#I like your thought process Anon

[askmstau]

Scar, since we're doing gifts rn, have a very cute crop hoodie that's Canary themed ;))))

And y'know? Why not, Jimmy you can also have a crop hoodie that's Hotguy themed ;)))

met with mixed results

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

Which lmao affectionately god dammit this turn of events in the story really russels my jimmies and means I'm having to change parts of the mental dialogue and actions going on in my head of the mental fanfic I'm writing because I was imagining it originally as a little fun thing to entertain myself and because I found it fun/sweet and also intriguing because character interactions fun but now it's like lmao fix it fic nothing bad ever happened, EVER.

I'm sure it will be fine and the mental fic can probably go mostly unchanged, Zeus might be more standoffish unsure with my character in the story and hell that's completely valid, if I ever actually write it and post it obviously I'll @ u

👀

[pix-writes]

"Ford is grateful for your patience and willingness to be involved in his life, especially as he knows he wasn't good at opening up to you when you were starting to become friends let alone a relationship." This is from Stanford HC, and I find it very interesting! How would he act at the beginning of the relationship? What does it take for him to become friends with someone, and that evolves into romance?

My thinking behind this part of my HCs is what Ford has been like through the series, he is shown throughout multiple media in the GF series, that he has continually pushed people away as part of his wound of feeling isolated due to his intellect and polydactly. Through this wound he's actually developed over the course of the series and his time in the portal a lone genius hero archetype that he wants to fit into, to compensate for the hurt he has continually felt from others and being an 'outsider'. (I could go into this in more depth about where this comes from in his childhood and how it affects his outlook when he comes across bill/building the portal, honeslty, but this is the jist of what I want to get across).

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It's only really once we get to weirdmageddon and post-oddpocalypse, that Ford's arc comes full-circle into healing this wound for good --> as we know Ford has a fair few people in his life who love/care for him, in the past (Bill era) he was unable to see it, but once he exits the portal he begins to care for the twins and value them (and stan, even though he doesn't show it); this makes him take a similar route in trying to defeat Bill still largely on his own, because he doesn't want the people he loves to be in danger and blames himself for Bill's hold on their dimension, thus Ford thinks it's his problem to deal with --> Once they start working together to defeat Bill is the turning point for him to realise that he was wrong and that in order to defeat Bill, you have to work together. [I think he even says that he realises he was foolish for thinking he had to go it alone and that there are people who love him that he can share the buren with, I think in Journal 3 or TBOB (can't remember which rn).] I would argue that it's not until Stanley's great sacrifice in order to save the kids/the world, after screwing up the circle magic thingy, that reality hits him like a ton of bricks and he starts being more open and quickly starts to heal his biggest character wound.

So, considering this in a potential relationship, I think Ford, is generally closed-off, which hasn't helped him in the romance department in his life in the past! Whilst I can see the judgement of others and his outsider status socially would impact this as well, being closed-off and individualistic means that when he does come across someone who would be a good prospective partner, he just... assumes they'd not be interested or overlooks them because he's doing something important and isn't thinking of romance in the moment, so if the other person flirts with him he's not good on picking it up. [I'm finding this all terribly relatable!]

With the insecurity from his wound on top of this, it doesn't make for a good mix, Fiddleford, for example, was not only an assistant but quite a great friend to Ford that he didn't appreciate at the time and due to the added influence of Bill wanting to isolate him from people, Fiddleford ended up having his attempts of deeper connection being thrown back in his face! Whilst a lot of this was unintentionally done on Ford's part, he did tell him when he left that he "didn't need anyone". In the past at Backupsmore Uni, he says that there's not a lot of people he finds 'smart enough' to be on his level to be friends with - which is textbook classic defensiveness to reverse that 'no-one understands me' mentality into something that props up his ego instead. Pushing people away means that he won't have to face the rejection he continually experienced in his childhood, but it means he's potentially pushed away people who could like him as well!

So, I think that in the beginning of a budding friendship/potential relationship, Ford would not be the best at connection or communicating his feelings openly, he'd likely step on other people's toes (metaphorically) in social situations, without realising or meaning to offend someone.

That said, I think it'd be easy for him to become interested in someone who is clearly talented and intelligent, someone who similarly values higher education yet also has a similar love for that which doesn't fit the norm/is bizarre. Perhaps someone who is also deemed a societal 'outsider'. He's been feeling lonely for so long that if you're persistent and kind and can get him to talk on the subjects he loves, he'll start to see you as a friend. I think that being kind and thoughtful with gestures (acts of service) and gifts either to him or his grand-niece/nephew are other things that will make you stand out from the crowd, too, for him to see you as a genuine good person and friend.

However, he will struggle to open up and to let out his natural self (nerdy, passionate, dedicated, 'weird'), so it will take a while to deeply connect to Ford if you're friends, and even longer for him to realise you're interested in him romantically and to act on it.

I think in that stage of 'good friends that are attracted to each other', he would have fallen for you fast; but at the same time he doesn't trust that you are romantically interested in him, even if you have said that you are, part of his mind tells him that it's a trick, a joke. You might think you want to be with him, but you'll leave him soon enough when you realise he's so inexperienced in romance/relationships etc, etc. I think a lot of his old wounded mentality would surface and he's try to push you away, if you get together post-weirdmageddon, or would just shoot you down intentionally/unintentionally if you get together beforehand. Furthermore, he has been a 'loner' for most of his life, particularly after 30 years in the portal, so it's difficult at first in a relationship to share the more mundane things, since he's used to being on his own.

Ford would overthink things to the point of anxiety at the very beginning of a relationship and make it more awkward than if he just relaxed! ^^' He's a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to planning dates, too (reminds me of dipper with the list lol), though it's sweet, cause he cares so much to make it good for you! Once it goes wrong a couple times, you'll both find the humour in it and he'll realise he's being foolish again and relax a little. You'll have to give him reassurance and go at his slow pace in the start of a relationship and he'll find some confidence, probably quicker than either of you anticipated too! He's liked you for a long time by the time you get together, so whether he intends to or not his passionate nature leaks through ;)

[oceanwithouthermoon]

sometimes i think about how the people who hate on my takes on here would talk to each other and its always phrased like the twitter fandom drama i see but completely irrational and it makes me giggle

"calling kusuke abusive just because he shot his brother with a lethal weapon, plotted his murder, planned to use their grandparents to assist in hurting/killing him, and tried for years to expose his secret to the entire world against his will and through knowingly hurtful means in order to destroy everything he cared about is so stupid! what a stretch!"

"the saiki k fandom is so damn sensitive. i shoot my brother with massive guns all the time and its not abusive because he just blocks it!" HELPEKSJJSJSKSKKS

[flustersluts]

Flirting with someone new, and just. I didn't realize I liked degrading people even a little? But my GOD, the way they respond, keysmashing and whimpering whenever I sweetly call them a pretty slut or a brainless little whore, and the SOUNDS they make when I tease even the possibility of denying them... 10/10, absolutely adorable, do enjoy.

signed, former thought-I-was-sub-only-APPARENTLY-NOT

ohhhh this is hot. exactly!!!! i always say that people who only sub must be kinder people than me (ofc u are all valid and very cute 💕) because god the selfish glee i get when you say the right words to people and just switch their brains off and have them absolutely desperate for you and what you're giving them is just,,, divine,,, honestly

congratulations anon i hope you have lots of fun with ur new toy:))))

[todayisafridaynight]

would it be okay if u told me why u like aoki😭/gen😭😭😭😭BEEN TRYNA LIKE HIM FOR SO LONG I JUST CANTT but i love ur art so much so i still consume it otherwise lol

i liked tohru adachi in high school and tbh i think that alone is enough of an explanation for why i ended up liking aoki

[pawbeanies]

oh the book club thing is such a mood, I feel you rn. Hopefully as you keep on going you'll feel more brave! Sending you determination and confidence! ✨️

ANONNN youre too nice to meee.. thank youu... gladly munching on the vibes of determination and confidence and going uweeeaaa... i want to be BRAVE..!!! i WILL be braev...

[crappy-homestuck-confessions]

welcome to GAAAAAAAME theory where we give out our hypothesis for one of dammek's names to be "treyaf" and throw out a bunch of potential clues.

mallek's FS route: refers to a bronzeblood as 'treyaf' (who we never see, which is a little odd given no other character namedrops someone that we're not meant to meet. konyyl for example namedrops azdaja and later we meet him.) and mentions sending them some cd's for their work (this is also likely a first name given he refers to diemen by first name because if they were on last name basis he'd call diemen by xicali (ig it could also depend on closeness aswell so put this as a loose possibility))

hiveswap: xefros has comb shaped cd's stating its the only type sold to someone so low as him. in dammek's room in the background we have circular cd's indicating he somehow got higher status merch (now who do we know that can hack delivery drones to give whatever to anyone? granted this could also correlate to his connection to cridea the violetblood so take it as you will)

bonus potential clues: typing in "treya" gets the result "treyarch" (dare i say it sounds like "TREYAf" and "tetchrARCH" meshed together?); a game company (remember dammek coding his password system to work like a game?) that produces first person shooters like COD (dammek sure does have alotta guns huh?)

take this all as just conspiracy really.

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[altruistic-meme]

i love to hear your writing process thoughts and i’m genius so excited to read your fics when they’re ready!!!

dsgljsg hi!! i am so glad to hear that tbh it makes me so so happy that you actually enjoy my endless screaming into the void--

im also very excited to share them :D especially the longer ones though those will obviously take more time to actually write/post lmao but in the meantime i definitely have a few shorter fics to work on and practice with!!

in the meantime, here are some spoils from the latest bout of writing and losing my mind <3<3

[sin-sidejob]

You write fanfiction about how much you want to fuck drawings who look like background characters in rick and morty

[youngeditor1999]

Gronk is dummy thicc and Tom is HERE FOR IT

HELL YES, ANON!!!!!!

YOU GET IT!!!!!

What I love the most about Tom is how he really doesn't try to hide his affection(s) or feelings towards Rob. 🥺🥹😭🤧

Tom usually looks at Rob like this whenever they're together:

Also, on a thirstier level...👀

Rob always looks so, so good 🥵😵‍💫😍

As somebody who is big about "Rob is more than his body! And he's not as dumb as y'all think, either!", that also doesn't mean that I don't find him to be ridiculously attractive. 🤤

He is a fine looking man indeed and I'm always thrilled to see and listen to Tom talk about about Rob's various physical attributes. 🤩💞🔥💯💥

Tom is DOWN BADDDD for Robbie G and would likely do anything in order to please him. 😏😉😜😌

[saturatedsinset]

i read your post about misogyny in wrestling and full transparency i was like ugh it’s not that big of a deal but then i sorta kept thinking about it and i was like no wait it is and it was so disappointing realizing that my mindset has been influenced to be like oh yeah i’m cool with whatever just to not seem like i’m an annoying woman you know and i hate that about myself, being a woman and a fan of wrestling is hard.

i'm glad that you were able to get past your initial response, but having a high tolerance or being able to look past some things does not make you a bad person. you do not deserve to hate yourself for an understandable reaction that has been conditioned into you by patriarchy. the important thing is that you gave it more than just that knee-jerk thought, and i truly think you should be proud of yourself for that! it's very easy to see a post and write it off as too complainy or not a big deal. please do not hate yourself for this - reserve that feeling for the forces that made that a necessity for you.

[jattendschaton]

*sends hugs/comfort * hope your week gets better!!

Oooh yes okay I absolutely understand that system XD

It takes time and effort to write a lot of tags! You wanna really put effort into appreciating and helping an artist feel seen and liked, and it feels like that effort is better concentrated on posts that don't already have a ton of notes bc they already have that 1k validation. Plus, don't want to burn out on excitedly raging about some gorgeous art, right?

I think it's very sweet (and smart) that you do that :3

*hands you a ladybug and chat noir themed treat * another thought, purrrhaps?

('That Anon' works XD, but I thought abt it a lil and Sphinx could also work? Since I'm always here to ask you questions sorta heheh)

<3<3<3 Thank you <3<3<3

Yeah, exactly! There are so many incredible creators in this fandom, I would love if as many of them as possible could feel appreciated and valued. It sucks to work hard on something and not feel like it garnered any attention, and I'd just like to make people feel seen in whatever capacity I can

My thought today is that there are a number of things I do that have "bad" origins but have since become things I genuinely enjoy and I sometimes wonder if that has lasting consequences on my mental health. Like, I started showering with the lights off several years ago because I just could not stand seeing my own body. And I think that's a problem, having such a poor perception of your own body that you refuse to even look at it, and I had to work on that a lot. But now that I've done work to have a better relationship with myself, I find I still prefer showering in the dark. And I wonder if that's me still holding onto some facet of this poor self image or if I have successfully divorced the ideas from each other. That's kind of a silly, small example, but to a broader context, how divorced can behaviors even be from the thoughts that established them? What metric could you even use to assess that? How much work do you have to do on yourself before you can know these behaviors are done out of a real love for the activity and not lingering poor thoughts?

[sionisjaune]

WHAT THE FUCK WHO WROTE THIS

[starlooove]

Idk how to explain it but the whole yn thing irks me so bad like. Even when it’s something that has racial connotations like the word ghetto or ratchet it’s all connotative and ig. Even tho it SHOULDNT be extended towards nonblacks in a way there’s still that illusion of ‘well we could be talking about anybody’ but the whole yn is literally saying ‘young black CHILD! BOY! TEENAGER!’ (Bc y’all forget) and having an entire set of racist stereotypes on that alone. Like ur literally saying I think this this and this about you on the basis that you’re Black and young idk it’s weird.

[paintedpineleaf]

okay this is so weird to me, some people are just randomly hating on taylor? like out of nowhere, no one asked or said anything to you but you felt the need to post about how you don't like her or whatever she's currently doing? why?