#I skipped lunch so I could work ;_;
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CW: unreality
Vent: kinda
I heard voices kind of in my ear today, I don't really know exactly why
I feel maybe it's happened before, but I couldn't give an example of a time that it has.
I pretty sure this was after I had gone outside.
My dad told me I should probably go outside since I like the wind a lot.
I went outside and my brother went outside with me. And we looked around. Because of the storm and hurricane that happened some things like leaves and branches were out. But it wasn't raining anymore.
My brother told me about a big piece of tree that fell near the neighbors house.
Then I wanted to say something about cutting down trees, but my brother kept telling me no. And cutting me off. All he wanted to say was that some peoples internet was out.
I turned around be he was already leaving.
So I just started crying.
When people leave like that it feels really bad. And I just felt like I did something really wrong.
I stayed out side for a while and I went back inside but I was still crying about it.
I did stop and I got back to working. We had school at home today.
I was just thinking to myself, but then I heard sounds that were like words in my ears when I was thinking. And I didn't really sound like thinking. But then it just stopped. It was pretty strange
I don't have this happen to me often or at all. So I'm not sure why it did. Or than that I've been pretty stressed lately.
CW: eating strangely,, in tags. I just didn't want to put it up there
#everything was fine after that. and i knew it would be. but it doesn't really help much to know. i just wait until it's over.#because i was at home. i wasn't sure how to fit breakfast into my schedule. so i never went downstairs to get any. so maybe it was because-#i hadn't eaten anything but skittles yet.#but later on. when i felt like i could go back downstairs again. i made a sandwich and had some chips and my leftover drink from yesterday#i also had a sandwich from American deli for dinner.#i hate skipping breakfast but i wasn't sure how deal with a schedule or setting change.#if i do end up missing breakfast. ill just eat lunch or a snack. i have some snacks in my room. i even had one later.#i was having a pretty difficult time this morning with my work. and i still didn't finish a part. but the last of the 10 slides is a game.#and you have to write about the game after. im not doing that right now. would be a very bad idea. ill do it tomorrow
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D&D 1.1
Hiya folks and welcome to Morning working her fist job as a camp counsellor for D&D!!
Detail are below the cut!
Introduction of player characters:
halfling life cleric who makes cookies infused with truth serum
half elf rogue who lost her nobility
elf druid who chucks stones at everyone
gnome rogue who has made a grappling hook
a changeling bard based on taylor swift (the singer, sorry dndads fans)
human artificer who got kicked out of his town for doing experiments with alchemy on people
the plot is that there is a war between two kingdoms and theirs has be DECIMATED. So their king tells them, "Go take my daughter to our enemy any an olive branch/sacrifice!"
The players already are questioning the king but are making so much of a rackus that they are taken outside by the Head Guard. The head guard tries to explain what hey need to do (take the princess safely, don't follow the main road, everyone wants to take the princess so they win the bounty, etc.). The players immediately ignore this and the druid decides to gently pelt this poor guard's face with pebbles.
I should mention that at this time, all six of these children talking over each other in my face. I loved the enthusiasm :)
The head guard gets fed up and drags them along to the... ok, i'm done trying to do this in paragraphs. it's point form time!
meet the princess (steal from her in the process)
the changeling wants to take the princess' identity for unknown reasons
leave in carriage pulled by donkeys (all horses and unicorns of the kingdom are dead. the best heroes? captured. these are truly the last resort of heroes.) and two guards with them
*10 hours later...*
the group is woken up (i forgot the mention they tied the princess' mattress to the top of the carriage so the cleric grandma could sleep) by a loud bang!
turns out the guards have been knocked unconscious and the wheels have been broken so the cleric fixes those while the rest o the party figures out what happens
the rogue shoots and arrow and the druid chucks her... trombone??? into the bush where they hear movement (misses)
the elf noble and bard sneak and find a goblin inspecting these items
they knock the goblin out
when the goblin wakes up, they feed him a cookie
cookie was a 5/10
the team realize this was a distraction
two guards/dudes (?) and their giant owl bear friend have taken the party's donkeys
combat ensues
I don't want to bore with details (and I need sleep) but all I will say is that last we left off, they have nearly killed all three and are about to drop one of the guards from 150ft above the owl bear who is partially frozen. Good on them.
:)
#dnd story#dnd#dungeon master#dnd dungeons and dragons#dungeons and dragons#i wish i could make a dndads referance but they are too young#dndads#the fact it was *that TS* and not *not that TS* broke my heart#these kids are so wonderful#full of enthusiasm!#im excited to work with them for the rest of the week#hopefully my sanity stay intact#crazy story#storytime#druid#rogue#cleric#artificer#bard#if anyone has ideas for challenges that work well for level 8 adventurers please send this way!#silly thing the kids did today: wanted to skip break and lunch just to play dnd! it was heart warming o know they were having a good time#and one of them made me a clover bracelet!
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#i have to say this somewhere or im gonna go crazy#so at a preschool. you HAVE to have one adult sitting at every table when kids are eating. and you also need a person in the hall#for kids getting their lunchboxes and going to the bathroom and shit ok. are you with me here. this makes sense#so today. my 2 coworkers had already taken the chairs bc i got caught up in the hall but i was so fucking hungry that i just ate standing u#which was fine. like i could just put my lunch down if someone needed my help and i Did that ok it was fine. no one was left alone#but later at SNACKTIME. it took me forever to get these 2 kids in the room and seated ready to eat & by the time i got in some kids were#already finished and ready to go to the playroom. so i was like ok i guess I'm not eating for the latter half of the day because they cant#be left alone. and my 2 coworkers at this point were sitting with the snackers and they looked fine so i looked after the Players#intermittently glancing to the snack tables to make sure everyone was fine mind you#So what happened here was.#There was a 20 second interval between the time i glanced up to see 2 adults at the snack table. And the time i glanced up to see#a completely unsupervised snack table. one kid STANDING UP ON THE TABLE blowing raspberries and pointing at the other kids#could not have been more than 20 or 30 seconds that i wasn't looking and NO ONE TOLD ME they were leaving the room#if i had been WARNED that they were leaving i would have prioritized the snackers and sat with them so no one choked and no one fucking#stood on the table#but they both just left for whatever reason without saying anything#and when i brought it up after school they were just like. well marty you were eating too much during lunch#next time you should eat before coming in to work so you can give the kids your full attention#??????? i already skipped a meal today for that exact reason?? how is it my fault that i don't want to starve?#am i actually in the wrong here because it's driving me FUCKING nuts. that was NOT a safe situation and it obviously can NOT happen again#but the issue was a lapse in communication not me wanting to eat food so i don't actually die#and those were two different times of day so they're not even relevant#obviously there are bigger issues in the world than this but i feel like throwing up over it. this was not my fault#I'm sorry that you guys can survive off of like 1 spoonful of granola and a single acai berry for the entire day but im not built like that
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#I just woke up from a dream about my birthday that's coming up#and this year this is one of the days that I'd wish that I could just skip#I originally planned to meet up with my parents for lunch#and then go grab a couple drinks with friends in the evening#there's gotta be few things as disheartening as going down your admittedly short list of friends and realising that they all either live to#far away or already have prior commitments on that day#I do realise that it's nobody's fault#and if it is it's my own for a) partially isolating myself#and b) not being at my parents' house this year#but I really can't do the latter#and the former sucks but I can't do anything about it until Sept 10#so I guess that's just it#nothing I can do about it#a couple days back my parents asked me if we could move the lunch part to after 5 pm bc they've got work stuff that day#which again#not their fault#but I just really can't shake the feeling of how much it sucks that this is the one day in the year where I would like to hang out w/ peopl#and none of them have any time#delete later#if you do know me irl please do me the courtesy of ignoring this
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my circadian rhythm needs to stop
#tried to go to bed at 11:30 last night#went to bed at 2#woke up at 8#laid in bed until 1#got up and ate lunch and did some school work#at this point i have skipped both of my med times#plan to go work out at 4:45 but i get sleepy around 4#decide to take a quick nap cause the gym is only 15 away#set an alarm and wake up at 4:30 but immediately go back to sleep#IN FULL CLOTHES WITH THE LIGHTS ON AND NO BACKGROUND NOISE#wake up at 7pm#work on some stuff buy a printer from facebook marketplace#it is now 9 and i have not eaten dinner#also do you know why i was so sleepy? BC I HADN'T TAKEN MY MEDS#MY DOCTER WAS SPECIFICALLY LIKE#'take your meds after lunch bc people tend to get sleepy after they eat and your meds will have worn off by then'#AND DID I LISTEN? NO#so not only have i not completed at the stuff i have to do for tomorrow#but i didn't work out like i wanted#and now it's too late to work out outside of the house#the only good news is that i have a newfound love of grilled cheese#i normally hate grilled cheese bc it's too bland#but i had really good grilled cheese today#gonna make it for dinner too#i've become a basic autistic bitch#anyway rant over#actually i could also rant about academia for a bit#but meh
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sometimes working together on a thesis is like *she cant do her tasks because she’s busy with following classes I guess there’s really nothing else she does* me: oh its fine I get it I’m busy too sometimes you know if I can help you with anything let me know:)) vs. *I can’t do all my tasks on time bc well i work six days in a week and spend three nights a week doing volunteer work and oh because my thesis partner is apparently once again busy with following classes I guess she dumped all her work on my lap* she: oh you should tell me next time if you’re busy cause these tasks are really important :/ you shouldn’t like let them wait so long
#like yeah bitch I know they’re important that’s why I woke up early Monday morning to handle them but if you remember. I couldn’t cause you#did everything you were supposed to do wrong:)) and#then I skipped my lunch because that was the only time I could make free to fix it but couldn’t :)) bc apparently you didn’t even do it#wrong you just didn’t do it you copied it from someone else whose task wasn’t even remotely the same:)))#and like I get that following classes is important I get it but I literally looked up her schedule she’s got at least four half days a week#that she doesn’t have any classes. I’m making literally every minutes I have time to do these things and she can’t manage to make some time#in those four afternoons???? so she dumps them on my to do them all in the one day of the week I got free and have also other things to do#which forces me to literally not eat and sleep to be able to do them????????#I’m so pissed our meetings are literally like me: ‘oh yeah I’ve got an incredibly busy week but I’m sure if I just work longer in the#evening and sleep a little less then I can make an hour free every day to do these interviews’#she: ‘that’s great that you can make time for that! I can’t cause I’ve got a class somewhere that day so can you do like all the work??’#like if she’s gonna dump me for the statistical analysis I’m gonna literally destroy all the data in my wake good luck doing the actual work#all over again next year#sorry I’m probably overreacting#she’s not that bad but she also needs to shut up instead of criticising bc I’m not doing all the work fast enough while she’s ‘so busy’ all#the fucking time#at least I’m doing the fucking work
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got neurotic and had to Make Lists so these are all things I enjoyed from this year (I only included books that came out this year and not additional ones I read but like if anyone is interested I have that list too)
albums
built to last - arrows in action
so much (for) stardust - fall out boy
pineapple sunrise - beach weather
the end - cody fry
retrovision - honey revenge
the good witch - maisie peters
the maine - the maine
the dark - the band camino
the feeling of falling upward - 5sos
sunday at foxwoods - boys like girls
something to give each other - troye sivan
live from atlanta - ben rector
books
ephemera - sierra demulder (poetry)
we could be so good - cat sebastian
once more with feeling - elissa sussman
spell bound - f. t. lukens
second chances in new port stephen - tj alexander
teach the torches to burn - caleb roehrig
#verrrry passionate about the books in particular this was my year of falling in love with ft lukens#i read teach the torches to burn in one day#i read spell bound in 3 days but honestly could have been one if i wasn't deliberately pacing myself (not staying up all night)#i also read we could be so good pretty fast but that one was while i was still working so it was a lunch break read#that's the first one i ordered from my local bookstore actually and now i'm their first member to fill out both sides of their punch card#picked up a book today that has a blurb from lukens and another book with a blurb from cmq so... good things coming to me :))#skipped making a sticky playlist this year but i've regretted it approximately twice a week ever since so i have to do one next year#might do something unhinged like add friends from very different circles in my life to a collective Book Discord#just bc like. literally none of them know each other it would be wild for me to do but i want to cultivate that energy for my life#idek if 3 of them are on discord so. they're safe... they are all on insta tho which would be arguably more unhinged
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tfw u show up to the dr appointment and you haven't eaten in like 48 full hours and they ask you about your eating habits and you say you fast pretty often in accident because your stimulant messes up your hunger response
and they just look you up and down clearly not believing you before starting The Weight Loss Conversation™ and get told that fasting will guarantee you weight loss
#God I wish#I've only ever been able to lose weight on extremely low calories#I can lose a bit of weight per week on a sub 800 calorie diet#I can lose weight at the rate expected of most people if I cut it even more#Like if I literally don't eat every other day on sub 800#Neither of those are sustainable#And they usually end up with me binging like the fat person people think I am#I'm currently maintaining my weight#I only drink 0 calorie and 0 sugar#I eat one meal a day at around the 1000 calorie mark#And I eat a snack around 100-200 calories around 3pm because otherwise I get nauseous#But I'm fat still so no one believes me#Man I've been fat my whole life#Parents put me on diets and shit from the time I entered kindergarten#When I was in third grade and only gaining weight they decided this wasn't working#And started making me just skip meals#Until I was 12 or 13 they fed me the same size portions I fed the 5 year olds when I worked at a daycare#I remember learning what kind of foods the kids at school hated at the lunch line#So I would have something to eat at lunch#Or I remember scrounging around for quarters so I could actually buy some food#I remember church having pizza parties and catering events#And overeating to the point of vomiting#Only to clean up and eat more because I didn't know how long it would be#Even as a teenager#Parents would order out getting nice steak meals#And not get me anything when there's nothing even at home to eat#Sometimes they'd eat out and they'd come back with like half a chicken breast and a pile of veggies for me#Most of my childhood I barely thought of the weight aspect#I just knew I was hungry and needed to figure out how to get food#As a teen I started eating like they said because I was ashamed and it still didn't make me lose weight
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finally asked if im allowed to take a lunch break (the answer is no)
#technically its yes#but i have to make up the missed hours later#and i dont have TIME for that 😭#he was like ‘you could extend your hours’ and i was like. dude i have class after this#and so then he was like wlel you could extend your hours another day#but i have class 3/5 days#and if i eat lunch on the days im here until 3:30 i would have to work an extra two hours on the day im only here until 1:30#which means id be here til 3:30 AGAIN and then i couldnt even eat lunch that day#or i could work til 4:30#which would kill me i think#anyway#i guess i need to start bringing lunch#or just keep skipping lunch like ive been doing#but im so hungry :’)#anyway im hiding in the bathroom again#im so tired and stressed i have so fucking much to do. why cant they just let me eat a bagel bro#he was like#bc its a part time job#but im doing the same amount of work as our salary reporter 😭#and she gets to work from home with whatever hours she wants#ughhhh
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debating if i should fake sick for tomorrows elimination to get out of going to school
#ive already missed two days this week hmmm#my physics teacher hates me i missed class and when i showed up today my partner and i could not get the lab to work#i am also many days behind in fashion and sewing is NOT my strongsuit so maybe i shouldnt skip#maybe ill just skip first block with functions and chemistry and come in during lunch#say i have a terrible headache or something#dabae's shit
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My dad was sleeping on the couch this morning so I forgot to grab granola bars for work cuz I was trying to be quiet 😔 im hungry
#i thought about driving over to the gas station to get food but if i leave the premises i have to clock out#which means id have to stay later and thats just not happening#not like its the first time ive skipped lunch at work#i mean i could still leave during my paid break and i dont think anyone would notice#but its already halfway done and i left my wallet inside#so eh#at least i finally got some earbuds to replace my headphones so i have music now#its making the day go much faster
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I slept 6 hours yet I'm still so freaking sleepy, common man I don't have time for a nap today I have plans >:(
#I have work and then my other job with the family business then im going to an event at the local game shop#I might take a nap on my lunch break I never eat during it#but i also have a meeting at 10:30 :(#I could skip the gaming thing but I know id just get roped into more work so id rather go enjoy myself
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hmmm so new job is going fine, it's pretty low stress. i have plenty of time when i get home to shower and chill out and eat an actual meal only i. just end up collapsing in bed and reading or falling asleep instead of eating. and part of the reason is cause once im showered im clean and it's a Risk to leave my room to go make food so i just. don't. and then i sleep for like 10 hours and have nightmares and stress dreams. hello
#is it ocd or depression or#idk week one i was fine but since then ive just skipped dinner more often than not. which is NOT good#also i cant shake the need for permission to take my lunch at work or for my coworkers to start before me.#also sometimes avoid using the bathroom for ocd reasons (this is ridiculous) or just dont think about it and wait if i only#have a little bit left of my shift (that can mean like. an hour or more) hello. what am i doing#i HAVE been eating snacks though which is smth i didnt get to do at my last job. some days i only ate a nature valley bar and crackers#or a packet of trail mix for the whole of the ten hour shift. drug reps often provided lunch so i could have a little bit of 'real food'#if i liked what it was. what the FUCK was that job#chronically dehydrated but sometimes didnt use the bathroom and barely ate. and then i came home and had a little snack. showered#for an HOUR cause i was so paranoid and then collapsed in bed.#typing this out is embarrassing how was it that bad#this time last year i legitimately felt like i was going crazy. and the dissociative symptoms started :')#hello????
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was literally about to cry thinking about school today so I’ve decided to take a mental health day. what sucks is I feel bad doing that
#mostly bc it means I have to call in sick to work (it’s only a two hour shift I have between classes but still)#I don’t think I’ve called in since I got covid in November so I’m hoping it’ll be fine#I’ve already skipped my first class bc I overslept and didn’t have the life in me to rush out of the house to make it#and then the idea of still driving up to campus for my shift and my next class made me feel awful#so fuck it. I’m taking the day off.#hopefully I don’t miss anything important#what sucks is I already packed my lunch and I just bought this month’s parking this morning#which I could have actually bought starting tomorrow and gotten an extra day out of it :/#oh well. I don’t think it’ll matter in the end
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Feral Puppy
Hyunjin x fem!reader
Warnings: SMUT MDNI
Genre: colleagues/friends to lovers, fluff, smut
Summary: Hyunjin has the hugest crush on you, and you've been trying to avoid any workplace drama. He's an idol after all. But what are you supposed to do when this feral puppy is totally invested in winning you over?
a/n: Sweaty Jinnie is a weakness 🤭🤭🤭
You sat at your desk, deep in work. The office was quiet this early in the morning, except for the rhythmic tapping of keys. You were so focused on your task that you barely noticed the group of boys passing by your little cubicle.
That is, until a soft thud caught your attention.
You glanced up, just in time to see a certain dark haired menace dropping a cupcake onto your desk - perfectly adorable with heart-shaped sprinkles, no less.
Hyunjin flashed you a wink that could make anyone melt. And you? You were trying so hard to not react.
You could feel your heart skip a beat, and you sighed in exasperation, your cheeks heating up. Felix who was passing by gave you a wink.
“Honestly, I don’t know if I should be flattered or embarrassed.” you muttered, and Felix snorted in response.
"A little bit of both, I think." He said, picking off a sprinkle and popping it in his mouth.
You couldn’t help but laugh, because Hyunjin had been trying to get your attention for months. He was always sneaking little treats or flowers to your desk, or winking at you as you passed each other in the hallways.
It was adorable in the most frustratingly complicated way, especially since you were colleagues - technically- and it was strictly against the company policy. Especially since he was an idol and all that.
But you still felt a rush of affection that made your heart ache. Hyunjin was too cute, and you hated that you had to keep it professional.
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It was just a little after lunch that you had walked into the practice room to have a word with Chan. You've been bracing yourself for impact, because you know what a feral puppy he could be sometimes.
The second you entered, naturally his head snapped around - he’d caught a whiff of your perfume. His eyes locked onto yours, and you could see the way his whole body seemed to tense.
"Down, boy!" Changbin barked, grabbing Hyunjin by the collar just as he took an eager step forward.
But Hyunjin just growled, still looking at you with those wide, pleading eyes.
"I just need to see her face," he insisted, his voice a little too dramatic, and oh dear, lets just say it hit you just at the right spot.
Felix was leaning against the wall now, clearly entertained.
"Bro, her face is your phone wallpaper," he teased with a wink.
The comment made you blush harder than you ever had in front of these idiots. Your eyes darted to Chan, who was supposed to be the mature one here. And now the said mature one was desperately trying to stifle his laughter.
You gave him a glare and he just shrugged, like there was nothing he could do to stop this chaos.
“Chan, are you serious right now?!” You hissed and he cleared his throat trying to regain some seriousness.
But before he could respond, Changbin was back at it, pulling Hyunjin back by the shoulder.
"Nope," he said, shaking his head. "Down, puppy, down."
You couldn't help the little chuckle that left your lips.
God, you loved him. It was undeniable. But there was no way you could get involved with him, not with all the rules in place. You just had to keep pretending that his antics weren’t making your heart flutter in the most inappropriate of ways.
"You’re such a menace, you know that?" You muttered, shaking your head at Hyunjin.
Hyunjin's eyes sparkled with mischief as he said, "If that means getting your attention, then I’ll gladly wear that title."
Your poor heart screamed at that, because honestly, you loved every minute of it.
And so did he.
A few days later, you found yourself staying late at the office, finishing up some urgent reports. You were surrounded by an ominous stillness, because you were the only one left working on your floor and it was getting a little creepy by the moment.
You sent your emails quickly, packed up in record speed and bolted out of your workspace. But as soon as you turned the corner, you walked straight into a wall of muscle.
You froze, heart skipping a beat as you looked up slowly. And seeing Hyunjin’s sweaty, disheveled face staring back at you, you let out a sigh of relief.
That didn't last long because this exactly was your biggest…undoing. Sweat soaked Hyunjin was a weakness you didn't even like to discuss with yourself.
His shirt was soaked through, clinging to his body, and you could actually see the muscles in his chest through it. His damn hair fell messily around his face, and there's a sheen of sweat on his forehead, making him look like some kind of god sent from another realm.
His wide eyes met yours, and for a moment, neither of you moved. You looked away quickly, absolutely embarrassed, but the damage was already done.
You could feel the string of control inside you stretching taut, ready to snap.
Hyunjin watched you with a predatory gleam in his eyes. Not aggressive. No, it’s playful - and so damn hot.
“Didn’t expect to run into you tonight,” he said, his voice husky.
You forced yourself to look up at him, and for a second, you both just stared at each other. Your body was screaming for release, but your brain was holding on.
You couldn’t cross that line. Not when it could ruin everything.
"I…uh, didn’t mean to startle you," you managed, your voice trembling just a little too much for your liking.
His scent is intoxicating, a mix of sweat and his cologne. And pheromones or whatever.
"Startled?" he teased, his lips curling into a smile. "You’re staring. Are you sure you didn’t come to see me?"
"I-I wasn’t staring," you stammered, but you couldn’t even look him in the eye. You were so aware of every inch of him right now - it was like the droplets of sweat trickling down his skin were begging for your attention.
"You're not fooling anyone, you know," he murmured, his voice dipping lower, sending a wave of heat shooting straight to your core. "You’re trying not to break, but I think it’s too late for that."
“Hyunjin-”
"How long are you going to pretend you don’t want this?" he asked, his words heavy with desire, making your heart race faster. "I can’t be the only one who feels it."
You swallowed hard, your hands trembling, your resolve completely gone. You wanted him so badly, it hurt. And maybe, just maybe, you didn’t want to fight it anymore.
Seeing that he has tormented you enough, Hyunjin pulled back just slightly, giving you a playful look that said, I’ll let you off the hook for now.
"You’re so annoying," you whispered, more to yourself than to him.
He just smiled, completely unfazed, wiping his forehead with the back of his hand. "Am I?"
The next few days were a nightmare. The lingering, burning tension that Hyunjin’s created between you two was literally frying your insides. And let's be real. Seeing him in all his sweat soaked glory, you were so unbearably turned on.
Seeing you at the edge of your own self control, has unleashed something in him. He knows you were just as interested. That little moment? He was holding onto it.
So you did the best thing - the only thing at this point - avoiding him. You asked Chan to meet at a conference room for a quick chat when it was necessary. Or you generally didn't venture towards the practice room.
You’ve learned to keep your distance, at least a little. And you hoped that Hyunjin wouldn't notice. But Hyunjin was not having it. No. He was making it his personal goal to make sure nothing went unnoticed.
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You were walking through the hallway, minding your business, trying to get to the elevator. You heard the footsteps behind you too late. You could swear you felt the heat of his presence before you even saw him.
Hyunjin, being the menace he was, barreled into you out of nowhere, pressing you up against the wall in a move that was so absolutely ridiculous that for a split second, you wondered if you were dreaming.
“What the hell, Hyunjin?!” you exclaimed, flailing as you try to regain your balance, your palms slapping against the cold wall.
You're heart raced and you glanced around feeling kind of dazed. But Hyunjin just stood there, smirking, totally unbothered.
“What?” he said innocently, his body still pressed against yours. “There’s not enough space to pass.”
“Are you serious?!” You flailed again, trying to step aside, but he just shifted his body to keep you pinned, making it impossible to escape.
“Oh my God, Hyunjin, move!” You were flushed, not just from the physical contact, but from the audacity of it all. You didn’t even know if you were angry, embarrassed, or completely turned on.
He looked down at you, his eyes glittering with something so mischievously feral.
“I know you don't mind, sweetheart,” he said, and you groaned internally. How did he keep doing this? The way he was so confident, so sure of himself.
“Hyunjin, please.” You tried to get him to step back, but it’s like he’s glued to you.
“I didn't even do anything,”
Oh the nerve!
You tried to wiggle away, but his arms came up on either side of you, trapping you even further. You’re caught, pressed against the wall with nowhere to go, and his body is all around you.
“Let me go, Hyunjin,” you breathed, but it’s almost a plea now. “There are cameras everywhere!”
His grin widened as he watched you, and said, “Oh is there?”
You let out a soft growl of frustration, realizing you’ve lost all sense of control. Your grip on his shirt tightened, and Hyunjin bit his bottom lip seductively. Your were trembling in his arms.
Maybe that was what he was aiming for, because he dropped his arms and took a step back.
You quickly scrambled away, muttering curses under your breath as you speed-walked away. And Hyunjin watched you go, that mischievous smirk never leaving his face.
“See you around, sweetheart,” he calls out after you.
Hyunjin has successfully invaded every corner of your mind that you had so meticulously disciplined against doing exactly that.
The teasing. The tension. Oh the need - it's been eating you alive. You couldn’t focus at work. You couldn’t go anywhere without your heart hammering at the thought of him.
You’ve tried to ignore it, tried to compartmentalize it, but the truth is - you were well past the point of no return.
And then, of course, it happens again.
It was another late night at the office - one you tried so hard to avoid, but here you were. You were discreet and quiet.
You thought you'd made it. That this time you’d escaped his clutches. But as you walked down the dimly lit hallway, your heart just started to race again.
Because of course, he was coming toward you from the other side. And he stopped in front of you, his hands stuffed into his pockets.
"Are you trying to avoid me?" he asked, his voice so low and husky, you wanted to jump off a cliff.
You swallowed hard, shaking your head as you said, “Why would I do that?”
Your voice wavered worse than a leaf in a storm.
“Just making sure you don’t get any ideas,” he whispered - his face was so close now that you can feel his breath on your lips.
You were so damn tempted to lean in just a little. You shouldn’t. You couldn't.
“You know, I’m waiting for you to crack, baby,” he murmured. “Just let go, you know you want to.”
Your heart raced and flipped and fluttered all at once, and you could feel the heat creeping up your neck. You tried to step back but obviously there's nowhere to go. But he followed, matching your every movement.
“Hyunjin,” you said his name so softly, a breathless sound that made his eyes flash with something darker, something predatory. “Please, just-”
But he was done playing nice. His hand came up to gently hold your chin, lifting your face so you couldn't look away and you were forced to meet his gaze.
“You think you can just keep running from me?” he breathed, stepping impossibly closer. “If you didn't want me, you would've said that by now. But you keep me hanging, and I'm just about done with that.”
And that was when you lost it.
Before you knew what you were doing, your hand came up to grip the back of his neck, pulling him closer. His lips crashed against yours, desperate, unrestrained. The kiss was hot, messy - all tongue and teeth.
And it was everything you’ve wanted.
He groaned into the kiss, his hands sliding down to your waist, pulling you even closer. His body was hard and slick with sweat, and you could feel the heat radiating from every inch of him.
His lips trailed down your neck, making you gasp as he kissed the sensitive skin just below your ear.
“Told you,” he whispered against your skin, his breath hot. “I knew you couldn’t keep pretending.”
He pulled back just enough to look at you, his lips slightly swollen from the kiss.
“I need to hear it, okay?” he said, his voice low and filled with promise. “Tell me you want this too.”
You looked at him, your breath coming in shallow pants. You were done pretending.
“No more running,” you whispered. “I want you too…”
And Hyunjin gave you a smile so radiant, you could die happily at the moment.
“Come on,” He said, taking your hand and pulling you away. “Let's go somewhere safe.”
A room next to their studio. Barely used. Kind of dusty. But it worked.
The minute you stepped in, his lips were on yours. He had you pressed up against the cold wall of the unused office, your bodies tangled together in an almost desperate need. Your hands tugged at his shirt, trying to get it off, and he didn’t even hesitate, pulling it over his head and tossing it aside.
His hands roamed over you, caressing, groping, pulling you closer as if he was starving for you.
“God, I love you-” He growled, his hands sliding down to your hips, pulling you into him. The heat radiating off his body and the feel of every muscle flex beneath his skin - you were blinded by it.
His hands were sliding up your sides, tugging at your clothes, as if he was hungry to see every inch of you. You gasp when his fingertips grazed the skin of your waist, as he took off your shirt.
"Hyunjin..." you whispered, breathless, the sound of his name escaping your lips like a prayer.
"You’re so fucking beautiful," he growled, his lips finding their way down down chest. His fingers pulled down the cup of your bra, as he pressed soft kisses around the flesh.
Your lips parted, but no words came out, just breathy gasps as his lips wrapped around your nipple. The soft scrape of his teeth on your skin made you shiver, and you couldn't stop the low moan that escaped from deep in your chest.
“Fuck baby,” he moaned against your skin, his breath hot, sending goosebumps across your body.
“Hyunjin,” you gasped, tugging him closer, your hands finding his waistband of his sweats. He groaned, clearly as desperate as you are, and his lips crashed back to yours. His tongue sweeped over yours, and you lost yourself in the kiss.
His hands moved down to your waist, his grip tightening as he lifted you effortlessly. Your legs wrapped around his waist, and you felt how hard he was for you.
He carried you effortlessly toward the desk in the corner of the room. Placing you on the edge of the desk, his hands trailed up your thighs as he leaned in to kiss you again. You couldn't stop the trembling in your body as you pulled him closer.
Hyunjin’s hands move quickly, pulling off the rest of your clothes. His dark eyes take in your body, pupils blown wide with lust.
“You’re perfect,” he murmured, his hands sliding over the exposed skin of your tummy.
“Hyunjin… now.” you said desperately, pulling at his pants again, and they're gone in a flash.
When he finally stood completely bare before you, the sight of him sent a shock of heat straight through your body. He was so beautiful - every inch of him.
His eyes never left yours as he positioned himself between your legs, his hands gripping your waist as he brought you closer to him. You felt his hard length pressed against you, and you whimpered softly at the thought of what’s about to happen.
“I need you,” you whispered, your hands running through his hair, pulling him in for another kiss. “Now.”
And with that, Hyunjin moved, spreading your legs and pushing into you slowly. You shivered as he filled you completely, stretching you out.
You gazed up at him, the beads of sweat (he was sweating again - again) trickling down the side of his face.
“Oh my God,” You whined softly, closing your eyes, and he grinned, a chuckle escaping his lips. He began to move, slipping in and out of you with every thrust. Your hands gripped at the edges of the desk, trying to steady yourself as the pleasure built between you both.
You were so wet, and Hyunjin couldn't stop looking at where you two were connected, and with a frustrated sigh, he pulled out completely.
You gasped and stared up at him, as he grabbed your legs and pulled you more to the edge and then, his face was in between your thighs.
You almost shrieked - because that was absolutely unexpected. He wasn't wasting any time, his tongue lapping at your dripping folds and nudging your clit. Your hand landed on his hair, pulling at it gently and Hyunjin hummed - the vibrations of it making you drip even more.
“Hyun… Hyunjin!” You moaned, as he licked softly over your clit and nibbled on it gently making your breath catch.
It didn't take long for your first orgasm to crash down over you, and when Hyunjin straightened, he had the most satisfied grin on his face.
“You're so sweet, baby,” He cooed and you were sure your cheeks were at least two shades redder than before. “I couldn't resist it.”
You laughed, a tired one at that and he laughed with you before stepping in between your legs again. He ran his hands up and down your thighs and you watched, breathing heavily.
“Can I?” He asked softly, and you nodded with a smile.
It felt deliciously good when he slipped in this time, and the rhythm between you was slow at first - tender - but it didn't take long for that to change. Hyunjin’s need took over, and he began to move faster and harder, his body crashing into yours with a force that left you breathless.
The sound of his body slapping against yours filled the room, and you couldn't stop the moans that escaped your lips. Every thrust sent waves of pleasure coursing through you, and you clung on to him tightly.
He was everywhere - his hands, his lips, his body - and you were drowning in him.
You pull him closer, you lips kissing down his neck - glistening with sweat - and you loved the way he moaned as you bit down right below his ear.
You didn't know this was such a turn on for you until today. This man did things to you that even you didn't understand. And you didn't mind really.
And you could feel that knot tightening in your belly again. Your eyes met, and you gripped him tightly, as his name escaped your lips in a breathless gasp.
Your whole body shuddered as you hit your peak again, and Hyunjin kept moving, till you heard him groan and pull out quickly, spilling all over your tummy.
You were both left breathless, hearts racing, tangled together in a mess of sweat and your releases. For a moment, neither of you speak.
Finally, Hyunjin gently cupped your face with his hand, his eyes softening.
“I love you, Y/N. So damn much.” He whispered and you could swear you've never seen him being this serious. Ever.
“I love you too, Jinnie,” You said, and your smile had him smiling. And the two of you were giggling and hugging each other tightly.
“I told you I’d make you mine,” he mumbled against your neck, pressing a gentle kiss there.
“Yeah yeah,”
The next morning, you walked into the office, trying to act like everything was normal. But as soon as you stepped in, the atmosphere just felt different.
You sat down at your desk, but before you could even open your laptop, Changbin, Felix, and Chan came strolling into the office like they’ve been waiting for you.
Oh they knew.
“Morning, Y/N,” Changbin said, his tone way too casual. “Sleep well?”
You forced a smile, trying to stay calm, but inside you’re screaming.
“Yeah, sure. Thanks for asking.” you managed to say, as you avoided making eye contact with him.
“I’m sure you had a very eventful night, huh?” Felix was leaning against your desk now, his chin on his hand and a toothy grin in place.
You dropped your head into your hands, already feeling the embarrassment creeping up. And then, you heard it. That sweet, chuckle which had you wanting to crawl under your desk and never come out.
“Hyunjin,” you hissed, glaring at him as he strutted over to you, like a damn puppy who’s just been given a treat.
And he looked so fucking proud of himself.
"Good morning, sweetheart,” he said, dropping that mandatory cupcake on your desk.
You didn't hold back the sigh.
“Oh my God, Hyunjin,” you whined, burying your face in your hands in defeat. “Please.”
“What? You think they didn’t notice?” he asked innocently, pointing at the spot under his ear, where he sported a very evident hickey.
Oh you wanted to die. Felix snickered, totally enjoying this.
“And you’re glowing love, it looks good.” he said kindly.
“Oh my god, oh my god,” you groaned, pressing your fingers into your temples. “Could you not?”
“You know we should have a talk about office etiquette. But then again... if it was that good…” Chan added, raising his eyebrows, a smile tugging at his lips as he glanced between you and Hyunjin.
“I’m going to murder all of you.”
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“ A HOUSE IS NOT A HOME ”
pairing: satoru gojo x reader
summary: you come home after a long day of work unable to find the person you call home anywhere — until you reach the bedroom.
warnings: 18+ suggestive, fluff, comfort, some angst, implications of the shinjuku showdown arc, implied gojo is no longer a sorcerer, gojo is your househusband, taking a bath together, taking care of him, copium really, satoru being a silly man
w/c: 1,184
“I’m home!”
You call into your home, the clatter of your keys and shoes as you shedded the things that chained you to the outside to submerge yourself in your oasis and into his arms. But as you got no reply, you stepped into your living room, scanning over the kitchen, to find no one.
Now where was your home?
“Satoru?” you called, heart skipping a slight beat, he was always waiting for you when you got home, usually on the couch or maybe in the kitchen the clank of the knife as he chopped away. Or even the many times that he was waiting by the door to only ambush you with kisses. But this time, nothing.
You rounded the corner to the hallway and peeked into your bedroom to find him asleep. You crept closer, careful not to wake him, and yup, he was fast asleep. His pretty snow white lashes resting against his cheeks, his chest slowly rising and falling as the soft sounds of his breaths parted his lovely lips.
You could watch him sleep for hours. You knew he never did enough of it before, and you’d argue he still didn’t do enough of it now. He always said he was fine sleeping 6 hours since it was twice as much as he usually got — and now he was working at home, so he could be ease.
But even so, you know he needed more.
As if he senses your thought, he stirs, starry blue eyes finding yours as he flutters sleep from his gaze, “sweetheart?” He’s murmuring, voice still beautifully raspy from sleep, “when did you get home?” He’s shifting to get up, but you use gentle hands to ease him back, “I haven’t started on dinner yet, sweets��“
“I got it, Toru,” you’re running your fingers through his hair, “just rest, baby,” and a protest is already on his lips, “let me guess what you did today — cleaned the house from roof to floor, stocked us on groceries, cooked lunch for me for the week, and probably a million other things,” you lean down to press a kiss to his forehead, “I think I can handle dinner for one night at least,”
He’s pouting now, “but you just got home from work, Princess, what kind of househusband would I be—“ and you can’t help but laugh, he loved his self appointed title of househusband, especially since it was one he had chosen for himself, and he took any opportunity — even now to call himself that.
“I think even the absolute best househusbands need a break, and should listen to their wives, since I’m the one you want to pamper so much,” and his lips party in protest, but you’re leaning down to kiss them and his pout away, “let me take care of you, Toru,”
He’s sighing, as he leans up to press his forehead to yours, “and does your offer include a bath, sweetheart?”
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“Y’know sometimes I feel guilty,” and you pause in your massage of his head, fingers tangled in his hair, suds from the bath you’d drawn for him covering both of your bodies as he leans against you in your tub, back pressed flush to yours.
“Guilty about what?” you ask, holding your tongue on the million reasons why he shouldn’t.
“For so long, I was the strongest,” he gives a small chuckle, “and it was fun, sometimes. But it was mostly lonely,” he leans back to look up at you, a small grin on his lips, “except when I was with you,” your lips curl, “and now I get to be with you, and I get to stay home — and the worst thing I have to do are the dishes,” and you snort.
“I told you I’d do them if you hate them so much,”
But he’s shaking his head, “Sometimes I think trying to deal with our cast iron is worse than fighting Sukuna—“ and you roll your eyes, “but there’s always this urgency that I have to be doing more. Telling me to keep going, moving, fighting—“
“You’ve done enough, Toru, more than enough,” your fingers cup his cheek, “too much, honestly. It’s okay to rest now. You’ve done your part—“
“But—“
“Didn’t you or someone say jujutsu is like a marathon, a baton pass?” Your fingers run through his white locks, before you shift yourself to sit in his lap instead, “the marathon is over, racers have packed up and gone home, and the finish line has been crossed,” your fingers rest on the back of his neck, tracing his undercut, “and that’s because of you and all you did to fight and raise up the next generation,” you say softly, and he’s pressing his head to your forehead.
“Is it okay for me to rest now?” and you’re pulling him into your arms, hoping your touch conveys what your words can’t.
“Yes, it is, Satoru,” you’re pressing soft kisses to his neck, “you don’t need to be the strongest. You’re Satoru Gojo, and that’s all I want,” and he leans back, “you’re all I want,”
“Is that a proposal?” And you snort.
“We’re already married, weirdo—“ and his lips find yours, as they always did, his arms around your bare waist, as the water shifted and splashed, but you could barely feel anything except his lips against yours and the circle of his thumb against the small of your back.
He finally pulls away, a genuine smile on his lips, “And you married this weirdo,” and you chuckle, tracing his jaw with your finger, “you’re stuck with me for life,”
“Promise?” And he’s kissing you again in an instant, stealing your breath like he did the first time you met him all those years ago at jujutsu tech. And you knew you’d never love anyone else — not like him.
“Promise.”
Bonus:
Satoru’s arms wrap around you from behind as the two of you towel off after your bath, “what are we having for dinner?”
“Well someone insisted on me being in here with him, so I had to order out,” and he’s grinning, as he nuzzles your neck.
“Whoopsie, hehe,” and he’s humming, as he tugs your hips against his, the friction drawing a gasp from your lips, “can we have dessert first?”
“It is dessert. We’re having ice cream for dinner—“ and he’s kissing you again, but this time it’s languid and messy — all tongue and teeth, until he’s pulling away with a smirk at your breathless face.
“I want something sweeter, wife,” and you smile.
“Think you can finish before the delivery gets here?” And he’s already picking you up with ease in his arms, pinned under him in a moment, as his ocean blues flash with mischief from between your thighs.
“I can, but I don’t know if you’ll be done by then.” He says cheekily, as you only sigh.
If there was one thing that would always be true is that you would always be weak to Satoru Gojo — but not his abilities, but who he is.
Your husband.
“Let’s see, hm?”
a/n: I’m real upset about the leaks and this is my coping. I needed this.
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