#I reject that binary! 😊

[stellaluna33]

She's a conundrum, that Rory. Because on the one hand, she has struggled with fidelity multiple times over the course of the show, but I can't call her "fickle" either, because she ALSO tends to STAY with people to a fault, even when she probably SHOULDN'T. She sometimes strays, but she can't LEAVE. Part of her general difficulty to make decisions, possibly...

[pooplyface1423]

Tsudere /sub Jax that pretends to hate the reader but does things to secretly be with them x a fem happy but smart Uzadere that loves being in the circus.She loves adventures,animals,cute things,fighting,food ect! lots of energy too but can be pretty insensitive and a little selfish with a little crush on jax. I feel like at first jax would completely reject liking her then he would be extra mean,then Maybe subconsciously know he likes her amd hates the feeling lol. cus he copes by trying to not have feelings and tries to act "tough". its pretty obvious that the reader is in love with him but his dumb ass cant catch on . She gives lots of compliments which makes him flustered and mad ( he is mad bc he thinks nobody likes him that much, he is mean to her to make her go away but it doesn't work ) but he pretends not to care. the reader would definitely confesses first tho. Sorry for such a long request its just that not many people write jax in this sorta way so i had to be detailed lol. also if you don't wanna use female pronouns you can make it non gender ofc 😅tysm for even reading such a long thing! and you don't have to do this at all lr you can switch it up. Anything is VERY appreciated tho😊

DUDE this question was long but its a very good one so lemme write it.:]

Warning: Kissing (just like one but still) CRINGEEE and that it.

also Y/N is female just so ya'll know but not a lot is said about her gender here so could be non binary.

Lil backstory : When You first got here it was around 7 months before pomni gets into the circus. your reactions to seeing all the supposed people was terrifying u were laughing your brains of since u thought it was all just a big prank but once u realized it was real u were just stunned. I mean u were still amazed like wow i'm in a virtual reality type of reaction. And about what u look like idk that up to yourself but lets say Ur like a type of animal could be a cat or something else. U were always ecstatic to be in the circus and everybody even Caine were surprised. Like it not everyday in this virtual reality u see a person who is more than happy to be there. (also i'm not really gonna add Kaufmo since their is little to no info bout him)

Okay now to the good stuff

So really your weren't stupid to not notice how Jax would occasionally "look ur way to see something else" nor to notice how differently he treated u compared to the others. Either he would go out of his way to be nice or mean to you.

You were chatting bout random nonsense with zooble when she said

"Hey Y/n do you see how much of a dumb### Jax's looks like just looking at you"Looking at you then at Jax then at you.

"no lemme check"You turned around to see jax looking away from you to above you? yea he was doing the "look ur way to see something else" crap again.

"ugh it starting to annoy me" Says Zooble wanting to stand up and start to beat the crap out of Jax but thankfully u stopped her then said

"hey its okay he may be weird and all but we got to be used to this anyway where stuck here"

"but he does like you Y/n we can all see it in his eyes" Says Ragatha entering the conversation

"yea ragatha is right how bout we make a plan to you know um- make him confess he like you" says zooble looking at you waiting for an answer.

Then u spoke up

"Sure i guess but knowing him he would never confess"

"Ugh lets head to my room to discuss the plan" says ragatha getting up

You three walk all he way to the room corridors and enter Ragatha's Room and discus how you would get Jax to confess his feelings to you.

"Okay so how should we do this" says Ragatha with some confusion in her face

"Well we know that Jax is a very Um- how should I say this es stupid and lets just say hes like a little puppy who follows you around" Says zooble before you with shook face say

"WAIT what is that supposed to mean I never see him trailing behind me"

"He does he always trails behind you buts ur either dumb or blind since u never see him literary behind u. ALL THE TIME" Says Zooble

"Well um- we should get started with the plan and stop taking bout how Jax is a little twerp" Says Ragatha with a bit of an annoyed face splatted in her face

"Okay okay well first of all since we know Jax is like a little dog with nothing else to do than follow Y/n we should..........."Says Zooble spilling out what the plan would be about.

Well basically the plan is make Jax follow u around Y/n complements Jax every time he does something for her even the smallest of things like letting u have the first of anything picking up flowers for u,him pranking u and much more.

Everything was going according to the plan Jax being Jax follows you around and sneaks up on you with a centepied (which ur scared of) and lands it right besides u trying to get a scared yelp from u but instead u just threw it away and said

"Jax u little bad bunny don't do that again" while pinching his cheek just slightly

"~wait you aren't mad?" Says Jax while becoming a blushing mess

"no of course not bunny boy come on lets go outside"

you two go outside and jax keeps trying to make your way there horrible by trying to trip ur feet over and over again but failing miserably.

Once you both are by the lake you start to look around and see Zooble and Ragatha watching impatiently.

"So what are we doing here again?" says Jax

"nothing much just .. Taking in some fresh air i guess"

"Y/n there is no fresh air here u know that right?" says Jax with a serious face

"Oh um i meant like ..... space apart of everyone"

"ok i guess then what should we do?" says Jax with a sly smile appearing in his face

"how about we go on the tea cups?"

"whatever you want toots" says Jax

Both spend 2 hours trying all the rides over and over, Jax never saying crap

As the day ends in the digital realm first comes the digital dinner the classic chicken and veggies.

After that, Caine suggested that you all play a quick game, and with no other option, everybody agrees.

HIDE & SEEK

"yay i guess" says zooble clearly annoyed they have to do this activity even tho it is fun she wants her alone

After the game which took around 30 min like damn these dudes have great hiding spots ,Caine gave everybody the green light to finally have there alone time/sleep

"UGH finally" Zooble before walking up to you

"Hey Y/n did Jax say anything to you?" Says Zooble quickly before she forgets about it

"No ... what should we do?"

"Hey idk bout you but i would of totally just make the first move at this point"Says Ragatha walking up to you both of you

"Well she has a point" "bout what?" "bout how you should def make the first move now since his dumb##s won't do S#it"

"okay I'll try but do i have to do it in front of u all or do i wait for everybody to leave?"

"Um okay new plan......." Says zooble making the new plan

Basically make gangle distract Jax long enough for everybody to leave to there rooms then gangle runs away, Then y/n will sneak up on Jax and spill the beans herself.

Everything went accordingly as planed gangle ran away just as she noticed everybody gone. Then Jax shrugs it of and slowly walks up to his room until...

"Hey Jax" "what do you want?" "not much just wanna talk to you...bout something"

"bout what dollfac-"

He says before being interrupted by a kiss

"does that answer ur question?"

"UM what was that?"... bb-but i guess it does"

"that's great! its official were dating"

"Wait WHAT!?" says Jax surprised as hell

"Goodnight Jax!" Says y/n as she gives one last kiss on his cheek

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Hello finally finished hope u enjoyed.:]

@fuckyalllkl

[luxqaer]

Happy #MellyMonday

Time for another commission blog. It is a very prideful one indeed. And that is FC Melia holding a demipansexual flag. Done by @jokarioart

There is a lot to go into the art itself, but it has an interesting backstory that goes along with this art. Half a decade ago @sir-teatei-moonlight made a headcannon about Melia's sexual orientation:

In it, Teatei says that Melia is a demipansexual. A demipansexual is defined as a sexual orientation for people who would only be attracted to any gender as long as a lot of trust is built among their partner. So Melia can be attracted to anyone of any gender or sexual orientation, but unless she is given a positive sexual experience by those people, she is not attracted to anyone not assuming she has crushes or whatnot.

At the time, I found this to be a great way to describe Melia in general from the way she displays attraction in XC1. Only really having a crush on Shulk, only getting rejected, then wanting to become like Fiora right when the game ends. Not only that, Teatei explains in his blog that Melia has been sexually aroused several times without noticing. Something common with asexuals, but demipansexuals also experience that phenomenon as well.

You can read more about demipansexuality elsewhere because it is a really interesting sexuality to get into coming from a pan-curious person myself.

Here is the flag of demipansexuality. Basically, the colors (pink=female, yellow=non-binary, blue=male according to sexuality wiki) representing the everyone coming from the pansexual flag and the black triangle representing the asexual part (not wanting sex unless having full trust in the partner to have one).

Upon really liking the headcannon, pride month came up around the time Adri was opening up commissions again. I hit her up with the idea, and here we are. First pride month Melia commission (this won't be the last one from her).

Talking about the art itself, Adri did such a sweet job with the sassy pose she gave Melia and her holding up a stick flag. It really shows the positivity of the LGBTQ+ community and how they portray fanart. Adri is transfemme after all, so she had the freedom to do it.

In fact, I gave her permission to make a trans version of the art for free as well (I wasn't a part of this commission). Adri headcannons Melia as transfemme and I definitely can get by it! Anything for the trans community is welcome around me, especially. Or any of the LGBTQ+ community for that matter. 😊

Adri is on Tumblr and also has a Patreon as well. She is taking commissions, but she isn't advertising them right now. I highly recommend checking out her work as she continues to improve her art with each art piece. Love you Adri!

That is the commission blog. Next week, I will discuss the Van Gogh of my Melia commissions. See you then!

[telomeke-bbs]

BAD BUDDY EPISODE 5 – A CLOSER LOOK AT THE FIGHT SCENE

The fight scene starting at Ep.5 [4/4] 2:22 was full of drama but also really disorientating (for me, at least).  I found it so difficult to align with the characters’ emotions because all three entered the fray for different reasons.  It’s only upon re-watching that their motivations and points of view become clearer…

Not surprisingly, Wai’s reactions during the confrontation were the most open and perhaps easiest to decipher.  In most conflicts, when battle lines are clearly drawn, it’s easy (lazy, even) to want to portray things as falling neatly into binaries – good v. evil, black v. white, Archi v. Engineering, Montagues v. Capulets, Jets v. Sharks, them v. us…  But just as the rivalry between Pat and Pran was a messy, man-made construct thrust upon them as kids, real-life conflicts are rarely all that clear-cut.  Unfortunately for Wai, he was deep in the trap of binary thinking when he waded into the confrontation.  After his gloating over the Engineering boys losing the song contest at Ep.5 [4/4] 0:27 (and not knowing that Pat and Pran were anything but rivals, let alone friends or more), from his point of view Pat was clearly just a sore loser looking to take out his frustrations on the winners.  So of course Wai was aggressive but also befuddled, blown off course when he sensed (he’s a smart boy after all) unfamiliar undercurrents buffeting the PatPran ship, prompting him to ask Pran “What’s your problem with this guy?” at Ep.5 [4/4] 3:40, and “Are you sure there’s nothing going on here?” at Ep.5 [4/4] 4:42.

For Pat, the fight was the culmination of the mounting, bewildering realization that he had fallen in love with Pran.  Pa’s love guru advice (starting at Ep.5 [2/4] 2.18) had comically shown Pat that he and Ink most definitely were not a match.  And no one was more surprised than Pat when he – never one for introspection and up until then hilariously clueless at how to navigate his own feelings, needing his younger sister’s guidance – began to realize in the music shop starting at Ep.5 [2/4] 6.56 that it was really Pran tugging at his heartstrings.  

But it was Korn’s advice (Ep.5 [2/4] 10.30) that truly hit home – Wai’s phone call to Pran at Ep.5 [2/4] 12.16 not only proved to Pat he was definitely in love with Pran, it also unleashed feelings of jealousy that he never knew existed.

Pat ALSO started becoming aware that his feelings for Pran were actually reciprocated, when he began reflecting on the songwriting process that they went through together in high school (Ep.5 [3I4] 0.25).  Pran might have been thinking it, but in fact it was Pat who suggested out loud that the song be about their own relationship (Ep.5 [3I4] 1.35).  Rather than rejecting the idea, Pran seemed to change the subject to writing about secret crushes.  We now know he had instead combined the two themes into one song, about his secret love for Pat while they continued to live out their strange relationship of being not quite friends but not quite enemies either. The lyrics of the song were another of Pran’s cryptic ways to tell the world about his hidden feelings for Pat.  

Watch Pat’s awakening during Pran’s performance of the song in the present day (Ep.5 [3I4] starting at 8.06) – with Pran’s voice sounding in his ears, declaring unrequited love with every line, he remembers their time in high school, writing that song together, and Pran’s surreptitious sidelong glances at him (Ep.5 [3I4] 8.32 and 8.36).

The realization about Pran’s long-held feelings for him dawns at Ep.5 [3I4] 8.43 (“This is not what a friend would do or say”).  These are the words and actions of someone MORE than a friend who LOVES you, dude. 😊 But then he sees Pran smiling (innocently enough) at Wai mid-song (Ep.5 [3I4] 8.48) and remembers how Pran smiled at HIM when they first performed the song back in high school (Ep.5 [3I4] 8.55) – and the thought that he could lose Pran to Wai takes root at Ep.5 [3I4] 9.03.  He then FEELS Pran’s devastation when they were first split up, via a series of painful flashbacks (starting at Ep.5 [3I4] 9.20) when their burgeoning high school relationship (little more than a platonic friendship for him at the time) was cut short, and he would surely have realized by then that in the present day all of these circumstances (new and old) combined could still drive him and Pran apart, as had happened before.

So when Pat waited up for Pran at the base of their dorm, bearing a little gift that was actually the fulfilment of a promise made at Ep.5 [2/4] 8.52, it was no wonder that the jealousy he felt in Pran’s room at Ep.5 [2/4] 12.16 boiled over into rage when he saw Pran arriving with potential love-rival Wai instead.  

That’s why he was saying things like “Tell him!” (Ep.5 [4/4] 3:57), “It’s between me and him” (Ep.5 [4/4] 3:37), “Why?... …Are you afraid he would find out?” (Ep.5 [4/4] 3:14) and “Do you care about him that much?” (Ep.5 [4/4] 3:31), all utterances of a wronged, wounded lover tired at being kept a secret.  Pat’s sarcastic reply “Defeated by that lousy song. Why would I feel anything?” (Ep.5 [4/4] 2:55) was particularly barbed, since he had felt so much emotion hearing Pran sing it, and he had also realized by then how much of that emotion was shared by Pran too.  So Pat was motivated by jealousy, and the searing thought that their mutual love, that he’d only so recently discovered, might be extinguished before it even had a chance to burn fully aflame.

But from Pran’s POV – he didn’t know Pat had figured out his feelings and was also returning them.  Pran may possibly have thought that Pat was upset he’d used THEIR song to win the contest (the surprise he expressed at this notion on the rooftop later – Ep.5 [4/4] 8:26 – seemed more of a taunt than anything).  Anyway, he was also sticking to their worn playbook and their defined roles as chief Archi v. Engineering rivals (thinking Pat would co-operate on this), with Wai their unsuspecting audience.  (He showed this at Ep.5 [4/4] 2:37 – an acting masterstroke by Nanon there – when he dropped his feigned swagger to risk a shiftily unsure glance at Wai, before climbing on-script again and asking Pat “Why? Is it so hard to accept defeat?”.)  

But Pat was clearly in no mood for the dissembling theatrics, deflecting Pran's intentions and choosing instead to pretend about something else at Ep.5 [4/4] 2:44 – using sarcasm to suggest that he hadn't been affected by their song at all (Liar! 😉).  Nevertheless, Pran had no inkling of Pat’s true feelings, as he thought that Pat was still interested romantically in Ink, after all.  And so he read the “Tell him!” at Ep.5 [4/4] 3:57 simply as Pat urging him to tell Wai that their enmity was faked (not knowing Pat was in reality threatening to expose their mutual feelings of love).  Pran was fighting – as always – to keep the truth hidden, just not the truth Pat was trying to expose. And just as Wai was confused by Pran's attempts to lower the temperature, Pran was also confused by Pat's angry refusal to play along at being life-long enemies in front of Wai.

So yes it was a confusing watch, but if you look closely there are signs of their inner motivations.  Single-minded Wai’s were the simplest to read – he was just angry at Pat, clearly the enemy from Day One.  But when Wai asked Pran accusingly if there was something more going on – watch the panic in Pran’s eyes, fearful of his play-acting being found out, during the long pause starting at Ep.5 [4/4] 3:41 (whose tension that dear Jimmy – bless him! – could not resist breaking at Ep.5 [4/4] 3:46).  

When Pran grabs Pat at Ep.5 [4/4] 3:07 – he does it not to fight, but to stall Pat’s CLEARLY non-offensive, tentative and tender approach just a second before, and to whisper urgently “What’s wrong with you? It’s not the time to be silly, Pat.”  And just look at Pat’s HANDS when Pran grabs him a second time in an effort to shut him up at Ep.5 [4/4] 4:01 – they’re open-palmed in surrender, not ball-fisted for a fight – he’s there to come clean with all his roiling feelings for Pran, certainly not to take him down.

TLDR… ;) The imbroglio starting at Ep.5 [4/4] 2:22 was perhaps more a confrontation than a fight scene – only two punches were thrown. Yet there was violence everywhere, under the surface, with deeply-felt passions raging concealed.  All three characters had different motivations and points of view – everyone was looking at each other but seeing different things, and I think the resulting disorientation was intentional, emphasized by the shaky camerawork, shifting in and out of focus.  Everyone remembers Episode 5 for the epic rooftop kiss at the end (and yes it is deserving of every accolade).  I think we also need to offer up as much respect for this very powerful, carefully-crafted, hard-hitting scene here too. 👍👍👍 

[femmexplorations]

Are you a Gold Star lesbian? (Just in case you don't know what it means, a Gold Star lesbian is a lesbian that has never had the sex with a guy and would never have any intentions of ever doing so)

Um, no, but thank you so much for asking!

First off, I'm trans, and while I personally believe that doesn't matter when it comes to deciding who can be a lesbian, I'm pretty sure anyone who believes that being "gold star" is the only true way to lesbian would reject me completely. Second, I identify as Pan, so while I'm almost exclusively attracted to feminine and non-binary energy, I do occasionally find masculine energy attractive and have had sex with a man in the past. I'm married to a cis woman, though, and I can't say that I've ever been attracted to romantically to a cis man. So although I really really really love lesbians and identify strongly with them and have a totally lesbian side blog and obsess over every lesbian celebrity and ship constantly and feel really proud and happy when people think I'm a lesbian, no, I'm definitely not gold star. 😊

[stopthestars]

About Me:

Hello!! I’m Ren, a hope-to-be writer that will update when I can or am bored. I will write some fanfics, though my description of the reader will vary and try to maintain to audiences who aren’t that represented. I will also write some small little original stories if anyone is interested!

I will do something from anything even if I haven’t seen it. If it’s something I don’t know about please tell me where it’s from, and when I post the story if it is accurate. I will try my best and hope to please everyone!

If anyone wishes to know what I like, here is a list. (Note to some, this is not ALL of what I like, these are just my favorite things so far.)

Tv Shows: Over the Garden Wall, The Umbrella Academy, Crash Landing on You, The Good Place, Community, Kipo, Move to Heaven, Ghosts (BBC), Courage the Cowardly Dog, PEN15, Chucky

Movies: Scream, Howl’s Moving Castle, Spirited Away, Good Burger, Mamma Mia, The Lorax, Labyrinth, Dating Amber, IT, Rent, Corpse Bride, Bill & Ted, Sweeney Todd, Cowboys, Heathers, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Luca, Mulan, Big Hero 6

Video Games: Life is Strange series, Spider-Man Miles Morales, Detroit Become Human, Road 96, Animal Crossing, Stardew Valley, Watch Dogs 2, Skyrim, Until Dawn, Brothers, Untitled Goose Game, Best Friend Forever, Sally Face, Miitopia, The Escapists 2

Board Games: Mysterium, HORRIFIED, Betrayal at House of the Hill, Clue, Camp Grizzly, Coup

If you share any of these interests or want to talk about your own not listed here then I’m all ears! 😊

Rules:

If you want to request a custom story, please follow the list below!

1. Be Specific. I want to know if you want the reader to be male, female, non-binary, trans, genderfluid, unidentifying, or more. If you don’t say what you want it will automatically be gender neutral.

2. Avoid Minors. I am a minor myself but I don’t feel comfortable writing it most of the time. The only way I would is if it is nonsexual and it is more so a sub-plot. I will NOT do anything that is inappropriate with someone under the age of 18. It doesn’t mean that I will completely avoid it, but they have to be over 15 as well.

3. Be Patient. I struggle with updating most of the time but when I publish a story I make sure it is perfect! If you think you won’t be able to wait a couple of days then please don’t request one or try to rush me. I will try to be as quick as possible if you request a story but I can not promise that the wait time will be short.

4. No OC’s. I won’t write or include any original characters into stories unless it is one of my custom side works. Anything that is based off of something will only include the reader and what is in the original plot.

5. Avoid Sexual Requests. Like I wrote for rule 2, it is something I can and may do, but I am asexual and don’t have a lot of knowledge in that particular field so if you did request something from there I won’t be educated enough. I can still try but I can’t promise it will be that good. If you wish to request something like that though, I won’t reject it, it just won’t be as good as other people’s stories who may have a better input.

If you read all this then thank you! I don’t expect anyone to look at everything though. 😅