#I need to hurry up and die
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medicinemane · 1 year ago
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Always hungry, always broke, and always having my mom toss a new catastrophe my way... but never actually being given control of the money despite the fact that I've been able to hold on to my stimulus checks all these years only spending them on emergencies, but she blows her disability and wracks up credit card debt
But see... she'd feel like a child if she had to ask for money for things... it's much better when she has full control so she can do things like spend $300 on microtransactions in a single month
Then my grandma gets mad at me for having to help with money cause I don't have a job, and if I just had a job it would be fine (and no doubt I'm pretty shit for not working despite not having anything wrong with me)
When I get stuff cleaned up my mom just uses it as a new spot to dump trash so... there's no point
I provide nothing to the world, I have no talents or skills, everything I do is wrong, and I'm just kind of a drain on the world despite having nothing stopping me from actually doing shit except my poor character
...kinda hemming and hawing on ordering this cause even $18 is a hell of a lot of money to spend on killing myself unless I'm actually gonna do it. If I get it and then keep putting it off... well then that money would have been real better spent elsewhere
...but on the other hand this can't keep continuing... maybe I can take the money I was trying to save up to buy a new mic so I can actually talk to people and spend it on this instead
#then there's the bathroom which both... I've asked plumbers to help with over and over when they've been doing stuff like#installing the water heater or installing my mom's new toilet... but they just... never do#and then... I've asked my mom a number of times to get someone out but she never does#and now I kinda can't even ask because like... ok; the pipe's got mold in it but I guess I can be like 'that's why I asked you here'#but also one of the cat's had diarrhea and decided to keep going next to the toilet instead of the cat box; which is probably my fault#but now... I can't fucking keep up with it and... I can't ask a plumber out with cat shit on the floor#but I can't fucking deal with it; I keep meaning to on trash day; but I'm always too tired and also only have 2 sponges left to deal with i#and I'm just such filth that I haven't even been able to bother changing my bedsheets in like a year#which honestly isn't even that abnormal; that's how it's always been even when I was little#I don't know... I'm just such a worthless fuck up#and people will sometimes offer money but it's like... money doesn't help; I've got that stimulus check sitting in the bank#these are systemic problems I need to fix#but I can't; it's beyond me; I give up; I need to die#nothing of value will be lost#people think it will; but they're wrong#and maybe I'm also just a selfish asshole like everyone's always saying about suicidal people#I don't know... I just keep getting worse; and then I adjust stuff to make it keep working; but then I get worse#I need to hurry up and die#and I finally have a method with a high enough success rate so... probably should bite the bullet and order it#especially when it has legit uses so there's a cover story#man I'm sick of being hungry; sick of being so fucking worthless and incompetent that I can't make myself food once I'm out of cheese powde#and even if I ask for help... well my mom's not hungry so fuck me#I need to die already; I'm so inadequate and never get a damn thing right#everything I do I fucking fail
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just-null · 25 days ago
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Yknow that pic where that drunk lady kissed lipstick marks all over her cat? All I can imagine is doing this to the clones each time I get home
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POINTS AT MY PET AU
[the pic in question!]
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#null rot#cloaked cult member#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#null kny pet au#demon slayer#yandere kimetsu no yaiba#yandere demon slayer#yandere kny#yandere hantengu#Hantengu#hantengu clones#sekido#karaku#urogi#aizetsu#can you tell whos the more annoying of the guys#CATS. AN AU WHERE THEYRE CATS UNDER YOUR CARE AND THEY CARE ABT YOU A BIT TOO MUCH.#ALSO YES THEIR HAIR IS MESSY AS HELL CAUSE YOU HAVE TO GO ALL IN. THATS WHY THE KISS MARKS ARE SMUDGED TOO#theyre less violent in this au since theyre usually at home w you.. theyre just like. super clingy and spoiled#them as annoying ass cats.... the type to call (meow) out for you REALLY LOUDLY if you go behind a door cause youre their owner#what the hell are you doing leaving them alone?????#or the type to like lap over your lap obnoxiously if youre clearly busy. and purposely brush their tail over your face so you focus on them#i can see them being so spoiled and entitled to your attention but antagonize any guests that come by. they want to scratch at them SO BAD#but so they wont get in trouble w you. they listen for now#bro if they get smooches like this whenever you come home theyre THRIVING. what do you MEAN you need to go to bed. HURRY UP.#they just kinda hang around the house or leave for a stroll (to find you) then come back cause they cant miss their daily smoochies#if they miss out? punching the ground. annoying you. waking you up. telling you that you that he's late. dont leave him out or he'll DIE#(he wont)#annoying ass entitled cat boys...... spits
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pup-pee · 5 months ago
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bart having 2 learn how 2 run again would ruin me
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lion-buddy · 1 month ago
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we need to spread out the holidays a bit so the rest of year isn’t so boring and also so they’re not all during the height of my seasonal depression.
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moongothic · 11 months ago
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On the train of your last ask, what are your thoughts on dragons sexuality?
Personally I think he’s Demi something (more attracted to personality than looks or gender)
Honestly because we don't know that much about the guy it's kind of hard for me to form an opinion, and if Crocodad Real then we're going to find out his orientation eventually (since we gotta find out if that was a contributing factor to the Dragodile Divorce (assuming they're divorced)) so I'm kind of okay with not forming any headcanons, since the headcanon could get thrown out the window
If anything, what interests me is how Dragon's orientation could impact the story-- like when I've discussed the Dragodile Divorce I have mainly focused on speculating how Crocodile would've felt about it, but how Dragon felt about that is interesting too
Because if he's straight then yeah that probably contributed to The Divorce, but how did Dragon feel about it? Learning that the love of his life is now happier than ever before after transitioning and being happy for him, while also losing the version of Crocodile that he fallen in love to begin with? No longer feeling thet draw to him because of the thing that has brought him so much joy and comfort? Knowing that even if they did take down the WG the family Dragon had hoped to have would never come to be, because their relationship would now end? And that it would be on some level his fault, because he's not attracted to Crocodile anymore?
Like even if Dragon took things well and the divorce happened "on good terms", it would've been sad for Dragon too.
But then there's a slightly juicier option, because what if Dragon was bi, but the Divorce happened under unpleasant circumstances (be it Dragon lashing out or things getting violent because he couldn't recognize Crocodile) and he didn't figure it out until it was too late?
Because you'd still have Dragon going through some if not all of those previously mentioned feelings, of having to come to terms with the version of his significant other whom he had fallen in love with no longer existed, the family had pictured in his mind would never become a thing, that those things were be kind of his fault and that he had hurt Crocodile deeply in the process. But then he'd be looking at some news article of Crocodile's most recent heroic stunt, seeing his handsome face with that usual, unbothered expression, and realizing he still loved him? That he still wanted to be with him, wished they were together, even now that Crocodile was a far more handsome man than he was? And then the realization that he's bi hitting him like a fucking truck But it's too late. The divorce already happened. He already hurt Crocodile too deeply. Knowing Croc, he had probably already moved on. There was no fixing it, the relationship was over. At least for now, trying to go see Croc could be dangerous due to the WG and not wanting to risk the WG finding out about them and The Kid and Croc would probably be furious if Dragon even risked that at this point, after what he had done. Oh, and then Crocodile killed thousands of innocent people attempting to usurp a country by manufacturing a civil war. Something Dragon can't forgive. (Not to mention, hearing he had been taken down by their own son... Oof)
But what if despite all that, and not knowing the full circumstances behind what had happened (like the fact that Crocodile didn't know who the hell Luffy was), Dragon still loved Crocodile? What then?
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#Moon posting#Asks#Dragodile#OP Meta#Answering an unusual amount of asks today because 1) Compensating for being AFK for a while and#2) The Tumblr News are deeply fucking upsetting and I need something to lighten my mood desperately ngl#So clearing my ask box it is wheeeee#Sorry this is a little incoherent lmao#Something about Dragon looking at Crocodile and being like ''why the fuck are you more handsome than me'' cracks me up okay#When your transgender husband gives you gender envy#I just love the story telling potential bi Dragon would give us because like. Yeah if they're straight then the relationship is joever#But if he was bi then there's that theoretical possibility they could maybe reconcile and get back together#And the fucking drama? The possibilities? I'm so here for that man give it to me#Luffy and/or Ivankov telling Dragon to get over himself and admit that he still loves Crocodile and wants to be with him? Gimme#Dragon taking a deadly blow to protect Crocodile because he doesn't want to lose him again? It's a trope for a reason#OR Dragon craddling a dying Crocodile begging him not to die because he still loves him? Oh yes#Crocodile trying to sneak away while everyone celebrates the destruction of the World Government#And Dragon showing up like ''I don't wanna lose you again pls don't go ;_;''#And Croc telling him to either piss off OR to hurry up and get on the ship so they can leave before Luffy finds out#I am. Obsessed. Dragodile Retirement Romance let's fucking go#THE POSSIBILITIES MAN. Like I don't wanna get my hopes up because I doubt we'll get Canon Gay Dragodile BUT IT COULD BE SO GOOD
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sillyjimimanboy · 14 days ago
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I'M SHITTING EVERYWHEREJ
E FINALLY GOT HIS FUCKING KART
YESSSSS
HE GOT HIS KART
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YESSSSSS
I'M IN TEARS WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE A CYBERTRUCK
HELP ME
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bugsbenefit · 9 months ago
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they dropped the tfs trailer? while im OUT?
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kyouka-supremacy · 2 years ago
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Sorta continuation of this, here's some observations on how the bsd anime adaptation rate (average of number of chapters adapted per episode) changed every season:
Season 1: 10 plot episodes + 2 ln adaptation. Adapts up to chapter 16. Average of chapters adapted per episode: 1.60
Season 2: 8 plot episodes + 4 ln adaptation. Adapts chapters 17-37 (21 chapters). Average of chapters adapted per episode: 2.63 (+1.03)
Season 3: 9 plot episodes + 3 ln adaptation. Adapts chapters 38-39 & 41-53 (15 chapters). Average of chapters adapted per episode: 1.67 (-0.96)
Season 4: 10 plot episodes + 3 ln adaptation. Adapts chapters 54-77 (24 chapters). Average of chapters adapted per episode: 2.40 (+0.73)
※ I opted out of counting the Hitori Ayumi OVA this time around, reasoning that the factors that play into conditioning the season episodes adaptation rate wouldn't have influenced the OVA given its nature of stand-alone episode.
Seasons 1-3 adaptation rate: 27 plot episodes, 52 adapted chapters. Average of chapters adapted per episode: 1.93
Season 4 adaptation rate compared to the average of all the previous seasons: 2.40 (+0.47)
Seasons 1-4 overall adaptation rate: 37 plot episodes, 76 adapted chapters. Total average of chapters adapted per episode: 2.05
That being said, let's try to guess how season 5 might play out taking in the previous four seasons adaptation rate of 2.05 as standard. Here's the fun thing: if season 5 is just 12 / 13 episodes of plot adaptation, that would mean adapting up to chapter 102 / 104. Coincidentally, chapter 104 (fukufuku flashback) is also the furthest in the manga plot that was shown in the last season 5 trailer. Feel free to draw your own conclusions, but as of now a new light novel adaptation seems positively unlikely and a Stormbringer adpatation basically impossible to make fit.
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theo-decker · 6 months ago
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I'm at work and literally need to prepare lessons but im still writing bitchy/horny short stories and can't stop . OH WELL
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parme-san · 7 months ago
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do you think it's ever going to be okay again. i don't think so
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jentlemahae · 7 months ago
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murderyoursoul · 2 years ago
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scarletcomet · 9 months ago
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I love alcohol. it's like what if you could drink this magical potion and then feel less depressed
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aromantyczno-liryczna · 9 months ago
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Pmdd is actively fucking ruining my life fuck fuck this shittt
Why do I have to live with the consequences of things I do when I'm like this and why do i only get one good week a month if I'm lucky
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represseddepressedqueer · 9 months ago
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I currently find little more humiliating than trying to explain to non ugly friends why I, an ugly black fat autistic furry-adjacent trans man in a Predominantly White Country we'll call TERF Island, feel fundamentally unloveable without them crying low self esteem, internalised homophobia, or "that's not true!!! :(."
I'll be the first to say that I have self esteem issues and I think coming to terms with not being completely aroace continues to be hard for me but I hate to be (what feels like) gaslit, all because I state the reality of how I relate to others.
I've never been anyone's first choice. No one I know has ever had a crush on me (romantic+sexual at the same time), the closest I've ever gotten to being romantically crushed on is by a friend (we knew each other and lived together through very hard times and they were in a relationship so I think it was a bit proximity and trauma bonding) and the closest I've gotten to someone being sexually attracted to me is a sexual assaulter who may have just been faking it but either way was deffo using me to help them through their gender journey and so that they could get to women I knew in order to assault them.
I just want to be wanted. Or be aroace again and not want to be wanted.
Wanting to be desired makes me feel so pathetic and vulnerable but it makes me feel worse that my particular brand of cringe/disgusting/ugly/sick makes me infinitely less attractive than other fat and/or black and/or trans etc. people I know.
At this point it's not bigotry, it's just giving the bullies were right.
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emeraldphilo · 1 year ago
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i’m glad people are calling out j*ey b*rton for his misogynistic views on football commentary but how i hoped to have seen the same outburst when he was downplaying the racist murder of anthony walker committed by his brother and cousin
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