#I think im going insane in the membrane
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i hope to GOD this comes out how i hope it will in my head 😭
#dafaddu arts#wips#lambsona#cotl#i'm going insane in the membrane thinking about them i need to write something#eee im excited to develop them
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i hope mew like my notebook doodles beclaws its all ive got the energy fur rn my dudes
#these are purretty good actually. tbh#one could even say they ''go hard''#esp that top sac on the 3rd imach. very nice#anyways its just my blatant furryism i cant help it im a simple purredictable man#im going to tag this normal now see mew in the gen tags suckersss#iz#invader zim#dib#dib membrane#vampire dib#mothman dib#lol. lmao#vampire mothman dib#im a genius#ALSO#my ocs#sacrilegious#vplord dib#andddddddd#tallest red#tallest purple#pradr#by extension :pp#my art#askblog nonsense#see all of that would make mew think ''wow this is someones crazy-specific au''#and mewd only be half-wrong. its only kinda specific i just went insane on the designs
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thinking about hex having extra anatomical and psychological quirks to make them more efficient killing machines
#andro talks#im gonna make a properer post ab it later#with art if i have the time#insp by my insane ramblings on the server#so many thoughts#giving them night vision and prominent eyeshine via tapetum lucidum...#and functional nictitating membranes#and brains reprogrammed to be better at Hunting Things#much to think about#i like funny biology idk what to tell you#pointing at my faves and going “i will make you more Creature”
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i would love to be doing something productive right now but instead i am thinking about mark winters reptile biology
#-_-#i cant even be in the google docs about it because theres nothing to even WRITE this is NOTHING.#i am just thinking about. the fact that he apparently has fucking thermoreceptors. hello????#i thought!!!!! the reason!!! he could aee william even when he was invisible!!!#is bc his powers have to do with like. infrared and electricity and shit. which would make sense.#but he doesnt have any of that stuff on him in FUCKING JAIL .#and on that topic i am thinking about his powers and the like. overall worldbuilding fact that normal people have powers sometimes.#not everyone with powers is a hero sometimes theyre just. normal people using their powers for mundane things.#god. i could go so insane abt mark winters rn . what do u think his job was before his wife died. i like 2 think he was an electrician .#do u think hes like. partially coldblooded.#do u think his vision is all fucked up#DO U THINK HE HAS A NICTITATING MEMBRANE ON THE LIZARD EYE.#how much of the fuckign. lizard dna did they put in that man im dying 2 know.#i doubt we will ever get an answer bc nobody would find that interesting besides me but. in a beautiful world
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hnnn
#dinner plans changing in ways i cant hack fffffff#my friends offered to make food but then stayed out late and now hsve changed the meal to something i might not like and#i feel like i cant go anf leave my room to talk aboht it bc ill get overwhelmed jn the kitchen if theyre alreadu making it#i think sometbjng haplened mid afternoon and im now insane in the membrane
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my favorite mood is sleep deprivation insanity because apparently no one can decide if im more drunk or stoned. The best part is neither, that instead I just become a socially insane little butterfly that only knows how to do things in a ride or die format, when I have get no sleep.
#sleep deprivation#sleep deprivation insanity#insane in the membrane#insane in the brain#like i slurr my words and have crazy confidence to say ehatever but it also sounds like a major prophecy situation too#like until you have heard me give a speech about how we are all in this together and half of the peoplw there think im goinna ask for food#dont come for me#we...are going to pass...TOGETHER...once...we were divided...but now we will all...finish our assignment...hopefully within the next 30 sec#i thought people were joking until not did some of my stoner friends think i smoked because of my adhd ass#but my alcoholic friends thought i was just a little bit too gone but said they weren't judging#bro im not out here doing either on a routinely basis#i have more stoner friends than regular friends and it is because of this sole reason#that and my “can't stay on a topic to save my life”-ness
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i need weed. i need a medical card so bad or im gonna go out of my fuckign GOURD
#speak friend and enter#let me preface this by saying that im doing everything in my power to not let mental illness wipe its greasy hands on me#however. im insane in the membrane and i can feel myself slipping back into lunatic mode#i have to go for an mri next week and i genuinely don't know if i can do it. i am so fucking terrified you have no idea#i'll spare y'all the grisly details but i was chronically ill as a kid (and not just like sick a lot it was touch and go there for a bit)#and as a result of certain procedures i had to undergo to abate the aforementioned chronic illness#i developed ptsd that manifests as an irrational but obscenely debilitating fear of hospitals#like i can't go in a hospital without having a psychotic episode. like clinically i just can't do it#but as part of my yearly post-whatever care i have to get imaging done and this year that entails an mri and. im just scared#i spent a significant portion of my time immediately post ptsd symptom presentation believing that my doctors were trying to kill me#like for sport. like i thought there was some larger deep state esque plan in place to enact further medical barbarism upon me for giggles#and obviously you and i both know that's a delusion with no basis in reality but that doesn't mean i can stop myself from believing it.#it's like a word-of-god thing. i know logically that it's not true but there's a voice in my head screaming 'they want to flay you alive'#and i am currently between therapists and also unmedicated bc my last therapist was too focused on inner child work#to give me the prozac and weed card i really need#like that's great that you think healing my inner child will solve this but my inner child is covered in her own viscera. can we pivot mayb#but anyway for the moment im just wallowing in my own fear and im doubly scared bc im finding myself falling into rabbit holes again#like empirically the worst thing that's gonna happen as a result of this mri is that they're gonna say i have to have another surgery#and the technology has advanced to a point where its way less invasive than what ive had previously#but the constant dull roar of my thoughts about the whole deal is just. increasingly delusional nonsense#and not to be overly morbid or anything but i decided a long time ago that if i ever had to be admitted to the hospital again i would rathe#well you know. and i don't wanna die. honestly i don't. but the idea of wading through that particular brand of hell again is torture#and im not gonna kill myself. im not. ive been working on that impulse for a long time and i don't want to undo all of that work#but im scared and i dont wanna spend the rest of my life in n out of the hospital or as a substance-abusing recluse. is that so much to ask#i want to fix this. i do. i don't wanna live in a hole anymore as fantastic mr fox would say. but the horrors persist#and i often find myself increasingly unable to cope. hence why i need the weed#anyway i'll be fine. eventually. i hope. but in the meantime i do want to say i appreciate you all. i mean it#i tend to regard myself (fairly or otherwise) as difficult to get along with in real life so despite the fact that i don't talk w y'all muc#i do appreciate y'all being there and making me feel like more of a person than i feel like i am lately <3
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#maybe getting drunk and watching the trumanshow wasnt a good idea#im having fun but I can also feel the paranoia and derealization and also possibly mania slipping in#um anyway yeah ive been thinking about stuff a lot and just. oh#oh ok#I dont know im going insane im going insane in the membrane and I need to be put down like a lame horse#gl posting
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rant that nobody should or will ever read
sorry for the typos for the half a person who reads this :>
#watching schlatt vids and thinking about deep stuff#and then also wanting to cry but my roomates are like 1m from me#but at least i sae my friends today#they had a mental breakdown next to me#but they did say they felt better after talking to me#which weird cause im shit at talking but hey rant all you want#thinking about the people who basically built me up to be about who i am#and like what tf did i turn into cause who tf likes this#and can i make new friends ?#cause by now everybody got their snall groups#but also i wanna enter one because of this crush and i cant cause its weird#or am i just weird about it#insane#in the membrane#ig#AND OMG AM I GOING FUCKING INSANE#I HATE THIS#peace love
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omg… my brain… it’s too HORNY…
bc i just read ur pegging logan fic and my first thought was “omg how would he feel ab a ribbed/bad dragon dildo” 😵💫😵💫
u do not have to write anything for this if u don’t wanna i just need someone to hear me out on this 👀 bc i know he’d whimper every time one of the little bumps hits a good spot in him 😫😫 AUGH IM GOING INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE
YEEEEESSS I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS OFC I WILL WRITE SOMETHING
call me insane but I just spent the last hour browsing through the bad dragon website to look for some XL dildos Logan would go for because they are extra textured
So here is a short list of bad dragon toys I found if anyone wants to search up what they look like before we start with the real fun part
Slater the stone wyvern (extra large)
Reggie the mothman (extra large)
Flint the uncut studded dragon (extra large)
Abyss the Kaiju King (extra large)
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So, we can all agree that Logan likes his toys big. Like extra extra large. Of course he started out smaller but with time, he managed to take bigger and bigger toys, larger in length and thicker in girth. It would be a great accomplishment for him if he was able to sink down just a bit further every time he tried out a new and bigger toy.
Doing this was one of his greatest pleasures. After an especially hard mission he was longing to unwind with a fat cock stretching him open. He loves it so much, he is such a slut for monster cock. Sometimes you'd arrive a bit late to your shared bedroom and find Logan on your bed, three fingers plunged into his sopping hole as he eagerly prepped himself. His fingers weren't enough, never enough. They couldn't sooth that ache deep within him, the primal need to be full and stretched and stuffed. He let out a sigh of relief the second a girthy, phat dick would slip right past his tight ring of muscle and settle deep in his tummy until there was a bulge there. He just sobs out in ecstasy and lets himself completely surrender to the pleasure rocking his body with every thrust.
You will know when the bumps hit these sensitive spots inside him because he will arch his back, the curve of his spine perfectly visible as he starts to beg. "Fuck....mhmnn yes, right there. Right there please, keep going"
The schlickschlickschlick sound that could be heard every time his hole gripped the bumps and ridges on the toy tight when it was pulled out made him shiver. The dildo was nicely glistening with fake cum lube, spit and his arousal. Your eyes were trained on where the silicone cock disappeared inside of him and the way his hole fitted over the textured surface.
"You get fucked like this every damn day like the insatable bitch you are until you're gaping. And you're still so tight every time"
Logan loveslovesloves textured dildos so much. Not that he doesn't use the smooth ones at all, it depends in what mood he is in. But most of the time he wants to feel the bumps, ridges, lines and dents against his aching walls and feel every slight texture fucking him open and abusing his sweet spot. You knew exactly which angle you needed to fuck him to hit his arousal swollen prostate with precision.
"Mmm,yeah fuck, milk me dry" he mewls out, his cock throbbing lewdly against the bulge on his tummy, leaking all over the sheets. He gets so cute and whiny like this. He makes sounds no one would think were possible coming from him. His face is flushed and squished against the pillows, tears staining his cheeks, his eyes rolling back. Spit in his mouth please.
He wants you to keep fucking him even after he came multiple times because it's just that good.
When you aren't there to fuck him for whatever reason, he gets so needy. Of course he can ride the toys but that's just not the same as you pounding him from behind and slut shaming him. And his legs gave out pretty fast. So the fucking machine you bought him was the best present ever. When you were gone, he could still get fucked by any monster cock he desired and for as long as he wanted. It still didn't come close to you but it was good enough.
Sometimes you used the fucking machine even though you were here, controlling the speed and roughness of the thrusts to drive him mad.
#logan howlett x reader#logan x reader#wolverine x reader#logan howlett smut#x men#hugh jackman#x reader#marvel#marvel cinematic universe#mcu#marvel movies#marvel men#drabble#Smut#wolverine smut headcanons#Headcanons#logan howlett#james logan howlett
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more of my yapping about nicktoons unite gang
i really love the main 4 and in my brain they are literally so found family to me. i wanna add manny and jenny more with them but if im being honest i characterize them as like the 2 kinda side friends to the main friend group. they have their own shit going on and their own friend groups but if the main 4 need a extra 2 (or extra help in a fight) they gonna come in swinging.
i honestly hc jenny being closer friends with jazz, or at least they hang out casually more often then the main 4. i add jazz a lot with my own personal hcs cause i love her a lot.
the thing with using all of these universes and thinking of them all dimension hopping all the time is that theres SO MANY characters to work with. i always try to make myself think of how every single main or side character will act or have a relationship with every other main or side character but i just think that will make me go insane. (remember elijah its ok to be hyperfixated on something and not know everything about it....)
like, attack of the toybox has catscratch, ren n stimpy, rocko, and tak. i never watched those shows and i don't care to add them in with my hcs cause just bluntly, i like the others more lol. never watched catscratch and i dont here anything good about it, also with tak. i honestly don't want to use anything from ren n stimpy cause gross fuck the creator. i'd honestly THINK about using some rocko characters ngl it looks like a good show i just never got to watching it.
all i care about at the moment is jn, dp, fop, sbsp, mlaatr, el tigre, and iz. and even Then all of these shows have so many characters and so many eps (holy shit fop and sbsp). i just wanna vibe with my hcs of my little guys that i love
EXTRA STUFF I EDITED IN:
characters from each show that i'd prob give a shit about drawing/thinking of hcs with everyone else (this will likely change):
sbsp: patrick, sandy , squidward, plankton
dp: jazz, tucker, sam, dani, vlad, maddie, jack
jn: cindy, sheen , carl, libby, judy, hugh
fop: wanda, cosmo, poof, cupid, juandissimo, trixie, mark chang, chole, crocker, vicky ig
iz: dib, gaz, professor membrane, gir
mlaatr: brad, sheldon, tucker, walkmen, vega, brit, tiff
also imaginary gary, jimmy clones, dash, remy and eustace ig but all of those are because of kevins hcs i'd rather not take that idea from him, but i do love them all as well
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trophy headcanons, pt 3 because im fucking insane in the membrane
• greek on his dad's side and mexican on his mom's side, spent the first 3 years of his life in kavala before moving to the midwest. knows some greek but not much
• middle child, sandwiched between 3 older siblings and 1 younger sister. all his older siblings aged out of the house before he did so he had to take care of his little sister sometimes. it is for this reason that he is not the absolute worst chef in hotel oj (and not just because tissues is there)
•smells like trees and stuff. also there is a faint whiff of banana, old spice's swagger deodorant, and whatever fuckass cologne he's decided to put on that day
• or he just ends up going like three weeks without showering and smells like Sweat. nasty little guy
• grew up watching old campy horror movies. saw the jock/bully character and basically went "transition goals?? 👀"
• when he first received his camera it was a cheap gift from someone but he decided to put it to use when he saw that there was a photography competition in his school. when he got 1st place he developed a genuine appreciation for photography (only 2 people actually entered) (he doesn't know) (we can't let him know)
• is very much Not Online. probably only really frequents fitness and nutrition forums, sometimes photography too. but that's about it
• despite this, he did look himself up once and unfortunately discovered the portion of his fanbase that are absolutely gagging for it (i think it's funny if this is also a Thing in the ii-verse)
• is online even less now
#shoutout to this draft i have had for one million years (six months)#half of which was disproven#k talks#🏆
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oh hey look ive got art. i was gonna add more ((as mew can tell)) and then iiiii. didnt ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ whoops. oh well. i think these look ballers anyways and i am so fucking good at drawing hands. i love drawing hands. yippee!
#hes so cool. no he isnt#hes just incredibly fun to draw#fuzzification#very self indulgent of me i know but i fur one deserve it#also reds there. and ourp#theyre cute#big stupid bugeyes#ok dont look at me im going to add generic tags now#i look insane to the afurrage tag searcher i think#iz#invader zim#dib#dib membrane#i swearsies he is i literally study the show to makesure im in character when i write his stupidass#vampire dib#vplord dib#tallest red#tallest purple#radr#my art#dibby#askblog nonsense#do click on it fur better quality
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intro .. ~ 𖤐⭒๋࣭⭑
basics 💜
🛸my name is milli, you can also call me para or zebub! (other names i like to be called are jecka, zi, seven, lar, twi, & gen)
🌿DID system, AuDHD, cancer survivor, ♐︎, ENG/ESP
👻my prns are irk/it/zir/chem/bot and i also use he/him
🪲ENTJ 1w9 SO Chol, 16yo
🦇nihilist, occultist (daemonolatry study), theistic satanist
toyhouse, twitter (art), twitter (main), youtube, comic, carrd (soon)
`` . . . . `` hellooo! i am a furry artist & casual V-artist streamer but mostly on tumblr i just indulge in fandom stuff ✩ here i sometimes post my art, talk abt my comic & mostly just interact with other people... tl;dr i am a lurker more than a poster
im also a highschool dropout anddd studying to get a GED and get into an art college rn!
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⋆。°✩ CURRENT HYPERFIX: vampair, my little pony, hyperdimension neptunia, murder drones💜
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@mel10k my best friend ever since we were little babies... he knows my deepest darkest secrets his only flaw is that hes horrible at actually everything
@rt-lots raegan my coworker buddy... very very smart and funny, a beautiful writer, & co-creator of our comic! cute cute CUTE GOOD art & he tries so hard everyday so check her out
@horriblegonzo insane little thing. we bonded over being cringe years ago and now were friends forever. she draws fucked up monsters and shit; read honks comic
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just a note for me, as a person, if something you say directly upsets me or i think is uncalled for, im going to be blunt about it and try to talk abt it. if you cant have a mature convo then whatever but i hate internet drama so fucking much tl;dr theres a block button and we should both use it
last edit: 04/22/2024
#intro#intro post#introduction#tumblr intro#pinned#furry#artist#digital artist#clip studio paint#parabugz#interests#aita#am i the asshole
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@intertexts I AM going to take you up on this and it WILL be everyone else's problem . this is going to be so long and disjointed and stream of consciousness and not at all organized. my enrichment for work today
GOD where do i even fucking start. im literally thinking about him constantly dude. i hate it here. i love when a character is allowed to be a bad person and also still like. care. he cares so much. he cares so much it fucking HURTS but also he sucks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and this is a good thing. i never want him to get better however i do want him to give his son a hug just once.
uhhhhhhhhhhh ok ok ok. lizard biology is a good place to start i love fucked up fantasy biology. keep in mind while i do like to talk about science and things i do also love to suspend my disbelief when it conveniences me. yes i know this would not work irl thats why i like it. anyway. hey why the fuck did they make him do that. i know overlords whole deal was fucking with dna but how insane is it that hes like. "oh you want to work for me? awesome. get experimented on idiot." awesome way to keep your employees from quitting: subject them to genetic torture. do you think he fought it. of course he fucking did hes mark winters he would not agree to that shit.
how disorienting do you think it was to wake up and suddenly have a whole extra sense. not just that but also a whole extra LIMB. what the fuck do you do. do u think it was sudden or gradual. i cant decide which is worse tbh. i guess this is a good excuse to talk about what exactly i think his lizard mutations look like.
he obviously has the scales. theyre on mostly the left half of his body, i think his right side is generally pretty untouched by any sort of mutation. the ones on his face are pretty much localized around his eye, (which i think looks like a tokay gecko btw. theyre yellow and have cool shaped pupils) but probably also extend down his cheek and maybe even down onto his neck a little. i think theyre probably scattered on his back and chest, hes got a bunch of distinct big patches rather than like a smooth transition from skin to scales. i think his left hand is completely covered with scales and his nails are more like claws on that side. he probably files them down a little (or like. just scratches them on concrete and metal and shit until theyre filed down. not healthy behavior). i like to imagine he has a tail too but its kind of short and stubby and not very. useful for anything except fucking up his balance and being generally Uncomfortable. OH also once every couple months the scales get SUPER uncomfortable and itchy and they shed. also when this happens he goes blind in the lizard eye and the first time that happened i think he was scared as FUCK that it was gonna be permanent
NOW IM GONNA START TALKING ABOUT. PIT ORGANS AND THIS MIGHT GET LONG AND TECHNICAL SO ILL TRY TO KEEP IT. SOMEWHAT SHORT. so. he can see william when hes invisible. and that has been CONFIRMED a lizard mutation thing and not just a result of one of his powers (which is still insane to me). and the ONLY WAY i can think of justifying that is by thermoreception or. heat sense. like infrared sensing. which is a thing that certain species of snakes can do!! specifically boas and vipers have these things called pit organs which are little holes usually around their nose with a membrane that is extremely sensitive to temperature changes and allows them to basically see in infrared. its not exactly SEEING and more like sensing which i think in a human would be so EXTREMELY disorienting. i havent figured out what exactly that would look like from a mark first person pov but the way i vaguely imagine it is if you overlayed an infrared camera over a normal camera and turned the opacity down to like 30% (<< clear enough that he can still see normally but still bright enough to be WEIRD). i think hes got sorta like what pythons have where they have multiple smaller pits rather than a single large one like a viper, and theyre right underneath the lizard eye so that when he has that eye covered with bandages it sort of dulls down the thermoreception. UGH.
ok enough about lizard powers i want to put you in the winters family torment nexus. actually ill talk about his powers a little bit first. so i am a little unclear as to what his powers actually ARE mechanically but based on the vague descriptions of things he can do i think it has to do with manipulating electricity and other types of energy (hence. wavelength.) i dont think its solely based on LIGHT but rather on likeeee. energy. i dont actually know a whole lot about electricity i havent taken a physics class since high school. ANYWAY. i think he was born with them and naturally theyre sort of weak and he cant do much with them which is why he uses the suits. (inserting my vague bit of worm knowledge i would put him under the Tinker class bc he makes a lot of his own tech hehe). his powers naturally without the suits manifest as like. a constant low buzzing in the background kind of like if youve ever. touched a crt monitor. sort of fuzzy and staticky. and maybe he can use them to like. run extra power through a wire or make a lightbulb glow a little brighter or power a battery. nothing really major useful for fighting but could be used in everyday activities! bizly mentioned once that he powers his suits like a battery and they amplify his powers and i have not let go of that ever since. do u ever think about how he has . holes in his back that his suits stab into. i think about that a lot. do you think he did that to himself. anyway.
NOW its winters family torment nexus time. before ashe's mom died. i think they were happy :( i dont think mark was always as shitty as he is now. i think he used to be just like. a normal dad. a little gruff and emotionally repressed because thats just. who he is. but very obviously loved his family and. idk. would take ashe fishing when he was little or something. weekend trip to the lake. he has a fucking cabin in the woods dude! i like to think heeee had a job as an electrician because it made his powers really convenient. (side note here i just really really like the worldbuilding of people casually having powers and using them to make their lives easier. i just really like that a lot and have a lot of thoughts about it.) I thiiiiiink ashe's mom worked in a library or a museum or something. something with a lot of books. maybe a museum. i think mark would take ashe with him in the mornings and drop him off at school before he went to work. i think ashe would put stickers on his dashboard when he got old enough to sit in the front seat (there are still. old faded stickers on the underside of his glove box and the old leftover residue of long term stickers dried out by the sun on the dash. the kind of shit that gets grey and kind of gross but is impossible to remove).
ashe's mom died when he was ... like 8 or 9. and i think for a really REALLY long time mark was just fucking terrified. i mean how the fuck do you recover from something like that. how do you look your kid in the eyes when you saw him do. that. i specifically wrote out part of this scene in my fic so at risk of sounding like a broken record i wont talk about it TOO much but. i think mark was at work when it happened. he got home from work and the house was way too quiet and then he found ashe still half-possessed in his room with a dead body. and his immediate first thought was that someone had broken in or something so his first instinct is to get ashe out of there but when he goes to pick him up from the floor he sees. trickster. or at least like. partial trickster. and he doesnt know what to do and theres that fucking book on the floor and his 8 yr old son is holding his mothers heart in his hands like its just a piece of meat and . whuh oh. hes just like. a regular guy. what the fuck is he supposed to do here! he considers just. running. leaving. getting back in his car and driving away and never coming back. and then he realizes thats fucking stupid and this is his child and he needs to do *something*
ashe is able to fight off full possession on his own (iiiiiii have a theory about ashes powers and what they are but i cant talk about that in detail until later) and i havent worked out the details of how i think the IMMEDIATE aftermath goes but. mark covers for him. gets rid of any sort of evidence that could POSSIBLY point to ashe being the one that killed her and sticks to the story that it was a freak villain attack instead. closed casket funeral. he tries to get rid of the book so many times and every time it reappears on ashe's bedside table the next morning. i think there was like. an IMMEDIATE rift between them. ashe is. old enough to understand what happened and since the possession was only partial i do think he remembers it. but hes not old enough to really understand why. why everything is so different now, how to process grief, why his dad is treating him so different now etc. probably goes. very nonverbal for a while. mark is a fucking wreck with grief and fear and anger and confusion and he stops going to work. they gave him a bit of a grace period due to the circumstances but eventually he got fired and couldnt get a new job and he thought about just taking ashe and moving out of that house out of that neighborhood maybe out of the city. but everything was too expensive and now he's got a 12 yr old who needs to eat and keeps growing out of his clothes and hasnt been to school in a year and a half and !!!!!!
so he starts. villain work. i dont think he really means to at first he might just. shut down a security camera here and there and make the lights flicker in a gas station and if there are a few extra snacks in his pockets whos to say. maybe he eventually tries to do hired gun work for some bigger villains and then moves to solo jobs and then gets picked up by overlord. (personally i think the overlord job was still somewhat new at the beginning of pd. maybe only like. a couple months to a year max)
ANYWAY he listens to vanessa carlton and thats just canon but i also think he likes shitty scifi movies and goes fishing for fun and finds being out in the woods relaxing (again. cabin) . and he does all the dad things in the car that we've talked about a bunch. and hes so so so paranoid and afraid all the time but he expresses that through anger but it comes from a place of love bc he loves ashe so much and doesnt want anything to hurt him ever and he just wants to keep him safe. head in hands. his methods are not good but also its all he knows how to do and i think he desperately just wants ashe to be happy and he wants to see him smile (even though it fucking hurts because he has his moms smile and her laugh and he looks so much like her when hes happy) and . take him on a weekend trip to the lake again. i think there was a moment halfway through season 1 where he saw how happy ashe was with pd and thought "maybe this is good maybe i can let him be a normal kid for a while" and then william dies and ashe gets shot and overlord has a hit on their heads and he doubles down because thats the kind of shit that happens if he lowers his guard for even a second!!!!!!!!!!! ughhhhhhhhh im insane.
um. also when he was just starting out villain work tide was still doing like active hero work and not a mentor yet and they were like rivals. smile. ("ive fought tide dozens of times and hes never spoken to me like that" << never going to forget this btw). i think tide was the one to tell him what happened at the end of season 1 . because. again. he was UNCONSCIOUS FOR THAT WHOLE THING. i think tide went to visit him in prison before he got depowered and told him everything.
#I KNOW IM FORGETTING. SOMETHING. AND IM GONNA BE SO MAD WHEN I REMEMBER IT LATER. BUT HOLYYYYYY SHTI every day i think about mark winters#the situation is fucking DIRE in here (my brain)#jrwi pd#aha. i think about him a regular amount#i need to lay down.#I REMEMBERD THE THING I FORGOT. ITS ABOUT HIS EYE. he can blink the lizard eye like normal bc he still has like. human shaped eyelids BUT#he also has a nictitating membrane on that side. which. is like the transparent second eyelid that a LOT of animals have. blinks sideways.#look them up theyre so cool#I ALSO FORGOT TO TALK ABOUT COLD BLOODED. FUCK#HES PARTIALLY COLD BLODDED. NOT FULLY. BUT HE HAS A HARD TIME REGULATING BODY TEMP ESP WHEN ITS COLD
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hhi could i. could i ask if you have any portal ford headcanons im being insane about him right now and your headcanons are So 💥‼️🎉🌈💥/pos
hi hello hows it goin
-he didn't get all of his tattoos in one sitting, and he actually has a few he gave to himself. some of the tattoos look like normal earth tattoos, but theres also a few that have cool effects to them. color-changing, moving slightly, shapeshifting from one creature to another, etc. etc.
-he gave himself a little sailboat tattoo in case he ever lost the photo. he also gave himself an axolotl after he met Jheselbraum
-when he was fresh into the portal, hed join other interdimensional travelers, make companions...he stopped after a while because the grief he felt every time he inevitably lost them became too much. he still misses the ones he did have, though. he gave himself a constellation tattoo to remember them- a star for each one.
-he has perhaps too many tattoos. most of them end up being covered up by scars, though
-speaking of scars- ford lost his right arm sometime while he was in the portal. An "anomaly" bit it off. He has a prosthetic now (in the future, he's going to keep forgetting to mention this to stan. which is. definitely not going to cause any problems at all (sarcastic))
-he has several scars that either look weird (slightly glow-in-the-dark, shimmers, etc.) or healed in strange patterns because they were caused by weapons very much not intended to interact with human flesh
-he has a lot of "speckle" scars all over him. theyre from corrosive rain
-Jheselbraum has been thoroughly established as a sort of secondary mother figure in his mind. She has also been given this role by many, many other versions of Ford. she is the space mom
-he once met a moth version of himself who borrowed a gun from him and never gave it back. hes still upset about that. no, he has not realized the connection
-he once held a full conversation with another version of stan without noticing who he was talking to. in his defense, it was dark out
-at some point, he developed a tapetum lucidum and nictitating membranes. this is the incredibly self-indulgent biology-hyperfixation-induced headcanon
-he thinks he can handle smoke and toxic air better because of how much time hes spent not being able to breathe properly. its actually made him more sensitive to things like that
-he has gotten better at not being poisoned though. this comes from years of eating random mushrooms and plants and bug-adjacent creatures. this doesnt apply to raw meat as much, but he can definitely handle it better than most other humans
-every now and then, the hyperfixation excitement will outweigh how horrible he feels all the time and he'll just end up staring at some sort of weird creature and taking mental notes about it for a really long time
-sometimes he'll name random creatures he sees just to kill time. waiting for your food to finish cooking? give your local fish-bird-thing a name
-he doesnt know this, but hes actually seen a few creatures that are considered cryptids in those dimensions
-his favorite dimensions are the ones filled with wildlife and starry skies and vibrant colors. theyre not nearly as common as youd think they are
-hes gotten more used to speaking non-earth languages than earth-languages. as such, hes started using lots of phrases that have...interesting translations in english
-he forgets how to speak sometimes. it used to be more distressing, but he doesnt typically come across many creatures that can understand language anyway. its more of an annoyance than anything at this point
-hes gotten really good at mimicking the calls of other creatures. really good. possibly too good (he will use this power for evil in the future. to terrorize his brother with seagull noises)
-this is technically post-portal, but he adapts the creatures hes seen into homebrew enemies and races in his DD&MD campaigns
-also post-portal, but he'll sometimes forget that that weird thing hes looking at is. yknow. weird and not just a normal part of life in this dimension. this is one of the two reasons why he asks stan to point out anomalies to him
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