#I haven't been on Tumblr in so long that I can't even tag properly

[ismyteadoneyet]

Let's gooo (i haven't done a tag-game-thingy in a WHILE so it's about time I get back at it lol, thank you @squirrel-in-the-woods for the tag <33)

Last song: 'Sinner' by Deaf Havana ! as a recovering people pleaser, this song is such a delight because it gives me the vibe of "I'm beginnig my villain arc now !!1!1! I'm a MEANIE now !!! I'm setting BOUNDARIES And you can't stop me !!! 😤😤😤" even though that is probably not the actual intent. It's also the song I have assigned an OC of mine sooooo there's that too jsjsjdjs

(it is also funky af lol)

Currently watching: I'm incredibly bad at watching shows and movies ?? Dunno why??? But I watch quite a bit of booktube reviews and things and lately have been softly getting into drawing/art-related youtube videos I guess??? I watch a lot of random youtube essays too

Three Ships:

- I feel obligated to say Bree×Nick×Selwyn here from the Legendborn Cycle LOL. Any combination and/or mix of the three is fine with me, and I trust Tracy Deonn to make me cry of both happiness and heartache regardless of what ends up being the final endgame HSJSJD 😌😌

- Arlecchino×Furina from Genshin Impact, for the SOLE REASON of @draconicstella88888 's fanfic. I am completely unbiased here of course

- Larkin×William from The Legendborn Cycle. Have we had criminally few scenes of them together? Yes. Am I also a tumblr veteran, used to people shipping characters from completely different medias ? Also yes. I'm just gonna be thankful there is a GLIMMER of on-page chemistry between them before one or the other inevitably will probably meet their doom in the upcoming installments and I will stay delulu and happy until that moment arrives 😌😌 (but ofc, hopefully it doesn't lol)

Favorite color: i'm tempted to say "do you love the color of the sky?" because it's funny but also? Genuinely? Yes. But other than that, I seem to gather lavender/lilac/purple-colored things at an alarming rate it might also have to do with bts but we're gonna leave that can unopened okay lol

Currently consuming: behind the phone I'm typing this on is an unopened box of delicious-looking sushi and I am STARVING but I'm waiting for my parents to join me before I can dig in LOL 😭😭

First ship: how far back are we talking LOL? 💀💀 I'm gonna say Ten×Rose possibly? I don't think I got properly into shipping culture until my tumblr days and my superwholock era

Last movie: I rewatched 'Twilight' to get hold of a screenshot of the "this is the skin of a killer, Bella"-moment for a really silly Selwyn Kane cosplay and ngl, watching the movie now as an adult hits different in the absolute best way LOL

Currently working on: fanarts galore ! Finishing the BRICK that is 'Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell' (i am like 60 PAGES AWAY FROM FINALLY BEING DONE !! 😭😭 IT IS 774 PAGES LONG), about 4 different cosplays, and a story I hope to maybe grow into a proper novel one day, if I manage to treat it right hdjsjsj <3

Tags, (if you want to join!):

@draconicstella88888 @peanutbutter-nutella @chyuyuuz @nakaremfarlei @solovanmoln @sparrowandthesong @ficnoire2 @k0k0p3lli @totalpanik @knaveofpentacles

Tag game: tag nine people you’d like to know better.

Tagged by: @oneshoulderangel

Last song: At the moment, I have "Losing Your Memory" by Alan Star stuck in my head, which I suppose makes it my current song, not my last song. Hm. I get songs stuck in my head very easily, but the last one I had there for a significant amount of time was a mashup of different language versions of "Les Rois du Monde" for about a week. "Lehetsz Király", the Magyar version, is probably my favorite of them. It's worth a listen.

Currently watching: Normally, the answer would be "random mostly terrible old movies/shows" or "nothing much", but I currently have a hyperfixation on the musical Roméo et Juliette and have been watching it in multiple languages. (Thus, the song).

Three ships: This is hard. Maybe as a result of being on the ace and aro spectrums, I'm more likely to care about which characters are interacting than whether it's romantic or platonic. Here goes:

Kedivere/Bedikay. It can be romantic, platonic, or queerplatonic, but whichever way, I'm here for it. I probably spend too much time thinking about how in Cullwch and Olwen, when Cai gets mad at Arthur and marches out, Bedwyr stays behind, keeps acting like nothing's happened, and isn't the one to avenge Cai's death. The feeling of betrayal on both sides has a lot of unexplored potential. And the version where Bedivere dies and Kay fights to bring his body back safely while mortally wounded himself... And the version where Bedivere survives Camlann and Kay isn't said to fight in it, so they might be left together after their world has fallen apart...

Platonically or queerplatonically, Galahad and the Grail Heroine. I really like the tragic Grail Quest friendships, but I like theirs most, maybe because there's something weird and otherworldly about them both. I like it when characters are strange and endearing and doomed by the narrative.

Ever since reading John Matthews' retelling, which I read before the original, I've had a soft spot for Caradoc and Guinier. The Story of Caradoc is very disturbing, and I have some major qualms with Caradoc over a detail Matthews cut out, but all the same, there's a reason these two have the best track record with magical fidelity tests. Each of them would go to the ends of the earth for the other, and together, they're stronger than any curse.

Favorite Color: Blue, particularly royal blue and some teals.

Currently consuming: Black licorice with chocolate.

First ship: This is a hard one, since through elementary and most of middle school, I tended to go along with whatever I thought the author's intentions were and was more likely to unship something. The first non-endgame ship I got invested in was Sonya/Nikolai in War and Peace. I didn't like Nikolai, but Sonya did, and she was my favorite character, so I wanted her to be happy. The first non-canon couple I thought was meant to be together was also in War and Peace: Marya Bolkonskaya and Julie Karagina. My eighth grade self did not think their letters could be interpreted platonically. I still don't.

Last movie: If the musical doesn't count, the last movie I watched was Quest for Camelot, which was awful. Though not Robot Monster-level bad, Robot Monster has an elegance to its simplicity which Quest for Camelot lacks.

Currently working on: Various fics, most of them Arthuriana or CotRK-related (I am woefully behind on the Badfic Bingo), and (theoretically) an epic-style poem, though I haven't gotten much of it written for quite a while now.

Tagging: @gawrkin, @emperorcandy, @wildbasil, @gorewound, @knightsofsomethingorother, @ladyminaofcamelot, @tasosotaso, @amashelle, @gingersnaptaff (I have no idea who's been tagged so far, apart from the people on @oneshoulderangel's post, so I apologize for any multi-tags)

[singsweetmelodies]

alright anons

[writingforstraykids]

My beloved cutie mooties🥺🖤

(edited 12.05.24)

🖤@atinyniki🖤

Niki, my beautiful sunshine, I'm so grateful to have you through thick and thin. I'm still convinced you're cute and idc whether you accept that or not. I love talking to you and you're one of the kindest people I know (unless you yell at me you meanie...joking obviously, chill guys😂🖤) I'll always be there for you...also pls stop spending so much money on me cutie😭 Keep shining sunny bunny...love you, pretty girl🖤

🖤@zehina🖤

my beloved (not so silent anymore) bestie, i love our shared European confusion and confusing the others together in return. you're such a cute little kitty and we all know u love being called cute so...you're very cute, deal with it🤭I love our shared stupidity whenever we talk about the boys and seriously, every time you send me your part for the rambles I'd drop to my knees and pay for it bc holy shit. I'll always be there if you need me, keep fighting lovey. love you unnie🖤

🖤@galaxycatdrawz🖤

azzy, I'm so proud of slowly pulling you a little from the shadows you were hiding in😂 also...idk how I managed to do so, but I'm still laughing about achieving most of your tumblr milestones😭 i love sharing requests with you, working out ideas or simply do as you said and write what my brain couldn't figure out. thank you for always being there for me and sharing your brilliant brain with me, co-writer🤭 also it's such a bummer we live so far away bc after what we talked about so far I know you'd be the best cuddle buddy🥺 love you azzy my cutest little thing🖤

🖤@jinnie-ret 🖤

jinnie my dear, even though we haven't talked that much so far, I always love it when we get the chance🤭 can't wait to get to know you better as well and I'm already so excited for that fic👀looveeee your writing sm🖤

🖤@sona1800🖤

you're my newest mootie and I love you so much already it's ridiculous (niki can confirm that🥹) you're always so sweet and you literally outshine every fic with your loving reblogs and comments (I'm just too speechless to answer properly, I really love them🥺) so yeah, that's why you got the tag "the cutest" 🤭🖤

🖤@silverstarburst🖤

Ash. my dear, we don't have that much time to talk usually because you're either working or I'm asleep (a rarity but still). Nevertheless, you have a special place in my heart by now and I'm thankful for your presence in my life. I know who to text if I need someone to kick ass. Your reblogs make me smile like some idiot every time, thank you so much for appreciating my lil dummy ideas so much. love you mama wolf🖤

🖤@slutforchanlix🖤

Miu, babyy, I've made you cry way too often with stuff like this—my bad. I know it's not always easy, but you're one of the kindest people I know, and I love that I have someone with whom I can talk in my native language for once. You're a sweetheart and thank you for always being there for me. I still plan to meet you one day hehe. Long story short, you're amazing, don't let anyone else try to make you believe anything less than that. Bin immer für dich da🖤

🖤@michelle4eve🖤

heyy mimi, we haven't talked much so far...sometimes accidentally when you mistook my icon for niki's I hope that's easier now😂😉 you seem like such a kind soul and I hope we'll get closer over time (no rush dear!) I'm happy over each of your reblogs, especially after you told us you're too shy to do so sometimes. I really appreciate it, you cutie🖤

🖤@chrizzztopherbang🖤

I always loved seeing you pop up in my notifications with your sweet comments. I already think you're a sweetheart, I know we haven't talked that much yet. Still, I loved prereading your fics and getting a glimpse into your genius brain. Don't give up writing as long as you have fun with it, because you're truly amazing at it🖤

🖤@wolfyychan🖤

You've been around on my prior blog already and still my stupid brain didn't realize you've changed usernames for so long😭😂 I always look forward to your excited comments and reblogs, they're truly a boost of motiviation ngl. Hope to have you around for a long time🤭🖤

🖤@james-is-here🖤

Your excitement for that Minchan series made me think about writing bonus chapters for the first time in months. I really love seeing how you get so invested in some of the stories, which makes me want to do better hehe. Also...omg...I'm still thinking about that one fic you wrote a while ago🫠 I'm excited to see what's next and hope we'll get the chance to maybe talk some more🖤

🖤@queer-possum🖤

Without giving away too much, your brain is amazing. I love your requests so much and you're always so kind when I get back to you to make sure I get everything right. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to write about certain topics and stuff I haven't so far🖤

🖤@chanandminhoenthusiast🖤

love, love, loveee your blog (for obvious inspirational reasons😉) you seemed like a very sweet soul whenever we talked before and I'll always be there if you need someone to talk, even about the most random bullshit😂🖤

🖤@palindrome969🖤

You're such a lovely person, I can't even put it into words properly. Your writing is beautiful and I'm still in love with that stargazing fic with Channie😭 always love talking to you and seeing your comments🖤

🖤@5starluvr🖤

I've told you so before, I wanna kiss your brain so bad sometimes. The stuff you come up with for me to write is brilliant. I can't wait to finish more of your requests and share ideas as soon as possible! Love you hehe🖤

🖤@mellhwang🖤

Heyy sweetie, I love seeing you in my notes and I swear I'll get that Minchan x Hyunjin thing done for you!! Thank you for all the love, dear🖤

🖤@lost-in-avoidance🖤

The amount of times I made you choke back tears at work is...concerning and I'm so sorry, I don't do it on purpose, I swear😭😂 your reblogs are always so genuine and make me feel like I did exactly what I wanted to with the fic in question. I appreciate your words so much, thank you!

[jedi-enthusiast]

Something that I've noticed for a while now, and something that's honestly become really irritating for me, is that people have suddenly apparently lost the ability---or maybe just the courtesy/empathy---to filter their fandom experiences and leave people alone.

I've just seen @antianakin's recent post of them responding to someone who didn't like that they posted about hating Anakin, and it just reminded me of all the fucking comments and reblogs I get about people seeing posts where I'm critical of a character, or a show, or something the fandom does---and, instead of just blocking me and moving on like a normal person, they feel the need to express how much they disagree or think it's stupid that I've decided to make a whole fic/post/whatever about how much I hate or am critical of that one particular thing.

And it's not just me!

Plenty of my mutuals and the people I follow, and tbh plenty of the Pro-Jedi/(x character/show) critical people who I don't follow but whose posts I see, have responded to countless comments and reblogs and asks from people who won't just fucking filter their content. It's always-

"I don't see why you felt the need to make a whole post about this." - a response I've gotten many times on some of my anti-Anakin posts.

-or-

"I think it's ridiculous that you're just writing a whole fic to bash a character." - a response I got to me being critical of Ahsoka in the Ahsoka show and my anti-Anakin fic ideas.

-or-

"Why do you want to make a whole event just to express your hate of one character?" - a response I got to me pitching the idea of an Anti-Anakin Week, so us that hate Anakin could blow off steam.

Like...are people being fucking serious?

I haven't been on Tumblr for a very long time, not even a year yet, but I knew as soon as I got on this hellsite that---if I didn't want to see certain content---I needed to filter the tags and block the people I didn't like.

I don't understand why so many people can't just fucking do that.

It's not like we're not tagging our fucking posts properly or purposefully trying to make people who disagree with us see our stuff, we're just posting our own shit in our own spaces!

And, ironically enough, those people who often come on these posts and complain about us making them---namely anti-Jedi people and Anakin Stans---are apart of the same group of people that literally will not tag or purposefully mis-tag posts so that the rest of us with the tags blocked have to see it!

This has probably been an issue for a while on Tumblr and I just haven't been around long enough to remember, but holy shit can everyone just start blocking people and filtering tags instead of making your discomfort everyone else's problem?

Guess what? I also like stuff in Star Wars, and it makes me upset when I see critique or hate of that stuff too! But I also understand that not everyone likes that stuff and that it's not their responsibility to cater to me---it's my responsibility to make sure I don't see that shit. The only responsibility anyone else has is to tag their posts properly, the rest is 100% on me.

So can y'all please get with the fucking program?

Filter your tags.

Block people.

Leave the rest of us the fuck alone.

[albonoooo]

got tagged by @wanderingblindly, thank you my beloved <3

what colour are your eyes?: a mixture of blue, green and grey that looks puddle-coloured most of the time.

tell me about your pets/your dream pet: after 15 wonderful years, our family dog paul (i named him that when i was five lol) unfortunately passed away in august 2023, i loved that dog more than most people. (there were some pictures of him here, but i got nervous that someone i know might see this so i removed them lmao). i'd love to get a dog or a cat at some point later in my life, but not now or any time soon.

share some interesting fact about yourself: i'm genuinely incredibly boring, so much so that i had to ask for help to find an answer here. the council decided on the fact that i know how to ride and own a motorcycle and am also a member in an mf in my hometown.

what was the first fandom you were a part of?: i guess the first time i was properly involved with fandom in any capacity was during my teen wolf days.

do you have any phobias?: i don't know if it's bad enough to be considered a phobia, but i'm terrified of heights. there have been several instances of me breaking down crying despite trying to keep it together while being in very high places (usually while having to climb dodgy stairs in very high buildings, among other things).

are you a picky eater? if so, what food can't you stand?: YES! and i hate it because it's so so limiting and annoying. i am incredibly sensitive regarding taste and texture and i have to physically force myself to hold back visceral reactions to foods i don't like. it'd probably be easier to list the foods i can eat tbh.

do you eat the burger and fries at the same time or one after another?: first some fries, then burger, fries, burger, fries, finish the burger, finish the fries. anything else is weird (what the fuck do you mean you eat them completely separately, liquid???)

winter or summer: winter all the way. i sweat easily, my body generally doesn't cope well with heat and i prefer bundling up and being a little cold over feeling too warm.

favourite fanfiction tropes: i LOVE a good au, any au really, but especially the cute ones. i'll read almost anything at least once and so there's just too many things i have read and enjoyed to list here. also, anything with an enemies to lovers situation. i am a sucker for that.

are you studying or working? what do you study/is your job?: both! i'm a full-time student (english major, history minor) and i am one of the student assistants in the english department's student office. i've also had other, less fun part-time jobs in the past.

what is the last country you visited: the netherlands and belgium during a day trip (by motorcycle) in june or july last year, i think.

what country would you want to move to after retiring?: i've haven't ever even considered living that long. i've always had a fascination with ireland and scotland, so based on looks and vibes alone i'd go there. or somewhere with solid winters, like a scandinavian country or finland.

who was your first crush?: hannes (played by nick romeo reimann) in the vorstadtkrokodile movies. i was ready for marriage, dreaming up a life together and everything. it also lasted until i was like 12 years old, so about six years in total. he really had me in a chokehold.

how did you get into f1 fandom?: after my interest was peaked by f1 edits that randomly popped up all over my social media one day (thank you algorithms), i did what i always do when something like that happens and opened tumblr to see what's up. and then i got stuck lol.

i have no clue who has or hasn't been tagged already, so feel free to ignore this!! @hrhgeorgerussell @bright-and-burning @borntogayz @lil-italian-disappointment @liamlawsonlesbian @piastrisms

[sproutwings]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

The lovely @crestfallercanyon tagged me for this weeks ago, and I haven't been ignoring it - I just didn't get around to it sooner. Sorry!

How many works do you have on AO3? 380 (382, technically, because two are still anon/unrevealed exchange works.)

What’s your total A03 word count? 1,123,214

What fandoms do you write for? Currently, mostly DCU, The Flash and a bunch of tiny fandoms, but I've been writing fanfic for ages, so I went through quite a few fandoms.

What are your top five fics by kudos?

a) cut me open, take my heart (DCU, JayTim, 1744 kudos) b) A Bird in the Hand (DCU, Dickstroke, 1694 kudos) c) Hook(er), Line and Sinker (The Flash, Coldflash, 1586 kudos) d) No Shortage of Blood (Original Works, Starving Vampire/Vampire Hunter Having A Moral Crisis, 1453 kudos) e) Portrait of the Artist as a Middle-Aged Man (Gossip Girl, Dan/Blair/Chuck, 1149 kudos)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I always try to, but sometimes it takes a while to get around to it. /o\

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I have no idea. I used to write a lot of angsty stuff back when I was younger but the older I get the more I gravitate towards fics that leave the characters in a... well, maybe not necessarily in a good place exactly, because I tend to ship a lot of dysfunctional ships and write unhealthy relationship dynamics, but I don't want the characters to feel hopeless and unhappy in the end, so even when they're in a bad situation, they're making the best out of it.

A very old, very angsty fic of mine is Too Close To Touch (Harry Potter, various permutations of Draco, Harry and Hermione). I don't know if it's the angstiest overall, but it occasionally still gets comments so it's fresh in my mind despite having been written almost two decades ago.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh no, this is similarly hard to answer. Maybe Throw Away the Plan (The Flash, Coldwestallen)? Most of my endings seem to be "the main conflict of the story is dealt with, the ship kisses and things are okay-ish for now". 🙃

Do you get hate on your fic? Maybe once or twice, but nothing dramatic or memorable, luckily enough.

Do you write smut? Sometimes.

Do you write crossovers? No.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Yes! Someone copied a few of my fics word by word, replaced the names and posted them as Kpop RPS. D: D: D: I got the author to take them down, but they did it with a lot of people's fics and eventually AO3 banned them.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes, a few! I blanket allow translations, as long as they're credited properly and not posted anywhere but AO3.

Have you ever co-written a fic? Yes, but it was a really long time ago, and coordinating was pretty stressful. I prefer to work on my own schedule.

What‘s your all-time favourite ship? Noooo, don't make me choose. I love so many ships! If I absolutely had to pick one, it would be Tommy/Bubonic from Eye Candy, but it mostly depends on what I'm in the mood for right in that moment.

What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? There's Coldflash BDSM fic based on a long-forgotten Tumblr prompt I would have loved to write one day, but it would be far longer than anything I'm comfortable writing and it's only 'in progress' in so far that I have a few dialogue snippets from it written down yet.

What’s your writing strengths? Character voices and snappy banter, probably.

What’s your writing weaknesses? Plot!!!! As you can see by every fic I've written where the characters get captured or attacked by some nameless villain for nebulous reasons. I always handwave stuff like that because I simply can't bring myself to care about it or put any thought into it. 😅 Sorry!

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? As a reader, It always throws me out of the story. :(

First fandom you wrote for? The X-Files! Mulder/Krycek was teenage Sandrine's first fanfic obsession. (Though technically, I wrote terrible Star Wars and The Three Musketeers fic long before I knew what fanfic was! But I've decided that doesn't count. 😅)

Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

(never been) so much at stake (OW, Vampire Moonlighting As A Barista/Exhausted Vampire Hunter In Search Of Caffeine) is probably the best, but The Biggest Score of All (The Flash, Coldflash) has my heart!

I'm supposed to tag people here, and I'm terrible at this, so @waysheswings, @sunherirai, @moriavis, @zeroducks-2, @hithelleth, @elasticella - if you want to do this, consider yourself tagged and if you want to ignore it, pretend I never mentioned your name. And anyone else who sees this and wants to answer, you're also tagged! Yes, I mean YOU. :D

[mundmutter]

Name — Kosm Pronouns — They/Them Preferred comms — Discord! I try to keep up with DM's here but it's super difficult because I'm forgetful and discord kinda makes it obvious when you haven't replied and who you have replied to. though I still forget Name of muse — Qistina ~ it's arabic/muslim and it means either Justice or Hope ~ Though I think her name meaning Justice has a lot more meaning to her story haha Experience in RP — Qistina was my first muse ever on tumblr, so it was June in 2011! Yep! I have been here that long! Best experiences — as I've been on here for over a decade there have been a lot of experiences that I look back on, and even some that are now kind of tainted from what happens after that, but overall the best experiences are from moments where I truly connect with another writer and the worlds we've designed get truly understood by each other it's mmmmmmmmmuwah beautiful Pet peeves / dealbreakers — mmmm aside from feeling rushed? probably the whole 'following/unfollowing' when I don't give near-instant responses. even ooc, I think people need to understand that not everyone is staring directly at tumblr or discord 24/7. so. have patience people! I really don't mind a poke or two cause genuinely I take a while to respond and my battery for social interaction is lowwwwww at all times gfhfg Muse preference ( fluff, angst, smut ) — her story is a cauldron of angst and I love exploring that but going through fluff and trying to write her navigation through emotions she doesn't properly know how to convey is pretty nice ~ as for smut uhhhhhhm I haven't actually written it with another writer in a long while so I can't say if I have a preference for it lol but there's smut in the novel so.... so yes I enjoy writing it ghdfghf Plot or memes — memes are such a good way to get a plot going and planning a plot can be a headache and a bit intimidating sometimes? so taking it easy at first is preferable dfgfdhg though I do work better once a plot is in order. Long or short replies — I do better with long replies once a plot is there! short replies are still good to get things going! Best time to write — I still enjoy writing in the very early morning when no one is awake Are you like your muse — Oh no. though we both have 'Loving Atlas' in common. And spicy food.

tagged by: @lobiita ~

[j-nipper-95]

20 Questions for fic writers

Thanks for the tags for this @theearlgreymage and @wellbelesbian. I'm so slow at responding to these sorts of posts. Also, this one is going to be a little tricky, as I only have the one fic up on AO3, so I will be throwing in a few stats from my original novel, 'A Survivor's Revenge', as well.

How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently just the one, 'The Trails We Blaze'. But there is also ASR, my long term original novel, that I'm going to be focussing on again in November.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

TTWB currently has a published word count of 20,059 words, with a total of 68,238. (the will only continue to grow - there's still so much of the original plot of El Dorado to adapt for this AU!) ASR on the other hand is already a monster. Before I split the original draft in two to make the first two books, the draft came in at around 130k, incomplete. Currently, the first book is sitting at 78,278 words.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Just Carry On. It's also the only fandom I read fanfic for.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I'm still shocked by how well Trails is doing after only a month or so of posting, so thank you thank you THANK YOU for showing this fic so much love. 1,247 kudos is more than I thought the fic would ever get in its entirety, and we're barely scratching the surface of this chaotic journey.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I've loved replying to comments on this fic. It's so nice to know that the fic is resonating with people, and what everyone enjoys about the chapters. I especially love when people pick up on lines from canon, and even mention things I didn't consciously notice when I was writing that reference canon. And just getting to nerd out about the research that's gone into this fic. Anyone who knows me IRL knows how much of a classics nerd I am (unsurprising given I have two degrees), and it's been fun flexing those muscles again. It's also been wonderful seeing what resonates with people over here on tumblr when I share snippets of ASR for WIPsDays. Everyone in the CO fandom has been so supportive of me sharing those snippets, and I can't wait for the day when I get to share Lauren and her story properly with the world.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Trails is unlikely to be especially angsty (I haven't actually planned the ending, but if we're going by the ending of El Dorado, there's likely to be a happy ending. But I don't know, it's a mystery to me at this point!) ASR on the other hand ... Book 1 and book 2 have especially angsty endings. Where the series as a whole is concerned, let's just say I made myself cry when I wrote a line for a scene from the final book. It'll be multiple books of build up for a gut wrenching finale. Only one character is guaranteed to survive from the entire cast. You have been warned.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

None so far, but it's likely to be Trails. Only time will tell!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

So far, no. Everyone has been so so lovely with feedback about ASR and Trails!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I am an aro/ace bean who's not really experienced much, so whenever I try to write smut I struggle due to lack of practical experience (that's such a clinical way to put it, but brain no work right now, so that's the best way I can think to phrase it). But if I ever do write anything considered smutty, I try to focus on the emotions and sensations rather than the act itself. I love to read fic where the emotional intimacy is front and centre, but won't turn my nose up at reading some really raunchy debauched sex. As someone who's questioned her sexuality multiple times since first coming out I've lived under multiple labels before finding the one that suited me. Grey ace, ace bi-romantic, demisexual bi-romantic, I've thought all of them fit me at one time or another. It wasn't until last year that I realised dating wasn't working for me, it never would work for me, and that was ok. Aro/Ace isn't a zero sex/zero emotions identity, it's a spectrum in itself, and I've finally found something that suits me. Back on the topic of smut I write, I haven't written anything smutty for Trails yet beyond some heated kisses and heavy breathing. Maybe some rolling of hips. But I will be taking that M rating to its limit, don't you worry! As for ASR, again, nothing majorly smutty has been written, at least not what I would consider majorly smutty. Just a lot of emotional pining, and a bit of foreplay that starts to lead somewhere, and then DRAMA.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Back when I was first getting into creative writing (we're talking pre-teen/very early teens Jess, before ASR was even a vague concept), I wrote fanfic without even realising that's what I was doing. It was just a self insert series of stories that crossed over with multiple franchises, as well as straight up stealing plot points and tropes from other franchises. Will I tell you what they were? Absolutely not! And they will never see the light of day, because they are absolutely God-awful!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of, and I hope that never happens.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but I'd love it if someone ever wanted to. For ASR especially it would be incredible to see it translated and reach more people around the world. Seeing published authors announcing translation deals is something I aspire to!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not technically, but I suppose you could call Trails and Art-Collab fic, because Ashton's art is fucking fantastic!! Whenever I get to posting day and I wake up to see an art DM from her I get so excited! The style she's gone with for this fic was something we talked about for a while and she's just excellent at capturing the images and emotions I hope my writing is portraying. Ashton is a gem, and I am beyond lucky and don't know what I did to deserve her as a friend!!!

14. What's your favourite all time ship?

SnowBaz have been an obsession since mid-2021, and they show no signs of relinquishing the top spot in my heart when it comes to fandom ships. But it'd be remiss of me not to mention my OC's here. Lauren and Mike are my chaotic, dramatic, hopelessly and cluelessly in love MC's for ASR. You know how Baz pines in CO ... yeah, we're talking similar levels, if not slightly above that for Lauren and Mike. One of my favourite messages from my alpha reader was 'How in the hell did these idiots ever think their feelings were platonic?', and honestly, I don't even know. AND I WROTE THEM!

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I'm working on an epic high fantasy saga with a friend that we describe as 'Japanese mythology meets J R R Tolkein'. It's so fun writing with someone else, as we both have different strengths. Nori is very much at home with the darker elements, the world building, and character development, whilst I love writing the character relationships, romances, and political manoeuvrings. It's just difficult when you're in different parts of the country, and both have other WIPs you're working on. Maybe one day this saga will see the light of day.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I used to think this was a weakness, but since working on ASR edits I think I've become better attriting action sequences. At least, the comments on Trails have led me to believe this. I hope. Since writing that opening chase scene through Southwark it's really bolstered my confidence. But I think my main strength is dialogue full of banter and flirting. Give me a chance to have two characters in a room just bouncing off each other. No need for dialogue tags, just back and forth dialogue. Flirty dialogue is some of my favourite to write, and both SnowBaz and Lauren and Mike allow me to do this in spades! I also think writing pining is a strength, but that is a double edged sword that can cut the wielder if not used sparingly. Pining is great, when not overdone, and I'm praying I've not overdone it with Trails.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Action and intimate sequences are still aspects of writing I struggle with, and I'll tell you why. Pacing. Pacing is my nemesis. I just want to get from point A to point B and move on to the next scene. I know first drafts don't have to be perfect, but yeah ... pacing in certain scenes within first drafts is my biggest struggle.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I had to work out how I was going to tackle this for Trails with the most recent chapters I've been writing. HOW DO YOU WRITE A LANGUAGE THAT DOESN'T EVEN EXIST, AND IN YOUR FIC HAS BEEN DEAD FOR MILLENNIA? Atlantean has been a pain to try and work out, and I'm still figuring out a way to write the language itself in dialogue. I really want to try and get some actual Ancient Greek in here as well at some point, so if anyone wants to help translate some riddles and prophecies for me, hit me up! I'm a bad Classicist and never learnt any ancient languages!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Published: Carry On The secret ones I'll never show anyone: that knowledge goes with me to my grave.

20. Favourite fic you've written?

Trails is my only published fanfic, therefore it is my favourite. But also I love the source material (both 'Carry On' and 'The Road to El Dorado) so much. But my favourite fiction I've written, out of all the original ideas and bad fanfic, has to be 'A Survivor's Revenge'. These characters and their story have been on my mind for the last fourteen years in some form or another, they are my babies, and I don't know what my life would look like without them in it. Lauren is my favourite morally grey chaos gremlin, and I'm so glad other people like reading about her whenever I share snippets.

Ok, so tagging. I have no idea who has and hasn't done this already, so I'm sorry in advance if you don't want to do this/already have done. Just think of it as me saying hi and how much I love the work you all do!

@aristocratic-otter @bazzybelle @bookish-bogwitch @chen-chen-chen-again-chen @cosmicalart @fatalfangirl @larkral @palimpsessed @phoxphyre

[sasukimimochi]

Now that it's pride month, i have been wanting to put this out there cuz profile descriptions are too short for me to put everything i wanna put haha, but also hey, it's not been that long since i've been back to tumblr and a lot of you guys are new to me! I'm going to explain the terms i use because not everyone has knowledge of them and sometimes people think the term means something else! Feel free to reblog this with your Sexuality/gender as well if you are comfortable to do so ~ ❤

So here we go!

Hello! 💖✨ I am SasukiMimochi and you can call me Sasu!

I am Pansexual and Demisexual. *I don't love based on gender, and i also do not find myself attracted to strangers; aka i need to get to know someone before i feel attracted to them; so my sexuality is heavily dependant on getting to know someone properly and not really about the physical side of things.

I am genderqueer. *Which means i don't really identify with a certain gender and/or i'm not sure about it yet, it's really a blanket term but for me it means that. -i generally hate being referred to with female pronouns so i'm male-leaning. I go by They/Them, He/Him, or any! but i do lean more towards they/he.

I have always been out of the closet online/with friends as soon as i realized i wasn't straight, but i only came out publicly three years ago (actually the same year Eugene Lee Yang came out, in 2020, i highly recommend watching the video it is a piece of art).

And i wanna say, you're all amazing, stay safe if you can't come out, and i love you! I hope you all enjoy pride in your own way! 💖✨😊

I'll do something for pride month i just haven't decided what yet 🤔 i will need to keep it to a one-time thing cuz i love doing prompts but i really pushed too much this past month.

If there's something you'd like to see me do this pride, reply, tag me, or reblog! Ideas are always welcome (but do not expect me to say yes, even if its a fantastic idea. It has to be something i feel i can do!)

[animeangelicprincess]

Update

Hey guys. I know I keep disappearing on you guys and I do apologize for that sincerely. My old charger stopped working properly all of a sudden and I had to get a new one. There is my iPhone, but in some cases,Tumblr tends to be more beneficial on my laptop in my opinion.

I also have posted the 1-year anniversary event for the @danganronpa-v3-demo-au blog, but it's... not fully ready. This is mainly due to the post being rushed and me wanting to get it out in September (the month of the anniversary). You can still interact with the page if you want. There just won't be any sprites unfortunately.

I'm also currently recovering from COVID, which sucks because I caught it on a Sunday night, just a week before Christmas. I didn't even realize I had it until like... after I got tested twice(one on Dec 19 and the other on Dec 22)! I'm feeling a lot better now at least.

As for when I'm going to be RPing again, the only answer I can give is that I will try my best be as active as possible. I can't make any promises as, like I said before, I have a job now. The day I first started on my very first RP blog was when I was unemployed and looking for work, which is why I had so much free time. I still get free time. Just not as much as I used to.

If you ever notice that I'm active but haven't responded to your interaction yet, please keep in mind that I have a LOT of interactions to catch up on. As a matter of fact, I fear that a lot of my old notifications regarding interactions have been deleted by tumblr due to me not responding to them after such a long time. If there's an RP I haven't gotten back to you on since September 6th or earler, I would suggest either finding the last thread and tagging me or starting a brand new interaction. I enjoy RPing with all of you and would love to continue to do so.

Otherwise, please be patience with me. If you feel the need to check on me, that's fine, but please make sure not to do it multiple times a day. A week prior is good enough.

Happy Holidays!

-Mod Princess

@unofficialuser @lamarlemieux

@mod-puffys-hell @miss-amethyst-needs-a-life @werewolf-makoto-naegi @laylayeh @get-outside-nekomatsu @aster-nightingale @vivuz (Apologies to anyone I didn't tag as I'm not good a remembering mod usernames ^^;)

[samssims]

Hi, I was hoping to ask for some advice but feel free to ignore this if you don't want to answer! I don't mind! Have you ever felt, over the course of posting on tumblr, embarrassed that people were reading your stuff? (Your posts are amazing though, so I can't see why but that's what I've been feeling.) Even though I love my sims and I love writing and sharing, I get embarrassed when I see people reading them and I don't know how to get over it 😅 I didn't know if anyone else felt this way, so I thought I'd ask. Thank you so much!

Hi Nonny!!!

Sorry this took me WAY too long to reply to. I haven't been on my laptop much between NaNo and work and reading and Pokemon. It's a struggle to balance it all.

But onto your question! I'll answer below the cut since it gets kind of long.

I don't think it was ever embarrassment for me per se. It was more of a "oh god what if no one likes it" type of feeling which can turn into embarrassment of even posting it. If you crave instant validation, this is not the place for you.

By that I mean, yes, you get instant validation here, sometimes. Notes are not forever. Followers come and go. It is just the way of the internet in this fast pace grabby grabby for new content world.

But for the most part, just post what YOU want to post and other people will like it. Chances are you are not the only person in the world who likes what you like. It might take a while to find your people, but when you do, this place is a great place to be.

To properly find your audience, here are a few things you can do:

Interact with people who post stuff similar to yours! (Likes and Comments and Reblogs, oh my!)

Tag your posts properly so other people can find it!

And mostly, just do it for you. It's a little redundant but honestly if you are having fun then it will show in your posts!

My very firsts posts got like no notes. Seriously you can see that on my old blog. But I didn't let that stop me! I kept going and just posting the stories I wanted to. And eventually I found my people and the crowd who likes my stuff and here we are.

Truth be told Nonny, we're all playing sims and using tumblr, we should all be embarrassed. 😂 You cannot get more cringe than that.

If it does cause you stress to share that part of yourself, you do not have to! You can keep things in the drafts or change characters/events in stories so they don't line up so much with real life. Or you can use writing and sims to work through those things. It's all valid on the internet.

I am not sure if that helps at all, but I sure hope it offers you something!

[kyaruun]

Since when did the graphics suck they're literally so cute

This one is literally embedded in my mind like I ASSOCIATE this with you

It isssss literally so cute but your other graphics are also so cute wthhhhhhh

Buuut I can do some tutorials on things you wanna know that I can do? I've been wanting to make a tutorial for a while now actually

. Me too like I don't have a schedule and while I write on a "rotation", I spend so muxh time and energy on irl things that I don't get much time to write. I literally haven't gotten through my reqs from last August. Rip my 800 event from. Before then??? Cannot even keep track it's been like a year

My follow count is only that high bcs I wrote for haikyuu (in 2020 its peak) then I joined the genshin bus kinda early (?) Which is still huge and I wrote misc fics for whatever else, and it was also my edit blog??? And now I'm here shitposting so I got followers from like lots of places

The way yours is in the 700s and a loooot older than mine pls I'm also in the 700s in nazukisser.... insanity

Well personally i love your leo so I think that it should happen because you deserve it. And writing a series.... yes.... smaus are so fun I have domicile on nazukisser for reference if you want it and my fav smau ever is club stupid by tumblr user kodzuvii highly recommend I just become a redhead kita's cousin and tendou's best friend number 1 miracle girl and down bad for suna rintarou whenever I read it.

WAAAA I can't wait to see your revamp !!! Thank you.. I always try to have some sort of match (character/color/style) all throughout!! If you need help/opinions/etc lmk!!!

Right like what happened . We were thriving. Then we boomed for a second and died. Like I see the nazuna x reader tag and ME AND KAZE ARE THE ONLY ONES like bruh? And my fics have been flopping tho it seems everyone's have been flopping too

Yeah the only thing keeping me tied down here is the server..... it's like my lifetime... come back we miss you

I MISS NURI TOO... bee has arknights now....I miss.... and runanananna....... ate swanee's writing.... SHE DOES THAT TO US TOO not that I hate it but she drops like a couple of lines in snippets and dips and I'm like *SCREEEECHES*

If you come back to my server we welcome you back we miss you :(((

I can only be grateful that some of us are left tho.... i7 is so dead and e7 LMFAO??? I was legit the only one it was so darned sad

THAT'S THE ONLY ONE I LIKE!! i love watching vids about journaling and that kind of thing and they make the cutest decorated polaroids so i wanted to do something like that but very cutesy themed,, spring made me think of picnics so gingham <3 i actually played around with a few similar concepts like polaroid + random stickers and i planned to make banners with that but uuuu there are so many characters,, can't keep my focus for too long. i think they came out cute but it's probably too late to use them </3

i always wonder about what do people use to edit their pics because i was born a ps girlie and i still don't know how to use ps properly oops making your themes look nice and cohesive,, those cute pinned etc etc people who edit icons and make them look super aesthetic

i think i never tried to promote my blog because followers don't feel like an integral part of the process for me. i just write what comes to mind and share it with the world: if people like it i'm absolutely delighted and if they don't well,, at the end of the day most of my writing has been fun for me ^^ like come on i've written things that are silly and self indulgent and they worked fine and i'm here like. wow

i have considered writing for more series but the thing is the media i like has a fandom of like. 2.5 people on the good days. so it really doesn't make too much sense to even try that <.< genshin fandom scares tf out of me so i'll keep my extra fluffy albedo thoughts to myself. the bazillion "childe being a dumbass in love" posts. kazuha writing poetry. oops. getting flashbacks to the time i almost made a hypmic blog but i stopped myself at the last second out of embarrassment

i'm torn on whether a) people just aren't interested in that kind of content anymore (no way) or b) people DO read our stuff, they simply don't interact. not even a like. the migration of people from other social media into tumblr,, like sorry but i've been here since 2016? and it gets worst for writers every day </3

i have an immense amount of cute enstars thoughts a day and i feel like if i can't share them i will combust (my best friend has to deal with me every day),, it's mostly cute romantic stuff with my favs and my ocs, for obv reasons so i'm like uuuu should i even tell this to someone it's just embarrassing. like only other enstarries could understand why i keep rotating this bunch of dorks around my brain and getting the biggest serotonin boost out of it ueeee

i kind of miss being in a server with other people. i've been feeling very lonely lately due to uni so i think that'd be good for my mental health but at the same time,, i don't want to go back to talking once in a blue moon you know? ooo to be an anxious mess every day of your life.... like i get nervous so easily and i know i'll make someone uncomfortable so i simply keep quiet or i don't know how to join conversations because my social skills are -1. i'm a bit of a mess TT

as a bonus for reading all of this, wips of some of the banners/wallpapers? i was working on the last time. rei was meant to be a light pink/purple ish kind of shade but i don't mind how these came out either ^^ i need to print the cgs as polaroids again

[drippingmoon]

MEEEEEEEL! (Still haven't got it out of my system🤭❤) no but it still makes me so happy to hear from you<3 <3 <3

Oh nooo, deficiencies are the worst with how they creep up on you:( bet that was scary when you found out, but the best thing is that a whole lot of things are treatable, and I'm so glad to hear it'll be fixed soon! Sending you all the strength, and reminders to take your supplements on time!!!🥰❤❤ (I also had a vit-D deficiency in high school, which gave me palpitations. Tbh I still get them from time to time, but it's more of a "I'm aware of it now" kind of thing, and it's gonna feel absolutely great when you'll be out of the woods<3) Hahahaha, okay, uni's been saved some ass-kicking for now! Also very happy to hear that XD

OoooOOH?? What did you like best about it?🤩 Sounds like it really made time fly for you, and even if it was for classes, sounds like it made you happy and kept your writing muscles trained, and now I imagine you a bodybuilder🤭😈👏 and CHEERS to my NaNo winner!!!😍😍🥳👭💞 I started doing NaNo two years back too, so I now know how it feels extra special to also have some external motivation, so excuse me while I jump and down with you bc that sounds absolutely fantastic and I'm so proud of you!!!!👏👏👏❤ AND NEW WIP?? Absolutely not surprised it's a series XD XD but you bet my ears are perked, and I'm making my best puppy eyes at you. I ALSO NEED TO KNOW. ALL THE DETAILS. ALL. 🤭😈 sometimes when you're at your lowest you'll get that spring of energy and adrenaline you never would've thought possible, and once again, I'm so incredibly proud of you, Mel, I'm squeezing you in a hug and popping open all the champagne bottles<3 <3 <3 and okayyyyy, I'll be patient then and completely on the lookout for NEW WIP NEW WIP NEW WIP😍😍🥳🥳🥳 (hahahahaha, absolutely lovely imagery there, and who knows, maybe you'll do a full circle of that pond and The Nine Pearls lily's gonna be waiting you at the most perfect time to finish it<3 <3 <3)

Eeeeeeehh, no worries, that just means you'll get to read the final thing!!🤩🤩 dkskksksk I missed your energy so much, thank you so much for everything and you're making me so happy I'm getting dewy eyes🥺🥺🥺

Yep! Take care of yourself!!!! Always!!!!😠😠❤❤🤭 No matter how long it takes you to answer or if you just need a break and can't answer, I'll still be uber happy to hear from you whenever and even happier to hear you're well<3 <3 and best of luck with your Friday exam, and you're gonna ROCK IT!!!!!🤩🤩👌

Re: your tags and AoS, there's not much catching up to do mainly bc I stopped posting on tumblr a few years ago... so it's really just the two yearly wrap-ups where I mention my baby😅 I'm also so glad you agree with the title bc it's been giving me life for so long, I don't talk nearly enough about it😍😍👭

I don't really know how to intro it properly bc I'm still running for the hills from doing a summary XD soo, maybe I'll just start from the very start??

Yeaaars ago, an Ori (the game) cover gave me instant goosebumps, and I thought, if space had a sound, it'd be this. Then, I imagined there's a creature that hears it, and lives in that rhythm like in the heartbeat of the universe.

(Then it became my 1k admission paper, and I was dead sure I wanted to write it. So, I did it for the NaNo that year!)

And now, it's about that creature, the Beast of the Deep Night, who's rampaging in the universe, and made it that humanity can never leave their planets, or it'll consume them. For some reason (not as in I don't know it, but the chars have to figure out and it's so fun??? They're so smart?🥺🤩) it can't enter, or touch, the planets. Or so it's been for so long. One day, the Superintendent of a planet listens to a distress call. They're forbidden from ever answering them; it'll only mean more dead bodies, so whoever goes into dead space knows they're gonna die. But my guy sees the world ending around him, and says fuck it, and goes to answer that distress call.

But (we also have a second timeline!!) ages before the present, following the most selfish man in the universe on his ship. The Beast's a myth in this age. But when they suddenly get a new recruit, and there's no way to ignore her presence, very soon bets start in the mess hall... that maybe she's the Beast in disguise? Nah, surely. Can't be. It's just good fun, and the new recruit who is a bit too uncomfortable in outer space...

Aaaand that's it! I'm also just gonna say, Aberration of Sunlight used to be just the one book, but I managed to split it. Now it's the title for book 2, and book 1 is Remains of a Night, but I call them both AoS out of familiarity<3

You'll always get a warm welcome from me, and I missed you too, Mel!!!🥰🥰🥰🥰👭

Hi Moonie! I’ve missed you!!

I have a few weeks of freedom before the next semester starts, and I’m trying to be active on here again! So how have you been, dear friend? How is the writing going?

- from @mel-writes-with-her-dragons ✨

MEL!

(Without the tiny fangs, but alas)

MEL! MEL! MEL! Have to pinch myself, but I woke up so happy when I saw this message from you! How have you been, old buddy?? How's uni going? Want me to kick its arse? I know the adjustment is horrible, and in these few weeks of freedom you have, I hope you get plenty of rest and entertainment and love and everything (and I'm so proud of you for surviving!!!) Hnngh, I gotta have you sit down somewhere because I wanna hear as much as you have the energy to share🤩 How's your writing been??

MEEEEEL.

(Okay, I'm partly done, sue me<3 <3 <3)

Life's been better for me lately, and a lot freer after the three years of hell, so you're finding me well. Writing's been keeping my sanity afloat, and I've somehow become even more manic about it than I was lol. To make it short, 'quiv's being beta read and very very close to being done🤯 and I have a second series, Aberration of Sunlight, that's bringing me joy right now.

My tumblr activity's also plummeted like a dumped dumpling, which you can tell by how it took me a bit to get to this:( (basically I become active for a while, then go underwater for a few weeks, even months) BUT I'm super excited to see you and everything you wanna do!!

And, and, of course, WELCOME BACK, MEL!!🥳🥳❤😍🥂 Man, feels like a dream to see you again🤩🤩🤩

[book-junkie007]

Amani aesthetic for the Rebel of the Sands trilogy by Alwyn Hamilton. I can’t wait for Hero at the Fall. :)

[groenendaze]

(I hope this question isn't too personal, and it's totally fine if you don't want to answer.) I have a young dog that I've considered rehoming but haven't, and I'm wondering if i should have/still should. How did you decide to keep Finch, back when you were considering rehoming? And at what point did you know that you had made the right choice? I love my little dude but i still wonder.

I can't answer whether or not you should rehome your dog - I don't know you, I don't know you dog, I dont know your situation. What I CAN tell you is what lead up to me wanting to rehome Finch and why I didn't.

This is going to be a little long so bear with me.

I've mentioned this before on this blog but it is not something I go into detail about often: Finch is reactive.

He has always been reactive. He was reactive before I even picked him up to take him home and he is still reactive. Should I have taken him home? Probably not. But I did and we managed. Finch is a type of dog that will never NOT be reactive. His reactivity can be managed, but it will never truly go away.

To give you some background, if you've ever met me or Finch in-person, and I've talked about Finch's breeder, you might have heard me say this before; Finch is a genetic fluke. He is the dog that people talk about when they say 'responsible breeding doesn't guarantee 100% temperamentally sound puppies all the time'. I met his parents before I got him, I met his older siblings from the same pairing. None of them had issues. His mom is still one of the most social and friendly Belgians I've ever met.

I got Finch when I was eighteen. He was supposed to be my first sport dog. I had just gotten out of college dorms and I wanted a dog that I could do sports with because I loved Sheba, but she could never be a sport dog for a multitude of different reasons (the biggest being physical issues that would lead to a very high risk of injury). I knew I wanted a Groen for a long time so I got Finch.

I don't know if I could properly stress how bad Finch was as a puppy - looking at my old tags on this blog is funny, because there were times that I was so stressed out about him that I cried myself to sleep, but on tumblr dot com all I would say was 'he is good 90% of the time, but that 10% is rough'. I didn't elaborate then because there is some sort of shame in getting a dog, only to have it be reactive in the way Finch was. I don't feel shame about it now: Finch would be labeled as a dangerous dog for the majority of his first year of life. He was a bite risk. In some very specific situations, he still is.

I enrolled Finch in puppy school when he was around five months old (I got him as an older puppy - around 4.5 months). Finch flunked out of puppy school for being a reactive shithead, so I ended up taking the same class twice just to try and get a handle on this behavior. Finch's breeder took the first session with us but didn't take the second one. I very vividly remember when the trainer asked to see Finch and have me leave the building to see if that affected his behavior, and when I came back in, she told me "Your dog just tried to bite someone". If you've never experienced that, I highly recommend against it because it's possibly one of the worst feelings in the world.

I ended up moving before I could take a third puppy class. I wasn't super comfortable with how the trainer handled dogs anyway and there weren't any fantastic trainers around me, so for a while, I kinda did things on my own. I resented Finch at the time and that wasn't something that was fair to him or to me at the time. That was the point where I almost sent him back because I was states away with no good dog trainer options that could even begin to handle a dog like Finch.

I can't tell you why I didn't send him back at that point. I don't think I know why I kept him. Or, at least, I don't remember. It might have been something to do with the social pressure of getting a purebred dog, trying to make your first entrance into the dog world, only to fail within a few months. It could have been because it was true that Finch was a good dog that 90% of the time. Again, I truly don't know why I didn't rehome him because I had all the right reasons to do so.

The most important thing to remember about rehoming a dog is that there's no shame in doing what is best for the dog and for you. Sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay. I got lucky with Finch. It worked out for me. But that might not be the case for you, and that is okay as well.

pic of me n finch at a barn hunt trial a couple weeks back <3

[bookuya]

hey traveler, it's me yoimiya!! remember me? ㋡ if you're wondering why my handwriting is suddenly nice, i'm actually making thoma write this for me! i would write it myself but my penmanship is not the best, and you deserve the best! i hope this letter reached you quickly but fear not... i will hand deliver this to you if needed!╹▽╹

how have you been doing since we last met? what have you been doing? it's okay if you haven't done anything productive though! i really hope you aren't still mad at me for cheating winning in rock, paper, scissors! i really didn't mean to change the shape, my hand seemed to move on it's own! if it makes you feel better, i can tell you a story the next time we meet again. which should be soon, i can't wait for long! (so don't keep me waiting •‿•)

oh yeah! i have something for you too! i won a pet goldfish the last time we had a festival obviously. i think you would be the best person to take care of it! you're so nice and beautiful and bright in my eyes... like fireworks! you would be the best owner for it!

i still think about you sometimes, like when i breathe in the fresh morning air. it reminds me of the time where we watched fireworks all night long! the cold breeze was sothing soothing on my face, i liked that memory a lot! we share a lot of great memories. we better make some more when you visit again!

i wish i could be talking to you face to face right now. just hearing your voice makes me eager to hang out again! but writing to you already makes me so happy, so this is fine too. as long as i can still make you happy through a letter then that's all that matters!

send a letter back to me as soon as possible, okay? i miss you tons and tons and tons! if not then i might have to go to you myself. here comes yoimiya!

i'm going to say goodbye now, don't miss me too much! let me know when you are free to see me once more!!

"add a smiley face right here!" yoimiya demanded, looking over thoma's shoulder as he was writing a letter that was soon to be sent to you. yoimiya pointed at a certain spot on the page before moving her hand elsewhere, motioning for the male to add another smiley face.

for another few minutes yoimiya kept talking, the words coming out from her mouth starting to get written on paper from thoma's hand. after a certain phrase she stopped talking, peering at the paper before her eyes widened and she gasped.

"what? is something wrong?" thoma questioned worriedly.

"you spelled 'soothing' wrong! why does it have two os?" yoimiya complained. she pointed at the word on the paper in an accusingly manner.

"that's how it's supposed to be spelled, right?" thoma erased the word and wrote it again with only one o, showing it to her when he was done. "see how weird it looks now?"

"oh..." yoimiya's eyebrows furrowed and once again her eyes widened when thoma was about to erase the mistake. "wait no! you already erased it once! what if you rip the paper??"

"we can tape the back," thoma chuckled.

"no-no! it has to be perfect, or else traveler might not like it!!" yoimiya started to run around the table, visibly freaking out. what if you thought she wasn't serious? she meant everything she said on the paper afterall! it had to be the best, afterall it would sent to the best!

"here," thoma calmly grabbed yoimiya's wrist, making her halt in her movements. he continued to cross out the word and write it properly again. "how about this? it looks fine right?"

"i guess so... wait, i did not cheat!! cross that word out too!"

a/n: a little thing i wrote up. i feel like things have been a bit moody and gloomy for people recently on tumblr, so here you go! yoimiya sending you a letter. i hope this was comfortable even if it was short :)

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