#I think im going insane in the membrane

[thealienfreak]

I HATE HAVING FAVORITE CHARACTERS SOMETIMES

ITS ONE IN THE MORNING, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD LEAVE ME ALONE DIB MEMBRANE

[dafaddu]

i hope to GOD this comes out how i hope it will in my head 😭

[andr0nap-wf]

thinking about hex having extra anatomical and psychological quirks to make them more efficient killing machines

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

i would love to be doing something productive right now but instead i am thinking about mark winters reptile biology

[ghosts-of-love]

hnnn

[rae-nee-dai]

my favorite mood is sleep deprivation insanity because apparently no one can decide if im more drunk or stoned. The best part is neither, that instead I just become a socially insane little butterfly that only knows how to do things in a ride or die format, when I have get no sleep.

[batemanofficial]

i need weed. i need a medical card so bad or im gonna go out of my fuckign GOURD

[ceolocunt]

[macr0pla5tics]

rant that nobody should or will ever read

sorry for the typos for the half a person who reads this :>

[fungateshortcakes]

omg… my brain… it’s too HORNY…

bc i just read ur pegging logan fic and my first thought was “omg how would he feel ab a ribbed/bad dragon dildo” 😵‍💫😵‍💫

u do not have to write anything for this if u don’t wanna i just need someone to hear me out on this 👀 bc i know he’d whimper every time one of the little bumps hits a good spot in him 😫😫 AUGH IM GOING INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE

YEEEEESSS I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS OFC I WILL WRITE SOMETHING

call me insane but I just spent the last hour browsing through the bad dragon website to look for some XL dildos Logan would go for because they are extra textured

So here is a short list of bad dragon toys I found if anyone wants to search up what they look like before we start with the real fun part

Slater the stone wyvern (extra large)

Reggie the mothman (extra large)

Flint the uncut studded dragon (extra large)

Abyss the Kaiju King (extra large)

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So, we can all agree that Logan likes his toys big. Like extra extra large. Of course he started out smaller but with time, he managed to take bigger and bigger toys, larger in length and thicker in girth. It would be a great accomplishment for him if he was able to sink down just a bit further every time he tried out a new and bigger toy.

Doing this was one of his greatest pleasures. After an especially hard mission he was longing to unwind with a fat cock stretching him open. He loves it so much, he is such a slut for monster cock. Sometimes you'd arrive a bit late to your shared bedroom and find Logan on your bed, three fingers plunged into his sopping hole as he eagerly prepped himself. His fingers weren't enough, never enough. They couldn't sooth that ache deep within him, the primal need to be full and stretched and stuffed. He let out a sigh of relief the second a girthy, phat dick would slip right past his tight ring of muscle and settle deep in his tummy until there was a bulge there. He just sobs out in ecstasy and lets himself completely surrender to the pleasure rocking his body with every thrust.

You will know when the bumps hit these sensitive spots inside him because he will arch his back, the curve of his spine perfectly visible as he starts to beg. "Fuck....mhmnn yes, right there. Right there please, keep going"

The schlickschlickschlick sound that could be heard every time his hole gripped the bumps and ridges on the toy tight when it was pulled out made him shiver. The dildo was nicely glistening with fake cum lube, spit and his arousal. Your eyes were trained on where the silicone cock disappeared inside of him and the way his hole fitted over the textured surface.

"You get fucked like this every damn day like the insatable bitch you are until you're gaping. And you're still so tight every time"

Logan loveslovesloves textured dildos so much. Not that he doesn't use the smooth ones at all, it depends in what mood he is in. But most of the time he wants to feel the bumps, ridges, lines and dents against his aching walls and feel every slight texture fucking him open and abusing his sweet spot. You knew exactly which angle you needed to fuck him to hit his arousal swollen prostate with precision.

"Mmm,yeah fuck, milk me dry" he mewls out, his cock throbbing lewdly against the bulge on his tummy, leaking all over the sheets. He gets so cute and whiny like this. He makes sounds no one would think were possible coming from him. His face is flushed and squished against the pillows, tears staining his cheeks, his eyes rolling back. Spit in his mouth please.

He wants you to keep fucking him even after he came multiple times because it's just that good.

When you aren't there to fuck him for whatever reason, he gets so needy. Of course he can ride the toys but that's just not the same as you pounding him from behind and slut shaming him. And his legs gave out pretty fast. So the fucking machine you bought him was the best present ever. When you were gone, he could still get fucked by any monster cock he desired and for as long as he wanted. It still didn't come close to you but it was good enough.

Sometimes you used the fucking machine even though you were here, controlling the speed and roughness of the thrusts to drive him mad.

[dannymigimart]

Invader Zim Jekyll and Hyde AU idea??? warning: insane cringe rambling

so at first i was thinking the au would be about zib because of a cool idea someone commented on my other post and i still think that’s an interesting and good idea, but the more i thought about it i kind of just liked another idea more:

maybe it’s not zib at all? im thinking maybe zim doesn’t really “exist” until dib takes the potion and then once he takes it, zim is “created” because of like concentrating all that dib was trying to separate from himself from which is like literally what hyde is in canon so whatever. i think this is more interesting because it would mean that like jekyll and hyde, zim and dib are the same person in this au, just split in two

the potion is made using stuff in membranes lab following the instructions of some crazy thing he found online or something like those internet ghost challenges only like 100x worse. that or it could be from one of his spell drives i don’t know.

dib takes it because of similar reasons to jekyll he just wants to separate himself of the “less desirable” parts of his brain- aka everything that other people think is weird about him. he wants to be the perfect scientist son that his dad wants. obviously it ends up splitting his mind into two- zim and dib, with dib in this case being jekyll and zim being hyde.

i feel like to explain why zim is.. y’know.. an alien, it could be because that’s kind of part of what dibs trying to repress- his obsession with things like ghosts and cryptids and aliens because that’s what gets him ostracized from everyone else and what keeps him from being like his dad and somehow it just kind of takes the most literal form possible when being concentrated into zim

this is gonna be kind of weird because originally the potion in the strange case was made to separate the “good” and “bad” of the human soul and for this it’s more of just what dib doesn’t like about himself BUT i gueesssss it would work because like zim is evil and stuff so im thinking he definitely could also be that concentrated evilness and hate for the people that rejected dib in his life?? idk this is just a brain dump i’ve already accepted that none of this makes sense

so also in the strange case hyde comes off as less of his own person and more of an alter ego for jekyll to do whatever he wanted i guess buuut i’m thinking i might not follow that completely?? because i think some other interpretations where jekyll and hyde are at least a little more separate are more interesting

bee tee dubs i’m thinking that when split, dib is going to lose some if not most of his fascination with the paranormal because that is kind of what he’s trying to do with the whole thing he’s gonna lose that and his insane-ness to zim BUT i still want him to be just a little crazy because he’s not really dib without it. i think this will make it kind of an uneven split so zim will have some of dibs traits still and vice versa

this au wouldn’t follow the original j&h plot bc it’s kind of boring to just take a preexisting thing and slap new faces onto it but i do want to keep roles from the novella

so far i’m only certain on one role- gaz being lanyon. she thinks dib’s obsession with the paranormal is stupid asf but when it comes down to it she still cares about him and vice versa and in the end dib trusts her. she’s probably not adopting any of novella lanyon’s traits she’s just taking his role as he’s kind of like a long time frenemy and who else would fit that best than dibs sister

[jellyontheside]

more of my yapping about nicktoons unite gang

i really love the main 4 and in my brain they are literally so found family to me. i wanna add manny and jenny more with them but if im being honest i characterize them as like the 2 kinda side friends to the main friend group. they have their own shit going on and their own friend groups but if the main 4 need a extra 2 (or extra help in a fight) they gonna come in swinging.

i honestly hc jenny being closer friends with jazz, or at least they hang out casually more often then the main 4. i add jazz a lot with my own personal hcs cause i love her a lot.

the thing with using all of these universes and thinking of them all dimension hopping all the time is that theres SO MANY characters to work with. i always try to make myself think of how every single main or side character will act or have a relationship with every other main or side character but i just think that will make me go insane. (remember elijah its ok to be hyperfixated on something and not know everything about it....)

like, attack of the toybox has catscratch, ren n stimpy, rocko, and tak. i never watched those shows and i don't care to add them in with my hcs cause just bluntly, i like the others more lol. never watched catscratch and i dont here anything good about it, also with tak. i honestly don't want to use anything from ren n stimpy cause gross fuck the creator. i'd honestly THINK about using some rocko characters ngl it looks like a good show i just never got to watching it.

all i care about at the moment is jn, dp, fop, sbsp, mlaatr, el tigre, and iz. and even Then all of these shows have so many characters and so many eps (holy shit fop and sbsp). i just wanna vibe with my hcs of my little guys that i love

EXTRA STUFF I EDITED IN:

characters from each show that i'd prob give a shit about drawing/thinking of hcs with everyone else (this will likely change):

sbsp: patrick, sandy , squidward, plankton

dp: jazz, tucker, sam, dani, vlad, maddie, jack

jn: cindy, sheen , carl, libby, judy, hugh

fop: wanda, cosmo, poof, cupid, juandissimo, trixie, mark chang, chole, crocker, vicky ig

iz: dib, gaz, professor membrane, gir

mlaatr: brad, sheldon, tucker, walkmen, vega, brit, tiff

also imaginary gary, jimmy clones, dash, remy and eustace ig but all of those are because of kevins hcs i'd rather not take that idea from him, but i do love them all as well

[lovediives]

hii can u tell me anything abt ur new ocs i wanna know any ideas u have for their lore or ur ship etc.. holds my hands out

EEEEEK THANK YOU CLARA T_T

this might get long. this is combining a special interest of mine with deranged character thinking. ill just call them pride and envy for now. but the entire plot is just i wanted to make a s/i who was an angel who was saving humans from their deal with the devil before the entire world was destroyed from all the sin they unleashed onto everyone. and in making everyone, ive become up with; pride, envy, lust, and wrath and i fear that envy and pride are like....... stuck in my membrane

PICREW this right here is pride. his whole thing is that he wants nothing more than to be in positions of power and have everyone praise him because thats what he thinks he deserves. hes the true definition of a nepo baby through and through. he made a deal with the devil so that he could get rid of his family and become the sole owner of a business thats worth billions and he doesnt even want the money he just wants the brand name all to himself so that everyone praises him for being so successful at his age!! (hes in his mid twenties)

PICREW

this is envy.. shes a neet. she has nothing going for her and is the definition of a failgirl. she fell in love with a celebrity and become so obsessed with them to the point of creating shrines and making them their entire personality. she made a deal with the devil to look like them. but now it fucks her up because she barely recognizes herself and all she can see is them. it makes me mad because she cant tell if she wants to be them or kill them. shes often confused for being a nerdy girl but she doesnt really have any interests besides two and its fashion and football LOL (technically idol culture but shes going insane over idol culture rn)

the reason im so... insane over these two is because pride is like haha youre envy right? that means you wanna be me right? riiiighttt? and envy looks down at this 5'3 loser and tells him to fuck off and die. and this makes pride really mad.... but like its envy and hes PRIDE. so eventually she TOTAAAALLYYY needs to end up obsessed with him right riiightttt? and its just him doing things that he thinks would make her jealous of him. like talking about his social life or flaunting his wealth and talking about how amazing his parents were before they died. and envy is like uhuh... thats nice. and its always damaging his pride until hes like yeah i kinda want her.

envy overhears him saying that like "what" and pride is like "i want you."

and envy is confused by the entire thing but this is the first time someones shown romantic interest in her so shes like sureeeeeee youre.... cute enough. and pride is like FINALLY!! YOURE SEEING HOW GREAT I AM!! and envys like uhuh. can you buy me lunch now? and hes like no ^_^ you havent earned it yet. and envy is already regretting her life decisions.

[exacerbatty]

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basics 💜

🛸my name is milli, you can also call me para or zebub! (other names i like to be called are mio, miles, maeve, macey, mimi, jecka, zi, seven, lar, twi, & gen)

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last edit: 12/14/2024

[trophyposting]

trophy headcanons, pt 3 because im fucking insane in the membrane

• greek on his dad's side and mexican on his mom's side, spent the first 3 years of his life in kavala before moving to the midwest. knows some greek but not much

• middle child, sandwiched between 3 older siblings and 1 younger sister. all his older siblings aged out of the house before he did so he had to take care of his little sister sometimes. it is for this reason that he is not the absolute worst chef in hotel oj (and not just because tissues is there)

•smells like trees and stuff. also there is a faint whiff of banana, old spice's swagger deodorant, and whatever fuckass cologne he's decided to put on that day

• or he just ends up going like three weeks without showering and smells like Sweat. nasty little guy

• grew up watching old campy horror movies. saw the jock/bully character and basically went "transition goals?? 👀"

• when he first received his camera it was a cheap gift from someone but he decided to put it to use when he saw that there was a photography competition in his school. when he got 1st place he developed a genuine appreciation for photography (only 2 people actually entered) (he doesn't know) (we can't let him know)

• is very much Not Online. probably only really frequents fitness and nutrition forums, sometimes photography too. but that's about it

• despite this, he did look himself up once and unfortunately discovered the portion of his fanbase that are absolutely gagging for it (i think it's funny if this is also a Thing in the ii-verse)

• is online even less now

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

@intertexts I AM going to take you up on this and it WILL be everyone else's problem . this is going to be so long and disjointed and stream of consciousness and not at all organized. my enrichment for work today

GOD where do i even fucking start. im literally thinking about him constantly dude. i hate it here. i love when a character is allowed to be a bad person and also still like. care. he cares so much. he cares so much it fucking HURTS but also he sucks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and this is a good thing. i never want him to get better however i do want him to give his son a hug just once.

uhhhhhhhhhhh ok ok ok. lizard biology is a good place to start i love fucked up fantasy biology. keep in mind while i do like to talk about science and things i do also love to suspend my disbelief when it conveniences me. yes i know this would not work irl thats why i like it. anyway. hey why the fuck did they make him do that. i know overlords whole deal was fucking with dna but how insane is it that hes like. "oh you want to work for me? awesome. get experimented on idiot." awesome way to keep your employees from quitting: subject them to genetic torture. do you think he fought it. of course he fucking did hes mark winters he would not agree to that shit.

how disorienting do you think it was to wake up and suddenly have a whole extra sense. not just that but also a whole extra LIMB. what the fuck do you do. do u think it was sudden or gradual. i cant decide which is worse tbh. i guess this is a good excuse to talk about what exactly i think his lizard mutations look like.

he obviously has the scales. theyre on mostly the left half of his body, i think his right side is generally pretty untouched by any sort of mutation. the ones on his face are pretty much localized around his eye, (which i think looks like a tokay gecko btw. theyre yellow and have cool shaped pupils) but probably also extend down his cheek and maybe even down onto his neck a little. i think theyre probably scattered on his back and chest, hes got a bunch of distinct big patches rather than like a smooth transition from skin to scales. i think his left hand is completely covered with scales and his nails are more like claws on that side. he probably files them down a little (or like. just scratches them on concrete and metal and shit until theyre filed down. not healthy behavior). i like to imagine he has a tail too but its kind of short and stubby and not very. useful for anything except fucking up his balance and being generally Uncomfortable. OH also once every couple months the scales get SUPER uncomfortable and itchy and they shed. also when this happens he goes blind in the lizard eye and the first time that happened i think he was scared as FUCK that it was gonna be permanent

NOW IM GONNA START TALKING ABOUT. PIT ORGANS AND THIS MIGHT GET LONG AND TECHNICAL SO ILL TRY TO KEEP IT. SOMEWHAT SHORT. so. he can see william when hes invisible. and that has been CONFIRMED a lizard mutation thing and not just a result of one of his powers (which is still insane to me). and the ONLY WAY i can think of justifying that is by thermoreception or. heat sense. like infrared sensing. which is a thing that certain species of snakes can do!! specifically boas and vipers have these things called pit organs which are little holes usually around their nose with a membrane that is extremely sensitive to temperature changes and allows them to basically see in infrared. its not exactly SEEING and more like sensing which i think in a human would be so EXTREMELY disorienting. i havent figured out what exactly that would look like from a mark first person pov but the way i vaguely imagine it is if you overlayed an infrared camera over a normal camera and turned the opacity down to like 30% (<< clear enough that he can still see normally but still bright enough to be WEIRD). i think hes got sorta like what pythons have where they have multiple smaller pits rather than a single large one like a viper, and theyre right underneath the lizard eye so that when he has that eye covered with bandages it sort of dulls down the thermoreception. UGH.

ok enough about lizard powers i want to put you in the winters family torment nexus. actually ill talk about his powers a little bit first. so i am a little unclear as to what his powers actually ARE mechanically but based on the vague descriptions of things he can do i think it has to do with manipulating electricity and other types of energy (hence. wavelength.) i dont think its solely based on LIGHT but rather on likeeee. energy. i dont actually know a whole lot about electricity i havent taken a physics class since high school. ANYWAY. i think he was born with them and naturally theyre sort of weak and he cant do much with them which is why he uses the suits. (inserting my vague bit of worm knowledge i would put him under the Tinker class bc he makes a lot of his own tech hehe). his powers naturally without the suits manifest as like. a constant low buzzing in the background kind of like if youve ever. touched a crt monitor. sort of fuzzy and staticky. and maybe he can use them to like. run extra power through a wire or make a lightbulb glow a little brighter or power a battery. nothing really major useful for fighting but could be used in everyday activities! bizly mentioned once that he powers his suits like a battery and they amplify his powers and i have not let go of that ever since. do u ever think about how he has . holes in his back that his suits stab into. i think about that a lot. do you think he did that to himself. anyway.

NOW its winters family torment nexus time. before ashe's mom died. i think they were happy :( i dont think mark was always as shitty as he is now. i think he used to be just like. a normal dad. a little gruff and emotionally repressed because thats just. who he is. but very obviously loved his family and. idk. would take ashe fishing when he was little or something. weekend trip to the lake. he has a fucking cabin in the woods dude! i like to think heeee had a job as an electrician because it made his powers really convenient. (side note here i just really really like the worldbuilding of people casually having powers and using them to make their lives easier. i just really like that a lot and have a lot of thoughts about it.) I thiiiiiink ashe's mom worked in a library or a museum or something. something with a lot of books. maybe a museum. i think mark would take ashe with him in the mornings and drop him off at school before he went to work. i think ashe would put stickers on his dashboard when he got old enough to sit in the front seat (there are still. old faded stickers on the underside of his glove box and the old leftover residue of long term stickers dried out by the sun on the dash. the kind of shit that gets grey and kind of gross but is impossible to remove).

ashe's mom died when he was ... like 8 or 9. and i think for a really REALLY long time mark was just fucking terrified. i mean how the fuck do you recover from something like that. how do you look your kid in the eyes when you saw him do. that. i specifically wrote out part of this scene in my fic so at risk of sounding like a broken record i wont talk about it TOO much but. i think mark was at work when it happened. he got home from work and the house was way too quiet and then he found ashe still half-possessed in his room with a dead body. and his immediate first thought was that someone had broken in or something so his first instinct is to get ashe out of there but when he goes to pick him up from the floor he sees. trickster. or at least like. partial trickster. and he doesnt know what to do and theres that fucking book on the floor and his 8 yr old son is holding his mothers heart in his hands like its just a piece of meat and . whuh oh. hes just like. a regular guy. what the fuck is he supposed to do here! he considers just. running. leaving. getting back in his car and driving away and never coming back. and then he realizes thats fucking stupid and this is his child and he needs to do *something*

ashe is able to fight off full possession on his own (iiiiiii have a theory about ashes powers and what they are but i cant talk about that in detail until later) and i havent worked out the details of how i think the IMMEDIATE aftermath goes but. mark covers for him. gets rid of any sort of evidence that could POSSIBLY point to ashe being the one that killed her and sticks to the story that it was a freak villain attack instead. closed casket funeral. he tries to get rid of the book so many times and every time it reappears on ashe's bedside table the next morning. i think there was like. an IMMEDIATE rift between them. ashe is. old enough to understand what happened and since the possession was only partial i do think he remembers it. but hes not old enough to really understand why. why everything is so different now, how to process grief, why his dad is treating him so different now etc. probably goes. very nonverbal for a while. mark is a fucking wreck with grief and fear and anger and confusion and he stops going to work. they gave him a bit of a grace period due to the circumstances but eventually he got fired and couldnt get a new job and he thought about just taking ashe and moving out of that house out of that neighborhood maybe out of the city. but everything was too expensive and now he's got a 12 yr old who needs to eat and keeps growing out of his clothes and hasnt been to school in a year and a half and !!!!!!

so he starts. villain work. i dont think he really means to at first he might just. shut down a security camera here and there and make the lights flicker in a gas station and if there are a few extra snacks in his pockets whos to say. maybe he eventually tries to do hired gun work for some bigger villains and then moves to solo jobs and then gets picked up by overlord. (personally i think the overlord job was still somewhat new at the beginning of pd. maybe only like. a couple months to a year max)

ANYWAY he listens to vanessa carlton and thats just canon but i also think he likes shitty scifi movies and goes fishing for fun and finds being out in the woods relaxing (again. cabin) . and he does all the dad things in the car that we've talked about a bunch. and hes so so so paranoid and afraid all the time but he expresses that through anger but it comes from a place of love bc he loves ashe so much and doesnt want anything to hurt him ever and he just wants to keep him safe. head in hands. his methods are not good but also its all he knows how to do and i think he desperately just wants ashe to be happy and he wants to see him smile (even though it fucking hurts because he has his moms smile and her laugh and he looks so much like her when hes happy) and . take him on a weekend trip to the lake again. i think there was a moment halfway through season 1 where he saw how happy ashe was with pd and thought "maybe this is good maybe i can let him be a normal kid for a while" and then william dies and ashe gets shot and overlord has a hit on their heads and he doubles down because thats the kind of shit that happens if he lowers his guard for even a second!!!!!!!!!!! ughhhhhhhhh im insane.

um. also when he was just starting out villain work tide was still doing like active hero work and not a mentor yet and they were like rivals. smile. ("ive fought tide dozens of times and hes never spoken to me like that" << never going to forget this btw). i think tide was the one to tell him what happened at the end of season 1 . because. again. he was UNCONSCIOUS FOR THAT WHOLE THING. i think tide went to visit him in prison before he got depowered and told him everything.