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Omg you were a preschool teacher! that's so cute
I still am! <3 <3 <3 I just finished my first month at a new preschool! Although I don't stay in one classroom here. My job is to give all of the teachers 10 minute/ lunch breaks, which is fun because I get to hang out with kids in all of the classes (aka infants-6 year olds). My favorites are the infants <3 <3 <3
Also, I get a clipboard, so I get the bonus of thinking about Buck every time I go to work. (I promise I'm not as much of a menace as clipboard!Buck is, though XD)
#I hope you don't mind me publishing this#askbox#the best part about being a preschool teacher is holding babies#the second best thing is all the funny stuff kids tell me#nilefreemans
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Hi, I really like your theories about undertaker. I am looking forward to new one!!!😭 but I have some random questions: what do you think about Undertaker’s human life? Was he a French (Breton) aristocracy, was he connected to French royalty and so on. Also, did Undertaker first work in French grim reaper department, does he hate British aristocracy? I will be very thankful for your answer
Hi, thank you so much for your ask :) I researched this stuff before starting this blog anyways, but it makes me very happy to see people enjoying my theories! Or even just reading them - I know they're a little bit on the crazy side in terms of detail and length 😅
Short answer - PTSD fuel, yes, yes, yes, no (mostly) 😄
Longer answer (+ discussion of theories to come) below the cut
What do you think about Undertaker's human life?
PTSD fuel man. PTSD fuel. War, Civil War, Plague, Mental Illness. Being born into privilege did not shield him from any of this.
I think he was close with his mom due to links I believe Yana has made to certain historical figures - though I would not be surprised if, keeping with the trend, she died when Undertaker was 15 in 1346. This is the same age that Vincent was when Claudia died.
Was he a French (Breton) aristocracy, was he connected to French royalty and so on.
Yes, I do think Undertaker is related by blood to the Dukes of Brittany and to the French Monarchy (honestly there are so many inter-marriages that saying one is also saying the other). I place particular importance on his connection with both the House of Capet, who ruled in France from 987 to 1328, and their direct descendants, the House of Valois, whose 13 kings ruled in France from 1328 (3 years before what I believe to be his birth year, 1331) to 1589 (3 centuries before the current setting of the manga, 1889).
I believe Kuroshitsuji and Undertaker's past was influenced by a series of historical fiction called The Accursed Kings which takes place in 14th century France (I haven't seen the Accursed Kings as inspiration discussed before). George R.R. Martin, author of A Song of Ice and Fire (Game of Thrones) has also cited these as an inspiration for his series. (I learned everything I know about tinfoil from the ASOIAF subreddit, iykyk). When I saw that George had used these books as inspiration as well I found it hilarious because I've always said that Yana Toboso's level of plotting and lore is on the same level as George R.R. Martin's, and that she doesn't get nearly enough credit for it - at least, not in the western world.
I think the hair within Undertaker's ring might belong to the Capetien King Louis IX, which would make the ring a reliquary as Louis IX was the only French King to be canonized as a saint (he is the patron saint of the French monarchy). I discussed reliquaries in my Rossignol theory post - and I will continue to discuss them in more detail in my future posts. The Capetien dynasty is definitely relevant, but given they're related to 75% of European nobility, it's a ton of names and dates for me to try and keep straight.
Those houses aren't the only ones; I think Yana has woven in references to the first king of the Franks, Clovis I, and his wife, Clotilde (patron saint of the lame 👀 i am excited to talk about this woman as an inspiration for Claudia's name!), as well as the emperor Charlemagne, as well the many houses that descended from the Capetians (I believe one house that ruled in Brittany relates back to a certain Viscount, which explains why Undertaker is protective of the bastard...).
Well, as I said, it's a lot of details to sort through!
Did Undertaker first work in the French grim reaper department?
Yes, I agree with that theory, but I don't have much to add to it at the moment. As I said, I think that he reaped King Louis XV's soul explains how he ended up with the Hirsch Aquamarine - I would imagine he's reaped many a French monarch's soul between 1366 and 1819.
Does Undertaker hate the British aristocracy?
Well... It's complicated; Undertaker is one complicated cat. But no, I don't think Undertaker hates the British aristocracy.
Now admittedly, he probably wasn't too fond of the British people as a whole after having been at war with them his entire life. I believe Undertaker was born March 25, 1331 and died at age 34 on January 28, 1366. The Hundred Years War between France and England broke out in 1337, when he was 6. The Breton War of Succession began in 1341 when Undertaker was 10, and this was in itself a proxy war between France and England. France backed the female claimant to the Duchy of Brittany of the House of Blois, and England backed the male claimant of the House of Montfort.
But not being fond of the British people or British aristocrats does not equate to hating them - and then, of course, he met Claudia. I really believe he is (in his own mind, at least) devoted to Claudia and her memory, and to the last remaining Phantomhive. Of course, she'd probably be rolling in her grave if she knew the wacky shit he's been up to in her absence.
Anyways - ultimately I think the sin that Undertaker finds most despicable is greed, especially when it's at the expense of your own people. He isn't prejudiced against a particular group of people, but all who embody this sin.
Anti-capitalist king 👑
This goes back to a lot of things; my theory about "Holy Monday", Jesus Christ, the novel Ivanhoe, the novels of The Accursed Kings, the Knights Templar, King Philip IV, King Louis IX, The Irish Potato Famine, even The Tower Bridge. I think it would make a lot of sense for Undertaker to despise greed given he blames it for the horrors of his past. And I believe there are hints in the manga that for all their less savoury aspects, Claudia, Vincent, and O!Ciel are not greedy in the way Undertaker finds distasteful... but R!Ciel might be.
Thanks again for reading 🥰 and thank you for the ask!
#ask#i hope you don't mind me publishing this!#undertaker theory#kinda#black butler#kuroshitsuji#anti-capitalist king#i've called him that as a joke for a while but now it's actually kinda serious lmao#undertaker
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I'm sorry ahead of time because this gives off such a simpy parasocial vibe (bcs you're a tumblr celebrity in my eyes lol) but I'm very grateful for you and your blog! I've been on tumblr for like over a decade but I've never ever interacted with anyone in whatever fandom I've been in. I don't know what is it about your space here that possessed me to finally make a blog and share things and engage with others but I'm so grateful for it. You were such a lovely gateway into the fandom and your blog is just such a good vibe. Definitely inspired me to feel less cringe about posting stuff. I'm currently working my way through writing a mildly cringe Homelander voice kink fic that is inspired by some of the headcanons you've written in the past. I rarely feel inspired enough to write, let alone feel like sharing my work but for once I genuinely feel like the fandom is so nice and accepting that it's worth giving it a shot!! Anyway, don't mind me just felt like pouring my heart out lol. Thanks for being awesome and being part of the fandom!!
ah man, don't apologize at all! thank you so much! i can't tell you how happy i am that i could at all contribute to your decision to engage with the fandom and share your creativity. i've also been on and off tumblr for many years, and coming back to it i was pretty shocked by how much the culture had changed. no one should be afraid of sharing their fan work! that's what fandom is! fandom community is honestly more important to me than any of the actual material the fandom comes from lol
well i haven't read it yet but i'm over the moon excited about your voice kink fic!!! that happens to be one of my very favorite kinks, and if it's cringy then i'm most definitely the conductor of the cringetrain.
thank YOU for being part of the fandom! i can't wait to see what else you bring to it! 🖤🖤🖤
#i hope you don't mind me publishing this i just!!! want everyone to see that we can all be active members of our fandoms#beginner writers and artists and editors shouldn't be afraid of breaking in at their level#we get better by supporting each other#and i wanna see every possible kind of fan participating and having fun with each other#oops getting emotional about fandom communities again#anyways!! thank you again!!#ask and you shall receive
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okay I'll bite. what's the deal with the life series. what's the lore. what's your favorite thing about it. I wanna understand the Posts
huge win for the me community let's go. okay. idk your minecraft knowledge level so i am going to explain as though it's zero bc mine was basically zero when i started watching.
so. the life series (also known as 3rd life, bc that's the first season) is a minecraft survival multiplayer series, which essentially means it's a server where you can die. in fact, it is a death game! everyone on the server has three lives; if you die three times, you're out of the series. your goal is to be the last one standing. additionally, when you're down to your last life, you are expected and honor-bound to engage in pvp and ruin your alliances. your goal is Murder.
there are five seasons out right now with different gimmicks, each one has the same core cast with some changes - essentially it's a bunch of friends who will take any excuse to kill each other, but with increasingly weird and complex political factions and interpersonal dynamics. people are out here swearing fealty. there are betrayals. there are team banners. there's a season where they build a complex net of paths in the sky and drop tnt on one another.
it's one of those things where there is some lore/plot and you can take it as seriously or not-seriously as you want! yay! i for one love to go the "let's take this to its logical horrifying conclusion" route but some people are here for the sillies and that's good too. the fanart game is insane, people are making renaissance paintings and stuff.
anyways, this explanation is a mess, so i will go on to reccing povs, because there are ~15 people in each season and they're all posting videos and that can get overwhelming! there's not really a "right" order but when i started, @charaznablescanontoyota gave me the excellent advice of "start with the winner of each season and then whenever you're curious about something watch that next" - if you like that route and don't mind knowing who wins,
er4df444444444444 sorry that's my cat. he's been watching along with me. he has a lot of opinions.
anyways here's the list of winners, the wiki is a pretty good reference to have on hand. HOWEVER. i will also add that everyone has a different style! some people edit things very short, some people do long videos, some people are builders and some are very into the roleplay - i bounced pretty hard off the first pov i watched but switching to someone else worked for me, so in a way having so many options is great bc it means you can shop around, so to speak.
and i will close this out with a few of my personal favorite seasons! just for funsies.
inthelittlewood 3rd life (s1) - probably my personal fave. in which an early game alliance becomes an intensely charged king/knight relationship that they both take WAY too seriously (honorific)
smallishbeans last life (s2) - have you ever wanted to watch someone do a very, very bad job at murdering a lot of people?
pearlescentmoon double life (s3) - in a season where everyone has canonical soulmates, pearl ends up the odd woman out because her soulmate doesn't want to be with her. it is an insane and compelling character arc
ldshadowlady secret life (s5) - diversity win! this woman is so so bad at "what if minecraft were taskmaster"
and as a side note i tend to prefer the tightly edited stuff, so if you know that you Do Not prefer that, i would point you towards ethoslab secret life or grian 3rd life! or tbh still towards pearl double life.
#waveridden.ask#clonerightsenthusiast#life tag#CREWE THIS IS SO LONG I'M SO SORRY SHDKLFHSFS#i hope you don't mind me publishing it. i just figure you are probably Not the only person confused by my posts#if you had told me like six months ago i'd be a mcyt girlie i would be really really skeptical but like it's fun#i once heard life series described as a surrealist reality tv competition and that stuck with me#ETA I just realized i didn’t directly say my favorite thing about it. if this does not get the vibe across just hmu again#i am happy to get into it
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So… I might have started another fic 👀 but this time it's going to be something different and special.
As you might know, I'm subscribed to KHaarija's OnlyFans. Since they began their Christmas calendar, I've been writing a few short scenarios inspired by some of the posts (all of them featuring either Solo Jere or Jere x Reader), though I never posted them.
I've just finished a new scenario based on one of the recent posts and I felt like sharing it with y'all. So I thought, "Why not share everything?" 🤷🏻♀️
So, I've decided to create a fic where I'll be posting my OF writings as different chapters. For now I'll upload the latest scenario, and over time, I'll update the fic with the Christmas and the Thailand holiday ones as well 😈
I hope you, my fellow readers, like this idea 🙏🏻
#i've wrote so many fics for the past year... and most of them are not even published#i went to my ao3 profile and i literally can't believe i've already written 20 fics#that feels insane even for me#anyways i hope you guys don't mind me spamming the reader tag on ao3 with my stupid fics#and that you're enjoying the unhinged thoughts running through my mind because of this man#käärijä#khaarija onlyfans#txt#mine
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hiya! so i'm moodlighting on ao3/the writer of the things all come and gone and i was just reading all the ficlets you've written over the last few days, which are all AMAZING btw, would definitely subscribe should you ever want to upload them to ao3 👀 and then i checked my email and saw the very kind comment you left on my fic and wanted to return the love. so just popping by to say i adore your work and how beautifully, effortlessly readable your writing is. i also LOVED come and taste and i so wanted to reblog the post to share it with everyone but didn't due to the fact that my little sister follows me here and i didn't want to #Expose myself akdjdkfjdjf. ANYWAY, just wanted to let you know how much i admire you as a writer and that i look forward to anything else you might share with us in the future ❤️
Please omg, I have already reread The Things All Come and Gone (which I am linking here in case anyone who follows me hasn't read it yet--GO READ IT) like three times at least and I've had the tab open all week trying to come up with an adequate comment, and it still didn't feel like enough! I can't even put into words how much I love that fic! To have you here now saying such kind things to me is making me feel all wibbly. Thank you so much!!
I'll definitely be putting some of my ficlets on AO3 soon! I have a few more prompts in my inbox, and once I get through those, I'll repost the longer ones over there. I still feel weird about putting short things on AO3 sometimes, but I know that's dumb and it'll help people find them later since no one can find ANYTHING on tumblr, so yeah. Feel free to kick me if I don't do it. (The titles though......I have to come up with titles.....)
Also lmao when I first got on tumblr, my little sister followed me too! Luckily she was never really active, and I ended up deleting that blog and making a new one that she didn't know about so I could feel comfortable posting my smutty, smutty fics. The perils of crossing the streams of real life and tumblr!!
Anyway, you're so nice, thank you so much. I'm clutching your kind words to my chest and keeping them for a rainy day.
#replies#i hope you don't mind me publishing this because i really do want to keep it <3#like for when the 'help i suck at writing' doldrums hit...as they do
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Ok omg @ your post about the reddiessaince: it happened to me last year and i still think about them like every single day so i’m glad i’m not the only one…. WHAT is it about them it’s so hilarious. It ch 2 one of the worst films i’ve ever seen and YET
let's talk about it. the problem is they're the best of all time. they have everything. childhood friends to lovers. weird stuff about destiny. weird stuff about choice. spinning your own little red string of fate and tying it to other people on purpose..... second chances. forgetting and remembering each other (most romantic trope of all time). best friendships. extremely distinct characters that are both so rich and kind of half-baked so you can take them home and finish cooking them in the oven. kinship understanding and antagonism. goofing around. shared trauma affecting different people differently. tragedy. numerous versions of the same canon all of which have juice and none of which are good. characters pushing uncomfortably against the confines of their horrible narrative. questionably canon homophobic romantic subtext. literally canon romantic love. characters being epically shafted by their creators. like what am i supposed to say. sorry that the greatest to ever do it did it in the worst franchise ever? in a franchise that is cringe at every turn and in every way it's possible to be cringe? i'm not. if it was all mixed and balanced and cooked to a perfect 145 degrees we could sit and eat quietly but that's not what happened they handed us the smashed sticky and sopping wet ingredients and said if you don't like our improvisational midwestern riff on ceviche make something better. and we must. every day.
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and when i write original fiction and when i realize i'm just basically writing love letters and hate letters to people who i still remember and people who i'm still trying to remember and people who i'd like to forget but i still remember anyways and when i wonder if maybe writing fiction is just a way of keeping those memories alive somehow and maybe all forms of writing is just another ghost trailing after you or whatever
#caroline talks#don't mind me!!!#the way i know for a fact that if i ever publish a novel. i would imagine that if the people i ever wrote about#where to have the audacity to pick up my story#i hope they see how i still loved them deep down and how this was my version of preserving their memory. etc.#like 'yes. i hate you. i also wish i didn't hate you. i hope one day i won't hate you.' and etc.
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so not only do I have a few more kinktober fics to polish up, i need to get started on fics for mattmelloweek, but i am also letting my brain fester and rot about Big Fic (ascension) since giving myself a deadline of january to begin writing and publishing chapters.
can you tell i was unemployed for a few weeks when i made these plans?
#i was going to give myself a writing break between kinktober and mellomattweek but i actually don't think i need it#plus theres only seven prompts... haha...#<- says the guy who DECIDED to write thirty one fics#as for ascension#i am constantly writing things down in my notebook and coming up with new ideas but the plot is very faint#like i could get started with writing the beginning but i worry i will run out of stream without a slightly more solid plan#so that's where i am at in regards with that#uhh... anything else...#i constantly have little one shots running through my mind and while they aren't a priority to me at the moment#they might be written and published sporadically in the near future#anyway!#very excited i hope some of you are as well#vamphorica writes#possible delete later
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Hhhh I’m really enjoying Nightbringer so far (I’ve missed the guys sm,, and I’m tempted on drawing stuff for obey me in the future shh), but I will be honest, I never memorized Lucifer’s surprise guest pattern,, but I didn’t expect this
Luci ticklish shoulder confirmed You’re welcome~(*´ー`*)
I AM SCREAMING! I was sooooo surprised toooooo dsjfnjdfj, to tell you my heart jumped sjsdjf I would also add that when you tap his nose he also says so AND THAT'S ADORABLE ASDJNFJSDF
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Oh, my sweet Luci, you have no idea how much I love him even if like half of the fandom hates him so much aND I WILL FUCKING PERISH IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE IF YOU EVER DRAW SOMETHING FOR OBEY ME (especially Luci) I'M CRYING KJDSNFJDSF
And Nightbringer is so good and I really like the Ruri game, it makes me sweat, but it's so good. It makes me so so sad however that Luci is treating us like this, after all the love we've shared sadjfjsdfj
I got too excited, but thank you so much for sending this ajdjksnfsf I felt really happy that you could see my endless love for Luci *teary emoji*
#chibimochii#I hope you don't mind me publishing this djkfjdsnf#you were so kind sending this sjsdfkjf
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I am oh so very late but! They only used Yao's name as predicted and THEN they used "iel" twice for them, which is our own gender neutral pronoun :)
The weirdest thing in the French translation is us using the formal "you" with everyone we know (even younger characters) and everyone with everyone but whatever...
Oooh that's awesome news!!! Thank you so much for taking the time to tell me about this, this makes me so happy :D
(And same hat on the formal "you" part, even Blish and Gorrik did that...)
#I hope you don't mind if I publish this? people deserve to know!#let me know if that's an issue#joyeux-tintamarre#eod spoilers#gw2 spoilers
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Sex scenes don't bother me as much as kiss scenes. When the characters are making out in a way that indicates it will lead to sex, I'd scream at the screen "Just take off your pants and start grinding under the covers already!" because I cannot watch them mash their mouths together for another second.
That being said, I'm not a huge fan of sex scenes because firstly—I can't take the movements seriously, and if there's sound effects, there's also a high chance of me laughing. Secondly, the squishiness of the human body is another thing I can't take seriously. When I first watched the Only Friends trailer, and I saw that scene where Sand thumbs Ray's tattoo, I thought it was a butt tattoo because of the way the skin bounced in slow-motion, but no, it's actually a hip tattoo; the human skin is just that springy on every part of the body. While everyone was going crazy because of the tattoo-touch, I'm laughing because the bounce was so pronounced.
Basically, kiss scenes ick me out while sex scenes are comedy.
omg that sounds like such a fun way to experience sex scenes tho!! i wish my reaction was more like that rather than convulsion. i'd much rather experience a comedy show tbh dfjkkdgj
also interesting point you bring up about the human body being so squishy. i never really thought about it but yeah. human bodies are just so weird?????? actually, only the other week i was talking with another friend (who's likely also ace-spec) about just how humans (and tbh even animals) will just have things dangling from them?? whether it be genitalia or boobs or whatever. like, those body parts are just... hanging there?? and technically even your arms but at least you can control those. meanwhile my boobs will just bounce depening on what movements i make and i can't control them and they're just hanging from my chest while i go about my life. like, why?? i want dog boobs where you mostly have just the nipples and they only really get big when i have an actual child to feed (i know human breasts also swell when they fill with milk during a pregnancy, but why do i have to have two balls of meat hanging from my chest even when i'm not pregnant?? who thought of this design??). coming back to your point of the human body being so squishy and actually yeah, i'm realizing now that i can't take it seriously when people talk about how hot boobs are precicely because boobs are so squishy and also so wobbly and just. how is this not funny to people? dkdfjdjfk
and lmao i remember everyone going crazy over the tattoo!!!!! i realized right away that it's on the hip but maybe that was bc i remembered the placement of it from the eclipse. which is also why that scene didn't make me laugh, i was actually too busy trying to read what it said bc in the eclipse we never got to see that tattoo up close enough in order to be able to read it. so while everyone was freaking out i was just sitting in my corner like "omg so the tattoo says 'beautiful'???" i'd been wondering about it for a year ever since the eclipse, so i was just excited to finally know what it says bc i'm a nosy ass bitch lmao
anyway, i love hearing about your experiences. it's so fascinating how varied the ace experience can be and how specific things affect everyone differently. and i think it's also cool to hear what things other ace people pick up/focus on while the allosexuals are busy drooling over whatever is happening on screen dkjkdkjg
the kissing... idk, i can't tell you why it doesn't actually bother me that much or why i might even enjoy it. although i do have to say, the act of kissing does look extremely weird. sometimes (usually during longer kiss/make-out scenes) i'll be sitting there and suddenly it'll hit me that "actually kissing looks SO strange, whose idea was it for kissing to be a thing??"
sometimes in my head the kissing just conjurs up the image of a fish opening and closing it's mouth, like so:
except, you know, kissing involves two people so in reality it's more like:
#i hope you don't mind that i'm publishing this on my blog again!#i'm just thinking it might be interesting for other people as well to read about our varied experiences#do let me know if you want me to go private (or just hop straight into my dms <3)#asks#actually a random memory popped into my head while i was writing this#remember how in my other reply i said kiss scenes sometimes bore me?#actually in the first and only relationship i've been in i actually would sometimes pretend to be asleep#(even though i struggle with sleeping and can fall asleep during the day ONLY when i'm sick or under a serious lack of sleep)#i pretended to be asleep to avoid my then-bf turning the cuddling session into a make-out session#bc making-out just bored me so much as an activity lmao#(it didn't necesserily bother me or gross me out but yeah i just thought it was insanely boring)#(i still went along with it the way you'd sit through your friend's fave movie even tho you personally find it super dull)#(bc i didn't have the heart to tell him i wasn't all that into it dkfjkdg)#(actually he once made a comment how ''the two of us couldn't go a day without kissing each other!!'' and out loud i agreed#but in my head i was like ''oh i EASILY could 🤭🤭🤭'')#(again i didn't say the truth bc he was a really sweet guy and i just didn't want him to feel upset at my lack of enthusiasm about him)#to this day i have no idea if the guy was the problem bc i didn't have strong enough feelings for it or if it was bc of my asexuality#i didn't know about asexuality back then but if i'd known i might have figured it out right then and there that i was ace lmao#(it took another 2 years until i got there)
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NOOOO i FORGOT
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Yes, those are pretty great reference images for Kaiba's non-work clothing wardrobe. And yes, he must have an obnoxiously yuppie boating outfit. 🤣 He just has to, given his professional circles.
I don't think this Kaiba would be opposed to a bit of BDSM. Feels like he would be okay with bondage (being tied up or tying Jou up both works). They will likely trade off on being dominant/submissive depending on the mood, so switches at heart. And yes, Jou does not have qualms about using his strength on Kaiba usually. Sometimes, the only way to get Kaiba to cooperate is to force him, hahah. So Jou likes to pin Kaiba down so that he can edge him and/or prostate massage him. (Also I think it would be fun to have this Kaiba warm Jou's cock and the first time they do that, it will be a struggle because Kaiba is usually so impatient. Jou basically has no choice but to restrain him and hold him down/tight for a bit to keep from acting up.) They both love leaving hickies and small bruises on each other because they're both possessive and jealous motherfuckers.
#replies#nanoseven#fic: In bed with the mob#my wips#I hope you don't mind me publishing this publicly#I just don't want to lose the link#but if you rather I not I can private this reply though you wouldn't be able to see it then#haha the tumblr ask system
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will you be doing rwby volume 9? :) hope ur having a great day!
I will be, yes. One day. I've got all the episodes downloaded, I just need to watch them & screencap & edit them. I'll hopefully be releasing the screenshots & the icons when I get round to it.
I'll be doing icons for Volume 9 and Ice Queedom after I've completed all my commissions.
And thank you! I hope you are too. :)
#* answered#I hope you don't mind me publishing this publicly#but just in case anyone else wants to know
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I need you to know that Greatest Hits is making me absolutely feral. Like foaming at the mouth. The awkwardness just makes it so much more honest and hot. I’m on chapter two. I have trouble focusing and I read in short bursts. I am HOOKED. Thank you for sharing it with us. 😭 I’m so invested.
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i'm trying super duper hard to be super duper normal about this but alisfhsljkfd i have no idea how to accept compliments like a normal human being so !!!
really, honestly, frfr thank you so fucking much it's been such a nerve wracking experience so far posting this and i'm thrilled to see so many people enjoying it, especially people i consider friends <3
i really super appreciate the specific comment abt the awkwardness bc it's something i think is soooo true to life when you're first figuring yourself out sexually - no matter where you are in terms of orientation
like were we all not super fucking weird about sex - even if we were having lots of it - at 18-20 years old?
#bee's inbox#outpastthebrakers#brandi <3#greatest hits#i hope you don't mind me publishing this but compliments deserve to be POSTED PUBLICLY
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You know what, I'm going to add to this after all. Ray tracing is a gimmick and infamous for how intensive it is on hardware where it updates in real time, such as in video games. Before it was considered at all feasible outside rendering CGI, there were other methods of simulating light that were far easier for hardware to handle and, honestly, the difference between them (I can't remember what the name of the algorithm is) and ray tracing is minimal.
Adding to the problem is video card manufacturers pushing it while not increasing the VRAM on cards that are now expected to handle ray tracing, NPC scripts/AI, all other graphics, and stream encoding at the same time. GPUs have not seen a meaningful increase in VRAM in years despite the push of 4k graphics and ray tracing.
Oh and handling generating in-between frames to increase FPS/hide poor optimisation and up-scaling from 1080p to 4k or 8k. Sometimes both at the same time (in addition to the rest).
Further compounding it is consoles using stripped down versions of GPUs but not allowing users to upgrade them or other hardware. At least not in an easy way that doesn't void the warranty.
There's only so much that can be off-loaded to other components and it is a Choice™ to decide not to include an option to disable features that minimally improve the graphics (I specify graphics since more than one game has been released where turning off ray tracing wasn't the first thing recommended to turn off if you wanted to hit 30+ FPS) but can and do overwhelm GPUs.
Mandatory Ray Tracing should be banned in games. Genuinely absurd to think the majority of consumers are running high performing RTX graphics cards.
#i have a suspicion that this plus the price increase in gpus is to push people to rent computers a la geforce now#and gpus are one of the main ways developers compensate for having dog shit optimisation#the others being (hoping) the end user has enough ram to hide memory leaks#and high hdd/ssd capacity so compression doesn't need to be optimised#(also a high or no data cap since so much is downloaded rather than coming on a physical disk)#some developers are better at having granular options than others too#some will let you tweak or disable damn near everything so it runs best on your system and so you can choose what looks good to you#while others do the bare minimum and can't even be bothered to let users change things like particle effects or ray tracing#your options are basically play how the developer decided (regardless of your system) or not play at all#if the game runs fine until x or y or z but then starts to stutter/crash and would be fine if you could turn things down/disable things#you're sol if the developer didn't bother to allow changes outside of gamma and anti-aliasing for example#also not everyone has a 4k display or notices minute details#some people don't even see a difference between 30 fps and 60#don't get me started on how so many developers treat colour blindness as something spiteful rather than a medical condition#but more and more developers are forcing large and/or intense graphics/textures rather than giving users (aka customers) an option#or having a separate additional download if someone does want 4k or 8k textures#you know the way so many games operated when <720p displays were common but there was a way to download hd textures#for people who wanted them *and* had a display that could do 1080p#though it goes back to the (usually) aaa publishers and how graphic generations hit their peak a while ago#adding more polygons isn't something big or noticeable anymore unless it results in a performance *drop*#(the team fortress 2 snake immediately comes to mind)#(or the final fantasy 14 grapes)#ray tracing is one of the buzzwords used to sell a remaster (possibly to people who bought the game before)#or indicate a game/console is new and not part of a previous generation
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