#I just don't wanna make a whole blog or something atm

[miidnighters]

It's my birthday ! To celebrate, I wanted to put together a little shout out of people I love because it's the most surefire way to get compliments back in return (I'm kidding!). Thankyou so much for writing with me and mashing our barbies together and making this hellsite such a fun place to be.

Also, seeing how this has changed from my last shoutout at Christmastime - notably, the people I tagged as "people I love who I don't write with very much" but who now I write with or talk to every day lmao.

Please let this have tagged everyone I wanted to tag

@92328

I love u so much. U know I do. I love all the random questions u ask and ur request for Isaac Facts and the fact that you refer to Morgan as "Nora's Husband" and the way you wanna lock Flynn up in a tower to keep him a baby forever. Never change lmao.

@bloodykneestm

Bender ur characters are chefs kiss and our dynamics are chefs kiss and I get such a huge smile whenever I see u in my notifs (either here or on disco). I love the things we come up with together.

@cigarettesandcoffee

My darling! I know you're not writing a lot atm but it makes my day whenever we chat and whenever you pop up with some random love. All of our pairings are so good and I can't wait to see what we cook up for the others.

@draconisa

I know you're ALSO not writing a lot atm but Dany and Isaac have my whole heart plus everything that we're doing on the multi for everyone there like. My brain is still stuck on Harts and Vasile like. Does it get any better?

@epistrefei

HELLO. ARTEMIS. WOW. I am so in awe of the original spin you're able to put on such a well-known character - and it's not just Artemis and Billie, it's Barty and Flynn, and watching what you do with Zahrosa and so many others.

@exquisitexagony

Sami is my baby. The relationship they have with Flynn and Bella (or Bella and Arthur) and all the others is so special to me, as well as everything we have going on your other blogs (Callie and Shimi, for example? Yes).

@fangmother

Rainer is who I want to be when I grow up. If I could be half as confident and gave less fucks. I love seeing all the wild shit she gets up to and following her different relationships with people who have been in her life for varying lengths of time.

@freekzout

What can I say about the freekz? Callie and Funke's relationship is so special to me BUT also the friendships we've built? Lu and Ruth? Flynn and Ruth? Bella and the both of them? Not to mention your other blogs - Bella and Connie in particular.

@inrovina

Every relationship my characters have with Xeno is SO special. Flynn and Lake are SO special. I'm so excited for what other shenanigans they get up to and all the potential new stuff we're doing on your multi !

@kurjaks

I need to put this man in an enclosure and study him. I love him so much, and I love the careful way you've crafted him, and the truly unique way he carries and conducts himself. PLUS the way we chat ooc? Peak.

@mystiika

Every one of your muses is a darling to me. We've started creating such interesting relationships between a few of our muses in varying stages of romance or friendship and I cannot wait to do more with you.

@recitedemise

Every time I see you in my notifs I know I am getting fed the Good Shit. You have such a way with words and what we've crafted between Gale and Callie is really something special to me. Plus to varying relationships w Harts and Bella? Yes.

@sorrowsick

There is no muse of yours that I don't love down bad. We have some truly batshit stuff going on and I know that I can always come to you with the wildest ideas and we can make it work. I am truly your biggest fan.

@soulmissed

August is the only child character I write with and I think that says something bc it's hard to write a child without them being too much of a caricature and it's hard to build relationships without them being one-note but you so it SO well, so we have such beautiful ties.

@starlyht

One of the true lights of my life I adore seeing u on my dash and in my notifs. We have some great ties between our characters and I truly love seeing your thoughts on lycanthropy or drow society or whatever takes your fancy.

@stcllata

I love that every pairing we toss together just seems to Work lmao. Whatever the situation, whoever the muse, we can always put them together and come out with something good. And by good I often mean shippy but like. Who's gonna tell us no?

@tewwor

I am so in awe of your mind and your worldbuilding, and I am so lucky to be able to play in these spaces you've built. I love the relationships we've built and I love that we can throw different characters together to see what sticks.

@vitalphenomena

I say this with the UTMOST affection but this is the most messed up roster of characters I've ever seen and I adore writing with them. I adore exploring all the different facets of their characters and how my characters interact with their struggles bc they're NOT perfect.

@whileurmine

If I see a man over 30 on my dash, odds are it's you. I love your roster and I love our OOC hate sessions and I love that we can both puck up and put down starters like nothing. Whether it's something established or a new idea we can always put a pair together.

@yxkanna

I know you're ALSO not writing atm but I have to let you know how much I love you and your babies. Not just Nick but all of them. We have some really interesting dynamics both platinic and romantic and I can't wait until you're back to pick them up.

And then of course some other shoutouts of people I don't love any less but perhaps don't write with or talk to as often <3 (which should change, honestly. Come yap w me <3)

@abysswarden | @berylcluster | @bucketkicked | @byanyan

@coastercrushed | @corsey | @cragsnow | @demonstigma

@downspirals | @fvzzyelf | @godstrayed | @hegrudges

@idnull | @kxllerblond | @lcngdays | @nabaidhean-neonach

@platiinums | @pohlepen | @redemnation | @strszyga

@withbeasts | @xinxiins

[f1-stuff]

I was tagged by @c2-eh for this get to know me thingie - thank you bb! ❤️ Sorry it took me so long!

name: Mal

sign: Gemini (the very first day!)

time: 21:50

favorite band or artist: This is like asking me to choose my fav sibling, but probably either Gregory Alan Isakov or Arcade Fire, or tbh Thomas Newman (funny story: I was so in love with Arcade Fire as a teen that I literally didn't want to know what the band members looked like bc I wanted them to remain this otherworldly entity with no specific face/form. To this day, I don't know what they look like.)

last movie: I rewatched Pacific Rim on a flight lol (I'm back on my charlos drift compatible agenda 😭)

last show: Just rewatched all of Heartstopper again 🙃

when i created this blog: I'm not actually sure - my first post was in 2014, but I was a lurker before that...

other blogs: I have 4 other blogs 😅 a personal one, a marvel/iron man themed one, a photography one, and a cinematography one lol (but I'm not very active on them)

do i get asks: Yes - sorry to all the ppl that I've never answered. I sometimes forget to check and then it feels like the asks become less relevant. Other times, I don't want to answer something that I feel would only spread negativity. But pls never stop sending asks! I most enjoy the ones that prompt me to gif something lol

followers: 3.2k - consistently baffles me

average hours of sleep: I get judged for this by the ppl in my life (and they're right) but probably like 4.5/5 hrs 😭 I wanna be better but there just aren't enough hours in the dayyy

instruments: Piano for my whole life, guitar in the last few years

what am i wearing: PJs!

dream job: I think I've answered this before but I get restless and don't like doing one thing all the time. But maybe travel photographer for like nat geo or something. Or the job I currently have (cinematographer). Or I just want to live in a beach house/studio making art for a living 👀

dream trip: I literally love to travel (unoriginal I'm sorry!!) New Zealand's on the bucket list, as well as China and India.

favorite song atm: It's been like a year but I'm still singing Better in the Morning by Birdtalker in the shower like every gd day. I also love Amsterdam by Gregory Alan Isakov forever and always ❤️

I'm not gonna tag anyone bc I'm tired 😂 and I don't wanna crosscheck who might've already been tagged. So if you're interested, go for it!

[zeltqz]

I felt this needed to be sent as an ask. I know it's one of the hardest things to do (writing when your motivation is weighing) but you have to try your best NOT to listen to them (those who keep asking for updates with no consideration of what it's like for the author). Pressure ain't doing nothing but motivating negativity. I know the guilt, I've been there. At the end of the day I gave what I could and the fic ended up being discontinued a month ago. I permanently quit writing because I felt it was so overwhelming and stressful despite being something I absolutely love doing, I just couldn't take knowing people waited for my updates, I was disappointing them and that disappointed me. Talk about depression. Writers depression is very real. So eventually I unpublished my wattpad fics, deleted all my Tumblr fics, and stayed a silent reader, I wrote short poems or small works here and there for my private instagram, just whenever I felt like it. I honestly thought it was permanent. Until a friend of mine started writing which sparked my interest in it again. So I restarted my blog a couple days ago. Gave thought to what it was I wanna write and how I want this blog to be different. Atm I'm barely writing, I started 3 fics last week yet they remain in my drafts untouched with no further progress. But I can honestly say the nonchalance and freedom I have is quite nice, I try to write here and again. Or even if a single sentence or dialogue comes to mind I note it down, that gave life to another sentence and another and another until I put it together and it formed about a decent paragraph.. I'M RAMBLING. I lost track of what I was supposed to say. I don't even know the main point of this story. Forgive me. But seriously, the best advice I can give is to unburden yourself before you drown. Literally. Write what you want when you can, your wips, don't delete them!! I promise you some time later you'll definitely be inspired for them again. And when u do you'll be able to literally write more for it!! I have an idea from 2 yrs ago and it's pretty decent, with some editing it could be even better. So please don't delete them 😭😭 and don't let people push you to update. You can if you can and You can't if you can't!!! I'm here if you need any help 🙏🏻 I noticed that talking about your writing with someone who reciprocates your energy can ignite a full on passionate conversation that will lead to creating quality work!! Like new ideas or even roots to go for old works.. It's a good way to keep the motivation flowing when you're running thin 🤍🤍🤍

this is honestly the sweetest piece of advice soeone ever gave me. its so detailed and relatable too because i used to be a wattpad writer back in 2021 and then ppl kept on asking for update update update and it was so stressful so I just logged out of the account and to this day i havent logged back in 😭😭

as someone who used to be a silent reader i understand the frustration of needing an update. dont get me wrong i understand. i used to feel that exact way because fics were my only source of happiness at one point in my life when everything was shitty. but now im actually writing them, i know why some writers dont want to update so fast because its so much pressure when theres 5-6 ppl in ur inbox asking for update update update

ik how hard it is to finish a story but also how desperate it can get for the readers waiting for said update. which is the reason im constantly trying to keep writing but now i feel like i just cant. im such a perfectionist i dont post anything i dont feel is my best but rn i feel like none of my works are and its making me slack a lot and i feel like if i dont stop feeling this way then i might stop writing as a whole because its making me frustrated

writing genuinely makes me happy bc i feel like its an escape from reality (which i desperately need bc i hate my life) but i cant write good enough which is making me annoyed because i need that reality escape sooooo bad

and the reason i asked yesterday which fics of mine were peoples favourites, most of them were the series that i had deleted from my page because i reread them and hated it so bad. now im rewriting it but with this lack of motivation its one of the hardest things ive had to do in a while

and i barely talk to ppl about my fics because idk i barely recieve comments about them except for PT 2 PLS. like as much as i would LOVE to write part 2 3 4 5 6 7 etc its not motivating enough since i dont have anyone motivating me to write.

ugh this is a lot i dont except anyone to read this but THANKS FOR THE ASK <3

[themotherofhorses]

heey vic! :D

i just started following u & i just wanna say how much i adore your series 'just like animals' & 'last of her house no more' .. they're phenomenally written and so addictive to read ! ♡

i was just wondering if you'd like to check out some of my writing concepts? …(totally ok if u don’t)—i saw u reblogged the first one that i posted on this new blog (my old blog got shadow banned) ..</3

..but anyways, i'm also thinking about starting to write longer oneshots & not just concepts... i was just wondering if u had any advice? i wrote a few oneshot imagines on my old blog, but idk.…..it's just really hard for me to commit to writing something longer atm, y'know? anyways, i love ur whole blog & your writing & i’m gonna go reread 'just like animals' & wait patiently for the next part ! ♡

best wishes, xoxo.

heeelllloooo my little love

your words made me so soft and blushy, ily. and the concepts i reblogged earlier i ADORED ! like those modern!aemond w an innocent!reader ones? art. absolutely beautiful. loved it. i look forward to seeing and reading what else you give us <3

as for any advice? okay so this is what helps me a lot in staying productive and motivated (aka my writing routine when i tackle my prompts):

whenever i receive requests or think up new fic ideas of my own, i instantly write them down in my goodnotes notebook. from there, i tweak and outline, trying to figure out what i like and don't like. i think of titles, scenes, dialogue, all that jazz. and perhaps this is so silly, but i use my college essay strategy (introduction, body, and conclusion) CAUSE THAT HELPS SO MUCH! trust me on this, it makes it a shit ton easier. sometimes i start on the body and other times the introduction- whatever feels easiest for me. also, whenever you're working on a larger fic, at times, i find it best to write the part(s) where you have the most ideas and energy, and then gradually branch out.

throw out a rough draft, like a really ugly and shitty base. leave it alone for a day and then work on polishing it. it is much better to approach your writing with a fresh and clearer mind. and if you're feeling less committed to it, move on to something new and come back to it later on!

there is absolutely no use in forcing yourself to do something you don't want to do. nope. not at all. it just ruins everything.

for when i start to lose motivation (or begin to feel that stupid writer's block), i usually pull up a book to read. for my aemond fics, i'll typically reread fire and blood or one of the books in the asoiaf series. i don't know why but reading grrm's writing style fills me with a sudden rush of motivation and encouragement to write for this sexy one-eyed pathetic meow-meow bastard.

(okay well that and i'll go back to all my previous fics and reread y'all's comments, cause receiving comments from y'all is the best fucking fuel EVER.)

my love, my best advice is to find your own writing style. your own groove. as cliche as this sounds, writing is a form of art, and every artist has their own way of creating such. it is what makes us unique. play around, read some books, listen to music, talk to your mutuals (@chainsawsangel is my muse. love you bestie. everyone say thank you cause she constantly motivates my ass to write), and practice until it feels natural to you. think of your followers kicking up their feet in the air while reading your work. how excited they will be when they see you posted something new. "YAY, SHE POSTED!!!"

and if you ever need to bounce around ideas or plan how you wanna write a certain fic, don't feel shy- message me! i'd be happy to talk and help you out. this goes out to everyone.

i love y'all.

[suguru-getos]

Hey! I know i don't talk much and am so much of a lurker it's unreal but I really wanna say how much i love your whole blog!

Imma drop this here if ya wanna answer!

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you. learn to know your mutuals and followers.

Gasp you just made my day!! 💝🥺 thank you!! I know it can be really hard to approach blogs (hell I don’t do it either) >.< even tho I wanna?? Giving you the biggest bear huggies xx

The five things that make me happy atm is: my cat, my coffee, my clean room, a new sketch book I have, my purple keyboard LMAO (I bought it weeks ago but it still gives me sm serotonin to be at work)

[robinauu]

me officially making a welcome to my blog post 🧍🏻‍♀️

Anyways hi 🥰

im robin!! im a freshman at the time of me writing this post, and on this blog im probably just gonna post about random things tbh 🧎🏻‍♀️

i really like videogames, i've been playing ever since i could literally hold a controller. rn i really like legend of zelda!!

some games that i've played are:

overwatch (since 2018)

minecraft

genshin impact

dead by daylight

breath of the wild

apex legends

bandori

project sekai

stardew valley

animal crossing

i forgot the rest 🙁

uhhh i also really like anime and stuff, my favorite ATM is probably JJBA or Ouran highschool host club. i could list all the animes ive watched but we would literally be here the whole day, so if you wanna talk to anime or something just dm me and i will happily rant for hours hehehe

anyways here's some fun facts about me ☺️

my birthday is march 26th!

i have two cats and a dog

both my parents are mixed so im like a crockpot heheh

my favorite studio ghibli movie is ponyo

i used to play soccer on an actual team

i have a friend named sage who i got married to in a roblox game (@krysphycookiez )

i might be moving to japan soon!!

i like to dye my hair different colors hehe

anyways i can't think of anything else to put here, soooo

if you want to be my friend or something, don't be afraid to dm me :)

[snowmuttgetsweird]

7/29/24, witching hour

Little late to be doing a journal/blog entry but here we are.

Squats always wreak the most havoc on my body where DOMS is concerned. I skipped the gym tonight in favor of a staff game night at my day job. Unless I plan ahead for it pretty far in advance, I rarely get to attend them, so it's nice that I had the opportunity this time around. We played I'm the Boss!, MLEM: Space Agency, and Scout. First was fun but I'm not good at it, second was... Aesthetically very cute, but not my favorite, and Scout is fantastic; kinda like Uno with less direct aggression and more interesting mechanics.

Came home to a very annoyed cat. He's not used to being alone for long stretches of time, so he's usually mad at me by the time I get home, and it makes his feeding schedule a little weird.

I miss my roommate. Where he is, he's like 3 hours ahead of me so by the time I'm awake, it's usually already noon for him, and then by the time I get home from work, it's either already evening or he's about to head to bed, so we haven't been able to talk much. It sucks coming home to a (mostly) empty apartment when I'm so used to someone else being around.

Workout-wise I think I'm getting a better idea of what all I wanna do.

I wanna do some sorta exercise every day in the morning, pretty much right after I wake up. I think on a daily basis I wanna incorporate a 1 min plank and 10k steps (making up whatever I miss just walking around that day on the treadmill at my gym), probably a rice bucket to help mitigate/prevent tennis elbow and wrist issues, and then I wanna maybe rotate a handful of bodyweight exercises- mostly probably push-up variations for shoulders and chest, squats and calf raises for lower body, crunch variations for core, and glute bridges. I still gotta find something for my back that doesn't take equipment too, since I really only have access to dumbbells at the moment.

Once I'm actually in the gym, I think I'm mostly doing weighted squats, dumbbell presses, dumbbell rows, hammer curls, side lateral raises, and chest flys. I mentioned before I wanna focus a lot on my shoulders and chest since they're pretty wimpy, and I just like hammer curls.

Food-wise overnight oats are still kinda soupy. That might just be how they are, idk. I'm trying to dial back the liquid little by little to see how little I can get away with while still getting them pretty soft. I'm also trying more chia seeds. The pumpkin puree with some spices and maple tasted alright, but I don't have all the spices I wanted to include, and I don't have real maple syrup at the moment, so I'm not sure what I expected, lol. C'est la vie.

Still struggling a bit to actually eat what practically feels like my bodyweight in protein each day, but I imagine that'll get easier as I start putting on more muscle and my body starts demanding more calories. As much as I love to eat, I just don't have much of a stomach for, like... Gorging myself. Even just eating my half-cup of overnight oats feels like a battle. I'm more of a grazer.

Oh, and if I didn't say so already, that salmon bowl was a big success. The cottage cheese blended up nice and smooth with just a little olive oil, some sriracha, salt, pepper, dill, and maybe a tsp of lemon juice, and then I just tossed that with a can of salmon, plated it up beside a mound of brown rice and sprinkled some furikake over the whole mess. There's more "sauce" than there is salmon almost, but it's all basically just cottage cheese so I feel no guilt in just mixing it up with the brown rice as a vehicle and going to town- basically free protein.

Think that's it for now. A little peckish atm but don't really feel like cooking, and don't really wanna snack right before bed, so I'll just assume a happy accident calorie deficit and call it a win. Nighto.

[baekhvuns]

It has just been a month and a half since I got into second year........things alr seem tough 😭. NVM about that, my friends's acquaintance apparently came in handy for this job. Yn job?!?!? Nah frr it reminds of those rom coms 😭😭.

NO HES GOTTA MAKE THE MOVE! But I bet he doesn't even know i fancy him cuz of my tremendous behaviour towards the person I like- PRETEND THEY DON'T EXIST! you will never catch me, and i mean NEVER catch me giving them soft eyes or trying to make a good covo, Bcz my brain says if you find someone attractive act cold towards them and then secretly cry in your room for them to notice when you basically give no clues whatsoever 😃

OHMYGOD NELLY FURTADO?!?! Honestly, I could've given out much better songs! I just forget the artists 😩 WEEKEND IN JUST FRIENDS DANG IT I FORGOT ABT HIM! I'm telling you since the whole the idol show launched, I can never listen to the weekend the same.

I scrolled down a lot on your blog, reading the asks and i saw someone made like vision boards for your fics. And i specifically loved the khronus one 🤌 and I kept tht in mind while thinking of the songs but i forgot it was based on moon lovers 🤦‍♀️

Besides that I've been meaning to ask you about your views on anime. I mean do you watch anime if so what'd be your top picks? Bcz...I'm obsessed with it so ....

Nooo I need a new part of just friends 😭 I'm STARVING FOR IT! The idea of hwayoung automatically popped in my brain when I saw this blog praising Shiloh pitt's visuals and people were going crazy over that oh wow she looks so much like her mother, or like mother like daughter. But ong Shiloh is majestic! Like those genes she acquired from Angelina 🤚🙌✨

I've been meaning to watch red, white and royal blue...(I hope that's the right title!) But I won't get the timeee 😭 like today, I'm doing nothing but I wanna dedicate this day to just my silly little videos on YouTube and not a series or a movie. But I'll try to stay strong!!

Ok but like I really wanna make hwa read the ffs 😭 LIKE PLS SIR!! I'm gonna dm KQ ent a pdf of Duke and general and ask them to MALE THIS A DRAMA! I will in this lifetime, SOMEONE HAS TO DO THT FIC JUSTICE!

reminds you? best friend it IS A YN JOB just wait till the holidays and the movie will start 👀

NO BECAUSE I GET U 😭😭 GOTTA ACT NOT INTERESTED AND MYSTERIOUS CANT LET THE COVER FAIL GDKWHDKW

NELLY FURTADO’S EVERY SONG W TIMBALAND IS FOR JUST FRIENDS (waiting for their new collab omg) AND THE WEEKND YEAH FHWJDHKS no ur right ever since the idol’s clips i saw on twt i just 🫠 what the fuck <3 but if we forget that then the songs def work for runways

omg yes i do!!! i grew up watching it but i mostly only watched shoujo and they stopped making shoujo’s for some reason like 5 years back and i only go to watch those but there’s a few new ones out w the same drawing so im watching them atm! my top picks since i only watched shoujo/slice of life’s would be 1. kamichu, 2. k-on, 3. tamako market, 4. ouran high school, 5. maid sama, 6. orange, 7. kamisama kiss, 8. alice academy, 9. yunerio patisserie!!!!!!! 10. pretty rhythm aurora dream (this was my fav as a kid)

a few others i can think from the top of my head is nana, cardcaptor sakura, SPECIAL A, itazura na kiss, my next life as a villainess, natsume’s book of friends, swan lake (2002), kodocha! if u want recs lemme know ive got a whole collection list 😭😭

ILL DEF LOOK INTO SOMETHING LIKE JUST FRIENDS! NO SHILOH IS LIKE THE PERFECT MIXTURE OF HER PARENTS i get it, id want hwa and yn from just friends to have pretty kids, u know they’d be mad tall 😭😭

that movie is so good!!! i wish it was longer bc i wanted to see more of their progression but it’s a good movie nonetheless!!

LMFAOOOO PLS FHWKDHWKHDWK TAKE THE SMUT OUT RIGHT NOW FHWKHFKWFJWK

[puppeteerofthehail]

@uncorruptedchampion

"You're telling me there's a cute dog that I'll never be able to pet?" Nero's heart is breaking.

Maybe you will be able to pet the dog one day, Nero. He may be a little grumpy at first, but it’s just that he has some trust issues. When opening up he’s actually a loyal and good doggo.

[redscharms]

I miss you 🥺❤️ hope everything's alright and you're fine, enjoying your holiday💙

Also do you have a backup? Too many blogs disappear in like minutes, just recently i saw a blog post and i was outside atm so didn't read it. Maybe few minutes later, i went back to Tumblr and they just vanished. I really don't wanna lose you 💔

Hello, sweetheart!

I'm staying longer at my grandparents' because my parents decided to come here too to celebrate my birthday last week.

It's been a while since my whole family came together to celebrate my birthday and spend some time together, so I was making most of it.

It's not the first time I get this question, so I'm starting to think I probably should create another page on a different platform just in case.

For now, I created this page just in case something happens so that you know where to find me in the future.

I'll be reposting my readings there and creating a masterpost page ♥️

Edit: and also this Telegram channel just in case https://t.me/redscharms

[hardestgrove]

feel free to ignore this is a vent so yeah

this fandom makes me feel so freaking guilty about being a Billy stan and shipping mungrove. I can literally make an entire book about all the tiktoks and posts I've seen about people bashing Billy stans because billy is racist and what not. (I am black myself) and honestly, I don't see anything wrong with billy yet people make me feel so guilty for liking his character. Don't even get me started on mungrove I really like the ship but people have called me disgusting for shipping it because billy wouldn't like eddie. i dont even know what to say anymore

i shant ignore bc i wanna send you love and support. cause you deserve it.

i've got a long ass post or two about how ppl talk about this shit and how their whole dogpiling on billy stans is just wildly ignorant to how these kinds of things like ??? work??? like if you're walking in with the assumption he's racist that's not??? fucking baked in???? to his dna???? and their behavior is the kind of thing that makes people double down on their shitty beliefs if they have them so like, they're REALLY not helping ANYONE. it's just performative bullshit at the expense of real people's well being.

in my book mungrove is THE ship of the show any they never got screentime in the same fucking season LOL and no screaming dipshits are gonna change that. same with my liking billy. dacre put a beautiful job into breathing life and depth into what was going to be the most embarrassingly basic henry bowers rip off and if they lack the fucking brainpower to respect that then i don't got time for em.

there's a huge amount of eddie stans that are truly vile to everyone who's not a rabid steddie stan i mean they're fucking coming after chrissy and grace too and literally trying to incriminate her with doctored screencaps to make her look racist. these people are just disgusting as people and they think they can get away with it bc they're a big group and they're in the "moral right" when really they're just 00s yaoi fans by another name who violently hate women who "get in the way of their ship" and can't stand anything with more depth than what their stereotyped shit allows and don't like competition.

personally, as someone who's been seeing this shit online since i was like, 12 in the 00s anime geosites era i just block, delete and ignore. either they grow the fuck up or they don't and in that case i hope they get so toxic their accounts get deleted bc they earned that.

i hate that you feel like this bc fandom and shipping and shit is supposed to be FUN we are all sitting on the carpet of someone's bedroom making our barbies kiss and planning out their silly little adventures and giggling about it. some people just fucking can't stand the idea of other people liking different shit then they like it's wild.

my next mungrove content is gonna be dedicated to you (assuming it's not something like vermillion bc that's yikesy and i don't wanna put ur metaphorical name on that bestie lol) cause you're cute and you have GOOD TASTE and you DESERVE IT

but ur gonna have to literally type in /tagged/mungrove into the url bar to find it when i do bc my blog is glitched out of the tags atm lol kill me 💀 unless you wanna make a request in which case i will happily take it and make you a nice thing!!!!

also i'm working on a mungrove story where billy is friends w/ benefits w/ a girl named jodi who's mixed race and then he gets with eddie bc they were ~falling in love~ for like months lol and remains besties with her. (and plot twist! she's eddie's half sister! they didn't know that before lol) and like i didn't set out to win at "piss the psycho antis off" bingo but lol i'm now even more determined to finish that story!!!!

[oliviaischillin1204]

Wait, people can submit fanfics to you and you post them? So if someone wanted to submit a fanfic idea they had but not worry about having to consistently post/write, they can write it to you and you'll post it?

i think the general answer is yes, i'm totally down to post people submissions who don't have a blog or who don't want to be attached to their fic! but there'd have to be some guidelines on it:

i'd only really accept fics for fandoms that i'm actually in, and atm that means i'm more likely to accept a Sanders Sides fic than any other fandom jdfhdjs. i guess a loose list of fandoms would be SaSi, TAZ, ATLA, and maybe C0bra Kai, but if there's another fandom i've mentioned liking on here that you'd wanna submit for, i can consider it! like if it's a Crit Role or TMA fic or something, i'd prob be cool w posting it, i just think there might be better blogs who're in those fandoms that might take submissions.

tbh i think the only other guideline I'd really have is like, i hold the right to refuse to post a submission for any reason. i will never ever judge a submission based on 'quality' (so please don't worry abt ur fic not being 'good enough' to submit!!! i still wanna see it!) but if i personally just don't vibe with it in any way, i will make a post letting u know.

(i'll also go ahead and say here that i'll never take someone's submission content and post it under my own name! just covering my bases ajdhsj)

also in general i do prefer that people ask permission before submitting fics, like just an ask that says "hey I have a lee Roman/ler Virgil fic, can I submit it to you?" so i can jdge whether or not i wanna post it before having u go through the trouble of submitting the whole thing.

so tl;dr yes, i accept fic submissions, as long as u understand the rules above! and if u have any questions about anything, please come and ask me, i really like posting submissions and i don't want anyone to feel too nervous to ask about it

[wkemeup]

Tw // suicide mention

Hey, I'm pretty new to mcu writing and idk you seem like a wise person (no pressure lol). There's this person that follows me and reblogs my stuff so me being me had the urge to stalk their blog. And idk their blog is very personal and they post a lot of things about their life and it's bad. Like I want to reach out to them and help them but again idk if I should cause they're more than 10 years older than me. And I don't want to intrude in someone's personal life. All I do atm is try to make my replies v funny, hoping that it might brighten up their day. It's not my place to just go to them and be like "Hey why are you posting about depression and talking about killing yourself. Do you want me to help?" because again they are a parent going through some issues whereas I'm just a kid in college. I'm aware it's not my place to interfere but I just keep on checking their blog every day to see if they're okay because I'm so scared. Ahh idk.

I'm sorry for the rant, I should not burden you with my stuff and it's totally cool if you don't wanna answer this. I love your work sm.I hope you're doing alright and take care!!

I love the whole theme around you guys thinking I'm 'wise' because I definitely feel like chaos most of the time lol.

Let me first day that I don't think it matters how old you are when you're looking for comfort or seeking it out. I'm 27 and while someone who is 17 won't know or understand a lot of the specific struggles I have gone through simply because of life experience, it doesn't mean that there still isn't value in being heard, listened to, and supported.

Sometimes people post personal things on here for the sake of just saying it aloud, but if I'm speaking from my own experience, when I do it - I'm looking for validation and support. It's not always conscious. Like sometimes I'm just like - I need to write this out and just put words to how I'm feeling and post it because then it makes it real. But it's the replies I'll often get that make such a difference and make me feel less alone and supported.

It sounds like you clearly care about this person, so I would message them directly (not in an ask) so they have the opportunity to reply privately. You could say something like, 'hey I've noticed your posts and I just wanted to check in to see how you're doing. You don't have to reply to this if you don't feel comfortable, but I wanted to make sure you knew you're not alone and I'm here if you ever want to talk.' Mention that you care about them and you have always appreciated their reblogs - so they know they have a positive impact on you.

They may or may not respond, but I think just the knowledge that someone sees the way they are feeling and makes the effort to reach out and say I hear you and I want you to be okay is really powerful.

Honestly, even reaching out by starting a whole different conversation could even be helpful. Maybe talking about how much you appreciated their reblogs and just build some kind of rapport that way before you bridge to checking in on their posts later? Whatever you feel more comfortable with. But I think regardless - don't let your age hold you back. I think it's incredible kind that you want to help so badly. Support is meaningful no matter who it comes from, even if you don't identify with their particular struggles. You can still be there for them.

[mental-health-advice]

About 3 years ago I had a really bad time with derealizaton and I feel like its just stuck with me. I had all the messed up symptoms, but the worst was existentialism. I questioned everything to the point where I now don't feel certain of my existence. It's better now, but I still question everything. Atm I'm scared that life is a computer simulation and it's made worse cause there are actual articles and scientists saying its possible. I just feel like existence is pointless. Wanna feel real.

Hi there,

Thank you for sending in your ask to mental health advice. I am so happy that you came to us for advice. I hope to help you as much as I can. Having thoughts about existence can be really scary. It doesn’t help that nobody truly knows everything about the universe, but there are ways to cope with the reality of everything.

Existence may feel pointless, but I think that it is important to make your own point of your existence. You can choose what point that your life has. For me it is to grow in my career by studying my best and doing new opportunities. I live for my cat, my fiancé, and all my friends and family. My purpose in life isn’t stated by anybody except me and I feel that you can make your own purpose as well.  

One way that some people find a meaning to life is through religion or spirituality. I’m not sure if that is something that you would be wanting to pursue, but if you are then feel free to send another message to the blog and ask to talk to me about it. Religion may not be what you are looking for but there is also spirituality. Some people choose to live a more spiritual life that is not related to religion. I don’t know a whole lot about that, but I’m sure if you do some research you can see what other people think about it.

If you are struggling really bad with derealization and stuff like that, then I would recommend that you see a psychiatrist and/or a therapist. A professional could point you in a better direction for getting help. Medication may help you or a certain type of therapy might help, I am just not sure exactly what they will do. I do know that they will try their best to help you.

I know that you can get through this! Did you know that we have a live chat service that is available to anyone who needs it? To speak with someone, you can send in a request for someone to get online or see if an admin has posted that they are currently online. If you feel like you are in immediate danger, please call emergency services and/or go to the nearest hospital. I also recommend looking at our “I have an Emergency” page. Feel free to send in another ask if you feel that you have any more questions or need additional help.

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-Rachel

“You’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain.”

[magicshopaholic]

I think I'm going through "the stages of grief" atm. Well, not really but I've gone through relief, anger, and currently between bitterness and hopefully acceptance soon lol. I only wrote one fan fic at the beginning of relief, I'm thinking now to write another one where I let out my frustrations, though it probably won't be that great.

Will probably be angsty as fuck since I'm seeing all the ways my relationship was bad for me BUT on the bright side, I'm not in that position anymore. Another way my older self makes better choices than my younger self.

My whole kpop phase started while realizing I could do better and this alongside fan fic has proven to be a really nice way to improve my mindset weirdly enough, thought that wouldn't happen without just maturing in general. I guess it's nice to take a break from the challenges of everyday life through entertainment and explore emotions via amazing writing like your work.

I'm happy to hear you're doing everything you want to, it's inspiring me to leave the current plateau I've reached, particularly would wanna start drawing, dancing, and working out again. Hard to beat the mentality of "well I won't be that great so why start...".

One thing I'll say is age has made me so much more self-assured. I don't have time for people that put me down anymore, and I know I'm pretty great and not everyone has to agree. Older women always told me that will happen, so I'm happy to confirm.

Hope you don't mind my ramblings, but I'm happy to relate haha I do feel old on Tumblr sometimes.

From personal experience, fanfic is a great way to process stuff. And you don't have to publish it if you don't want to! Write it, keep it, share it if you want to with the people you want - and I'm sure it'll be great anyway 🤗

Def agree with needing something to get you through everyday life. I think it's probably why I have a constant hyperfixation with something or the other because it just helps me cope. And I think k-pop has so much entertaining content and such a huge network of people (the non-toxic ones) that it can totally be considered a valid hobby, especially if you're into content creation.

Also - are you me. The two years after I finished grad school and started working, I just worked some 18 hours a day and I had nothing else in my life. After the pandemic began I realised I'd go back into depression if I didn't restart something and I started taking private classes - because I was afraid I wouldn't be good at it anymore. Overall, I cannot overstate the importance of having something else going on along with school or work - it's the main reason I have this blog.

100% agree - you're as old as you feel and the self-assurance and awareness that comes with it is so comforting in a way? And I don't mind your ramblings one bit - it's nice to talk to other people with such similar experiences so drop in whenever you feel like it <3

[bienmoreau]

Hi, I saw your post "Please don’t let fandom ruin something you love" and i just wondering what exactly do you mean while putting tfc and trc and i was wondering what made you feel this way. If u don't wanna share with it, sorry that I am bother you, if u want, i am okay with private answer since i dont wanna put your into troubles with fandoms. And have a good day :)

heya no worries.. 

umm i think i covered a fair amount of it in this ask here

19. What is the one thing you hate most about your fandom?

wow.. okay.. well. i think one of my biggest issues is the weird two faced feel to it. where it looks/seems like it’s really welcoming and friendly (and for the most part it is for sure) but with the boom in size it also got this really nasty aggressively rude and unpleasant side to it. in both interactions and content. and yeh. its exhausting ngl. and is the primary reason for my current efforts to withdraw from it as much as I am.

its not just this/maybe not quite as strong as hate.. but I’ve seen this fandom through like all of it.. and idk i don’t like a lot of what i’ve seen. it doesn’t help that TFC was my escape from a pretty horrific last two years at uni and because i was so involved in the early days the boom and the following drama and nastiness was really close to home for me and made me really stressed and unhappy on top of all the irl shit i was going through. 

I’m normally pretty good at stepping back from things that aren’t good for me/my happiness (the tmr fandom 5 years ago for example) but i did and am still struggling to let go of tfc in the same way for a number of reasons and that’s causing me to just sideline like the whole main fandom. i only engage in very select parts/people now and even with that i still see an awful lot of content/discourse that i just don’t have the mental time or energy for. so as and when i do see it/my friends still in the fandom get caught up in it its really not good for me irl. 

the fandom and tumblr in general (this is all thinking in generals here tbh tho if i tried i could narrow it to specifics) very nearly ruined my enjoyment of these books (or at least of being a fan of them. the books are still a masterpiece and ill never not love them) honestly if it wasn’t for Jean/jerejean/the Trojans and the friends i have made through these as topics I would be long gone from anything tfc fandom related (except my url). 

as for trc its a little different. again i do still have a few very good friends who i talk trc with and i still really enjoy those characters. but a similar thing happened with the scale of fandom/disparities in content and opinion and people just being straight up nasty to each other/my friends/etc. 

its too much bad shit muddying the waters of something i love and it makes me not want to engage with it on the same level as the majority. with trc i made a shared blog with a very good friend for our tiny tiny rare-pair and pretty much only talked to like 7 people about the book after the raven king came out. i still love the characters and will happily talk about them/post-trk HCs etc. but i want next to no part in the main fandom because it does my head in and just isn’t good for my own sanity and happiness. 

also y’know the amount of seriously questionable content created in both these fandoms (and Vld which is why its cutting it close to being on the list atm) makes me very uncomfortable.. and while i will normally stand by ‘to each their own’ i have less than zero interest in associating with or being part of the creation of that kind of content.