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I'll Still Feel the Same Around You by crinkle-eyed-boo (2.4K, E)
He finds himself wishing that the bedsheet would slip down a few more inches so he could get a good look at Harry’s perfectly pert– Louis’ breath hitches as his cock stirs, suddenly very interested in this train of thought. Oh. Oh. The answer to all of Louis’ troubles is so fucking obvious he can’t believe he didn’t think of it until now. Nothing puts him to sleep like a good orgasm.
Louis finds the cure for his insomnia in the form of his husband.
A @wankersday fic
#SURPRISE#I managed to write a short story#can you believe#I'll Still Feel the Same About You#I haven't stopped singing Act My Age#since I came up with this title#Thank you to Maggie for pushing me to do this#IT FELT GOOD#I'm ready to get back to the ballet fic#Wanker's Day#my first time writing masturbation!#which I also can't believe
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10 reasons that made me BJYXSZD
Each video/scene I refer to is linked. Not necessarily in order of importance.
This WYB lovely eyes. OMG HE'S SUCH A CUTIE PIE! I obviously haven't watched ALL videos of WYB interacting with other people, but in the ones I watched, I've never seen, to this day, this look again.
2. This soft WYB "yeah". And this one too. Why was Yibo so cute and lovely that day?
3. XZ jealousy on Happy Camp hahaha SCARY GG.
4. They not moving or looking uncomfortable when they touch each other (excluding some specific times like that one interview when they accidentally brush their fingers and get so shy hahaha)
5. Obviously (almost) every turtle will say that WYB talking non-stop with XZ while everybody else in the world says he doesn't talk. But, besides that, on the behind-the-scenes footage you see that WYB talks a lot with the other cast members, the staff, etc, so this is even more important to me because I believe XZ helped WYB to feel validated and comfortable enough to step out of his shell around him and everybody else that summer.
6. This silly tiny little tidbit when WYB is (super excitedly) saying bye-bye to XZ and saying he'll see him tomorrow and the director makes that suspicious "hummmm....... uhuhuh" pointing his finger to him like when you're talking to your crush and your friend keeps teasing you.
7. I know they stare into each other eyes A LOT but there are some special scenes, like this one on the day of WYB bday when XZ sings Kepler (and WYB sings a tiny bit of Nan Hai)... the way they look at each other sends a shiver down my spine.
8. XZ gifting WYB a helmet on his bday. They are always hitting each other, screaming, poking, cursing, etc etc etc the whoooole time during the behind-the-scenes footage but the way GG talks here is so so so lovely. And WYB being a tiny lil' baby so excited and happy with his gift.
9. !!SKIP THIS ONE IF YOU'RE A "DEVIL'S TIMELINE" BELIEVER!! (maybe I'll skip it myself) Based on what they say, they never talked to each other before the script reading and WYB is always claiming he's a slow starter with strangers but... even at the script reading DD is already making jokes, laughing like a gremlin, GG touching DD's back... (is this slow? 😏) so I think they really hit if off with each other since day 01.
10. WYB never said (that I'm aware of) he thinks of XZ as a brother to him, always refers as a "good friend". I don't know if this one is a bit of a stretch, but I think it's ~at least~ odd how he never ever said XZ is like a brother to him due to their age gap, or the way they are so silly together, or even because XZ helped him a lot with his acting during TU shooting.
**Bonus: based on my own life experience (I met my husband 19 years ago due to our shared love for a specific hard rock band), I think it's so cute this ~kinda early~ behind-the-scenes part, when they are still a bit shy and awkward around each other, and WYB starts singing Hello Kitty by Avril Lavigne and XZ is like "wow! do you know this too?" and then they spend the rest of that shooting singing/humming some Avril's songs 🥺 I think their shared love for Avril Lavigne, Blackpink?, k-pop, and music in general, helped them bond a lot.
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OMG I LOVED UR STAN AND KYLE BSF HEADCANNONS!! Can i req one with the main four, like what its like to be in a group w/ them?? have an amazing day <33
BEING IN A FRIEND GROUP WITH SOUTH PARKS MAIN 4
pairings; stan, kyle, kenny, cartman x fem!reader (all aged up 18+)
summary; chaotic friend group hc's!
warnings; cussing
a/n; hi and ty hope you have an amazing day too!!
key colors; blue= stan green= kyle orange= kenny red= cartman pink= reader
late night skate boarding with them. it's always cartman who texts you guys to go. in reality he only wants to go to just to start shit. in my opinion kenny is the best skater out of y'all. but cartman is the worst💀. "you guys you guys look im gonna go down the ramp!!" "cartman that isn't a good idea your not ready-" "WAAAAAHHHHH" laughter is coming out from you, stan, and kenny. kyle wants to laugh but he ain't risking it😭. "GAWDAMMIT KYLE IM BEAT YOUR J-" cartman stops himself because he knows damn well not to rip on kyle in front of you. so he switches up real fast 🙄. "you guys i seriously think i broke a bone" "whatever cartman you just switched up cause you know y/n would kick your ass" 5 minutes kenny is teaching you, stan, and kyle a trick. "ok so next you gotta-" "get a room lovebirds i mean come on🙄" "CARTMAN STFU!!" "yeah dude stay mad because your not psychically able to do any of this🥱" this all happens in less than 15 minutes, like why can't y'all just be a nice friend group😭. moments later stan was about to go off a ramp. UNTIL HIS WHEELS BROKE OFF THE SKATEBOARD. i wonder who unscrewed them..... "AAAUAGHHHHHH" "DON'T WORRY STAN I GOTCHU!!" and there he was, stanly marsh in your arms. "W rizz stan or nah😏" stan could feel his face heating up fr. "damn dude that should've been me not stan😔" "kenny shut the hell up💀" "wait a minute where's cartman he literally almost killed stan tf????" cartman isn't trying to get his ass kicked in front of people so he ditched and went home. classic cartman.
karaoke night. you guys are definitely singing 2000's songs. but it always seems like you guys get interrupted no matter what. karaoke night was started by cartman, which is so surprising?? "I WANNA HOLD'EM LIKE THEY DO IN TEXAS, PLEASE" "FOLD'EM LET'EM HIT ME RAISE IT BABY STAY WITH M-" stan and kyle always hating cause you and cartman sound a little too good. "BOOO GET OFF THE STAGE" "YA MY EARS ARE BLEEDING" "OH FUCK OFF GUYS LET US SING" "you guys have been singing this same song for 2 hours bruh😭" "2 minutes kenny get it right" they just hating cause they can't handle real talent. sometimes when the karaoke gets intense you guys act like judges for americas got talent💀. "is this kenny mccormick from south park colorado?" "yes" "and what will you be doing today?" "YOUR MOM AHAHA" "disqualified poor people can't seem to have talent" "CARTMAN WTF" "NEXT" "no wait i'll sing with him" "oh god" if kyle and stan think you and cartman sound a little too good. JUST WAIT UNTIL THEY HERE YOU AND KENNY. "THIS ONE IS FOR THE BOYS WITH THE BOOMIN SYSTEM" "TOP DOWN AC WITH THE COOLER SYSTEM" super bass by nicki minaj is y'alls go to song. every time you guys finish that song your out of breath and laugh so much😭. "AND THE CROWD GUYS MILD🔥" "NEXT" "cartman we are done playing americas got talent" "dude let me and kyle sing next we haven't sung at all🥹" "fine" "ah hell nah it better not be anything emo💀" *30 seconds later every one starts singing* "BUT IM A CREEP" "IM A WERIDO" "WHAT THE HELL AM I DOIN' HERE" "I DON'T BELONG HERE" suddenly the tv, microphones, and speaker goes out?? "LISTEN UP BITCHES IM NOT HAVING AN ALCOHOLIC, A JEW, A FATHERLESS DAUGHTER, AND A HOMELESS POOR BOY SING RADIOHEAD AT MY HOUSE‼️‼️" guess who got jumped that night🤔???
#south park#south park x reader#south park x y/n#south park x you#stan marsh#kyle broflovski#kenny mccormick#eric cartman#stan marsh x reader#kyle broflovski x reader#kenny mccormick x reader#eric cartman x reader#stan marsh x y/n#kyle broflovski x y/n#kenny mccormick x y/n#eric cartman x y/n
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MandaloREYan AU Incorrect quotes
Bo-Katan: Why are there little handprints all over the walls? Din, whispering: Why are there little handprints all over the walls? Rey (age 8), whispering: Because I have little hands. Din: Because she has little hands.
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*in TFA* Rey: Oh. You're still alive. Kylo: There's no need to sound so disappointed.
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*before Ben Falls* Ben: You have friends and I envy that. Jacen: You're welcome to share my friends. Ben: *looks at Poe and Rey* Ben: I don't want those.
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Jacen: Is stabbing someone immoral? Rune: Not if they consent to it. Rey: Depends on who you're stabbing. Breha: YES!
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Poe: What’s something you guys are better than Ben at? Jacen: Space Mario Kart. Rey: Yeah, video games. Breha: Emotional vulnerability.
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Bo-Katan: Rey is at that very special age where a girl only has one thing on her mind. Din: Boys? Rey: Homicide.
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Poe: She was poetry, but he couldn't read. Rey: His name was Jared he's 19. Diani: When his parents built a very strange machine. Rune, singing: Watch that scene, digging the dancing queen. Jacen, singing: Eyyyy, Macarena! Breha: Horrible job everyone.
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Din: To be honest, I'm kinda mad that I'm not asleep in bed next to the love of my life in a cottage with no obligations other than watering my vegetable garden.
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Jacen: I’ve done a lot of dumb stuff. Diani: I witnessed the dumb stuff. Rey: I recorded the dumb stuff. Poe: I joined you in the dumb stuff. Breha: I TRIED TO STOP YOU FROM DOING THE DUMB STUFF!
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Rey, walking into her house: Hello, people who do not live here. Jacen: Hey. Breha: Hi. Diani: Hello. Rune: Hey! Rey: I gave you the key to my place for emergencies only! Poe: We were out of Doritos.
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Rey, to Kylo: You are the one committing- and I don't use this term lightly- horrific atrocities.
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Rey: My buire taught me to think before I act. Rey: ...So if I beat the crap out of you, rest assured that I thought about it and am confident in my decision.
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Jacen: In my defense, I was left unsupervised. Rey: Wasn’t Poe with you? Poe: In my defense, I was also left unsupervised.
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Din: Yes, I'm adopting another Jedi child, and you cowards can't tell me no!
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Breha, to Poe: I love you like a brother, but right now I hate you like my actual brother, Ben, who I hate.
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Poe: Imagine if someone handed you a box full of all the things you lost throughout your life. Breha: It would be nice to have my sense of purpose back… Diani: Oh wow, my childhood innocence! Thank you for finding this. Jacen: My will to live! I haven't seen this in years. Rune: I knew I lost that potential somewhere. Rey: Mental stability, my old friend! Poe: Force, could you guys lighten up a little?
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*The Squad is on a hike* Rune: It’s beautiful out here. Poe: And quiet. Jacen: Too quiet. Diani: Did we lose someone? *cut to Rey with a bear in a headlock*
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Rune: So, what’s Poe's type? Rey: Green eyes, kind, oblivious, good sense of humor, pink hair. Rune: Sounds kind of like me. Too bad we’re just friends. Rey: Did I mention oblivious? Rune: Yeah, why? Rey: Okay, just making sure.
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Jacen: Are you guys bringing anything to the party? Rune: Yeah, an empty stomach. Poe: My sparkling personality. Rey: A flagrant disregard for common decency. Breha: … Breha: Chips.
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*years ago* Bo-Katan: I’m not mad, I just need to know why you two had a fake ID. Grogu: *Incoherent mumbling* Bo-Katan: Huh? Rey: …You need to be 18 to hold the puppies at Space PetCo.
#one of these days i'm gonna actually write this AU and then y'all are in for a WILD ride#it's so stupid but it's somehow also almost my favorite au i've ever invented#Local Woman Goes On Family Road Trip To Defeat Evil Empire 2.0; Accompanied By Friends; Cousins; And Amiable Ex#(Local Woman Ticked Off To Discover Childhood Nemesis Not As Dead As Thought; Actually Acolyte Of Evil)#mandaloREYan AU#dinbo#rey star wars#din djarin#bo katan kryze#kylo ren#ben solo#jacen syndulla#poe dameron#and several ocs
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Welcome home!!! So exciting to hear from you again!
Can I ask what your South Park fic is going to be? Who’s the lee/ler?
Thank you so much! I still can't believe it lmao
Sure! I decided to just put the fic here lol
I had this idea over deployment and I kicked myself cause why didn't I think of it before lol
Here is the mash-up song that is referenced in the fic! I know super last year LMAO stop I haven't been here
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also sorry if my formatting is weird and my writing is rusty it's obviously been a while but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless :)
WARNINGS: Cursing, references to SH (self harm) and drinking
Which Song? (Lee/Ler Jersey Shore Kyle/ Lee/Ler Goth Stan) (aged up)
Jersey Shore!Kyle and Goth!Stan are having a sleepover and decided to pull out the karaoke for this one! But which song can they agree on despite their differing tastes?
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"Hey, Stan. Stan- Stan. Watch me." Stan looked up begrudgingly to Kyle with one pierced eyebrow raised expectantly. Well, it was a stud glued on to his skin, but he would never admit it. Stan watched as Kyle flipped his black cap backward on his head and donned stylish black shades.
Kyle adopted a stance that showed off his lean yet toned torso and picked up his phone to start taking selfies. Wearing a tight white tank top and Elmo pajama bottoms that hung off his hips, Stan was his complete opposite dressed in all baggy blacks and grays.
"What? I'm watching you make thirst traps? You're gross." Stan rolled his eyes and looked back down at his phone. Alt TikTok was his current addiction. Anyone who danced on Tik-Tok like mindless zombies were posers.
Kyle snorted at his best friend and crossed the room to throw his arm over Stan's shoulders and snapped a photo. It came out blurry as Stan struggled in his grip.
"Ah come on Stan, you're no fun anymore. Come on, you can sing with me." Stan shoved Kyle off as Kyle was already moving to the karaoke machine. Kyle pressed a button on the machine that booted up a song immediately. Kyle tipped his shades down to look at Stan with green-tinted eyes as he pointed at Stan with one hand and held a microphone with his other as the first notes of his song began to play. Stan rolled his eyes once more as he scratched near his eyelid, shedding black eyeshadow in the process.
"Hey, baby girl, what you doin' tonight? I wanna see what you got in stooore~ Giving it your all when you're dancing on me-" Kyle rocked his hips in tune with the music which Stan stifled both a groan and a blush at the same time at that; very confusing.
-"I wanna see if you can gimme some more~ You can be my girl and I can be your man, and we can pump this jam however you waaant~ Pump it from the side pump it upside down-" Kyle lifted one leg onto the couch and started humping the air in tune to the song, to which Stan stood up abruptly and crashed into him to get him to stop.
"Alright alright alright! Quit it!" Stan clicked a button on the machine that paused the song, silence filling its place. Kyle tsked, disappointed as he threw his arms up.
"Dude it was getting good, what the fuck?! Turn it back on." Kyle pressed the button to turn the song back on, but the machine didn't respond. Kyle pressed it a few more times, to no avail, and kicked it out of frustration. "This shit's gahbage. Need to get a new one, it's been acting up lately."
"Or the machine just doesn't want to play your shitty-ass song. Here, I'll show you what real music is. Not this disgusting Disney pop trash." Stan programmed the machine to play a new song, and snagged the microphone from Kyle, but not without a flirtatious wink from Kyle first. Stan's cheeks burned an uncharacteristic red as the first few notes of the song began to play. He began to sing.
"Hey scene slut, I'm still cutting tonight. That's why my wrists are so sooore~" Kyle gave Stan a bewildered look as Stan kept going.
"I know you got a boyfriend, but you're a whore. Everybody drinking, shot glasses on the floor. We be clubbing all night, gimme some more-" Now it was Kyle's turn to shut off the machine. Stan petered out the last few words without the song's help and whirled around to face Kyle.
"Hey, what the hell? It was getting to the good part!" Stan asked angrily. Kyle put his hands on his hips and motioned to Stan.
"You call that music? They're talking about cutting themselves and whores for Christ's sake!" Kyle rose his voice while adjusting his shades, which riled Stan up as well.
"What about your song with you humping the damn air? That's not inappropriate?! Turn it back on, I said." Stan reached to turn the music back on the machine, but Kyle gripped his wrist before he could make it. Stan attempted to wrench his hand back but Kyle kept a firm hold on him.
"Hell no. We either listen to my music or not. I'm not catching your depression from your emo My Chemical Romance crap." That was Stan's final straw. With a growl, Stan launched himself at Kyle and took him to the floor. Kyle's shades and cap were knocked off his head as Stan straddled his hips. Stan knew he'd have to take the advantage as soon as possible because he did NOT have a physical advantage over Kyle. It was a part of the Jersey aesthetic for men to be ripped, and Kyle was indeed that while Stan was...not.
So Stan tore down Kyle's defenses the only way he knew how. Stan started scribbling his fingers in between the spaces of Kyle's lower ribs and sides; Kyle already bubbling up in laughter as he wriggled on the carpet.
"My music is not Emo you wanna-be Jersey Shore copycat. It's better than anything you've ever played!" Stan yelled, his black lipstick staining the corners of his mouth. It's been a while since he touched up his makeup, but that would have to wait. He would have to teach this lesson to Kyle quick before he tried any retaliation.
Kyle's red hair splayed on the carpet as he laughed and tried to grab Stan's wrists. "Pffmt- Stahahan! Stohohop thahat!" Funnily enough, in his laughing fit, his Jersey accent mysteriously disappeared. Kyle's eyes squinted as his smile took up his face; Stan's hand spidering his hard stomach. How could he have this many abs and still be so sensitive, Stan thought distantly.
"No, this is the only way you'll listen. You're not only calling my music Emo, but you also called it crap." Stan's next point was drowned out by Kyle's outpour of laughter as Stan kneaded an exceptionally mean thumb in Kyle's bare hip divet. Wearing his pajama pants so low had its consequences. Kyle's eyes were screwed shut as he was temporarily too weak to fight back."STAhahahan! Gehehehet ohohohoff!" Kyle yelled out and wriggled like a worm on a hook.
"Hmph, your fault for wearing your pants so low. I mean, who does that? It's like you're asking for this to happen. This is why your music and fashion tastes are questionable at best. See, if you would pay attention to any of the Goth Tiktoks I send you, we'd agree a lot more often." Stan grew way too comfortable with the situation in his position. He attempted to hold both of Kyle's wrists in one of his hands, which Kyle easily broke out of.
Kyle's hand shot out to start squeezing the closest part of Stan to him. It was Stan's knee that was exposed through his baggy jeans. Stan yelped and folded to the side, crumbling easily. Kyle popped up and dove in, causing Stan to shriek. Kyle's face was flushed and his curls bounced around his forehead while his fingers squished and kneaded into his best friend.
"W-Wahahait wahait waihait! No nohoho no I'm SAH-! I'm sohohohrry!" Stan fought to bring his knees up to his belly to protect himself, but Kyle found weak spots all over him. He squished Stan's sides, which made Stan cover his sides, and when his hands were out of the way he kneaded into his hips, causing him to squeal.
"Oh, talk about my accent leaving? You raised 3 octaves in your voice! I've never heard you so loud. You know maybe if you spoke up more often, I'd actually care about your opinion on my tastes." Kyle swung a leg around Stan's thighs to force one of them down and attacked his belly with one hand. Stan's tummy was definitely softer than Kyle's, with some chub around his belly button. Which just so happens to be ridiculously ticklish. Stan yelped as Kyle repeatedly squished the patch of chub over and over again.
"KYhyhyhyhle! Stohohohop stohohop stop! Nohohot thehehere!" Kyle was unfazed at his best friend's reaction. He knew when Stan really needed it to stop, and he wasn't nearly there yet.
"Huh, I wonder what would happen if I recorded this and sent it to your uppity black-clothed douchebag friends. You think they would kick you out of their dick-sucking club- GAH!" Stan didn't know how he did it, but he managed to wrench his grip out of Kyle's hold and shoved his hand up Kyle's armpit and started to scribble.
"Youhohohou ahahahasshole! Gehehehet ohohout of thehehere!" Kyle winced as Stan rose higher and shook his hand in the sensitive spot.
"Yeah? Well what if I recorded this and sent it to your orange spray-tanned "5-seconds-of-fame" seeking asshole friends and show them what a poser you are? I'm sure anyone THIS incredibly ticklish couldn't fit in-" Kyle reached forward and gripped Stan's hip and started to knead. Stan fell backward on the carpet of the living room like a felled tree. Kyle smirked at how easy it was to disarm his friend.
"You're one to talk aren't you, huh Cabbage? Well, you won't be talking in a second." Kyle's chain escaped his tank top as he thrust forward and started squishing into Stan's belly. Stan shrieked a manly sound as he started to curl up into his defensive ball.
"Shuhu-ahahaha! Shuhuhuhut uhuhuhup!" Stan yelled out. Kyle snorted at Stan's attempt at being intimidating. Stan reached out and did what he could. Kyle's chain glinted in his eye as he grabbed the cross and yanked it off Kyle's neck. Stan kept it in a tight grip in his fist and raised it above his head.
Now it was Kyle's turn to roll his eyes as he simply started scratching his fingers in Stan's armpit. Stan instinctively shot his elbow down to save himself as Kyle attempted to pry his fingers open.
"Give that back asshole! It's my only Ed Hardy chain!" As Kyle was distracted trying to get his chain back, Stan reached forward and scribbled his fingers in Kyle's ribs. Kyle winced as he tried his hardest to ignore it, but he couldn't ignore his side getting squished. Kyle let go of Stan's hand and angrily squished Stan's kneecap to get back at him, to which Stan yelped and kicked his leg out reflexively. His Converse-covered foot kicked the glitchy karaoke machine.
Both Stan and Kyle stopped respectively at the loud clank; their hearts beating wildly in their chests. The machine made some whirring sounds, like recording and re-recording and wires getting crossed. Suddenly, a song started to play. The last two songs that were recently played on the machine glitched into one melody.
"Hey baby girl what you doin' tonight?"
"Hey scene slut, I'm still cutting tonight."
"I wanna see what you got in stooore~"
"That's why my wrists are so sooore~"
Kyle looked to Stan; his makeup smeared and his hair tousled. He lost his beanie somewhere in the fight. Stan looked to Kyle, his tank top half drug up and his hair a mess. Stan silently handed Kyle over his chain and shrugged his shoulders.
"This song actually..." Stan started.
"...sounds pretty fucking good." Kyle finished. They both smirked at each other, everything wordlessly forgiven as it always was since they were kids, and picked up the microphone, where they proceeded to sing their hearts out for the rest of the night.
#south park#south park tickles#goth!stan#jersey!kyle#stan marsh#lee stan marsh#ler stan marsh#kyle brovlofski#lee kyle broflovski#ler kyle broflovski#lee stan#ler stan#lee kyle#ler kyle
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Love me in the dark
(Chapter one)
Dbf Simon “ Ghost” Riley x OC
Word count - 2113
Summary - she’s worse than nicotine, he’s someone she should never want. Let the chaos begin.
Theme - smut, angst, fluff
Warnings - swearing, smoking, violence, mentions of trauma, age gap (12 years) , bit of enemies to lovers, so much smut
Written by - me and my friend!!!
Hope you all enjoy it was our first time writing a fanfic!!! 💗💗💗
Do I want to be here? No. Do I have to go to my dad's wedding? No but that means confrontation and fuck that shit.
Shimming the fuel pump in my hand, I pop it back, thinking about how I’m going to survive a week of family I haven’t seen since I was 15. The honking wakes me from planning to light myself on fire with the fuel in front.
“Va bene!! Sto andando!! Vaffanculo!!” (alright I’m moving ,fuck off!! ) I respond, hopping back into my car. Scanning the radio my eyes catch the time. Being late will not help my situation, I hit the accelerator and I lurch forward. I’m so fucked when I get to the villa. Moving the car towards the exit, my eyes keep flickering back to the time, I have zero excuses for being late. I literally live here unlike everyone else. My heart almost stops as a truck swerves out at the same time and scratches my car. Swearing everything under the sun I turn to glare at the twat. He’s already beat me to it; his eyes pierce mine with a sense of coldness that stays in my chest. The bastard is the one to hit me, yet he’s angry? What a pig! I am way too late to deal with this. Not that it's going to stop me from yelling some absurd insult at him before I go. Mr. Scary seems to have lost his mind and goes to get out of his car to yell at me. Slamming my foot on the accelerator again I bomb it out of the petrol station. Leaving the bloke who can’t drive in the dust.
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My heart is thundering in my ears, I can’t do this. Seeing a man who I haven’t seen in years now happy with his new wife and life. The shock that the invitation in the mail even came still confuses me. Why bother inviting your kid just because she now lives near the place you're getting married at? So, I am stuck because I still love him even though I want to strangle him with my anger. But that’s not what adults do so for the next week I will smile and lie and act okay.
Stepping out of my car I hurry towards the door that has become the epiphany of hell. Trying to sneak past family members is no longer an option. I begrudgingly plaster a stupid smile on my face and respond to their words all the same. With a constant stream of questions, “Maevis gosh how old are you now?” 25.
“No partner?” No. “Such a shame, you’re such a pretty girl, why don’t you date?” oh you know I’m just not ready. Complete lie.
“What work do you do again dear?” oh I’m between things right now. Another lie. Breaking away from the gawking, I wander aimlessly trying to find- or avoid, I haven't decided- my father in the garden and his fiancé. I can’t even hate her, she’s too sweet, too loving, she deserves better than him.
“Maevy?” I know that voice from anywhere. I turn to face him. He’s aged. I can see that the once black hair is entirely grey now with wrinkles deepening his surprise. Turning he stares shocked for a split second until he lumbers towards reaching for a hug. I’m squished and I can’t breathe, I love hugs but with him it feels like I’m hugging a stranger.
“You’re here?” he says conflictingly as if the person in his arms isn’t his daughter, but a sort of myth that was forgotten for a time. I feel like an exotic bird in a petting zoo. Letting me go, my dad introduces me to his soon to be wife Sofie. Her sweet perfume of roses gives her twinkling eyes a friendly face squeezing my arm reassuringly.
“So Maevy I want to introduce you to the wedding party”, my Dad boasts pulling me along towards more people. Fuck me gently with a chainsaw. The long line of bridesmaids and groomsmen, then the maid of honour. Every single one of them is sweet but reminds me of people that are just about to go through a midlife crisis.
“Ah, here comes my best man, Maevis sweetie, to meet Simon Riley,” Dad says, turning us to see him.
He is so much younger than everyone else, he must be in his late thirties at most. And he’s way too hot for my dad’s friend. But then it clicks, and panic surges me. It’s Mr. Scary from the petrol station. For fucks sake.
Moving closer Mr. Can’t Drive extends his hand to me, he is so much taller than me. I probably look ridiculous with my mouth open. “… Cat got your tongue,” The way his arms are covered in tattoos winding up the exposed skin that’s littered with white scars, distracting from his insult.
“How was the drive here?” He smirks, as he holds my hand, taking it slowly to his lips keeping his eyes on mine. I want to punch his pretty face, smug bastard.
“Fine, only some dickhead scratched my car,” I quip holding his stare. I'm trying not to laugh in his face but his pissed off look is making it hard. “I’m going to go to my room and unpack maybe have a nap” I turn to my dad grinning, moving away from them all as I wave and speed up. Still a tiny victory over him.
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The warm water from the shower drowns out any thoughts, washing away my annoyance. I can avoid people until the morning and blame it on a long drive. Meaning I also don’t have to deal with him. The shower is fogging up my thoughts and I don’t want to leave. For an old villa the water pressure is heavenly.
Clattering from the kitchen, brings me out of bliss and straight to panic. It happens again and I begin to contemplate my life choices. Turning off the shower and wrapping myself in a towel, I grab the long wooden loofah, in fairness it’s that or the lavender shampoo. My blood pumps too quickly as I open the doors to the lounge area. The clattering is coming from the kitchen side, panicking. I run out to hit the creep with the loofa. The stranger spins so fast and catches it mid air along with me and pushes me down to the marble floor. The cold stone shocks me even more at who it was. “Why are you in my room?” seeing the creeps face only to find Simons.
His body on top of mine holding me in place with a hand on my arm with my weapon holding it firmly above my head. The other searing through the fluffy towel near my hip. I’m stuck in just a towel under my dad’s best friend, what type of shitty karma do I have.
“I’m not going to repeat myself again, love” he murmurs, staring at me. Breathing becomes harder. All I can smell is him. Cigarettes and cologne.
“It’s my room, asshole!” I snap back, I need to get away from him, my skin is on fire from where he’s touching me which feels like everywhere. Wiggling to try to free myself, he grunts forcing my eyes back on him as his hand under my head moves to hold my waist.
“Stop,” he warns.
“Then get off you bloody giant” I quip, he rolls off me. As the words leave my mouth like a reality check.
Moving to stand holding my towel for dear life I glare at him as he stands. Slowly his eyes inspect my attire.
“What the actual fuck are you doing in my room Simon, get out” my voice rises, I’m not losing my room to a oaf with bad driving skills.
“I’m making a cuppa in the kitchen attached to my room,” he points to the door opposite of my room.
Fuck.
“No, no, this is my room. Not yours. I’m talking to my dad” turning straight for the door.
“Such a goddamn daddy’s girl. Christ'' he mutters.
This arrogant mother… breathe. My hands squeeze into fists, and I can’t calm down, he is driving me insane, and I’ve only known him for less than one day. And I am way too petty.
“Fine since my dad taught me to share with the less fortunate, we can share the lounge space. Stay away from me and i'll do the same for you.” Turning and folding my arms, smirking as I watch his face frown. We both stare at each other, the tension builds and for a split second I watch his eyes to my towel and back to me. And during that minuscule second the tension isn’t full of anger.
“Done” he grunts and takes his tea to go outside onto the shared balcony. Leaving me with my heart in my throat.
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Simon:
She is such a brat. How can someone so fucking small be such a big pain in the ass? I need to smoke something to settle my mind before I go back and end up arguing with her. My hands automatically find the box of cigs in my back pocket. Inhaling deeply as I light the end of a small light glows comfortingly. The harsh burn on the tip of my thumb keeps me steady, the heavy tobacco fills my lungs with warm sweet nicotine. But I can’t stop my mind from thinking about her. I’m reaching to call soap before I can think of the consequences of telling him about her.
“Aye what do ya want LT.? Missed me already ya sap?” Johnny's voice teases me through the line. Gripping the phone, it’s been five seconds, and he is making me rethink life decisions such as this phone call.
“Will you fuck off? I’m in a pissy mood as it is Johnny” huffing back. She is making me go mad if she is leading me to call this ugly mug.
“Do I wanna ken?” Johnny questions, moving closer to the speaker and from the sounds of it away from a toaster.
“English Johnny” I groan, dreading when we start work again. No matter how long I’ve worked with him, his accent doesn’t make sense. I’m pretty sure when he’s drunk he’s summoning something.
“Do I wanna know?” Nosey bastard as he is, he would nag me to tell him unless I jump the balcony.
“Paul’s kid, turns out she is a 25 year old brat who I have to share living space with.” I groan realising the reality of the situation, I am stuck for five days with her.
Eruptions of laughter break through the line and if there was a moment for the ability to punch Johnny through a phone to be possible I would want it to be now.
“Dinnae be dour, is the lass pretty?” Christ the bloke only thinks with his dick I swear.
“The fuck does that have with….she’s a pain johnny, this is becoming worse than our last mission,”
“So that’s a yes” soaps laughter is starting to grate my gears.
“What da ya do to the wee bonnie to ‘ate the likes of you then?” he inquires, the bastard knows me and my shitty driving, already prepared to mock me.
“I lightly grazed her convertible on the way here,” muttering, my thoughts move back to the bump and cringe at the very action.
“You fuckin’ nob no wonda she ates ya guts mate,” Soap mocks as if I am not aware of my own stupid decisions.
“I’m going now,” I’m done with this conversion, I can't deal with him reminding me how stupid I was since now I have her talking my ear off about it a few feet away.
“I like her” I can tell Johnny’s shoulders are shaking with laughter over my misfortune, I’m leaving him the next mission I swear.
“Fuck off Johnny”
His laughter is still in my ears as I cut the line. He isn’t wrong, as frustrating she is, God she is beautiful. Her grin is in my head like a spell, and I want to erase it. I need to erase it, for my sanity. She is my mate’s kid and also annoying as fuck. The cig burns my hands again as it dies in my grasp. Sucking in the tobacco, I need it to remove the memory of her. To wipe away any thoughts of what she would look like with my hand around her neck and my cock deep inside her. Fuck’s sake.
#dbf simon riley#simon riley x oc#simon ghost riley#task 141#john soap mactavish#enemies to lovers#secret love#fanfic#smut#angst#cod mw2#ghost cod#call of duty
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Okay I've been obsessed with the Yakuza au so I have to ask does it have a actual plot or is it just beautiful Japanese historical fashion, tabi's and brutal incest
Also pls I'm starving over here with my 8 pieces of art (and 1 wip) and very little info about them PLEASE I beg
Oh you don't know how excited this ask made me! This is one of my favourite AUs at the moment and I'm itching to show more of it, so it's great to know there's a mouth to feed! I have a little treat for you coming up. ;)
To answer the actual question: not really. The setting itself would be perfect for some thrilling, political drama, but tbh I'm not very good at that. This is mostly a framework to get the Striders to bone in entirely new ways and new fashions. I'm hesitant to choose a main timeline or such, since to me, the first time is the best time. Little brother's/sister's virginity is such a scarce resource... And sometimes I want them to have a blatant crush on their older siblings and sometimes not, whatever serves the scenario the best.
I'll give some new trivia here:
Since the AU is set into 1980's Japan, I've taken the liberty to rename everyone.
Lady Alpha Dave: Akane
Alpha Dave: Fujiro
Bro: Tetsuya
Sis: Hiromi
Dirkette: Fumiko
Dirk: Akira
Davette: Akemi
Dave: Junichi, but he's called just Jun
The above order is also the order of their ages, with Akane being the oldest and Jun the youngest. I haven't settled on a surname for them yet, which would be essential if they interact with anyone outside the family...
Their parents (bless their fertile souls) have been mysteriously murdered at some point years back, so Fujiro took his place as the head of the family, which he was already raised to do. If he were to die/get killed, Akane would be temporarily in charge and Tetsuya would eventually (reluctantly) take his brother's place. He's the family's captain at the moment and has his own underlings. Neither Akane nor Hiromi are directly in the yakuza group, but they hang around, take care of business and affect decisions anyway.
The incest is woven into their dynamics at an early age, Akane and Fujiro sought comfort from each other and started fucking in their teens. It's pretty much an open secret that they're together, since Akane never married nor dated and acts pretty much like a wife to her younger brother. It's just...not wise to accuse your boss of incest. <:'3 All the older Striders are uncomfortably close in various combinations, but leave the PDA behind closed doors. The younger Striders obviously think their siblings' closeness is normal and don't pay much mind to it. They've got their own complicated attractions within the family...
They live in a big, fancy mansion and have a select few servants around, who have their own lodgings within their property. Fujiro is a big fan of traditional culture, so the dress code comes from him. At home he expects everyone to wear kimono or at least a yukata while out and about, school uniforms tolerared. He also demands elegance and high class from his younger siblings. Akira and Fumiko are being trained in archery and kendo, while Jun and Akemi do ikebana, tea ceremony and learn to play shamisen and sing. None of this stops them from being youth criminals, but that's to be expected. They just better not get caught. :)
I can answer more specific questions too if you have some in mind. :3c
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22.
1]; What is the nearest traffic sign to your house?
I think it's a stop sign.
2]; What year did you move into your current home?
2013.
3]; What year was it built?
1960s, I believe.
4]; What year was your vehicle manufactured?
I don't have a vehicle. I can't drive.
5]; What are your pets doing right now?
She's cleaning herself on the pillow next to me in bed.
6]; What is plugged into the nearest outlet?
TV.
7]; How many rolls of toilet paper, paper towel, and boxes of Kleenex do you have right now?
At least 20 rolls of toilet paper, no Kleenex, and one roll of paper towel.
8]; When did you last see your mother?
Tuesday.
9]; And your father?
End of August.
1o]; What are your 5 “oldest” recent emojis?
🙇😺😋🖕🏼💔
11]; What song plays in your head the most?
It changes. Lately it's a lot of Tina Turner and Whitney Houston because that's what I've been singing and listening to.
12]; Are your pets’ names actual classic pet names, human names, places, things, verbs, or what?
I'm pretty sure I discussed Nippy's name in another survey, but there's a backstory. Whitney Houston is my favorite vocalist of all time, and it's well known within the industry and among fans that her nickname was Nippy. A lot of people just assume I chose that name because of her not being super well socialized before I got her, which caused her to be suuuuuper bitey as a youngling, but that wasn't the reason. Just happened to have a double meaning. She also gets called Whitney when she's acting extra princess-y or when she's in trouble, both of which happen pretty much every day. Her middle name is Jean because it was one of my Nan's names and I was having a hard time coping with the grief of losing her when I found my cat, so I used it as a tribute also. It worked out. She's a very vocal cat and often meows along when I'm singing. Loves music playing. So Whitney Jean/Nippy Jean lives up to her name in all the ways.
13]; Have you ever received a card signed individually by a large group of people?
I think I did after my surgery.
14]; Who do you know that’s pregnant right now? No one I'm really close to.
15]; What did you do last weekend?
Went to go see Wicked, picked up a few things at the store, got food on the way home.
16]; Last night?
Not much. Went to talk to the maintenance guy because half the lights in my apartment randomly stopped working and found out it wasn't the breaker panel or burnt bulbs, so we need to call the electrician in to check things over and fix it as soon as they're available and not booked solid. That's really the only thing out of the ordinary I can think of.
17]; What did you last use scissors for?
To open a package of German salami sandwich meat that was vacuum sealed.
18]; Who have you helped move?
No one. I physically can't really help. I'm the one who would be feeling badly having to ask this of others.
19]; At what age did you get your first period? (Sorry if this one question doesn’t apply to you)
I was 11. << me too.
2o]; And what age was your first kiss?
15 when it was with someone I was actually dating.
21]; With whom are you planning trips currently?
There's nothing I'm currently planning, but the next thing that gets planned it'll probably be with Brittany. She's my concert/theatre buddy and always down for lots of little adventures with me if we can work it out and she's available.
22]; When is the last time you got laid?
If self serve also counts for this answer, then last night. Going with that because it's most recent.
23]; What all is in your pockets?
I have no pockets.
24]; What is the last strain of weed you smoked/consumed however?
Idk. I haven't smoked weed in years.
25]; What size is your bed?
Queen.
26]; What size are the spare beds?
Lmfao, spare beds. What a luxury.
27]; What is the last load of laundry you did? Colours, darks, towels..?
I don't separate colours because I have nothing that's gonna run. The only time I separate anything are some items within any given load that can't go in the dryer. I did have to do that tonight with a couple things so they could just hang dry.
28]; What is the last YouTube channel you watched?
Two Hot Takes.
29]; What is the last thing you used water for?
To wash dishes.
3o]; How old are you turning next year?
33.
31]; What is the last thing you wrote down?
By hand? Idk.
32]; Who is the last friend you spent time with?
Brittany.
33]; What calendar year did you last turn a multiple of 11?
I'll be 33 next year.
34]; What is the range of year answers in this survey (2, 3, 4, 33)?
1960s-2025.
35]; How many people have texted/messaged you today?
Two.
36]; Last person to comment on your anything?
Robyn replied to one of my other surveys on here when I tagged her in an answer.
37]; What are you doing after this survey?
Getting up to pee.
38]; How many steps did you walk yesterday?
Just the ones I took while bearing weight/transferring. I'm disabled, so it wouldn't be a high number.
39]; How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Like four. :/
4o]; How many tattoos do you have?
Two with a third planned out and ready to be booked asap.
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You run into Trouble near the fruit section of the grocery store, perusing the vegetables with a smug grin like she knows something you don't.
"Hear that?" she says, gesturing at the ever-present overhead speakers. They're playing something that's about as close to punk as you can get on the radio in an alternative grocery store, but pales in comparison to your actual music tastes. "My boyfriend got a pretty big record deal. I helped him write that song, you know."
Despite your better judgement, you're impressed. It's toned down and radio friendly, but the technical skill is good. The lyrics, though... eh, you've heard better. "Your boyfriend must be pretty good, then."
"He is; have you heard of him? I mean, probably not, you don't seem the type to," she says, then launches into an explanation of the punk genre.
The thing is. You're into punk already. You like death grips and metallica and rise against, and the grunge teens screaming their hearts out at a little venue down the street from your apartment that you like to visit on weekends.
But, well, ever since becoming a single parent, you haven't had the time to get into the fashion scene. Hell, going grocery shopping without the baby is practically a vacation for you. But you have long hair, put in a neat bun that you learned from your ballet days, and a pink sweatshirt and leggings, so the woman's probably made up her mind about you already.
It's only when she mentions his full name that you stop and pay attention.
"Wait, did you say-- I think I went to high school with him, actually," you tell her, blinking. It's been four years since you graduated, and between the joint pain from years of intensive ballet classes and the marriage and subsequent divorce, you feel so much older than your age. You give the woman your name, and ask if her boyfriend remembers you.
Her expression turns...sour. You have a feeling you've made a mistake, like when you were younger and still pretending to be something you weren't. Back in high school, your looks and dignified way of talking drew a lot of clique types to you, the kind that tried to make you into one of them. She seems like the opposite of those girls, but their equal, somehow.
"Is that so. Well, he actually has mentioned an old flame by your name," she says tersely.
"It was high school; besides, you've got nothing to worry about," you reassure her. You decide not to mention that you maybe liked him too; your so-called friends at the time hated the way he always dressed in oversized hand-me-downs, but you were drawn to him somehow, for his diligence at skateboarding and the devil-may-care attitude he wore like armor. "I've got a kid at home and no time for dating anyways."
"Well," the woman says, saccharine sweet, "Maybe you should check out one of his concerts? He's touring in town, you know."
There's definitely something off about her. But you've been keeping an eye on the local music scene anyways, and if nothing else, maybe the opening acts will be promising. You check out the guy's music on MTV, chat with some of your friends, and there's already a group planning to go.
Well, okay, you've been trying to keep an eye on the local music scene. You slip out of it sometimes and forget, or get busy with parenting, and the little bug has been learning to crawl and keeping you insanely busy trying to baby-proof every possible surface.
It's a nice break, honestly, when you hire a babysitter and attend the show. You're looking forward to it, even. Except everything, all of the sudden, goes wrong. Your high school crush starts the concert by inviting his girlfriend up for a special song where she'll sing the vocals, and the lyrics sound more and more familiar. Details that she shouldn't know. Details that... oh. Has she been gossipping with your old 'friends' from high school? It's been years. Why is she still so hung up on this? You never even dated the guy, and she's singing some spiteful song about how she thinks you're stupid and shallow for.... what, 'turning him down' back in high school? If anything, she's the shallow one, for only dating him once he got famous.
But somehow you're the villain here? It's so, so fucked up, and the concert was supposed to be an escape. But here's this weird heteronormative jealous lady, on stage, singing about her beloved "Sk8er Boi" and how they rock each other's world.
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✨Presenting our second Galaxia member, Peachy!
✨NOTICE: Peachy now exclusively uses it/its and shark/sharkself!!
✨Info
Name: Peachy Pronouns: it/its, shark/sharkself Age: 19 Subunit: Sugar System Image color: #F2C0BC Birthday: 1/13 Likes: Sharks, sour candy, voice acting Dislikes: Squash, shooter games, large groups Quote: "Stop asking me to call you babygirl, I'm trying to full combo Blue Planet"
Song: "Golden Ray" by Harumaki Gohan
Sprite edited by @orphic-exe, original from Project SEKAI Vocals and translyrics by Peachy Video by Solar
Transcript below the cut!
✨Transcript
"Hey there! I'm Peachy of Sugar System! My pronouns are—in order of favorite to least favorite—it/its, shark/sharkself, and she/her. I haven't been singing long, so I'm excited to see how I progress alongside the other idols of Galaxia! See you soon!"
"All of your shiny treasures, All of your favorite things, You won’t realize what they are until they’re gone!
Under that same old blue sky that we all see, They may be hiding out there, Another dawn has arrived, Tie that old ribbon right into a bow.
The dream I dreamt of a girl, Is lingering on, pulsing with warmth!
Keep it on going and don’t stop, Go to the light with a step, hop! Nowhere to go, hey, Take my hand now, golden ray!
I am still by your side, Always still by your side,
Keep it on going and don’t stop, Go to that place where we all hope! Now that we have chosen, Our only small golden ray!
I am still by your side, Always still by your side, you know…"
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Last Line(s) tag
thank you to @almost-a-class-act and @hellofanidea for the tag! sorry I only answered now it slipped my mind.
Um. Ok. So. I haven't been working on any stuff lately because ✨Depression✨ so I clicked on a random word document for this. So. Here's the last few paragraphs from a Winnix fic I left unfinished in 2021, based off the indie film Private Romeo:
It’s funny, Dick thinks. Funny how little they have in common, poor Romeo and he. The fancies of youth have never taken a hold of him before, not the way it has this boy, with his heart on his sleeve, daring the world to break it and make him into something poetry and songs could claim. Moving through the world with his head down and his hands as busy as he could get them, Dick always thought it wiser to keep his heart tucked in and away, protected and only feeling what his head would let it, fueling it with nothing but determination and character, building it all upon the moral compass so carefully handed down to him through the wisdom of the generations. He’d been a good son, staying carefully in his lane, living life according to the words of his parents, understanding their discipline to be an expression of their love and honoring them best he can. He never crashed parties he wasn’t invited too. He never made friends with those who drank their weight in alcohol. He never allowed himself to pine after those he could never have.
Or at least he didn’t, until now.
The moon is forgiving tonight, shining gently through the window of their tiny room to caress the sweet swell of Lewis’ cheek and the proud slope of his nose. His dark brows are drawn together in a frown, the corners of his lips downturned in distress. Dreaming again—of what, Dick isn’t sure. Lewis never tells. But it doesn’t stop the need in him to reach out and touch, soothe away the pain with the pad of his thumb, allowing the rest of his fingers to cradle Lew’s cheek, run themselves through the thick of his steel black hair.
Now that he thinks about it, they’d met very similarly to this, on that little patch of gentle sun that appeared every afternoon on that grassy hill behind their barracks in Fort Benning. Dick remembers it just like it were yesterday, perhaps because he holds on to the memory the way Lew holds on to his flask, taking it out for a sip every now and again, to feel the addictive rolling, crashing wave of warmth course through him until he feels it all in the crown of his head to his toes.
Lew had been dozing, left behind on a rare weekend when the bars and pubs of the nearby town could not hold his attention for long. Asleep, he looked his age, smoothed out and serene and boyish; long, black lashes fanning across his tan cheeks with a sweetness that made Dick want to kiss them until they fluttered open to reveal those large, brown eyes he’d been dutifully trying to keep out of his thoughts. He did nothing of the sort, of course. Instead, he’d shimmied down the slope to hover over this boy he’d only ever seen in passing, but whose image he’d always followed with his eyes, inexplicably drawn, and shaken his shoulder until he’d awoken, staring up at Dick with confusion.
“Hi?” he’d said, groggy. And that was the beginning.
Dick had never thought that his own love might be something poets would sing of. Never thought of it burning or hurting so keenly, drowning him in yearning and want. He always thought his love would be straight forward and simple.
Now, with his eyes slipping shut as he watches the steady rise and fall of Lew’s chest, he realizes that that, too, had been its own kind of foolishness.
And I'll tag whoever wants to do it!
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some stuff i read and watched in june:
taskmaster (s1-5): haven't done an early seasons rewatch in so long, s4 and 5 are basically perfect 2 me. incredible that mark watson manages to be both my favourite type of taskmaster guy (hopelessly despairing) and also nearly won the thing lol. nish forever obviously
silo: got well into this! probably at some point apple will stop throwing millions at sci-fi shows but i'm going to enjoy their folly in the meantime
mission: impossible ii: hadn't seen this one! the weakest of the lot but the john woo of it all is undeniable
mission: impossible iii: PSH outrageously good as the villain, hi keri russell
mission: impossible - ghost protocol: so much fun, especially the sequences where you can see brad bird's animation brain going
mission: impossible - rogue nation: ILSA my beloved, the opera sequence is so gorgeous, no notes!
mission: impossible - fallout: it's good when henry cavill reloads his arms, it's better when tom cruise is sprinting around london rooftops and breaking his ankle etc, my most basic trait is that i Love when they're in london like oooh tate modern. anyway i'm very ready for dead reckoning
asteroid city: the bits about making art really got to me! the vending machines were cool!
joint security area: crash landing on you prepared me for this, blank check weren't lying when they said it was homoerotic, song kang-ho forever etc
dodie smith, the town in bloom: the most delightful narrative voice i've read in Ages and v funny. easy to sell me on 1920s theatrical shenanigans
k patrick, mrs s: So hot and butch, i liked the butch friendship stuff almost more than the sex stuff. more sexy lesbian novels Please
kj charles, the secret lives of country gentlemen: another winner from KJC, my most reliable romantic comfort reads. this time it's smugglers!
alice slater, death of a bookseller: sticky little thriller about being poisoned by true crime, great sense of place, So many pints of dark fruits
laura kay, wild things: bisexual disaster in love with her best friend, tragically very me- and also george russell-coded, god i want to swim in a pond again
SOME STUFF I SAW AT ROCK WERCHTER
the dj on the first nigt who played a mash up of i'm gonna be (500 miles) into temperature and then the 1d cover of one way or another into little lion man (deeply cursed fandom flashbacks etc)
weyes blood with candelabras and glowing hearts and amazing adam curtis projections on the big screen behind her
king princess sending the gay girls of belgium absolutely wild - "you wanna hear a sad lesbian song?"
matty healy is a dickhead but he's very good at being the frontman of the 1975. like if ben whishaw was straight and kind of disgusting
stormzy!!! literally the rain was pouring during blinded by your grace pt 2
mumford and sons - this whole festival was like being borne back ceaseless into the past but the cave still fucks me up, marcus really in his ken marino era, face-wise
PUP - i do believe if this tour doesn't kill you, i will to be a wholly perfect song, they had a trans flag on stage, best vibes of the festival
sigur ros - sometimes you just want to be in a massive barn with thousands of people with your faces turned up in the dark feeling like you're inside the sound somehow
muse - fucking incredible live band still!! every time i'm see them i'm floored by how hot chris the bassist is and then i forget about it and then i see them again and i'm poleaxed etc. they had a tech meltdown during knights of cydonia at the encore so we got showbiz instead!!
christine and the queens - beautiful and terrible as the dawn
jacob collier - asked if we wanted to get funky then put on a special hat, bit george russell-coded in the face
arctic monkeys - sometimes you just want to be in a field with one of your oldest friends singing the songs of your youth!! i love the 70s act actually! there are so many sexy songs on AM!! the skies finally cleared for the beautiful full moon, thank you belgium, good night
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queen america sentence starters
episode 6: juvenile diabetes
"i just need to brush my teeth"
"are you taking care of yourself?"
"now will you please give me some privacy?"
"don't pretend i haven't seen everything"
"most women your age would kill for that body"
"she is pretty impressive"
"oh please like you haven't heard this story before"
"judges will love this shit"
"you're really pretty"
"but that will never happen- your time is far too valuable"
"it's just the right amount of sick"
"it's still our job to know"
"did you ever have any minor to terrible illnesses as a child?"
"on the bright side- i don't think things could get much worse than they already are"
"her boyfriend was the one driving the car"
"i'm just glad this place is finally re-opened"
"they wouldn't even let someone like me near the entrance"
"don't talk about yourself like that"
"you are so beautiful"
"do you know what the sexiest thing a woman can have is? confidence"
"name's just being real dumb"
"she invented problems cause she was bored"
"you think i wanna drive two hours away to get dinner?"
"that's sweet, but i know what you're doing"
"don't suggest things and act like i asked for them"
"oh my god am i dying?"
"there's absolutely nothing wrong with you- at least not medically"
"that girl has a real voice on her"
"of course miss oklahoma's not allowed to date that would be ridiculous"
"do you know how old she is?"
"i didn't even know there were places like this here"
"i have as much right to be here as you do"
"they're not mad that you're here they're mad at that blouse"
"it was really nice of you guys to ask me to hang out tonight"
"oh honey- this is a work night"
tonight we're bringing some karaoke realness"
"stop talking- for your own good"
"know that i believe in you. and that i think you can do this with a lot of alcohol"
"i am not singing in front of all of these people"
"honey, look around- you're safe"
"oh you would not have wanted to be near me- really"
"hey, just come over- we'd just have to keep the noise down"
"you have to have the confidence of a frat boy on trial"
"just keep drinking honey"
"something tells me that she's not really your type"
"can i buy you a drink sometime? like- right now?"
"i'm sorry but i do live here"
"i figured you'd be out"
"the last part i believe"
"i know make out hair when i see it"
"are you wearing lipgloss?"
"not just any guy- he's really nice- i sorta think he's my boyfriend"
"he's really nice to me"
"of course he likes you- he'd be a little moron not to"
"would you mind not telling my mom?"
"can we please just keep this between you and i?"
"men love to say that"
"nobody's confident- they're all faking it. just some people are better at it than others"
"honey i had to do a lot of things"
"this is fun! i feel like we're becoming really good friends"
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Looking to make some Penpal friends
Been searching around trying to find any pen pals from Instagram mostly, dont really trust the FB groups that are made for pen pals.
I did meet a pen pal on IG but she had stopped really with the letter writing or damn USPS got lame and may have lost her letter that she said she was gonna send months back so not sure if I am just personally bad at making any friends in the real World.
I haven't done one in ages since i was prolly in my elementary days but i guess being in the late 30's can be boring. But would love to meet new people either online or on paper which I rarely have done.
Is anyone on Tumblr looking to make Real Life friends?
I am 35, American (Korean) born and raised in the hell hole Chicago has become now with all the crazies going on. Likes: pretty much all sort of tv dramas from the American to Kdrama and C dramas and some animes (will take on recs for any other Asian style dramas if there good plots) If you want to know more I can post a list. Music: Kpop (mostly the boy bands like BTS, ATEEZ, SF9, Astro,Seventeen) some Black Pink- had some favs as teen but been so long since I listened to girl bands and cant remember much, have gotten back into Kpop for about the time Covid started but slowly building into liking more bands) Also love listening to certain Kdrama OST's which lead me to fall in love with korean music more as the shows aired. But i have a spotify playlist i build for a bunch of KDrama songs. Also Chinese music has also gotten some of my likes from Ren Jialun (Allen Ren) has some great songs and acting, Zhang Zhehan who was a good actor now mostly into singing is pretty good too. I like also being creative with digital art like fan art of tv dramas like making gifs or plane fan art posters and such, used to do a lot on LiveJournal if you know that site. Been mostly making short vid clips for Twitter here and there haven't really done gifs in a while but I sometimes do for the fun of it. I also graduated from Uni with a BFA in concentration in Graphic Design since all I love is being on the computer so have that as a hobby. Fav foods: korean bbq love spicy pork and pork wit lettuce also the short ribs marinated. American wise Pizza, pasta, Chinese cuisine a bit of mix of everything. Fav books: scifi fantasy, romance, mangas ( Sailor Moon, Haikyuu, Shadowhunters series, Harry Potter series, Twilight saga, Fifty Shades series, Gabriels Inferno series)
If you have any questions you can DM if you want to snail mail hopefully t doesn't get lost in the mail on both ends or we can chat before deciding on giving out addresses.
Twitter: judy1987
IG: jca_creates (online store coming soon and where some of my art gets posted or judychodesigns (was made mostly for university senior art class reasons) has some of my works kind of
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Hi again! I have a few questions to ask, but firstly, I’d like to thank you for introducing me to the 1992 Australian Cast! While some of the orchestrations haven’t aged well, I still think that their takes on the Temple and King Herod’s song are the best ones I’ve heard, and the cast is all around fantastic. I think Kate Ceberano’s interpretation of Mary Magdalene is now one of my favorites. Now, on to the questions:
1.) What’s your favorite interpretation/staging of Superstar (the song)? I’ve always loved the 1973 film version, with Judas and the Angels in the amphitheater. I think it made clear that the whole event was a hallucination, and I love how the exuberance of the Angels was contrasted by Judas’ frustration and general desperation.
2.) Are there any foreign language stagings/recordings of the musical that you like in particular? I’ve always really liked Camilo Sesto’s version. There’s also the Swedish version with Ola Salo, which a lot of people here like for its dynamic between Jesus and Judas (speaking of, have you seen the Swedish production yet)?
3.) You’ve talked in some posts about a hypothetical production of the musical, with a preference to more minimalistic staging. How would the staging and set/costume designs for that be like?
Holy crap, we can fit more in the ask box than we used to! Nice! Okay, so let's go through this point by point.
The Australian revival cast is easily a "best of the Nineties' Top 40" smorgasbord, musically speaking, for good or for ill. You've got an opening of "Everything's Alright" that calls to mind "I Just Can't Wait to Be King" from The Lion King, a "Simon Zealotes" that veers uneasily between C+C Music Factory and Right Said Fred, a "Pilate's Dream" that might as well be "Sadness" by Enigma, an "I Don't Know How to Love Him" that sounds like a softer version of what Luther Vandross was doing on "Power of Love," and a "Superstar" that stops just short of EMF's "Unbelievable." (If any reader doesn't recognize these references, a) man, do I feel old, and b) look 'em up; as cheesy as I make them sound, they are enjoyable, for the most part.) But for every moment like those, there's something like the imaginative use of percussion and sitar in "The Temple," which quite effectively conjures up the desired "sleazy Indiana Jones-esque bazaar" effect, and of course, the brilliant "arena rock" Herod. I especially like the chorus of "Oi"s toward the end when Herod gets fed up with Jesus' non-compliance. (That said, I do wish someone other than Angry Anderson had sung it.) Plus, when so many other productions of JCS were treading safe ground, the '92 Oz cast took risks, and that's what I tend to like in a JCS.
That's a question I've never been asked before, not that I haven't given the number some deep thought. (I've gone through times when I debated whether or not it made dramatic sense for Judas to be the one singing the song, never mind how it was staged.) On balance, I like the '73 film version the best of what we have, but I don't have a favorite staging of that song.
I have a ready answer to the foreign translation question as I work on the book's recommended listening/reading/viewing chapter. As recordings go, I'm fond of the original French, Spanish (here meaning Camilo Sesto), and 2001 Hungarian revival casts. Viewing-wise, I rank the 2014 Swedish arena tour highly. It's a bit dreary and dystopian-looking, but especially noteworthy for a) being fully staged (which can't be said for other popular arena versions of the show), b) offering a Mary in Gunilla Backman that proves older women can do the part justice, and c) exploring the Jesus/Judas/Mary triangle in-depth, with loving, gentle chemistry that makes what happens to them feel all the more personal. The acting is so clear and direct that the language barrier shouldn't be an issue, and the singing is impressive.
I have talked about that quite a bit; I've written about it at length before on my main non-Tumblr blog. I think I'll post those thoughts over here sometime and put them in the same place as all my other JCS scribbles. Thanks for planting the seed!
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I will type this while im still feeling pretentious
in a good way, don't get me wrong. Lately, I've been feeling an overwhelming need to learn new languages, read books again, shift the music I listen to, and simplify the clothes I wear. Albeit, this might be temporary for now, I am clinging on to this momentary idealization of a want for this lifestyle. I know at my age, it will be difficult to learn a new language, and hopeless considering it might be a barren skill to have if I'm never even going to leave the country sooner or at all. But alas, my brain has decided to do something, and I must follow. This is more and more showing up as a stage of mania and ADHD, which I will ignore, and proceed with. In the past I've always wanted to learn new things, and have always failed because I use life as an excuse to forget or even tire of doing such things. I've also always wanted to have a simpler wardrobe with better pieces but have failed as well because I always put front that I am a victim of capitalism and am not privileged enough to afford slow fashion. Hence my repetition of clothes despite having a ton of them. I no longer enjoy making coffee, I make it, but finish it in less than 10 minutes without actually savoring it. Even the process itself. Which I know sounds ludicrous but I just miss romanticizing the small bits of life as I have been eternally depressed to do so.
I started the last three months with a labor some skincare routine, I now can't seem to be bothered. And I have been in an eternal melancholy for weeks that honestly feel like months. And maybe it has been months, I don't really remember. I haven't really had a fair grasp on time since five years ago. I also have this idea of reading these blog entries in videos I want to create, but it might be too much and overwhelming, and as I'm typing this, maybe its better to keep two separate mediums for now. Especially since I haven't even started video taping anything. It's also funny how I've never talked about filming anything in the first paragraph and now I'm blabbering on about it.
As for my quietness, I am in a pit to be honest. I am currently going in no sure direction with my career and now that I have finally stepped up, am coming to a long stop, I think most probably I am. Sometimes I get sputters of ideas that maybe I should do more work on my portfolio, but I can never find the time to do it, because I always think I'm better off doing something better at that moment. And then it all gets faded out, until a desperate happening comes into my life and I think about it again, and the cycle continues. I currently am working three jobs, one full time, two part time ones that feel like the other one is in disguise. It's a lot more needy than I am, and the fact that I'm depressed doesn't help. I am also currently processing training sessions for a voice acting gig that will last for 6 months and can probably pay for 3 years of rent, for a French web company about to launch audio smut. My desperation for money has definitely made me tolerate some red flags my employer has been showing, especially the time I asked for a contract and he sent me a two-sentence PDF with two underlines for signatures, five minutes later.
Someone has also been 'managing' me, in music, and have been singing as a back up for an indie rapper that seemingly only has intense rhythmic pop in his discography. Most of our shows either has my mic set to the lowest volume; either that, or my voice is incredibly low and quiet, and in decibels the naked ear can't hear, If that's even a phrase. But even then, I still value the 500-1000 peso bills I receive after (under) performing. I seem to think I get better with each performance, but whenever I get off, I always hear the feedback that I seem to have not existed there at all. And to be honest, I don't know what to feel. But I don't feel sad at all. There's certainly a humor to it. Feels like being a ghost employee in a band, paid to be silent.
I've also some to admit that I'm terribly disappointed with how my life is going, but often forget that I am, because of the little tiny happy moments that happen in between, that when I do remember, I feel a little worse that I don't know how to tell people how miserable I am because I feel that the time has passed.
I am currently determined on being alone, as I am weighing if I truly enjoy it because I get to so many things I plan on doing, or maybe I'm just genuinely busy; or that I am just glutted with the presence of other people, and have tremendously low energy to associate myself with. Which by the way, worries me that I may seem like a bitch.
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