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the-banana-0verlord · 9 months ago

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Answer some or all I wanna know more about you 👁️👁️

Do you have freckles?

Do you drink tea or coffee? How do you take it?

What was the last song you listened to?

Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side?

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

Do you prefer drawing or writing?

What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with?

What’s your favorite band/artist?

When is your birthday?

How tall are you?

What color are your eyes?

Who are five (or more) people you want to hug right now?

Fears?

What’s your favorite color?

What’s your favorite season?

Want any tattoos? What of?

Want any piercings? Where?

Who is the last person you texted?

Do you have a best friend? How long have you been friends?

What/who do you miss?

How was your day today?

How much sleep did you get last night?

Do you believe in aliens?

When was the last time you cried? Why?

What’s your favorite decade?

What are some seemingly childish things you like?

What’s your favorite book? Or just one you’ve read a few times?

How are you, really?

Does it take you a long time to make decisions?

What are you looking forward to in the near future?

What are you looking forward to in the distant future?

If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go?

Do you sleep with your door open or closed?

What’s your favorite flower?

Do you currently have a squish?

Do you like your middle name?

Do you prefer dogs or cats?

Do you have any phobias?

Do you stay up late?

Do you like the beach? Do you prefer it sunny or cloudy?

What’s your favorite cartoon?

Tag 5 of your favorite blogs

Do you have siblings? How many?

Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?

Is there anyone you would die for?

What do you need when you’re sad?

Have you memorized your phone number?

Who’s someone you can trust with your life?

What does your last text say?

Wild Card. Any question, ask away.

Alright, ill try lmao

1.no, i dont have freckles!

2. I WISHED i found Coffee and tea good because its so aesthetic but it tastes bad imo

3. I checked my spotify and its girls just wanna have fun by cyndi lauper so i suppose its that

4.i move a lot but i usually end up on my side.

5. I move too much to sleep with a lot of them because they always end up on the floor. Although i do sleep with my malleus plushie.

6. Thats a hard one, because i do both. Though i think of writing as my primary hobby/eventual job, i definitely have more fun drawing(until art Block comes knocking that is)

7.depends on the thickness. Right now i have three eith two being thin and one being medium, but i could sleep with one really thick one.

8. Mitski!!! I love her so much. Otherwise I like mother mother and marina

9.the third of november!

10. 154 cm or 5 feet. No that is not short

11. Blue-grey-kaki. I like to think of them as blue.

12. All my mutuals, all my irls, my mom, my dad, and my little sister

13. Abandonnent, failure, the future in general.

14. Yellow and light blue!

15.fall! Its so pretty

16. Im not sure yet but i can maybe have someday a small tattoo. Im not a fan of qhoel body tattoos for myself.

17. Well my ears a pierced but im not gonna get more.

18. My two irls! Talking about not getting neuvillette in gneshin ;-;(and murder)

19. I dont have a best friend per se, although i do have a closest friend. Weve been friends for at least three years(already? Damn)

20. Honestly i miss my first mutual on here. I hope they come back soon ;-;

21. It just started but its been pretty good up til now!

22. About 9-10 hours?

23. I mean, there is bound to be other forms of life in space, just thousands of lightyears away.

24. Monday cause my friend said she didnt think we were friends.

25. Id say 1890 to 1900? Though the living conditions were meh i like the aesthetic

26. Generally being silly ig? I suppose i act childihs as a comic relief.

27. Currently my favorite book(s) is the Truly Devious series by Maureen Johnson! It's been clawing it's way into my brain.

28. I'm actually doing quite fine. I'm a bit stressed since i'm going to boston soon but i can push out the bad thoughts!

29. I usually procrastinate decisions as far as possible. If it's a small one maybe like 2 minutes but if it's bigger ones it'll take longer(with the answer being no a lot)

30. Something i'm dreading but also am excited for is summer! Bye school but hello summer job ;-;

31. My irls and i(can i really call them irls? i met only two of them irl and once or twice. anyways-) are planning a roadtrip after we're all 18(aka in a bit more than 4 years)!

32. Either my friend's (irls+ moots) houses or in paris. I've always wanted to see paris.

33.open, my cats need to be free to walk in and out!

34. sunflowers and roses(i have a list on the meaning of each rose color) daisies are also cute.

35. i...guess? i own a banana shaped stress ball(that is very dirty i dont use it much) but idk if it counts as a squish.

36. yes, almost more than my first name. although my first and second name are kinda in the same name. it's like first name-second name.

37.cats!!! I have two(named chicken nugget and nebraska)(my family also owns dogs but oh well)

38. I'm a bit scared of heights but i wouldn't say i have a phobia

39. i usually go to sleep at 10:30 pm on weekdays, and 11:00-11:00 on weekends(when i don't have to wake up early due to sunday class)

40.Although i haven't been to a real beach a lot, i like it! And i always prefer sunny days so sun it is(to experience sunset on a beach... must be the dream)

41. I'd say the owl house! It's so colorful with two of my main kins.

42. @xen-blank @thehollowwriter @quartztwst @boopshoops @saionjeans (so sorry for the tag non-moots! Also i would've included all my moots but it said five ;-;)

43. Yes, i have five siblings! One oldest sister, two older brother, a little brother and the baby of the family, my little sister. i have middle child syndrome.

44. Either my mom or my little sister. I hug and say i love you to them very often. Or i said it to malleus last. One of them.

45. Tbh i have no idea in which circomstances i would die for something. maybe if i could trade my life with someone's close to me. or for peace on earth idk.

46. a big ol hug from my malleus plushie. it's a real emotional support.

47. no i have not. or maybe i did. i will probably forget it soon.

48. my two parents absolutely.

49."I wish to expérience it someday" (speaking of old lady gossip)

50. can i send you the same questions? :3

#ok now enough ramblings about myself #banana's moots #bananaanswersasks

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puppyluver256 · 1 year ago

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Iiiiiit's that time agaaaiiiin, time to look back at the art I've done over the year hehe :3 I was so desperate to get that Taion pic done tonight so I could include it cuz I really like how the Mondo turned out o:

January - BIG SHOT | I'm gonna go over these and try to remember why I put them in here, so here's the first one. Uhhh, I think I was just really proud of how Spamton Neo came out, 'specially for my first attempt at drawing either form of Spamton seriously, as well as...whatever that technique's called where something in the front (ie. the Fun Gang/Sh-- Squad/Lancer Fan Club here) gets blurred to keep your focus on the Main Subject, that turned out well too c: February - On Wings of Golden Skies | I'm not the best at drawing complex birds, especially big complex birds, so Ho-oh looking as good as they do makes me happy considering my second main-series game was Gold, even if I was more of a Crystal player eventually. That and Bell Tower looks nice too :D March - Wave o' Babies | Oh boy. For something semi-serious made off the back of a dumb method of attacking one of the titular Teen Girl Squad gals, this was fuuuuunnn and cathartic. April - Winter Delight | Had some fun figuring out how to shade snow with my insistence on keeping my brush use more varied now :3 Also, was good practice for drawing black people with more realistic black features, just the lips here as lightened palms are kind of hard to see underneath mittens hehe. May - Frigid Coffin | Ice effects. 'Nuff said. Also Lief is cool, no pun intended c: June - Macaroni and Bees | Love how the honey turned out! Both in this art and in real life! Please try honey in your macaroni, it's Nice, also barbecue sauce but maybe not at the same time until you've figured out whether or not you like both. July - In Pursuit of Power | I'll be honest, I included this one solely because of the art theft fiasco, all to give said thief one last symbolic middle finger >:3c August - I Shall Not Bow | Textless version featured in this review preview, this one was chosen both due to how important the message was to me and also how I was pretty proud of how yahweh's stupid face turned out. September - Overcoming the Odds | Backgrounds, man. I keep improving with backgrounds and this one's a good example in my eyes. October - Team Snakemouth | I just like them okay!! :D November - If only I could hug you back | ...idk, I really don't remember why I picked this one, selfshipping ahoy? XD December - Hazy Figure | Taion best lad. Also, like I said at the start, I just REALLY like how the Mondo look here. Yeah, it's copy-paste of a single piece and motion blur, but it works so well!!

All characters featured belong to their respective creators, more information in the links above. All artwork featured © PuppyLuver Studios

#year in review #year in review 2023 #jess drew the thing

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nonexistent-1 · 1 year ago

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My horrible month with my exfriend

This is gonna be a vent about a friend who caused so much trouble for me during November. Warning: Suicide mentioned. Feel free to skip this post.

My friend told me that they were coming to visit me in November. I didn't say yes or no. They just invited themselves over like they own the fucking place. I wasn't keen on the idea because the past two times they visited, it was the same. We would get on each other's nerves. When they're over here, they would use everything I have. Sometimes they won't even ask and take it. When we were eating out, they would want to take a bite of my food for some reason. Or steal all my fries. I tolerated it every time. During Hypnovember, they said to stop coloring my art because Im "wasting my time." I didn't listen, it was difficult to draw around them. They would also buy specific ingredients to make something foreign. Half the times, they never use the ingredients and just leave it here. Every time they came over they wanted to be in cosplay and play their favorite arcade game. They went practically every day. It's always somewhere, where they wanted to go. I didn't get to pick any of the places I wanted to visit with them. One of the dumbest reasons they wanted to go somewhere a hour is away is to eat Chowder because the character they were cosplaying loves chowder and ate it at that city. The length they went to be like the characters they're cosplaying is crazy. There was something going on in that city and there were cops everywhere. That didn't stop them from not going. They wanted to go so badly. What hit my breaking point with them was when we went to the aquarium the next day. My boyfriend got a clam chowder with a bread bowl. The bread bowl had a hole in it. So he was plugging up the hole with the bread from the top that got cut off. I thought it was funny so I started recording it. My friend for some reason said to stop recording and to help them take a picture of them in cosplay with the bread bowl chowder. A. The bread bowl wasn't ready (boyfriend was plugging the bread bowl hole up) Also B. There wasn't any chowder in the bowl. So why the fuck do I need to stop recording to even take a picture of something that wasn't even ready yet. I was pissed. The aquarium was awkward. We went our separate ways. My boyfriend couldn't even go in because he was eating. While we were going home, I said I was hungry. My boyfriend suggested take out. My friend said there was food at home. To that I said that they sound like my mom. Which is what all moms say when their kids want McDonald's. They decided to go to the arcade, I chilled with the neighbors. Next morning rolls around and I hear my friend throwing stuff around and slamming doors. They were screaming at their mom about me. Saying that they wanted to hit me for comparing them to my mom. They also said they wanted me to kill myself twice. They also said that I was wasting money for eating out. They're being a hypocrite for spending money on specific ingredients and not using it either. That was their last day. They left in such a hurry, they left a lot of their stuff behind. They told my boyfriend to send everything back for them. I didn't continue doing Hypnovember. I was hurt. I wasn't sure how to cope with it. It took some time and I talked to my boyfriend's mom about it. I was starting to feel better. Until I got a package from the friend. It was handmade cookies, some stuff they accidentally took from me and a letter. The letter had the most backhanded apology I ever heard. It said they're sorry and then added a bunch of excuses and reasons they behave like this. They also included they were glad I wasn't actually dead if I did commit suicide. It was just straight up awful. They mentioned about another therapy session but I already sent him an email saying we're not friends anymore. I don't think I can see us as friends after all of that. We have been friends for years. They were okay when we were teenagers, but things aren't the same anymore. I feel like they gotten more angry and violent towards me. I feel like we're water and oil. Fights happen out of nowhere and the dread I feel when they're coming over was suffocating. I cried every time they lashed at me.

#Venting

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kelmcdonald · 1 year ago

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Indiginerds is Crowdfunding Now

Hey folks! First things first, Indiginerds is currently crowdfunding. It has made goal but we really want to get it to the 35k stretch goal as soon as possible. When we hit that, Iron Circus will be able to donate copies to indigenous libraries and schools. It will help indigenous kids see themselves in stories and it gets the indigenous artists in the book a raise. November is National Native American Heritage Month, so it's the perfect time to back something like Indiginerds.

November is pretty quiet otherwise. Alina will be a guest on Geekshow for a crowdfund end countdown on November 16th. And I'm going to do my usual streaming.

I'm still gonna be answering readers questions in comic form so, if you have one post it here!

Watching Wolf Guy last month turned out to be a bust because of technically difficulties. The full moon movie watch parties have been tending toward horror lately. So for a change of pace, next one will be a comedy. On November 27th at 5pm PST, please join me and some other fine folks while we watch Teen Wolf the movie (not the MTV tv show). Click if you want to join.

I'll also be doing my usual streaming

As always I'll be streaming art on Twitch. My schedule is currently the following:

Tuesday 8pm-10pm PST

Wednesday 6pm-10pm PST (changed the time)

Thursday 6pm-9pm PST (during the Iron Circus Geekshow)

Stop by!

The big thing from last month is I started answering reader question. Here's a look at it.

As long as it's not a spoiler I'll answer. So post any questions you got here

This month I'm gonna try to finish Blue Moon's script. My work load from Seven Seas is kinda light, so gonna focus on getting that out the door so Meredith can start drawing it. That and get ahead on The City Between.

After Blue Moon is done, I'm gonna write the next City Between story. It's called Glass Diamonds and will be about Rebecca and her next client. Shards of Reflection is about half way done, so I need to make sure Glass Diamonds is ready to go sooner rather than later. I've been fiddling with some concept art for it.

Once those two things are off my plate, I'll finish up the art for my werewolf videogame and get back to You are the Chosen One.

While doing all that, I need to sit down and build a crowdfund for Murky Water. I've been putting it off because there was a paper shortage. So the cost of printing had shot up. I was hoping to wait it out and I think things have settled down. Obviously they are still higher than last time I printed a book because of inflation, but it's as cheap as it's gonna get.

I was also waiting a bit because I wanted to see how the crowdfunding landscape shakes out. About two years ago I wrote about Kickstarter saying they would try out block chain. At the time I said I wasn't gonna use them and was looking into Indiegogo and Zoop. Since then, Crowdfundr and Backerkit got into the crowdfunding landscape and Kickstarter has walked back blockchain (sorta).

The problem almost all the non-kickstarter crowdfunds are having is no one browses their websites to find crowdfunds. It means all your crowdfunding success depends on the fanbase you already have and spreading the word on social media. But social media is currently falling apart. Part of my duties at Iron Circus is making the schedule for all the crowdfunds. So I've seen first had as social media referrals become smaller and smaller. Which makes crowdfunding harder than ever, especially if people aren't browsing the site in general.

I was considering using Backerkit which is what Iron Circus has been using lately. But I won't recommend them to the average creator. Backerkit gets around the no browsing problem by having a robust advertising service. Which seemed promising at first, but myself and several smaller comic artists quickly learned the Backerkit will only run those ads IF you've already hit goal. So all their promo help is designed around you already being super successful. Like after the first day, Backerkit turned off ads for Indiginerds and didn't turn them back on until after it hit goal. So while they are good for Iron Circus, who's projects usually fund in a day or two, they would be pretty useless for me. My projects usually fund in the last week if not that last few days.

Also, since I've built several backerkit pages for Iron Circus, I know that I find their back end UI obtuse. I lose a lot of time trying to find stuff when I build those pages. But if their ads had been more useful, I would have sucked it up.

As for Kickstarter's end of things. I said the sorta walked back using the blockchain. Basically, the guy who pushed for it was forces to leave. I forget if he was outright fired or if he left on his own. But either way, after that Kickstarter said they were still open to maybe using blockchain in the future but wouldn't put any resources into it until a benefit is proven. And since their blockchain plans were mostly all buzzword gibberish before, that means they won't be using it anytime soon. I'm still annoyed they won't swear it off, but that seems the best they are gonna do. So whole crowdfund landscape in my mind is:

But with social media falling apart and none of the crowdfunding sites having a lot of browsing going on, I'm like 90% I'm gonna have to go back to Kickstarter. It's really frustrating.

I also got to figure out what to do about international shipping which is it's own mess. The post office has been gutted so badly that international shipping has gotten wildly out of had. Like sending one of The City Between books to Europe now costs like $25. It's ridiculous. So before this crowdfund happens, I need to figure out what I'm doing on that end.

Anyway, thanks everyone for your support as usual! Especially those who back my patreon. Shit is rough out there for indie artists right now.

#newsletter #kel mcdonald #comics #webcomics #artists on tumblr #werewolves

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its-short-for-jackalope · 2 years ago

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greetings! i have made a thing! ✨️two✨️ things!

✨️ sketchboooooooooooks! ✨️

it took longer than anticipated (I've been trying to get this done since the end of last year, oops) but I finally finished putting these together today. all that's left to do is decorate the covers and start drawing in 'em!

they are slightly–moderately wonky and pretty clearly handmade, but I love them. gives em charm. these are only the second and third books I've made myself so I'm still learning.

if you're interested I'll drop a few more photos and babble a little about the process under the cut! (definitely not a tutorial if that's what you're hoping for lol i was winging it the whole time)

okay so we'll start with the little guy. this is meant to be more of a travel sketchbook.

I wanted something fairly small that I could take on the go without it being too much of a hassle, because I'm also hoping to get out more and like... go for walks to the park or the cemetery or w/e and try doing some studies and life drawing and such. or just get some fresh air and doodle while I make a valiant attempt to get some vitamin D.

THE PROCESS

both sketchbooks are made out of materials I just had lying around, but this one is even more "recycled" lmao

i took the inside pages from an old sketchbook, and about half of them had previously been used, so I went and erased my old sketches as much as I could (they were bad and low effort, so it's no loss I assure you) and that was a boring and frustrating endeavor but it was worth it because, well, I get to use the paper again! I did a very poor job the first time around, I almost never drew on both sides of the page and so many pages were just one shitty sketch and nothing else 🙈

i sorted the pages into signatures (tried to mix up the used and new paper because it'd annoy me if I had just like one big chunk of ghost drawings and then the rest of the book was good and clean lol) and stitched those together and then put just a couple layers of glue on the spine to hold it together.

I made the cover by gluing two pieces of thin cardboard together for each part (front cover, back cover, spine) to make em sturdier, and then I trimmed them down to size and glued the pieces to a paper shopping bag. I didn't have the patience to try flattening the cover under a heavy book or anything, so it's a little warped and will kind of open up on its own so I'm just using the binder clip to hold it closed. plus idk it looks cool!

once the cover was done and dry I just... glued it all together! added the end pages i cut out of construction paper to the.. chunk of book? the book brick? (is there a technical word for it when the signatures are all together....?) and then glued the other sides of the end pages to the inside covers.

now for the second book! the big boy!

this fella was intended to be the grand, improved follow-up to the first sketchbook I put together, and I started working on it right when said first book started running out of paper.

this one is the wonkier of the two but I think it's definitely a few steps up from the original, and I'm pleased with it. this is gonna be my everyday sketchbook, so I wanted it to have a ton of pages so I can use it for a good long while. I think it's at least twice as thick as my first sketchbook. 😂

THE PROCESS

...basically the same as the travel sketchbook, just bigger! the pages are sourced from a different sketchbook, one I started using in high school and promptly forgot about upon graduation.

fun fact: the end pages are covered in countless tiny little hatch lines that i drew by hand while I watched/listened to something on my computer. I don't quite remember what I was watching at this point, but it was almost certainly something from Starkid... probably VHSCC on repeat, since I did this part back in november/december. it might sound tedious but I shit you not I was thrilled to do this part and it was just a blissful neurodivergent turn the brain off and vibe kind of time.

the biggest difference in this process was doing the cover; it's not cardboard, it's some kind of particle board.. thing that was salvaged from the back of a busted picture frame. it is VERY stiff and sturdy and I did not cut the pieces out so much as score the board with my box cutter as deeply as I could, bend it back and forth, and pray it didn't break. 😅 the cover-cover is from the same bag I used on the smaller book!

most of the wonkiness comes from the fact that the cover is sliiiiiiiightly too small for the book brick inside. I had limited material for the cover so I couldn't stretch that at all, I made the cover as big as I possibly could, but I also did not feel like trimming the inside pages so that they would fit better because that would have taken FOREVER and also probably killed me. 😫 soooo the pages stick out a little bit, but that's fine and it doesn't bother me much. 🤷🏻‍♂️

and that's my two sketchbooks! finished em both up over 3 days after procrastinating for at least a month. and now that they exist I can finally draw again!!! been wanting to do that for WEEKS.

if you read all of this I hope you got something out of it, lol. whether you did or didnt, here's a skull for your troubles.

😊🤲🏻💀

enjoy!! <3

#jack jabbers #sketchbook #handmade sketchbook #crafting #crafty #bookmaking #book binding #crafter

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turoce · 1 year ago

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Seana’s 2020 art highlights (a thread)

(Note: this is a reupload of a thread i did on twitter a few years back. so these are really old.)

January: i didn’t draw anything complete that month.... closest thing i could find to finished is this art i made of my OC, Angelord. man. remember when i drew my OCs? [2023 note: it's..... funny you say that. you would try to start up an original comic for the entirety of next year.... not that it ever came to fruition.]

February: i finished Link’s Awakening that month. i drew Marin bc i thought she was cute. i wish i could get motivated to draw fanart of recent video games i finished more... this is probably the last proper traditional art i made this year... after this, it’s mostly digital.

March: look. i’m attempting anatomy... and i failed lol. i remember being like “how do you draw woman” after drawing this... i mean. i still wanna know how to draw woman, so i guess i haven’t changed lol. [2023 note: I STILL DONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW WOMEN]

April: wait NVM here’s another traditional piece i made this year. he was an adoptable i made... but nobody was interested in them so he’s with me for now. i’ll try and redesign them, either to sell them or to keep him. [2023 note: i never sold this guy.... i was lazy and nobody values points these days. probs for the best because scamming children with virtual coins is probably not a good idea lmao. at the same time, i wish there was an easy way to buy and sell designs+commissions without having to get a credit card or paypal or something.]

May: another month where i didn’t draw anything. buuut i did some plush sketches to reference so das dat. [2023 note: you'll probably be able to name most charas here, but who's the guy i drew the most? that's Matteo, he's a little pink vampire and i made him through Gatcha Life.]

June: ah. the month where i started digital art. this was fanart for my friend’s OC. i didn’t know a lot of features of digital art so it looks like shit LOL not the first digital art i made ever, but it might as well be. [2023 note: i actually received my tablet around 2018, but i never had time to draw on it because i had 1 hour of screentime every day. this restriction was finally lifted in 2020 (because online classes) and i finally had time to venture out into the world of digital art...]

July: i made a lot of stuff this month, but to shorten the list... i finished the plush of my OC, Matteo. i wanna make another plushie... maybe with Suitcase.

this was also the month i joined the OSC... oh hell. it’s been 6 months?? [2023 note: 2 YEARS BITCH. ITS GONNA BE YOUR 3RD ANNIVERSARY if i didn't get so tired and started to hate the community so much.]

August: ...ergh. lets get over with this month quickly... Object OCs this. Object OCs that.

occasional Algebians.

i do not like the art here... it really shows that i’ve improved. ok let’s get outta here. [2023 note: i fucking despise the person who asked me why "they were old" to my humanizations of the Dangos. this is why i refuse to join another public server ever again and might have contributed to the delay of my human drawing skills.]

September: lots of Taco II. i seriously liked her a lot. still do, but the love is a bit more spread out between characters.

oh. and i watched ONE that month. cool.

October: i finally found a style that i could weld. hooyah.

don’t ask why i drew my friend as a cat maid... i thought it was funny ok.

September: the month of gift art. nothing else to say, but i like the thin lines. yes, ‘thin’. ...god i need to think of better things to say. [i would then realize i said the wrong month, and unlike tumblr, i cannot edit tweets once published, so my only option was to delete the whole thing and start over. or just say this:] did i just say September... oh for fucks- no i am not fixing this i’m already tired of this just imagine i said November ok

December: best art of this year so far (doh) nothing to say. just... happy that i improved. can’t wait to improve even more.

[hey look! i was in the 2020 JnJ christmas video! thats me! me!!]

aaand, that’s all for this year! man, i thought i was done with improvement. i can’t believe i proved myself wrong. usually other people do that for me lol. lets see if i can disprove myself again in 2021.

#dalune recap 2020 #dalune recap

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alba8688 · 5 months ago

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Love hurts

Chapter 60

Word count:3718

A/n This is just a filler chapter ,also I had this chapter written since November of last year as a tribute to Mathew Perry .Based on the episode of Friends season 8 episode 9”The one with the Rumor.” But I might have change some things enjoy ..

November 22

Tomorrow was Thanksgiving day and everybody was hanging out at Steve's house planning who's gonna bring what..

Eddie was sitting down in the couch next to lyric's swing where she was sleeping Nate was sitting down on the floor infront of Eddie drawing while ozzy sat next to Eddie in the couch .

They where all in there own conversation talking about pregnancy and hormones because Dustin had found a magazine in one of the boxes Dani had at her storage where she had some of her stuff that was left on Eddie's van .

"Hey guys ." Dani walks in Steve's house with Nancy next to her they had gone to pick up some pizzas for movie night and Dani told her about the embarrassment they passed back in Indianapolis.

"Hey baby ." Eddie reply ,he stood up from the couch just to give Dani her kiss ."I miss you ."

"I was gone for 30 minutes silly ."

"But 30 min is so much ." Eddie whine attacking her face with kisses .

"Uugh you guys a disgustingly cute ." Steve pretended to barf.

"Ok,now that everyone is here Thanksgiving tomorrow at my house mom said so ." Dani look over Eddie's shoulder while he continue to attack her face and neck .

"Eddie baby stop ." She giggle

"I don't want to ." He pouted

"Later I promise ." Dani peck his lips and walk over to sit next to Steve .

"Guess who I invited .Remember that guy Dalton Colbert from high school?"Dani asked Eddie

"No"Eddie replied taking his seat in his same spot .

"He was in O'Donnell class...marching band...kinda overweight?"

"Wow! I don't remember him. Baby."Eddie was trying his best to remember who the fuck Dani was talking about and also making him a bit jealous inviting some random dude.

"are you sure you're not talking about your imaginary boyfriend?"Dustin chuckled

"No that was Jensen! Wow! I haven't thought about him in a long time... "Dani Stares off into the distance lost in thought.then she Pauses"Anyway, umm Dalton's, Dalton is here on business and he didn't have a place to go so I invited him here"

"Excuse me who is Jensen?" Eddie asked but Dani ignored him as if she hadn't heard him.She didn't want to have to explain herself why she invented Jensen only to make Liam jealous .

"Oh, and by the way, he's lost a bunch of weight. I mean he looks goo-ood! Okay, I mean really, really gorgeous! "Dustin clears his throat."I still love Eddie."

"Ok I was just wondering ." Dustin says chuckling.

"Thank you man ." Eddie crosses his arms over his chest pouting.

"Baby you know I love you ." Dani sat on Eddie's lap placing a kiss on the tip of his nose.

"Yeah ." Eddie whisper

"Only you baby ."

"Guys there might not be cameras here but we are still

Here ." Steve blurted out making everyone laugh.

"You told him?!!" Dani asked Eddie

"Maybe."

November 23 thanksgiving(My bday )

The next day everyone was at the Henderson home Dani in the kitchen with Her mom and Nancy preparing the food while Eddie ,Steve and Dustin are watching the football Game not that they understand what's going on .

But the three of them were cheering for whoever made a touchdown .

"Hey." Robin enters the kitchen holding a sweet potato pie in one hand and in the other leftovers of her dinner with her family .

"Hey Robs." Dani walks over to help her with the leftovers

"Hi Claudia ,Happy Thanksgiving ." Yeah Mrs.Henderson had told the kids they could call her Claudia .

"Hey Robin I'm glad you could make it sweetheart ." Robin smile and politely dismissed herself to go watch the game after having a long conversation about the ham her mom had send .

"So how's the game ?" Robin asked the boys

"I have no idea." Eddie responds still keeping his eyes on the screen

"What?"

"Yeah! I'm just pretending to watch the game so I don't have to help out with stuff."Eddie turnt to look at Robin then to the kitchen to make sure Dani hadn't seen him take his eyes off the screen .

"And you dingus ?"

"I'm taking care of lyric." Steve slightly pushes lyric's swing who is peacefully sleeping .

"I don't believe you!

"Fine,fine sit." Steve orders Robin Wich she listens

"Ok,so we are pretending to match the game so we won't have to help in there an every time a team scores we cheered you know ." Eddie explains to Robin.

"Yup ." Steve says popping the p

"That is...brilliant! And Dani has no idea?"

"Nope! Every once in a while I just scream stuff at the TV."Eddie tells Robin as a matter of a fact

"Yeah ." Both Steve and Dustin respond

Dani enters into the living room to check on lyric and the three boys scream at the screen as if something important happen .

"You guys really enjoying the game huh?" Dani asked

"Yeah."the three of them responded

"Is your team winning Ed's?"Dani asked raising a brow

"Yeah baby Romo just score a touchdown."Eddie turn to look at Robin when Dani walks out of the kitchen with lyric .

"He is not even there anymore and I don't even go for that team just research everything right now ." He chuckled

Robin joins the guys in the couch while Dani finishes feeding lyric then puts her into her crib back in Dani's room.

Knock knock knock

"Coming !" Dani shouts

From The hallway .

Eddie ,Steve and Dustin didn't even bother to open the door too afraid that if they did, Dani would put them to do something .

"Hey!" Dani opens the door to reveal Dalton

"Hey!" Dalton pick up Dani spinning her around

"Happy Thanksgiving ." Dalton tells Dani setting her down slowly .

"Aww thanks! God Dalton I'm so glad that you came! You look great! You must've lost like..."

"150 pounds. Yeah, I'm gonna be in one of those Subway sandwich commercials."Dalton joked making Dani laughed and Eddie wasn't liking that another guy that wasn't him or Steve make Dani laugh .Even though he was watching the game he kept his ear on the conversation Dani was having with that Dalton Guy .

"You wanna meet some people? This is uh; this is my Fiancee Eddie . Eddie , this is Dalton ."

"Hey." Dalton extends his hand to Eddie to shake but Eddie looks at his hand then at him and he feels like he isn't as good looking as this Dalton guy .

Well shit Eddie thinks .

"Oh hey. I'd shake your hand but uh; I'm really into the game. Plus, I think it'd be better for my ego if we didn't stand right next to each other."Eddie says plopping in the couch with his arms cross over his chest looking at the game .

Dustin and Steve both chuckled they love watching Eddie being jealous and plus this was fun they never seen Eddie act this way around anyone .

"This is Robin." Dani introduces them and Robin blushes hard if she weren't into girls .Dalton would be so her type but she was so into girls .

"This is Steve my best friend ." Steve stand up and shakes Dalton hand .

"Yeah ,you can shake his hand because you're both handsome ." Eddie says a little bit too loud and turnt his attention to the game again .

"And this is my little brother Dustin." Dustin doesn't stand up from his place but shakes Dalton's hand .

"Hey ,Did you know Dani and Eddie have a baby together ?" Dustin tells Dalton .

"I do actually Dani told me ." Dalton looks at Dani then at Dustin smiling .

"Yeah and they are getting married ."

"That I know too ." Dani knew what Dustin was doing he was protecting his dungeon master .

"Ok,Dalton you want to give me a hand and I'll introduce you to my mom ." Dani tells him

"Sure! Dani, I can't get over how great you look! You look stunning!"Dalton grabs Dani hand spinning her around to admire her .

"Well you look incredible too! You're just—you're so fit!"

"I'm watching the game, but I'm not deaf!."Eddie shouts from the living room.

Eddie clenches his jaw and closes his eyes trying to control himself because he knew murder wasn't right and right now he was about to murder that Dalton guy .

"Hey man you ok ?" Steve asked Eddie

"Yeah never been better ." He sarcastically said

"Hey man you know Dani loves you ." Steve reassured him

"Yeah I remember that dude used to follow Dani and the cheerleading squad like a lost puppy doing things for them ." Eddie tells Steve remembering how Dalton use to bring Dani coffee or her favorite pie at school or even help her with her homework.Yeah Eddie knew Dalton had a crush on Dani ."Even Robin is smitten and she likes girls ." Eddie pointed at Robin who was completely lost staring at Dalton.

"Yeah he is handsome but you have nothing to worried about ." Steve told him

"We have a lot to worried about ."Dustin said from his place "look at the guy He is handsome has blue eyes and Dani loves blue eyes her imaginary boyfriend had color eyes ,tall very handsome .Eddie lost concentration when he heard Dani laughing with Dalton and Mrs.Henderson laughing about memories .

Eddie might kill Someone tonight .

"Oh I forgot to tell you Liam is coming ."

"Liam is coming. Great! I love Liam!"liam had always been nice to Dalton when all The other kids treating him Like shit .

"So Cinthia." Dani saw that Daltons smile faded away as if she had told him someone had died.

"Oh" was all that Dalton said to Dani

"Is there a problem ?" Dani asked worried she knew her friend was a little bit on the bitch side treating people less than her but her friend never treated her like that .

"Nope. Uh, it's okay. It's just uh, God I hated her."yeah he did after how she treated him in school .Making him feel like shit when Dalton confessed he like her .Cinthia made fun of him and told him that she would never look at him or lay eyes on someone like him .

"What?!" Dani gasped I mean Dalton was always with them and he was always so nice to them and so was Cinthia she wondered if something ever happen when she wander around .

"Yeah, I hated her. She was horrible to me in high school. But hey, it was a long time ago, I'm in a good place, it might be actually fun to see her again. "

Eddie was listening to the conversation of Dalton and Dani and was surprised to hear Dalton Hated Cinthia maybe they did have something in common.

"Y'know, it's been a while since we've screamed something. Maybe we should"Robin told the guys who where as well listening to the conversation

"Oh ok." Steve replied

"Oh come on!"dustin shouts at the screen

"Noooo!! Damn you ref! You burn in hell!!!"Robin shouted

"Dalton." Liam enters the kitchen with Nate and ozzy by his side ."

"Liam"!

"Hey-hey you came! Man you look incredible! Hot stuff! "They hug and Liam realizes what he said.Hot stuff?

"It's good to see you man."

"Yeah, you too. Man, so-so what are you up to?"

"Well I own my own company was pass to me by father when he died just a bunch of numbers and stuff ."Dalton explained what he did to Liam confusing Dani even more since he began telling his story .

"Really? Yeah that-that sounds interesting."Dani says trying her best to rally for her friend but she didn't understand numbers and whatever he was telling Liam.But Liam seem to understand him.

"Yeah, it's not. But I'm rich and thin."he chuckles

"Oh! Man I don't think I've seen you since uh, Denise Davis' graduation party."Liam tells Dalton

"That was such a fun night!"

"So what do you, what do you do now?"

"Dani and I own our own company as well we started this app that help college students with there assignments and now we also offer messenger for them to communicate with each other even professors are using now."Liam tells Dalton excitedly about there company totally forgetting about Dani next to them .

"Hi!"cinthia walks in the kitchen saying hi to Mrs.Henderson Dani hadn't even hear when she knock on the door one of the guys must have open the door .

"Hey sweetie." Dani greets her

"Cinthia Lewis." Dalton glares at her

"Aw—oh, that's right. Are-are you gonna be okay?"liam asked Dalton ,he was the only one that knew about Dalton confessing to Cinthia and what Cinthia did to him.If Dalton only knew that Liam slept with Cinthia after him and Dani go separated Dani didn't know about this and they where hoping she never found out because it was a drunken night when Liam was crying for what he had done to Dani.

"Oh, I'll-I'll be fine. Just God I hate her Liam! I hate her!"

"Well, high school was-was a long time ago."Liam tells Dalton trying to make him feel a little better

"Look at her standing there with those yams! My two greatest enemies Cinthia Lewis and complex carbohydrates.."

"Oh my God Dani, who is that?"cinthia stares a Dalton .

"That's Will from high school!"dani tells Cinthia

"Oh! I do not remember him! Wow! He's really got that sexy, smoldering thing going on. "Meanwhile Dalton is angrily staring at Cinthia.

"Oh my God, he's... Look at the way he's just staring at me. I think he's trying to mouth something to me, but I can't make it out."Dalton mouths, "I hate you."but Cinthia can't figure it out but Dani did .

She wonders what happen with them two for Dalton to act this way .

"Okay, dinner's ready!"Mrs.Henderson shouts making everyone stand up and run to the kitchen to get a plate .

"Good game!"Eddie says wrapping his arms around Dani's waits placing a kiss on Dani's cheek .

"yeah really good game ." Robin says getting her plate.

"Yeah. Solid effort. Solid effort."Steve says going along .

"Oh, so who won?"Dani asks Eddie who was still hugging her and kissing her neck .

"Green bay ." Robin says simultaneously

"Giants."Eddie says simultaneously.

"What?"dani knew they where lying but now they weren't even paying attention to the damn game .

"Well the Lions technically won, but it was a moral victory for the Green Bay...Mermen."Robins rambles on who was playing along saying a different team name all the time .

Steve closes his eyes keeping his mouth shut because he knows Eddie and Robin fucked up everything already .

They sit down at the table and Dalton goes to talk to Cinthia

"Hi! Dalton, right?."

"Right."Dalton rolls his eyes .From the other side of the Table Eddie is staring at what is unfolding infront of him wondering what really happen between those two .

"Hi! I'm Cinthia Lewis".she flirts

"Oh I-I remember you."

"Really?! Aren't you sweet! I gotta tell you though, I am, I am having the hardest time placing you. Oh-oh hang on! Did we umm, did we fool around at Denise Davis' graduation party?"

"You are unbelievable."Dalton gets mad

"Thank you!"Cinthia smile at Dalton thinking he is flirting with her .She really didn't remember the guy she said she was never going to lay eyes on him and now look at her flirting with him .

As the night goes on Cinthia tries flirting with Dalton but He keeps giving her the cold shoulder until Cinthia breaks .

"Did I do something to you ?" She asks

"I don't know did you ?"

"Apparently you were umm, a little mean to him in high school."Dani tells her

"A little mean? You broke my heart into a million pieces and then laugh at my face saying you would never lay eyes on a guy like me ."

Eddie was enjoying this so was Steve and Mrs.Harrignton watching the show unfolding in her house .

The honest true was she never like

Cinthia always making her daughter feel down always depressing her because of Cinthia Dani lost alot of weight . Because of her Dani got sick .The only reason she accept her in her home was because of Dani because she was so blind to see what kind of friend Cinthia was .

"Oh my I remember now !" Cinthia laughs "your fat Albert !!" She cackles looking at Liam who just nods his head not laughing at Cinthia's joke .

"Cinthia!" Dani gasped covering her mouth .She couldn't believe what her friend was saying .

"Oh Dani please your gonna tell

Me you just hang out with him because you were nice we all use him for our needs ."

"Cinthia I was never mean to Dalton always treated him with respect ."

Eddie ,Steve ,Dustin ,Robin and Mrs .Henderson where enjoying their show while stuffing there mouths with food .

Nate was in his own world eating and listening to some music on his tablet waiting for his grandpa Wayne to get here.

"Hello family I'm home." Wayne walked in the house just in time when the situation was getting better .

"Jesus Christ ! What's happening here ?"he asked sitting down next to Nate

"Grandpa Wayne." He smirk his face stained with gravy

"Hi son." He placed a kiss on top of Nate's head."

'Dani got up fast making Wayne's plate she wanted all this show to end when did her friend turn to be such a bitch !

She could still hear them

Arguing but she was trying to block everything out then she heard something that broke her heart completely.

"If you're such a good friend why did you sleep with Liam while he was till with Dani !!"Dani walked over to the table giving the plate to Wayne then walked over to her seat next to Eddie .Eddie stop what he was doing and look at Dani who look like a deer caught in headlights .

"W-what?" She asked looking straight ahead to the wall.

"Dani I can explain." Liam told her

"Explain that you slept with my best friend while we were together Liam!!" She stands up from her chair closing her eyes .

"Dustin can you take Nate with you the room please." She says nicely

"Dani the coversation is getting good ." He whines

"Please Dustin ."Dani's voice breaking

"Ok fine.Nate let's go play in my room."

"Ok." Nate follows Dustin with ozzy walking by his side .

"This is better than those soap operas you were watching the other day Claudia ." Wayne leans to tell Claudia making her chuckled .

"Baby ." Eddie says softly now his jealousy completely gone and now he wants to kill Cinthia for hurting Dani .He knew she was evil but he didn't know she could do this to her best friend .

"Liam ." Dani looks at Liam who has a sad face .

"Dani it wasn't when we were together we had b-broken up and I got drunk and she came to see how I was doing and the next morning I regret it everything ."

"Yeah the whole time he kept crying and saying your name ." Cinthia says like nothing annoyingly.

Steve looks at Robin then looks at Eddie then at Dani who looks like she is about to kill someone.

"Before, I would have care because I was completely and utterly in love with you Liam but now, yes it hurts me a lot especially because you're my best friend Cinthia you never told me anything,you watch me and heard me cry so many nights telling you how I wish Liam would change ." Dani stops and catches her breathed "I need you to leave Cinthia." She says in a nice way trying to control herself .

"Really Danielle after I stuck here for you after you stay with the freak !!!"

"Excuse me young lady !!" Wayne got in but was

stop when Dani slap Cinthia right across the face.

"You can do whatever the fuck you want to me

But you would never disrespect Eddie like that because he is not a freak now I ask you Cinthia to get the hell out of my house !'"

“Holy shit this is better than any soap opera .” Steve says with his mouth full of food “can you serve me more turkey please ?” He passes his plate to Mrs.Henderson who is also watching everything unfold inferior her .

Eddie is just staring at Dani and he had never felt more flatter .His girl just defended him .His ego might have gone a bit high right now .

“Fine !” Cinthia gets up pushing the chair harshly making it fall to the floor .

“What did I miss !!” Dustin runs back into the kitchen

“The bitch left .” Nancy answers ,she had been quiet all this time listening to everything .

“Dani.” Liam starts but Dani stops him .

“Liam , it’s in the passed ok you have nothing to worry about .” And with that Dani sat Down next to Eddie and started eating like nothing .

Everyone stared at her confused as to what just happen .

But the true was that Dani already kind of had a feeling about this she just needed to confirm it.It didn’t hurt her anymore but what hurt her the most was the way her best friend lied to her .

Was that her best friend has always been fake to her .

But it’s ok she didn’t need that kind of people

In her life .

“Are you ok ?” Dalton was the one to ask Dani.

“Never been better Dalton ,I couldn’t be happier I have my friends and family here with me that’s all it matters that all I’m thankful for .”

Next chapter

#eddie munson #stranger things #love #lovers #hawkins #hawkins high #teacher crush #student #corroded coffin #eddiemunsonfic #eddiemunsonandreader #friends

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bl6ckr0s3 · 11 months ago

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Spiritual Awakening 2024

I never thought I'd be writing again here, but the therapy of writing never fails. Counseling doesn't work for me because they cost money and humans are disappointments if they aren't spiritual. God and Lord Jesus have been my best counselors. The most difficult thing I have had to endure was the death of my sister, Annica. The last time I spoke to her was when she was back at the hospital in West Covina in the end of November. I think I last texted her Jan, but the last time I spoke to her was the last time I ever got to hear her voice. My brother or dad never told me nothing, until I had a bad feeling and had to give my niece a text to ask her dad how my sister is doing. That's when I got the bad news that she didn't make it in the hospital. She was there to get a blood transfusion. I truly believed that since she gotten sick with Covid, it fucked up her body and her health was going downhill. I never expected to lose her now, I really thought she was gonna live another 10-15 years and that my 90 year old dad would pass b4 her. She was a great person just like my mom. Now at least she's reunited with her and the rest of the families and the spirit guides that have been with her for many years. She no longer needs to suffer taking medications and dealing with my dad's negative bullshit. Her funeral is this Tuesday, but sadly I can't afford to fly out there to say goodbye. I know my sister would understand and not hold it against me for not making it to her funeral. We were really close & she is spiritually powerful so I know I feel like I am somewhat closer to her now in spirit. Getting through the first couple of days of grieving was difficult, but the remainder of the week got easier.

I had 3 3-Question readings done with Cait because I have met somebody I never expected to meet. There was a drawing of a man that she did for me almost 3 years ago from my soulmate reading with Cait. She drew a photo of a man with a baseball cap, flannel over a t-shirt, and a small beard. I looked at this photo and told myself I generally never become attracted to men like this. I held on to the drawing though. This was right before I met Joshua and way after I had already broken up with Ricky.

During the beginning of the holidays, it started to get real busy at work. One evening I was gonna leave work and I almost forgot to put away my fan. I found a fan that still works that somebody left at the garbage disposal of my apartment complex and thought it was perfect for work. When they blast the heaters, it was so fucking hot that i couldn't work without it throughout the night, so I had to make sure I had my fan put away so that nobody would steal it. Right when I turned around, here comes a tall gentleman staring directly at me with a smile on his face. I couldn't help, but grin in return. I never saw this guy b4, and it hit me so fast. I didn't know wtf happened, but it hit me like a semi-truck. I looked at the guy and asked myself who is this guy? Where did he come from? Damn, he looks kinda cute. After the first time seeing him, I couldn't stop thinking about him after that. The next evening I worked, I would look out for him. I would notice he usually starts walking by around 10 or 11pm. During the holidays, the maintenance guys would come in 2 hours early. When I saw the same guy walking by, I held my position and kept watch to see if he would turn to look at me. As he walked by my operation, he turned to look at me and smiled at me when he saw I was looking at him, so I decided to wave to him. There was a couple of other times I have seen him while I been working when he was working on a machine, he would turn to look at me and smile at me then look away. I already felt his eyes and his smile call my name. I waved to him when he walked by and smiled at me again, then I started greeting him when he did the next time. I asked the Mike on my tour about him and he said that guy is Mike Myers. He told me about him before, and I thought it was cool that he had a celebrity's name as well as a horror character's name as well. So, the next time he walked by I asked him if he is Mike, and he said yeah. I introduced myself to him and held out my hand to shake his, afterwards he said it was nice to meet me and I said the same.

Referring to Cait's readings, I asked about Mike Myers and how he felt about me. I was shocked to figure that after the powerful connection I felt with this man, I thought back to the drawing that Cait did for me and realized that OMG, he looked just like the guy in the drawing. Mike had a small beard, he wears a baseball cap all the time, and he always wears a plaid flannel to work outside his t-shirt. After the first time seeing him, I couldn't believe how fucking cute he was. I knew he is married with 3 kids, but obviously this powerful connection isn't stopping either one of us from this passion and excitement we have for each other. Cait verified with me in the readings that I have captured this man's attention. Mike has seen me when I was on tour 1, but I never remembered seeing him, maybe once if I was lucky to catch him. I never realized he liked me from the very beginning and then showing up in my work operation during the holidays the way he did, it turns out he would come through there when he never really needed to just to try to get a glance from me.

I began to write letters to him & folded them into the old origami shapes that we use to do it back in high school. He definitely remembered that when I saw the letters and he read through them all that night. He found it interesting. Claimed to have 'red thoughts' from the first letter and the remainder was informative in which I poured out my history to him so that he knows where my family came from and where I grew up. I told him about the places I lived in, the schools I attended, what I went through growing up during my teenage years, and about my ex boyfriends. He said he enjoyed my letters and didn't mind reading more, so I make time to write to him again when I can. After I gave him my Google voice #, he texted me right away and told me I can text him whenever I wanted. That first night, we texted until 6am before I realized I had to go to bed. I am getting use to the patterns of when he normally goes to sleep and when he is able to msg me, but it's been pretty hot between us. I shared a ton of photos to him. Cait has relate to me about the similar situation that me and Mike are in with our current relationships regarding co-dependency & possessive behaviors.

Joshua has noticed that something about me is off for the past 2 weeks and he knows things haven't really been the same between us. Even when we moved here, I already felt like my love and affections have drifted away from him. I was honest with him a couple of times about how I felt about our relationship. I told him that he's not affectionate with me, he hardly holds me in bed or in public, he kisses me rarely, we don't hold hands in public, we don't really have sex much in the first place. I know it and Cait knows it that there are things about him that won't ever change. His possessiveness and the way he controls me and the way he's becomes annoyed quickly and the way he deals with people is just sort of negative for me to deal with for the rest of my life. I don't want to live with Joshua for the rest of my life knowing that that's what I'm gonna deal with. Now that I know that I have met the man in the drawing who happens to my real TWIN FLAME. All the men I have been with and thinking of the possible people who could've been 'the one' who ended up NOT, it took me 3 years for my manifestation list to come true. The list that I made of all the things I wanted my future man to be, I wouldn't have met him if I wasn't convinced to move here to Tennessee. Mike was born in West Tennessee and lived here all of his life.

I have been really happy since I met him and I was open with him about everything, my feelings for him, knowing the fact that he's my twin flame, and that we are here to help each other out and be there for each other if need be. We are here to help each other grow spiritually, whether we don't end up getting together or we do. I think I have found my MATCH. This is amazing.

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bluestar22x · 1 year ago

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A Young!Joel Miller Short Fanfic

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Summary: When you move in next door, you ask Joel and Tommy to paint your house. No outbreak AU. Sarah is in part of the story.

Pairing: Young!Joel x Legally Blind F!Reader (only other physical description is that she doesn't have cloudy eyes); Miller family dynamics

Rating: 18+

Warnings: Fluff, smut, no physical barriers aka condoms (not recommended), Joel taking things nice and slow ;)

Word Count: 5,300 (ish)

Author's Note: I'm not blind myself so I hope I did this justice. I do follow a blind youtuber channel so I've made an attempt to make this accurate considering there's varying degrees and types of blindness. I had to try since I couldn't get this fic idea out of my head.

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November 2003

"Sarah?" Joel called out as he stepped into his house after a long day finishing another construction project with Tommy, kicking off his boots by the door.

"In here," he heard her call from the kitchen.

He climbed the few steps between that room and the entrance way, finding her seated at the dining table, focused on coloring in something on white poster paper with colored pencils.

"What'd you got there?" he quizzed, heading for the fridge and pulling out a bottle of Coke, twisting the cap off. He turned to face her as he took a sip.

"Mrs. Henson assigned us science projects last week," she answered, not looking up. "Mine's on water runoff, you know? How the rain erodes and shapes land and stuff?"

Joel grunted. "Ya. We learned that in school too."

Sarah smiled slightly at his grumpy reaction and continued on, "I got the research paper part of it done yesterday and tonight I want to finish the poster."

"When is it due?" he asked her, walking over to study the drawing she'd made. More than a little bit of pride bloomed in his chest when he noted how realistic the land and water looked on the paper. She was a real little artist.

"Thursday," she replied, "But I wanted to get it done early, since Ava wants to go to the mall tomorrow - if that's okay? We're gonna take the bus together."

"Sure." Joel had planned on taking the next day, a Saturday, off to spend time with her, but he wasn't going to stop her from going out with her new friend just cause he wanted to spend some time with her. Ava was a good kid like Sarah and he wanted to encourage his daughter's friendship with her. It was a good thing for her to be going out with kids her age. She was nearly fifteen, after all. As much as he hated that she was growing up so fast, he refused to hold her back. She was already wise beyond her years. "Do you need any money?"

She shook her head. "I still have that money from dog sitting Mercy."

"Alright."

The Adlers, their closest neighbors, had hired Sarah to watch Mercy for a weekend last month while they were away for a family member's wedding in Oklahoma. She'd earned fifty bucks and as sensible as she was, she had of course put the money away instead of spending it immediately.

Joel wanted to insist he give her some money for it too, she deserved it, but he knew she'd refuse. She was old enough to know that money was tight. They were in a good place, but any big emergencies could easily mess that up, and Joel was also trying save up money for college for her. That she didn't know about.

"Thanks," Sarah said gratefully, getting back to work.

"No need, kiddo," Joel told her, warm eyes watching her. The wall mounted phone in the kitchen began to ring and he frowned before striding over to pick it up. Who would be calling at this time? His brother better not have gotten into trouble again. He'd wring out his neck.

"Miller."

"This Joel?" inquired an unfamiliar feminine voice on the other end of the line - yours.

"Yeah."

"Sorry for calling so late," you said. You stated your name. "I tried calling you earlier today but no one picked up. Guessed you were at work. Anyway, I'm a neighbor of yours across the street, recently moved in next door to Denise. She talked to me today and suggested I call you about getting the inside painted. She gave me your phone number. Said you and your brother Tommy painted her place last year for her at a fair price."

Tommy had been the one to set that small job up. It wasn't what they usually did, but painting was easy, and his little brother had been dating Denise at the time. They'd only been together a few weeks before deciding they weren't quite right for each other, but they'd remained friends ever since. Part of that was Denise throwing them job opportunities every once in a while. He wasn't sure why Denise hadn't given you Tommy's number though.

"You're in luck," Joel said, "We're in between jobs. You want the whole inside painted?"

"Yes."

"Will you have everything we need?" he questioned.

"I've never had a house painted before," you told him. "This is my first home I own. I wouldn't know what to get. But I did get the paint and I'll pay for all the supplies you need to buy, of course."

Joel asked you exactly which house was yours and how big each of the rooms were, if there were a lot of corners, any wallpaper to be taken down, etc. and you answered him in precise ways that gave him an excellent idea on what the job would cost you. When he gave you the estimation he could almost hear the smile on your face in your bright tone. "That's so much better than what the other painter was estimating. When could you start?"

"Well, I'll have to talk to my brother and get back to you in the morning," Joel said, "But we might be able to start tomorrow afternoon."

"On a Saturday?" You were clearly surprised by that.

"Yeah," he confirmed. "I got no plans. As long as my brother isn't doing anything either, we'll gladly get going on it while we're waiting for our next big project to begin."

They'd have two weeks. Plenty of time for them to get your whole house done. More than enough.

"Alright, then, I'll stay near a phone," you said before giving him your number. He used a pen to jot it down on a sticky note pad he kept nearby on a counter. "Goodnight, Joel, and thanks again."

"You're welcome," he said back, and he heard a click on the other end as you hung up your phone. He did the same with his.

"You're working tomorrow?" Sarah asked, disapprovingly.

"I got no plans," Joel argued. "Might as well help her out."

She blinked up at him curiously. "Who is she?"

"One of our new neighbors," he explained. "Denise recommended me and Tommy when she told her she needed someone to paint the inside of her house."

"That's nice of her," Sarah noted.

"It is," Joel agreed.

She let her eyes fall back down to the poster. "I'm almost done here. After can we watch a movie?"

He bent down to kiss her on the forehead and fondly tousled her dark, curly hair. "Sure thing, baby girl. Your pick."

It was probably going to be Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron again, but he didn't mind.

It turned out Tommy didn't have any plans the next day either so at one o' clock in the afternoon he met Joel at his house and they took the truck to gather supplies at their favorite hardware store before heading over to your house for two.

Joel knocked on the door, a step ahead of Tommy on the porch, and you opened it up a few moments later, a wide, friendly smile on your face, wanting to make them feel welcome. "Joel and Tommy?"

They both nodded. "Yes ma'am."

You moved aside so they could walk in and shut the door behind them. "Glad to meet you."

You raised your right hand to shake Joel's, just a little too high and a little too much to the left for a sighted person. You knew because you felt Joel gently grasp your hand and move it into a more comfortable position before shaking it.

You couldn't see it, but Joel and Tommy shared a glance, unsure.

"Are you...?" The younger Miller trailed off, not wanting to pry but unable to help himself. You felt him staring at your eyes with confusion, and you immediately knew why.

You nodded at him. "Yeah, it might not look like it, but I'm blind."

Many people not used to being around blind people without sunglasses on didn't know that many blind people had normal looking eyes like yours. You'd even had a few people claim you were faking it because they looked fine and you sometimes could pass as a sighted person to those who briefly interacted with you. You may have lost your sight, but you were a very capable person.

"That why you need us to paint?" Joel asked.

"I need you to paint because I have no experience doing it and I have a job just like everyone else," you answered patiently. Sometimes slighted people tested it, but there was no reason to get annoyed with either of them yet.

"What do you do?" Tommy inquired curiously.

"I'm an author. I write children's books."

You may have not been able to see his expression, but you still sensed his surprise. "Never heard of Helen Keller?"

"No, I have," Tommy stuttered.

Joel huffed at his idiot brother and turned back to you. "Where would you like us to start?"

"In the kitchen," you replied. "My parents and sister are visiting next weekend and I want to make sure the paint in the main rooms are all dry before they do."

You led them from your mudroom into the kitchen and your reddish brown Golden Retriever woofed at them once lowly before trotting loyally up to your side.

"Cute dog," Tommy noted. "Is he your service dog, or can I pet him?"

"Maple is my service dog," you stated, "But she's off duty and would probably love a pet."

You were glad he asked, even if it wasn't necessary in the house. Too many people tried petting Maple when out in public, even though she always had her vest on when she was guiding you. Some people just couldn't take a hint, or didn't care that they were distracting her from her job.

Tommy kneeled and patted his thighs to get Maple's attention. She darted up to him, happily accepting his affection as he scratched her behind the ears. "Hey, girl. Aren't you sweet?"

You glided a hand along the island in the center of the room so you moved a straight line as you passed it and stopped when you reached the end, picking up one of the paint cans you'd left there by the handle and flaunting it to him and Joel.

"This is the color I want in this room," you declared.

Joel took a few steps closer to examine the label on the bucket. "This is a bright lime green, you sure?"

You furrowed your eyebrows at his words. "Of course I am."

"It's just I've never seen anyone around here put a bright color like that on their walls," he explained. "I'm not trying to tell you what to do."

"I picked out all bright colors on purpose," you told him. "I can't see dark colors at all, but in certain lighting, like direct sunlight, I can see bright colors. It's really blurry, but I can still see those colors enough to like it. It's comforting."

You hadn't always been blind. You'd been born sighted, but a genetic disease had slowly taken your sight away and still was. Eventually you wouldn't be able to see bright colors either, but for the time being you could.

"Alright then." He backed off as Tommy stood up. "We'll get to work."

"If you have any questions, I'll be in my office down the hall," you informed them. "Writing."

"Sure thing," Joel said and you just knew he'd nodded out of habit at you. You hid a chuckle from him.

Joel and Tommy were good workers. Fast but competent and precise, just as Denise had promised you. In the week that followed, as they steadily painted your plain looking walls so they'd stand out, you all got to know each other a little more and more, a consequence of being in close quarters together, especially when they got busy painting your office while you were still in it.

You learned that Joel had a teen daughter at home, though he'd only turned thirty-six a couple months ago, and that Tommy was an Army veteran. Neither gave details on why he was already retired though. Maybe he'd been injured? You could only guess since you didn't know him enough to feel like you had the right to pry.

Since the Miller brothers were often at your home during lunch you started offering them a plate of whatever you were eating. Tacos, pasta, homemade fried chicken. They took some convincing, not wanting to make you spend extra money on them, but you assured them that it was fine, that it was all excess that would likely end up in the trash if they didn't help you out eating it all. So they ate at your dining table with you and you got to know them a little more.

Though Tommy was closer to your age, and they were both handsome sounding men, you felt yourself helplessly attracted to Joel and his gravelly voice. His attitude matched some of your personality as well. Quiet, observant, with a sarcastic sense of humor.

You found yourself dragging your laptop into whatever room they were working in so you could listen in on them, listen to Joel in particular, even though you typically hated people who eavesdropped. You couldn't help yourself, and if either of the brothers noticed, they didn't mention it. Maybe they liked your company too, you thought. A girl could dream.

It didn't take long for Joel to figure out you were someone special. Not because of what you'd gone through in life or because you were pretty, but because of the little things you did.

People in the South were known for being polite and kind neighbors, but that wasn't as standard as most outsiders thought, and you went above and beyond the standard measures when allowed to.

Like when Sarah knocked on the door Thursday after school offering some cookies to buy for the travel club she'd recently joined. They were going to New York in two years and she was determined to pay for it all by herself through the club's typical fundraising events. She was planning on getting a job in the summer too. When she'd explained why she was selling the cookies, you'd bought two dozen for fifty dollars without hesitance and invited her in to hang out while he and Tommy finished their day's work.

"Thanks so much," Sarah repeated as she sat down on a stool in the kitchen, not far from Joel, who was cleaning some brushes off in the sink. He easily heard everything you two were talking about.

"You can thank me by keeping about a dozen of those when they come in," you told her, also plopping onto a stool. "Anything more than twelve in my house and I'll get diabetes real early."

Sarah giggled. "Okay. I'll do that." She noticed Maple as she approached her water bowl for a few licks and beamed at her. "What a pretty dog. What's her name?"

"Maple," you replied. "She's my guide dog, but you can pet her. If she's out of harness, she's not working."

"Come here Maple!" Sarah exclaimed and the dog gleefully sprinted up to her. Sarah kissed her head and rubbed her body until Maple flopped over and offered her belly to her. Sarah giggled again and gave her what she wanted. "I love dogs," she told you.

"It runs in the family, apparently," you mused, probably thinking about how Tommy had reacted on the first day.

Joel himself had patted Maple a few times during the course of the week. His family had always been dog people, even when they couldn't afford dogs.

"Dad told me you're an author," Sarah said.

"He did?"

Joel felt your eyes on his back and heat flooded his face. He didn't want you thinking he gossiped about you behind your back or something like that. He wasn't that type of person.

"I write children's stories, so you probably haven't heard of any of them," you informed Sarah. "I have a series about a family of red foxes who have adventures together." You went on to give a few examples and Joel noticed his daughter listening intently, ever respectful.

"Sounds interesting," Sarah told her afterwards. "I probably would've loved your stories as a kid. Are foxes your favorite animal?"

"They are," you answered, nodding. "Red foxes in particular. They're just such elegant canines. And very clever. They may like chickens, but they tend to rather avoid people in most cases."

"Have you ever seen one in person?"

"Yes, I saw them all the time growing up," you replied. "Lived on a farm."

"Hence your mention of chickens."

You grinned. "Yeah. Foxes don't just like them in the cartoons."

"I can't blame them."

"Me neither."

Joel chuckled under his breath but didn't let it be known otherwise that he'd been listening in, getting back to work instead, leaving you two to continue your conversation without any prying ears.

He later found out when he got back home that you'd sent Sarah away with leftovers from that day's lunch to eat while she did her homework.

Of course you had.

By Friday night Joel and Tommy were almost finished your entire house, only needing to do a few finishing touches on the white borders in the otherwise bright yellow painted spare bedroom.

It was six o' clock and Tommy had to leave for a date, but Joel stuck around to finish the job.

"You don't have to stay," you said to him after his brother walked out the front door. "Go home and spend time with your daughter."

"We have plans to go hiking tomorrow," he told you. "But tonight she's with a friend and they're seeing a movie later. Won't be home until ten."

You nodded, not sure what to say to that. You didn't want him to work overtime just for you, but if he wanted to... "If you're sure."

"It's not a problem," he promised you. "Won't take more than another hour, if that."

He was finished in forty minutes, and was examining his work with a critical eye when you walked in to offer him a cup of lemonade. He accepted it gratefully.

"How does it look?" you asked him as he took a sip.

He grunted. "Bright. But the colors you picked turned out nicer than I expected. Do you want me to turn up the light brighter to see for yourself?"

"I can see the color in good lighting," you informed him, "But no matter how bright the light gets I'm not going to be able to see the trim. I'm going to have to trust you on that."

"You can," Joel said with a pause, "Trust me. With the trim, that is. There's no mistakes. We used tape to be sure."

You beamed at the way he was stumbling through his words, rambling. Something you figured wasn't in character for him, unless he was really nervous for some reason.

Would it be arrogant to think it was because of you and not your blindness?

It wasn't like you had men lining up to date you, but you were experienced enough to at least be able to tell when they were nervous because of your presence, whether that be because of your blindness or your looks.

You couldn't tell between those two reasons though. You were just hoping that after the past week Joel was used to being around a blind person.

You walked with him to your front door quietly, unsure of how to proceed, what was next, now that the project was over.

"Call me with the bill and I'll bring you a check Monday?" You heard Joel pick up the tool belt he'd left by the door earlier.

"Sure," he said quietly.

You reached out and grabbed onto his arm before he could open the door on instinct. You wanted to stop him and so you did. It was the first time you'd ever touched him. His arm was toasty warm and you could feel the outline of his bicep under your palm.

You could not see his eyes turn back to you, but you knew they had.

"Thanks for helping me out on short notice," you said in a rush.

"No need to thank me," he countered with a shrug. You dropped your hand back to your side as he continued, "We were between jobs. If anything, you helped us."

You smiled at his insistence. "We helped each other then. My family will see the place as I want them to see it, and you have a little more money to put into Sarah's college savings."

"How'd...?"

You rolled your eyes, but another smile played on your lips. "Any good father's got a savings for their kid, and you're one of the best."

"Sarah tell you that?"

"I don't always need spoken words to see something."

There was some silence after that. "I'd better get home," Joel said eventually, awkwardly.

You pursed your lips. "Didn't you say Sarah's only going to get home at ten?"

"Yeah, why?"

You weren't sure and would never be sure how you grew to be so bold, but that night you knew what you wanted and you weren't going to let him leave until he at least knew it too. "I want you to stay."

"Why? You got something else that needs to be done?" he inquired obliviously.

One thing was clear to you in that moment - Joel Miller hadn't been flirted with in a long time, or at least had been too busy to notice.

You stopped yourself from rolling your eyes at him again and instead placed a hand on the back of his neck.

"I want you," you whispered.

You felt him stiffen under your touch and the next thing you knew he was pressing his soft, plump lips against your own in a heated kiss. He pulled away moments later instead of deepening it, but it had gone on long enough to leave you breathing out heavier than you were before.

"Sorry," he apologized. "I shouldn't have done that without asking."

"I wanted you to," you told him, cupping his face and guiding it back to yours. His mouth opened and you slid your tongue in, sliding it alongside his as you let out a hungry moan. He tasted good.

His hands wandered slowly down the sides of your body, tracing the outline of it until he reached your hips and curled his fingers around them. "Is this alright, sweetheart?"

You nodded vigorously and leaned into him, desperately trying to deepen your shared kisses even more. He guided you to the nearest wall and pressed you up against it as he parted his mouth from yours to kiss down your face to your neck, nibbling over your pulse, and your eyes fluttered shut to focus on the sensation of his teeth scraping the sensitive skin there. "Joel," you mewled.

"You sure you want me?" he asked as he jerked away. "Shit, I don't have any condoms anyway."

"That's okay," you said quickly, afraid he was about to put a stop to what was happening. "I have an implant and I've been tested recently. I haven't been with anyone since. You?"

"Last test was years ago, but I ain't been with anyone since then either," he promised.

You believed him. He was so invested in earning money and raising his daughter right it didn't surprise you he hadn't taken any time to be romantic with anyone in a long time. The thought made you yearn for him even more. Nothing was more attractive to you than a man who put his family's needs before his own. Who'd do anything for them, no matter the cost.

You found his lips again and reached down to unbuckle his belt, but he shoved your hands away. "Not here," he murmured in your ear.

He led you down the hallway to your bedroom, kissing you as you went.

He reached to turn on the light in the dark room but you stopped him. He frowned. "That'll only allow me to see the blue painted walls," you explained. "I don't need that right now. Right now I just want to feel you. To see you."

He immediately understood, guiding your hand to his face and you moved your fingers over it to study him, to get an idea of the main features of his face, and he silently stood there and let you. His thick eyebrows, his long lashes, the laughter lines around his eyes, his sharply curved nose, his neatly trimmed beard, and those soft lips, now puffy from their interactions with your own - you realized he was even more handsome than you'd thought.

"Like what you feel?" he questioned a few beats after you lowered your hand to rest over his shoulders, like the other one was.

"Definitely," you answered. "But a pretty face isn't what's going to satisfy me."

He groaned softly and found your mouth again as you focused on taking off his belt, chucking it to a far side of the room with a clink of metal on hardwood as his hands slipped under your shirt.

"Can I take this off?" he asked.

"Only if I can unbutton yours first," you replied, fingers finding the top button of his flannel shirt.

He patiently waited as you worked on all the buttons then chucked the shirt and the one underneath away as your hands took to his broad chest. You only pulled away long enough to fulfill your end of the bargain, to help him remove your blouse.

He explored your mouth again, needy. You could feel the pent up tension underneath his skin, could feel the hardness of his bulge as he pressed you closer to him, his hands splayed widely on your lower back. He was near desperate for you.

You unbuttoned his jeans and slipped a hand into his boxers, running your hand over his length, giving it a squeeze and a pump. He lurched forward, into your touch with a loud grunt. "I can't take that," he panted as he stepped back. "Not tonight, honey."

The rest of your clothes swiftly found a place on the floor and you found yourself being pressed into your mattress by his body as he covered you and lit you on fire with the gentle touches of his rough hands.

Though he was clearly in need of you, he took his time with you, kissing down your neck and chest, sucking on and swirling his tongue around both your nipples, nibbling the skin over your belly, trying to draw out as many gasps from you as he could. He got a lot. The feeling of his mouth on you, his body over you, it was almost satisfying enough. Almost.

"Now, Joel," you begged.

You felt one of his hands make its way between your legs to gently spread them apart, to slip his fingers through your folds, and he pulled them back almost immediately, to examine them. "Damn, honey, you're already soaked."

"Been thinking about this for a while," you explained. It had been a long week.

"Won't make you wait longer then," he told you, and you felt his left hand go to the outside of your thigh as he guided himself slowly into you with his right one. He was thick, but not unbearably so, and you threw your head back onto your pillow as he perfectly filled you up, clutching at the sheets underneath you at the same time.

He held himself above you as he began to slowly pump into you, making sure you felt every ridge and vein of his cock as he dragged it along inside your heat, and you wrapped your arms around his impressive shoulders, tugging his head down to kiss him between the soft gasps you released every time he pushed back into you.

He built you up like a man with all the time in the world, taking every opportunity to caress you and taste your salty skin. And while you couldn't see anything in the dim room, you could feel his intense gaze as you chanted his name breathlessly.

"You're so pretty, sweetheart," he rasped into your ear. "Especially like this. Making those sounds. Saying my name like that. Need to feel you come."

He lifted one of your legs up, draping it over his elbow, and the new angle had you breaking apart with a loud moan, colors bursting behind your eyes as you convulsed around him. It was the best climax you'd had in a long time.

Joel continued to seek his own pleasure through your high, grinding into you a little harder every time he buried himself to the hilt, inadvertently prolonging it, not that you minded in the slightest. You kissed and nipped at his jawline and murmured to him as you tried to focus on the feel of him moving inside you. "Let go, Joel. I wanna feel it. Want you to feel this good too."

He gave you a few quick bucks before his body finally seized up and you felt him pulsing as he emptied himself inside you, as he gritted out your name and buried his face into your chest. When he did, you ran your hands up and down his spine as you smiled up at the ceiling, soaking in the moment.

You'd had some daydreams about what this would be like, but it had turned out even better, not that you were surprised.

Once he'd gone soft, Joel separated himself from you, rolling onto his back with a satisfied sigh, and you rolled onto your side to face him.

"This feels backwards," he said quietly after noticing and turning to face you too. "But would you like to go out on a date with me next weekend?”

You laughed. “Yes, I’d love to.”

“Good,” he said swiftly. “Cause I don’t want to leave this here.”

"Me neither.”

"I shoulda taken you out first, though.”

"I'm the one who started it," you argued as he reached out and rubbed your cheek with a thumb. You leaned into his touch, enjoying the sweet, unassuming affection.

"That is true." You were cupping his cheek with your left hand so you felt it when the edges of his mouth tugged back into a grin.

"I don't have any regrets," you told him. "You?"

"I'd be crazy to say I do, sweetheart," Joel replied. "It would be more than a little white lie. I haven't thought about being with someone like this in a long time, almost forgot why I like it so much. You've really jogged my memory."

You snorted at that and draped an arm over his chest. "Can you stay for a while?"

"Still got a few hours before that movie ends," Joel said, pulling you even closer. "I could use a nap if you set an alarm."

"Gladly," you told him, reaching over to the nightstand for your alarm. After you were finished with the task, he dragged you back into his embrace and you both fell asleep just like that, in the comfort of each other’s warmth.

It was the first of many nights that would end that way for you both.

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