#I think I'm ready for it(losing my mind)

[astralhope]

Rank 54: The true king of Numbers!!

[litchi-tea]

BRO HOW??????

[astellarrion]

So I finished Titanfall 2... No words. Absolutely no words.

I don't think I'll ever recover.

[the-pappu-that-cant-dance]

I've asked my family to watch pjo together with me tomorrow night, but I've probably overlooked the fact that I'm going to be screaming, shouting and crying at every scene

[sunlaire]

this show is killing me

[hualian]

one week until tgcf donghua season 2 airs, I'm completely normal about this 😭😭🦋🦋🦋 I'm not going to shut up about it I apologize in advance for the person I will be 😭🦋

[mercymaker]

also god it just occurred to me that astarion realizes mal loves him before she does herself.

like, obviously she feels something, a thing so intense and unfamiliar, but she doesn't realize what it truly is, she has no point of reference.

and when they return from cazador's palace, when she confesses how scared she was, how she thought he was going to die, how utterly terrified she was at the thought of losing him. it's astarion that has the "oh.. she truly loves me" moment.

and it's the juxtaposition of losing everything that day and that moment, the realization that he'd also gained something invaluable that eventually leads to his own confession later that night.

[pinnedangel]

yes closer by nine inch nails is a really hot song for regular reasons but to fully understand its effect you need to consider its place in the larger narrative of the downward spiral. your narrator is a man who, throughout the first third of the album, has just been through all of the events that kick off his spiral of complete and utter self destruction. the painful betrayal of someone he used to trust, which he cannot even admit to himself hurt him in any way. the utter loss of faith in a religion he was clinging onto, because he cannot conceptualize of a loving god in the face of the suffering christianity has brought upon him and the world in general. and lastly the violent subjugation that authority and society at large has used to pick him apart no matter how much he tries to please them. all of that leading into a song that on contextless listen mostly sounds like it's about desperate animalistic sex. which it is. but once you take those events into consideration, it becomes so much more clear that there is also the gorgeously erotic desperation of a man who is beginning to lose touch with humanity because of the violence wrought upon him, seeking to redirect that violence through sex in order to feel any sort of power. it's in how much the narrator emphasizes that the subject is "letting him" violate/desecrate/penetrate. it's in how much baggage saying that the subject brings him closer to god has when two songs ago he was screaming about god being dead because of the manipulative nature of his experience with religion, being brought closer to god now taking on the meaning of being able to desecrate her entirely. it's in the focus on the primal senses he's feeling, the desire to get away from himself and his sense of reasoning, when in the broader narrative this is the last point before the narrator actively starts to distance himself from humanity and become more machine than man. it's in the fact that when he says "you make me perfect," that is essentially the only positive thing he says about himself or anyone else throughout the entire album, and it is directly followed up with "help me become somebody else."

essentially, it's about using sex as a method of feeling anything pleasurable at all when you feel like you're at your lowest (and then getting even lower afterwards). it's about feeling like you are stuck in an absolutely horrific life where you hate every fiber of your being and are utterly powerless against any of the forces keeping you there, but the one thing that is holding you together and convincing you that you are worth anything as a person is the animalistic sense of power you have over someone else by means of subjugating them sexually. which. once you have context for them, all of those things make the song even hotter.

and all of that of course feeds into the reasons why, while closer is undeniably an incredibly hot song, the hottest song on the downward spiral is reptile. where the narrator, now having lost all humanity, returns to this same person because of what we now learn is (at least to him in his machine-state) her sexual manipulation towards him. faded behind the last chorus, you can hear him begging her to let him go, screaming no, even begging her not to hurt him in some live performances of the song. (i recommend listening to the woodstock 94' performance in particular to hear the begging and screaming better, but that's also because i'm normal about trent reznor covered in mud.) i could go on about this but i will save us all time and conclude with if you, like me, enjoy emotionally damaging freak sex as well as industrial music, you can and should be beating your meat to all of the downward spiral and not just closer, not because closer is not worth jacking it to, but because it is even more worth jerking that thing to closer when you know just how fucked up the sex they're having is. thank you and goodnight.

[anxious-witch]

I swear uni is one big science experiment and is made to drive anyone with half a common sense insane

[quatregats]

Morning update: Got up early, am packed and ready to fly, my professor is letting me submit the one paper for both his classes, and I have a nice long stretch now to sit in the library and finish my archaeology essay. So I think we will survive and be fine, and I will probably not be here until I return from India—just putting this so you guys know it all worked out, thanks for bearing with the absolute chaos that was yesterday :')

[keikakudori]

But also I'm going to be shoving this whole YOU CAN WEAR A GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING OUKEN INTO MY MOUTH AND EATING THIS VICARIOUSLY AND HAVING EVEN MORE BRAIN JUICE HYPER ZOOMY MOMENTS BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK YOU CAN WEAR A FUCKING OUKEN WHAT THE SHIT IS THIS LORE---

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

I FINISHED EPISODE ONE!!

AND AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FIRST OF ALL SEBLOS MY BABEYS 😭😭😭😭😭❤️💔💔💔 I'M NOT DOING OKAY, OKAY??

Also 😭😭 Miss you Seb, Big Red, EJ, and Nini :'(( <3333

Excited to see at least some of you again soon though xd

Lowkey Mike is slaying this season :D so far anyway lol

He's just funny 🥰 xD

Anyway slay new hair Miss Jenn :))

And AAHHHH Rina are so cute oh my GOSH don't even talk to me :D LIKE THOSE FLASHBACKS???! AND IN EPISODE ONE TOO!!?!

I love them so much your honor 🥰🥰 also they are so silly <33 my little babeys

Yeeeah I forgot for a few seconds that Gina's mom is kinda intense lol, from what we've been told. And now we're seeing it xd. I get the need to focus for your Junior year since it's an important year and all but :( I hope you don't take too much of that pressure onto yourself Gina D: remember to have fun :) <3

LOL y'all I love Emmy so far xD she's amazing

Ashlyn and Maddox 👀 hm. Interesting 👀

I'm just gonna say what I said in the tags of my other post: everyone in that room (Kourtney's) was gay

I was joking about Kourtney's obsession with Dani but like xD y'all come on. Also Carlos WHAT was that sir LOL

Oh and by the way Carlos saying he respects the feud from a reality show plotline perspective is KILLING ME!! XDD! Like, killing me in a sending me way, but also killing me in a stabbing me through the heart way :')

Also since when couldn't Seb have social media 😭 xD but also also. Carlos lol. Go visit him xD. You know where he lives LOL

And! I'm totally not stressed about Kourtney with Dani asking about Ricky :'))) Not at all :')) XDD lol. This is gonna be stressful and wild <33 xD

Anyway, I find the director vs director thing kinda funny because like. They probably took over some rooms when they started filming at East High as well xDD. But anyway lol GO MISS JENN!! Rooting for her in that <33

And AYYYY THE OGS ARE BACK!!! AAAAHHHHH I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH :DDD!! Actor-characters and characters lol. Also them all clapping at Ryan having twins on the way xD. ALSO RYAN HAVING TWINS ON THE WAY?!?!! CONGRATS DUDE LOL!! AND AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH OF COURSE THE ICONIC CANON GAY RYAN REVEAL!!!! :'DDDD!! AND RANDOM PENTATONIX CAMEO LOL!

Anyway I love them thank you :') xD

And AAAHHHHH MY BABEYS ARE BEING BACKGROUND ACTORS :DDD!! WELL FEATURED EXTRAS :DDD!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEM 🥰🥰🥰❤️🥳!! They living the Miss Jenn life :). XD!

I love the security guy xDD those bits were amazing lol

Oh and Ricky asking his dad if he's threatened by Mack is HILARIOUS LOL. And speaking of Mack, GET AWAY FROM GINA!! Also poor girl loving him and him being rude :((. Still though hopefully she gets a few good experiences with him, besides him like flirting with him or something lol :).

Okay I know that there's a 99% chance they'll be fine but I am genuinely worried about Seblos xd. I'm still dealing with the disappointment that Joe's not in every episode and you expect me to make it through this?? And I know we get Over Again but like also. We get Over Again xdd. It's not the most NON CONCERNING song y'all xD. Still though, while I love the angst, I really hope this doesn't last long 😬. Well like, too long - because it would kill me, and because I deserve Seblos together content lol.

Also there were so many amazing moments throughout that I didn't mention but TRUST ME I loved all of them, and I'm looking forward to where the storylines go :D!!

And lastly, THE SONGS WERE SO GOOD!! I know we didn't get too many but they were so great y'all :D. Amazing 🥰🥰. Also Ricky and Gina are amazing at making songs <33. My lovelies :p 🥰❤️❤️. That song was so cute 😭❤️❤️🥰 :D. I love them so much :)). And Dani slayed her song too!! Anyway, yeah, they were all great :)).

But yeah, I love them all so much 🥰🥰🥳❤️❤️😭 (good crying) <3333!!

Y'all this is already starting out good :)) I am SO EXCITED for this entire season :DD!!

NOW ON TO EPISODE TWO!!!

[tsukuhoe]

VIRGIN!JJK FIC RECS

something about virginity loss fics makes me sooo wet... req by anon ^^ adding onto the list whenever i find more <3 mdni, nsfw content!

gojo digimon—but making u cum is my real hobby - blkkizzat strongest sorcerer virgin - megumiluv virgin and unexperienced bf!gojo - fatal fairies number one sorcerer (and virgin) - inmaki nerds do it better - sugugasm virginity loss & riding - creamflix

geto reformed player!geto - akicult virginity loss & riding - creamflix losing your virginity to geto suguru - yasu-1234 his favourite - h34rtbeat just let me love you - sttoru salvation - puppykento inked - choslut

nanami she said it's her first time - classyrbf sins of the flesh - semisgroupie perfect lover: the life of nanami kento the 35 year old virgin (series) - kanekisfavouritegf

yuuji oh my god, pretty - lokissweater virgin!yuji x virgin!reader - nana-au bff & virgin!yuji - nana-au yuji x f!reader - ickyuji

megumi best friend megumi fushiguro - onismdaydream megumi's birthday - mommypeick first time having sex is awkward - wild-jackaloupe how to fuck 101 - chosok-amo i think i'm ready - romantichomocide95 first time - megvmijx

yuta that boy is mine! i can't wait to try him! - rosesaints gummy bear - loveanddeepdick right here - love-jelly smile, you're on camera - seraphdreams

choso virgin!choso - teasingchoso choso kamo x f!reader - jaegerdilf mind body and soul - admirxation cherry blossoms ( 1 2 3 4 5 ) - sellenite cherry smoke clouds - kleftiko he's such a (hot) looser - classyrbf emo boy - krys4h

toji sins of the flesh - semisgroupie

taboo crush - spideyyeet best friend's dad - nanaslut

sukuna virgin!sukuna - screampied

etc jjk!boys x virgin!fem reader v!rgin killa - screampied asking the jjk characters to take your virginity - nanaslut cherry popper - satorusugurugirl

[wackus-bonkus-maximus]

i gasped so loud and jumped out of my seat when i saw this because it's HER!!!!!!!!!! 🐝👑🐝👑🐝👑🐝👑🐝👑

binge read @wackus-bonkus-maximus​ fic odnlb in one sitting! Love it so much. Decided to draw what I imagine Mellona (aka Chloé) looks like! Very like Queen Bee but with a twist

comms open 

[hyperfixation-or-death]

Thinking about "But your brother is missing, so you need to tell us the truth!" "I did tell the truth!" from episode two, lined up against "Say that you never loved me." "But why would we say that?" "Hey, I said no more lies!" "But it's the truth, Victor." from episode six.

i don't know. incoherent thoughts. about dysfunctional parent-child dynamics. something about accusations and the absence of trust. something about how we're shaped by the people around us. something about cycles of blame. it's interesting.

anyways i am studying the deslandes family under a microscope.

[sweetnans]

Chaotic fem. reader/Best friend Bakugo

"I'm ready to be a mother," you stated out of nothing.

Bakugo was obviously taken back by your comment.

"Did you see something on tiktok that made you think that?" he looked at you while you kept scrolling in your phone. "You need a partner to procreate dumbass,"

"I know I need a man to procreate, but I thought that you could help me on that one," you bit your nails, showing less interest than a rock.

He left his phone aside so he could analyze you properly if you were talking seriously or not.

"I'm not going to introduce you to my side kick, He's like twenty," he tested.

"Twenty??? I'm almost twenty eight, that's still a reasonable age gap, " you gasped because his side kick didn't look like he was twenty. You thought that he would at least be twenty-three.

"No it's not"

After almost ten years of being friends, Bakugo was so used to your shit. The time that you wanted to go surfing? He laughed at your face when you didn't make it to the ocean because you were afraid of sharks. What about the time when you wanted a hamster? He said no, but you got it anyway, so when you lost it, obviously, he gave you shit about it, but after that, he was on all four looking for your little pet in the dorms.

"Fine." That wasn't your main goal, so you let it go. "Actually, I was thinking of you doing a quick hand job in my bathroom and giving me your sperm"

The silence between the two of you couldn't be more unbearable. Bakugo's eyes twisted in your direction while his cheeks were slowly growing a clear shade of rose.

"What? No!"

He was absolutely losing it. The impact of your sayings got him standing from his seat, almost panting. You and him? In his best dreams, but you didn't need to know about his secret intentions.

"Think about it. It's a great idea." You stepped out of your couch and went to his side.

"How are you going to explain that your kid has similar features with your best friend?" he flinched when you approached him. You were so close that your scent invaded him whole.

Bakugo was trying with all his heart and mind to think logically, but you, your body next to him, and your puppy eyes were making it so hard, in both ways.

"I don't know, and I don't care, I'll run away from the country, and you'll never see us again"

You were one of the best students from UA, right after him and Yaoyorozu, but right now, he was doubting if it was just an act.

"That's so clever." he rolled his eyes at you and walked to the kitchen to grab a glass of water, hoping that you would drop the subject and hop onto another like getting a bunny or going sky diving.

"I know, right? Now go in there, do the nasty job, and I'll put it inside of me, I'll even turn my body upside down so it sticks, " you jolted in joy, missing his usual sarcasm.

He almost spilled the water from his mouth to your face.

"Who the fuck told you that?" he spated obnoxiously.

"Kaminari," you shrugged.

"Are you even listening to yourself!?"

When he thought that that couldn't get any worse, you named the only person who could make him go crazy just by opening his mouth.

"I'm desperate. It made sense when he told me"

He could believe anything at this point. He was actually thinking that he was dead because what was happening between you two was a complete nonsense.

"So you are telling me this is something you've had in mind for a while?

You simply nodded, and he stayed quiet, considering everything you said. He wasn't looking for anything serious because of you. He passed for all seven stages of grief when he realized that he was in love with you and your silliness, so he decided long ago that he wouldn't date anyone because he wasn't interested in anyone but you.

"I know that look on your face," you smiled and danced around the kitchen.

You weren't looking for anyone either. Having Bakugo as a male figure in your life left the bar very high for others to match. They didn't meet your expectations anymore like Bakugo did, always by your side, laughing at your bad jokes and giving you his hand when you most needed, buying food and cooking for you, he has even bought you flowers for half a decade on valentine's day, a large bouquet of red roses every year since then.

"I'll do it," he told you, and you jumped excited on him. He grabbed you by your thighs, catching you on the fly. "Two conditions"

"Yeah, just name it," you batted your eyes at him.

"I'll take you on a proper date first, and you won't run away with my kid, got it?"

Bakugo thought that he was only doing you a favor, but he never saw coming that it only took one date to make you fall for him in the way he always wanted.