#I know I am privileged in a lot of way but Jesus Christ these people are on another level

[its-murderous-business]

Me, a month before my study abroad started: omg I’m going to meet so many new people who are all interested in gender studies! Why else would they sign up for this gender studies themed study abroad?what if I fall in love and have a whirlwind romance and make new friends and have the time of my life!

Me now, a month into my study abroad: I swear to god, if these people say the r slur again I’m going to start screaming. I don’t think I’ve heard them have a single conversation that wasn’t about alcohol, drugs, or partying. No you don’t need to remind me you go to Harvard you’ve mentioned it 12 times. Oh good more petty nonsensical drama. great. Can I go home yet.

[the-rockinahard-place]

I hope the people in our little tumblrstake we have on here know just how much their words have helped me. Just seeing queer mormons is such a privilege. You’ve brought me a lot of guidance in this past year and you have strengthened my testimony to great heights. It is so simple what you do on here, yet so powerful. It has changed my life, and probably my future too. If church leadership was as progressive, accepting, and informational as tumblrstake then the church wouldn’t be viewed as it is today.

I told my classmate today that I was going to mormon prom, which led her to ask me if I was mormon. When I told her I was, her jaw literally dropped. It was obvious that she couldn’t imagine someone like me ( queer af ) being in the church. She has a small perspective of who I am, and a small perspective of what the church is. Unfortunately, they were far too different things in her head, to be seen mixed together. It hurt realizing that some people see the church that way, as this bad thing. I’ve been so fortunate to have a mostly accepting ward and a special place in queerstake, that I’ve forgotten our reputation and our dark history and our not very accepting “brothers and sisters” that when I say I’m mormon to someone, they react like I just came out to them.

know that our LDS blogs in our tiny corner of tumblr proves to be more than just a small community. It is a life line keeping me holding on to that iron rod and I’m sure so many others aswell. I thank everyone for all that you’ve done here. You represent the real church of jesus christ of latter day saints.

[bl-bracket]

Least Rizz Round 1: Phum (We Are) vs Winner (Pit Babe)

[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]

Phum: "Okay, I know not many people will agree with me, but Jesus Christ this man, he gets me in stitches all the time cos of how bad his rizz is. I've not seen all episodes yet, but throughout the EPs I've seen his way of flirting is to ask the guy he likes to… Clean for him? Just do a lot of chores? Telling him to eat with him in the least smooth way possible? They end up kissing, almost making out, TWICE yet the dude he's pursuing still has the impression that they're just "really close" cos Phum is just so bad at making moves. Like, yeah, he does say some rizz like things, and he triES, but his performance of them is missing something for it to work on his oblivious man. He gets jealous and tries to bribe a child to stop his love interest from talking with another dude. He steals his love interest's coffee Infront of the other dude. Just- I'll give him some effort for trying but for real, the rizz is so bad and I am still shocked Peem is falling for it. Phum got pretty privilege for real"

Winner: "Tries to score with Charlie by challenging Babe to a drifting competition, loses. Fails at team bonding with Kim by trying to pull rank and being a jerk and then immediately starts complaining once Kim gets upset. “Aren’t we on the same team? 🥺” Tries to charm Kim North and Sonic after pulling a gun on them—gets his ass beat."

[themareverine]

it's the final day of my 20s

and there's so many emotions. so much has happened not just in this revolution around the sun, but — also just in the decade. this era of a chapter that is closing in frayed pages both thin, stained, perhaps even long in the tooth.

i can remember being a kid and having a life plan. as one of those girlies obsessed with stationary and notebooks, any and all writing supplies, i enjoyed my ignorant bliss thinking i was organized. the makings of a planner, i assumed—a girl going places, with an agenda.

(hilarious, now, since i've never actually finished a bonified planner).

and this happy child, she had simple dreams—

become a paleontologist (lol)

get published

move to Australia (lol)

get married by 22. have my first child by 25 (LOL)

acquire a horse.

—well. maybe not so simple.

life certainly veered off that sweet little thing's freeway of planning, and while much has happened, i only accomplished really two of those childhood dreams.

in the meantime, i learned a lot more about myself. about God and my faith, values. my family and what it means to actually do that all-mystical thing we as children look up to with starry eyes and unicorn dreams, growing up.

my twenties were hard. emotionally, spiritually, relationally. i did a lot of soul searching this decade and went through many valleys and mountaintops. my heart changed, my dreams evolved and dissolved (and still are).

i became, for a short while, someone i didn't recognize.

i did things i didn't think i'd ever do (in good and not-so ways). my family experienced a lot of changes in our home life with the development of mental illness, change of life, and emotional abuse that is still going on. my career certainly didn't spring into what i thought it would be, or what i expected.

despite all of the didn't expects and shortcomings, there has been much good.

and for me, i need to dwell here a second.

i graduated college, the first in my family. i lived in my own apartment. i've been published as a reputable author, freelancer, artist, and journalist. i've written a film, i acted in a film. i've survived bouts of unemployment, political upheaval, global pandemics. career changes and learned new skills that have defined and jumpstarted new avenues of work, i've worked with dream brands and people i never thought possible. i have podcasted, minted art. written commercials and met voice actors. learned that i'm a survivor—have survived narcissistic abuse, car accidents, surgeries. i love a little deeper, and am one of those girls who, after a lifetime of dreaming, finally got her not one, but five, horses—to the point of owning racehorses in lineages that i could only dream. travelled, i lived out of state. i've grown in my faith and have an identity in the eyes of Jesus Christ i didn't before, and my spirituality has grown in Goliath ways. i've overcome personal struggles and dark things that hell tried to ruin me with. my body has changed in ways i feared. i, for the first time, love exercise and have lost weight, built muscle. i have gone on dates, ultimately have embraced being me and being ok remaining undefined by relationship statuses. i kicked addictions. i won the battle of overcoming suicide—i've learned to navigate relationships and let people come and go, see parts of me i've always hidden. i know my likes and dislikes, i'm proud of my interests and while i wrestle with struggles, i am happy with who i am. in this decade i lost people i cared about, animals i cherished—had friends bare teeth at me and abandon me to emotionally, and relationally, die.

but the biggest thing?

i learned who i am. i identified who i was, and i’m working on who i’ll be.

months, down to even days, leading up to this new season of life have been challenging. all of 2024 i have struggled with life rearranging itself after the biggest, flaming inferno of a curveball.

starting a new job in a new industry i am a stranger to, i had the privilege to sit down with a colleague over lunch and discuss my background.

and after spilling my guts about all the things, she said, "well, it really isn't about expectations, is it? it's about what comes, and how we cross that what-comes-next bridge. Sounds like you've lived a life of a lot of bridges."

and that has rung my bell just a little harder than i thought.

because, she's right. it isn't about expectations, or even plans. it's about the curveball and how we handle the play—and while there's a myriad of ways to execute it, we are, in fact, part of the game. we have to decide. we have to execute the play, survive it, and move on to the next one.

this month i have grappled with a lot, knowing it's the fateful month of entering a new decade. a new life chapter, an unexplored era of the unknown. and that, with this, comes an entirely new set of expectations—not only from myself, but from others.

i've already heard the murmurings, tasted of the sour bile—

when are you going to take dating seriously, you're not getting younger. what are you doing about your career, it's a mess (have you seen it, it's a mess) when are you going to buy your own house, you can't live with your family forever. what does your retirement package look like, are you prepared? are you going to travel? when is your student debt paid off?

and there's a dozen other questions just like those, that rip and gouge with claws that cut to the bone, partners to fear and uncertainty that sting. i don't have answers to these questions any more than i did the questions when i first turned twenty. i barely know what i'm going to have for dinner Friday night, much less what house i'm going to live in or what the market is going to be in three years. who can know the price of tea in China when you can barely afford tea at the local Wal-Mart?

anyway. the lesson this year has been to slow down. and in getting to know myself, i've learned that life at 150mph doesn't teach you a lot about yourself so much as it shows you all the things that go by too quickly, that you don't see. slowing down for the scenic drive mean that yeah, you're going to go the long way. you may arrive late to the main event—but you learn a heckuva lot along the way.

and that seems to be the theme this 2024, slow down. hard stop on employment this year with nine months out of work and learning your career path and all your skills are being ripped away and invaded by AI robots. a surgery that had a big part to play in my future of having children or not. travel, stalled relocation plans. people coming back into the day-to-day whom were, once, off the radar. new challenges to my health that has required me to rearrange my priorities and establish discipline in an entirely new manner. work in a new career, a new industry that actively scares me and requires a commute i didn't want to make, but am. new responsibilities at the job that requires more of me than i've ever given, or been asked of. major revelations from the Lord that are as impossible as lassoing the moon, but require me to stand and babysit a backburner of faith.

and now a major injury to my foot with unpredictable outcomes in the coming months, that's literally required me to slow down and hobble along.

slow down, child.

tomorrow i am thirty, and it's come all too quickly. my new colleague told me not to enter the door of this new chapter on the foot of missed expectations and opportunities, but instead, reflecting on who i was, which is now clear.

because when i was a child, i asked myself where i would be when i was twenty. now i know—know who i am, because i will need this ammunition to face my thirties and all those challenges. because when i was turning twenty, i wondered where i would be when i was thirty. tomorrow i'll know.

"and when turning 40," she reiterated, "you'll look back and say holy s***, i was a bada** thirty year old, wasn't i?"

it is not about what is missed, or what didn't happen. even what did happen. it's about who we are at the end. who we become. and that can either be a better or worse version of ourselves that we have to face with each coming day, each revolution around the sun. it's up to us how that happens, what the end result is.

because life doesn't stop happening to us. but we can start happening in life.

tomorrow, i'm thirty. and this probably isn't even anything i should say or enough of what i want to say, or maybe even remotely the full scope of how i feel.

but i just know this, right now—

—tomorrow is a thursday.

[sleepdeprivedsimp234]

~incorrect quotes cuz idk what I’m doing with my life lmao~

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Mass: I hate you with every inch of my body.

NY: Pfft- that’s not a lot of inches.

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NY: Clownery. Tomfoolery. Absolute f*ckery, I am going to revoke your life privileges

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Florida: My ultimate goal is to punch God in the eye, just to spite him one last time.

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Georgia: Oh, fiddlesticks. 


Texas: Look, I understand this is a tense situation, but let's watch the f*cking language.

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Texas: Truth or dare? 


Loui: Truth. 


Texas: How many hours have you slept this week? 


Loui: 


Loui: Dare. 


Texas: Go to sleep. 


Loui: I don't like this game.

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Gov: You remind me of the ocean. 


NY: Because I'm deep and mysterious? 


Gov: No, because you're full of salt and you scare people.

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Gov: Why would you think any of this was a good idea? 


Loui: Probably because I’m a dangerous sociopath with a long history of violence. 


Gov: 


Loui: You literally bought me. I don’t know how you keep forgetting this-

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Mass: I'm not funny, I'm just really mean and people think I'm joking.

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NY: *playing Stray*

~a lil while later~

B-12: *is f*ckin’ dead*

~a lil while later*~

Cat: *does the slow blink before leaving the place where B-12 died*

NY: *jaw drops slightly as tears run down his face* What the f*ck man?! I-is this h-how it ends?!

*credits pop up*

NY: NOOOO!!-

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Loui: Underestimate me. That'll be fun.

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Delaware: Why do you fuss over them like they’re three year olds? 


Connecticut, exasperated: WHY?!? 


Connecticut points at Mass: HE TRIED TO HYJACK A CAR! 


Connecticut points at NY: HE NEARLY JUMPED 20 FEET OFF A CARPARK! 


Connecticut points at NJ: AND HE ATE MULTIPLE DRIED LEAVES AND ROCKS OFF THE GROUND! 


Connecticut , turning back to Delaware: AND YOU ASK ME WHY???? YOU LITERALLY GREW UP WITH THEM- YOU’RE ONE JERSEY’S BEST FRIENDS YOU SHOULD KNOW THIS SH*T!

Delaware: Ok ok calm down I was just asking-

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California: Hey, can you do me a favor? 


NY: Sorry, I have to go do literally anything other than this. 


California: You don’t even have a legitimate reason? 


NY: Oh, no, I do. 


California: Well, what is it? 


NY: You see, I simply don’t give a f*ck.

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Florida: Wasn't icarly that guy that girlbossed too close to the sun because he was down for Apollo? 


Mass: ICARUS?!

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Loui: I am darkness. I am an power. I am your worst nightmare. I could kill a man in more ways than you can imagine. I am the night. I am fury, I am a weapon, I am- 


Gov: A doll. 


NY: A cinnamon roll. 


Florida: A sweetheart. 


Loui: 


Loui: *blushing like an anime girl* ...stop it-

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(HUGE cuss warning ⚠️)

Mass: Hey, Yorkie? 


NY, playing a video game with the squad: What? 


Mass: Can I share something with you from earlier today? 


NY: Wh- what is it, Mass? 


Mass: Well, I sent you a text early in the morning. 


NY: Mhm. 


Mass: Because I have to go out of town for a weekend this month. And, so I was like- I won't give specific dates, but I was like, I don’t need this kid panicking again cuz he has no idea where tf I went.


NY: Yeah? 


Mass: Your response. 


NY: *trying not to crack up* 


Mass: At 9:30 in the morning. 


Mass: "motherf**king Jesse Eisenberg jesus Christ motherf**king Facebook movie jesus can you believe this sh*t" 


NY: *laughing* 


Mass: No- no- no punctuation. Random capitalization. 


NY: You just made me dieeee hehehehehe... 


Mass: So I respond, "I have no idea what we're talking about right now." 


Mass: 45 minutes pass. I get a text from you. 


Mass: "goddamn created Facebook and frickin’ lawyers and sh*t right f**king winklevoss twins goddamn rowing the boat f**k yo sh*t i cant even f**king believe this sh*t have you seen this sh*t f**k I just watched this sh*t f**k Jesse eisenberg man" 


NY: *wheezing with laughter* 


Mass: I respond "York, you're scaring me." An hour passes- 


Mass: You respond, "motherf**king spiderman Spiderman you put in the time f**k put in the time motherf**king built stuff with his bare hands friggin’ best friend sh*t jesse eisenberg" 


Mass: "im very tired" 


NY: *struggling to breathe* 


Mass: And- and I'm just like, "No- no worries, kid, I'll- I'll do most of the talking at the meeting today-" 


Mass: IMMEDIATE, like, response, like I'm talking 5 seconds later, 


Mass: "no man ill just talk all day crap man you have to be so interested in the sh*t I have to say about the Facebook movie f**k dude I just watched it a year and a half ago f**k Jesse Eisenberg man he f**ked over Spider-man crazy Winklevoss twins rowing Trent Resin or did the soundtrack f**k this guy who invented Facebook I don't like dying I can't think of who the heck invented Facebook All I can think is who played the guy who invented Facebook who the hell invented Facebook" 


Mass: And then, in all capital letters, two hours later, 


NY: *falling over with laughter* 


Mass: "MARK ZUCKERBERG."

NY: *is a squeaky giggly wreck on the ground now*

Mass: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SLEPT BRO-

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Mass: Why do you hang out with me? 


Loui: You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me! 


Mass: … 


Mass: I feel a bit sorry for you.

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NY: What’s up? I’m back. 


California: I literally saw you die. You died. You were dead. You got shot three times and stabbed 5 times. 


NY: Death is a social construct.

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Georgia: Can we go to a haunted house? 


Loui: What’s wrong with the one we live in? 


Georgia: Wh-what? 


Loui: Goodnight, Father.

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Loui, holding a knife: You know you’re talking a lot of sh*t for someone who has 2 perfectly good eyeballs each cost about $16,000 on the blackmarket. 


Alabama: *I’ve never heard silence quite this loud*


Loui: *smirk* That’s what I thought. *gets up and walks away twirling the knife like the bada$$ b*tch he is*

Alabama: *gulp*

Texas: Woooo buddy- I know your life just flashed before your eyes huh?

Alabama: Y-yea….

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Gov: What did you two do? 


Loui: 


Florida: 


Gov: You’re not in trouble, I just need to know if I have to lie to the police again or not.

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Loui: You can de-escalate literally any situation by asking ‘are we about to kiss?’ 


Loui: Doesn't work with getting out of speeding tickets, though.

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NY, singing to the tune of I Kissed a Girl: I killed a guy, and I liked it- 


Kentucky, whispering: Should we call the exorcist? 


Loui, also singing: The taste of his cherry chapstick. 


Georgia, appalled: Call the exorcist.

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NY: Mass is off at an appointment, so while he’s gone, I’m going to cut the sleeves off all of my shirts. 


NJ: Why? 


NY: He’s like 90% of my impulse control.

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[realmeganamram]

NEPO BABY

Hey, guys! There’s been a lot of discussion going on lately and I just wanted to clear the air. I totally understand that people think I got my job because of my dad, but I definitely would have still been the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ even if my dad wasn’t God. Everyone says I would have been the Son of God even if I weren’t the son of God.

Just because my dad is famous, it doesn’t mean I don’t have merits of my own. I am a very good listener, and nice, and I have a bag that has seven million fish in it. I’m pretty embarrassed by D-d—I don’t even really like telling people my last name. When people find out that my last name is Of Nazareth, it just shuts down any conversation. How do they know it’s the same Of Nazareth? What if my dad was, like, Bill Of Nazareth, just, like, a guy with a truck and a snake? Not everyone in my family is famous. What about my mom? She’s a prude and a nobody! Her last name, Mary, isn’t well known at all! Her last name is Mary and her first name is Virgin.

You have no idea—it actually really sucks to have a famous parent. No one believes that I healed those lepers on my own. But now we’ll never know if I could have cured leprosy without the leg up my dad gave me, which is that I am magic and have the gorgeous hair of a horse you hope breeds with all the other horses. Sure, I got all this myrrh as a kid, but that myrrh lasts you only so long. And then you have to work for your own myrrh. And I worked for every inch of myrrh I ever got. Every cubic centimetre of myrrh. Every cup of it. What is myrrh?

I toiled really hard to get where I am. I went to four years of carpenter school. And, no, I don’t have student loans, because, yes, my dad invented wood, but it was still hard. I have hammered my thumbs so many times. One time, I even drove a nail all the way through my hand. It hurt so bad, and I was, like, I hope that never happens again, but then it did! I totally acknowledge my privilege, but let’s not act like other people don’t have privilege, too. I can turn water into wine, but my buddy Eric can turn water into piss. Why aren’t people obsessed with Eric’s dad?

I started from the bottom—I was born and immediately put in a manger. You’d imagine that soft hay would be in there, but no. Do you know what was in there? Four scorpions. Worse than a normal bed. I don’t even technically have my own birthday! I share it with Santa, which is antisemitic.

I’m a really good sport about things. Every time I walk into a Catholic church, there’s a good chance I’ll see myself on the Cross, being crucified. Obsessed with me much? And everyone is obsessed with drinking my blood and eating my body. It makes me feel faint. We have to talk about something else before I fall off this horse. And, before you comment about my having a fancy horse, just know that a lot of people’s dads make them horses for their sixteenth birthday.

I don’t want anyone to feel too sorry for me, but the nepo-baby thing makes me really insecure. People are just so ready to tear you down and say, “You don’t even deserve to have a really popular book about you.” I struggled with impostor syndrome for so long, but then I was able to cure it, because I can cure any disease, because I am magic, because of my dad.

All I can hope for is that, by keeping my head down and just doing the work, my legacy will finally be separate from D-d’s. At the end of my career as the Lamb of God, no one is going to think about my dad. They’ll just be, like, That’s some guy who is a really hard worker and always has, like, a hundred loaves of bread with him for some reason.

Ultimately, it boils down to talent. And I will rest easy knowing that the haters are just jealous. But I will love them anyway. Because I am the most humble person of all time.

[mandy4ever69420]

hey love tell me do u have an opinion about roberta, monicas S1 girlfriend, and the way she wanted to take liam away with the justification that the gallaghers were not raising him properly by erasing his blackness and community and origin and all that?

i do :) i think her argument captures something very Real and Infuriating in when people will make good points to try to explain around something really awful. like, with her specifically i am inclined to be forgiving of because well. if i'm not then i really don't like what it says about hiring a very beautiful Black butch woman for that role. but i really do Sincerely think she was just very caught up in the romance of shit and was very misinformed by monica and how very charmed she was by her. holds up b/c when they find her later to ask shes like "oh my god, why was i hanging around this woman, please fuck off i'm so embarrassed"

^^ there are a couple things that shameless does really well in contexts like these. the "that's a good point but it doesn't make your end goal moral" feeling of sympathy and being infuriated goes with the "someone finally apologized and really meant it but it was for the wrong thing or the wrong part of what they did which means they don't understand the problem at all but it's nice they're trying" thing you also see sometimes

but yeah. she has a point about liam being separated from his culture. that doesn't mean you can just, rip a little baby away from his family who loves him. that's pretty much just nothing but trauma right there. liam also explicitly talks about this later about his isolation and how really his family even though they ARE biologically related simply Cannot understand his position. also in a "bad day when i approve of frank" move frank does introduce liam to some nice relatives who are able to offer him something he was missing.

carl also is the most vocally concerned about Black issues & tries the hardest. because he was so little when we learned that frank is liam's biological father so he just went "huh. guess im Black" & presumably rolled with that without commenting on it for a good long while. which. is not how that works if you still experience white privilege & have parents who experience white privilege but oh my god genetics is so dumb racial categories are so made up and cruel. of course it gets weird. & you see where that goes wrong where carl thinks he can use the n word. even well intended and probably as the person who's put most thought into what randomly happening to be Black in a mostly white family means for liam he's Very liable to make it weird

& the gallaghers ARE biologically related but i want to mention that a lot of adoptions of kids of color by white parents go very, very abusive. which um. is not the case entirely here because most of his family is good to him to the best of their abilities. and it's not adoption. but still most of these characters (i think especially fiona @_@) have some weirdass racialized affectionate nicknames for him. though yeah frank is up there w the nicknames. he's just being an asshole on purpose though. so that's slightly different. & i know like calling kids 'monkey' is kind of just a thing people do but jesus christ. you do need to think about this when you are a white caretaker of a nonwhite child. Why is this not the only tv show i've seen fail to think of very specifically that with a white woman caring for a mixed child side note. you guysssss please for the love of god

anyway there are some real world dangers that white families are not really equipped to prepare little nonwhite kids for. & just on the feeling of being subject to racism that maybe his family could sympathize with but they dont have the tools to deal with or give him advice on. there are people who try and im sure do a very good job but the gallagher family has So much going on and most of them Are very selfish. for understandable reasons. it's fine. but it means they don't do a lot of looking into liam's perspective and just assume "that's probably fine"

anyway the best way in this sort of situation is just expanded social circles. liam Should connections in his life that he can rely on and feel close to. is it too predictable from me to get into the "nuclear families are limiting and enable abuse" thing here. i feel like i'm always on that. well i stand by it. kids need bigger communities of people to rely on to be safe and understood it's really just not possible to get everything you need from only 2 parents or only your biological family. particularly in liam's case though, you can't be forcibly separating him from loved ones, you can't just ask him to do all the work himself (which is what they did in canon)

& you can't just assume 1 Black friend in the community will be idk a spokesperson or something. a friend is not a family member unless you let her be And she wants to be & it's very unfair to ask V to be like wise or cultured enough to offer liam a complete connection to his culture. she's just one person with her own insecurities and shit going on. who tbh already wasn't super stoked about being asked to take care of other people's kids when she DID love them. imo it was a slightly racist maneuver for fiona to tell the kids to put (kev and) v near the top of their emergency contacts as like caretakers without even asking. and she DOES know them & they DO care about these kids

[gaybd1]

hey i just need to make this post so i can link to it as like an about me/faq

just so i can have some info about me that's not like all up in your face bc who cares honestly but also so that dummies can read about who i am before sending "dont post about autism if youre not autistic!!" messages, u feel?

not that i get them a lot but i would def get them a lot LESS if there was a post like this to refer to

okay hi lets see

i am gay

actually im on the ace spectrum if u must know, thank u so much antidepressants ive taken since i was 7 years old...

i am trans (ftm)

speaking of trans i am legally male but am not able to change my name and have not yet transitioned medically in any way despite having socially transitioned almost a decade ago

ive known i was a boy my whole life because thats another question people asked i just got Very Good at repressing it

i am white!

yes i am a whitey who lives in taiwan, that is because i am an immigrant!

i have lived in east asia since 2018 and plan to be in taiwan forever

i AM... originally... from the US.... ughhhh fuckkkk i know righttttt

i do not identify as american lolololol

actually i dont identify with american culture in general because i wasnt there for covid and life kind of carried on as normal over here during covid so there's like this huge cultural divide between me and other americans now

i mean i dont identify as taiwanese either lol bc that would be... wild...

ok anyway

i am autistic

what else have i been diagnosed with lol astigmatism i guess

i have clinical depression and anxiety lol love that for me

i am colorblind

i have fibromyalgia and occasionally use a cane

i have a bunch of other learning disabilities and a bleeding disorder but jesus christ you dont need my whole life story

ive had ARFID my whole life and it gets dangerously bad sometimes and im also recently "recovered" from anorexia lets hope it stays that way

i was raised evangelical christian but now i have Trauma about it

im still spiritual and am somewhat involved in buddhism

i have trauma about family issues like a shitty dad and fucked up siblings and parentification, all that jazz

i am fluent in english and spanish but my mandarin is actually not that good (like enough to get around obviously but i cant read and write like at all)

oh im a teacher and im trying to finish my masters #privilege

idk what else is interesting

i travel a lot ive been to 15 countries

i grew up between the US and guatemala, i lived for a bit in cuba as a student, and I lived a year in china before i came to Taiwan

ok bye have the day u deserve

[cult-of-the-eye]

I watched Maja Ma today and I do this as some form of self inflicted hurt/comfort cause I love me some desi queer people but also AHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGAHHSJSJS

I originally thought the son was gonna be supportive of the mum cause he was from America and maybe more exposed to queer people and accepting attitudes?? Boy was I wrong! I was also surprised that they revealed it so early in the movie and then I realised it was gonna be a forced outing trope and I was SO STRESSED.

I would kill for Pallavi she's wonderful spectacular amazing so sweet and she's such a compelling character!! The trope of queer people planning to run away from their not accepting community but then one staying is definitely a problematic one but also one that I am an absolute sucker for. THE ANGST!!! THE DRAMA!! THE DESPERATION!!! THE HOPE!!! THE FACT THAT YOU WANT TO HATE PALLAVI FOR BREAKING JANAKA'S HEART BUT YOU UNDERSTAND WHY SHE DID IT!!! THE DESPERATE WANT TO FIT IN AND BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!!! Also she's Madhuri Dixit!!! She literally played her so well she CARRIED the whole movie!!

Every other person in the movie annoyed the fuck out of me. I understand that they were supposed to be flawed but jesus Christ I wanted to punch them through the screen. (Apart from maybe the husband he was so funny I loved pallavis reactions to him trying to be romantic she really was like ??????? and also obviously liked Janaka and the fiancée was an absolutely wonderful person she deserves the world and can do way better than fucking bitchass dickface Tejas.) I genuinely started screaming at the son for trying to fucking convert his mum???! Violently as well?????! Your own mother????? I was ready to DICK PUNCH through the screen let me tell you. I hated the daughter so much. Obviously I get that we're supposed to get annoyed at her but god damn bitch was insane!! Loved it when that one queer person was like yeah her and her straight privilege and borrowed outrage can go fuck right off trying to fucking force her mum out of the closet in an extremely traditional society I was like GO OFF KING. TELL IT LIKE IT IS.

And obviously it's asking a bit much from a Bollywood movie to adhere to western views and language used about queer people and I'm taking what I can get really but god damn I hated the way she went about things and I hated that she was portrayed as an angry feminist gender studies person who's making trouble, like Jesus Christ we've had enough of that we don't want the one accepting person to be portrayed like their insane for accepting them??? I don't know what the purpose of her character was supposed to be?? I guess that line about her being more of a social worker than a daughter sums it up

Honestly girl ate with those speeches!!! I loved the bit where she was like yeah I failed the lie detector test cause they were asking the wrong questions. If they'd asked if she ever had fallen in love with a girl, then she'd gladly fail I was literally kicking my feet giggling at this!!

Yeah the way they resolved the conflict was a little bit childish but I got my comfort and I'm glad it wasn't queer sadness!! It was super interesting seeing this type of story from the mother's point of view, cause usually it's the kid coming out and facing these things and I think it added a really nice level of depth and angst about womanhood and being queer in a traditional Indian society. I loved how it had the quintessential Bollywood dance and song scenes I thought they were lovely!! I especially loved the last shot of pallavi and Janaka dancing together in the middle of the circle with the pulsing lights I thought that was so beautiful!!

Honestly overall this movie was messy and did make me want to scream more times than I thought was intended but the cute parts were really cute and pallavi's depth and character and Madhuri Dixit made it a whole lot better!! 6.8/10

[scribeforchrist-blog]

Humble Position

MEMORY VERSE OF THE WEEK

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+ James 1:16 So don’t be misled, my dear brothers and sisters

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VERSE OF THE DAY

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+ Philippians 2:7-8 Instead, he gave up his divine privileges he took the humble position of a slave and was born as a human being. When he appeared in human form, he humbled himself in obedience to God

and died a criminal’s death on a cross.

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** SAY THIS BEFORE YOU READ; HERE’S SOME CHRISTIAN TRUTHS **

I AM HUMBLE

I AM ACCEPTING HIS INVITATION

I AM STRONG

I AM NOT PRIDEFUL

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READ TIME: 7 Minutes & 54 Seconds

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THOUGHTS:

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    When I was younger, I worked as a supervisor at a video store, and I loved it. After a while, the job didn’t work out how I wanted it to, so I started looking for work at other local video stores, but they all wanted to hire me as just a cashier and not as supervisor.

At the time, I wasn't very humble, and to be transparent, I didn’t want to be a cashier; I wanted to be a supervisor or a team lead. Finally, I had to accept the role of a cashier, and I wasn’t happy. I showed it a lot because I thought I was better than a cashier; as I gotten older, I realize my attitude could’ve been better, and how I handled certain situations could’ve been better, but it wasn’t. I couldn’t get over the point of being a supervisor now as just a cashier, and it bothered me in more ways than one. I realize now that he could’ve been preparing me to do something better and greater, but I was so stuck on what I wanted to do that I didn’t see it.

  See, Christ didn’t have this problem. He was king and decided to come down and take the position of a humble slave. As a human being, he left every privilege to be here with us to show us an example of humility. Some of us aren’t humble in any way. Look at me. As I grew older and gave more of myself to God, the Holy Spirit showed me what I should’ve done. Jesus was so humble.

   John 13:5 After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel wrapped around him.

      He even washed his disciples' feet one by one. He didn’t care; he wanted to show them what it meant to be a servant, and a servant is always willing. Do you have a willing spirit? Do you have an obeying spirit?

   Verse 14-17 Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. 15 I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.

   He said, "Do you see what I did? Do this." Many of us don’t want to be servants, and we talked about how many wants to be always in front, never in the back, but God wants us where we are: servants. Many of us haven’t started our calling because he's waiting for you to be obedient, he's waiting for you to follow, and he's waiting for us to show we can be what he was, which is humble.

      We go through different situations to show us how to be humble, we go through different situations to show us how to be what Christ wants, but often time, we go through the same situation but with different people because we haven’t learned our lesson, ask God are you trying to teach me to be humble, ask him how can I be more like you that’s my prayer every day on the podcast not just for my listeners but for me too, teach me, Christ, how to be more like and to have the same mindset as you.

  Mark 10:45 For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

  Jesus didn’t come to take over; he came to serve and to be a ransom for our sins; he came to save us from our life of sin; what’s the most powerful thing I will say is for him to be king and to come as a servant to show us how to live and then to save us from our life of sins he seen me and knew I needed a savior he knew I needed love. He knew I needed my life spared from the lake of fire; he gave me that opportunity to have a life I never would’ve had on my own. A lot of us don’t get how big it is or how amazing that is, but for him to say I know Lui and everyone else will needs this. I will give myself up for her and everyone else to have freedom; it fills me with joy.

  2 Corinthians 7:14 If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land

  This is what he wants us to do; he wants us to humble ourselves and turn from our ways and seek him with our whole heart, and then we will hear from him and be forgiven of our sins, humble ourselves, and say I know I sin. Still, I need Jesus; we all need Jesus; it’s not a person walking on this earth who can make it without him; a lot of us try to live our lives without him. We don’t want to admit we can’t do it, but humble yourselves and say, Father, I have messed up, but I need you, and he will save you.

  ***Today, we learned how Jesus was king, and he humbled himself and became a servant for us; we also learned how arrogance can stop our blessing and halt our destiny from coming forth. The Lord wants us to have everything we desire and more, but as long as we are prideful, we will keep having problems.

  Philippians 2:8 And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.

  He gave his life for us; he was humble; he didn’t come here, and in all his glory, he came here as a baby and went through his life in human form so we can know how to carry ourselves when tough times come he showed us how to respond to people that are rude with grace, he showed us how to take insults from others and how to ignore them when they do it, he showed us how to be kind and compassionate, and taught us how to pray, see his life had value. Everything he did here was to show us how to better, but if we don’t read our word, we will miss it all; Jesus wants us to know that through it all, be humble and accept his invitation to everlasting life, we can reject it by our actions, or we can accept it with our actions today accept his call and walk in the spirit. ©Seer~ Prophetess Lee

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Heavenly Father, we thank you for everything; help us be humble. Help us to seek you and change our ways of doing everything ;lord, we love you so much and thank you for everything. Lord, help us to turn from our ways and to be more like you. Lord, we are sorry for what we have done and ask you to help us walk in the spirit each day. Lord, we praise you for everything , please give us understanding of your word today in Jesus' Name Amen

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REFERENCES

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+ Mark 6:34 When he went ashore, he saw a great crowd, and he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. And he began to teach them many things.

 

+ Proverb 11:2 When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom

 

+ 1 Peter 5:6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you

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FURTHER READINGS

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 Proverbs 25

Exodus 3

Psalm 87

SOS 4

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[survivormom316]

Ok, a friend told me I needed to be on Tumblr because it’s where all the cool kids are. I’m not sure if I qualify, but here I am! For this first post, I guess I’ll just put down a bunch of random stuff about myself. If you see something you like, great! We might be part of the same tribe of weirdos. If not, that’s ok. I’ll try not to take it personally.

1. I’m a 50 year old straight, married, white, cis female. My pronouns are she/her. I’ve been married for to my high school sweetheart since 1996, and we are the parents of two amazing humans and more furry and feathered kids than any sane person should have.

2. I’m an ally, very aware of my privilege, and though I know I don’t always get it right, I am always trying to learn and do better when it comes to standing up for the rights of other humans. I believe that we need to take care of each other because life is hard and we don’t all get dealt the same cards in life. Learn better, do better.

3. Religion? Nah. Faith? Absolutely. These days I describe myself as a Christ follower, currently deconstructing Christianity as a religious institution. I love Jesus and want to be just like him. I’m reluctant to call myself a Christian because many of them are pretty much closed minded, bigoted, horribly judgmental people and I don’t want to be lumped in with them. My belief system pretty much boils down to “Love God, love people.” And, for the record, I also think that God reveals themself in many different ways. Also, science is real, folks. And magic is just science that we haven’t figured out yet.

3. Politically I am definitely liberal. We should take care of each other, do what each of us can to make the world better, and hold our so-called leaders accountable for doing what we put them in power to do. Crazy talk, I know.

4. Fun stuff: I’m into (in no particular order):

Star Trek (old and new, I love it all!)

Music (my tastes are eclectic, and my playlists reflect that). I also LOVE Broadway musicals, and I sing. A lot. Like, really a lot.

Science fiction, fantasy, and various sub-genre stuff. I also enjoy historical fiction, true crime, and history. Some of my favorite authors are Laurell K Hamilton, Isaac Asimov, Diane Duane, Phillipa Gregory, Janet Kagan, Anne McCaffrey, Kim Harrison, John Scalzi, Douglas Adams, Terry Prachett…I’m probably leaving a lot out.

Medical TV shows: The Resident is my current favorite, and I just finished rewatching House.

I have 5 cats.

I have 3 dogs; 2 of them are rough collies, and I’m obsessed with them.

I have an Amazon parrot named Widget. She’ll be 30 years old this summer, and I have been her mama since she was a 3 week old chick.

I am a veterinary assistant, and my work is also my passion. I have also been a cat sitter, worked in retail, taken care of elderly people, been a resort housekeeper, and worked in tech support.

I am currently learning to crochet.

I like card games, and I play a lot of stupid time wasting iPad games.

That’s all for now, ABC’s of me.

[wilwheaton]

I'm not bothering to reblog them, but the boys are BIG BIG MAD that I, and a lot of us elder nerds, applied the Paradox of Tolerance to what is broadly described as "the nerd community" so it would be a more welcoming and inclusive place. They're rolling out the same boring and lazy insults and memes they always use, in what appears to be an epic circlejerk of cringey victimization.

I don't care what these guys think, so I'm not responding to them. But this issue comes up from time to time, and thought this presentedan opportunity to clarify what I view as the big difference between a gatekeeper and a caretaker.

For too long, weird, antisocial gatekeepers did their best to make women (and anyone who wasn't a cishet white dude) feel unwelcome in gatherings of sci-fi, fantasy, gaming, and other "nerd" spaces, while they complained that they never got the attention from women they felt they deserved. Those dudes were always outnumbered by the rest of us, but they were the loudest and always got the most attention.

But one day, the majority of us sort of collectively realized that nobody ever agreed that these boys were in charge of us and our relationship with the things we loved. We told them that they didn't get to gatekeep anymore. It took years, but we slowly changed the culture to be more inclusive, more diverse, and less toxic. And holy shit did I not realize the extent and depth of the toxicity until it wasn't there, protected as I was by my demographic privilege. Jesus Christ was it toxic.

For years, these boys (most of them are still boys, well into their adult lives) have been big big mad that the majority of us, who never agreed with them, finally stood up and established a boundary. We said that all are welcome, unless you're a dick. These boys and JD Vance aren't able to cross that boundary, because it's at odds with who they fundamentally are in their core. They are bullies who like the same things a lot of nerds like. We are not the same. Our weird is amazing and fun, while their weird is ... weird. Offputting. Strange.

We aren't going back to a time when women felt unsafe and unwelcome at cons, because self-proclaimed "nerds" like JD Vance, who are just toxic bros who missed the entire point of The Lord of the Rings, Star Trek, and Star Wars, now have to respect clear and posted anti-harassment policies that carry real consequences.

We aren't going back to a time when someone had to pass an arbitrary trivia test, delivered by a self-appointed gatekeeper like JD Vance, to participate in any aspect of fan culture, because that demand is now met with the dismissive eyerolls it always deserved. Our cons, our game stores, our comic shops, and all of our spaces are safe and welcome to all because we work together to protect them from entitled weirdos like JD Vance.

All are welcome, just don't be a dick.

That's how it is now. That is massive progress. It is a fantastic thing, and we are going to protect our county from JD Vance and people like him, the same way we protect nerd culture from JD Vance and people like him. That was the point of the article I linked to with my original quote that inspired this ask:

For Vance and others, it’s not their interests in comic books or sci-fi that sets them apart now. What’s weird is their refusal to share that win with anyone who doesn’t fit the outdated stereotype of who and what a nerd is.

I'm not a gatekeeping hypocrite, as some boy declared, because I work to keep toxic boys -- who derive a sense of power and importance from bullying -- away from a community I care about. I'm, uh, ... you know ... being a caretaker.

There are a lot of us caretakers, now that I think about it. The vast majority of us, I imagine. So I am but one of the caretakers in this garden, keeping the weeds out, and protecting the plants from pests, so the garden can thrive. I'm proud as hell, and so grateful, to be part of that.

If you're reading this, odds are you are, too. Thank you for that. I love our garden.

Vance is a "nerd"? Literally could not tell.

He's one of those angry, weird, gatekeeping nerds who gets angry when a gross girl wants to touch his Magic cards, then complains that no girls will talk to him.

He's all the weird things we've worked so hard to push out of the larger community of nerds that we all love.

He isn't a nerd, really. He's more of a chud.

[gatekeeper-watchman]

Daily Devotionals for September 12, 2024

Proverbs: God's Wisdom for Daily Living

Devotional Scripture:

Proverbs 24:19-20 (KJV): 19 Fret not thyself because of evil men, neither be thou envious at the wicked; 20 For there shall be no reward to the evil man; the candle of the wicked shall be put out. Proverbs 24:19-20 (AMP): 19 Fret not because of evildoers, neither be envious of the wicked, 20 For there shall be no reward for the evil man; the lamp of the wicked shall be put out.

Thought for the Day

Verse 19 - We should not envy any privilege or possession of the wicked, nor consider forsaking God for the sake of temporary riches or power. What the wicked have in this world is already passing away. Fretting is an ungodly trait; it is a form of worry. God does not want us to worry, but to cast our cares upon Him who cares for us (1 Peter 5:7).

We are told to remain thankful, no matter what kind of situation we find ourselves in, and look to God in prayer for the needed answers to the problems of that situation. When we do this, God furnishes His peace to us, even in a storm or fearful circumstances. God's peace is one of the most wonderful gifts that He gives to us because it is not dependent upon our circumstances. Every child of God can testify to this, since we all face problems in life, and many times we should be worried or upset. However, because we pray, we are given His peace that passes all human understanding. "Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything by prayer and petition (definite requests) with thanksgiving continue to make your wants known to God. And God's peace (be yours, that tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace) which transcends all understanding, shall garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7, AMP).

Verse 20 - Wicked men will not be rewarded by God. They do reap what they sow, but they will never be given a reward from God, as the righteous man receives. Jesus tells us that when he returns, He will be bringing a reward with Him to give to every person according to what he has done. We are not saved by works; salvation is God's free gift to all who repent of their sin and give their lives to Jesus Christ. However, after we are saved, God records our works in a book. We will be rewarded for everything we have done for Him at Christ's coming (Revelation 22:12).

This verse also states that the lamp of the wicked shall be extinguished. Light is God's blessing to us. Without light, no one can walk safely, either physically or spiritually. The first thing we do when the power fails is to search for a flashlight or a candle. Living in permanent darkness would be an awful thing. Natural darkness is only a picture of the true darkness which is spiritual. Jesus is described as the light of the world: "...I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life" (John 8:12b). Following Jesus, causes us to walk in the light, so that we can see the proper path, do our tasks, know when things are dirty so that we can clean them, enjoy seeing beauty and the people we love, and so much more. "But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should show forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous light" (1 Peter 2:9-10).

Prayer Devotional for the Day

Dear heavenly Father, we are grateful for the peace that You have given us. Thank You for delivering us from worry and fear, so that we will not fret about the evil in the world. We are also thankful for the guidance You daily give us, so that we can walk in the light of Your ways. We do appreciate Your goodness toward us. Teach us more about Your ways, so that we do not stumble on the path of life. May we shine with Your light, so that others may see our good works and glorify our Father in Heaven. We ask this in the name of the Lord Jesus. Amen.

[bl-bracket]

Least Rizz - Loser's Bracket Round 1: Minato Akira (Minato Shouji Coin Laundry) vs Phum (We Are)

[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]

Minato Akira: none submitted

Phum: "Okay, I know not many people will agree with me, but Jesus Christ this man, he gets me in stitches all the time cos of how bad his rizz is. I've not seen all episodes yet, but throughout the EPs I've seen his way of flirting is to ask the guy he likes to… Clean for him? Just do a lot of chores? Telling him to eat with him in the least smooth way possible? They end up kissing, almost making out, TWICE yet the dude he's pursuing still has the impression that they're just "really close" cos Phum is just so bad at making moves. Like, yeah, he does say some rizz like things, and he triES, but his performance of them is missing something for it to work on his oblivious man. He gets jealous and tries to bribe a child to stop his love interest from talking with another dude. He steals his love interest's coffee Infront of the other dude. Just- I'll give him some effort for trying but for real, the rizz is so bad and I am still shocked Peem is falling for it. Phum got pretty privilege for real"

[ladygoofball]

Acknowledgement and Accountability on Social Media

Jesus christ, if I don't post I get a whole fucking mess of regrets about how I don't have a therapist right now. I'm working on it! If anyone would let me just go for a fucking walk without someone trying to steal my fucking identity or some shit.

Do I condone abuse because I talk about the ways I was hurt in the past and see ways that I could be hurt in the present? FUCK NO!!!!!!

I am vehemently against any form of harassment or threats and I've been writing like I'm making a lot of threats. This is why I am trying to be on my phone less, and on here less often, because I need to stop the acknowledgement part of my healing journey and start with the actual healing parts.

This is why! I don't post about being vulnerable!!!! I'm trying to just get some new books to figure out what stories my white ass upbringing shielded me from and every time I inch towards something and try to confirm that on different platforms I have different players trying to get me to engage with their sick shit. /genuine

I've been sitting on my ass for too long to even pretend like I could be talking to any of those people, for the record. I know that. Why do you think my mouth is running this much lmfao

I am just trying to let people know that the work that they are doing is inspiring people across generations and that is something that only video games can offer people.

In the states, there are no national efforts to keep video games catalogued and playable and have some form of discussion around the cultural impact that these games have on our Real World.

That is a mistake, because we all have libraries of games that we can't play anymore because the system is "outdated". Artisans and Craftsmen of ancient times would be SICK if they saw how much wasted materials we have in America.

If I blocked artists that actually want to connect with me? My bad! I've been a bit liberal with the block button. Happy to correct it, but not for a while.

I have been working TIRELESSLY for the past 7 months now trying to get my skills back up

i n d e p e n d e n t l y do you know what that means?

That was a quote, and you will need to look that artist up. I won't do that work for you. It's white people's responsibility to lift up our communities and our neighbors to make amends for how much blood is on our ancestral hands. My roots are tainted with so much blood and I am trying to pay my respects to the people who are making these communities function by enjoying the gifts nature has to offer. My family was part of the catholics that invaded canada in the 15/1600s. By the 1700s They came down into the States then traced back to the World's Fair in the 1800s and have not left this place ever since.

Knowing that much history? IS THE DEFINITION of privilege. I know this. I do not want to uplift white voices over any other voice. I am just demonstrating that I have been shielded from the ability to reconnect and I needed new book recommendations. /genuine

Do I want to inconvenience a bunch of people in the industries I have been trying to work in just because I needed a new book? Of course not! I just have loud ass opinions! This tends to make communities I try to fit into feel like they have to "test" my fortitude as a personality. Please fucking stop/genuine.

You have no idea who the fuck I am based on reading my words, I am a master at tone shifting. I am not trying to co-opt anyone's shit, I am trying to advocate for those stories to be on the center stage. My favorite classes in college were always the Director's classes. I can't help being like that wherever I go, but life is not a bunch of pieces that I can put together and create an image. I know that, and being removed from everything and barking orders hardly makes me look like an adult. I'm far from a perfect person, actually. But I don't owe anyone a complete version of who I am online.

The truth is: I am just terrified of making a mistake because the amount of projection that happens whenever I start to step into the stage because I have little doe eyes on the way up is INSANE.

I "gamble" on my own life because I am tired of putting my time and energy into things that refuse to acknowledge me at all. I have been catfished, frauded, defamed, dragged to fucking shit just because I sound annoying or rub someone the wrong way SINCE I was born thank you very much. I am thrilled that I can finally trust my gut to tell me that I am doing something right, and I know that might just be a sign of needing to sit down and eat something.

It's created by the shit that you go out and actually do.

"That was so aggressive! We are just expressing concern for you! Stop fighting everyone!" If I had a therapist, I would be able to work this out offline. Assholes /tongue-and-cheeky

When I hear people ask "Why the fuck are you like this?" I get defensive because I have always been harassed, since I was a child. Does that make me not accountable for the shit I'm doing? Nope!

It just means: I am acknowledging where I am in my current healing journey for the public record, since I have fucked up a lot on here and need to do some back tracking. Minors are the ones who should be protected from these kinds of words over anyone else, and that is really the main reason why I am such a fierce advocate for these stronger boundaries among adults.

If we can't demonstrate better, how can children grow up and be better?

Do I condone abuse because I talk about the ways I was hurt in the past and see ways that I could be hurt in the present? FUCK NO!!!!!! I am vehemently against any form of harassment or threats and I've been writing like I'm making a lot of threats. This is why I am trying to be on my phone less, and on here less often, because I need to stop the acknowledgement part of my healing journey and start with the actual healing parts. I have activated some kind of military encoding trauma where my little spy brain is looking for clues wherever I go because I don't know where to put my trust anymore. I can't keep holding all of it by myself. I am asking for help, and I have received an overwhelming response.

Being unable to articulate that does not mean I do not see it /genuine

I am walking in nature more often, since I have little control over my immediate environment when I am not mentally stable. This results in really ugly behavior to my animals who love me and who I love unconditionally. I know that they deserve better, and I am so much better after the hell that was Pisces season concluded. That was thanks to visiting the cemetery more often and releasing my ghosts. The only beings I have ever tried to improve myself for are my familiars. That's just witchcraft 101.

The amount of shit that keeps fucking happening after I so much as step out of my house is what causes me to stop wanting to leave. The city is too loud, my headphones stopped connecting to my phone cuz apple doesn't make a regular aux chord headphone jack and the adapter I had to buy for mine broke. It makes me paranoid, but having podcasts encouraging me to go out in nature has been so fucking helpful. I missed spending time with myself and enjoying it. I've been trying to just live that up and post about it but my words are being interpreted in all different kinds of ways just because I'm fat as fuck right now. /genuine

The nature preserves around me are starting to feel a bit small, and I know that means it is time to answer the call to travel. How can someone travel with no job and no money? /genuine because I don't have all the answers, for the fucking record.

Do I need to stop whining online? Absolutely. And asking myself questions that are easy to answer isn't to say I know best, either. Fucks sake.

[dailyaudiobiblechronological]

11/19/2023 DAB Chronological Transcription

Acts 7-8

Welcome to The Daily Audio Bible Chronological. I'm Jill. Today's the 19th day of November. So good to be here with you. Truly an honor and a privilege to be reading the word of God to us as a community and we do this individually, we do this collectively and we do this as a community- beautiful community of brothers and sisters all over the globe united by one common theme and that is the word of God because we are all from different walks of life, different ethnic backgrounds, different socio-economical backgrounds. We all have different faiths, we all have different theology, we even have different belief systems and the beauty of that is recognizing that and we still come together and center ourselves around the scriptures because the goal is not to get everybody else to believe the same way that we do and to see things the same. So I'll pick himself up off the ground but when he opened his eyes he was blown way that we see them but the goal is to come together in our differences and worship the one true Living God and so we come together around this beautiful global campfire and continue with the reading of the word today. We'll be continuing the book of Acts, reading Acts chapter 9 and 10. And it's also a brand new week, so welcome to the brand new newness of a fresh start. Simply begin again. If you lose your way, if you fall down, simply begin again no matter what time of day, no matter what day, no matter who you are, no matter where you are, simply begin again. This week we'll be reading the New Living translation. As we start a new translation when we start a brand new week. So let's jump in- Acts chapter 9.

Prayer:

God we thank you for this week, this representation of brand new newness, a fresh start, a chance to simply begin again. And as we read this passage today as a reminder that Jesus Christ is the Lord of all, we're reminded that we all, we all can make Jesus Lord of our life. We can simply begin again with Jesus no matter who we are, no matter where we've been, no matter who's we are, no matter how wrong we have gotten it, no matter how right we have gotten it, we are not excluded. We are not denied, we are not diminished by our past and in our unworthiness we can come boldly to the throne. We can come boldly back to Jesus to simply begin again. Thank you for this reminder. Thank you for a brand new week that is out in front of us full of hope, filled with promise and beaming with possibility. We consecrate this week to you making you Jesus, Lord of everything in our lives- submitting everything, surrendering every will, every choice, every thought, every determination to you. Come and be Lord of all, in us. I pray this in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen. 

Announcements:

Looking forward to a beautiful week together with all of you in the word as we center ourselves, as we simply begin again as many times as we need to. And we'll turn the page together tomorrow, until then love one another.

Community Prayer Line:

My name is Tanya from Ohio. I am calling in with a prayer request for my relationship. I truly care about my boyfriend and he is amazing. There's been some things that I've prayed about and the truth has been brought to my attention and I don't really know where to...guys abusing his prescription sometimes he takes more than he's prescribed and sometimes he gives it to people then he gets 90 for 30 days and I could roughly last a week maybe a little more. My son absolutely loves him and he went through a really hard time with his Dad. We still have a lot of struggle with his dad so I just need guidance if a door needs to be closed, if God can do a work in him because he has so many amazing qualities. Pray that he could get through this- we can get through this. I just need to be strong if the door needs to be closed- strong for myself and for my son because we have been through a lot last couple of years. So I appreciate any of your prayers and love all of you. Thank you. Bible says if we humble ourselves before the Lord he will lift us up and you hear us. 

A lady called yesterday from Colorado- California I'm moving to Colorado and it was very concerned about her son being homosexual- she was the first time. I just want to lift you up to the Lord in prayer. God is good. God is faithful and when we are weak he is strong- just want to encourage you to be strong and courageous and to know that God is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than we can ask, or think. Lift your heart up to the Lord. You will hear your son- we don't know what God has in store for him but as long as we pray and have hope that nothing is impossible with God. So continue my sister to come alongside us and pray. Thank God we're here. I pray all this in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ to love you up in Jesus name. Amen.

Hello everyone, this is Sonya from Austin. I haven't called in in a while but I want to call in for Wendy from Michigan. You said you lost your dad 3 months ago to suicide and I lost my father to suicide- it's been over 30 years and it gets easier at times and other times it's still fresh, but you're right not to live life with regrets. I did that for the first year after he passed- went into a very dark hole and now I realize you know that's not what God wants me to do and that's not even what my dad would want me to do. So we're all going to lose people as we continue to age and they continue to age and life happens that's not a single person that's not going to lose a loved one and knowing that that's a part of life and knowing that that means we need to enjoy the times we have with them and then when they're gone to remember the legacy that they have passed on. And I've heard someone say take other people out on their birthday, anniversary and celebrate them and I think that's a great idea and I'm going to start doing that myself. So I just want to lift up those that are hurting because of losing loved ones. Dear Jesus we just thank you for all the precious people that you give us- that you put in our life and we know that no one lives forever on this planet but we know that our hope is that we will be reunited with them in heaven with you.