#I imagine in here I act like that girl on tiktok who pretends to be a cringe wolfgirl from highschool and I think it's the funniest thing
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ITS MY FAV WAY TO COMMUNICATE
its like my inner thoughts and those are so unhinged, they need to stay separate LOL
#Me in my posts: Oh thank you :) me in the tags ENFHJNESHJFNE BARK BARKBARK BARK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#But anyway yea#I just literally type what is coming to my mind right at this moment#and I'm glad people read them because sometimes it gets lonely in here#despite running 24/7 LOL#I imagine in here I act like that girl on tiktok who pretends to be a cringe wolfgirl from highschool and I think it's the funniest thing#BARKBARKBARKbAKBRBAKBR#whenever I draw ragpom I think of you#ask
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@FCKL8RBOY JUST POSTED ON TIKTOK! - HANA AND LO TRAUMA DUMP WHILE MAKING CANDY SALAD
🍓 ˖ ࣪ CONTENT WARNING: swearing, mentions of harassment, suicide, sex, cheating and toxic relationships. It’s a bit explicit, I guess? Nothing crazy though.
₊˚﹒⤻ insp. by my forever boys @bluwavez
₊˚﹒⤻ this piece is set in the @dreamquest dorms!
Hana sits in front of the camera with a playful smile on her face, already makeup-free and ready for bed after a long day of rehearsals. From what can be seen in the background, she is in the shared dormitory of the DreamQuest girls.
Hana claps her hands together lightly before speaking. “I’ve noticed it’s trendy these days to share your traumas for fun, outside the confines of your therapist’s office. So, here we are.” Hana then grabs Eloise by the shoulder, pulling her into the frame. Eloise, with an unusual expression of discomfort plastered on her face, waves both hands at the camera with a forced smile that doesn’t quite reach her eyes.
“Okay, I’ll go first,” Hana declares, motioning for Eloise to step out of the frame. “Hi, I’m Yunha. No, my real name isn’t Hana. Anyway, I’ve brought licorice sticks. When I debuted with that group—yeah, the one everyone knows but I won’t mention because they're all backstabbing bitches— I received a massive wave of hate just for being my father’s daughter. Creepy people would wait for me outside Hidden Entertainment at night and basically harassed me, calling me a spoiled talentless brat and telling me I should kill myself or I’d drag the group down with me. My dad had to assign me a couple of bodyguards for my safety. Super fun, right?” With a big fake smile, Hana dumps the licorice onto the clear bowl in front of her, her eyes never leaving the camera and her smile never faltering.
Tugging at the sleeves of her oversized hoodie, which is clearly a guy’s, Lo steps in front of the camera, replacing Hana.
"Hey, I’m Eloise, and I brought watermelon sour brite crawlers," she says, unenthusiastically waving the candy bag in the air. She pauses, pouting off-camera at what it can be assumed is Hana. Despite her reluctance, she continues, “So, during the Zombie promotions, one of our wardrobe assistants attacked me because she thought I was hooking up with her boyfriend, who happened to be one of our producers. Totally not true, by the way, but she was out of her fucking mind. She caught me off guard in the bathroom while I was washing my hands, yanked my hair, and slammed me into the mirror. The CEO found out and ended up firing both of them, so yeah, good riddance."
Hana's laughter can be heard off-camera, which brings a pleased smile to Eloise's face. She dumps the contents of her candy bag into the bowl before being replaced by Hana once again.
“Okay, what else…” Hana pauses, pretending to think, but it’s clear she knows exactly what she's about to say. “My dad cheated on my mom for the first time when I was, like, five? Maybe six? Who even knows at this point. So, one day, my mom and I go to the company to pick him up for a family dinner. She’s chatting with some employees in the lobby and sends me to his office. Of course, it never crossed my mind to knock, because Hidden is like my second home. And there he is, fucking one of his secretaries. The most basic cliché ever. So I ran back and told my mom that daddy was kissing another woman. And you know what she said? 'I’m sure you’re imagining things.' She made me think I was crazy and acted like I hadn’t just dropped the biggest bombshell. They both played the perfect couple in front of the whole family later that night.”
Eloise tries to suppress her laughter, which causes Hana to laugh too. “It’s okay! You can laugh. It’s funny. Years later, I found out my dad cheating is considered normal in their marriage. And my mom denying it is too. It’s ridiculously pathetic, but who am I to say anything anymore? Let them deal with their own mess. Oh, I also brought strawberry sour patch. These are the best!”
Eloise seems a bit calmer when she reappears on screen with a new bag of candy in hand. “Hi, it’s Eloise again, this time with original Haribo gummies. So, when I got kicked out of L8RBOY…” She’s cut off by a pink sour patch hitting her in the face. Eloise picks it up from her lap, where it landed, and pops it into her mouth. “Alright, alright, the group that shall not be named because they’re a bunch of blah blah blahs. Anyway, I started dating a boy. He was my first real boyfriend. He also happened to be obsessed with me sucking him off. We’re talking about the guy I lost my virginity to, so I had like zero experience. Plus, I was super shy in bed, like everything felt like a big deal to me. So, obviously, I kept refusing until one day he threatened to break up with me if I didn’t do it. He literally blackmailed me into sucking his stupid dick. I was such a mess back then that the thought of him leaving me was terrifying. I eventually caved and gave him a blowjob and he still dumped me, saying I was terrible at it. And now, I’m terrified of dicks! Yay!”
Both girls burst into laughter at Eloise's mock enthusiasm. She dumps the bag's contents into the bowl, and Hana takes the opportunity to sit down on the floor next to her. In an attempt to stop laughing, they both start munching on some of the candies, only to end up choking on them when the laughter doesn't let up.
When she finally calms down a bit, Hana starts talking again. "Okay, okay, one last rant for today. I’m Yunha, and I’m out of candy, but I vouched for one of the girls in the original lineup of the group that shall not be named because my dad wasn’t sure about letting her debut. And what do I get in return? The bitch backstabs me during the group buyout and INFERNO decides I’m totally replaceable. I said I wouldn’t name names, but screw it—Zhao Jiayi, you’re the biggest backstabbing bitch ever! I guess that’s how you stole the leader spot in the new lineup. Seriously, go to hell!"
Eloise looks totally shocked, eyebrows up and hand over her mouth. "I can't believe you just went there."
Hana shrugs nonchalantly. "I mean, I'm just speaking facts."
"Yeah well, she’s definitely gonna see the video," Eloise says, to which Hana grins wickedly.
"Oh, but I hope she does."
#🍓 ˖ ࣪ see ya! ࣪ ★ ₊˚﹒⤻ development#🍓 ˖ ࣪ see ya! ࣪ ★ ₊˚﹒⤻ hana#🍓 ˖ ࣪ see ya! ࣪ ★ ₊˚﹒⤻ lo#fictional idol community#fictional idol group#fictional idol oc
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Eurovision 2023: #04 & #03.
04. BELGIUM Gustaph - "Because of you" 7th place
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Decade Ranking: 11/116 [Above Måneskin, below Monika Liu]
HOED BEZIG DADDY!1!!1!1!!
Another wonderful example of 2023 gaslighting doing its work - I decided around April last year that Gustaph could get a top 10 and because of the, um, reception he got online, I gaslit myself into thinking 10th was his absolute ceiling. Maybe, maybe on the cusp of left side?, I thought.
In reality:
Remember when they tried to break him? Well look at him now :-)
I love a good underdog arc and the best arcs are served with casual Surprise (not rly) Top Tens, defeating the underwhelming fanfave beasts along the way. There WERE murmurs by certain fans about how PUZZLING it was Gustaph got a SEVENTH PLACE (often lumping him in with Alika, Vesna and Voyager) over TeyaLena and Blanca and (mild cringe) LaZarra and (megacringe) Iru. WHY IS IT A TOP TEN SONG? Here's a question babe. Why was it not a top six song? This is what finished ahead of Gustaph:
Let's see: A boring default winner, Käärijä, evil nepobaby with the worst song ever, italian himbot with a some song, pulpy tiktok nonsense, miserable ukrainian song about the war. What A Wonderful Top Six, how could anyone like Belgium enough for top ten.
Fortunately as the months ticked by, the sensibles concluded that yes, "Because of you"' slaps and is iconique. Which is ofc, the conclusion I reached before the liveshows😘 Yeah okay that's supercilious of me, but I'm living the moment, let me have it, okay! Seeing the light took less time for me because granted, I am Belgian (and worse, Flemish) so I always have to convince myself our entries work if I like them (lmao tough luck Mustii!!), and when they work, they work, you know. "Because of you" IS Eurovision to its very core:
A CHARISMATIC LEAD WITH A GREAT VOICE AND A MEMORABLE STYLE
AN UPBEAT BOUNCY TUNE CELEBRATING A POSITIVE NURTURING TOPIC
A GREATLY STAGED, VISIONARY ACT (which is mandatory nowadays)
ADD SOME ░P░ U░S░S░ Y░I░ N░B░I░O ░
(and the not unimportant accolade of being the new jingle for misja eurovision...x)
It came together better than Imagined. The live was a meteor shower of slays and serves. Daddy slayed, his hubby that made the graphics served, the girls slayed, PussyServeCunt slayed AND the jury rightfully served up three twelves (including the Greek one lmaooo - pwnt Andrew!!) to commemorate this beautiful triumph over prejudice, pettiness and internalised homophobicuntitude. His hecklers can touch grass by faceplanting into it.
This was the best Belgian entry in a long time. Easily the best one since the terminally underrated Blanche (who is still the best winner we've never had) and that is good grief, already six years ago? Seven after the current contest? We were overdue for a good result.
Anyway, this was an erratic write-up, but honestly, I don't feel like I need to explain much anyway. Gustaph rose from an act most people pretended to dislike from an entrant that is universally well-regarded and beloved by both the fandom and critics. If that is not a satisfying growth arc, then I don't know what is. SERVE, HAT KING, SERVE.
in sum, see you in Antwerp for ESC2026 after we win it with a GUSTAPH x MEROL collab...x:
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03. SLOVENIA Joker Out - "Carpe Diem" 20th place
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Decade ranking: 7/116 [Above Barbara, below Daði]
:GASP: Only third?! Boris how could you - shush shush bish calm ur teats, my opinion on Joker Out has remained completely unchanged. Maybe that's the point? "Carpe Diem" is still probably my favourite 2023 track. On-curved indie rock with on-trend styling, what is this? Almost too good for the contest, that's what.
MI BOMO CELO NOC PLESALI LUBILI SE IN SE IGRALI KOT DA NAS JURTI VEC NE BO
And well, let's also be very clear here - Joker Out lived up to exactly what I wanted from them. It's one of those entries that does exactly what it says on the tin (see also: Pasha). The older I get, the more I appreciate the Actual Songs in Eurovision for their reliability and "Carpe Diem" was a really good song. Three minutes of unbridled indierock fun, that quickly turns addictive if you're not careful - it does get better than that, but it's a high bar that not many other entries pass. Besides, the live was you know, living up to my expectations and that's worth a lot in 2023, where most acts let me down. It was a joy to watch. Bojan devoured that live -
but it still felt like a group effort, as and the rest of the gang more than pulled their weight. Jan and Kris as the silly foils to Bojan's seductive self -
and Nace and Jure (who can both so get it 👉👈) as the two who would whip up the crowd making "Carpe Diem" well and truly feel like the concert that it was.
THEY WERE FUN
THEY HAD "RIZZ" (i really hate this word btw - or rather i hate how ESC.tv used this word to appear "cool" 🤢)
AND THEY HAD A TRUE EUROVISION LOVE STORY
(it is still wildly amusing to me that my two preshow favourites entered a bromance so electrified by reciprocal, yet unfulfilled sexual tension it felt like watching a Basement Yard Podcast 😍 Bojan x Käärijä 5ever💚)
So yeah, this was just all sorts of excellent, really. Ofc, 20th place is um... really disgusting and outrageous, specifically for an entry that brings me so much joy, but hey that's democracy for you. Results are being decided way ahead of time so the people with godawful taste that lead happy lives feel like they are relevant, or summat.
However, Joker Out didn't lose Eurovision 2023, they won it. Out of everyone, it was their fanbase that grew the most after the contest ended, so much that they're now considered a welcome staple at ESC preparties, alongside the likes of Daði Freyr, Go_A, Senhit and Anna Bergendahl, which is not a bad line-up to be a part of. They'll be back as Slovene reps in a few years, hopefully with a more immediate song and will do significantly better. 😁
Finally, yes, Slovenia went from first to third on my ranking, but eh. I figured out quasi immediately after the finale that my top 3 would be Czechia, Finland and Slovenia, and figured out just as fast that Slovenia were third in that equation. I hope it's been made clear that my feelings on Joker Out just stayed the same, while Vesna and Käärijä were subject to positive morphs, and the novelty of those arcs is worth a splitscreen ending.
WILL IT BE THE GREEN FIN OR THE PINK SISTERS?
it was actually... a very, very close call. 😲
THE RANKING
#Eurovision#Eurovision 2023#ESC 2023#ESC#Eurovision Song Contest#Liverpool 2023#Belgium#Gustaph#Because of you#Slovenia#Joker Out#Carpe Diem#BorisBubbles
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An Hour-Nineteen
Remus accidentally ended up on a half marathon course and ends up having an interview with a gorgeous reporter. Inspiration Here
After years of telling himself he should start running again like in school, Remus finally got his act together. Remus never excelled at track, but he had been decent enough to make the team. It helped clear his head when things went crazy. Since his break up with Benjy, he felt that need for an outlet once more. Now a few months later he felt good and had a nice routine.
Remus slipped out the door of his building, trainers tied tight and earbuds snug in blaring Bikini Kill. He imagined the sound of his treads on the pavement matched the beats of Rebel Girl and Carnival. All that mattered was his breathing and his heart rate for about 2 kilometers. The time didn’t even matter because this time was for him.
Until he started the 3rd kilometer, when two other runners passed him. He wasn’t in a race, but he felt like it as he rounded a bend between buildings. And shit. Coming out the other side, he swore. On both sides of the street were spectators, cheering and holding up signs. Ahead of him were two runners and a big arch with the banner 5th Annual St. Mungo’s Hospital Half Marathon.
Oh no.
The anxiety coursing through his body made it difficult to turn around and leave the course now all eyes seemed to be on the front of the pack… which included him! Great. Okay. He needed to just run it out. Going to be barriers probably would make things worse. The only way out is through, that’s what they say. Who said that? Churchill, ugh no. No wait, Frost. Okay.
Jesus. Glancing over his shoulder he found no one else was on his tail. Of course he couldn’t just fall back for a third place finisher who actually registered for the race. Then if he stopped as if he had an injury he probably would end up as some inspirational TikTok as other runners helped him to finish.
So he ran through the cheering spectators and crossed the finish line. In front of him two men were bent over in exhaustion. Well they did just run a half marathon in — he glanced up at the board — an hour and nineteen minutes? Holy shit.
Suddenly a medal slipped over his neck and a cookie was shoved into his hand by a volunteer in a bright yellow vest. He took his ear buds out and went to refuse, “Oh — no —“
“It’s third place! You’re not a loser, wear it with pride, mate.” The man patted him on the shoulder.
Jesus. Okay. He needed to get out of here now. Eyes on a pivot Remus began to move away from the finish line as volunteers and staff around him congratulated him. Now he felt immensely guilty. The poor bloke who was meant to be in third. Shit, this only happened to him.
“Excuse, hi, yes. Congratulations on coming in third. How does it feel to run an hour, nineteen?” A microphone appeared in front of his face after a few steps towards the exit.
“Oh.” He should have just told him he fucked up and ended up here, but then he’d end up a laughing stock and national fucking news, wouldn’t he? God if he just pretended to be in third then it could all just blow over. “Right, well thanks. Er… it feels… unbelievable.”
At that moment Remus finally looked beyond the microphone at the person asking him questions. He wished he didn’t because he was gorgeous. Sharp features and grey eyes and a smile that looked like he was up to no good.
“Is the hour and nineteen minutes a personal best? It’s very impressive.” Christ, and his voice sounded like honey.
“Ah, yes. I guess it is.” He rubbed his forehead. How did he always end up in the most ridiculous situations?
“What was your race plan then?”
Ha, god, he didn’t even have a plan to get out of this interview. “I didn’t have one.”
The man’s eyes widened. “Okay, what about food? You must have had a good power meal.”
“No, just… just raw talent.” His protein smoothie and single egg probably wouldn’t have done much.
“Mmm, can't let the competition know?” The interviewer cocked an eyebrow and Remus wanted to keel over.
“So, what’s your advice to other runners?”
What would marathoners need to do? “Eat well, train hard, and if all else fails sign up for a race at the last minute.”
The interviewer let out a sharp laugh then pointed at his shirt. “You’ve lost your bib. Can I have your race number? What’s your name?”
Remus stood up straight. Of course he didn’t have a bib with a race number, he sort of needed to register for that. “Right from running too fast. I need to, um, run! Bye!”
Surely he ran fast enough out of there to possibly actually make an hour-nineteen for a marathon.
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The next day, Remus’ embarrassment still lingered. He stayed away from any social media in case he had been found out. Of course he had to tell Alice before it ate away at him inside.
“So you just took the medal and the cookie and ran? My god, Moony, what the fuck?” She cackled, standing between the kitchen and the front of the cafe. It was currently dead aside from the few regulars who were plugged into their computers doing their work.
“I know!”
Alice doubled over, holding her pregnant stomach. “Oh now I’m going to burst. I need the loo, watch up front for a minute.” She wheezed out another laugh. “Only you Moony.”
Remus rolled his eyes as she waddled by him towards the staff bathroom, still laughing. He’d never live it down, but at least it felt less like it was eating away at him now.
The bell above the door jingled, catching his attention away from his misery. That didn’t last long because as soon as he stepped behind the iPad to take the order, his eyes landed on the handsome interviewer from the half marathon.
“Hey, I was right. An Hour-Nineteen, it is you.”
This only confirmed that people couldn’t not actually die of embarrassment or burst into flames over it because if that were true it would have happened then.
“I’ve come here before but you were busy making things. He pointed behind Remus to where he normally worked quickly on baking pastries.
“Oh.”
The interviewer grinned. “Look, this is weird but, I was wondering if you’d like to have dinner.”
Shit. Of course the handsome man only wanted a date when he found himself embroiled in a lie. “I can’t.”
The corner of his lips turned down. “I’m Sirius, by the way. I’m sorry if this is all weird.”
“You’ve no idea.” Remus’ cheeks were burning.
“I apologize if I’m coming off as a stalker, I knew I would. My best mate convinced me it’d be okay.” He shifted a little. “I also wanted you to know I didn’t run the interview.”
Remus let out a sigh. “Okay.”
“I know you didn’t actually run.”
Great so he probably ran a different one and told everyone about the moron who joined the race.
“Three other runners accidentally ended up on the course because they didn’t block it properly. So no one knows who you are and the correct hits place finisher got his due,” Sirius explained as the tension unraveled in his chest. “You’re just some mysterious man. That was some quick thinking though, I thought you were funny.”
Now he blushed for different reasons.
“So I ended up here and now I’m talking a whole lot and you’re standing here thinking I’m a stalker creep.”
“No, no I don’t think that.” Now his cheeks were pink for another reason.
“So, I guess I’ll get a coffee and a cinnamon roll and die of embarrassment.”
“I can get that for you and go double on the embarrassment.”
Sirius laughed. “Thanks for sparing me.”
“You really want to go on a date… with a person who pretended to run a marathon.”
He nodded, a mischievous spark in his eye. “Yeah, I think you’re just my type.”
Remus swallowed. “Okay.”
Sirius grinned. “Excellent. I can’t promise no teasing.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll make sure everyone knows you stalked me.”
#wolfstar#remus lupin#sirius black#remus/sirius#sirius/remus#Harry Potter#hp fanfic#wolfstar fanfiction#wolfstar fandom
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Hello, CalmWriMo 26
Today was a very good day. You know why? I rediscovered walking around but inside. I took like a 30 minute walk but in figure eights in my house and it was very good for my writing brain. What did I proceed to do? I drafted 3 whole different scenes!
See, it's almost like taking walks for my mental health is REALLY GOOD FOR ME or something!
New goal dropped for December -- daily walks inside my house 😍
Also also, I got to play Shadowrun for the first time with my friends! I'm Cat with a Q (Qat) and my pet is Cat with a Ch.
"So... Chat?"
"No, Cacht. The CH is silent."
The joke works better in audio. 💀💀💀
https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1272810/complete?cd=xsFqqefQ9U
Anyway, Qat is neurodivergent and a minor (except she isn't a minor lol). She's also an invisible Aspected Wizard with a pet cat, who was blessed by her spirit guide, and she lives in your walls. She's homeless. Her quest is for ramen with hot water.
ALSO ALSO -- I got sucked into Neocities today, on account of a post in my ridiculously long backlogged queue. But as I looked into it more, people are scared it might die soon cuz it's run by one guy?! Why do I always get into things when they're dying? Tiktok was the only thing I joined even VAGUELY early!? It's not fair! But sites on Neocities are SO COOL and I'm very seriously considering moving the entirity of the Yssaia site AGAIN lololol. But I had a complaint the Wix Blog and my Wix Site lowered its storage cap on me this last year so it isn't even EZ to read on or host images so... Hence why I'm very tempted to just scrap the whole thing and find somewhere else...
*ahem* Writing snippet! Right! Listen, the "journaling but on Tumblr" thing is going shockingly well. I don't censor myself -- the plan was just to cut anything I didn't want to post. But I haven't had any ultra-personal additions to add lately. So now I just ramble here lol. (Maybe I'm too open of a person?)
This snippet is between Lucienne and Nesa -- both gaslight/gatekeep/girlboss girlies dating Arlasaire, except Lucienne has generational trauma and Nesa does not. They are notably the same age, but Nesa has decided on the tactic of pretending Luce is a fantasy kindergartener
Lu: …Who are you? Ne: Nesa Kanespari — Second only to the Inquisitor General of the Ecclesia. And you are being a very bad girl, aren’t you? I don’t know how you do things in the North, but here in the South, we don’t hit people when we’re mad. Lu: “People.” She doesn’t even have a sash. Ne: Ah, so are you the type of little girl who kicks streetcats because she doesn’t have power over anything else? Lu: I’m not a child. Ne: Really? Because you’re acting like one. Apologize to Arlasaire. Ar: Nesa, it’s fine— Ne: No, it isn’t. Apologize. Lu: Why should I? Ne: “Why?” Well, for one, she could break you you over her knee, if she wanted. She won’t, because she likes you, but she could. But here’s the catch, Miss Lucienne, pay attention: She may not ever hurt you — but I have no qualms doing so.
I saw this Tiktok where a lady pretended to talk to Extended Family at Thanksgiving and told them to "Mind their bodies" and "Catch a bubble" and "Think silently, in your own head". And it was hilarious. I loved it. So Nesa is stealing this tactic -- but I did imagine an alt scene where Nesa is full-aggro, mama-bear for Arlasaire. But I think that might be too much for what is functionally a Charisma-based character lol.
Okay, thanks for the good talk! Take care of yourself in this final stretch of Nano/CalmWriMo!
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Wow. What can I say but wow (Owen Wilson voice) but also wow (solemnly)
How do I even begin to process this? How do I even ????????
[future me edit: this is really fucking long 💀💀💀🤣🤣 I JUST HAVE A LOT TO SAY OK]
First of all this makes me want to write a Joel angst too. Like 100000 of them cos this is so
As you sat there in the dimly lit living room, the weight of Joel's words hung heavily in the air.
This was so beautifully written. Also I love it when you use inner turmoil. I keep saying imma steal that but I keep forgetting HAHAAHAHHAHA
Joel stared at the floor, avoiding your gaze. "I love you. So much. More than I ever thought I could love someone. But, I can't keep pretending that I can give you everything you deserve. I'm 35, and I've lived a life that's... complicated. I don't want to tie you down, especially when you have so much of the world left to explore."
🤨✋ PAUSE. PAUZEEE MADAME. leave him. leave his ass.
First of all, if you're with someone who thinks they're going to hold you back LEAVE THEM COS THEY WILL THEYRE TELLING ON THEMSELVES.
Second of all, not him acting like 35 is old dafaq??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU LIVED A LIFE??? GIRL LIFE STARTS AT 30 COS THATS WHEN YOU GET UR SHIT TOGETHER HELLO?????
ALSO SHES 25????????????????????????? WHAT IS SHE DOING THAT YOU CAN NO LONGER DO??? CLIMB UP THE FUCKING STAIRS? HELLO???? EARTH TO JOEL???? ITS GIVING SELF-RIGHTEOUS PRICK, ITS GIVING SAVIOR COMPLEX?????
👩⚖️LEAVE HIS ASS.👩⚖️ NEXT 🥱
"I don't want you to look back one day and regret being with me," he continued, his voice gentle as he clasps both of your hands in his. "I couldn’t live with myself if one day you look at me and all I’d see is regret in your eyes. I want you to experience the world, to find your own path. I know you'll go on to do amazing things, and I don't want to be the reason you didn't." His eyes glimmered with tears.
He thinks he's musty and dusty and not worth staying for. Leave his bum ass rat face ass ROIGHT NIOW 🤮🤮🤮
AND ANOTHER THING THE FACT HE CANT IMAGINE SEEING THE WORLD WITH YOU ✋✋✋✋✋😒😒😒😒😒😒
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🗣️THATS🗣️SO🗣️ FUCKING🗣️TELLING🗣️🗣️OF🗣️HIMMMM🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️MISS ME WITH THAT BULLSHIT FUCK OFF
“And what about what I want?” You stared back at him, defiant. “What if I want to be here with you?”
EXACTLY. SPEAK YOUR TRUTH QUEEN. IT TAKES TWO TO TANGO. UNFORTUNATELY UR MANS BARELY GOT TWO BRAIN CELLS BUT OKAY GO OFF I GUESS
He smiled softly and shook his head. “You know, I could be selfish and keep you here with me. But what can you achieve in this town, really? You had such big dreams when we met, remember? Don’t think I forgot.”
🧍♀️ aur. .......... 😗😗😗👁️👄👁️ and I oop. 😬😬😬 That's what he meant....
She has dreams and ambitions....... Aurr......... Aurr ......... See okay now Joel's got a point........... Aur.... See see ☝️
“Dreams change.” was all you managed to get out before your throat started to tighten and you felt the prickling of tears in your eyes.
SPEAK YOUR TRUTH KWEENNNNNNNNNNNN. But yah I get where Joel's coming from. Ya really can't tell cos you'll be riddled with what ifssss 😔 but what about love ?? Is that really not a what if you're willing to take?
Ok. Joel NTA (not the asshole in case you didn't know HAHAHHAAHH)
Joel pulled you in for a hug and buried his face in your shoulder. “Don’t change them for me. Never for me.”
😗😬 AUR. CUZ. CUZ. ☝️ HES GOT A POINT. CAPN SHE THREW A CURVE BALL AT US WE CURRENTLY DONT KNOW WHERE THIS IS GOING NOR HOW WE FEEL.
But we love it here
Deep down, you knew you had to go. Not because you wanted to, but because you knew Joel would never forgive himself if you didn’t. It was ironic and so painfully stupid that it hurt - he thought this breakup would help you and you went through with it to help him.
I COULDN'T FIND IT BUT THERE IS THIS VIDEO OF A KPOP BOY COUGHING UNCONTROLLABLY AND ONE OF HIS GROUP MATES TURNED TO HIM AND STARTED WAVING AND SAID BYE that's how I feel HAHAHAH
So there you went. You packed your bags and you were out of there in less than a week. You moved in with a friend in New York for a couple of months until you secured a stable job and an apartment. You followed Joel's advice, exploring the world, pursuing your dreams, and building a life that was uniquely your own. You missed him more than you cared to admit, but you knew that his intentions had been pure, and in a way, it did benefit you.
🗣️AS🗣️YOU🗣️SHOULD🗣️QUEEN🗣️GETIM🗣️ but also pure intentions is a stretch. Like he did this so that he wouldn't feel guilty in the future too so he's overcompensating for something that hasn't happened yet which also might not even happen. Well/good intentions tho, sure. Ig.
You try to think back to every interaction they had during the course of your relationship but it had never been more than polite small talk at neighbourhood gatherings or run-ins at the grocery store. Wasn’t she married?
No cuz fuck that shit. That's fucked up. That's cold. That's low.
Fuck this. You double tap the picture, giving it a “like”. This will give them something to talk about, you think spitefully. He wanted me to move on with my life? Well this is me, moved on. As you throw your phone to the other side of the bed, the pain finally sinks in and you cry into your pillow, wondering if you truly, will ever move on.
🗣️AS🗣️SHE🗣️FATHER🗣️FUCKING🗣️SHOULD🗣️RAT🗣️ASS🗣️CRETIN🗣️GOOD🗣️FOR🗣️NOTHING🗣️MAN🗣️
People would kill for the life you have and you will NOT be ungrateful about it.
😔😔😔😔😔 aw. Awie. ouch. 😃😃😃 DAMN BRUH CUZ NEEDING TO BE GRATEFUL IN A SITUATION SOMETIMES SUCKS ASS YOU SHOULD BUT ALSO FUCK IM MISERABLE OVA ERE LEMME LIVE
He whispers your name, almost in disbelief as his brows furrow. “Hey. Wow.”
HAHAH WAIT I DIDNT REALIZE THIS GIRL SAID OH WOW WHAT A FITTING MEME. NO CUZ I WANT TO BE THAT EX. MAKE YOU GO HEY. WOW. COS 💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅
AS YOU SHOULD SHE IS DATTTT GWWWWOOORRLLLLLLLLLLLLL SLAAYYYYYYYYY NUFFIN ELSE TO SAY BUT HEY WOW 😩😩😩😩😩 GOT THE WHOLE GROUP CHAT GAGGGEDDDD
He’s older, grayer, but damn him, he still looks so fucking good.
HAHAHHAAH NOT CUZ I ZONED OUT AND THOUGHT IT SAID GAYER AND I WAS LIKE OOP SLAY A GAY CHARACTER ENTRANCE BUT THEN I WAS LIKE HUH??? WHY IS THERE A GAY FRIEND??? then I saw it was gray 💀💀💀 HAHAHHAAH
You stand there staring for a moment, while he examines the box of Cap’n Crunch.
Canon Pedro character lore, liking capn crunch. That's his fav right???? LMAOO AHAHAH
Somehow this exchange cuts you deeper than the day he broke up with you. When did you become people who could barely speak 3 words to each other?
😩😩😩😬😬😬😬😬🫣🫣🫣 I CAN SEE IT NOW HER VILLAIN ORIGIN STORY. WOOF
At that, he visibly stiffens and clears his throat as he replies, “Oh, Cassie and I aren’t together anymore. Well we were never.. But we kind of.. Yeah she’s not in the picture. It’s just me and Sarah.”
😃😃✋✋✋✋✋✋🤪🤪🤪🤪🫨🫨🫨😵💫😵💫😵💫😵😵😨😨😨😰😰😰🙀🙀🙀 LISTEN I COULD PUT A MEME BUT IM ON MOBILE AND I CAN ONLY PUT 10 PICS IM TRYNA CONSERVE THEM BUT LIKE NDJSJDJSJJS BROOOOOOOOOOO SHE LEFT YOU YOUR FOOKIN REBOUND LEFT YOU AND LEFT YOU A BABY 💀💀💀💀🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 THATS SO EMBARRASSING FOR YOUR SOUL AND ?????? SO FUCKED UP FOR YOU AND FOR HEE OBVI BUT FOR YOU TOO BRO CUZ IMAGINE NOT EVEN LOVING THAT WOMAN AND HAVING HER GENETIC DNA LIFE WITH YOURS IN A HUMAN AND YOULL HAVE THAT HUMAN WITH YOU FOREVER or I mean till she gets shot 😶 sorry ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
“No, wait. Can we talk, please? I.. I’ve missed you. I want to talk.” Joel steps towards you as if to stop you from leaving but then holds himself back.
[RUNNING AWAY SCREAMING AND CRYING]
“I don’t think we have anything much to say to each other anymore, Joel, don’t you think?” You chuckle a little to mask the overwhelming urge to cry.
AS SHE SHOULD SHE ATE SHE LEFT NO CRUMBS SHE SPOKE HER TRUTH SHE SPOKE OUR TRUTH THE GROUP CHAT IS WILD SHE LIKE ME FOR REAL TELL IM THEN CRYYYYY SLAYYY
“I just want to know how you’re doing.” He looks at the ground, like a puppy scolded by his owner and you know you can’t resist the floodgates that pour out. You take a deep breath and let it all out in one exhale.
NO CUZ ITS GIVING PATHETIC BUT ALSO I MEAN YEAH HE IS PATHETIC HE KNOWS HE IS I MEAN YEAH THEY BOTH KINDA ARE I MEAN YEAH LEAVE HIS ASSSS FUCKING LEAVVVEERE
“Fine. You want to know? I’m doing great, just as you said I would. I make a ridiculous amount of money every year, I have a fancy apartment that overlooks the city, I have nice friends and a good life. It’s everything you wanted for me.”
🧍♀️🧍♀️🧍♀️ wow she went. off. [Huffs] [insert zuko meme]
“You deserve it. I knew you would.” He says, nodding with a sad smile.
🤨🤨🤨😃😃😃✋✋✋🤪🤪🙃🙃🙃 GO ON KING GIVE US NOTHING
He stands stunned for a moment, his eyes concerned and brows furrowed. He eventually steps fully in front of you this time. His hands hesitate, as if he doesn't know where to put them, until he settles for your shoulders. “I’m sorry. I thought.. I thought you would be–”
WAIT I DIDNT COPY THE PART WHERE SHE SAYS THEN WHY ARENT I HAPPY 🤪🤪🤪💀💀💀💀💀💀👁️👄👁️ nO CUZ WHAT IS THAT KEJEJEEJ THATS SO REAL OF HER NO CUZ BRO. [bIGGGGGG SIGHHHHHHHH]
[FUTURE ME EDIT I WENT BACK TO COPY IT COS-]
“So why don’t I feel happy yet?” You can’t believe it but you actually start to cry. Here in the middle of the damn cereal aisle in front of your ex-boyfriend.
I LITERALLY GASPED AT THIS AND SAID MAAM THIS IS A WALMART AND THEN RIGHT AFTER I READ THE PART WHERE YOU WROTE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAMN CERAL AISLE HAHAHA NO CUZ SAME THOUGHTS FOR REAL GIRL 😭😭😭😭✋✋✋✋✋ THIS IS THE DOLLAR SHOPPPPPP 😩😩😩😩 SOS. HYPERMARKET WHO I ONLY KNOW HYPER-REACTIONS 💅🫦
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POOJA WHAT IS THISSSSSSS WHAT IS THIS BEHAVIOR WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU THOUGHT GAGO KA PALA MARAMING NAMAMATAY SA MALING INAKALA (SO YOURE [curse word GAGO] SO MANY PEOPLE DIE BECAUSE OF WRONG ... ASSUMPTIONS [??? YEAH IT THINK ITS ASSUMPTION ABHAHAHAH])
Ok that's a filo saying but tbh I don't even know anyone who died from wrong assumptions... At least personally jdjejejjejsj HAHAH
You bat his hands off your shoulders. “Yeah, you did. But it doesn’t matter because what’s done is done and we’ll never get it back. Any of it.”
SHES SUCH A QUEEN FOR SWATTING THAT PESKY LOUD ANNOYING ASSUMING ASSUMERA FLY SLAYYYY
He says your name, pleadingly.
TAKE MY FUCKING NAME OUCHO FUCKING MOUTH
“No, I don’t blame you. I left, didn't I? It was my decision too. I guess deep down some part of me thought I would be better off. And in a way I am. I really am. But I cannot lie to you and say that I’m happy Joel, because I’m not. And nothing will change that. Because this is my life now.”
🫨🫨🫨🫨🫨😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫🧍♀️🧍♀️🧍♀️🧍♀️🧍♀️ NO CUZ ITS THE IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE FOR ME ✋✋✋✋✋ ITS THE THIS IS THE FUCKING WHAT IF YOULL FOREVER FUCKING THINK ABOUT. OOF. OOF. OOF.
A moment of silence passes between the two of you as the weight of the years of separation hangs there. “I’m not either,” he whispers.
😒😒😒🙄🙄🙄🤨🤨🤨🫤🫤🫤 I don't remember fucking asking tho
“I’m not.. happy. Cassie and I had a fling when I was heartbroken and dealing with our breakup. She had just gotten divorced and I was.. I was planning to ask for you back. I was prepared to get on a fucking airplane and beg on my knees until you took me back. Whether that meant moving you back home or me moving here, it didn’t matter to me. We’d make it work. I just wanted you to know that I made a mistake and I shouldn’t have decided for you.” He places his hands on your shoulders again, and you let them stay this time.
Why didn't you? 🤨 ??? 🧍♀️
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Translation of this: [but] why do you look like you're mad. Why is it like it's my fault
THATS LAST PART BAKIT PARANG KASALANAN KO???? HELLLO????
IF YOU WANTED TO YOU WOULD HAVE??? HELLO???? HELLOO BE SO FUCKING FOR REAL??? LIKE SO WHAT??? YOU DIDNT DO IT WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DO ABOUT IT??? DAFAQ
He continues, speaking quickly as if a dam has burst. “But then Cassie got pregnant. And I knew I had to make a choice. [...]
You did that. You chose to do that. You had a plane ticket but you chose to find solace in another person's arms to forget about them. You dug your own grave. Again it's like telling on you. I know people have moments of weaknesses and yada yada but like BIGGGGG SIGHHHH THATS WHAT YOU CHOSE TO DOOOOOOO❗❗❗❗❗❗❗
We said we’d try to raise the kid together and be a family but.. A few months after Sarah was born she just left. Literally, took off and left, and I have no idea where she went. Frankly, I don’t even care. And then I got so busy with the kid and then years passed, and I just lost the timing. What, am I just supposed to call you up 10 years after breaking up with you, telling you what a joke my life has become? How I’ve regretted every moment since you packed your bags?”
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You let all of his words sink in for a while before choking out, “And what do I do with all this information now? What do you expect me to do?”
👑👑👑👑👑👑👑👑👑👑👑👑👑💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅😩😩😩😩😩😩😩🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫨🫨🫨🫨 CROWD LEFT SHOOQ QUEEN BEHAVIOR SHE 👏SPOKE👏HER👏TRUTTHHHH👏 AS SHE SHOULD QUEEN SHE LIKE ME FOR REALLLL LIKE GIRL???
You nod, your brain not fully able to come up with words at this point, so he continues. “If you’d told me you were happy, I would have swallowed my pride, wished you well, and walked out of this store with the knowledge that at least all this pain has finally brought you joy. But we’re both hurting now, so what does that make us?”
Tangang bobong inutil walang kwentang gagong ulol fucking shit rat dull headed stupid ass dipshit loser. Pathetic simply put. ////: tbh both of u I'm not sorry maybe for YN a bit
“Two idiots crying in the cereal aisle?” You offer with a small chuckle through your tears.
😬😬😬😬😬 ok yeah that works too ig. I liked mine better
He shakes his head before looking into your eyes. “You know what the sick part is? 10 years ago I told you I never wanted you to look at me with regret in your eyes. Yet here you are.”
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It only took him 10 years.
NO CUZ YEAH JOEL I WAS SCREAMING (silently) WHEN I WAS READING THIS GIRL GET A FUCKING GRIP
“Maybe.” He replies cheekily, smiling softly. With that, he pulls you in for a hug and the familiar waft of his cologne transports you back to 10 years ago when you hugged in his living room before saying goodbye, when you used to cuddle together so close at night, when he used to hug you before leaving for work. Your memories together flash before your eyes like a sick Hallmark movie except this time you know the ending.
NO CUZ THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS. THIS FUCKING HURT. SMELLS MAKE ME FEEL THINGS YOU KNOW 😩😩😩😩😵💫😭😭😭😭 GOSH
You feel the press of his lips against your head and you swear you hear him whisper the words “I love you” but you can’t be sure because your heart is pounding and you can feel it in your ears. Your life from this point on will always be divided into before and after. The point where you know, you just know, the choice you made is irreversible. You will never have Joel Miller ever again.
😃🙃🤪 fuck. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY *INSERT ZUKO MEME*
WAIT I LOST ANOTHER PART AGAIN WHERE THEY WERE DIVERGING WITH THE SHOPPING CARTS KEJDJDJDJ I WAS THINKING IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ICIER IF WE STARTED IN THE SUPERMARKET AND WORKED OUT WAY BACK AND FUCKING WENT TO PRESENT AND JUST FUCJING
CUZ THATS WHAT ITS GIVING ITS GIVING VERY MUCH LAUNDRY AND TAXES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Joel looks at his daughter and wonders what it would be like if this kid was yours, and you stare at your phone, a message from your new date asking you to confirm a meeting time flashing on your screen.
No cuz Joel's is kinda fucked up. I mean I know what he means but also that's like changing the kid altogether,like genetically so Sarah wouldn't be Sarah you know.... Ok ive overthunkthunk this thunking thing 💀💀💀
Do I even have to say I enjoyed this??? I enjoyed this. Pls keep posting and don't delete ur work just cuz ugly people have boyfriends and you dont 😔😔😔😔😩😩
I Hope You're Happy / Joel Miller x Reader
Description: Joel breaks up with you, thinking that he's setting you free to chase your dreams. And you do. And he gets another girl pregnant. And you meet each other in the cereal aisle of the grocery store. And you hope the other is happy. But you're not. You're both not.
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A/N: Angst angst angst. No outbreak AU.
Deep down, you knew this day would come. What did you expect, dating someone 10 years older than you? You just didn’t think it would come this soon. Or that it would hurt this much.
As you sat there in the dimly lit living room, the weight of Joel's words hung heavily in the air. It had been a typical evening, sharing a meal and telling each other about your day, but something felt different tonight. The air seemed heavy with tension and Joel’s smiles didn’t really reach his eyes, betraying an inner turmoil that you hadn't seen before.
"Listen," he began, his voice tinged with regret, "I’ve been thinking a lot about something."
You felt a knot tightening in your stomach as you nodded, prompting him to continue.
Joel stared at the floor, avoiding your gaze. "I love you. So much. More than I ever thought I could love someone. But, I can't keep pretending that I can give you everything you deserve. I'm 35, and I've lived a life that's... complicated. I don't want to tie you down, especially when you have so much of the world left to explore."
You tried to understand his perspective. Tried to see where he was coming from but all you could think was, Why now? Why now when I’ve already fallen in love with you?
"I don't want you to look back one day and regret being with me," he continued, his voice gentle as he clasps both of your hands in his. "I couldn’t live with myself if one day you look at me and all I’d see is regret in your eyes. I want you to experience the world, to find your own path. I know you'll go on to do amazing things, and I don't want to be the reason you didn't." His eyes glimmered with tears.
“And what about what I want?” You stared back at him, defiant. “What if I want to be here with you?”
He smiled softly and shook his head. “You know, I could be selfish and keep you here with me. But what can you achieve in this town, really? You had such big dreams when we met, remember? Don’t think I forgot.”
He was right. You passed on a few big job opportunities in New York when you settled down with Joel, and you kept telling yourself you’d apply next week, which became next month, next year, until it never happened. Suddenly a fancy job and new apartment in the Big Apple didn’t seem appealing anymore. Not when you had Joel.
“Dreams change.” was all you managed to get out before your throat started to tighten and you felt the prickling of tears in your eyes.
Joel pulled you in for a hug and buried his face in your shoulder. “Don’t change them for me. Never for me.”
Deep down, you knew you had to go. Not because you wanted to, but because you knew Joel would never forgive himself if you didn’t. It was ironic and so painfully stupid that it hurt - he thought this breakup would help you and you went through with it to help him.
So there you went. You packed your bags and you were out of there in less than a week. You moved in with a friend in New York for a couple of months until you secured a stable job and an apartment. You followed Joel's advice, exploring the world, pursuing your dreams, and building a life that was uniquely your own. You missed him more than you cared to admit, but you knew that his intentions had been pure, and in a way, it did benefit you.
You have proper savings now, and you are a fully independent adult, carving your way painfully through a year of hard work, job searches, apartment hunting - all while navigating a broken heart. And while you love your new life, late at night in the dark of your fancy new apartment overlooking the city skyline, you often found yourself thinking, was it all worth it?
But you shake your head out of the daze eventually. Because if it isn’t worth it then all the pain and all the tears were for nothing. So you had to love this life. Forced yourself to love it because that’s what Joel wanted for you. Joel. Even now, you still live for Joel.
Until you didn’t. Your fingers freeze on your phone as you read the caption on Cassie’s new instagram post with a man who looks all too familiar.
Excited to welcome a new chapter into our lives. 👶❤️
Your stomach sinks. Your phone drops to the bed. And tears sting your eyes. No. It can’t be. You pick up the phone again and there he is. Your Joel, messy hair as if he just rolled out of bed and his scruffy beard. Smiling at Cassie who’s holding a picture of an ultrasound. CASSIE? And JOEL?
You try to think back to every interaction they had during the course of your relationship but it had never been more than polite small talk at neighbourhood gatherings or run-ins at the grocery store. Wasn’t she married? Fuck this. You double tap the picture, giving it a “like”. This will give them something to talk about, you think spitefully. He wanted me to move on with my life? Well this is me, moved on. As you throw your phone to the other side of the bed, the pain finally sinks in and you cry into your pillow, wondering if you truly, will ever move on.
In the years that pass, you try to distract yourself with work and your new friendships. On paper, your life in New York was going swimmingly well and you had even dated a couple of nice guys. Dating still gives you a little twinge in the heart but you ignore it for the most part. People would kill for the life you have and you will NOT be ungrateful about it.
But of course, life is never that simple. Just when you think you’re able to find happiness, you get thrown a curveball. And this curveball came in the form of Joel Miller, standing in the cereal aisle of your local grocery store. He’s older, grayer, but damn him, he still looks so fucking good. You stand there staring for a moment, while he examines the box of Cap’n Crunch. As he puts the box back down and glances up, he meets your eyes and you hate this cliche, but you swear to God, time stands still.
He whispers your name, almost in disbelief as his brows furrow. “Hey. Wow.”
“Hey.”
“You… How are you?”
“I’m good. Yourself?”
“Yeah great.”
Somehow this exchange cuts you deeper than the day he broke up with you. When did you become people who could barely speak 3 words to each other?
Trying to alleviate the clenching of your heart, you speak up. “What are you doing here? This is the last place I thought I’d ever run into you.”
He chuckles softly. “Yeah, I uh.. Tommy’s up here meeting a couple of friends and asked me to tag along. I’m sorry I didn’t reach out by the way, I should have texted when I knew we were heading –”
You cut him off, not wanting to hear lies. “No, that’s okay. I wouldn’t expect you to. You must be busy now anyways with the kid.”
His eyes soften at that, guilt and pain flashing through them but you push on. “It’s fine, really. You’re not obligated to tell me these things. I just saw on Cassie’s instagram. Is she here too?”
At that, he visibly stiffens and clears his throat as he replies, “Oh, Cassie and I aren’t together anymore. Well we were never.. But we kind of.. Yeah she’s not in the picture. It’s just me and Sarah.”
Sarah. He had a girl. A little girl. Your stomach twists and you kind of feel like throwing up so you try to find an exit. “Oh, I’m sorry to hear that. Well, Sarah is lucky to have you. I always knew you’d make a good dad.”
He smiles for the first time in this conversation. “Truthfully, I have no idea what I’m doing half the time but she’s a good kid.”
Enough. Enough. Enough. “Well, it was nice meeting you again Joel, and I’m glad you’re doing well–”
“No, wait. Can we talk, please? I.. I’ve missed you. I want to talk.” Joel steps towards you as if to stop you from leaving but then holds himself back.
“I don’t think we have anything much to say to each other anymore, Joel, don’t you think?” You chuckle a little to mask the overwhelming urge to cry.
“I just want to know how you’re doing.” He looks at the ground, like a puppy scolded by his owner and you know you can’t resist the floodgates that pour out. You take a deep breath and let it all out in one exhale.
“Fine. You want to know? I’m doing great, just as you said I would. I make a ridiculous amount of money every year, I have a fancy apartment that overlooks the city, I have nice friends and a good life. It’s everything you wanted for me.”
“You deserve it. I knew you would.” He says, nodding with a sad smile.
“So why don’t I feel happy yet?” You can’t believe it but you actually start to cry. Here in the middle of the damn cereal aisle in front of your ex-boyfriend.
He stands stunned for a moment, his eyes concerned and brows furrowed. He eventually steps fully in front of you this time. His hands hesitate, as if he doesn't know where to put them, until he settles for your shoulders. “I’m sorry. I thought.. I thought you would be–”
You bat his hands off your shoulders. “Yeah, you did. But it doesn’t matter because what’s done is done and we’ll never get it back. Any of it.”
He says your name, pleadingly.
“No, I don’t blame you. I left, didn't I? It was my decision too. I guess deep down some part of me thought I would be better off. And in a way I am. I really am. But I cannot lie to you and say that I’m happy Joel, because I’m not. And nothing will change that. Because this is my life now.”
A moment of silence passes between the two of you as the weight of the years of separation hangs there. “I’m not either,” he whispers.
“What?”
“I’m not.. happy. Cassie and I had a fling when I was heartbroken and dealing with our breakup. She had just gotten divorced and I was.. I was planning to ask for you back. I was prepared to get on a fucking airplane and beg on my knees until you took me back. Whether that meant moving you back home or me moving here, it didn’t matter to me. We’d make it work. I just wanted you to know that I made a mistake and I shouldn’t have decided for you.” He places his hands on your shoulders again, and you let them stay this time.
He continues, speaking quickly as if a dam has burst. “But then Cassie got pregnant. And I knew I had to make a choice. We said we’d try to raise the kid together and be a family but.. A few months after Sarah was born she just left. Literally, took off and left, and I have no idea where she went. Frankly, I don’t even care. And then I got so busy with the kid and then years passed, and I just lost the timing. What, am I just supposed to call you up 10 years after breaking up with you, telling you what a joke my life has become? How I’ve regretted every moment since you packed your bags?”
You let all of his words sink in for a while before choking out, “And what do I do with all this information now? What do you expect me to do?”
He’s tearing up and his voice rises a little as he replies, “Nothing. I don’t expect nothing. I just needed you to know that I never spent a day without thinking of you or loving you. And that I’m sorry. And that I wish you were happy, because if you were, then at least all of this bullshit would be worth it. But you’re not.”
You nod, your brain not fully able to come up with words at this point, so he continues. “If you’d told me you were happy, I would have swallowed my pride, wished you well, and walked out of this store with the knowledge that at least all this pain has finally brought you joy. But we’re both hurting now, so what does that make us?”
“Two idiots crying in the cereal aisle?” You offer with a small chuckle through your tears.
He breathes out a small laugh. “Yeah. That it does.”
A woman passing through the aisle snaps you both back to reality as you wipe your tears and gather yourselves. “It is really good to see you, Joel. And.. thank you for telling me all of it. It doesn’t change anything but I think I needed to hear it.”
He shakes his head before looking into your eyes. “You know what the sick part is? 10 years ago I told you I never wanted you to look at me with regret in your eyes. Yet here you are.”
You nod and smile sadly. There’s nothing left to say.
His gaze turns soft. “I hope you’ll be happy someday. Maybe not now, but someday.”
“Maybe. And yourself?”
“Maybe.” He replies cheekily, smiling softly. With that, he pulls you in for a hug and the familiar waft of his cologne transports you back to 10 years ago when you hugged in his living room before saying goodbye, when you used to cuddle together so close at night, when he used to hug you before leaving for work. Your memories together flash before your eyes like a sick Hallmark movie except this time you know the ending.
You feel the press of his lips against your head and you swear you hear him whisper the words “I love you” but you can’t be sure because your heart is pounding and you can feel it in your ears. Your life from this point on will always be divided into before and after. The point where you know, you just know, the choice you made is irreversible. You will never have Joel Miller ever again.
As you pull away, you both tearfully smile and look at each other for the last time. You spend a good minute just looking, memorizing the other’s face. You both don’t bother with the polite pleasantries of promising to keep in touch because you know that would be a lie. It would be too painful. This is your fate now.
You walk past each other, leaving your memories and feelings behind in the dust of your footprints. To passersby, you look like strangers. Passing each other in the cereal aisle, meeting for a moment and then never again. And maybe that’s what you are now. Strangers, destined to be in each other’s lives for a moment, and then never again.
Joel eventually goes back home to Austin, and you stay in your beautiful apartment which seems to be mocking you with how big and yet empty it feels.
Joel looks at his daughter and wonders what it would be like if this kid was yours, and you stare at your phone, a message from your new date asking you to confirm a meeting time flashing on your screen.
Joel wonders what life would be like if you’d stayed. You wonder the same thing.
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💀 men will do EVERYTHING but acknowledge they are ghouls towards women
While my mom was sick with cancer, I talked about this with friends and how happy to hear how my dad is staying for her and helping her get better. Because so many men will leave the moment their wife is sick, especially with breast cancer because breasts to them are only sexual. So needing a mastectomy means they will most likely leave. But my dad was sick to hear how men do that and is staying by her because he said he made his vows.
My nurse friends who work in oncology will confirm how it’s almost always men who leave the moment their wives are sick. But most women don’t leave when their husbands are.
But the guy friends? They ALL deny it and claim it’s made up because “women divorce over nothing!” “Women leave men for more richer men!” Deep down they know they’re terrible and will purposefully be incompetent in a marriage just to make her suffer so when she leaves, they act like this. They act like women divorce for no reason when she’s just too tired trying to communicate because he calls her nagging. It’s no wonder why all the girls in our friend group are all in long term relationships or chosen celibacy while the guys aren’t. They whine that all women want the princess treatment because (I think) these guys nowadays want to be treated like princesses
It’s wild. But that really pissed me off how they ALL believe that the high statistics are all fake and that no man leaves their wives over breast cancer. When they admit that they’d leave their girlfriends if they needed a breast reduction or something. I blocked them all and my girl friends are all doing the same thing. Our guy friends used to be so normal but lately, it’s like they’re all so bitter and it’s so off putting and low vibrational
Sorry for the rant
lol Men love pretending they're oh so much rational, facts, objective and love bringing statistics #factsdontcareaboutyourfeelings....but the moment you bring up statistics destroying their narrative, look at them pulling out the most ludicrous emotional copium to never acknowledge them
Another thing that's very interesting, is that when women say they hate men and wanna be left alone, they mean it: they make their own gender segregationist communities, etc. But men? Remember MGTOW and how it fizzled out and became replaced by incelism? That's bc MGTOW purpose was to push men to divest from women and going their own way. But since men are way too obsessed by women and sex, they are unable to leave us alone.
Here in France there's a TikTok trend where men made up a word to shame/mock women for being "sluts", but then female tiktoker started to appropriate that word to ridicule it, adding "-land” to it saying " yeah I'm a (word) let's make (word)-land!!! Where is it ??🤩" and it became viral, so moids got salty bc what they created to shame women eventually became a viral trend entertained by women to mock misogyny initially targeted at them. Biggest conter UNO stunt I've seen in a while lol
And since men ae unable to be imaginative more than one second, they tried to do another UNO reverse (like they did with drizzle drizzle to put up against the "sprinkle sprinkle" movement) but the funny thing, is the visuals they madd for that imaginary "pro male" world, there were very sexy/"slutty" women (because it was supposed to be the perfect world for men right? Because as I said men are unable to live without women sexual availability).... the same kind of overtly sexual women they made that (word) to shame them 🤡
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Could I request a Rafe Cameron imagine, where they do they do the tik tok where the reader jokingly asks rafe for a baby and sees his reaction and also the tik tok where she calls him her husband to see his reaction? 🥺 maybe Sarah films it for them
Hello, thank you for the request! I kinda changed it from reader asking for a baby to reader pranking Rafe by making him 'accidentally' find out she's pregnant, I hope this is okay.
Any new fanfics might appear less frequently, I've been having a lot of tests and exams at school and I feel so demotivated to do anything and I barely have time to write since I mostly spend my time studying:(
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Tw: talking about pregnancy
y/h - your hobby
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A Tiktok prank
Y/n had many thousands of followers on Tiktok, she was mostly known for dance videos and talking about her y/h. Recently, she posted a few pranks she pulled on her friends and people liked it. It were all just silly little pranks, but Y/n got an idea that would let her gain even more followers.
One day, she asked her best friend (and also her boyfriend's sister) Sarah to come over. They were going to prank Y/n's boyfriend Rafe by telling him she's pregnant. It seemed like a fun idea plus, hey, it would be nice to see his reaction before actually starting a family.
Y/n and Rafe lived together in a house near the Camerons' mansion, so Sarah came over in a blink of an eye.
"Hey," Y/n greeted her friend, "come in, come in."
"Hey, so what's the plan?" Sarah asked, hugging Y/n and going after her to the living room.
"Basically, Rafe is out but will be back in a few, so we go live right now and as soon as he comes back we start talking about me taking a pregnancy test." Y/n explained, reaching for her phone. She chose the Tiktok app and went live.
Y/n placed the phone in a place where viewers could still see them, but Rafe wouldn't notice it. Or at least the girls hoped he won't notice.
After a minute, there were quite many people watching Y/n's life. She and Sarah quickly explained what they're about to do. The fans were more than exited to see it.
Out of a sudden, they heard the door of the house being unlocked. The girls pretended not to hear it and started talking.
"So, I took the test." Y/n said, trying to make her voice sound worried. "It was positive."
"Positive?" Sarah pretended to sound surprised. "Does Rafe know?"
The second question echoed in Rafe's ears, he decided not to let the girls know he's here and listen a little longer.
"No, not yet."
"Is it his baby?"
"Of course, who else's could it be?"
"Right, sorry. When are you going to tell him?"
"I don't know, I'm scared of his reaction."
In that moment, Rafe decided to walk in. He felt nervous, but thought that maybe he misheard something. Maybe the conversation wasn't about what he thought it was about.
"Hey, um," he started, "I've heard you and...what were you talking about?"
"Oh, uh, Rafe," Y/n looked at her boyfriend, acting surprised, "I thought you'll come back later."
"Yeah, but what- what were you two talking about?"
"I-, ugh I don't know how to tell you this, I'm pregnant."
"Oh, um. I forgot to buy milk, I'll be back soon."
"What the hell, Rafe?" Sarah scolded her brother.
"Nah, I'm just kidding." Rafe's face lit up with happiness. He walked closer to Y/n and hugged her, then picked her up and did a 360 degree spin.
"So... you're not angry?" Y/n asked, fighting the urge to laugh.
"No, I'm not!" The boy assured. "Y/n, I know we're young, but we'll be alright. You'll be a great mom!"
The girls couldn't take it anymore, the both of them burst out laughing. Rafe stood there, stunned, processing what's going on. Why were they laughing? Did he say something wrong?
"It's a prank." Y/n announced, still chuckling slightly. She took her phone from the place it was hidden in. "Say hello to my followers."
"Oh, uh, hi." Rafe said hesitantly.
"Everyone, this is my hubby Rafe."
"Hubby?" A cocky smile appeared on the boy's face.
"Hopefully soon?" The girl put up her pinky finger.
Rafe didn't hesitate to hook his pinky with hers. Someday they would get married anyways, right?
#Rafe Cameron x reader#Rafe Cameron imagine#Rafe Cameron one shot#Rafe Cameron fanfic#Obx x reader#Outer banks x reader#Outer banks fanfic#Outer banks one shot#Obx one shot
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❝ electric love ❞ - pjs
park jisung x reader | fluff | 2k words
WARNINGS | lowercase is intended, too fluffy because it’s my fav genre to write about, kinda strangers to lovers au, idol au, idol!jisung, itzysixthmember!reader, I’M SO SORRY TO MY CURVY AND THOSE TALLER THAN JISUNG READERS y/n is called small and tiny in this fic (i still love you though), mentions hair color but just pretend it’s dyed like lisa’s hair in the hylt era, shy!jisung and shy!reader because y’all are babies who don’t know how to approach someone who you like
SUMMARY | when itzy and nct dream meet on weekly idol, one member of itzy catches a certain maknae’s eye.
AUTHOR’S NOTE | inspired by “electric love” by borns :P yes it’s a tiktok song but it’s a good tiktok song so bite me >:( i disappeared for a bit so enjoy this trash imagine because i lost the will to write for a bit. also not edited really well i’m sorry for mistakes :(
your palms become sweaty as you nervously sit in the chair, the makeup artist diligently working on your face. wannabe came out about a month ago and the overwhelming popularity and support came flowing through, especially with ryujin’s shoulder part in the beginning.
itzy’s fandom grew and so did the group as a whole, the six of you continuing to learn more about being an idol.
but the one thing you were lacking in was interacting with other idols.
itzy debuted in early 2019 giving you guys a little interaction with others like your brother group, stray kids. but when the whole pandemic hit, causing you all to isolate in quarantine to protect each other, talking to others outside of your company became rare.
you were extremely awkward when it came to other idols. sure, you could talk to fans. you knew how to act and talk to them since that was a part of your training. but talking to idols, another person who wasn’t a fan, was different.
unfortunately for you, on the episode of weekly idol you are about to appear on, another group was going to be present. and of course they just had to be one of your favorite boy groups of all time: nct dream.
you’ve always looked up to nct as a whole, but nct dream has always been your favorite because they were young when the six, originally seven, first debuted. you were twelve when you saw their debut stage. dancing has always been a passion of yours. it made you feel free and alive. music has always been a part of you as well. you taught yourself how to write songs and produce them, even releasing music on soundcloud under an alias.
so ever since you saw nct dream debut, you decided you wanted to be an idol too. three years later and you’re in itzy, and you wouldn’t have it any other way. but now that you were going to be in close proximity to the people you’ve looked up to for so long, even talking to them made your head hurt.
ryujin bumped your hip teasingly as the six of you prepared to go on screen, knowing how you felt about nct dream. she was casted during a got7 fansign so when she first met them after her debut, that girl was a statue (though she would never admit it).
“don’t worry y/nnie, i won’t mention your crush on park jisung.” ryujin slyly said before moving to escape your wrath.
“ryu!” you whined, trying to smack her moving body. your face flushed, the heat rushing to your cheeks at the mention of the older boy. though you’ve never said it outloud, you’ve always had a thing for the maknae of nct. how could you not? he’s tall, polite, has a really good voice, and is the main dancer just like you. his style and the way he moved was beyond impressive, causing you to fall for him even more.
the girls found out about your so-called “crush” (quotation marks to make you feel better even though you’re head over heels for him) when you saw nct dream in an award show. yuna saw the way you blushed and how your eyes strayed to the tall then pink haired boy a couple tables away from the six of you. since then they’ve all teased you about it whenever they can, making you whine in embarrassment every time.
you shakily wipe your hands on your outfit, a stylist making a sound of disapproval before you turn to give her a small smile. moving towards a small mirror, you examine how you look with a worried face. your pale blue paper bag jeans were slightly baggy and you cringed knowing you were gonna perform wannabe in those. you adored the flowery top you had on though. it was white with tiny black flowers printed all over, the puff sleeves adding to the look. your hair was slightly curled, the blonde highlights peeking through from your jet black hair.
you let out a worried breath as the management ushered you to hurry. showtime, you thought to yourself as you anticipated for the words “action”.
in the middle of the room was the iconic white stage where weekly idol have always held their episodes. on one side was itzy waiting to enter and on the other was nct dream.
“today is a very special episode for we have two awesome groups joining us today!” one of the hosts exclaimed excitingly, adding on to your nerves. lia sensed your distress and reached to give your hand a reassuring squeeze.
“give it up for the hottest girl group of their generation, itzy!” the other host yelled before the six of you partied onto the stage. each of you had an excited expression on your face as the two hosts continued on before introducing nct dream.
“let’s warmly welcome one of our favorite teams to have on this show, nct dream!”
your heart raced as you saw the six of them walk on stage goofily, trying not to laugh at how awkward jisung looked. as if he sensed your eyes, jisung’s gaze met yours causing you to look away in shock. suddenly the floor became more interesting than the boy you’ve been crushing on for almost a year.
“all in us! hello, we are itzy!” the six of you greeted towards the screen. unknowingly to you, the boy you were caught staring at was looking at you too.
❝ baby you’re like lightning in a bottle ❞
jisung likes to think he’s a simple boy. he doesn’t like breaking the rules and is mostly a good kid. but gosh from the moment you two made eye contact, the brown haired boy was ready to run away then and there. you were pretty. like beyond pretty, and he’s never felt this way before.
sure it was a little creepy and slightly concerning for his image seeing as he currently has heart eyes for you while the cameras are rolling, but jisung couldn’t help himself. that flowery top of yours made you look soft and small, as if he could scoop you up in his arms like a child. jisung knew he was tall but dang, seeing you from afar made him think he was extra tall. the boy chuckled under his breath seeing you wear boots, knowing that gave you an extra boost.
she’s so small, he thought, smiling a bit.
renjun nudged him, noticing the younger was spacing off before following his eyes to a certain member of itzy. the elder smirked a bit as they all did their introductions.
“to the world here is, nct.”
the boy smugly looked at their maknae who was currently blushing at being caught by his hyung for looking at you.
young love, renjun thought before turning his attention back to the hosts.
❝ i can’t let you go now that i got it ❞
“so you guys have two main dancers in itzy right?” one of the hosts asks as the 12 idols sit together on chairs. yeji nodded and spoke up.
“yes it’s me and y/nnie but y/n’s a better dancer than me.” she replied, pointing a shoulder to you. you quickly rebutted and waved your hands in disagreement.
“no way~” you denied, turning red. “yeji unnie is the best.” you replied shyly, an awkward thumbs up to try and back up your claim.
everyone cooed at your shy face. although you were the second youngest in itzy, 4 months older than your maknae, yuna’s much taller than you which made you look like the youngest. because of this everyone, including yuna, tended to child you because you were just so baby.
“weren’t you a part of a highlight reel?” the other host asks you, once again embarrassing you. the girls laughed, the other six boys looked at the host in confusion.
“y/n unnie was apart of bts sunbaenim’s love yourself highlight reel!” yuna exclaimed. although she too was in the highlight reel, yuna always thought you were much cooler because you got selected for your dancing skills.
everyone gasped in surprise (the hosts a bit more fake since they already knew that) at the revelation.
“i was able to dance with j-hope sunbaenim and jimin sunbaenim for that highlight reel.” you responded, smiling a bit at the memory. the boys were beyond shocked knowing this must meant you were good.
“how was it?” a host asks.
you marveled at the thought. “they were such good dancers and really really nice!” you said with a happy expression. “i would definitely love to dance with them again if i were given the opportunity.” the look on your face was clear you loved dancing and loved working with the pair.
“can you show us the dance?” the host asks and just like that you immediately become a shy mess.
“o-oh um i mean yeah i could do that.” you stuttered as chaeryoung softly pushed you off your chair and into the middle of the room. she smirked a bit at your timid form, knowing what she’s doing. from the moment you walked in, the maknae of nct seemed to be head over heels for you and she knew he was the main dancer just like you.
i swear if they don’t end up together after this i’m suing, chaeryoung thought as she looked at the starstruck boy watching you expectantly.
❝ and all i need is to be struck ❞
jisung wasn’t surprised to hear that you were one of the main dancers in itzy but to hear that you worked with bts’s j-hope and jimin? he was beyond impressed and (though he would never admit it) was lowkey really excited to see you dance.
he watched as you timidly walked towards the middle of the stage, calming down your nerves. jisung watched with a faint smile until the music started playing, and just like that he was a goner.
❝ by your electric love ❞
the way you moved, your technique, your facial expressions. everything was mesmerizing. the whole room watched in awe as you danced to the routine you burned into your mind as a trainee, knowing that this was one of your biggest projects ever. in that moment jisung completely fell for you, and everyone in the room except for you knew that.
“and that’s the end of today’s episode of weekly idol!” you all cheered with the hosts, jisung’s heart beating fast knowing he wanted to talk to you after this episode but not knowing how to.
“cut!” the director yelled out, a little excited to know what was to come. they of course noticed jisung’s lovestruck expression and the way your eyes lingered on the boy, and of course they didn’t catch it on camera. knowing you two were young and idols, they didn’t want to ruin what you two might have since they were all rooting for you two.
“if you don’t talk to her i swear i’ll tell her embarrassing stories of you.” donghyuck threatened. just like the others, he too noticed jisung’s attraction to you throughout this whole episode. the boy’s eyes widened in shock, yelping as chenle pushed him towards your way with a small smirk.
“unnie no.” you cried out, beyond terrified as you watched jisung walk towards you. as soon as the episode ended you were pulled away by the girls who quickly explained to you that jisung “had the hots'' for you (ryujin’s words, not yours).
your mind was going at a million miles per hour, heart racing as jisung came closer and cleared his throat.
“h-hi.” he said, his voice never not taking you by surprise. jisung was towering over you, looking down at you nervously.
“h-hello.” you smiled and jisung could’ve sworn he melted just a little.
“get together already!” lia and jaemin yelled out together, making the two of you blush and unconsciously lean closer.
❝ electric love ❞
“wanna hang out sometime soon?” jisung asked, his sudden confidence taking you and him off guard. you bit back a smile before holding your hand out.
“give me your number.” you replied, jisung’s smile he let out making you fall even more for him.
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Hey ya’ll so this Ryland Storms Imagine was written less than a year ago with @alltimecalvinhood. We had planned to create an imagines book for Ryland on Wattpad but she unfortunately went MIA. I decided to post this imagine because it’s way too good to just have it saved away on a doc without being read, but full credits also go to @alltimecalvinhood alongside myself!
This was going to have a part 2 but I wouldn’t want to continue this without @alltimecalvinhood since it was our planned imagine, so I wouldn't want to take credit for something we both worked on!
Enjoy you guys❤️
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You were sleeping when you felt your phone vibrate a couple times under your pillow. You smiled in your sleep knowing it was Ryland‘s good morning texts.
You slid your hand under your pillow trying to get your phone, your eyes still shut wishing you could be sleeping. Once your phone was disconnected you slowly opened your eyes, catching a glimpse of his messages.
Your heart fluttered as you saw his contact:
Ryland🥵🤩💦❤️❤️
You grinned knowing he missed you.
You opened them up.
Messages:
You smiled at how adorable he was. His whole “bad boy/player” image on tiktok and on the vlogs wasn’t accurate when it comes to you.
His whole act changes when he’s with you. You always tease him and call him a simp.
Like The Ryland Storms acting all soft, sending good morning texts, acting all desperate for attention. Who?
You and Ryland were exclusive but not official. At least not yet.
You both acted all lovey dovey with each other and weren’t afraid to show it. The fans loved it. You just never put a label on it.
Not that you guys didn’t want to have the “boyfriend & girlfriend” title, it’s just that you both are getting to flirtatiously know each other. You both were going with the flow, and it has been going great.
You chuckled at him calling you Shawty. Him trying to act all bad boy like, to impress you. You decided to play along with his name calling. You jokingly called him daddy.
You laughed and quickly got up. You headed to the restroom to brush your teeth and face.
You then walk to your closet and choose a simple outfit to go to the Hype House in.
Outfit:
Hair:
Makeup:
Once you were done you checked your phone and decided to look at twitter before you left to meet Ryland.
You were looking at tweets when you came across a fan edit of you and Ryland.
Click to see edit!
You smiled as you watched and retweeted it.
You then clicked on Ryland’s twitter and saw his most recent tweet.
You smiled at the thought of going to Australia with him. You checked the comments and what you saw made you feel some type of way.
It was a comment from Indiana Massara.
“What the fuck?” You whispered to yourself.
You didn’t want to overreact just yet but it seemed like she was trying to get at Ryland.
You checked her account and her latest tweet made you gasp angrily and laugh dryly.
How could she have the audacity to tweet that she wanted to travel to Australia with someone “special” right after Ryland tweets that he wants to go to Australia. It’s not a coincidence, especially since she commented on his tweet.
This got you pretty heated. You got your car keys and headed to the Hype House.
Car:
The whole car ride you were heated by the thought of Indiana making moves on Ryland. Everyone knows that you and him are exclusive, so why would she even cross those boundaries. You rolled your eyes and gripped on the steering wheel tightly.
After about a few minutes you pulled up to the Hype House. You pulled up to the driveway and parked next to Thomas’s new Tesla.
You walked in and saw Avani, Tony, and Ondreaz sitting in the living room.
They all turned when they heard the door open.
“Y/N!” They all said in unison with wide smiles, when they saw you.
“Hiii!” You say happily smiling at them but then it vanished.
“Why aren’t you running up to see your lover boy? I’m sure he’s waiting for you in his room.” Tony smiled at you from the couches.
You walked up to them and sat next to Tony. Avani and Ondre being on the other couch.
“Yeah for reals!” Avani laughed. “The first thing you do is go upstairs to see him. Why are you here?” She joked.
Ondreaz laughed causing them all to laugh.
“Woww. Thanks. I feel so welcomed.” You laughed. “It’s just that I saw some tweets and it just got me mad” You say.
Ondreaz furrowed his eyebrow. “What do you mean? You okay?” He says.
“Yeah I’m fine. It’s just annoying.” You huffed rolling your eyes.
“Well come on show us.” Tony nudged you.
You sighed and pulled up the tweets.
Avani and Ondre sat on the same couch as you and Tony to see them.
You showed them Ryland’s tweet about Australia.
“Okay and do you not want him going to Australia?” Ondreaz laughed.
“You’re dumb. Noo!” You laughed rolling your eyes.
“Ohhh. I see.” Avani says, noticing Indiana’s comment.
“What?” Tony and Ondreaz say immediately looking over at Avani. They both looked confused as can be.
You laughed at their faces.
“Look at the comments.” She sassily says rolling her eyes at them. “I swear boys are so dumb!” She says annoyed.
You laugh agreeing.
They both looked at her comment.
“Okay what if she’s just being friendly?” Tony asked looking at you.
You and Avani faced each other and gave each other a what the fuck face.
“Okay clearly you know nothing about how girls act.” Avani says sarcastically.
“Okay okay what he means is what if she was just commenting on a friend's tweet? Like it’s a possibility. But I get how you see it. You can also see her as trying to flirt with Ryland.” Ondreaz added.
“Yeah thank you! No need to be mean!” Tony said, feeling offended.
You smiled at him and gave him a hug.
You both laughed.
“I totally agree with you Ondre. At first I was like what the fuck, but I didn’t want to overreact. Yet. So I looked further into it.” You say.
“Notice how she says yet.” Tony laughed.
“Hahaha so funny!” You said sarcastically at him. “But look, there's more.” You say going into her account.
You showed them her tweet.
“It can’t just be a coincidence. Like it just can’t.” You say sighing.
“Yeahh that whole traveling to Australia with someone special kinda seems suspicious since it’s right after Ryland’s tweet.” Ondreaz realized.
“Yeah what the fuck. Like she comments on his tweet saying how she “coincidently” knows people there and then makes a tweet on her own claiming how she wants to go with someone special. That’s just a big no!” Avani said.
“Exactly! So I’m kind of just trippin about it. Like I know Ryland and I aren’t “boyfriend and girlfriend” but it’s still like what the fuck you know.” I sighed leaning into the couch, sadly.
“Aww come over here!” Tony said embracing you into his arms. He placed you on his chest.
“Yeah you guys aren’t ‘girlfriend and boyfriend’ but you guys are clearly a thing and clearly talking. Literally everyone fucking knows that. So she’s literally just chasing clout, and hoping to get some spotlight.” Avani spoke.
“Yeah honestly I lost my respect for her. She seemed cool like she’s come by the house a few times. But you’re our girl and it ain’t cool what she’s doing.” Ondre said.
Tony nodded.
“Have you talked to him?” Tony said, looking down at you laying your head on his chest.
“Noooo. Definitely not stalling here, talking to you guys.” You say looking down.
“Okay you gotta go. Just talk to him.” Ondreaz said.
“Ughhhh fine.” You say standing up from Tony’s embrace. Tony frowned looking at you.
You laughed. “We can cuddle later.” You giggle.
“That's if you’re not cuddling with Ryland.” He said crossing his arms.
“You’re dumb. He’s gonna beat you up if you take me away from him especially if we’re cuddling.” You say walking towards the stairs.
“You know what I’m gonna dm this girl and tell her to keep commenting and flirting with Ryland so you can be sad and talk to us more and so we can cuddle. I miss my best friend!” He obnoxiously said.
“Oh my god possessive much!” Avani laughed.
You laughed at them and reached the top of the stairs. You went towards the direction of Ryland’s room.
Upon reaching the door to his room, you take a deep breath composing yourself. You then knock on the door sternly, ready to get this over with.
The door opened immediately, revealing Ryland’s smiling face. He looked like a little kid in a candy shop, what a simp.
“Sup Shawtyyy” He says trying to play it cool, but you could see right through him. You couldn’t help but smirk at the name but you then gave him a small glare, knowing you had business to handle. So you walked past him into the room. “Baby, what is it?” He says, sounding concerned.
“I’m mad!” You say in a baby tone, crossing your arms looking down at the ground.
“What why? But first tell me why you took soooo long. I was gonna die of getting so anxious to see your pretty face!” He exaggeratedly says.
You chuckle. “Well I’ve been here for the past 30 minutes just talking to Avani, Tony, and Ondre.”
He gasps loudly. “So you’re telling me that for the past hour and a half you’ve been with clown girl, helicopter, and Tony Lopez’s brother??” He loudly says, pretending to be offended.
“You’re so meann.” You say slightly shoving him as you giggle.
“We could have already eaten breakfast together and cuddled as we watched Outer Banks or gone out for a swim.” He says shaking his head pretending to be mad.
“I’m sorry Ry but Indiana was flirting with you!” You blurt out out exasperated, whipping out the tweets on your phone. Ryland looks down at the phone in your hand and suddenly bursts out into laughter.
You pout at him and cross your arms, acting like a child,
“Babeeee, it’s not funnyyyyy.” You say looking up at him with puppy dog eyes and a frown. He stops laughing and looks at you with a look of fondness across his face. He places a hand on your shoulder in a reassuring way and comes closer.
“Shawty, you’re adorable when you act all jealous.” He says and places a finger under your chin, tilting your head up to look into his eyes. You feel butterflies filling your stomach at the words, but stand your ground.
“Are you going to go to Australia with her? Huh?” You say grumpily with a raised eyebrow, wanting to know what his answer would be. And he laughs once again.
“Y/N I wouldn’t go to Australia with anyone else in the world but you.” Your heart melts and you look at him waiting for him to say more. “I didn’t even respond to her tweet because you’re the only girl I want.” You smile widely at him and jump into his arms.
“Aww baby!” You say giving him a soft look. “That’s so sweet!” You say and give him a kiss on the cheek. He gives you a devilish grin and throws you on the bed. He stands towering above you.
“Now will the only girl in the world do me the honor of being my official, one and only...shawty.” He begins the sentence off serious, but he cracks a grin at the end. You can’t help but roll your eyes at his goofiness. You get on your knees on the bed so that you’re the same height as Ryland’s chest.
“Hmm...I don’t know.” You pause acting like you’re thinking. “Will you take me to Australia?” You joke with him.
He scoffs, “Already got the plane tickets booked.” He says back, jokingly. You throw your arms around his waist. In a swift movement you were on top of him as he was beneath you on the bed.
“Then yes. I will do you the honor of being your one and only shawty.” You smile warmly as you hang on tightly to him. Your hands wrapped around his neck and your face inches away from his. His hands placed on your hips.
“Perfect.” He whispers as he warmly looks into your eyes. He then trails them down to your lips. He smiles up at you and slowly places his lips on yours.
You closed your eyes, savoring the moment. Both lips were in sync. Both lips fit perfectly as if they were meant for one another. You both slowly pulled away from the kiss and intimately looked into each others eyes, like there was no other,
Ryland slowly sat up on the bed causing you to be on top of his lap. He took your legs and wrapped them around him. He put his arms around your lower back and pushed you closer to him, causing your inner thighs to be as close as possible to his body.
You smirked at his dirty actions and laughed, shaking your head.
He smirked back at you and smashed his lips onto yours. Before the kiss can turn into a makeout session you laugh into the kiss and he starts tickling you making you squirm out of his lap and onto the bed. He takes advantage of that and quickly hops on top of you, keeping you captured underneath him.
“Now let’s talk about those kisses.” He said referring to your texts from earlier.
“NOOO!” You giggle trying to get out from under him.
“You can’t escape me and my kisses.” He says pucking out his lips.
“HELPPP!” You yell out laughing.
“No ones gonna help you. The doors locked!” He devilshy said looking down at you.
“Nooo.” You yell loudly closing your eyes. You then hit his arms trying to get out from under him.
He then smirked, getting an idea in his head.
“I know how to fix this behavior!” He says seductively. He lifted one of his arms from towering over you and slowly pulled down the zipper from your Zappa jacket. Exposing your small shirt that tightly held your breasts together.
He threw the jacket at the door and his eyes lit up, looking at your boobs. He licked his lips at the sight of them from under the tight small shirt. He soon came out of his trance and went back to his plan.
He dove his head into the side of your neck and you gasped at the exhilarating feeling of his lips sucking on your neck.
“Fuckkk Ryland.” You moaned quietly. Your hips moving up to his body, wrapping your legs around his waist coming into contact with his hard bulge.
You decided to cause some friction with the two of you. You rubbed on his hard member with your wet one.
You felt Ryland stiffen up and hold in his breath. You continuously swifted your hips to his member wanting him to show the pleasure you’ve caused him. Two can play at that game.
He gave up and let out a loud moan and immediately put his hands to your hips directing the pace of your actions.
You both moaned out as the pleasure immensed with Ryland taking control and fastening your hip movements. He added onto the pleasure as he rode through the fabric. You closed your eyes and let your head fall to the bed. You pulled his curly hair not wanting to let out any more moans. You didn’t want anyone hearing you two.
“Okay okay.” You whispered, putting your hand on his chest, insinuating for him to stop. He slowly stopped and you both caught your breath.
“Fuck that was amazing!” You say pecking his lips.
“Damn this was only dry humping. And yet it was so great. I can’t imagine what it’s like to actually have sex with you.” He says looking down into your eyes.
You smiled blushing at him.
“I didn’t wanna stop but I don’t wanna rush things.” You say.
“No I totally get it. Officially getting together and having sex within the same time is a little crazy.” He laughs.
You giggle and nod.
“It’ll be so worth it. But breakfast?” You ask him as your eyes lit up with the thought of food.
“It will be as long as you don't make me wait till marriage.” He says curiosity roaming in his head.
You laugh. “I wouldn’t be able to stand that long of a wait. And plus you’re horny alllll the time.” You say laughing.
“You wanted breakfast right?” He says trying to change the subject and trying not to laugh at his hornyness.
“No no. We’re not changing the subject.” You laugh hitting him. “You literally posted a tiktok saying you were horny.”
“Okayy Okayy! Maybe sometimes.” He says not making eye contact.
“Literally all the time!” You say pushing him.
He laughs knowing you were right, showing his perfect top row of white teeth.
“Whatever. But now I get to satisfy my hornyness with you.” He says placing a kiss on your lips.
“Oh does that mean imma be booty called everyday?” You say with a stern look on your face.
“Oh don’t even act like you don’t feel the same way. I know you want me.” He says confidently as he looks you up and down.
“Crepes?” You say smiling.
“Oh look who’s changing the subject now with breakfast!” He says with an eyebrow raised.
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Authors Note: Since this imagine was written less than a year ago, Tony and Ondreaz Lopez were written on this imagine before they got cancelled. So if you don’t support them then imagine somebody else :) thank you all for understanding💜
#tiktok imagine#ryland storms#ryland storms imagine#tiktok#tiktok boy#hype house#ryland storms fanfic#Ryland storms fanfiction#ryland storms story
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Masterlist!
Here’s the masterlist of all my imagines and preferences! Imagines marked as * are smutty imagines! Imagines marked as ` are requests!
IMAGINES
CRIMINAL MINDS the runner ~ aaron hotchner` punishment ~ aaron hotchner`
LUCIFER make you a believer ~ ella lopez silence ~ lucifer morningstar
HEMLOCK GROVE get away ~ roman godfrey (part one) midnight drive ~ roman godfrey (part two)
AMERICAN HORROR STORY freak ~ xavier plympton (part one) protecting you ~ xavier plympton (part two)` a surprise by the lake ~ xavier Plympton` taken care of ~ michael langdon don’t worry ~ michael langdon` loopholes ~ michael langdon*` change in plans ~ michael langdon` revenge ~ montana duke
RIVERDALE grief ~ archie andrews the new queen ~ fp jones (part one) seducing the queen ~ fp jones (part two) the list ~ jason blossom something more than just points ~ jason blossom’ no one will hurt you` ~ sweet pea
THE BODYGUARD new assignment ~ david budd (part one) nightmares ~ david budd (part two) the photoshoot ~ david budd (part three) take away and beer ~ david budd (part four) art ~ david budd (part five) threats ~ david budd (part six) getting her things ~ david budd (part seven)
PEAKY BLINDERS not part of the deal ~ thomas shelby private ceremony ~ thomas shelby superstar ~ thomas shelby` too good ~ thomas shelby` can’t lose you ~ thomas shelby crossfire ~ john shelby an accidental addition ~ thomas shelby family ~ shelby family the enemy’s sister ~ thomas shelby (part one)` a dangerous love affair ~ alfie solomons a woman leader ~ john shelby disapprove ~ thomas shelby (part two) no one’s whore ~ thomas shelby* daddy’s girl ~ thomas shelby take a break ~ thomas shelby
THE WITCHER dance partner ~ geralt of rivia (part one) company ~ geralt of rivia (part two)* stay the night ~ geralt of rivia*` some sort of miracle ~ geralt of rivia same problem ~ yennefer of vengerberg my lady ~ geralt of rivia*` imperfections ~ geralt of rivia`
DOCTOR WHO always loved you ~ thirteen
GAME OF THRONES betrothed ~ robb stark (part one) riding alone ~ robb stark (part two)
Z NATION facing it alone ~ 10k’ let me go ~ 10k what are we gonna do? ~ 10k
THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY love and drugs ~ klaus hargreeves the horror~ ben hargreeves’ no one helps but you ~ klaus hargreeves` and they were roommates ~ klaus hargreeves` lock the door ~ ben hargreeves*`
VICTORIOUS a little too good at acting ~ beck oliver faint ~ beck oliver`
THE VAMPIRE DIARIES living dead ~ damon salvatore eternity ~ damon salvatore*`
HANNIBAL are you going to hurt me? ~ hannibal lecter his type ~ hannibal lecter
BARRY what they do in the movies ~ barry berkman
BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY i have no one ~ freddie mercury
K-12 don’t send me home ~ leo` jealousy ~ angelita`
BREAKING BAD/EL CAMINO hideaway ~ jesse pinkman* project partner ~ jesse pinkman
DCEU the new intern ~ clark kent rescue mission ~ harley quinn man’s world ~ harley quinn
SCREAM scary movies ~ billy loomis talk me down ~ stu macher`
HARRY POTTER tutor ~ draco malfoy stood up ~ draco malfoy
MCU see you again ~ loki my hero ~ mysterio delivery boy ~ peter parker locked up ~ clint barton`
KINGSMAN not a damn damsel ~ eggsy
A QUIET PLACE keep quiet ~ emmett no time for love ~ emmett’
MIDSOMMAR get out of here ~ mark` may queen ~ mark` little sister ~ mark*` secret thrills ~ mark*` don’t go ~ mark’ sacred ~ mark’ seven minutes in heaven ~ mark*` friendship necklace ~ mark` it meant nothing ~ mark` awful ~ dani ardor` something’s wrong ~ mark` whoops ~ mark` enemies to lovers ~ mark`
1917 not the same ~ will schofield
DIVERGENT recruit ~ eric coulter’ rookie ~ eric coulter (part two) don’t belong ~ eric coulter`
8 MILE embarrassed ~ jimmy smith jr.
TWILIGHT soulmates ~ paul lahote`
THE DIRT glorified groupie ~ tommy lee maybe i should ~ tommy lee` be like daddy ~ nikki sixx` normal family christmas ~ nikki sixx`
DIARY OF A WIMPY KID done pretending ~ rodrick heffley the girl next door ~ rodrick heffley`
IT: CHAPTER TWO picking up the kids ~ richie tozier
LES MIS for the revolution ~ enjolras
CHRIS EVANS set ups
BEN HARDY doing him proud
MACHINE GUN KELLY not so bad (part one) remember me` secret meeting (part two) surprise` awkward family dinner (part three) staying the night (part four) out on the town (part five) a very special meeting (part six) feeling used` christmas in cleveland (part seven) lady killer*` we’ll be okay (part eight) the one` getting caught* sweet revenge` get off my girl` can’t do it anymore seeing it all` hear your voice*` do you love me?` one and only (part nine) photographs` why are you here?` happiest i've been` trying` i believe` welcome home*` killshot (part ten) i think i’m okay` it’s not over (part eleven) mistake` drunk fun (w/yungblud)*` reunited (part two of photograph)` bad girl*` fixed` meeting the family (part twelve) good enough` the question (part thirteen) kissing lessons` the wedding (part fourteen) too rough*` teach me` sneaking you out` red carpet` on beat` what if i can’t` role reversal*` massage*` secrets` celebrating*` almost caught` back off*` first time*` trying something new*` missing` not yours` hurting mommy` sweet disaster` loved you first` running lines’
DANIEL WEBBER nothing happened` misunderstanding` advice` loving father` beach day`
TARON EGERTON take me to the pilot*
RICHARD MADDEN lost`
YUNGBLUD not a rebound (part one) a great team` no hope (au)` cuffed, literally (part two)` sick baby` coming home` kisses` drunk fun*` (w/machine gun kelly) lessons` struggling` father to be` coachella` the song’ front row` love you as you are’ cliche`
HARRY STYLES saved (au part one) always a winner` exploring eroda (au part two) picnic (au part three) awkward
KENDALL SCHMIT just us`
CODY FERN distance`
ANDREW SIWICKI secret first date a regular guy` beautiful to me wear my hoodie`
DAVID DOBRIK only yours science experiment bon appetit`
DYLAN GARDNER surprise date`
JEFF WITTEK busy my oh my! passing the time* in trouble a fun game six feet apart you won’t be able to`
EMINEM surprise performance age gap’ private` chains`
ROOK pretty picture` love on tour` protective` toxic love` why are you like this?’ keep it down*` taking care` sick` you’re cute when you’re jealous`*
CILLIAN MURPHY proud`
GEORGE MACKAY medic (au)’
ARIANA GRANDE done with boys
SCOTTY SIRE stuck together
SEBASTIAN STAN the boss’ girl (au)
G-EAZY unimaginable pain` bad reputation` hate*` i do`
CORPSE proposition (part one) caught feelings (part two) actually excited
ZAC EFRON fatherhood`
HENRY CAVILL you deserve better`
AARON TVEIT i thought it’d be happy` a baby next christmas
PREFERENCES
tiktok trends that they participate in with you ~ the vlog squad who walks in on the two of you ~ the umbrella academy
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the other day i came up with, what i think is, a funny and great idea for an a3! american community college au fic, but i don’t think i have the mental strength to see it through. the last long fic i cared about was started in 2015 and i haven’t touched it since january 2018.
idk i may just write little ideas and scenes and keep them in a compilation, but i’d really like to flesh out the au more. but honestly, this is basically me vicariously living the toxic lifestyle i’ll never have through this au.
The working title is “vlog2/26” and I plan to make it a tsuzuru-centric tsuzuita fic
for reference, this story takes place during the school year of 2018-2019 in a fake little town I called Byles Ridge, Pennsylvania. I based it heavily off the city I live in. It’s a shitty northeastern suburb near Philly with a community college five minutes away from my house. In this au, most of Mankai are Asian-Americans attending or working at Byles Ridge Community College. In my characterization, they all act like typical American gen z kids or millennials, if not slightly exaggerated. My main inspiration was the fic, now book, 006. I also drew inspiration from Community and my real life
here are some of my favorite lines from my outlining:
(fair warning: there is definitely not pg humor in this. if this is going on ao3, it’ll most likely be rated m)
Excerpt from the synopsis: Tsuzuru is like any other emotionally repressed American teenage boy in the 21st century; his hobbies include being single, jerking off, and pretending not to cry when he watches Toy Story 3.
Tsuzuru: “God is Dorothy from Finding Nemo and I’m that little goldfish she shook to death.”
Tsuzuru: “I’m atheist, but everyday I thank god that I wasn’t born British, ‘cause I don’t know how I would’ve handled having to pretend that Mr. Brightside is a good song.”
Tsuzuru: Being friends with Masumi sucks because it means that he’ll refuse to give anyone the aux. I’ll admit, Masumi can have good music taste. He introduced me to a lot of new artists on his “going to Taco Bell” playlist, but when he’s in a pissy mood, he’ll exclusively play XXXTentacion and now I know all the lyrics to Sad! and that’s not the person I want to be.
Masumi: “Sakuya, what the fuck is The Prince of Denmark. I talked up Miss Tachibana about Romeo and Juliet and said I was a big Shakespeare fan, then she started reciting old English.”
Sakuya: “Tsuzuru, are you okay? You look like you’re having another Michael in the Bathroom moment.”
Excerpt from Chikage’s profile: Does Zumba and weed on the weekends.
the entirety of tenma’s profile i’m so proud of this one
Tenma: is a popular football player who is still living off the high of being the Gerber Baby of Lucky Charms in 2003. He’s a first-year theatre major like Sakuya. Thinks he’s Troy from High School Musical. He uses Axe body spray and TikTok thirst traps to hide his increasingly apparent homosexuality and his middle school obsession with One Direction... There are two wolves inside you. One wolf is homophobic. One wolf finds Zayn Malik hot. You are Tenma Sumeragi.
Tenma: “It’s not gay to watch High School Musical bro. HSM is a cultural phenomenon and belongs in the Library of Congress. If you don’t like it, you’re a traitor to America.”
Yuki: “I have more balls than either of you and I’m wearing a Hello Kitty bath towel right now.”
Misumi: “Of course I do weed. I’m autistic, not a loser.”
Excerpt from Kazu’s profile: Has 100k followers on Tiktok for shaking his ass and being a local nuisance. Cried when Vine shut down.
Kazu: “How many times do I need to dance to Doja Cat before I get my clout?”
Excerpt from Taichi’s profile: Considered opening a cat femboy OnlyFans back when he didn’t have enough money to pay for his growing Bakugan collection. Kissed a boy once for a dare and didn’t like it, but still vibes to Katy Perry’s I Kissed a Girl cuz that shit slaps.
Banri: *after listening to Troye Sivan for the first time* “I hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me.”
Taichi: “Everyone rise for the national anthem: Sk8ter Boi by Avril Lavigne.”
Azami: “I’m gonna go listen to Pierce the Veil and cry until Gerard Way comes back.”
Tsumugi: “At this rate, I’m going to have to find a man on Christian Mingle.”
Excerpt from Tasuku’s profile: Has repressed the idea that he’s in love with Tsumugi ever since they kissed in Christian summer camp when they were 12. Doesn’t remember that, due to the repression. But Tsumugi does.
Excerpt from Homare’s profile: He either dresses like it’s 1940 or like he’s the hero from the children’s show Lazytown. Will start crying if someone brings up the Library of Alexandria
Azuma: “Do I sleep with strangers? Yes. Do I take money from strangers? Yes. Am I a prostitute? No, because those are two separate occasions.”
Guy: “Can you inform me what a Juul is?”
“That’s a fucking Baja Blast in his hand.” “What the shit.” “Itaru Chigasaki orders fucking Baja Blast from Taco Bell. Unbelievable.” “Who doesn’t. Baja Blast fucks.” “I’m snapping this.” “You’ll put that camera down right now before I snap your neck.” “The public deserves to know.” “A man has a right to privacy, especially when it comes to his eating habits.”
And if you’re interested in this au, here’s my playlist for it, subject to change (feel free to suggest songs). Some songs are what I imagine the main characters would listen to and some just fit the vibe of the au:
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIjsgyx8Ea22wwH4eO-QlywAiIVWZNcCx
#a3!#sorry for putting this in the main tag i just think i'm way funnier than i am#mod tsuzu writes#sorta??#vlog2/26#fic
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Just thought of this cuz of tiktok. Tom meets one of his famous look a likes and comes up with an idea to prank reader into thinking the look alike is him, only problem is reader doesn’t fall for it at all cuz she knows all his little things that make Tom...well, Tom .
Same|t.h.
a/n: as I was writing this I realised how scary actually this is. i mean can you imagine having someone looking exactly like you?broo😂thank you for your request
warnings: fluff..not really
Bill Jackson: as the lookalike(yes that's what came to my mind nvm)
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Tom was standing still, his hands on his pockets, big smile on his face looking at the cameras around him, flashing at him capturing every move of his. He didn't try to fake anything, it was just himself at a red carpet.
After a few minutes people with cameras and microphones were all waiting patienly for celebrities to come. All of them asking either really stupid questions or personally ones, trying to take any juicy information they could. He was all giggly answering with confidence, fearless.
" Have you met Bill Jackson yet?"a woman asked.
"No is he here?"he returned the question, full of enthusiasm. The woman in front of him nodded."No way! I want to meet him so badly"
"You look literally the same. How's that even possible?"
"Maybe I have a twin that got lost in the hospital"he raised his shoulders and laughed. The blonde lady thanked me and he got back to his assistant and three of his friends when suddenly a man stood in front of him.
"Oh my God"Tom covered his mouth socked with the person across him. It felt like he was seeing him self through a mirror. Almost every little thing looked the same.
"Finally we met. How are you?" The man hugged Tom. "I am starting to believe that we are actually twins"
"Me too. I mean I could walked down the streets and people be like" Are you Bill?"and I have to admit that sometimes I like to trick them. But when I speak for a long time they're figuring it out and I'm like "Damn" "
"Well I least you tried"Bill interrupted burst out laughing. "But they don't see you with y/n?"
"She is the reason I don't get mistaken when we're out together to be honest"he smiled when your figure came to his mind.
"Isn't she here?"
"Y/n is here, she just left for a moment"he answered, but he couldn't resist to the plan he had for months in his head.
"Could you please do me a favor? I know we just met and I'm really sorry but I kinda want you to listen"he made a silly face that Bill found hilarious.
"Of course I will. Tell me"
"I want to prank my girl. She always says that she would always recognize me but I don't think she would be able to" The man in front of him stopped Tom with his hand. "Right now? Oh she would trust me. I mean the outfit...we're not wearing the same suit"
"Oh no she hasn't see me yet we're fine" Tom looked behind Bill's shoulder, seeing you talking with a man, who was holding a camera with him."Y/n's here. Please can you do this for me? Only for a minute or so, just to prove her wrong"
"Tom I got you" Bill laughed and Tom ran meters away, hiding behind a couple of people, close enough to be able to hear you.
You walked towards the familiar faces, placing your hand to your man's back, showing your bright smile.
"How are you baby?"you asked but looked at Tom's assistant, who was showing you some of your obligations you had to get done. His hand hugged your waist.
"I'm good darling"a deeper voice answered, not the one you waited to. You turned your face immediately to the direction the voice came from. You blinked fast for a moment. It wasn't Tom. It was a man who looked similar to him, but not like him.
No way.
You tried to play it cool. You smiled back at him and returned your attention back to the group around you. They were all acting the same way as before, like nothing had changed. But you were sure that the person next to you wasn't Tom.
"Babe? Can I talk to you for a second?"the mysterious man nodded at you and led you next to an another group, all of them strangers to you. He was holding your hand but that feeling you hoped you would feel, didn't appeared. A sign that proved you right.
You stared at him, clueless for a second. You tried to recall in your memory his name. He looked almost like Tom.
"Are you okay my love?" he seemed concerned, his eyebrows raised and his mouth slightly open. My love. That was something that he would say to you, but yet you were convinced that this was not him.
"Yes, well not but I'll be fine" you tried to act, holding your stomach like it was hurting you.
"Are you sure? Do you wanna leave? We can go, you don't have to worry about that" his voice got higher. He was good.
"It's okay sweet. Tell me now how did you do?"
"What?" the curiosity took all over him.
"With the interview part. You said that you were nervous to the phone" your side smile showed up and you crossed your arms to your chest, waiting for his respond.
"It went perfectly fine, you know some of them were a little rude but other than that I was good"his hand rum through his hair, a move he used to do when he was nervous. But there was not a reason to be nervous about. Who was he?
"I'm glad. And I'm sorry for being late but there was so much traffic"your hands got up in the air "I accidentally started yelling at the driver. But before you say anything I apologized to him"
"Y/n why?"
"I just wanted to be here with you Tom" you said making a sad face and lowered your face, just like a puppy would do.
Tom was listening the whole time. He was right behind your back, hardly holding his laughter, knowing you didn't have an idea of what was going on.
A flashback crossed your mind, a conversation the two of you had days ago about his identical twin, a theory that everyone has someone that looks like them. Tom had said a name, but it was blank. You only wanted the name of this person that he was talking right now. Poor man.
"Are you listening y/n?"
"I zoned out. What did you said?"
"Do you want to get back to them? They have been waiting for so long it's not right"his hand pointed their way."We gonna have time after this to talk for as long as you want"
"Well yes but I'm surprised you haven't kissed me yet" you bit your lip seeing a weird expression from the mystery boy. Tom would have kissed you way before.
"Um"he was searching with his eyes for help from anywhere, until he looked back at you"You said that you felt sick and I didn't want to make it even worse"you nodded and walked back to your team. They all greeted you and kept their conversation going. The guy who followed you, stood now next to you and tried to keep up with the others. A few more humans had been added, not familiar at all. You noticed that some of them looked at the mysterious male.
You scanned the area around you, hoping you will find the real Tom but nothing. And then you saw a light at the end of the tunnel.
Bill. Bill Jackson.
He looked like the boy you fell for, but from the way his hand was at your waist to the way he talked to you, the sensation wasn't the same. Less emotion, no butterflies, no warmth.
You giggled quietly and looked at Bill with a smile. You leaned discreetly to him, kissing his cheek and you made your way to his ear.
"I love you" you whispered. His nose didn't cracked and his smile wasn't the one that you'd usually expect from your lover. This time an awkward little smile and a disgust face combined, a hilarious thing to watch. You started laughing loud and he followed after a while.
"Nice try Bill"you said and he huffed disappointed.
"Admit it I got you for a moment"you laughed denying his statement.
"No I know him too well. To be fair I have studied him too well" you didn't feel embarrassed at all. He was your boyfriend you loved too much and cared about. Of course you had noticed every little thing he had done, years now.
"Then he is lucky to have you"you blushed hearing him. You asked where your real boyfriend was. He just shouted his name and Tom appeared looking at you with a smile as he was coming towards you. He hugged and kissed you gently on your lips.
"So?"
"So what?" you asked curious. His shining smile got even bigger.
"Was he convincing?"
"Yes you guys got me"you lied not wanting to ruin his mood. He looked so adorable and cute to destroy it and make him feel like a failure.
"I can believe that this rumor was true though"you admitted scanning the two men next to you. Of course for you wasn't like that, but for the rest of the world they looked exactly the same.
"I told you baby. Somewhere out there is your too" Tom hugged you from behind, your butterflies flying in your stomach. Finally.
"Then be careful" Bill laughed and Tom pretended to be shocked and mad at you but with no success.
The night went by fast, with you having a great time together and actually getting to know better Bill. Yes, he wasn't like Tom.
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Sorry for mistakes. ALSO ITS CHRIS'S BIRTHDAYYYY🎉they grow up so fast and I'm stuck helpp
#tomholland#tom holland#tomhollandx#tom holland imagines#tom holland fluff#tom holland imagine#tom holland x#tom holland x reader#tom holland fanfiction#tom holland x y/n#tom holland x you#tomhollandxreader#tomhollandxy/n#tom holland au#tom holland one shot#peter parker#peter parker imagine#spiderman#marvel
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Janus’ Playlist
AHH JANUS' PLAYLIST LETS GOO
Not that anyone asked for my opinions
Okay so I'd like to start by saying that Thomas, Joan and Talyn did an amazing job on this playlist because every song fits Janus so perfectly.
Here are some of my thoughts on the songs and some interpretations I came up with or found on the internet.
Trigger Warnings - abortion. Mocking of religion.
Black Hole Sun - okay at first I was like 'wow this is really smooth and nice and the vocals are so sweet.' Then I heard the lyrics. "In disguises no one knows,
Hides the face, lies the snake". It's such a Deceit song and I imagine him dancing to it (with or without a partner).
Black Hole Sun by Scott Bradlee's Postmodern Jukebox, Haley Reinhart
It Seemed That Better Way - holy heck, can I point out that this song is such a bop? Leonard Cohen has such a soothing voice and it reminds me of Patrick Page (aha Hadestown) and if Janus wasn't played by Thomas, I could imagine this as his voice. The song is about not knowing what the truth is and what to believe, and has religious meanings which could be countering Patton and his Catholic beliefs.
It Seemed The Better Way by Leonard Cohen
Anywhere - I feel like Patton would hate this because the first line is "It's a beautiful world if you've been lied to by parents and priests". Anywhere describes how the world isn't a beautiful as it may seem, and that people lie to make you see it.
Anywhere by The Scarring Party
Talking At The Same Time - it is immediately dark and that everything seems fake and a... Lie. A lot of Deceit's songs are about the truth or that everything is a lie and I have to give massive kudos to Thomas, Joan and Talyn because they did an excellent job portraying Janus through his music taste. The song describes how everyone talks at the same time, and what I interpret that as is that everyone says the same thing over and over. It's hard to explain so I'll let you make your own interpretations of it.
Talking At The Same Time by Tom Waits
all the good girls go to hell - I'm not going to lie (ha) but I don't like Billie Eyelash, but I'll see past the artist. My first thought when I saw the song without hearing it is that it's a good choice and Janus probably loves Billie Eilish. Spotify has meanings of songs so I'm going to go off there: "This song is in the perspective of the Devil / no matter how good you are, desperate measures will eventually break you / turn you into bad." I feel like Deceit would sing this around the house. This song is twisting Christian symbolism and the lyrics can be interpreted as Eilish praising people who go to hell as it's better than being morally good. (Also, just switch Peter with Patton)
all the bad girls go to hell by Billie Eilish
Denial - KDJIEKAKSNDENIAL? In Putting Others First, Janus is referred to as Denial and now this song? Everyone start clapping for Thomas and his team. Anyway, the song discusses themes of conflict within a relationship, and the denial and insecurity of being in a relationship near it’s end (source: Genius). Also, Roceit vibes?
Denial by The Vaccines
Trust In Me - first of all, heck yeah! I predicted this song to be on his playlist because it's a slimy snake song from Disney? Hello this is Thomas? I think it's a great song and Johansson's voice is angelic. Kaa is manipulating and hypnotizing Mowgli, and if Deceit could do the same you can bet your bottom dollar he would sing this. We love our not-evil snake boi.
Trust In Me by Scarlett Johansson
Razzle Dazzle - Janus singing this with Roman? Yes please? Okay so I get that this is a villian song, and I love that, but imagine Deceit in a shiny sequenced dress? I also haven't seen Chicago yet so I'm going off what I've heard - this song describes how it is too easy to put on a show and make the audience happy. Basically, acting is just professional lying. The line "Though you are stiffer than a girder they'll let you get away with murder" is so clever (no spoilers but he had it coming)
Razzle Dazzle by Richard Gere
[SLIGHT HADESTOWN SPOILERS]
When The Chips Are Down - I hecking love Hadestown so you can bet I squealed when I saw this song. This song is sung by the fates, who are portrayed at untrustworthy. The title of this song is derived from the idiom “when the chips are down”, meaning “when a very serious and difficult situation arises”. Eurydice is in potentially one of the most serious and difficult situations she could be in: her life is at stake. After Hades invites Eurydice to come with him to Hadestown, the Fates appear and encourage her to consider his offer. They tell her that she should look after herself now that she is starving and the “chips are down”. (Source: Genius). In my own words, the fates are convincing (or manipulating if you will) a poor helpless girl to put herself first and save herself. It also mentions how if you be good to get into heaven,you get a knife in the back.
Go listen to Hadestown, it's an incredible soundtrack.
When The Chips Are Down by Anaïs Mitchell, The Haden Triplets
[TW! Abortion]
Mandy Goes to Med School - okay so this song is about abortion, so we'll have to go off context. Mandy (or Amanda Palmer) has to pay for Medical School by giving abortions in an alleyway with a coat hanger, so I interpret this as having to do shady stuff to get what you want. I think him and Remus would enjoy this song together. I'd also like to note that Logan had a song by Amanda Palmer in his playlist... That isn't relevant but I wanted to note that.
Mandy Goes to Med School by The Dresden Dolls
I Put A Spell On You - 50SOG vibes? I really like this song, it has a nice rhythm and the lyrics are so creepy. This gives me vibes of Deceit cornering/pining another side/love interest because if our baby boy wants to be happy, he should. This is similar to Trust In Me because it talks about enchanting someone to get what you want. "I don't care if you don't want me, I'm yours right now." Chills. Janus singing this song would complete my life.
Also the singer calls the love interest daddy but we ain't shaming
I Put A Spell On You by Nina Simone
Evil Night Together - well the title has evil in it so... Perfect for our Evil Snake Boi. This song gives me huge Demus/Receit vibes because it's basically like "let's go on a date in the creepiest place."
What if we drank a drink in the torture chambers... Haha jk ...unless 🥺
Evil Night Together by Jill Tracy
Don't Tell Mama - another musical song? Roman would be impressed. This song is about an English singer, who's mother thinks she's in a convent (a nun), when really she's in a German s3x club. You can really tell why it would be so bad if her secret got out.
Don't Tell Mama by John Kander, Joel Grey, Jill Hawarth, Cabaret Ensemble, Harold Hastings
You're A Cad - definition of a cad: a man who behaves dishonourably, especially towards a woman... This song has a nice beat and gives me TikTok vibes, but it also gives me Moceit vibes (I say vibes too much) because the singer is saying "you're a villain, a cad, a rascal... But I'm like a fish on a hook for you and I still want you." Also, she has a sweet tooth?
You're A Cad by the bird and the bee
As Far As I Can See - all aboard the angst train, CHOO-CHOO "As far as I can see, nobody loves me. As far as I can tell, nobody loves you either" this song gives me such Roceit vibes because the meaning is pretty simple: if nobody loves Janus, then he'll take everyone down with him. I knew there would be that one song that tries to make me cry for our poor baby.
As Far As I Can See by Phantogram
Criminal - first of all, the cover is beautiful. Apple describes the song as “a description of feeling bad for getting something so easily by using your sexuality.” She also told in an interview: "One of my friends said to me, “Oh yeah, of course you aren’t writing.” So I was like, “The next time you see me, I’m gonna have a new song.” I wrote “Criminal” in 45 minutes when everyone else went to lunch because I had to have a hit. I can force myself to do the work, but only if someone is right up behind me." Which is the level of pettiness I see in Deceit and I am here for it. The context of the song is seduction and manipulation, so Janus using his sexuality to manipulate the other Sides is a cursed thought.
Criminal by Fiona Apple
Change - if any of them listened to Lana Del Rey, I sort of expected it to be Virgil. Change shows how Del Rey has matured, and I feel like it also portrays Janus' ability to adapt. "Change is a powerful thing... I'll be able to be honest..." Does this mean he's trying to change? Will we get more character development? LIGHT SIDE JANUS?
Change by Lana Del Rey
Devil In The Details - this song is about trusting the wrong person and taking advantage of something. "I am the first one I deceive if I can make myself believe the rest is easy.". More angst, yay.
Devil In The Details by Bright Eyes
Come Little Children - if you had a My Little Pony phase, you probably know this song. Come Little Children, also known as "Sarah's Theme" and "Garden of Magic," is a song sung by Sarah Sanderson in the film, Hocus Pocus to hypnotize children to lure them. Manipulation: a common theme.
Come Little Children by Erutan
Into The Unknown - I was really shocked to see this song until I realized, no, it wasn't the same iconic theme from Frozen 2. This short song is from Over The Garden Wall, a show Thomas watches but I have not. "If dreams can't come true, then why not pretend?" The show plays heavily on the battle between dreams and reality (source: Genius). The way I see this, Janus is convincing the Light Sides to do something, or specifically Roman to make his dreams come true through selfish means.
Into The Unknown by The Blasting Company
This playlist is one of the best because every song had me saying “Janus would so sing this". If you have any thoughts, feel free to comment!
As always, take it easy guys gals and non-binary pals peace out
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Lets be honest here, Shea has contributed to this Y/N fantasy for years. I have not seen any other girl associated with him or anyone in that friendgroup for that matter like and pursue this notion that they belong together and somehow life will bring them together because they are meant to be, more than she has even after he's repeatedly proclaimed being single.
Also to add to a previous ask you received, i get he's attractive and charming and has a lot going for him but he's not "famous" so i don't understand where this obsession some have with him particularly came from. The only thing i can see as beeing similar is Nash Grier during the vine days. Girls went gaga over him and now that he's married and became a young dad people moved on. Its kind of scary to think if he were to become bigger how absolutely invasive and possessive people would further become.
Yea, I don't know what Shea and Colby's deal is, obviously, but it's really interesting how different her PR is from his. Also, it's interesting that he hasn't shut that down over the years, even though he knows damn well what's going on. It's like, he's totally cool with her continuing to perpuate the myth that they are soulmates, as long as he can go out and reiterate that he's single every chance he gets. Hell, maybe they have one of those, "if both of us are single by the time we hit 30..." deals or something. Who knows.
As for your second paragraph- that's sort of what I was alluding to when I said I've never seen such creepy, obsessive behavior towards someone who wasn't a much higher level of celeb. I mean, he's definitely got a level of fame and notoriety, but he isn't what I would call a mainstream celebrity- even if he is the #1 ranked "Colby" on famous birthdays. 🤣
Anyway, yes- this shit that goes on with him now is with him still being a relatively small celeb. Imagine if he blew up someday. Imagine what that would be like. *shudders*
I remember an old prank he did back in the traphouse days, where he brought some girl in to pretend to be his girlfriend. That video was a revelation- Sam immediately brought up the fanbase, and what was going to happen to Colby and this girl if they found out. Like, he was genuinely worried about him losing followers or getting hate. And this was in 2017. So already, back before they even had a million followers on youtube, he was getting this treatment.
It's no wonder he tries to hide as much about his love life as possible- he lost followers on instagram because he grew a mustache, for fucks sake. He (and Amber) got death threats because of a jokey tiktok he made with Amber, alluding to her being his girlfriend. Imagine what would happen if he announced he was dating someone. The man somehow got painted in to this corner where his obsessive fans think he's a character they can write into looking, acting and interacting with whoever they want, and when he doesn't follow the script they wrote for his life, they lose their goddamn minds.
Anyway, this was very rambly, and I might have lost the plot somewhere along the way.
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I just had a touch day and need to vent, so here’s how my average day goes. Feel free to scroll:
1. I wake up at 6:45 because schools are designed for the teachers, who are players to go there, rather than the students, don’t whom attendance is compulsory.
2. I fall back asleep for fifteen minutes.
3. It is still dark outside when I wake up.
4. I drag my lifeless corpse out of my bed and I am either wearing sweatpants and a warm shirt, or I tug on a pair of jeans and a shirt over my long underwear.
4b. I put on my scarf and either my coat (just the inside bit, not the outside shell) or my lettermans jacket, because they are warm and I possess neither bodyfat of a significant amount of muscle, so I am cold 🥶
5. I eat a hurried breakfast.
6. I climb into a car. As hospitality dictates the people who carpool with us get the courtesy of the front seats, so I squeeze next to either, a: my younger siblings who are closer to my age group, both of whom are two tired to annoy me or b: my two younger siblings who are still in grade school who act like toddlers all hours of the day.
7: school. Depending on the day, this is how that goes:
7a1: I go to my one enjoyable class that day, study hall. It’s quite, the teacher is nice and it’s just a good place to get work done
7a2: I go to the most useless class imaginable, except for one a month when we learn a low cost recipe, because they aren’t even pretending capitalism is livable anymore.
7a3: I go to history, which is nice, but we’re still in ancient times and we aren’t learning about the mythologies, so it’s rather boring.
7aL: I eat a tiny lunch. But hey, at least I’m not starving in the street. Anyone hear heard of “the little matchstick girl”? Cause that story is actually very common in real life.
7a4: I go to health, which is easy but invasive.
7a5: I go to math which is *incoherent screaming noises *
Or
7b1: I go to seminary. Which would be nice, except the teacher teaches that Satan is the root of all evil and not just some dick who is too prideful to admit he was wrong which activity goes against the teachings of my religion, and he also is low-key sexist and racist.
7b2: yoga, the one highlight of my day, where I get too nap during meditation.
7b3: English. Now, I like English. But the teacher is *frustrated car noises * Umbridge. Umbridge but she’s not sadistic she’s just annoying. She thinks teaching native speakers of a language the grammar for that language is helpful. I’vebeenspeakingenglishmywholelifeandyoucanstartasentencewithand, thank you very much!
7bl: see 7al.
7a4: robotics but the robots don’t work and the internet is to slide to do anything
7a5: biology. The teacher is nice but at this point I’m to brained to do anything.
8: like six, only now all the siblings harass me.
Now, this has been rough and what’s been keeping me going has been hermitcraft videos, swd team videos, ittybittykylo and mixednerdypan’s baby Damian au, both on TikTok, my depends who I can’t see because of the pandemic but can still text and, of course, my little bits of human interaction with @dumbcucumber. I may have never met you in person but you are a dear friend to me.
#if you are reading the tags#listen to what I have to say#as bad as this may all sound#I actually have it very well off in the grand scheme of things#and I am very resilient#so do me a favour#check up on a friend for me#who knows?#you may even save a life.
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