#I know I don't have to explain myself bc this is a hobby & I should be doing what I'm having the most fun with but

[byanyan]

@ everyone who's waiting on replies from me and I'm over here only replying to one thread... I'm so sorry

[ultopias]

What do you think of those who say sherliam is meaningless, proofless and purely platonic? Those that Says shippers are delusional lol

short answer, i don't

long answer,

i think people are free to interpret the characters' dynamics and relationships however they want. it's totally fine for them to not ship sherliam, but in that same way they should be fine with people shipping sherliam. i don't go around saying people who ship, for example, johnlock are delusional. how is that my business? do whatever you want! ship sherlock and william with whoever you want! i don't care! good for you! 😭

i don't rlly wanna get defensive bc i genuinely don't care about people who don't ship them, but sherliam is still the official pairing. even if their relationship is(...was) officially described as rivalry, they're still a pair and they get paired on stuffs like official illustrations, merchs etc whether you like it or not

well i'm a sherliam shipper myself so i am a bit biased lol. i feel like it's a bit hard to say they're "proofless" when they were intended to be pairs from the start and their relationship progress was integrated into the story itself

for example there are multiple instances--multiple? two instances where they're described as being "destined," which are this jump sq manga dojo post or the volume 17 synopsis (the jump sq post is an interview thing with the authors where miyoshi sensei also explained how she came up with sherliam's character designs etc, it's pretty interesting so i recommend you read it! it's in japanese, so download the pics and use machine translator to read it)

they probably weren't being straightforward about it, but assuming these implied they're soulmates: are they platonic or romantic soulmates? i don't know! how do YOU want to interpret it?

obviously they never said "hey these two are dating!" in the story so in theory sherliam aren't really 'canon,' but this is where us fans come in to make analysis/theories, fanarts, fanfics, etc! that's what makes it fun, the fact that people can come up with different interpretations! if something from the source material can only have one meaning it'd be so boring!!

fandom activities are supposed to be a hobby, something that you do for fun. if it stresses you out or makes you upset because of, say, a ship you think doesn't make sense, maybe take a step back and see where you went wrong. if you have time to call other people delusional because of a ship they like, what about using that time to talk about ships that YOU like instead?

sorry i think i'm getting all over the place 😂 but ultimately what i wanted to say is, you DON'T HAVE to talk to/about people you don't like about topics you don't care. you can ignore them and even pretend they don't exist, it's fine i promise. we're talking about fictional men, it's not that serious ≡_(ゝヽε:)ﾉ

curate your timeline, block/mute people, be pickier with who you interact with, and most of all, don't forget to have fun!

i'm so bad with writing in a structured way but i hope you're satisfied(??) with my answer o(〃’▽’〃)o

[wickedlyqueer]

you don't have to ofc, but i heard you're making a video essay about the wicked movie? will that still continue or???

the short answer is yes. the slightly longer answer is: yes, and keep in mind that:

YouTube is not my job and never will be.

Creating videos take time, especially in the way I do them.

It also didn't help that I had to spend the last week in bed due to the flu (while I had planned to spend the weekend editing a ton).

I'm kind of glad you asked me this question anon, bc i've wanted to talk about this for ages. so let me explain my process under the cut (warning: boring ramblings).

I don't think people quite understand how much time I spend on my projects. It's just that they are spread across multiple platforms and I don't really announce them until there's something to be announced. Some people just write fanfics or just have a gaming channel.

My brilliant mind decided I should write fanfics, have a video essay channel and a gaming channel!

Because fuck free time, I suppose? So I already am juggling between three projects at all times. And all these are my hobbies and I very desperately want them to stay hobbies.

Which always leads to an interesting field of tension, because everything needs to be quick, quick, quick and NOW and everything is supposed to be "hustle" these days. Do your hobbies and make a buck in the process!

But I firmly want to be against that and say: no. a hobby should cost you money, because the value is in the joy it provides you.

And that might seem hypocritical, because I've begun to put ads on my videos, but that has two reason:

YouTube puts ads on them regardless. Might as well make 100 dollars a year off of my work.

I actually tried to do the "no ads" on my videos. YouTube then goes on to not recommend my videos. And I do not have the audience to get views on it anyway. Nope. My videos just turn to oblivion.

At least now I can decide where to put an ad and when not (and YouTube is aggressive with this btw, because if it's up to YouTube, you're getting an ad every 2-5 minutes).

ANYWAY, back to video making. Like I said, my way of video making is incredibly time consuming.

Besides wanting YouTube to stay a hobby, I also do not show my face. Ever. All the long hour content you watch? Probably a person talking to a camera (talking head).

Every now and then they throw up a graph or a still image. It's the least time consuming way to produce a video, for sure.

I do none of that. Every single thing you see on screen, I had to select and edit myself. You only hear my voice. Everything else on screen I had to put together myself.

So each minute you watch takes me roughly an hour to edit. And that's just editing. I didn't even mention writing the script, recording (and re-recording) and hunting down royalty-free music that fits the topic.

My new Wicked video is an hour long. So we're looking at at least 60 hours of editing. Adding everything else to it, that's 100 hours for 1 video. 100 hours I have to conjure up between working hours and chores and life stuff and a little important thing called free time.

And yes, I could not bother as much with editing and just... let an image stay on screen for a minute.

But I don't want to do that. Part of why I never want YouTube to be my job is I don't want to have to just put videos out just so I can make rent!!!

As long as YouTube stays my hobby, as long as I'm not doing it for the money, I can focus on putting quality upfront. Because I know a lot of small creators who have to put out the video, even if it feels halfbaked, bc that's what it means to be financially tied to an algorithm (and why I never want that for myself!)

That's how you get "reading reddit comments" videos. There's no substance to it at all, because there's no time to get to it.

I don't want that for my videos and therefore I always want to take my time making videos. I want them to be polished and most of all, *I* want to be proud of the videos I make.

So yes, it's a continuous process. I'm also in the process of writing a script for a gaming channel video, and a new chapter for my multiverse fic and oh also working on a massive video for my video essay channel. And then I have like 10 other projects that are in my backlog, waiting to be released and to be worked on.

That's right. I have a queue for my hobbies. Fuck me. That's depressing. I'm pretty much never not working on my projects. You just don't get to see it, because I don't try to monetize the shit out of it.

It'll come when it comes. Same for Wickedly Queer part II. Relax. I'm just an individual with a hobby. Not a corporation.

[taegularities]

Rid, this maybe a small rant so bear w me pls >:(

I was having a conversation with my roommate in college yesterday about books and reading in general. She is picky when it comes to reading, mostly inclining towards romance and sub genres within the umbrella. While I believe that reading anything is a good practice, she is radical in her opinion. In the sense that she believes books which are officially published in a hardcover are credible enough to be called books or novels for the matter. Recently i revealed to her that I’ve been reading fan fiction for 3 years now and her reaction was… quirky? She thinks that fanfiction writers are still amateurs in writing, have no experience with editors and they only write as a hobby so they don’t put in as much effort as a novel writer would, so their stories are dumb when compared to novelists and best selling authors. I argued that fan fiction is not something to be looked down upon cause some people have put out excellent things to read and they do work hard on their plots and characters. Even if they are not accustomed to working with publishers and all but that doesn’t work as an authentic judgement that fanfic writers can’t be placed as the same level of some authors. Just putting out a book in hardcover doesn’t equate quality of a story, it only means you had access with some publishing house. The argument kinda took a sour turn cause she was unwilling to take in my pov so I asked her if you think fanfic writers suck then tell me which stories you have read in your entire lifetime which you consider masterpieces then i might recommend you some stories from my end to change your perspective. She texted me sometime ago and most of her list includes Colleen Hoover 😐 it kinda made me realize that in fact we as readers must have a fanfic phase in life otherwise we would place authors like CoHo with incredibly poor taste in writing on the pedestal and look down on underrated talents in the field of literature. I still can’t comprehend what does CoHo write in her books that attracts mass attention from people cause all she does is glorify toxic relationships and normalize it with her weak happy endings. I’ve read around 3 books from her and lemme tell you some of the bts fics on ao3 & tumblr deserved way better audience than she does. In my opinion, the only reasons books like these blow up is due to people who have a first time experience in reading and don’t really take much interest in reading, it’s disgraceful to way better writers who are overlooked cause they don’t suit the usual trend due to certain criteria they don’t fit in, the criteria being easy choice of vocabulary, some aesthetic corny words, incredible smut and bland character development. Maybe the lack of quality romance novels in bookstores has me caving into fanfics because I feel in some measures I’d rather spend a week completing works of a fanfic writer with amazing plots for free over spending dollars and wasting time on books I end up disliking because of their stuff characters having absolutely no growth or a potential plot going to waste.

rant anytime, love <3

oof, i don't know much about colleen hoover, so i can't judge.. but honestly, any kind of creative work should be appreciated. like, i used to be young adult girly myself, and got into writing like that, so i feel like none of us should drag down someone's effort (not talking about you, just in general!!). and like, as a fanfic author myself i do feel a bit bleh about your friend saying we are amateurs bc we don't work with publishers lol :') i've actually thought about this before. editors have so much work to do, like they need to perfect a story, right? i know it's different for us, but most beta readers i know do the same.. literally sit down and spend hours reading a fic to help a writer improve it (shoutout to you ily @missgeniality). tbh, i'd say agree to disagree with your friend and enjoy whatever you enjoy!! sometimes it's hard to explain a pov to someone. but tysm for standing up for fanfic authors, like i'm so happy you cherish them the way you do <3

[mysticmoonlite]

Random Facts About Me No one Fucking Asked for. <3

1. I hate mushrooms.

I don't know what's worst the taste or the fucking texture.

2. I'm an Aquarius Rising & Aries Sun

In a nutshell, I don't take anything serious & love bodyslamming people into refrigerators. Arguing is pointless when we can just fuck.

3. My Celebrity Crush is ....

SKEEEEEEEEEEEYEEEEEEEE she really don't give a fuck which makes me want to on her.

4. My Guilty pleasure is ... Zues Network

Please don't make me explain this one. 💀 I like reality television.

5. My Fictional Crush should be obvious..

I have dad issues. My Fictional baby daddies are usually 6'8 and up demons/vampires who have a compulsive desire for control & greed. 11/10 They are the villains with 15inch cocks & canonly would dismember me . What's not to love?

6. My DreamJob is to be an MMA fighter

I want to be a professional mma fighter but my body is extremely limited to flexibility bc of my disability. So I do boxing instead. Even tho my doctor said not to. Every woman should know how to defend themselves idc.

7. My secret hobby is writing fanfiction. But I don't post them.

I don't post my fanfics because I don't feel like I'm good at expressing myself. My favorite genres to write are mystery, smut, comedy, & very dark romance. Eventually, I will.

8. I have one nipple.

If you know me from tiktok u don't know me. Explanation is there.

I'm very unserious and just want to have fun.

[starsmuserainbow]

Some randomly chosen questions for a selection of my muses answered from this meme because I want to! Sorted more or less randomly, though I started with the muses I feel the strongest these days.

For Lightning, I'm gonna answer:

🪄 MAGIC WAND — would you describe yourself as a superstitious person (someone who believes in superstitions)? do you believe in luck? "Yeah right. No, I'm very much not superstitious. And if luck exists, it tends to be against me, so I don't really care to bother thinking if I should believe in it or not."

(and bc that was too short for my liking, another one for her:)

🌙 CRESCENT MOON — what would you say is your current biggest dream and/or career aspiration and why? "It would be really amazing to become one of these well-known, absolutely capable and powerful heroes. It's not like I do what I do for the attention or fame, but it's still a cool thing to imagine that people would recognize and look up to me, and stuff."

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For Mia, I'm gonna answer:

🧪 TEST TUBE — if you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what is one thing you absolutely have to resolve and/or do before then? "Wow. Pretty grave thing to ask, wouldn't you say?" Mia paused for a little bit as she pondered the hypothetical situation. "I think I'd try what I can to still do some good. For unique people, or better yet for whole groups. No idea what that would be though, so if I'd suddenly be hit with this news, I guess I'd just be, like, patrolling the streets and trying to prevent crimes more like the actual heroes do."

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For Moonshot, I'm gonna answer:

🤔 THINKING FACE — what three emotions tend to dominate your mindset? do you know why they do? "Anger. Confidence. Pride. They do because they are the most beneficial and important emotions to have as a tamaranean warrior." [[In not his words, it's more because of all of his experiences in the past and how he's more or less defining himself through his pride as a warrior and how he's always going to see Tamaran and Tamaraneans as the absolute best there is.]]

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For Kage, I'm gonna answer:

🖤 BLACK HEART — what would you say is the darkest thought you’ve ever experienced? what do you think caused you to have that thought? have you ever planned on or fantasized about acting on it? "Dark thoughts are all I work with. Did you forget I kill for money? I doubt you can go much darker and colder than that." She was silent for a moment, not really wanting to continue elaborating. There were certain thoughts in her past that were somewhat darker, more gruesome, than others, but she was not willing to explain all of this so she just added a 'why' to be done with it. "It is all that life gave to me that caused this. And I have often acted on it before - as I said, it's what I do for money."

(and bc that was a lame answer, another one:)

⚡️ LIGHTNING BOLT — how has [significant event in muse’s life] impacted you? what has it made you realize about yourself? about others? about the world? "I'm not gonna explain what that event was. Be happy I answer at all." Kage grimaced at having to answer it. "It shattered the whole new life I had thought I was building. Again destroying everything I had. On the ruins, I built the life I have now, and what it made me realize is that I will not listen to or trust my heart ever again. It made clear that no one is ever to be trusted, and that that is how the world works. Everyone will betray anyone else at some point, it's better to just never trust in the first place."

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For Cat, I'm gonna answer:

🎨 ARTIST PALETTE— what are some hobbies that you like to partake in? do you think they’re just to pass time or to distract yourself, or do you believe some of them potentially have therapeutic outcomes for you? "I very much enjoy reading books that tell a story. It helps me blend out my ability when I am able to immerse myself in a fantastic story of being someone else or joining someone on a fictional adventure. I also play the violin, the sound of it is just very soothing and calming to me."

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For Galfore, I'm gonna answer:

🫂 PEOPLE HUGGING — generally speaking, do you feel very supported by the people in your life? how strong and cohesive is your support system, if you have one? do you often feel like you’re at the front of the line or pushed to the side by the people in your life? Galfore was silent for a little bit. "It is not my role to be supported. I am the one to support the people in my life., and I am satisfied with that." He did have his time of being supported, and it was only right to give back on that now.

[buddyapologist]

it's been a few months and it's still crazy how all of the reasons i broke up with my ex are just. not applicable anymore

"i'm just not ready to settle down" -> i basically am just not with him

"the idea of him meeting my friends and extended family makes me very uncomfortable" -> i want my boyfriend to meet my friends/family and i enjoy hanging out with his friends

"constantly having doubts and reservations and fears is just part of being in an Adult Relationship" -> literally none of those exist now

"it must be normal to get agitated when i spend too much time with him, i'm just a solitary person" -> i want to be with my current bf like 75% of the time and can easily spend lots of time with him

"it's fine that we barely have anything in common i can just have my separate hobbies/interests" -> we enjoy the same stuff most of the time and actively engage with each other's interests

"i just need more time to not be anxious about the idea of living together" -> my bf and i have discussed it and are excited about the possibility of it

"he might be the only person who is nice to me and uses the correct pronouns and respects my identity" -> he isn't

"romantic feelings must feel like relief" -> those are two different emotions, my ex was just the first partner in years who didn't hurt me

"i think i'll never be physically attracted to someone in person, it's just part of my acespec identity" -> i just wasn't attracted to him!!!!

"i just can't sleep in the same bed as someone, i must be too light of a sleeper" -> my bf and i want to sleep in the same bed and do so whenever we're together and i sleep just fine

i know anyone reading this is probably like "are you dumb as a brick how did you not break up with him sooner none of these are things you should feel in a relationship" but i was genuinely so exhausted and hurt by the partners i'd had prior to him that being with him was like finding an oasis in the desert where i could finally feel safe and assured and not constantly afraid i was about to get dumped because i was too neurodivergent for a normal person to handle. he was the eye of the fuckstorm of my life at the time. i don't regret the time i spent with him and i did truly care for him, but i mistook that relief and gratefulness for love and those just aren't the same thing. he was so good to me and i never felt like i deserved it.

things are so hard right now but my current bf makes me so happy. and yeah i feel some relief bc of how much he helps me be happy and feel alive, but that's separate from how much i like him for HIM. i feel all those classic romantic cliches about him i never felt with my ex. all the things i was reluctant about i'm not reluctant about anymore. and yeah my aroace-spec identity does impact my feelings and attraction but i've accepted that and so has he. i don't feel reluctant, i feel hopeful and excited for our future together. on our monthiversary (that we both like celebrating bc we like milestones) he said that he hoped we were together long enough to lose track of the months. if my ex had said that to me i would have freaked out. but my bf said it and it made me so happy.

part of me wishes i could go back in time and bonk my past self on the head and explain all this shit to them, but dating my ex really taught me so much about myself and i did have a lot of fun with him. i don't regret the experiences we had together, going to fun restaurants and touristy stuff and the trips we went on. and i wished for a long time that i DID have strong feelings for him, but i just. didn't. and they never developed. and i thought that maybe i would just never have them. but i do. and they bring me so much joy. i wish i could tell them that you are supposed to feel JOY in a relationship. that you should be comfortable with each other, not anxious all the time. that cooking together should be fun, not stressful. there's so many things that added up to make me uncomfortable and they just aren't around anymore.

this is a really long ramble at this point but i'm just really glad i didn't settle. i'm really happy i met my bf. i'm really happy i know what it's like to truly feel joy in a relationship.

last note, i used to be so insecure and that often affected my relationships bc it made me constantly be afraid that my partner wasn't actually attracted to me, how could they, i'm so ugly/gross/mentally ill/obnoxious/talkative/etc., and i would take that out on them. and a bit of that will always be with me but i'm so much better now. honestly a ton of that was going on accutane but it's also just getting older and more mature and growing past situations that hurt me so much. i know now that i am worthy of love and care and yes, someone can be attracted to me emotionally and physically. and that's pretty cool

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Monday, January 8th, 2024!

11:32am HCI class this morning, really boring still I regret to inform everyone 😂 no tests this semester, just projects. Easy A but a real brain drain. Not letting the brain drain get to me though! Hopped out of that class (9-11am) and now I'm at Panera getting free coffee (it's chilly out!). I'm going to shoe carnival to use a $15 voucher and also other little errands today. I just realized I'm really hungry (I had 2 prebiotic sodas last night and absolutely BLEW UP this morning so I actually don't think there's anything in my stomach tbh haha). I think I should get a snack bc my stomach will pass start hurting soon. Just checking in! New semesters can be overwhelming so I'm gonna keep coming back here.

11:49am have selected bogo bacon mcdoubles for lunch with my coffee :) eating food is good for you! I am very thankful ❤️

2:34pm lol I went down a rabbit hole and I'm about to be off my phone for the rest of the day. But it's worth it bc I looked on Vividseats and found a $20 after tax ticket to see Company at the Straz tmrw. I have heard of this musical before but didn't know what it was or any of the songs. Omg I didn't the last 1.5 hrs listening to the original Broadway cast recording in my car and investigating the plot and I am very excited!! This is EXACTLY what I'm talking about I had no idea that's what I was going to do today and definitely had no idea I was going to see a Broadway show tomorrow night when I freaking woke up this morning, how do I explain to people that this literally is my hobby. Novelty and new experiences is my hobby. Learning about things is my hobby. Listening to new music is my hobby. Reading about how they are being hot and *controversial* about the gender swap in this revival of a 50+ year old play?? I find this fascinating and I am excited AF now about something I couldn't tell you one lick about this morning. This is my favorite thing to do. This is such a perfect example of my idea of a good time.

Do other people never do things like this?? It's spontaneous, but not expensive or dangerous or retarded, it's just spontaneous and interesting to me personally.

4:05pm I actually went to shoe carnival and used the coupon in their email and got a pair of yellow box sandals for $7 even! Just got home, ate a granola bar and am about to take a nap.

11:45pm I want to text him. I'm ALSO FIVE DRINKS IN LMAO. OFC I wish I had a man to fuck rn. I GOT MYSELF DINNER AND DRINKS!!!! NOW it feels like I've been wined and dined and primed to FUCK. But it's literally just me.... I wined and dined myself bc it's the first day of school, things are stressful and they're bound to be more stressful going forward. I wanted to treat myself before I get depressed AF. Is there another man/ woman here?? Fuck NO. I got ME, MYSELF and I BITCH. Dinner was a delicious pizza from king state and a cocktail and 4 shots while I watched "Hair" so yeah ofc I'm COMFORTABLE AND TURNED ON THAT'S LITERALLY ALL IT FUCKING TAKES I'M NOT DIFFICULT BY ANY FUCKING MEANS. one day there will be a man that understands, but until then it's just me, I got me, I know me better than anyone else. All the men I've met are JUST A DELUSION IN MY MIND BRO I KNOW WHAT I WANT AND I *CLEARLY* HAVE NOT MET HIM YET and that's ok,bc ..... I got ME.

Hopefully this rant has dissuaded me from texting him bc wtf he's SO FUCKED UP EVEN IF HE ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT ME HE'S UNABLE TO FUCKING DO SHIT ABOUT IT. HE'S A BUM ASS BITCH AND CAN'T MEET YOUR STANDARDS!!!!!!! YOU MEET YOUR STANDARDS WHERE YOU ARE EVERY DAMN DAY. HE FUCKED UP AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT HIM ANYMORE. LITERALLY LET HIM ROT ONG BC HIS DUMBASS PICKED A LIL BITCH OVER YOU (A STRONG ASS HO WHO DOESN'T TOLERATE BULLSHIT!!!!!). THE END OMG.

1:34am why TF am I still awake ooooorhhg I am killing myself fr.

[darthwhorecrux]

thanks for the tag @pinguwuuuu 😘😘😘😘

What's the origin of your username? i've been on and off tumblr for a long time, mostly lurking/reading (this is the first time i've ever been actively posting hehe), and the last account i had before this one, i was waaaaay into the star wars and harry potter fandoms so my username kind of combines both of those (darth for the sith lords from sw, and whorecrux is a spin of horcrux from hp but like whore bc i'm a whore). sw and hp may not be as much my jam anymore but they'll always hold a piece of my heart so i came back under the same name :D

OTP(s) + shipname: bbrae (beast boy and raven from teen titans will ALWAYS be my og), asta and noelle from black clover (idk if they have a ship name or what it is), ichihime (ichigo and orihime obviiii), harley quinn and poison ivy, eren and mikasa, and probably so many more im missing...

Favourite colour: pink!!!

Song stuck in my head: Battery by Metallica. im seeing them in concert in may! super excited, i love them soooo much and the beginning of that song is so Hueco Mundo/Arrancar coded hehehehe

Weirdest habit/trait: i'm an early bird! i usually go to bed early (when i can) because i like to be up early, especially on the weekends when i don't have to get ready for work! i like how slow and peaceful the mornings are and how i can be alone

Hobbies: reading, writing, walking, lifting, listening to music, singing, dancing, playing video games, doing my makeup, scrapbooking, etc. >:)

If you could have any job you wish what would you have? it would be sooooo cool to be an author/writer but writing big book is hard!!!

Something you’re good at: listening. i attract the yappers for sure lol

Something you hate: explosive people. i hate being around people where it feels like i'm walking on eggshells trying not to aggravate them. it freaks me out, makes me super upset, and exhausts me

Something you forget: that life doesn't have to be all or nothing. when i'm doing bad or get slightly overwhelmed i slip into that mindset, but not everything is that simple! i don't need to put myself into a box or be perfectly one thing or the other!

Your love language: i literally don't know. i think im a combo of like everything except for gift giving (i suck at giving gifts and i hate receiving them!). maybe acts of service mostly??? i like to show ppl i care by trying to make them happy or lighten the load for them!

Favourite movies/shows: soooo many 😭 Bleach OBVI, jujutsu kaisen, my hero academia, death note, attack on titan, mob psycho 100, rick and morty, breaking bad, squid game, girl interrupted, scream franchise, child's play franchise, halloween franchise, (okay so like any of the classic slasher franchises), and so much more i'm sure im forgetting :P

Favourite food: i loveeeee food! if i must choose one, pasta!!! chicky alfredo

Favourite animal: goat 🐐♑️

What were you like as a child? so weird and kind of a troublemaker. and then i hit puberty and i was like woooow so it's not funny for me to be weird anymore because i'm a lady now?!?! and i got really quiet and have been since

Favourite subject in school: math

Least favourite subject: history

What’s your best character trait: i like to think that i'm kind and keep an open mind. i'm not perfect so i definitely have bad and bitter days, but i used to be very very sad and i don't want anyone to feel that way. i totally rock with the idea that you never know what kind of battle someone is fighting behind the scenes so you should be kind to everyone 🫶🏼

What’s your worst character trait? i'm suuuuuuch a puss and i hate confrontation, like to the point where it's seriously problematic and i will let ppl/things ruin my life rather than confront them UGH or i will just go ghost to avoid explaining why i don't want someone in my life anymore which is not healthy either! (always working on it 🥲)

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? i'm pretty content! but if i have to choose something, maybe more meaningful connections with others. after college i don't have a lot of close friends nearby. i like to be alone but i probably spend a little too much time by myself lol. i'd also love to not have to work buuuuut unfortunately that's not an option 🥺

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? my grandmother. she died before i was born and from all that i hear about her she sounds like she was an incredible woman and i wish i had gotten the chance to know her

NO PRESSURE TAGS: @cloudyempress @bucciaratizippers @mayurisstalker @keigolover123

Get to know mutuals ^-^ tagged by @bankaizen (thank you for the tag ❤️)

I'm sorry, it's so long!! I'm putting it behind the read more for easier reading.

What’s the origin of your username? It's a song by Armand Van Helden! He's one of my favourite DJs haha.

OTP(s) + shipname: TUna LMAO (Tidus/Yuna) from FFX, Fanille (Fang/Vanille from FFXIII), Touya/Yukito from CCS, GinRan and Unohana/Isane from Bleach. Yakuza: Daigo/Mine. Also a big fan of Canon Character/OCs!!!

Favourite colour: Turquoise/teal - most of my fountain pen inks are in that colour range lol

Song stuck in my head: The Macrodata Refinement Dance Party mixed by ODESZA

Weirdest habit/trait: If I'm at a restaurant, I fold my used napkins neatly to be disposed of.

Hobbies: I have a lot! Aside from writing, there are:

(junk) journaling, which in turn, lead me to my stationery and fountain pen hobbies

playing the piano (been playing since I was 5)

swimming (was a competitive swimmer for most of my child and teenage years)

I garden in the spring/summertime

I also love to cook and have done dinner parties for my friends (but I don't enjoy baking)

I'm also into photography

I wish I had more time in the day for it, but I also try to do some language learning!

If you could have any job you wish what would you have? A food/travel writer/reviewer!

Something you’re good at: I've been told I'm good at giving advice and listening to people. Personally I'm very good at directions! There have been a few times where I've been stopped on the street and helped people navigate their way around.

Something you hate: Oranges :(, I can't stand the colour, the smell and the taste.

Something you forget: Hmmm not sure! I guess phone numbers. I only remember the numbers of my immediate family...

Your love language: Gift giving! I love getting people gifts and try hard to get something meaningful and/or practical. I'll try to remember little details about my friends and find something along the lines of that. I also love receiving gifts lol.

Favourite movies/shows: Ahhh so many! For animanga: Bleach, Samurai Champloo, xxxHOLiC, Sailor Moon, JJBA Diamond is Unbreakable. For movies: Spirited Away, Sorry to Bother You, Drive, Kill Bill Vol 2, Sympathy for Lady Vengeance, The Fall. Shows: Hannibal, Regular Show, 30 Rock, Prison Playbook (k-drama), Hotel del Luna (k-drama), Racket Boys (k-drama).

Favourite food: Too many... I think I could eat soup dumplings/xiaolongbao by the bucket loads. Or Sri Lankan crab curry mmmm. I also can't say no to chocolate cake 🫣

Favourite animal: bears!!! I know they could kill me, but why are they friend-shaped :(

What were you like as a child? I was an easygoing child and VERY curious. I would wake up in the middle of the night to do "science" experiments. Like one time I woke up around 3am and I dug up the front yard to find "cool rocks" 💀 or buy mentos from the local convenience store, wait for everyone to go to bed, then sneak into the kitchen and put the mentos in my parents 2L coke bottle to see it explode LMAO.

Favourite subject in school: i've been in school for too long: french & geography -> science -> physics -> biology -> advanced health economics for low and middle-income countries & biostatistics

Least favourite subject: Wood working... to avoid a fail, I asked the guy who had a crush on me to help me with my final project 🫣 I also hated organic chemistry in undergrad.

What’s your best character trait: I've been told I'm very caring and calming to be around! I had a friend describe me as a "human version of a spa" 💀

What’s your worst character trait? I cut people out of my life very easily. I think I should be more forgiving, but I just... can't get passed whatever slight was made to me/loved ones. I'm trying to be understanding and compassionate, but I also don't want you near me ever again lol.

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I hope trump and his administration dies. In my immediate life? I'd like a higher salary.

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? It is definitely a tie between Johann Sebastian Bach and Muzio Clementi!! They are my favourite composers. My piano exam repertoire for the Baroque and Classical periods were from their piano repertoire. I have so much fun playing them and would love to learn their thought processes.

I tag: @soprawrites @villainsrtasty @nail-art-no-jutsu @muzansfangs @snuggetfish @if-dreams-do-come-true and any others who want to do this too (also feel free to ignore if you don't wanna do this, no obligation at all!!)

[caw-rky]

Hesitating between different kind of changes on the pillars (still having trouble deciding myself, may post a few "test draw" I did to explain, to not make a too long post), I decided to make some light work by redesigning quickly a few G1 characters.

Butterscotch was the first I did ! :DD I found loads of things on her and, if she was in my AU (should reaaaaally search a name on that pony type-change AU), I think she could have a really nice episodes with Rainbow ! (Like, the Gymkhana race is about to start, Rainbow gets really competitive after hearing she could already have a really nice time (though nowhere near Butterscotch) and begins to overtrain, refusing to listen to advice, rest and to admit that she can't get better than Butterscotch within a week. Kind of a crash and burn for Rainbow until she met Butterscotch who isn't like she imagined. She isn't spending all her free time training like crazy by running as fast as she can. Instead, she has a planning which oversees which exercise she will do, what day, how long but who also help her to go enjoy herself in-between. Sport is her hobby and became her job, not her life. Rainbow finally takes some time to rest with the help of her friends (Twilight concocting a training table to help her not lose what she gained all while recuperating, Pinkie taking her to fun activities, ...) and finally does the race (not winning, but able to enjoy it).)

Blue Belle is the second I begun but the last I finished. I had LOADS of trouble for her. I began with some designs where she was very farm-themed, but didn't like it before settling on this ! I... don't have much to say about her x'DD

Blossom :DD She kind of has a old-mare vibe, I don't really know why? I gave her the sun-hat because I have read somewhere that another pony gave her one (couldn't remember where) and I thought it fit quite well :DD

(1/2 Cotton Candy, Snuzzle and Minty in next post, bc it's long x'DD)

[askaborderline]

Hi, I'm asking for advice and maybe some resources as well?

So I've got an FP who's my bff and we've been dating on and off (dating has been super hard bc of my BPD symptoms) and it's been really bad sometimes like me just shutting down and not responding to her, giving her silence treatment etc.. (i know it's bad and i don't want to treat her bad and I'm trying to do better) and for some reason she STILL likes me platonically and romantically and wants to date me if I'm able to. I really want to but every time we try it just gets too hard bc i get upset ALL the time by the tiniest things she says or doesn't say or do.. it used to be great when we were bffs, we had such a good time together and that's probably why I fell for her bc it was just so easy to be with her (and i had someone else as an FP at the time) but when she became my FP it's been a struggle. Anyway I'm asking for advice for being super close with your FP or possibly even dating them? How can I have her in my life but not let her "consume" me?

Also I want to reiterate that I know I'm being toxic sometimes and i am currently working on it, i know i don't wanna treat her bad it's just my emotions take over sometimes ):

Hello anon!

I have been in a similar situation myself, at least when it comes to conflicting feelings for an FP and eventually dating mine. My partner and I had a rocky start to our friendship and it has developed into a loving relationship, but it's not an easy one! That's the first thing to remember when it comes to this kind of thing, it will not be easy.

First, I'm glad you are self-aware of your own unhealthy behavior. That is a huge first step and you should be proud of yourself! Stopping this behavior will be like stopping a bad habit, because it kind of is one. It'll be difficult but not impossible!

Your FP wants things to work, she seems to understand that your BPD isn't going anywhere and wants to work through it with you. That can be scary! Especially if you have abandonment trauma or anything similar. But I say, you should let her in.

Start by telling her how you are feeling. Open communication is one of the fundamental keys to any relationship. Be honest and open about how you want to change, how you want things to work, and how you are struggling. I'm sure she would understand and probably has feelings of her own that she needs to get off her chest.

After this, make a plan together. Strategize how best to tackle this together because in a relationship, your problems will be hers and vice versa. Explain your side of things and let her do the same.

Now when it comes to not letting your partner become an all-consuming force in your life, well, I still struggle with this myself. I have learned that it's best to have other hobbies, friends, and goals to balance out the desire to constantly be with my partner. I still feel that urge to be with them, but it's lessened when I have other things on my plate.

I know this situation might seem impossible right now, but trust me when I say that you can have a healthy and fulfilling relationship with an FP. You've just got to learn how to set up boundaries and wield your DBT skills like a big ol' positivity bat at your BPD.

You've got this!

-Bee❤

[marshmallowprotection]

Hello! I hope you're doing well. I would like to have a mystic messenger matchup please! :)). I just got back into it omg and i feel relieved and pleasantly surprised there's still people talking about this omg tysm!!

I'm a heterosexual girl and at first glance, I'm extremely shy and quiet. I'm very well mannered and polite but that's only because I don't know you that well yet and I feel hesitant to open up due to extreme trust issues. I feel like I'm really intimidating since I don't smile a lot because of this and my friends often agree with that. Once I feel comfortable with you though, it's an entirely different story 😂

I become much more warm-hearted, dorky, bubbly, and animated-like. Tons of people have commented that I'm empathetic (one of my friends told me I should be a therapist because of this), understanding, authentic, genuine, appreciative, nonjudgmental, open-minded, trustworthy, great with advice and comfort, soft hearted, compassionate, gentle, child-like, independent (to a fault), and “looks like they could kill you but actually wouldn't hurt a fly because they're the cinnamon roll of the group".

Also, I can get a bit silly and teasing from time to time with my friends, but that's only in private or when I'm with them. I'm usually calm and laid-back and to quote some people here: "you just have the vibe where people are just comfortable to be who they are with you because you really don't mind their flaws" and "she really, really, has a strong moral compass among all of us here".

I can also work well under pressure, I tend to give my best when it comes to the things I enjoy, and can surprisingly handle attention very well (Even though I despise it with my entire being because I feel so uncomfortable with it and I feel kinda drained afterwards).

And just for fun to say here, I can be really oblivious when someone has romantic intentions with me, so I'd appreciate it if someone would just spell it out for me because once I do realize it, I would either just say yes or no to them, so I can be straightforward when I need to be.

For my hobbies and interests, I love to write. I really love to write and I can't explain it just a few sentences alone. From academic papers for school, journalistic articles for the student newspaper, or to just personal stories from my own imagination, I'm just really passionate about it.

That being said, I also love to read! I don't really mind which genre it is, just give me a good plot and I'm hooked!

Aside from that, I enjoy discussing philosophy, politics, films (for example, a certain plot point or a plot hole, the cinematography, the dialogue, etc.), Music (analysis of the lyrics, progression of the notes, etc.), History, culture, shows (doesn't matter what country it's from, just please give me a good plot 😂), fashion (its history, references that I could catch on to, the structure, and my own personal taste on it if I would like to wear it myself), psychology, languages (I speak 3-4 languages and often switch whenever I'm speaking to friends and relatives. But I also can point out the quirks and give an in-depth look into it if the person is interested in what we're talking about), debate, research, art (its history, the meaning, I could just go on since I love it so much and also bc I'm not that great of an artist to begin with 😂 but i do paint from time to time).

I love listening to classical music since that's the genre of music I grew up with, but I also old vintage music from the past too! And from time to time, I also like listening to Broadway, other songs from different countries, and I have a soft spot for Disney songs too! Speaking of which, my friends say I'm like a mix of Belle, Rapunzel, and Anna when it comes to the princesses and I agree 😂.

Also, I love my friends and believe that family are the people you choose to be with and you can't live without. So, all in all, I love my family (sksks but truthfully, my heart is big to hold a lot of people in it). I would do anything for them because they're the people I would do anything to protect and lend a helping hand no matter what the hour. So, I'm really supporting and a big cheerleader to those I'm close with 😂

Lastly, my love language is quality time and words of reassurance! If it helps, I'm also an INFJ and my Hogwarts house is Ravenclaw.

Phew, that was a lot to say and I'm really sorry if it's a lot. I really appreciate this and thank you so much in advance! Hope you have a good day and night! :))! 🌸✨

I match you with...

Jumin!

You're a kind of person who truly values conversation and rational debate. When you're talking to other people, whatever comes to mind isn't just what you talk about. You spend a lot of time trying to cultivate and think about the best way to discuss the subject that you're talking about. Conversation is the most important thing to you. You need a partner that values the same thing that you do when it comes down to it. That's why the perfect match for somebody like you would be Jumin. His favorite love language is actually communication.

He could spend hours talking about this or that and not realize how late it would get. It’s so easy to lose track of time when you’re with someone you love. He has the tendency to get carried away when it's something that he's passionate about, so it's not that hard to imagine the two of you curled up together talking about everything and anything. It may seem like the rest of the world doesn't know how to Value the two things that you both enjoy the most; but, what matters is that you have someone in your life that gets it. That knows what it feels like to want somebody around who listens.

Curl up on the couch and enjoy a foreign film together while you discuss this and that. You get swept away so easily that the only thing that might pull you from the discussion is the sounds of Elizabeth’s “meerp!” for attention.

[luminous-studiess]

Ummm so I'm new to tumblr so don't judge if I did something wrong.Ummm how can I be like you? Like you know? Productive and smart.I always push myself but ended up being distracted by things (I have adhd and depression).I can't even remember anything after.I suffer,and continue suffering, from my mental illnesses.I just can't keep myself on track.My family makes fun of me for trying.I'm actually trying to find a part time job here but nothing hires minors.Idk please help meee.

hi, friend! answer under the cut because this will be long. 

please know you’re doing nothing wrong, and that the fact you keep trying to become better and to push yourself to always get things done despite difficult circumstances already shows that you ARE already productive and smart. 

second, it also helped me when i was struggling very heavily last year to learn  two things: 1) there will always be particularly bad days when you live with mental illness, but all the little efforts you take, it slowly does get less difficult. getting better does not mean completely getting rid of all the symptoms you experience, but mostly just learning the best ways and small, gentle things you can do for yourself to manage your condition. this really requires a gentle but firm balance between pushing yourself to do the things you absolutely need to do, but also knowing when what level of work/school/self-care or hobbies is the limit, so that you don’t get too overwhelmed.  this means most of the time, you don’t have to worry about being productive for its own sake. it helps me when i feel like i’m drowning to know how little i can do/the most non-negotiable bare minimum, that still helps me not to fall behind.

^ this is a small, cheap pad of sticky notes i carry with me throughout my entire day. it’s only big enough so that i can only write a few school tasks/personal things i need to do/chores, which helps me evaluate what exactly i can only get done, especially on days where i don’t feel well. checking off absolutely everything on my tiny list makes me feel like i’ve accomplished a lot, because i i have-- they aren’t necessarily a lot of tasks, but they’re the ones that i know really do need to get done. it also helps me focus when i have a lot of nervous energy, and have a panicked sense of “so many things need to get done!!!?” because i can give myself a bit of time to sit down, maybe turn on an episode of a show i like or make some coffee, and write down my tasks. it really helps me with the faint, tiny guilt and dread i used to feel day by day that i was being unproductive or lazy, because now i know i’ve fulfilled all my obligations to myself (everything from doing laundry, to making dinner) and to other people (schoolwork and other tasks). it’s okay to move at the pace that’s only possible for you right now. it’s better to feel comfortable with the smallest things you can do, and build on that as the days come. 2) getting distracted is normal, given Everything Happening Right Now, plus with a mental health condition that makes it hard to focus. it can also be hard to remember things when i study, because of my own health conditions, but i’ve found that the following things have helped: regarding distraction - use a small system that keeps you from accessing any distractions when you need to get something done. i try to leave my non-essential device in another room, and set up a timer-based blocker, to limit the websites i access. - i try to acknowledge the distractions as they come, and try to figure out why: am i hungry? am i tired? have i gotten enough sleep? do i need a break? if it isn’t anything serious, i just acknowledge that i’ve gone briefly off-track-- without guilt, without judgment. then i try to turn my mind back to the task at hand. - a good ambient playlist can make me feel more focused during hard tasks in the sense that i have some form of stimulation to keep the “itchiness” at bay. video game soundtracks and film soundtracks are also wonderful for long, tricky tasks.  - sometimes i just have to start to feel motivated-- the focus actually comes in in the middle of the task. the fact of starting something may actually make you feel motivated.

- procrastinate productively: sometimes when i really don’t want to study i turn on a movie or a show and use the time to clean my room or fold laundry. my life still feels put-together, and i enjoyed myself! win-win.

- and sometimes i realize that focus may be impossible at the moment: take a break, go for a run, do something you like, take a nap.  regarding learning and remembering things i used to have the worst time recalling things for school, until i prioritized two things: SLEEP, and not cramming. i used to get extremely poor grades in my first year of law school because i would put off studying at the last and latest moment-- a few days before exams, pulling all-nighters right up until the hour the exam started. i would also just use my free time to scroll on social media, instead of taking a nap or going to bed early. this was absolutely wrong. during the exam, i couldn’t recall anything because i was too tired, too frazzled, probably didn’t have breakfast, and because i had started and finished half a semester of reading in one night. my grades have gotten much better lately-- i’d like to think it’s because i’ve centered it around two things: (a) getting enough sleep every single night (helpful ESPECIALLY if you have health problems-- mental or physical), and (b) making exam day the least stressful it can be. how do i do this? - this means not only learning things for the exam, but also for classes on a daily period. you don’t have to study particularly hard, but you just have to study enough that you can understand what the professor is saying in class. set definite study hours every day, stop at a very specific and reasonable hour, and go to bed. try to get at least 6 hours of sleep. sleep helps me absorb everything better (idk science but this is from experience and also some very smart people i know ALSO prioritize getting sleep). wake up at a reasonable hour.  - how to study: read the syllabus, and try to get a decent overview of all the topics you need to cover before you start testing/making flashcards/doing active recall (which is IMPORTANT bc this helps you actually train your brain to retrieve information). imho as someone low-energy i find that rewriting notes/making reviewers/making flashcards makes me very tired and leaves very little time for actual studying, so it just helps to test myself by looking at the syllabus and trying to explain the concept to myself, then peeking at the textbook or materials to see what i’m missing. mind-maps are also energy-efficient ways of figuring out how concepts fit together. - how to study for exams: the very latest you should start is a week ahead. two weeks ahead is ideal. map out how much information you need to re-learn from the syllabus. move slowly with the aim of finishing the coverage by the first week. the second is for reviewing and RESTING. - THE NIGHT BEFORE THE EXAM: do a final, gentle survey over the topics you may not understand. stop at 10 pm. go to sleep.  - EXAM DAY: you’ve done the work. take the time to eat breakfast, test yourself SLOWLY AND GENTLY (avoid reading huge chunks of textbook at this point-- youll only confuse yourself), and set up your workspace to take the exam. crush said exam. as a final note: it can be hard to get things done when the people closest to you aren’t supportive. try to reach out on studyblr and find discord study with me servers, or study communities on reddit (they’re actually really nice), or with students in your class. if you need to talk, just dm me. you can do this friend, okay? take care always. gentler days will come. 

[pathologising]

Hey, I'm the person who asked the question about lying (the one you then answered with a link) and I'm sorry if I came off rude... This is just really hard for me.

I can't get a therapist, because I'm a minor, don't have money, and my parents wouldn't want me to get one, so I can't actually get help. I'm trying this whole """recovery""' thing by myself with no help because I don't have anyone....

I've always made self deprecating jokes, because for me it's like taking my serious bad problems, and making them into a joke so they don't hurt me as much. I've seen people say it's bad before, and I want to listen, but at the same time, even when I tried (even for a long time once) it never worked. Trying to replace bad things to good things never made me feel better because I ALWAYS knew I wasn't telling the truth about how I felt. Saying/joking that I love myself never helped because ei knew I didn't. I hate myself. I always have, and When I've tried to say "I love myself!" And joke about myself in a good way, it has never helped.

It's all I've had for so long, and idk how I could even possibly change it when it's become something I do automatically, and it has become something that I barley even control anymore, and it's just something I just do.

Sorry for this rant, I guess the main point of this ask was to apologize if I sounded rude, and explain why I felt the way I did.

ur not rude <3 I've been exactly where you are so I know how hard it can be! I'm proud of you for trying on your own, because sometimes thats all we CAN do in the time being. Recovery and practicing coping mechanisms can be really really hard, especially when you feel isolated from everyone, but theyre possible! It just takes work and continuously trying.

Something that help me is constantly questioning myself after I make a negative joke or before I go to make a joke about myself. Like is this truly okay to say about me? Would it hurt me if someone else said it to me? So why should I hurt myself? U know! It feels familiar and it feels like protection because its what youre used to and what you've done to cope with your surroundings, but at some point you have to replace that with something healthy! You don't have to outright lie to yourself and be like "I love myself" but you can start by saying "well Im feeling a lot of negative thoghts towards myself, but just because im feeling them doesnt mean they're accurate to me!" It'll feel super silly at first but eventually you get the hang of it !!

Also, I recommend just like as an aside to take up an artistic hobby as a new coping mechanism! Drawing or knitting or even just journaling ! I used to think journalling was so so stupid but then I started doing it bc my therapist asked me to and i realised it really does help you process and get out all of ur emotions in the moment!

[amechan1]

I think that it's quiet interesting. But I'd like to add that getting interests from other people doesn't mean that it isn't the real you or that you don't truly like those things.

I'd explain with my own experience (it may not be as thoughtful as I'm at my job and ppl are being quiet 'pushy' today)

I am a neurodivergent person, and I think that Papyus is, too (ND monster, I mean) . When I was young I related a lot to him and I was over heels for my boi.

So, when I see these theories I tend to sometimes see some of myself in Papyrus, wich could psychologically explain my interest for him.

For example, right here with this post:

Papyrus seems to get his interests from others, right? Well, I do that, too. Sometimes is either for positive reinforcement or just wanting to fit in.

My favorite shows, games and hobbies have came from someone else, usually my older sister (ex. My sister likes art, I started to like art bc of her. My sister was playing UT and I decided to stuck with her and I loved the game. That and many other things)

Most of them were when I was younger, but now days I don't have another interest that differes from such.

I wanted to look cool to my sis, I wanted to spend time with my siblings, I wanted to make friends so I just followed and learnt about what they seem to do or like. If I don't I just don't get friends at all (most of my stronger friendships started bc we shared an interest, lol)

Also, when Papyrus gets asked what his fav food is, he doesn't know. I used to not know either(btw it's spaghetti, bc I liked Papyrus and he likes it and I like to eat it so i decided it was a great fit. Specially since it made me more Papyrus-y) , becuase I don't introspect at all, I'm "too busy" (Papyrus says he is too busy to even sleep)

So, I go through life based on goals (such as success, good grades in school in my case, being a Royal Guard for Papyrus) and spend my day focusing on my interests instead of self-care.

If people are perseptive they may know what you like even if you don't say so, based on what you're driven into and other stuff (Sans probably does that to get Papyrus' gifts, furniture, etc). It's like if others knew me better, others should tell what I like and what I don't. Perhaps it comes from the fear to be alone.

So, Papyrus wants to fit in, wants to look cool, doesn't know himself bc he rather go doing stuff than thinking stuff (this may come from insecurities, depression and other things. It's scary to look deep into oneself)

That may be the origin of what he is into, but it doesn't mean those things aren't truly of his like or special to him.

-He likes to cook spaghetti because every else loves it. So he wants to make others happy AND spend time with his BFF, Undyne (he prob thinks he'll mae more friends that way, too)

-He likes puzzles, that one seems from his own (or from the underground's norm. Being too rigid about norms is another thing we seem to share). And him saying that they're awful doesn't mean that he doesn't like them, he's being "objective" (yep, I do that, too. I don't like to be blinded by my preferences so I can tell it's pros and cons, admit if they are cringe and so on). If anything, it proves that he likes them so much that he doesn't care that they are awful.

-With his figures and race car, well, they were given to him by Sans, who IS very perseptive. Sans prob sees that he'd may be into those thing by hearing him talk, glance at things and o the stuff, he puts attention to Papyrus, and as Papyrus seems to really like the gifts (if Sans doesn't read to him the advanced puzzle or Fluffy bunny he'll get cranky, he dreams about having a car, he puts his figures on a table so they can be seen, they pretty much do a lot together, like Papyrus' battle body/costume, and so on)

He likes all those things genuinely, no matter if they came from someone else. He treasures something in those activities and stuff, and even seems to get into them deeper than others (omg, another thing we have in common. I get even more into things than the ppl I got them from)

Being influenced is not a bad thing, liking what gets you close to others shows that you cherish them and they moments you spent together.

Tho Papyus DOES have more to him than we know, I wouldn't call him a lier (according to certain theories), if anything he is insecure and ND, and if he is actually hiding some important plot stuff he must likely doesn't have a bad intention to do so or maybe would come out with something like "I didn't tell you because you didn't ask" (he is like me, fr)

Another thing is that ppl say that he lies a lot to Sans, but I don't think that's the case, it's just REALLY hard to know when they are joking or not.

TL;DR

Papyrus seems genuinely interested into those things, he just gets influenced by others and lacks introspection. Doesn't really need to straight out say what he likes bc it shows with behavior (you have to put attention to ppl like him to notice what he likes)

He may be hiding something (bc he really is smart and clever) but not with bad intentions/on purpose.

(If he turned out to be an actual lier I'd be broken)

Papyrus is so cool! Give him lots of love~ (without having to drag Sans down, pls)

P. D. Thanks for writing this bc I did some accidental introspective when I read this. It really helps to understand myself better.

And sorry if this is boring, messy, badly written and makes no sense. I am tired, at work, and wrote it with lots of interruptions and with no food in my stomach.

Alright, so you know how it’s widely believed that Sans is “The Judge”? How whenever he faces you in the judgement hall on a neutral run he talks about what you’ve done, who you’ve hurt, etc etc. while on a geno run, he’ll call you out on how many times you’ve faced him before? Well, I have a theory. Let’s say Sans is the judge, and this gives him the special ability to see beyond a check: your LV, your “sins”, how corrupted your soul has become. What if Papyrus can, too? Except...what if he can also see that Frisk is a puppet to the player?

He’s the only character to speak without an asterisk, he somehow seems to be able to see whatever room you’re in whenever you’re on the phone, he regularly looks directly at the player when talking to Frisk, and he’s the only character to give you game control based instructions (like “press the down arrow to do x”). Outside of gameplay, aka a couple of trailers and if you hack the game, Sans /also/ breaks the fourth wall, but not like Papyrus does, and only once in game (I believe) when he tells a bad joke and looks to the player as it zooms in on him winking.

So, what if the reason Papyrus won’t hurt you, is because he doesn’t just see the things Sans sees, but he sees beyond “your” stats, and sees Frisk’s? And if he knows about the resets, there’s no *reason* to hurt them. No matter how bad it gets. And maybe, this extends to Flowey. He could see that Flowey was actually Asriel, or what was left of him, and wanted to be a good influence, and help him learn abusing resets and treating the others like disposable garbage wasn’t the right way. And maybe, at some point, tried to convince him using his own abilities. Or maybe Flowey even crossed a line, and Papyrus had to set him straight. Or maybe he was even hoping to give him something to amuse him, and bide his time. No one knows. No one, except Toby.

But whatever it is, there is very clearly *something* unique about Papyrus. His text shakes, the asterisk thing, the player’s view thing, and he’s the only character you never *really* learn anything about.

Toriel? Ex queen, loves pie, loves reading, wants to be a teacher, loved her kids, was disgusted by Asgores cowardice

Sans? Loves science and astronomy, used to know Alphys, has a whole lab under their house with blue prints for the Gaster blasters with Wingdings writing on them and a mysterious machine, made some sort of mistake or something in the past that leads to him saying stuff like “you’ll never see them again” and “you can’t go back” to himself.

Alphys? Loves anime, building robots and machines, decent at puzzles, writes fan fiction, has social anxiety and a perpetual fear of disappointing others.

Undyne? *Also* loves anime, fighting, action stuff, is close with Asgore, likes tea and hot chocolate, hates cold food, is bad at making spaghetti.

Mettaton? Actually had a lot of self worth issues, is Napstablooks cousin, loves showmanship, doesn’t like puzzles, talks a lot of shit but actually cares for the monsters of the underground, and is close with Alphys.

Asgore? Loves tea, dresses up at Santa Claus and visits Snowdin for Gyftmas, loves flowers and gardening, doesn’t really understand puns, loved his kids (maybe one more than the other but I’m not addressing that right now).

Papyrus? Well, he likes spaghetti, right??? Nope, got that from Undyne, since she started giving him cooking lessons to keep him out of the guard. He most likely also picked up the hero schtick, as well as referring to himself in the third person, from her, too. Well, he likes puzzles right? He deliberately calls them useless or stupid or something at one point, and at another, mentions deadly spikes being a pillar of youth, implying it’s just what he knows to do. Ok, well, what about the race car bed? The action figures? Sans reads car magazines, and he probably started getting Papyrus action figures when he was younger, since that’s a pretty standard gift for a kid (and Papyrus isn’t very forthcoming with his own interests. Maybe he doesn’t have any). Okay, well he at least hates Grillby’s and greasy food! Yep, you got me there. Oh! But wait!! Upon Undyne getting excited about it, he changes his tune pretty quickly. So yeah, he does actually hate greasy food, but he’ll change his opinion on a dime if he thinks he’s supposed to. The only thing we *actually* know about Papyrus is that...he takes care of Sans. And lies a lot. And he’s good at painting, since he painted a rock face to look like a hyper realistic bridge. But that’s....about it. Oh, and his puzzles are unusually dangerous. So. He’s good at being dangerous and painting and he takes care of his brother, while simultaneously letting his brother take care of him. And that’s, quite literally, all we know about Papyrus. Oh, and his favorite food is the oatmeal with the dinosaur eggs, which the only person to know this was.....Flowey. Weird, huh?

Bonetrousle is used in most if not every Undertale trailer, and the two most unique characters in game, Flowey and the Annoying dog (Toby), have very special interest in him. He’s an odd job and a half, that Papyrus Undertale.

[mocimori]

hi bestieeee~ i saw your little post on my dash and i was wondering whether i should say anything or not bcs yknow, sometimes there's only so much people can say. but from where im standing, i don't think there's anything wrong with how you're feeling.

it's normal to not feel as interested in something as you used to be. i think honestly it's also healthy to explore your interests. it's not like you dont like skz anymore. you still do. you just... like other things too! and that's okay. the more the merrier, amirite?

take it from someone who's interests switch all the time. it's really okay and for me personally, my interests always switch around and i end up coming back to something i lost interest in before. it comes in waves. and that's okay because when you get interested again, it's like finding that little hobby all over again. so yeah. dont think of this as you abandoning skz but rather as you just... taking a different route. and who knows, you might cross paths again.

you supported them for so long and supporting them with less intensity wouldn't change anything. because in your heart, you still hold love for them and their music. and that's what really matters, especially to them.

so yeah dont you worry! draw whatever you want, however you want. and maybe one day you'll find a skz comeback you REALLYYYY like and get back into the zone again. just relax and have fun with what makes you happy. hobbies are meant to be stress relievers, not stress causers.

take care my love~ <3

awwww! Ti, always the sweetest 🥺💗 thank you for reassuring me about it. I think I really need it bc… it’s been… hard…

maybe bc i liked them for so long and compared to other groups I liked, skz made my experience with them extra special so deciding to focus on something else feels like I had my security blanket taken away from me even if I was aware that my interest was waning.

I don’t really know how to explain it because it feels like a break up (for the lack of better words) and maybe i’m just extra sensitive recently 😂 so everything emotion-wise has been a mess 🥺 but I know eventually I’ll enjoy whatever fandom experience I’ll find myself with.

and yeah yeah! I really like their music and chemistry still 😂 I just couldn’t get into any of their content rn bc of external stuff (i.e. toxic fandom exposure, not as interested in some of their content/lack of variety, Div 1 under fire bc of Stay week) and idk if I ever mentioned it here but trying to get tickets to their show really took a toll on me 😞 I kinda noticed I started to distance myself after that.

but I’m very sure my brainrot will be back if there’s a comeback I really like and even if it’s a cb that won’t restart the intense brainrot I’ll still enjoy bc if anything skz always release bops 😭💓

thank you again sweetest teacup! your words really assured me that what I’m feeling is valid🥺💗 you take care lots too~