#I knew every song lmaooooo

[shadow--writer]

Hehe saw Stevie Nicks

[clonewarsahsoka]

The obsession I had on this when first got into kpop

[ggukiepie]

one of your girls (jungkook x reader) (part 1)

we don't gotta be in love, no i don't wanna be the one, no i just wanna be one of your girls tonight ~ i wanna take your light inside dim me down, snuff me out ~ give me tough love leave me with nothin' when i come down

pairing: fwb!jk x oc, brief jimin x oc

tags: smut, angst, a little bit of fluff (like teeny tiny)

warnings: two smut scenes, kissing, marking (hickeys), fingering, brief handjob, protected sex, slight dom!jk, sub!oc, praise, dirty talk, grinding, edging, oral (f. & m. receiving), throat fucking, dacryphilia, spit kink, brief masturbation (m.), squirting, brief anal play, back shots, cum shot, multiple orgasms (you'll see), aftercare

word count: 5.8k

a/n: been in my feels lately i had to write it out lol; wrote this in one sitting my hands actually hurt omg; inspired by the song "one of your girls" (ik don't roast me idk why it's stuck in my head fml); if this gets taken down then bye bye i literally just wrote it here directly lmaooooo; anw enjoy !!!! part 2 / drabble i (flashback)

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You knew what you were getting yourself into the night you said yes to Jungkook. You knew you'd fall for him, be under his spell. You knew you'd end up getting hurt. You prepared yourself, you really did, yet you were still surprised when you woke up each morning and he wasn't beside you in bed. You felt your heart break a little bit more when you saw him with another girl, whether she'd be one of your friends or a complete stranger to you.

You tried to guard your heart. Reminded yourself to prepare for the worst. Forced yourself not to fall, not to be blindsided. I'm just having a little fun, you told yourself for the nth time.

jk: u busy tonight?

you: not really! just writing a paper that's due next week

That was sent hours ago and you mentally cringe at your reply. You always find yourself oversharing to Jungkook when you didn't even need to. You wanted to make it seem like your whole situationship was just casual. Like you didn't care. He rarely shared much about his personal life and so should you. But that hardly happened. You didn't want him to think that you cared, that you were clingy or waiting for him to text. You didn't even wait five minutes before replying and he hasn't even texted back.

You know what his text means. He wants to fuck and that's it. But he doesn't say it outright. No, never. He wants to make it seem like he cares, that he wants to know how your night is going. But he just wants to know if you're free to fuck and once you reply, he'll keep that as a reminder in the back of his mind, like he has a mental list of girls he can sort through at the end of the night when he's bored or when he wants to have a little bit of fun.

You know you're just one of his girls on his roster and you're fine with that. You're not his girlfriend and he's not your boyfriend. Though it does seem like that on some days, which is when you get the courage to not reply to his texts. When you try to shut him out and move on. He usually shows up outside your lecture hall with a cup of coffee in hand, bunny smile on his face as he waits for you to walk into the hallway. Like he's waiting for you, picking you up from class like a good and loving boyfriend.

It's all for show and it's only to get himself on your good side again. It works every time. You don't question yourself anymore. Jungkook likes the chase, likes the adrenaline of going after girls and trying to get them to fall for him, or sleep with him, or whatever. It's all the same to him.

You sigh again as you check your phone, hoping for a reply but knowing he won't text back. It's a Friday night and he's probably at some party. You go through your texts and open the conversation with your best friend.

jihyo: see u later! im picking u up so u better be ready >:(

You can't help but laugh at her insistence. Jihyo knows what you're going through since you tell her everything. You tell her you don't care though, that you're not looking for a relationship right now and your "thing" with Jungkook is just casual. But you know she sees right through your lies. It's even more obvious when you ghost all your friends and lock yourself in your apartment every night. She's trying to make you forget and move on and have some actual fun so you indulge her every time.

You get ready in less than an hour and actually put some effort into your appearance. You're not sure which party you're going to but you won't be surprised if Jungkook will be there as well. Maybe if you look hot enough he'll choose you tonight.

You hear a knock on your door and open it immediately, finding Jihyo laughing at something her boyfriend has just said. Most of the time you end up hanging out with her and Mingyu because she's always dragging you with her to keep you from being lonely. You don't mind it though because they're fun people to be with. Even though Mingyu is Jungkook's roommate and best friend. But Mingyu isn't anything like Jungkook. He looks at Jihyo like she's hung up the stars and moon. Loves her with all his heart and doesn't leave her second guessing. You always wonder why him and Jungkook are friends when they're so different.

Jihyo turns to smile at you, but it's still the lovestruck smile she gave Mingyu just seconds ago. You know you have the same kind of smile reserved for Jungkook. You wish you didn't but at the same time you're glad you do, like you have a part of yourself only Jungkook can see. Even though he doesn't do the same.

"You look so hot tonight!" she squeals as she pulls you in a hug. You laugh and roll your eyes, making eye contact with Mingyu as he nods his head in greeting. Jihyo steps back and grabs your hand, dragging you out your apartment so fast you barely have time to lock the door behind you. "Let's go before all the good drinks are gone."

It's a short but fun walk to the house where the party is being held. You find yourself laughing with Jihyo and Mingyu the whole time. They're the type of couple that doesn't make third wheeling a bore.

Loud music blares in your ears the moment you step inside. You feel your heels sticking to the floor. A typical frat house throwing a typical Friday night party. You immediately take shots with Jihyo and Mingyu. You need it to be able to survive the night since you already feel yourself tensing up at the possibility of Jungkook being in the same place as you.

You spot your other friends and hangout with them for the rest of the night. It's when you're playing beer pong with Jimin as your partner do you see Jungkook at the other side of the room. He's talking to some girl which is nothing new. It shouldn't phase you but it does. You thought you were going to be his pick for the night since he texted you a while ago.

You feel your heart fall at the sight of them, your chest physically hurting that you make Jimin throw the ball twice for the both of you since you can't focus. You feel all the fun and happiness slowly leave your body. You feel your stomach churn at the way he's got her trapped against the wall, tattooed arm placed beside her head, mouth whispering right against her ear. She's smiling and giggling at whatever Jungkook is telling her. You wish that were you.

"Forget about him," Jimin mutters in your ear. He's watching your beer pong opponents take their turn as you're watching Jungkook and the girl.

You shake your head at Jimin, turning your head to smile at him just to make it seem like you're okay. Just like Jihyo, he sees right through you.

Jimin's another close friend of Jungkook. They're not so different. Jimin likes to sleep around but he makes it clear that he doesn't want anything serious. Always nice and gentle with the girls he sleeps with. Jungkook makes it seem like you're his and only his. You wonder again why they're friends.

"Seriously, Y/N," Jimin says, a little bit of urgency in his tone. It's probably the look of longing on your face that raises concern in your friend. Everyone sees how broken you look when you catch Jungkook with another girl.

"I know," you say after a while. You talk just a little bit loud enough to be heard over the music. "Jungkook and I just sleep with each other. It's casual and that's it."

You hear Jimin sigh. He nods his head and it's his turn to throw the dirty ping pong ball. You've had this conversation with him and Jihyo numerous times already, sometimes it's the both of them and sometimes it's on separate occasions. You say the same thing every time. You think your friends are starting to give up on you. Maybe you should as well.

You force yourself to have fun for the rest of the night, always trying to be in a room where Jungkook isn't. You're not sure if he's spotted you. You don't know which hurts more—him not spotting you because he doesn't even bother looking for you in the crowd, or him spotting you but not talking to you because you're not his choice for the night. Either way, he doesn't care. You know he doesn't but you wish you did. You thought you'd catch his attention with the black dress you're wearing. Or with the way your hair is styled. But it doesn't work and you tell yourself that it's okay. You always see him in your peripheral though, either talking to someone or flirting with that girl.

You decide to leave when you see Jungkook leaving as well, fingers tangled with the girl's. She looks like a giggling mess and you can't blame her. Everyone falls for Jungkook's charms. You try not to dwell on the fact that they're going to have sex.

It's Jimin who walks you home. He can tell you're sad so he talks about his day and his classes, avoiding Jungkook's name even though you're positive that they hung out today. Jungkook's intertwined in so many people's lives it's hard to leave him out. But Jimin makes an effort just to distract you. You're grateful for it though and he keeps up the act all the way to your apartment. He asks if he can use your bathroom and you say yes, mindlessly changing into your pajamas once the bathroom door closes behind you. You thought you'd have a little bit more time to finish changing but you suddenly hear Jimin swear behind you. You live in a little studio apartment so there's not much room to hide.

"Oh fuck— Shit," he says. You turn around laughing to see him with his hand over his eyes. "Sorry," he mumbles.

You're in your underwear but you don't mind. "It's not like you haven't seen me like this before," you chuckle.

"Still," he reasons.

Because you're stupid and heartbroken and hurt, you walk up to Jimin and gently grab his wrist, bringing his arm down to his side. You look at him looking at anywhere else but you. Eventually he looks down at your body for a split second and you laugh at him.

"We shouldn't," he whispers.

You shrug your shoulders. "Just a little bit of fun, right?" you ask with a smile on your face. "Like old times?" you giggle.

Jimin lets out a scoff but it's more of a laugh. Like he can't believe you're both doing this again. "You sure you're not drunk?" he asks as he makes eye contact with you. Bingo. You got him.

"Nope," you say sweetly.

"But Jungkook?"

You roll your eyes to mask the hurt. "Don't care."

Jimin looks at you intently to make sure you're not bluffing. While you wait for his answer you unclasp your bra and let it fall down your shoulders, exposing yourself to him. His eyes widen at the sight.

"Okay," he breathes out. He suddenly holds you by the waist to place you on the kitchen counter. It has you giggling at him.

"Eager?" you ask when he starts kissing your neck. You feel him drag his teeth across your skin, like he's thinking if he should mark you up or not. You stretch your neck out even more and feel him biting at your skin, sure to leave a bruise.

"Just excited," he mumbles against your neck. You feel him smile.

You unzip his pants while he's busy sucking your nipples. He's hard already when you start pumping your hand up and down his cock.

"Feels good, baby," he moans in your ear. You're still wearing your underwear but Jimin doesn't mind, just pushes it to the side to insert two of his fingers inside your pussy.

"Oh," you choke out. He finds your spot right away and rubs his fingers against it. He doesn't make you come, just fingers you to make sure you're prepped. It's quick when he takes his fingers out and grabs the condom in the back pocket of his jeans. You watch him tear the packet open and roll the condom down his length.

You both don't say anything else as he pushes his cock past your tight walls. Doesn't give you a moment before he starts pounding, his skin slapping against yours.

It's always like this with Jimin—just quick and easy and no feelings attached. You both don't do it much, it happens at the most random times. Usually when you want to forget or when he's stressed from school. And after this you're both back to being friends. It's never awkward. You wish it were like this with Jungkook instead.

"Jimin," you moan when he starts rubbing your clit. "Gonna come."

"Go ahead, baby," he breathes out, placing a soft kiss on your cheek and leaving his lips there. You push yourself to release and Jimin follows right after. You're both breathing heavily when he pulls out, taking off the condom and throwing it in the bin. He zips up his pants and starts looking for something on your bed. You're still trying to catch your breath when you feel a shirt being put over your head. Jimin's sweet like this—does aftercare in the most platonic way possible.

"There," he says after helping you wear the shirt he found. He doesn't know it belongs to Jungkook. You don't think he minds if he does though.

"Thank you," you say quietly and give him a small smile.

"Anytime. I'll see you around, okay?" He kisses your forehead and you watch him leave your apartment.

The silence engulfs you and you think you should feel disgusted with yourself—that you're pining over a guy but you just had sex with another. With his close friend out of all people. But you push the thought to the back of your mind as you jump down from the kitchen counter and walk into your bathroom. You're just like Jungkook, you tell yourself. Just casually sleeping around and nothing else. He doesn't care and you don't either. You feel a teeny bit better.

You take a warm shower to wash all the remnants from tonight. You actually take your time just to clear your jumbled up mind. It's almost 30 minutes later when you step out and check your phone while you're drying off, heartbeat stopping at a text you've received almost an hour ago.

jk: u up?

jk: hey reply to me :(

jk: coming over

Your eyes widen at the last text. It was sent just 10 minutes ago. You don't know where he's coming from but the campus isn't that big so he'll probably be here soon. You quickly finish drying off and change into comfortable clothes. You hear a knock on the door the moment you finish changing. You take a deep breath before walking to the door and opening it.

You notice Jungkook's wearing the same clothes from the party but his shirt is a bit wrinkled. You think he just came from the girl's place. Probably fucked her and is here now because he's not satisfied. You should feel disgusted and mad but you're not. You're no better. You just slept with his friend.

"Hi," you mutter.

He smiles at you and leans in to kiss you on the lips. "Hey, sweetheart." It has you swooning.

You step to the side to let him in and he walks straight to your bed, sitting down to take off his shoes before lying down comfortably. You follow him and sit down on your bed right by his waist. He stretches out his arm to drape it over your thighs and you start tracing his tattoos absentmindedly. This is your usual routine.

"Did you stay in all night?" he asks. Just a little bit of conversation before he does what he's really here for. At least he has a little bit of decency. You don't mind though, it makes you think that he cares about you when he asks things like this.

You shake your head and smile at him. "Nah, Jihyo and Mingyu dragged me to that frat party." You can tell he's trying to hide his surprise.

"Oh, I didn't see you there," he mumbles.

"It's okay." You shrug. "There were a lot of people."

"We could've played beer pong together, I know you like doing that every time you're out."

Your heart clenches at his remark. You're surprised and hurt every time he remembers little things about you. "I was with Jimin, don't worry." Jungkook doesn't know the double meaning to it.

He nods and runs his fingers across your thighs. "Missed you. Sorry I didn't reply to your text earlier, got caught up in something." You know that's a lie. "Just got back from the party too, that's why I came here late." Another lie.

You nod and smile as if you believe him. And you force yourself to because it's easier than knowing the truth. It's silent for a moment before he mumbles c'mere and brings you on top of his lap.

"Missed this," he says quietly as he squeezes your thighs. His hands trail up your waist till he's squeezing your tits beneath the shirt you're wearing. You start grinding on his cock, getting out of breath too quickly. You missed this too. It's been a week since you last had sex with Jungkook which is a long time for the both of you.

"Kook," you pant. He's pinching your nipples knowing that's where you're most sensitive.

"I know, sweetheart. Take your shirt off for me, hm?"

You nod your head dumbly and do as you're told, watching Jungkook stare at your body. He stops moving beneath you and you're about to ask what's wrong when he brings his hand up to touch the hickey on your neck that Jimin left.

"Who's this from?" he asks. You can't tell if he's mad or just curious. Jungkook isn't showing any emotions on his face and you're starting to get nervous.

"Just..." You think if you should tell him the truth. You look into his eyes and try to see if there's any semblance of care. You don't know. You really can't tell. Then your eyes trails down his body, to his neck and the wrinkly white shirt he's wearing. There's a red stain on the collar and you know it's lipstick. From the girl he slept with earlier. "Someone," you finally mumble.

"Someone?" He continues rubbing the spot gently until he presses down on it with his thumb. He doesn't press down too hard, but it's with enough force to have you hissing slightly.

"It's from Jimin," you finally say. He doesn't say anything but raise an eyebrow at your reply. You don't know if he already knows that you and Jimin have slept together. He doesn't look so surprised, or maybe he is and he's just really good at schooling his expressions.

He makes eye contact with you again and you feel his hand going to the back of your head, grabbing a handful of your hair to press your lips against his. The kiss feels urgent and rushed, his tongue instantly slipping in your mouth and tangling with yours. You're on top of him yet you feel defenseless as he holds you by your hair and kisses you hard. You let Jungkook do as he pleases and forget about the little conversation you just had. You start grinding on his cock again and he reciprocates this time, hips moving against yours.

Before you know it, he rolls you over and pins your arms above your head. You stare at him with wide eyes and he smirks at you in return. He holds your wrists with one hand and takes off your shorts and underwear with the other. He's fully dressed while you're not and you know you're at his mercy. He knows this too as he spreads your thighs apart with his hand.

"Keep your hands there," he whispers. You hold your bed frame for good measure. You just want to please him. He trails kisses down your body, from your neck to your nipples to your tummy. He stops by your thighs and you feel his breath against your skin. You squirm beneath Jungkook to get him to do something, to touch you and pleasure you. He shakes his head, still with that damn smirk on his face. He starts kissing your thighs, close to your pussy just to tease you.

"Didn't know you and Jimin have a thing going on," he says against your skin. You shiver at the vibrations his voice provides.

You feel Jungkook bite down on your inner thighs. "We don't," you choke out. He scoffs and starts kissing your pussy. Just light kisses that start making you crazy because you just want his mouth on you. "We're just friends," you say weakly.

He looks up from where he's laying between your legs. "Like us?"

Us.

You know what he means but at the same time you don't. You're friends with Jimin like you're friends with Jungkook. But you don't long for Jimin like you do for Jungkook. You don't yearn for Jimin the same way, don't look for him in every place you're at, don't pine for his affection or his touches. Jimin isn't like Jungkook and you both know that. You just don't know if you're different from the other girls Jungkook fucks.

"No," you say truthfully. It's said with defeat and desperation because you know he's not going to touch you till you answer him. "Not like us."

You know Jungkook won't pry anymore because he finally starts licking your pussy, starting with your outer lips until his tongue is inside your hole licking every crevice. Then he starts sucking your clit and that's when you truly lose it, legs going around his head to keep him against your cunt.

"Fuck," you almost scream. You're so close already that you should feel embarrassed but you're not. Jungkook knows your body too well. No one holds a candle to how good he eats you out. "Please," you whimper.

"Please what, sweetheart?"

"Please make me come!" you beg. "Need it, need it so much." You starting grinding your hips against his mouth.

"You're so desperate," he chuckles. It's said meanly but the comment flies over your head. You don't care anymore; you just want some sort of release. "But not yet."

You suddenly feel cold because Jungkook removes his mouth from you, standing up and getting out of the bed to remove his clothing. You continue holding the bed frame above you because you want to be good for him. You watch him strip his clothes off till he's naked just like you, tattooed hand wrapping around his cock.

It's long and thick and it splits you open every time he fucks you. You really don't know how you manage to take him every time.

Jungkook is so mean and unfair with the way he's teasing you right now, pleasuring himself while you lay on the bed. You're about to open your mouth to complain when he finally nods his head, motioning you to get up. "Kneel. Hands behind your back, okay?"

You nod your head and get in position on the bed, head tilting up to look at his cock. It's so hard and the tip is already leaking. You just want your mouth around him.

"Open," he says.

You open your mouth and stick your tongue out, just the way Jungkook likes. As expected, he spits directly into your mouth and you swallow right away.

"Good girl. Now suck."

He brings his cock to your lips and you immediately start sucking. You push your length all the way in till you feel him at the back of your throat.

"Gotta take all of me in, pretty. Or else I won't fuck your little pussy."

You know Jungkook takes his threats seriously so you back up a little to catch your breath before taking him in your mouth again. God, he's so big and thick your jaw is already starting to feel sore. But you power through and keep taking him in your mouth until your nose touches his tummy. You try not to gag around him but it's no use. You also feels your eyes tearing up.

Jungkook doesn't care you're struggling. In fact, he loves it because he's got that stupidly handsome smile on his face. He strokes your cheeks for a while and you try to even out your breathing.

"I wanna fuck your throat, sweetheart. Can you take it?" he asks sweetly.

You know it's a rhetorical question but you nod anyways, as much as you could with a dick down your throat.

"Let me in then."

You close your eyes and relax your throat even more. Jungkook holds your head then and pushes you towards him even deeper. You're helpless since your hands are behind your back. You gag again and start feeling lightheaded.

"There we go," he finally says once his whole length is in your mouth. You feel the tip down your throat. You're struggling so much but you try not to move. You just want to please him. "Gonna move now," he mumbles and starts moving his hips. You let him fuck your throat for God knows how long. You're full on crying when he stops and withdraws his length halfway out your mouth. You take the time to gasp for air and you even cough a little, head bowing down to regain your breathing. You faintly hear Jungkook laugh above you.

"I'm not yet done, love. Was just feeling nice enough to give you a little breather."

You nod your head and look up at him, mouth opening wide to let him know you're ready again.

"You just let me do whatever I want, huh?" he chuckles. You're not sure if he means something else but to you it does. You willingly let Jungkook do anything to you. Even if it results in heartbreak.

He stares at you for a while and spreads the spit and precum that's on your lips. "So messy." Then he's back to inserting his length inside your mouth. The glide is smoother this time since you're already prepped. "There we go," he groans out. He stays still and feels the imprint of his dick on your throat. "Look so pretty for me."

Jungkook starts moving again but thankfully his pace is slow this time. You're sure you'll have a sore throat by tomorrow.

"Keep your eyes open, okay? Wanna see you cry."

You look at him while he's fucking your mouth, looking at the way his cock moves in your throat. You're starting to lose your breath and you think Jungkook could tell as well because he grants you reprieve and steps back. You're coughing more this time, hands catching yourself in front of you. You barely get enough time to regain your breathing before you feel Jungkook grabbing your head and bringing your lips to his.

"Did so good for me," he says against your mouth.

You're trembling in his hold and you grab his arms to steady yourself. "Fuck me please," you try to say but your voice comes out hoarse and ragged.

He kisses your cheek and then your jaw. "I will, don't worry," he coos. "Always gonna give you what you want." Another lie. You know that's not true.

You're putty in his hands as he maneuvers you to the position he wants to fuck you in, which is on your hands and knees with your ass high in the air.

"Just like that," he whispers. He pushes down on your shoulders even more so that you're wide and open for him. He starts rubbing your pussy and you can't help but moan out loud. "You're so wet, sweetheart. All from sucking my cock?"

You nod wordlessly from your position on the bed. "Jungkook!" you scream as he plunges two fingers in your pussy. He's ruthless as he fucks his fingers fast and hard, hitting your g-spot right away. "Please," you cry out. You're so wound up and tense and you just want to come already but he won't let you.

You hear Jungkook chuckle from behind you. "Still so tight, baby. Thought Jimin stretched you out already." You're about to reply but you feel his thumb press against your rim and your senses go haywire, mind going blank because you're so overwhelmed.

"Please, please," you beg quietly. You're crying again and you'd do anything at this point to get Jungkook to fuck you. He withdraws his fingers from your holes and you hear the crinkling of plastic behind you. You turn your head slightly to see him slipping a condom on. Jungkook has never fucked you raw and you never asked why because you already know the answer. You'll get hurt hearing the truth anyway.

He holds your hips to steady you. He rubs the head of his cock up and down your folds. "You want this?" he asks roughly.

"Yes. Please."

Finally, finally, Jungkook pushes his cock in your pussy. It doesn't take long because you're so wet he slides right in to the hilt.

"You feel so good around me." He stills for a moment and you grab your ass to spread your cheeks even more.

"Please move, Kook."

You hear him groan. "God, baby, you're filthy." He starts fucking into you and your mind goes blank. You feel his thick cock slide in and out, the tip already kissing your cervix.

"Feels so good," you mumble incoherently. Jungkook fucks you quick and hard, holding your hips so tightly you know it's going to bruise. You feel his balls slap against your clit which adds even more pleasure. You feel yourself getting close again and arch your back.

"Can I please come?" you ask through your moans. "Please let me come, Jungkook. Please—"

"Come," he finally says. It's the only word you need to hear before you let go, that coil in you snapping and bringing pleasure all over your body. You don't know you're moaning so loudly you're almost screaming. You feel your pussy just gush and it gets so wet and sticky you're surprised Jungkook doesn't slip out. It's so filthy that you hear squelching noises as well. Your orgasm goes on for so long you don't know how you're still holding yourself up.

"You creamed my cock so much, baby," Jungkook says. He slows down his pace but he's still moving so you can ride out your high. "Got me wet and even your sheets."

You barely hear him and there's just a buzzing sound around your head. Your body feels so heavy and you just want to collapse but you arch your back even more for Jungkook.

He laughs. "Think I fucked you stupid." He increases his pace again and you just kneel there and take it. "Gonna make me fucking come," he growls as his hips snap against yours. "Fuck." He fucks you some more and you groan every time he hits your g-spot.

Suddenly, he pulls out so fast. "Don't move," he groans. You stay in place and watch him remove the condom off, hand going to stroke his cock as he brings himself to his release. You feel his come on you, right on your pussy and asshole. "Fuck, baby," he groans. You feel even stickier with his load on you. Then he bends down to kiss your neck, and then your cheek, and then a gentle one on your lips.

"You okay?" he asks quietly. His arm goes to wrap around your waist and you slowly start sinking onto the bed.

"Mhm," you mumble and try to keep your emotions at bay. You always feel so overwhelmed after sex with Jungkook. You let a few tears fall down your cheeks but it's the kind of tears of relief from an intense orgasm.

Jungkook presses his front against your back, not caring that his come is still on you. He starts kissing your face again then rubs his nose up and down your throat. "Just breathe, yeah?" he says quietly. You nod weakly against his hold and do just that. The both of you say nothing as you try to calm your racing heart.

You don't know how many minutes pass by until Jungkook stands up. You don't have the strength in you to move your position on the bed or ask where he's going. A few minutes later you feel a wet rag on your back. You let Jungkook clean you up while the both of you still don't say a thing. Then he's moving you on the bed again so your head is on the pillows and he's right behind you, lying down comfortably to be the big spoon. You feel him kissing your head.

"Sleep," he mumbles against your hair. With Jungkook holding you and with his steady breaths guiding yours, you fall asleep right away.

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You don't know what time it is when you wake up but there's still sunlight peeking through your curtains so you suppose it's still morning. You turn to face the other side of the bed only to find it empty. You don't know what time Jungkook left, if he stayed the night or left the moment you fell asleep. You're used to it already but it doesn't mean you're not hurt. Your heart constricts at the empty space beside you. You move again to lay on your back and cover your face with yours hands, letting out shaky breaths while trying not to breakdown. God, maybe Jimin was right. Just forget about him.

But it's hard not to. It's hard to forget about him when you have sex constantly, when his touches are gentle but also rough. When he wants you to reply to his messages and when he wants you against his body. It's hard because he's friends with your friends. It's hard when he takes care of you after every intense orgasm. It's hard when he makes it seem like he wants you just as much as you want him.

[onesidedradiostatic]

Ok so just because Alastor likely doesn't have cameras or a TV doesn't mean the hotel doesn't so you can bet Vox, from the moment he learned Alastor was back, was trying to spy fromt he screen. We also know he has this capability from the song, so it's not hard to imagine that Sir Pentious's failed infiltration wasn't even necessary. Either that or the hotel television has onky a limited view so Vox can only see a small portion of the hotel (and therefore not get enough footage of Alastor as he wants because he definitely stays just out of view when he's present)

Still the idea of Vox desperately trying to record or spy kn Alastor from every security camera or TV he passes and hsut utterly failing because Alastor scrambles the signal or stays just out of view so all he can see is maybe the flash of a claw or his coattails as he passes by. Alastor thinks it's hilarious

okay but the question is can vox spy through every camera/tv or only voxtek ones? when pentious was sent to the hotel, he stationed the specifically voxtek camera (which is how angel dust knew he was working for the vees) at a single fixed location. if vox was content with spying only from one fixed location and had access to like the tv in the hotel I doubt he would have sent pentious. vox also spies on alastor and the hotel through a voxtek drone if you look in episode 2 (I'd post a screenshot but do not have access to my laptop rn, just look at episode 2 right as vox turns on the screen to spy). he doesn't try to access anything inside the hotel, I think it can be probably assumed that he can't. and the tv in the hotel is specifically like really old looking, so I'm not sure if he can access it because of that either. what I am wondering though is how no one noticed the fucking voxtek drone flying around to spy on alastor during episode 8, I guess they had better things to worry about LMAOOOOO.

[godfistgonnalive]

please ramble as hard as you can about pruita I need to hear what you have to say about them

grabs you by the shoulders very roughly.

ok. my favorite flavor of pruita is utterly unrequited. cuz its very funny to me. my fav thing to do is listen to music and think about unrequited pruita like L imagine 😹😹but also its kind of sad and i like how its sad but also funny

like think about the prussia cleaning game like omg.... he loves him.... its so silly.......

PRUSSIA STROKED IN HAPPINESS! WHAT THE FUCK! GAY!

and he literally was imaginging them like together on some sort of boat idk what its called like ugh

and the fucking BLOG. ive already posted these before but. my god.

he likes him so much....... its unbelievable........

like are you serious. he so very obviously has a crush on him THERES SO MUCH PROOF OF IT AND [im trying to restrain myself here from being salty about prucan shippers so i will stop myself here.]

ok im racking my brain to try and think of what to say rn cuz as much as i say i wanna talk about my ships i know deep down in my heart i dont have much to say that i can turn into coherent thoughts.

back to my thoughts and not canon content. unrequited pruita. like ok you know that hetalia itself is just gerita fanfiction. like i love gerita. who doesnt. and thats where it comes in in my version of pruita. like prussia is so in love with italy and italys like omggg germanyyyy :3 like. oh my gfod can i talk about the songs i associate with them. the answer is yes i cant be stopped.

ok puppy princess by hot freaks. fucking UGH. unrequited big fat crush ANTHEM right here.

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. prussia is the goofy friend... prussia loves italy...... and italy loves germany........ my goodness.........

NO OTHER HEART BY MAC DEMARCO. THIS IS LITERALLY PRUITA.

i love gerita truth pruita so much but not in the love triangle way like i mean thats what it sounds like but its more like a fucked up triangle like

it doesnt connect all the way... cuz in love triangles dont they usually like compete!>>! like prussia loves italy but in my pruita brain he wouldnt like.. actually really try to get with italy while he knew that germany was trying to get with him.... you know.... he wouldnt do that to his brother..... so he just keeps his crush to himself.... rip.... and thats the fun of it ! ! ! he yearns but he'll never have him... love that

LOVERS ROCK. BY TV GIRL. THIS ONE LYRIC. JESUS CHRIST.

TRYING TO SELL YOU SOMETHING THAT YOU ALREADY HAVE. UGH.

AND LOOKING OUT FOR YOU BY JOY AGAIN. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.

IM GONNA GO CRAZY!

and peach scone. by hobo johnson.

ltierally every time... prussia calls italy cute.... god......

now. onto requited pruita.

i think theyre silly cute so much so much :3 :3 :3 hold on gotta check pixiv so i can formulate thoughts. ok like i mostly think about prussia's side of things when it comes to required pruita but in my opinion prussia is CRAZY about that man. jesus christ. and italy thinks hes super silly and loves him 🫶🫶🫶 HOLD ON I SHOULD FILL OUT ONE OF THOSE UNDERSTAND NMY SHIP THINGS HOLD ONNNNNN

got a little lazy but you understand.

i think thats all i have to say . i feel like i didnt really say much just put images and then said something along the lines of "jesus christ" or "what the fuck" but i think you undestand. thank you for asking. PEACE AND LOVE!

ALSO WAIT I HAVE MORE. i LOVE gerita marriage. they are so married. and i love thinking about prussia watching the boy hes had a big fat crush on for god knows how long get married to his brother. LMAO! and hes like crying like hes happy for his brother,... but oh man........ LMAOOOOO

i love prussia so much. make him suffer now

ok thanks for reading :heart:

edit:i just realized onm the height thing onm the ship chart i forgot to put 6 CM and instead put 6 M. oops

[jackinalex]

we need a detailed play-by-play of red rocks and the bottle signing to keep the vibe positive please! so sick of people nitpicking the guys!

I'll ask Torri for a play-by-play of the bottle signing!

Lord, idek where to start with an entire red rocks play-by-play. For me, the highlights were (under a cut bc it's so long):

-the very expansive setlist (shameless, stay awake, jasey rae, the girl's a straight-up hustler, vegas!!!!!) - even if some of them were mixes, it was still good to hear even a piece of them

-the set, design, fx, and the like

-JALEX KISSING ON THE MOUTH DUH

-Alex saying "do you want me, JACK" during do you want me

-ART OF THE STATE PLAYING DURING A SET CHANGE

-Alex messing up and giggling during Good Times. He also said he hears it in the grocery store all the time and honestly me too baby.

-red rocks in general. it was so fucking gorgeous and insane. i can't even explain it.

-how happy and grateful all four of the guys were (and dan!)

-how literally everyone there knew every single word to every single word (except for maybe a few stragglers)

-I finally got to hear Afterglow live and Alex was STUNNING during it. The lights and fx were so goddamn pretty, but not as pretty as Alex.

-Dancing with a Wolf!!!! And Alex getting on his knees during it.

-Jack running through the crowd early on in the show (BUT NOT TOWARD ME tf)

-Piano Kids in the Dark was surprisingly pretty.

-Alex fully looking like a member of the village people in his wifebeater and orange hat.

-Alex saying happy pride! before Glitter & Crimson

-Jack making everyone sing My Heart WIll Go On and annoying the SHIT out of Alex. Then them bantering about Celine Dion. Idk why but it was so funny. Reminiscent of the old days. Jack also sang his own made up verse and it was so stupid, but it was cute. "Aaaaand I'm so fucking drunk with youuuuuu."

-The Basement Noise slideshow (I'd seen it before but it made me cry again).

-Jack's guitar being in the wrong key and him saying NOPE before Sick Little Games lmaooooo. He was also drunk toward the end of the show and so silly.

-Zack and Rian just being adorable together in the rhythm section, like always.

-Shouting out Rian's mom and stepdad :')

-Jalex drinking English Blood straight from the bottle.

-Jack dancing like a doofus during New Religion.

-THE OTHER SIDE!!!! The gc favorite from Tell Me I'm Alive. I finally got to see it live and Alex put his arm around Jack during it (and you know what? I think it might be a where clover whitens song).

-Jalex hugging after they finished the Celine Dion bullshit.

-Jack running to get Dan when Alex was announcing everyone and dragging him back holding his hand.

-THE RETURN OF THE GUITAR THROW (granted it's rusty) and Jack dancing during Dear Maria too lol.

-Alex dancing to I Wanna Dance With Somebody ofc (even though I only got to see a little bit of it)

I think my one complaint is that they cut Once in a Lifetime when it was ON THE SETLIST. That's one of my favorites of all time and I don't understand why they cut it unless it was for time. Calm Down was RIGHT THERE, guys!! Anyway, it was amazing and I had the best time, but I still prefer small venues. I've gotten spoiled to being at barricade or barrier and not being super close to them makes the experience so much different.

[rezcowgirl]

Something about summer and not-love-songs made-into-love-songs...

A Love-Song Letter to Jeannie, Aires and Gosh by Jamie XX.

The year Aries and I started dating was the same year we moved to BC together. It was a whirlwind - some bad decisions, some perfect decisions. Whatever. Whatever.

A month or two after we made the move, two of Aries' best friends also moved from Saskatchewan to BC for work.

Aries basically had to throw me in the car and force me to a dinner party so I could meet them. I don't think I said a word, but Jeannie still talked to me even though I wasn't good conversation. At all. And she made me a bunch of vegan food from scratch which was incredibly sweet.

She became one of the weirdest, dearest people to me very quickly.

One of the first times I thought "I am going to be ok" after I moved from my home community (I almost got apprehended by the Mental Health Act that year lmaooooo) we were on the beach. I think there was 6 of us. I don't remember exactly who, but Jeannie was definitely there because we ended up also sitting with two strangers that she befriended. Because that's what she did.

It was sunset and we had a shitty little speaker full of sand listening to two of Aries' friends that had a community radio show in Regina.

Aries sent them a message that read "hey play that song you showed me that one time I was really high and stuck to the couch". They knew exactly what he was talking about. They said "this goes out to our prairie hooligans on the beach in BC" and they played Gosh by Jamie XX and it was honestly one of the most tooth-rottingly sweet moments of my life.

Jeannie is my friend that died traumatically a few years later. I've written so many eulogies for her and I probably will for the rest of my life. I am heartbroken. It won't stop.

I had so little time with her.

But fuck. Those few years I had you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

We are having a really hard time planning our wedding because every time we just...freeze up. We don't want to do it without her, but we don't have a choice, do we? I know it's not healthy and we could probably both use therapy.

But we'll get there, I promise. Because you loved how we fight.

[lonelyvomit]

Hi, i got into ghost thanks to you😅 Could you give me some song recommendations or any other info that could be useful?

HIIIII okay yes! 😂🥰

for song recs I'd say Spillways, Mary On A Cross, Rats, Jigolo Har Megiddo, Cirice, He Is, Call Me Little Sunshine, Darkness At The Heart Of My Love, From The Pinnacle To The Pit. that's a mix of my personal faves and some of the most popular songs that people usually like 🥰🥰

things to know band lineup wise - Ghost is and has always been mostly Tobias + paid musicians. the current ghouls have been the same since 2018, just acquiring a few more since. there's a bunch of names used for the ghouls from different eras and it's only this year that couple of the ghouls have been publicly named (altho we been knew since nothing actually stays secret lmao), so presumably this lineup is gonna be sticking around for a good while, but they all have their other projects during Ghost's downtime and overall the songs & the entire image of the band is all Tobias. also if you see people calling Tobias random names starting with initials TF (Tender Father, Toe Fungus, Titty Fiddler uknow) it's remains from the era when Tobias' name was outed due to a lawsuit but he hadn't officially revealed his identity (until 2017 even Tobias' name wasn't public knowledge, the frontman was known as just Papa Emeritus), so out of respect & to keep the secret from those fans who preferred not to know, people wouldn't call him by his name, but make up the most stupid nicknames out of his initials. and even tho his name is well known now, some of us still do it as a joke because it's simply funny 😌✨ also also if you see fans talk about going to rituals - that's what Ghost live shows are called lmao. gotta be dramatic ✨

also there's a shit ton of fantasy lore surrounding the band but you can dive into that as much or as little as you personally want to. the basic lore knowledge is just that the previous papas (1-3) were brothers & papa Nihil's sons, Cardinal Copia/Papa Emeritus IV is Sister Imperator's son, Nihil & Sister dated when they were young but broke up & none of the papas have been confirmed to be both of theirs kid. the previous papas were murdered from Sister's & Nihil's orders and by now Nihil is dead too cus he was old as fuck but he's still chillin around as a ghost. there's 14 episodes of like a lil lore series on Ghost's youtube channel that started when Copia arrived 4 years ago, and the fandom has built an entire alternative universe around the band, so like. if you're not the type to be into fantasy storylines, you don't need to, you can just enjoy the music. if you do enjoy more fleshed out story and universe you can contribute into yourself with writing or art or whatever, Ghost is the perfect sandbox for that too. you can get the basic building blocks from the youtube series and then just go nuts. also also also, the vocalist character will change again soon-ish. while it's always Tobias, every papa character from 1-3 made one album and stepped down. Copia has now made 2 albums - one as Cardinal Copia and one as Papa Emeritus IV. so he's already on borrowed time and his death has been hinted at in the latest lore clip. rat man's gonna go soon, don't get too attached. I'm totally not 🥲

okay that's a start asdfghjkl sorry & thanks for letting me ramble lmaooooo

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

If you could pick one Beatles song for Taylor to cover and one Taylor song for the Beatles to cover, which songs would you pick and why?

hi anon <33333

In the past, my default answer for Taylor has been Norwegian Wood because I just think it would suit her really well. But now I'm thinking she might do a lovely rendition of Free As A Bird or Real Love? Also maybe And I Love Her, I feel like she suits their calmer songs more, but then again, she might surprise me. (see: how crazy she went doing Summer of 69 with Brian Adams)

Also she should do I Don't Want To Spoil The Party for Me Personally and perhaps she should mash it up with The Moment I Knew and/or the birthday portion of All Too Well 10 because this shit's crazy fr:

For the band covering Taylor, I feel I might have to say four different thing for every member to sing lead on.

This might be a weird answer but Paul would deliver a KILLER Jump Then Fall methinks. Also perhaps I Think He Knows! Also perhaps You Belong With Me! I honestly think Fearless (the album) suits Beatle Paul an awful lot lol.

For George, I'd say something slower, maybe New Year's Day or I Almost Do?

I think we need to give John something epic so I'll say Starlight, I think it would be great also it's the most JP song ever to me, as of recently lmaooooo Also, aside from the fact that Jealous Guy and The Great War are the same song, I think he could do a pretty great rendition of it, it would fit comfortably in his range.

For Ringo I think I Forgot That You Existed could be great!!! also Paul would have so much fun playing bass on it :)

[jimimn]

I loved suchwita, it was so good but can i just say... it made me cry so hard. The part where they talk about 'just do it, just release the songs' and Yoongi's opinion/explanation, saying he has songs he wished he never released and the whole segment following this conversation... What people think really doesn't matter.. What matters is how our fans take it... I had to pause the video for a good 5 minutes and just try not to break down... And also when they talked about Jimin not having ambitions of joining the team and Yoongi essentially being the push for him to change his mind? Praising his vocals to this day, and saying he always knew Jimin's singing would turn out beautiful? Saying I never thought you weren't good enough? I want to unalive myself. And when they edited the fanchant? And Jimin dancing to black swan and the others appearing next to him? I fucking lost it. I love this episode but i hate this episode.

Also Yoonmin are such clowns lmao they always bully each other <3 Like i would be crying over something sweet they said to each other and then literally the next second they clown each other <3

Jimin is a 2019 MMA enthusiast and Yoongi is a bs&t Jimin enthusiast, I WIN. I ALWAYS WIN.

I already know you are going to have so much fun with this episode <3 -🦋

pls same i was crying by the time they showed the family vcr like why did they have to hurt me like that 😭 im a weak sensitive bitch pls 😭 please please please everything you listed 😭 made my heart burst 😭 i will always always cherish this episode so much 😭 and LMAOOOOO thats what they do theyd be praising each other one second and the next second theyre back to their old married couple bickering fhdjsfhjdk. their dynamic is just <333333333 and i mean didn't we already know yoongi's obsession w bs&t jimin after the way he got stunned into silent every time they reacted to their bs&t stages 😂😂✋🏼 yoongi i know what u are honey 😂 i woohoo-ed so hard when jimin said that i need u solo was his fave i was like YES DESERVED TOTALLY I AGREE JIMIN!!!!! im incredibly sorry this took so long to reply :((

[snowball-doie]

the boys are touring america while jooha is there for school but because they're so busy with shows and jooha is 'busy with exams', they don't have any time to see each other :(((... not really though because jooha just thought it would be funny to be front row at their concert to surprise them. this was extra meaningful coming from jooha because there's nothing he hates more than both concerts and people weirdly obsessing over his dads (he was a little bit baffled when people started handing him photocards)

you bet your ass bro is front row, vip, decked out in tour merch. but he's got earplugs in cuz it's so loud, and he drags a "very good friend" along with him in case he gets overstimulated and needs to leave or something. but he sticks through to the end for his dads. they notice him during sound check while they're walking around, singing, interacting with friends. doyoung just about jumps off the stage to hug jooha, but taeyong sees what he's going to do and stops him by grabbing the back of doyoung's shirt and holding onto it like it's a leash lmao. between songs, johnny's eyeing jooha to see if it's okay to point him out, and when jooha shakes his head, the boys let it go. they don't want to embarrass him or cause any issues. so they move on, they perform the entire show as usual, but they make sure to stop and wave to him when they can. jaehyun sends him a worried thumbs up every once in a while to make sure that jooha is okay. he is. whenever he feels like the lights are too much or the screaming is too loud, he just grabs onto his friend and breathes to get through it. ultimately, jooha had a lot of fun, and he doesn't regret going-- would he ever go again??? .......no. lmaooooo

"onesan, do you want these gifts i got?" jooha texts reyna out of the blue one day while she's at rehersal with her group. he sent a picture of all the freebies he got, including fanmade photocards that jooha knows reyna likes to collect at concerts. "WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET ALL THOSE?" she quickly replies. "i went to our dads' concert in new york last night" "YOU WHAT?" "do you want them or not?" "ya, you can ship them to me" "i'll just have dad bring them in his suitcase" "you're seeing them again?" "they want to hang out in Connecticut today since their next show isn't for another two days" reyna's just laughing at her phone while sitting in the corner of the room, the other members of her group still practicing because they cant get a part of the choreo right but reyna got it the first try. she can't believe her little brother willingly went to a concert alone. reyna and their mom always had to drag jooha to those things, so it's kind of funny seeing him do it all on his own, and in a foreign country too. "oh and someone gave this to me too," jooha follows up a few minutes later with another picture of a stack of official photocards. reyna's jaw drops, "who gave you those?" "some fan? she said she loves our dads" "ya, everyone there does" "no, rey... she knew who i am lol" LMAOOOOOO JOOHA GOT CAUGHT BY A FANGIRL AND THOUGHT SHE'D HAVE A CHANCE OF MEETING THEM IF SHE SUCKED UP BY GIVING PCS TO HIM PFFTTTTTTT-- "have dads sign them and sell them for a fortune," reyna replies. "i dont care for things like that. i'll just send them to you with dad" "ok. ily, ototo. tell oppa and chichi i miss them" "love you too"

[the1975attheirverybest]

Literally so true. Why does everything we consume need to be morally perfect? That is NOT how life is supposed to work. We don’t live in heaven, this is a messed up world. You gotta look for the good and condemn the bad, but there will be plenty of situations where you find them both together, all tangled up.

I mean I just think about my job as a barista. I see hundreds of people every day and it’s my job to greet them with a smile and be as kind as possible for the 2 minutes they’re in my presence. Now if we knew the backstory on every person who I talk to (their worst mistake, the jokes the make behind closed doors, the porn they watch, the last time they hurt a friend) then Twitter might have a meltdown over the fact that I showed them kindness. But you just can’t live your life like that. Because everyone is messed up. We’re all worthy of being cancelled tbh. Some more than others, but you truly never know. My sister loves John Mayers music and it calms her down because it reminds her of her childhood when our dad used to play it all the time around us. We had Heartbreak Warfare on a CD he made for us to fall asleep to. Is John Mayer a crappy person? Yeah. But his art is beautiful, and can I really condemn my sister for listening to a song that reminds her of our dad??? No.

- 🔆

Yeah exactlyyyyy. Sometimes I wonder when the fuck we got this idea. I like the way that Matty explained it on the Ion Pack Pod. He said “it used to be that artists were bohemian outcasts. Now we want artists to be liberal academics.” And he’s so right.

But every time I get hung up and in my feelings about it I remember that, my field of research is the 1500-1600s and literally the other day I was reading the exact same thing we say about Twitter being said in the 1500s about theatre lmaooooo. Like this anti-theatre guy wrong a lil brochure that he was giving out to people all about how theatre is disgusting cuz it’s trying to be meta and it’s actors putting on a persona and doing bad things and pretending to people someone they’re not. And it cracks me up cuz that’s what people say about Matty now HAHA. So, I think it’s partially human nature. The internet just makes it so much more accessible.

And, it’s up to every one of us to decide which human traits they wanna improve and which they want to keep. In general, the 1975 fandom tends to be sane about this kind of thing which is what makes the experience fun and enjoyable. Outside the fandom though when people perceive Matty’s words and actions out of context, it’s a war zone lol.

[lefttigerobservation]

okay so i'm gonna be doing this AGAIN AAAA

killing eve 4x08 SPOILERS APLENTY MATES. WISH ME LUCK AAAAAA

WOW OKAY NOT SURPRISING BUT ALSO SO SURPRISING. GOOD FOR EVE OMWWWWWWWWWWWW. good that she used her skills!!!!!!

SHE CLIMBED A FUCKING TREE?

villanelle's Face. the whistle is terrifying. WELL DONE EVE OMW; vill's FACE OMW WHAT THAT WAS SO GRUESOME

HER HANDS ARE RED. "you know why i'm here." MMMMM. debatable eve <3 this is honestly such terrifying imagery. GUNN WTF

SHE FLIPPED HER THE BIRD OFC SHE DID. their faces are so amused omw wHat these murderous wives.

the inverse of their green and yellow,,,,,,, eve's green & yellow. SHE JUST SPUN HER AROUND????? AFTER SHE DEADASS CONFESSED THIS WHOLE FKN ADULT SHENANIGAN?? i Love v sometimes. they're terrible together <3

why is carolyn just. letting the thing go. no walking she's vibing in the airport HUGO?????

i am Shaking. i love her insults lmaooooooo

A BOTHY (google it) FUCKING CACKLING

mary poppins??? what an exclamation. of Course these two assholes end up in a couple's cabin Lmaooooo.

eve looks So very done. oh their clothes though,,,,,, "she stalked me" I LOVE THEM. THEY'RE JOKING LMAOOOO. their looks exchanged.

"maggie gave me a kidney" OF COURSE. vill is so worried <333 they are worrying kidney twins <3 OHHHH THEIR SCARS BAHAHAHA.

liking the upgraded safehouse though i will say.

hugo is a bizarre little man not sure if i feel anything particular for his New character. carolyn never liked him did she, but he Knows her psychologically huh. THE LISTENING DEVICES OMW i love her (all of them)

HE IS RUNNING BAHA OOPS. russian agents disguised as gfs lolllll

they're doing tarot cards??? ofc. oh the fireplace love <33 "i think i might kill them" "i think i might help you" they ARE in love your honour

ohhhhhhh,,,,,, of course vill agrees. eve is concerned. OH this is gonna foreshadow shit huh YUP. LOVE that she snorted. NOT AS A UNIT LMAOOOOO. SHE GOT A GOOD CARD?????? THAT'S SO LOVELY WAIT AWWWWW

"celestial light" AND BIBLICAL SYMBOLISM. "don't shove the sun" CRYING

the death card. totally not concerning at all. the Frown on her face,,,,, villanelle's hand on her shoulder oof

am concerned about carolyn lol

oh HER REASSURANCE. "you're a lot today" "i'm a lot every day" BAHA. good for them. THE FACE OF CONCERN w the sleeping bag. does eve snore. she absolutely does. oh,,,, the softness in vill's face. OH. OH THE SCAR OH MY WORDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I KNEW IT

eve's face. eve's actual face. i might cry AW i love them but hate them. they're smiling so big???? running off?????

NEITHER OF THEM know what is at a truck stop. true children <3 "SNACKS" i Love them. what the fuck were those accents. THE JELLY BEANS.

she is so childish. she absolutely refuses to let eve dancey dance. OH THE SONG GOT LOUDER. I LOVE THEM

_DON'T YOU WANT ME HOME_ AAA

the music just Stops. of course <3 EVE'S SO HAPPY ABOUT CURLY FRIES. i Love them. love them wholeheartedly but why is this man staring so intensely.

Oh Carolyn. AND PAM!!!?!?!?!?! oh,,, oh yeah. shit the letter,,,,,,,, "with a pizza cutter" oh her Face. her face,,,,, OF COURSE WAIT. OF COURSE.

eve????? "you're a psychopath" i Love them. have i mentioned? THE SALT ADDING. HOW TERRIBLE <333 oh shit. maybe they're misled too,,,,

oh she remembers bill. mmmmmm. unloved starting to play faintly cry

pam my sweet sweet child i love her. good for carolyn,,, "feelings are an inconvenience" well yes ofc for You <3 HER DAUGHTER CRY

yes geraldine Was supremely irritating.

why is she just,, going swimming? is she having a crisis lmao. PAM BAHA why are you encouraging her. this must have been sm fun to film. "just seen a dead fox" I LOVE THIS SHOW

THEY ARE IN LOVE. YOU KNOW HOW YOU CAN TELL THEY ARE HAVING A PISSING CONTEST UNLIKE WEIRD CARAVAN ASSHOLES <3 /big j

YOU ARE KIDDING ME THE SIMPLICITY IN THEIR KISS AND THEN EVEEEEEEEEE

OH THE SONG. THE SONG. OF COURSE

YOU ARE KIDDING OFC THEY'RE LIKE THAT. I ADORE THEM. I REALLY DO. I LOVE THEM SM

(MI6's Pub. of Course it is)

"eating pickle straight from the jar" BAHA. OHHHHHHHHH OFC THEY'RE ALL THERE. OFC. VILLANELLE BELOVED. "i miss havana" they are lovely.

oh no. eve. oh no. are they okay??? THANK her??? THAT'S SUCH A CHAOTIC THING TO THANK HER FOR BUT YEAH. YEAH. PREDICTABILITY. "mad endgame" yeah there Is no excuse. of course. but chaotic psychoanalysis,,,,,

carolyn Worry. worry. NOOOO VILLANELLE'S RUSSIAN GOODBYE I AM CRYING

She Changed The Meeting. "with my blessing"

PAMELA. oh no,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, THE AIR GUITAR OMW

i am so worried about what that dare might be. Oh No the Looking. THE BOAT WTFFFFFF

we have Twelve Minutes i am NOT ready. NOT READY.

i am gonna miss carolyn's weird remarks <333

pam and carolyn actually do make a good duo. Noooooooooo the game,,,,,,,, why the game,,,,,,,

"eve and loyalty is a dubious virtue" BUT WE ALWAYS KNEW THAT. ARE YOU KIDDING ARE THEY GONNA KILL EVE. YES PAM. YES PAM I LOVE YOU SM RN.

I'M SO PROUD. CAROLYN HAVE YOUR PLAN THWARTED <3

THAT'S what they call the boat? Dixie Queen??? do Not kill everyone. WHAT ARE THEY DOING. SHE PULLED HER IN FOR A KISS YOU ARE KIDDING ME. i am dead a thousand times over

Oh,,,,, oh the officiation. FOR A QUEER WEDDING

glad to see villanelle actively moving at least. NOOOOO THE GAS LEAK. EVE CANNOT DO THIS TO SAVE HER LIFE BAHA

you're KIDDING. THEY BROUGHT BACK TELL ME MY WORDDDD

eve being watched while she talks about kintsuki,,,,,,, i am Crying. AWWW EVE.

i am beyond worried about the gas leak. "Hello Losers" I LOVE HER HAVE I MENTIONED

eve is just loving life while villanelle is SHREDDING OMFWWWWWWW

villanelle. i am worried about you. OH HER FACE & TEARS. NO WHY IS SHE LEAVING. NOOOOO. VILL

THE BLOOD IS VISIBLE ON HER SHIRT. OH THEY'RE BY THE BRIDGE. OHHHHH. THE HUG. THE HUG,,,,,, WE HAVE FOUR MINUTES FUCK

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck they shot villanelle. fuckfuckfuxkfuckfuckfuck OH THEY'RE FALLING INTO THE WATER FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFJXK

they will probably both die huh. i will literally cry

no,,,,, of absolute course. EVEEEE. SCREW CAROLYN HONESTLY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK. I HAVE NEVER HATED HER MORE RN. THEY SHOULD HAVE KILLED EVE THESE ASSES. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. romeo and juliet but so not,,,,,,

oh my fuck. of course. i'm honestly not surprised. and the song,,,,,, i love this show. i will miss it forever and ever. i am so sorry vill. i will miss you forever and ever & thank you pwb (PWB SPECIFICALLY) for making such beautiful characters. final round of applause; i love them all. rest well, killing eve-- gbye <33

[elektroblues]

hello!! Idk if you've already done sth like this, but your three favorite DM songs (or anything between 3 and 10 :^)) and whhyy? 

HELLO!! <3 i'll do top three bc i love talking on here and i have such a hard time articulating how much these songs mean to me so i end up rambling but then i also hate talking so much ahah so

1. Stripped

- i mean this so sincerely but this is one of the best songs ever in any genre i literally never get tired of it. STORY TIME. i was 15 and my most most most fave band at the time was rammstein and on one of my trips to wikipedia i read that the only time till sang full english on a song was for a song called "stripped. then i found out it was a cover (but at this point i knew a few dm songs, didn't think much of them though), but i also could't listen to it then and there bc i was in class lol soooo i just looked up the lyrics and my jaw dropped. at that point i didn't care much abt my music taste but when i read mart's lyrics oughhbgbghg he's just like me fr. and i guess i gotta say it reminded me of "to you" by walt whitman (and i was in my walt whitman phase i fear) so that was a bonus. then on the jeepney ride home i got to listen to it and my jaw fucking dropped. the synths just blew me away!

for a while i just listened to the og and rammstein's cover back-to-back and didn't think to delve much into dm. then about a month after i turned 16, "more than this" by roxy music was my fave song (ALSO A RLLY GOOD SONG) and i found this yt playlist with it and 'stripped" and some other 80s songs. i used to binge those vids every night so that also started my love for 80s music ig. anyway i watched he mv for "stripped" and i went that one guy's kinda cute i guess 🧍‍♀️ AND THEN THE FUCKING. SYNTH PART WITH ALAN'S HUGEASS FACE BEHIND DAVE HAPPENED and i was like ah fuck. anyway that same month i saved my first picture of a dm member, which was alan, and then i hadn't been normal abt them since sjfmsbdjhdej so stripped is the song that started it all! :D

idk i just love it so much ☹ when i go a few months not going insane over dm then come back to this song and the video, i still get butterflies in my stomach it's sick (ok that's probably mostly bc of alan but still shbfjjdhd). but it's also so comforting. i think it's one of those songs where no matter how i'll grow i'll fall in love with it again and again. it's just this song just has so many nice memories attached to it <3 wouldn't know who i'd be if i hadn't heard it

2. The Sun and The Rainfall

- this one just make me really happy i never get tired of it too <3 i listen to it on repeat literally whenever i feel extreme happiness or sadness and no in between. idk idk it's just such a cute little song??#,=,#?' i have a soft spot for it esp since ppl (the very wrong ppl on dm reddit for example SMH) usually dismiss it and abf bc alan wasn't involved but like, it's a great testament to dm's early potential and charm and anyone who dislikes tsar is WRONG AND DOESNT KNOW WHAT LOVE IS. and im gonna be so basic for this but, "you're the one i like best, you retain my interest" is my fave dm lyric 🚶‍♀️ don't tell anyone except the ppl who happen to click read more on this HDNBDNJSKHDDJ

3. The Things You Said

- first time i heard this was also the first time i watched 101. i was sitting outside our house and when i heard the melody i cried PLSDNDBSMDBMDHSJD it was nothing like i've ever heard before fr synth music was making me Emotional those days (me when i lie, it still makes me cry lol) bc before dm i mostly liked listening to rock and whatnot. it rlly was just a nice night, me listening to dm by myself outside. pretty uneventful experiece but i still look back at it fondly. plus the 101 performance —mart's DIVINE vocals, alan on the synth and bg vocals making me insane, THE BISEXUAL LIGHTING— is just UGH. CHEF'S KISS.

i didn't proofread this so 😭😭 also p sure i cried to all of these at one point lmaooooo

[lovelyyouandbluehawaii]

A fic with Dally inspired by the song kiwi by Harry styles? The girl being based in the song :)

i’m having your baby

(it’s none of your business)

dallas winston x f!reader

warnings: like one curse word, teen pregnancy, underage drinking, underage smoking, underage everything she’s literally 13 and 16, my horrible middle school writing

word count: 417

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y/n y/l/n should have been a successful girl. she could have grown up to amount to something, do anything to make a name for herself. at least, thats what her parents envisioned.

she, however, had other plans.

by the time she was 13 she’d already been going out to parties, sleeping around, smoking, drinking, stealing, anything bad that sounded fun to her she was doing. a part of her reason for doing so was dallas winston. dally was her closest friend, and every now and then, more than friend. they’d done it together more than a few times, and to say she was in love was an understatement. she was fully convinced that they were soulmates, but she’d never tell anyone.

at the age of 16, dally got sent away. his dad didn’t want to put up with him anymore, so he sent him to some shithole called tulsa, oklahoma. at least, that’s how dally described it. y/n was all but thrilled because of this. her best friend moved halfway across the country, i mean, who would be happy about that? nevertheless, she kept on living. she was well known, having loads of friends, but none were ever as close as dally. but since he left, she became better friends with a few girls who she knew: what’s-her-name, who-are-you, and bitch-named-sandy. she never grew too fond of those girls.

when y/n’s 16th birthday rolled around, life hadn’t drastically changed. dally still wrote. however, she felt like shit. always feeling nauseous, gaining significant weight, and constantly tired. she decided fuck it, and went to the pharmacy to get a pregnancy test.

later that day as she stared down at the stick showing two red lines, she prayed to any deity that it was wrong. 7 tests later, she finally accepted the fact. she was 16 and pregnant.

instantly she began wracking her brain for who it could possibly belong to. after almost 2 hours of thinking and praying and thinking some more, she realized that the last person she’d slept with was dally. he doesn’t need to know, she thought, he’s in oklahoma. he won’t even be here. still, she couldn’t shake that he was having a kid, and she planned on not telling him. so, with a deep sigh, she pulled out a pen and a paper and sat down at her desk.

dallas,

i’m having your baby. it’s none of your business.

-y/n

lmaooooo hi i’m not dead😩🤚just decided to dip for a while but i’m back (???) anyway sry abt the ending bc i didn’t really know how to end this. also i’m literally 5 months late on this??? that’s embarrassing for me chile anyways-

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

so I was wondering if you could do like short one shot andreil fics of them like saying I love you but not it being said aloud?? Nora said they never say I love you so I feel like gestures would be worth so much more to them so that’s why (can u do the first time it’s realized between them (have fun trying to understand this dhdhdh))

Thank you anon! (who I totalllllllly don’t know XD) I absolutely love this prompt so here goes!!!

(Yes I strayed from the prompt. Do I care? No not really LMAOOOOO)

I love you is a foreign phrase to both Andrew and Neil.

Growing up, they never got to hear it—loving words were not meant for those with harsh backgrounds, so when Andrew and Neil started dating, it was never said.

But time does strange things to people—it brings them closer, and teaches them how to love in ways they never knew were possible.

Andrew doesn’t like to believe in love. To him, it’s another pointless emotion—much like regret is. But when he’s around Neil, if his heart beats just a little bit faster, and he gets a bit weak in the knees? Well, nobody has to know.

Nobody has to know how Andrew always gives Neil the first cigarette.

Or how whenever he’s the first one awake, he makes Neil breakfast.

Or how he always gives Neil a kiss on the nose when Neil’s asleep.

Or how his armbands are never on when he’s home with Neil.

And absolutely nobody has to know that he holds Neil a little tighter every time they finish having sex.

Neil, on the other hand, associates love with heavy hands and nights on the run. Feeling like his heart is about to beat out of his chest whenever he’s around Andrew is a very new and different thing. Of course, he never tells anyone about that feeling. He has no reason to.

But he may pick up a tub of ice cream for Andrew every time he goes for a run.

And he may spend more time then necessary staring at Andrew, writing mental poems.

And he may always carry around an extra set of armbands, just in case.

And he may always carry a picture of Andrew around in his wallet.

And maybe on those nights when Andrew has nightmares, he’ll sing Andrew a song, voice slightly off-key.

Together, they make up two broken people who are learning how to heal. Though I love you means little to them, they say it anyways—in the little things they do for each other.

A yes tattooed around both of their ring fingers.

Watching the sun set together, every night.

Sharing cigarettes with each other.

Going for long nighttime drives with no destination.

Soft goodmorning and goodnight kisses.

Getting cats together.

Always asking yes or no, even if it’s not needed.

Those things mean so much more to the both of them than ‘I love you’ ever will

And maybe—just maybe—their way of saying I-love-you-without-actually-saying-I-love-you means more to them than those three little words could ever, ever mean.

@imstupidremember you may enjoy this ;)