#I love all my familial f/os so much but I don’t think I’ve had this much of a connection to one since like. samatoki a few years back

[greenlanterns-light]

gyro wants me dead argopro wants me dead everyone wants me dead. can't take this shit anymore

[oc-x-canon-chaos]

Finally making an intro post. Hi

Sup. I’m a cringey little weirdo and I like Vocaloid, as you can tell from my profile picture. I am autistic and rely on imagining fictional characters to help me handle tough stuff in my life. Keep that in mind if you talk to me.

I do not tolerate ship discourse. I don’t care if you’re pro or anti, if I don’t like the ship, I’m blocking you. Im curating my experience, and my experience says no to basically every popular ship. If you don’t like that, this isn’t the blog for you, the only ship stuff I’m reblogging is me x my F/O. I think “pro ship” people are childish and immature, so if you unironically call yourself that, leave me alone and touch grass, but I’ve also had people say I’m a bad person for self shipping with a video game villain, so like. Extremists on either side DNI. I will block you. Fyi, I WILL block and report adults who self ship with minors. ESPECIALLY if the character isn’t aged up. I know there’s nuance to aging up characters if they naturally sue over the course of their story or whatever, but if the character is a kid and your s/I is an adult it grosses me out and it’s creepy af.

I also block people whose self ships are purposefully abusive. It feels like you’re romanticizing abuse and idc if it’s a coping mechanism, it makes me uncomfortable and I’m controlling MY experience. I’m fine with “sharing” F/Os, as long as you aren’t shaming my headcannons while you do it. I’m not gatekeeping Megurine Luka from everyone ever, I just don’t want to get harassed because you don’t like the pet name I think she’d use for me. Im a polyselfshipper, so all the fictional characters I’m “dating” are with me at the same time. Right now, I only have two romantic F/Os, and they aren’t dating each other. Most of my F/Os are platonic or familial. If I’m posting about an underage character, assume they’re my imaginary adopted child. I’m not being gross about them, I promise. I love interacting in reblog games! I might make some of my own!

My F/Os include:

Megurine Luka. She’s a romantic/queerplatonic partner of mine, and she’s very sweet. I imagine she’s with me to help when I’m in a crowded situation or experiencing anxiety— she is an idol, after all, and she’s used to crowds!

Springtrap. Yes, that Springtrap. He’s a queerplatonic/romantic partner. He’s here to make me feel like I have someone strong and scary on my side, to defend me. On the other side, I show him how to be a person again, by taking care of my needs. It’s a real “I can fix him” situation.

Hatsune Miku. She’s a platonic/best friend F/O. She helps with my self esteem, and makes me feel a loved and appreciated. Also, she’s Miku. There are no cons of imaginary best friend Miku.

Elizabeth Afton. Before anyone gets concerned, she is a familial F/O. I see her as my adopted kid. She helps me feel like I can protect and care for someone, and that I’m not irresponsible enough to let her get Circus Baby’d.

Withered Chica! She’s like my daughter and I love her so much. I think the official lore is that me and Springtrap adopted her (in my self ship AU, he’s separate from William, he just has his soul, so he wasn’t technically responsible for that happening to her)

Kaai Yuki. She’s another fictional adopted child of mine. I want to keep her safe!

Lacey from Lacey’s games. She’s another adopted kid F/O, I just want her to have a happy life, and imagine I rescued her and am helping her grow up and move through her trauma.

Mr. Plant and Argos from the World of Mr. Plant! They’re platonic/friend F/Os. I just like to imagine that I’m hanging out with them in the Void.

Gumi. she’s Gumi.

Howl (from howl’s moving castle). we have chemistry but we aren’t, like, together or anything, I just like thinking about him. I guess he’s my celebrity crush F/O!

There are a few others, but these are my main F/Os!

Some images that remind me of them ⬇️

[byakuyasdarling]

saw your silly post and realized i was thinking of something sort of similar, so i hope you don’t mind if i were to share a few of my thoughts :)

anyways, i personally really enjoy seeing older (technically a good chunk of users are older than me but thats just bc i’m literally 15 so like... unsurprising) people on tumblr. i feel like theres always that “isn’t it weird to do this at my age?” in that back of my mind so when i see like 30 yr olds on tumblr posting essays about their faves or 21 year olds lovemailing their f/os or 17 yr olds being like ya i still sleep with my plushies! it feels very... nice? calming.

i sort of worry about like wtf do i do when i turn 18?? is that too old?? what if i still want to self ship at 30? what if i want to wear cute dresses even in my 40s? is that too old? but then like i go on tumblr and see everyone else doing Just that and its soo...! nice. it reminds me that age doesn't matter, you can have silly blogs and post fics and draw even if you're like 27. is there really an age limit on like.. enjoying life and having hobbies???

i don’t mean to make it about me or anything but i just wanted to remind you that there is no such thing as being too old to enjoy the things you like!! so long as its not interfering in anything or hurting anyone, why not indulge a bit? anyone who tells you otherwise literally needs to live a little, enjoy things & go out more 💀 sending a thousand seals their way as we speak...!

18 is also still incredibly young, you shouldn't be shamed by anyone for liking byakuya and drawing silly ship art where you two kiss. why does it matter what you do anyways .. !!

Thank you so much, I’m so happy to hear that! I really love seeing older selfshippers too <3 a lot of people I see in the selfship community are older than me, and I really look up to the fact they still do this.

I don’t know what the big deal is. I see older women (particularly) froth over actors all the time, so why can’t I love a fictional guy? I know it’s not the same… my dad says it’s “a bit full-on”, “it was okay when you were 17”, and I fear a lot of my family has that sentiment. I know they really love me and care for me but you know. My psychologist aunt thinks it’s cute and good for me though, so I’m taking her word. I think it’s good for me too.

I think it comes from the perspective of “you can have someone real!” My family somehow thinks I’m the biggest catch ever, and probably wants to see me happy. But a real man won’t make me happy right now. Of course I want a boyfriend, but I literally can’t be a good partner in my mental state. But I’ve said this a lot already.

In Australia, at least in my family but it is prominent see the culture of where I live, is that 18 = adulthood. You must know how to be an adult and act adult at this point. It’s bullshit. Even developmentally you are not an adult. I really agree with the age of 21 being “adulthood” because you’ve actually had real experiences in the real world at that point.

Also people who wear cute clothes and cuddle with plushes are so based. I think a lot of people thinks it’s cute though from what I observe (in our generation).

[1ddiscourseoftheday]

Fri 28 May ‘21

Zayn’s rap EP??? Dropped yesterday???!? “Breaking my silence” says Zayn on Yellow Metal- Cathartic (Zayn is Yellow Metal here) and he DOES in 24 minutes of political, personal, complex and lyrically dense rap zoems! It was leaked/dropped whatever you wanna call it by being posted to Z’s cousin’s account (like the cover the other day); but clearly Zayn is behind these drops and that’s what matters, he is releasing this stuff in a way that will get to the fans but not inspire the media uproar (or contract issues) that posting to his own accounts would. As he says “don’t say I can’t communicate, you know I conversate with you in several different ways”, plus “I’ve had enough of being my own enemy, come a long way since 17, I have a few things to say when I get up on a microphone, I didn’t give up on fame I need this time like therapy it’s just to keep me sane… and to be honest it’s offensive, offensive to my still open wounds, trying to ask me questions they know they don’t have I ever replied, I prefer to sit down be online and respond to fanart,” I LOVE THAT. And the political content?! “What a family needs, and the planet bleeds, the damaged trees, it's never leaving to a real sense so FUCK THE FEDS” (or fuck the fence, not clear, either way, YES ZAYN!), “the snake that’s called Biden, none of them abiding by what they put in writing we should be used to it by now say whatever for the vote and then just chose another route say they’ll never kill another unless that brother’s skin is brown” and “been facing the racists back when I was a kid...kicked me out of the schools, they had a problem with me and the kids that would call me paki still sit in the classroom chilling, and now that I’m older I see they treat us different, got me thinking I was the problem cuz they never dealt with those issues, 20 years later I’m still in the same boat, tryna treat me like my grandpa, say I came up off the boat, came to tell you what I stand for, man I think this shit’s a joke. How can I be civil, when they got me by the throat, ‘Boy your skin is so light’, ok motherfucker take my name up on a flight, try to convince immigration that your bloodline’s half white, my name ain’t on the list unless they label it ethnic.” HELL YEAH ZAYN. PLUS: “never lose me to fentanyl, scared when I take a benadryl,” not gonna lie I LOVE to see this GOOD good good, "just became a dad so now I’m taking all the checks" HA yes get it, "trying to be a better person than the world deserves to see," and, “with a cigarette, sun coming up, write my thoughts on the internet, feeling deep, I'm just bored with the silhouette, get fucked up for the thrill of it,” “I’m just here for the rap then I’m leaving.” AND SO MUCH MORE all in Zayn’s excellent voice and accent, a GIFT that’ll take much more than a day to really unpack and appreciate!

And happy 28th, Louis is writing music! Looks like he is working with producer team Rick Parkhouse and George Tizzard in London (they call themselves Red Triangle Productions and put out music as SuperHi)- they posted a studio picture and tagged Louis. He’s just visible in the booth, singing. Also present- writer/ musician, Paul Whalley and songwriter Robert Harvey (The Music, The Streets) who were both posted and tagged Louis in as well. Louis followed Harvey. Hell yeah, what a line up! Not only that, Jamie Hartman answered a ProjectKMM participant’s question about other songs with Louis-- are they still working on new stuff? He says “I’m sure Louis has been working on new songs with lots of people!” [as we see, yes] “But yes we have done some too- who knows what will make the next album but he’s a top man and I would always write and hang w LT.”

Harry won Best Lyrics for Adore You at the iHeart Awards and Best Cover Song for Juice but failed to take the Artist of the Year or Song of the Year Categories, but more exciting than that- he’s listed as the Director of a new cosmetics and perfume company!!! People have been speculated about him doing something with Gucci Beauty for a long time now (he’s been noted to use their cosmetics, and definitely models their nail polish), and he has of course done perfume ads for them- there’s speculation that this could be for something with them, or it could just be a new thing of his very own. Well the Harry Styles palette would be a damn hit and we all know it, bring it on!

Anne Marie’s Big Weekend performance aired today and yes! She did Our Song with Niall! It’s the performance they recorded last week or so that we saw the pics from, yay first time getting to see them play it, but it was very quickly followed by the next time as their Jonathan Ross show performance also aired! And in case you’re sad about Niall’s previous promo buddies being replaced, there’s no need for that, he’s only adding to the pack; he tweeted Julia Michaels just today, “love ya hules” AWWW. He posted a bunch of cute OS video bts pics too, followed Oprah Winfrey and said he’d like to go to space and that he “would have liked to have been” a godfather to a 1D boy’s baby but “maybe the next one.”

Meanwhile Liam is looking at the fanart submissions he asked for- he retweeted a terrific drawing of himself laughing and said “this is amazing!” and liked a couple of other art posts. Feels like it’s about time for a monthly Liam catch up video, perhaps? Something else to look forward to!

[dammit-neal]

I Don’t Understand Buck Begins.

PSA this is a bit of rant. Not a hate-rant or anything like that, but I do express frustration and if you’re not here for that right now, please skip this. It is complicated and ended upa bit long. But if you’re up for it, I’d LOVE to know your thoughts.

I actually want to talk about this with people. I’m not here to drop a statement like a microphone and walk away. The first time I watched Buck Begins, I loved it. I still do. But as I think back on it and rewatch, there are some major issues I’m spotting:

1. Buck in his whole life has been endangering himself in order to get the attention (dare I say LOVE) of those around him. I feel like the Firefam’s (very OOC) responses to him recklessly endangering himself again only enforced these destructive habits?

2. Firefam’s OOC reaction: In literally every other episode, when Buck recklessly endangers himself the firefam immediately put the brakes on, tell Buck to treasure himself, not to be reckless, to think things through, to realize that the victim got out because of sheer good luck (as well as hair-brained thinking on Buck’s part, but some of Buck’s decision making also really endangered him, more on that later.) The fact that Bobby let Buck work that fire at all in the state of mind he was in is odd. The fact that Hen told him he was for whatever reason correct in choosing to split from the party and go on his own in his current state of mind was beyond odd. Looking back, it doesn’t feel like real moments, but rather contrivances dressed in nice words like “I don’t this often but you’re right” (NO HE’S F**KING NOT!!) so that we wouldn’t question them immediately. Was Buck correct that the other team needed anotehr man? Yeah. Was he right that it should be him? NOPE. Anyone could see that, we could see that, the Firefam could see that. but they let him go anyway. This is OOC, they’re smarter than that, and they’ve known Buck for long enough to know when he’s triggered and more likely to make poor decisions. During it, when Buck disobeys orders and Bobby is calmly just like “Yeah he does that sometimes.” I’m sorry, did someone put Xanax in Bobby’s coffee? Why on earth would he be so calm?? In a normal situation he would never be calm about that--add to it the fact that he KNEW Buck wasn’t at his most stable at the moment? He should have been shouting into his radio and hauling ass, not shrgging and smiling with pride like “Yup! It’s cool with me” like what?? Then afterward, nothing but kind words and praise. Good job risking your life like an idiot, good job risking the other guy because you were so determined to get him out asap you didn’t stop to think. That’s what you do, Buck. 

Like did they really just say that!?

The only nuance that I thought was right here, the only thing that was given emphasis that felt RIGHT, was not that Buck stays behind, not that he makes reckless decisions sometimes, not that he jumped into a fire while unstable, THE ONLY THING that should have been emphasized here, that the episode should have been based on? Is that BUCK DOESN’T GIVE UP. There’s a quality in him that we’ve seen before. one that Buck doesn’t seem to realize about himself. Athena’s moment was the only moment that looking back gives me any kind of cathartsis, because it is the only healthy reaction from the firefam that I saw (aside from them all running in after him--still love that moment.) they should’ve been gentle baout it, but nonetheless should’ve told Buck to treasure himself more, not be like “And here’s our most rekless memeber, pat on the back, kid, we love that you throw yourself into danger without thinking, in fact that’s what we love most about you!” Thinking back, I could SCREAM that that’s the message they left Buck with.

3. The victim: Let’s face it, the only reason the victim didn’t die is because the writers didn’t want him to. They made sure the tank landed somewhere non-fatal so that Buck could still get a win, even though many of his decisions thus far had been hare-brained and ill-advised, driven by a mad need to prove himself, and to never leave people behind, even if stopping and waiting and thinking might be more advisable at some points. In fact, when the victim first falls, and buck wakes up and he looks at him and I thought the victim was dead, first of all I was really sad for the victim, but I also felt like that was the right way to go. Buck’s decision making wasn’t sound, he wasn’t thinking straight, he went in anyway, by all rights the only reason the victim stayed alive after everything he went through was because the writers wanted him to stay alive which they followed with a big and in my opinion inappropriate Pat on the back Moment. The victim dying would’ve been tragic, but it would’ve driven home a lesson for buck, that hurting himself, endangering himself isn’t the answer, won’t always save the day. It would’ve taught Buck (harshly yes, but) that he needs to get his head  on straight in this job. And if he had lost teh victim and the firefam had been there for him anyway, it would’ve been a whole different scenario.

In the episode, while it was super sweet and had some incredible moments, Buck learns nothing, his relationship with the Firefam doesn’t actually change at all, and his relationship with his family doesn’t appear to have actually progressed. He’s still prioritizing them over himself (bringing the parents into therapy since well, they’re trying which is apparently enough now), he’s now been encouraged to continue the reckless streak of self-sacrificing decision making that he’s been on in the past in order to gain teh love and recognition of the poeple around him.

I wish the writers had placed focus, not on Buck being accepting, not on Buck being restless, but on Buck not giving up. We saw bits of that yeah, but it wasn’t as highlighted as Buck ebing reckless and feeling overall like he’s not enough. I wish the episode had been centered there, and they had created an entirely different scenario start-to-finish that (like in Eddie begins, where there were no contrivances, the only reckless thing he does--cutting the line--is something that there isn’t a quetsion in a single brain he WOULD do and should do) where Buck is level-headed, where he’s in some kind of scenario where only he could uniquely succeed in because he never gives up. This episode had bits of it here and there, but ultimately what was running teh day was buck vulnerabilities, not his strengths. Insead of pointing out where Buck shines (like the other Begins episodes), they really only further highlighted what his weaknesses are and then proceeded to have the people around him encourage those weaknesses. Like, what?!

I also think this was the moment to solidify the firefam as his family. Instead, we see Buck retreating back toward a very unhealthy family situation and the firefam remains where they always are. What they did for buck in this episode was something incredible, but it’s also something they would do for any member of the firefam. What I wanted was for the firefam to show up for Buck in a way that he uniquely needs. How, I don’t know--perhaps taking a jab at his loneliness, surprising him with a dinner party at the loft, whatever. Something that told Buck “we see your pain, we see how tough your parents are, how you and Maddie need family who will show up and treasure you no matter what (WHICH BTW INCLUDES YELING AT YOU WHEN YOU’VE BEEN AN IDIOT AND TELLING YOU TO PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF CRAP DON’T ENDANGER YOURSELF LIKE THAT AGAIN, PLEASE VALUE YOURSELF), that’s what Buck needed. An episode that would help him learn to treasure himself, believe in himself more, love the fact that he never gives up about himself, learn that dangerous stunts and running into things without thinking because he bleives that’s what gets him love is incorrect and unecessary. We didn’t get any of that. The episode was also trying to kill two birds with one stone, which brings me to my last point:

4. Framing Buck Begins around the sibling’s relationship, while GORGEOUS (seriously LOVED these moments they did and the casting was amazing, and both JLH and OS played their younger selves to perfection) I wish had been placed in a completely different episode. They didn’t belong here in an episode of Buck learning about himself. And because of the amount of airtime they took up, we ended up with an episode where Buck doesn’t really learn about himself in the end. Everything remains largely external instead of internal.

All in all, I feel like we need another Buck Begins episode to right the wrongs of this one. Nothing has been solved or fixed. Buck’s relationships remain pretty much the same going in as they do leaving. He has found no peace, no resolution (except in confirmation that Maddie loves him, which is nice, but largely external) he is still fuled by the belief that reckless behavior is what wins him teh love and attention of those around him.

This frustrates me to no end. If you feel like Buck Begins did scratch every itch for you, I’d love to talk and see your perspective as well, because I hate this itchy feeling of dissatisfaction and I dearly hope I’ve missed something here.

Anyway sorry this got so long. Didn’t realize I had QUITE so many thoughts until I started writing and then shit happened. If you made it to the end, thank youa nd I’d LOVE to hear your thoughts, whether you agree or disagree.

[soupbabe]

🎟free f/o(s) gush pass!!

!! Spending this time to talk about my f/os and how I see them!!

Keeping it to JoJo just to keep it simple (other f/os include Ryunosuke Tanaka from Haikyu, Shun Kaidou from Disastrous Life of Saiki K, and Prince Soma from Black Butler! All are romantic f/os)

Do I have anything fancy about them like Ocs and a story? No, it's just a lot of comfort characters in one place! <3

A platonic/familial f/o of mine is Abbachio!! Like I genuinely love thinking about him acting like my older brother tbh. He just has that tough love kind of vibe and blunt nature that reminds me of my irl brother a lot, but Abba is wayy better than my irl brother though lmao. I just love thinking about how we are both fairly quiet and reserved people, but we just have our bonding times in our own ways! Mostly just us talking about alternative music and him teaching me how to do eyeliner right lol.

I think I view Polnareff as a platonic and comforting f/o to me. Just like thinking about him being a very supportive and loving brother makes me cry sm. Like and we'd just have a normal sibling dynamic of just playfully making fun and bullying each other, but it's very much clear that we still respect each other! I don't think about him as much as I usually did when I first started part 3, but comforting Polnareff hugs live in my head rent free. And him just trying to help me break out of my shell too is very nice!! He'd hype me up so much-

Of course a big romantic f/o is Mikitaka!! Tbh I just instantly got attached to him when I saw him for the first time. I just thought that he's one of the few stand users in Morioh that genuinely had good intentions and never meant any harm was interesting! I just love thinking about him showing me various animals and just telling me about alien life. Even if he isn't actually an alien, I would love to just hear this boy gush about a planet he made up and his backstory. Like I just think that's the coolest thing?? Not to mention I just enjoy thinking about clingy Mikitaka transforming into a bracelet or something so I can go along w my day with him by my side.

And there's Hazamada! Even though there's definitely a realistic chance of him biting me for saying that Sailor Moon could defeat Goku despite the fact I haven't even seen both of those animes, I love him sm. I just like thinking about us drawing each other, him obviously having a more manga inspired art style than me. And like I'm certain he'd want to cosplay w me all the time too for Halloween or something. How I would describe our dynamic would be "calm giant w chaotic frustrated gremlin." Like I think I'm very patient w more chaotic people like him. We're both introverted too, so we'd have no problem doing little dates where we just stay at home while we watch a show together. Also we are both touch starved so a lot cuddling sounds so good to me during dates like those 🥰🥰 And just like?? Short boys in general have my heart, our height difference are just perfect for me to give him forehead kisses tbh.

I've really been meaning to create an oc to ship w him!! They'd be Rohan's sibling because I just think that would be an interesting thing to throw in when discussing the oc and Hazamada's relationship!

[dark-eyes-under-the-golden-sky]

I had a really shitty afternoon/evening and I’m exhausted. Plus holidays are coming up and I don’t really like the holidays because it’s always a very stressful time for me and I don’t really like spending time with my extended family. So to cope with all that I’ve been thinking about what it would be like to bring my f/os to my family gathering. 

I think my family would probably love Bruno. He’s polite and calm and I think people would definitely enjoy talking with him. He would be slightly awkward when my aunt inevitably tries speaking Italian with him, but overall he’d get along with everyone well. Well everyone except one of my cousins... yeah no that one Bruno would probably hate (Bruno wouldn’t agree with his uh... lifestyle, let’s just say it this way). I think Bruno would be the most likely to pull me apart and comfort me when things become too much (ugh I love him so much, he’s literally perfect, I want to kiss him so bad). I think he would definitely try to avoid confrontation, but I also think that if someone really hurt me, all bets would be off. He wouldn't be able to help himself and would just snap and chew the person off. I think overall, he’d be really pleasant to be around though and would make a really good impression on my family (they would give him all the leftovers). 

My family would like my second f/o (not comfy saying who it is yet... sorry). I think they’d be slightly taken aback by his rather loud personality at first, but overall they’d like him. He would either spend the evening talking with my cousins (and trying to show off...) or he would spend it playing with the children. Yeah, he would definitely try to play a board game with everyone at some point and become overly competitive too (man needs to calm down a bit). He’s a sore loser, so he would pout if someone beat him (nothing a kiss can’t fix tho). I feel like he would be good at dragging the attention away from me when things become overwhelming, which would definitely help. Like if someone said something mean he’d just say something like “yeah but I did something way more embarrassing once...” and tell a funny story about himself to divert attention. Overall, he’d be really fun to have around I think. 

My third f/o (*cough* Gojo Satoru *cough* ) uhhhhhh... I’m not exactly sure of how it would go down with him tbh. As much as I love him, he has a very intense personality and I wonder how he would get along with my family. On the one hand I feel like  the kids would really like him because he’s funny and he would definitely play games with them. My aunts would really like him too. They’d find him really charming I think (”YoU hAvE SuCh BeAuTiFuL EyEs” o o f, stop flirting with my man). On the other hand, I feel like he’d end up picking a fight with my uncle (which he’d win no question of course). I feel like he’d be the most likely to confront someone if they say something mean about me too (probably the reason why he would pick a fight with my uncle in the first place). Like someone would insult me and he would take it personally and insult the person right back, not in an angry tone, but in his usual arrogant tone. Overall, with him around, it would definitely be an interesting gathering. 

[stars-self-ships]

Boy, the month of September was something else for me in terms of gaining F/Os.

(I ended up putting a 'read more' on this post as it got kind of lengthy, but check below the cut for some new F/Os!)

Very early on into the month, I fell for who might be the single most obscure F/O that I have, that of course being Xenia, the preliminary transfem foxgirl mascot for Linux. Most of early September was spent thinking about her non-stop. I even gave my fursona a redesign for the sole purpose of pairing him with her (Remind me to finish his key artwork so I can show him off)!

Then, I watched Centaurworld.

I fell for Zulius before I had even touched the first episode of the series, and that love only intensified with every episode I watched (Episode seven in particular 100% sold me on F/Oing him because... well... look at him.) I also ended up deciding that I wanted to F/O Glendale as a familial F/O, since she's such a loveable character coupled with the fact that we share a few traits!

THEN, I played the first chapter of Deltarune, which in turn got me back into Undertale. Granted, I didn't finish it until this past Friday, the first of October, but that's not to say I wasn't considering F/Oing a couple of characters from Deltarune beforehand... which is exactly what ended up happening.

Firstly, we have Ralsei, whom I've considered to be the third of my younger sibling F/Os! I knew early on in that I wanted to consider him as a brother, though because we don't have canon ages for any of DR's main cast (As well as taking into consideration that a majority of people see him as like fourteen or fifteen), I decided that he would be a perfect fit as a younger brother!

It should come as no surprise that I'm F/Oing Ralsei— from his very introduction in Deltarune, he is an absolute cinnamon roll. He has such a cute design, and he's always giving Kris words of encouragement; there's even an option to hug him during his battle tutorial (Which you bet I jumped at the chance to). Precious characters like him are my weakness...

... which is funny, because I also ended up F/Oing Susie, who's the exact opposite. Anyone who's seen the one Deltarune meme that's been making the rounds lately can deduce that Susie is that of the brash type, who finds that being 'the good guy' isn't a title that suits her. I mean, she threatens to bite Kris' face off at one point.

Without saying too much on how chapter one concludes, I can at least say that Susie isn't all malice, and that there are definitely some people that she cares strongly about. It's for that reason that I wanted to see her as a platonic F/O, and as a result, she holds the title of being my first platonic F/O that isn't from the Aether franchise. I do quite like strong and protective characters, and she absolutely fits that bill.

So, yeah! The four F/Os that I've talked a bit about in this post have now all been added to my F/O list, and you can expect me to start reblogging and creating content for the four of them! 💙🤍💙

[into-crazy]

Des ~ 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💗💗💗💗💗

Hi, honey!!!!! How are you? How is everything? Are you okay?💖

I've been missing you so much omggg ~ 😩😩😩😩😩😩 I hope you're safe and well and taking care of yourself!!!!

You mean a lot to me and I notice when you're not online (not that I check your blog every day to see how you are or anything👀👀👀) and idk I just want you to know you're loved and cherished and missed and hhhhhh ~ J and I love you!!!✨💚

HII ERIKA!!😭😍🥰🥰

Oh darling, I am doing great!! Thank you so much for asking🥺🥰 How are you and how's everything with you, dear?

Aw I miss you too😭 SO SO MUCH🥺💖 I haven't had a lot of time to get on here. Then when I actually do have time, it's not a lot. I would get on, and then something else that requires my attention would come up and ughhhhh😩 So I always feel bad when I don't message or reply back to anyone😭 But other than that, things have actually been pretty good for me!! I've been busy with my home and work life, with my family, and my personal life. It's just a lot, but in a really good way😌 I appreciate that you've been thinking about me, it truly means the world to me. Thank you Fawn🥰🥰💖💖 I think of you often, even when I am not on tumblr. I'll be going about my day and a thought of "I sure hope Erika is doing okay" would cross my mind🥺❤

J!!💚💜 Ohh, how I miss him😭 I love you and I love him so so much!! I'm sending you TONS AND TONS of love and hugs from me and your f/os!! From your loves and your parental f/os💓💓 They are all extremely proud of you and they love you very much!!💜💜💜

Also, if you were wondering, I'd received your last ask and I am currently working on it!! I'm sorry that it's taking me a bit of time😩 I thought I'd let you know in case you were wondering whether I got it or anything🥰😌 LOVE YOU!!!💖💖💖💖

[bunnys-lil-hideout]

Thank you so much! Feel free to ignore or skip if anything makes you uncomfortable!!

Is there a specific reason you got into self shipping? How close do you feel with your F/O's? Do you imagine scenarios with them? Do you have any advice for someone interested in the self shipping community? Is there any discourse I should avoid?

Thank you so much for taking the time to help me!!

This response got pretty long, so I'll have it under the cut. I hope this helps!

So when I first started self-shipping when I was a lot younger, I mainly did it because I would just find the character attractive and had a strong intimate feeling towards them. I can only think of like, 1 character that I self-shipped with when I was a kid where it was romantic.

Obviously, now I'm into self-shipping because I actually have full on romantic attractions to the characters I've listed as my F/Os. Some of them I actually didn't even realize I might've had romantic feelings for when I was younger because I just didn't understand most emotions.

The closeness I feel for them really depends on the F/O and how much sentimental value they have to me. Like, Boozoo I'm not too close with, because he isn't that much of a sentimental character to me personally, and he hasn't been in my life long enough. Now, for characters like The Mask, who have been in my life a lot longer because I was a kid when I watched the movie and cartoon, he means a lot to me as he impacted me in various ways that I didn't even realize. But overall, I do feel a closeness to them.

I imagine scenarios with them all the fucking time. I've occasionally had days where those scenarios would be the only things I think about. Like meeting them for the first time, going out to do fun things together, even just hugging and kissing. It's always in my brain. And I never really use a self-inset, I just use my ACTUAL self.

Advice wise, do not feel ashamed of any character you fall in love with. If the character is 'ugly' or evil or poorly written or even just a blank slate, that's fine! Because the good thing about them not being real is that your brain will shape them how YOU think they should be, and sometimes, that won't even change much! Don't bother with people who don't like your F/Os, because to you, unlike the people who disagree, that character is lovely in every way.

Biggest thing, do not get involved with pro-shippers/anti-antis. Like, even if they're minors and they just don't know better. And try to help in the cause of not letting that ideology spread. Don't make adults think it's okay to self-ship with minors, or self-ship with characters they consider 'biological family'. None of that. Stay away from that waste land, and don't even try to convince them they're wrong, cause they won't listen.

Also, if a F/O is from a controversal piece of media, please make sure to be critical of it! Try to separate them from the media as best as you can, make versions of them that gets rid of any offensive material they may have in their personality or appearance.

Also, it's okay to have F/Os that aren't lovers! They can be your friend, or family, or even a rival. So don't feel like you're stuck in a single category.

Finally, for the most part, just make sure you're happy while you do it. Seriously. Please make sure you're making yourself smile when you do self-ship related stuff. It's meant to be loving and fun. And that's how it always should be.

[wolfsgravity]

I can’t sleep so I’m just thinkin’ about my range of Pokémon romantic F/Os. This series has meant so much to me for so long, and I know F/Os from that source make up a decent portion of my list. I’d feel more embarrassed about it if I didn’t make it abundantly clear that Pokémon is one of the most pervasive influences in my life from an exceedingly young age.

I just. I dunno. I find my collection of Pokémon series F/Os so interesting.

I’m just gonna ramble a bit.

I’m going to talk in Generational order, because my 1am brain couldn’t decipher a more cohesive timeline if it tried.

Giovanni is a funny one. As a kid, his character in the show intimidated me a little. But I really loved Team Rocket on some level. They were my first Pokémon villain organization, and with the Gen III games having Aqua and Magma, I decided pretty early that Team Rocket was my team. I had a stint in Magma since when I was young, I thought I’d specialize in Fire types, but eh it didn’t stick. No team really stuck nearly as much until Team Skull! So I had a lot of time for my intimidation from Giovanni to evolve into a fearful respect, to a mild devotion… by the time I played Let’s Go! and Ultra Moon, I was more than a little excited to see him in game. As in, I would quietly cheer when he appeared on my screen, in some weird giddy manner. It was only a matter of time before I realized I was crushing hard.

Steven Stone (he has a full name so more often than not I use it when referring to him) probably didn’t make the biggest impact on me in the original Gen III games? Hoenn was my favorite region for a while (in part due to pre- “Hoenn confirmed” hype), but he didn’t have a huge role in Ruby/Sapphire. Maybe I noticed him first in Emerald? I wish I could remember my real first inkling of crush on him, because I just remember when I played Omega Ruby… I was already obsessed with him. He showed up for the first time in game and I squealed. I spent the whole game seeking him out and already making romantic passes at him in my around-19-year-old head.

I am counting Grovyle for this, but it bears repeating that my S/I for the Pokémon Mystery Dungeon games is a Pokémon too. Those Mystery Dungeon games enamored me as a teen! I got to BE! A POKEMON!! So I probably got Explorers of Time/Darkness for DS not long after it released in 2008. I was so excited to have Gen IV Pokémon to be and battle and recruit, ugh, this game meant so much to me. I will always remember being part of Wigglytuff’s Guild super fondly. And like, as I am super susceptible to mental role play, putting myself in my characters shoes (or lil toe beans I guess) has always been second nature for me. So a dashing Grovyle just jumped into my silly life and was the most honorable and misunderstood character and I am not even joking when I say I fell for him in my first playthrough. And I’ve played through it a lot. I was always jealous of Celebi. I hate every Dusknoir I see to this day. *chefs kiss* Good game.

Gen V is “oops all F/Os” Gen, where to even start..

Just kidding, N is the obvious choice to start for me. He was love at first sight. He just, ugh, he cares about Pokémon SO MUCH. I literally don’t know how to even expand on this. He literally rode the Ferris Wheel with the player character in the game, and I WASNT supposed to interpret that as a date? Wack. It was a date. I love him so damn much. Next question

Elesa comes next because I’ve always thought she was stunning. I mean, duh I guess, she’s canonically a model. Also, Electric types are in my top 3, behind Fairy and somewhat tied with Fire, so she was a woman after my own heart. Her Emolga kinda wrecked my team and I respect that. Also, she loves puns. So again. Woman after my own heart. The only reason she’s still listed as Crush and not as Dating is because she intimidates me. She’s out of my league and I worry she’d only see me as a friend. Well, not “only”, her and Skyla are bffs and that also looks fun. I just. Can’t imagine her romantically being interested in me sometimes. Heh.

Grimsley was a crush that came on yeeeaaaars after his Gen, and it hit me like a freight train. I swear, he made very little impression on me in B/W, because I was young and I was just excited to possibly see N again as champion. I was a little shit, okay. I also never played B2/W2 all the way through, which is a huge stain on my Pokémon record. Anyways. When he showed up in Sun/Moon, I gasped. I was like, that’s a familiar face. Why is he hot now? (The answer is we was always hot, and I just had a few years to grow between games). But like, I kind of tamped it back down? I think I legit tried to tell myself around Sun/Moon era that I can’t keep finding Pokémon characters hot, because I was drooling over another one in Moon. Anywho. Grimsley kept popping up as fanart on my Tumblr dash for a while and by the time I pulled him in Pokémon Masters, I slipped into love. Whoops.

Professor Sycamore, probably not my proudest moment of fandom. He was another one I liked from the very introduction. I made fun of him in equal measure, but I affectionately referred to him as “Professor Hotdad” for an embarrassingly long amount of time. He’s not even the oldest of my Pokémon F/Os. One of my other Pokémon F/Os is canonically a father. But nope. Sycamore was Hotdad. That all said, he did make me smile like a crush-stricken schoolgirl when he talked in game so it wasn’t all just memey objectification. I do love him dearly.

Gen VII! Alola! Guzma! Oh man, like I’d stated earlier, Team Skull really nestled it’s way close to my heart the way no team had since Team Rocket. It wasn’t all because of Guzma, I really did like the group of ragtag misfits banding together and creating a family. Guzma was icing on the cake. Oh boy, he made my heart do funny little flips even when he was threatening me in game. I loved his design, I loved his character, the way he talked, I just. Ugh, I was down bad for ya boy in Moon and Ultra Moon. He’s actually the inspiration behind my main blog url: its-ya-boi-remington. The “Y’all are stupid!” line and face lives in my head rent free at all times. Guzma protection squad.

(Nanu isn’t a romantic so I won’t talk about him here, just know I’m not forgetting him!)

Leon was, believe it or not, my actual first Gen VIII crush. I saw that fashion disaster and felt a warm comfort from him. It didn’t help that I mentally read every character in Galar with some UK/British Isles accent, that sweetened the deal. I was actually gushing to a couple then-friends about Leon while we all played Sword/Shield together and they kind of mocked me about it. They chided me that Leon “doesn’t bat for my team” and said either of them would have a better chance with him if he were real. So I was a little downtrodden about Leon after that for quite a while. It wasn’t until a couple months ago when suddenly it hit me that A- He’s literally fictional and my version of him can like me regardless of what “team he bats for” and B- I’m nonbinary? So rules get thrown out the window, anyone who likes me is both a miracle and some kind of gay whatever way you spin it. So I let myself warm back up to him, though I’m still a little skittish from before.

Piers, I guess, as awful as it sounds, was initially a crush rebound. Like, don’t get me wrong, I’d have been attracted either way. He’s a musician, a SINGER no less, and has that emo/punk vibe. But he’s also gentle and kind. Swoon. But it helped that I had my crush-feelers out full-force for a cutie in game to obsess over since I was still butthurt about my “friends” killing my crush on Leon. Obsess I did, and continue to do. I could probably snap this man over my knee like firewood he’s so lanky, idk why I put that in here but it’s staying. Piers is the one I most imagine jamming out with on a regular basis, and it makes performing for no one a bit more fun 🥰

I’m finally getting tired, I feel like I’ve been typing this for an hour. I probably have been. Ah geez now I gotta tag all these F/Os lmao. Thanks for letting me ramble.

[ahsxual]

APPRECIATION POST FOR MY ROMANTIC F/OS

¬ As you can read in the title, this will be an appreciation post for my lovelies, incredible, perfect and amazing romantic f/os. Of course I also love my platonic and familial f/os and would make a post for them, but... maybe some other day lol. I decided to make something for them, because they are responsible for making me smile every single day, the ones who help me deal with my anxiety and hardest moments, the ones who are always there for me. They deserve everything from me, so this post will be an absurd thank you for all they did for me. I think it's important to refer that I'm into polyrelationships, that's why I have more than one romantic f/o. I'll release all (or most of them) my emotions in this, so if you're not interested in hearing some completely blindly in love girl's love letter, it's totally fine!

J, aka The Prince of Crime / The King of Chaos: The bastard who I deeply fell in love with. His intelligence, insight, fearless behavior, courage, force, independence and way more other features that I wish I could have and be. He's always ("always") there to cheer me up in his own way. By his side, I feel powerful and fearless, something I could never be entirely on my own. That's why he is so essential in my life, because he completes my dark side and doesn't judge me, instead he feeds it even more and more. I feel so special by his side, like I'm the only one... like he's my soulmate. If I could say that I have several sides, he definitely completes my darkest one.

Arthur Fleck /Joker: And here's when my sweet angel enters in the equation! He's like my yang part: when in all its grace and purity, there's always some darkness in the middle of it. That's why I admire his Joker personality so dearly, where he turned on his "I don't give a fuck" self without fearing the consequences. Like Joker's romantic side, Arthur is the most caring, protective and giver lover I've ever had. He is my comfort, my conch, my safe zone, the one who I love so much to take care of and hold on just for myself. He's so sweet and supportive, making me feel the most wanted and loved woman in this universe. I can't thank him enough for that, but I'll surely do my best to prove my love for him every day.

Patrick Verona, aka Koala Boy: If there's any f/o who I can relate so much to my real life guy type, is definitely my Patty. He is so misterious, so loving, so protective, so non-judgmental, so independent and simple... he is just pure perfection. Of course I can separate my fictional fantasies and interests from reality, but Pat is someone who I can't make that division at all. I totally imagine him to be with me in the real world, where we could have so much fun together, have new memorable and unique experiences, each other's loyalty, understanding and own secrets... someone who I could create a new crazy and adventurous world, only us.

Jake Gyllenhaal, aka Mister Big Avocado Eyes: Nowww this handsome guy is new!! I haven't made it public yet, but I think it's time to introduce him to you guys, my family and also big supporters <33 Some months ago he was just my platonic f/o, my amazing dear friend who I loved to play around with, but apparently our love spoke louder... and not the friendship one ;) He is my most recent f/o, and I couldn't be any happier!! We still have our childish moments and our playfulness, we just had some passion in the middle of it. He's the most supportive and funny boyfriend I could ever had! Our chemistry is unique and unbreakable, as well as our same sarcastic and silly humor, and that's what make us so united.

P.s: Me and Iván came to an agreement where it would be better if we become only friends. I'm still a little emotional with all of it, but what matters is that we are still there for each other! I'm thankful for having a friendly break up, he's such a respectful and kind man, and I will definitely miss him as well as our sweet moments together <33

[wintaejk]

Jungkook’s FIC REC | OS 2

I had too many links on the other post. Here is the second part of my Jungkook’s fic rec but with others themes.

Again, all those fictions belong to the amazing authors who wrote them, not me. I want to thank them once more. 

(f) = fluff

(a) = angst

(m) = mature

magical au

— Trick or Treat: Howling for You (F) (M) — by @fortunexkookie​

The way your Little Red Riding Hood costume lured over a fuckboy in a half-assed werewolf costume was a little cliche, but god damn was he beautiful. He promised he had plenty of big things to show you, and you took him up on the offer, not realizing that you might’ve bitten off more than you could chew.

werewolf au | established relationship | +14k

— rottenfolk (M) — by @junqkook​

a look was as hazardous as chemicals, a kiss as perilous as poison; his eyes and lips felt akin to a cure, but he was purely venom.

faerie au | royalty au | +13k

Commentary - If there’s only one one-shot I could recommend you to read of all tumblr, it would probably be this one. For me, it is rare to acheive such a level of mastery in fantasy fictions. Writing is already complicated, but when you have to place the readers in an unknown universe, it is even harder.                         However, the real brilliance of this story is the end. Because the end is supposed to satiate the reader in a way or another, it is supposed to offer what all the reader craved: a sort of closure. But here we all are, waiting for a sequel, because this story will make you want a next episode. And that is the brilliance, because you will surely never forget a story with that kind of power.                         So those are some of the reasons why this fiction is for me a mix of art, smartness and excellence ; and also why you would be missing something huge by not reading it.

— overdrive (M) — by @junqkook​

you thought meeting jungkook was just a coincidence, but the universe didn’t deal in coincidences.

vampire au | soulmate au | enemies to lovers | +13k

— Crescent Bound - Jungkook (F) (M) — by @parkhabits​

A pact bound by the moon. A secret kept only amongst themselves. Each of them experiencing their own cycles of heat.

werewolf au | friends to lovers | +12k

— Room 109 (M) — by @lavishedinjimin​

Having Jungkook as your apartment buddy was a lot to get used to. But with one early day, your heat comes up much stronger than usual, and you were desperate for an alpha’s touch.

werewolf au | roommate au | alpha!jungkook | +6k

— after dark (M) — by @seokoloqy​

Jungkook has served the royal family for generations, seen them live and die countless times. When it comes to you, he can’t watch you wither away too, but your lust for one another makes it harder and harder to stay apart.

vampire au | royalty au | knight!jungkook | +8k

— Life’s Blood (F) (A) (M) — by @littlenoona​

You produce blood cells at an increased rate when blood is lost, effectively, you cannot bleed out. This ability has served you well so far, even gaining you a rare friend, and you’ve made it your source of income, but it also has its downsides, one of which you’ve managed to avoid successfully, until now.

vampire au | +13k

— you come in waves (A) (M) — by @angelguk​

if jeongguk had a choice, he would destroy the sun. it’s not like he needed it for warmth due to his werewolf abilities making him a scorching radiator. it would also help his heart. because you look delectable in that stupid bikini.

werewolf au | friends to lovers au | 4k

— tell me your secrets (i’m all ears) (F) — by @jinpire​

You’re not afraid of Jeon Jeongguk. Even if he’s probably some kind of bear or giant cat shifter, and just a hint of his irritation had your instincts vibrating beneath your skin like a live wire. Your thumb brushed over the plastic dome of mini-Levi’s head, taking comfort in the cartoon scowl and dead eyes, the tiny grey sticks of his 3DM gear. Small could be pretty fucking powerful too.

shifter au | college au | bunny!kook | +6k

drabbles: nooks and naps - foxie moxie (don’t pull my tail) - look before you leap  - fluffles and kerfuffles

— Pomegranate Seeds (M) — by @taetaebaepsae​

Jungkook thinks he’s found the perfect new roommate, but little doesn’t he know you’re just aching to corrupt him.

demon au | roommate au | virgin!jungkook | +4k

other themes

— Every Kind of Way (F) (M) — by @taehyungforreal​

{Three little vignettes, three completely different experiences, same perfectly wonderful boyfriend JK.}

strangers to lovers  | established relationship  | +14k

Commentary - I remember when this fiction was posted. I read the teaser a few days before, and I was waiting for it. I remember the exact date of the release of this story, and let me tell you it never happens to me. But this is how much I liked this story. This masterpiece.                         This fiction is 95% made of smut. This is a warning if you don’t like that. However, what I like about Ashley’s works is that smut is not only smut (okay, sometimes it’s just pure filth but whatever). It’s not the first time I’ve read a piece of work of her and that I’ve been so thankful of reading her. Because the stories she writes are realistic. Sex is not always perfect. Sex is not always like in porn. Sex can be embarrassing. And this is why I love what Ashley writes, because she always have that realistic point of view on life. And sometimes it’s also nice to not turn everything into porn.                          What is very likeable - I said likeable? I meant loveable, sorry - about that story is also the three different stages of the relation of Jk and reader. This is also something I like about her writings. Life evolves, relationships evolve, and so does sex. So in this story, you will experience three different Jungkook. And it’s three reasons why you should read this fiction, three reasons why you will probably love it.                          One thing is sure, this chef-d’oeuvre will leave you wondering if your eyes have been burnt by the smuttiness or blessed by all the talent of this writer.

— tattooed two (ft. kth) (F) (M) — by @httpjeon​

your boyfriend’s best friend joins you for a night you’ll never forget.

tattoo artist au | established relationship  | poly au  | +8k

— Inkling (A) (M) — by @gguksgalaxy​

Jungkook is your brother’s boyfriend’s co-worker, they own a tattoo and piercing parlour. In other words, he’s tall, gorgeous, has his passion literally etched into his skin, looks incredibly good in a man-bun, and is semi-unattainable for you. Why? Well…you’re not entirely sure but him ditching right after a very heated make-out session sure isn’t a good sign. His extremely poor mood the next week sure isn’t either, but the only way to fix it is to face the beast head-on. Right?

tattoo artist au  | +17k

— Freak-quency (M) — by @taehyungforreal​

His eyes sparkle and he fights back a smile when he asks you why. “Is it because I didn’t give you something else to swallow like I said I would,” he questions, halfway through a much less subtle adjustment of his growing erection. Yoongi was right, he wants to be in trouble.

rockstar au  | established relationship  | +8k

— Boots (M) —

3000+ words of Ashley kinking on Jungkook’s boot. That’s it.

rockstar au  | established relationship  | part of Freak-quency  | +3k

— Heartbreaker with a Heart of Gold (A) (M) — by @filmflowersbangtan​

It was around this time almost three years ago when Jungkook moved to LA after his band got signed to a famous record label. He told you that he’d keep in contact with you. That he’d visit as much as he could. That he loved you. But about a month after leaving, he stopped texting and calling as much. And then a mere week after the band’s first EP dropped, Burning Rabbit was a sensation.

rocksatr au | ex lovers  | +3k

— Brother’s best friend (M) — by @lavishedinjimin​

In which Y/n owns a smut blog dedicated to her crush and brother’s best friend, jungkook. it was all fun and games until he finds out about it and acts it out with you.

brother’s best friend!jungkook  | +5k

— Sugarplum Elegy (F) (A) (M) — by @bymoonchild​

You know no bounds nor depth with Jungkook. While your fuck buddy loves sleeping in your bed and doing laundry for you with his favourite fabric softener, you are in love with a mysterious honeyed, velvety voice on Soundcloud. All’s fine, until you find out that the voice that metaphors your heart to a sweet sugarplum melody actually belongs to the boy who has been taking up a special spot in your bed and in your heart, strumming at your heartstrings all this while.

friends with benefits  | college au  | idiots to lovers | +17k

— The Kids Aren’t Alright (F) (A) (M) — by @sketchguk​

Sneaking around with Jeongguk during your Christian retreat is complicated when you’re both dedicated to your jobs as co-youth group counselors at your father’s ministry.

friends with benefits  | pastor’s kid!reader  | +10k

— Gym (F) (M) — by @hobiwonder​

Jungkook has a crush on you and has been watching you work out at his gym. One day you finally confront his obvious crush.

business woman!reader  | fratboy!jungkook  | older reader | +8k

— Gravity Check (M) — by @gimmesumsuga​

The one where Jungkook is your oh-so-handsome climbing instructor.

climbing instructors!jungkook  | strangers to lovers  | 14k

— The Monogamy Monologues (F) (M) — by @kpopfanfictrash​

The year? Some point after college. The occasion? Namjoon is getting married and the Rich Man’s Crochet Club has convened once again. Somewhere between the drinks and the laughter, everyone has the same realization: Jungkook has never been in a serious relationship. In the name of all that is holy (Overwatch and booze), the club’s mission is revived. Now though, their goal is much more perilous. Now, they aim to find Jeon Jungkook a girlfriend. (Part of The Rich Man’s Crochet Club series)

fuckboy!jungkook  | wedding planner!reader  | strangers to lovers  | +42k

— The Virgin Volume (F) (A) (M) —

This fic exists in the RMCC universe. It takes place before RMCC and is the story of how Jungkook lost his virginity. To quote Seokjin/Namjoon: “What Jungkook doesn’t know won’t hurt him and – let’s be honest – his story is hilarious. One pump,” Seokjin laughs, sounding like a hyena. “One pump and he’s done.” // Ducking his head, Namjoon tries not to smile. “It was a rookie mistake,” he protests, defending their friend. “Jungkook was overexcited and couldn’t control himself. He got better.”

college au  | friends to lovers  | prequel to TMM  | +6k

— everlasting (A — by @kimvvantae​

being able to love the same person forever is a blessing given from the heavens. to you, however, eternity has become a curse.

reincarnation au  | 18k

— Performances (M) — by @littlenoona​

The same handsome guy has been appearing at your performances and you become more and more interested in who he is - now you’re dancing only for him, despite a hall full of people.

strangers to lovers  | professional dancer!reader  | +6k

— Matching Hearts (F) (A) — by @gukwluv​

a drunk call to your ex boyfriend leads to a night of fun adventures that make you wonder why you even split in the first place.

exes au | +3k

— locker room talk (M) — by @minnpd​

You end up having a rather heated talk with Jeon Jungkook in the locker room when he announces he has been chosen for the audition you both participated to.

dancer au | enemies to lovers | fuckboy!jungkook | +5k

— not quite lovers (M) — by @junqkook​

hiring jeon jungkook as your personal assistant happens to have more than one perk.

workplace au | friends with benefits | ceo!reader | +15k

— By Its Cover (M) — by @gimmesumsuga​

The one where Jungkook makes a very bad first impression.

workplace au | enemies to lovers | 21k

— Mind in the Gutter (F) (M) — by @kpopfanfictrash​

Starting over is never fun. Especially not when you decide to take the phrase fully to heart; new job, new city, new coworkers and new relationships. When you are dragged to a happy hour by your new co-worker, Taehyung, you end up sitting beside a (very) cute, (very) shy IT worker named Jungkook. Several drinks later, he mentions he is in a professional bowling league with his friends and you rather enthusiastically invite yourself along. As time passes and you begin to grow closer, you still find it impossible to read Jungkook. Working in the same company and seeing each other so often, it is only so long before one of you snaps. But who?

workplace au | bowling au | strangers to friends to lovers | +18k

[stars-self-ships]

Lucida for the F/O(s) that you find yourself thinking of the most!

stephysalcido requested Lucida!

Lucida (n.) The brightest star in a constellation. What makes your f/o special to you? What about them makes them shine brighter than everyone else?

Ooh, this is a fun one! As I'm sure you can imagine, I hold every single one of my F/Os very close to my heart, and the reasons behind each specific one can very immensely. Now, I could go by Stephanie's suggestion and list the reasons why the F/Os I find myself thinking of the most are special to me...

... but then this post would exceed twenty paragraphs. And that's if I stick to one paragraph per F/O, which definitely wouldn't be the case, especially for some of the more special ones.

So, instead of making this post leagues longer than it probably should be, I've come up with a fun approach in answering this ask: I'll be choosing one (?) F/O from each F/O category (I.E. romantic, platonic and familial) and explaining why each one is special to me! Let's get started, shall we? 💙🤍💙

I think it goes without saying that the romantic F/O that means the most to me would more than likely be Clairen— after all, she is my self-ship blog's icon, so of course I hold her in high regard! Clairen sticks out to me in particular for a variety of reasons, too: when it comes to her Lovers of Aether counterpart, you don't have to look far for proof that she's such a kind and considerate character.

Clairen and I share a lot of traits (Being socially awkward perhaps being the biggest one), and between her playful flirting at one point after class to her calling me cute after successfully unlocking her ending, it's no wonder I fell for her as hard as I did.

Then for her Rivals of Aether counterpart, what sticks out to me the most about her appearance in that continuity is her unending selflessness and bravery. Multiple times all throughout Tales of Aether: Future Imperfect, she is seen putting others before herself, and that's not even getting into how breathtaking she looks. I know for a fact that she would go out of her way to protect me from any harm, and there really isn't a better thought than thinking about being held snugly in Clairen's arms, or holding her in my own... 🖤❤️🖤

In terms of platonic F/Os, I think it boils down to a tie between two regarding which one I think about the most, and those two platonic F/Os are Maypul and Elliana. While I can't remember which, I'm more than certain that either one of them were the first of my many platonic F/Os, and it's actually kind of humorous how different both of them are... at first, that is.

Maypul and Elliana, regarding their personalities, are complete polar opposites. Maypul is very outgoing, wildly optimistic, and is more than caring about those that are close to her. Meanwhile, Elliana is better described as the introvert to Maypul's extrovert, and is personified in Lovers of Aether as an irritable and misunderstood individual that prefers solitude over being in the midst of others she thinks are better than her.

But it should come as no surprise that both Maypul and Elliana are two of my kindest platonic F/Os. I've always seen Elliana as the type of F/O to be a bit discrete about showing any form of affection, but looking past her testy exterior, she holds those who do care about her close to heart, and I am absolutely one of them. With that, I'm sure it's easy to see why I'd think Maypul is the same way, just a lot less reserved in showing her love— just look at her! She's all smiles!

My case in point for why I chose Maypul and Elliana for the platonic F/Os that are the most special to me, though, is this: they stand out from the rest because one is always willing to shower me with affection and validation with open arms, and the other has been a favorite character in the Rivals franchise for me since the very start. Maypul and Elliana are very dear to me.

And lastly, as for which familial F/O is the most special to me... it's another tie! This time, it's between Zetterburn and Claiyen, my older brother and mom respectively. I was REALLY close in giving the 'most special familial F/O' distinction to all seven of my familial F/Os, but more on that in the tags.

I've mentioned this in a post or two beforehand, but I ADORE older sibling F/Os— which might be the reason I have so many— because with them, you can always rest easy in knowing they are there to support you, listen to you, and protect you. And while all of my older sibling F/Os fit that bill, Zetterburn is the most special to me because he didn't even start as a familial F/O.

For a little while, I had Zetterburn listed as a platonic F/O. This was because, at the time, I saw him as more of a 'cool best friend' type of figure... though the more I thought about him, the more I realized just how much I love and look up to him. It's because of that reason (Coupled with the fact that he's SUPER supportive of the player in-universe in Lovers of Aether) that I eventually decided to coin him as my older brother, and eventually his brother, Forsburn. I truly could not be happier knowing that I have the coolest older brother ever.

Claiyen, too, makes me really happy. Up until very recently (Around the time Tales of Aether: Future Imperfect's first issue released), I've since developed a fondness for parental F/Os for the same reasons why I'm so fond of older sibling F/Os, though taken up to eleven. I at first was really nervous in coming out in admitting that I saw Claiyen as my mom (Which was the reason why for a while I had her listed as my 'mother in a found family sense'), but the more she began to show up throughout Tales of Aether and with Stephanie's reassurance, I had the confidence to show my love for Claiyen in due course.

Claiyen is, like, the ultimate mom F/O. She's notably wise, gives impeccable advice, and if the one panel in Future Imperfect where she's hugging Clairen is any indication, is exceedingly softhearted toward her family, and I feel as though she would be just the same with me. Whenever I'm not at my best, I'll sometimes think about being in her care, her gentle fingers running through my hair as she whispers to me that everything is going to be okay, and that thought never fails to lift my mood. I love Claiyen so much... she is just the perfect mom.

... well. This post ended up being a lot longer than I expected it to be, which I whole-heartedly apologize for. I guess that's just a clear indication of how special my F/Os are to me, whether I accounted them in this post or not! 💙🤍💙

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books I’ve read in 2020 (so far) + their ratings

non-fiction

crossing the line: australia’s secret history in the timor sea by kim mcgrath: important research into australia’s theft of oil in timor leste. didn’t rate

hood feminism: notes from the women that a movement forgot by mikki kendall: essay collection dissecting modern feminism, pointing out the exclusionary practices of mainstream feminism and offering new frameworks through which feminism should operate. really recommend. didn’t rate

the uninhabitable earth: life after warming by david wallace-wells: good introduction to environmentalism and the climate disaster. a little too introductory for me but good for those new to the topic. ★★★

homo deus: a brief history of tomorrow by yuval noah harari: it is simply not Sapiens nor as good as Sapiens. Looks at potentials for our future but, thought it was a little poorly researched. Some parts were still interesting though.  ★★★

SPQR: a history of ancient rome by mary beard: a little dense at times, but super interesting and detailed look at ancient rome. enjoyed it a lot. ★★★★

sister outsider by audre lorde: collection of audre lorde’s essays and speeches, about feminism, lesbianism, the queer community, being Black and a lesbian ect ect. outstanding, important collection anyone interested in intersectional feminism must read. ★★★★★

all boys aren’t blue by george m. johnson: memoir about johnson’s experiences growing up as a Black gay boy in a poor neighbourhood. Very poignant memoir, written in such accessible language which I liked. guarenteed to get you emotional, another one everyone should read. didn’t rate because it’s so highly personal that felt wrong but highly recommend. 

under a biliari tree i born by alice biari smith: memoir by an Aboriginal Australian detailing her life growing up learning traditional Aboriginal ways and how the lives of Indigenous Australian’s have been impacted through the years, specifically in Western Australia. Probably more aimed at school age people but still a 101 I think many Australian’s (and non Australian’s) can benefit from. didn’t rate 

classics

maurice by e.m forster: gay man coming of age story in college + themes around class and sexuality. forster’s end note saying he thought it imperative to write a happy ending because we need that in fiction, i love him. ★★★★★

emma by jane austen: read before seeing the movie. loved emma as a character but thought this was okay compared to other Austen I’ve read. ★★★½

perfume by patrick suskind: a man with an incredible sense of smell starts murdering young women to try and bottle their scent for a perfume. weirdest shit I ever read still don’t know how to feel about it. ★★★

the color purple by alice walker: follows the life of Celie, an Black woman living in rural Georgia. deals with her relationship with her sister Nettie, her lover Shug Avery, and with God. this tore my heart to shreds absolutely everyone must read it, like even just for the beautiful writing ALONE. ★★★★

a study in scarlet by arthur conan doyle: its sherlock holmes #1 no further explanation required. not my fave sherlock story, was the weird morman subplot needed? ★★½

dracula by bram stoker: yeah vampires!! this was way easier to read and also way funnier than I expected. we STAN gothic aesthetics and Miss Mina Harker here. ★★★★

fantasy

the diviners by libba bray: teens with magical powers/abilities solving mysteries in 1920′s new york. reread. ★★★★★

lair of dreams by libba bray: the diviners #2. reread. ★★★★½

before the devil breaks you by libba bray: the diviners #3. reread. best one in the series hands down.  ★★★★★

the king of crows by libba bray: waited so long for this series ender and it let me down lol. ★★★

clockwork princess by cassandra clare: the infernal devices #3. dont @ me this is my comfort reread series and I was travelling. ★★★★★

we unleash the merciless storm by tehlor kay mejia: we set the dark on fire #2. latinx inspired fantasy about overthrowing a corrupt government with an f/f romance. didn’t like as much as book one but still good, BEST girlfriends ever. ★★★½

wolfsong by t.j klune: basically feral gay werewolves and witches living in a town together. feels like a teen wolf episode but way more gayer. despite that hated the writing style and I don’t like age gap romances so yay the concept no the execution.  ★★

the fate of the tearling by erika johansan: the tearling #3. finally finished this series, dunno why everyone loathes the ending so much I thought it was cool. underrated fantasy because it’s very unique. ★★★★

girl, serpent, thorn by melissa bashardoust: persian inspired fantasy about a girl who is cursed by a div to kill anyone she touches. has an f/f romance. bashardoust writes the most aesthetically rich settings I love her. ★★★★

crier’s war by nina varela: reread. f/f enemies to lovers where the main character poses as a handmaiden in order to try and murder the princess whose father killed her family. PEAK gay content literally a modern classic. ★★★★★

we hunt the flame by hafsah faizal: I was so disinterested in this book I barely can describe the plot but basically it’s a prince and a hunter who are enemies but are forced to go looking for this magical artifact together anyway it was boring.  ★

ghosts of the shadow market by cassandra clare + others: short story collection set in the shadowhunter world. probably the strongest of her collections but they just don’t hit the same as her full length books. didn’t rate. 

a storm of swords: part two by george r.r martin: a song of ice and fire #3. I WILL finish reading these books eventually i swear !! probably the best one yet though. ★★★★

amarah by l.l mcneil: world of linaria #3. high fantasy with politics, dragons, warring races. tolkein/asoiaf vibes if they had more women with agency. didn’t rate because I haven’t decided my feelings on the end yet. 

science fiction

This is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone: f/f enemies to lovers between spies on rival sides of a time war. good book but writing style wasn’t for me (others love this so eh take my opinion with a grain os salt:  ★★★

not your sidekick by c.b lee: main character is from a superhero family but has no powers herself, so she takes an internship working with a superhero corp. has an f/f romance with a villain character. so much fun and super cute

speculative fiction:

the deep by rivers solomon: speculative fiction wherein pregnant African women thrown overboard by slave ships gave birth to babies that became mermaids. main character holds all the memories of her people’s past but runs away after being unable to deal with the burden. about self discovery, intergenerational trauma and the burden of remembering. a little short imo but still all round excellent book ★★★★

how long ‘til black future month? by n.k jemisin: short story collection, many with an afro-futurism focus. hard to explain because there is such a wide variety of stories but this is an AMAZING collection. didn’t rate because I don’t like rating short story collections but wish more people would read it. 

mystery

the family upstairs by lisa jewell: woman inherits an english house and starts to unravel the secrets of a mass cult suicide that happened there years ago. loved it because it was wild. ★★★★★

the hand on the wall by maureen johnson: truly devious #3. boarding school mystery where the main character has to solve a murder that happened in the 1920s at her school while another mystery is happening in present time. my least favourite of the series but satisfying conclusion nonetheless. ★★★½

contemporary fiction

maybe in another life by taylor jenkins reid: dual timeline book showing the two outcomes of a decision the main character makes. cool concept but ultimately boring book because I didn’t care about the main character at all.  didn’t rate because I didn’t finish it. 

girl, woman, other by bernadine evaristo: vignette stories of various women whose lives are vaguely interconnected. incredibly well written with such vivid characters. deserves the hype. ★★★★

tin heart by shivan plozza: australian YA, the recipient of a heart transplant wishes to connect with the family of her donor, after she discovers the identity of her donor. good story but didn’t like the writing style. ★★★

a little life by hanya yanigahara: follows the life of a group of friends living in life, especially that of jude, a closed off and damaged man with a troubling past. a little too torture-porny/Tragic Gays but I cannot deny the author has a beautiful writing style and I went through all the emotions. didn’t rate

a girl like that by tanaz bhathena: explores the events leading up to the main character dying in a car crash. set in Jeddah, saudi arabia and explores expectations on women, feminism and expressions of sexuality and relationships between women during teenage years. kinda no good characters but I loved it for it’s messy depiction of teen girls (whilst not condemning them for this). underrated. ★★★★

little fires everywhere by celeste ng: drama in white american suburbs when a new family moves in and the neighbours start investigating their past. eh, I heard a lot about this and thought it was just okay. ★★★

stay gold by tobly mcsmith: trans boy decides to go stealth at his new school and falls for a cheerleader, georgia. about navigating being trans and definitely felt like it was written to educate cis people. it was okay but ultimately not my thing and not really the story I was looking for, even though I respect it being written by a trans author and still would recommend to certain people. ★★½

everything leads to you by nina lacour: main character and her best friend have to unravel a hollywood mystery, all while the main character is trying to get over her ex-girlfriend and find work as a set designer. f/f romance and loved the focus on movie making and the power of stories. ★★★½

the falling in love montage by ciara smyth: a girl meets another girl at a party, but she’s not looking to date due to the amount of family issues she has going on. so her and the girl decide to spend the summer having fun, renacting scenes from rom-coms, but never dating. awesome family dynamics and the relationship between the two girls was sweet also set in ireland which is fun. 

normal people by sally rooney: explores the relationship between connell and marianne, who meet in school, date secretly, and then are inexplicably drawn to each other for the rest of their lives. explores power dynamics, relationships, love and trust, and what we owe to eachother. great book, great mini-series, love it to bits. ★★★★★

the glass hotel by emily st john mandel: impossible to explain this book, but there’s a mystery about grafitti, a ponzi scheme and a character falling to their death on a boat under suspicious circumstances. honestly idk what happened in this book but I liked it. ★★★½

historical fiction

half of a yellow sun by chimamanda ngozi adichie: historical fiction about the biafran war loosely based on adichie’s family experiences. incredibly well written with an ending that punches you in the gut. ★★★★

hamnet by maggie o’farrell: explores the shakespeare family after the death of their child, Hamnet, from the plague, and how this leads to Shakespeare writing Hamlet. cool as fuck concept and boring as fuck book with such tropey female characters. ★★

all the light we cannot see by anthony doerr: WW2 fiction, dual perspective between a blind girl living in france and a german boy forced into nazi youth. I cannot believe this book is award winning it’s so boring and predictable and i reget the time i wasted on it. ★

poetry:

on earth we’re briefly gorgeous by ocean vuong: poetry memoir. vuong writes a letter to his illiterate mother, knowing she’ll never read it, exploring their relationship, his experiences growing up as second generation Vietnamese-American, and hers during the Vietnam War. My favorite book I’ve read so far this year, just too good to explain, genuinely just feel like everyone is better off for having read this. ★★★★★

currrently reading:

girls of storm and shadow by natasha ngan

meet me at the intersection: edited by rebecca lim & ambelin kwaymullina

stamped from the beginning: the definitive history of racist ideas in america by ibram x. kendi

get a life, chloe brown by talia hibbert

[rexscanonwife]

All emotional ask with BeeJ~

Guess I’m doing all of them then!! :D Thank you so much, and thanks everyone else who sent emojis, @space-sweetheart, @ruby-flame, @nomournerzz , @the-storyteller-and-her-soldiers and @spectrumselfshipping! 💚 ily all so much!! 

😨 How does your f/o act when they’re scared? Do they cower behind you or act even more bold? Beej doesn’t get scared of things in the normal sense, he’s a demon who actively enjoys scaring the wits out of people. I think what would scare him the most would be going back to being invisible/alone, especially now that he knows that it feels like to be wanted and loved and supported. He knows that I love him too much to ever send him away again, but sometimes anxiety is really loud and when he gets really upset he likes to hold onto me and squeeze me a little too tight and nuzzle me a little too hard. I’ll run my hands through his hair and whisper soothing things to him until he feels better! 

😰 Alternatively, how do they act when you’re scared? Ok this is especially relevant now after what happened last night, but on the flipside Beej becomes livid and fiercely protective when I’m scared or threatened! I’d like to see someone try to keep their composure when faced with a fiery-haired pissed off demon!😘 How does your f/o flirt? Beetlejuice’s default state is flirting, and it’s not always super effective! It’s mostly really bad puns and poorly disguised innuendos, and no he does not stop flirting for even a moment after we’re officially together. He loves when I blush or scoff at him when he makes a particularly bad joke, and sometimes I react to it by kissing him because he’s an idiot but he’s my idiot.

😍 How well do they react to flirting or affection? Are they easily flustered? *rubs me widdle hands together* so more than a few times I’ve discussed this with friends (cried about it is more accurate but w/e) but he definitely can’t take what he dishes out! He’s used to being the one making advances and even more used to them being rebuffed, but when I react positively to them, or even more when I flirt back or give him affection he just completely forgets how to function!! Suddenly he’s at a loss for words and he’s the one blushing like crazy!

😭 How do they cheer you up when you’re sad? And vice versa? Beej will stop at nothing to see me smile again when I’m feeling down, there’s no lengths he wouldn’t go to, no joke too cheesy, he will not stop until he gets a laugh out of me! Actually, when I was first started listening to the album irl and I wasn’t sure whether I was feeling platonic or romantic for him, the thought of him trying to cheer me up was really what made me fall for him! 💚 When he gets sad I like to lay the praise and physical affection on even more than usual, I tell him that he’s the biggest baddest handsomest demon there ever was and that I could never love anyone more than I love him all the while peppering his face in kisses!! 

😡 What are your f/os pet peeves? I wouldn’t call it a pet peeve per se but I hc that Beej can’t stand people who drink or smoke! It’s a whole thing, reminds him too much of his mom. :(

🤒 Oh no! You’re sick - how does your f/o take care of you? Are they good at it? I feel like he would try his best but ultimately he’s not very good at the ‘taking care of’ bits. The dead don’t get sick so he doesn’t have a lot of experience with it outside of what he’s seen in movies or tv shows, and his soup ended up being completely inedible so I inform him that the best way to recover from being sick is some good rest. Since he’s not in danger of getting sick himself he’s happy to just hold me and let me snuggle up to him (he makes a very effective cooling pad for fevers) and though he’s still a bit noisy he eventually just watches me sleep and makes sure nothing gets in the way of my rest except for him! 

🤧 How do you take care of them when they’re sick? I actually never considered this before now so it was really fun to think about!! After we get married and he’s getting used to being alive, he also has to get used to things a living body does, like get sick. He’s soooo dramatic about it too, he would be whining and moaning about how he thinks he’s dying again, and I have to remind him that it’s only a cold and will clear up in a day or too. I make sure he rests enough, though it’s a chore and I basically have to knock him out with cold medicine at some point, but he loves being doted on! 

😔 What do you and your f/o like to do when you’re bored? I mean,, among other things, we like to browse the internet for funny tiktok compilations and complain about the ones that are bad, and on multiple occasions he’s had me film him doing something stupid in hopes of also getting tiktok famous. So far it hasn’t happened but he’s holding out hope! He likes to watch me draw or try to cook together, and after we’re married we try to make time to experience something new as often as possible, especially since almost everything would be new for him! 

😂 What is your f/os sense of humor? How do they feel about puns? It’s NONSTOP jokes with him, especially puns, and really morbid ones most of the time afhsflal. I really like his sense of humor though, and he always keeps me laughing! 

😴 How cuddly is your f/o when they’re asleep? He is the biggest cuddler ever!! He isn’t happy unless he has an arm or three around me, he just wants me as close as possible and to be able to nuzzle into my neck and smell my hair. It soothes him to the point of being able to sleep, and he likes to be cuddled in bed too! He’s not scared to be the little spoon and loves when I shower him with the same kind of affection!! 

👿 Does your f/o get nightmares? How do you help them with it? Once in a while! They’re mostly about the one thing that scares him, again, being invisible. When that happens I go about comforting him the same way as when he’s having anxiety about it, squeezing him tight and kissing him and reminding him that he’s not going anywhere. That I love him and want him around! 

😤 What is your f/o passionate about? Lots of things! Being the ghost with the most, loving his new family, being super handsome and sexy being a few of them. 

😶 How good is your f/o at keeping secrets (such as a surprise party)? He couldn’t keep a secret to save his life! He just gets way too excited and careless with his words and always manages to let it slip. Only when it’s something fun and frivolous, though, because he’s not really thinking about it. If it’s something more serious then he’s much better at keeping it secret.

😊 What makes your f/o happy? Aside from screams of terror or bad horror movies, being made to feel like he’s wanted! He’s spent so long longing to be seen and heard, all he’s ever wanted was to be included and feel like he’s allowed to take up space and that people want him around. I want to make him feel that way and I wanna make sure he never feels unseen again! 

Bonus for my autistic/ADHD folks - 😝 How does your f/o engage with you and your special interest/fixation? Do they help you infodump, learn as much as they can about your interests? Do they buy or make you things related to them? Ok literally tho my favorite thing ever is when ppl hc Beej as being autistic because I am too!! and I love the idea of him listening to me infodump about things I like or the way I talk about little fun facts I know, just him listening makes me really happy! and when he gets super excited he kinda stims through it and I like the idea of happy stimming with him and just relishing in the feeling ajhkfa,,