#I just like making things harder for myself I guess

[ask-postcrash-curly]

Hey Curly.

I don’t blame you for not being super excited about rescue, to be honest I’ve been a little nervous about it myself.

What if they don’t have good medical supplies? Or what if they do, but they have to put you in a coma or something? What if we won’t be able to talk to you anymore? How will things change when you get back on earth? Will everyone make it out okay? Will pony express get brought to justice?

What if whatever has been letting us talk to you doesn’t work when you’re on earth? What if it’s only when you’re in space—or only when you’re injured and unable to communicate?

I’ve wondered a lot about our purpose in all this. We helped provide light in your darkest days (well, most of us did). We helped prevent the worst outcome. We fulfilled our duty. Once you’re rescued, will there be a place for us anymore…?

Hopefully you’ll at least still be able to talk to Kind Words and Kestrel—they got they psychic connection stuff going on. And I don’t know if anyone here is from the same universe as u are, but if they are I guess there’s the possibility of finding you and reconnecting online or in person…

If we are cut off from you and never able to speak to you again…

I think I could accept that. It’d make me sad, and I’d miss you, and I know you’d miss us too, but… just knowing you’d be okay, that you were recovering and living your life and stuff, I think I’d be able to let you go. You won’t be alone. You’ll have your friends and family to support you. I know you’ve felt like everyone moved on without you, but you’re an amazing person, and I’m sure so many people would be happy to have you back in their life. And you have your crew. And it’s never too late to make new friendships as well.

Even if it wasn’t by… the best method, you’ll finally be free from Pony Express and Jimmy. You’ll finally be able to rediscover who you are without them, and learn to… live again. No more walking around on eggshells. No more being jerked around across the galaxy, unable to connect with anyone from your life back on earth and under awful working conditions.

Recovery will be tough, and scary, but you will get better. You’ll get skin grafts and prosthetics and stuff, yeah? And they got that eye tracking technology—so even if your throat/vocal cords don’t recover, or while they’re recovering, you’ll still be able to communicate, yeah? No more feeling completely trapped in your body, voiceless and powerless.

I think part of me always kinda knew… this couldn’t last forever. That sooner or later we’d lose you, or be cut off from you. Knowing the other possible outcomes… this one is probably the best. You’re safe(ish), and alive, and you’re gonna be saved. A lot better than the outcome I thought we’d be stuck with—you stuck in a frozen limbo, us never knowing if you’d ever be saved or just die there… so, knowing how much worse things could be, I guess I should complain, even if saying goodbye is still…sad.

Sure, there’s always been the possibility in my mind of us sticking with you even when you’re back on earth, but it’s also always seemed a bit… unrealistic. We’d probably cause some problems for you—hearing voices all the time while going about your daily life, trying to focus on conversations with someone right in front of you while these mental conversations are constantly going on… might make you seem a bit, I dunno, strange. Might make it harder to reintegrate and all that.

But well. Who knows what the future holds. I guess anything could happen, so there’s no point in worrying about it. Just gotta hope for the best, and keep moving forward I guess. Take things one day at a time.

If we’ll be cut off from you, and this is goodbye, well…

I just wanted to tell you… I’m glad to have been part of your life. Even if it was only for a little bit. I’ll never forget you.

~🌃🌠🌌

hey. might be having a panic attack about it honestly. a little bit. hahah. there's noises and shaking and i can't tell what's happening.

i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know!!!

i don't know anything i don't know

i'm not ready for anything to change not if i don't know what happens!

i dont know if they'll even want to talk to me anymore

but not until im better please not until im better i dont want to be alone with the pain pleaseplease icant do it alone. they have im not they wont not when im . its not going to be the same thyere not goin to know me anyomore . the crew left they left id ont even know if swanseas alive the window screen just shut off its dark and maybe they left me here do you thiink?? they got onthe ship adn now itsflying away and they left me here theylfetme hereohnnoono hghhhhh

...no more walking no more connecting no more anything at all. tomorrow will be different but the sun nverer sets and tomrorow never comes...

i dont want to die here by myself im sorry i failed you please come back i know i dont deserve it but please dont let me die here i dont want to be here with him forever please i want to go home

mhmyeah btu it doesntmatter if i dont get to go home does it

what ? no . no please not now dont leave me now please idnot have anyone else pleasedont go odont go lpease please cant be godobye im aloen i dontwant to be alnoe please pleasepleaestaty lpelaes im sroyry dont leav me here please

...

hello?

can... can you still hear me, or

guess its okay if i cry then. ahhahahhhahahahahahahahhahhahh— ahahahahahhaah... hhhghh.. ghhhh...

!!

thersnoise thersfootsteps hgodhes alive hes alvie he heardmeoandnfgghes going to thurt mmem im soryrimsrory jimmy ims royr il be quite tim soryr i didnt hitnk oyou could hear or wloud nevr have bitherdyou im soryrpleas ill be quiet i swear i will

fuck ow waht is that hse puttng his flashlight in my eye icnat see anything whats that noise nonononon dont touch me please whatshpaneing whereare you takgin me please help me nononononono!

[rainfeathers]

Thoughts on the Mystery Labrinth

spoilers ahead for the game so don’t go further if you haven’t finished it.

I’ve seen mixed feelings about it all over (more so off tumblr than here) and that made me want to put my two cents in. Why not. Remember when I said Vivia was a yapper? Me too that’s why I fuck with him. I’m not proofreading this have fun with my typos.

Disclaimer: for the entire game I forgot you could get skills. Entirely. I didn’t get any of them nor upgrade anything. Do skills make the game too easy? Don’t know. I won’t go too much into difficulty for that reason.

Overall feelings

I like it! I’m a mystery labyrinth enjoyer. I dig the mechanics, my favorite being anything with the truth blade. Bobbing and weaving between trying to pick the right keys to answer questions was so fun.

One of my favorite parts is how each one changed to suit the case. The final labyrinth being Kanai ward?? Chapter four being the lab?? Good shit. Even how it framed questions and the mini games looked were different per case, which was a cool surprise. I thought they’d be more copy-paste, but every chapter felt distinct.

As such, it is very difficult for me to apply any blanket criticism to the mechanic. They all had different strengths and different weaknesses.

If any of this comes off as too negative, I don’t at all mean it that way. I’m just better at going in-depth on critique. I’m a certified ML liker. Give me more of that in the sequel.

Per chapter thoughts

Chapter 0: The chapter is good, but given this is the “tutorial” level, it drags a lot on replay. I feel like a lot of the explanation and exposition about it could have been condensed better. I know plot-wise it’s so Yuma stops freaking out, but the game could have taken more liberty with leaving things ambiguous and “it’s a game so there’s game mechanics” would have been a fine explanation. This is straying out of just chapter 0. Id much rather condense some of the exposition and put it towards real-life character development.

Otherwise I enjoyed it. Zilch was a great antagonist, and has some of the best designs. And he gets two?? As he should. There’s an interesting irony in him having two ML forms given he’s technically two people. (The Hitman himself and this other identity he’s taken on for the hit)

Chapter 1: not a ton to say honestly! Perfectly serviceable ML with nothing too stand out, which is ideal for chapter 1. It functioned great, and Seth was there AND Halara so it’s the best one. Jk that one is to come but also like-

Chapter 2: this is where what I said about the accompanying character affecting the chapter really did it a disservice. Sorry Desuhiko but you needed to can it once in a while. I’m not a hater of him, but he got pretty repetitive. Unlike the other chapters where the character either functioned perfectly fine (Halara) or actively made it better (Vivia), I started getting annoyed by him and replaying doesn’t make it better. I wish the game leaned into a few of his other traits other than just horny.

That aside the actual ML?? Stellar. The different hallways, the eerie music. The realization that they all come together into one path because the girls are working together, followed by the sickening realization that we’re going to kill three girls was a gut punch in the best way. This is my favorite ML for handling the consequences of reaping the culprits soul.

Chapter 3: another one that didn’t stand out to me. Granted this is because chapter 3 was the weakest one, but that’s more the fault of the chapter than the ML. That said, I loved Fubuki in it. I thought she was going to annoy me, but her small arc with Shinigami and working through her own insecurities was really nice to play through.

Chapter 4: OOOH you sly dog you’ve got me monologuing. What a great chapter. Props to the people who caught the twist coming because I didn’t until Vivia started getting weird about how we didn’t figure out the culprit. Granted I was drunk when I played this the first time, but it was so good. In such a painful way. This is a chapter where the accompanying character makes the fucking ML. Vivia’s arc, the fight he and Yuma had, the uncertainty if we were going to have to maybe kill him to escape, or if he would come to see our point of view?? Incredible. I’d say it’s my favorite chapter, but then we’ve got

Chapter 5: after 4, I didn’t think this one could hold a candle to it, but I was proved so delightfully wrong. The setting being kanai ward, the ambiguous antagonist, shinigami trying to steer us away from finding our identity as Number One all while we approach the final face off with Makoto, it was so so good. So fucking good. And the final battle? From the voice acting, the framing, the way it played out, it was just so fun. Slowly picking away at the truth both literally and figuratively while we shattered Makoto’s mask, it didn’t disappoint once. Makoto in general is a perfect antagonist to finish off the game. I could go on.

Overall I can’t wait to see how the ML is handled in the potential sequel. If we get anything akin to chapters 4 and 5 I’ll pass away because my heart can’t take it but it will be so good

[asgardian--angels]

things I wish I could relive for the first time again:

that magical window where you finish a new piece of media, having watched/read it all by yourself with no fandom contact whatsoever, and you are just so happy about it, and full of interesting theories and takeaways, and just in love with it as a gorgeous piece of art.

because I swear to god as soon as you join the fandom for anything, you're bombarded with how you're supposed to view characters and their arcs, how you're supposed to morally and ethically judge the plot and the ways it apparently failed to present the right message, and if you don't you'll either be shunned for not sharing the popular headcanons or you'll be harassed for not criticizing the source material enough.

like how is it that the fans of a piece of media are also the ones being the most negative about it? If I like a show or a movie or a book, well, I liked it. That's kind of the point. I'm actually not here to tear it apart and talk about how it didn't live up to standards other people had! I enjoyed it for what it was, and forcing myself to find negative things to say about it doesn't actually bring me more enjoyment of it or reap any benefit to me. Fandom's a double-edged sword; you want to join a community to share your love for a piece of art, and the price you pay for a modicum of joy is a mountain of negativity. that's one main reason that I never engage with fandom until I'm completely done with a show, because if I was plugged into all of that commentary and discourse during the process, I'd be completely colored by how I'm expected to interpret everything this piece of art is presenting to me without being able to even form my own opinions.

[cent-scratchnsniff]

doodle dump

[michameinmicha]

Hate how in every thread where someone asks for challenge ideas for pz most answers are just 'make it as hard as possible' I dont want to make a run with highest zombie and rarest loot settings, eternal winter, no guns or cars, take all negative traits or whatever! i want a goal other than just 'survive'

the problem isn't that it's too easy to survive, it's that i dont have a point to work towards and then it all feels sort of pointless...

I like challenges like 'get from one end of the map to the other' or 'collect all ingredients + the recipe magazine and make a pizza' collecting all versions of certain items is also fun, as well as giving your character a backstory and goal and rp

if anyone has fun ideas for goals what to do in pz, feel free to leave them in the notes :*

[mollysails]

and if i went crazy and started translating and adapting the entirety of the beetlejuice musical to spanish, with changes to the jokes that would make sense within the pop culture…

what then

[vraska-theunseen]

aughhhh. aughhhhhjhhhh

[priafey]

i had the day off so i spent like five hours doing budgeting. jesus fuck why is everything so expensive

[thornquillthefiendish]

Would ya mind telling what brush you are using recently? It looks really good with your art

Oh- for lineart I just use the pen brush on the smallest setting at 60-68% and go over my lines slowly — occasionally for bigger pieces I’ll use a different custom brush that gives things a little bit more texture, but I can’t quite recall where exactly I got it from, once I find it I can post a link to it though!

Though yeah usually it’s just the normal pen brush on MediBang (anti-aliasing turned off) at around 60%, starting with thin lines and building by going over them again and layering them until they’re more solidified, and erasing where it looks wonky!

[elevatourism]

I know people mean well and this is something I don't blame them for but I am getting so tired of hearing that Oh, your struggles make you special! Thinking differently means you'll change the world! Like maybe I don't want to be some miraculous idolised Other any more than I would want to be some demonised freak to you all maybe I just want actually understood

[tuliptiger]

I don't hate me but I kind of hate BEING me sometimes, at least around other people or like exclusively around other people. Maybe I'm an asshole, maybe I'm a shit person to be around I'm not really sure. I Try to think of things I'm doing wrong or the things I'm saying but I never feel like I get it right. Or when I do it ends so quickly.

Oh well, I'll keep trying. As long as I can stand it.

[scionshtola]

i guess if i had criticisms of or like. wishes. for the writing on shtola it would be that i would like to see more how her being blind actually affects her and for her to face something that really made her struggle with her convictions

[krawdad]

You let me down abracadabra magic dot com

[bishiglomper]

Figured out a smaller skull cup. 8D and coaster (original pattern on left was too big for my liking)

I like 'em. Gotta make another coaster to do the brainy bit

Wish I had a nice purple instead of pink... wanted it more beetlejuicey (˶˃⤙˂˶)