#I kinda changed how Lana looks lol

[empresskadia]

OH

I was gonna share this with Lana’s official post B U T I was too excited, I drew her and Naomi-010 together

[lumi077]

He's the type of man to...

A/N: Once again i have changed hyper fixations...drastically. And y'all know what that means lol...Nanami and Yuuta the type to be MY type if you catch my drift. Try to guess my favorite lol

Includes: Kento Nanami, Satoru Gojo, Suguru Geto, Yuuta Okkotsu, Masamichi Yaga

Warnings: MDNI; elludes to nsfw but no actual smut, possessive themes, canontypical violence in some (no gore), as always potential ooc, petnames (my love, princess, baby, babydoll, honey), slight spoilers for Geto (oops), Geto is a sorcerer au, slight harassment in yuuta's, specified fem reader in some (ie wife/princess)

Nanami Kento

is the type of man to settle on his knees by your feet and strap on your heels for you. 

You hum lightly, eyes flickering over what pairs of heels to wear to your husband’s work party before settling on a classy pair of black strapped ones. Before you can even lean down to put them on, Kento is kneeling down. His fingers ghost over your knee and down your calf before resting firmly on your ankle and slotting it into your chosen heel. Thick fingers quickly buckle them around your delicate ankle, and to finish it off he presses a kiss right above the strap. He repeats the action on the other foot, and you two are definitely going to be fashionably late. 

He’s the type of man to let you try out different color combustions of nail polish on his first. 

“Ken.” You cooed to your blonde husband, sat on the chair across from you. As he looks up from his book, you gesture to the colors spread out on the table “which ones do you think would look good?” He looks them over before pointing to a cool lavender and white before offering you his hand. Catching your questioning gaze he shrugs and simply states “try it out on me first.”

He’s the type to drive you around with a hand on your thigh always, and he always lets you play your music. Even going so far as to memorize singers you like.

You and Kento were heading to a newly opened club to hang out with some friends, his hand splayed across your upper thigh. His thumb was rubbing mindless circles as you scrolled through your phone “any requests?” Looking up at him. “Play that one singer you like…Lana del Rey was it?” And you swear you swooned. 

He’s the type of man you want to marry and have kids with, his responsible and nurturing personality luring you in. 

“you know.” You drawl out the words, looking at him through the corner of your eye. “Yuji is kinda like our kid.” 

Kento hums, raising a brow but not looking up from his work laptop “what makes you say that, my love?”

“He’s constantly over here, we feed him, give him an allowance…kinda makes me want another smaller kid.”

That makes him look up “you want a baby?” And when you nod your pretty little head he takes you right there and then. 

Kento Nanami is the type of man to stare down other men at the work party he took you too-not liking how the drunkards were staring at your exposed skin.

You were leaning on the bar, making small talk with Shoko before you felt a large muscular hand wrap around your hip and pull you closer. “Ken?” You mumbled, looking over your shoulder to see him looking somewhere else. Unbothered, you wrap your arms around his neck and press a kiss to his cheek. “Who’re you staring at, my love?”

“Some guy, looking at you like you’re not my wife.” he grumbled, leaning his head down to kiss you properly. 

“Wanna go home?” You asked, hand rubbing his chest before letting out a little giggle when he nods his head.

“Wanna show you just how much of you is mine” Spoiler alert-all of you

Satoru Gojo

is the type to randomly spoil you with very expensive gifts whenever he can. He rarely sees you some days and he needs to make it up to you somehow. 

Satoru was away again, another mission only he was deemed worthy enough to go one. By himself. You sigh as you unlock your shared apartment, something off. There, on the little table you keep in the entryway is a gift box with your name elegantly scrawled on it, opening it you find something you mentioned wanting- that was very expensive. Along with that was a note

“I’m sorry I’m not there to see your pretty face baby. I’ll make it up to you when I come home. -Your Satoru”

Satoru is the type of man to make you feel like a Greek god reincarnated, never is there a moment without praise. 

you were doing something mundane, scrolling on your phone while sitting on your very comfortable but ridiculously expensive couch when long lithe hands lifted your legs and let them fall onto his lap. “You’re gorgeous, ya know.” He cooed, fingers rubbing your calf as you giggle. “Pretty enough to eat right up.” He sighed affectionately, and you knew how this night would end.

He is the type of man to always gush about you, letting everyone know just who he belongs to

he was sitting in the expansive room, watching his students and those of the Kyoto school duke it out in the annual exchange event. "My poor sweet baby would have loved to be here to see this" he pouted, almost childishly. They had sent you on a mission, leaving him with boring Utahime nagging him.

"Shut up!" Utahime whined, giving him a pointed stare even though she too missed the presence you would bring.

Mei Mei laughed, shaking her head "They're more bareable than you, after all Gojo"

And now he's missing you all over again.

He is the type of man to let you use any and all of his expensive clothing whenever you want.

"Toruuu" You called in a sing song voice, clad in your pajamas while scouring your shared closet.

"Yesss princess?" he hummed from the bed, propping up to look at you.

"Can I wear one of your shirts today." You barely spar him a glance as you take said shirt off the hanger before he even speaks.

"Course baby, looks much better on you." He hummed, letting his head fall back into the pillows at the thought of you in his clothes.

The type that even though he prefers his carefree nature, gets so serious when it comes to you.

He told you, hours after the mission, how nervous he was when you called him. Panting into the phone, sounds of many curses in the background. You only said one word before the phone was crushed "help"

He was there in an instant, and he could see why you needed help. You were very powerful, but even if would have trouble with multiple grade 1 curses and another special grade.

Devoid of his usual humor or playfulness when fighting, he slaughtered them in record time so he could rush you to Shoko.

You had gotten so many kisses, you think the feeling of his lips are imprinted into you.

a/n: it was so hard to find an of age picture of him from the anime where he wasn't possessed by Kenjaku

Suguru Geto

is the type of man to, like his best friend-spoil you. always unprompted and at the least expected times

You were putting the girls to bed, walking out of their shared room to see your husband standing there. Raising a brow you walked over, hands snaking over your waist and pressing a kiss to temple. "My love" he mumbled against your skin, raising your hand and sliding a pretty little ring on your finger. One you distinctly remember fawning over last time you two had took the girls to the mall.

"Sugu-" you gasp, trying to remember if you had forgotten a date but he sushed you with a sweet kiss.

"Just wanted to spoil my pretty wife."

he's getting it tonight ong

Suguru Geto is the type of man to get baby fever and pester you, whining about how cute a baby that looked like the two of you would be.

"Babe." You groaned, seeing the notification that he had sent you yet another cute baby fever inspiring tiktok.

"What" He hummed all innocent from where he laid next to you in bed, your leg draped over one of his. "Just thought it was cute is all."

"Yeah, uh huh." You grumble, feeling the tug to want to have a baby filling you too as you watched a compilation of cute little baby sneezes.

"maybe a baby wouldn't be so bad...the girls want a baby siblings anywa-" he interrupts you with his mouth hungerly attacking yours, body pressed on top of yours.

He is the type of man to let you sit on his back while he does pushups, only if you ask nicely.

You sat in your home gym, watching you husband stretch his glorious mouthwatering muscles when he inevitably caught you staring. "see something you like, babydoll?" he teased, making your face warm.

"Maybe I do..." you trailed off, remembering something your friend said she did with her boyfriend at the time. "Can I sit on your back when you do push ups?"

he raised a brow, eyeing you before shrugging "If you ask nicely, I'll think about it."

"Please Sugu?" You hummed, batting your eyelashes.

And that's how you found yourself sitting on his back, feeling the same muscles you were drooling over flex and work under you. let's just say you were craving some other kind of workout...

he's the type of man that secretly enjoys domestic moments, it feeds the lighter side of his soul just right.

Nothing is better than walking into the house after a mission with Satoru and his partner to see his favorite girls snuggled up on the couch.

it was late, and the twins were passed out despite boasting they could stay up to see Suguru. You look over the two sleeping bodies of your babies and send your husband a small tired smile as he stalks over.

First he plants a kiss on the girls heads, before pressing one to your lips. "I'll help you get the girls to bed, then we cuddle, hm?"

Is the type of man to make you think he doesn't like physical affection as much as you do, but he goes feral for it.

"You know babe, you never really initiate contact all that much." you had told him one day, completely out of the blue as the two of you made breakfast together.

"You're the clingier one between us two." he teased back, shrugging in mock nonchalance.

You huff, a playful tease slipping past your lips "Fine then, I won't initiate it anymore."

he thinks he can last, that he won't care.

It takes all of two hours for him to be attached at your hips, hands squeezing and kneading your hips and thighs while he lips attack your neck...

Yuuta Okkotsu (aged up ver)

is the type of man to bend to your every whim; the word "no" is just not in his vocabulary when it comes to you.

"Baaaby" you drawl out, your draped across his chest, arms encircling his neck at about 2 in the morning. It's dark as hell in your shared room, and he only groans.

"Yes princess?" he mumbles, sleepiness evident in the way he was speaking.

" 'm hungry." you pout, tugging on his sleeve to get him awake "wanna get ice cream?"

He groans, the word "no" on the tip of his tongue, but once he cracks open a tired eye and sees you pouting at him, it dies and is instead replaced with an "of course princess, let me get changed." He slowly slides your body off his to get his wallet and pants.

He's the type of man that never lets you pay for a single thing ever, his bank account is yours to use.

You were shopping with a few friends, pulling Yuta around with you as you and your friends squealed to one another about cute clothes and the cute boys they saw. You mostly stayed quiet at that regard, fussing at your boyfriend for carrying your bags.

Your friends were slightly jealous, eyeing your free hands because their own partners couldn't come and hold their bags.

"Maybe some new shoes?" You asked your friends, nodding as you went in, tried some on, and decided on this pretty new sandals.

When you went to pay, Yuuta scoot in and gave them his card instead. You cooed, kissing his cheek "Yuu, you didn't have too!"

Your friends cooed too, making him blush and squirm. "Shhh, just let me pay."

Yuuta is the type of man to carry you because your heels hurt your feet-even after he warned you this would happen.

"Yuu baby." you pouted, shifting your weight to a different foot every other minute, the poor appendages throbbing as you took another step.

"Your heels hurting you baby?" He hummed softly, arms circling around your waist and lifting you up. The relief was almost instant, his other arm going to lift your legs.

"My princess needs carried hm?" he teased lightly, and you giggle while pressing your lips to his cheek.

"My knight in shining armor." You giggled, shaking your head. "What would I do without you?"

"Having to walk in heels I told you not to wear." He huffed back, still walking the path home. He laughed when you lightly hit his shoulder, pouting.

"Didn't have to say told you so!" you huff

The type of man that would absolutely punch someone in the face for bothering you. He may not look the part, but he is your scary dog privileges.

You and Yuuta had decided that going out to the local bar with your shared friends was a good idea, to celebrate a mission well done. You were sat up at the bar with Maki, while Yuuta and Toge sat at the table your group at previously claimed as your own when you all had entered.

There were some other college kids, already drunk off their asses when you had entered. They were a rowdy group, and the boys had their eyes on them the entire time.

As the two boys conversed, they had failed to see the boys make their way over to you and Maki.

"Hey beautifuls." one man slurred, throwing an arm around Maki while his friend stood awfully close to you. Maki was having none of it, shoving the man off her and grabbing your hand.

"Back off creeps." she hissed, clenching your hand in silent reassurance. The other man that had stood next to you put his hand on your thigh, making squeak out "I have a boyfriend!"

maki immediately looked over, ready to punch the guy for you when the sleeve of Yuuta's shirt appeared, his hand grabbing the collar of the guy.

"Hands. Off." he basically growled the words, and the man immediately backed off.

"S-Sorry man, thought she was single!" he yelped, both him and his friend scuttling off afer he let go and wrapped his arms around you.

"Let's head home baby." nodding to maki, he grabbed your hand and started leading you out.

The type of man to absolutely match with you. Whether it's phone cases, profile pictures, clothes, necklaces. He really doesn't care.

"hey Princess." he hummed, brushing against you in his matching shirt. It was cheesy, an "I <3 my girlfriend" t shirt while yours said "i <3 my boyfriend."

"hey bubs." you hum, pressing a kiss to his cheek. "What's up?"

"Just got you a lil something." pushing your hair back, he put a necklace on, clasped it, and let the chain fall against your neck.

Looking down with a furrowed brow, you let out a tiny giggle as the small silver name of "Yuuta" written in cursive shone dimly in the light.

"Have one of your name too. So we match." he almost giggled the words against your neck, and you sighed happily.

"So sweet for me baby, thank you." you really did love the gift.

Masamichi Yaga

is the type to keep your marriage a secret for your own safety...and conveniently forgetting to tell you about that little tidbit.

"Honey" You called as you entered through the front door of your shared house, giddy and excited to tell him about an encounter you had with a teacher at his school.

"Yeah?" he called back to you, sitting on the couch and fiddling with a new puppet, his eyes flicking up to you instead. Noticing your giddy smile, he tilted his head.

"You'll never believe who I saw when I was shopping!" You placed the bags down on the coffee table, putting off the task of putting them away for a moment. "Gojo! He was so sweet, i don't think he knew we were married."

"Oh, how silly of him." He had neglected to tell you that well...you were his well-kept little secret. No one knew about you but Panda, who was like a child to you despite his unique appearance.

"Mhm, but he invited me to see Panda train with the other second years, how nice!"

he nodded, a light scowl. "That's wonderful honey, I'm sure he'll be thrilled to see you."

Gojo was going to be one hell of a headache.

Masamichi is the type of man to do all the chores you hate around the house, even if he doesn't like doing them either.

You had just gotten back from the school where your husband worked at, watching your son train with his other classmates when you hear the dishes clinking and Masa humming.

Walking into the kitchen, you had tilted your head as you saw your tall, muscular, rather intimidating husband putting away the now clean dishes.

"Masa baby?" You called out, a small smile on your face as you leaned on the wall. He let out a small hum of acknowledgement, waiting till he placed the last dish where it should be before turning to you and opening his arms for you.

You walked into them without a second thought, his thick arms wrapping around your waist. "Thought you didn't like unloading the dishwasher?" You hummed, looking up at him.

he simply shrugged his shoulders, lifting you up to place a kiss on your lips "Know you don't like doing it either, thought I might as well."

You coo at the thoughtful action, and placed a kiss on his cheek. "thank you my love."

He's the type to introduce you to every puppet, making sure they're nice and gentle with you every time.

"C'mere my love." he waved you over, you had just stepped out of the shower, hair wet against your back. You were dressed up in his shirt as you sat down on the bed next to him, curious.

Pleasantly, he showed you his newest creation. The puppet was small, the body of the puppet was your favorite color as it stared up at you from his hands.

"Awe, what a cutie." you cooed to the little thing, and it seemed to purr at your words, tumbling off his hand and into your lap to cuddle up.

He pouted, muttering a "traitor" before shaking his head "I think they like you more than me."

"Must have good taste then." you laughed lightly, scooping up the puppet and pressing a kiss to the top of it's head.

"Do I get a kiss?" he hummed, snuggling up to you just like his creation had.

"I suppose." You hummed, pressing a kiss to his lips only for the little puppet to punch the creation, almost pouting in your hands.

"Hey!" He huffed as your laughter broke the kiss, looking down at the small puppet like it stabbed him in the back.

He's the type to look so mean, but is so soft with you.

You were sat in the rocking chair stationed in your living room, some meaningless show playing on the flatscreen for ambience. You were knitting a scarf for Panda, the cold season approaching quickly. Which led you wanting to make some for his friends too, knowing Maki and Yuta couldn't have home knitted scarves to keep them warm when your husband burst in.

His head swiveled, trying to find you. You could hear the sigh he let out when he found you, sitting on the ground next to your legs. Placing a gentle kiss to your knee, he let out another sigh.

"Hello my darling." you spoke softly, placing down your knitting materials to rub his head. he hummed tiredly at the action, leaning into your touch. "Rough mission?"

he nodded, "But I'm home now."

"You're home." You assented sweetly as he laid his head against your leg.

"Now help me knit these scarves for Panda's friends."

He's the type of man to put a lot of importance on birthdays and anniversaries, always making sure he has a clear schedule for them.

You woke up to an empty bed, something that wasn't entirely unusual when it came to your husband. Though you felt a twinge of hurt, normally he was here.

Pulling yourself from the warmed sheets, you slipped on your house shoes and through on a robe, walking to the kitchen to make coffee and breakfast when hands went around your waist and spun.

"Happy birthday baby!" Masamichi cooed down to you, pressing a lasting kiss to you cheek because your mouth was too preoccupied giggling up a storm.

"Thought you went to work?" You spoke in-between your giggles, arms wrapping around his thick neck and pressing your own kiss to his cheek.

"And have you spend your birthday with just Panda? I could never my love." he peppered kisses against all the skin he could, shaking his head. "My pretty spouse deserves much better than that. Now c'mon, we're going out to breakfast."

All in all, these men are the type to love you so completely no matter what you look like <3

[p1utofairy]

PAC: “good karma my aesthetic. keep my conscience clear, that's why i’m so magnetic.” 🩰🍥🫧🪷

• what do you need to hear right now?

disclaimer ✩: take what resonates, leave what doesn't. i really appreciate y’all sm <3 for the patience, the love, the feedback and support. y’all are the greatest ever. i’m open to pac suggestions as well, so don’t hesitate to slide in my ask box! xoxo.

pile 1 ☂️ —

heyyy pile 1 ⭐️ what you need to hear right now is: release. relax and let go of any unhealthy attachments you may have to a certain person, place, idea or thing. i think you've been holding onto someone/something or the idea of what it could be/could’ve been. i pick up a feeling of yearning. you’ve been wanting something to work out in your favor, so you’ve been holding out…waiting to see if this situation will turn out how you anticipate. big 3 of wands energy. you’ve been waiting awhile now (i’m hearing weeks for some, months for others) for a clear answer. i think the more you wait around and stall things, the less likely things will go into motion. don’t chase, attract. remember that things will flow naturally to you and it’ll always work out in your favor no matter what — when one door shuts, several more will open. don’t put a time frame on it, you’ll get your answer/wish/clarity when you least expect. keep focusing on yourself and what you’re currently doing! whether that be going to school, work, the gym, studying, spending time with friends, etc. there’s a certain area in your life that you greatly want change to occur in, i’m heavily picking up for some that this is in regards to your love life, and again — i keep hearing that things will unfold in your favor when you least expect. very soon. you’re on the brink of something great, just don’t overthink it. relax, take a breath and just BE. your guides will handle the rest. love, prosperity and abundance are on the way to you. it just may not appear in the way you envision, which doesn’t mean it won’t happen at all. think about it this way, you might fantasize about coming across your dream person while you’re in a bookstore (on some ‘harry met sally’ type shit lol) so every time you go into a bookstore you’re kinda anticipating that to happen, but let’s say your busy at work or you’re frantically trying to prioritize doing your school work and studying and out of nowhere you look up and make eye contact with this person you’ve never seen before but you can feel the ✨vibe✨ like WHOA that’s…my person. i just see you being in your element when you meet this person pile 1, your mind will not be preoccupied/you will not have any precognitive thoughts — your person will just reveal themselves to you out of the blue. okay i feel like i’m getting carried away lol but everything’s gonna work out even better than you imagined pile 1 💗 trust that.

other channeled messages:

don't settle for less, pink + white by frank ocean, strawberry milkshake, chemtrails over the country club by lana del rey, leo sun, cancer moon, vedic astrology

pile 2 🦢 —

what's goodddd pile 2! i feel like you're in your self-love/healing era. you just bounced back from something and you did it with such resilience, ease and grace might i add. i'm hearing church girl by beyoncé, “i'm gonna love on me, nobody can judge me but me! i was born free.” okayyyyyy pile 2 i love this for y'all. i think some of you are really working on strengthening your throat chakra by speaking up for yourself and setting boundaries. just saw a meme that said “how i reclaimed the word ‘cunt’ by being one” OH WOW WOW WOW. i think you’re just over a lot of people and their bullshit, you may have just gotten out of a relationship, had a friendship breakup or recently left a job. good for you 💗whichever situation applies to you, i know it was draining and heavy on your shoulders. you finally feel like a weight has been lifted and you can spread your wings and be free. idk why i’m hearing some of you might be listening to a lot of lana del rey lately? (random but REAL af lol) i love that you know yourself at the core pile 2, you can’t fake it…if somethings not pleasing you or it’s not in your best interest, you know how to walk away and find something better. you don’t even know it, but you're inspiring to a lot of people. i think what you need to hear is: keep being your true authentic self. never forget where you came from and who helped you along the way, because i see that you have a big, bright and successful future ahead of you pile 2. you’re gonna be a star. “the diamond in the rough” from aladdin is what i’m hearing. you’ve got the wit, talent and empathy to get where you need to be in life. i wish you nothing but happiness and success pile 222 ♾️

other channeled messages:

hurricane by bridgit mendler, switch a n**** out by summer walker, olivia pope, sagittarius rising, cancer moon, pisces energy, save your tears remix by the weeknd & ariana grande, on my shoulders by sabrina claudio, red dress

pile 3 💵 —

hi pile 3 🤗 i’m getting rich vibes from y’all already lmfao, even if you aren’t (yet) there’s this energy of being very well-kept and liking the nicer things in life. you love you some good ol’ retail therapy. the message you need to hear right now is: spend your money wisely. i think you need to budget/save a bit more pile 3, you can sometimes go a bit overboard and indulge in the latest clothes, upscale restaurants or beauty products. you like nice things!!! there’s nothing wrong with that at all, you just need to make sure you’re prioritizing and balancing your earnings. some of you that picked this pile have very young energy lol like i can see you chilling at like 12am scrolling on youtube/tiktok and ooo’ing and aaa’ing at so many different product reviews and adding shit to your cart. some of you are tempted to buy stuff from the tiktok shop too lolll that was so oddly specific but i also feel like you've been big on protecting your peace lately. kickin’ back by mila j is coming to mind, “i’m kickin' back and i’m lightin' up doin' what the fuck i want. just rolled a wood, i’m feelin' good. just me, myself and this blunt.” i know das rightttt pile 3 🤭 you know your worth and you’re not settling for less than anything that you deserve — i love this.

other channeled messages:

luxurious by gwen stefani, need to know by doja cat, i just had an epiphany i need to go to tiffany’s, fenty gloss bomb, chanel chance, scorpio moon, catching flights not feelings

[earl-grey-orange-tabby]

my aftg fan cast

disclaimers:

a lot of these, especially in the next part, aren’t actors, so this is less a fancast and more of a “i have a horrible imagination and need to visualize characters so they feel more real to me” list

if they don’t look like what you picture, agree to disagree! i love seeing other ppl’s perspectives of what the characters look like and i hope you do too

without further ado,

neil josten - benjamin wadsworth

okay listen just because i picked the most used neil fancast DOES NOT MEAN THE REST OF THIS LIST IS BORING!!! he’s just so neil-coded to me in deadly class! i even put him into a photo editing app to change his hair and eye color and he still fits!!! plus the top right pic is exactly how i imagine a nathaniel smile.

andrew/aaron minyard - vlad konoplev

i’m gonna give credit to @kalu_aftg on tiktok for this, because i saw this actor in their tik tok. he’s in a russian series called my biggest secret (i watched a couple clips but i haven’t seen the show)

but come on!!!! this is andrew minyard!!!! and always with andrew fancasts it’s difficult to see them as aaron but i feel like this could go both ways, especially in the bottom right pic. identical, but different vibes, yk?

dan wilds - kiersey clemons

i first saw kiersey clemons in new girl as kc and she feels so dan! then i saw the pic on the top left and i was like YES! this. is. dan. she seems very sweet and friendly but i know she could give a great game face.

nicky hemmick - conor husting

even his pics give off major nicky vibes. he also has a very similar hair length to what i picture nicky with. fun fact: he’s also half-mexican on his mother’s side which is strangely accurate lol!!

allison reynolds - jessica lord

i’m gonna be honest i just searched up “blond actresses 20’s” and that top left photo popped up and it was just so so so allison!! i included a couple pics of her in the ballet movie “find me in paris” because i couldn’t find a lot of pics of any of these actors in active wear and this felt close enough.

kevin day - nicholas galitzine

honestly i got this idea from an instagram live he did where he was yelling about being 6 foot and my brain was like “that is kevin day IN THE FLESH”. i originally saw him in bottoms and he totally cracked me up.

matt boyd - daniel ezra

like come on!!! his smile is so bright and inviting, it gives off such strong matt energy. he played spencer james in all-american and i haven’t watched it but ive seen ppl say good things. bonus: he’s the only one i could find with any form of a face guard (even tho nick galitzine also played a football player in bottoms lol)

renee walker - sydney park & lana condor

okay SO my criteria was soft-looking people that can look sharp in other pictures, and i came up with these two! it’s kinda hard to picture renee without the pastel/white hair but let’s suspend disbelief.

seth gordon - young david beckham

speaking of suspending disbelief, LMAOO. just hear me out, okay. seth was a fifth year, slightly older than the rest of them, so i was looking for that + blond buzz cut and this is the result!

and that’s all! i have more so i’ll probably make a part two, but im having trouble finding a nathan because it’s so hard NOT to picture nathan as a redhead but that means he probably won’t look like benjamin wadsworth.

[toomuchracket]

How are older (daddy) Matty and his dirty hit assistant gf doing? How did things progress after the lana del Rey night?

someone else also said (He would HATE this) but more daddy Matty when u can pls! I read the first one on my lunch break and I am a changed woman

you guys are good! i think your relationship has gotten a bit more serious, especially since matty stepped down from his creative director role at dh and there's less of a potential conflict-of-interest thing around you guys (although, techically, because you're jamie's assistant there wasn't really a weird "oh my boss is taking advantage of me" thing at all. and let's be real, you're the one keeping that company running by making sure jamie knows what's happening, so you probably outranked matty anyway lol). but anyway, you and matty are going on holidays together just the two of you, you're spending a lot of time at each other's houses - he has a drawer for his stuff in your bedroom, and you've got a section in his wardrobe for yours - and he's plucking up the courage to admit to you that he's in love with you :')) basically, the relationship is going extremely well.

in terms of the d word, you've both agreed that it's not a thing you'll necessarily use all the time - i think given the age gap, and matty's hatred of being cliché lol, it's something that you reserve for especially sexy occasions, times when you're feeling especially raunchy and just want it to be a bit more... not rough, as such, but more of a definite dom/sub vibe than usual. like, sometimes matty will instigate sex and say to you "d'you want to be daddy's good girl tonight?", and you'll know he's feeling the need to be a bit more clearly in control - generally, you're down for this when he is.

the last time it was said, though, it was you instigating. you'd been feeling quite needy all day, and i think you were sent a bit over the edge by the sight of matty in your bedroom wearing a fancy suit but looking slightly undone. and you just kinda sidled up to him while he was doing his cufflinks, and whispered "looking good, daddy" in his ear, smirking when you heard his breath hitch. and i think matty just gently grabbed your jaw and went "you're feeling needy, yeah, princess? what do you want?", and you nodded and said "want to get on my knees" and matty was like "jesus christ... alright then, baby, get on your knees for daddy, then". so you did, and started undoing matty's belt while he played with your hair - he was hard as soon as you called him daddy, let's be honest - and looked up at him for approval to pull down his boxers, and the obedience genuinely made matty almost lose it then and there, like he was fighting to keep control when he said "good girl. take me out, you know what to do". and you did as he asked, taking his cock in your hand before letting some of your spit fall onto his tip and working it down his length a few times, matty watching you the whole time and moaning quietly. and then you looked up at him again and went "can i take you in my mouth now, daddy?" and matty was like "please, princess, need you to suck me off", and he could actually feel his heart grow as you smiled so excitedly before you kissed his tip and wrapped your lips around his cock. and you were so good, taking him as deep in your throat as you could, using your hands to work on the sections you couldn't suck, moaning around him as he threaded his hand into your hair and gently controlled your pace; matty was LOUD, groaning at how good your mouth felt on his cock, praising you like "so good, SO good for daddy, princess. taking my cock so perfectly, good girl, gonna make me cum. you want that - want me to cum in that pretty mouth?", and you looked at him a bit teary and just whined what was clearly "please" around him, and the feeling of it on his cock genuinely sent matty over the edge and made him cum in your mouth with possibly THE sexiest groan you'd ever heard. and you kept him in your mouth until you were sure he was finished, proudly opening it to show him all his cum on your tongue before swallowing - that earned you another groan and a "fucking perfect girl", matty stroking your hair as you both panted and recovered for a second. and then i think he pulled you up off your (sore) knees to kiss you and say "such a good girl for daddy, princess, as always. gonna let me return the favour?" - and that's the story of how you guys were two hours late to george's birthday party lol <3

[startreatment]

literally no one asked, but i'm listening to midnights in full (again) to see if my opinion's changed so! a little track by track review!

lavender haze - i got it the first time. nothing bad to say about this track tbh! really like the melodies, it's catchy and feels fresh and new. well, it kinda reminds me of false god in a sense? maybe it's just the sultry nature of the track. 8/10

maroon - this fuck ass song. the metaphors are giving "high schooler trying to write poetry" at times, the chorus is just. . . no, thank you! earlier on twitter i said that it feels like too much and not enough at the same time? her vocals are clearly the focus, but i don't particularly enjoy the melodies on this one, so. . . don't like the production either actually! it's kinda like afterglow but worse in every way to me. the outro's nice though, i love her voice! still i skip it every time it comes on shuffle and roll my eyes every time i see maroon praise on the tl. 4/10

anti-hero - actually a lot better than i remember! that sexy baby line still catches me off guard every time tho. the bridge is very funny TO ME! i kinda see the vision now i think. maybe! idk. the verses are kinda there, don't really do anything for me (which is actually a problem with most track on this record, now that i think about it). nonetheless it's like a 7/10

snow on the beach - genuinely a great track, even though i never get the urge to listen to it. love how dream-like and hazy and Cold it sounds! like a particularly frosty night in the middle of december. it's a very purple track as well, if you know what i mean. i like it! some of the lyrics are questionable ("life is emotionally abusive" is just not it for me SORRY).

ALSO the "weird but fucking beautiful" part is incredibly annoying to me . . .something about it is so lana that i just can't stomach it, it makes me physically cringe. when i do listen to the song, it's always the clean version lol. also i just couldn't give less of a shit about lana and i'm glad she didn't get a verse! 8.5/10 tho, a beautiful track.

you're on your own, kid - i get what she was going for, and if it weren't for jack i would've loved this one a lot more bc lyrically and vocally it's very very nice! unfortunately they both hate me. oh well! 8/10

midnight rain - love the concept, but the execution could've been wayyyy better tbh. lyrically it's a bit corny at times and production-wise it's nothing to write home about, but it's not outrageously horrible, so i guess a 6/10?

question...? - i have the bad taylor swift songs enjoyer gene so TO ME this isn't half as bad as everyone makes it out to be. the bridge is meh, but the melodies are very fun! lyrically, it's kinda all over the place, but i still get it . 7/10

vigilante shit - look. didn't i just say i have the bad ts songs enjoyer gene? it could've been in my top 5 if the production was even a tiny bit interesting. lyrically? it's atrocious. unbelievably corny, this weird mixture of edgy and awkward only taylor can achieve. in other words, PERFECT !!! it kind of reminds me of lwymmd, if lwymmd was like 3 times less cunty and camp, and like 10 times less interesting production-wise. vocally, she delivers though! very sexy, playful and fun!!! we could've had it all!! jack had other plans, i guess. 6/10

bejeweled - really fun. one of my favs since day one, actually! loooove the production on this one! the synth (? i don't know shit about instruments btw) makes me think of those 3-in-a-row games and it's just Perfect! love those "nice!" moments, love the chorus, love the bridge. in the famous words of Taylor Nation, let's reclaim the land, uk swifties! 8/10

labyrinth - too boring, sorry. i've seen someone say that if this song were on folklore, swifties would "give it the attention it deserves", and i couldn't disagree more. it's just not It lyrically, sorry. 5/10. SORRY. genuinely don't understand why she put this on the record instead of something like would've, could've, should've, or the great war or even glitch (which would make the bejeweled -> karma transition seamless. do you guys think we'll ever get a solid ts album tracklist that makes sense? i doubt it.)

karma - again, i got it the first time. verses are boring and if i could, i'd only listen to the chorus+the bridge, but it's still soooooo FUNNNN!!! like. karma is a cat purring in my lap cause it loves me. that chorus melody is Insane and her vocal delivery is top notch. she's a pop mastermind. 8/10 only because the verses suck otherwise this would've been a 10 and i mean it. i like pop music a lot btw.

sweet nothing - really sweet. doesn't make me feel like i'm slipping into a coma, unlike labyrinth. beautiful piano, beautiful melodies! like a 7/10 maybe. should've been a tad shorter i think.

mastermind - i wish it didn't suck this bad production-wise. i think the concept's really fun - a song about being a mastermind from a woman known to leave easter eggs everywhere she goes. the idea of working hard behind the scenes trying to construct a perfect love story for you and your lover... i get it. unfortunately, it's also . . . boring. 5/10.

not gonna do the 3am tracks and hits different because they're all great and i don't feel like writing out "this has great lyrics!" 7 times in a row. i do have to say that dear reader is the worst thing ever because JACK ANTONOFF. like it just makes me want to throw up how much i like the lyrics and how shitty the song sounds. goddamit.

it's a 6.7, according to my calculator!

[lucero-is-here]

*ROLLS IN ON THOSE SPINNY OFFICE CHAIRS, WEARING A BLACK SUIT WITH RAINBOW POLKA DOTS AND A MATCHING BOWTIE*

HELLO LADIES GENTLEMEN AND FO-

*FALLS DOWN-*

COMMERCIAL BREAK-

Okay everything good-? Good great- BACKS AWAY FROM CAMERA-

Ladies, gentlemen and folks! It’s headcanon time! Presenting the one, the only…Drum roll please!

Lindsay Bannister!

Requested by:

She appeared in on case as a victim, and yet she slayed some way or another! And now, lights camera…And ACTION! TW: drinking, addiction

(And yes I have a couple requests at the moment- and it’s gonna take me time to post all of them so please forgive me if your request isn’t taken yet)

- she wears heels a lot. Her entire shoe cabinet is just- heels after heels after heels.

- pansexual. She doesn’t really seem to care who she’s dating as long as they seem to love her.

- she’s this really sweet person. If she hurts or upset anyone in any way, she tries to make up for it. She really does.

- she likes the stars. She’d stare at them all night long…They were the one thing that gave her a peace of mind.

- gets little to no sleep. The last time she slept properly, she got 3 hours of sleep. Most of the time she only gets an hour or two. Or no sleep at all.

- doesn’t eat much. Besides how much she drinks- She really doesn’t eat a lot. She prefers it that way, as she gets drunk faster when she doesn’t eat before drinking.

- if she was real, she’d probably listen to Lana Del Rey, Rio Romeo and maybe a but of TV Girl but I’m not sure.

- she gets really defensive at times. Especially when someone points out her drinking and possible addiction to alcohol. She starts saying why she does it and just seems to get really panicked.

- started as a child actor, grows up and becomes who she is now.

- (angst) she was homeschooled her entire life. She never got the opportunity to talk to other kids her age while growing up, and was isolated to prevent her from getting “distracted” from acting.

- (angst) she wanted to be a teacher when she was younger. She wanted to teach kids music or art…She wanted to be a music teacher.

- she really likes fairytales. Especially the ones with happy endings, where they fall in love and get married. She could read those for hours on end and never get bored…She wants a happy ending like those characters too.

- her favourite story was probably Cinderella. She watched the disney movie, and was charmed by the animation and how lovely it was. She really liked Cinderella’s dress too. She thought Cinderella was pretty, but wondered where Cinderella’s ears went lol.

- she can dance. She can dance really well. She practiced a lot of dance moves, studied all kinds of dances from tango to ballet…and yeah. She can dance so well.

- she likes theme parks. Her favourite is definitely the carousel. She likes the little horses, she likes how pretty they look, and she loves how gorgeous and well decorated the carousel is.

- she wanted to be a mom. She wanted to have a kid or adopt a kid.

- she likes kids. Kids found her really pretty, and she liked being around them. She found kids really sweet.

- her hair gets tangled every now and then. She usually tries to brush it out, but it doesn’t really work. She gets her friends to help her sometimes.

- she has one or two close friends. She knows they aren’t with her just for her fame or money, because they’ve been with her since she was a child. Cause they all worked together as child actors and somehow kept in contact.

- (angst) she hated how she became an actor. She never wanted to be an actor. She never imaged being an actor to be so exhausting and mentally draining. She hates herself for who she has become. Yet she doesn’t know how to change.

- she likes bubblegum.

- she likes hydrangeas. She thinks they are so so pretty, and really likes them.

That’s all for now. I really love Lindsay’s design and how she is presented kinda. If I think of more, I’ll post a part 2.

[heavnwithu]

long time not much talk!

hello, I’ve been inactive for about a year now. So much has changed. I’m 19, I’ve been living my life pretty freely. I’ve been going out a lot with my friends, drinking, 🚬, and doing a few things worse than that lol. No sex tho, my body is off limits I think it’s just a personal thing I don’t want to do anytime soon.

I saw Lana when she came to Dallas 9.19.23 and that was a moment I will never forget, ever. Total sob fest for my beautiful friends and I.

This is what I look like now!! Really the only good pics I have of me, I don’t take many. I’m blocking out my coworkers for their privacy.

I find it really crazy how my style changed so much the past two years. I kinda resent my old coquette self because I was at such a dark space and I feel so much better wearing black and having piercings. My music taste is very different too, I love hardcore metal and rap. I still love a lot of the things I was into when I was coquette though, lana being one of them.

If you stumble upon this and decide to read it thank you!! If not I understand. Love you all🐇🖤

[evilpenguinrika]

Like when I decided to have Leo become an Archer/Bard, I too, have caved and decided Hayley should pick up being a Rogue along with her Monk job (you can read more about my Hosie/Hosie fankids FFXIV AU here and here // alternatively, for the non-AU Hosie/Hosie fankids lore, you can find the post about the kiddos here!)

I was kind of bumbling around wondering about what other class/jobs my Hosie fankids would have other than the ones I've listed in the first post I wrote and the more I thought about it, the more things change. Like I definitely changed my mind on a few things since writing the first post. Like Josie and Jay picking up Blue Mage (Siphoner reasons), Hope and Lana picking up Dark Knight (Vampire/Tribrid reasons), Hope picking up Red Mage (probably also Witch/Tribrid reasons), Lana picking up the new Viper Job (also Tribrid reasons but also it's such a cool looking job and I cannot wait--like the demonstration video for Viper looked SO COOL AND IT REALLY FITS LANA FOR WHAT I HAVE PLANNED BUT ANYWAYS--I am a bit surprised I haven't thought about any magic-casting jobs for Lana since you know, Tribrid as well like mom Hope). But I won't go too much in-depth about that since this post is about Hayley.

And then I decided to write a Hosie Final Fantasy XIV AU fic that I'm still working on and will hopefully post before October ends (especially because I have decided to try out NaNoWriMo for the first time ever so that'll be fun) and--

I don't know how it came to be, but when I was writing the scene where Hope is looking for a young Hayley at home, Hayley was being all sneaky and trying to surprise attack her mom Hope. And I was scratching my head writing that scene because I was like "wait I have her be a Pugilist/Monk in this AU why is she being sneaky sneaky?". But the more I wrote and thought about it, the more it just felt right that Hayley would also be more of the sneaky-sneak type in fights/battles along with her typical "imma come at ya full-on". And the more I thought about it, the more I was like:

"Okay, no yeah. This could work. Even if Hayley is very much a charge right into the front lines, she would also be able to take a step back and actually survey everything and probably be very good with certain activities that require stealth. Like maybe Hope and Josie try to explain to Hayley that charging in head-first isn't always a good idea. And maybe Hayley learned other ways to fight from her aunts and uncles or grandparents too. So maybe having her pick up the Rogue class would make sense."

Like maybe (like with Leo learning how to fight with weapons from grandpa Alaric) Hayley also goes to gramp's Alaric for weapon training since he has a plethora of weapons or something and probably would ask him and even mom Hope to fight with them since she's mainly ever used her fists. And maybe that would be a segway into teaching Hayley that sometimes it's better to look at a battle from a different angle and not charge in guns a blazing.

The only issue that I'm kinda 50/50 about is that once I reach lvl30 for Rogue, the Job that opens up for this class is Ninja. I'm not entirely sure if Hayley being a Ninja would fit her personality-wise (especially in my Hosie/Hosie fankids headcanon, Jay is an anime/manga fan lol). I think I'll just have to futz around and wait and see if I want to do that or not. If I don't have her be Ninja, I would be lacking in a lot of attacks and abilities and would be at a huge disadvantage. So I'm not entirely too sure. I mean, then again, I think maybe Rogue could just be a secondary class that I just won't play as much compared to Monk since it would just fit better like that.

I don't know. We'll see.

But anyways, also when I logged into the game as Hayley (haven't logged in as her in a long while), I got some new outfits and decided to wear em even though the stats aren't great for battle (the gloves and vest are new--didn't put on the new pants or boots because I wasn't a fan of the look on Hayley). Will have to glamour them once I'm at a high enough level to wear good gear. Because this outfit does feel fitting lol

[infernal-feminae-archived]

Send ♫ and I’ll make a small playlist for our muses!

@e-m-p-error​​ said:  ♫ (Val and Nifty or Vaggie!)

Play Date - Melanie Martinez

You call me on the telephone, you feel so far away You tell me to come over, there's some games you want to play I'm walking to your house, nobody's home Just me and you and you and me alone

Cry Baby - The Neighborhood

I think I talk too much I need to listen, baby I need to listen, baby I need to listen good I think I try too hard How I look, what I do, what I'm sayin', ah I spend too much time explainin' myself I hope there's some time to change it

Lolita - Lana del Ray

I could be yours, I could be your baby tonight Topple you down from your sky forty stories high Shining like a God, can't believe I caught you and so Look at what I bought, not a second thought, oh, Romeo

They haven’t interacted that much yet but based on our conversations together for possible future threads, they do be giving me these kinda vibes lol

SORRY PAPI - Bad Bunny ft. Abra

Sorry, papi Yo no soy tu mami Yo, yo hago lo que yo quiera Y también tengo lo mío en la cartera

English translation.

Womanizer - Britney Spears

Look at you gettin' more than just a re-up Baby, you got all the puppets with their strings up Fakin' like a good one but I call 'em like I see 'em I know what you are, what you are, baby

Vegas - Doja Cat

Yeah, yeah, said (you ain't nothin' but a) I get it, I know you got some other- you wanted I get it, you needed someone that could prove you wrong So I reckon, you leave all of your problems at the door to my city You gon' need to tell my brothers where you from And I admit it, I still got empathy And you gon' feel it for two weeks When I release you in them streets (you ain't nothin' but a) And keep my nina in discrete, keep the cleanin' my Jeep And put that Yeezy in your teeth, let my demons off they leashes If you even think to speak I'ma give a whole new meaning When you said you live in a dream, we can keep that- asleep And you gon' laugh with all your Gs Countin' them sheep, sheep, sheep, sheep Talkin' 'bout Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z, R-I-P (you ain't nothin' but a)

Like with Niffty, I think we’re still getting a feel for them at this point, so this is just speculation and my own impression lmao XD

[margalitarry]

tomorrow never came | c.b

~❦~❦~❦~❦~❦~❦~❦~

i waited for you

in the spot you said to wait

in the city, on a park bench

in the middle of the pouring rain

warnings : none

word count : 0.5k

notes : inspired by lana’s song ofc <3 colby brock x reader, expect he’s a bitch in this kinda? lovers to strangers kinda idk lol

masterlist

~❦~❦~❦~❦~❦~❦~❦~

you sat down on a park bench, the skies were overcast followed by a constant wind.

it had been a little less than a month since you and colby brock had broken up. the breakup had been mutual, you wanted to transfer to a graduate school in new york but he wanted to stay in LA. although this was the first time you’d be seeing each other in person since you broke up.

you had texted last night and asked him if he wanted to meet you at the boardwalk you both often went to tomorrow. he had agreed, saying how it would be nice to see you again.

there was no denying you missed colby. you had spent every second awake reminiscing about your time together. listening to john lennon while cleaning up from the party the night before, helping film and edit for his and sam’s youtube channel for hours on end, and sitting together; talking on the very same bench you were sitting on right now.

so you patiently waited, you were ecstatic to see him again. although you both didn’t speak much since the breakup you never felt like you weren’t friends. he had told you he would always continue to support you as a friend.

you checked your phone to see if colby had texted or tried calling you at all, with no new messages. you tried to call him, being almost twenty minutes since you planned to meet, just for it to go to voicemail. with each minute passing you felt your heart and stomach sink deeper and deeper.

it had nearly been an hour before the overcast sky turned into a grey gloom. thousands of raindrops began to fall as quickly as the thoughts running through your head. you tried texting sam to see if everything was alright, to not get a response from him either.

standing up in your now drenched clothes, not even caring about how uncomfortable you had actually felt in them. you started to walk back to your car with the tears falling down your face being unnoticeable due to the rain.

you didn’t understand why he hadn’t shown up, had he forgotten? certainly not, it wasn’t like him to forget plans ever. you unfortunately knew something was an issue when sam wouldn’t even text you back.

colby stood up from the bench had been sitting at, forgetting his phone in the car. he hadn’t known how long he had been waiting, but long enough for the weather to change. he was awfully disappointed after you hadn’t shown up, hoping you were at the least okay.

he eventually retrieved his phone, letting his own heart drop into his stomach looking at a few missed calls and texts from you and sam asking where he was. he felt absolutely awful, not knowing how to reply to you.

so he didn’t reply, letting tomorrow never come.

[sugarylawliet]

no good for me (light yagami x reader)

i’m back lol

> warnings: smut, degradation, spit kink, inappropriate use of the death note, VERY toxic relationship, song fic kinda, lyrics are in bold and italics, based off of diet mountain dew by lana del ray

> tag list: @ygm1slt @cradiot28

❛ you’re no good for me, baby you’re no good for me ❜

Nothing on this earth scared you more than the man you were about to see; the pretty boy brunette flaunting good grades and a picturesque family life whose facade of ambitious, respectful young man was a mask almost no one could see through. Some people felt dread at the thought of spiders or snakes, felt fear in their stomach imagining the paranormal, shadow ghosts or criminal stalkers invading their comfort zones. None of these perfectly rational fears scared you the way Light Yagami scared you. There was no fear to be had at the thought of something undesirable creeping its way into your privacy or comfort zone, because Light had manipulated his way into your comfort and trust long ago. He was scarier than a murderer ready to kill at an urge’s call, his blood lust hid in shadows behind his golden boy facade, his words were tools and his touches were negotiations. You couldn’t trust a single thing that came from his mouth, you often questioned your own sanity. Light Yagami had a terrifying grip on you, and it was exactly what he wanted.

Your eyes scan over the text Light had sent you for the millionth time, the words almost ingrained in your head at this point.

Come to my house. We need to talk. 

You were sure he kept his words vague on purpose, yet another tactic to keep you at his disposal out of pure fear. You weren’t exactly sure if you loved Light anymore; what was your definition of love at this point? You loved him, yes, but was it out of obligation? Was it survival instinct?

It was true, in the beginning you had loved Light purely and truly. You believed his ambition was justice, to make the world a better and safer place for you. But as time went on, “Kira doesn’t kill innocents” began racking up more and more exceptions, and as the twisted justifications spilled from his mouth, so did the gaslighting. Over and over, his sweet words convinced you to keep coming back. His empty promises were a drug and you were addicted. 

His text, you were sure, was a reference to this fizzling out of your love for him. He could sense it, and surely he must have found out you were planning on leaving. You weren’t planning on revealing that he’s Kira- that would cause more commotion you were not interested in being a part of- no, you simply wanted to move states, get away and forget about Light Yagami, forget about Kira and Ryuzaki and Ryuk and everything that has overtaken your life. However, if he did find out your plans to skip town, you may just have to reveal that he’s Kira for safety measures.

❛ you’re no good for me, but baby i want you ❜

Hestiently, you opened the door you had been staring at blankly for what felt like hours. Light had been staying in an upscale hotel during the investigation, so maybe the other tenants could hear you if you screamed for help; the overdramatic thought brought you comfort. 

You walk in the room, closing the door behind you. You’re met with the sight of Light’s back as he sits in the rolling chair across the room. In the absence of any words, without even seeing his face, you know he’s mad. Every slight change of Light’s emotions could strangle a whole room by tension alone; his aura manipulated the feeling in the air, which served as a helpful alarm to know when he is upset. And man, is he upset.

You open your mouth to greet him, but he cuts you off, spinning around in his chair to face you, “Don’t talk.” You nod and close your mouth. Why do you even listen to what he says?

“I knew I couldn’t trust you. From the very beginning I knew you would run that pretty little mouth of yours. I know you’re planning on leaving. And then what? Telling the first news outlet you see that I’m Kira?”

“No Light,”

“I said don’t talk.” He stands up from his chair, “If you tell everyone, you’ll also have to tell on yourself. Imagine what everyone would think of you if they knew...You knew I was Kira and you still dated me, you defended me, you kept my secret, you even got on your knees for me. Are you gonna tell that to the media? That you let Kira fuck you?”

You purse your lips, restraining yourself from talking back. You knew it would only make things worse, but you couldn’t stand the way he talked down on you and expected you to take it. 

“Come here.” He motioned to his desk and you followed, sitting on his lap per his instruction. He placed the death note open on the desk, handing you the pen. With one hand gripping yours and the other on your hip, he began to guide your hand, the pen spilling out the first letter of your name on the pages.

❛ do you think we’ll be in love forever? ❜

“N-No, Light, you can’t do this, please.” You begged, your heart rate quickening as you realize what he was doing. It can’t end like this, it just can’t.

“Shhh, just write. That’s it, baby. This is what bad girls get, you see?” His death grip tightened on your hand as he spelled out your name, the last letters leering closer and closer before you could register the implications of what he was doing. This was it, this was really it.

Light lets his free hand wander up to your jawline, pulling your face closer to yours and enveloping you in a kiss as he wrote the last letter of your name. You shake your head with a whine, however he disregards your concerns and runs his hand on your upper thigh. 

“What’s the matter, Y/n? Don’t wanna spend your last moments with me?~” His nose kisses your neck, and the soft, sensual gestures almost make you forget your life was quite literally slipping away at every second that ticked by. 40 seconds. You had 40 seconds to do something.

You jump off of Light’s lap, reality rushing to your lungs as you felt your world closing in. Your pants become heavier, harsh air ripping through your throat as if they were the last breaths you would ever take because, well- they were.

Your head felt buzzing and dizzy as you fell to your knees, crawling towards Light who had spun around in his chair so his back was facing you; completely apathetic. After all you’ve been through together, after all you’ve done for him, nothing. Nothing at all. 

You crawl closer, grasping towards the notebook Light held in his hands, your weakness limiting your reach as anxiety stole your clearness of mind. He only  chuckles at your meek attempts to save your own life. Your head was racing as your nervousness blacked out everything in the room except for the little black notebook your boyfriend had a death grip on; ‘I’m running out of time, I’m going to die, I need the death note, I need to cross my name out, I need it I need it I need it I-’

“Goodbye, Y/N. You were fun to play with for a while.” Light kisses your nose with an arrogant smirk, peeling your hands off from his lap and wrists before checking his watch, signaling your last few seconds. 

You quit your pitiful attempts to grab the notebook and instead push yourself further and further away from Light until your back hit the wall, lacing your fingers tightly in your hair as you cried your last moments away. 

“5, 4, 3 2...” Light spoke.

“No no no no no, please god,” You cried out, squeezing your eyes shut in preparation for the pangs you would soon feel in your chest.

“1...”

And

Nothing.

You breathe. You let the air flood your lungs; it shouldn’t be possible. You dare to open your eyes, revealing the same scene. You, pathetically on the floor with tears down your face, Light before you in his chair with his head thrown back in a maniacal laugh. 

He tossed the death note down to you, like a dog being thrown a bone. You frantically grab it and flip to the newest page, your name scratched out with two thick lines. 

You were alive- no, he let you live.

❛ hit me my darling tonight, i don’t know why but i like it

“Well?” Light asks expectingly, standing up from his chair and kicking it to the side of the room. You look up at him questioningly, eyebrows furrowed in confusion as tears still brimmed your eyes from the just-curved anxiety attack.

“No ‘thank you’? I spared your life even after you betrayed me- lied to me. You’re so ungrateful.”

“I, I-” You found it difficult to shape your words with your hitching breath. You inhale deeply, eyes closed, calming down, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Light.”

Why were you even apologizing?

“I’m so sorry, please, just take me back. I’m sorry.” The words spilled from your mouth so quickly simply because they felt right. You needed to apologize, you did wrong, you need to be good. You wanted him back more than anything so you can be good.

❛ scary, my god, you’re divine ❜

“That’s right,” Light smiled, his voice softening unnaturally, “Now, how about you come over here and show me just how sorry you are.”

You hesitate for a second before crawling over to him. You sit obediently with your legs beneath your thighs on the floor in front of him.

“Mm, that’s my babygirl.” He pets your head affectionately, coherencing a smile from you. Despite everything he’s done, he always knew how to reel you back in. You needed the approval. You needed his approval.

You look up at him with puppydog eyes, to which he cocks his head to the side. “You know what I want.”

Nodding, you slowly unzipper his khaki pants and pull out his cock. You run your hand up and down, pumping it slowly. 

“Don’t be a fucking tease” Light scoffs, raking his fingers through your hair and forcing your mouth down onto him. That sweet, caring demeanor was gone in barley a second- of course it was. What were you expecting? It was a thinly veiled facade and you fell for it everytime without exception. 

Light groans, pushing your head further onto him as you try not to gag. You feel the tip of him hit the back of your throat as he thrusts into your mouth faster. “God, Y/N, you take my cock so well. Hah, if only the media could see you now. Poor little Y/N wants to run away from big bad Kira, meanwhile here she is on her knees for him, sucking him off like the dirty slut she is.”

He lets out a deep sigh before pulling out of your mouth. “Be useful for once and get on the bed.” He commands, bringing you to your feet with his strong grip on your hair and pushing you in the direction of the bed. You obey, sitting on the edge of the bed waiting for his next instruction.

Light slinks over to you, standing over your figure as his delicate fingers dance up your inner thigh. He takes off your skirt and slowly rubs your clit through the fabric of your panties.

“Mmm, Light, more...” You buck your hips up to meet his touch, his movements were agonizingly slow and you needed more friction.

“More?” At once he removes his hand from between your legs and grabs your face, your jaw in between the tight hold of his thumb and forefingers. “You want more, huh? You don’t get to make demands of me. You really think i’m gonna give you what you want after that stunt you pulled? Hah, I’m not letting you off that easy.”

You let out a whine, bucking your hips again asking to be touched.

“Aww, poor baby...” Light cooed, “Open up.” You obeyed, opening your mouth before Light brought your face closer to his, spitting in your mouth. “Now swallow.”

You do, earning a smirk from Light. “Mm, good girl. Good girls get rewarded.”

He pulls your panties aside before dipping two slender fingers inside you; wasting no time, he pumps them in and out frantically.

“Oh god Light, fuck,”

“You’re so wet for me Y/N, you like this, don’t you? I knew you would, such a dirty whore. You like when I treat you like this? You like being treated for the slut you are? God, you probably got wet when I almost killed you. It makes me hard, having you under my thumb like this, under my control...”

“Fuck Light, it feels so good, I’m close...”

Quickly, he removes his fingers from you once again, earning a cry from you at the loss of heat. “Please Light, I need you so bad,” You beg.

“What did I say? You’re still not forgiven for that stunt you pulled. Don’t whine.” He wraps his hand around your throat, pushing you down onto your back.

He fully pulls his boxers down, aligning himself with your entrance.

“Beg for it.”

“Please, please light, god, I need it so badly. I want you.”

“Hmm, yeah? You’re so desperate for my cock? I’m not convinced.”

“Please, Light, I’ll never be bad again, I’ll never mess up again. I need your cock so badly, I need you to use me. Do anything you want.”

“Mm, that’s more like it,” Light remarks before pushing into you, earning a loud moan. HIs thrusts were slow, no doubt teasing you.

“Oh, Light, please, faster...”

“More demands? God, you’re such a needy slut. Fine.” His grip on your throat tightens, pushing you further into the bed as he snaps his hips into you without mercy. His pace is relentless, quickly finding your g-spot.

“Fuck, Light. It... it feels- fuck,”

“Hah, stupid slut, what’s wrong? Cat’s got your tongue? Or is it me fucking you so hard you can’t even think straight, can’t form sentences?”

His words only egg on your approaching orgasam, “Hmmph, it- it feels so good. I’m gonna...”

With that, Light pulls you up slightly by your neck before slamming you roughly back into the bed, thrusting into you with speed. “Cum, show me how sorry you are.”

You obey, releasing with a loud moan of his name. He finishes soon after, roughly letting go of your throat. “Clean yourself up. You look like a fucking mess.”

You slip your panties and skirt back on as Light sits apathetically at his desk, his focus buried in paperwork. You heart skinks to your stomach. 

Once you finish dressing, Light allows you to leave, informing you of the Kira case work he had to finish and opening the door for you. 

“And Y/N,” He catches your attention before you step into the hallway of the hotel, “Let this be a lesson. Don’t ever try to leave me again. You’re mine.” He grabs your jaw and kisses you tenderly- but you weren’t stupid. You knew the motivation behind it, and let you still kissed his soft lips back and let yourself melt into him. 

“Goodbye,” He remarks after pulling away, “Behave yourself.”. The door slams in your face. 

You can still feel his cum dripping from your heat daring to spill out of your panties. The hallway was empty, allowing reality to rush to you at once. Your senses only seem clear when you were alone- with Light, you didn’t see with your own eyes or hear with your own ears.

You let your back touch the door of Light’s hotel room, slowly sliding down until you were sitting on the carpeted floor. Your life was broken pieces and you cut yourself picking up the glass shards, relishing in the fact that your boyfriend liked the way the blood looked on your pricked fingers.

❛  hurt me and tell me you’re mine, i don’t know why but i like it. ❜

[lanadelreyscokewhor3]

GO GO DANCER- S.G ROGERS

Pairing: Mob Boss!Steve x Female!Reader

Word Count: 907

Summary: You’re Steve’s girl, and everyone knows it. He takes you with him everywhere and flaunts you like a brand new Rolex. At the most popular club in NYC, he wants you with him, dancing and for a business deal.

Warnings: implied smut, thigh riding, pet names, daddy kink, grinding, drug and alcohol use

** This was inspired by the song Go Go Dancer, by Lana Del Rey! I totally recommend listening to it, it's unreleased but you can hear it on youtube :)) This is my first time writing a “mob boss” type blurb and sprinkles of horny goodness, so i apologise if its kinda shitty lol.. maybe a part 2? - claire

The buzz sparked through your veins like barbed wire. The club lights swayed, fuzzy and blurred, colours mingling and changing between the reds, blues, purples, and greens. Music pumped through the speakers, the vibrations sending jolts through your body. Your head felt light, you felt so free. Like you were flying. Adrenaline pumped through your body as you danced on the dance floor, hips swaying to the upbeat pop music playing from all around you. You felt like you were on top of the world, in your own bubble from the crowd of people huddle on the floor. 

Alcohol flooded through your veins, making you feel dizzy and giggly. Your diamond rings shown in the lights, shimmering- grabbing the eyes of the dozens of people around you. You were on fire. You were burning up so hot hot hot- 

“ Kittyyyy” a low voice growled in your ear from behind. A strong, firm arm draped around your middle, and you reached up and wrapped your hands around Steve’s neck as he nibbled on your neck, inhaling your scent of vanilla and cherry. 

“ Steviee baby!”

 You giggled, excited your lover had come back to see you in action. He smirked against your neck.  “As much as I love seeing you in action my pretty kitty-” he tugged on your earlobe gently and you shrieked in surprise. A laugh escape you, as you started slowly grinding your ass against him. He growled, his hands snaking around to slide his hands down your figure. “ I need you to keep me company while I finish this business deal. Can you help daddy out and be a good little girl for me hmm?” You turned around to face him, and set your hands on his toned chest, tracing your fingers along his blazer seams. 

“ Anything for you daddy!” You giggled, the music thumping louder and louder. You looked up to meet his lust-filled eyes, piercing you. He towered over you, being 6’4 and a hunk of muscle. He chuckled and took your hand in his, leading you out of the heat-filled jumble of people and led you up to his booth. Once the two of you reached the private area he has reserved for him and his clients, he sat down across from the men on the other side of the table, picking you up and setting you on his thigh. You leaned into his touch, the smell of his musky cologne and whisky intoxicating your senses.

 Steve welcomed you into his embrace, sliding his one arm around your waist, keeping you in place. The music was lower back here, yet you could still feel it thumping through the floor. You gripped the table with your one hand to steady yourself as the booze made you sway lightly. Steve was so tall your feet didn't even touch the floor as he secured you in his grasp. He reached across the table, and one of the men handed him a blunt. Steve turned to you with an eyebrow raised. 

“ Open up sugar.” he whispered, and placed the blunt in your mouth, as you bit down with your teeth.

 He digged in his pocket, pulling out a silver lighter, lighting it up and lighting your dart. You inhaled deeply, allowing the weed down into your body and blew a puff into his face. Steve chuckled and turned to the men as you giggled, the drugs making your body feel tingly. 

“ So boys. How bout that business?”

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Steve was nearly done his meeting, and you felt as if you were floating. The blunt was nearly gone, and you felt on fire. Half way through the agreement, Steve began to bounce his one knee, the leg which you just so happened to be on, and you couldn't take it much longer. You were growing needier by the second, the friction of his suit pants giving you tingles and sparks to the point you swore you saw stars. You felt as if you could barley take it anymore, as you felt the arousal pooling down in your lace panties. Wetness was seeping down your thighs by the second. 

You couldn't take it any longer, setting your hands on his knee as you began grinding and rubbing along his thigh to ease the pain. Your head rolled back against his chest, the friction giving you sweet relief. Wetness stained his pant leg as you became needier and needier, clinging to him tighter and tighter.

 “ Yes boys then I suppose we’ve come to an agreement-” Steve suddenly looked down at you and saw what you were doing. “ Become a bit needy arent we slut?” he growled in your ear so only you could hear, meeting his baby blue eyes blown with lust.

 All you could do was pant, biting your lips as moans threatened to escape. He bounced his knee faster and you swore you were flying. “ Well I suppose Y/N and I must be going.. shes become a bit.. needy.” Steve laughed and swept you up off his lap as he stood up and shook hands with everyone. At this point, your arousal was dripping down your legs and down Steve's pants. Your legs trembled and you reached to him for balance. 

“ Come now little girl. We’ll get you taken care of.” Steve murmured, guiding you towards the exit of the club. 

Desire seeped out of you as you realised exactly what was going to happen back at the penthouse. 

[anthemxix]

So... how far did Cia go exactly? I haven’t played hw but I’ve read several fics, and she’s always very... extreme.

hi anon! thank you for your ask!

by “extreme,” i’m thinking you mean stories where she’s a psycho who tortures link or forces unwanted sexual advances on him. which makes for fantastic angst! but that characterization of cia has never felt quite authentic to me.

in the game, she has a roomful of his portraits, like a shrine. that’s extreme. she technically starts a war because of him, which is very extreme, but i don’t think that’s about lusting after him, as people often joke. she says some off-putting stuff, and you could infer that she behaves in an inappropriately “seductive” way, but. she doesn’t really. do anything, like fics might imply. she’s creepy and lewd. i’m sure she makes him uncomfortable as hell. but as for what she does, the extremeness in fics is mostly fan extrapolation.

that’s my short answer! but i kinda got carried away while responding to this, and. um. wrote a lengthy character analysis of cia? XD i thought about not including it, but i spent so much time thinking about/writing this that i’ll go ahead and share.

in my opinion, hw does not present a clear picture of cia, and it skews fan interpretation of her.

(putting this under a cut because it got long 😅)

the story the game gives at the start is straightforward. there's a "guardian of time" (whatever that means) who watches over everything but never interferes. she admires the purity of the hero's spirit. she comes to love the heroes, then to want them. she's lonely. she doesn't want to just watch anymore. she wants to experience love.

gradually her desires become something darker. she doesn't only want the companionship, she wants to possess.

ganon sees this darkness in her heart and causes a split. the darkness separates from her, becomes its own person (a la dark link). the "good" part is lana, the "bad" part is cia.

for ganon, this is all part of a larger plan. in hw, his spirit is divided into four fragments that have been sealed away in different eras. he manipulates cia and gets her to open time gates so he can gather all the fragments together. a key fact: one of the fragments has been sealed away by the master sword, so ganon needs a hero to draw the sword.

cia willingly allows herself to be ganon's pawn because in so doing, in starting a war to force the hero to emerge, she thinks she'll get what she wants. throughout the story, she gives more and more of herself to ganon, fracturing her own spirit further and further, because she is so desperate to claim the hero for herself, to own him. lana repeatedly warns her to stop before she does irreparable damage to herself, but she doesn't listen, and ultimately she...well, dies, i guess. fades from existence. (that's how the original hw ending goes. they added stuff on later that changed this.)

ok, so. we have some interesting stuff going on here. arguably, cia is a tragic figure. a victim even. her underlying motivation is loneliness. viewing it through this lens, the story becomes an exploration of what isolation does to a person. how desperate it can make us. how we become willing to sacrifice anything for love--and i mean "love" broadly, not in a romantic sense. how it makes us vulnerable to manipulation and abuse.

let's also not forget the whole reason she focuses on the hero's spirit to begin with. after witnessing all the atrocities of history, she admires the purity and goodness and self-sacrifice of the hero. it has nothing to do with link being attractive. in her temple (the temple of souls), she has statues of different heroes from different eras, including wolf link and oot/mm link. she is certainly not lusting after an animal or a child, i assure you.

so why does she have frickin portraits of hw link, specifically, (not any other hero's spirit incarnations) plastered all over her walls, if not for lusty purposes? why does she dress so damn seductively? i'm not claiming lust isn't part of it, but i think there's more. she wants to feel surrounded by him, you know? she wants to feel like he's looking at her the same way that she looks at him--with desire. it's delusion.

and holy hell, she's nothing if not deluded. some examples of her actual in-game dialogue: "no matter what betrayals I may suffer, at least I know the hero will always love and protect me." and [to herself, as she's losing a fight] "the hero is still by my side... the hero is still by my side..."

and it's sad. she pretends that he loves her, that he will protect her, because she doesn't have any real love in her life. she doesn't have anyone.

and what's even sadder is that she's condemned to all these feelings and delusions because that's who she is. she is corruption and darkness personified! she's doomed to this lonely hell, to being ganon's servant, to self-destruction.

that's how tragedy, and tragic figures, are defined: hubris. characters that have an innate flaw that inevitably leads to their downfall. that's what a traditional tragedy is.

don't get me wrong here. i'm not saying she had no choice, or that she had to start a war. she can be tragic and we can sympathize with her while also accepting the fact that she's corrupted beyond redemption. morality isn't black-and-white. our understanding of characters, or of real people, isn't black-and-white.

...but. BUT. there is a major "but" here. the game sabotages its own character and its own story. the game opts for the path of least resistance. screw grey areas of morality, screw the tragedy of loneliness, screw exploring vulnerability and abuse and hubris... they sensationalize. cia is a joke.

have you seen her frickin outfit? her character design? she's an uber-sexualized caricature. all those portraits of link in her temple can easily be viewed as a joke, too. "lol, look at this crazy, horny bitch." hell, they even have her say innuendos about the master sword, like, “come show me what your sword can do” or something to that effect. 🙄

it's all very surface level. they don't go deep at all with cia. they give us no substance, only these little bread crumbs of information that i've laid out for you. and not only that, they set this up so that it feeds into old stereotypes. the salient details easily allow us to interpret cia, consciously or not, as an embodiment of feminine hysteria, a woman guided by irrational emotion and obsession, fixated on winning the ultimate prize of a man's love.

so koei tecmo's own confused presentation of this character muddles up fan interpretation and has us falling back on the familiar stereotypes we know and understand. that’s the basis for these depictions of cia as extreme. that’s what fans are extrapolating from when they try to imagine how she might act or what she might say. so in the end, she isn’t really depicted with accuracy. she’s like a caricature of a caricature at that point.

…or at least, that’s my opinion. 🥴

[wackus-bonkus-maximus]

Hi<3 once again, I have a few songs for the odnlb playlist :D (I'm the Pomme songs anon btw<3)

Working for the Knife - Mitski (Adrien. "I always knew the world moves on, I just didn't know it would go without me", he's so sad about everyone moving on while he's still stuck in his old abusive life :c or "I always thought the choice was mine, and I was right, but I just chose wrong", we know he blames himself even if he knows he's just been controlled</3)

Family Line - Conan Gray (Adrien, just Adrien)

Summertime Sadness - Lana del Rey (Marinette about her kitty)

Mirrorball - Taylor Swift (Adrien again! He is what others want him to be)

Sweet But Psycho - Ava Max (our beloved Lila)

Quelqu'un M'a Dit - Carla Bruni (Marinette! Is her beloved kitty still in love with her? Could that be possible?)

People You Know - Selena Gómez (the betrayal! Maybe Nino in the last chapter thinking that Adrien is Argos?)

Gilded Lily - Cults (Adrien maybe? He's already decided that it's time to do something, but he's so tired too)

Always Forever - Cults (Mari and Adrien in every existing font)

Possibility - Lykke Li (Adrien. Just a little and sad hope)

No One Ever Loved - Lykke Li (Marinette. The only one who really loves Adrien even knowing all his sides, and not all his reasons)

If I Killed Someone For You - Alec Benjamin (Adrien. "You have to understand that the one I killed is me, changing what I was for what you wanted me to be. I followed your direction, did everything you asked. I hope that makes you happy, 'cause there's just no turning back")

Only Love Can Hurt Like This - Paloma Faith (the angst!)

Running Up That Hill - Kate Bush (Mari! She would do anything for Adrien (and vice-versa))

Hope you like them! 🐈🐞🐝🐍🐲🦊🦚🦋🐢

i got SO excited when i saw your ask! your taste in music is sublime!

mmmm yesss sad and bleak but the singer can't help but try to hope things will get better, just like our poor adrien!

yes!! this is such a good one, it traces adrien's trauma like a geneology. he is made of his pain and of his father's sins & this song really does feel like it's talking about the agrestes

another one i didn't think to put on here! this is perfect from ladybug's perspective. she is sooo not handling her grief well and she's ready to make bad choices that step from deep pain and broken love.

ooh i had a hard time interpreting mirrorball when it came out but wow oh wow does it fit adrien well. he's lost his identity in the function of others' schemes. and you know what, i think this song could also fit luka, and how he relates to adrien.

dude YES. it's lila about herself, which is the most meta lila content ever. absolutely agree 100%.

this is so sweet and literally just what i need for an upcoming scene 👀 how poetic and shy and hopeful in the midst of the bitterness this singer is experiencing. so fitting for odnlb ladynoir

love this for the adrien & nino relationship, but you know what? it kinda works for adrien & gabriel too.

ooohh this song was so deep and sad. you're right, it suits adrien so well; all those self-destructive tendencies he has, but also all the love in his heart.

it's them! it's each to the other, them against the world ♥️ 🐞🐈‍⬛

lol poor little meow meow. all his life he just wanted to be loved and do good and look where it's gotten him. he's so sad, he's ready to go. he's resigned to it now and that makes him more sad than anything.

okay this one actually made me emotional lol. what a way to capture grief. chat noir is everything beautiful and meaningful to ladybug and when he "died" all those parts of her kinda died too :((

if i killed someone for you - this is so dark!! but omg it does fit adrien so well! he has done everything for his father/monarque that he has essentially destroyed himself in the process. lol maybe that's why he's so all right with it

only love can hurt like this - ok what a bop first of all. i actually listened to it twice because i was imagining ladynoir first and then feligami 😂 love kinda hurts them but they literally can't stop

running up that hill - again, you have opened my eyes to a song that fits odnlb so well! marinette is so desperate and sad and in such pain. she really would have swapped places with chat noir if she could have, because nothing was right if it wasn't the two of them together :(

[nataliademarquis]

                                           𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠

                                             a natalia de marquis playlist

I. daddy issues – the neighbourhood II. beautiful little fools - jorja smith III. am i pretty ? - the maine IV. the love club – lorde V. she - zayn VI. going gets tough - the growlers VII. cinnamon girl – lana del rey VIII. pretty girl – clairo IX. i know alone – haim X. wishful thinking – benee XI. room temperature – faye webster XII. too sensitive – sean kennedy XIII. wake up ! – hazel english XIV. how to disappear – lana del rey XV. know love – rex orange county XVI. rainbow – kacey musgraves XVII. falling – haim XVIII. brightest blue – ellie goulding XIX. there is a light that never goes out – the smiths XX. evermore – taylor swift

                                                   LINK IN SOURCE !

ok it’s 20 songs bc ... i’ve been adding to this playlist for like two years lol. but i’ve kinda put it chronologically it, so, let’s begin.

tracks 1-8 are really about natalia’s initial character (i’d like to think she’s changed a lot) – it’s kind of that dreamy but pathetic and pining vibes, they’re about being desperate and obsessive, letting people in without care. natalia’s flop era, for lack of better terms.

9-12, are sort of self-reflecting in a way. like a wow, i need to start thinking for myself. it reflects the time she decided to be “selfish” for once. room temperature i think best reflects that. 13, wake up, fits in this category but i feel it’s like a culmination of the previous songs. it’s also kinda angry, which i delve into in her #hshqpara. (u should read it. i worked hard)

14-17 fit in the next category but also kinda don’t. they’re more like a “you need to pick yourself up” rather than hopeful.

the last three songs are hopeful, as she is. coming to accept what has happened and to look forward rather than pine on what has happened to her.

evermore is the song that had to finish this playlist, i think it really kinda is a synopsis of the whole playlist, it’s sad, it talks about a journey and i think a lot of nat’s story can relate. the part about rewinding the tape is like how she is always looking back. but the song ends on a positive note, about how the pain isn’t forever <3

I. daddy issues – the neighbourhood 

You ask me what I'm thinking about I tell you that I'm thinking about Whatever you're thinking about Tell me something that I'll forget And you might have to tell me again

II. beautiful little fools - jorja smith 

Didn't your mother ever tell you love yourself? Well if your mother was Zelda or Daisy, I guess not Why can't you be a beautiful little girl Instead of being a beautiful little fool? I guess we're all just beautiful little girls Playing a game of being fooled, yeah

III. am i pretty ? - the maine 

Am I pretty? Do people like me yet? Is there a party? Am I invited? It's such a pity, no one adores me yet So make me up in a shade that fits me Tell me love oh "Am I pretty?"

IV. the love club – lorde 

My mother's love is chokin' me I'm sick of words that hang above my head What about the kid? It's time the kid got freeBe a part of the love club Everythin' will glow for you

V. she - zayn 

She wants somebody to love To hold her She wants somebody to love In the right way

VI. going gets tough - the growlers 

Still always remembering When the going gets tough That the labor of our love Will reward us soon enough

VII. cinnamon girl – lana del rey 

There's things I wanna say to you But I'll just let you live Like if you hold me without hurting me You'll be the first who ever did

VIII. pretty girl – clairo 

And I could be a pretty girl Won't ever make you blue And I could be a pretty girl I'll lose myself in you

I was so blinded by you, now I cry Just thinking 'bout the fool that I was I was such a fool

IX. i know alone – haim 

Some things never change They never fade It's never over Some things never grow I know alone like no one else does

X. wishful thinking – benee 

I do remember everything that you said Won't let that pointless talk stay trapped in my head Then I got to know you All false hopes rued Those days are gone now You left too soon

XI. room temperature – faye webster 

Looks like I've been crying again over the same thing I wonder if anyone has ever cried for me Nothing means anything, at least anymore Even my tears have gone room temperature

I should get out more, I should get out more

XII. too sensitive – sean kennedy 

So I sat down on the sidewalk, and I started to cry That's when it hit me, it really hit me

I'm too sensitive (hm, mm) I let every word they say tear me apart Way too sensitive (hm, mm) 'Bout a million ways you could break my heart

XIII. wake up ! – hazel english 

All these feelings you ignore Ocean raging from inside Open up your eyes and you'll see You've been living complacently Watch the world through glazed over eyes

Tell me what you're gonna do Tell me what you're gonna do How will you react when you find out What they hid from you?

XIV. how to disappear – lana del rey 

Cry on his shoulder 'cause life is hard The waves came in over my head What you been up to, my baby? Haven't seen you 'round here lately All of the guys tell me lies, but you don't

This is how to disappear

XV. know love – rex orange county 

Are my problems deeper than me? I guess they're deeper than meaning The more you think about it So it's always worse than it seems

There ain't no love for me I just wanna know love Mother, won't you tell me When will I know love?

XVI. rainbow – kacey musgraves

'Cause the sky has finally opened The rain and wind stopped blowin' But you're stuck out in the same ol' storm again You hold tight to your umbrella Well, darlin', I'm just tryin' to tell ya That there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head

Oh, tie up the bow, take off your coat, and take a look around Everything is alright now

XVII. falling – haim 

Don't stop, no, I'll never give up And I'll never look back, just hold your head up And if it gets rough, it's time to get rough They keep saying Don't stop, no one's ever enough I'll never look back, never give up And if it gets rough, it's time to get rough Oh, but now I'm falling

XVIII. brightest blue – ellie goulding 

Everything is heightened now It's looking so much brighter now I was lost and now I'm found Fell off the merry-go-round I was in the politics Obsessed with things I couldn't fix

See the future when I look in the sky When I look in the sky, you give me You give me The brightest blue

XIX. there is a light that never goes out – the smiths 

Take me out tonight Because I want to see people And I want to see life Driving in your car Oh, please don't drop me home Because it's not my home, it's their home And I'm welcome no more

XX. evermore – taylor swift

I rewind the tape but all it does is pause On the very moment all was lost

And I was catching my breath Floors of a cabin creaking under my step And I couldn't be sure I had a feeling so peculiar This pain wouldn't be for Evermore