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I agree with this comment here so hard, I remember getting blasted for calling readers who don't comment "leeches" on R/Fanfiction and I'm glad people are seeing that for what it is even if it's four years late
So, I'm gonna share my own little story here because discord has actively ruined communities for fanfic (and art too I'm not gonna leave y'all out cause my bestie @zoetiger-1106 is an artist who deserves way more praise than she gets!!) The reason why authors and myself see the "I'm shy" shit as an excuse is because the same people will type long ass tirades on Discord without a single thought. YOU CAN EDIT AO3 COMMENTS PEOPLE! If you make a mistake, read it back over and edit it. I've watched it happen in real-time with one of my favorite commenters on my one-shot where they left a short gushing comment and then came back and wrote more, you have no excuse much less reason to go "Man fandom keeps telling me to not critique and I might make a mistake so I will say nothing and consume like the average TV and Streaming consumer who thinks there doing something!" YOU have a lot of power with comments and even those bookmark tags hell just copy-paste what you put into those bookmark tags as a comment I DON'T CARE AT THIS POINT USE THAT LIL BOX TO VOICE SOMETHING!!!! God this is all over the place idc but I read back at those bookmarks, and saw people call my works the best and super cool and I APPRECIATE THAT but tell me! Stop taking the easy route, I been blasted for misunderstandings over comments multiple times cause people take my "tone" terribly cause it sucks being black and emotive online yay and for some reason people think !!!! Is bad? yes, I've been hit with that but I keep on trucking cause fuck whatever some weirdo thinks about exclamation points! Anyways back to discord and why I hate it now, I was in a small fandom, KFP got invited to a discord cause ONE person commented on my works and saw they talked about my fic, and at first, I was happy and people TALKED about my chapters at length in the fanfic channel. I basically was the ONLY ONE posting consistently in that channel and it was great but also I wanted that on my fic to show I improved so guess what I did? I went all in trying to one-up myself to be noticed, to have the acclaim my peers did so it would evolve outside of discord channels but it never happened. And Imma tell y'all now; it never will. Readers prefer convenience over your hard work, they are not gonna take time for you no matter how much you improve. People told me over and over while I looked for solutions for this; "We can't make commenting look like an obligation." "Add more prose, space these paragraphs better" all this just for no one to take the initiative and say something SINCERE towards a work they love on it. I've had to tell my own ex-friends now to go leave comments on works they called Masterpieces while ignoring me. Despite the fact they wanted Gen content in which I WROTE. Or met people who have very weird "I don't review" rules for themselves despite getting motivated by reviews themselves!! We're in a shitty time for creatives much less community cause we don't see each other as humans much less want to treat each others as we desire to be treated. Fanfic readers want to treat authors like showrunners and I hate it. But then your peers will tell you 'not to worry about engagement" and no I am because why is my hit count going up every day but ain't no one saying shit? Make it make sense!! I sat in that community commenting as much as I could, especially on long fics; it wasn't all perfect but I TRIED. I didn't expect shit back but hey it would have been nice but it never happened and again I learned; it never would. That's the real issue, no one wants to give no more; just take and take and take til you're sucked dry of passion worse than any corpo out right now. It's why I thankfully switched fandoms. I got ONE consistent commenter and they are better than that ENTIRE SMALL CLOSED COMMUNITY!! So, to any discord reactor for fanfic you better skip on to that message you made and copy and paste it in this box right here and never utter "I'm shy" ever again cause we see you, our friends tell us about you. You are not as anonymous as you think! đŤľđ˝
A writer friend told me something that broke my heart a little bit today; they're going to quit publishing their fanfic.
My instant thought was that they had been trolled or attacked or that something terrible had happened in their life because this person is so passionate about their writing. It wasn't any of that. Engagement with their works has been going down, as it has for many of us. Comments are like gold dust a lot of the time, and just looking through the historical comment counts on old fics on ao3 demonstrates this trend very clearly. It was not simply the comments dropping off which caused them to decide to stop posting, however.
My friend came across a discord server for their fandom (I should point out here that their fandom interest and mine diverged a couple of years ago, we stay in touch but don't currently read each other's posts because I'm not into their fandom and they would rather gouge their eyes out with a wooden spoon than read anything Star Wars) and specifically to share fic in that fandom. They joined, because we all love a good fic rec, only to discover that their latest multichapter fic, which has almost no comments and very few kudos, is being hotly discussed in this server as one of the best stories ever. Not one of these people has bothered to say this to them on the fic. When they asked, none of participants could see the point in telling the author of the fic they apparently loved so much that they love it.
This discovery has absolutely destroyed my friend's love of sharing fic. They share because they love seeing other people's enjoyment, and fic writers do that through comments and kudos/reblogs/likes because we don't get paid. There is no literary critic writing a blog post/article about how amazing the story is for us to copy and keep/frame. There is no money from royalties. All we have are the words of the people reading our works.
Those people on that server could have taken five minutes of the time they spent gushing about how amazing my friend's story was to other people and used it to tell the one person guaranteed to want to hear that praise how much they loved it. They could have taken a moment to express their opinion to the person who spent hours upon hours plotting, writing, editing, and posting those chapters. Instead, they deprived my friend of thing that keeps them sharing their writing, and in the process have killed their love of it. My friend now feels used and unmotivated.
I won't be sharing a link to their fic, they said I could share their experience but not their identity. I know they plan to post one final chapter. I know they intend to express their hurt at being excluded from the praise for the thing they created, and I know they intend to announce that as a consequence they will not be posting for a long while, if at all.
So please, I beg you, don't hide your love of a story from the writer. It's just about the only thing we have.
#fanfiction#fanfic#god I hate talking about that ol fandom shit#i sound like a vet whose seen some shit#but im sick of other writers and readers downplaying how we feel#taylor talks
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There's a kind of defensive attitude towards criticism re:Lucanis' romance in many corners of the fandom that I partially understand because Veilguard gets a lot of shit thrown at it, and if you enjoy something you naturally want to defend it. But this type of attitude also rubs me the wrong way when people who loved the way his romance played out say that anyone criticizing it must just not understand slow burns/not like slow burn as a genre/not understand Lucanis' character and his trauma properly/must have been expecting explicit sex scenes and a Zevran 2.0.
Maybe some people criticizing his romance don't like slow burns, or were wrongly expecting him to be a sex god, or ignore his trauma. I've seen a few. But that's not all the criticism there is.
Personally, I love slow burns, it's my favorite genre both to read and write (I'm the type of fic writer to think up 200k words enemies to lovers longfics where they've barely kissed after 100k words). I'm also the type of ace person who's not into extremely explicit sex scenes or super kinky romances (especially with male dom stuff, which I personally dislike). And lastly, I'm the type who picks the angstiest possible romance choice.
All this to say that Lucanis and his romance were theoretically made in a lab for me. Slow burn because the character doesn't trust easily and is traumatized by his past experiences and has many things he must resolve, excruciatingly slow to open up? Unexpectedly very sweet, wet, sad man with puppy eyes? Romance scenes that are caring and romantic instead of outright steamy? Perfect, right up my alley! I keep romancing Fenris in DA2 exactly for that reason because I love him dearly, and he breaks up with Hawke for 3 whole years! Still my favorite!
But the whole point of a slow burn are the steps. It's a slow burn, which means little step by little step, the relationship slowly builds to a conclusion, from tentative acquaintances who don't trust each other, to slooowly evolve into something more, and it's precisely these crumbs that make the trope enjoyable.
To me, Lucanis' romance doesn't feel like it does little steps, it feels like it skips steps. I can see the main story beats of a good slow burn, but not the crumbs that make a slow burn. I don't want him and Rook to jump each other after 2 scenes, I want to see more of the fumbling, the hesitation, the dancing around each other. No, dragon age isn't a romance game, I'm aware, but if romance is an option, and it is written to fit a specific trope, I would like it done properly. They've done slowburns and angsty before, and they were good (even Solas', and his romance is super short). I want the evolution of the relationship shown to me, not told in broad strokes and big steps, and I don't want to have to write half the romance in my head or rely on ao3.
We get nothing between the coffee date and the almost kiss, absolutely no reaction of any kind to the flirting, not even a blink. If Lucanis and Rook were capable of having an entire conversation about coffee and kisses metaphors when they barely knew each other, then I think they can flirt a bit more in the following conversations when you pick the romantic option, dance around each other, have Lucanis fumble a little more like he does with Neve when he actually registers Rook is sincerely into him. Even just a sign that he heard Rook when they pick the romantic option in the following conversations, because as it is he immediately resumes whatever he was saying. And if his lack of reaction is because he's suddenly afraid and thinks it's a bad idea, I would like it shown on his face, or as an actual noticeable pause/hesitation. It didn't look like he thought it was a bad idea at CafĂŠ Pietra, unless he just thought Rook was flirting just to flirt and wasn't serious, but again, none of that is hinted at in any way.
Then there's the almost kiss that follows and is the first actually romantic moment we get after the coffee date, and suddenly Lucanis is all smooth and confident about flirting again. With nothing in between ever since *Illario voice* he got all romantic about roasts. Was he reluctant before and that's why he didn't react to Rook's flirting/caring concern? We have no idea, because while he warns Rook it's a bad idea to be attracted to him, he doesn't seem scared, more amused at their daredevil tendencies. The first time in his entire romance we get a clear indication he's afraid and won't open up for a long time is at the end of this specific scene, when he pulls away, and the way it happens is like Lucanis himself wasn't expecting his fear to overcome him. He wants, he lets himself be pulled forward, and then he suddenly gets drowned by overwhelming terror, and he pulls away.
The beginning of the romance (the date + almost kiss) reads to me as if Lucanis was trying to forget the Ossuary, letting himself flirt and feel attraction and just simply live again as if nothing happened, believing if he didn't think about his trauma and forcefully moved forward then it would stay buried, and then the Ossuary unexpectedly caught up to him, because you don't just bury things like that, it always comes back up at some point if you make no effort to actually process what happened.
And then there's nothing again for a long while. I can imagine Rook leaving space for Lucanis because they're considerate of his feelings and they can see something is deeply wrong, but still, something big and awkward happened between them! Not even one conversation where they try to gently broach the subject and Lucanis immediately clams up? What about some mentions of how awkward things suddenly are between the two? Even through party banter? We got plenty about Hawke and Fenris' situationship in DA2 after Fenris pulls away. The other companions comment on their breakup and how it's painfully obvious they're in love still, no matter what happened, and there are a few banters between Hawke and Fenris themselves. Surely things are a little tense and awkward between Rook and Lucanis as well at that point, and their friends would notice? They don't spend as much time together as they used to, Lucanis doesn't talk directly to Rook much anymore unless he has to, can't quite look them in the eye, doesn't want to stay alone in a room with them. He is still protective of them because he obviously cares very much, but can't bring himself to have an honest talk about his feelings and fears because he's still completely locked in his mind prison and would rather deal with his problems by stabbing his enemies.
Rook being lost because they haven't been inside his head yet and they're not sure if it's because of what Lucanis has been through, or if they did something wrong to get them rejected, and they're stuck because Lucanis completely refuses to open up. There are so many little things that could have been implemented to actually serve as the little steps for the slow burn. You're telling me even Emmrich or Neve, perceptive as they are, wouldn't have noticed their two friends suddenly being awkward and sad and not try to talk to Rook about it at the very least?
And then there's the mind prison where Rook gets all Lucanis' fears and insecurities explicitly told to them. Immediately followed by the scene where you lock in the relationship as he makes them dessert.
Were they in a relationship?? When did they get together? Do they get together right there in the kitchen by the sheer power of cake (ok, relatable)? You don't know! They almost kiss, things are theoretically painfully awkward between them for a while, Rook discovers the substance of his trauma, and poof. They're a couple. Yes, I know that Lucanis' love language is acts of service, but did they communicate at all at any point about what's going on between them? Surely even if Rook helping him out of his head puts him on the road to eventual recovery, it didn't suddenly erase all of Lucanis' trauma and fears and doubts.
I liked Rook calling out the subtext of what Lucanis says in that scene (âit's nothing, or not enoughâ/âit is, and you areâ), I did think it was sweet and perceptive of them. But still, we go from attraction to pulling away to suddenly committing to a relationship with never actually discussing exactly what goes on between them. Never outright deciding they want to try something serious. There wouldn't have been much actual flirting or sincere conversations between them after the almost-kiss, for obvious reasons, so how does Lucanis know Rook hasn't moved on/isn't angry at him after all this time, considering how they didn't communicate at all afterwards and he's not exactly the best at feelings and self-confidence? He just talks as if it's a given they're attracted to him still, and only worries about not being good enough for them. I wanted crumbs of reassurance from Rook, more than what we got, because Lucanis' probable guilt is never actually tackled in any way â he had perfectly valid reasons to pull away, of course, but considering how much he blames himself for anything and everything, I'm pretty sure he would also blame himself for hurting Rook's feelings, even if they're understanding and not actually angry with him at all.
Idk. I have a lot of thoughts, especially about the middle of his romance. The last big scene we get is one of my favorites through all dragon age games, it was so sweet, but I still felt like the entire middle part of the romance lacked a lot of slow burn crumbs, and I was still hungry when I got to the end.
#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis x rook#rookanis#dragon age veilguard#veilguard spoilers#veilguard critical
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hello to the, uh, 200+ new followers i've gained from trivia. im finally remembering to throw out a quick pitch for some of my fics to you lot. can i interest you in some lanterns
Lamplight AU
Lamplight a DnD-inspired fantasy renchanting/treebark au in which Martyn is a paladin-by-desperation and Ren is his god. if you've ever seen fanart of Martyn with a lantern / staff around, that's this!
Ren has lost his body and been left in the form of living fire, and Martyn has been separated from his adventuring party. the two of them are looking for a way to restore both of these, and doing a lot of arson in the interim. the fic is about 50k, most of which is "canon" storyline and the rest of which is "non-canon" ship fic. there's also plenty of cool art and even some animatics for the fic, all of which i absolutely recommend trawling thru the "lamplight au" tag for (on here or on my writing blog, @driflew, or checking the fanart tab on my blog). there are even a pair of spin off fics written by close friends of mine for desert duo and boat boys!
lamplight is written out of chronological order and uploaded whenever. work on it lately has been slow, but it's still ongoing
lamplight isnt my only fic (tho it is my favorite). i write a lot more renchanting/treebark aus, some of which ill list off here:
A Romance Route for the Doomed Villain?!?
(for the record. that title was NOT my idea). this au is also known as treesekai, or the treebark isekai dating sim parody oneshot. martyn is a normal man far too obsessed with the main antagonist of a poor-quality dating sim, the very same dating sim he's isekai's into. silly crack treated seriously parody fic as a love/hate letter to the many, many isekai webcomics ive read on webtoon originals over the years. it has a lot of rlly cool art and fic based of it, which you can find in the "treesekai" tag here or my writing blog
Treebark Week 2023
i also have a handful of oneshots from participating in every single day of treebark week around this time last year. these oneshots are for a bunch of different aus, such as a One Piece au, a beauty and the beast au, a lamplight roleswap au, a hero/villain au, a king/pirate au, and a mer au. all of these aus were developed with the help of other people (Rev for the One Piece au, and Cherri for the rest) and have other fics or art attached!
you can find bonus scenes from all of these aus, fanart or fan writing (including several page long comics or animatics), and even scenes from other aus i havent posted on ao3 over at my writing blog, @driflew, under the "lew writes" tag
uhhhhh. not sure how to wrap this one up. welcome to my home? woe treebark be upon ye
#says words#im gonna rb this again tomorrow probably#theres just. a lot more of you than there used to be
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How are you dealing with Tarlos being over? Iâm seriously not good. It helps that Ronen said they are best friends off screen but knowing that we will never see them together again is really making me sad.
Hello! Thank you for this question. Firstly, a huge internet hug for you because I really feel your pain đâ¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ and this is a topic we're all grappling with I'm sure. In terms of Tarlos as characters, I'm trying not to look at it as them being totally 'over' because they and the other characters can live on through art and fanfic, just like they did during the hiatuses between seasons. We didn't need 'new' canon content to keep creating. We just...kept creating. Although this was perhaps fuelled by looking forward to the showâs return, I don't see why that has to be all that different now. There are fandoms that revolve around single books, single movies, and thrive on a lot less content than we have to work with.Â
However, I appreciate that you might not be a reader of fic, and indeed even if you areâŚ..The show itself and the physical portrayal of these characters is certainly ending far too soon, and honestly I fucking hate that. I feel sad in my body. I'd go as far to say I'm actually bitter about it, and bitterness is a horrible, horrible feeling! I keep thinking â if we hadn't had a season 3, we'd have missed out on so many amazing moments on screen, culminating in the proposal. If we hadn't had a season 4, we'd have missed out on the soulmates scene and the wedding! No season 5, no seeing TK being flung onto a dresser, no dancing at the party, none of the Enzo/Jonah/Carlos' investigation stuff that I'm LOVING. Which leaves me with this strong ache as I wonder what we are missing out on with no season 6, 7, 8...Â
So, the silver lining is that the fandom will make the best out of a shit situation creatively, but it is a shit situation in reality. I think it's absolutely fine for us to mourn this loss and be there for each other, because those of us who profoundly love this show and Tarlos are all in it together and understand the magnitude. I am certainly in a weird state of grief not related to death but related to this different kind of loss, and there will always be part of me hurting over this thing I love so much. I only found the show after season 3 and it just doesn't feel like I've had enough time with it. I havenât had enough fun!
I hope we do get to see Ronen and Rafa reunite again from time to time. Theyâll be at the Paris convention in December, and maybe others along the way if their schedules allow. I was lucky enough to go to the one in June last year and Ronen, Rafa, Natacha and Sierra certainly did appear to be very close irl, so definitely do take heart in that â itâs a reason to believe weâll get at least glimpses of them together going forward.
So yeah. Iâm finding good things where I can in all this, but the headline is that I really am sad and struggling too, and Iâm so sorry you are and I hope youâre able to fill your day with things that help you to feel a bit better. I hope everyone who reads this is able to do the same.
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Hello Tumblrites,
It is I, Cali, back with a bit of an organizational update.
I spent some time on AO3 going through my 120+ COD fanfictions (700k+ words?!) that I have posted over the last year, and I decided to group some of the fics into Collections.
On AO3, Collections act sort of like library shelves where all the fics in that collection adhere to some sort of specific genre/theme/challenge. So, for example, if you would like to read my stack of gangbang fics, you could access all of them at once using this Collection link.
I don't know if this is useful to my readers or not, but I will try my best to organize future fics into these Collections in order to give y'all a way to sort through the absolute Black-Friday-sales-rack-at-Kohl's situation I have going on right now.
Not every fic made it into a Collection, so the "All Works" masterlist is still available.
I also added a disclaimer to my blog concerning the use of my work. Please respect my wishes.
Hoping to get back to regular posting soon, but the holiday season is never an easy time for me and my family, so I apologize if the fields of smut lay a bit fallow around these parts.
But! I just got myself logged into a new writing software that I love (ellipsus - highly recommend; it's so refreshing to use!), and I've been making insane progress with the Focus Mode that it has. Looking forward to getting back to daily writing again. I miss it, big time.
If you ever need to reach out to me with a question or concern about my tumblr, my AO3, or incorrect/missing tags, please feel free to send an Ask, DM me here, or DM me on discord @/californicationist. Or, if you are just down for a chat, I'd love to hear from y'all.
Be excellent to each other,
âď¸đŠˇ Cali Cat
Welcome to Cali's Blog!
So glad you're here!! ^_^ I am Cali, a fanfic writer (35, she/her, pansexual) who creates stories in the COD fandom and most of them are full of smut.
This entire blog is MDNI! No exceptions.
I block blogs that contain racism, TERFism, homophobia, body-shaming, slut/kink-shaming, ableism, minors, and drama/flaming. Don't like it? I don't care! This is a good vibes only blog. <3
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#bit of an update#housekeeping#ao3 writer#ao3 fanfic#call of duty fanfiction#the californicationist#masterlist#cali's masterlist#by the californicationist
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Just saw your ask to sits and the reply etc and can I just say that I 100% agree with you on all points? Like I've seen a lot of posts floating around in the past week specifically about ppl leaving fandom and not wanting to write anymore or deleting their fics because of a lack of engagement and it's so bizarre to me, and even weirder was the supposedly unanimous agreement from other fic writers. Like don't get me wrong, engagement is nice but if I wrote for engagement I would have like 2 fics published based on the standards some of the ppl complaining about engagement were pulling up. Like I'm writing a fic because I like writing fanfiction not because I want to "help people find enjoyment in reading" or whatever arguements people have been bringing up. Some of my favourite fics I've ever written have maybe 50 kudos after being up for years, and like no comments. Based on how ppl are acting about kudos and comments I never should have written those and I should delete them because obv no one is reading them. Idk man, this is a rant more than anything else. But I loved your thoughts and Ao3 IS an archive etc etc so yeah. Appreciated your thoughts. Rock on :)
it is bizarre and i'm finding it hard to trust. it feels very... taking one step at a time looking back over your shoulder as you leave the house calling out I'M GOING NOW every few seconds.
and i can empathize with people over insecurity or feeling forgotten or etc., but i can't tolerate these tantrums that turn into YOU'RE not doing enough to keep me! ok then bye
as my cute friend @garagepaperback said,
making work feels like making a little cairn in the woods, and walking away from it [...] we're leaving behind structures that other people can find and it's exciting to think they'll find them and reap meaning from them for a long time after i've uh stopped feeling a connection to it. like that is the hope of art in general, i think not that the meaning is reflected back on you w consumers acting as mirrors but that it stays vivid for a long time through other people
to create is to be created !
#eleasnore#thank you i know a lot of people have this feeling but keep being drowned out of the conversation by all the pearl clutching
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Ao3 wrapped ask game: 18, 21, 48
Thank you for the ask! This Ao3 ask game is so much fun!
18: Highest word count fic you read this year
At 215,848 words that would be A Christmas Peril by The_Dawn_Knight! This is a very angsty and emotional story about Damian Wayne, Jon Kent, and Billy Batson as they try to deal with boat loads of trauma as well as the many villains that want to hurt them. The interweaving storylines are fantastic and each of the three boys gets significant amounts of time dedicated to their character arcs. It does contain a lot of dark subject matter so be sure to check the tags before reading!
It's still a WIP, so it's sure to keep growing, but it's definitely worth the read!
21: Your total hits this year
As of right now I have had 38,966 hits in 2023!
48: Oldest fic you read this year
That would be Invisible to See by FayJay! This fic was published on Ao3 in 2009 though I believe it was imported to the site so it was actually written in 2002-2003! It is a Harry Potter fic about Draco Malfoy fleeing the Death Eaters and changing sides in the war. It's an Explicit Drarry fic so be aware of that if you decide to check it out.
I read this fic as part of a bookbinding holiday typesetting exchange through Renegade Bindery!
#ask me whatever you want y'all#billy batson#damian wayne#jonathan kent#harry potter#draco malfoy#fanfic ask game#This is a lot of fun to answer#I love looking at all the fics I've read this year#it's been a struggle not to spend all day rereading things
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I really do love your writing and Salvage gets me through when I am sad or depressed. However, I was wondering, how do you cope when someone who wrote a review didnât like your writing? If youâve had this before⌠I had one today and I am dejected. Iâm working through my perfectionism and I keep telling myself, âmy writing isnât for everyone and itâs okay.â Any advice?
If it was unsolicited, especially on a fanfic? Delete it, block the person if you feel like, then go do your rage activity of choice before forgetting about it forever. That person is rude and doesn't deserve your time anymore than someone bumping into you on the street.
I've also found it useful to actively think of my fanfic as writing practice, and not even my brain expects perfection from writing practice. It also frees you do Try Cool Things.
Now take this digital blanket and cup of hot chocolate and go reread your nice comments.
#most readers are absolutely lovely#But yeah I've gotten these too because there is always someone on the internet who thinks they are Right and Smart and that those things#Are more important than being kind and polite#Fic Reader Etiquette 101: the only writers looking for crits on a fic are the ones that explicitly asked for it#The only potential exception is for typos that impact reading clarity and even then varies by author#I love having any and all typos pointed out but I know some writers Don't Want To Hear It#My worst comment was the person who wrote essentially:#Wow I remember loving this story it had a huge impact on my life but now I reread years later and it's shit#...Honey. HONEY.#please realize that your personal growth and resulting resonance or lack thereof with a story's themes#have literally nothing to do with me#and I hope your next bit of character growth involves internalizing your self-reflection instead of outsourcing it to fanfiction
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I can see your point that there's a clash of intention/topic here from your perspective. However, for me it was an opportunity to make a connected/related "counter" point (also not solely aimed at your original post but the added screenshot as well), because I also feel posts like yours could - under certain circumstances and through certain readings - be adding to a general harsher rift between the two factions than necessary. I'm definitely not saying that was your attention, but personally it's something that, let's say, slightly miffed me about this whole conversation a couple of times now, in a variety of posts.
I do understand why you think I should have made my own post on it, rather than adding to yours. But then again, I do enjoy a conversation and polite debate rather than just "ranting to the void". I believe it can be very beneficial to those engaging in such a debate in good faith and the ones reading it. But that's my POV. So I guess this is where we both clash in our preferences on how to add/debate or not debate/add to such posts, and that is fine.
Regarding the main points you made, you know how you meant it and what context you brought it up from - so in that regard it's fully valid - but some people may take it as "Ah look, this person, too, says the Buddies are homophobic (in general/often)". Tumblr reading comprehension and all, you know?
I am also definitely not saying you are erasing anyone's experience. I'm just saying, in general, this tendency to point to homophobia sometimes does that - albeit unintentionally, I assume. It is a bit of a slippery slope, imho, because sometimes the people expressing their wishes for a specific type of queer story (like what they imagine Buddie could have been like) are queer people who have made those very experiences or similar ones themselves - lesbians who fell on love with their best friend and finally gave up on comphet behavior, or people who believed themselves to be straight and realized they were bi after all (not dissimilar to Buck). I know you're not saying these people all come from a place of homophobia, but I personally see a risk of it being read that way. Of people falling into that mentioned trap of dismissing ANY pro-Buddie sentiment as homophobic /otherwise problematic.
So, regarding the last statement you quoted, this was meant more generally to the Bucktommy fandom and not per se you or your post. We are not having a private conversation here, we are doing it in front of an audience who will approach both what you and I are saying with highly individual biases and viewpoints.
There is no issue with the things you said per se, but imho the risk of certain takeaways that I have already seen expressed callously by other people, e.g. "Most of the Buddies are straight women who are deeply homophobic" or similar.
The whole Silken debacle is cringe AF, and embarrassing for the whole 911 fandom. And we really do not have to talk about some of the much more vile and toxic things that were said and done. I am in absolute and full agreement to call those instances out and, like you, am disappointed to not see enough of such calling out from the Buddie fans. That is highly regrettable and cowardly.
I also understand (through posts like yours even more deeply than I already did before, as a 44 year old queer woman who lived with a gay guy for many years and has known many gay men), that many especially young shippers have a sort of watered-down image of the "ideal gay relationship" that isn't reflective of reality. There's nothing wrong with having certain preferences when it comes to reading and writing fic, but there IS something wrong with painting things outside of that comfort zone as icky or bad (like all that shitty discourse on Tommy being predatory and similar stupid takes).
In years of shipping and engaging in fandom I've seen takes that were bordering on or veering into (unintentional) homophobia, or rather bigotry towards gay men in particular, because so much of it is based on a sexually/romantically inexperienced and predominantly female perspective. There's a difference between how lesbians and gay men live out their sexuality and love life - at least in tendency - and it's important to acknowledge that and, as you said, read up on gay culture if one isn't too familiar with some things. Or to simply acknowledge that many preferences and approaches are valid and good, and, as you said, here's not a limit to what kinds of queer representation should be present in popular media.
Anyway, I also appreciate that you replied calmly and in good faith. Just to make it clear again, I do not disagree with the things you said or with pointing out these particular examples. I just personally think it is important to also remember (and remind others - the "audience" of these debates) not to generalize as a takeaway from these very valid observations.
the more and more time i spend on tumblr and come across insane Buddie takes and behavior, the more and more i am convinced that the small, vocal, toxic subsection of shippers who don't know how to behave are, how shall i say it?
homophobic
they don't seem to actually like gay men. the situation with richard siken is an example of that. what they appear to like is their made-up version of what gay men are like and what they do. there's no concept of nuance or an actual understanding of queerness that informs their ship.
and i don't think you do need to understand it. sometimes you can just enjoy something without looking into it differently. but if you're going to be out on main talking about Buddie this and Buddie that, then you absolutely need to do the bare minimum and inform yourself on gay culture and gay issues so you don't, you know, go after a gay poet because you didn't like his tone.
sorry, there's a reason gay men of his demographic don't take shit. it's because they took so much shit that a large percentage of them died. the ones that survived don't owe you a tone when you act like an idiot.
the internet is free. wikipedia is free.
use a search engine and educate yourself, just a tiny little bit, and stop fetishizing while holding onto homophobic attitudes
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One year anniversary of the kelp blorbo who changed my brain chemistry forever
Happy birthday Beetle :)
#my ârt#kelpie stuff#beetle of#digital painting#ok ok ok let me ramble for a second here#yes this was all sparked by user intistone and their awesome fic and the silly little au the group of us came up with#but we all talk regularly about even more silly little stories and aus of all kinds and it's just such a wonderful experience and I'm just#really happy this happened#yeah I don't talk as much on here these days#but I get to talk and draw and be creative in small ways all the time in the discord and it's helped develop my art at#mach speeds never previously imagined#sorry to get sappy just wanted to say I've been doing well#and it started with my one year old son who I love#so anyway LOOK AT MY SON IN PAINTING FORM#IM SHOWIJG HIM OFF BC IM HAPPY#if you read this far I'm giving you a seaweed snack to munch on
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what's ur favorite bmc fanfic ever
OOOH okay this is a good question.
Ngl I don't think I could give you a solid "here is the one (1) best fic ever" so here's a whole bunch that I've rated 5 stars in my fic document!
Stammer - Excellent 100k fic, if you're looking for something long. Basically it explores Jeremy and Michael's relationship from when they were kids til a bit after the events of the musical. Really good character piece <3
Jeremy drops out of college during December of his freshman year - REALLY REALLY GOOD fic-- one of my favorites from Beth Harker. Basically Jeremy undergoes a lot of panic attacks and self hatred (some brought on by what remains of the Squip) as he and Michael go to college together. About 10k words.
in the back of my brain, the voices all sound the same - Pretty short ~1k fic that explores the idea of the Squip changing shape into things like Jeremy himself. Forever thinking about the implications.
Play it in Reverse - Really cool podfic that brings in the musical aspect of bmc and acknowledges it! With the Squip's help, Jeremy tries to fix the events of the musical by changing the lyrics. About an hour to fully listen to.
flesh & bone - AU where Jeremy is an android and the Squip Squad find him and repair him. LOVE the dynamic of everyone in this fic, but it's unfortunately unfinished. About 40k words and still worth a read despite this.
Loaded, Recoded, Unsorted - Ngl I think this was the first ever bmc fic I read?? Anyways, it still lasts in my brain despite being unfinished with about 15k words in total. Basically, Michael slowly becomes a squip with all the fun psychological horror that comes with that. Honestly if you like this I'd recommend checking out more of Nez's work. Excellent squip horror writer.
The Mechanics of Compromise - Ngl pretty much everyone I've come across has read this fic and it shouldn't be a surprise that its on this list. Absolutely adore how they handle everyone's dynamics and manage to create a really fun plot as everyone recovers from the events of the musical. Another really good 100k+ fic.
Only One Is Mine - Holy shit this fic is almost coming up on 100k words. Anyways this fic is so so so good. Basically it deals with the rising squipocalypse after the musical as Jeremy accidentally fuses with his squip and has to learn what it means to be half human, half supercomputer. LOVE this concept so much and love how its handled. Honestly one of my all time favorite fics in general-- really cool stuff!! Shoutout to Jordan fr <3
Honorable mentions:
Ophiocordyceps nippon - TRAGICALLY short fic that meant i actually rated it only 4 stars but I thought I'd share because I am still thinking about it. Basically what if the Squip was a fungus.
Same As It's Always Been - I've only read 2 chapters, since it was coming out at the time I was reading it, but its finished now!! I really enjoyed what it was when it was coming out, so I'm sure it's still a good read. Basically Rich is forced to repeat Halloween Night-- time loop style.
#be more chill#bmc#also i would love to put the mystery of ophio high because i KNOW i would LOVE that fic but i havent read fic since january this year#<- cursed with reading all of sherlock holmes#<- and was super fixated on doctor who when all the big bang fics came out#<- i have like 10 fics sitting in my firefox tab. help. i will get through them one day#anyways despite not reading that i'd recommend it because ophio is cool as hell and mayo's writing is pretty good#happi answers#i'd also put User Feedback here but i'm biased (written by my sibling). also they haven't posted their mostly written escape room chapter#and im spiteful <- celeste please i love that chapter and i dont want to bother you anytime i want to read it#Also if you're looking for more beth harker fics I almost put Taste on here but I decided against it since I figured I had enough#but pretty much anything I've read by them are some of my favorite fics. Fantastic writing style and understanding of the characters#also you can tell i love exploring the squip and squip mechanics just by looking at this list haha#i love the funky sci-fi device
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dont mind me just adding onto this post if we're all being sappy...
Reading these two posts really connected with me because it reminded me of my own experience with this fanbase. Genuinely, my interest in Scream and the level of enjoyment that I got from it is what pushed me to make this account and start posting my art online.
Before this, I had never really had any experience existing and posting in an active fanbase. Growing up I was definitely just a lurker, always browsing and consuming content but never interacting with the people in the fanbase I was into. I was envious of those who did but was always too scared to join in because of my own self doubt, feeling ashamed about my interests and cringing at myself.
Flash forward to Halloween of my senior year of college. My lovely friend @graaacc invited me over to their place to watch Scream for the first time. We turned all the lights off, got stoned, and then settled in. Lives were changed that night, no joke (mine). Like that shit was crazy and had me looking to my friend asking if the gay shit playing on the screen was actually there and real LOL. Thus started a hyperfixation that has yet to end over a year later.
I deep dove into the fanbase and consumed whatever I could find. This is where I also shoutout @sharpth1ng and Debaser because that fic and its author are crazy amazing!!! (hi sharpy bestie >:D ) This was also how I found the Debaserverse discord, which introduced me to so many lovely people and provided many good memories and good friends. I found so much inspiration and support that drove away my own fear and shame. For the first time ever I allowed myself to fully embrace my love for something and the urge to share it. I started posting my fanart and received so much love and support from those around me which I'll forever be grateful for. I've had such an amazing time in this fanbase and the community it comes with and I'm so excited to continue being apart of it.
I'm seconding sharpy in saying that we truly have created a very positive and welcoming community with each other and thats so awesome!! I'm definitely proud to be apart of it and everyone else should too. (also seconding the shoutout to the ace people here I LOVE ASEXUAL PEOPLE SHOUTOUT MY FELLOW ACES!!!)
Anyways, all that's to say is that I'll always cherish my memories and experience with this fanbase here on Tumblr (and other platforms but yall here are the OGs). Scream and everything that came with it will always have a special place in my heart and I thank every one of yall that helped make that happen <3
This is just gonna be me rambling but okay. yeah.
One year ago my Scream (1996) / Stuilly hyperfixation started developing and here i am today, still obsessed, still fond of them. I watched Scream (1996) for the first time when i was like 15-16 years old ( i'm 23 now lol) but last November i rewatched it with my close friends and little by little it got into my system. I'm sobbing a lot as i write this because stuff like this and meaningful dates make me weak as fuck !! I've loved horror since i was in my middle teen years but this year i really really got into horror thanks to Billy and Stu. This year i've watched 360 movies and i'm sure that 300~ of those are horror movies. It saved my life and i mean it, i'm so passionate about horror, it brings me huge amounts of joy. It's been a fucking shitty year but watching horror movies and focusing on the art, the fics, the edits, the headcanon posts, making stupid playlists etc ... made the dark times a little less darker. I don't know, i suck at developing healthy copying mechanisms and this is ironic (Because Billy and Stu are toxic as fuck) but they are my copying mechanism. This is a small fandom even if Scream is a really popular franchise but the actual stuilly fandom is a really really really small community, especially if you are into the freaky stuff (y'know) but i couldn't care less. It's a great one <3 I've discovered many movies and many music and so many beautiful things that cheer me up every single day. Shout out to Debaser and Wave of Mutilation by @sharpth1ng (GO READ IT NOW !!! ) I didn't find Debaser, Debaser found me when i was at my lowest and it's been my comfort piece of media for so many awful lonely months. Shout out to Billy Loomis for being my favorite piece of shit and forcing me to grow stupid fucking middle part bangs. And shout out to Wes Craven for being a forever legend. I hope this hyperfixation lasts as long as it can because it feels like home. Amen.
#ok sappy time OVER#stuilly fandom#rambling sappy shit#maya talks#fr tho yall rock and I love it here#stuilly forever#scream 1996#stuilly#shoutout again debaser discord I love you guys
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ugly maths.
i hate maths, right. i don't usually like numbers, and if i do like numbers it's gotta be an 8 or a 48 and nothing else.
thing is, i've recently caught myself doing maths again. ugly maths. the kind of maths that, really, i've been trying to avoid as much as possible because, well, it's ugly!
you... wanna see?
okay, fine... but don't say i didn't warn you!
ugly, see? look at all those numbers! not a 48 in sight!
huh? what's that? you don't see what i'm on about? oh... oh! hang on, lemme justâ
better? yes? no? no? okay, what if iâ
mmh, yes. ugly numbers. see it now? can you see why they're ugly?
here, i can make it worse.
these numbers are ugly. the maths they make me do is ugly.
now i'll level with you: the worst ones by far are the yellow numbers. the maths they make me do it the ugliest.
why ugly?
because it makes me ugly.
those numbers turn me into not only a suddenly number-obsessed fool, but a fool who also cannot understand these numbers and what they mean and why i feel like they reflect on me and my ability.
87, 75.
the thoughts are as follows:
⢠the orange numbers are big, so why are you being ugly about the yellow ones? you should be happy with what you have. so many nice big numbers! not everyone receives that.
⢠is it that there are two different audiences for these two different fics? perhaps. they are quite different works, with different appeals, and different themes. maybe you are reading too much into it.
⢠why are you obsessing over numbers anyway? you don't like maths! you left maths behind when you were 16, put it down!
okay, okay, fine! i'll put the maths down. right here, in fact!:
that 87 was an 83 at the start of the year. the 6161 it is attached to was a 5453.
4, 708.
ugly maths.
the 75 is a nice number. in fact, compared to 87, it is beautiful, radiant, enchanting. at the start of the year, 75 was 48. wow. now that is one sexy number!
27.
mmmm.
6161, 1061.
5100.
87, 75.
12.
mmmm.
you know, my most favourite comment left recently on a fic of mine was 2 characters long: :(
it made me :)
well, actually, it made me >:) because it was left in response, presumably, to one of the key scenes in a new chapter which left the exact impression on someone that i hoped it would.
they must be the only one who reacted like that, though.
1.
have i mentioned that that 87 and 75 include author responses?
i won't try to do more maths, there. it might not end well for me. the maths is making me tired enough as it is, and i have an early start tomorrow.
oh! but, that being said, i have another set of ugly numbers to show you, so keep 87 and 75 in mind.
ready?
838, 245.
(want a hint? the green numbers!)
838, 87. 245, 75.
9.6, 3.3.
ugly maths. it's ugly again, see? i don't like it. i'm seeing numbers within numbers within numbers, and i can't seem to stop!
the numbers make me ask new questions:
⢠why is it not good enough?
⢠people seem to engage more with one fic over the other, so shouldn't you prioritise?
⢠is all this maths this really good for you?
no, it isn't.
i want to avoid ugly maths. ugly maths makes me want to tear my hair out. it makes me want to start from scratch. it makes me want to grab someone and scream. it makes me want to cry and press a button that has tempted me many times before when the numbers become too ugly to bear.
ugly maths turn me into an ugly person.
ugly maths make me obsessive, paranoid, anxious, regretful, vindictive, spiteful, alone.
i hate maths. i hate numbers, just like, it feels, the numbers hate me.
#helia rants#cw vent#i'm okay but i'm not#this has been playing on my mind over the last couple of weeks#it's aimed at the sky rather than anyone here#i know i'm not the best myself as commenting. i justify it to myself by affirming i don't read much. which i don't.#since the start of the year i have tried to comment on everything i have read#bearing in mind i may also dm someone rather than comment because i want to scream and ramble about their fic more personally#that being said. i know i'm not the only one who finds themselves doing ugly maths#and in turn starting to feel uglier too#i don't like looking at the numbers#i was doing well at the start of the year#but as i open my drafts and look to a new chapter and at the notes i wrote#i can't stop myself from opening the fic. from seeing where it's at. from seeing if it's changed. from checking my inbox to see if...#if only...#what it's meant is that i've come to a point where a fic i loved has become exactly that: a fic i loved. past tense#the other fic is still a fic i love. but i know deep down that that is tied to the numbers too#i hate that this is what i've become#because i have tiny fics. fics with 50 hits and maybe 1 comment. and i love them. i still love them#but when it comes to the big ones. the multi-chapters. the hefty fics. after a point all i see are numbers#and those numbers have come to determine both my happiness and fulfilment as a writer#and so i am ugly. i am sad. i am pathetic.#and i don't know how to stop.#helia's stuff#this was meant to save back into my drafts. i was editing tags. tumblr decided it should post. so... so be it.#also this is not an attention thing if anyone dares go 'oh but you're a good writer uwu' i might do something we'll all regret#this is also not a 'ffs comment on my fics will you đ' hell no#it's just about me. and my issue. and my unhealthy relationship with these fucking numbers.#gotta get this shit out of my head somehow :)
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Sonic Boom - S3E10
Episode title: The Obligatory Band Episode
Summary: When a boy band competition comes into town, Sonic, Tails, and Knuckles immediately decide that they have to enter as Dudeitude. The only problem: their other two teammates who aren't allowed to join...
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[Episode opens on a shot of a poster.]
BATTLE OF THE (BOY) BANDS!!!! the poster proclaimed, using far more exclamation points than were necessary. All boy bands (and ONLY boy bands) welcomed to join and compete for the prize of 10,000 rings and a record deal!!Â
A crowd of villagers had quickly gathered around the signâwhich of course soon drew the attention of Sonic, Tails, and Knuckles, who had been wandering around the village chatting happily about nothing in particular. (No, literally, they were discussing what the word ânothingâ meant to each of them.)
âHey! Whatâs going on here?â Tails asked, taking to the air in an effort to better see what was making everyone else so interested.Â
He studied the poster, growing more and more excited by the second. âSonic! Knuckles! Check it out!â
âWhoa!â Knuckles cried. âAre you guys thinking what Iâm thinking?â
Sonicâs smile widened. âI think I am thinking what youâre thinkingâŚ.â
âItâs Dudeitude time!â all three shouted at once.
[They snatch up the poster so that it fills the camera frame, leading to a transition where the camera zooms back out on all three of them smiling hopefully.]
[Camera cuts to Amy, sitting on her couch with a distinctly unimpressed look on her face.]
[Sonic, Tails, and Knucklesâs smiles take on a rather panicked quality, before the opening sequence begins.]
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[The same intro sequence plays as last time, complete with a reluctant Shadow.]
[Eggmanâs villain reveal starts off similarly to that of the second episode, but the malfunction is caused by most of the minor villains turning the lights on and photobombing him. The green screen glitches out, leading to green and choppy outlines around each villain, before Eggman chases them out while shaking a wrench at them angrily.]
[The sequence then continues on, before ending with the title of this weekâs episode.]
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âWhat is it, Ames?â Sonic asked, the smile slipping off his face.Â
âSeriously?â She sighed. âWhy arenât they letting any girls participate at all?â
âOooh, yeah.â Tails winced. âThatâs kinda rude, I guess.â
âI donât know about rudeâitâs mostly just downright juvenile.â Amy sniffed disapprovingly.
The fox and Sonic both turned to stare at Knuckles. âMan, I thought you knew about this kind of thing!â
The echidna cringed. âI meanâŚI dunno, guys, I canât know everything all the time! Gimme a break, okay?â
Amy nodded approvingly. âThatâs very true. Thereâs always more to learn!â
In the background, Sonic winced, more at the concept of learning from Amy Rose than learning, full stop.
âWe donât have to compete, then.â Tails said decisively.
Sonic and Knuckles were fully prepared to agree, but then they saw Amyâs determined expression.
âI have an even better idea.â she explained. âYou guys are going to competeâand winâwith a girl as your manager.â
âUhâŚhang on, who would be our manager?â Sonic asked, frowning in confusion.
Amy facepalmed. âMe. Iâd be the manager.â
Sonic grinned sheepishly. âOhhhhh.â
âWhatâs a manager?â Knuckles added.
âTheyâre a person who helps organize all of your paperwork and performance dates.â she explained.
At that exact moment, Sticks kicked the door open and rushed inside, a pair of binoculars dangling from her hand. âYou guys are hanging out? Without me?!?â (This of course ignored the fact that she was implied to have been watching them âhang outâ in Amyâs house for an indeterminate amount of time.)
âOh, Sticks!â Amyâs expression brightened up considerably. âDo you want to work on the lighting for the show? There arenât any government agents, aliens, or ghosts involved, Iâm afraid, but itâll still be worth your time!â
The badger frowned. âI donât know what youâre talking about, but that sounds boring.â
It took two minutes of explaining (and convincing) to get the idea across to her, but the moment the words âfight the patriarchyâ came into the conversation, she was onboard instantly. As a matter of fact, the word âfightâ probably wouldâve been enough all on its own.
After that, the entire team ended up so excited that they spent the rest of the day planning out a dance and lights routine to some of their music. By the time they were worn out and crashed in various places around Amyâs house, there was paper strewn everywhere, but the general concept for the show was complete.
Just before Sonic fell asleep, using the couch armrest as a makeshift pillow, an idea came to him.
I wonder if Shadow would want to join DudeitudeâŚ.
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Of course, the next day, they ran into a (not at all plot-convenient) problem almost immediately. When Amy sent Tails over to get the forms necessary to enter the competition, he found that there was one minor issue with their entire plan.
All competing bands were required to have at least four members.
Amy rubbed her eyes in frustration. âI canât believe weâre going to have to rework our entire performance routine!â
Tails sighed. âThatâs the least of our worries. We canât even compete right now!â
Suddenly, Sonic dashed into the room, his arms laden with to-go chili dogs from Meh Burger. âHey guys, howâd it gâoh. What happened?â
Amy looked up at him sadly. âWe need four members in the band to compete. And right now we only have three!â she cried.
âOh! Well, if thatâs all, then,â Sonic said, putting down his food and dusting his hands off at sonic speed, âI know what to do!â
And with that, he vanished in a blur of blue.
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A black ear twitched as the telltale zooming sound of Sonicâs running reached its owner. Shadow straightened up from what heâd been doingâadjusting a new bed frame in his roomâand walked out to the front of his cave, wondering what could bring Sonic here in such a hurry. Knowing him, it could be anything from just wanting to race to the world actively ending.
âShadow! Great, youâre here. Listen, we have an emergency.â Sonic said quickly.
âAn emergency?â he asked, concerned. âWhat kind? Is it the doctor?â
Sonic shook his head. âNo, worse! Listen, we need you to join our band, like, now, or else we wonât be able to compete in the battle of the bands competition.â
Shadow stared at him blankly. âIâŚI think your definition of âemergencyâ is somewhat different than mine.â
âBut will you do it?â
âLet me see what you have planned first.â Shadow sighed.
Sonic did a rapid fist-pump. âYes!â
Shadow rolled his eyes. âI didnât actually agree to join yet.â
âBut you did agree to look at the plans, which means youâre considering joining.â Sonic said smugly.
Shadow muttered âYouâd better not make me regret this.â, but with that, they took off, leaving twin trails of blue and red behind them.
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âSo let me get this ludicrous plan straight. You want me to join your rock band, which involves playing on absurdly designed instruments and wearing insanely sparkly suit jackets, in order to win a competition exclusively for boy bands. That way, we can rub it in the organizersâ faces when they discover that we have multiple girlsâor rather, one girl and one demigirlâworking with us.â Shadow said slowly.
âYes!â Amy exclaimed. âWeâll come out onstage after the others have claimed their prizes, and then weâll take the most smug bow in the history of bows.â
âI still think that a speech calling out the secret underground alien-cryptid alliance wouldâve been better.â Sticks muttered, rolling their eyes.
Shadow frowned. âAnd why canât either of youââ he gestured to Amy and Sticksâ âjust be part of the band anyway? It isnât as if theyâd know whether or not the band was made up of all boys until the concert.â
âActually, they would.â Tails explained. âThereâs a rehearsal the day before that all band members have to be there for.â
âUghâŚâ the hedgehog groaned. âWhose idea was it to join this stupid competition?â
âWell, first it was me and Sonic and Tails.â Knuckles said. âAnd then we were ready to quit when we realized they didnât let girls in, but Amy said we should do it with her plan, so we did.â
Shadow leaned back against the couch for a moment and closed his eyes. ââŚ.fine. Iâll do it. But this is a one time thing, understand?â
âAlright!â Sonic cheered. âNow we just need to find you one of those suit jackets!â
Soon enough, the team had scrounged up Sonicâs spare outfit and handed it over to Shadow, at which point he began to regret every single one of his life choices.
âNo. No way. This is utterly disgusting.â he snapped, holding the offending garment as far away from himself as possible. âI will never, everââ
[Cut to a shot of Shadow standing stiffly while wearing the jacket.]
âThis is humiliating.â he grumbled.
Amy winced. âIs this seriously what you guys wore while saving the town from Justin Beaver?â
âIt was the best we could come up with on short notice, okay?!â Sonic cried defensively.
âYou know what?â Shadow said. âFine. Fine. Iâll wear it. But donât you think that we should each customize our own outfit instead of all looking the same? After allâwait. Youâre not doing this asâŚthat tacky pop group, are you?â
âNonono, donât worry, weâre doing this as Dudeitude, not Dreamboat Express.â Sonic explained hurriedly, trying to stave off Shadowâs growing expression of horror.
âActually, that sounds like a really good idea!â Tails said excitedly, pulling out his own jacket. âI wanna put, like, cool gear cufflinks on mineâlet me go get the Build-It Box!â
[A montage ensues, complete with lots of tacky fashion choices and comical mistakes, including (but not limited to) a patch that was supposed to say âKnucklesâ but instead came out as a strangely detailed fabric replica of the echidna himself.]
[The teamâs brief experiment with differently-colored jackets was also strongly vetoed by Shadow after they all came out of the box in different varieties of neon.]
Eventually, the three original members of Dudeitude had their new outfits all set and ready to go.
Sonicâs white jacket now had red and gold stars around the cuffs and hem, while Tailsâs hadâas he had mentionedâgear-shaped cufflinks and buttons with a crossed wrench and screwdriver stamped into them. He had also added golden sequins along the back spelling out âProwerâ, akin to a sports jersey.
Knucklesâs jacket, on the other hand, had all sorts of patches sewn onto it, including a barbell, a circular one labeled âWeightlifting Championâ, and multiple stylized green emeralds. He seemed awfully proud of it, enough so that Sonic and Tails had to keep preventing him from flexing in front of the mirror so that he wouldnât rip a seam.
When Shadow walked out, though, his jacket didnât appear to have changed at all. Sonic frowned. âI thought you were the one who wanted us to change our outfits up!â
Shadow smirked. âI did.â he said proudly. âTails, do you happen to have an ultraviolet light handy?â
The foxâs mouth dropped open. âYou didnât.â
Shadowâs smirk widened.
Tails scrambled to get his biggest UV light, shining it on Shadowâs jacketâŚand then everyone gasped at what they saw. Blue and purple threads wove throughout the entire garment, creating a variety of geometric patterns that almost seemed to shift as Shadow moved.Â
Amy looked over at Sticks, smiling excitedly. âHey Sticks?â
âYeah?â
âHow do you feel about adding some black light to the show?â
âŚ
It had been decided that Shadow would play the bass guitar, since Knuckles was already handling the drums and Tails had taken on the keyboard/synthesizer role. Sonic, of course, was more than excited to use his two-necked guitar, tearing through riffs and fills with ease.
Theyâd had a week to practice before the rehearsal, and it became clear that Shadow had taken the time to learn every single song, as he played chord after chord perfectly. Despite his skill, his backup vocals were barely audible, and he outright refused to sing alone at any point in the show.
This only encouraged the entire team to try even harder to get him to change his mind, of course.
In the end, it was Amy who got lucky enough to hear him firstâtheyâd all stayed behind to watch the other bands play so they could get an idea of the competition, but she and Shadow had been the only ones with enough patience to suffer through three poor performances in a row.Â
Their only real competition was a new band made of some boys whose personalities had seemed almost custom-built to sell well with fans, run by Justin Beaver himself as part of his new reality show. They had decent vocals and a generic backing track, but the test audience ate it up. The team had nearly suspected them of using mind-control technology again, but a quick reconnaissance mission on Tailsâs part showed that the audienceâs reactions were legitimate.
Somehow.
After the rehearsal had finished, the organizers left most of the microphones set up so that theyâd still be in place for the concert tomorrow night. Amy had been getting ready to leave (and maybe snag a couple of the complimentary refreshments to take home when nobody was watching), when she noticed some movement out of the corner of her eye.
Quickly, she crouched behind a conveniently placed bush just as Shadow stepped forward on the stage.
He cleared his throat, looked around nervously, and then began to practice his backing vocals in a small, awkward voice. At first, his voice was too weak to carry very far, but when he saw nobody around, he began to relax.
His speaking voice was raspy and clipped. But when he sang, all of that fell away, and his vocals became smooth and deep, nearly making Amy gasp.
Quickly, she texted her friends and told them to come over discreetly, but also right now.
The moment they showed up, crawling into the bushes next to her, their faces immediately transformed into nearly identical shocked expressions.
âIs that Shadow?!â Sonic hissed under his breath.
Amy rolled her eyes. âWho else would it be?â
They watched in silence after that, still stunned. Shadowâs singing voiceâŚwell, it really couldnât be described as anything other than beautiful.
The moment he finished, Knuckles shot upwards and began to clap excitedly. All of the others whispered at him furiously and yanked him down behind the bush, while a decidedly uncomposed shriek came from the general direction of the stage.
After a moment, Shadow barked, âWhoâs there?â
The entire team stood up awkwardly, wincing. Sonic smiled nervously. âThat was really good!â
The other hedgehogâs hands tightened on the microphone stand until his fingers nearly left imprints in the metal. âSure.â he sneered sarcastically.
âNo, seriously, it was amazing!â Tails cried.
âYeah, it really was.â Sticks added.
âI loved it!â Amy exclaimed.
Shadowâs grip loosened slightly. âYou mean it?â
The team rushed onto the stage, gathering around him. âYes!â Knuckles exclaimed. âIt was so cool!â
âAh. Well then.â Shadow said tightly.
But as the team watched, his mouth curled into the tiniest of smiles.
âŚ
On the night of the performance, all four members of Dudeitude had the jitters. Tails was making sure all of their equipment was accounted for the tenth time in a row, Knuckles was doing his best to curl up into a ball, Sonic was literally shaking in place, and Shadow was grinding his teeth and hissing at anyone who came near him.
âAlright!â Amy declared, clapping her hands together. The boys all promptly hit the roof, before turning to stare at her with various degrees of fear and frustration.
âListen,â she continued, lowering her voice, âIâm so proud of all of you. You guys did a great job in the practice sessions, and youâre sticking it to all of these stupid organizers, too.â
Knuckles sighed. âYeah, but not as much as the people out by the front fence.â
What he meant, specifically, was the all-girl band protesting the entire competition out front by playing their own songs loud enough to be heard from the rehearsal tent. They had camped out long before the concert had begun and were showing no signs of flagging, no matter how many people tried to drive them off.Â
(They also had a sign in front of them that read If you can be petty, so can we.)
Amy shook her head. âEverybody has different ways of dealing with these kinds of people. Just because ours isnât as loud as theirs doesnât make it any worse.â
âRight, but what happens if weâve put in all this effort and donât win?â Tails asked nervously, holding open one flap of the tent and gesturing to the band run by Justin Beaver. They were doing, quite frankly, a really good job, and the judges seemed almost won over already.
Amy frowned. âWell, Iâm still glad I got to do this with all of you anyway. The only way we couldâve done this wrong is by giving up or by not having me and Sticks participate at all.
âAnd,â she added, âIâm also glad we now know that Shadow is an amazing singer!â
The hedgehog in question looked away briefly, embarrassed.
Sticks darted into the tent suddenly. âItâs time.â she whispered dramatically.Â
(Shadow and Sonic had to do their absolute best not to impale the walls of the tent with their quills at that.)
âŚ
âAnd now, the final band of the nightâŚitâsâŚDudeitude!!â
The announcerâs voice rang in the ears of all four band members as they took to the stage. Sonic grinned at Knuckles. âYou ready, dude?â
âYeah, dude!â he whispered back, practically bouncing in his seat.
Tails leaned over to tell Shadow, âTheyâre always nervous until they hit the stage. Itâs the waiting thatâs the worst for them.â
âOh. Good for them.â he muttered tersely, obviously not experiencing the same relief.
âYouâre gonna do great!â Sonic cheered under his breath, smiling at Shadow in the darkness.
He didnât even have time to react before the lights flashed on and the drumbeat began.
Shadow played his music almost entirely on autopilot, his hands moving more on memory than knowledge. He performed without thinking, doing the choreography (or the stripped-down version of it that heâd demanded they give him, because he didnât dance) while staring blankly out at the audience. Heâd never been more grateful that he was joining the band in its rock incarnation instead of when it was a full-on pop band.
As they entered the breakdown of the final song, where Sonic vocalized solo over chords from Shadowâs guitar, that autopilot ended up betraying him. Shadow had, on his own time, tried out singing along to this part in the test track an octave lower, because heâd found it enjoyable. It hadnât been made part of the performance plan, and if heâd been in his right mind he never wouldâve done it, but as it wasâŚ
âŚwell, the audience ate it up.
They finished their song, accepted the audienceâs applause (with much whooping and bouncing up and down from the original trio), and filed offstage, all while Shadow was still processing the performance.
The moment they entered their tent, Shadowâs knees gave out and he collapsed abruptly onto a chair.
âWhoa, Shadow, are you okay?â Sonic asked, hurrying over to stand next to him, his hands hovering nervously over his former rivalâs shoulders.
âI sang.â Shadow wheezed. âI wasnât even supposed to sing then, andâŚâ
âIt was incredible!â Amy gasped, stars in her eyes. âThat was such a good idea!â
âSoâŚI didnât ruin the show?â he asked, looking up with a carefully blank expression.
âHonestly, I think you just won it.â Sticks said, poking their head into the tent. âI mean, the crowd is still shrieking.â
Shadowâs limbs went obviously loose with relief. âSo youâre not upset.â
[The entire team suddenly locks eyes, remembering Shadow mentioning that his last brush with friendship ended badly.]
âNo, no, no!â Amy cried. âNo, not at all! Honestly, Iâm glad you decided to sing.â
Sonic smiled at him. âIt sounded amazing.â
Shadow shook his head, stunned. âI was so out of it up there. I barely even realized what had happened until I was done.â
Tailsâs eyes widened. âWait, does that mean you were practicing the song like that this whole time?â
ââŚmaybe?â
âYou shouldâve told us!â he exclaimed. âI wouldâve done all the sound prep so the audience could hear you better!â
Shadow looked cautiously down at his skates. âThank you, but Iâm alright.â
âYou at least have to do karaoke sometime with us then!â Knuckles insisted cheerfully.
The entire team looked so excited that Shadow found himself smiling wryly against his will. âWell, I guess, if you insistâŚâ
âThe awards are starting!â Sticks called from the entrance to the tent. Then they frowned. âWait, when did I become the responsible one here?â
All four members of Dudeitude took to the stage, along with the other bands. They were forced to jostle with their rivals for room, leading to many dirty looks and a minor shoving war. However, they all stood up straight when the announcer called, âNow, the winner of the competition isâŚâ
ââŚDudeitude!!â
Sonic, Tails, and Knuckles all screamed at top volume, making Shadow flinch before watching his bandmates with a smirk. As soon as they had received a check for the money and a guaranteed record deal, however, two things happened.
First, Amy and Sticks raced out onto the stage to celebrate too, completely forgetting their plan in the process. The audience went absolutely silent upon seeing themâand then burst out into cheers that were even louder than before. Sticks and Amy stared at the crowd for a moment, before smiling, putting their arms around each other, and taking their well-earned bow.
Then, the entire team all gathered together in a group huddle for a minute. Sonic whispered something to them that made their eyes widen and the hero bounce in place excitedly.
He snatched up a microphone and ran to the edge of the stage. âHey guys, listen. All of us loved playing for you, and we had so much fun tonight. But, uh, being a hero is kind of a full-time job, and most of us already have enough on our plates. SoâŚI wanna give this to a band whoâs really gonna use it. A band who actually performed tonight, but never got judged, and a band who we all think was probably both one of the best ones here and who deserves this more than anything.â
âYo! Ladies out front!â he yelled, getting the attention of the band who had been protesting the event all night.
âYeah?!â their leader, a chipmunk dressed in a blue vest and white leggings, yelled.Â
âCan you guys come up here for a sec?â
The crowd parted to let the band through as they came to the stage. It was composed of the aforementioned chipmunk, a lynx in a pink dress, a lemur wearing all yellow, and a wolf who looked like sheâd stepped off the pages of a goth/punk magazine.
âWhat is it?â the chipmunk asked.
âHey, uh, do you want this?â Sonic said, offering her the prizes.
The crowd was completely silent.
âWhy are you giving this to us?â the lynx asked softly.
ââCause we think you guys sounded great, and you really deserved to be included in this competition. And now that itâs ours, we get to do what we want with it. So we thought you should have this.â he explained.
Tails gave a thumbs-up from behind him, and Knuckles smiled encouragingly. Cautiously, the chipmunk stepped closer and took the prizes. âWhatâs the catch?â she asked.
âNo catch. Seriously.â Sonic told her.
She watched him skeptically for a moment, before holding out a hand to shake. âThank you.â she said quietly. âItâs a pleasure to meet youâmy nameâs Sally, by the way.â
âNice to meet ya!â he said cheerfully. âNameâs Sonic.â
âThese three behind me are Nicole, Tangle, and Whisper.â she added, pointing at the lynx, lemur, and wolf in succession.
âHey! Thank you, like, so much!â Tangle cheered, appearing directly next to Sally. âMan, weâve been dying for a chance to do something like this for ages!â
Whisper smiled in agreement.
âUhâŚ.â Soar the Eagle (the reporter covering this event) stammered, trying to regain his bearings, âWell then, how about a picture with theâŚtwo winners of this competition?â
[The camera flash obscures the screen for a moment, before revealing a picture of Dudeitude (plus Amy and Sticks) and the other band. Most of them are smiling, and Shadow has mustered up a moderately friendly neutral expression for the camera.]
[roll credits]
#sonic boom#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#miles tails prower#knuckles the echidna#amy rose#sticks the badger#sonic boom: ancient secrets#sol's fanfiction#hello again everyone!#i say...over a year later...#i'm so sorry you all had to wait this long--a lot has happened#but suffice it to say that none of it has stopped me from continuing to write!#i'm still suffering quite a bit of writer's block on this fic#but i'm determined to push through it and give you guys a resolution someday!#as it is though#if you see any issues with this please let me know#because i've read this so many times that i hardly even know how it looks to others anymore#anyhow thank you for reading!#and have a lovely day wherever you are!
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ty for tagging me @justgleekout teehee đĽ°đĽ°đĽ°đĽ° it's been so long since i did smth like this lmao
Rules are post gifs from your 10 favorite shows without naming them, then tag 10 people.
also idk if i even have 10 shows i would like enough to put here but we'll see lol c:
that's 7 but i don't rly have others i would say are favorite tv shows atm so i'm just gonna repeat from these LMAO
beep beep boop boop i'm not gonna tag anyone bc i feel like i barely interact here anymore and i feel awkward abt tagging lol đđđ naur but if you see this and want to do it at all i tag you fr <33
#I NEED THIS J/ATP REWATCH SOON OR I WILL EXPLODE#LOOKING AT GIFS MAKES ME CRAZY#LOOKING AT PICTURES SOMETIMES THE FICS I READ HAVE LIKE IG POSTS AND STUFF#AHHHHHHH I MISS THEM SO FUCKING MUCH#i miss them to pieces so much that *i'm* the one in pieces#jeanne talks#tag games#long post#yall i haven't actually thought abt gIee that much in so long LOL#but had to put it on here i feel like this is like actively shows i've rewatched recently and love#/ have made part of my personality/lore LOL#which is rly just gIee all of the others i have rewatched like this year đ#if i had access to gIee i totally would have rewatched it too tbh#why is this kinda making me want to rewatch y/oung sheIdon again......... i've literally done that like i think 3 times this year đđđđ#it's just so fun to have on in the background LOL#maybe once i finish od/aat which i'm rewatching rn again lmaooooo#it's the need for background noise it's the need to not think abt my life đđđđđđ#will not be surprised if youn/g sheIdon happens again#once i get to j/atp rewatch tho i'll probably also rewatch that 293865394874 times#but i wanna rewatch for the first time in 203857649874098 years w my friends i think it'll be fun lol
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maybe i should have gone into practical effects instead of computer science...
#when i was in middle school i used to use red and black pens + spit for blending to make it look like the backs of my hands were torn open#i can't believe it's almost 4am. i just spent 5 hours typing up an essay about MM's erik that i just fuckin privated bc i was embarrassed#AND I STILL NEVER SPELL HIS NAME RIGHT THE FIRST TIME AAAAAAAA#i was right but im going to save all my points for the fanfic im currently planning out and promptly NEVER GOING TO ACTUALLY WRITE#I say shoving my plans for my h2o s3 rewrite off the table#yes i skipped from s2 to s3 i had a BRILLIANT idea [season 3 h2o spoilers ahead be wary my mutuals who are still watching]#okay so you know how lewis goes to the american institute of marine bio in the middle of 3? since this is tied to my s2 rewrite fic i wante#to actually finally reasonably re-introduced dr denman to the story because i never liked that she just fucked off at the end of s1#despite WITNESSING the moon pool magic. so i made it so she runs into lewis while doing a presentation for the college and they have a chat#(because her JAW paper plays an important part in my s2 rewrite bc i imagine lewis is the kind of guy who SAYS he deleted every copy of#it... but ACTUALLY he secretly printed himself out a copy to study in private to compare to his own notes bc#[lewis voice] come *on* guys just THINK of the progress that he could make with this! [grabby hands in front of chest])#so yeah they have a chat and Linda kind of gives Lewis the opposite dilemma in s3 that Louise gives him in s1 about science and magic#since SHE knows about the moon pool and has been biding her time and she knows Lewis knows and Lewis is like ah... uh oh.#it will eventually tie into the idea it's not about forcing science and magic together or separating them#its abt respectfully and responsibly utilizing both to see their fullest potential. which lewis learned in s2 and Linda has... not.#BUT#later on she gets a call from 1 (one) ryan who is like 'hey so i heard u did environmental studies on mako for dr bennett a couple years ag#and i was wondering if you've seen anything weird there as im currently doing a-' and she's immediately like 'YOU SON OF A BITCH IM IN'#and he's like 'wha-' and she's like 'i have already booked my plane tickets we're going to have a great time we have lots to talk about :)'#and wheeee now they have someone who knows about mermaids on their team and it's the perfect way to bring lewis back to relevancy in s3 :D#it also gives me reason to have two bad bitches (linda and sophie) meet and get to know each other which is not a dynamic ive seen in#any of the H2O fics i've ever read so im very hyped to delve into how they'll play off each other#also charlotte is there so technically three bad bitches (only in my au Charlotte never lost her tail and is part of the gang she just move#because she felt like she needed to leave to really be able to find herself without being in her grandmother's shadow but she comes back bc#well... it's season 3 mako is sounding the fucking emergency alarms everyone is showing up sdkghkfjhg)#im also so so so hyped to show u guys who's coming back in the s2 rewrite because it ISNT denman and i think everyone thinks it will be :3c#(i said she when telling ppl to look forward to a familiar face... but can u blame me for getting hype she's one of my favorite characters!#i love u H2O#cruddy rambles
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