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Suegiku fic that’s just Tetchou helping Jouno open up and accept his own emotions, since Jouno has kinda perfected the whole ‘bury your emotions so deep that you can’t even feel them anymore’ thing due to his time in the mafia. Ofc we all know Jouno has no problem expressing stuff like anger, bitterness, disgust… basically all those negative ones used mostly in a comical manner for his character. It’s rly just his sadness that he’s tries to disown as he’s already deemed it as a ‘weak’ emotion that doesn’t do anything except make ppl pity and underestimate him, which needless to say, he HATES more than anything. So yeah, Tetchou would help him realize that feelings of sadness are completely valid and that he deserves to express those emotions instead of bottling them up. (Ngl Tetchou would honestly still be kinda learning this alongside Jouno because he’s probably so used to his stoicism-like mindset.)
‘Your Tears are Priceless’ would be a good title, i think; in reference to his ‘Priceless Tears’ ability.
#i love SGK angst as much as the next person but#I rly only wrote this for the title lol#it’s prob too cheesy honestly lol#but maybe that’s y I love it#I could go more into depth about exactly WHY both Tetchou and Jouno bottle up their grief#but it’s like 3am and I have school tomorrow lol and also I don’t have the energy to write all that out lol#please can someone make this a reality???#forget over the moon#I will literally be over the FREAKING GALAXY if u do lol#(that probably made more sense in my head lol)#well I am sleep deprived so#bungo stray dogs#bungo gay dogs#suegiku#jouno saigiku#tetchou suehiro#angst#but not that detailed#cuz I am fricking ✨sleep deprived✨#I honestly do this to myself 😭
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#vampire hunter d#vhd#art#D the horseman of death (〃‿〃♡)#Hello Hello I hope you're all doing well 🥹🥹#Sorry that I only draw D haha I can't help it (❀ •̀ᴗ•́ )♡#I started Tyrant Stars recently and I finished gold fiend about a week ago?#Honestly I miss the stories where D would stay in one town in the entire story and be a little detective#since pale fallen angel it's been a lot of traveling ....🥲#and it will never not be funny to me that D has pockets full of dirt 😭 D take a shower man.... or wash your clothes please💀#2 versions because as much as I like white hair D he looks like alucard here because of the gold accents ( •_•)#I've never actually watched or played any of his games idk it does interest me? but not enough to sit down and watch it yet#I wanted to experiment with a black out style ( I tried incorporating red but I got too annoyed.#I intend to render it at some point!#so it might end up looking completely different#well...If I get myself to complete this and I like how it looks in the end I think I might make a little bookmark out of it for myself (〃‿〃#I think it would be neat...#....you see me drawing poppies a lot forgive me 💀They're just my favorite flowers💀 The symbolism works out for this drawing....
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(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.
Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!
#dc comics#dc#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#jason todd#(yes for the teddy bear. it counts)#batgirl#batgirls#mine#< keep forgetting to tag my art as that I'm terrible 😭#ANYHOW I'm slowly getting back into drawing again after my last ipad got nuked (cant think abt that or ill cry) and i finished uni#oh yeah j finished my first year of uni btw. i went to an Olivia Rodrigo concert like a week or 2 ago. I've been busy lol#but yeah it's looking like I've got a fun summer of bottom feeding ahead of me now that I've officially been told i got passed over for that#-comic job i applied for. lol. lmao even#it's fine honestly it was a pretty daunting prospect i just have to find a way to fill the time by myself now#I've plenty of comics to read so that's nice. got wayyy into mark waids DD run recently (mostly for Chris Samnee's art)#so that's been fun! i have my empowered omnibus (embarrassing and kept under my bed <3) i have TT year 1 i have huntress and WW#uhhh i got flash 1 minute war. lots of good stuff!#so hopefully i don't go. completely feral from lack of stimulation#also hopefully commissions will be a thing i can do#godddd there's many mkre things i want to draw. i got too enamoured w my own bad theory and now I've drawn tim!bats#but unfortunately now i only want to draw tim!bats being laughed at my the batfamily bc seriously tim?? really??#< it's literally probably not going to happen but I've invested myself in this terrible future for some reason#imagine damian trying to robin for tim!bats for 1 (one) night and the next morning he doesn't say anything he just moves to bludhaven#he can't take this shit#oh so many ideas...#ANYWAY. ues. finally art. now if you like it. consider commissioning me (in 2 to 3 business weeks <3)#(no pressure)
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The day before yesterday I was looking at statistics about reading habits in different countries (average book count per year, age, most read genre, etc) and then yesterday i came across a poll here asking how many books youve read so far this year and now im wondering:
The highest I saw (not just in that poll's tags but on other socials as well) was 365! With the person in question being a lil under 300 rn.
The lowest (and no shame here! I myself have picked up reading again after a long time and it's quite the challenge) was 1! But I also saw lots of people aim for 5.
The average seems to be anywhere around 30 to 60!
And the second most common bracket (interesting that it's also the one made up of mostly late teens and early 20yos) is 10-30!
Idk if anyone will read this but if u do, id love to know more about your thought process in the tags!
(Just pls be kind to each other and no fucked up elitism lol)
#books#reading#literature#reading goals#lit#poll#al's poll#al's post#mine is pretty low bc i stopped reading for years so i need to ease up into it and be kind to myself (+ i have uni and im trying to do#another thing that takes a lot of time) based on that and a bunch of other stuff i initially aimed for 12 but now 13 also bc it's my lucky#number hehe#but ye lil me would read honestly like even 50 books in a year#and in their 3rd language - wtf happened😭
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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.
#disability#this is a callout post about myself#i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned#turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly#i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack#(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker#and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller#and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)
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a scene from chapter 3 of @celestial--sapphic fic, “Kiss me (like you wanna be loved)” 😇🙏 which can be read here !!
I thought this scene was so cute when I read it💓💓💓
#tbh I know poppy wasn’t looking when Evelyn got the note but I like to think she watched its progress across the class🫶#I challenged myself with this one!! what is this a BACKGROUND ???#(still a lazy-ish one but I tried to fill out everything🙏)#there will be MORE😤🤝💓#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#poppy sweeting#there just needs to be more content with the HL girls 😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏#I honestly enjoyed challenging myself to do a full illustration though💓💓💓
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There was a Bunny Maloney Movie that was present On Demand from Sept 6th, 2012-Oct 11th, 2012. Besides this listing, this is all we have as of current. No one knows what this movie was about at all, nor do we have any footage.
#bunny maloney#obscure media#lost media#animation#Still lost lol#I honestly hope this gets found#Barely no one acknowledges this#Let me do it myself 😭
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i did something crazy (actually played the sims)
#like no i didn’t go in to work on story or post stuff I PLAYED…#i made a sim to try the new pack out with finally because i had a craving for some gameplay#and on this blog we honor those cravings rare as they are#honestly.. it was kind of nice.. i feel burnt out creatively so doing something mindless injected me with serotonin#did i have to restrain myself from making over every sim mine interacted with.. yes of course#ahhh how do people play and not want to remake everything#that’s why i only actually play like a couple times a year 😭#anyway it was nice. i’ll probs hop on again later
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GUYS I AM TEACHING EMMA NEXT TO MY SENIORS AND I AM EXCITED/SCARED
#excited because a handful of the quietest ones are quietly looking forward to it in the purest way#scared/tired because there’s a group of toad boys who won’t give a damn lol#but you know. it’s like. learn from Mr. Elton boys!#l o l#teaching tag#this class is really hard for me#because when I force myself to remove my gaze from the group of toad boys who do not give a damn and will never#(they are beyond the scope of my reaching them)#there are many quiet sweethearts who honestly just wanna learn#like. they really do.#but I hate the presence of the toads#it’s so 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#like I am just flattened by it in spirit#I really need to redirect my attention n
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How a possible relationship between Patrick and Henry would play out:
Talking about canon-compliant, the thought of Henry and Patrick together is scary.
It's not only scary from the abuse point of view, but also because of how easily it would have happened, hadn't IT existed.
Henry is a vulnerable child, dependent on the little love and attention he receives, he's not very smart and he's easy to manipulate.
On the other hand, Patrick is cunning, he quickly picks up on that, he sees that he's weak, insecure, scared and an easy prey that won't actually put up that much of a fight.
Patrick, just like the rest of the gang, probably knows he's physically/emotionally abused and neglected by his father, he knows that there's already a seed planted in him that makes him prone to violence and accepting violence.
And that big fear of abandonment and need of love, due to his father still, but also because his mother left without him.
He already saw that he could sexually and emotionally abuse him easily, and he never suffered any repercussions because of said actions....
Patrick knows what Henry wants, what he's scared of and what he will or won't do in case he needs to protect himself.
Following the novel formula on relationships, he'd force him in one, groom him into thinking it's what he wants. He'd play with him however he pleases, going way past 'mere' molesting, shoveling at his insecurities like homosexuality and fragility and using them against him, it would be a constant cycle of hurting, threatening and then comfort, so that he never leaves.
He knows how to pull his strings without making him leave, because he's just so entertaining to Patrick, and he doesn't want his favorite experiment to go.
He would be exactly like Butch, beating and humiliating him, treating him like garbage, but also giving him that love and validation he so deeply craves.
#abusive henpat is so sad honestly#henpat#henry bowers#bowers gang#it#it 2017#it book#it fandom#it stephen king#it 2019#patrick hockstetter#i mean henpat in general is abusive 😭#thinking about it makes me want to skin myself#sometimes im glad pennywise took Patrick before he could do worst.....#btw LMK your opinion on this if you want im eager to know
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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uwaw,,,,,,,so different,,,,,,,
#(i have 7 more pages to go why did i overestimate myself)#it’s the most unserious comic too help me 😭😭😭😭#i hope i can get my work shit done fast so i have more down time to do…..anything honestly#(i’m just not gonna render most of the panels………..)#hehe#mimiart#satosugu#jjk
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long overdue but chapter 2 of my ficcy is out :3c if you would like context, then well... link is below
#i dont like this drawing nor do i think the 2nd chapter was worth the wait but :#ah well :')#im a little more critical with my writing but im just having fun with the boys#need to remind myself#im happy people liked the 1st chapter tho#bc reading it now i was cringing honestly 😭😭#apex#apex fanart#apex legends#my art ♡#crypto apex legends#apex crypto#mirage apex legends#apex mirage#cryptage#holohacker
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IDK how i ever got this neurotic and overthinky I just remembered one time in high school when I auditioned for a play with a very profanity laden monologue from Its Always Sunny & the choir teacher just sat there with a look of shock on her face after I finished screaming it and I was just like 😎😎😎 hope you liked it!!!! like of course I did not get the part but I did not spend a second worrying about it. And now the idea of doing like 5 minutes of standup or taking an improv class makes me feel so anxious I wanna barf
#I honestly think living with my sister did a number on me she made me feel very small & made me question my every movement#I think I will be able to get myself there soon but 😭😭 why can’t I just DO IT….
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I’m giving Charles a medal. That was thee worst Portuguese I’ve ever heard. Takes some talent.
#making jokes to distract myself from the pAIN — SAZZ WAS BUILDING A TRAMPOLINE PARK OHHHHH GOOOOD#CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UPPP#WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I WILL GET YOU#i am like. 65% sure the relationship she was talking about was the one with jan#idk Charles is not perfect but I can’t see Sazz talking about him like that#maybe it’s just me#Oliver with his tablet I’m. it’s like a little Linus blanket I just can’t#‘because I always fail’ OLIVER 😭😭😭#and honestly the westies are the sanest people around. I’d do anything for 200 dollar rent in the arconia are you kidding#good on professor dudenoff for being a champ! hope he’s enjoying his retirement!#and that ending… I have a feeling we’re going to get some important info next week#as things stand I have no idea who the murderer could be tbh#(yeah yeah ben’s body double. what do you want me to say. i laughed.)#omitb#omitb spoilers#omitb s4
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I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me
#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭#BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE#it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ?#it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so#and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain#which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always#and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing#I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS#ALL IN OME DAY#BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE#😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO#I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by#free me!!!#either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me .#honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art#I already do that#I mean when I have Good art.#IM RAMBLING IDK
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