Yamagata prefecture.
Where you grew up. Where you and Satoru met.
How had it never occurred to him to bring you back there?
When he mopes on Suguru's couch later that evening, he tells his best friend the whole story. Suguru's delicate features are twisted into a grimace the whole way through.
"Why are you making such an ugly face?" Satoru asks miserably.
"I've never been ugly a moment of my life, Satoru."
"You know what I mean."
Suguru sighs and clicks his tongue. "They're not official?"
"So she keeps saying."
Though reluctant to kick his friend while he's down, Suguru decides that Satoru needs to know so he can mentally prepare himself.
"He's taking her on a romantic trip to a beautiful resort in her home prefecture. They may not be official now, but after a trip like that, there's no way she's coming back without a label. Hell, if they were official, she'd most likely be coming back with a ring."
Hearing that, Satoru contemplates finding a nice spot in the cursed artifact archive and falling into a coma for at least the next thousand years.
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just like that | m.s. |
matt sturniolo x fem!reader
based on this request :))
summary: after dating for four months without having sex, y/n finally decides that she's ready to take matt for a ride
warnings: smut; established relationship; unprotected p in v; oral (fem receiving); riding; mentions of questionable consent (NOT with matt dw); dirty talk; 18+
notes: damn i completely forgot about this im so sorry:/ i've just been so busy over the past week or so it completely went under the radar. def not my best work (i wrote it all today), but i wanted to get it up because i'm going on a trip through europe for 6 (SIX???!!?!?!) weeks and will probably not be able to post much when im there. anyways i hope u all enjoy!!
p.s. working on one more fic that i would LOVE to post before i leave tomorrow, if not it might be a while before im able to write again :/ it's gonna be a good one for the matt girlies though so keep ur eyes peeled ;)
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âDo you want anything from the kitchen baby?â Mattâs soft voice in my ear pulled me from the lull I was in, curled up beside him on the couch watching a movie. My drooping eyes fluttered open and I couldnât help but smile once I came face-to-face with my beautiful boyfriend. The late-August sun was setting, and it shone through the living room windows in just the way that made Mattâs gorgeous blue eyes almost transparent; a harsh contrast to his dark eyelashes and tidy beard. He was looking at me with such unclouded care, the way he always did, and it never failed to make my heart flutter.
Matt and I had met on social media about six months ago, and started dating just two months after that. Our earliest conversations online had consisted of occasionally discussing our shared interest in pretty embarrassing hobbies â playing Minecraft, journaling, and watching rom-coms to name a few â but those occasional conversations evolved into staying up all night messaging each other, multiple-hour long Facetime calls, and eventually meeting at a restaurant for our first date.
Although it hadnât been long since we started dating, Mattâs soul was one that I felt like Iâve known all my life. Never before had I felt more at home around another person than I did once I met him, and his presence in my life gave it a new level of stability that didnât exist before. I had dated a guy in high school for almost two years, but the quality in the time spent with Matt versus him was incomparable. I was sure that Matt was the person that I was meant to be with, and everyday he did something new to prove that to be true without even trying.
Another thing that I loved so much about Matt was that, even after months of dating, he hasnât once pushed me to have sex with him. In one of our early conversations, I had told him that my ex had always made me feel bad when I would turn down sex with him. While him and I did have sex a few times during our relationship, I had since come to terms with the fact that I really was just doing it to make him happy. Once Matt got over his immediate anger for me, he had sat me down and told me that he could wait forever, but that he wonât have sex with me unless I tell him Iâm ready.
That was months ago, and still, he has kept his promise. While we have done plenty of other things in bed, he has always made it a point to stop everything before it gets to the point of sex. At first, I felt riddled with guilt because I felt like I should want to have sex with my boyfriend âespecially one so kindhearted as Matt â but over time that guilt has fizzled out from Mattâs reassuring words and actions. He never ever put me in situations that he knew had the potential to make me uncomfortable, and wouldnât allow me to feel bad about it either.
Lately, though, I had been feeling slightly different. While before, I would squirm at the thought of anything more happening once Mattâs hand would slip out of my panties, now I feel a slight tightening in my stomach at the idea of more. And before, I would feel a certain level of nervousness as I felt the weight of his member in my hand, where now there is a flutter in my core at the thought of that same part of him filling me up.
Never before in my life had I felt any of these feelings, and I didnât quite know what to do with them. I was afraid of the abundance of dirty thoughts that flooded my own head constantly, and I realized that I was ready for more, but only with Matt. I had been contemplating on telling him this for the past week, but as I watched him walk back over to me on the couch in nothing but baggy grey sweats â the black ink of his tattoos hypnotizing me â my body reacted in such a way that let me know that tonight was the night.
âHere, I know you didnât say you wanted anything but I grabbed you a water anyways. I havenât seen you drink any yet today and you-â I cut Mattâs rambling off by climbing on top of his lap as soon as he was back on the couch; wrapping my arms around his neck and planting a deep kiss to his pink lips. He responded with a soft hum against my lips before wrapping his own arms around the small of my back. I opened my mouth slightly before pressing it against his again and moving them in a slow but passionate rhythm. Matt quickly followed suit, slipping his tongue through my parted lips before using it to explore my mouth. I fluttered my eyes open for a brief moment and caught a glimpse of Mattâs most beautiful features up close â lidded eyes, flushed cheeks, straight eyebrows â and released a satisfied sigh against his mouth.
I ran my hands through his soft brown hair, tugging slightly at the ends and eliciting a soft gasp from him as I felt my body flood with arousal. His hands travelled up and down my back, his firm yet somehow delicate touch a comfort that eased my nerves. From my place on his lap, I could feel a growing hardness against my ass. This wasnât uncommon, obviously, but in the past I usually pretended to ignore it pressing against me. This time however, I rolled my hips up and down, feeling it slide against my aching core. âBaby.â Mattâs voice was barely above a whisper against my lips, but the combination of shock and arousal was still evident in its tone as he grabbed firmly onto my forearms to hold me still.
I detached my mouth from his while still keeping our faces just centimetres apart. His breath was rapid, but so was mine as we stayed like that for a moment; wild eyed and equally uncertain. Finally, I repeated my action by grinding my hips against his clothed shaft; this time watching as his eyes rolled back slightly in pleasure. âY/n, what are you doing?â He mumbled, clearly wavering between making sure I was okay and wanting desperately for more. I continued grinding my hips against him, my mouth dropping open as I felt his shaft reach my nerves. âI want you Matt.â I whispered, and I watched as his eyes widened in shock; pupils dilated. âWhat do you mean?â He asked hesitantly, brushing his knuckles softly against my arms.
âI mean, Iâm ready. Ready to have sex again.â I blurted out, feeling my face immediately flush in equal parts nervousness and arousal as I waited for him to respond. His face was unreadable as he clearly tried to gauge whether or not I was serious. That was confirmed once he finally spoke. âA-are you sure? I donât want you to think just because Iâm hard we have to do anything, baby.â I felt his dick twitch in between my legs as he spoke, and it shot electricity down my spine. âI know Matt, but I really am sure.â I responded, running my hands up and down his bare chest and leaving a trail of goosebumps in my path.
He continued to stare at me, his eyes travelling wildly across my face; clearly still in a state of uncertainty. I, on the other hand, was growing more and more frustrated by the moment as the heat continued to grow between my legs. âGive me your hand.â I stated, and he obliged; placing his much larger hand in my own. I guided his hand down to the waistband of my sweatpants, inside of the material, and finally slid it against my dripping wet core. Intaking a sharp breath from the contact, I watched his face as it immediately darkened once he felt my arousal coat his fingertips.
âSee? I told you Iâm ready,â I leaned forward slightly, bringing my lips to his exposed collarbone and kissing it wetly. âSo please Matt, can you fuck me?â The room stayed silent for a beat, the only sounds being our ragged breathing, and I felt fear begin to trickle down my spine; worried that Matt might reject me. Just as I was about to retract everything I had just said, Mattâs hand snaked to the back of my head, guiding it up from his chest before crashing his lips onto mine.
I deepened the kiss immediately, feeling a mutual level of desperation like a surge of electricity between our lips that had never been there before. Mattâs hands began traveling all across my writhing body â taking his time on the curves of my ass â before planting firmly on my hips where he helped them grind against his rock hard member. Breathy, almost silent moans fell from both of our lips as our bodies slid against each other, and the deep-rooted sensation was taunting.
Mattâs hands slithered from my hips up to the bottom of my t-shirt, where he toyed with the material for a moment before detaching his lips from mine. âCan I take this off?â He asked, glazed eyes staring longingly into my own. I nodded, and without a momentâs hesitation my vision was blocked for a brief second by Matt peeling the fabric over my head and tossing it to the side. Once my vision returned, my view was of Mattâs hungry eyes glued to my bare chest.
Matt had seen my tits countless times before throughout our relationship, but at this moment it was like he was seeing them for the very first time. Mouth slightly parted, his breathing was ragged as he brought both hands to my chest and cupped my tits delicately between them; pushing them together slightly and brushing a thumb along each nipple. I hissed at the feeling, and that seemed to pull him from his trance, as his eyes immediately shot up to mine. âThis okay baby?â He asked, and I nodded my head wildly.
A smirk toyed at the corners of his mouth before he attached it to my left nipple. I released short moans as he sucked and nibbled it gently, still pressing my core against his throbbing shaft. I felt myself falling deeper and deeper into a trance that I had never experienced before, and it was like my body and mind had completely separated as I mindlessly tugged desperately at the waistband of his sweats. Catching on to my gesture, Matt shifted slightly below me before using one of his hands to haphazardly pull his sweats down slightly; allowing his cock to spring up in between my legs.
I gasped at the sight before me, only now realizing its true size with it between my legs and feeling just a tinge of excited fear trying to figure out just how it was going to fit inside of me. Shaking the thought from my mind, I collected a pool of saliva in my mouth before spitting it in my hand and bringing it down to his shaft.
Running my thumb along his slit, I felt his whole body shudder below me from the contact. I began pumping my hand up and down his length; spending extra time twisting my wrist around his sensitive tip, and watched as his mouth went slack on my tits. âMmm, keep doing it just like that baby.â He muttered against my plump skin, and I continued to work his cock in my hand while simultaneously grinding my core against its base. Just knowing that I was making him feel good was making me feel good, and my eyes rolled to the back of my head in pleasure.
After a few short moments, I felt Mattâs hands snake to the waist band of my own sweats. My eyes found his again, and I watched as they searched my face. âYouâre sure you want this, Y/n?â He asked, his voice gentle but laced with a huskiness that could only be explained as pure desire. I nodded desperately once again, feeling so pathetic but not capable of giving a shit. âIâm sure baby, please.â My voice had a slight whine to it, making my frantic need even more evident.
Planting a soft kiss to my lips, he grabbed firmly onto my sweats and began peeling them off of my body. I lifted my hips up slightly to assist him in this, and once I dropped them back down, I hissed from the feeling of my bare core against his cock. âMatty, I need you right now.â I practically cried out, leaning my body forward and planting nibbles and kisses along his exposed neck. The suspense was torturous, my body only just now recognizing how badly it was craving his.
His hands cupped my ass, and he used his grip to lift me just a couple inches off of him. I felt him spread me open slightly before dragging a finger once again against my aching folds. âMmm, so wet for me baby.â I released a breathy moan at the combination of his touch and words, and squirmed in his grasp. âIâll help you get it in, but I want you on top. That way you can take it as slow as you need to, okay?â His voice softened as he spoke, and his hands massaged me gently causing me to physically relax. âO-okay.â I muttered, so turned on that I was willing to do just about anything he wanted me to.
Just then, he placed a soft kiss to my lips before I felt the very tip of his cock brush against my opening; causing me to gasp. âShh, itâs okay baby. Iâll go slow.â He whispered in my ear, and I pressed my forehead into the crook of his neck in anticipation. Finally, I felt my walls begin to expand as he pressed the first few inches into me. Moaning at the sensation, I felt my whole body flush in immediate lust. As if they had a mind of their own, my hips subconsciously began lowering onto his shaft; taking more and more of him as I sunk down.
A moan fell from his lips as my walls enveloped him inch by inch, and I slowly lifted my head from his neck and straightened my body up to allow more of him to fill me up. Even though he was big and I hadnât had a dick in me in a long time, my slick arousal allowed him to bottom out without causing me to feel any pain; only indescribable pleasure. Once every inch of him was in me, I stayed still for a moment looking down at him. His desire was plastered across every inch of his face, and it made him look impossibly beautiful. There was no fear in me in that moment, only want, and so I began riding him.
As soon as I propelled my body up and down his shaft just once, I felt a pit of arousal begin to grow in my stomach. Groaning in pleasure, I continued with my moments; holding onto his shoulders to keep my trembling body stable. âMmm you feel so good baby.â Matt moaned out, his eyes never leaving my pinched face. After a while, my body adjusted completely to his size and I was able to increase my speed. As I slid my walls up and down his shaft, Matt gripped onto my ass with all his might, using his hands to help me maintain my speed.
Moans fell from my lips as his cock ruthlessly hit my g-spot, and I felt my lower stomach build in pressure. âFuck.â I muttered under my breath, feeling my skin go flush from the heat of the moment. The room filled with the echo of our wet skin slapping against each other, adding to the erotic air around us. Prolonged strings of moans fell aimlessly from my lips, and as I came closer and closer to my impending climax I began struggling to maintain my movements.
Matt seemed to pick up on this, as he adjusted his hips and began pounding into me from below; his hands holding me in place where I just clung onto him for dear life. âF-fuck Matty, like that. S-so good.â I cried out, my voice choppy from his rapid movements. My brain melted into a pool of liquid as all I could think about was reaching my high that was just out of reach. âYouâre taking me so good baby.â Matt groaned out as he continued driving his length into me, staring deeply into my eyes with a fogged over expression.
âI-I think Iâm gonna â oh god, think Iâm g-gonna cum Matt.â My eyes rolled to the back of my head and I dug my nails into his shoulder blades, struggling to give into this new overwhelming sensation bubbling up inside of me. At this, a guttural moan fell from his lips and he somehow increased the speed of his thrusts even more. âWant you to cum around me baby, please.â There was a desperate whine to his voice as he spoke through his shortness of breath, and it was enough for me to reach my climax. Legs shaking, I released a plethora of moans and curses as my body was hit with multiple waves of indescribable pleasure. âGood girl, feels so good honey.â Mattâs voice was soft in my ear, and it helped to bring me back to earth as my hurricane of an orgasm left my body in shambles.
I continued to bounce on Mattâs dick slowly as I attempted to regain what little composure I had before my orgasm stole it from me, but I quickly learned that all of my energy had been stripped away. My body was trembling uncontrollably, and my head was filled with a fog that made it difficult for me to stay upright. Matt caught on to this, as he planted his hands firmly on my hips, keeping me still, before reaching forward and kissing me deeply. âYou tired, baby?â He asked gently, rubbing circles on my sensitive skin. Sheepishly, I nodded, and Matt didnât hesitate before guiding me off of his lap and helping me lay down on the couch.
As soon as my head hit the soft material, I felt my body immediately begin to relax again. I watched from my place on the couch as Matt began to slowly crawl over to me, before leaning above me. âYou did so good baby,â He brought his lips to my chest and began dropping soft kisses against my skin, âNow,â His mouth travelled from my chest down to my stomach, âI want you to just lay here and relax,â He continued to move his lips down my stomach to my hips, âLet me make you feel good, okay?â His face was now hovering above my swollen heat, and I couldnât help but nod frantically, feeling a sudden need to have his mouth on me.
Matt situated his body so that he could lay down with his face still just above my core. He brought both of his hands to my folds and I flinched as he used his thumbs to spread them apart slightly; exposing my bundle of nerves to the air. My vision partially skewed by his hair flopping in front of his eyes, I watched in awe as he brought his mouth closer and closer to where I needed it the most; before immediately gasping in pleasure once I felt his warm tongue make contact with my clit.
Immediately, Matt got to work in swirling his tongue in expert circles on my overstimulated nerves. This sensation in combination with his rough beard against my inner thighs was so intense it was almost painful in the best way possible, and I was incapable of controlling the throaty moans that fell from my lips as I watched him devour me entirely. Matt then used his mouth to suck on my nerves, bringing forward yet another new sensation that drove me crazy. It felt so unbelievably good, my hands flew to his hair where I held firmly; doing everything in my power to keep him in place. âOh yeah baby, please, just like that.â I struggled to get the words out through my constant gasps of pleasure, but it was clear that they didnât fall on deaf ears as Matt moaned in pleasured acknowledgement against my heat and kept his rhythm and pressure the exact same.
Feeling another orgasm begin to bear its teeth in my stomach, it was like my hips grew a mind of their own because as soon as Matt brought his hands under my ass to lift me slightly up on the couch; I began grinding my heat against his eager mouth. âFuck.â He moaned against my clit as he continued to greedily suck and lick my nerves. I squeezed my eyes shut as a whine escaped my lips from an approaching orgasm, the pleasure that his mouth was giving me was too much. âS-stop baby.â I said suddenly, to which he immediately detached his mouth from me and I watched as his eyes scanned my fucked out face. âWhatâs wrong? You want to stop?â He seemed so concerned, clearly worried that he had somehow crossed a boundary, and it caused my chest to flutter. âN-no. Itâs just, I was gonna cum again.â He raised a quizzical eyebrow, clearly confused by how that might be a problem. âIâŚI want to cum with you.â I finally said, and watched as his facial expression changed from one of concern back to one filled with lust.
He smiled quickly before dragging his body up my own, planting occasional kisses along my body on his way. Once he reached my head, he immediately began kissing me passionately, slipping his tongue through my parted lips and allowing me to taste myself on his mouth. Pulling away, I noticed my arousal laced throughout his beard, and that along with his pink swollen lips fresh off of my heat was enough to make my head spin. Just then, I felt him line his shaft up with my entrance, and immediately gasped out when he slid it in completely. Before moving at all, Matt took a moment to gaze down at my destroyed face before grabbing my legs and wrapping them around his waist. He then leaned forward and propped himself on his forearms on either side of my head; slipping a hand through my hair and grabbing onto it gently.
After noticing my body relax, he finally began thrusting into me. Starting off slow and deep, he gradually increased his speed until he was pounding his inches deep into me at a rapid pace. Already being close to cumming, I struggled to get a grip on my thoughts as the pleasure of the moment pulled me deeper and deeper into a world of euphoria. âYouâre so tight sweetheart.â He muttered through his grunts, and I felt my eyes roll to the back of my head at his words. âF-feels so good Matty.â I managed to reply, tightening my legs around his waist as I tried everything I could to hold off my orgasm.
Mattâs hand snaked through my hair before he grabbed onto my cheek, brushing it gently with his thumb as he stared at me with a gaze so intense that it was almost intimidating. âI-Iâm close Y/n.â He nearly whispered, and I felt his pace begin to slow slightly as he began to be overtaken by his own orgasm. My eyebrows knitted together as I felt my walls began to break. âM-me too.â I replied, wrapping my hands tightly around his biceps to keep me grounded. âAh fuck, Iâm cumming baby.â His erotic words were followed by a string of animalistic grunts as he drove his cock in and out of me â slow but hard â and it was like my body was waiting to hear those words as my second orgasm immediately ran through me like a freight train.
My breathy moans harmonized with his deep ones, and I felt my walls contract around his shaft; milking his dick as it painted them white. My legs were wrapped so tightly around his waist, he was barely able to move them as we both rode the waves of our intense pleasure. As my orgasm continued to tear through me, my back arched off of the couch and my body trembled. From above me, Matt watched me writhe in bliss as his movements completely stopped. As I finally began coming down from my high, I felt his hand brush through my hair affectionately, and watched as his face turned up in a smile before he placed a deep kiss to my lips.
He gently pulled his cock out of me, causing me to wince from the raw pain, before laying beside me on the couch and pulling me into him. Face to face, we stared lovingly at each other for a moment; my mind still spinning from how good he had made me feel, and in that moment I was worried that my heart might explode. His blissed expression told me that he was feeling the same, and his hand delicately rubbing the small of my back confirmed it. âAre you okay?â He finally asked, minor concern visible on his beautiful face. âIâm more than okay.â I answered honestly with a chuckle, causing him to laugh in relief as well. âI think I actually love sex.â I continued, causing him to really laugh this time before planting a kiss on my sweat-beaded forehead. âWell I think I actually love you.â
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Summary: Not wanting to face Joel after you found out that you're pregnant, you leave the Boston QZ to live with Bill and Frank. Almost four years pass before you can't hide from him anymore, letting him finally know why you ran from him all these years back.
Pairing: Joel Miller x fem. reader
Wordcount: 6.7k
Rating: E
Warnings: angst, unplanned pregnancy, secret pregnancy, secrets, fluff, trust issues, Joel being Joel, making up, kissing, age gap (not specified but it's around 15 years), smut (unprotected sex), mentions of alcohol, Joel really is bad at feelings, but he's trying, Girl Dad Joel Miller, happy end
A/N: if these two had a relationship status it would be "it's complicated" Another WiP done! So now I am allowed to think about Biker Raider Joel for a moment, right?
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âYou know youâll have to face him at some point,â Frank had a fond smile on his lips as he sat in his wheelchair next to you. He was watching Bill who let himself chase across the yard of his picture perfect post apocalypse home.Â
Nobody would expect that just down the street, outside of the fence the world as you knew it had ended.Â
âI know,â you sighed.Â
âHe asks for you every time heâs here. If we had seen you, if we knew where you are. Heâs gonna understand,â Frank said and you scoffed.Â
âHeâs not gonna care. He has Tess and⌠heâs notâŚâ you shook your head, searching for the words, âheâs not the man I fell in love with.â
âWe all can change,â Frank said, reaching over to squeeze your hand.Â
âBill is the best example for that. Could you have imagined him like that when you showed up here three years ago?â
You watched Bill play with your daughter, Ava, playing catch.Â
âJoel is not like that. He was like that. Before. But that part of him died long ago.â
You sat in silence for a while, just watching Bill and Ava, trying to soak it all in. It would never be like that again and you were already dreading having to explain all of this to her.Â
âIâm gonna miss you,â you whispered, fighting against the tears as you looked at Frank. He smiled softly at you before he came closer, kissing your forehead.Â
Four years earlier
You knew he could tell when you were lying. He would know with one look at you that you were full of shit telling him that this was not working for you anymore. Whatever this between you was.
Joel and you had known each other since before the outbreak. You had started babysitting Sarah to earn some extra money while you were finishing you degree when she had just been nine years old and you had moved in next door.
You had been there on outbreak day. Next door, still living at home to take care of your sick father. You would never get the picture of his infected body lunging at you out of your head the night the world changed.Â
You and Joel⌠You didnât know what Joel and you were exactly.Â
You loved Joel, you knew that. And you were pretty sure he loved you too. You just wanted⌠more. Most people did not allow themselves to love so openly anymore. And in Joelâs case? Losing Sarah had changed him. After fifteen years the man who had been Sarahâs father was gone, replaced by a man that still had his face, but was missing the warmth and comfort Joel Miller had once provided.Â
You could see it in glimpses, whenever his hand would rest on your back when he passed by. When he fell asleep in your arms deep in the night. When he kissed your forehead before he headed out for work.Â
Loving Joel Miller was easy.Â
Being loved by him was close to impossible.Â
You never really labelled your relationship, mostly because you did not think of it as important. You trusted him more than any other person on this planet. Itâs why you ignored the way he had started looking at Tess. Itâs why you did not question him when he stayed away at night. You ignored it all, opening your arms for him when he chose to come home to you, letting him in your bed just to feel close to him. To feel something.Â
The jealousy was killing you slowly, making you reckless when you let him have his way with your body.Â
But once you had missed your period the first month, and then the second, you knew that there was only one possible answer to your dilemma. You had never been late before. A ration card swapped for a twenty year old pregnancy test had your worst fears come true.Â
You were pregnant with Joel Millerâs child.Â
Fifteen years after you both buried his daughter. The daughter he never got over losing.Â
You could already see his reaction. The eyes you loved so much empty before he would tell you to deal with it.Â
You could not face his anger or disappointment, but mostly you could not face him not caring. So you packed your little belongings once he had left you in the morning, sneaking out of your bed without a word.
You did not leave a note, just fled the QZ, making your way over to Bill and Frank, hoping your friendship with Frank would make them take you in.Â
Of course Bill hadnât want to, but once he saw your stomach swell (and tasted the sweets you baked in his kitchen) he had put all his work into making the house next door into your home.Â
âMama, can we go get Strawbebbies?â you chuckled, holding her hand as you walked with her on your daily walk by the fence.Â
âStrawberries, baby,â you tried to correct her. Ava pouted at you, her dark curls swinging in the wind, her brown eyes so much like her fathers.Â
âThatâs what I said!â she put her little hands on her hips and you smiled.Â
She was definitely her fatherâs daughter.
âOkay, baby. Letâs get some Strawbebbies,â you picked her up, making her shriek with laughter. Once again you were glad you made the decision to come here. She could grow up like a child was supposed to.Â
Even though now that Bill and Frank were gone it was getting kind of lonely. You had all enjoyed a last dinner together before Bill and Frank had tucked Ava in for one last time and read her a story.Â
You had tried to keep the tears at bay as Bill had reminded you of the folder full of instructions of how to take care of things around here for you.Â
After dinner you had walked them to the gate, opening the fence for them as they took their last walk. You had watched them until they had disappeared into the dark woods before you made your way back to their house. You had cleaned the dishes and tidied everything up, before with a heavy heart, you had turned off all the lights and closed the door behind you before you walked to your house, allowing yourself to cry yourself to sleep as you sat on the floor next to the bed of your daughter, watching her sleep.Â
That night was almost three months ago. The days were getting shorter, the nights colder. Youâd have enough firewood for this winter but come spring you would have to find a way to make more.Â
You had just finished making breakfast for Ava when the motion detector alarmed you that someone was at the gate. You froze, telling Ava to eat her fruit salad before you made your way downstairs to check out what was happening.Â
Your heart was pounding against your chest, once you noticed his face.Â
Joel Miller.Â
And aâŚ. Teenage girl?
The gate swung open after he put in the code and you allowed yourself fifteen seconds to panic. You knew this day would come. The day after Bill and Frank had gone you had checked the basement, finding that Bill had put on 80âs music, the distress signal.Â
Even though you had turned it off immediately deep down you knew he would show up at some point.Â
You just did not think it would be that soon.Â
You grabbed your gun, checking if it was loaded before you made your way back upstairs. You did not think you would need it, but it was better to be prepared.Â
âAva? Remember when Uncle Bill played hide and seek with you and showed you the best place to hide?â you asked, hiding the gun in the back of your jeans as you got to your kitchen. She nodded.Â
âI want you to hide there until I come and get you,â you said.Â
âHide?â she asked. You nodded, kissing her cheek.Â
âTake Sluggi with you,â you smiled. Sluggi was the stuffed plush slug Bill had gotten for her. She nodded and ran out of the kitchen and upstairs, You heard her door to her room close and took a deep breath, calming yourself.Â
You knew this day would come. You knew one day you would have to face Joel Miller and you knew you would have to face his reaction.Â
You never regretted your decision to leave. Life has definitely been better here. That did not mean you had just stopped loving him, no matter how much he had hurt you in the past.Â
Stepping towards your front door you could see him walk towards Bill and Frankâs house.Â
You closed your eyes, taking a calming breath before you opened the door and stepped out.Â
His head snapped towards you once he heard the door opening, eyes widening for a split second before he pulled the girl that was with him behind his back.Â
He was protecting her.Â
âWhat are you doing here? Where are Bill and Frank?â he asked, his voice low.Â
âTheyâre dead. Frank got worse and⌠he couldnâtâŚâ you shook your head, lost of words. He just looked at you before he shook his head, trying to put in words what he wanted.Â
âI just⌠We need someâŚâ he took a deep breath, looking up at you, a million emotions playing over his face.Â
âAre you hungry?â you asked the girl behind him.Â
âStarving,â she replied and you smiled a little.
âThereâs some fruit salad left on the kitchen counter if you want?â you asked. She stepped around Joel and he looked at her.Â
âItâs safe. Thereâs⌠thereâs no one there,â you lied. He gave her a nod before she walked past you into your home.Â
It had been years since youâve been alone with him. He did not really change. His hair maybe a little grayer, the lines around his mouth a little deeper, but he was still Joel Miller.Â
âYou left,â he said.Â
âI did.â
âWhy?â
You took a deep breath. You looked past him towards the house the girl had walked in, hoping your little girl continued to hide. Knowing her she had was working on her puzzle. She would be okay for a moment.Â
You knew she was safe. You just needed a little moment alone.Â
âYou can have some fruit salad too. I am going to get some vegetables for dinner,â you gave him a nod, before you turned around and walked towards your garden, ignoring him as he called after you.Â
With a basket full of salad, cucumbers and some tomatoes you pushed the door of your house open. Joel was sitting on the stairs, across the door, already looking at you.Â
The girl walked past the both of you towards the living room, an apple in her hand she was munching on.Â
âThis is so fucking weird,â she shook her head and you snorted while Joel hissed at her.Â
âWhat? It is weird,â she said, her head turned towards him.Â
You smiled a little as you looked at her, before you walked towards the kitchen, setting the basket down. You had to go up to check on Ava.Â
And you had to talk to Joel.
You couldnât hide her from him, even though you wanted to do nothing more than that.Â
You took a deep breath when he walked into the kitchen.Â
âIs it okay if Ellie takes a shower?â He asked, knowing that there was warm water around town.Â
âThatâs her name. Ellie,â he clarified.
âOh. Of course, yeah,â you nodded and Ellie walked in, snorting as she looked up at Joel.Â
âYou could use one too dude,â she said and you had to fight hard against the grin as you watched the look on Joelâs face.Â
You were about to offer her to show her to the bathroom when you heard a door upstairs click open, followed from little footsteps, your eyes widening. Joel frowned, his hand immediately searching for his gun, his arm putting Ellie behind himself.Â
He raised his gun, taking a step forward as you ran around the counter, the knife you had put out to cut the salad now in your hand.Â
âGun down,â you hissed and his head snapped to you, his eyes widening when he saw the knife in your hand. You stood in front of him.Â
âI will not repeat myself, put the gun down, right now or I will put this knife in your thigh,â you fingers flexed around the handle of the knife. The footsteps came closer as you kept eye contact with Joel until he slowly lowered his gun. You nodded at him once you saw him put the gun back to wherever it came from, then looked at Ellie who was looking at you with wide eyes, before you let the knife fall down to the floor just in time as Ava jumped the last step down, rounding the corner.Â
âPotty?â She whispered shyly, looking up at you with big eyes and you sighed, before you nodded, the people behind you forgotten as you picked your daughter up. You risked a glance at Joel as you turned towards the stairs, your daughter in your arms.
His lips parted as if he wanted to say something, before you practically ran up the stairs.Â
âWho is the man mommy?â Ava asked as she was finished, washing her hands like you taught her, making as many bubbles as possible as she rubbed her hands together.Â
You sucked your bottom lip in as you watched her, your hand brushing over her soft hair.Â
âThat is an old Friend of mommy,â you explained, and she nodded.Â
âAnd the girl?â She asked.Â
âThat is a friend of him, I think. I am not sure.â
She finished washing her hands and you handed her the towel, her little face full of concentration as she dried her hands, making you smile.
You got down on your knees in front of her, your hands on her shoulders.Â
âDo you think sheâs gonna play with me?â She asked, hopeful.
âWe can ask her,â you said with a smile.
You werenât prepared for the sight in your kitchen when you came downstairs. Joel was standing at the counter, the sleeves of his shirt rolled back as he cut the tomatoes with the knife you had threatened with him not only ten minutes ago.Â
He didnât look up as you entered the room, but Ellie did. You looked between them warily.Â
âIâm Ava,â your daughter chirped and you took a deep breath, Joel still not looking up. Ellie looked at him with a frown, before she sighed, rolling her eyes, and walked towards you.
âIâm Ellie,â she said and smiled a little and bend down to her knees. Ava looked first at her, then at you.Â
âEllie, do you like sea turtles?â You asked and the girl looked at you.Â
âUhâŚ. I guess?â She said and you smiled.Â
âBecause Ava loves them. Her whole room is full of them,â you said and saw interest flicker in her eyes.
âCan I see?â Ellie asked and you nodded.Â
âYou wanna show Ellie your sea turtles?â You asked Ava and she nodded eagerly.Â
âAwesome,â Ellie said, taking Avaâs hand before you could offer to show them, the girls already walking upstairs towards Ava's room.Â
Which left you alone in the kitchen withâŚ.
âHow old is she?â Joel asked, still not looking at you as you turned to face him. He grabbed the cucumber after he had used the knife to put the tomatoes in the bowl you had prepared for the salad, beginning to slice them.Â
You took a deep breath.Â
âShe turned three last month,â you said, watching him nod slowly, the knife hitting the cutting board the only noise in the room.Â
âShe has my eyes,â he finally said and you sucked your bottom lip in, nervous.Â
âYeah she has,â you agreed and he finally looked up at you, setting the knife down, his hands spread out on the counter, resting his whole weight on them.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â He asked, his voice quiet.Â
âI didnât know how. JoelâŚ. You were barely acknowledging me outside of when you were inside of me. You spend all your time with Tess doing god knows what. How would you have reacted if I told you that I was pregnant? You never even acknowledged what weâŚâ you stoped yourself, shaking your head.Â
âYou should have told me. I could haveâŚâ he stopped himself, searching for what to say and you looked at him, waiting.Â
âI could have helped you. I would haveâŚ.â He shook his head, his hands shaking.Â
âIâm gonna need a moment. Can you watch after Ellie?â He asked and you nodded, confused and he nodded back before he walked past you and out of the house.Â
You just didnât think it would be almost two days before he got back. You were outside in Billâs garden, letting the girls help you pick everything that was ready from the garden when you noticed him walk towards the house.Â
You knew he was still inside the little locked up town Bill had made his safe haven. None of the alerts had went off, indicating he had left. And yeah you could have searched after him, but what good would it have done?
Youâve known him from almost twenty years, and you knew that he needed time to process certain things.Â
He hadnât talked to anyone in almost a year after the outbreak and what happened to Sarah.Â
âLook what the cat dragged in,â Ellie said as she spotted him and Ava perked up, her little head turning towards where Ellie was looking.Â
Joel nodded at the girls before he looked at you.Â
The sun was already setting and you had dinner prepared inside.Â
âHow about we have some dinner and then Ellie can read you some more of the story you started yesterday?â You asked and both girl smiled at you. Ava ran past Joel who looked after her as she disappeared into the house, Ellie following her.Â
âNext time you ditch me, at least tell me?â She glared at him before she walked back into the house. He sighed, running a hand through his messy hair.Â
âCan we talk?â He asked.Â
âAfter dinner?â You said, getting up and grabbing the basked full of fresh vegetables.Â
âYeah. Yeah okay,â he nodded and you walked towards the house, giving him a hesitant smile when he grabbed the basket from you and walked inside after you.Â
It was two hours later that you found yourself on the left corner of your couch, your legs tucked under you, a glass of wine in your hand.Â
Because this conversation needed some alcohol.Â
And not only because of what you were about to talk about, but because of the man who was sitting on the other side of the couch, similar glass of wine in his hand.Â
Because he looked so damn good.
He had showered while you put the girls to bed after dinner, the whole scene feeling so domestic. Like a dream you had many many times before when you were still dreaming.Â
Dreaming of a normal future.Â
Dreaming of a normal life.Â
Dreaming about how it would feel like if Joel Miller loved you back.Â
Because no matter how much he may have hurt you in the past, you just could not stop loving him.Â
âIâm sorry,â he whispered after a while and you turned your head to look at him, his eyes already on you.Â
âIâm shit at talking about those thingsâŚ.â He stopped.
âThose things meaning feelings?â You helped and he groaned.Â
âYeah. Always sucked at it. Even beforeâŚ.âÂ
He sighed.Â
âSarah would be so angry with me with how I treated you,â he whispered and your eyes softened. You could count on one hand how often he had brought Sarah up ever since she died.Â
And while you thought you could understand him in the past, you loved her like yours after all, now that you had Ava, you realised that loosing her would kill you.Â
It would be something you could never come back from.Â
But he did.Â
âI never cheated on you. I know you thought I did, canât blame your for it. Tess was justâŚ. Fuck, how do I explain this?â He sighed, his fingers rubbing over his chin.Â
âI never deserved you. Youâre too fucking good for me. For everyone really. Because even after the whole world went to shit, you still had some kindness left for everyone around you. I know how much you hated what we did in the beginning. And I hated myself for putting you through it. I hated myself for putting you through everything I did to you since the moment Sarah diedâŚâ he said and you could see his eyes watering.Â
âCanât blame you for hating me and leaving. And not telling me aboutâŚ.â
âJoelâŚ.â You said, setting your glass down and getting closer towards him, your hand reaching for his. Slowly he turned his hand so you could put yours in it, his fingers wrapping around your hand softly.Â
âIâm not gonna lie and tell you that itâs okay. Cause I was hurting. You were hurting me. Every time you left in the morning without a word. Every time you passed out drunk and drugged after you came back. It was like living with a ghost and it was killing me. That was the reason I decided to leave when I found out. I couldâŚ. I couldnât bring a child into this. And I knew I wanted her before I even met her. Even though it seems crazy to bring a child into this world. But⌠She was half you. And the thought that there was even the possibility that you didnât wanted herâŚ.â You took a deep breath.Â
âHonestly? I canât tell you how I would have reacted. I was⌠I was really fucked up in the weeks before you left. I was taking too many drugs. Drank too much. Got too fucking reckless. But that changed when you left,â he said and squeezed your hand.Â
âNot right away. It might have gotten worse first but⌠I got better. Not perfect, but better. And I⌠Fuck I even talked through some shit with someone. Made me realise I never even told you how much I love you,â he said and you were pretty sure you stopped breathing as he looked at you, a small smile tilting his lips up.Â
âPretty sure I fell for you the first time you walked through my door wearing that pretty baby blue dress. Even though you were way too young for me. Still are. ButâŚ. I hope you knew, know. I really fucking love you,â he said and you felt a tear running down your cheek.Â
âCan you tell me about her? About Ava?â He asked before you could form an answer to his confession. And so instead you told him.Â
You told him about how you craved strawberries your whole pregnancy. How Bill traded one of his guns for the seeds from Tess.
You told him that she only slept through the night in the beginning, when Bill put her to sleep.Â
You told her how much she reminded you of Sarah when she smiled at you.Â
You told her how every time you looked at her you saw him.Â
Hours went by where you two talked, you ending up leaning against Joelâs side, his arm around you. His fingers brushing over your arm, his other hand still holding yours. His lips brushing over your skin when he told you about how Ellie ended up at in his care.Â
How he wanted to take her to Wyoming to search for his brother who might know how to find the fireflies.Â
âDo you know where he is?â You asked and he shrugged.Â
âNot exactly. I know he messaged me from the Cody tower, so thatâs where weâll be going,â he mumbled and you nodded.Â
âWe could take Billâs truck,â you said and he stilled. You looked up at him.Â
âWe?â He asked and you chuckled, sitting yourself up so you were facing him, your hand now on his cheek.Â
âYou really think Iâm gonna let you go now?â You asked with a smile.Â
And then you finally kissed him.Â
It was decided that you would leave within the next 5 days, giving you enough time to make a list (You always made lists) of everything you had to pack.Â
Which was a lot. Getting four people across the country on a trip that hopefully would be just like you remembered road trips to be, took a lot of supplies.Â
And while you were preoccupied deciding which food was best to take, Joel had asked you if he could spend some time with Ava. He wanted to get to know her. And of course, you agreed. Watching him, Ellie and Ava walk towards the garage where they spend hours doing god knows what.Â
It was almost dark outside when they walked back in, your heart melting as you watched Joel carry a very sleepy Ava inside who told you all about how seatbelts where very scary, something you would make sure to ask Joel about as you took her upstairs, putting her to bed.Â
The days went by quickly like that.
Joel quickly became Avaâs favourite person which could have to do with the fact, that she was always allowed to sit on his shoulders. Ellie had been confused, yet delighted at the change in the grumpy man she had left the QZ with.Â
He even got his Dad jokes out, making the teenager groan in mock annoyance throughout the day. Ellie also spend a lot of time with you, wanting to learn everything you offered to teach her. Starting from making protein bars for the trip down to how to properly braid her hair.Â
Even though she preferred you doing it.Â
You got the impression that she never really had anyone how just⌠listened to her or wanted to spend time with her. She told you she grew up in FEDRA School and that her mother had died while giving birth.Â
She had no family and her best friend (though you got the impression Riley had been more than just a friend) had died not that long ago.Â
That the only thing she had left in life was her purpose to save the world. Joel had told you that she was immune, Ellie showing you the healed scars to confirm it.Â
âYou know that thatâs not the only thing you have left, right?â You asked her, sitting on the porch next to her, enjoying one last sunset, watching Joel and Ava play soccer. Her little feet chasing after Joel with happy squeals.Â
âWhat do you mean?â Ellie asked and you looked at her with a smile.Â
âYou have us, Ellie. You think we just gonna let you go?â You asked and she stubbornly shook her head.Â
âI have to do this. Itâs my purpose. I have to save the world,â she said and looked away from you.Â
âAre you saying this because you feel that way, or because someone told you so?â You asked and she looked at you.Â
âBecause it should be your decision what to do and what not. And⌠think about it, even if they are somehow able to make a cure out of your blood, do you really think they will be able to make enough to make a vaccine for everyone? Who will decide who gets it? And if they end up deciding on giving it to everyoneâŚ. There are so many bad people out there. Do they deserve to be saved too?â You asked and you could see her thinking about your words and you smiled softly at her.Â
âEven if you donât like hearing it, your a kid Ellie. You should grow up and live first before you make a decision like that. You donât even know how they would get whatever they needed from your blood. If I remember correctly Cordyceps grow in the brain, what if they have to get into your brain to get out whatever they need?â You said and her eyes widened.Â
âBut MarleneâŚ.â She whispered and you reached over her, taking her hand.Â
âI donât know how well you know Marlene, but Iâve known her for more than ten years. I know how she manipulates people to get what she wants. You wouldnât even notice it,â you said and she sighed.Â
âIâm gonna think about it,â she said finally and you gave her a small smile.Â
âThatâs all I ask about. Now how about you get upstairs and take one last long hot shower before we are on the road for days?â You asked and she nodded, standing up and turning away from you to walk inside the house before she turned back to you and hugged you quickly.
After saying good night to Ellie later you walked towards your daughters room, her little suitcase for her toys laying open next to her bed, waiting for Sluggi to be put into the next morning. She was already in bed, Joel sitting on the floor next to her, reading to her.Â
You wished you could take a picture of this. Unfortunately the Polaroid camera had broken earlier this year.Â
âMommy!â A tired Ava smiled as she saw you, her arms raised towards you. Joel looked up and smiled at you as you walked over, climbing into the bed behind your daughter, pulling her into your arms.Â
âWhat story is Joel reading you?â You asked.Â
âThe little mermaid,â she said and you found Joelâs eyes. You had been thinking about it for the last days now. Telling her who Joel really is. He slipped into your life like the missing piece, the man you had fallen in love with all these years back seemingly falling right back into his role as being the best father there ever could be.Â
So before you could talk yourself out of it you said
âYour sister loved that one too.â
Joel gulped, his eyes growing sad for a moment, before he looked at Ava.Â
âI have a sister?â She asked you, her eyes big.
âMmmhâŚ. Her name was Sarah. She watched the movie every single night before she went to bed,â you explained and Ava pursed her lips in an ooooh motion.Â
âThere was a movie?â She asked in awe.
âOh yeah there was. And a cassette with the music. Canât remember how often she made me listen to itâ Joel said and smiled softly.Â
âWhere is Sarah?â Ava asked and your smile went sad.Â
âSheâs where Uncle Bill and Uncle Frank are. Watching over us,â you explained and she hummed.Â
âI wish I could hug her,â she whispered and you nodded, tears in your eyes, squeezing her against your chest, your hand reaching out Joelâs hand finding yours as you kissed her forehead, looking at him who had tears in his eyes.Â
âMe too baby. Me too,â you whispered before taking a deep breath.
âYou know Joel is her daddy,â you finally said and she looked at you.Â
âHe is?â She asked and you nodded.Â
âI bet he is the best daddy,â she sighed and you chuckled at Joelâs cheeks turning pink.Â
âYeah he is. What would you say if I tell you that Joel is your daddy too?â You asked and her big eyes looked at you first and then her head turned towards Joel.Â
âMy daddy?â She asked and both you and Joel nodded with a smile, her smile getting wider, before she jawned.
âI always wanted a daddy,â she whispered before her eyes dropped close.Â
You were walking down the stairs to Bill's basement after you showered, finding Joel checking if he could manage to take any more guns. The supplies had all been packed into the truck already, but he just couldnât bring himself to leave anything of value behind.Â
He looked up when he heard your footsteps, giving you a small smile.Â
Walking over to him you were surprised when he reached for you, pulling you into his lap, one of his arms looped around you, his other hand on your cheek, his fingers brushing over your skin.Â
âI didnât know you were gonna tell her,â he whispered and you smiled.Â
âShe deserves to know. Iâm sorry I didnât tell her sooner. If I would have stayed you wouldnât have missed so muchâŚâ he stopped you by kissing you softly.Â
âNone of that. We both know I would have fucked this up. I would have said some really fucked up things and hurt you even more. So, thereâs nothing you have to be sorry for, okay?â He looked at you, his eyes pleading.Â
You released a long breath, bringing both of your arms up to cross behind his neck.Â
âHave I told you lately that I love you, Joel Miller?â You whispered with a small smile that he mirrored.Â
âDonât think so. But I donât blame you, I gotta say it a lot more often than you to make up for all the years I didnât tell you. I do love hearing it though. Love you,â he mumbled before he kissed you again. His lips moving on top of yours slowly, his hand tilting your head up a little so he could deepen the kiss.Â
With a little sigh you parted your lips for him, his tongue dipping into your mouth, a deep moan coming from him, his arm pulling you closer against him.Â
There had been lots of making out in the last days, stolen kisses when the girls werenât in the room, secret touches under the table while you had dinner.Â
But you havenât slept together.Â
And you were ready.Â
âJoel,â you mumbled, parting from his lips. He hummed, his lips running down your jaw.Â
âWe arenât gonna be alone for a while,â you whimpered, your head tilting up to give his wandering lips some more space.Â
âWhat are you proposing?â He asked, playfully nibbling on your neck.Â
âIâm proposing that you fuck me, Miller. Right here,â you gasped when you felt his other hand slip between your legs.Â
âRight here?â He asked, his fingers over the seam of your slick panties.Â
âMmmmhhâŚ.â You closed your eyes, biting your lip when he pushed the fabric to the side, his fingers dipping between you slick folds, lazily teasing you.Â
âAll that for me?â He asked and you opened your eyes, crashing your lips against his.Â
âItâs been almost four years Joel. Please donât tease me,â you whined and his eyes softened before he picked you up and set you down on the table behind him. Within the next minutes you were both naked, your hands in his hair as you kissed him as he stood between your parted legs, the heavy weight of his cock resting against your stomach.Â
âGonna need to prepare you,â he hummed, his hands on your ass. You shook your head.Â
âPlease just fuck me. You know I can take it,â you whined, one of your hands wrapping around his cock, making him hiss. He groaned, sucking your bottom lip between his before he slapped your hand away, his dark eyes fixed on yours as he held his hand out to you. Waiting.Â
Feeling your whole body heat up you spit in his hand and the left corner of his mouth twitched.Â
âMy good girl,â he praised you and you couldnât stop whimpering.Â
He brought his hand down to wrap it around his cock, coating it in your saliva, before he lined himself up. You had dripped on the table you were sitting on, more than ready to take him.Â
âI love you,â he whispered and you looked at him with a soft smile, your lips parting when he slowly pushed his cock into you. Filling you inch by inch, both of you starring into each others eyes.Â
âMissed this,â you moaned.Â
âMissed you,â you crossed your legs behind him, giving him a little push, his cock finally filing you up completely.Â
âFucking Perfect,â he groaned kissing you again before he began to move, pumping into you slowly.Â
You let yourself fall back down against the table, stretching your arms over your head, your back arching, your tits moving every time Joel fucked into you.Â
He licked his fingers, bringing it down between your legs, his thrusts getting harder as he rubbed your clit, your pussy clenching around him.Â
âYes⌠Baby⌠Just like thatâŚ.â You moaned, your hands coming down to play with your tits.Â
âYou gonna be a good girl and cum for me?â He asked, moving faster, his skin slapping against yours every time he moved.
Nodding, you moaned, your eyes rolling back as you came, your whole body shaking as he fucked you through it.Â
âShitâŚ.â He groaned, both of his hands now coming to rest on either side of you as he leaned down, fucking into you deeply, chasing his own orgasm.Â
âWant you to cum again,â he grunted, kissing you, drilling his cock into you, the whole table moving over the floor.Â
âWant you to cum inside me. Let me feel you,â you whimpered, your hands in his hair, trying to meet his thrusts.Â
âFuck that isâŚ. Not a good ideaâŚ.â He laughed and you grinned.Â
âI donât care. Wanna feel you. Cum for me, Joel. Cum inside me,â you whispered and he groaned, fucking into you a half dozen times more before you felt him twitch inside of you, filling you, making you cum for a second time.Â
Both out of breath you looked at each other before Joel leant down and kissed you.Â
âSleep in bed with me?â You hummed against his lips.Â
âAs long as you let me,â he answered against your lips before you both sneaked upstairs.Â
Against all odds after six days of a rather boring trip across the country you reached the radio tower in Cody. And two days later a group patrol of people on horses found you, asking you all kinds of questions before a man pulled the bandana that had been covering his face down, revealing Tommy Miller in the flesh.Â
By now you were living in Jackson for almost a year.Â
Ellie had decided to stay and live her life, the constant threat of someone looking for her still on the horizon, but it was decided that the town was not in immediate danger. Patrols kept an eye out for fireflies, but they havenât spotted anyone.Â
You were living a happy life all things considered.Â
Ava went to pre school, Ellie went to normal school. They really became sisters in the last year, spending a lot of time together.Â
Even though Ellie started to spend more and more time with a girl called Dina you suspected was more than just a friend.Â
Joel was always working on improving the house.Â
He had changed the most, back to the man he had been before the outbreak. Yes, he still was the protector when he needed to be, but most of the time he was just Joel. Your husband.Â
âYellow?â He asked, holding the can of paint up.
You walked over to him with a smile, nodding.
âItâs a happy colour. I like happy colours,â you shrugged and he chuckled, setting the can down on the floor before he put his arms around you, pulling you against his chest.
One of his hands came to rest on your growing belly, the baby inside kicking up a storm as if it could sense their dads hand, making you both smile.Â
âStill think itâs gonna be a girl?â You asked and he nodded, before he kissed you softly.Â
âThink Iâm meant to be surrounded by beautiful girls,â he hummed before he kissed you again.Â
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Heyyy saw ur request were open what about dark!rafe catches you talking shit about him to your friends over text???
How a Girlfriend is Supposed to Act
Warnings: noncon, forced sex, domestic violence, choking, slapping, oral (m!recieving), toxic relationship, gaslighting
Despite being with Rafe for almost a year, you had learned all of the quirks that he had when it came to his possessiveness very early on.
The first time you caught him reading your texts, you were surprised by just how nonchalant he was about the entire situation.
He was sitting on your bed after you returned from grabbing the two of you a snack, scrolling through your phone, not even bothering to look up at you until you asked him what he was doing.
âYouâre my girlfriend, Y/N.â He said it slowly, like he was reminding you of something you yourself couldnât possibly forgot. The accusing fire in his gaze made you squirm. âOf course I have the right to look through your phone.â
At first you were too surprised to react. You had never really had a reason to look through Rafeâs phone, but you imagined he wouldnât be too happy if you did.
âWhy the fuck do you look so nervous, huh?â He was starting to sound annoyed, and his eyes were flicking between meeting yours and scanning your phone. âGot something youâre trying to hide from me?â
âWhat? No, Rafe! I just didnât expect to find you going through my phone, thatâs all.â You explained breathlessly. You didnât know why he was accusing you of trying to keep secrets from him.
Unfortunately, the last thing that you should have done in that moment was try to snatch your phone away from Rafe.
His hand shot out, tightly gripping your wrist as he dug his fingers into the bone beneath your skin. You cried out in pain and watched as your phone fell onto the bed, before bouncing to the floor.
Your boyfriend was furious now, easily pulling you onto the bed by your wrist and onto your back at a painful angle before straddling you. You struggled beneath him, trying hopelessly to stop him from putting his hands on you
When Rafe slapped you across the face the first time, your ears rang and you swore that your vision went white for a moment.
Every sound became muffled but you could hear Rafe angrily chastising you from above, âdumb bitch. I mean, I pay for your fucking phone, so yeah, youâre not gonna talk back to me when I go through it.â
That was months ago, and you later learned that that wasnât even the first time that Rafe had gone through your phone.
You werenât cheating on Rafe, that much was 100% true. The problem was that Rafeâs definition of cheating included behaviors that you knew were not cheating.
Texting your classmate a question about homework turned into a two hour long fight that culminated in Rafe giving you a black eye.
After Rafe saw you had and Topper had sent each other a couple funny posts in instagram dmâs, he choked you so hard you passed out, leaving you to cover up the extensive bruising on your neck around your friends and family to avoid explaining what had happened.
Ever since then you had learned to be careful about who you texted, and if you ever texted anyone Rafe wouldnât approve or said something that he wouldnât like, you made sure to delete the conversations.
You were always so diligent in covering your tracks.
Except for the one time you really needed to.
After another argument with Rafe had become physical, once you finally got some space away from him you had texted a friend, vaguely venting your frustrations with him, without revealing too many details to make her suspicious that Rafe was hurting you.
As you shakily typed out the texts you couldnât help but think back on the fight you had had. After catching a guy staring at you in the club, the moment you returned home, Rafe had been quick to grab you by the throat, pushing you up against the wall before hurling insults at you.
âI mean you dress like such a fucking slut, no wonder I have to chase these guys off. I bet you wanted his attention, didnât you?â His eyes narrowed as he looked down at you with disgust.
You were so shocked by his outburst you had barely registered the fingers crushed your throat, and you finally gasped for air against his strong hand. âN-no, Rafe!â
His grip tightened as he regarded your fearful eyes, ânah, you always think you can fool me sweetheart but you never can.â His chuckled, but there was no hint of humor in his eyes, âI saw you looking at him when we first walked in.â
You shook your head against him, tears gathering in your eyes as you begged with him, âI wasnât baby-â
âShut the fuck up, Y/N.â He spat at you, squeezing so hard you were sure you would have deep purple bruises on your neck tomorrow.
âI never should have let you outta the house wearing that dress. You were looking for trouble walking around like that.â Rafe growled, his eyes were ice cold. You knew that he was itching for a fight, and you didnât want to give him what he wanted.
âIâm sorry,â you struggled to force the words out with such little breath and Rafe finally gave you a respite when he loosened his grip on your throat. âYou okayed it before we went out, I thought it wouldnât be a problem.â
âI knew every guy at that bar would be trying to fuck you with their eyes, but I didnât think youâd be doing the same to them!â The more he spoke, the more pissed off he seemed to be making himself. You knew that he was just convincing himself that his actions were justified.
When he tossed you to the floor, you yelped in pain when your shoulder hit the hard wood. You barely had time to reach for your tender neck before Rafe grabbed a fistful of your hair and forced you to look up at him.
âI mean, do you even love me anymore, Y/N?â His voice sounded hurt, and even though this wasnât the first time he had used this card on you in the middle of putting his hands on you, you couldnât deny the tug on your heartstrings you had when you looked into your boyfriendâs eyes.
âOf course I do, Rafe!â You insisted, knowing that your enthusiasm was expected and there would be consequences if you didnât play along.
You were terrified of your boyfriend, and after being with him for so long, you were aware of the ways to deescalate a tense situation. In moments like these you would have said anything to protect yourself.
âNah, you donât mean that. You havenât been yourself lately baby. Always too busy with work to spend time with me and now youâre talking back to me?â He shook his head, tsk-ing as he glared at you disgustedly. âNot to mention, you havenât been fulfilling all of your duties as my girlfriend.â
You stared at him, puzzled and not understanding his meaning, âwhat are you talking about?â
âWhat are you talking about?â He repeated back to you in a mocking tone, like he couldnât believe how dumb you were to not get it. âI mean, itâs been, what, five days since you last let me have sex with you? I have needs, Y/N. And when you canât just lay on your back and spread your legs for me, youâre being a bad girlfriend.â
His words stung, and you couldnât tell if the tears in your eyes were because of the large hand tangled into your hair, or because your boyfriend was acting like you owed him sex, like you were in the wrong right now.
âNow youâre gonna make it up to me, because you are really pissing me off right now, and I donât want to hear any fucking complaints, do you understand?â
Your body was screaming in resistance, but you numbly realized that you were nodding your head. Rafeâs hand left your hair, finding your chin and gripping your jaw hard.
âUse your words, sweetheart,â the sick grin that was spread across his lips told you exactly how much Rafe was getting off on your humiliation right now and you wanted to be sick.
âI understand.â You forced the words past your gritted teeth, swallowing down the bile that threatened to come up.
Rafe unbuttoned his pants before sliding the zipper down and pushing them down his legs before pulling off his boxers as well.
His dick was hard, a bead of precum already pearled at the tip of his intimidating length.
You swallowed nervously, already afraid of how rough your boyfriend was going to be. You felt like you werenât ready at all, but the sharp pain the bloomed on your cheek after Rafe slapped you told you that you must have hesitated for too long.
âQuit your damn procrastinating, Y/N,â he hissed, tangling his fingers into your hair again and pulling you to his dick, forcing the tip past your plump lips.
You didnât have any time to be surprised, gagging and choking on him as he pushed himself deeper towards your throat. He groaned at the feeling of your throat squeezing his cock, urging himself further into the back of your mouth.
Rafe was in heaven, basking in the sight of your teary eyes and the ruined mascara that now trailed down your cheeks. You had looked so pretty at the club tonight, but now you were a crying mess. The noises of your gagging and the steady sound of Rafeâs cock hitting the back of your throat filled the space. Nothing had ever made Rafe hornier than seeing your beautiful, tear filled eyes begging and pleading with his.
He reached out to your cheek, wiping up a bit of saliva that had been forced past your lips. Your glassy eyes were unfocused now that you had given up any thoughts of resistance, too cock drunk to try protesting against the stronger man.
You were doing all you could not to gag on him and choke, knowing full well that that would only spur him on. Every time you pushed at his thigh to get him to ease up, he would slap your hand away with an annoyed grunt.
His pace was relentless now, one hand was gripping your hair and the other was at your throat, holding you still so he could push himself deeper.
âThatâs right baby, fuck,â he bit back his groans, ignoring your gagging and desperate eyes when he forced himself too far down your throat, literally choking you with his cock. âOh fuck- god Y/N, youâre better than any sex doll, you know why?â
He knew you couldnât answer him, especially since he had started thrusting faster past your messy lips, but he still paused to drink in the sight before him.
âBecause they canât fight back,â Rafe sneered, picking up his pace again, reaching a punishing fervor.
The blondâs dick was slamming into the back of your throat while the large hand at your throat squeezed in warning anytime you so much tried to pull back.
He sped up on final time, chasing his high by forcing you to take all of his cock. Rafe held you in place and watched you choke on him for a couple seconds before letting out a low groan and spilling his salty seed down your throat, giving you no choice but to swallow every drop of it.
When he pulled his dick out of your mouth, you took a gasping breath, but werenât allowed much air before Rafe slapped you across the face hard.
âFrom now on, I expect this and more from you every night weâre together. Because thatâs how my girlfriend is supposed to act. And if you think about giving me any lip about that, then Iâm gonna make you wish you had just kept your pretty mouth shut, got it?â
That rest of the night was no better than the beginning, after Rafe had helped you clean up, he basically immediately led you to your bed.
He chuckled in satisfaction when you didnât fight back against his wandering hands, and as held tight to your wrists, plunging his cock into your slick cunt, he didnât say anything about the tears rolling down your cheeks.
The next morning you had woken up sore, your entire body ached, and you werenât surprised when you looked in the mirror and saw the red and purple blooming around your throat.
Rafe was still asleep, his deep snores letting you know that he wouldnât be waking up soon.
You quietly snuck into the bathroom, grabbing your phone off of the bedside table on the way. Once you had shut and locked the door behind you, you exhaled deeply, unlocking your phone to check for messages.
Your friend had texted you asking how your night had gone, and feeling perhaps a little too honest, you told her that the two of you had had an âargument.â
âhe thought i was checking out a guy at the bar and said some really rude things to me last night.â You laughed to yourself as you stared at your own words through blurry eyes. It was both funny and sad to you how used to covering for Rafe you now were.
The bathroom felt more cramped when you remembered that Rafe was just on the other side of the door, despite being asleep.
A new notification popped up soundlessly and you read your friendâs text. She was joking about gathering all of your mutual friends to gang up on Rafe.
If only she knew the extent of what Rafe had done to you. You were sure she wouldnât be joking then. In spite of that, you were angry with Rafe and wanted to blow off a little steam with your friend.
Which is why you felt emboldened to continue texting her.
âheâs such an asshole sometimes. iâve been thinking about breaking it off with him soon.â
You huffed, putting your phone down before finishing up in the bathroom and opening the door.
To your surprise, Rafe was standing on the other side, waiting for you to get out before he brushed past you without a word.
You noticed he was taking longer than he usually did to just pee, and when he finally stepped out of the bathroom, you realized with a horrible chill why he had been in there for so long.
Clutched in his hand was your cellphone, and you could see that it was open to the messages you had just sent.
ââHeâs such an asshole, Iâve been thinking about breaking it off??ââ His voice was cold and you cringed hearing him speak your words. There was no denying he had read your texts.
You shivered, frozen in place as he stared you down, his blue eyes boring so deep into you that you swore you could feel them burning straight through you.
Your mouth was so dry, you had never felt so afraid of your boyfriend before. Even after everything he had put you through, you had never said anything about breaking up with him to his face. âRafe, I-â
If your instincts hadnât kicked in, you would have taken the blow right to your nose, however you had been lucky enough to dodge the phone fast enough that it only nicked your forehead before smashing into pieces against the wall behind you.
Unfortunately, while you had been focused on dodging your phone, the taller man had closed the gap between you, easily pushing you up against the wall by your throat and choking you with both hands. Rafeâs fingers pressed down against the bruises that they had left there the previous night.
You wanted to scream, but Rafe had knocked the wind out of you and no matter how hard you shoved him, he wasnât giving up.
âYouâre mine,â he hissed as you struggled against him. âMaybe Iâve been hitting you too much recently, because I donât remember you being this stupid when we first started dating.â
Before you could comprehend what was happening, Rafe had spun you around and pushed you face first into the bed. One of his hands was forcing your head against the mattress, while the other pawed at your silk pajama shorts, opting to rip away the fabric covering you before freeing his hard cock from his boxers.
âYou think Iâm an asshole?â He growled, the tip of his cock brushed against your slick cunt and you shuddered at the feel of him beginning to force himself inside of you.
âIâll show you how much of an asshole I can be.â
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OMGG you wrote the first years finding out reader was a girl so well! i love it :D could i maybe request the same thing but for thirds years? thank you so much and have a good day :)
Third Years Find out Youâre a Girl?!?!? (NOT CLICKBAIT)Â
TW: Rook and Lilia are creepy
Info: Trey, Cater, Rook, Lilia x Reader (platonic)
Tags: @kierancaz @danchann33 @arashrita
đAhh, the third years⌠How I do love them. Please ignore my blatant favoritism in Rook⌠I just⌠I really <3 him. Truly, the third years are my absolute weakest character, but I hope I did them well. Remember, dorm leaders are on a separate post. Love you all, and enjoy <3
First Years
Ortho & Sebek
Second Years
Dorm Leaders
-Okay so, I know weâre all wondering, how the hell do you get away with hiding your gender for so damn long?
-Firstly, those ceremonial robes do great at hiding the figure. The only tell would maybe be your hair, but feminine men arenât unwelcome at Nightraven College, so you mostly get a few questioning stares and thatâs it.
-Secondly, Crowley wants to save his own fucking ass. He already has to hide from the press that he has a MAGICLESS student from ANOTHER DIMENSION here, he doesnât need the fact that you are a woman ALSO on his plate. So, obviously, he helps you hide your gender from others.
-Grim knows, of course, and he keeps his mouth shut for a few yummy cans of tuna (and threats of being expelled from Crowley <3)
-Even when you were just a janitor, he couldnât have the rumor that he put a âhelplessâ young woman to work. (Like it wouldnât be expected.)
-So how do you two do it?
-Baggy ass uniform. Crowley gave you at least three sizes too big.
-Your figure is completely hidden. Sure, you look completely homeless, but at least youâre hidden.
-For your voice, you simply deepen it. After some point, you blackmail Crowley into giving you a potion to help with it, since it's so taxing on your voice. (Or maybe your voice is naturally deep!)
-Sam provides you (for an unfairly pretty penny (not too different from your original worldâŚ)) any feminine hygiene products you might need.
-Honestly, youâre set for being cared for, but itâs the adjustment period thatâs the hardest part.Â
-Truly, itâs very jarring to suddenly be thrown into both a magical world and be isolated in a man's world with nowhere to hide.
-At least in your world you had other women who could understand your struggles. Here though? Youâre completely alone.
-You notice how⌠messy some of these guys could be. How some of them smell⌠really rancid. -How rough they were with you and each other.
-Honestly, itâs kinda eye-opening. The way men show affection to each other is oddly refreshing to watch and experience!
-Ace and Deuce specifically are a good⌠trial run.
-Thatâs not what weâre here to talk about thoughâŚ
-For the most part, it's incredibly easy to hide yourself for the first while on campus. Everyone on campus is so self-absorbed that they donât bother questioning you.
-Your only real risk factor is Savannaclaw, but it's easy to avoid those guys (minus Jack, of course).
-However, you can only hide your gender for so long⌠Itâs mentally draining to keep up this facade all the time around people you care about.
-So⌠how do they find out?
Trey
-Trey is a very good middle ground compared to everyone else in NRC.
-He doesnât find out immediately like some people, but he finds out pretty soon into knowing you.
-Trey has siblings. Specifically, he has younger sisters he helped raise alongside his mother and father.
-Heâs good at reading women thanks to his sisters. He knows many tells of discomfort, displeasure, dislike, etc..Â
-Itâs different from how his brothers would show it, how others at NRC show it.Â
-He canât even explain it, he just knows the differences and it makes sense to him.
-With you, he notices the tells. Notices that you deepen your voice and you shy away from the more⌠intimidating and touchy guys on campus.
-Heâs not one to assume, though!
-Heâs attended three years at NRC in the same class as Vil.
-He understands that gender expression presents itself in tons of different ways.Â
-You clearly prefer using he/him pronouns, Ace and Deuce use strictly male pronouns, so itâs not his place to say anything.
-Still⌠the way your eyes glitter when he praises you for doing well on your tarts reminds him a whole lot of his little sisters.
-Itâs not till a bit later, shortly before Riddle explodes when he asks Cater that his suspicions are concerned.
-âCater, donât you think the new guy in ramshackle is a littleâŚâ
âGirl? Yeah, itâs kinda obvs.â
âIs it nowâŚ?â
-Cater pretty much lays out everything he noticed about you, and it matches up pretty well with what Trey was thinking.
-Still! Trey doesnât want to force the idea that youâre a woman on you!Â
-What if you are trans, non-binary, or anything else? To assume something like that is completely awful, and heâs better than that.Â
-Heâs not a troublemaker after all.
-So, during one of Heartslabyulâs tea parties, (much like many others at NRC), he pulls you aside just to get confirmation.
-âSo, this might seem a little rude, but I want to make sure Iâm respecting you.â
ââŚkayâŚâ
âAre you a woman?â
âDidnât Cater tell you already?â
-Oh. Okay. Cater was right. He shouldnât have doubted him. Noted.
-You make him swear up and down that he wonât tell Ace or Deuce, and you move on from it like it's nothing. (Youâre not sure you can trust Ace and Deuce to keep their mouths shut at this point).
-And, really, it should be nothing. Trey should just be able to move on and relax⌠but his brotherly instincts sort of act up around you.
-Heâs not overbearing in any way, it isnât a creepy thing that suffocates you⌠itâs just a notable increase in intake of Trey in your life.
-He invites you over to âtry this new recipe he madeâ (an excuse to ensure youâre eating, because heâs confident Crowley isnât providing you nearly enough nourishment).
-Sometimes he shows up at Ramshackle to pick up Ace and Deuce and ends up staying and helping you clean up after the disaster freshmen.
-Most importantly, he checks in on you and your well-being considerably more than he does anyone else.
-He has, in fact, called you little sis before as well. He was incredibly embarrassed by it and refused to acknowledge it happened.
-Cater does not let him forget that it happens, calling you âTreyâs honorary sisterâ every chance he gets.
-Itâs not so bad though. Especially at the start, you really needed someone reliable like Trey to lean on when you needed help since Crowley would only do the bare minimum.
Cater
-Cater finds out pretty damn quick after meeting you.
-It's not the exact second he sees you, but very shortly after your first interactions⌠he gets it.
-As we know, Cater was sort of forced into being feminine and girly by his sisters â something he was completely uncomfortable with, but later forced himself to embrace.
-When he looks at you⌠how big your clothes are, how you artificially deepen your voice, how youâre clearly uncomfortable with both of those things⌠he sees a younger version of himself.
-Still⌠it's super not his place to bother you about something like that.Â
-He hardly knows you, and as your upperclassman, he should be a role model and not worry about superficial stuff.
-Mâkay! It is no big deal for Cay Cay, he can leave it all behind him with no issue! Totally doesnât bother him at all!
-��Heâs a big fat liar.
-Itâs not his fault okay! He just⌠canât get that look of discomfort out of his mind.Â
-You looked so miserable :( You looked like how he used to look :(
-So, Cater, far more impulsive and honest than good old Trey, straight up asks you. (Privately, of course, heâs not a monster.)
-âHeyyyy, so, weird question⌠are you a girl? Itâs totally cool if youâre not, Iâm just curious.â
ââŚHow did you knowâŚâ
-It kinda freaks you out a lot. You thought you were hiding it so well.
-Cater, sweetie that he is, assures you that heâs different from others.Â
-Heâs got special circumstances that allowed him to notice what was going on.
-Promises he wonât open his mouthâŚ
-He tells Trey less than a week later.
-Itâs not his fault! He was on your trail already, he was gonna figure out one way or another!
-Other than the Trey debacle, heâs really good at NOT gossiping about it, believe it or not.
-Heâs your reliable senpai after all :D
-He is your first official ally!
-Completely supportive of what youâre trying to do here, and is more than willing to be a safe space when you just need toâŚÂ be a woman sometimes.
-You spend a lot of time with him after he finds out.
-His dorm is always open for you, even if Riddle hates it, mâkay! You can always come to your old pal Cater for help.
-He really helps you on selling the whole âIâm a manâ act.Â
-He shows you easier ways to hide your chest so you donât always have to swim in your clothes and helps you keep your hair styled in a way that either hides it or makes you look more masculine.
-Heâs like the best big brother figure to have, honestly, and he remains one of your dearest friends through your whole stay at NRC.
-Heâs someone to vent to, someone who gets what youâre going through just a little, and someone whoâs really there for you all the time.
-Also very protective of your secret.Â
-The only reason Ace and Deuce donât know for so long is because Cater is working overtime to keep them off your trail.
-He tells you all about his escapades and keeping them in the dark too, heâs so proud of himself. (Please praise him, he needs it).
-Seriously though, heâs such a sweetheart and heâs always there for you if you need him.
Rook
-Ah beloved lover of beauty Rook!
-He is quite the oddball, isnât he? Always off in his own world spewing flowery nonsense all in âthe pursuit of beautyâ as he calls it.
-Most people on campus just call him a freak and move on from it.Â
-Youâve heard about him, of course. The stalker-hunter from Pomefiore makes the beastmen on campus tremble in fear (or annoyance, in Leona's case).
-You knew he existed, but seeing him was never really common. In fact⌠seeing anyone from Pomefiore was rare.
-You guessed such an elitist dorm probably wouldnât want to mingle with someone like you.
-In Rookâs case, however, you couldnât be more wrong.
-He was quite interested in you from the very second youâd interrupted the whole opening ceremony.
-You were⌠striking in his eyes. Not quite as beautiful as Vil, of course, but very eye-catching.
-While Vil insists you are a pest not worth Rookâs attention, he disagrees.
-Truly, heâs fascinated by you and your story.
-You from another world, who goes out of his way to hide such natural beauty with baggy clothes and messy hair⌠Ah! How his heart pounds in excitement, he must know more!
-So he does the only thing he knows how toâŚ
-He goes on the hunt. For what? Heâs not sure yet, but his hunches are rarely wrong.
-He follows you to classes, watches you get yourself into trouble and out of it, stalks you through the windows of ramshackle, and laments about his findings to (a very unimpressed) Vil.
-You can feel his piercing gaze on your back, but you never see him. Itâs chilling honestly.
-Itâs not until he decides to follow you to Samâs later at night that he figures it out.
-You had purchased a large box of feminine suppliesâŚ
-He had gotten you, little trickster :)
-Now, since he had gotten his solution, he laid back on the whole⌠creeping on you in your dorm thing.
-He is a hunter, not a pervert.
-Leading up to the VDC, when youâve decided to try out officially, you suddenly see a lot more of this mysteriously creepy Rook character.
-And, honestly, he was really nice!Â
-Sure he said a lot of needlessly long and poetic sentences, but at the end of the day, he would always wave at you in the hallways or offer to help you learn the dance for auditions.
-This was all a ruse to be able to get closer to you and uncover your inner beauty.
-HE convinced Vil it was a good idea for you to be manager, and HE was the one who offered to ensure you âdidnât cause any trouble.â
-And Rook, good as he is at hiding secrets, pretty much lets you know that he knows. Constantly you find him⌠flirting? Complementing? You⌠saying how badly he would like to see you cleaned up and in more fitting clothes.
-Nothing heâs doing is romantic⌠you think⌠heâs just very clearly interested in you.
-So, of course, you have to ask him.
âDid you⌠figure out Iâm a woman.â
âPerhapsâŚâ
âYouâre⌠not going to tell anyone, right?â
âLittle trickster, I am the master of secrets.â
-Honestly? Itâs not so bad having him and the others in Pomefiore know.Â
-You really get to be yourself with Vil and Rook, so it's nice! Besides, you havenât been prettied up in a really long time. You kinda missed it.
Lilia
-Ah, Lilia⌠beloved elderly man.
-He wonât lie and say that he isnât incredibly curious about you too. Who wouldnât be?
-A human from another reality with no magic, no concept of where they are, and no idea how to get you back.
-Very curious indeed.
-However, he has no reason to get himself involved in your business.
-You are a confident young lad, and clearly strong and capable.Â
-In the few interactions he did have with you, you clearly had your head on your shoulders and well-founded confidence in your own abilities.
-The only thing truly odd about you was⌠your face.
-He isnât one to talk, heâs thousands of years old and heâs got quite (unnaturally) large eyes and soft skin.
-You, however, arenât fae. You arenât anything more than a human.
-Excuse his close-mindedness for just a moment, but if he wasnât mistaken you look quite⌠feminine.
-Small(er) stature, baggy clothes, clearly discomforted by âmanlyâ activities that your friends drag you into.
-It wasnât his place to question, of course. He understands that gender isnât easy to define, and his thoughts are only ideas from his past creeping up on him.
-Still⌠it raises some questions in his mind.
-He knows where his responsibilities lay, so he brushes his thoughts under the rug and moves on from the thought.
-That is⌠until he notices Malleusâ⌠interest in you.
-The princeâs visits to ramshackle only seemed to increase after you arrived.
-As Malleusâ caretaker (and out of morbid curiosity), he must investigate you further.
-That's how you start⌠seeing a lot of Lilia. Like, too much Lilia. How in the world is he always there, itâs creeping you out.
-Heâll talk to you, sometimes, but most of the time you can feel his beady little red eyes watching you.
-You donât know what you did to him, but itâs really starting to freak you out.
-Youâve seen his fangs, does he want you for a blood bag or something.
-You, being strong as you are, decide to just confront him one day in the library.
-âOkay, whatâs your problem. You went from acting like I donât exist to constantly staring at me like Iâm your next meal.â
âPlease forgive me, that wasnât my intention. Iâm simply⌠curious about you, and I didnât want to scare you off by approaching.â
âI donât think your solution to that problem was any less scary.â
-You give him the benefit of the doubt, and you realize this guy talks like your grandpa or something. Heâs so old, itâs almost funny.
-You decide to start spending some more time with him, and you realize heâs really fun to be around.
-Despite his seemingly old soul, heâs rebellious and feisty, and he has an endless treasure trove of stories to tell you.
-He becomes a comforting force in your life, so much so you begin to confide in him your stresses and worries.
-Inevitably, you end up telling him how hard it is to hide being a woman. How only so many people know, and how exhausting it is to pretend to be something youâre not.
-âDoes Malleus know?â
âMalleusâŚ?â
âThe man you meet in front of your dorm at night.â
âOh! Do you mean Hornton? No, I donât know if heâs good at keeping secrets or not.â
âHe is not.â
-Lilia is more than willing to be a force in your life that keeps you happy and healthy.Â
-He is more providing and giving than Crowley is, constantly giving you little gifts and ensuring you have enough money to keep taking care of yourself.
-You insist that he doesnât need to do any of that, but his fatherly instincts tell him otherwise.
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Sleepless Night(Nanami Kento x Fem!Reader)
warnings: smut, unprotected sex, somnophilia, creampie finish, slight dub-con if you squint but there is consent, sex
word count: 1.2k
pairings: Nanami Kento x Fem!Reader
summary: Kento can't sleep and his cock is so hard...so he just decides to take matters into his own hands and fucks you through the night
a/n: This is inspired by the very lovely artwork that @kentosmoon has created that I cannot post here, but I took one look at it and was so inspired! Please, go check them out and go check out their twitter page too ;) You'll find the artwork in question.
taglist: @beneathstarryskies @an-ever-angry-bi @seireiteihellbutterfly
Itâs late and Kento canât sleep. He canât sleep despite the fact that he knows heâll have to wake up early. Itâs been a long time since he was plagued with such an intense bout of insomnia. He should be sleeping. Youâre right here next to him. Dressed in one of his old t-shirts and snoring lightly, this should comfort him more than anything.He nuzzles his face in the crook of your neck, inhaling your scent.
His amber eyes seek his phone in the darkness. His long arm reaches over towards the bedside table. He sighs when the screen reads 3:05 am. Itâs too late to even think about getting a good nightâs sleep. You both had retired to the bedroom around 10 pm, and yet he tossed and turned for so long. He sets the phone down and then snuggles closer to you, hoping your warmth will bring him some relief.
Then another annoyance washes over him. Just smelling you and being this close to you causes his cock to twitch a few times. He closes his eyes, choosing to ignore the deep desire inside of him instead. Eventually, he feels himself dozing off. That isâŚuntil you lean back into him, pressing that plump ass of yours against his half-hard cock.
âShitâŚâ Kento hisses.Â
He knows itâs not your fault. Youâre sleeping, after all. But this has just woken him up even more. Itâs late and heâs supposed to be at work around 7 tomorrow. Thereâs just no way heâll make it in. He thinks to himself that heâd rather deal with this issue and pleasure you both and call in sick. Kento begins to grind against your ass, his arm wrapping around you again to pull you in even closer to him.
âHeyâŚâ he whispers softly in your ear.
You donât wake up. He continues grinding against you, his cock growing hard as he continues. Thereâs a wet spot forming on the front of his silky pajamas from all the precum heâs spilling out. Kento grunts again when you move against him. Then he hears you moaning.
âHey baby,â he whispers once more.
âMmmâŚKen?â you ask, your voice full of sleep.
He grunts once more as you move closer to him, your hips wiggling just a bit to get into a more comfortable position. You must be too deep in your sleepy state to even notice just how his hard cock is pressing up against your ass. He grinds against you a few more times, then he leans in to nip at your earlobe.
âCan I pleaseâŚpleaseâŚfuck you while you sleep? Please?â
Your eyes shoot open, but soon youâre hit with another bout of sleepiness. You want to be more awake, but youâre struggling. Just the thought of him fucking you while you sleep causes a heat to spread deep in your loins.Â
You feel his hand coming down between your thighs, and he pushes them open just a bit. His long fingers part your thighs, making you mewl so sleepily. He nuzzles his face in the crook of your neck, nipping and sucking on your pulse points.Â
âCan I? Please, honeyâŚdonât make me beg. I just canât sleep and IâŚâ
You look over your shoulder at him, âYes, you can. Fuck me.â
He sighs contentedly and lifts your leg a little bit to give him even more room. You close your eyes once more, and you feel him shuffling behind you. Then you gasp softly when the head of his cock prods your entrance. Slowly, he slips into you. The stretch is immediate and your little cunt flutters to try and adjust around his thick size.
âThatâs it,â he murmurs against your neck. âTaking me so well, sweetheart.â
He begins rocking his hips so sensually and so slowly. The head of his cock kisses your cervix every time he buries himself so deeply into you. Your eyes open for a moment, only catching the blurry vision of your phone showing you the time. Itâs late, but you know your husband never asks you for this sort of request unless he needs it to sleep.
Kento continues to pump into you, his cock feeling so sensitive with every single thrust. It feels heavenly to be buried so deep in your cunt. You grip him in the best way possible, and youâre always so wet and so warm just for him. He could stay buried in your heat for the rest of eternity if it was up to him.
He continues to fuck you, making sure youâre comfortable within every position change. He manhandles you with great care and makes sure youâre so comfortable. Soon, he feels his balls drawing up and heâs grunting quietly as the pleasure builds faster and faster.
âFuck!â He cries out, and your eyes open just a bit. You become aware of the âpap, pap, papâ sound of your skin slapping together.
Within seconds, Kento is emptying himself into you, grunting and growling. You can hear the words he says, but only just vaguely as youâre still so sleepy. Warmth fills your cunt as Kento empties his balls deep inside of you.
âThatâs such a good girl,â he groans softly.Â
You whine softly, your eyes feeling so heavy. Soon, youâre drifting off to sleep again. Kento maneuvers you both so that youâre lying on your back. He spreads your thighs so carefully, getting an eyeful of the cum spilling out from your puffy folds. Heâs tempted to lean in and clean it up with his tongue, but he wonât do that just yet.
Kento slides into you until his balls are plush against your ass. As he does this, he gets a look at your phone and notices heâs been fucking you for almost fourty minutes now. It feels much too good to stop. He wants to fuck you all morning now, well into the sunrise and passed that.
âJustâhnng, five more minutes.â He lies to you, but he knows you need to have some sort of idea how long this is going to take,
You nod your head sleepily, falling back into that half-asleep state youâve been in this entire time. Something about doing something so taboo and naughty really turns him on. Kento leans in to kiss your lips, making you moan out just for him. Then he begins rutting against you, pushing in so deep.
Minutes pass as he continues to fuck himself so deeply into you. Every so often he tries to edge himself to prolong this, but it becomes even harder with every intense orgasm he feels. He gets you off a few times as well, rubbing your swollen clit thatâs just begging to be stimulated.
Itâs nearly 6am the next time he fills you up, and heâs staying so deep inside of you. He grunts that heâs cumming in your ear, and you blink awake. Itâs so sticky between your legs and the sheets beneath you feel wet and full of cum and juices. You look into his beautiful eyes, all full of love, lust and a touch of exhaustion.
âNo sense of stopping now,â you whisper as you two share a kiss. âLetâs keep goingâŚâ
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I was hoping this would all blow over, but since it's continuing to happen, now with people attacking other artists of the commewnity. I'm putting out my two fucking cents! Cause this whole art/character theft and pointing fingers, who stole what from who bullshit it driving me up the fucking wall!!
Long story short, it started with me and one other blog whose name I won't mention publicly. Despite the horrible light they tried to paint me in, I don't want anyone going to this person and ganging up on them. This person had some serious bitterness towards more "popular" artists and claimed that I've made characters similar to theirs and once used a pose they apparently used before (which was a very common pose, considering it was a reference from the game version of mega Y). Since then, they had desperately tried to conjure up evidence, narrowing down to the most miniscule detail how I've been stealing from them when I hadn't even known their blog existed until I was forcefully thrown into that unnecessary drama with the unhinged call-out posts they've made. With this being said, I'd like to point out that they never came to me or addressed this concern with me in the first place. They had every opportunity to privately DM me if they had suspected I was "stealing," but no, simply because they already made up their mind that I was a thief, that was a good enough reason to lack common fucking sense and decency, making what should have been a private issue public, going on to villainize and dehumanize me. And apparently, it hasn't stopped with me either, cause recently I've been seeing other artists in the community having to deal with this where people are being white knights on high horses, pointing fingers on how one artist's mewtwo looks "the same" if not "totally identical" as another artist's mewtwo. I refuse to believe it's a coincidence. But what makes me disgusted is that since TC's post, apparently it's had the opposite effect on some people and they're hopping on this blame bandwagon like it's some damn media trend!!!
This is NOT okay! Nothing about this kind of behavior is funny! It's upsetting to all of us. We dont need you causing problems where there isn't any, thinking you're doing us a favor! The majority of us are adults for gods sake! We are old enough where we don't need other people coming to us being tattle tails saying this person did this and that. That's what little children do! If you suspect any form of theft, I think I speak for ALL creators in this commewnity that we'd prefer you DM us privately saying something like "Hey, I think this person is copying you, might wanna look into it." And if possible, provide a link to the art in question, for which we would kindly thank you for making us aware and we'll handle it ourselves from there. Just a brief, yet SIMPLE interaction...that's all we ask!!! Don't even come at me with "Well, it's scary attempting to talk to an artist that's well known." Or dare I say ~pOpUlAr~ If you claim that taking the first step to send me a quick DM makes you nervous, yet you have no problem making public call outs in posts or asks, belittling and degrading what could actually be innocent artists doing nothing wrong, literally leaving yourself open to all kinds of comments and opinions from all kinds of people....I'm sorry but your anxiety isn't as bad as you say it is then, if being rude and ignorant in a public post/ask is easier for you. If you come to us, shaming someone else who 9/10 probably isn't doing anything wrong, thinking you'll be in our good graces for doing so, sorry, you're not going to be told, "Good job!" with a pat on the back and given a lollipop! You're just being an asshole.
Quick reality check for everyone who's made it this far before I end this train wreck of a rant:
People can have similar ideas that coincide with one another! There's only so much you can do when a whole community is focused around drawing the same character! We mainly draw mewtwos and mews, you're bound to find a plethora of similar colors, patterns, and designs because of it! Creativity only goes so far when trying to stay true to a character and not stray too far. It's not a crime to take inspiration from other artists' characters, we actually encourage this! It makes us feel good that you liked something we've done and you want to incorporate it into your own designs! It makes us happy that we inspired you! The line is crossed when someone does a literal copy/paste of a character down to the exact detail, and they call it their own original creation. That my friends is what stealing actually is!
#im just so done...#i feel bad for the person who creates a mewtwo and gives them a scarf#cause god forbid people will think they're copying TC or some bullshit like that#with that kind of logic nobody is allowed to make mewtwos with vitiligo!#Blu had it first therefore I own the concept of vitiligo! nobody else can use it or else I'll accuse you of stealing!#sorry i don't make the rules#will i regret making this rant later?#...probably#đŽâđ¨
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Unsought Betrothal - Part 2 - Part One Here
Dark!Aemond x Reader Velaryon x Cregan Stark
Summary: After attempting to humilate your betrothed by laying with Lord Cregan Stark the night before your wedding in the hopes that Aemond would call the wedding off, you find that not only is he determined to still wed you, but also to punish you for your indiscretions. Part One Here
Pairings: Dark!Aemond x Reader, Cregan x Reader, Cregan x Aemond
Warnings: Arranged marriage, threats of violence, acts of violence, forced voyeurism, dubcon, elements of noncon, naked reader, clothed men, fingering, finger fucking, pussy slapping, p in v sex, creampie, pussy eating, cum eating, degradation, praise, voyeur.
Word Count: 13k oops... sorry
Notes: Wow, whelp, its been a while since I have posted some of my writing, and even longer since I wrote the first part of this abomination, but when you get the urge, you just gotta scratch it. Thank you all for all your beautiful messages of kindness as usual, I'm sorry I've been gone a while. I have had a bit of a rough time this year but hopes for a brighter future! Anyway, I hope you all enjoy this, and I hope I can write again very soon for you, hehe ;) Enjoy! <3
The wedding came just as it was planned. Just as it was arranged. Sleep had evaded you, anger and confusion clouding your mind with memories of the night before, ache still throbbing between your thighs. Your little attempt at stopping the engagement had no affect on your betrothed. No affect on the uncle you had grown up with. On the man you would now call husband.Â
You had thought that if you could humiliate Aemond in court by flirting with Lord Cregan Stark that he would call off the engagement. That the embarrassment would be too much for the pious prince. That the shame would turn him away from you, making him demand to his mother that they call off the engagement.Â
You had thought that maybe if you lost your maidenhead to the Northerner, Aemond would be so disgusted, so filled with rage, that he would call the engagement off, what with him being a dedicated follower of the Seven.Â
But you were wrong.
And so you spent an evening limping back into the Keep, escorted by none other than the One-eyed Prince himself and Ser Crispin. The front of your bodice had been ripped by Aemond's hands, but thankfully your hooded cloak covered up your sullied gown, the bottom of it dirtied with mud from where Aemond had bent you over in the alleyway and taken you roughly. With each step you took, you felt his seed slide down your legs, sticking to your inner thighs tackily.Â
When you got to your chambers, you used the small basin at your dressing table filled with water to wipe and wash away the blood and seed from your body, pain and a lingering dull ache causing you to jerk with each swipe.Â
You didnât get much sleep that evening, staring blankly up at the ceiling. The urge to run was strong, to just leave out into the night through one of the secret passages and onto your dragons back, but the urge to stay was stronger. You hated him, truly hated him, but the way he had treated you that night, the fire in his eye, it lit something inside of you. It almost made you want him.Â
Need him.Â
Yet, there was another urge to stay, to make his life hell. To humiliate him at every turn, to ensure that he knew that forcing the engagement to continue would ensure him a life long marriage of discontent and disharmony.Â
You were not going to bend to his will. You were not going to bend to his needs, to bow at the husband, and say âyesâ, and âthank youâ, and âpleaseâ. You were going to be who you have always been.Â
A Valaryian.Â
Your eyes stayed open, watching as the ceiling eventually became light with the sun, indicating the break of dawn, and soon enough your maids were entering your chambers to get you ready to be wed. You were thankful that none of them asked questions about the dirtied ripped gown, or the bloodied rag in the basin, though you knew they were likely already aware.Â
The doors to your chambers opened as they pulled your hair back, pinning it atop your head in masses of braids with gold pins, tips glowing red with circular rubies. The colour of your mothers house dripping from you. Footsteps moved through your chambers, your head lifting to find Rhaenyra coming towards you, wearing a dress of black. Her silver hair half up, half down, small braids weaving around the back of her head beautifully.Â
A soft smile pulled on her lips as she came towards you, causing you to turn in your seat to fully face her. She looked sad and also lovingly devoted all at once. And whilst you knew it was not her greatest wish to marry you off to her half-brother, you also both knew that it was the only way to prevent bloodshed.
âMy sweet.â Rhaenyra cooed, a slender hand coming to brush against your cheek dotingly, the scar on her arm from Alicent peeking beneath the cuff of her dress.
Blood already shed.
âMuĂąa.â You smiled back, pulling her hand down into your lap.
Your mother leant forward and placed a kiss atop your head, âYou look so beautiful, my love.â
âThank you, mother.â
âAre you ready?â Her tone was gentle, as though she didnât wish to startle you. As though she didnât want to break the bubble that was the safety of your chambers.Â
The last time in your chambers as an unwed woman.
You gave her a reassuring smile, though it didnât reach your eyes, and she could see it, âI must be.â
The small smile she had worn slid away, âThis is not what I had intended for you. I did not wish to force you as I had been. I wish-â
â-I know.â You squeezed her hand, âI understand. It is my duty as your daughter to be wed to the Hightowerâs to prevent bloodshed and war. To ensure your ascension to the throne. Let me perform my duty for you.â
âYou know that we love you.â Rhaenyra squeezed your hand back, âDaemon has almost gone mad with rage. He does not wish to see you be wed to him. Luc feels that it is his fault.â
âI wouldnât expect anything less from either of them.â You stood, still clutching her hand.
Her violet eyes roamed down your body.Â
The dress you wore was similar to the one she had worn for her wedding to Laenor, white with gold and licks of red in the lining. The dress sat below your collarbones and drooped against your shoulders, pearlescent beads sewn onto the short sleeves like dragon scales with a red silk peaking underneath.
âI wish this could be different for you.â She came to your side, placing a white cloak atop your shoulders, the Velaryon House sigil embroidered on the back, readying you to leave your chambers.
You looped your arm in hers, steeling a breath before you gave her a confident smile, âI donât.â
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Your heart rattled in your chest as you tried to stop the anxiety that churned nauseatingly in your stomach. Your hand was clenched tightly against Daemons arm, who slowly walked you down the many tables filled with people towards the man who would soon be your husband.Â
âBreathe.â Daemon cooed softly in your ear, his hand attempting to soothe you with soft brushes against yours.Â
Your eyes had not once left Aemond, who watched you with a dark glare.Â
The second son stood before the table, Viserys slumped behind him in his chair, the barest of smiles on his rotted face, half covered by a golden mask as you came towards them all. Your mother and Alicent sat on either sides of the King, followed by your brothers, your uncles, your cousins, and your aunt.
Aemond stood stiffly as he always did, the perfect posture with his shoulders back. He was higher on the stairs so that he looked down his nose at you, which wasnât different to any other time he did. Each step towards him was nerve-wracking, the Lords and Ladies who had travelled far and wide watching you with keen eyes.
When finally you were standing before him, Daemon let go, coming to stand between you and Aemond momentarily, breaking your eye contact for the first time since you entered the room. Your uncle Daemonâs face was a kind one, and one you had grown to love as a step-father. He did not offer you a reassuring smile like your mother did, nor did he offer a consoling one. Instead, he leant forward to press a kiss to the side of your face before standing straight, towering over the both of you in both height and size before he moved back towards the table, sitting beside your mother.Â
And so the ceremony began.Â
In the light of the chambers Aemond looked sinister, shadows cast across his sharp face as he continued to look down his nose at you, chin still raised high. The Princeâs hair was styled in the way that it always was; straight and down his back, with two plain pieces pulled away from the sides of his face, tied neatly behind his head. He wore all black, the lining and undershirt the deepest of greens that was almost onyx. A symbol of his mother and her war that she had declared on a night such like this, many years ago.Â
The room felt hot, the back of your neck sweating as you stared at each other, all eyes pinned on you as the Septonâs voice boomed throughout the room.
âFather, Mother, Warrior,â The old mans voice was so loud in your ear that you winced, âSmith, Maiden, Crone, Stranger. Hear now their vows.â
You swallowed thickly, momentarily looking down at your hands before back into his sole lilac one, watching as his posture straightened further, surprised that he could even do so.
âI am yours, and you are mine.â Aemondâs voice dipped lower, âWhatever may come.â
Your throat felt dry, but your gut was filled with anticipation. You were frightened, but there was something else simmering beneath it all. A need for the danger he brought, a feeling of protection from him. Not from him and his anger, but from others.
A possessive desire.
The Septon looked at you impatiently to say your vows, and a small wave of quiet whispers spread across the room as you stood silently. The Prince shifted on his feet, muscles in his jaw clenching.
âI am yours,â You breathed softly, hands gripping each other tightly in front of your dress, âAnd youâre mine. Whatever may come.â
The purple of Aemondâs eye was half hidden by his lid, his gaze having softened at your short vow. You watched as the corner of his sharp lips twitched upwards lightly into a small smirk.
The Septon continued, âHere in the presence of Gods and Men, I proclaim Aemond of House Targaryen and Y/n of House Velaryon to be man and wife. One flesh, one heart, one soul, now and forever.â
Man and Wife.
Wed to Aemond Targaryen.Â
Your husband.
Now and forever.
An eruption of congratulatory joy spread throughout the room, the noise almost deafening as everyone celebrated what could be your demise. And though the noise around you was distracting, you could not look away from him, even as he shifted closer.
Aemondâs hand lifted and you flinched, the only people having noticed was your family seated behind you. His hand continued despite your shock to cup the side of your face and jaw, and as quickly as it happened, it ended. Aemondâs face grew closer as his eye slid shut, pressing his lips tenderly to yours in a brief moment before he pulled away, hand dropping back down to his side. The hand that had cupped your face grasped your hand for all to see, before he led you around to your seat at the table.Â
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The night of celebrations became a blur, too in shock to really enjoy yourself, but wine still flowing heavily. Most of your evening you spent ignoring your new husband, opting to speak mostly to your mother and brothers, as well as Daemon and his daughters, who threw you pitying smiles, yet words of encouragement.Â
Aemond sat by your side, though he made no effort to join your conversations or create ones of his own. He had always been the quiet of his siblings, always sticking to the shadows and tomes of the library, never quite fitting in.Â
Helaena leant forward towards you, Otto eyeing her warily whilst Alicent looked as though she was about to chastise her daughter. In your aunts hand was a beetle, all black, though when the light of the candles shone on his shell, it seemed to glow. Greens and blues, and purples and pinks, danced across the beetles wings as it crawled atop her hand.Â
Your aunt had always loved insects, and had always been a sweet and kind person. You loved Helaena, and if there was anything that could help you endure living in the Red Keep alone without your family, it would be her.Â
âHe appears dark,â She breathed watching as it crawled through a gap in her fingers and back towards her palm, âBut if you look closely, youâll find that heâs not.â
You shuffled in your seat, your shoulder pressed to hers as you ducked your head to look closer at the beetle, âHeâs quite beautiful.â
Healaena lifted her face towards you, as she smiled at you dreamily, âHe is, if you let him.â
Frowning, you looked back to the beetle, âHow do I let a beetle be a beetle?â
Helaena did not answer you, instead continuing to twist and turn her hand as the bug crawled around on it.Â
Aegon watched from above the rim of his cup, drunk with red rimmed eyes. His hair was oily and wavy, unbrushed atop his round face. You could not help but feel a shiver crawl over you as he smiled.
âOur sweet niece and brother are finally married.â Aegon purred, Helaena barely giving him a second glance as though over the years she had attuned herself into pretending that he did not exist.
âA joyous occasion, uncle.â You smiled falsely back, picking up your own goblet of wine, ready to go back to talking with Helaena. Or the beetle.
Anything to escape Aegon.
âDo you know what happens tonight? After the celebrations of course.â Your uncles voice creeped along the surface of the table like a snake, so that only you and his siblings could hear.Â
You swallowed thickly.Â
Of course you did.Â
You had done it last night.
Bar a bed. Or walls.
In fact, it wasnât even in the Keep, and instead in a dirty alley in Flea Bottom, hidden amongst the shadows.
âIâm aware.â Your voice was clipped, which seemed to goad Aegon.
âAnd how does our sweet little niece know of such things?â
You swallowed thickly, head turning to look at Aemond, whose eye was trained on his brother.
âMy Septa.â You tuned back to face him, âAnd your whoring.â
Aegon chuckled, filling up his goblet with wine once more, âI suppose then you know what to expect.â
âYes.â
âShould you ever be in want of a demonstration-"
â-Leave her be.â Came Aemondâs voice, almost a growl. His hand was clutched tightly around his own goblet as he challenged his older brother to say something more.Â
Aegon laughed loudly, eyes on his brothers clenched hand before looking up to watch him, âI only jest, brother! It is a night of celebrations!â He thrust his goblet towards the One-Eyed Prince, âItâs not everyday that my little brother is married off to such a beautiful princess. The daughter of the Realmâs Delight, no less. Do you think-â
Helaena shifted, turning her body towards you, âIt isnât so bad.â She spoke emotionlessly into your ear to distract you from Aegon, âIt only hurts the first few times.â Your aunt paused in thought, lavender eyes still on the beetle as it moved, before looking at you, âOr when heâs angry. Or drunk.â She added as an afterthought, âBut mostly when heâs drunk.â
Sorrow coursed through you for your aunt, your gaze immediately staring into Aegonâs angrily. How could he do this to her? How could he treat her like one of his whores? If not because she is his wife, but because she is his sister. Aegon seemed to sink into his chair after Helaenaâs comment, soft anger simmering off of him in small waves.
But Aegon has never truly known when to stop.
âI am sure my brother here will barely draw blood.âÂ
âI am sure your interest in your brothers cock speaks loudly.â
Elbows sloppily placed on the table he leant towards you, âI tried to take him once you know, to a whorehouse.â His voice became more hushed, âHe hated it. Made me think that maybe our dear Aemond was perhaps like your father, Laenor.â
Blinding rage shot through you, âDonât speak about my father.â You hissed, âHe was more man than you shall ever be.â
A cruel smirk pulled at Aegonâs lips, âI am sure he has had more men than I ever shall.â
Your hand shot forward to grasp your goblet, ready to hurl it across the table at him, peace be damned, but Aemond was quicker and snatched your wrist before the tips of your fingers could even reach the cup.Â
A quiet fell over your table as all watched the interaction, your wrist in Aemondâs hand, Aegon smirking cruelly at you, and your face hot with anger.
âI pity you.â You quietly seethed, âAlways so desperate to get a reaction out of the people around you, because if you didnât you would simply cease to exist. Though you are the first son of Viserys, a peasant bastard from Flea Bottom would garner more respect.âÂ
Aegonâs gassed darkened, his mouth readying to fire back at you.
âAemond.â Alicent called to her son, a questioning and yet chastising tone in her voice.Â
Aemond looked at his mother, and then back to you, checking to see if you were going to continue on with your thought. But you had grown tired of the grip he had on you, his large hand squeezing your bones painfully as they shifted beneath the skin.Â
âDonât touch me.â You sneered at him, snatching your hand away as you stood, chair scraping loudly against the flagstones.
The throne room quietened, all stilling to watch as you stood at the table, seething down at your husband. The rest of your family all watched warily, except for the Rogue Prince who smirked broadly at you. Your chest heaved with anger as you looked down at Aemond, who stared up at you with similar rage.Â
King Viserys sensing the tension smiled, though it looked more like a grimace, âOur young lovers wish to dance!â A distraction on his end, and a clever one at that.Â
The room erupted into cheers and clapping, and the musicians in the corner began playing music loudly for all. Lords and Ladies stood from their seats and moved into the centre of the room to dance together.
Glaring down at your husband, your hands clenched into fists, waiting for him. Aemond slowly stood, towering over you, a large hand stretched out towards you, palm up.Â
âWife.â
âHusband.â You growled, taking his hand roughly, digging your nails into his skin as you led him down the stairs towards the people.
The court parted to the sides like a wave, creating a path for you straight to the centre as you lead Aemond down to it, almost like a dog. Each man and woman watched with excitement, either for the celebrations or the rising tension between the two of you. Youâd be a fool to think that the court wouldnât love a quarrel to arise so that they may whisper about it in corridors later to come.Â
It could be a way to press the wound so to speak with Aemond later.
You stopped in the centre, finally letting go of your husband as you spun to face him.Â
He stood as he always did, stiff, emotionless with a hint of arrogance, watching you with a cool glare. The court waited for you to begin, as the music continued to play, but even then you couldnât push yourself to touch him. To feel his hands on you once more, alighting a fire within you that you did not know was possible, the embers still burning from the night before.
Would they be able to tell?
That he had already deflowered you in Flea Bottom?
In a dirty alley like one of Aegonâs whores?
In a way, you hoped they would. Let it bring him dishonour. Let it bring him humiliation from the court that his wife would take him in such a filthy, commoner way. You wished for his disdain, you wished for his anger, anything but the clear desire which seemed to move through him as he watched you from down his nose.Â
âWell?â You snipped, waiting for him to make the first move.
Aemond came forward swiftly, much like he had in the alley, and you had to bite your cheeks to stop the gasp that would have escaped your mouth.Â
It came to him so naturally to touch you, to hold you. One large hand immediately grasping yours by your side pulling it up, the other skating up your hip, over your collar bone, slowly down your shoulder, and down, down, down your arm.Â
Goosebumps rose on your skin, a shiver running down your back as his other hand connected with yours, and slowly but surely, the dance began. Even with the noise of the room, the music playing, the talking, and laughter, and joy from the guests, you could still hear the small little gasps and breaths you let free as you danced with Aemond.Â
It was likely one of the only times you hadnât bickered after so long in his presence, let alone whilst touching him. The two of you stayed silent, moving this way and that, your gaze occasionally flitting to the table to your mother and Daemon, who watched with kind eyes.Â
âDonât let Aegon goad you.â Aemond finally spoke.Â
His hand brushed against your shoulders, and round the back of your neck, a heat beginning to simmer in your gut from his touch. You turned to face him, watching as he observed you closely.
âHe wonât stop if you show it bothers you.â
âHe always bothers me.â You snipped, but this time with much less anger, âHe is like a fly you wish to swat but can never reach."
Aemondâs lip twitched as he looked at you, turning around you slowly, âMm.âÂ
âMm.â You mimicked, turning away from him.
âBehave yourself, wife.â Aemond purred, irritation flitting through you momentarily.
âWhat? Like how behaved yourself last night?âÂ
âI could say much the same to you.â
âA shame then.â You sighed, moving to come chest to chest with him, your breath stilling in your lungs as you looked up at him. You would never get used to how tall he had grown over the years, âYou bring much dishonour to your mother.â
âAs do you. Whoring yourself to a Lord of the North-â
â-King of the North-â
â-In a dirty, whore riddled tavern.â
âA dirty, whore riddled tavern that you knew about.â
Aemond stilled, his head dipping towards you, âDid you think that I wouldnât know of your movements in Kings Landing? Did you truly believe that I would be so foolish as to think that you would come to me willingly?â
You swallowed thickly.
âNo.â He continued, sucking on his teeth, âYou forget that I know you. You are much like your brothers. Getting into places where you donât belong.â
âAnd what of yours?â You became defensive at the mention of your brothers, remembering how he and his would call you all bastards, âLoudly and brazenly whoring himself to any and all who would dare risk fucking him.â
âMy brothers whoring does not concern me.â
âThen I suppose I am not a concern either.â You sniffed, âYou neednât worry, I am sure that he should find his way into our chambers one way or another.â
The hand on your arm tightened to the point of pain, your cheek twitching as you tried to hold in a wince, âI told you, he is not of concern.â
âI know Aegon. I have heard of what he does-â
â-And you know me. Know that he will not-â
â-He will not, what? Sully me? Taint our marital bed? It is already tainted. You made sure of that last night.â You stood closer to him, still as the others danced around you, your gaze peering up into his as your chest heaved, âBut what if I want him to? What if I willingly invite him to take me? Iâm sure you do not mind sharing after all, he is your brother.â
Aemondâs eye flashed with anger, before his head slowly ducked beside your ear, âIf you think I am fool enough to stoop to your provocations then you must forget that we grew up together, side by side. I know your tricks.â The hand on your arm released its strong grip, coming to brush against the back of your neck, âI know that you despise him just as much as I. I know that you used to cry at the Godswood when he called you bastard.â
You bristled, purposely stepping back as you stared at him angrily. You hated that word. You hated what it meant for you and your siblings. You hated that he and his brother and his mother and the court whispered about all of your parentage. You hated that once, when you had been young, despite all of this, you had been friends.
Rage bubbled up inside of you, and before you could stop yourself you leant forward, hand coming to touch the side of Aemondâs face with his one seeing eye, the other covered by his leather patch.
You rubbed your thumb atop his cheek, âImply that I am bastard once more, and I shall blind you with the purpose that Lucerys lacked.â
Aemondâs chest rose and fell jaggedly, inhaling breaths faster than yours, anger coursing through his veins. His sharp lips twitched as he watched you, âI wouldnât dare. I know just how Strong you are, Princess.â
Your thumb moved fast, but Aemond was faster, anticipating your movements. His hand caught yours against his cheek, trapping your fingers between his hand so that they may not move further to pluck his remaining eye from its socket like intended.Â
âPeople are watching, ÄbrazČłrys.â Wife, He purred, though there was a lick of danger behind it.Â
A warning.
âIvestragÄŤ zirČł urnÄbagon.â Let them watch, You sneered, âNyke kessa laesdaor ao hae iÄ dÄŤnilĹŤks irudy.â I shall blind you as a wedding gift.
Aemondâs silver brow lifted, âSkoros iÄ sČłz irudy.â What a good gift, His eye turned dangerous, âEman iÄ irudy syt ao, mÄre nyke gĹntan daor jaelagon naejot tepagon.â I have a gift for you, one I did not wish to give.
âIs it your death?â You countered cheerily, not wanting to show him that the way he spoke to you set your hair on end.
âNo. I think it will be much better than that. We will both come to enjoy it.â The danger in his eye still flickered like a flame, âI was considering not giving it to you, but since you are behaving so wonderfully, I simply must insist.â
You turned away from him, moving to go back to your seat, âI want nothing from you.â
âAnd yet, you'll have everything.â
-
As the night grew long, your fears grew larger. And though he had taken you the night before in an alley, his subtle threat of what may come tonight lingered in the back of your mind. Each cup of wine was drained eagerly by your lips, hoping and wishing that you could somehow make yourself sick enough to not have the bedding ceremony.Â
But it came all the same, just as the wedding had.
Aegon was the one who initiated the beginning of the end.
A large clap came from in front of you, the short haired Prince leaning towards you on the tables with his hands clasped together, silver and gold rings adorning them. A sinister smile pulled at his lips as he beamed at you and his brother.Â
âThe night is late!â He proclaimed loudly to the chambers, many Lords and Ladies turning their heads to watch, âI think we have held these two young lovers hostage for far too long!â Aegon smiled out to the room and then stood, lifting his goblet.Â
His shirt was untucked, his gait unsteady and he swayed on his feet as he continued, âMy brother is too polite to remove himself from festivities such as these! But brother,â He thrusted his cup towards you, âI can see that you wish to take your new wife to bed! The love these two share is a tale for story books, though they are too polite to say a thing.â He chuckled, and laughter followed from the Lords behind you, âWorry not! We will continue the festivities without you!â
Cheers were heard from about the room, though none came from your own table. Aegon sipped his wine greedily, eyes watching you from above the rim of his cup. The Prince took the goblet from his lips and clicked his fingers impatiently beside him, pointing at an uncomfortable Criston Cole who came to his side like a well trained mutt.
âSer Criston, take these newly weds to my brothers chambers. It seems it is time for the bedding ceremony.â
Ceremony.Â
Your blood ran cold.Â
Aemond stood abruptly beside you, head on with his brother.Â
âNo need, Ser Cole.â His smooth voice icy, âI shall escort the Princess there myself.â
Aemond pushed his chair backwards as you continued to stare at Aegon, not quite ready to be alone with the Prince.Â
Your husband.
You blinked, turning your head towards your family, who all gave you pained smiles. But it was your duty. And you had given your mother your word. Slowly you stood, letting your eyes scan the table, softly landing on your grandsire before meeting with a pair of large brown eyes. Alicent Hightower watched on with a nervous energy, her hands shifting on her lap as you assumed she picked at the skin around her fingers. The look in her eyes almost held empathy.Â
Almost.Â
You bowed your head to the King and Queen, ignoring Aegonâs shit eating grin.Â
âYour Grace.â
Pushing your chair back you ignored the outstretched arm of Aemond and made your way down the stairs, Lords and Ladies watching as you made your slow exit from the room, taking false prideful steps through the court to delay the inevitable, giving all who watched smiles and nods of your head.Â
The shifting of armour moved loudly behind you, before soon enough, Ser Criston Cole was overtaking your step to lead you out of the chambers and soon to Aemondâs. The white cape attached to his shoulders billowed behind him as he speedily kept on.
The skin on your elbow burned, a hand gripping it tightly as you were momentarily slowed as Aemond came to your side. You refused to meet his eye, feeling his gaze upon the side of your face as you exited the chambers, the sounds of cheering and laughter loud behind you. The chamber doors shut with a thump, the sound dampened and muffled, footsteps echoing down the darkened corridors of the Red Keep.
âDoes Ser Criston not wish to watch you bed me?â You sneered, eyes flickering to the lit lamps on the walls as Aemond led you down a wing of the Keep you had scarcely been down.Â
âI have instructed him to prepare my chambers for your arrival.â Aemond replied, his strides long and rigid as he almost hauled you with him.Â
âDo not pull me.â You yanked your arm back, halting your steps, âI am not your dog.â
Aemond stilled, looking down his nose at you as he towered above, âDogs are better behaved.â
The Princeâs head snapped to the side, pain spreading through your palm as you sneered at him. The side of his cheek bloomed an angry red, yet Aemond did not react to your slap, nor did he hit you back, instead, a slow smirk pulled at his lips.Â
âI shall allow that, but only because I know you will regret it.â
Rising to your tiptoes you tried to make yourself come to eye level, âI regret nothing.â
âMm.â He looked at you blankly, âI shall give you a choice.â Anger rose within your chest, heat creeping up your neck and into your cheeks, âCome with me to the Godswood.â Your brows furrowed, âPray to the Gods for forgivingness for striking your husband, kneel and apologise. Swear obeisance to me-â
â-If you think-â
â-And I shall let you go to your own chambers alone. No need for a bedding ceremony after last night.â
You flushed, swallowing thickly, âI would never lower myself to apologising to a second son. And especially not to a Prince who is owed no inkling of respect.â
Aemond watched you for a beat, eye scanning your face as his held flat, âThen we continue to my chambers.â The hand that pulled you began again, and your feet struggled to keep up with his, bruises no doubt to be on the tender flesh of your arm in the morning.Â
Your heart raced in your chest as you felt yourself get closer to his chambers, his strides not once slowing down, though you tried to dig your heels into the flagstones to slow him.Â
âYou care not to have a woman enthusiastic in your bed?â You tugged fruitlessly at your arm, âYou wish to drag me to a night of suffering, like a savage. Like your brother, Aegon.â You sneered, fruitlessly tugging your arm to escape his grip.
âA savage would have had you atop the table before all to see when you first defied me. I gave you a chance to apologise, remember that you scorned it.â
âA chance? What chance was I given? A loveless marriage with a man who is not my equal? A burden I am forced to bear as I am forced to lay beneath him!â
Aemondâs steps halted once more, almost causing you to crash into him, his fingers tightening against your arm as he yanked you against his chest angrily, âYou needlessly make this more difficult. I extended an offering to you of peace, and you burnt it.â
âPeace?â You screeched incredulously, âYou have done naught but provoke me! Naught but push and prod and goad me into reaction so that you may justify your sick desires.â
âProvoke you? I seem to recall you sneaking into Flea Bottom to try and lay with a Lord to spite me.â
âI was trying to save us from a loveless and cruel union.â
âUs? Or yourself?â
You paused, mouth feeling dry. Anger and fear swirled within your gut viscously as you stared at him. The both of you panting heavily at one another. Aemond shifted, moving away from the wall beside you, revealing two large wooden doors.Â
You were there.
And you had not even realised.
âWife.â Aemond purred sarcastically before pushing open the door, the smell of his room engulfing you.Â
It smelt of him, but far more intensely. Of leather and smoke, and spices which he dabbed his skin with, and still, behind all of this, the natural scent of him. The smell that was only his and his alone. A scent that had wrapped around you in that alleyway the night before.Â
The fireplace raged wildly, the room filled with dark mahogany furniture. There was a chaise, arm chairs, a table seated for six, a large bed on the other end, a reading desk with piles of books and scrolls, and candles sitting on every surface, lighting the room.Â
The second thing you observed as your eyes roamed the space was that you were not alone.Â
Your heart skipped in your chest.Â
There by the bed, was a man sat in a chair. Arms tied down to it as his feet were tightly bound to the legs. His long dark hair was knotted atop his head as he stared at you in shock, and beside him, Ser Criston Cole.
âCregan?â You breathed in shock, running towards the Northerner as you dropped to your knees, hand reaching out to cup his face as he only looked at you with sorrow, âAre you hurt?â
âI did warn you,â Aemond growled from behind, âThat you would regret it. I had a plan, you see. A moment of mercy to let you apologise at the Godswood, for you to go-â
â-Let him go!â
â-To your chambers untouched and unscathed. I had given you a choice, and this is the one you have chosen.â
You turned your head sharply to face Aemond, âWhat have you done?â
âThis man was caught conspiring against the crown. He planned to take the Princessâ honour and humiliate her betrothed. A Prince.â His lilac eye held Creganâs icy blue ones, âI have done my duty by capturing this traitor to the realm.â
Fear began to bubble inside of you, eyes looking back to Cregan. The left side of his face was bruised, small cuts littered across his cheek and brow. His soft lips were swollen and split, and dried blood had gathered in one corner.
âHe is innocent.â Your knees ached as they dug into the stones below, your upper body turning to face Aemond again, âHe knew naught of what I was doing. Punish me. Let him go.â
Aemond hummed and walked towards you, âBrave. Admirable if it wasnât for nothing. No. I gave you a choice before, and you have made your choice. I gave you the option to apologise, to bend to me as your husband, to go to your chambers alone, but this is what you have chosen. This was your choice.â
âYou gave me no choice!â You sneered, moving to stand, shielding Creganâs body with your own, âAll this talk of choices when all you have gave was an unknown ultimatum.â
âA choice nonetheless. Godswood or chambers. And so here we are. The consequences of your actions.â The Prince came closer, shadows cast across his face, âI told you that you would regret it.â
âYouâre a savage! A foul beast.â
A smile pulled at Aemondâs lips, âChoose your words carefully, wife. I have no qualm with slitting his throat where he sits should you continue to defy me.â
Cregan pulled against his restraints, angrily sneering at Aemond, who simply hummed once more as he came to stand before you, looking down at you with false pity, âBut, it is the night of our union, and the betrayal is still fresh and something I am willing to move past. I shall give you another choice. One that I feel may be far too lenient.â
Tears began to well in your eyes.
This was all your fault.
âThe Lord of Winterfell shall sit where he is, and watch as I fuck you in ways that he never shall-â
â-You disgust me!â
â-Or he shall be tried and hung for treason.â Aemond came closer, his chest almost brushing against yours as he stared at you, âThe choice is yours.â
You sneered upwards at your uncle, tears gathering in your eyes, âI would rather die than let you touch me again.â
âI recall you seeming to enjoy it, wetting my cock in that filthy alley as you begged for it.â He purred, hand lifting to brush hair from your face as he sighed, âI donât mind what you choose, I could simply slit his throat myself right now? If you'd prefer it?â
A lone tear fell down your cheek as you turned and held Creganâs gaze, his brows furrowing as he saw you come to your decision.Â
âY/n, donât-â Creganâs head was jerked back roughly, Ser Coles hand in his hair as he stuck a blade beneath his chin. The edge of the blade nicked the skin lightly, a small bead of blood travelling down his neck.Â
He would die.
He would die and it would be all your fault.
âPlease, Aemond.â You begged, âPlease do not do this. Let him go. Let him go and I swear to you I will obey your commands. Let him free and I am yours.â
The silver haired mans head tilted as he cooed you, âI am sorry, my love. But it is too late to beg for my mercy as I offered it to you before. What kind of man would I be if I excused such treason?â
You stepped forward swiftly, âA strong one. A merciful one. A man who can see the error of my way. That I am repentant.â You tried to cajole him, âI promise you I will be good. I will perform my duty and do what is expected of me.â
âYou are sweet when you beg, but it is too late.â
âUncle, please! I will do anything! Anything you ask of me. I swear to the Seven.â
Aemond smiled at you, âI know you will. And that is why you will do this.â Aemond swallowed, eye roaming down your wedding gown hungrily, defiantly.Â
Angrily.Â
âStrip.â
âAemond-â
â-Strip, or he dies.â
Tears rolled down your cheek, your stomach rolling in disgust and fear.Â
âPlease do not make me do this.â You sobbed, arms limp by your side as you looked down at the flagstones, feeling defeated.
Your husband tutted you, long slender finger brushing the tears that fell from your eyes away, âDo not waste your tears on him, my love. I can be gentle, and soon you will come to love my touch. This, I promise you.â
Pain bloomed in your jaw as you ground your teeth together, wary to not trigger Cristonâs excitable hand. Short breaths puffed from your nose as fury and sorrow rose within you like a tide, little by little building in a wave. In your periphery, Aemond stepped back, a pale hand presented in front of you, palm outstretched for you to take.
Slowly, you let your gaze meet his, heated glare ignoring his offering as you refused to move. One last act of defiance. And one Aemond did not take lightly. Pain bloomed in your shoulder as you were roughly yanked forwards, and thrown backwards against the bed. Cregan shouted from behind you, the chair creaking beneath him.Â
âI said, strip.â Aemond growled.
Your eyes flicked to Cregan, and then up towards Ser Cole who watched with conflicted eyes.
âPlease,â You begged softly again, keeping your eyes on Ser Criston, âNot him too. Not Ser Cole.â
A shifting of armour moved from behind Aemond, and a small âYour Graceâ fell from the knights lips.Â
Aemond spun, momentarily ignoring you as he turned to the knight standing awkwardly beside Cregan Stark, âYou may leave, Ser Cole.â Aemond sniffed, âI am certain our guest will behave accordingly.â
Ser Cristonâs eyes flickered to yours and then to the Prince as you tried to plead to him with yours for help.Â
To help the daughter of the woman he was once sworn to.Â
But no help came.Â
The Dornish knight bowed his head and left without another word.Â
âLet her go-â
â-Ah.â Aemond turned slowly towards Cregan, slow steps coming forward until he stood towering over the northerner, âSpeak again and Iâll cut out your tongue.â
âKepus,â You stood from the bed, grasping Aemondâs elbow tightly, hoping, praying that if you asked once more that he could see reason, âPlease, let him go. I am yours. I will always be yours.â
Aemond stared at you, his pupil dilated as he stared at you intently.
âStrip.â
You fought the sob that threaten to rise up your throat and slowly lifted your chin.Â
You would not show weakness.Â
You would be strong.Â
With shaking hands, you let your fingers find the strings at the back of your dress, and slowly but surely you pulled the laces, keeping your eyes on your husband who watched with intent.Â
The gown sagged against your frame, the soft material falling down your chest slowly as you held it for one last moment, hoping that it was all a test, that he would change his mind and stop this madness.Â
But he didnât.Â
Breath held in your chest, you let the gown fall to the floor below you, leaving you in your thin shift before the two men. Cregan looked away, his eyes focusing on the stones of the wall in shame, his hands tucked into tight fists against the arm of the arm of the chair, knuckles turning white.
A shiver ran down your back as the cool of the chambers stiffened your nipples into peaks, brushing against the white of your chemise. Aemond took a slow step towards you and then another, hand lifting to brush under your chin, an attempt to direct your gaze to him. You turned your head defiantly; looking to the wall where Creganâs gaze laid.Â
âY/n.â Aemond warned softly, thumb and forefinger pinching your chin as he turned your face towards him, âLook at me.âÂ
Reluctantly you let yourself, and all you saw was the black of his pupil as he devoured you with his darkened gaze, âYouâre so beautiful.â He cooed, âMy wife.â
You swallowed thickly, his hand slowly skimming down your neck raising goosebumps along your skin as his fingers came to rest against the edge of your chemise. The tips of his nails scraped softly against your skin as it slipped beneath, and with an even slower movement, he tugged the chemise down off of your shoulders, the thin material floating down to the floor below leaving you completely exposed to the two men in his chambers.Â
âI will not harm you, though you would deserve it.â Aemond purred, his eye roaming your exposed body, your stomach and core clenching in anticipation, âI plan to make you beg for it.â
You opened your mouth to snap at him, but in the moment his long fingers came to brush under your breast, fingers teasing your nipple softly, your mouth clamped shut. You shyly glanced at Cregan, whoâs eyes were scrunched tight. Aemond followed your line of sight, sighing.
âIf you do not watch,â Aemond fully turned to Cregan, âI will take out your eyes.âÂ
Even at the One-Eyed Princes threat, Cregan did not lift his gaze from the wall. The Lord of Winterfell willing to risk his sight so that you may keep your dignity.
âFine.â Aemond grunted, pulling the blade from his belt, âThen I shall take hers.â
Fear shot through you as you stared at Aemond tearfully, watching in your periphery as Creganâs head turned towards you and yelled.Â
âNo!â
âThen,â Aemond sneered, âWatch.âÂ
With eyes filled with shame, Cregan looked up at you. You didnât know what to do, what could make it better. What could make any of this not what it was, and so you tried to offer him a reassuring nod. A small promise that it was okay to look when all you knew was how very much it wasnât.
âGood.â The Prince hummed.Â
Aemond resumed his touch against you, hand coming to cup your breast fully as he rolled your nipple between his fingers. His touch sent sparks across your chest, shame washing over you in a wave.Â
Aemond ducked his head towards your face, beckoning you to kiss him. Would he be gentle as he was when you were married? Would it soften his actions? Or would it only make him worse?
Deciding that you didnât want to push what little patience he had, your eyes slid shut, breath stuck deep in your chest as you felt the heat of his body come closer, the hand on your breast skating around your ribs to pull you closer to him.Â
When his lips pressed against yours it was light, gentle, almost cautious, your hands staying stiff by your sides. But that softness was short lived, and soon Aemond deepened the kiss, his teeth clashing against yours roughly.Â
You gasped softly as his other hand wound into your hair, tugging you closer as he nipped your bottom lip roughly. Your hands instinctually came up to his chest, gripping onto his jacket tightly to steady yourself. Anger poured into the kiss, and from behind you could feel the reluctant glare of Cregan.Â
Aemond pulled away, your eyes fluttering open to look at him. His lips were swollen, having turned a rosy pink as a blush settled across his cheeks. His chest heaved against yours, the stitching on his coat brushing roughly against your stiffened peaks.Â
âHave you ever bed a woman, Stark?â Aemond asked smugly, brushing the back of your neck as you turned you to face the Northerner again, your back to Aemondâs chest.
Even as exposed as you were, Creganâs eyes did not shift to look at your body, keeping his simmering glare on Aemond.
Clicking his tongue, Aemond continued, âIâm sure youâve fucked wildlings and mudmen alike, being a man of the North.â An arm wrapped around the front of your chest, breasts squeezed beneath the toned arm of your uncle behind you, âTell me, are Winterfells brothels full of sheep like the Vale? Or maybe theyâre full of pigs since youâre both fond of the mud.â
The chair beneath Cregan creaked, his jaw tensing in anger as Aemond taunted him. His pale eyes narrowed, lips tensed together in a sneer as his nostrils flared, breathing heavily whilst his hands gripped the arms of the chair tightly.
âNo? Hm.â Aemondâs other hand slid across the skin of your back, travelling around to the front of your stomach slowly, brushing his fingertips along your hip bone as he continued, âYou see, Stark, mudmen of the North have no place with the blood of Valyria. The Blood of the Dragon would never sully itself by laying with a Northerner. Nor would a Princess.â His hand continued to dip down, fingers brushing into the hair atop your mound.Â
Your back arched in instinct, trying to escape his hand, but it only pushed your backside into his clearly hardened member, âTargaryens donât fuck like animals,â His voice dipped lower, âWe bring pleasure to our lovers.â
Aemondâs hand continued down, parting your folds with a finger, seeking out the heat and slick that had gathered at your entrance. Once found, Aemondâs chest vibrated from behind with an appreciative hum, dragging a long slender finger from your entrance, back up to your pearl. You jerked in his hold as he pushed lightly against it, slowly and torturously swirling the digit against your bud, your arousal aiding his movements.Â
You watched Cregan curiously, the urge to hide yourself strong. His eyes never once left Aemond as he continued to bring you soft pleasure. The Starkâs chest rose and fell shallowly as he glared at the man behind you, who watched back with impatience.Â
âI wonât tell you again.â Aemond purred, fingers dipping down to your entrance as he suddenly shoved one long finger inside of you, causing you to gasp at the small sting, âWatch her, or I blind her.â
Creganâs eyes shut as he took a shaky breath, Aemondâs finger crooking inside of you, pressing against your front wall roughly. A whine fell from your lips causing the icy blue eyes to catch yours finally. Cregan swallowed thickly as you stared at one another, your hands gripping the sleeve of Aemondâs arm across your chest, twisting the material between your fingers as you shifted your hips back, pressing against him as he sped up his fingers movement.Â
Creganâs stare was hard, his eyes apologetic, watching you shift against your husband behind you as he began to fuck his finger inside of you, the sound of your slick filling the room. Your face flushed with embarrassment.Â
âSheâs quite reactive,â Aemond purred, slipping his finger from within you to rub at your bud again, causing you to jerk in his hold, his arm tightening further around your chest, âHer body knows what it wants, even when she tries to fight it. Do you hear how she needs me?âÂ
Aemondâs finger moved back to your entrance, but instead of one, he forced in a second, the ache from the night before settling within you again.
âGods.â You whispered softly, pain and pleasure mixing into a confusing blend. Your head fell back against Aemondâs shoulder as he sped up his hand, fucking his fingers inside of you roughly. All you could do was lean your weight back against him, his arm the only thing that held you upright as his arousal pressed into the small of your back.
A familiar warmth began to build within you quickly, a coil rapidly tightening within your gut as Aemond switched from fucking you with his hand, to rubbing slick circles against your pearl. You scrunched your eyes shut, mouth going slack as your breath hitched. You were so close, so close, to reaching your peak, but each time you would almost get there, Aemond would slow his hand down.Â
You whined in his arms, shifting as you just wished it would end, wishing he would let you peak. It was torture. And with each time he did it, the frustration and desperation built, a light sheen of sweat covering your skin.
âWhat is the matter?â Aemond cooed into your ear, his fingers slowing to almost a halt, âDid you need something?â
You huffed a breath through your nose, eyes scrunching shut as you tried to thrust your hips into his hand, anything to alleviate the pressure that was strung to snap at any moment. You didnât care anymore, you just needed it to end. Aemondâs fingers stopped, hovering over your pearl.
You didnât even want to think of what you must have looked like, bare, hair likely a mess, and body aching for release.
All while Cregan Stark watched.
âIf you want something,â Aemondâs lips came to the side of your ear, pressing a ghostly kiss to them, âYou need only ask.â
You bit on your bottom lip, willing yourself to not give in, to not give him what he wanted, but all you could think about was reaching your peak. Logically, you told yourself it was for Creganâs sake so that it could all end quickly, but in reality, it was so that the throbbing in your core would cease, and the sweet feeling of relief could wash over you like it had the night before.Â
âCome now, youâre not one to hold your tongue. Ask.â
You wet your lips timidly, keeping your eyes shut in shame, not wanting to see Creganâs face as you begged for the man behind you to touch you again as he watched.Â
A sharp sting shot through your centre, your eyes springing open as you gasped, you gaze immediately meeting the cold icy glare of Cregan, whoâs fists tightened around the arms of the chair.
âSpeak.â Aemond commanded, voice sharper in your ear as he watched Cregan tensing to the chair he was tied to.
Your mouth felt dry, and you licked at your lips once more before you softly whispered, âPlease.â
âPlease what?â
Creganâs gaze looked back to yours, his eyes softened.
âPlease,â You begged softly, âTouch me.â
You heard Aemond hummed from behind you, his finger slowly pressing into your cunt as he gathered slick from your entrance to drag back up to your bud.
âLike this?â He purred, slowly making circles against you, the coil within tightening again.
All you could do was nod, but that was not the answer that Aemond demanded. His fingers left your pearl as he waited, and you huffed in frustration.
âTouch me. Please, Aemond.â You weakly begged, eyes darting to the floor in embarrassment, not wanting to see Creganâs face.Â
His touched resumed once more, but the arm wrapped around your chest shifted, his hand coming to grasp your chin as he lifted your head to look squarely at Cregan, a soft blush spreading across his cheeks.
âAll you needed to do was ask, sweet wife.â Aemond purred, the movement speeding up, bringing you closer and closer to your peak, âI want you to wet my hand, and watch him whilst you do it. If you do not,â His voice dipped low, fingers pressing almost painfully against you, âI will know.â
You swallowed dryly and nodded your head in his grasp, feeling your peak begin to barrel towards you. Cregan watched your face, his own a soft pink and ice blue eyes half lidded.Â
âDoes this feel good? Am I making you nice and wet?â Aemond cooed, hand plucking pleasure from you in ways you didnât know was possible.
You nodded weakly, âYes.â
âYou can do better than that. Tell him what it feels like.â
Your eyes widened, embarrassment flaring inside of you.
âTell him or Iâll stop.â
âIt-â You paused, swallowing the last of your pride, âIt feels good.â
âWhat feels good?â
âWhen you touch me.â
âHow so?â
You exhaled shakily, shifting in his arm as his fingers softened their movements, âIt feels good when you touch my cunt.â
âSČłz riĂąa.â Good girl, Aemond praised you, causing arousal to spark inside, âThat wasnât so hard, now was it? Does it feel good when I fuck you with my hand?â
âYes, uncle.â You whined weakly.
âTell Cregan that it feels good when I fuck you with my hand.â
Blinking at the man tied in the chair, you grit your teeth, âIt feels good when he fucks me with his hand.â
Cregans nostrils flared as he shifted in his seat, and your head fell back against Aemond once more, âIâm close.â You panted.
You were so close, so, so close to just tipping over the edge, the smell of Aemond behind you suffocating you as heat began to rise through your body. The gaze of the man before you wavered, his eyes momentarily dipping to where Aemondâs hand was rubbing swift and slick circles. That was all it took for you to feel yourself fall undone.
You writhed against Aemond as your peak washed over you, the Northerner watching on as Aemondâs fingers became wet with your release, his gaze darting up to watch your face, jaw slack as he breathed shallowly.
âShh, shh, shh. Good girl.â Aemond praised you, his hand finally stopping as he smoothed up and down your sides.Â
A warm glow settled over your body and your eyes slid shut, head lolling to Aemondâs chest behind you as you breathed deeply, the pulsing of your cunt halting any and all thoughts that you had.Â
But as quick as the calm had come, the quicker it left, your world tilting as you were spun and pushed back onto the bed. Your eyes shot open as you watched Aemond step towards you, Cregan observing with slight concern before you were yanked back down the bed towards the Prince by your ankles, legs splayed open.Â
On instinct they tried to close, too exposed to the room, but your husband wouldnât allow it, standing between them as he held them open with his hand, his lone eye commanding you to stay still from above.Â
Would it be painful like the night before? Would he bring you pleasure as well? Or would it be something entirely different now that you lay down on a bed, the way that your Septaâs had told you it would happen, and certainly not inside a dirty alley in Flea Bottom?
But what your Septaâs had not informed you of was that your husband, who seemed to be more concerned with punishing you than bringing you any reward, began to kneel before the bed, his back to his prisoner.
âI need to taste how sweet you are, and then I shall fuck you.âÂ
With a broad swipe of his tongue, Aemond parted your folds from your entrance to your bud, collecting your release on it as he went. His eye closed as he hummed, coming to lap at your folds once more, pleasure sparking up through you.Â
You gasped softly, the feeling foreign but not unwelcome. It was more intense than you had thought it could be, but perhaps you were over sensitive from the release you just had. You watched Aemond, his lilac eye opening to look up at you with a smirk.
He pulled away from your centre, lips wet with your slick, âYou are as sweet as I thought you would be.â
Aemond stood, towering over you as he began to pull at his belt and breeches, wherein he began untying them, lace after lace ripped from its eyelet until they sagged. His shirt was pulled away, revealing the pale skin of his lower stomach, and the dusting of hair that trailed down from navel to pubis.
The Princeâs length strained against his breeches, the base of it just showing, a purple vein standing out against his starkly pale skin. You hadnât gotten to see it properly the night before, and the sight of it made your core clench around nothing.Â
Before he pulled himself from the confines of his pants, Aemond grabbed you once more and shifted you to lay sideways atop his bed, the plush green sheets soft beneath your skin. Your eyes rose to the ceiling, looking at the soft canopy that lay atop before the screeching of a chair on stone caught your attention.
You snapped your head to the side, watching as Aemond effortlessly dragged Cregan by the chair closer to the bed, only an arms length away. He towered over the man from Winterfell who looked up at him with nothing but contempt.
âYouâll watch me fuck her,â Aemond began smugly, âAnd know that it could never be you. Know that it will never be you.â Cregan attempted to sit up higher in the seat, chest pulling at the ropes that held him back, âYouâll watch me bring peak after peak from her as she wets my cock and likes it, and youâll remember that it was me doing it.â
âAemond.â You tried to distract him, try to take the attention away from Cregan, who watched with burning eyes, âPlease.â
The silver haired Prince turned his head towards you and smirked before looking back at Cregan, âYou see? She already begs for more.â Aemond walked back towards you, only two short steps from the bed as his eye roamed your naked body, gaze settling into the crux of your thighs, âShe only had me last night, and already she begs so nicely.â
With jerky movements, Aemond pulled his length from his breeches, the length and girth large and intimidating. The tip was a rosy pink, and long veins travelled up its length. A bead of arousal had begun to form on top, slowly leaking down the base as he knelt on the bed, pulling you down to meet his hips, and had you not already experienced it, you would have been filled with fear.Â
Aemond thrust into you quickly and sharply, pain filling you before a feeling of fullness, his tip pressing at the end of your walls. You hissed softly, hands having raised to grasp his arms, nails biting into his skin beneath his shirts.
Your husband leant down, lips brushing against your cheek as it moved to your ear, âDo you like when I spear you on my cock?â He purred, his breath tickling your neck.Â
With clenched teeth you nodded, willing your body to adjust to his size quickly.
âUse your words, youâre not a mute.â
âYes.â You grit out, turning your head away from him as he loomed above you, arms on either side of your head as he lay between your parted thighs.
âYes, what?â
âYes, Aemond.â
âClose.
You swallowed, âYes, Husband.â
âGood.â Aemond pulled out of you swiftly before he thrust back in, âGirl.â
You exhaled sharply, the angle so far different from the night before. He felt deeper, more intense, everywhere all at once.Â
It was overwhelming.Â
You scrunched your eyes shut as Aemond began to rut into you, your hands not once leaving his arms as you clutched onto him, shifting your hips to alleviate the way his tip pressed harshly against your cervix with each thrust.Â
His hips clapped against yours brutally, speeding up, the movement shifting you up the bed as you squeaked with each impact, a warmth beginning to pool in your gut once more. The hair at the base of his cock brushed against your pearl roughly as his pelvis slid against yours, the stimulation winding that all too familiar coil again.
A moan broke free from your lips as Aemond shook a hand free, hoisting up one of your legs atop his hip, shifting the angle entirely so that his cock brushed against the small spongey patch within you deliciously, pleasure sending sparks through your limbs. Your eyes were shut so tightly, you could see stars behind them, your bottom lip gnawed between teeth.Â
âOpen your eyes.â Aemond breathed from above, his pace not once faltering.Â
Your head tipped to the side, away from where Cregan sat, eyes still scrunched shut as you whined beneath him.Â
âI said,â Aemond grunted, hand roughly coming to grasp your chin as he turned your head back towards Cregan, âOpen.âHis fingers squeezed painfully against your jaw, bruises likely to show in the morning, your eyes finally opening to find Cregan watching you already.
âLord Stark knows how to follow orders. Heâs not once taken his eyes off you.â Aemond purred, thrusting particularly sharply into you causing you to wince, âDo you think he wishes he were I?â
Your mouth felt dry again, and all you could do was watch as the blush on Creganâs cheeks depend and his eyes momentarily flashed away form you before returning, remembering Aemondâs threat.Â
âI think he does, sweet wife. I think he wishes that he was in your tight, wet, cunt as I am now. Donât you agree?âÂ
Your breasts moved with each thrust, the sound of your slick sliding against his length loud as it was before as you huffed beneath your husband.
Aemondâs fingers tightened against your jaw, âI asked you a question.â
âYes.â
Another squeeze.
âI do.â You breathed, your face suddenly feeling flushed.Â
The man on top of you pulled out suddenly, hands moving under your sides to flip you over onto your stomach.
âDo not-â You began angrily.
â-Quiet.â Aemond snapped, grabbing your hips as he pulled you up onto your knees, your hands fisting the sheets as you looked ahead, uncertainty filling your features before you felt the head of Aemond cock slide through your folds, and push straight back inside.Â
âFuck you.â You hissed as he began to fuck into you, âGods.â The angle made you feel even fuller than before, but shallower too, his length constantly batting against your walls as his hips clapped against your ass.
You struggled to stay upright as he continued, his grip on your hips painful as he pulled you back onto him, the air being punched from your lungs each time, making you gasp out small little high pitched huffs. A hand in your hair wrenched your head back and then to the side, directing your face to meet the Starkâs whoâs eyes were not on your own, but instead upon your body.
The heat of his gaze caused you to clamp down on Aemondâs length, the Lordâs roaming eyes watching as the Princes cock buried itself over and over inside of you, before slowly roaming back up your body, catching sight of your breasts below you as they moved, and then finally to your face.Â
Seeing that he was caught, Cregan flushed, eyes casting down briefly before looking back up at you. He shifted against the chair, hands still tightly clenched against the arm, chest heaving, his thick muscled thighs clenching against the seat, and to-
Oh.
Cregan shifted again, knowing where your gaze had fallen, his hips trying to shift back against the wooden chair, but there was nothing to hide the hardening length within his dark leathered breeches, which pressed painfully to the front of his pants.
Your core clenched again, and from behind you heard Aemond grunt.Â
You should have been upset, you should have been horrified, but all it did was set the heat that was already simmering in your gut ablaze, your nipples stiffening to peaks. Instinctually you arched your back, hoping to better the view, which got another grunt of appreciation from your husband, whoâs pace was yet to falter, his stamina owed to years of hard work in the training yard with Ser Criston Cole.Â
Creganâs lips parted as he watched you, the pink of his tongue coming out to wet his lips, and that was all it took for you to come undone. You cried out loudly, keeping your eyes on Cregan as Aemond fucked you through your release, triggering his own. He came with a growl, his hips slowing to a halt as you felt his seed pulse inside of you.Â
You collapsed against the bed, eyes half lidded as you watched Cregan shift again against his chair as Aemond slowly pulled out of you with a hiss. Warmth dripped from your folds and down your thighs as you felt the soft press of kiss against your shoulder blades.Â
Your uncle manoeuvred you on the bed again, your body pliant in his hands as he pulled you to the edge of the bed, legs spread wide for Cregan to see. The manâs pale eyes drifted down to between your thighs, watching hungrily as Aemondâs spend dripped out from within you.Â
âTell me Cregan,â Aemond stood by the bed panting, tucking his length back into his breeches whilst he brushed a loose hair over your shoulder, âDid you enjoy watching me fuck my wife?â
The taunt earnt him a sneer.Â
âAn honest question deserving of an honest answer. I thought Starkâs were known for the honesty and oaths?â Aemond pressed.
You breathed heavily as you watched Creganâs gaze fell to you and only you in that moment as his answer was given.Â
âYes.â
There was no denying the edge of arousal that roughened the edge of his answer.Â
âHm.â A beat, âWould you like a taste?â
You brows furrowed as you looked up to your husband, who kept his eye on Cregan, his hand atop your shoulder brushing gently in thought.Â
A taste?
Did he mean to-
Your heart leapt into your throat, watching as Aemond took his blade from his side and moved towards the Stark man.Â
âStop!â You yelled, watching as Cregan did not flinch when Aemond approached him.Â
âWorry not, I mean no harm. I am feeling generous.â Aemond purred, lifting the blade towards Cregan, âHe watched dutifully as I put my seed inside of you.â His lilac eye dropped to Creganâs hardened member, âAnd it seems that he has enjoyed it.â The Prince turned to face you, âI only wish to give him a parting gift. Something to remember⌠to agonise over for years to come.â
With a swift hand, Aemond sliced the ropes that bound Cregan's chest to the back of the chair, the Northerner staying still in his seat. The tall Targaryen bent down and cut the ropes on the mans legs loose, one by one.
âNow,â Aemond stood to his full height again, pointing his blade towards Creganâs wrists, still tied to the chair, âKnow that I have your men in a holding cell, and should you try anything, I shall have them all cut into seven pieces and strung about the gates.â Aemond paused, his gaze hardening, âAnd then I will stay true to my word.â
Creganâs chest heaved with anger as he watched the prince, still not speaking a word.
âDo we understand each other?â Aemond questioned him, one silver brow lifted in challenge.Â
Creganâs jaw clenched, a click audible to the chambers, âYes.â He growled.
Aemond hummed in acknowledgement and released his hands, taking a step back as Cregan stood slowly, rubbing at his raw wrists as he looked at you on the bed. His head turned back towards your husband, uncertain of what he meant.Â
Impatiently Aemond thrust his arm towards you, blade still in hand, âGo to her. Taste how sweet she is, and know that you will never taste her again.â
Cregan shifted on his feet uncomfortably, looking to you for permission, for denial.Â
You didnât know what to do, or what to say, so instead, you widened your legs in invitation, feeling desire begin to stir in you once more.Â
It was wrong.Â
But Gods did you need it.Â
âClean her up.â Aemond commanded, and with slow and cautious steps, Cregan walked towards you.
The scent of Aemond was overpowered by that of Creganâs. He smelt of cedar wood and fur, and the soft smell of musk beneath it all that just felt right for a Northerner.Â
It felt as if each stepped dragged on for days. You shifted against the bed nervously, casting your eyes to Aemond, who watched with a desire of his own.
Cregan dropped to his knees, his hands twitching by the side of your hips on the bed, cautious to even touch you, a stark difference to the way Aemond simply took. The dark haired man looked up at you breathlessly as you gave him a nod, shifting your hips towards him again, likings the way his eyes dropped down to your centre and then back up.Â
His large calloused hands grasped the soft meat of your hips, his eyes keeping on yours as he leant froward slowly, the heat of his breath fanning across your sensitive folds. Your mouth parted as you panted above him, watching as he wet his lips before finally pressing a chaste kiss to your core.Â
A soft moan escaped your mouth, head dropping back momentarily, giving him a strike of confidence before burying his tongue between your folds. You dropped back onto the bed, hands coming to grasp his hair as he licked and suckled at your folds, lapping at both your and Aemondâs release which only served to spark your desire further, that same familiar coil winding rapidly.
You tilted your head to watch him, his eyes still on you as you began to come undone on his tongue. Your name pulled you away from his stare, and you turned your head to face Aemond who watched hungrily from beside, his jaw tensed.Â
Already sensitive from such an intense night already, you writhed against Creganâs mouth with a moan, his ministrations bringing you to your peak swiftly, your slick gushing into his mouth. You kept your eyes on Aemond this time, watching as he breathed deeply, his cock already beginning to swell in his breeches.
You panted and whined as the pleasure became too much, and only then did Cregan remove his face from between your thighs, roughly wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
The chambers became still as you all breathed deeply, warmth spreading through your limbs as you couldnât decide who to look at for longest.Â
Your husband.
Or the Northerner.
All you could think about was what you had done.Â
What had just transpired.
Your husband had trapped a Lord of the North in his chambers and forced him to watch you be fucked by him, and not only that, commanded that he cleaned you after. But what was the most confusing part of all, was that all in the chambers seemed to have liked it.
âCole.â Aemondâs voice broke the stillness of the room, the door to the chambers opening swiftly.Â
Cregan stepped in front of you to shield your body from Ser Cole at the same time Aemond did, his back turning to his knight as he grabbed the sheet of the bed to drape over your exposed body.
The knight entered, flagged by two guards.
Confusion flashed across Creganâs face as he stiffened, body gearing itself up for a fight.
âRelax, Stark.â Aemond mused, not even bothering to look at the man as he observed the guards, eye landing on Ser Cole again, âTake Cregan and his men to the travel roads. Ensure they have food for travel and water for the ride. They are to leave Kings Landing immediately to return back to Winterfell.âÂ
Ser Cole nodded, as did the guards who swiftly approached Cregan, grabbing each arm as they began to remove him from Aemondâs chambers. The dark haired man looked back at you in confusion as you clutched the sheet your chest, unsure of what to do.
âStark.â Aemond called out before the dark haired mans foot could cross the threshold. The Northerner stilled, eyes suspicious, âExpect a raven.â
Without another word, the guards pulled Cregan out of the room, Criston shutting the door behind them. The silence in the chambers was nerve-racking, and you turned to look at your uncle, who was already making his way to fill two goblets of wine.Â
Your mouth opened, a myriad of questions ready to pour out your mouth, but as usual, Aemond seemed to be one step ahead.
âYouâre my wife.â He began, the sound of wine filling goblets. He turned with them in hand, coming to stand beside the bed as he handed you one.Â
You kept one hand with the sheets against your breast, the other shakily grasping the goblet, fatigue weighing your body down. Aemond spun to sit in the very chair that Cregan had been tied to, the ropes still on the floor in a heap.
âOur marriage is one of a prospect of peace, not love.â His words stung you in a way you didnât realise they could, âThough, I do hope to change that one day. I wish to make you happy,â He paused, taking a sip from his goblet as he thought carefully, âAnd it would be remiss of me to say that what just happened didnât spark something within me.â
You frowned, âI do not understand.â
âYou looked like a Queen having him kneel before you.â
A beat.
âMy Queen."
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I Missed You [HYUNG LINE]
//fem!reader x bf!Skz//
Synopsis: You find you your boyfriend bought a toy that looks oddly familiar
Genre: suggestive/smut, crack
Warnings: reader is fem, sexual situations!!
A/N: Thank you anon for this request!! đŤśđž As you can see, I had wayyyy too much fun with this đ (I decided to just do the Hyung line, I hope thatâs okay!!)
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CHAN -
Your boyfriend, though having random spurts of confidence that often leaves you blushing, was a very shy individual. He couldnât take compliments, couldnât ask for a kiss without his ears going pink, and would rather suck a pair of leather pants through a straw than tell you when heâs feeling needy.
It was usually you that initiated sex, and that was fine. You were more than satisfied, especially since he took a more dominating role in bed. However, you would listen to your friends stories about how their partners would pull them away for sex at the most random of times.
Though your sex life was great, you wanted a little more adventure. So, you had the idea to go to his studio for a little quickie. You knew he was busy, so you promised yourself you wouldnât stay super long.
Getting into the company building was easy since you had access beyond the lobby, getting into his studio was even easier since he gave you an extra key.
You knew the members werenât with him because you bribed them all (with a promise to buy them dinner) to stay away for an hour under the pretense that you wanted to bring Chan lunch.
When you opened the door to the studio, you heard moaning first. Then you saw your boyfriend, pants at his ankles, laid on the couch. Then you saw the toy, that reminded you so much of your own body.
Chan, ever so sweet, greeted you with a worn out smile when he realized it was you. You slammed the door shut, and no words were exchanged as you stripped out of your clothes and he lost the rest of his.
Minho
âHow long have you had this?â
âStop asking questionsâ
âIt looks like myâŚ.areaâ
âStop looking at itâ
âWhereâd you get it from?â
âDo I ask you where you get your toys from?â
âYesâ
Minho rolls his eyes as you inspect the toy in your hands. You found it when you were looking through his side of the closet for a specific hoodie. Admittedly, you felt a little insecure when you found it. Minho always insisted that he didnât need any toys because you were enough for him.
You had some of your own, but that was for when he was away. When you remembered why you bought your own toys, a smirk grew on your face when you understood why he bought his.
âSo youâve been missing me while youâre on tour?â
Though you didnât know it was possible, the tips of his ears turned a deeper shade of red. You put the toy back in the little white box it came in, throwing it on the dresser and trying to hide the look of lust in your eye.
Minho, ever so attentive, very quickly caught onto your mischievousness and walked over to your shared bed. He didnât have to ask if you would join him, as you were following and practically jumped on your boyfriend before he could utter another word.
Changbin
âI heard you moaning Changbinâ you said lowly, doing your best to wipe your tears away before they fall down your cheeks.
You were at a nearby smoothie shop, grabbing you and Changbin some drinks when he suddenly called you. Thinking he wanted to make a last minute change to his order, you answered, but was horrified to hear his loud moans over the phone.
Given that you were only a 10 minute drive away, it took you no time to speed back to your apartment (taking that 10 minute drive down to a 5 minute one).
When you bursted through the door, you wasted no time checking the entire place for your manâs affair partner. Only thing is, you didnât find anyone. Changbin was fiddling with his pants when you barged in, and you couldnât find anyone in the room.
âBaby, you donât really think Iâm cheating on you, do you?â He asked, hurt laced in his voice
You didnât know what to think, so you only shrugged and put your head down. Changbin sighed, but knew getting angry at you wasnât the right thing to do.
Instead, he brought you to the room and stuck his hand behind the pillow, pulling out a sex toy you had never seen before.
Youâve never stopped crying so fast in your life, your eyes darting from the toy to your boyfriend as realization washed over you.
Apologies from both ends, passionate kissing, and said toy were the main ingredients for a very long night for the both of you.
Hyunjin
Hyunjin stood above you, glaring down as you laughed so hard tears came out of your eyes.
You had caught him using a very specific and familiar looking toy while practically screaming your name. To say you were flattered was an understatement, however your amusement towards the situation overpowered any other feelings you had.
Eventually, your laughter stopped and you were stuck hugging and apologizing to your pouty boyfriend. He would reveal when he bought it, why, and when he used it. You smiled throughout his whole spiel, the flattery taking over the humor.
You were approving of his occasional use of the toy, it admittedly stroked your ego and he seemed to like how interested you were.
The toy wasnât put up until the next morning, the night filled with unrest and lust.
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(Not so) Quiet Evenings
Summary: Lando is alone with his son for the first time
Warnings: None, just so high risk of a baby fever
Words: 1.1k
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I wanted to thank you for 1k notes on Little Update. So I wrote another dad!lando to thank all of you! <3
(I wanted to put a picture with him and a baby here but this was way too cute to not postâ¤ď¸)
Carmen and Lily invited you to a small baby-free get-together. Nothing too big, just the three of you sitting together, relaxing and letting loose for a bit.
This whole thing was actually Lando's idea. He wanted to get you out of the house for a bit, sensing that you needed a little break from being a mama bear.
So he asked Lily if she could invite you over to catch up and keep your mind off of things a little. Of course, she said yes, already starting to plan the second Lando asked her.Â
So now the Brit is sitting on the couch, watching you rush through the apartment to grab everything you need.
"Baby, you're gonna be fine, trust me. It's just Lily and Carmen."Â Â
Halting your movements, you turn to him, your phone in one hand and your keys in the other.Â
"I know it's just I want this to be perfect. It's been so long since I went out."
Lando stands up and makes his way over to you, stopping right in front of you.Â
"You're going to be ok. Enjoy your night. Me and the little muppet are going to have a great night."
Lando strokes your arms, kissing your head to calm you down.Â
"Speaking of the little muppet." You turn around and grab a piece of paper from the shelf behind you. "I wrote you a little list so you don't get overwhelmed by being alone."
Lando takes the paper and reads through the different points.Â
Try to feed him before bed. So he sleeps a little bit longer( milk is already in the bottle)Â
Bath him (use the blue and the green bottles on the sink)Â
If he gets fussy, play the F1 intro. (Works every time!)Â Â
Try to get him to bed around 7:30 p.m.Â
You're going to do great. You're a super dad, and I believe in you.Â
"Aww, you're cute."Â
Wrapping his arms around you, he wishes you a lovely evening and practically pushes you out the door.Â
Now, standing alone in the quiet apartment, a feeling of nervousness creeps up in his body. He grips the list you gave him a little tighter and makes his way into his son's room.Â
Gently opening the door, he smiles at his son's sleeping figure, cuddled up in his little cot. Lando walks into the room, approaches his son and gently takes him into his arms.
Henry wakes up and looks at his dad with his adorable big blue eyes, cuddling himself into Lando's shoulder.Â
Lando strokes his back to settle little Henry in his arms again, feeling the soft material of his little bear pyjamas between his fingers.Â
"Well, hello there, little man. Slept well?" He asks, earning himself a happy gurgle.Â
"I take that as a yes."Â
He carries Henry into the living room, asking him all sorts of questions on the way.
"You also think that nobody needs fish, right? Say nothing if you agree."
Hearing complete silence from the sleeping baby in his arms, he looks down to find Henry in a deep slumber again. He laughs a little at how much they already have in common, being able to sleep everywhere.Â
The two continue to cuddle for a bit. Lando tells him all sorts of stories until he feels Henry getting restless on his chest.Â
"You getting hungry, little bud?"Â
Henry lets out a whine, grabbing the shirt he lays on with his little fists. Lando strokes his back to settle him again, and stands up to grab a bottle from the kitchen.Â
"How does Y/N do that?"Â
In the kitchen, he currently tries to heat the bottle while holding the baby in his arms, which turns out to be more complicated than he thought, with a squirming baby in his arm. Â
"How about- no, that's not going to work."Â
"And if I just- nope, also not."Â
After some time, he finally figured it out. He stuck Henry into his hoodie and held him with one hand while he prepared the bottle with the other. Â
Now, he is sitting in your bathroom waiting for the water to be the perfect temperature.Â
Let's say feeding didn't go quite as planned. The food was everywhere except Henry's mouth, on the floor, on Henry, the curtains, but mainly on Lando.Â
So, now that both of them needed a bath, he decided to kill two birds with one stone.Â
The water is warm enough now, so he grabs little Henry and climbs into the tub. The warmth engulfs their bodies as he lays down.Â
"Yeah, that's better. Admit it, you just wanted to bathe with me."
Henry gives his dad a toothless smile and splashes him with water. Lando giggles at his son's antics and grabs the soap to start washing him.Â
After he washed himself and the baby, he got both of them dressed. They are both dressed in matching quadrant hoodies, something Max gifted him as Henry was born.Â
Land decides the world needs to see how unbelievably cute he and Henry look, so he takes a picture and posts it on his story.Â
Millions of messages arrive to him in a matter of minutes, but he ignores them and makes his way over to Henry's little nursery. He is fighting to keep his little eyes open, so Lando decides it is time for him to call it a night.Â
The second he lays him down in his crib, he starts to whine, not liking the loss of his father's warmth one bit.Â
So Lando picks him up again, walks to the living room and sits on the couch.Â
"You don't want to sleep yet, do you?"Â
He coos at him and bounces up and down to settle Henry a little. Happy to be in his dad's arms again, he settles back down and closes his eyes.Â
"Oh, so now you wanna sleep? Little evil genius, you got that from your mom."Â
Not wanting to wake him up, Lando decides to stay on the couch and watch some TV until Henry is sleeping deep enough. It doesn't take long for Lando to doze off, one hand on his son's back and the other under his butt, having him in a safe grip.Â
And that's exactly how you found them two hours later, cuddled up on the couch, the TV playing in the background. Â
Smiling to yourself, you take out your phone and take a picture of the two of them, definitely posting that later. But for now, you walk up to them and cuddle yourself to your perfect little family. Â
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BABEEE happy birthday!! (i'm so terribly late i'm so sorry) congrats on 23đ
đĽ so i'm having thoughts right now about luke x reader and physical affection. like maybe one of them being touch starved and always craving the other person's touch and the other person noticing it and doing it more? maybe from platonic (i will go down with best friends to lovers) to romantic, i'm just on this brainrot tonight
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luke castellan x reader
a/n: back from the klerb but here with a classic 4am post đĽ but the hangxiety wont let me rest until this is out! ill edit this in the morning... or not đ
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Itâs hard to miss what youâve never had.
Luke Castellan was never a touchy guy. Sure, heâll hold a new camperâs hand during welcome tours (especially the little ones who can barely keep up with his long legs; if theyâre lucky they get a piggy back ride), and he wonât shy away from a clap on the back when his strategies for capture the flag bring his team to victory (they always do, mind you), and when he feels like it, heâll even shove Annabeth playfully to show her he adores her (but she packs a punch now that sheâs older).
It never really goes past that, and heâs never had to think too hard about itâphysical touch.
Heâs the one who takes care of othersâa part of his nature like it is for Hermesâ cabin to take in unclaimed demigods. But something changed in the months that heâs gotten closer to you. At first, heâd bite his tongue at the way youâre so open to patting his cheek when he does something funny (which he doesnât try to make a show of, but nowâŚ), how you choose to sit so close to him during bonfires that your knees touch (the Apollo kids could be singing about the heavens falling down on them for all he cares but he zeroes in on every word that leaves your lips), and the way youâd lock your fingers with him for a pinky promise after every little thing âto make sure itâs realâ (Luke didnât understand the merit of a pinky promise over whether you could have his dessert for the next week if you took over arts and crafts with the kiddie campers for him; truthfully heâd give it to you anyway). It was unusual for him to have someone comfort him, to show care without a true reason. But he didnât realize how much more it bothered him now that you wouldnât even look him in the eye.
Silena and some of the other Aphrodite children had asked you the very defining question of, âDo you like Luke Castellan?â and having never thought of it that way, or being able to put your feelings for him in words instead of fingers in his belt loops or in the muss of his curlsâthat shit was terrifying!
You spent all Saturday afternoon at the docks with them belly down under the glare of the sunâs rays as they explained to you what the five love languages are. By the end of it, sunburn wasnât the only reason you felt hot.
âYour love language is physical touch,â one of Silenaâs older half-siblingsâConnelly, says like heâs explaining that the sky is blue, âAnd Lukeâs not that type of guy! Think heâs more acts of serviceâŚâ
���Ooh, or words of affirmationâŚ.â another one of them muses, but the sound of your heartbeat tunes it all out. Well shit, have you been sending him the wrong signals? Or are there even any signals you want to send him?Â
Nevertheless, in the matters of love or even the tiniest whisper of itâmaybe thereâs no one else you can trust with this stuff besides Cabin 10.
Wrong.
Absolutely wrong. Whatever the hell youâve been convinced or whateverâs changed since last weekendâLuke just knows he hates it, and heâs angry. Heâs angry at how you gasp in surprise every time you brush shoulders during archery practice when you used to let him fix your form, heâs angry at how youâll squeeze campersâ shoulders to tell them theyâre doing a good job carrying the strawberry cratesâand all he gets is a mumbled âThanks, Castellanâ when he stacks them up and takes your load.
Lukeâs so terribly angry that Travis told him heâs been walking around like a big strawberry, face red and irritatedâbut not at you.Â
He realizes heâs also angry at the fact that he canât protect you from the onslaught of a rain cloudâor maybe it was the fact that youâre so okay with the rain touching your skin and seeping through your orange shirt like he wishes youâd let him. Heâs angry at the way the wind blows your hair into your face and your fingers brush the strands away like he wishes he can. Most of all, Luke Castellan is angry that he didnât know how good a simple touch could be until he lost itâbefore he even really got to appreciate yours.
Youâre sitting on the opposite end of the row in the amphitheater laughing with your friends and the furrow in his thick brow is a tell-tale sign of his discomfort. Luke doesnât dare to remember what itâs like before you to be honestâheâd rather give up Elysium instead of having you ignore him like this. He calls your name, a tinge of both anger and desperation until you look over at him, eyelashes kissing your cheeks. The hold you have on him transcends the physical touch of your fingers but he wants, noâneeds you next to him.
âCâmere! Why are you so far away?â
Luke hopes it doesnât sound pathetic, but a crooked grin splits across his face as soon as you make your way over, sitting down and crossing your legs away from him. Itâs still too far, even if he can feel your breath on his shoulder.
âDid I do something to make you angry? IâŚâ The words escape his mouth in a jumbleâquick wit from his father escaping him, though he knows not to rely on that asshole, god or not. You mutter words that almost escape him too, and he leans in, chasing your hands and putting them in his own until theyâre gentle and soft in his lap.
âNo, noâŚ. I just⌠donât want to push your boundaries. I know you donât like it when Iâm too touchy,â and he thinks his heart clenches a little like how youâre squeezing his hands. Luke shouldnât feel instant gratification from a subconscious action. He wants to know you mean it with himâthatâs what he canât put into words.
âIâŚ.like it when you do.â
You notice the way his fingers tangle tighter with yours, pinkys interlocking with yours. When he lets go, Luke wraps his arm around your shoulders until youâre able to laugh in the crook of his neck. He chooses to place a kiss on the corner of your mouth when your head sways to face him at the silly tune about centaurs and then you realize that Luke loves the way you love him. You wonder if he accidentally missed meeting your lips, but then the noise in your head quiets down when he pulls you closer, lips locking tenderly, intentionallyâas they were always meant to.
You both hear a giggle that sounds a lot like tinkling bells belonging to children of Aphrodite.Â
For once they were wrong about love.Â
Lukeâs tongue parts through your lips and meets your own like theyâre in a long awaited embrace, dancing and devouring you from the inside out but this, youâ are what he can rely on. This, your touch, and how he chooses to let it consume him, never letting go.
#jo's 23rd birthday bash â・°âŠ#luke castellan x reader#luke castellan fanfic#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo x reader#made by ma1dita âĽď¸
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I Knew You
Summary: You and Steve Harrington have hated each other ever since sixth grade, which made living next door to him all the more miserable. It hadn't always been like that though, shared smiles and loving gestures in secret before popularity went to his head. But now, Steve somehow keeps finding ways to squeeze himself back into your life, making you question if the boy you once knew, the one you might have loved, still lived somewhere within him.
Note: Its been a bit since I last posted, but I had this idea and really wanted to write it. I'm currently drowning with work and school stuff for my masters so my next fic might take a hot minute and will definitely be shorter. This takes place in the fall after season 4 and both Eddie and Max survived with minimal injuries. Itâs also partially inspired by Cardigan by Taylor Swift, hence the lyrics as chapter titles. This ended up being way longer than I intended for it to be, but I hope you enjoy!
Warnings: 18+, no use of y/n (reader is referred to as Baby), smut, unprotected sex, oral sex (female receiving), enemies to lovers, language, mentions of blood/injuries, some cannon divergence, fluff, angst, slowburn.
Pairings: Steve Harrington x reader
Word count: 30.5k (I got carried away)
I knew Iâd curse you for the longest time
The last salt of the summer air lazed its way through the breeze, picking up the fresh fallen leaves with it. There wasnât enough foliage on the ground to worry about raking them just yet, but it still brought a chill down your spine at the thought of autumnâs rapid approach. You were sitting on the window bench in your room with a book in your hands and your back against the wall as the breeze floated through the open window, making the curtains dance despite being drawn back. It was a moment of quiet, something you desperately needed.
You were lost in words on the page before you, taking them in sentence after sentence, until the loud slam of a door interrupted your trance. The sound of the door was followed by singing, loud and obnoxious singing. More specifically, Steve Harringtonâs loud and obnoxious singing. He had just strolled into his room, playing air guitar along to whatever metal song he was bellowing. A metal song that you presumed Eddie had played so many times on the tape player in his van that it somehow ingrained itself into Steveâs pop-hits brain.Â
You sighed, shaking your head to try and brush off the noise as if this was a daily occurrence. Well, it almost was, in some form or another. You lived next door to Steve Harrington for as long as you could remember. Your bedroom windows faced each other too, allowing each of you to gain small, often unwelcome, glimpses into the otherâs life. Just about every girl in school had come up to you at least once to tell you how lucky you were to have such an easy way to see Steve Harrington. Then theyâd always proceed to ask if they could join you for a sleepover at your house, no doubt just to get a chance to spy on the boy in his natural habitat.Â
Your eyes flitted back down to the page, stuck on the same sentence ever since your ears were met with the unwelcome disturbance that was Steve Harringtonâs singing. Heâd moved on from singing to vocalizing the songâs guitar solo, which was somehow even more annoying. Steveâs arms moved wildly up and down his fake guitar as he banged his head up and down. If you werenât so annoyed youâd honestly be impressed by the amount of endurance Steveâs performance surely required. But you were annoyed. Annoyed enough to finally speak up.Â
âDo you constantly have to make so much noise or do you just like to hear the sound of your own voice?â your remark rang out through the open window, trickling through the air to reach Steveâs room. You didnât look up from your book, doing your best to look unbothered. Steve stopped singing and thrashing about. His heavy breaths evened out slightly before he responded, slowly approaching the window sill.
âDo you constantly have a stick up your ass or do you just like to pretend that you do?â your eyes widened at that, putting your book to the side as you turned to face the window, to face Steve. He had a smirk on his lips, one that you were more than familiar with by now. It was the smirk he flashed each time he said something that he knew would piss you off. Quite frankly, it was the expression you were most familiar with seeing Steve wear at this point in your life.Â
âIf thereâs a stick up my ass then it's only because you put it there,â it was a lame comeback. You knew it. Steve knew it. But they canât all be winners. You winced as the words fell from your lips, waiting for Steveâs retaliation, which was sure to be unsavory.
âI donât recall ever doing that. But Baby, if you bend over Iâd be more than happy to oblige,â Steve's smirk grew wider. Whether it was the stupid nickname or the sexual nature of his response that caused the flash of his pearly teeth, you didnât know. However, you did know that you hated it, all of it. You hated that you constantly walked right into his dumb little comebacks. You hated that he seemingly had an endless supply of them just for you. You hated the day that the stupid nickname was ever aimed in your direction and you hated that Steve Harrington was the one to do it.Â
It was late September 1978. Summer was still putting up a fight, albeit a weak one, to keep its warmth in the air. It had rained the night before, washing away the fresh fallen leaves to get stuck in the gutters along the roof or in the storm drains beside the narrow streets. School had only started back up a few weeks ago, and somehow, Steve found himself climbing the popularity ranks. It was a big deal for a sixth grader whoâd only just begun his journey at Hawkins Middle to be so admired so fast, but Steve was already starting to see people worship the ground he walked on. He liked the idea of it, that he could waltz through the door of some place and up and run it so soon. His dad always said that the Harringtons were winners, and Steve knew he would be nothing if he disappointed his dad.Â
Steve was walking to school that morning, Tommy and Carol to his left as a group full of his classmates followed closely behind. It was as if Steve had his very own entourage. They were a few blocks from the school when he saw it, a bike abandoned on the grass next to the sidewalk. There was a backpack beside it too, laying face down as if it had been thrown off in haste. It didnât take long for Steve to realize why the bike before him looked so familiar. It was the same one he had seen you on almost every day that summer. The bike you rode to the library, to Loverâs Lake, to the movie theater, to the quarry. As long as it was a place with a good story waiting to be watched or read, or a quiet environment to immerse yourself in a good book, someone was sure to find you there with that bike.Â
Steve panicked for a moment, preparing himself to run to the police station and report that you had been kidnapped. But then he looked up. You were hunched over the sidewalk a few yards up, picking at something on the surface of the cement. Steveâs legs moved, the others following, and stopped once again, this time only a few feet from where you sat on the sidewalk. Steveâs brows furrowed as he looked down, finally getting a good look at what you were doing.Â
You sat there, slowly and gently peeling the dried worms from the sidewalk. Then you parted the grass next to the sidewalk, putting the worm down to get it as close to the soil as possible. Steve watched you curiously as you moved on to the next worm. It was then that the breeze picked up a bit, shifting away the hair that covered your face. Steve saw it, the tear tracks running down your cheeks as you struggled with the worms that Steve was sure were already dead. A few chuckles sounded from the group behind Steve, and suddenly he remembered that it was not just you and him on that sidewalk.
You too had suddenly become aware of your audience then, head snapping up to see the group in front of you. Your eyes landed on Steve. His expression was etched with empathy, an emotion Steve still held onto no matter how much Tommy tried to strip it from him in his sudden rise to king status. At that moment you didnât care about the others or the tears that still leaked down your soft cheeks. You cared about the poor worms that stuck to the sidewalk. Your gaze landed on Steve, appealing to the boy who lived beside you for so many years.
âThe rain,â you sniffled and Steveâs heart ached at the sound. Heâd seen you cry before, as he was sure you had seen him cry too, through the cracks in the curtains obscuring bedroom windows. Each time Steve had to stop himself from marching over to your house and wrapping you in a comforting hug. It was an urge that he still had to repress, even here and now. âThe rain cools down the sidewalk and the worms like to come out onto it. But it- itâs not raining anymore. It's too hot for them now. They- theyâre burning alive,â fresh tears fell, replacing the old ones. They ran races against each other, fighting to be the first to drip off of your chin and onto the cement below. Steveâs mouth opened, but he was cut off by the boy beside him.
âWhatever, worm girl. Just move out of the way so we can get to school,â Tommyâs words rang through the air, the entourage laughing at you from behind him. Steve could picture it now, youâd spend the rest of middle and high school deemed as the worm girl. Youâd hide in all of your classes, eat lunch by yourself in the library, and ignore the taunts that echoed throughout the hallway. Worm girl, worm girl, worm girl. Youâd leave Hawkins the day after graduation, a car full of boxes, your life packed up and tucked away in each, and youâd never return. Youâd start a new life in a new city that only knows you by your real name, not some playground-esque tease that stupid Tommy Hagan awarded you in 6th grade. Youâd be happy there, build a place you could call home, find your one true love, and Steve would never see you again.Â
Steve had to stop this now. He had to bury the name worm girl in the ground before it could ever fully emerge. And there was only one way that Steveâs prepubescent brain could think how. Your eyes flickered from Tommy before landing back on Steve, willing him to say something, to defend you. Maybe that was too much to ask.
âDamn, that was lame. Worm girl, really? Are we five?â Steve pulled his gaze from yours. He couldnât bear to see the look of hope that blossomed in your eyes. Not with what he was about to say next. âI mean, if anything, we should call her Baby since sheâs crying like one,â small giggles sounded off behind Steve before being overtaken by full-blown giggles and laughs. And there it was. Steveâs master plan had come to fruition. Replace a bad nickname with a not-as-bad nickname. It wasnât a great plan, he knew that, especially when he saw the scrunch of your brows and the quiver of your bottom lip, but it was the best that Steveâs 11-year-old thoughts could conjure on such short notice. And Baby really wasnât that bad. It's a term of endearment for Christ's sake. Or at least thatâs what Steve would tell himself.
Tommy laughed from beside Steve, throwing an arm over Carol and guiding her to walk around you. The others followed, hurling a few taunting calls of âBabyâ at you as they walked by. You looked back down at the ground, refocusing yourself on the task at hand, ignoring the cracks running along the foundations of your heart. Maybe Steve wasnât the same boy you had grown up with. Maybe his middle school fame had gone to his head more than you thought it would. More than you hoped it would.
You had just freed another dried worm from its place on the sidewalk when you saw it. A pair of Nikes in front of you. Steve Harringtonâs pair of Nikes. He hadnât gone with the others. It was like he was rooted to the spot. You placed the worm into the depths of the grass, tilting your head to look up at the boy towering over you.
âScrew you, Steve,â you spoke harshly, doing your best to let venom lace your words despite the shake in your voice. Steve didnât say anything back. He just crouched down in front of you, gently picking up the last worm from the sidewalk. He copied what you had done, parting the grass to place the worm close to the damp earth below. Steve stood up then, walking back to the group that had now passed you, heading towards the school. They hadnât even noticed he was gone.Â
Steve rejoined them, sticking to the back of the group to not draw attention to his momentary absence. He looked back at you then, finding you with your head turned over your shoulder, already gazing at him with confusion plastered across your face. He shot you a soft smile, one that he had typically reserved just for you. It only lasted a moment, but for that moment you were more perplexed than before.
In that smile was Steve. The Steve. The one that had plaid wallpaper in his room and hand-drawn pictures of cars taped to the walls (some that you had drawn for him). He was the boy who had a slew of green army men sitting on his window sill, the same ones that he had given you. They sat pointing towards the street out front, and never ever at you. They protected both of your rooms. The soldiers protected them from monsters, wizards, ghosts, and disappointed parents. At that moment, Steve was the boy next door who left messages taped to his window for you to see. The boy who stayed a few paces behind your bike after school to make sure you got home safely. He was the boy who promised to love you always before placing a peck on your lips when you were both five. He was the boy you knew, not the one who humiliated you in front of his friends.Â
But the moment ended. The smile dropped from Steveâs face as quickly as it had appeared. He turned his head back around, putting more and more distance between the two of you. You watched him for a moment longer until you finally managed to tear your gaze from his retreating figure. You moved then, leaning over the grass to see the worm that Steve had placed there, worried that he left it too high up. Most of the worms were dead long before you got there, you knew that, but it didnât stop you from trying to help them. All the worms in the grass were lifeless and unmoving despite your efforts. All except one. It was the worm Steve had placed there.
You jumped into action then, using your fingers to dig a hole in the dirt. As quickly as you could, you placed the worm into the hole, covering it with the fresh soil. Its tail poked out just a bit and you watched with bated breath as it slowly retracted, moving deeper into the ground below. You glanced up at the sidewalk again, expecting to still see Steve in the distance, but he was gone. Over the hill and out of your eye line, just like the worm.Â
âDonât call me that,â you bit through gritted teeth and Steve just laughed. His stupid, obnoxious, loud laugh. The one that warned you that danger was near anytime you heard it in the hallway in high school.Â
âWould you prefer I call you something else?â Steve pondered dramatically, bringing a finger to his lip and glancing up as if he were trying to remember something. âMaybe worm-â Steve began, a look of anger more prominent on your face now.
âFuck you, Steve,â you cut him off before he could finish his taunt. He was about to say something else, no doubt another snarky comment that you could definitely afford to miss. It was about to spring from his lips when Steve was met with the sound of your window slamming shut. You locked it too, pulling the curtains closed and retreating to your bed, no longer in the mood to read. Steve stared at the purple curtains now blocking his view of you. Oh, how he hated that specific shade, knowing that they were the only thing keeping him from gazing at you.Â
Steve closed his window too, locking it the same as you had. But he kept his curtains open, hoping to maybe catch a glimpse of you later. The hand-drawn cars that once lined his walls were replaced by movie posters, ones he had gotten for free from work. He still had the army men littered along the window sill though. Most of them had been knocked over on their sides and Steve never bothered to pick them back up. They pointed at your room now, though Steve never intended for them to do so, unlike you who had purposefully aimed your soldiers at Steveâs window no more than a few days after Wormageddon.
Steve sat back on his bed, laying down and placing his arms under his head. Heâd made you mad. Gotten you all riled up, just as he had planned from the second you opened your mouth. So why did he not feel better right now? Why did his stomach hurt and his heart refused to rest? This battle was over. The war waged on but this was still a victory worth noting in the imaginary books. He hadnât gotten the final word but he still won nonetheless. Isnât that what he was supposed to do? He was a Harrington after all, and Harringtons were winners. Right?Â
But I knew youâd linger like a tattoo kiss
The sun crept along the horizon, unwilling to give in to the moon just yet. Orange and pink illuminated your room through the open curtains. You sat at your vanity, applying a final layer of gloss to your lips before smacking them together. Unbeknownst to you, Steve had been watching you through the window. He admired the effort you took while getting ready, although he knew you didnât need it. Steve would never admit it, heâd repressed it for far too long, but he thought you were the most beautiful girl heâd ever seen.Â
You turned towards your closet, digging through it to find a pair of shoes that matched your outfit. Steve couldnât help the clawing desire to know what you were getting ready for. There werenât any parties that he knew of that night. Maybe you were hanging out with Nancy and Robin. He couldnât imagine why youâd need to get dressed up for that though. Steve wished your window was open. He would lean on his window sill, asking about your plans for the evening. Heâd say it in that snarky Steve Harrington way. The way he knew would elicit an eye roll in response. But maybe youâd give in and tell him. Maybe youâd invite him to go with you. Or maybe Steve was letting fantasy mix with reality.
A car horn sounded from outside, pulling Steve from his thoughts with a jump. He didnât realize he was still standing at his window staring at you. At least he hadnât until you rushed to your window, trying to get a glimpse of the vehicle out front. Your eyes locked with Steveâs then and you couldâve sworn you saw him blush. You brushed it off, refocusing on why you had come to the window in the first place. Parked on the street in front of your house sat a van. A beat-up, rusty, falling apart at the seams, van. Steveâs gaze followed yours, also noticing the van below. A van he was more than familiar with at this point.Â
You bent over, pulling on your shoes as quickly as you could before rushing out of your room and down the stairs. Steve jumped into action then, doing the same from within his own house. He burst out the front door just in time to see you grabbing for the handle of the vanâs passenger side door. Steve peered through the windshield getting a glance of the unruly curls that rested on Eddie Munsonâs head. You hopped into the van and Eddie looked up, seeing Steve cut through his yard and head towards the van. You fastened your seatbelt and looked up, also catching sight of the boy rapidly approaching you.
âEddie, please drive. Like right now,â you turned to the boy next to you. Your voice came out shaky and desperate. Definitely not the commanding tone youâd hoped for.
âSorry, princess. Gotta see what the hair is so adamantly chasing us for,â Eddie shrugged and you groaned, throwing your head back. Unfortunately that only made Eddie laugh at you.
âIf you leave right now, Iâll do anything you ask for the rest of the night,â you pleaded, clasping your hands together to beg.
âAs tempting as that sounds, itâs a bit too late,â Eddie points to the window behind you. You turn, seeing Steve standing next to your window, hand raised in a wave. Eddie leaned over, arm reaching across your lap to crank the window down, because he knew damn well that you wouldnât do it. Not when Steve was standing on the other side at least.
âYouâre like a goddamn jumpscare. I hope you know that Harrington,â you spoke, folding your arms over your chest as Eddie retreated back to his side of the van. He could identify the hint of jealousy on Steveâs face all too well. It was the same look Steve wore anytime a guy got too close to you or made you smile a bit wider than normal. Eddie was well aware of Steveâs complicated feelings for you, even though Steve sure as hell wasnât.
âWhatcha up to? I thought you were staying home tonight?â Steve asked Eddie, resting his hands against the vanâs door. He was close to you, too close. You leaned back in your seat, putting more space between the two of you.
âWell, now Iâm not,â Eddie shot Steve a cheeky smile and Steve just blinked in response. âOk fine,â Eddie gave in, unraveling under Steveâs stare. He hated lying to Steve, especially now that theyâd gotten closer. âWeâre going to see some band play at The Hideout. Weâve had these plans for weeks. I lied about staying home,â Eddie rushed out and your mouth dropped in shock.
âOne look into Harringtonâs sparkly eyes and you're spilling your guts? Pathetic,â you groaned from your seat. Eddie rolled his eyes, focusing them back onto Steve.
âYou think my eyes are sparkly?â Steve quipped, a smirk growing on his lips. You heard Eddie laugh beside you and you couldnât help the scowl that formed on your face.
âGet over yourself, Steve,â you moved your hand over the window crank, threatening to roll up the window, but Steve stopped you.
âWait! I wanna come with,â he spoke quickly, eyes darting back and forth between you and Eddie. You couldnât help the laugh that formed in your throat. âWhatâs so funny?â Steve glared at you then.
âWell, for one, you hate metal music,â you began and Steve scoffed.
âSo do you,â Steve tried to retaliate, but the smirk on your lips told him he was fighting a losing battle.
âSure, Iâm not the biggest metal fan, but I like it enough and I love the energy of the crowd. Plus Eddie and I have been doing this for years. It doesnât even matter, youâre not coming with us so you might as well give up now,â you spoke, lifting your hand in a sarcastic wave goodbye.
âGood thing itâs not up to you then. Itâs Eddieâs van. He gets to decide,â your head snapped in Eddieâs direction then. You glared at him and focused as hard as you could. When you were younger, you and Eddie were convinced that youâd be able to communicate with each other telepathically if you tried hard enough. It never worked of course, but it never hurt to try. Eddie understood you better than anyone. He became your number-one confidant since the day you met. Surely he could pick up on your brain waves begging him to bar Steve from your plans.
Eddie headed towards the band room at Hawkins Middle with his guitar case swinging in his hand. He was early, intending to warm up on his own before the rest of Corroded Coffin got there for band practice. Eddie flicked on the lights, expecting the room to be empty. But it wasnât. You were there, in the corner of the room, tucked between some music stands. Youâd been curled into a ball and looked up when the fluorescent lights came on, illuminating your hidden figure. There were tears streaked across your face after a particularly brutal day of taunts from Tommy and Steve. Eddie set his guitar down and moved towards you slowly.
âAre you okay?â he asked in a quiet voice, hesitantly approaching. You remained silent, rising from your spot on the ground and wiping away your tears with your sweater sleeve. âIâm Eddie,â he spoke again, extending his hand for you to shake when he got close enough. You told him your name but didnât meet his hand with yours, not yet.
âBut everyone calls me Baby,â your voice was hoarse from crying but Eddie heard you loud and clear. He was an eighth grader but even heâd heard about the poor sixth grader that the popular kids had been calling Baby. It had moved beyond just them though. All of your classmates, teachers, and neighbors had adopted the name for you.Â
âWell, I wonât call you that, not if youâre not comfortable with it,â Eddie reassured you. He had been victimized plenty by the popular kids. He understood what it felt like, which is why he was shocked when you shook your head. His hand fell back to his side.
âNo, itâs ok. Iâve been telling people to call me Baby to help reclaim it, I guess. It took Marissa the librarian forever but sheâs finally gotten used to it. My parents still slip up, but thatâs to be expected,â you shrugged. What you didnât tell Eddie was that it still hurt when the name spilled from Steveâs lips. You werenât sure why it did. But the more you were called Baby by everyone else, the more desensitized you hoped to become to it.
âReclaim the name?â Eddie asked, eyebrows furrowed. You nodded, suddenly unsure what the boy in front of you thought. âThatâs pretty metal,â a smile stretched his lips and his hand shot back up between you, beckoning for yours to join it. âItâs nice to meet you, Baby.â
âYou too, Eddie,â you mirrored his smile, finally placing your small hand in his. Eddieâs calloused fingers enclosed around the back of your palm and two became one. You were inseparable. Inseparable in everything except for the reoccurring nightmare scenario that kept popping up in your life. Youâd been dragged in early on, being one of the last people to see Barb before she went missing. Youâd caught a glimpse of her through your window, sitting on the diving board above Steveâs pool, when suddenly she was gone. You joined Jonathan and Nancy in their quest to find her and kill the thing that took her. It sucked to keep Eddie out of that part of your life, but it was for his own good. Or at least it was until this past spring when Chrissy Cunningham became Vecnaâs first victim right before the poor boyâs eyes. Then you told him everything. Your two worlds fully merged, and you and Eddie became totally and fully inseparable.
Your glare bore into Eddieâs and you thought you had gotten through to him. You were wrong.
âAlright Harrington, hop in. Quickly though, I donât want to miss the opening act,â Eddie conceded, turning to face his gaze towards the road ahead. He could feel you burning holes into him with your eyes. You rolled the window up as Steve opened the van's back door.Â
âWeâre so working on the telepathy thing again. Evidently, youâre in desperate need of a refresher,â you grumbled and Eddie chuckled at how mad you were at the addition of Steve to your plans. Steve closed the van door, lounging in one of the bean bags Eddie kept in the back. After what felt like the longest ride of being tossed around the back of Eddieâs van, Steve was never more thankful to see The Hideout come into view. The three of you filed out of the van as the sound of metal music filtered through the barâs closed doors. Much to Eddieâs dismay the opener had already started their set. It smelled like cheap beer and cigarette smoke, causing Steve to wrinkle his nose.
âGo get us some drinks from the bar. Baby and I will get us a spot up near the front,â Eddie handed Steve a few dollar bills, enough to cover both your drink and his own. You and Steve might hate each other, but youâd been around each other in enough alcohol-fueled group settings to know each otherâs drink orders. Steve beelined towards the bar, yelling over the music to order your Dirty Shirley with extra cherries, Eddieâs Rum and Coke, and his own Long Island iced tea.
He spotted you and Eddie pushing through the crowd. You were in front of Eddie, his forearm thrown across the front of your shoulders to keep you close. The two of you stopped not far from the stage. You leaned up to say something in Eddieâs ear, your back flush with his chest, and Steve felt a rush of jealousy run through him. Eddie had told him countless times that the two of you were just friends. That the kisses heâd once shared with you while high were just meaningless, drug-fueled, pecks on the lips. That was a lie of course, but Eddie definitely wasnât going to tell Steve about the way you moaned against his lips until the two of you sobered up enough to feel embarrassed and swore to never speak of it again. Sometimes Steve needed to be lied to about certain things, mainly so Eddie wasnât on the receiving end of Steveâs right hook.
The bartender placed the drinks in front of Steve in exchange for the wad of cash slapped on the counter. Steve grabbed all three glasses and began his trek through the tightly packed crowd. Heâd gotten really good at holding a bunch of stuff in his hands at once during his brief stint at Scoops. Steve made it up to you and Eddie, passing the drinks to each of you. The three of you watched the opening bandâs set, dancing as much as you could with drinks in your hands and a packed crowd.
By the time the openerâs set was over you had sipped enough of your drink to expose one of the cherries in your glass. Steve couldnât help the way his mouth gaped as he watched you fish the cherry out with your finger, popping the morsel in your mouth and pulling it from the stem with your teeth. Eddie eyed the boy next to him, amused not only by Steveâs aroused reaction to such a simple thing but also by your complete obliviousness to said reaction. Despite the lack of music coming from the stage as you waited for the headlining band to come on, Eddie still had to shout over the buzz of the crowd.
âShow Stevie the thing,â Eddie gestured towards the cherry stem between your fingers. You shook your head in protest, but Eddie gave you his best puppy dog eyes and you were instantly beat. You rolled your eyes, placed the cherry stem on your tongue, and closed your lips. Eddie brought his arm up, glancing back and forth between you and his watch. Steve was baffled by the coordinated performance that the two of you were putting on in front of him. After a few seconds, your mouth popped back open. You plucked the cherry stem from between your teeth and held it up for Steve to see.
âSeven seconds! That might be your personal best,â Eddie exclaimed while Steve looked closely at the stem. It was tied in a knot. He took it from between your fingers and was about to ask how you did it when the band came on stage. Steveâs hand trailed down to his side, tucking the tied cherry stem into his pocket. He wasnât sure why, but throwing it away felt wrong for some reason.
The band was really good, especially the lead singer. He was only a few years older than you and he had gorgeous, blonde hair that flowed down to his shoulders. Steve had scoffed when the singer winked at you during their set, but you couldnât hear the sound over the music. The three of you had a surprisingly good time together, although it's pretty hard to fight with such loud music blaring throughout the room. Eddie and Steve were tasked with finding a table after the band left the stage and you got stuck with grabbing everyone new drinks.Â
âThat was actually really fun. How often do you guys do this?â Steve asked, his pants getting stuck to cheap faux leather as he slid into a booth opposite Eddie.Â
âOnce every month or so. It depends on which bands are playing,â Steve was listening to Eddie or at least he was at first. His eyes had been scanning the bar, trying to find you. When he finally did, his expression hardened. You leaned with your elbow against the bar, waiting for the bartender to come back with the drinks, but you werenât alone. The lead singer of the headlining band was beside you. He was smiling at you, and even worse for Steve, you were smiling back. Eddie noticed the change in Steveâs demeanor, the jealousy that now filled the hazel of his eyes. He tracked Steveâs gaze across the crowded bar, landing on you.Â
Eddie was impressed. Heâd seen you bag your fair share of hot guys after a show at The Hideout, but never had you managed to get with the lead singer of the headlining band. Steve, on the other hand, was not impressed. He was livid. It didnât help that the lead singer had just placed his hands on your hips, pulling you flush against him as he leaned in close to whisper something in your ear. Steve quickly slid out of the booth, stomping his way through the crowd of people, heading towards you. Eddie winced, knowing he should chase after the boy, but slightly curious to see what would happen if he didnât. Steve pushed through the bodies surrounding him, stopping just in front of where you stood against the bar.
âWhat's taking you so long with the drinks?â He called out and your head shot up at the sound of his voice. The smile that had grown on your lips quickly faded at the sight of Steve. The singer, Corey, looked up from where he had just started to kiss your neck. He didnât move his hands from your hips despite Steveâs pointed glances.Â
âHey man, youâre kind of interrupting something right now. If you want a drink then ask the bartender or whatever,â Corey moved to face you again, but Steve wasnât done.
âHey man,â Steve mocked Coreyâs words. âYou need to take your hands off of her right now,â your brow furrowed in anger while Corey filled with confusion.
âSorry dude, didnât realize she was your girl,â Corey assumed based on Steveâs comment and began to move his hands, but you stopped him.
âIâm not, I swear. I barely even know that guy,â Steve scoffed at that and you shot him a glare. Coreyâs eyes flitted back and forth between you and Steve. He looked more confused than ever, almost painfully so.Â
âIâm way too high for this. You have her, man. It's not worth the fight,â Corey held up his hands in defense. Eddie had just worked his way through the sea of people in time to see Corey back away from you, scan the crowd, and head towards some pretty redhead across the room. Steve looked triumphant as he turned his gaze back to you. Eddie thought you looked like you were about to go ballistic. Heâd never seen you that mad before in his entire life. You looked even angrier now than you had when Eddie purposefully put gum in your hair and it got stuck so badly that you had to give yourself bangs to get rid of it. Eddie was about two seconds from sprinting out of the building to save himself from being a witness to what was sure to be Steveâs murder when the bartender, Dave, called out from behind you.
âHereâs that Long Island for you, Baby,â you spun around, revealing the Rum and Coke and Dirty Shirley that sat on the counter behind you. You thanked Dave, giving him a good tip, before turning back to Steve. Because even in your fury, you could still be nice to the waitstaff. You picked up the Long Island, marched towards Steve, and slammed the drink directly into his chest.Â
âSince you wanted it so fucking bad,â you pushed past him, not caring about the way the liquid sloshed over the lip of the glass, coating your hand and Steveâs shirt. You moved towards the exit, slamming the door open into the moonlit darkness outside. Steve took a second to process what just happened. He placed the remainder of his drink back on the counter before following in your path. Eddie groaned, grabbing his now abandoned drink from the bar and downing it. He grabbed your drink from beside his, knowing youâd need it when this was over, and followed Steve. You had made it to Eddieâs van and tugged on the door handle, cursing the long-haired boy for actually locking it for once.
âWhat the hell was that?â Steve called out from across the parking lot with his arms held wide. He was stalking towards you at a furious pace. You were so pissed that you didnât even notice your feet dragging you forward to meet him in the middle.
âWhere the fuck do you get off?â you asked in response instead of answering his question. Steve stopped when the tips of his shoes touched yours, scrunched faces mere inches from each other. âFirst you invite yourself along to Eddie and Iâs thing and then you ruin my chances with the very hot lead singer of the band. You did that for what, huh? Shits and giggles? I donât give a shit who you are Harrington, thatâs too fucking far,â you yelled, rage boiling beneath your hot skin.Â
âHe wasnât that hot,â Steve scoffed, crossing his arms over his chest. Your eyes widened. Eddie, who had just made it out to the parking lot, was surprised there wasnât steam shooting out of your ears at this point.
âIs that the only thing you fucking heard from what I just said?â you brought your hands to your forehead in exasperation. âYouâre such an asshole! I thought it would end when we graduated. Like youâd grow up a bit after graduation day. Hell, Robin said youâd matured, changed, and left the King Steve shtick behind. Eddie is one of your best friends now, the boy you taunted for years. So what is it about me, huh? Why are you suddenly too golden-hearted to bully everyone else but you never stopped fucking with me?â you had gotten close to Steve, not that you noticed through your tunneled vision of anger. Your heavy breaths fanned across Steveâs lips as you awaited his response.
âI-â Steve opened his mouth to respond and then quickly shut it. He didnât know. Well maybe he did know, somewhere deep down, but it wasnât something he could say to you now. Not in The Hideoutâs parking lot where a crowd had started growing around you. Steve stepped back, creating the space between you that you desperately lacked at the moment.
âThatâs what I thought,â you stepped back too, turning to walk towards Eddie. You quickly stopped, facing Steve once more. âDo me a favor, find some other girl to lurk around for a while. It's bad enough that you live next door. I really donât need you following me wherever I go like some fucking creep,â you spun on your heels again, grabbing the drink from Eddieâs outstretched hand and throwing it back like it was fruit juice.Â
Eddie unlocked the van and you slid inside, slamming the door behind you. Eddieâs eyes met Steveâs with a grimace. Eddie looked at you in the van and then back to Steve. Steve got the message; Eddie couldnât take you both home together. Maybe Steve was the one with telepathy instead. Eddieâs remorseful eyes searched Steve from across the lot. Steve conceded, gesturing for Eddie to take you. He was the one that fucked up anyway. If anything he deserved to be the one that had to call a cab. Eddie shot Steve a tight-lipped smile before hopping into his van and driving off. Steve watched the vanâs taillights as Eddie rolled through a stop sign, speeding off into the night.
The light in your room was off when the cab finally dropped Steve off at home. He wasnât surprised, expecting that youâd be at Eddie's trailer, erasing the night from your thoughts with a shared joint. Steve trudged up the stairs, opening and closing his door softly behind him so he didnât wake his parents. Theyâd be gone for another business trip in the morning, leaving one less thing for him to worry about tomorrow. Steveâs window was still open from earlier, allowing the cool night air to seep in. He laid back on his bed, thoughts racing in the silence. And thatâs when he heard it. A soft sob, then a sniffle. A deep breath, then another sob.
Steve sat up, his gaze aimed in the direction of the sound. His eyes landed on you, sitting on the floor of your darkened room with your back against your bed. Your window was cracked open, the way you normally kept it at night, allowing the birds to wake you with their songs in the morning. Steve stood, moving towards the window. You couldnât see him from this angle, not that you would have been able to regardless with the tears clouding your vision. Steve frowned. An ache in his chest, the same one heâd felt whenever he heard you cry, flourished within him. He wanted to comfort you. To wrap an arm around you and let cry into his chest. To tell you it would be okay and ask whoâs ass he needed to kick. But he couldnât. You werenât friends. You hated him. And itâs not like he could kick his own ass.Â
He didnât realize, didnât even feel it, but a tear slipped down his cheek, matching the flood that crowded yours. Steve lifted his hands to rest on the window, leaning against it as his brows furrowed over the broken look on your face. He pushed down, shutting the window softly, locking it, and closing the curtains. He couldnât listen to you cry anymore. He remembered what you said, and he didnât want to linger. The tear rolled off Steveâs chin, drowning a little unsuspecting green soldier on the window sill below. Steve moved away from the window and laid back on his bed. He felt around his pants pocket and fished out the knotted cherry stem. Steveâs eyes roamed over it for too long before he set it aside on his nightstand and closed his eyes. He couldn't sleep that night, no matter how hard tried. In the quiet dark of his room, Steve swore he could still hear your muffled cries.   Â
Drunk under a street light
Black and white flickered from the TV screen, illuminating the dark room that you lounged in. You were lazing on the couch, mindlessly picking at the bowl of popcorn in your lap. The movie playing across the room did nothing to pull your unfocused stare from the coffee table in front of you. It wasnât until you received a light kick to the thigh that you could finally shifted your eyes away.
âOkay, ouch,â you glared at Robin who was lying across the couch beside you, feet practically draped across your lap. She sat up, digging her hand into the bowl of popcorn. Her perfume scent lingered in the air around you even after she pulled back. It was sweet and light like she had just finished baking a batch of sugar cookies.
âYouâve been begging me to watch Casablanca with you for months and youâre not even paying attention to it now that I actually am,â she lifted her hand towards the screen before bringing her handful of popcorn to her lips. It's true. You had been dying to get someone to watch Casablanca with you for ages. Eddie watched it once and then refused to do it again after he ended up crying at the ending. Rick Blaineâs selfless act of giving up his one true love to give her a better life brought tears to the cold-hearted boyâs eyes. He made you promise not to tell anyone, especially Dustin.Â
âSorry Rob, Iâve just got a lot on my mind,â you apologized, trying your best to pay attention to the movie again. Youâd been zoned out for the entire first half of the movie, not that it mattered. You knew exactly what was happening on screen, given that youâd seen the movie a million times. It got to a point where Steve started keeping a copy under the counter at Family Video so there was always one available when you came in.
âAre you thinking about Steve?â Robin asked, her voice overpowering Ingrid Bergmanâs as Ilsa confessed why she left Rick alone in Paris. Your head snapped towards the girl beside you and you could see the faint smirk growing on her lips.
âWhy would I be thinking about Steve?â you answered her question with your own. The smirk fell from her lips then and she rolled her eyes. Robin sat up, pressing pause on the remote.
âBecause he was totally jealous and caused some huge blowout fight between the two of you. And when I say huge I mean huge. Itâs been over a week and you still wonât even acknowledge that he exists,â Robin explained, turning to face you better. You sighed and faced her too. You tried to avoid talking about Steve with Robin. Ever since they became friends it seemed too weird to talk shit about him in front of her.
âFirst of all, Steve definitely wasnât jealous. Heâs just a menace that loves to torment me,â Robin snorted a laugh but didnât interrupt, allowing you to continue. âSecond, Steve and I arenât friends so me not talking to him for a week really isnât that big of a deal,â Robin shrugged at that, seeing your point. âAnd third, how the hell do you know about all of this?â a guilty look spread across Robinâs face and you quickly realized the answer to your question. âEddieâs got a big mouth,â Robin nodded in agreement at your words.Â
âI wouldâve figured it out regardless. Steveâs been moping around for days. Heâs really beating himself up over the whole thing,â you chuckled and Robin shot you a confused glare.
âWhat? I find it hard to believe that Steve Harrington even remotely cares about anything that has to do with me. Well unless it has to do with making my life a living hell,â you leaned back again, digging your hand into the popcorn bowl once more. Robin just stared at you, obviously baffled by something.Â
âHas it ever occurred to you that maybe somewhere in Steveâs caveman brain all this âtormentâ is actually his way of expressing that he likes you?â Robin asked and repositioned the blanket that covered her lap. You stopped mid-chew, considering Robinâs words. You swallowed hard, sitting up and placing the popcorn bowl down on the couch between you.
âSo what, Steve pulls my pigtails on the playground and itâs all okay just because he likes me? Thatâs such a toxic ideology, Rob. Not only that, but the suggestion that Steve actually likes me is insane. I mean have you heard the worm story?â you felt defensive, as if you were being attacked even though you weren't. You couldnât understand why your heart wouldnât stop racing at the thought of Steve liking you.
âOf course, Iâve heard the goddamn worm story,â Robin threw her hands in the air, nearly knocking over the popcorn in the process. âAnd I didnât say that it was a healthy way of expressing his feelings. It just might be the only way he knows how. Itâs not like his parents are great role models in teaching him about love and stuff,â a quiet fell over the room while your head raced at Robinâs words. Youâd been so wrapped up in your feud with Steve that you hadnât taken the time to consider his life outside of you.Â
You knew Steveâs parents were pretty absent based on the lack of cars in the driveway. And it was well known across town that Mr. Harrington was an asshole, no need to grow up next door to figure that out. Steve adored his dad when he was younger, and talked about how he wanted to be just like him. But you had heard the fights that seeped through the open windows in the years that followed. The disappointment that filled Mr. Harringtonâs face when he entered Steveâs bedroom and saw the movie posters lining the walls. You wondered then what Steveâs parents thought of his decision to forgo college. Whether they argued with his choice, fought with him to take a chance to change his future, or if they just accepted it, not expecting much else from their disappointing son.
âI hadnât thought about that,â Robin studied your face as you spoke. You looked lost, like you were questioning your past with Steve. After a moment the hint of a smile graced your lips and Robin furrowed her brow. âStill doesnât mean he likes me,â you quirked as Robin sat up, grabbing another handful of popcorn.Â
âOh whatever,â she launched her fistful of popcorn at you, hitting your face with the popped kernels before they fell to your lap. You retaliated, throwing popcorn back at her. The popcorn fight quickly ended when Robin picked up the bowl, dumping the rest of its contents over your head. The two of you fell into a fit of laughter while you tried, and failed, to pick the popcorn kernels from your hair. Eventually, you gave up, resting your head on Robinâs shoulder, the crunch of the popcorn sounding off as you did. Her shoulder was bony, uncomfortably stabbing your cheek with each delicate press against it, but you didnât mind. Neither of you was very touchy-feely with each other, though you were never sure why, so it was nice to have a rare moment of intimacy. It granted you a deeper understanding of one another and a peak into the mysterious ways that each of your brains worked.
âGo to a party with me tonight?â Robin asked softly, not quite ready to leave the comfortable quiet just yet. You kept your head still on her shoulder and closed your eyes, inhaling sharply.
âSince when do you actively attend parties?â you questioned and Robinâs shoulder shook beneath you as she let out a gentle laugh. It was a comforting sound, like waves at the beach or rain on the pavement. Thatâs what Robin was to you. A comfort. Sure, Eddie was your best friend and youâd known him longer, but Robin understood you in a way that he didnât. She controlled your chaos and balanced it with ease and truth. Robin matched your energy, knew what was best for you, and made you feel heard.
âSince Vickie asked me to go,â Robin winced out the words, anticipating your shift away from her side. Just as Robin thought, you lifted your head, turning to face her.
âSo youâre not inviting me to go to a party, youâre inviting me to Third Wheel all night?â you raised your brow, eyes pouring into the girl beside you. Robin winced, shrinking into her spot on the couch. âAlright, Iâll go. Got nothing better to do anyway,â Robin cheered triumphantly at your concession, standing to go to your room and start getting ready together. You stopped her, gesturing to the popcorn that littered the couch and floor. She groaned, reluctantly helping you clean up the mess she made.
Youâd walked to the party, arriving after everything was already in full swing. The sticky air reeked of weed and cheap booze as you pushed your way through the front door. It was sweltering inside the house. Sweaty bodies pressed themselves closely together on the dance floor, sipping on whatever deadly concoction resided in the punch bowl. Robin made a beeline for Vickie as soon as she walked through the door. There were familiar faces, people you knew from high school and whatnot, but no one you particularly fancied talking to. That is until you saw a mop of brown curls approaching with a black lunch box in his hands.
âI didnât know you were gonna be here,â you called out over the boombox that was blaring music throughout the room. Eddie wrapped an arm around your shoulder, pulling you to walk along with him. He guided you to the kitchen, stopping in front of a countertop littered with booze. You weighed your drink options, eventually pouring some vodka and Sprite into a solo cup, disappointed at the lack of cherry grenadine. You held up a bottle of rum pointed in Eddieâs direction, but he shook his head.
âStrictly business tonight sweetheart,â Eddie patted the lunchbox in his hands. You nodded in understanding, bringing your cup to your lips. âWhereâs Buckley?â he asked, suddenly noticing the missing girl that he was sure dragged you here. You didnât even have to speak, just pointing your finger to where Robin danced with Vickie across the room. Her hair was already a mess and her cheeks were flushed bright pink. You were about to say something else, keep your conversation with Eddie going, when he received a tap on his shoulder. It was some jock looking to make a deal. Eddie gave your hand a quick squeeze in place of goodbye and led the guy to the back of the house.
So there you were, standing alone in a crowded kitchen, regretting your decision to come in the first place. If only Nancy or Jonathan were there to keep you company, too bad they were both off at their respective colleges. Hell, you might even take Steveâs companionship at this point, because the longer you leaned against this countertop, the more boxed in you felt. What you didnât know was that Steve was there. He thought it would be a good way to get his mind off your fight, but as he stood in the corner of this too-hot house, sipping a lukewarm beer, and listening to his old basketball teammate drone on and on about how they shouldâve won the championship game their senior year, Steve realized he was wrong.
It especially didnât help when his eyes scanned the room and somehow landed on you. You were alone, searching the room, presumably for a familiar face, when he spotted you. Luckily for Steve, you remained oblivious to his watchful gaze, giving him some time to study you since he felt like he hadnât been able to in ages. He considered going over to you, to keep you company, but before he could even take a step, someone else approached you first. Your face dropped to a scowl at the sight of the freckled boy who now stood in front of you.
âWhatâs wrong Baby? Not happy to see me?â Tommy asked, a devilish grin hiding his lips. Steve was rooted to the spot, unable to move. He wanted to march over to you, drag you away from the douchebag before you, but he couldnât will his legs to trudge across the congested room. He was never good at standing up for you, especially not to Tommy.Â
âIs anyone ever happy to see you?â you asked, crossing your arms and keeping a close grip on your cup. Tommy looked you up and down, hungry eyes boring into your skin. Suddenly you wished you brought a sweater to cover your bare shoulders. Steve still watched you from afar, his stomach turning at the desire that lingered in Tommyâs expression.
âThere are plenty of girls around here that love when I show up,â Tommy grinned, leaning in closer. He reminded you of a shark with his teeth bared, waiting for a lowly seal to stumble into his pathway. âI could show you why if you come upstairs with me,â his lips came dangerously close to your ear, muffling the music that rattled the room.Â
âIâll pass,â you grimaced at his offer. Tommyâs grin faltered and you brought your cup to your lips with a shrug, trying not to look too smug at your denial of his advances. That must have been what set Tommy over the edge. He reached up, slapping the cup from your hand, ignoring the liquid that splashed over you both. His face leaned in close as his arms caged you against the counter.Â
âFuck you,â he spat, his face close to yours. âYouâre just some weirdo bitch anyway,â you were scared at that point, terrified even, but you remained calm. Showing your fear would be the worst thing to do. Steveâs heart raced in his chest as he watched Tommy corner you. He took a step forward, moving in your direction.
âA weirdo bitch that wonât fuck you,â you fired back at Tommy and his face turned red with fury. Maybe poking the bear wasnât a good idea. Suddenly someone knocked Tommy to the side, freeing you from him. You looked up, seeing a flash of red hair and someone in a striped shirt. Vickie and Robin.Â
âWoah man, we were spinning around and kinda lost control. Didnât even see you there,â Robin leaned down to where Tommy now sat on the floor. She shot you a wink when he wasnât looking. Vickie offered him a hand, but he brushed her off, standing on his own. He looked around, catching the glances of some of the partygoers, and stomped off, too embarrassed to continue trying to pursue you. Steve had made it about halfway through the crowded living room when Robin and Vickie took down Tommy in some sort of weird spin attack. He stood there now, watching as they checked over you. âYou alright?â Robin asked you while Vickie inspected you for any bruises or blemishes from Tommy.
âYeah, Iâm all good. Think Iâm just gonna go actually,â you looked down at your shirt, taking inventory of how damp it was from your spilled drink.Â
âWeâll go with you,â Vickie spoke up, taking hold of your arm as if she would guide you out. You shook your head, sliding her hand down to yours and giving it a gentle squeeze before letting go.Â
âNo, you guys stay and have fun. Iâm gonna try and hitch a ride. Iâve gotta know someone around here thatâs planning on leaving soon,â you had no intentions of actually getting a ride from someone. But you knew Robin would never let you go if she knew you were going to walk home alone and you just needed to get out of there. You would ask Eddie, but you knew he needed the money heâd make from selling tonight so you didnât want to bother him.Â
âOkay,â Robin nodded, granting you permission to leave. You gave her and Vickie a two-finger salute and made your way to the door. âNo rides home from anyone on the basketball team. Past, present, or future. I swear all of those guys are creeps,â Robin called after you, turning a few heads as she did. You chuckled, continuing on to the door.
Steve still stood in the living room, watching the three of you closely. His eyes followed you as you trekked through the crowd to the door. Once you finally made it outside, his gaze shifted back to Robin only to find that she was already looking at him. She motioned with her head to the door, encouraging him to follow after you. So he did. Steve threw away his half-drunk beer and burst through the door. You were already halfway down the block when he got in his car and pulled up next to you.Â
It was cold outside, especially for early September, a chill lacing the breeze with each gust. It definitely didnât help that your shirt was still soaked through. You saw the headlights of a car approaching behind you, brushing it off as you shivered and pulled your arms close. It took you a moment to realize that the car hadnât passed you yet. You turned your head, suddenly facing a maroon BMW with its windows rolled down. A groan escaped your lips, but you still bent down to peer through the window. Steveâs car came to a stop, a smile gracing his lips at the sight of your exasperated face.
âYou stalking me now, Harrington?â Steve let out a chuckle and a gust of wind picked up, making you shiver again.Â
âYou wish. Come on, get in and Iâll drive us home,â he studied your face, searching for a sign that youâd agree. He couldnât find one, your body unmoving from your spot on the sidewalk.Â
âIâm perfectly capable of walking. Plus Robin said no rides from anyone on the basketball team,â you shot him a sly smirk and stood up straight, continuing your walk through the neighborhood. Youâd expected Steve to drive off then, leaving you to walk in peace. But he didnât, his car followed alongside you. âWhat are you doing?â you asked, stopping again to see Steve through the passenger window.
âIf you wonât let me drive you home, then Iâll just drive next to you,â Steve shrugged, looking up at you.
âWhat if I cut through someoneâs backyard?â you asked and Steve shrugged again, a smirk dancing on his lips.
âThen some people are gonna be really pissed to see tire tracks on their lawn,â he replied and you almost wanted to laugh at his persistence, entertained by Steveâs unwillingness to let you be alone. His smile faltered then. âYou and I both know the kind of shit that lurks around Hawkins at night,â any amusement from before had slipped away. None of you mentioned the Upside Down much now, not after finally defeating Vecna. It was final, the battle that ended the war, destroying the Upside Down for good. You couldnât help the lingering fear that youâd missed something, that one day it would all return. And here, on the sidewalk after some lame party, you realized that Steve shared that fear too.Â
âOk,â you said simply, shocking Steve as you pulled on the passenger door handle and slid into the seat next to him. He waited until you buckled up before rolling up the windows and driving off. It was quiet in the car, the lingering tension of all the unspoken words swirling in the air. Steve heard the sound of your teeth chattering and your hands brushing the goosebumps on your arms. He quickly reached into the back, grabbed an old sweatshirt that sat there, and handed it to you. Normally you wouldâve rejected it, your pride too inflated to accept help from Steve in any form. But it was cold, your shirt was wet, and your conversation from earlier with Robin still lingered in the forefront of your mind.Â
Steve didnât expect you to take his sweatshirt so easily, replacing his hand on the wheel when he felt the weight of it lift from his palm. You pulled his sweatshirt on, reveling in the warmth it provided. It smelled like hairspray and lavender, a hint of boy mixed with the two. It smelled like Steve. Silence settled over the two of you again and Steve couldnât stand it anymore.
âIâm sorry,â the words burst from within him, head turning to look at you for a moment. You looked calm and objective like Steve hadnât even spoken in the first place. âThe whole thing at The Hideout was so stupid. I donât even know why I did that,â you looked at him then, expression still neutral. âI guess I just feel like I need to protect you and I took it too far,â your brow scrunched at that, finally giving Steve an insight into your thoughts.
âProtect me? You and Tommy tormented me for years,â anger rose in your throat. You hadnât meant to get mad, still considering what Robin said, but Steveâs twisted claim brought it out of you in the way that only he could.
âI know, I know. And Iâm sorry about that too. I just- I just wanted to fit in, to be cool. But I realize now that none of that shit ever mattered. I mean, how important was popularity when the one person that I actually cared about couldnât stand me?â Steve spoke and the tension in your face dropped. The one person Steve cared about? Was he talking about you? You took a deep breath, thinking over your words when the car came to a stop in front of your driveway.
âSteve,â you spoke softly, almost a whisper, like the breeze rattling through the trees. âI canât just forget about all of it because youâve abruptly changed. I canât just decide to be your friend all of a sudden. You hurt me, for a long time. Hell, you still do,â Steve winced, wanting to turn back time to when you were five, when nothing bad had happened to you yet and things were much simpler.Â
âI know,â Steveâs head sunk, his chest aching with each passing second.
âI just,â you stopped, jumbled thoughts bouncing around your head. âI just think itâs easier when we keep ourselves apart. It doesnât hurt as much that way,â the streetlights above reflected the swelling tears in your eyes as they threatened to spill. You hadnât meant to cry, and you surely didnât want to. Steve understood your sentiments. Being around you only reminded him of how it couldâve been if he hadnât tried so hard to fit in. If he hadnât screwed it all up.
âBut maybe we could try. Try to be friends,â the words surprised Steve as they left his lips. They came out far bolder than he felt capable of being at the moment. âGroup settings, public places. Baby steps, you know?â Steve tried to stop the hope building in his chest, too worried about the damage it would do if you said no. But you didnât.Â
âMaybe,â you said in a whisper, a tear finally tracking down your cheek. A soft smile slipped over Steveâs lips, the same one he wore around you as a kid. The same smile you saw before he traipsed over the hill, leaving you on the sidewalk with the worms. Your lips twitched upwards for a second before you pulled the door handle and exited the car.Â
The feeling of hope now took full form, blossoming in Steveâs chest, filling every crack and crevice between his ribs. He watched you walk up to your front door, still wearing his sweatshirt, slipping inside your house with a small wave in Steveâs direction. Steve put the car back in gear, pulling into his driveway next door. He shut the car off and leaned back in his seat, still unable to wipe the smile from his face. Maybe. He could work with maybe.
You drew stars around my scars, but now Iâm bleeding
Eddieâs van was a mess. Your legs brushed against fast food wrappers while cigarette butts covered the floor, crunching under your sneakers. It smelled like weed and sweat with a hint of the black ice air freshener that you forced him to buy a while ago. It was early afternoon, the sun still high in the sky as Eddie made a right turn out of your neighborhood.
âWhy are we doing this again?â you asked, shifting to look at Eddie. He had his hair pulled up into a messy bun that you insisted on doing for him. It was a rare and rather unwelcome hairstyle for the metalhead, but it was well warranted for the occasion.Â
âBecause Buckley wants to learn how to play basketball and Harrington asked for my help,â Eddie shrugged, approaching a stop sign and making a left. You rolled your eyes, letting out a huff of air from your chest.
âBut you hate basketball,â you groaned, wondering why Robin would even want to learn how to play in the first place.Â
âYes, but theyâre my friends and they asked for my help, so my help they shall receive,â normally you would have laughed at Eddieâs goofiness, but the thought of being around Steve loomed over your head. You still hadnât seen each other since the party, just glimpses through bedroom windows. It was hard to say where either of you stood with each other. Becoming friends seemed like an impossible feat on your part, too stuck in the past to care about the potential future.
âOkay, so why am I included in this? Steve didnât ask for my help,â you pulled your feet from the trash-covered floor, finally sick enough of how the garbage touched your ankles. Your feet rested on the seat and you hugged your knees close to your chest. Your head sat atop them, watching Eddie closely with narrow eyes, trying to figure out if this was some scheme to get you near Steve.
âEach team needs two players, Baby. Kind of hard to play a two v. two with only three people,â you let out another groan and Eddie smirked in response, knowing you couldnât refute him anymore. He made a sharp right turn, pulling up to the outdoor basketball courts that sat behind the high school. Eddie turned off the engine and tapped your knee. It was his way of telling you to get out of the car and lock your door behind you. The two of you began your walk over and could just barely make out three figures through the holes in the chain link fence that surrounded the basketball courts.
âYou know, I donât think Iâve ever seen you wear athletic shorts before. I might pass out at the sight of your legs,â you said to Eddie as the two of you walked through the gate, entering the basketball court. You barely had time to accentuate your comment with a smirk before Eddie leaned in close.
âReel it in, Baby. Best not to flirt with me in front of Harrington. Wouldnât want to risk him getting jealous again,â your face grew hot at Eddieâs comment, the thought of a jealous Steve stirring something deep in the pit of your stomach, something like desire. Eddie donned a stupid smile as you approached Robin, Steve, and Lucas in the middle of the court.
âWhatâs up with you?â Steve asked, noticing your flustered appearance. Your eyes darted back over to Eddie, who continued to wear the same shit-eating grin as before.
âNothing, just ready to play some basketball,â you deflected and Steve nodded, covering the basic rules of the game. Lucas was acting as the referee for the match, making it feel much more intense than it should have. Thatâs probably why you took it so seriously, covering Robin as if your life depended on it. Steve won the tip-off, sending the ball back to Robin. She caught it and began to dribble towards the basket. She looked like a baby deer trying to walk for the first time as she made her way up the court, nearly smacking the ball away from herself in the process. You used it to your advantage, managing to grab the ball from her, dribbling up the opposite side of the court, and scoring a basket from the three-point line. Steve retaliated after that, shooting his own shot and tying the score. It continued like that for a bit, Eddie and Robin eventually gave up on trying to cover the both of you, which was how you ended up in front of Steve, desperately attempting to block his shot.
âWorried youâre gonna miss?â you taunted as Steve dribbled in front of you, your back to the basket. A cocky smirk overtook his lips then, bringing the ball up to shoot. It wouldâve gone in too, if you hadnât smacked it out of the air, stealing it for yourself. You sprinted down the court towards the other basket with Steve hot on your trail. He managed to get in front of you and you turned your back towards him, protecting the ball in the meantime before you could get a clear shot. âCome on, Harrington. I thought you were the team captain back in high school. Figured youâd be better than this,â you knew it was dangerous, teasing him in such a flirty way, but it was all in good fun, right?
âOh, Iâll show you, Baby,â Steve practically whispered into your ear, his chest pressing against your back. If you werenât so focused on beating Steve you wouldâve felt the goosebumps that littered your spine. Steveâs arms came up to circle you, so you moved, pivoting to take your shot and knocking Steve out of the way in the process. He lost his balance as the ball left your fingertips. You felt Steveâs hands find your torso as you watched the ball tip into the basket, dragging you down with him as he fell. Your shirt had ridden up when you made your shot, causing Steveâs fingers to brush against your bare skin. It felt like you were falling in slow motion until you finally landed hard on top of Steve, your back flush to his chest.Â
Pain shot up your sides as Steveâs fingernails scraped against the semi-healed scars that resided there. You got up quickly, not taking the time to register your pain, lifting your shirt again to see that the wounds had broken open on both sides. It took Steve a second to get up after hitting the ground so hard. The others rushed toward the two of you, but your eyes landed on Steve, his gaze already honed in on the fresh blood pooling on your skin. His hands came down to his own torso, feeling the scarred flesh that matched yours.Â
After everything was said and done, the dust settled and Vecna gone for good, there was only the matter of medical care to worry about. Eddie was mostly unscathed, with a few bat bites here and there, but nothing some disinfectant and band-aids couldnât fix. Lucas was sure to have a swollen eye, cuts, and bruises after fighting Jason. Max was delivered to the hospital where the doctors said she would make a full recovery but might need a pair of glasses. Which just left you and Steve. You had jumped in right after him at Loverâs Lake, fighting your way through the water as he was tugged deeper below. When you popped out of the gate mere seconds after him, the bats swarmed you too. It wasnât until Nancy appeared, oar in hand, that you managed to escape the feeling of the batâs teeth sinking into your skin.Â
The bats had gotten you good, doing just as much damage to you as they had to Steve. When the fight was over and everyone was safely right-side-up, you refused to get medical care, worried that youâd be poked and prodded while Owensâ doctors tried to study your wounds. Steve refused too, unwilling to be treated unless you were first, not that you knew that.
Robin and Eddie insisted on staying with the two of you to make sure nothing bad happened in the middle of the night. But you said no, pointing out that Eddie needed to stay hidden until his name was cleared. Not to mention that you just wanted to be alone after the strenuousness of the previous few days. You assured Robin and Eddie that your parents would take care of you if anything happened, same with Steve. They reluctantly agreed, dropping you and Steve off in front of your house, leaving the two of you to go your separate ways.
You were about to trudge up the lawn and enter your house, thinking about finally being able to sleep, when you caught sight of Steveâs empty driveway. You hadnât even thought about the fact that his parents were out of town, and he hadnât mentioned it to Eddie or Robin either. Steve had already started walking towards his house when you called his name.
âYou didnât say that your parents werenât home,â you jogged up to him, wincing at the pain that shot up your side. Steve shrugged, also looking desperate for a decent night of sleep. Steve turned around again, continuing towards his house, leaving you on his lawn. You started following him until he saw you from the corner of his eye and stopped again.
âWhat are you doing?â the words sounded twisted as they fell from his lips, the same venom you expected from the boy who bullied you for years. Your face grew hot with anger, suddenly wondering if you should just turn back around and retreat to your house.
âYou canât be alone tonight, not when youâre in such bad shape,â you crossed your arms over your chest, trying to come across firmly in an attempt to discourage Steve from arguing with you. He simply raised a brow in question.Â
âI think Iâll be fine,â he moved to turn on his heel again, to scale his front steps and enter the cold empty house before him. But your arm shot out, landing on his arm and stopping him in his tracks. Steve froze, mind racing at the feel of your skin against his. He couldnât remember the last time you touched him, given that you usually kept your distance whenever he was near.
âSteve, I canât leave you alone in good conscience. If you bleed out and die, thatâs on me,â you spoke the words quietly, almost sounding embarrassed to have to say them at all. Steve studied you, eyes roaming over your face. The walls you kept up around him seemingly fell in that moment as he caught sight of the worry hidden deep in your gaze. He nodded then, giving in and leading you to his front door, trying not to look visibly upset when your hand no longer held him.
The house was just as you remembered from when you were a kid. Clean and organized, everything in its designated place. It always frightened you back then, a house so pristine that it didnât look like anyone could possibly live there. You followed Steve as he ascended the staircase, both of you winded and clutching your wounds when you got to the top. Steve showered in the bathroom attached to his room, offering you a towel and clean clothes before sending you off to the guest bathroom.
The hot water pulsed down on you, blood and grime swirling around the drain at your feet. The water seared your skin with each drop, but you didnât mind, hoping the sweltering heat would rid you of the horrors youâd witnessed within the past few days. The sight of Eddie being tackled to the ground by a swarm of bats. The sound of Steveâs screams as his flesh was torn open. Your own wails of pain as the bats did the same to you a few feet away. Maxâs broken limbs and unfocused eyes as Lucas held her in his arms on the way to the hospital.
You turned the shower off, unwilling to let your thoughts run rampant anymore. You were careful when drying off, avoiding your wounds to keep blood from soiling Mrs. Harringtonâs stark white towels. Sheâd be sure to have a fit at the sight of a stain. You dressed quickly, pulling Steveâs old shirt and baggy sweatpants on. There wasnât a first aid kit in the guest bathroom, so you headed back to Steveâs room, holding your shirt away from your body to avoid getting blood on it. You knocked gently on Steveâs bedroom door and it only took a moment for him to open it for you.Â
His hair was wet, a towel draped over his bare shoulders. He was shirtless, sweatpants hanging low on his hips as water dripped down his hairy chest. Your eyes lingered there for a moment before trailing to the bandages wrapped around his torso. Steveâs eyes followed yours, landing on the gauze tied tightly to his skin.
âI seem to get the shit beat out of me anytime something like this happens,â he used his towel to gently pat his hair dry. âIâve gotten pretty good at patching myself up,â Steve shrugged, hanging the towel on the back of his bathroom door.Â
âCan you do mine?â you asked quietly, lifting your shirt to reveal your wounds. Steveâs gaze flickered down to them, blood from each gash threatening to spill down your sides. His breath caught in his chest at the sight of your exposed skin. It was dumb, just your stomach on display, but it took Steve a second to contain himself. It was nothing he hadnât seen before, memories of your bare skin seen on the few occasions that you forgot to close your curtains before changing. Steve always looked away, but the flashes of your skin were seared into his brain. He nodded in response to your question, going into the bathroom with you trailing behind him. He told you to sit on the counter, pulling out the first aid kit from the cabinet next to your dangling legs. Steve wiped each wound with an antiseptic wipe, cleaning the area and sopping up the thin blood that surrounded it. His hands were gentle and soft like he was afraid to touch you, to break you.
âHold this,â Steve placed a gauze pad on one of the wounds, his fingers guiding your hand to rest over it, holding it in place. He ignored the tingle in his fingers as his skin brushed yours, moving on to place another pad over the other blemish. Your hand came up automatically, holding it in place without Steve having to tell you again. He unraveled the rest of the gauze, slowly wrapping it around your waist, softly brushing your hands away when he no longer needed you to hold the pads in place. Steve circled it around you a few times, finally securing the gauze tightly in place with a swift knot.
âThank you, Steve,â you whispered, his face close to yours. Steve hummed in response, letting his eyes drift to your lips for a moment too long before pulling himself away and packing up the first aid kit. He returned it to the cabinet, his shoulder brushing your leg in the process, sending chills down his spine.Â
Steve stood then, opening the linen closet by the door, searching for a blanket to give you in case the guest room got too cold. You were tired, to the point of exhaustion really, longing to lay your head against a soft pillow. But fear came creeping in, the demons in your closet, or the demogorgons rather, holding your mind hostage. The fears controlled you then, in combination with the exhaustion, speaking words from your lips that you otherwise wouldnât have even considered muttering.
âCan I sleep in here? With you?â when you were first dropped off all you could think about was finally being alone, but as you sat there now, Steve's clothes covering your skin, you realized that wasnât what you wanted at all. Steve froze, and his quest to find a blanket quickly halted. He looked up at you, taking in the heavy bags under your eyes, the weight of the past few days slumping your shoulders forward. He knew under normal circumstances that you never would have asked, and probably couldnât have even stood being in the same room as him for more than two minutes, but these werenât normal circumstances. And he would take what he could get.
âYeah, okay. Iâll sleep on the floor. You can take the bed,â Steve turned to the linen closet once more, searching for a blanket for himself this time. He heard you slide off the counter, thinking youâd brush past him and get into his bed, but you didnât. You stopped next to him, pulling Steveâs focus to you.
âYou canât sleep on the floor. What if you bleed out? Iâd never know if you were down there. At least not until the morning,â Steve placed his hands on your shoulders, ceasing your seemingly endless babble. Your eyes were wide and bloodshot, staring back at Steve with a worried brow.
âOkay,â he agreed, trying to calm himself, the jitters of being so close to you creeping in. âWeâll both sleep in my bed,â his hands fell to his sides and you let out a breath you didnât know you were holding. Steve left the bathroom, turning out the light as he did. You slid into Steveâs bed, the sheets pulled up around you as Steve switched off his lamp. The bed dipped beside you from Steveâs weight. You went to roll over, trying to face him, but you were met with pain, gasping and clutching your side with a hiss. Steve shot up, trying to help you but only injuring himself with his sharp movement in the process. You couldnât help but laugh as you both settled down onto your backs.
âArenât we a pair,â you mumbled and Steve chuckled beside you. The room was dark, filled with the scent of a burned-out candle, Steve's lavender-scented shampoo, dirty laundry, and something else inherently Steve. Your eyes watched the ceiling, lying in silence next to the boy you supposedly hated. He rustled around beside you, trying to get comfortable. In a normal situation, you wouldâve snapped at him for moving the bed so much, but right now you found it amusing. After another minute of restless movement, he let out a groan.
âI normally sleep on my stomach, but this shit makes it impossible,â annoyance laced his tone as he referred to the bat bites lining the front of his stomach. Your head turned in his direction, silently taking in his side profile, his sharp nose, and long eyelashes. He almost looked normal if you ignored the angry ring of red flesh lining his neck.Â
âIâm a side sleeper,â you spoke softly, Steveâs head turning towards your voice. For some reason, he liked hearing more about you, even if it was just something as silly as how you normally slept. âIâm in the same boat as you, Harrington,â the wounds on your sides making it impossible to lay that way. Steve could just make out the shadows of your face in the dim light. The curve of your lips, the arch of your brow, the tip of your nose. He thought you looked beautiful. âIâm sorry I couldnât stop them. Iâm sorry I couldnât stop the bats from getting you,â your lip quivered then, tears welling in your eyes as you lived up to your crybaby nickname. You werenât sure where the burst of emotion came from, chalking it up to the exhaustion that weighed heavily upon you. Steve lifted his head, his hand coming up to brush away your tears.
âAre you kidding? You jumped in right after me. If you hadnât been there I wouldâve been dead in less than a minute. You distracted some of them. I wouldâve been bat food if not for you. If anyoneâs sorry it should be me,â you shook your head and Steveâs hand came down to rest on your cheek, thumb rubbing circles against it gently as he spoke. Why were you letting him hold you like this? Why did it feel so comforting? You sniffled, trying to stop your tears from falling. âBaby, you saved me. I need you to know that,â you nodded at his reassurance, too choked up still to use your words. Your eyes were heavy by then, the lack of sleep weighing in on you even more.Â
âI'm glad I went through that gate then,â you mumbled, words barely audible through your sleep-slurred speech. With the last of your energy, you moved, rolling onto your stomach, the wounds on your sides untouched by the mattress. Steve followed your lead, moving onto his side, and facing you. His arm draped across you, careful to avoid your wounds, and a soft sigh left your lips as your eyes slowly closed. Your breath evened out soon after, slowed inhales and exhales taking over. Steveâs fingers found the bulge of the cotton pads on your side, tracing across them gently, a comforting gesture that youâd never know about. He wished he had superpowers, the ability to heal you with just a touch. But he didnât, so heâd do this instead, easing your pain with a soft touch while you slept.
When you woke in the morning you had the overwhelming urge to pee. You slid gently from Steveâs embrace, somehow managing to get even closer to him during the night. You tiptoed to the bathroom, not wanting to wake the sleeping boy. The large mirror covering the wall taunted you when you finished, urging you to take a peek beneath the gauze. You caved, hands gently pushing the gauze to the side. The bleeding had stopped and the gashes already started looking better. It was curious how well they had cleared up overnight, but you just shrugged, used to the strangeness of the supernatural by now. You climbed back into bed with Steve after putting the bandages back into place. You wanted another minute of peace, a moment, maybe the last of its kind, when you and Steve didnât hurt each other. When Steve Harrington was still the boy you knew, not the one youâd grown to loathe.
âShit Steve, seriously?â You winced as the blood began to trickle down your skin. âItâs a basketball game, not tackle football,â you lost your balance for a moment, Lucasâ arms shooting up to steady you. Steve stood speechless, incapable of fathoming how his hands did so much harm to you. The skin had never quite healed right, you suppose, more fragile than most other places on your body. âEddie, can you take me home,â you asked, trying to keep your shirt from getting wet with blood, knowing your shorts were a lost cause with scarlet droplets already pooling at the waistband. Eddie nodded quickly, rushing to your side as if he had to carry you to the van.
âI can take you. I mean, I live next door. Iâll clean you up,â Steve suddenly was able to find words, knocked out of his stupor. He moved towards you then, but you raised your hand, stopping him in his tracks.
âI asked Eddie,â you spoke with a glare, already walking toward the courtâs exit. Eddie shot Steve a sympathetic look before following behind you. Robin lifted her hand to comfortingly pat Steveâs back while his mouth fell slightly agape. You got into the van with a wince and Eddie closed the door for you. Robin, Steve, and Lucas were filing off the court then. Steveâs head was down while he unlocked his car. Eddie turned the keys in the ignition, started the van, and began to pull out of the lot.
It was an accident, you knew that, so why did it frustrate you so much? The same hands that once held yours as children now were the ones to lacerate your skin. Maybe it was the ache you buried deep inside, the one youâd never been able to alleviate, the pain Steve perpetuated for years. The one you hadnât been able to forgive him for no matter how hard you tried, no matter how much you wanted to. He left you, tossed you aside like you were some old sweater discarded beneath his bed, like you were nothing. It seemed never-ending like youâd never escape his harmful grasp. You wanted to be five again when the world seemed so much kinder and you loved Steve Harrington. Maybe the latter was still true, maybe thatâs why he scarred you more than the others ever had.
As Eddie drove towards the exit, your gaze drifted up, landing on Steve. Robin and Lucas had already gotten into Steveâs car, but he stood outside of it, arms resting on the crook between the carâs roof and the door. His eyes followed you through the van window as Eddie sped away. A strange look overtook Steveâs face, one you couldnât quite read. It was the look of a boy that never wanted to hurt you, but somehow constantly did.
I knew youâd haunt all of my what-ifs
           The sun hid behind the clouds, peaks of light streaming through the cracks in the sky. Tires rolled against the pavement, making their way across town. The radio was low in the car, some Fleetwood Mac song lulling softly through the air. Your car was old, covered in dents and scratches, with windows that only opened halfway and an engine that grumbled with each press to the gas pedal. Even though your parents offered to help you buy a new one, a more reliable form of transportation, you refused. This car held too many memories in its stained cloth seats. Your first kiss in the backseat, jam sessions with Eddie, driving Will, Mike, Dustin, and Lucas to the science fair where they finally got first place again. You couldnât let it go, not yet, not while it still had some life in it. You knew how much it sucked to be abandoned.Â
           The tires screeched and squealed as you turned into the Family Video parking lot. You pulled into a space near the front of the store, dim headlights shutting off when you pulled the keys from the ignition. Robin had told you she was working today, but as you looked around you were unable to find her bike in its normal place on the bike rack. You did however spot a maroon BMW parked near the back of the lot. That lying bitch. A sigh fell from your lips, eyes closing at the thought of seeing Steve. It had been two days since the basketball incident and you had been sure to keep your distance. Steveâs sorry eyes peeked through bedroom windows and only made you feel guilty for getting mad at him in the first place. But you couldnât stall this any longer, the movies were due today and youâd be pissed if you got another late fee. So you grabbed the tapes from the passenger seat, holding them close to your chest as you closed your car door and walked through the entrance to Family Video.
           Steve stood hunched over the counter, the same way he normally did when the store was empty like it was now. His eyes were glued to the magazine that rested on the counter before him. It was a Cosmopolitan. He was ashamed to admit that he was searching its pages for tips on how to get back in your good graces. So far he was coming up short, but he still skimmed through it anyway. The bell rang above the door, signaling to Steve that a customer had entered.Â
           âWelcome to Family Video. My nameâs Steve. Let me know if you need help with anything,â the words spilled from Steveâs lips automatically, his gaze still glued to the magazine. It took Steve a moment to register the silence he received in response, brushing it off as another inconsiderate customer. At least thatâs what he thought until a stack of tapes slammed down on the counter beside him. Steve looked up then, seeing you standing across from him with raised eyebrows. Your eyes trailed down to Steveâs magazine, and his gaze followed yours. In less than a second, Steve had slid the magazine off the counter, quickly tossing behind him. You simply blinked, an amused smile blossoming on your lips as the magazine crashed to the floor.Â
           âI want to return some tapes,â you couldnât help the smirk that remained as you spoke, pushing the stack of video tapes in front of the boy. Steve nodded, picking up the first tape and scanning it back into the system. âWhat were you reading there, Harrington?â he could hear your smile through your amused tone, refusing to meet your eyes as he continued to scan your tapes.Â
           âSports Illustrated,â Steve lied, ignoring the way your lips pressed together to contain your smile. You couldnât contain your laughter anymore, clutching your sides as giggles poured from your throat. Your laughter was contagious, causing a few chuckles to spring out of Steve too.Â
           âWhatever you say, Harrington,â you composed yourself, finally ceasing your giggles, but the smile remained taut on your lips. Steve handed over your receipt for the returned tapes, expecting you to leave after clutching it in your hands, but you didnât. Your feet drifted over to the movie-lined aisles and Steve couldnât help but follow, tripping over his discarded magazine in the process.Â
Eventually, you stopped in front of a shelf, Steve watched the way you studied your options. When one finally caught your attention you leaned up, standing on your tippy toes to grab it. Your shirt rode up in the process, revealing the large bandages that covered the wounds on your sides. Steveâs heart dropped, the memories of the basketball game, the whole reason he had been reading that stupid magazine in the first place, flooded his mind. Just as your fingers brushed the front of the tape, seconds from getting ahold of it, Steveâs hand lifted it instead, offering it to you.
âThanks,â you said sincerely, only then noticing the kicked puppy look on Steveâs face. You opened your mouth to speak again, but Steve beat you to it.
âIâm so sorry about the other day. I really didnât mean to hurt you. I just got carried away,â Steveâs gaze drifted to the ground, missing the pity that swelled in your eyes. âIâm sorry this shit keeps happening. Itâs just that when Iâm with you I canât seem to function like a normal person,â he lifted his head then, catching a glimpse of emotion in your expression. Regret? Or is it that underlying anger you saved just for him?
âItâs fine, Steve,â you assured him, but the boy wasnât comforted. He opened his mouth to apologize again, but you didnât let him. âDude, Iâm sick of hearing you apologize. It's fine. If anything I should apologize for being such a bitch about it. It was an accident, letâs move on,â Steve eyed you, unsure whether you were messing with him or not. But you were serious, hoping that the old Steve still lived within the boy in front of you, and that one day you could make amends. Maybe this was the first step, and if that meant forgiving him for something he accidentally did, then so be it. âCheck me out?â you asked, holding the tape up for Steve to see. He nodded, going back behind the counter. He reached down, grabbing a copy of Casablanca from under the counter and placing it next to the movie you had just picked out, but you shook your head.
âYou donât want it?â Steve asked, suddenly wondering if you had been kidnapped and replaced by a clone. That was the only logical explanation for your behavioral change towards both him and your favorite movie.Â
âKinda bored of complicated romances at the moment. Maybe another day,â Steve slid the movie back under the counter, keeping it there in case you changed your mind. âI heard this one was good though,â you gesture to the copy of Ferris Buellerâs Day Off that you had picked out.Â
âYeah, Robin said that she thinks Iâd like it. Havenât had a chance to watch it yet though,â Steve scanned the tape, fixing his gaze on the computer, where he typed in the code for his employee discount. He did it every time you came in during his shift, thinking he was sly and that youâd never noticed, but you caught on a while ago. It came to light after a rousing argument with Robin about how she had been overcharging you.Â
You pulled a few crumpled bills from your purse, handing them over to Steve. He waited, knowing you were now going to dig around your purse until you found some coins, never willing to pay with anything other than exact change. After a few seconds, you pulled the coins out, two quarters, a dime, and three pennies. You placed them gently in Steveâs extended hand. His palm tingled with the brush of your fingers, quickly sorting the coins to alleviate the sensation. He handed you the bag with your tape when he finished putting your change away. With a small smile, you turned, heading back towards the door you entered through. Just as you were about to place your hand on the large handle and push it open, you stopped. Steve, who had been watching as you walked away, felt that dreaded sense of hope again, the one he felt so often when you were near.
âWhat time do you get done here?â Steveâs eyebrows raised, taken aback by your question. His mouth opened, fumbling for words as he checked his watch.
âThirty-two minutes. Why?â you chuckled at his sudden nervousness. Maybe he really had come a long way from his days as King Steve. King Steve never wouldâve struggled like this when talking to a girl.
âDo you want to watch this with me?â you held up the bag that housed the Ferris Bueller VHS, extending an olive branch. Steveâs response was immediate like he didnât even need to think about it.
âYes,â it was a simple answer, but you just nodded in return, a shy smile creasing the corners of your mouth. âWe can watch it at my place. My TV is bigger,â Steve smirked, regaining his charming and flirty tone, the one youâd gotten so familiar with as a result of all the teasing. You rolled your eyes at the innuendo, smile still cresting your lips, and pushed your way through the exit.
âWhatever you say, Harrington,â you called out behind you, repeating the same words from earlier. Steve laughed, watching your retreating figure, the sway of your hips, and the swell of your ass. He looked at his watch again, still displaying the same time as when he had checked just moments before. Steve groaned into his hands. This was going to be the longest thirty-two minutes of his life.Â
You were enveloped in a book, sitting on your window bench when a light tap sounded off next to you. Thinking it was just the old house creaking or something, you ignored it, eyes scanning the next page. Thatâs when it happened again, and again, and again. You pulled back your curtains and flung open the window only to narrowly avoid getting smacked in the face by a pebble.
âShit, sorry,â Steve swore, his cheeks turning red with guilt and embarrassment. He was standing below your window, pebbles spilling out of his hand. A week or two ago, hell maybe even a few days ago, you wouldâve gone off on him, screaming about nearly hurting you and potentially damaging your window. But now, you just smiled, taking in the sight of the boy next door. Only Steve Harrington could make a romantic gesture nearly turn into a trip to the hospital. âI tried to leave you a message, but your curtains were closed,â you glanced over to his window, spotting the piece of loose leaf taped to it with the words âcome over?â scrawled in black ink.
âGive me two seconds,â you pulled your head back inside, closing the window behind you. As you did, a few of the army men on your window sill fell on their sides, no longer facing the window across the gap between two houses. Snagging the video tape from your desk, you ran down the steps, stopping in front of the mirror hung up in the hallway. Why did you suddenly care how your hair looked around Steve? Brushing off the thought, you continued, opening the front door to be met by the boy next door.Â
âReady?â he asked and you nodded, following as he turned towards his house. You walked closely behind him, catching a whiff of hairspray, lavender, and cologne. Steve led you to the rec room in the basement, which housed the largest television in the Harrington residence. You handed him the tape and he slid it into the VCR before settling on the couch, a good two feet from where you sat. Neither of you mentioned the distance, just watching the movie and laughing at Ferrisâ goofy antics.
As the movie progressed a chill ran through you, goosebumps prickling your skin. The Harringtonâs seemingly liked to keep their basement ice cold. Steve noticed and pulled down the blanket that was draped over the back of the couch. He laid it on his lap, extending the end of it towards you. You accepted his silent invitation, closing the gap and sitting close with the blanket wrapped around the two of you. The rest of the movie was spent that way, thighs brushing against one another when either of you moved.
When the credits finally ended, with Ferris Bueller in his bathrobe disappearing from the screen one last time, you felt at ease. You hadnât expected to feel so comfortable with Steve, but it was almost a relief that you managed to get through a whole movie without wanting to kill him.
âThat was so good. Robin was totally right, I loved it. I'm basically Ferris Bueller so it makes sense I guess,â Steve shrugged and you couldnât hold back the laugh that bloomed from your lips at his comment. Steve turned to look at you, a brow arched in confusion at your humor. âWhat?â he asked bluntly, a hint of amusement on his face.
âYou would think that youâre Ferris,â you spoke, looking smug. Steve's lips stretched into a daring grin, curiosity getting the best of him.
âOkay, if Iâm not Ferris then who am I?â Steve leaned in close and you rolled your eyes, shoving his shoulder.
âItâs so obvious that youâre Cameron. Sure, the people that donât know you that well might think youâre Ferris, but I know you Steve Harrington, and youâre Cameron fully and completely,â your grin widened with Steveâs look of exasperation. His hand flew to his chest in mock offense.
âWhat the hell makes me Cameron?â his words still had the air of joviality behind them despite his faux wounded front. The corner of your lips faltered then, suddenly reluctant to divulge more about your characterization of the boy before you. You didnât want to tell him what he already knew, that he and Cameron shared a strained relationship with their fathers, both all too afraid of disappointing the men who raised them. That up until recently both boys took all the shit that their fathers gave them, too freighted to stand up to them. You didnât want to say any of it, which was fine because Steve already knew. From the second Cameron appeared on the screen, the voice in the back of Steveâs head pointed out each similarity that they shared. Silence settled over the two of you, smiles fading in the quiet room.
âIf it makes you feel better,â you began, voice small and fingers fidgeting on your lap. Steve wanted to reach over and grab them, encase your fingers with his, but he restrained himself. âCameron was my favorite character in the movie,â you nodded towards the TV screen that now reflected a blank blue shadow over the pair of you. Steve observed your bashful demeanor, thinking about how cute you looked when you got all shy.Â
âYou would definitely be Jeanie,â Steve asserted, breaking through the uncomfortable quiet. Your jaw dropped at the comparison and the smile returned to Steveâs lips at your reaction.
âFerrisâs bitchy sister?â Steve nodded and you shoved him again. He righted himself, continuing to make his point.
âI mean, come on, itâs so obvious,â Steve repeated your words from earlier and you shook your head. âYouâre both a little crazy in a hot way. Not to mention you both go for bad boys,â you glared at Steve, but he could tell you werenât actually mad.
âIâm not into bad boys, asshole,â you defended and Steveâs smirk grew, his rebuttal already concocted in his head.
âOh really? So it wasnât you that hooked up with Billy Hargrove at Tinaâs Halloween party two years ago?â your jaw dropped again, and Steveâs snickering filled the air. He reached over, pressing your chin up to close your mouth. You brushed his hand off of you in confusion.
âHow the hell do you know about that?â you asked, confusion and curiosity coursing through your thoughts. âDid Eddie tell you? I swear to god Iâm never telling him anything ever again,â you crossed your arms, waiting for Steve to talk.
âHargrove used to brag about it to me and try to rub it in my face,â Steve informed you and your face wrinkled, filled with questions. âI guess he thought that it would make me mad since you and I used to be friends or whatever,â Steve shrugged, no longer smiling. He watched you, unsure how you would react to his explanation.Â
âDid it?â you questioned, and Steve shrugged again. He didnât want to tell you that it did, that it took every fiber of his being to restrain himself from punching the blond boyâs stupid face.
âA little,â Steve lied and another silence fell over the room, but it wasnât as tense this time. Steve waited a moment before speaking again, watching the way you avoided his gaze. âWhyâd you even hook up with him? I thought you hated him,â Steveâs voice was quiet, unwilling to break through the low noise barrier that settled between you.
âYou stole my copy of Pride and Prejudice,â you let out a sigh, gaze shifting to your hands that rested in your lap again. Steveâs brow furrowed, confused about the correlation between his question and your response. âIt was the copy my grandma gave me when I was 11. I had notes in the margins on just about every page. You took it from my bag in homeroom the day before the party and refused to give it back,â Steve knew what you were talking about. He couldnât remember why he took it, but he knew that he still had it, tucked away in his closet, in a spot that only he could find.
âBut what does that have to do with Billy?â Steve still didnât understand. Your hands ran over your face as you let out a sigh.
âYou hated him and he hated you. I figured the enemy of my enemy was my friend, which wasnât true by the way. I was super pissed about the book and a little tipsy. I needed to blow off some steam, so one thing led to another and we hooked up in his car after the party,â you were ashamed of it, regret filling you the second it was over. âI didnât know that he was such a douchebag when it happened. If I had known how badly he treated Max and Lucas then I never wouldâve done it,â you explained, still unable to meet Steveâs gaze, embarrassed by your past. Steveâs hand extended, tilting your chin with his finger, allowing your eyes to finally meet his.
âI shouldn't have taken your book, Baby,â Steve whispered and you gave him a soft smile in return. The nickname rang through the air and reverberated off the walls. Hearing it didnât bother you for some reason. For the first time in years, the word didnât sting as it fell from Steveâs lips. Maybe the tide finally turned, the war nearly over. It gave you a sense of courage, making you brave enough to let your next question out in the open.
âWhen Billy bragged about it, what did he say?â Steve was taken aback, wondering why you would want to know. Billyâs words were far from nice, if anything they were disrespectful and an invasion of privacy. But the way you looked at Steve now told him that you genuinely wanted to know, needed to know.
âIt was really depraved stuff, like how your body felt against him,â Steve started and you nodded, motioning with your hands for him to continue. âHe said you would start to breathe heavily when he kissed your neck. That you did this thing with your tongue when you kissed that felt insanely good. He said you moaned his name like it was made just for you to say it. That your thighs shook when youâŚâ Steve trailed off, face flushed and unwilling to finish his sentence. He had started speaking slower with each sentence, despite the racing of his heart. The tension floated thick in the air, crowding the room and making it way too hot for the blanket draped over your lap. Steve wasnât sure when his hand had dropped to your lap, brushing between your legs from over the blanket.
Your eyes were glued to Steveâs, unaware of the distance that disappeared between you with each passing second. His breath mingled with yours, tingling against your skin. Your tongue darted out, bringing moisture to your dry lips. The heat between your thighs ached to be relieved, wishing Steveâs hand would travel higher up your thigh as his jeans tightened at the sight of your gaze alone. The blue from the TV screen that coated the room disappeared as your eyes fluttered shut. Both sets of lips were centimeters from meeting in the middle when the VCR popped out the tape, landing with a loud smack on the ground. Steve had leaned on the remote while moving closer toward you, accidentally pressing the eject button. He knew he needed to fix the VCR, worried about its tendency to spit out tapes rather than the slow half push it was supposed to do, but heâd put it off, too tired after a long day of work. You broke apart at the sound, creating more distance as you moved the blanket from your legs and scrambled back, Steveâs hand falling into the now empty space. Neither of you could look up at the other.
âI wish we stayed friends when we were in middle school,â Steve said after a long span of silence. He never wanted to be your enemy, never wanted to drive you into the arms of an undeserving man. Your eyes met then, his were glassy, which was something you hadnât expected.Â
âYeah, me too,â your voice was small but sure, words speaking nothing but the truth. You didnât remind him why you werenât, something you wouldâve done a week ago. Instead, you sat in agreement, pondering how different your life would be.
âI wonder what would've changed,â he spoke. It was soft, almost a whisper, and you longed to be close to him again. To feel his words fan across your lips instead of the empty space beside you. âIf I wouldâve been friends with Tommy, if I wouldâve dated Nancy, if weâd be off at a college somewhere instead of this shithole town,â Steve was louder now, melancholy mixed with underlying anger. Even if you were finally able to be friends now, Steve couldnât help but think about the time he missed out on with you and all the other lingering what-ifs.Â
âWe could still get out one day. Leave the teen angst and trauma behind,â you sounded normal again, reassuring to Steveâs overactive thoughts. âMaybe we could go together,â Steveâs heart leaped out of his chest at your words, but he reeled it back in. It was still new, being able to talk without words slicing into the otherâs skin. You looked at him with anticipatory eyes, awaiting his response.
âJust give me the signal Baby and we can be out of here before sunrise,â Steve extended his hand, this was a deal to shake on, a long-term agreement that one day youâd run away together. You grinned, accepting his outstretched hand, wondering about where youâd go. Considering if you were in love with Steve Harrington, if you always had been. Dying to know if he was in love with you too.
A friend to all is a friend to noneÂ
           Autumn had officially begun, a chill in the air that persuaded the orange leaves to tumble from the trees. It was your favorite time of year, though you couldnât help the twinge of sadness that swelled in your heart at the thought of leaving the warm summer sun behind. Eddie insisted that you come to visit him at work, his desperation ringing out through the static of the phone. After a few minutes of groveling, you caved and agreed to go, which is how you ended up banished to the backseat of Steveâs car on the way to the record store on main street. Robin had called shotgun, but you didnât mind, having the entire backseat to yourself and stretching out your legs. Steveâs car smelled like pine trees and leather, hairspray and cologne, as it rolled along the pavement.Â
Steve pulled up to a parking spot in front of the record store, placing his hand on the passenger seat headrest as he threw the car in reverse. He turned his head towards the carâs rear, watching carefully as he backed into a spot, shooting you a wink before he faced the front again. You couldnât help the warmth that spread over your cheeks, feeling like a bumbling schoolgirl with a crush. Ever since your movie night, your almost kiss, things had been different with Steve. Sure, there was still some teasing and the typical dirty innuendos, but it didnât sting the way it used to. It didnât evolve into slammed windows and drawn curtains, loud arguments and bruised egos. Something new coursed through your veins, your heart beating just to hear the sound of his voice. It was scary, the rush of feelings that youâd seemingly repressed for years, hidden under what you thought was hate.Â
âYou coming or what?â Robin leaned back into Steveâs car to face you. The thoughts of Steve had distracted you and you only now noticed that they had already exited the car. You followed suit, unbuckling and sliding across the seat to get out on Steveâs side. He greeted you with an arm slung around your shoulder, purposely messing up your hair in the process. You swatted at him, smoothing your hair back down as you walked through the storeâs entrance together. Music wafted down from the speakers that littered the ceiling and you instantly knew that Eddie had picked out whatever metal song was playing. As if he could hear the mention of his name in your thoughts, Eddie appeared in front of you, grabbing ahold of your wrist and dragging you towards the front counter. Meanwhile, Robin and Steve headed towards the back, searching for some Abba vinyl that Steve had been wanting for ages. The absence of Steveâs arm around your shoulder left you with a chill, the tingle brought on by his touch subsiding, but you brushed it aside following the long-haired boy.Â
You went behind the counter with Eddie, hopping up to sit in the space between the cash register and the pile of records stacked to the left. It was a familiar spot for you, somewhere youâd sat a million times, much to Eddieâs managerâs dismay. In this spot, youâd talk about dates that you went on, someone from high school who got knocked up or married, a new song Eddie was working on, and your hatred for Steve Harrington. But this time was different. Eddie remained silent as you perched before him, crossing his arms over his chest and peering at you with knowing eyes. He came to stand in front of you, his stomach brushing against your knees. You glared at him in response, already knowing the words that were about to crest his lips.
âYou and Harrington have been awfully close lately,â a smirk danced across his face, arms uncrossing, hands landing to rest on your knees. You narrowed your eyes, placing your hands behind you, and leaning back on them.
âWeâre sort of friends now, I guess,â you shrugged and Eddie leaned in even closer, pressing the back of his hand to your forehead as if he was testing your temperature. You smacked his hand away, earning a yelp in response. The grin reappeared on Eddieâs lips as he shook his hand to alleviate the pain caused by your slap.Â
âFriends, huh?â you nodded as his question, eyeing Eddie for his next move. Someone entered the store, the chime of the bell over the door alerting the both of you. But the two of you didnât flinch, didnât even spare the new customer a glance, too enveloped in your weird standoff staring contest. Instead, Eddie called out his standard greeting, welcoming the person to Rad Records, as his eyes roamed over you, searching for an unspecified answer. âJust friends, nothing more?â Eddie finally continued, needing more evidence to make his case, to find the answer to his unasked question. And you gave it to him, eyes darting away from his and legs beginning to bounce. Eddieâs jaw dropped, a gasp seeping from the open space between his lips.
âShut the fuck up, Edward,â you rushed out, clamping your hand over his slack jaw. Eddieâs wide eyes trailed from you to Steve and back. His lips moved behind your hand, trying to speak, but you shushed him, refusing to let go until he calmed down. You cringed at the swipe of his tongue against your palm, but still held on tight. After a few seconds, Eddie stopped and you took it as a sign to set him free. Your hand retracted, falling limply onto your lap, where you wiped his saliva onto your jeans.
âHoly shit. You like him. You actually, consciously, like him,â Eddie whisper-yelled at you and it took a considerable amount of effort to not spontaneously combust at his words. Itâs one thing to finally admit it to yourself, itâs another to hear it spoken out loud. Still, you felt like there was a ritual you had to play along with, like you had to deny the accusation.
âI so do not,â you spoke stubbornly, but Eddie could hear the give in your voice, knowing the truth.
âYou totally do. The fact that itâs taken you this long to realize is insane,â Robin spoke up from behind you, startling you with her sudden appearance. You looked beside her, expecting to see Steve, but he wasnât there. You didnât know whether to be sad or relieved by his absence from the conversation.
âWhere is Steve anyway?â you shifted on the counter, making space for Robin to rest her elbows next to you. Robin nodded towards the back of the store. Steveâs figure was obscured by the towering displays that littered the room.
âSome guy that he knew from the basketball team came in and started talking to him. Steve called him Jumpy or something. I dipped out as soon as I could, so Steveâs stuck back there now,â you cringed at the name that fell from Robinâs lips. Jumpy was the dumbass nickname of Allen Peterson, some douchebag that was friends with Tommy.
âUgh, he and Tommy once broke into the girlâs locker room during gym and stole my clothes. I had to walk around in my gym uniform for the rest of the day. It was humiliating,â a frown bloomed on your lips, one that was echoed by Eddie and Robin.Â
âI remember that. They somehow never got caught,â Eddieâs eyes trailed to the back of the store, still unable to spot Steve. âYou want me to kick him out?â Eddieâs eyebrows raised in question, almost begging for the chance to kick someone out of the store. But you shook your head, tapping his shoulder so heâd move out of the way. He did, stepping to the side, allowing you to slide down from the glass counter.
âI want to see if he remembers me. Maybe mess with him a bit,â Eddie and Robin waved you off as you walked towards the back, the top of Steveâs perfectly styled hair coming into view as you got closer. You approached from behind Steve, not able to get a good view of his face. You were still hidden, questioning whether you should continue with your plan or not. Wondering if Allen would do something to upset you, tease you, and make you feel small. But Steve was there, and how could he hurt you when the boy you loved was standing by your side? Just as you were about to take a step out, you heard something, Allenâs voice.Â
âDude, I canât believe youâve been hanging out with such losers,â Allenâs words elicited a soft scoff from your lips. He peaked in high school but here he was calling you a loser? You wished you could see Steveâs face, to know what was running through his mind, the witty comeback that was sure to leave his lips any second now. But it didnât. All you heard was the smooth sound of his laugh dancing through the store.
âCome on, man. Theyâre not that bad,â you brushed off Steveâs weak, delayed defense. At least he stood up for you in some regard, thatâs what matters.
âNah man, that Baby chick is nuts. I remember how weird she was in high school, always crying over something. Sometimes I just wanted to bend her over and give her something to cry about, you know?â Allen mimed thrusting his hips as his words hung in the air. It made you feel dirty and violated, like he had already touched you in the way he said that he wanted to. The boy viewed you as an object, nothing more than something to be used to satisfy his needs. Your eyes bore into the back of Steveâs head, willing him to speak up on your behalf. To defend you, to protect you, to punch this asshole in the face. But Steve was never good at defending you and all he did was laugh again. That irritatingly coy laugh, the one that set off alarm bells whenever you heard it. The laugh that belonged to the reigning king, not the boy you loved.
âOh yeah, totally. One good screw would straighten her right out,â at that moment you couldâve sworn that the entire town could hear your heart as it shattered. You werenât really sure when you revealed yourself from your hiding spot behind the bookshelf, but your eyes locked with Allenâs, and his stupid smirk dropped. Steve tracked his gaze, spinning on his heels to see you, tears welling in the corners of your eyes, forehead creased, and red-hot anger coursing through you. You turned, moving as fast as you could towards the exit at the front of the store. Steve chased behind you, his hand catching your arm right after you passed through the door. Eddie and Robin looked alarmed at the sight of you both stopped before the storeâs glass front.
âLet go of me,â you spoke hotly, cursing the strength of Steveâs grip. Steveâs eyes roamed over you, catching the flicker of hurt that flashed across your face before you restored it to its angry glare.Â
âI didnât mean it. Itâs just-â Steve began, but you quickly cut him off, still trying to wrangle your arm from his grasp.
âI donât give a shit what you meant, Harrington. I thought you changed. I forgave you for all the shit you put me through. Guess I wrong to think you were capable of being a decent person,â Steveâs eyes watered at your words, hating himself for making you doubt him and how he feels for you.
âI have changed. I donât know why I said that shit,â Steve pleaded, he wanted you to understand, to give him five minutes to explain himself. But Steve knew this was it, youâd already made your decision, it wouldnât matter even if he got down on his knees and begged. Heâd broken your trust, said shit he didnât mean, and now heâd lost you again, the same way he did years before, the way he never wanted to again. Steve let go of your arm, giving you the freedom you asked for when you first left the record store with him in tow. Your arm felt numb, empty, without Steveâs hand there, and you cursed your stupid heart for not wanting him to let go.
âI guess old habits die hard, Harrington. Stay the fuck out of my life,â your words spat from deep within you, fire coating each syllable. Steve watched as you turned, making your way down the sidewalk and turning into an alleyway between two stores. Eddie and Robin burst through the record storeâs entrance, ignoring the autumn chill that they were greeted with as they did. Steve wiped his eyes, glad to have tears clouding his vision because he was not sure he could stand to see his best friend's face as he recounted the past few minutes to her. Eddie looked to Steve, silently asking where you went, and Steve lifted his hand pointing in your direction. Eddie took off, turning the corner to the alley to find you slumped on the ground, knees to your chest and head in your hands. He approached you slowly, pulling you into him when he finally got close enough. Sobs racked your body, chest heaving against Eddieâs as he held you in a tight hug, knees resting on the cement below.Â
âI hate him, Eds. I fucking hate him,â Eddie nodded in understanding, stroking your hair and pulling it from where it stuck to your tear-stained cheeks. âI shouldâve known heâd break my heart again. I shouldâve known not to let myself fall in love with him,â your tears soaked Eddieâs shirt and he froze, stuck on the words that fell from your lips. Love. Sure, heâd known you liked Steve, but love was different. Love meant more hurt. It held more weight. It meant that you set aside the past and moved on. It meant you finally gave in to the feelings that gnawed at your heart and your brain each night. It meant that Steve really fucked up.
Chasing shadows in the grocery line
           Steveâs car finally peeled away and flew down main street, signaling to Eddie that the coast was clear. He walked you back to the now barren record store, save for his co-worker Terry, who was in the back unpacking a new shipment. Eddie asked Terry to cover for him and when Terry saw your tear-stained cheeks and red puffy eyes, he agreed, no questions asked. So Eddie put you in the passenger seat of his van and sped off down the road. You didnât ask where he was going when he passed the street that led to your house, already knowing where he was taking you.Â
           Eddieâs van stopped abruptly in front of his trailer. Wayneâs car was gone, signaling that heâd already left for work, leaving the trailer empty. It was getting dark, gloomy clouds blocking the sun as the moon rose in the sky opposite it. The porch lights flickered on, illuminating the shadows of your face through the cracked windshield. You caught sight of Lucasâ bike through the back window. It was lying on its side outside of Maxâs trailer, thrown in haste. Normally it wouldâve made you laugh, elicit a joke about young lovebirds to fall from your lips, but right now you couldnât even will the corners of your lips to curl into a faint smile.Â
Eddie opened your car door, gently lifting you by your waist and placing you on the ground. You followed him inside, trailing behind him like a lost, heartbroken puppy with nowhere else to go. He led you to his room, indicating for you to sit on his bed, so you did. Eddie placed a soft kiss on your forehead, the kind a mother gives her child, and lifted your arms. He disrobed you of your heavy knit sweater, your way of protecting yourself from the autumn winds that pierced the air, and replaced it with one of his Black Sabbath shirts. You unclipped your bra through the shirt, pulling it out of your sleeve before tossing it to the floor. The action always amazed Eddie, drawing a laugh from his lips, but this time he remained quiet, too concerned over you to pay attention to much else. Next, Eddie unlaced your shoes, pulling them from your feet. You shimmied from your pants after, throwing them across the room, uncaring where they landed.Â
With a shaky breath, you laid down, facing the wall, your back turned to Eddie. Eddie pulled off his leather jacket, shucked off his jeans, and moved towards the bed. The mattress dipped beside you, Eddieâs body now close to yours. He pulled the bed sheets up to cover you both before draping his arm across your torso. You relaxed into him a bit, fingers and legs intertwining with one another. It was a familiar position, one you and Eddie had shared a million times, but his comforting touch wasnât working quite the same as it normally did. Not when your heart hurt this much.
Eddie wanted to ask what happened, pester you with questions, and uncover the truth, but he refrained, knowing youâd speak up when the time was right. His heart ached at the feel of your body shaking against his, small sobs springing from deep within your chest no matter how much you wanted them to stop. Eddie only held you tighter, his arms practically crushing your ribs as his own tears began to well in his eyes. You stayed like that for a while, long after the sun fully sank beneath the horizon, leaving the room in complete consuming darkness. The wind caused sapling branches to scrape against the window, becoming the only sound to fill the lingering silence. You stopped crying after a while, wishing you could sleep the pain away, but remaining unsuccessful in your attempts.Â
Finally, you gave up, shifting to face Eddie, your forehead pressed to his. Breath intermingling, comforting you, letting you know that, yes, your heart may be broken, but you were still alive. Eddie studied you, unsure whether he should be the first to speak or not, but you quickly quelled that thought when you opened your mouth.
âDo you think youâll ever leave Hawkins?â your question threw Eddie off, his brows scrunching in confusion. Itâs not what he expected you to say.Â
âNot unless the band takes off, and certainly not without Wayne,â Eddie had thought about it before, considered moving to a big city where the lights never dimmed and the gigs would never end. But as much as Hawkins may have hated him, he could never hate it in return. Heâd get sick of the city noise and never be able to sleep, craving to hear the chirp of crickets and cicadas instead. So when you asked, he was sure of his answer. But he didnât echo your question back to you, already knowing that your answer would be a resounding yes. It would be tough for you to leave everyone behind, but you longed for something different, somewhere new to help escape the past and finally look forward to the future. Eddie was lost in thought, still wondering why you asked that when you spoke again.
âHeâs exactly who I thought he was,â it was a whisper, one that could easily be lost, left hanging in the air with no one around to hear it echo off the peeling walls. But Eddie heard it, he absorbed your words from the silent room, wanting to know more, so you continued. âI thought he was different now, but it turns out heâs still the same, too wrapped up in caring about what others think,â fresh tears sprang in your eyes, a sob tightening your throat as you spoke. âIâm tired of fighting against his undying need to be liked. Iâm tired of losing against it every goddamn time. Iâm done,â there was a finality to your tone, one that caused Eddie to lift his head from his pillow, a questioning look on his face.
âSweetheart, do you want me to talk to him? Figure out whatâs running through his head?â Eddie offered, but he knew the gesture would be wasted on you. Once you set your mind to it, it was done. But he wanted you to hear Steve out. He wanted you to find a way to reconcile your differences. For all the pain and confusion that Steve Harrington brought, he also filled you with joy and light. Youâd been happier throughout the past few weeks than Eddie had ever seen you, illuminating rooms simply by entering them. Eddie didnât want that to disappear, to be forever obscured by a compilation of closed curtains and avoidant gazes. But he was met with a furious shake of your head.
âNo, Eds. I mean it. No more Steve,â Eddie nodded despite the voice in his head yelling at him to speak up and try to change your mind. It was no use. He rolled onto his back, one arm resting under his head, the other still laid across you. You shifted too, laying with your chest pressed to Eddieâs stomach, head resting just below his. âI wish it was you that I loved. Itâd be much simpler that way,â youâre not sure why you said it, maybe the cloud that formed in your head from the dayâs events expanded, spilling all of your hazy thoughts through your lips. It was a sad wish, an empty hurt with truth behind it. But Eddie understood, his own thoughts reflecting yours, the telepathy finally working in a way. He wanted to take away your pain in any way he could, but not like this. Not when your heart was beaten black and blue, longing for a simple ceasefire to mend your open wounds. Not when that same heart belonged to another, an echoed call through the woods waiting for the birds in the treetops to sing back with an affirmative answer. Eddie loved you, but not in the way the both of you currently wished for. An irrefutable loyalty that would consciously be limited to platonic fellowship, no romance lingering from either party in the way you held each other close.
âIâm sorry, Baby,â Eddieâs whisper slid through the strands of your hair, a soft kiss placed overtop of it. Youâd grown quiet by then, breath evening out as you were finally granted your wish for sleep. Falling deep into a slumber where you were still five and Steve Harrington tucked flowers behind your ears as he whispered to you about love.
Days had passed, an endless stream of the same heartache and emptiness that blended each rise and fall of the sun together, making it difficult to distinguish one from the next. Robin called you probably a million times, but you refused to come to the phone. Your parents opted to unplug the phone from the wall for a few days, growing tired of the incessant ringing. You knew she just wanted to talk about Steve, but that was something you couldnât quite handle yet. Youâd only plugged the phone back in to call out of work, letting them know you had a nasty stomach bug, not caring if they believed you or not. The curtains in your room remained closed with the little army men on the window sill replaced in their defensive stance. To you, this was war.Â
On the fifth day of refusing to depart from beneath your bed sheets, your mom entered your room, messing with the knick-knacks that covered your dresser as she did. A custom D20 from Dustin, a kazoo Eddie gave you for your birthday one year joking about how you could be Corroded Coffinâs lead kazoo player, a mixtape Robin lent you ages ago, a new pack of colored pencils youâd been meaning to give to Will, and a flower that had been dried and pressed into a glittery bookmark, all littered your dresserâs surface. Your mom grabbed the bookmark, admiring the way the lavender flower retained its shape despite being flattened so many years ago. It was the same lavender that grew from the ground beneath your bedroom window, decorating the grass between the Harringtonâs house and your own. You watched closely as she eyed the bookmark, curiosity flooding your thoughts.Â
âI remember making this with you,â she spoke softly, a gentle cadence meant to comfort you, and it sort of did. âYou came running inside with the flower and insisted that we save it. You said it was too important to let die,â she sat on the edge of your bed, bookmark still glinting in the soft glow of the lamplight. You propped yourself up on your elbows, wondering where she was going with all of this. She handed you the bookmark then, and you took it, confused, examining it as if youâd never seen it before.Â
âI donât remember that,â your voice was hoarse from crying. It didnât help that you hadnât properly spoken out loud in days, too congested with the bustling thoughts running laps around your mind.
âYou were five. And if I remember correctly a certain boy had been the one to pick the flower for you,â you understood then, she was talking about Steve. Part of you felt betrayed, like your mother was providing aid for the enemy, but the other part of you wanted to know more, why she wanted to talk about this, especially now. âWe always assumed the two of you would be friends, lovers even,â she wagged her eyebrows at you and the corners of your lips ticked up at the gesture. âSo it was strange to see the distance that grew between you, the pain you caused each other. Iâd always hoped youâd resolve your differences, and fall back into the same ease you had as kids, but I know itâs more complicated than that,â her hand reached up, brushing softly against your cheek. You hadnât realized that you were crying until her fingers swiped over the fallen tears. âI love you, my Baby,â her words were a whisper, gentle lips pressed to your forehead. She patted your leg through your comforter, standing up as she did. On her way to the door, she stopped, turning back to look at you. âMaybe some fresh air might help. A trip to the store?â she suggested and for some reason you nodded, actually thinking that it would be nice to leave your bed for a bit. She smiled, making her way out of your room to grab the grocery list for you. As she rounded the corner, one foot out the door, she couldnât help but notice the tight grip you kept on the bookmark in your hand. The flower within it that was always in bloom. Something that could never die.
You opted to go to the store alone, wanting to drive with the windows down and the music up, drowning out the overcrowded space in your head. It was nice to leave the house, to be in an open space with autumn in the air. The crisp leaves crunched under your tires as you pulled into the grocery parking lot. You were so concerned about making sure that you had the list your mom gave you that you completely missed the maroon BMW parked on the opposite end of the lot. Once you had the list, you grabbed a cart, its wheels squeaking loudly as you made your way down aisles, grabbing item after item off the shelves.
There was only one thing left on your list, a bag of tortilla chips, which was your dadâs favorite snack food for some odd reason. You almost chuckled to yourself seeing how his scratchy handwriting interrupted your momâs pristine list. With a squeal of protest from the shopping cartâs wheels, you turned the corner, eyes roaming over the chip options in front of you. You finally found what you were looking for and stood up on your tiptoes, the top shelf being just a bit too high for you to reach. A warmth washed over you as someone leaned into your space, large hands retrieving the bag and offering it to you. Your breath stopped for a moment and you found yourself unable to move.
âIâm just gonna put these in here then,â Steve spoke softly, placing the chip bag into your cart when you froze. He looked tired, with dark circles under his bloodshot eyes. His hair was flat, almost greasy looking, lacking his usual abundance of hairspray and product. Steve watched you, the way you shrunk at the sight of him and he felt as though his heart had been torn from his chest. He never wanted to hurt you, to make you feel less than what you were. And to Steve, you were everything. Steve opened his mouth to speak, an apology sputtering from his lips, but the sight snapped you out of your stupor, suddenly springing to action.
âI told you to stop apologizing to me,â your voice was firm and cold, nothing like the ease it held back at Family Video the last time he tried to right his wrongs.Â
âJust let me explain, please,â he pleaded, eyes soft, a glimmer of familiarity in them. For a moment you almost let him, finding yourself more than willing to listen to the boy speak. You were reminded of the comfort you found in the sound of his voice recently, the swell it brought to your chest. But that vanished when you remembered the way he laughed when talking to Allen, his vile words leaving your glass heart shattered across the record storeâs stained carpet. It felt like a slap to the face, a cut on your cheek, a crack in your rib. You meant what you said, you were done with him. The boy before you showed no growth. He was still the same boy who called you names, taunted you in the halls, stole your favorite book, and scared off the boys you liked.Â
âNo,â it was stony and resolute, an end to the conversation. You pushed your cart away, leaving Steve behind, your shadow cascading over him as you did. You made your way to the register and Steve followed close behind. He got in line behind you, but he stayed quiet, unsure what to say. He only had two things in his basket, which made his checkout go by quickly. By the time he got out to the parking lot, you were still there, placing the hefty grocery bags into your trunk.
âLet me make it up to you,â Steve startled you, appearing at your side out of nowhere. âI swear I've changed, I promise. I care about you, so much,â you slammed your trunk closed, wheeling your cart back to where it belonged. Steve followed you, but you stayed silent, refusing to acknowledge his pleas. He stood in front of your car door then, blocking it so you couldnât get in. âI donât want to lose you again. Let me show you I care. Let me prove it,â he looked like he was on the verge of tears. Part of you wanted to reach out and hold his face in your hands. The other part wanted to hurt him more, make him feel what you felt. The latter won.Â
âYou canât prove shit to me, Harrington. I donât believe it, any of it. Youâre still the same stupid boy you were when we were 11, and I fucking hate you for it,â you spat and Steveâs face hardened. You wanted him to yell back at you, to prove that he felt something for you, something worth fighting for. But he didnât. He simply stepped aside, a new slump in his posture as he let you go. His gaze followed the battered silhouette of your car as it drove off, a wisp of fallen leaves and Steveâs shredded heart trailing behind it.
When you got home you stormed inside, leaving the groceries in the car for your parents to unload. You fell back into your bed, resuming the same position you held before you went to the grocery store. It took some time, anger encapsulating your every fiber, but eventually, you fell asleep, putting the situation with Steve aside as you escaped to the peace of your dreams.Â
You awoke the next morning, groggy and sore. Rolling onto your back, you caught a glimpse of something from the corner of your eye, something that was out of place. Your body groaned as you arose, hesitant steps towards your desk, hands slowly lifting the object. It was a book, but not just any book. It was Pride and Prejudice, the copy that your grandmother gave you years ago, the one that was taken from you. You flipped through the pages, fingers tracing the words youâd penciled in on the margins. Stuck between its pages was a bookmark, your bookmark, with lavender and specks of glitter decorating it.Â
You sat back on your bed, wondering why the book was returned so suddenly and out of the blue. Your mom was the one to put it in your room, marking its pages with the bookmark, but Steve had been the one to take it years ago. Why did he keep it? Why give it back now? Was this the end? A bookend in your tumultuous relationship with the boy next door? A post-it note fell from between the bookâs pages and you leaned down to grab it. Written in Steveâs messy scrawl was one word.Â
âPlease.â
And youâd come back to me
           The note was metaphorically stuck in your head, lingering like a bad dream that you couldnât wake from. It didnât help that it was physically stuck to your nightstand, its fluorescent green shade haunting you with each passing glance. But you just couldnât will yourself to throw it away. It was a life preserver tossed to you after falling overboard, a worm on a hook meant to reel you in, a last attempt to fix what had been broken, to reconcile with Steve. You meant it when you said you were done, but the ache inside you longed to be quelled. And there was only one person that could do that. The least you could do was hear him out. Find closure, nothing more, or so you told yourself.Â
A few days had passed since your encounter at the grocery store and you finally felt brave enough to face Steve again. You knew he was home given that his car had scarcely left the driveway in the past few days. Your legs felt wobbly, knees knocking as you marched in the dark through your lawn, crossing over onto the Harringtonâs property. It was late, but you knew heâd still be awake, just as plagued with his thoughts as you were. You jabbed the doorbell with your finger, waiting nervously for the door to open, to see the boy that plagued your thoughts. But it didnât. So you rang it again, and again, and again. Repeatedly pressing the button until the door finally cracked open.
âI donât want whatever youâre selling, man,â Steve began but stopped when he saw you, straightening his slumped shoulders. He looked worse than he had at the grocery store like he hadnât slept in days. He let the door hang open as he gaped at you, unable to form words. You took advantage of the open space, slipping inside his house before he could stop you. Steve shut the door, turning to see what you were doing, but youâd already made your way upstairs to his room.Â
His room was pretty much the same as it had been the last time you were there, back when the world almost ended. Clothes strewn across the floor, trophies lining small shelves, movie posters galore. You noticed a new poster though, one for Ferris Buellerâs Day Off. Steve finally caught up to you, his perpetual gloominess temporarily taken over by confusion as to why you were suddenly here in his house. You sat on the edge of his bed and he followed suit, worry filling his entire being. Was this the end? Did you come to say goodbye? Steveâs heart beat rapidly in his chest, panic rising in his throat when you finally spoke.
âYou said you wanted to explain, so explain,â your voice was soft and quiet, a tone completely unlike the one you used when you were mad. Steve was baffled, wanting to know what made you decide to hear him out, but he knew better than to waste what very well could be his last chance with you.
âI didnât mean what I said in the record store. I didnât mean any of it. I wanted to beat the shit out of Allen when he said that stuff,â Steveâs hands shook as he spoke, watching your face for any sign of emotion. He wanted to know what you were thinking, wished he could read your mind. But he couldnât, so he continued. âItâs like every time Iâm around someone from high school, I get pushed aside and someone else takes control of what I say. Someone that reminds me a lot of my father,â angry tears welled in Steveâs eyes. He hated that after all these years his dad still had such an impact on him and the way he acted.
âSteve,â you spoke up, still emotionless in your tone. But Steve stopped you, wanting to continue, practically begging you with his glassy eyes to let him. So you did.
âI know it's not an excuse, and it's so so shitty of me. But heâs just there in the back of my head reminding me that Harringtonâs are winners,â a tear dripped down his cheek and it took a great deal of restraint from you to not reach out and brush it away. âI hate that I let him win. I hate that I ever betrayed your trust, that I was so mean to you in school, that I let you out of my life. I hate that I let Allen get away with what he said, that I agreed with him instead, because I donât. I think youâre beyond perfect the way you are. I donât want to change anything about you,â Steve stopped for a moment unsure if youâd let him continue. Little did he know that your breath had caught in your chest and extinguished any words that might have spilled from your lips.
âI never ever want to hurt you again,â Steve continued when you didnât say anything. âI promise, I wonât. I want to be better, I want to be the boy you trusted when we were kids. I care about you so unbelievably much. I never stopped, not once. Please let me prove it,â heâd moved closer to you and you let him, trying your best to keep your feelings hidden from your expression. You were close to breaking, to giving in, to letting yourself be unequivocally in love with Steve Harrington. But you still had to put up a fight, to prove it was the right choice, not just a never-ending loop of pain.
âIâve given you so many chances, Steve. How do I know this one would be any different?â you couldnât look at him, knowing youâd lose all your resolve if you did. So your eyes fell to your lap instead. Steve watched your avoidant gaze, wanting more than anything for you to face him.
âBecause I love you,â it was firm and unwavering, a declaration spilled from Steveâs cracked lips. It snapped your attention to him immediately, granting Steve his previous wish. âI always have, even when we were kids. I got confused when popularity came into play, but it was still there, in the back of my mind. I didnât know what it was then, but I do now, and Iâll do anything for you, anything to keep you with me,â Steve grew shy, still unable to tell how you feel. âI want you in any way that youâll have me. Anything is fine with me as long as I have you back in my life. I just canât lose you,â Steve finished, leaving his words in the air for you to respond. You took your time to collect your own thoughts, to steady the thump of your heart in your chest.
âSteve,â it was soft, gentle, longing, matching the tone Steve hoped to hear. âI donât want to lose you either,â the words halted Steveâs heart in his chest. He hoped this was it, that you loved him the way he loved you. âI want to trust you again, but you have to earn it. We can't just keep hurting each other,â you asserted and Steve nodded wildly. You wanted to laugh at the way his hair flopped around on his head as he did it, but you refrained, simply letting a smile crest your lips instead. Steveâs lips matched yours, curling at the edges, and soon you found yourselves incapable of holding back the soft chuckles that rose in your throat.
Steveâs eyes never left you, admiring the smile heâd so dearly missed seeing. He only ever wanted for you to be happy, only wanted you to know youâre loved. And from here on out, heâd make sure that you were. You leaned forward resting your forehead against Steveâs, one last ditch attempt at your silly determination to communicate telepathically. It never worked with Eddie, so why not try it with Steve, the boy you loved since you were five. It would ease the tension, tell Steve what your lips were too scared to say.
âWhat am I thinking?â you asked, hands coming up to hold Steveâs shoulders in place. His hands wrapped around you, resting on your waist, feeling your scarred skin through the thin material of your shirt. Steve scoured his mind, focusing on you, the soft reflection of light in your eyes, the way your lips were dry and cracked, the curve of your cheekbones. You were more than beautiful to him, you were angelic, bewitching, radiant. You were everything he ever wanted and needed.
âThat you like me too?â Steve put on his smug charm, trying to cover up his nervousness. It made you want to laugh, to kiss him, to tell him the truth.
âSo close, Stevie. I was thinking more along the lines of love, but if thatâs what youâre getting then, sure, we can go with that,â you shrugged jovially, a smile stretched across your cheeks as Steveâs jaw went slack. His eyes watched you for any sign of doubt, of mockery, but he couldnât find any. He knew it then, you loved him too. Steve found your gaze, eyes whispering to him in their own secret language. Kiss me, they said, and who was he to deny them of their wish? Steve pulled you in, grip tightening on your waist as he did. Your chest was suddenly flush with his, your body now resting in his lap, lips only a breath away from meeting. It was a last chance to bow out, to give it up for good, but you didnât want to. You tilted your chin, finally closing the gap and brushing your lips against Steveâs. The kiss was encompassed by every flower heâd ever picked for you, every peek behind closed curtains, every taunt and tease and fight, every innuendo, every unseen longing gaze, every utterance of the name Baby, all wrapped together. It felt like winning a game of hide-and-seek that had been called off after an hour of unsuccessful searching, a ring of smoke clinging to the air and lingering high only to be dissipated by the summer breeze, a ceasefire on the battlefield for a war that had gone on too long. It felt like Steve, and you couldnât get enough of it. His lips danced with yours, never wanting to feel anything but the crush of you against him. But eventually, you ran out of air, pulling back enough to breathe, still keeping your forehead pressed to his.
âI think I knew you loved me because I always loved you too,â Steveâs words were breathy, softened with the heave of his chest. Your smile flashed through your heavy breaths and hot cheeks. Steve Harrington loved you, and you loved him too. It would take some getting used to, but you liked the sound of it. You couldnât hold back any longer, leaning back in to reattach your lips to his.Â
A moan mixed in with the kiss, grumbling up from Steveâs throat. His hands shifted down past your waist, landing on your ass with a light squeeze. You laughed at the gesture, keeping your lips pressed against his, and Steveâs heart melted at the sound. But he didnât have long to linger on the feeling, because your hips rolled against his crotch, catching him off guard. Steveâs mouth opened a bit at the feeling, eliciting a groan from deep within him. You took advantage of the opportunity and slid your tongue against Steveâs. You did the move that you always did, a roll of your tongue against his, and Steveâs fingers dug deeper into your skin.
âFuck, is that the tongue thing that Hargrove was talking about?â Steve asked, pulling away for just a second before attaching his lips to the column of your neck.Â
âI donât want to talk about Billy right now, okay?â you gasped as Steveâs teeth bit into the sensitive spot on your neck. You felt heat flush straight to your core and a whimper slipped from your lips. Steve was mesmerized, enthralled with the sweet sounds you made and the way your breaths picked up.
âNoted,â Steve spoke against your neck, sending vibrations down your spine. He worked his way back up to your lips, hand trailing under your shirt. You flinched when his hand brushed your scar, his cool fingers causing goosebumps to prickle your skin. You always had to lie to your hookups about where the scars came from, but you didnât need to with Steve. He knew you. He had matching wounds. Steve pulled away, worried about the way you shuddered when he came into contact with the healed skin. But you just lifted your arms above your head, signaling for Steve to remove your shirt. The soft fabric slid from your skin, leaving your chest exposed. Youâd foregone a bra that morning, and given the entranced look on Steveâs face at the sight of your bare breasts, you were really glad that you did. His hands gravitated towards your chest, cupping it gently. Steveâs thumbs came to rest on your nipples, brushing back and forth over them, evoking a delicious moan from your lips.
His mouth found yours again, and you couldnât help the way your hips began to grind against his, craving friction to satisfy the heat pooling between your legs. You removed Steveâs shirt then, and instead of resuming his previous position, Steve tilted his head down, attaching his lips to one of your nipples. You couldnât help the pleasure that coursed through your veins, grinding harder against Steveâs lap. He was hard beneath his sweatpants, and his length caught against your clit with each movement, only further riling you up. Soft moans fell from both of your lips in harmony until Steveâs mouth departed from your chest, shifting to lay you down with his body hovering over you. His lips were swollen and red, wet with his saliva as he gazed down at you. He looked at you with a hunger that heâd suppressed for far too long as his hands trailed down your stomach, slowly pulling down the sweatpants that rested on your hips. You lifted your bum, making it easier for Steve to take them off. Once your pants were discarded on the floor, Steveâs face shifted down, hovering over your clothed cunt.Â
âYou donât have to,â you spoke quietly, suddenly seeming shy and so drastically different from the girl who just rolled her tongue into Steveâs mouth.
âTrust me, Baby, I want to. I want to so fucking bad, have for a long time,â Steveâs eyes found yours, but he didnât move from his spot between your thighs. His breath fanned over your skin, only adding more heat between your legs. He placed small kisses on your inner thighs and your back arched at the sensation. Steve truly had waited a long time to do this, thought about it late at night while his hand fisted his cock, so he was going to savor every second. His fingers dragged over your panties, drawing little stars over the material. You threw your head back, unable to contain yourself as a result of Steveâs teasing.
âPlease Stevie, need you so bad,â you begged, breath coming out ragged and labored. Steve smirked up at you, finally hooking his fingers into the cotton material and yanking them off. He lowered himself further, breath now fanning over your exposed heat. Steve wasted no time, licking into your cunt, flexing his tongue with each flick back and forth through your wet folds. You gasped as he held down your thighs, holding them tightly around his head. His tongue was persistent, like a starved man eating for the first time in days. Steveâs hips rutted against the mattress, so turned on by the noises you made, the way you tasted, how you felt against his tongue. It got to a point where you could hardly keep still, squirming wildly beneath Steveâs steel grip, and he knew you were close.
His mouth came up to your clit, sucking it with enough force to make you whine out his name. He could come at just the sounds you made, but he held back, keeping his focus on your core and the shake that slowly began in your thighs. The coil that had been building in the pit of your stomach snapped, a wave of pleasure flooding through you. Steve lapped at your folds, capturing the last of your arousal on his tongue as you came down from your high, chest heaving and thighs quaking.
âFuck, that was the hottest thing Iâve ever seen,â Steve ran a hand through his hair, shifting up to place a kiss to your lips. You tasted yourself on him, a whimper escaping you in response. Without breaking the kiss, your hands came down, fumbling to rid Steve of his sweatpants, but he stopped you.Â
âI wanna return the favor, Stevie. Wanna make you feel good too,â you spoke between kisses and Steve pulled away, hastily shaking his head.Â
âYou do that now and itâll be all over. Iâd rather come inside you, Baby,â Steve's eyes asked you for permission, wanting more than anything to be buried inside you. You understood what he meant and nodded eagerly, the idea reigniting the heat between your thighs. Steve got up quickly, pulling his pants from his legs. You repositioned yourself, now on your hands and knees, facing away from Steve. He kneeled on the bed behind you, one hand smoothing over the curve of your ass, gently finding its resting place on your waist. His lips placed a quick kiss to your spine as he took his length in his hand. He pumped himself a few times before lining up with your entrance, slowly pushing in with a wrecked moan. Your walls stretched around him, squeezing his length as he bottomed out. You couldnât help the faint pants that fell from your lips at the feel of being so full.Â
âFuck, Steve, so big,â you whined, arms weakly holding you in place. He chuckled behind you, trying to keep from blowing his load right then and there. You were so tight, your walls surrounding him perfectly. He slowly started to move, pulling his hips out gently and pushing himself back in. Steve was practically growling at the sensation of your walls clasped so close around him. As you both adjusted, Steve sped up, his hips bouncing quickly off the curve of your ass. It was hot and wet, hard and deep, the sound of skin slapping together filled the room.Â
âTaking me so good, Baby. Wanna hear those pretty sounds. Making âem just for me, right?â Steveâs breath was labored, trying hard to hold on as his fingers dug into your hips. You complied with Steveâs request, letting your stifled whimpers echo throughout the room. Steve pulled you up then, your back pressed to his front as your ass bounced off his thighs. He thrusted up into you and his hands came up to fondle your breasts. âTell me youâre close, Baby. I canât hold on much longer,â he muttered in your ear, ending his statement with another shaky groan. You nodded, the back of your head moving against his shoulder as you did. He quickened his pace then, using every last ounce of reserve that he had to pound into you, bodies pressing together. Your face scrunched in pleasure and Steveâs followed, both of you toeing the edge of blinding pleasure.Â
âFuck, Stevie. Love you so much,â you moaned through ragged breaths, hand coming behind his head in an attempt to pull his lips to yours. The words you spoke and the crash of your lips against his had Steve coming undone. His hot streams of cum coated the inside of your walls, triggering your own high, cries of Steveâs name muffled by the taste of his swollen lips. You sunk back down onto his lap as he finally ceased his movements, resting on the back of his heels, still buried deep within you. His eyes met your soft gaze and he couldnât help the uptick of his lips. You loved him and thatâs all that mattered to him now.
The two of you cleaned yourselves up, slowly redressing to various degrees. Steve pulled on the boxers that were lost in his sweatpants while you draped your oversized shirt back over your frame. You gave up on trying to find your panties, accepting that they were now lost in the mess of Steveâs cluttered bedroom floor. You fell back into bed with Steve, rolling on your side to face him, the bed sheets draped over you. Steveâs legs brushed against yours, slowly intertwining until one of your legs rested between both of his. You caught sight of a cherry stem resting on his nightstand, one that had been tied in a knot, and held back your teasing remarks about him keeping it. Steve studied you, wanting to memorize this moment, each feature of your face. He wanted to fall asleep and wake up to the sight of your soft, pleasant smile as you watched over him in the same way he did to you. Eventually, Steveâs lids grew heavy, fluttering closed as he drifted off to sleep, you not far behind.
When you woke in the morning, you were still tangled together, radiating heat off one another to fill the otherwise cold morning air. You nestled your head into Steveâs bare chest, a soft groan slipping from him as he awoke. Neither of you wanted to get up, face the morning, and separate after a night together. The only reason you eventually did get up was because Steve had to go to work and you were sure your parents would notice your absence soon.
You went downstairs before him, waiting for him to find his car keys in the mess of his room. You shared a kiss on his doorstep, fingers tangling in Steveâs hair as he pulled your hips flush with his. A whine escaped you as he pulled away, leaning down to pluck a daisy from his momâs well-manicured front garden. Steve tucked the daisy behind your ear, placing one last kiss to your lips before walking over to his car. He opened his car door, stopping for another glimpse of you before he left. You smiled at him, waving him off and watching as he backed out of the driveway. He blew you a kiss before putting the car in drive and pulling away. You held the kiss close to your heart, the heart that now belonged to him, and headed back across his lawn to your own house.
The smell of coffee wafted through the air as you shut the front door behind you. Your parents sat at the kitchen table, a newspaper between them and a cup of coffee each. You drifted into the kitchen, ignoring their questioning looks, and plugged the phone back into the wall. Your parents shared a silent look, a look of relief that the storm was over, that normalcy would soon resume.Â
You went upstairs then, entering your bedroom and pulling back the curtains that encompassed your window. You planned to leave a note for Steve stuck to the glass, the same way you used to when you were kids, one for him to find when he got back home from work. But when your eyes drifted to the window across from yours, you were met with confusion.
In place of the army of green men that once sat on the window sill was a pencil with a half sheet of white paper attached to it. A white flag. Steve surrendered, and the war was over. You smiled at the gesture before crafting your own flag to mirror the one across from you. It would be a truce then, breaking even and giving up the fight. The ache in your chest was quelled and replaced by an unfathomable warmth. There were no winners or losers anymore. There was just you and Steve, two lovers that took way too long to figure it out.Â
You would call Eddie and Robin later to explain the previous nightâs events, but for now, you sat back on your bed, Pride and Prejudice clasped in your hands. You opened the cover, eyes landing on the bookmark between its pages, mind drifting off to the boy that picked you flowers and told you he loved you so long ago. Maybe you knew him all along. Maybe he wasnât so different after all.
You put me on and said I was your favorite
The summer sun beat down on Steveâs tanned skin, sweat dripping from his brow, making a trail down his neck to the collar of his t-shirt. He wiped his forehead with the back of his hand, wishing to escape Hawkinsâ summer heat. With a deep breath, Steve leaned down to grab the box at his feet, hoisting it up to hand to you. You stood in the back of a U-Haul, organizing the boxes that were handed to you. Your very sweaty boyfriend flashed you a smile before turning to go back into his house and grab more boxes.
âYou guys couldnât have picked a hotter day to move,â Eddie appeared in front of you, unruly curls stuck to his forehead and neck. Youâd offered him a hair tie earlier, but he declined, now stuck suffering in the humid air. His arms were strained with the weight of the box he was carrying, clearly struggling more than Steve had been.
âSorry, Eds. We canât control the weather,â you took the box that he had brought out, placing it somewhere behind you in the truck. You brushed away the sweat that had formed above your lip and watched as Eddie shook his head.
âI canât believe you guys are actually leaving,â a sad smile stretched his lips as he spoke. He knew that it would happen eventually, that you would leave behind this horror story of a town and start anew. Youâd suffered more Upside Down related trauma than he had, and he knew the fears that still crept into your mind from time to time. It was a good change, even if it meant leaving the people you loved behind.
âMe too, honestly,â you looked up then, head snapping towards the sound of voices arguing in the distance. Steve and Dustin were on Steveâs front porch loudly talking back and forth about how to move Steveâs dresser from his room. Robin stood next to them, rolling her eyes and dragging Max towards your house to grab the last of your book collection. âIâm glad it's with him though,â you nodded your head towards Steve, who was still deep in his discussion with Dustin, wild hand gestures and all. Steve caught you gazing at him from the corner of his eye, shooting you a look that said âthis kid is crazyâ before disappearing into the house, Dustin hot on his trail.Â
âYeah, yeah, you guys are in love or whatever. We get it,â Mike appeared at Eddieâs side, his slim arms struggling to carry his box. You raised a brow at him, lifting the box from his arms with ease and he faced you with an unamused glare.Â
âI think it's sweet,â Will approached behind him, also unloading a box into your arms. He smiled at you sweetly, and suddenly it hit you how much you were going to miss all of them. The bickering and the fights, the tight hugs and reassurances that they would call to let you know they got home safe. The late nights spent overanalyzing every detail of some cheesy movie that youâd forget the plot of by the morning. And in the background of it all was Steve. His forlorn gaze as Nancy walked you down her driveway to your car. His open curtains waiting for your lights to flicker on when you got back from work. His grand gestures as he put himself in harm's way, trying to protect you. You pretended to hate each other, but now you know that you never really did.Â
The afternoon dragged on, the heat weighing heavy on everyone as boxes and furniture were piled into the truck. Eventually, you all finished and everything you owned was packed away. Steve grabbed a quick shower, rinsing the sweat from his body to make the long car ride more comfortable. You hugged your parents goodbye, urging them to come visit once everything was unpacked. The others still lingered, waiting to watch as you and Steve drove away. Tears filled their eyes and streamed down sweaty cheeks as you hugged each of the younger kids, promising to return for Thanksgiving.Â
Steve began his round of goodbyes, mainly opting for a secret handshake or a ruffling of hair. Robin squeezed you so tightly that you thought she might crack one of your ribs. She sniffled as she pulled away, moving on to give Steve the same crushing embrace. Eddie stood before you, his head tilted towards the ground. You brushed his hair back from his face, catching sight of his tear-stained cheeks. He pulled you close, arms encompassing your frame.Â
âYouâll call every week?â he spoke into your hair, burying his face in it to hide his swell of tears. You nodded against him, your own muffled cries slipping from your lips. He pulled back then, and Steve was right behind you.
Steve placed his hand on your back, guiding you to the front seat of the U-Haul. He said his goodbye to Eddie before joining you. Steveâs car was hooked up to the back of the truck and your parents planned to bring yours up with them when they came to visit.
You stood on the ledge of the truck admiring the sea of your friends that stood before you. They watched you with tearful eyes as you shot them one last watery smile and slid into your seat. Your gaze was pulled towards the side of your house, your bedroom window that sat across from Steveâs. It was funny to think how close he always was, even when he felt miles away. Steveâs hand brushed yours then, the tingle of skin pulling you from your thoughts.
âReady to go, Baby?â Steve asked, reaching down to put the truck in gear. His hair was still wet, smelling of his lavender-scented shampoo. You ran your hands through it, brushing the loose strands to the side. Steve caught your hand, placing a small kiss on your palm before you could pull away.Â
Sixth grade Steve was right, you were leaving with your things packed into boxes and a new city calling your name. But not because you were the worm girl that was running away. It wasnât because this town had terrorized and taunted you to the point of no return. You were leaving because you wanted to, not because you felt forced out. And sixth grade Steve was wrong about you finding the love of your life once you left too, because youâd already found him, and for that Steve couldnât be happier.
âWith you?â you questioned, eyebrows raised, hand still encompassed by Steveâs. He nodded, showing you that smile that he reserved just for you. The same one he gave you as you sat on the sidewalk with dried worms newly relocated to the surrounding grass. You mirrored his look, gazing into his hazel eyes with all the love and adoration you had acquired for him over the years. âAlways.â
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