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hey hey hey it’s tag game time 🌞 thank you for the tag and entertainment from my work boredom @heymacy 🌸
Name: Mikayla
When is your birthday?: June 21☀️
Where do you call home?: schmack in the middle of Texas
How many pets do you have?: my one little princess pooch
What do you do for work?: answer a phone and push a button. occasionally get yelled at if the people i push the button for don’t answer their phone.
Do you believe in aliens?: side eyeing people who don’t a little (all love though) 👽
Do you believe in ghosts?: yes 👻
Favorite subject in school?: history
What are you currently reading?: The Honey Witch by Sydney J Shields 🍯
What are you currently watching?: started rewatching Ghost Whisperer and forgot how easily I cry these days
What kind of laptop do you have?: an acer something
What kind of phone do you have?: iPhone 13 and hoping to upgrade soon
No-show socks, ankle socks, or crew socks?: ankle socks always and forever
What kind of headphones do you use?: airpods that I was silly little goose about avoiding for so long because I was convinced I would lose them
How do you consume caffeine?: coffee, chai latte, Dr Pepper
And finally, what are you wearing today?: tan pants, white and light minty blue stripped button shirt, and tennis shoes
tagging: @too-schoolforcool @gardenerian @darlingian @thepupperino @creepkinginc @heymrspatel @vintagelacerosette @deedala @crossmydna @michellemisfit @sleepyfacetoughguy @mmmichyyy and anyone else who wants to tell me some things 💖
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(slowly cleaning out all the art i drafted but never posted)
sometimes the only way to recharge after a long day
is drawing your current blue trauma boi* in the outfit of your previous blue trauma boi**
*Moon, from my hairdresser AU "New 'Do, Same You" AU
**Red Clad Dewey from Another Eden
#fnaf moon#fnaf dca#dca fandom#crab art#bright colours#traditional art#Moon New Do Same You AU#something something two nickles#the alternative title to this is: if Clip was finally able to convince Moon to give cosplaying a try#i doodled this back in April after a draining day of class#and i tried to draw to unwind but i honestly wasn't enjoying it#so i drew this on a whim and it was the only thing i liked from that page so i inked it and coloured it#can't tell if this is giving KPOP edgy boy group: “The moment when i close my eyes all i see is red lights red lights red lights” /lyrics#(“Red Lights” by Stray Kids)#or FOB punk emo: “i only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me” /lyrics#("Dance Dance” by Fall Out Boy)#but i like it
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oh you wanna think about muse and trickster? yeah? it's been a while since I put a heartbreaking nhw post in your inbox <3 I know u love the prime dehumanization loss of bodily autonomy defenders. << im not even remotely trying to keep the acronym the same anymore. I've lost the plot. ANYWAY
briefly mentioned this before but because I loooove the aesthetic so much I think at least one important muse confrontation should happen in the tricksters city, specifically in the amusement park. make it like a fuckign scooby door episode everything is all abandoned and run down but as the wards are walking down a boardwalk or something all the lights flicker on and some distorted fuckign. carnival music starts playing and they find muse sitting in like. the rebar scaffolding or whatever in the ferris wheel. just like grinning chin in hands kicking his feet watching them. this image is so clear in my mind. some creep shit !!!! also its like when they first go to the spirit world to get tide back from.mal and end up in the amusement park. except ashe isn't with them this time
uhhhhhh also thinking about. downtime. when muse isn't out being destructive and causing chaos for funsies. like... does he have a bedroom????? does he eat does he sleep??? idfk !!!! I would assume he has to or else he'd fucking die but !!!! man the trickster is so far gone I don't think he even realizes his puppets are real people anymore. that's a fun little doll for him to play dressup with. literally never going 2 get the image of him braiding muses hair and like. putting makeup on him and dressing him in fancy little outfits out of my mind. making myself ILL. smile! good evening I'm gently placing the knife box in your in. << as I was going to type inbox I accidentally typed out inventory. yknow what I'm keeping it. knife box directly into your inventory. watch out they're RUSTY
GOD. THANKS FOR THE KNIFE BOX MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! knife box directly in my inventory!!! u know what this means is that now i can use them :3 <- has been drawing wards stuff abt this for the past two hours ^_^
this is so fucking good though yeahhh.... i love creepy carnival shit so much. he trickster probably Knows it's very over the top and horror movie creepy and just a little absurd. he's so fucking fun 2 think abt since he's literally always doing shit simply because it is funny to him. we can swing a trickster justification for anything probably. i bet he fucking saw traps people!! anyway. ashe isn't with them this time. except..... well. he kind of is. :(
I HAVE ALSO BEEN THINKING ABT DOWNTIME. FREQUENTLY. i guess. the answer to this is he lives however the trickster&co does. the image of him coming back in his fancy intricate little outfits to some disgusting nasty bloody industrial warehouse where they're posted up & always being this very jarring contrast to the gore and violence is really good. the image of him having a perfect doll bedroom and going through a fancy little routine half the nights when the trickster is in a good mood or feeling it & just. getting thrown on the bed & the door locked to pass out for a couple hours whenever he forgets or is busy is also really good. literally anything we do to muse makes me feel some kind of way man. i also have had the extremely vivid image of the trickster braiding his hair & chatting about all kinds of horrific things excited sleepover style to muse who is just. Visibly Not There in my head for so long. not even like he has to touch him, he could be making him do all these things for himself! he's literally controlling him! he just does it for fun!!!
anyway i think post-muse ashe should get to freak out very badly in a multitude of ways whenever anybody touches his hair. like i think he's touch-adverse in general (& miserable about it because he's also so touchstarved & his brain simply whites out in distress anytime anyone touches him because. literally the only person doing that was the trickster!!!!) but i think specifically his hair being messed with is a bad trigger for him. makes him freeze up n go nonverbal for hours. dakota knows that he's jumpy about touch but he still wants to do something for him & before the everything he loved them playing with his hair (its so long!! wibby & dakota think its so pretty!! virion's the only one who knows how to braid it because of his mom!! ashe melts into a puddle over it every time because nobody's ever done that for him before!) so he goes to just run fingers through it & ashe just. fullbody locks up and goes weird and still and silent & doesn't protest or fight back when dakota shakes his shoulder or smth and his eyes are distant and sort of dark and empty like virion's were most of the time when they first met him... maybe he wants to cut it a little bit just because he hates that it's been covered in The Ooze and he can't do anything with it without thinking about how the trickster would do the same thing but also he hates the idea of getting rid of the one thing abt himself that he really likes & is a little connection with both of his parents because of the trickster also, when he's already taken so much from him. (it does have to get gross and tangled and matted because he refuses to put it back or do anything to it for a while though. maybe virion helps him sort it out & it's slow and painstaking and miserable for both of them and they both feel better at the end of it.)
#yeah!!!! yeah!!!!!!! that's a fun little doll for him to play with!!! his favorite one so he takes good care of it. & maybe whenever ashe#is lucid he sees how everyone the trickster controls but Doesn't really like is treated & it's terrifying. he hates this so much but god he#doesn't want to be that either so maybe he should just behave well so the trickster doesn't get fed up with him (he never would he's too#powerful and useful) and he doesn't end up Like That. but ohhhhhh god he hates this too it makes his skin crawl and he wants to run but he#can't. etc. also the idea of him waking up in a fancy little dollhouse ass bedroom with the hazy syrupy dream memories of whatever#nightmarish horrors were happening with muse the day before... just facedown on an ornate bed blood and gore still crusting a beautiful#outfit he's never seen before in his life. door's locked and deadbolted and whenever he tries to use his powers it's like trying to move#when you're excruciatingly sore and in pain from something the day before. etc.#anyway. GOD. tag rambling. thank u for the rusty knives ilyyyy i have missed fucked up wardsposting lately SO BAD!!!! i need to get back on#this shit. ough. i love the prime dehumanization loss of bodily autonomy defenders!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#mac tag!#new haven wards
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Happy Monday?
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and then no one said anything about the fact that if i watched ONE MORE episode tenax pulls a "i'm not angry i'm just disappointed i'm hurt" about scorpus signing with the white faction.
#do you see the vision here <- guy who has a watch rate of one episode per month#oh the implications of scorpus not being there for tenax in his time of need... the death of the child who is not but is symbolically their#is that a separate fic completely yes but it is ALSO in some ways a divorce fic. tenax like i needed you but scorpus also needing him#OH MY GOD THEY LITERALLY DO SAY FELIX WAS HIM and i can do SO much with the concept of a “stray”. oh please. please strays instead of rats#one knife to the ribs one fixed race one apartment board THAT'S A STORYLINE BABY RISE OR DIE THE ROMAN WAYYYYYY#i do see your calla/tenax storylines i do. i could be swayed but we are not here for that currently this is the same as the chariot racing#like i KNOW what i said about the gold faction representing everything that scares scorpus a dream he never thought they'd reach#and then to have it ripped away now he no longer even has the dream untarnished i do understand. which is why the “i'm disappointed”#kills me even MORE because it shows he gets it. like on some level he does understand why scorpus had to but it's his pride that's wounde#so to continue from what i WAS saying with:#sets the bar so low because how else would tenax love him (as if tenax would not do the same thing if he lost) and they have even MORE#questionable celebratory reward sex. yes i assigned scorpus a degradation/praise kink the world works in wondrous ways don't question it#scorpus/tenax#those about to die#tenax making sure to care for the kids is what's killing me too because i REALLY want to draw a parallel with scorpus making sure he takes#care of the prostitutes. yes he's a notorious hedonist yes he has a lot of sex but he always pays well doesn't he. over-well. he pays too#much and ends up in debt he pays enough to buy girls freedom. so that they only have to if they want to. it gets him a reputation sure AND#it gets whole houses of girls under his (and therefore tenax's) protection. you can't bruise her up; that's scorpus' favorite girl.#she can charge more for being favored. he can pay for massive parties where no one else is invited and if he falls asleep midway drunk#off his ass after a race the girls would never say. they still get paid. if tenax comes to watch and give instructions they'd never say.#if tenax tells them all to leave and it's just him and scorpus in the golden room and all the girls see before they shut the door#and latch it behind them is scorpus on his knees in the soft plush cushions with tenax offering him grapes one by one from his fingertips#like a favored concubine instead of the champion whose laurels are tilted on his head they won't say a word. not even when the noise#inside the room continues for long after the hour runs out the girls still stand watch until it's quiet and then crawl back in around where#scorpus is alone in the big wrecked bed with a smear of blood or wine on his mouth who could say. certainly they wouldn't.#no matter what they still get paid. whether they did the work to wreck him or not.#ANYWAY#they take care of the selves they couldn't protect is what i'm trying to say. for tenax it's the child he was/scorpus it's the body he sold#only he hasn't stopped having to sell it. & i guess as we're learning with the extortion tenax is still a child running from a burning hous
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ah. i can hear yelling and crying and things getting thrown around a couple rooms over. either my father said or did something to set off my mother or it was something I did that set her off and I'll get a stern talking to once I leave my room, or it's just my mother's strong frustrations coming out in her usual outbursts for no apparent outside reason again...
either way, the way hearing her scream and cry and throw things around is still making my heart race to this day. I don't feel so good.
this'll be a fun evening at the restaurant, I can already tell (HEAVY SARCASM BTW) i'll have to retreat deep into my brain and avoid my parents' nagging why I'm so quiet or staring off into the middle distance so much like I pretty much always do during restaurant visits. maybe they'll buy my old "tired and headache" excuse this time as well...
#shit reminds me of all the times she'd physically drag me to semi secluded places to scream at me for not behaving the way she wanted me to#as a young child. or the times she'd drag me from my room or down the hallway when to make me go to school when i was too depressed/scared#to leave my bed or move#and that one day when she almost gave me brain damage/almost broke my legs when i was crouched on the floor#and she punched and kicked me out of anger and frustration because i wasn't functioning the way she wanted me to#she was screaming and crying the same exact way back then too#15 years later and it still makes me wanna crawl into a hiding place and die before she has the chance to ever get to me#still makes me feel like an embarrassment and a freak for not being as polite and well-behaved like all the other kids#why am i so embarrassing why do i act like this why am i such a dramatic sensitive freak#why can't i be normal why can't i behave why do i always cause problems for my parents#all the people are staring and judging me for being this way. i should feel embarrassed. i should feel ashamed.
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i am once again apologizing for my lack of activity/responsiveness
my childhood cat passed away a few days ago which has just been more stuff on top of everything else for me to deal with to stress me out and upset me
i'll try to get back to stuff. Eventually. as soon as i can</3
#mar.txt#still very much upset about losing him，but it's kind of faded for numbness now#still not holding up great though especially considering how sudden it was#he was all fine and healthy and then just suddenly started to rapidly go downhill and within like. two days he was gone#he was so weak. couldn't move almost at all，his meows were barely just meow-sounding exhales. the last two things he did were#getting my attention so i would come to him，then attempted to crawl onto my lap and despite me being less than a foot away he couldn't make#it. so i brought him onto my bed on my lap with me. and then at some point later after another sudden onset of diarrhea (which seemed to#take absolutely all of his remaining strength) and i'd brought him back to my bed after cleaning the poop off of him he got my attention to#move his head so he could look up at me. and that's how he passed. looking up at me.#despite everything，he was purring. so weak and faint i could hardly feel it，but. he was purring，maybe until the moment he finally passed.#he was obviously suffering. and we couldn't afford to get someone to put him down so we just did what we could for him.#i'm glad that，at least，he was happy in his final moments. he wanted to be with me and i'm glad i could give him that. i HAD needed to go out#that day but i opted to stay home because i was worried he'd pass while i was gone. sure enough if i had gone out he would have.#i'm glad i could give him the comfort and company he wanted in his final moments. i'm glad i made him happy enough in them to purr even#despite how weak he was. i'm glad he didn't pass alone and possibly in pain.#ive lost a lot of pets in my life. but amos? he's only like. three years younger than me? we practically grew up together. ive known him his#entire life. no amount of being told it hurts to lose a childhood pet will ever compare to the reality of it happening.#i buried him outside my window. so he's close to home.#vent post? i guess?
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adrien helps out mama on the days he doesn’t have soccer practice
#ts4#ts4 gameplay#sims 4 gameplay#postcard legacy challenge#rosa’s someone who loves to match#she saw adrien wearing his headband and she ran back inside to get hers#i’ve been trying to come up with nicknames for adrien but i know she has cute little ones him#she still calls him her baby or her little love#adrien’s just as much as that cuddly kid he was as a child#he’ll still sit on the floor between rosa’s legs while they watch tv so she can play with his hair#he still gives her a kiss on the cheek before leaving the house#he’ll still try to crawl into his moms bed on saturday mornings to capture some warmth. rosa peppers his little face with kisses#even tho sometimes to feeling of the stubble growing on his chin makes her want to cry bc he’s growing up#*the#the han-avagyan household is full of sims who love to hold and be held#postcard: gen2#queue#sim: adrien herrera#sim: rosa han
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smackin the shit out of leon isn't helping. fuck, what do i do now?
#the rat isn't enough i want to crawl back in bed and pass out#just had a very very very fuckin bad flashback lol
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just started merlin (the ballet). premise's kinda wild. merlin lands on earth in an orb superman-style. and that's only the start
#i have not watched any of the actual ballet yet this is literally the first 20 secs#and tbh i think i'm gonna go to bed soon but#i'm just very amused by the opening crawl#there's a solar kingdom vs kingdom of tides for some reason#morgan is an army general? and merlin is in love with her#but she wants uther#uther however is in love with ygraine (who loves him back??)#but they cant be together because their kingdoms are at war with each other#doesnt feel very arthuriana but okay#i suppose it doesnt massively matter#misc#*
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man this is bullshit, why can't i just be a puppydog forever
#i just wanna curl up in someones lap while they pet me#i wanna be allowed to switch everything off and just be an animal for a little bit#i dont want to have to talk or think#just be#i want to be treated like a pet. because maybe then I'll get taken care of#maybe then I'll get the affection i crave. pets get to just walk up to people and receive love unprompted#they don't have to ask or beg to be touched#they don't have to feed and clothe themselves. they don't have to make decisions#im trying so fucking hard#every goddamn day#and every day. i have to crawl back into an empty bed and try to soothe myself to sleep#im tired of being a person#vent
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@sodrippy tagged me in this lil picrew challenge!! thank you val 🥰 you can find it here!!
tagging @disasterdrvid , @waterdeep , @pendraegon , @perfectblve, @gautiersylvain, @alothcorfisers, @kirkwall , @cappurrccino and anyone else who wants a lil picrew to do!!
#my ears are not pierced rn btw this is just the vision for the future#about me#thank you val!!#also i am so so sleepy dude i want to crawl back in to bed#but i need to be awake for hozier general sale and also i have readings to do rip#anyway i love picrews sm !!
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#oh i'm not just tired i'm depressed#you would've thought that the eating tuna out of the tin would've been the give away there but no#it was the fact that it's only 8pm and i want to crawl back into bed#i woke up at midday#i haven't even been awake for over 8 hours and i want to go to sleep#ruh-roh shaggy!
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vacation selfies :)
#cannot wait to eat walk back to my hotel room take a hot shower and crawl into bed :)#i might watch another movie and the another movie :)#i am FREEEEE!!#also i did get a jo malone fragrance jejeje#i wanted to get margiela but nowhere sells it physically#and i wanted to test a few scents before deciding#there was another scent i liked more but it faded instantly#but the guy working there gave me two free samples of it :3
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sick and twisted that organizing my desk space (and organizing the clutter in my room in general) does, in fact, make me feel a lot happier and a lot better about my life . . . sick and twisted
#caroline talks#guys i got this desk organizer . . . it's got my nail polishes and my sticky notes and pens and pencils in one place#and it makes me. very happy.#i did spend. the last hour and a half cleaning my room and just. mopping. dusting. unpacking. re-organizing my closet.#i need to wait for my washing machine + dryer to finish up so i can finally finish changing my sheets#and i also need to clean my bathroom. and then. and then i'm going to go to a meeting.#i really do like. living away from my parents for the most part. i love them but i also. think i just feel more motivated when i'm not#living with them. cue: decorating my room for the first time in forever. organizing things. cleaning more. telling myself that despite my#desire to crawl into bed and not get back up. i need to buy milk.#(WHICH. DEEP SIGH. I DON'T WANT TO BUY MILK)#(but tomorrow me will be SO thankful. i know this. i know this too well.)#(but the grocery store feels so far . . . .. . ... )#(lunch. i need to eat lunch. that's what's going on here tbh)
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I have cried every morning on my way to work for the past two weeks, I'm starting to think I might nit like this job
#idk babes i gotta be here @ 6:00am#and i'm on a new med that has been mussing up my sleep#it took a hearty effort to not crawl back into my soft cozy bed this morning w/ my love#i also don't get to cry as long as i'd like to because my work is like 4-5 minutes away from my house#i just want to cry or sleep#please allow me one repreive from this crappy job
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