#I have never animated *anything* in my life and I always thought it was something I would never be able to do...
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Six Balls has a new year's resolution
#Poorly drawn SVSSS#SVSSS#Six balls#animatic#Audio source is from paper-mario-wiki!#Six balls fans....I offer you my labour of love#ohhhh my god this was a massive undertaking that I learned so much from#I have never animated *anything* in my life and I always thought it was something I would never be able to do...#but I now know how to isolate and save audio files! I know the basics of animating in clip paint studio!#Guys...this blog has made me achieve some of the most far-fetched dreams. Might have cried when I got all the audio synced up#âOP are you gonna animate stuff again?â I've already downloaded audio for the yi city arc#I might not learn how to be a master artist but by god I can animate funny audio now. You bet I'll be doing more
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i have to wonder what super hardcore militant vegans think should be done about obligate carnivore animals, because in all my painfully-rapidly-approaching-30-years i've literally never actually seen anyone give a clear consistent much less halfway feasible answer on that
#mostly i've just seen like âhow dare you ask questions you just want an excuse to murder you're sealioning ectâ#or worse some vague and wildly improbable nonsense about like. fake robot animals covered in beyond meat or something equally convoluted#which is a thing i did see someone suggest as a serious answer#i mean i already know they think i'm a genetically inferior hateful vampire that should starve to death for the greater good#because my exact combination of health conditions make meat basically the only semi-safe way i can get close to enough nutrients#i know this because they have repeatedly told me that i'm either evil or should be sacrificed or both#and yelled at me for asking questions by bringing up the whole disabled thing and then they're like#âa lot of vegans i know are advocates for disability!â as if that ever means jack shit in the society that results from anything#no matter what you do a vast majority of people in any given society will *not* be advocates for the disabled. i'm sorry they just won't.#and what do you think public perception of people who physically can't survive like that is going to skew towards#in a society founded on the belief that non-vegan diets are evil?#at absolute best we're looking at being a heavily marginalized class generally seen as something like vampires and our existences taboo.#(as if these type's own insistence that they should be allowed to harass and shame people doesn't disprove their assertion that we won't be#thinking it could possibly go any better than that is a fucking fairy tale. human nature doesn't work that way.#you simply cannot eliminate the human desire to designate and abuse a class of have-nots. the absolute best you can do is mitigate damage.#take it from someone who's been multiple kinds of disabled and chronically ill all my life. people will not âjustâ. ever.#i get this even from people who are otherwise very aware of and VERY GOOD at avoiding this sort of thinking#âi'm a disability advocate!â no you are not. you are a poster. my experience has taught me that what people advocate for in their free time#means precisely jack shit for how they will actually act when faced with the situations they make otherwise rational posts about#and the fact of the matter is even if you somehow really are the perfect disability advocate a majority of people WILL NOT BE YOU.#a majority of people in society will be margrat from accounting who clutches her pearls when she sees the gays and thinks autism isnt real#and who has never had a nuanced thought in her life and actively does not want to#a vast majority of people in your Vegan Utopia will not be you and your friends who march with wheelchair users and volunteer at the shelte#a vast majority of people in your Vegan Utopia will be jenny who starved 8 cats to death on broccoli because she can't be bothered#and who thinks that âcarnivoresâ are actual nazis and don't deserve healthcare because she saw someone say that online.#ALWAYS assume your society will be made up mostly of the worst kind of person it can because it WILL ALWAYS BE TRUE and you can't change it#most people seek the low-effort option. and evil is most often banal and low-effort.#i'm just so fucking tired of every single even vaguely lefty-adjacent political movement simultaneously acting like i don't fucking exist#and at the same time that i need to be sacrificed to achieve Utopia. god. at least conservative whackjobs are upfront and honest about#how they think that i'm a burden on society that needs to be Eugenics'd . rather than trying to morally gaslight me about it.
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Has Dirk ever actually eaten steak?
(TW casual animal death I guess, sorry)
Okay, so this is a total shitpost idea I had last night on Tweeter and I said I'd make it a post here, so I'm following through. Bear with me, because if I jump past my thought process, I'll probably sound like a total maniac for even imagining this.
Let me back up.
I was thinking about Dirk (a normal occurrence). Then I start thinking about Nepeta, since they have the same Aspect. And then I start thinking about Tavros' cat allergies. So then I circle back to Dirk, since Dirk has obviously never seen a cat in person before, and therefore has no built-up immunity to cat dander, and would definitely be hella allergic. (Also, it's been my headcanon since, like, the dawn of time, that Dirk would have a shit immune system when it comes to humans, on account of never being around another person in his life, and he probably gets super sick upon meeting up with people in person for the first time.)
Back to the steak quote. Dirk has obviously never eaten like, actual steak from a cow before. Cows probably don't even exist anymore, outside of maybe a scant few super high elevation places on the other side of the globe. He probably wouldn't be able to digest it well regardless, since he's never had red meat. Dirk says he fishes, and he's obviously got seagulls around, so that's probably also on the menu (besides the super expired canned and dry ration shit left behind), and it's as natural as eating chicken is for everyone else (cough chicken of the sea joke cough), and he assumes that's what chicken is supposed to taste like, which leads to a hilarious spit-take for his first time trying actual chicken.
Moving forward to post-game. We're gonna set this scenario inside a neat little anime beach episode setting where everyone is happy and alive, because that makes it hilarious. Everyone's having a chill day at the beach. The seagulls presumably pester everyone who has a shiny bag of chips in their hands. People are playing volleyball. It's lunch time.
Dirk is looking at the seagulls eyeballing his bag of chips like, "Man, these guys are so dumb, watch this." And he calls a seagull over because he knows how to call them in a way they immediately trust him, and just... kills it quickly, and goes, "Alright, that was easy, let's start the barbecue, guys."
But there's a pall that's fallen over everyone. The beach ball blows past like a tumbleweed. Everyone's* mouth is agape in pure horror.
Dirk looks at the seagull in his hands. And back at the group. And he's like, "This is another one of those things I needed to deprogram, isn't it."
Everyone is whispering like, "What the fuck..." But to make things worse, Jade declares that there needs to be a funeral for the seagull, because literally no one else there is okay with eating it (and no one told Dirk beforehand, but someone already brought store-bought and pre-seasoned chicken for the barbecue, which doesn't make sense to him because it's not even fresh, aren't you supposed to have like a 'catch of the day' type of thing? Someone has to tell him that that only applies to fish, however arbitrary that seems). And Dirk has to stand there, living the most embarrassing moment of his life, keeping his cool, while perfectly good seagull meat is being lowered into the ground. People build a fucking sand castle memorial.
Jade like, gives him a hug like, "It's okay, Dirk, you didn't mean to do it." And Dirk has to bite back a 'Yeah, I kinda did mean it. This is stupid, and if anything, even worse to waste its life for nothing.' But he has enough self-awareness to know when to at least keep his mouth shut to prevent further damage.
He never could get over how weird chicken actually tastes, it's like fluffy and weird and doesn't even fit the theme of a beach party.
*everyone, except Jake and Nepeta/Davepeta, is completely scandalized at the image of Dirk just snapping a seagull's neck like it's nothing. They still wouldn't eat it, but they at least don't think he's a murderer for doing it.
#im sorry okay i just thought of it and laughed and had to share it#rest in peace gullie#wait also include feferi and eridan in dirk sympathizers but it feels weird to think of them having an interaction with him#homestuck#dirk#dirk strider#dirk homestuck#homestuck headcanon#homestuck headcanons#headcanon#ShitPost.exe#Cori.exe#Post.exe#*obligatory 'pls dont talk to me about anything that happens after Homestuck bc i didnt read it and dont plan to'*#animal death#watch this post gets blacklisted after tagging that and ill never be able to find it on my blog again#i have never tried seagull its illegal here bc theyre protected but i did look up what they taste like for this post and#apparently they taste fishy which is fucking wild like... does that mean that chicken tastes bug-gy?#is that why people always go 'hm it tastes like chicken' when eating something weird?#bc thats the taste of the bugs they spend their life eating?#idk its just weird to think that seagulls taste fishy for eating fish thats so fucking wild but i guess makes sense#also i know fish produce 'steaks' too but i kind of doubt that dirk is out there catching full size tunas#im at the point of typing where im having second thoughts like is this an okay thing to post or are ppl gonna think im a nutcase#i cant do that to animals i promise lol i was a vegetarian for a long fuckin time bc i felt bad about it like i still rarely eat meat
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â A GOOD GIRL SUMMONING THE KING OF CURSES -- WHAT COULD GO WRONG? â
⧠pairing: heian form! ryomen sukuna x good girl! reader
⧠summary: you've always been a goody two shoes -- or so your friends say -- so what happens when you decide to do the first bad thing you've ever attempted and try summoning a demon -- and it actually works?
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, smut, dub/con / non/con (dead dove, do not eat), reader summons sukuna accidentally, monster fucking, corruption kink, reader is a virgin, dom! sukuna, heian form! sukuna, four arms, mouth stomach, size kink, oral (f + m) (f receiving via mouth stomach), handjob (m! receiving), fingering (f! receiving), sex (p in v), creampie, degradation kink (slut, whore), overstimulation (f! receiving), description of violence (no violence happens), art by @/danXL4 (on dA), dividers by @/saradika
⧠wc: 4,916
Summon a demon in your apartment, they said. It would be fun, they said.Â
âTheyâ meaning your stupid ass friends who were too fucking scared to stay here with you while you did it.Â
Maybe you shouldâve thought this through, preferably before you sat in a circle of blood (animal blood taken humanely that could not be used â donât worry, you werenât completely insane), and painted the symbols around the circle in the living room, your carpet rolled up, and on the precipice of unfurling, and your coffee table pushed aside.Â
Your phone buzzed with messages in your group chat:Â
Donât do this, girl.Â
Another message.Â
What if itâs real? I donât want something to happen to you - like I rather not have this on my conscience
What heartfelt pleas, you shook your head, as you put your phone on âdo not disturb,â and propped it up before opening the camera app and hitting record.Â
Your fucking friends â it was all their fault to begin with.Â
You grit your teeth, you are tired of being boring. You were always studying, always coming home early, always getting to class on time, always the fucking good girl, never getting fucked up or fucked for that matter. And your friends always taunted you for it â told you that you never lived a day in your life, that youâd always live sheltered in your apartment with your books and your streaming apps (which, you admitted, did sound pretty good to you) â but you wanted to prove them wrong.Â
All the fuck they did that was daring was go to supposedly haunted sights and get the piss scared out of them â like yeah, that really was the wind, not some fucking ghost. If it was a ghost, pretty sure they would choose someone better to haunt â not a bunch of fucking pussies.Â
You needed better friends.Â
So for once â if only to get them to shut up â you wanted to do something crazy.Â
You donât know why a demon summoning was the hill you had chosen to die on, but you already climbed your way to the top of the hill, you supposed, so you might as well die on it. You looked through the Reddit thread you found on demon summoning (of course the most reliable of sources), looking over the incantation you were supposed to read, as you turned on your camera.Â
Fuck. This was going to fucking dumb. You grabbed your lighter, lining up your candles around the circle, before kneeling in front of it.Â
âTo summon the King of Curses,â you read before you scoffed, what the fuck were you doing? âThe King of Cursesâ â they couldnât even come up with anything more creative than that? Like no latin? Or even japanese folklore â no, instead the most generic ass of names, âTo summon the King of Curses, you must read the following incantation,â you glance at your phoneâs camera with lips pursed â you were going to prove a point â but why did it feel so goddamn stupid?Â
You sighed, rubbing your forehead, as you suck in air between your teeth, and sighed, before reading the incantation: âRise, Disgraced One â Oh, the King of the Golden Age that reigned supreme,â there was a chill that grazed the back of your neck, a slight breeze that raises goosebumps along your skin, âOpen the Gate of Hell and let the King corrupt you. Fuga,âÂ
The flames on the candles shoot to the ceiling, as a scream lodges itself in your throat, as you barely scramble back enough to avoid getting your face burned off. The fire licks the ceiling, and a thick cloud of smoke floods your apartment, sweeping through the apartment, as you begin to cough, eyes burning with tears.Â
âWhat the fuckââ you reach for your phone in your pocket only to realize itâs still set up to record in that fucking mess of flames. Youâre frozen, as you stand trying to recall what they taught you about fire safety growing up â is opening a window a good thing or a bad thing? Whereâs the fire alarm? Do you even have a fire extinguisher? Thinking dangerous things through wasnât your specialty, you supposed because you never did them.Â
Fuck, if you died, you would become a fucking ghost and haunt your friends.Â
But the flames ebb away, leaving some scorch marks on the ceiling (fun thing to explain to your landlord), as your lungs struggled to cope with the flood of smoke dispersing, the cloud so thick, you could barely see your hand in front of your face. The haze seared at your throat, drawing a smokerâs cough from your lungs, while your eyes could barely open, waterlogged by the sheer amount of tears spilling.Â
You gently wipe tears away from your eyes, as you blink them away, until you stumble to your window to throw it open, coughing, as you stick your head out.Â
âWhat the fuck,â you mumble, throat raw â was it the candles you bought? Were the candles somehow really fucking defective? Or did you somehow actually summon a demon? You snort, no, it was probably the candles. You leaned against the window sill, letting the smoke escape â as you finally were able to breathe again.Â
You sigh, shutting the window, turning back around â only to find four eyes staring back.Â
He was huge. A hulking mass of muscles, four arms, instead of two, and each one was possibly wider than your head, no shirt or covering to find the exposed skin â his dark blue pants hung low around his waist and above it was a weird groove in the middle of his stomach.Â
Your eyes raise as he lifts his arm, as you flinch, but he only rakes his fingers through his dark pink hair, pushing it back roughly. showing off the hands of black around the middle of his bicep and his wrists. Broken lines wrap down from his shoulders into jagged points that end in the middle of his chest. Black dots adorn the sides of his shoulders, hollow vacuums that stared back at you.Â
Two eyes on each side of his face â but his right eyes were raised, as if he bore a mask made of wood or raised skin â you didnât know which â fused to his face. But something told you â as you took a step back â it wasnât something you wanted to find out.Â
âAre you the brat who dared to summon me?â And you freeze at the sound of his voice, ringing with such a weight, it nearly brought you to your knees. Your eyes fell to the ground, unable to bring yourself to look at him â your heart rattling against your ribs. His presence was a pressure, the air around you seemed to still, his voice ringing in your ears. Your muscles were drawn taut, unable to move â shivers ripping down your spine.Â
âYes,â you manage a whisper only, resisting the urge to squeeze your eyes shut.Â
He gives a small chuckle, âSo submissive for the one who dared to summon me,â his heavy footsteps out of the circle, melts the candles beside his foot to puddles of wax, âit has been eons since Iâve been able to roam freeââ he inhales, as you stand frozen, hearing his hulking form drawing even closer, âI can smell the humans, roaming free, wriggling like worms in the crevices of this place â I canât wait to massacre them,â and then he pauses a moment, as he considers you.Â
âBrat, look at me,â you swallow, as your head slowly rises to meet his gaze, his form towering over you, standing two steps away from you, letting you dwell in the void of his shadow, âtell me, what did you use to summon me?âÂ
You blink, âI found itâI donât knowââÂ
âRead it to me,â he orders â thereâs no option to disobey, unless youâd love to be met with certain death. So you move slowly to your laptop, reading the incantation again, ââand let the King corrupt you. Fuga,âÂ
His eyes narrow, as a slow smirk settles over his features, a smirk that sends an icy chill down your spine, âWoman, you have no idea what youâve done, have you?âÂ
Two of his arms are crossed while one of the otherâs reaches for you â and your eyes shut now â you are surely dead, but instead of a hand around your neck, you feel fingers grip your chin.Â
You wait for the embrace of death (at least maybe youâd find better friends in the afterlife), but it never comes, instead you hear a deep chuckle, as another arm curls around your waist and brings you flush to him, âYou humans are so tiny, so fragile, one wrong move and i could break you,â and another large hand is slipping down the curves of your body, âI suppose Iâll have to be a little careful â only for this to work, and I suppose for your benefit as well,â and your eyes finally dare to open and peek at him, only for his face to draw near, breath warming your lips, âIâm going to savor corrupting you, little one,âÂ
âWhat the fuckââ you try to break away, but his grip is like iron shackles around your wrists, as he forces your arms around his waist, caged in by his own arms, âplease let me goââ
Before you can even finish your plea, his lips meet yours, swallowing your gasp with a smirk. His large hands around your waist left no space for retreat, not that youâd make it far even if you tried. His kiss sent a slow burning heat throughout your body, a spark that grew in your belly that ignited when his tongue slid into your mouth. His touch only added fuel to the flame â his hands skimming over your sides slowly like warm honey sliding down your skin.Â
He parts your kiss ruined lips, not before his teeth bite down on your bottom lip, a smirk on his lips as he sees your saliva slip down the corner of your mouth. Your lips parted and puffy as he drags his thumb down them, eyes blown out with pleasure.Â
âThatâs it, give in,â and the haze that settles over you is thick and unforgiving, unable to see anything but the King of Curses before you and unable to need anything but pleasure at his hands.Â
âPlease,â a small hint of resistance remained stubbornly â you couldnât let this monster have his way with you â for fuckâs sake, much less lose your virginity to him, âI canât,âÂ
âBut you want to,â he hums, as large fingers tug at your flimsy shorts, the fabric tearing with ease, until it was in shreds, a shiver running up your spine at the thought that your limbs could have been too, âyour mouth says one thing, brat, but your lower lips,â a thick finger presses at the wet patch on your panties, rubbing against your puffy clit, âsay another,âÂ
You whimper, as his finger bears down harshly through the thin fabric, âplease,â you swallow, as he leans down to lick the drool from your lips, âpleaseââÂ
âPlease, what, little one?â he chuckles, as he presses wet kisses up your jaw, âI canât give you what you want if you donât tell me,â your knees are beginning to buckle, as the ache between your legs only grows, âI know you must look pretty when you cry, so do you want to cry for me, brat?â and his piercing gaze nearly brings you tears along, âbecause I can give you something to cry about,âÂ
âDo you ever shut up?â you mutter, but that only seems to make the corner of his lip tug upwards.Â
âI can make you shut up,â And two hands squeeze your hips roughly, while another slips under your shirt, âNo undercovering? Itâs as if you wanted this all long,â he chides, a huff in his voice, as his finger teases your pert nipple between his thumb and forefinger, pinching and pulling, drawing a yelp from your lips, âhoping for an incubus or some other curse or demon?â heâs tugging down his pants, revealing his dickâ-if you could call it that.Â
Fuck, was that a cock or another appendage all together? Far thicker and longer than any male anatomy youâve seen depicted or described in even the filthiest corners of the internet â pretty veins running up the sides, as a mess of pre-cum dripped off the engorged tip, flushed red with need.Â
âWhy did you summon me?â he demands to know as he leans down to take a nipple between his lips, and you know you have no choice but to answer.Â
âI wanted to prove to my friends that I wasnâtââ it was so pathetic now, as you stood before a literal deity of death, âwasnât just a good girl,âÂ
He chuckles, a bark more than a laugh almost, as you swallow thickly as your eyes canât tear away from the sight of his dick â would he kill you with it instead of his hands?Â
âWell, you arenât anymore are you?â he scoffs, and you fail to notice his hand shifting to tug your underwear off, a gasp ripped from you, as another hand brushed against your bare cunt roughly, âLook at how fucking wet you are already, slut, so much already leaking all over my fingers,â he shows you the strings of pre-cum connecting his fingers, before he brings his fingers to his lips and his tongue darts out to lick them clean, âIâd say no respectable woman would be dripping this much if she was so good,â he hums, before sighing mockingly, âalthough, perhaps I should preserve your sanctity, even a little. It would be unfortunate to leave you like this â even more so, to leave myself like this, but if that is truly whatâs for the bestââ his grip begins to loosen, but your fingers find his shoulder.Â
Two words manage to leave your lips â and you donât know whether itâs that youâre under his spell or under your own â but you know that you need this âDonât go,âÂ
His lips curl. He wasnât going to begin with â but it was so much easier if you gave in.Â
~~~
âCâmon little one, you were so eager only a moment ago,â The King of Curses chides, amusement threaded through his tone from behind you, watching as you nearly straddled his stomach â though you had realized it wasnât just a stomach. A tongue flicked out over lips that formed over the middle of his abdomen, right under you.Â
âI didnât knowââ your cheeks warmed, your walls fluttering at that thought of that tongue against your leaking cunt.Â
âYet youâre so eager,â he scoffs, before using a large hand to tug you against it as two hands settle against your waist to hold you in place, âand Iâve run out of patience, so be a good whore and take my cock,â and heâs pushing your head down, sharp fingernails digging into your scalp, as his large cock slaps your face, smearing his pre cum over your cheek and lips.Â
Your lips part, the tip of your tongue tracing his weeping slit, drawing a hiss from his lips, before your mouth engulfs the head, while your fingers curl around his thick base. And as you do, you feel his tongue drag over the length of your cunt, making you gasp around his cock.Â
His mouth and tongue are even larger than the one on his face, slurping and sucking, as his tongue begins to work its way inside your needy cunt.Â
âDonât slack, brat,â his hand pushing your head further down on his cock, nearly burying your face in his pubes, âcome on, do a good job, and I may even give you the pleasure of being fucked by me,âÂ
You force yourself to focus on sucking his cock, tracing the pretty veins with your tongue, before suckling at the tip, savoring the groan you draw from his lips. The squelch of your cunt as his tongue begins to fuck you open, thicker than even four of your fingers, fills your ears. Two of his hands find your tits, tweaking and twisting your nipples, squeezing as he presses the flat of his palms against your breasts, only for tongues to dart out from his palms. You gasp around his length, as his other mouths suck at your tits, swirling their tongue around it.Â
His hips jerk against your mouth when your fingers cup his balls, and he thrusts, âYou can do better,â he grunts, as his tip grazes your throat, his mouth closing around your clit and sucking, hard, and youâre grinding on his abs and mouth now, toes curling as you cum, and his mouth only eagerly swallows it, the sticky release coating his abs.Â
His cock twitches in your mouth as you moan around it, as you recover from your orgasm, beginning to suck at his cock, nearly high off the pleasure, as you fondle his balls, bobbing your head up and down, until heâs finally groaning, his hot release flooding your mouth.Â
âDonât waste a drop,â he growls, as you swallow it, blissed out and panting, as your lips leave his weeping cock, slapping against your cheek as he lifts you easily and places you on your back, âdonât tell me youâre done after that, little one,â and your eyes slide down to see his somehow still erect dick, standing tall as he kneels on your bed, his hulking form burying you in his shadow, âbecause Iâm far from done yet,â his cock twitches at the sight of your lips, a swollen mess from sucking him off, a mix of his cum and your saliva all over your face.Â
âPlease, I canâtââ you whine, shaking your head, but two hands are already spreading your folds, your cunt fluttering around nothing, as if already craving to have his dick buried in it.Â
âYour cunt seems to disagree, little one,â as he drags a thick digit around your clit, before pinching it, as you keen under his touch, âyouâre drenched for me, begging for me to take you,â and his thumb is now rubbing circles around your puffy clit while he sinks a finger into you knuckle deep, âI just have to make sure you can fit me in this tight hole of yours,â your head falls back against the pillow as heâs knuckle deep, another large finger already pushing into your slick walls, âstill so tight despite all the time I took to open you up,â he clicked his tongue, a smirk on his lips, as his fingers find the spongy spot that makes your fingers fist at the sheets, as your release squirts over his fingers, your body boneless as pleasure buzzes through every inch of your body, until you finally start come down.Â
But as soon as you even begin to, his fingers begin to move again, fucking you through your orgasm, and quickly into another.Â
âNgh, no, no, not yetââ your voice is caught in your throat, words leaving your lips in a hurry because you know surely his fingers would rip any coherent thought from your mind in a moment.Â
But he does not relent, only finger fucking you harder, âI have to be careful to open you up, otherwise, I very well may break you in two, wouldnât I? Such fragile things, you humans are â already squealing? I havenât even added a third finger yet,â he scoffs, as he hums, âhave you not been deflowered yet, brat?âÂ
And your pussy gives a telltale flutter that only has his lips curling further, a flash of his canines sending a chill down your spine, âI-Iââ
âNo need for your answer, pet, your body gave me the answer itself,â he hums, âthen this will take a bit longer than I thoughtââ as his fingers curl and drag over your walls, before scissoring apart, âIâd prefer for you to be conscious when I take your virginity, but I donât mind if youâre not,âÂ
And a fourth finger presses at your slick hole, making you whimper, âPlease, I canâtââ but he does not relent, four fingers now fucking you open, as your mouth parts in a silent scream, back arching as they work you open. Your body lies on slick drenched sheets, the smell and sound of your arousal only making his need grow, holding back if only not to ruin you completely â he needed you still, needed this to work. And he wasnât sure whatâd happen if heâd break you completely â and he knew he could far too easily. Already he could feel your blood rushing under his touch, the small gasps and moans could turn to screams with just a finger barely lifted, the slick painted over with scarlet.Â
But he doesnât. He canât. Not when heâs so close. And soon enough he wonât need you â but he can only cross that bridge when he gets there.Â
Or rather, when you get there.Â
~~~
âBrat, câmon, keep your eyes open, weâre almost there,â Sukuna barks, as his fingers grip your chin, and force your gaze to him. How many orgasms had he given you? Seven or eight ? Maybe more. Sweat and cum clung to your skin, sticky and hot, as he continued to fuck you open, âthink this virgin hole is finally ready for my cock, listen to it,â the loud squelch of your cunt as he thrust his fingers in and out had almost become white noise to you â and the sweet stretch of your pussy around his fingers had become second nature.Â
And finally heâs pulling his fingers from you, digits shiny and dripping with your release, sliding down your palm and wrist, as he brought them to his mouth to lick it clean, before offering it to his mouth on his stomach as well. He watches you all fucked out before him, legs spread along with your cunt that fluttered around nothing, waiting for him to slot his cock between your folds and sink in. He grunts, fuck, his balls still feel so full, even after cumming down your throat, aching to cum in your sweet cunt, see him fill your womb with his seed, the sweet release he had been craving for far too long.Â
âYou still want my cock still, little one? Or are you too tired for it now?â he drags his leaking cock over your dripping folds, letting it tease your swollen clit as his pre cum mixes with your own, âmaybe I should leave you like this, let you beg and beg for me until youâre writhing for me,â
Youâre panting, the ache inside your pussy too much for you to bear â you were melting without him inside, the only thing to quench your need, your thirst â he was the only thing that could even begin to make it ebb.Â
âPlease, please, my King,â your words are nearly sobs, pretty tears slipping down your cheeks, as your chest heaves with need â want far gone several hours ago, leaving only you with a desperation that would drive you mad, âI need you, need you take me, need you to fuck me,âÂ
And his lips curl, âI thought youâd never ask, brat,â and heâs settling himself between your parted legs, pressing them back against your stomach, âalthough even if you didnât, Iâd help myself â because you summoned me after all, didnât you, little one?â As he uses another arm to cup your chin, âwatch me as I sink into you,âÂ
Your cunt quivers as he presses his head to your entrance, as he uses your slick to wet his cock, âIâll go slow at first, but once Iâm inside, I have no intention of stopping, no matter how much you beg,âÂ
It was a warning, a warning that there was no going back â but there was no going back from the moment you summoned this curse onto your doorstep â there was a descent into depravity, and how quickly youâd make it to the bottom.Â
The tip of his cock barely parts your folds, and youâre already whining about how full it feels â your walls fluttering as if trying to either accommodate his girth or push him out all together. He saw the faint drip of scarlet as he worked himself in, inch by inch â as your fingers found purchase in his forearms, nails digging crescents into his flesh.Â
âF-fuck, ngh, Too big, Sukuna, I canâtââ and he can already feel your pussy give the telltale flutter of an orgasm, a cry ripped from your throat, as you cum, walls only pulling him in deeper and deeper â as if they never wanted to let go.Â
And finally, finally, he bottoms out, his hips pressed flush to your aching cunt, and he stills â it had been so long since he had enjoyed the body of a virgin, but he was sure you were the sweetest and tightest cunt heâd ever had.Â
Your cries made him scoff, tears streaming down your ruined face, it made his cock twitch âyou were so small compared to him, a tiny pebble waiting to be crushed, but instead he held you in the palm of his hand. You were his to have, his to break, and his to corrupt.Â
âI told you there was no stopping,â he grunts as another hand settles on your stomach, on top of the slight bulge that came with his cock sinking into you, âcan you feel me touching the deepest parts of you?â And he takes the whimper as a yes, âget accustomed to it, because this cunt shall be my breeding ground for as long as I see fit,â
And he finally pulls out only to sink back into your sweet depths, knocking the breath from your lungs. He starts slow, if only to spare you from breaking â because he knows so easily could. The wet squelch of your cunt rings in his ears, as he watches his thick cock sink in and out of your pussy again and again.Â
 âLook at you, barely able to take my fingers and now youâre taking my cock so well,â he groans at the sight of your stretched pussy, as it took his cock over and over, molding its very shape to his length, as the slap of your skin against his became like a metronome, âsuch a perfect little whore, arenât you?â and you moaned at his words, the sound of which made your cheeks burn with shame â âdonât worry, even if you arenât, little one,â his fingers find your clit, rubbing and twisting until you come again, hard, your back arching as you do, fingernails nearly drawing blood from his arms as you do.Â
He hums, as he only fucks you through your orgasm, even as you try to squirm away from him, itâs all in vain â because youâre his now, âOi, brat, where are you going? You wonât like what Iâll do if you try to get away again â your only place now is under me,â and his hands find his way under your ass as he shifts you onto his lap, âor on this throne,â and he fucks into you, brutally, again and again, your arms clinging around his neck desperately, as a hand on the back of your head guides your lips to his, âtongue out,â he orders, and you do as he says, as the two of you meet in a sloppy kiss.Â
And his hands shift to your hips, bruising as they help you ride him, meeting his thrusts with your own, until heâs finally hitting your cervix that has you squirting, drenching him in your release as your walls shudder around him. And his lips leave yours a moment, before they kiss down your jaw to your neck, his teeth sinking into the soft skin at the juncture of your neck and shoulder, drawing a yelp from your lips.Â
He groans, a guttural noise from his chest, as he notches himself as deep as he can before cumming, his hot release spurting out and painting your walls, as he continues to fuck it deeper and deeper, the snaps of his hips finally slowing, as he pulls away from your neck, enjoying the blood that pools in the ridges of his bite mark.Â
âSuch a good little slut, arenât you?â he hums, as he cups your lolling head, eyes thick with sleep and body heavy with exhaustion, you hear his quiet voice murmur, âI was only going to corrupt you for the sake of completing the summons you gave â I had no choice if I wanted to stay on this plane, but,â he hums, as pulls his cock from you with a gasp on your lips, before he has you flipped onto your stomach in a moment, sheathing his thick length back into you in one thrust, âI think I just might keep you, brat,â your eyes flutter shut, as his words fade from your consciousness, until a mean spank to your ass jolts you from your retreat into Hypnosâs arms.Â
No â as you turned your head ever so slowly to get Sukunaâs face in your periphery â you only answered to one god now.Â
The King of Cursesâ lips curled in a cruel smirk, as he drew his hips back before slamming back in, âLetâs show the world truly how depraved you are, brat, hm? Together.âÂ
⧠a/n: this is my first time writing sukuna so i hope i was able to do him justice. i was gonna do the whole two dick thing, but i was already like...this is complicated enough lmao.
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deadpool!
âŚ.as your boyfriend.
description: deadpool as your boyfriend!
pairing: deadpool x you!
contains: 18+, mentions of sex!
|an: just saw deadpool & wolverine.. couldnât help myself.
- awful with emotions but always finds a way to make up for things whether through humor or sex.
- speaking of humor youâre never not laughing with him, or bickering, or fucking
- youâre the only person he can actually feel vulnerable and comfortable with, he cherishes that and he loves you so much for that.
- youâre his person, he would genuinely kill for you if it meant he would lose someone so important in his life.
- if someone makes you sad, mad or uncomfortable oooâŚnot his babygirl.
- he usually doesnât keep people or friends in his loop often, they could find him annoying or over the top but not you.
- you love absolutely everything about him, his outlandish humor, his extroverted personality, his big olâ mouth. you think itâs so hot.
- so hot when heâs mean to you so hot when heâs soft with you
- you literally bicker like two teenage girls all the time and he always somehow clocks your tea itâs ridiculous but you also find it impressive that he always has something to say that you cannot come back fromđ
- god you need to pray that no man ever even has the thought of coming on to you⌠heâll experience some banter with your boyfriend before itâs lights out.
- not only are you his but heâs yours! heâs super loyal and if he canât get someone to back off , you sure will!
- youâre always having fun with him date nights are some of the best times of your life, he always finds a way to entertain you no matter what youâre doing.
- always gotta hand somewhere, your ass, a singular cheek, a titty, somewhere. how could you expect him not to! youâre all his.
- you literally have him wrapped around your finger, heâd do absolutely anything for you.
- also always bullying you he is so straightforwardđ
âhon that has got to be the ugliest shirt iâve ever seen on youâ
âwade-â
âi know you got better in that closet that i snoop through and try on all your clothes when you arenât home now go!â
- heâs so tall so if youâre short oh wowâŚyouâre never catching a break
âsoooo howâs the weather down there.â wade said, placing his elbow on the crown of your head.
âprickâŚâ
âŚ
âyeah thatâs enough of that dirty mouth!â your boyfriend had announced before bending down and wrapping an arm around your behind, throwing you over his shoulder and positioning his palm on your ass.
âgod, wade put me down!â youâd laughed playfully hitting his back.
âdonât make me have to spank you!â he said, lighting pinching your ass.
- do not get an animal bc it will quickly become his center of attention and he will defend it over you.
âwade, weâre having my mom over please put it in the roomâ
âughâŚsheâs so mean isnât she sugar?â heâd said stroking your pet, followed by a âyes she is yes she is!â as the animal licked his face.
sigh.
- good lord we got a cuddle monster on our hands!
- absolutely adores any type of affection and practically begs you for it 24/7. he loves being little spoon specifically. also loves it when u scratch or message his back, bc that also gets him going..
- speaking of, you got this guy rock solid 24/7
âhungry for seconds?â he joked, hugging you from behind and pressing his hardened cock against your ass.
âwe literally jus-â youâd started just to be interrupted mid sentence.
âso! cmon baby throw a dog a bone.â he muttered, hand already gripping your inner thigh.
youâd sighed, god you canât resist him.
- it doesnât matter what youâre doing he finds anything you do hot i stg
- a M-U-N-C-H! for life, literally came in his pants from eating you out once! he loves making you feel good.
- a goofball during sex he cannot do shit seriouslyđ he be talking you and your pussy thru it!
- again, if youâre petite god help you bc he is large.
- babe, you better match his freak because yall doing anything.
- trying a new thing every night multiple times bc that sex is never vanilla and that dick is never tired! at some point heâs just making positions upđ
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I met a guy in the Summer (dilf!Konig x fem!Reader)
Your boyfriend is an asshole. Luckily, his hot dad just returned from deployment. CW and Tags: Cheating, dub-con, size kink, daddy kink, age gap(reader in 20s, Konig is early 40s), Konig is a pervert, slightly obsessive Konig, love(and lust) at first sight, fingering, dom!Konig Word count: 3713 AO3
âJust one more game, babe, donât be a buzzkill. I donât want to end at a loss.â You didnât want to be a buzzkill, of course. You simply wanted to be a good girlfriend, have some domestically cozy date, and for your boyfriend to at least try to put an effort into being with you. It wasnât much to ask for, really. You hoped so, at least. You didnât want to be an annoying, nagging girlfriend who only ever waits for another reason to yell at him, but your patience started to run thin.Â
You spend the past three hours either listening to his apathetic rambling about the shows he watched â really, you wanted to invest in stuff he liked, but an abnormally large amount of animes he talked about had 1000-year-old girls who looked like they were 10, wearing inappropriate outfits, and you started to raise the alarm.Â
You also watched him play â and also listened to his rage quitting and angry voice messages to his team that, honestly, made you slightly anxious. You never liked loud people, people who were so easy to rage about something as silly as some colorful video game with too many characters to look after.Â
So, like a good girlfriend would â you wanted to be a good girlfriend, he was such a nice guy before you started dating, and you need something to think about besides the tremendous amount of study work you are doing for college â you decided to go and look for snacks. Maybe bring something for him as well.Â
â Iâll find something to eat, alright?Â
He didnât respond at first, so you shook his shoulder. Your boyfriend took off his headphones with annoying look on his face, half-turning to look at you. You gulped, suddenly feeling like a child in front of the principal â not a feeling that you were supposed to feel around your partner, but with him, you somehow constantly felt like you were being judged.Â
â Nah, stay here. I donât want my father to see you.Â
â AhâŚyour father is at home?Â
You never heard anyone else being at the house â big house, you must admit, and itâs embarrassing almost how you never thought about his family. He lives with his dad, apparently, and the depth of your relationships can only be judged by the fact you literally didnât know what his fatherâs name was.Â
â Returned from his fucking deployment. Heâd ask too many questions about you.Â
â You didnât tell him about me?Â
Ah, now youâre hurt a little bit. You knew it wasnât anything serious or too committed yet, but you intended to make this work. To try and fix all the problems you can without ending things abruptly.Â
â He never asked. Not like he cares too much, butâŚ
An apathetic dad, huh.Â
You started to slowly piece together the puzzle that was your boyfriendâs horrible boyfriend skills. Now, you want to meet the man who conceived him and kick him in the nuts for creating such an unlovable human being who somehow captivated your chronically lonely heart.Â
â If you donât want me to come and meet him, I can go home.Â
He doesnât answer because his queue is finally coming to another match â you simply nod, knowing everything you need to. You can grab a little snack for yourself, fuck off to your dorm and rethink your life choices while your roommate is getting pounded by some gruss British bloke with an accent that makes your ears bleed.Â
You have dignity, and right now, it has asked you to get some snacks from the kitchen.Â
*** Now, the only thing KĂśnig wanted after returning from deployment was to take as many hot showers as he could, shut his bastard of a son up, and get some delicious food waiting for him in the freezer. He was already home for a few days, but adjusting is always hard when you basically fucking hate living at your own house. Of-fucking-course, his son was watching the house while he was away â and now he canât even think of a good excuse to set him off to his mother. Too old to do this, and split custody never really worked when not even one part of the relationship wanted to take care of the kid.Â
KĂśnig closes the door of the refrigerator â of course, his son took every good thing that he stashed for himself. With a groan, the colonel fights the urge to finally throw him out of the house â a thing he needed to do a few years ago, just when he celebrated his 18th, but some sentimental part of his heart instead promised to help with finding a place close to the college. No good deed goes unpunished.Â
With a groan, he takes a few steps from the fridge â and then he almost stumbles across an angel.Â
Scheisse
Now, KĂśnig never thought of himself as a predator who prefers running after college girls who might as well be his daughters. He never thought of himself as a gut who liked them young â his wife, god forsake her name, was his age when they started dating, and he hardly had any sexual encounters with a person under 25 in the past few years. Well, not like he had any sexual encounters in the past years, butâŚ
The thing is â he never thought he liked girls with wide eyes, pouty faces, and trembling hands who were holding a bag of his cookies that he carefully stashed away from his son.Â
You are wearing something cute, a nice skirt and an adorable pink cardigan that looks so cozy and warm and soft, and he fights the urge to grab your skirt and simply lift it, Youâre dressed up for a cute coffee date, and KĂśnig has to double check if he isnât dreaming and no one has decided to play a prank on him and send him a cute callgirl.Â
â Oh! Sorry. Itâs yours, isnât it?Â
You give him his cookies back â but not before your fingers fished another salty caramel goodness out of the bag, and you bit it. He looks at your teeth, at your lips, and glimpses of your tongue â god, he is an old, dirty bastard because even his baggy pants arenât enough to hide his boner. You have no right to look this pretty for a man who hasnât seen a woman in three months and hasnât had sex in the past few years.Â
You lick the crumbs from your fingers â itâs such a deliberate action that he canât believe he actually sees it, and itâs not even something from porn he used to like.Â
â Ja. You can have it.Â
He would give you the code to his bank account if you asked for it.Â
â Thank you, sir. IâmâŚwell, I assume if Paul didnât introduce me to youâŚIâm his girlfriend. Nice to meet you.Â
You lick your lips and take a step back, pressed against the counter. He looks at the sway of your hips, a bit of crumbs on your shirt, and almost brushes it away with his hands. It would be a good excuse to touch your chest â but he canât be like this, he has to keep his urges under control, or else his son will never forgive him.Â
Yeah, like he needs a better reason to throw his useless son from his home.Â
â Girlfriend? He never spoke about you.Â
You look sad, and he immediately curses under his breath. For a moment, you look too fragile â too real. He canât handle this look on a woman, especially as pretty and young as you are. You bat your eyelashes, even involuntarily, and he already prepares to give you the keys to his home just so youâd stop with such miserable expressions. He has a spare bedroom.Â
He has his bedroom with a bed that would be enough for both of you.Â
â Ah. Um. WeâreâŚI guess weâre not at this stage yet.Â
â Knowing him, youâll never be, Schatz.Â
You look at him immediately â youâre offended, angry, and sad at the same time. There is a certain stubbornness in your eyes that immediately makes him want to simply scoop you in his arms, lift you, and drag you straight to the altar â and here he thought that his impulses over getting married would be over after his first divorce.Â
â What do you mean by this, sir?Â
You look uncertain now, he can see this in your eyes â and really, knowing his asshole of a child, he is almost sure that Paul never once got you off, either physically or emotionally.Â
Now, KĂśnig never once considered himself to be a good man. He has killed countless people, overthrown many governments, and made shitty jobs for shitty people way more than saving hostages to help the good guys â and in the romantic field, itâs even worse. Wife, unsatisfied with his controlling tendencies and inability to feel normal love for a human being â and a son who hates him because, in fact, he never once wanted to have a kid.Â
He looks at you and sees a pretty young thing, still in college or freshly out of, probably without a stable job and normal social standing â a good girl wonât be with his son if she isnât stupid or extremely desperate for a relationship.Â
The thing is, KĂśnig is also extremely desperate for another warm body next to his, to feel a woman beside him, to love and obsess over someone â he looks at your pouty lips and shaky hands, at the way you bite the corner of your glossy mouth, and he almost wants to drop you on this very table and fuck you until youâre crying under him. He canât do just that, of course. It would probably make you extremely uncomfortable and scared, butâŚwell, quite frankly, his son doesnât deserve you.Â
KĂśnig is.Â
â I wonât sugarcoat it, Schatz. My son is a ScheiĂ ArschlochâŚfucking asshole, that is. Iâm surprised he brought home someone as cute as you.Â
You feel embarrassment collecting in your body. Paulâs dad is aâŚinteresting man.Â
Tall, broad, very muscular â even his baggy house clothes arenât really concealing his extremely interesting physique from your eyes. He looks yummy and tasty, and you fight the urge to eye the bulge in his pants because youâre a good girl, you donât look at your boyfriendâs dad like this.Â
KĂśnig has greying ginger hair, locks already curling slightly at the lack of cutting, and you fight the urge to sit on the counter and get your palm in his scalp, massage his head gently, and pull him closer for a kiss. You feel like a dirty, horrible woman â your boyfriend is in his room, probably enjoying his time on your âdateâ while youâre lusting over his father.Â
Then again, this date already felt like a disaster. This relationship, too.Â
â Paul isnât all that bad, sir.Â
âHe at least has a nice dick,â you wanted to add but stopped yourself. Paul is tall and somewhat strong â if he werenât sitting at his computer all day, you would call him even muscular. And he has a nice dick, yes, even though he had no idea how to use it. You liked the idea of laying with him, of spraying your jaw trying to fit all of this in your mouth, but his kinks and his sex skills being directly taken from pornâŚnot really your thing.Â
You look at KĂśnig and wonder if they are similar in all of the places. He is his father, after all.Â
KĂśnig catches your gaze locked on his bulge and smirks.Â
God, if he knew his son had such a cute girl, he would ask her to come earlier. He is two weeks off deployment and probably wonât take another long contract for a few months because they just upped his retirement payings, and he can afford to slack off a little bit, only visiting the home base for some training and instructions for rookies.Â
He can afford to retire and never worry about money again â but he needs someone to make his days less boring, right?Â
You look like a good candidate.Â
â Iâm sure my son was convincing, but I know him better than anyone. He doesnât deserve you, Schatz.Â
He is shitty at flirting, itâs not his forte â he can flaunt his money, maybe, show you in his wallet and bank account face first. He can just straight up ask you to be his sugar baby and suck his cock instead of doing your studies, but he canât flirt and manipulate to save his life. Lying isnât something he is good for, this is why his wife has left.Â
â IâŚnot sure we should be having this conversation here.Â
Youâre a good girl, and itâs infuriating. He knows that having someone in his bed shouldnât be the end goal for his leave, but he wants you, and by the look on your face, you arenât opposed to the idea. KĂśnig doesnât understand if he likes that youâre so reserved about it or if he wants you to be a bit more slutty â but he captures you in the space between the kitchen counter and presses you with his body.Â
â You want to see the bedroom then?
Pushes you so close his knee gets between your legs â it might look involuntary like he didnât exactly want for it to be placed here, but you arenât dumb, you know what he wants from you. Like a good fucking girl, youâre too shy to give it to him right about now. God, sometimes he hates being so nice to people around him.Â
â Sir, this is veryâŚ
He got you caged in his hands, body trapped in his embrace â you jerk your head upwards a little bit, staring at him like a small bird in the hands of a predator. He isnât a strong man in regard of morals, he doesnât see anything wrong with fucking his sonâs girlfriend â if the girl is up to it. And if she isnâtâŚwell, he better make sure she is.Â
â What is it, Schatz? Paul wonât hear us in his headphones.
You know just how wrong it is, and you almost want to escape â his dick grinds on your pelvis through his pants, and youâre horrified to see how big it is. Excited too, of course, he is bigger than your boyfriend ever could be, and you donât want to be a slut, but, oh well, not like you were in a committed and serious relationship anyway.Â
Paul was seeing your friends more than you ever saw them â itâs probably a sign that you should settle for someone older. You did enjoy Lana Del Rey's songs, after all.Â
â I donât want to break his heart.Â
â He doesnât have one.Â
Youâre lost when he pushes his lips to kiss you over and over again â a surprisingly good kisser, and you give in because it was the first time in forever a kiss made you feel this good. His lips are sending electricity down your spine, you want to moan just from his knee, pushing on the softness of your cunt through that adorable skirt you liked so much â you feel so small like this, so tiny in his hands, youâŚ
God, you feel like a slut, and you like it.Â
Soon enough, you answered the kiss, your lips meeting his in a dance that made you feel hot, that made you feel like your boyfriend never could. Never thinking of yourself as someone who can fall so easily into the hands of an older man, now you know that he got you right where he wanted.Â
You push your hand on his pants, trying to get the control back â but he stops you, a giant hand enveloping your wrist and pushing you back. With a surprise on your face, KĂśnig just wants to kiss you all over. God, youâre adorable, and he knows that you deserve way more than being fucked on the rough kitchen counter while your so-called boyfriend is too busy dickriding his friends in some useless online game.Â
â Not now, princess. You deserve better than being fucked on the kitchen counter, ja? It can come later.Â
âLaterâ sounds like a promise, and you bite back your moan when he keeps pushing his knee against your cunt, making you throb and clench on nothing. He is such a gentleman, you canât help but compare him to his son â and his fabulous ability to make you feel dirty after fucking you in the backseat of his car and tossing you to your dorm with your pussy still wet and messy after you didnât cum.Â
You sob, not from sadness, but from pleasure mixed with some weird, unnatural for you emotions â you feel weird, strained here like this, but you hug his neck and whisper something in his ear. Something, dangerously sounding just like âdaddy, pleaseâÂ
KĂśnig is blushing, and he looks fucking adorable.Â
â Daddy, ja? God, youâre dangerous, liebling. Going to get me in trouble with my son later.Â
He laughs when he kisses you again, his hand slipping in your panties only to find them completely soaked â he knows you deserve a nice pillow and soft sheets under your body, and he pushes you up so you can hug his waist with your legs. You rely on him like a cute pet, and youâre so perfect in his hands he curses himself for not seeing you before.Â
He is going to ruin you for anyone but him. Put so much cum in you, it will make your tummy bulge â make you his precious sugar baby, pay for your dumb college and make you move to his bedroom instead of some shitty dorm you probably share with four other people.Â
He can be good for you â but he will ruin you for anyone else, anyone appropriate, every guy your age who clearly doesnât know how to treat a lady right.Â
â So wet for meâŚsuch a filthy thing, I didnât know my son dated a whore.Â
â NâŚnot a whore, pleaseâŚ
He kisses you on your forehead, silently apologizing. You feel his crooked, scarred smile, and you push your face up to kiss him â you want to touch him so badly it makes you feel stupid.Â
â Sorry, Schatzen. Not a whore, a good girl for her daddy, ja? So nice for me, too fucking youngâŚ
â WâŚwe really shouldnât⌠â Tshhh, donât think about it. Thinking will only hurt your pretty dumb head. â Iâm notâŚ
â Quiet, little one. Let daddy handle everything.
He kisses you over and over, his fingers playing with your pussy â meaty digits digging in your hole, making you whimper from sudden intrusion. He is big, bigger than anyone else, just two of his fingers are enough to spread you as much as normal cock would, and even though youâre used to taking Paulâs size, you just know that his dad would be much, much bigger. He is going to split you open, and you will love every fucking second.Â
It feels so wrong, you still arenât sure if you want him to touch you like this.Â
It feels so right, he is experienced and eager, pushing every button to make you squirm in his grasp. Your orgasm comes embarrassingly quick â maybe because you havenât gotten off in ages, only miserable masturbation sessions and poor attempts at faking your orgasm made it feel real. Paul never cared enough to actually get you off â but nowâŚ
You arenât ready for him. You squirm in his grasp when the pressure becomes too much, and he soothes you, two fingers still buried in your soaked cunt. You feel so dirty, so wrong right now â you are cumming on the fingers of your boyfriendâs absent father, and you love every second of it.Â
Post-orgasm clarity makes you whiny and sobby, and you whimper in his shoulder when he gently lifts you in his hands. God, youâre adorable, and he knows that he just scrambled your brain with that orgasm â itâs good, really, he might just want to keep your pretty head nice and empty for him. Not like you would ever need to think in his presence, the colonel can handle everything in- and out- of bed.Â
KĂśnig holds you close, not allowing you to scramble away no matter how embarrassed you are. You are his precious thing, with a pouty face, and he will do everything in his power to make you squirm on his fingers again and again before he makes you his wife for good.Â
So impulsive, maybe this is why his son is such an asshole â taking the worst traits of his father.Â
â Donât cry, Schatzen. Youâre okay, it felt good, didnât it?Â
â WâŚwe shouldnât have. Shit. Iâm sorry, it was a mâŚgod, I need to tell Paul.Â
â Iâll tell him.Â
â No! â I will tell my asshole of a son that youâre my girl now, ja? And then I will take you to the bedroom, so we can fuck.Â
â I need to return to my dorm.Â
â And then I will dine you properly, okay? Sorry, Liebling, I know I should court you before all of thisâŚbut we can afford to go a bit off board, ja?Â
He is smiling, so smitten and obsessed over just having you cum on his fingers once â you donât have the heart to say no. Never did. Youâre a good, proper girl, and Paul was never treating you right anyway. You feel dirty, yes, but somehow, it is almost right.Â
He peppers your face with kisses, like a dog lapping its tongue all over your skin â youâre so concentrated on the warmth of his strong, seasoned body that you donât even look in the direction of the doorway to the kitchen.Â
Paul, however, looks straight at you, disheartened and shocked.Â
â WâŚwhat the fuck, dad?! KĂśnig laughs, kissing you once again â deep, hot, with tongue and loud, sloppy sounds of your mouth pressing into one another. Youâre stuck in place, still caged in his arms like a precious little pet you are.Â
â Sheâll make a good step mom, ja?Â
You donât even register his hands slowly caressing your fingers as if he already tries to check the ring sizes.Â
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A heartfelt and grievously expanded-upon update to thisâplease, please read the whole thing if you can. reblogs much appreciated.
(DISCLAIMER, for all who are saying reasons like abusive parents/legal stuff/toxic ex/triggering memories/page got deleted/job/stalkers/bullying/[[insert any other shitty life thing]], This is not concerning thatâpersonal safety & health ALWAYS comes first, and is worth more than any media ever could be. This is my biggest reason for defending that autonomy. I would be a hypocrite to say I hadnât deleted triggering posts of mine or ones that got me in trouble with my family.)
it genuinely makes me sad and kinda upset when someone purges all their old art off the internet like. barring harmful content what if someone liked that. What if someone would have. And now nobody will ever know and it's just gone. even people's old invader zim askblogs or whatever getting deleted feels like a micro alexandria to me and that's just something I made up. I wasn't even thinking of a specific one it just stresses me out. Is this the autism I don't get why nobody else seems to freak internally abt it like I do. I see artists whose blogs I've never even looked at go like "man so glad I deleted all my old stuff it's so clean" or saying they throw out art from when they were kids I'm like. how are you not hurling. How is that not distressing that is literally your tree rings why would you do that. I want to see what's out there. people want to see it I promise someone out there likes it
...don't they??? Does everyone get quietly irrationally upset by this as me, or is this just hyperfixation/autism/some amalgam of the two. I'm not a hoarder or obsessive compulsive or anything like that so i wonder..
Anyways. reblog if you had a favorite amateur youtube animator in your childhood whose channel got nuked without a trace one day that you still think about.
I wanted to attach this video because it condenses my point very well. A TLDR of sorts. Please watch the whole thing, it genuinely changed the entire way I think about art as a concept.
(2nd vid is "Subjectivity in Art")
âThe moment your art touches an audience, the ownership shifts in an irreversible way. [They're] not having an art experience with you and your intentions. They're having an art experience with the art object.
âYou can't just burn your past; it's not even your past to burn anymore. It's other people's history as well. Whether or not you like it, that art is already bonded to somebody's soul, and if you rip the art away, you're ripping a bit of the soul that has adhesive contact to it.â
The digital age makes it very easy to distance or detach yourself from the impact your work hasâbe it art, fanfic, videos, even memes. Online content is as important to people now as any other media, if not more. But it's also by far the easiest, fastest, and most effective form of it to erase from public access. Media so unbelievably important to people and in general. Yes, youâwith the 2010s purple sparkle dog speedpaint. I still think about that speedpaint all the time, because it was the first time i learned that you could draw on a computer, and I thought it was cool as hell. I still do.
I do wish there was a stronger culture of preservation and consideration for this, because every time I see people talk about snuffing their stuff because it doesn't personally resonate with them anymore, I just think ...what about all the people it did?
I've seen lots of people saying "get over it, it doesn't even matter," but it fucking does. It does matter. Even if I didnât make it, even if I donât have to deal with being the one who made it, even if I'm naturally inclined to be distressed by itâIt still matters. And thereâs nothing you could ever say to suddenly make it not matter, because thereâs nothing you could ever say to make it not matter to me.
Don't devalue the act of creation. Don't dismiss something you made. It's out there, in people's thoughts and hearts and souls, and that is real. Even if you don't know it. Especially if you don't know it. Especially in a world where physical media is being snuffed out, the internet is constantly dying without any physical remains to recover, social isolation is rampant, and simply because independently produced content online is still media.
Fanfiction can hold equal or greater significance to someone as a book, but you canât unpublish a book. Authors donât have a button that can vaporize every copy of their work across all time, but fanfiction authors do. Iâm not counting people who download fics eitherâwhen you buy a book, that transaction is over. But online, you have the power of unending transaction that can be terminated instantly at your will. The process of publishing fanfic vs. publishing a book may be different, but peopleâs connection to the art is the same intensity.
So yeah. I do get depressed about the Internet being a constant Alexandria, but the times I get the most depressed is when I click someone's page and see that all their work is gone because they're âcurating a new aestheticâ for their page or some shit. Or weeding out all the "ugly" art. Or just went on whatever the hell 'thrill deleting' is, because they just get a kick out of it.
Fuck itâyeah! It upsets me! Iâm not wrong to say that. Iâm saying it!
Under the cut, because it got long as shit! Also donât worry the ending is way sappier and more âbeauty of human natureâ vibe so itâs not all doom and gloom lol
What if that was someone's favorite art of that character. What if someone read that 'cringe oneshot' on the worst day of their life. What if that Warriors meme vid is still burned into a college studentâs mind despite being gone for 10 years. What if it's actually not just you and the ones and zeros you rent out to the worldâsecure in knowing the original will always be on your computer for you to do whatever you want with it.
I really, deeply wish there was more of a general awareness of this, because even though social media can be used like a diary, thatâs functionally the opposite of what it is. Itâs social media. When you post, itâs no longer in a vacuum, even though you canât see the real humans that content touchesâoften deeply.
Media is history. You shouldnât burn that history just because you personally believe it isnât worth saving.
Because itâs no longer just your personal opinion. Itâs no longer just your personal work. itâs. history. Memory of media is not a suitable replacement for the media itself. If it was, we wouldnât save anything at all. Nostalgia is an agent of that. The definition of nostalgia is grief for moments of the past that are inaccessible, and the biggest balm for that pain is accessing a physical reminder of those moments. That opinion of yours is no longer personal. Itâs weighed against uncountable people across all time that your thing is ALSO personal to. People who would, and will mourn its absence.
How many times have you joined an older fandom only to discover that some of its most popular works are gone? How many times have you routed through random blogs looking for scraps people hopefully reblogged? how many times have you used Wayback machine desperately praying that a fan fiction or a YouTube video will be there? How many times do you look up crunchy old vines or YouTube videos or anime AMVâs? How many times do you remember old fanfic.net sex that impacted you in middle school, only to shake your head and go âprobably no point even looking.â
i mourn the absence. No, people canât and shouldnât have their agency over what they post revoked, but they should be conscious of that weight. If youâre reading this and getting extremely annoyed, and youâre not in the pink text above,,,, good.
I honestly do hope it gets under your skin. I hope it sits with you. I hope you feel it every time you hit that button, and whether or not you do hit that buttonâif you hesitate, if you remember this, even spitefully, Iâve done my job. I am howling into the void. And I may not want an answer, but I do want my anguish to be heard and remembered. Because it isnât me just being melodramatic.
I know I sound that way writing so much, but if my favorite writing YouTuber can drop trow this week and go, "yeah, sorry, all my video essays from less than a year ago that you listen to in the car all the time? I'm "rebranding" my content so i deleted them. besides, my personal views don't really agree align with the analyses i did, or the techniques i taught in them anyway. Sorry if some of the literal tens of thousands of you used them, but I don't want to feel shackled to having youtuber "classics" tied to meâ
âŚ.then i guess I'm just going to have to sound dramatic! That fucking sucks! Hours of work and knowledge gone! This was a new channel too. Itâs very likely thereâs no archive of any kind, because who would think someone who worked hard enough to write, record, and edit hour-long videos, would just turn around and nuke it all? I definitely didnât see it coming, but I did just start a new screenwriting class a few weeks ago, so Iâll tell you at least one person is REALLY missing those fucking videos right now. Because a lot of them were about specifically screenwriting, which I know jack shit about. and that specific personâs pace, editing, and style of breaking down information was the best suited style I found that I could focus on and absorb. Thereâs no replacement for that. No alternative for his individual perspective. his jokes. his opinions.
No, they may not resonate with him now, but in this decision, heâs put up a big middle finger to everyone who might have. And he has like 100k subscribers! Those are confirmed supporters! Imagine how many silent and untethered observers are feeling this loss right now. Imagine how many will not have it in the future.
If he never posted them at all, we wouldnât know we had it. It wouldnât be a loss. But we did. We did have it. Until he decided that no, we didnât, because he just happens to be the one out of millions of individuals holding the button to burn it in a hundredth of a second.
His personal work, the attachment I had to it, and the ways that it helped me are now just ripped away. I am one person out of millions, literal MILLIONS of people who saw and liked this content before it vanished. The soul has been ripped, the access severed, and by CJâs (and my) definition, the art is functionally dead. Not for the YouTuber or anyone else lucky enough to save a link or download, but everyone else. From this point until the end of time, even if people even two weeks from now donât know it. Even if someone who stumbles upon his channel today, doesnât know it.
We only mourn the concept of Alexandria because we had some kind of scope for what was inside. Yes, maybe you got self-conscious and deleted your 12 year old deviant art account. Do you know who else is doing that?? THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS of other twenty somethings who ALSO feel self-conscious about their old socials. Art. Fanfic. One direction fan videos. anything.
Suddenly, an unquantifiable amount of information from your age groupâan entire age group in 2012, is. gone. And we will NEVER know whatâs been erased from that history. We will NEVER know what could have been significant to us ten years from now. Twenty years from now. A hundred years. A thousand.
You could have deleted a fanfic that would have been someone elseâs new go-to panic attack distraction tomorrow. You could have deleted a video someone used to laugh at with their friend who died yesterday. When you delete something, you risk tearing a hole in unknowable personal histories.
The Internet isnât just a big library of Alexandria. Itâs a library containing libraries. And those libraries have their own libraries in those libraries have their own as well. libraries inside libraries, inside libraries, ad infinitum. To conceive the amount of destroyed history on the Internet is crushing.
And I just canât help but I ask myself how in gods name people can choose to contribute to that, instead of reposting everything to trash heap alts titled âhall of shameâ or some shit.
You can offload to alts. Put up disclaimers. Make password locked blogs, or dropboxes, or anonymous imgur dumps. Anonymous reuploads. Orphan fics. Make a playlist or linktree of unlisted videos. Cut off the watermarks. Delete all references to it on your main. Make a dedicated unlisted playlist. make a google drive. Make new portfolio sites. Delete any questions you get about it. Change pen names. Pretend it never existed.
Give a heads up.
Something.
But donât. kill. the media.
The knowledge that our stuff is going to forever be tied to us is a cross we have to bear, but the responsibility that comes with putting it out there in the first place, canât be ignored.
Anyway. I'm not trying to start conflict. This is not a bash on anyone, nor a call for witch hunts. Or anon hate, or blocks and unfollows or anything of that nature. I'm not wishing ramifications or hate of any kind on anyone who does wants to do any of this.
I'm also not guilt trippingâ I am not saying that you should feel bad. I AM saying why it makes me feel bad. Thatâs not guilting, itâs a dialogue. One I personally feel is long overdue.
It's me yelling into the void: please consider the real people on the other side of the screen before you hit that button. Realize and know that whatever you're about to erase from history could be the most important thing in the world to someone.
Art is an experience. It's why we revisit it. If art and history simply lived in the matter and code of media, we would only need to look at it once. We wouldnât put things in museums. We wouldnât build libraries. We wouldnât look up vine compilations.
If you're able, consider (and I do mean consider, this is not a call to action) not destroying that. And donât shrug it off as some pretentious asshole venting on Tumblr. You only need to look in the notes and tags to see that it isnât just me. itâs never just me, or you, or the pixels.
And even if you do shrug it off, then at least recognize that what you make matters. Whatever you think about it, if itâs out there, that's not your discretion anymore. If a tree falls in the woods and even one person is around to see it, it fucking mattered. Because it happened. Donât mulch your tree rings if you donât have to. Because if enough people do it, a whole forest is gone. Media is history, no matter whether you think itâs worth putting in a museum, or only has 30 notes.
Thousands of years ago, a child named onfim doodled on his homework. Theyâre crude, and everyone has the wrong amount of fingers, and theyâre also priceless archaeological artifacts recognizable throughout the world.
the only thing separating Onfimâs doodles and your MS paint PokĂŠmon doodles is time. The only thing separating your old MS paint PokĂŠmon doodles from being a priceless artifacts, thousands of years in the future is time. Your creations are already priceless artifacts. No matter what you do, don't ever, ever deny that. It isnât blowing up your own ass, itâs artistic and anthropological fact.
The mundane and the supposedly unworthy are often the first things lost to time, and thatâs why theyâre so precious. Thatâs why artists who were before their time are scorned first only to be celebrated later. Do you think they knew that was going to happen?? What if they nuked it? Many probably did! But now thatâs happening exponentially and instantaneously everywhere, WITHOUT the artist having to destroy their only copyâwhich makes it way easier and more dismissable.
Sometimes, If youâre revolutionary enough, people will make an effort to preserve your work, but recognized and thoroughly recorded work is rare compared to unrecognized and thoroughly recorded work.
Sometimes something is beloved enough that it would be impossible for it not to go down in history, but even then it isnt a guarantee, and itâs rare. But if van Gogh burned all of his paintings in a fit of despair before his death, we would have no van Gogh. Because he wasnât respected as an artist in his time, but that wasnât what defined the worth of his art. The people after him did, because his art was still there for them.
If you rip the art away, you're ripping a bit of the soul that has adhesive contact to it. If you belittle your art, you belittle the very real relationships and emotions and revisitations people have with the media. You defy the inherent worth and weight of a creation. you created. That's effort. It's passion. No matter how flippant or unskilled or worthless you think it is, it matters. Because at the end of the day, you could have chosen to make nothing at all, and you didn't.
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ᥣđŠ I LAUGH LIKE ME AGAIN (SHE LAUGHS LIKE YOU)
FEATURING: dazai osamu
SUMMARY: four years apart and the ultimate question is about to be answered: do you and dazai really still know each other, or are you clinging to a fantasy of the past? you decide to put it to the test with a game of wits and questions when dazai gets back to your apartmentâbut as the game drags on, dazai starts to wonder if maybe he was wrong. worse, if maybe he would prefer to be wrong.
(wordcount: 14.5k; Ĺsfw; fem!reader; port mafia executive!reader, jealous!dazai, possessive!dazai, smoking & drinking, unprotected sex, switch!dazai, switch!reader, undertones of angst (happy ending). lmk if anything is missing, im rushing to get this out!)
AUTHOR'S NOTES: guys here it IS - sorry it's late, but TRUST it's worth it. i'm so proud of this fic, genuinely one of the things im most proud of writing. this is technically a part 2 to he's my collar but can be read as a standalone
It takes far too long for Dazai to make it out of the Port Mafia headquarters, with both Akutagawa and Chuuya prowling about like the dogs they are. He wonders if you tipped either of them offâChuuya, in particularâbecause the slug had been looking around like he was searching for someone. He thinks youâre entirely wretched for it, knowing that if he got caught, heâd be trapped in that damp and filthy torture chamber until he managed to finagle his way out, and he plans to make it known to you just how entirely displeased he is by the situation.Â
The path to your apartment is achingly familiar, and the giddiness in his chest is something he hasnât felt since the day he left. He knows that he should probably be more carefulâheâs still in Port Mafia territory, your apartment spans the top floor of the easternmost building of the five towersâbut he also knows that youâre the only one with direct access to the cameras in this building so heâs more reckless than he wouldâve otherwise been.Â
The floors tick up agonizingly slowly, Dazai swears that there must be something wrong with the elevator because itâs never taken this long before to get up to your place. His fingers thrum against his thigh, and his foot taps the ground impatiently. He paces from corner to corner within the small space like a caged animal. He thinks that maybe he should be taking advantage of the time alone, come up with some better excuses as to why he didnât say anything to you before he left.
âI wouldnât have left,â isnât going to cut it. As true as it might be, itâs not the full truth, and Dazai knows youâll be able to sniff it out in a matter of a few seconds with a clear head. Heâs not walking into a cheerful reunion between old lovers, heâs walking into whatâs about to be a stressful game of chess against a strategist whom Dazai has always considered a near-equal, a battle of wits against a woman whose whole life has revolved around political warfare. If he wants to keep his dignity intact and his secrets safe, heâs going to have to be incredibly cautious with what he says to you and even with how he reacts to what you say to him.
Still, he canât help the giddiness. The excitement. Heâs missed you. Heâs missed you so much that it hurts. Heâd thought that over time, the longing for you would go away, but it never did. If anything, it got worse because, over time, the pictures of you started to lack the soothing feeling they used to bring to the aching in his chest. Over time, he started to forget the sound of your voice and the sound of your laugh.
Heâd known that youâd been sent away on foreign business not long after his last call to you, but he didnât think Mori would actually keep you abroad for three whole years. Heâd been hoping, maybe, that he could stumble into you one day. Or maybe just watch from afar, get close enough to hear the sound of your voice again. Heâs been grossly denied of you for too long, and he knows that itâs of his own doing but that only makes it worse.
When the elevator dings, announcing his arrival on your floor, Dazai is sorely unprepared for the conversation about to take place. He steps into your penthouse, eyes drifting around the familiar vast space.
Like your office, not much has changed since the last time he was here. Your coffee table is still set down a few centimeters too close to the couch in the living roomâthe same couch he had his first kiss on with you when the two of you were sixteen and drunk on champagne celebrating a successful mission. You still hang your black jacket over a chair instead of properly on a hanger, itâs why it always has a crease on the backâheâd noticed it when you left your office, and he canât help but smile slightly at the confirmation as his eyes linger on where itâs draped over one of your kitchen chairs.Â
You tried to convince him that youâve changed in the years the two of you have been apart, but Dazai doesnât think youâve changed much at all.
Youâre leaning against the windows, looking down on the cityâhe knows you mustâve heard the elevator, but you havenât bothered to look his way yet. Thereâs an indecipherable expression on your face and a glass of wine in your hand. Youâre still dressed in your suit and Dazai notices thereâs a glass of whiskey on the rocks untouched on the kitchen table. He shrugs off his trench coat and drapes it over yours, hoping that the scent of you seeps into it because heâs gone too long without it.
His fingers curl around the glass of whiskey youâd left out for him, and for a moment, he swears that heâs eighteen again. Heâs making his way to your penthouse after a long mission with Chuuya, youâre expecting himâyou always areâand he can never push away the fondness that squeezes his chest when he finds you lounging back on your couch, flipping through channels to find something to watch, a glass of his favorite whiskey set down on the coffee table next to where your feet are propped up as you wait for him to show up.
He wonders if you even care to remember what his favorite is. He wouldnât blame you if you didnât.
He makes his way out of the kitchen and back into the living room, and heâs reminded that heâs not eighteen and youâre not waiting for him to show up after a mission because you finally look at him, and his breath catches in his throat.
He thinks you look a bit older now than you did four years agoâto be expected, of courseâand thereâs a coldness to your eyes that hadnât been there before. Impossibly, he thinks that youâre somehow even more beautiful than you were when he last saw you, and he realizes again, throat tightening, that even after three years of no contact with you, heâs just as in love with you now as he was the day he left.
He knew it back then before he left, even if he never said it. When he was eighteen and could only feel any inkling of pleasure when he was with you; it wasnât like heâd never tried to have sex with other people, heâd whore himself out for information at any given chance and slept around frequently after you started dating a civilian to distract himself from the bitter jealousy he felt, but heâd never known how good it was supposed to feel until he slept with you for the first time. When he was seventeen and could only ever feel comfortable in your presence, seeking you out at any given chance when he couldnât handle being around people anymore; heâd curl up in your office with your orange blanket, napping as you did work, knowing that youâd keep people away from him. He thinks he mightâve even known when he was sixteen when the two of you first met on the streets of the Kanagawa prefecture.
He wonders if you even believed him when he said it earlierâhe doubts it, you donât seem too keen to believe anything he says, and he doesnât blame you for it.Â
But whether you believe it or not, itâs yoursâthat rotted heart of his, shriveled and shabby, riddled with holes and decay, half-eaten by maggots and worms it might be, but itâs still yours. He thinks that it was meant to be yours since the moment he was born, and itâll be yours even after the two of you are long dead. He doesnât know how heâs meant to go without you againâhe doesnât think he can. He knows that despite the tentative ceasefire, the Port Mafia and the Agency are still enemies, but he knows in his heart that he wonât be able to leave you again. Even just the sight of you has condemned him completely.Â
Then you speak, and at once, his entire world falls apart.
âIâm leaving again in the morning,â you finally say, tone flat and eyes sharp and shrewd as you look over him. He reminds himself that this is not a reunion, that he needs to get his head on straight if he wants to make it out of your apartment in one piece, but itâs hard. âI was only brought back to smooth things over with the government after the whole fiasco with Fitzgerald and his American cronies. Iâll be leaving for Russia in the morning to meet with Tolstoy and Nabakov. Hopefully, gain some intel on Fyodor Dostoevskyâs plans before the man makes another move on the city.â
He⌠did not anticipate that youâd be leaving again so soon. Something cold and sharp latches to his heart, like jagged nails ripping it apart. He makes sure it doesnât show on his face.
âBe careful,â he tells you quietly. âDostoevsky⌠heâs not someone to underestimate. Just-Just be careful.â
You raise your eyebrows, unimpressed, âIâve worked with Dostoevsky before. I donât need you to warn me about him.âÂ
Your voice is cool. Sharp. Dazai sighs, knowing that anything he mightâve said to you earlier in the night is lost to you, and he doesnât know if heâll have it in him to bare his heart again, only for you to scorn it. Heâs not meeting with you as he knows youâas his closest friend, as his lover; heâs meeting with you as the Port Mafia executive. Not the version of you that treats with allies, wining and dining them with glittering eyes and playful smiles as you use your ability to ensure they never turn on the Port Mafia; the version of you that sits at the round table with enemies, with a quick mind and calculating eyes as you decide whether or not theyâre worthy of being absorbed into the Port Mafia or if Double Black will be sent out to eradicate them.Â
âI told you everything I had to say back at the office,â Dazai tries, and he wonders if youâll let him get away with itâhe doubts it, but itâs worth a shot, and it will at least stall for a few moments as he tries to forcibly turn the cogs in his mind to figure out the best way of appeasing you. âI missed you. I⌠couldnât say goodbye to you, not if I was to leave. IâŚâ
I love you.
He doesnât say it; he thinks he was only able to push it out earlier in the night in the heat of the moment, the orgasm-induced haze fogging his brain enough to let it slip out in desperation to make you give him a chance. And it worked because you gave him a second chance when you invited him back to your apartment, but Dazai doesnât know how to make the most of the opportunity. He thinks heâs a fool for not preparing for this before getting here.
You click your tongue sharply, lip curling up in something close to disgust, and Dazai is glad he didnât speak his âI love youâ because he thinks he mightâve actually cried if that was your reaction to him saying it.
âThe only things you told me earlier in the night were half-truths and sweet talk. I didnât invite you back to my apartment to hear you beg for another chance, Dazai,â you say coolly, and Dazai desperately misses the sound of his given name on your tongue. The corner of your lip curves up into a half-smirk, eyes suddenly glittering beneath the dim lighting of your penthouse as you add, âAlthough, I wouldnât be opposed to it after we talk.â
He thinks the fact that youâre already considering an after might be a good sign. He can feel his cheeks flush a bit at your words, but instead of letting himself get rattled, he takes a step forward, well into your personal space, as he dips his face down so close to yours that his lips nearly brush yours as he speaks.
âIâd beg pretty for you,â he whispers, letting his voice drop an octave as his gaze tracks down to your lips. âIâd even get on my knees.â
Unfortunately, you are entirely unbothered by the proposition. âWeâll see, I suppose,â you say, and then raise your eyebrows, signaling for him to take a step back.
He does, and he feels distinctly put out and rejected by your reaction, but he sighs and asks, âWhat did you invite me here for then?âÂ
He very much does not like the way your eyes glitter nowâshrewd this time, more amused, dangerous, as if you know the two of you are about to tread down territory that heâs going to be unfamiliar with. You nod for him to follow you into the kitchen, taking a seat at the head of the table and motioning for him to sit opposite you.
He does.
âWe can play a game,â you finally concede. Dazai settles back against his chair, fingers still tapping rhythmically against his glass of whiskey, a terrible habit that Dazai has accrued whenever he feels cornered. Not a frequent occurrence, but damning when it is. Your eyes linger on them, and he knows youâve pinpointed the tell. He forces himself to stop, but from the way your lips curl up, he can tell it doesnât matter. âTen questions each. Yes or no answers only.â
Dazai notices that you pointedly leave out any rule about the honesty of each answerâintentional, surely, so he probes.
âHow do we determine the winner?â Dazai asks. He finally takes a sip of the fine whiskey youâd poured for him, and his question from earlier is answered. His favorite. Thereâs a warm feeling in his chest at the realization that youâve remembered it even after all of these years.
Your lips curve up into a sharper and wider smile, teeth glimmering like knives beneath the soft lighting of your kitchen. The glass of wine in your hands is suddenly more reminiscent of a gun being pointed at him than your choice of alcohol, and he feels as if heâs already made some egregious mistake in your eyes.
âAfter we give our answer, the other has to decide whether or not it was truthful. In the end, weâll both see how many the other got right. A test to see how well we still know each other,â is all you say in response. Youâre mocking him and his insistence that the two of you are still the same, but Dazai intends to prove himself right. You tilt your head to the side and then say, âThe prize is to be determined by the winner. Iâll ask the first question.â
Dazai winks, a lecherous comment already on his tongue about the prize, but the withering look you give him is more than enough to make it die before he can let it loose. He pointedly takes another sip of his drink and sinks in his seat.
He thinks that this should be an easy win. Youâre quite the adept liar, but youâve always had a glaring tell. Well, he amends, itâs glaring to him, at least. Not many others would be observant enough to catch it, and even if they were, only someone with an abundance of experience with you would be able to put it together. His gaze flickers up to meet yours, wondering if your lashes flutter right before you tell a lie. Itâs such a simple and subtle tell, so casual that it took Dazai a year and a half to put together, but it was hard to miss once he did.
You hum to yourself as you give off the appearance of thinking about a question, but Dazai knows you better than anyone, and heâs certain that you already have all ten prepared, so he rolls his eyes at the faux show of uncertainty.Â
âWe both know you know what you want to ask,â he finally says. âDo us both a favor and quit with the theatrics.â
Your lip quirks up in amusement. âAnd here I was being gracious giving you more time to formulate whatever lies youâll try to get away with,â you drawl, and Dazai nearly flinches.
âYou know me so well,â Dazai sighs to hide how disconcerted he really is. âThe question?â
You stare at him for a moment, and your lips curl up into a deceptively soft smile that almost throws Dazai off because, god, heâs missed you. And he knows youâre looking at him like this just for this specific reason because youâre a despicable bitch who knows that heâs always been easily unsettled when people show any semblance of affection toward him, but he canât help the way he falters.
He tries to brace himself for whatever invasive question youâre about to ask regarding his reasons for leaving. Tries to prepare himself to lie cleanly because heâs sure youâre as aware of his tells as he is of yours.Â
Then you ask:Â
âDid you defect because of something Oda asked of you?â
Jesus. Right for the throat. You really donât pull punches.Â
Dazaiâs throat tightens at the mention of his old friend, but heâs able to keep his expression clear of the sudden pain that your question brings on. Youâre watching him carefully for reactions, gaze hawklike as you study his face, and Dazai is not about to let you pinpoint any more of his tells so early in the game.
He figures that this is an easy question; you already know the answer but want to hear the confirmation from his lips, so he decides to tell the truth.
âYes.â
âThe truth,â you say, an indecipherable expression on your face. He wonders if you want to ask what Odasaku asked of him, but thatâs not part of the game and Dazai has no intention of answering that.
Be on the side that saves people. If both are the same to you, become a good man.
You might laugh in his faceâDazai Osamu, the Demon Prodigy, a good man? The idea is blasphemous, and he thinks it might actually hurt him if you scoff or laugh in response to hearing that, so he keeps his mouth shut and doesnât give away more than he has to, hoping that you donât just straight up ask him.
You open your lips to speak, and Dazai braces himself for the prying question, but instead, you only probe, âFirst question?â
He wonders if your whole first question and the implications of it was just a means of trying to throw him off because now heâs fumbling trying to remember what he wanted to ask you before you hit him with it. He wouldnât put it past you to play dirty like thatâbringing up his dead friend and his last request just to unsettle him to give you the edge.
âDid we meet during my underground years after I defected?â he finally asks, and yeah, he knows the answer to this question. The missing half of his ear and waking up in the old safe house he used to hide out at with you is more than enough evidence for him to come to a definite conclusion, but he wants to hear it from you.
âYes.â
Dazai inhales sharply and then murmurs, âThatâs the truth.â And then, more loudly and far more affronted, he accuses, âI canât believe you shot half of my ear off.â
He expects you to toss him a wink and a sharp grin, unrepentant and even finding amusement in his offense, but instead, your expression falters for the first time since heâs arrived. Something strange crosses your face; for whatever reason, his words leave you conflicted and Dazai suddenly feels even more nervous than he already was because now he canât help but wonder what he mightâve said to you in his drunken state.Â
He supposes thatâll have to be another question, but first, heâs going to have to figure out how to phrase it to get a yes or no answer first, without being vague enough for it to be a waste of a question or easy for you to misconstrue.
You hum after a few moments, taking a pointed sip of your wine. Dazai watches curiouslyâyouâre bothered still, youâre not even trying to hide it. He knows you have better control over your facial expressions than this, so he thinks maybe itâs a ploy to get him to start spiraling down a path of useless questions. Put off by his sudden inability to discern your schemes, a part of him wonders if maybe you were right because the him of four years ago wouldâve seen right through you right now.
âIâm afraid it had to be done,â you sigh with faux regret, but he can tell from the way the smile on your lips doesnât reach your eyes that youâre not into the banter. âWere you able to fulfill Odaâs request?âÂ
Fuck. This time Dazai canât withhold the grimace that spreads across his face. He tries to keep his voice light with a deflecting comment, âMy, bella, youâre really hitting with the deep questions tonight, arenât you?â
You raise your eyebrows, tilting your head to the side as you wait for an answer, not giving him any room to formulate a response to your question. He finally sighs and shakes his head, taking a long sip of his whiskey. He wishes he had a pack of cigarettes on him, suddenly desperately longing for the pleasant burn of the smoke against his throat; he needs the buzz badly right now.
As if you could read his mind, you shift in your seat a bit and stuff your hand into the pocket of your slacks. It takes a few seconds but you fish out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter, sliding them across the table over to him. If he wasnât already so in his head over the question you asked, heâd make a quip over the fact that you still know him so well despite your insistence otherwise, but he only pulls out a cigarette and lights it, looking curiously down at the familiar brand.
âSince when did you start smoking these?â he asks quietly, eyes fluttering shut as he tilts his head back and takes a long drag of it. He exhales slowly and then adds, âThought you liked the other ones, in the green box.â
âTeal,â you correct, and then frown a bit. â... Switched after you left.â
Dazaiâs eyes flutter back open as his gaze focuses on you, wondering if the implication you left up in the air is something he can take at face value or if itâs just another way of trying to get him to lower his guard. But from the way you suddenly donât meet his eyes, Dazai thinks you might be being honest: you switched because they reminded you of him.
Dazaiâs chest suddenly feels heavy again.
â... No,â he finally responds to your second question. âNot yet, at least.â
â... Truth,â you say, and Dazaiâs lips curl into a wry smile.
âUnfortunately.â The word slips out before he can stop it.
Your gaze flickers back up to him, curious, but Dazai doesnât give you the chance to dwell on his comment, asking his next question: âDid I⌠admit anything to you that night that I wouldnât have said while sober?â
His fingers tap rhythmically against his glass of whiskey, half-empty now; heâs anxious to hear your response.
âYou did,â you confirm.
Dazai grimaces because thatâs another truth, and that is not good. But just like how he doesnât offer any context for his answers, you donât either. He doesnât know what he mightâve admitted or how you mightâve taken itâheâs going to have to waste another question on this topic.
âTruth,â he murmurs.
You hum and then ask, âDo you still blame yourself for what happened to him?â
âCome on,â Dazai complains sharply, tossing you a dirty look now. His jaw is tight. He wonders if you keep asking about Oda as some sort of sick revenge for him leaving, ripping open wounds that never properly healed so you can dig your fingers into them and twist around. You donât look bothered by his outburst, waiting patiently for a response. He lets out an angry sigh, looking away and taking another long drink from his glass and another drag of his cigarette.Â
He voices his first lie, âNo.â
You let out a puff of air, rising to your feet and making your way over to the opposite counter, you grab the bottle of whiskey and bring it back over to him, topping off his now-empty glass before pointedly holding out your hand. He passes the cigarette over to you, tilting his head back to watch you bring it to your lipsâa part of him longs to lean forward, to slide his hand behind your neck and cradle your head as he brings his lips to yours, inhaling the smoke as you exhale it, dizzy off the proximity to you, high off the buzz of the nicotine, just like the two of you would do when before he left.
He refrains, if only barely.
You exhale the smoke, a small cloud billowing around youâDazai mourns the wasteâand then you pass the cigarette back over to him. Your fingers brush his as you do, and a spark shoots through his arm at the touch.
âA lie,â you finally say, looking down at him with a frown. âYou shouldnât blame yourself. There was nothing you couldâve done to save him.â
âYou donât know that,â Dazai says tightly, averting his gaze from you as you make your way back over to your seat across from him. âIf Iâd been faster-â
âIf Mori wants someone dead, then theyâll die,â you interrupt him, a grimace on your face as you look down at your wine glass. âTrust me, Dazai, there was no saving Oda Sakunosuke.â
Dazai pauses instead of snapping again, catching the expression on your face. Haunted, as if youâre speaking from experience. He tilts his head to the side and then asks quietly, âAre you talking about your ex-partner? Itou?â
If Dazai remembers correctly, he died on a mission when you turned eighteen. You never told him the circumstances, and he never asked, but it was the first and only time you ever broke down in front of him.
The corner of your lips tightens, âIs that your next question?â
Dazai barely withholds a frustrated sigh.Â
âNo,â he says quietly, and then asks, âDid I tell you why I couldnât say goodbye? The real reason?â
He holds his breath now as he waits for your response. One way or another, this question is a double blade: if he did tell you why, then heâs at another disadvantage because heâs going to feel distinctly bare and vulnerable; if he didnât tell you, he just admitted that he lied back at your office, at least partially.Â
After what feels like an eternity, you finally say, âYes.â
The truth. Dazai wonders when youâre going to utter your first lie, if you will, or if youâre trying to make some sort of point by being honest with him. He voices his answer and then waits impatiently for your next question as his mind races.
He desperately wants to know how you responded to him back then. Would you have come with him had he come to you before he left? Or would you have chosen the Port Mafia? He wonders if he should ask, make it one of his remaining seven questions, but he doesnât know if he has the guts to hear your answer, so maybe heâll just change the subject.
âAre you enjoying yourself at the Agency?â
For the life of him, Dazai cannot figure out your angle. First, the prying questions about Oda and now asking about the Agency. He doesnât know what he expected at the start of the gameâyouâve always been unpredictable, but even more so now. Heâs never had such a hard time reading you or your intentions before.
He starts to feel even more doubtful, wondering if you were right.
Maybe he doesnât know you as well as he thinks he does anymore.
But this is an easy question, so he says the truth with little hesitation, âI am.â
Dazai swears the corners of your lips curl up into a soft smile, but itâs gone so quickly that he mightâve imagined it.
âGood,â you say quietly. âIâm glad.â
Dazaiâs lips part, a warm feeling spreads through his chest at the honesty in your tone. Desperately, he wants to know whatâs going onâwhereâs the rage and the betrayal he expected from you? The hate? Why do you seem⌠okay with all of this?
Irrationally, he starts to wonder if everything from the office was just a heat-of-the-moment conversation. If now that youâve had time to sit on your thoughts, youâve realized⌠realized what? That youâve moved on from him? That you donât care what he does anymore? That youâve accepted that heâs no longer a part of your life? The warmth in his chest disappears, edged away by a sudden coldness and desperation because he thinks heâd rather die than go back to a life without you.
Even more irrationally, he remembers the comment you made back at the office, the admission that youâve slept around since he left. Oh god, what if you really have moved on?
He knows his next question.
âThe people you slept withâwere they all one-night stands?â
He doesnât want to know the answer unless itâs a yes.
You raise your eyebrows at the abrupt shift in his line of questioning, and then, to his absolute horror, you say, truthfully, âNo.â
âWhat do you mean no?â he asks angrilyâhe thinks if he was a bird, heâd be puffing his chest out in irritation. He feels antsy suddenly, he needs to move around. He starts tapping his foot against the floor, his fingers against the glass. And again, he thinks youâre a despicable bitch because you only look amused at his question as if heâs not beside himself with righteous fury.
âItâs not your turn,â is all you respond with, and Dazai has a distinct urge to throttle you. Then you ask, âDo you feel like you belong there?â
He halts.
His fingers freeze from where theyâre tapping against the glass, his foot freezes mid-motion. His lips part as heâs confronted with the very question that heâs been struggling with for two years now. He wants to yes, if only to maybe be a little spiteful, to rub in your face that heâs somewhere good and heâs somewhere where he belongs, and itâs not somewhere with you. A cruel dig to get back for the aching in his chest at the thought of you being with other people, but he knows that youâll catch the lie, and more importantly, he doesnât want to hurt you like that.
Maybe he has grown a bit because the Dazai of four years ago nearly killed your civilian boyfriend when he found out that you were dating someone besides him and then promptly made a show of sleeping around to try to get back at you.
So, instead, he says quite honestly, âI donât know.â
You tilt your head to the side. âNot a yes or no answer, but I suppose it works. How curious.â
He hates your cryptic comments. Pointedly, he side-eyes you as he takes another long drag of his cigarette. Already, itâs nearly down to the nub, so he puts it out on your table, ignoring the distasteful look you give him, and then reaches for another to light as he asks: âWere you in a relationship with any of them?âÂ
You roll your eyes at his prying, and he cannot hide the abject horror that crosses his face when you say, âYes.â
âThat better be a lie,â he complains, and when you look at him as if to ask if thatâs really his guess, he makes a show of pushing out his bottom lip and looking away as he says: âI cannot believe you dated other people. Cheater.â
âWe were never even dating, Daz-â
âYes, we were,â Dazai protests instantly, entirely aghast at your words. âWe absolutely were. What does that even mean? Of course, we were dating. Everybody knew it. Ask anybody. Ane-san knew. Gin-chan knew. Chuuya knew. Even Mori knew. We were so dating, you-â
âYou never officially asked me to be your girlfriend, which is, unfortunately, the most fundamental step of dating,â you interrupt him, and Dazai stares at you in disbelief.
âI bought you flowers, we fucked exclusively,â Dazai complains, aggrieved. âWe were definitely dating, and you definitely cheated on me because we never broke up.â
âIf we were dating,â you emphasize the if very pointedly, and Dazai is distinctly put out by it, âthen we broke up the day you left without saying goodbye.â
Dazai withers. He has no witty comment to return fire with, so instead, he just takes another sip of his whiskey, grateful for the combined buzz of the alcohol and the nicotine to distract him from the overwhelming guilt he feels whenever you bring up how he left you.
âDo you feel like you belong more with the Agency than you did with the Port Mafia?âÂ
Your next question is an amendment to your previous on, and it leaves Dazai just as lost.
He wants to belong with the Agency. He does. Desperately. He wants more than anything to feel as at home and comfortable in the light as he does in the dark. He doesnât want to question his place among them anymore, he doesnât want to wonder if he sticks out like a sore thumb. He wants to enter the office and feel like he doesnât have to pretend to be someone heâs not, just so he can keep his place with them. He doesnât want to have to fear at every corner that heâs going to revert to old habits, and theyâll see him for the monster that he is: a monster that should have never left the dark crevices that he crawled out from, a monster with blood so black that it strikes fear in even the most terrible mafiosos.
âNo,â he admits the insecurity thatâs plagued him to the one person he feels comfortable enough with to voice it aloud. He canât bring himself to look up at you, wondering if the admission will give you some sort of sick satisfaction, if youâll be happy that heâs not finding a place he can be comfortable in without you. Instead, he decides to rush to ask his next question: âThe one you were in a relationship with, did you love him?â
He thinks that the question came across as far more timid than he meant it to be, and his eyes slide shut as he waits for your answer.
âThere were multiple I had relationships withââ Dazai scoffs, of course, there were multiple. ââ...but no, I did not.â
He lets out a soft puff of air, shoulders slumping a bit in relief. But his fingers are still tense around his glass, waiting for whatever question youâre going to ask next thatâs going to dig deep into open wounds, stripping him of all of his masks and armor to force him to lay himself entirely bare in front of you.
âDid you really blow up Chuuyaâs car before you left?â
His eyes fly open at the sudden change of pace in your questions, noting the smirk curling at the corner of your lips and the amusement glinting in your eyes. He accepts the olive branch quickly as he gives you a sharp smile and asks: âWhat do you think?âÂ
Your hand flies to your mouth to muffle a laugh, and the smile on Dazaiâs lips becomes a bit softer as he watches you desperately try to get yourself under control. âYouâre insane, you know that?â you finally say, still trying to bite back giggles. âHe was so mad. Raged about it for weeks.â
Another question pops into Dazaiâs head at the mention of Chuuya, and before he can consider whether or not he actually wants to know the answer to it, he asks: âSpeaking of Chuuya, was he one of your trysts while I was gone?â
Suddenly, you are not laughing, and suddenly, Dazai regrets speaking.
âNo,â he says, shaking his head. âDo not tell me-â
âHe was,â you confirm.
Dazaiâs glass of whiskey is empty.Â
He grabs the bottle and drinks right from it, miserable.
âI think I wouldâve rather been stabbed through the heart,â Dazai says mournfully, and though he keeps a faux-light tone with you, his throat feels like itâs swollen, and he feels a bit sick to his stomach.
Heâs always been jealous of the bond you have with Chuuya. Absurdly jealous, even. You clicked with him quicklyâyou clicked with both of them quickly, and maybe it was a matter of the three of you being the youngest of the Port Mafiaâs uppermost echelon, but Dazai doesnât want to attribute it solely to thatâbut the way you clicked with Chuuya was different from how you clicked with Dazai. Two people so completely human locked away in the dark, clinging to one another to maintain some sense of normalcy; your and his casual humanity made Dazaiâs lack of it irrefutable and glaring.
Regardless of the why, he never liked how close you were with Chuuya.Â
Even before you were dating himâbecause you were dating himâa part of him had always felt sidelined whenever the three of you hung out together. Not because of either of your wrongdoings but just because it was hard for him to keep up with the two of you. He always felt a bit lost trying to, unable to follow along when the two of you would start laughing at jokes that he didnât understand even when you explained them to him, when you would share glances with one another that spoke whole conversations he wasnât privy to. The two of you got along in ways that Dazai would never be able to get along with anyone because thereâs just something fundamentally wrong with him at his core. Chuuya, for all of his talk and fear regarding the question of his humanity, has always been so unfailingly human in ways that Dazai, to this day, cannot fathom to understand.
After you started dating himâbecause you were dating himâit only got worse because heâd see you with Chuuya and wonder if you were better off with someone like him instead. Dazai doesnât know how to treat you right, clearly. He canât even treat himself right; and Chuuya has always been the epitome of a gentleman, loathe Dazai is to admit itâAne-san drilled that into the other boy where Mori only taught Dazai how to be cruel and unforgiving. The line between love and obsession has always been a terribly blurry one for him, and you have always wavered on either side of itâand Dazai, unfortunately, does not love healthily and obsesses so entirely that it would have most people running for the hills.Â
For better or for worse, youâre not most people.
In his spiral of insecurity, he doesnât catch the way your brows furrow as you put together some puzzle pieces. âDazai,â you say suddenly, drawing him from his thoughts abruptly. Thereâs an accusatory look in your eyes that he really does not like. âWere you the one that booby-trapped my fucking apartment?â
Dazai snorts.
âYou bastard,â you snap at him, and Dazai canât help but bite the palm of his hand as a means of trying to stifle his laughter. âMori thought it was a goddamn assassination attempt. He kept me under watch for weeks because of you. I couldnât leave the towers without half of the Black Lizards with me.â
âSorry,â he coos, not sorry at all. Dazai, because he clearly doesnât know when to learn his lesson, then he promptly asks, âAm I better fuck than Chuuya?â
âJesus Christ, Dazai, get off the topic of Chuuya and my sex life, itâs clearly only upsetting you,â you snap at him instead of answering the question. Dazai wants to argue and retain some dignity; heâs not upset, but then his entire world is shattered by your next words: âI am not answering this question.â
Dazai blanches. He can feel the blood drain from his face. Heâd thought this was an easy question to make him feel a bit better. What do you mean you wonât answer? Does that mean Chuuya-
No. Dazai refuses to believe it.
 âNo way,â he says, shaking his head. âHeâs not a better fuck than me. You canât possibly-â
âHeâs not,â you finally say, and Dazai audibly lets out a sigh of relief. âBut if you ever mention anything along the likes of that to him, you will never fuck me again, Dazai Osamu. Do you understand?â
Dazai is too relieved to even argue. âYeah.â
âNo more questions about my sex life,â you say firmly, and Dazai doesnât respond, but he does agree internally because he doesnât think his heart can handle any more scares like that. Your eyes sharpen again, and Dazai braces himself. âWere you the one to tell Mori I lied about being sick so I could skip out on the ball Mishima hosted when we were seventeen?â
Dazaiâs eyes narrow right back at you and rather than answering, he shoots one of his own questions at you: âWere you the one to tell Mori I had his contact in my phone as âignoreâ?â
You take his lack of an answer as an affirmative, correctly so. Dazai has no regrets about ratting you out to Mori because he was not about to attend Mishimaâs event without you on his arm. Heâd rather die.Â
âYou bastard, do you know the lengths I went to fake being sick? I wanted one night to relax without people breathing down my neck.â
âIf I had to go, you had to go,â Dazai retorts petulantly. âI was not about to suffer with only Chuuya as company. You had no reason to tell Mori about the contact name besides to be petty. I fought with Chuuya for weeks because I thought he was the one to do it.â
You choke on a laugh. âChuuya was so mad, he had no idea what you were talking about.â
âHe tied me to a pole and swung me around for three hours,â Dazai complains, but thereâs a smile on his lips as you burst into laughter, unable to stifle the giggles that spill from your lips.
âI know,â you wheeze, âI got it on video. We watch it sometimes when weâre bored and canât find a movie.â
Dazai gapes, and you laugh harder, but for the first time in four years, Dazai finally feels⌠at home, he feels comfortable in his own skin again. Heâs back in your penthouse, heâs drinking his favorite whiskey and smoking his favorite brand of cigarettes, youâre sitting at the kitchen table with him and laughing your head off at his expense, and for a moment, Dazai feels as if nothing has changed: he feels like himself again, eighteen and entirely enamored by the sight and sound of you, and you feel like you again, all of the doubt that had begun to rise to his chest as the two of you played the questions game long gone.
He falls in love with you all over again. Harder this time. Faster. He thinks heâll fall in love with you again and again every day for the rest of your lives, each time more than the last, no matter how impossible it might seem.
He thinks maybe itâs not that he feels like he belongs with the Port Mafia more than the Agency. He thinks that itâs you. Youâre the one he feels at home with. Youâre the one heâs comfortable enough to be himself with. Youâre the one he belongs with, always has, and always will.
After a few moments, you finally manage to get yourself under control, still giggling a bit as you look back up at him. Your smile is softer now, eyes gentle, more genuine than the smile you gave him before asking the first question. Dazaiâs breath catches because when was the last time you looked at him like thisâthe last time anyone has looked at him like this? A warm feeling spreads through his chest; Dazai thinks he would stay in this moment forever if given the opportunity.
âAre you happy?â you ask quietly
Dazai blinks, startled, and an odd feeling spreads through his chest once your question registers. His lips part to answer, but no words leave them; he draws back as if heâs been slapped, a bit flustered and confused because thatâs the furthest thing from what he expected you to ask. He wonders if youâd asked the last three questions to lull him into a false sense of security.
âI-â he starts to say but cuts himself off. âWhat kind of question is that?âÂ
He tries to deflect instead of properly answering, frowning, but you only raise your eyebrows, pointedly keeping your lips sealed to let him know that you expect an answer. He shakes his head and then sighs, bouncing the question in his head a few times before going for a cop-out: âWhen Iâm with you? Always.â
Youâre not pleased by his decision, frowning as you look away from himâhe knows thatâs not what you asked, not really, but you should have been clearer with your question if you wanted him to give you the answer you expected. But he doesnât like the sudden disappointment on your face, it leaves his skin itchy and his chest longing for the soft look to return.
So he sits there, ruminating on the question. Is he happy? He should be, right? Heâs saving people. Heâs on the way to fulfilling Odasakuâs final request. He has a whole group of people whom he can rely on without having to fear being taken advantage of or betrayed at every corner. Heâs happy.
But is he trying to convince himself of it? Why is he still trying to kill himself if heâs happy? Why is there a part of him that feels lonely no matter how surrounded he is by people? Why is it that when heâs at his lowest points, the only two people he wishes he could be with are you and Chuuya? Why does he ache for the days heâd spend dragging the two of you around Yokohama, causing trouble for Moriâthe closest heâs ever felt to enjoying life?
âI donât know,â he finally amends his answer, looking down at the bottle in front of him and the cinders of the cigarette dangling between his fingers. He lifts it to his lips again, taking one last drag of it as he tries to figure out what his last question should be.
Thereâs only one pressing question he has left, but he hesitates, unsure if he really wants to know your answer.
He forces it out anyway.
âWould you⌠would you have come with me back then?â His voice is quieter than he intended, cracks over âmeâ, and to your credit, you donât react to the question, expression as eerily still as it was before, as if youâre considering your words.
A yes or no. It shouldnât take this long for you to answer. Each second that passes feels like an eternity, and Dazai suddenly feels anxious, he doesnât know why he asked this question because if the answer is noâif itâs no, thenâŚ
Finally, you let you a soft sigh, taking a sip of your wine as if to prolong his agony.
Your lashes flutter before you speak.
You lie for the first time that night.
âYes.â
Dazaiâs voice sounds far away as he says, âThatâs a lie.â
âI guess you were right,â you say softly, but you sound so distant, like youâre on the opposite side of a long, empty tunnel and not sitting right in front of him. âWe do still know each other decently well; you got them all right.â
Dazai doesnât care. In fact, he would have gladly conceded a loss in this game, and he wouldâve gladly admitted that maybe the two of you donât know each other as well as you used to if it meant that he got the last question wrong because then he wouldâve just given you a coy expression and asked if youâd let him get to know this new version of you too. You wouldâve said yes, and he wouldâve made quite the pleasurable night out of it for the two of you. Instead, he had to insist that nothing has changed, and now he has to come to terms with the fact that he was right and he had known you well enough back then to know not to ask you to leave with him because you would have chosen the Mafia over him.Â
Heâs so lost in his thoughts that he doesnât even notice you approaching him until youâre leaning on the table next to him, index and middle finger coming beneath his chin to tilt his face up toward you. He looks up at you through his lashes, eyes searching your face, but he only finds another blank slate that he canât read. His breath hitches when your hand slides from his chin to cup his cheek, and he canât help the way that he leans into your touch, eyes fluttering shut.
âI would choose you over so many things, Osamu.â You speak his given name for the first time in years, but he can hardly find any comfort in it because he knows heâs not going to like what youâre about to say. Your fingers card through the tips of his hair, brushing the dark locks behind his ear as your thumb sweeps over his cheekbone. âBut not over the Port Mafia. Just like how you didnât choose to stay for me.â
âItâs not the same,â he says, voice hoarse. âItâs-â
âIt is,â you interrupt, voice deceptively gentle, and he thinks youâre entirely unfair because he can hardly focus with your touch distracting him. Heâs missed it so muchâheâs gone four years without it, without any type of touch that wasnât him getting his shit kicked in by Kunikida or an enemy. âYou didnât choose to stay for me. I wouldnât have chosen to leave for you.â
âWhy?â Dazai asks tightly, and he hates that when his jaw tenses, you smooth your fingers over it, and he unclenches it immediately.
Thereâs a sadder look in your eye now as you give him a small smile. âYou know why.â
Of course, he knows why. He feels the hatred deep in his gut as his mind draws back to Mori. Because thatâs who the issue is. Itâs not the Port Mafia. Itâs not your friendship with Kouyou. Itâs not even your friendship with Chuuya thatâs the issue. Itâs Mori and your undying loyalty to him. No matter how much you claim to despise him, bashing him every chance you get, sneering at him whenever he tries to treat you like his daughter, Dazai knows that when it comes down to it, youâll always choose him. Youâd throw yourself on a sword if he asked it of you, and not for the first time, Dazai wants to spit in the manâs face for making you feel as if youâre eternally indebted to him for rescuing you from that warzone so many years ago; for making you feel as if youâre nothing without the Mafia, nothing without him.
âYou donât owe him anything,â Dazai says tightly. âYou have to know that by nowâyou donât owe him anything.â
âI donât want to have this conversation, Dazai,â you sigh, sounding tired. Your hand drops from his face, and Dazai longs for your touch again instantly. His fingers twitch from where theyâre resting on his lap; he only barely stops himself from reaching out for you. You try to smile as you change the subject, but it hardly meets your eyes, âItâs a tie then. No prize for either of us, hm?â
Dazai is not so inclined to switch the subject. He wants to press on this now that he has the chance; he doesnât know if heâll ever be able to rip you out from beneath Moriâs thumb, but he needs to at least try⌠but youâre leaving again in the morning, and Dazai also does not want to ruin this night with you. He doesnât know when heâll get another.
So, instead, he matches your half-assed smile as he looks up at you and says, âI didnât say you got them all right. You only said that I got them all right.â
You raise your eyebrows. âDid I get any wrong?â you ask, amused.
No.
âYes.â
âLiar,â you say, but thereâs a fond lilt to your tone as you let out another puff of air, the smile on your face finally reaching your eyes as you look down at him. The soft lighting of your kitchen casts a pretty glow over your face, your smile is so entrancing that Dazai thinks he could stare at it forever.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he breathes out, the words slipping from his lips before he can stop them. âIâve missed you so much.â
Heâs sure he must look like a fool right now, entirely enamored by the sight of you, unable to even fathom drawing his gaze away. He wonders if youâll protest again, call him a liar, and shift away from him.
You donât.
The smile on your lips falls, and a wrecked expression crosses your face as your eyes search his. Your lips part to speak, and he waits with bated breath for whatever youâre about to sayâhe thinks that if you deny him again right now, it might completely shatter all of the walls heâd so carefully built to protect himself.
âIâve missed you too,â you whisper as if youâre scared to speak the words out loudâand how can he blame you when the last time you dared to speak them, he hung up on you, never hearing from him again until tonight.
God, the guilt he feels whenever he thinks of you returns with a vengeance, so intense that Dazai starts to feel sick to his stomach. He canât handle it, so he does the only thing he knows how to do to distract himself from it.
His movements are clumsy as he pushes himself up to his feet, nearly tripping over the leg of his chair, and his fingers feel clunky as he lifts them up to cup your cheeks. For a second, he fears that you might move away from him, but you donât, so he leans in to press his lips against yours.
Thereâs no tenderness to his kiss. Dazai kisses you like he wants to consume you, lips sliding messily against yours, blunt nails indent crescents into your cheeks as he holds you close. Usually, he would be embarrassed by his blatant desperation and lack of finesseâheâs never been a sloppy kisser, when the two of you were younger, you would always let out pleased hums into his mouth, lashes fluttering as he worked his lips carefully against yours, tongue sliding against your own as he traces his name on it.Â
All of his finely honed skill is thrown out the window now as he kisses you like a man who has been starved for years. He has been starved for yearsâthe quick fuck in your office did nothing to quell the longing heâs felt for you the past four years. He could kiss you for hours. Days, even, and it still wonât be enough. Nothing short of an eternity with you would be enough to make up for the four years heâs been deprived of you.
He lets out a low groan into your mouth as you nip at his bottom lip, hands sliding from your face down to your hips. Heâd take you here. Right now. But he remembers the last time he tried to fuck you on your kitchen table, it ended with him choking on the barrel of your gun as you yelled at him for being gross (âI eat on this table, you heathen!â) and heâs not particularly in the mood to set off your temper now that he finally has you in his arms again, so itâs with much restraint that he grabs you by the hips to walk you back into your bedroom.
He can hardly concentrate as your fingers twist the hair at the nape of his neck, soft moans slipping from his lips, muffled against your mouth. Itâs only sheer instinct and muscle memory that has him making his way from the kitchen and down the hall. He canât bring himself to separate his lips from yours for even a second. And heâs a mess because heâs not coherent enough to force himself to breathe properly through his nose, so his lungs are burning and his head feels a bit light, but he doesnât care so long as it means he can keep kissing you.
Turn left, turn right, second door from the end of the hall.Â
His fingers fumble for the knob of your bedroom door, pushing it open a bit too hard, considering the way he hears it slam against the wall and how you tug his hair hard in retaliation. He doesnât care, moans a bit louder even when your nails scrape his stinging scalp, and you let out a derisive noise against his lips before biting down hard enough to draw blood.
The taste of iron makes a slow smile curl at his lips, walking you back toward the bed, and itâs only when your knees hit the edge that you finally pull away from him. âIf you broke my door, youâre fixing it, Osamu.â
Dazaiâs smile is lecherous. âIâm gonna break something alright,â he croons, relishing in the way you immediately roll your eyes at him. Itâs all so familiarâhe can almost pretend that he never left, that nothing has changed since the two of you were eighteen, dumb, reckless, and in love.
Before he can press you back against the bed, he feels your fingers drop from around his neck to his waistband, curling around his belt loops. In an instant, youâve twisted the both of you around, and suddenly, itâs the back of Dazaiâs knees pressed against the edge of the bed as you push him down onto the mattress. He hits the sheets with an âoofâ and a hazy smile, surrounded by the scent of you, drowning in the sight of you. He thinks he might be in heaven.Â
You shift on top of him, straddling his waist; Dazaiâs hands instantly come to rest on your thighs, sliding up the sides to grab your ass and pull you more firmly onto him. He groans when he feels you grind down against his cock, and god, heâs already hard just from kissing you. He hears you snort above him, but Dazai doesnât even have it in him to be embarrassed.
His lips part in a silent moan as you lean down to ghost kisses along his jaw, hands sliding up his chest. He feels you wrap your fingers around his bolo tie and tug it, you let out a sharp noise of distaste against his skin before murmuring: âI hate this ugly thing.â
He lets out a huff of laughter that quickly breaks off into a moan when your lips trail to the spot behind his ear that always makes him writhe. His fingers bite into your hips, pushing you down on him as he rocks his hips up into youâshit, he might be able to cum just from this. His cock is straining painfully against his beige pants, twitching as he grinds up against your clothed cunt. He thinks maybe if he fucks his hips upward a few more times, he might be able to push himself over the edge, but as desperate as he is to chase his release, he refuses to cum anywhere but inside of you.
Plus, he thinks heâll be shamed to hell and back if he finishes in his pants with you hardly touching him.Â
âThen strip me out of it,â he gasps, lashes fluttering as your teeth graze his pulse point right above the edge of his bandages. Fuck, heâd give anything for you to bite downâriddle him with marks he canât cover so he can flaunt them off to everyone who looks at him. Dazai knows that there are countless men and women out there whoâd die to be able to be called yours, he wants them to know heâs the only one who can take that honor. âWhatâre you waiting for?âÂ
You hum and then sit back on his hipsâhe bites his bottom lip raw as you unintentionally put even more pressure on his cock. Heâs half dazed out, not realizing that your grip tightened on his bolo tie until you straight up yank it off of him, snapping the string around his neck.
âNo!â he complains, watching with wide eyes and parted lips as you fling the now-broken bolo tie off to the side of your room. âNoooo, whyâd you do that? Iâm going to have to order a new one.â
âBoo-hoo,â you say dryly, hardly paying attention to him as your fingers curl around the hem of his vest, pulling it up over his head, snorting when he lets out a puff of irritation as his nose gets caught around the collar.Â
âThis is so unsexy,â he protests, rubbing his nose. âShouldnât you be more gentle?âÂ
âStop wearing so many layers of clothes,â you retort, but Dazai is placated when you lean back down to kiss the corner of his lips, lashes fluttering as his eyes slide shut. He lets out a pleased hum as you kiss down his jaw, nimble fingers unbuttoning his final layer of clothing. He wishes he wore an undershirt just to watch you huff in annoyance. His breath catches as you nip at his skin and then murmur, âThis better?âÂ
âYeah,â he breathes out, voice wavering as you get down to the last button of his shirt, sliding it off of his shoulders and easing him out of it. His body shudders as your hands slide over the bandages wrapped around his abdomen. Fuck, itâs been so long since anyoneâs touched him beneath his clothes, even with the bandages still acting as a layer between the two of you, his nerves are on end, sensitive to everywhere your fingers touch.
He wonders if youâll pull off the bandagesâitâs a line that the two of you only crossed once back then, and although the idea of it has him brimming with anxiety, he longs for the feeling of your skin flush to his.
He almost feels a bit embarrassed when you sit back again to admire him as if thereâs not a scar-ridden body hidden beneath the bandages. You look at him like heâs beautiful, like heâs not a monster disguised as a man, like heâs human. Dazai has always felt distinctly seen beneath your stare like you can see through all of the masks he wears and see him for him, and that has not changed over the past four years.
Heâs missed the comfort of it. He has. It used to unnerve him back then, thinking someone could see him so clearly when he tried so hard and so carefully to hide himself beneath layers of impenetrable masks, but after going four years alone, with no one for him to turn to, no one he could look at and have them just know what heâs thinkingâŚÂ
Yosano once mentioned offhandedly that to be loved is to be seen, and Dazai thinks the only time heâs ever been seenâtruly seen, down to his core, deep in his soulâis when heâs with you.
It was a very lonely four years without you.
âI thought about you every day,â Dazai tells you softly, the grip on your hips easing up as he looks up at you. âMade a list of places I wanted to bring you and then burned it because I never thought Iâd get the chance to be with you again. Stared at old pictures of you all the time, couldnât sleep without thinking about memories with you. Drank your favorite wine just so I could pretend I was tasting it off your lips.â
You bring your hand up to cup his cheek, and Dazai leans into your touch, eyes fluttering shut again. He kisses your palm, humming softly when your thumb runs along his bottom lip.
âThere wasnât a single day I went without you crossing my mind,â you admit quietly and Dazaiâs breath hitches as he stares up at you, dark eyes wide and lips parted. He thinks he should say something, anything really, but itâs a lost cause. You donât seem to mind, luckily, because you only lean down to brush your lips against his again.
This kiss is softer than the last, lips trembling against yours as your tongue dances along his inner lip. He thinks his cheeks might feel wet but he doesnât dare acknowledge it; you donât either, only using your thumbs to brush away the tears as they spill over his cheeks.
âAre you really leaving again in the morning?â he finally asks, and he hates that his voice cracks over the words.
You hum in agreement, still hovering over him, still running your thumbs along his cheekbone. His lashes droop shut, but he forces them back open as you speak. âI am. Bright and early. Flight leaves at six.â
His gaze flickers to the left, over to where your alarm clock is set up on your nightstand.Â
12:35
He looks back at you, eyes swimming with desperation.
You give him a soft, wry smile. âWe should make the most of the night then, hm?â
He doesnât waste any time on that.
His grip on your hip tightens, and in one swift motion, he flips the two of you around, elbows resting on the mattress on either side of your head as he hovers above you. Your eyes glitter as you give him a coy smile, and again, Dazai falls in love.
Then, he ruins the moment.
âTell me how you fucked Chuuya.â
Your smile drops. âOsamu, what the fuck?â
âTell me,â he pouts, nudging his nose against your cheek and peppering soft kisses on your cheek and down your neck. His knees drop to the bed on either side of your hips, holding up his weight as he reaches down to unbutton your slacks, sliding them off your body. A smile flickers onto his lips as his fingers graze your pantiesâdrenched, finally, evidence that heâs not the only one so affected by this. âTell me. Were you on top? Did he take you from behind? Was he rough? No, itâs Chuuya-â
âIf you care so much about how Chuuya fucks, Osamu, how about you go fuck him yourself?â you interrupt him.
Dazai gags.
âDonât ever say that again,â he says and then returns to his mission, fumbling with his own pants now as he tries to yank them and his briefs off, unable to hold back the relieved sigh when he finally frees his cock, unceremoniously tossing them to the floor. âTell me.âÂ
âWhy do you care so much, hm?â you ask, reaching up to brush his hair out of his eyes. âI told you that you were better.â
Youâre only trying to deflect from the question and he almost lets you succeed, partially placated, but he stays strong, leveling an unrelenting stare onto you as he waits for your answer. You sigh heavily, and he knows heâs won.
âNot rough,â you say as if Dazai hasnât already come to that conclusion. Chuuyaâs had a crush on you since the three of you were sixteen. Dazai assumed he had grown out of it, but evidently, he was wrong, considering he took the opportunity to sleep with Dazaiâs girlfriendâbecause you were his girlfriendâthe moment Dazai was out of the picture. What a little snake. Dazai needs to vandalize his apartment again. Maybe set up a few more bombs. Heâs only drawn back from his mental spiral when you start talking again: âHe took the lead. Wanted to see my face the whole time, make sure I was okay.â
âHow gentlemanly of him,â Dazai saysâheâs not bitter. Heâs not.
âIt was,â you agree, too genuinely.
Dazai squints at you hard.Â
âDonât look at me like that,â you say. âYou asked.â
âYou donât need to sound so wistful.â
âOh, shut the fuck up, Osamu, Iâm not wistful.â
âHow-â
âAre we going to talk about Nakahara Chuuya all night, or are you going to fuck me?â you interrupt immediately, looking increasingly incensed. Dazai only raises his chin at you pointedlyâyouâre the one that slept with Chuuya. âTime is dwindling, Osamu.â
Okay.Â
Dazaiâs gaze flickers back to the clock and then back down to you, withering a bit under your irritated stare. He sighs and leans back over you to kiss the corner of your lips, fingers curling around the hem of your panties to slide them off your legs.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he murmurs against your skin, his kisses linger against your skin now as he drags his lips down to your jaw. âThe thought of him being with youâŚâ
It makes Dazai want to do terrible things. The part of him that he locked up deep within rattles at the bars of its cage, furious and bloodthirsty. The trigger finger heâs been so careful to tame twitches with a desire he hasnât felt in four years. The thought of anyone being with you makes Dazai sick to his stomachâDazai is the only one who should get to see you like this, be with you like thisâbut the thought of Chuuya being with you is so much worse.
âYouâre all Iâve ever wanted, Osamu,â you tell him quietly, fingers intertwining with his hair as he nips at your neck. âNo matter how much I slept around, nothing was ever able to fill the hole losing you left. Not even Chuuya.â
Dazai exhales, shakyâthe guilt returns, and so does the doubt because what right does he have sitting here being petty about what you did while he was gone when he was the one who left you behind without so much as a word? His eyes flutter shut, he spares a few more chaste kisses across your throat before lifting his face back to yours, kissing you gently.
âLet me make up for lost time then,â he says softly.
He doesnât hesitate now, one hand dropping down to your thigh, lifting it to wrap around his waist as he presses his hips into you. His breath shudders when his cock slips against your folds, a low moan spilling from his lips. He has to reach down to angle himself properly, tip pressing against your tight hole.
The fingers of his free hands are shaky as he lifts them to cup your cheek. âLook at me,â he says, heat spreading through his abdomen when he realizes you already can hardly hold your eyes open, quick breaths escaping your lips as you try to keep yourself from cumming already. âLook at me, I want to see you.â
Your eyes flutter open, lidded and heavy as you look up at him, and Dazai thinks that maybe he could cum just from the expression on your face alone, inhaling sharply as his thumb drags across your bottom lip. He thinks maybe he should try to get ahold of himself, fearing that if he pushes inside of you now, he might cum on the spot, but his cock is aching so badly that Dazai thinks he might die if he doesnât feel your heat around him immediately.
It takes all of his strength to keep his eyes from sliding shut as he pushes inside of you, desperate to see the way your face twists and your breath catches. Your lips tremble, chest rising and falling rapidly, he can feel your thighs tightening around his waist, and Dazai groans when your heels dig into his lower back, forcing his hips flush to you, burying his cock deep in your cunt. He chokes, grip on your thigh bruising; his abdomen tightens, and his head feels light.
No way, he thinks, gritting his teeth as he tries to hold back the waves of pleasure threatening to tear through him. He hears you let out a huff of laughter beneath him, and Dazai would shut you up with a sharp thrust of your hips, but heâs still desperately trying to regain control over himself, so he thinks thatâs maybe not the best idea.
His forehead drops to rest on the pillow next to your head, lips brushing your ear as he lets out a low moan. He canât even savor the way you let out a full-body shudder, fingers coming up to toy with the hair at the nape of his neck. Fuck, youâre so tightâDazai can feel your walls tightening around him, spasming, his breath is shaky, and he tries to distract himself by pressing his lips to your skin, mouthing messily at your skin, sucking and nipping and counting to ten as he tries to settle down.
But itâs hard with the soft sighs youâre letting out, the way your fingers catch on his tousled hair, tugging enough to make his scalp sting. His head is so fogged that he can hardly think straightâgod, heâs missed this, he hasnât had the comfort of letting himself go like this in⌠since he left, really. His mind is always turning, plotting out ten, twenty, thirty steps in advance in fear of making a mistake, slipping up and letting the rest of the Agency see him for what he is, slipping up and their lives being the price just like with Odasaku. Itâs only with you thatâs ever comfortable enough to finally let the cogs in his brain slow and shatter, lose himself in carnal pleasures, lose himself in you; itâs been four years since heâs last had a reprieve from his own brain.
But he only lets himself slip halfwayâtonight isnât going to be about him, itâs about you. He has four years to make up for and he intends on getting a good start on it tonight.
He pants quietly as he lifts his head enough to bite your earlobe, tugging it gently before pressing his lips to your temple. âIâve missed this,â he admits, voice raspy and clogged thick with emotion. âIâve-â
He can hardly get the words out, and his breath catches when your hands slide from behind his head to cup his cheeks, forcing him to look at you. He thinks he must look wreckedâhe can already feel the sweat beading on his forehead, and he knows his eyes are probably glazed over. You still look stunning, a soft expression on your face as you look up at him as if heâs not buried to the hilt inside of you.Â
Unfair, he thinks mournfully.Â
âWhat're you still holding onto, hm?â you ask, and Dazai only barely registers your words, sinking into your touch as you brush matted hair out of his eyes. He can finally bring himself to roll his hipsâexperimental, slow, trying to make sure he can actually move before trying to fuck you. Then you sigh softly, and heâs too out of it to try to make out the expression on your face as you say: âYou work yourself so hard⌠always have. Iâve got you, you can let go, Dazai. Câmon.â
âNo,â he hums, but his voice is strained, evidence of his struggle. âTonightâs about my favorite girl.â
âFavorite?â you tease, lifting your shoulders off the bed to ghost a kiss against his lips that nearly has his hips stutteringâthe conversation so reminiscent of one that the two of you had at seventeen it almost makes him smile.
âOnly,â he amends quietly, kissing your nose, then the corner of your lips, and then nipping your jawline.
Just when he thinks heâs good to actually start picking up the pace, intent on fucking the thoughts out of you until you forget about your stupid flight in the morning, he catches a suspicious expression on your face, one that has his eyes narrowing.
âWhat?â he asks dubiously; your eyes are glittering in a way that he knows from experience is dangerous.Â
You donât say anything, just look pointedly at your thighs, then up to his shoulders. Dazai tilts his head to the side, recognizing what you want, and after a momentâs hesitation, he slides your legs up above his shoulders, folding them to your chest, eyes nearly rolling back at the new angle. Fuck, his hips do stutter this time, breath hitching. He has to readjust again, mentally focus on not cumming on the spot, and then-
And then you say: âHe had my legs like this.â
A trick.Â
Dazai knows it.Â
Youâre trying to make him let go of the thin thread of self-control he still has. To give in. To let all of the gears in his brain finally fall apart for the first time in four years.
He knows it.
He falls for it anyway.
Dazaiâs jaw tightens, gaze snapping down to you only to catch a goading look in your eyes, a sly smile on your lips that Dazai has every intention of fucking right off your face. He inhales sharply, one hand sliding up your body to grab your chin, blunt nails digging a bit too deeply into your cheeks.
âYeah?â he says, voice rough.Â
Your lashes flutter and lips part as Dazai pointedly jerks his hips up. Your breath catches over a moan, and Dazai knows that this new angle is affecting you just as much as it is him.
âMhm,â you agree, and just like that, the thin thread snaps.
He snaps his hips into you so hard that your bedframe bangs loudly against the wall behind it, quickly setting a steady pace, nice and deep, quick enough that you canât even get a breath of air to your lungs before Dazai is fucking it right out of you. Already, heâs so fucked out that his mind is in shambles, one hand settling on your hip to hold you in place as he thrusts his hips into you, hitting that sweet spot with each stroke while his other hand, still cupping your face, slides down to your neck.
He doesnât squeezeâwouldnât dare to cut off the pretty noises spilling from your lips, moans of his names, choked gasps and cries between each rock of his hipsâbut the fact that you trust him, him, enough to have his fingers wrapped around your throat is always a quick way make him topple over the edge.
His eyes dart down to your chest, realizing, very unfortunately, that you havenât taken off your button-up yet. He nearly bites down on his tongue in frustration as his hand comes down to your chest, careful to keep the pace of his hips as he hooks his fingers around the first button just to yank down, popping off half of the buttons of your expensive dress shirt and haphazardly pulling it off of you to toss it to the side before fumbling with the clip of your bra.
âOsamu,â you hiss, and Dazai revels in the way your voice wavers with each thrust, biting back moans. âThatâs the second-â
You donât get to finish your sentence. Dazai tosses your bra over with your discarded shirt and dips his head down to wrap his lips around your nipple, tongue swirling around the sensitive bud before rolling it between his teeth, and youâre goneâDazai lets out a muffled groan around you as your back arches up into him, crying out his name, walls tightening around him as you cum on his cock.
âOh-f-hah-fuck,â Dazai gasps as he rests his head on your collarbone, grip on your waist tightening.Â
He has to physically force himself to lift his head, bracing his forearm on the mattress next to your head, desperate to see the way your eyes roll back, he can already feel himself teetering over the edgeâthe lewd sound of skin-on-skin, the sloppiness of his cock driving in and out of your cunt, he can feel your cum dripping down his cock, smeared on his pelvis.
His hand slides behind your head, lifting it from where you have it pressed against the mattress. Beautifulâthe only thought that can run through his hazy brain is of you and how perfect you are, lips swollen and bitten raw, parted as pitched moans escape them, tears spilling from the corner of your eyes as he fucks you through your orgasm and right into a second. Heâs the only one that should ever get to see you like this, with your clever brain fucked right and dumb, body writhing against the bed as you cling to him.
He leans down again, trailing sloppy kisses against your neck, gasping as he starts to feel his high approaching.
âNo one makes you feel like this,â he says, or maybe he begs, heâs not sure if heâs making a statement or pleading for you to tell him itâs the truth. âTell me. T-shit-tell me.â
âNo one,â you sob over another moan, and Dazai can feel your pussy fluttering around himâhe wonders if heâs already fucked you into a third. Usually, it takes longer. âNo one, Osamu, youâre the only one.â
And thatâs the only thing he needed to hear to give him that final push. His steady pace shifts into a more erratic one, sloppy and desperate, as he chases a high thatâs just out of reach. His moans are muffled against your skin, teeth scraping your collarbone, mind a jumbled mess of thoughts of you. He feels your fingers trembling as you lift them to his cheeks, pulling his face up to press your lips against his, and thatâs all it takes: he lets out a wanton moan against your mouth, pressing your legs further into your chest as his hips still against your ass, finishing deep inside of you.
Spots dance in his vision, head buzzing and ears ringing; he swears his orgasm lasts an eternity, body shaking and shuddering above you, letting out breathy moans into your mouth. He can feel his cum dribbling out of you, pooling onto the sheets beneath the two of you, so much of it that you canât even keep it all in you.Â
He doesnât let his lips leave yours onceâthe kisses are messy and sloppy, devoid of all of the finesse that the two of you usually have, teeth nearly clashing, tongues sliding against each otherâs.Â
Itâs only when his vision finally starts to clear and his head feels less on the verge of passing out does Dazai finally trails kisses from your lips to your jaw and down your neck before he finally collapses on top of you, mind entirely gone, like heâs floating on clouds. He pants as he tries to catch his breath, eyes lidded as he absently trails kisses along your chest and collarbone. He thinks the world could be ending around the two of you, and Dazai wouldnât even have the capacity to notice. For the first time in four years, he really, truly allows his brain to rest.
He doesnât know how much time passes, eyes drooping shut as he lets himself be enveloped by your arms, drowning in the comfort of your scent.
He doesnât want to know. Heâs scared to look at the clock and check.
âTonight was supposed to be about you,â Dazai finally complains, burying his face in your chest as he pouts.
You only let out a soft laugh above him. âWe have the rest of our lives for that⌠You deserved a break, Osamu.â
The rest of our lives.
Dazaiâs throat tightens, vision blurring a bit at the thoughtâhe can only barely bring himself to respond, and the words that slip out are not what he means to say: âI never thought Iâd get to be with you like this again,â he admits, voice hoarse. âI never thought-â
âI know,â you interrupt, voice quiet, a bit shaky. â... I know.â
Of course, you know.
He canât bring himself to say anything else, so he doesnât, sinking into your arms and allowing himself the comfort heâs deprived himself of for so long. He almost starts to drift offâand god, he canât remember the last time heâs dozed off willingly, only able to sleep after drinking copious amounts of alcohol or taking an even more copious number of sleeping pills. Itâs not until you speak again does he stir back awake from the brink of sleep.
âWhat did he ask of you? Oda, I mean,â you finally ask, fingers brushing through his dark hair, lulling him further to sleep.
Dazai thinks that youâre cruel, asking him while his mind is still fogged from the exhaustion following his high, and heâs still half asleep in your arms, trying to regain his bearings. The words slip out before he can think twice, forgetting his fear of you laughing at the idea of him trying to be a better man.
âHe asked me to be on the side that saves people⌠if both are the same to me, he wanted me to be a good man.â
The words dawn on him too late; he can hardly bring himself to look up at you, scared that heâs going to find an amused expression on your face or a derisive sneer. He wouldnât blame you, heâs thought the same about himself ever since he left the Port Mafia, doubt and self-loathing riddling him with every step he takes in the light. He waits for the scoff, he waits for the laugh, he waits for-
â... I think he would be proud of who youâve become, Osamu. I think youâve fulfilled his request.â
Dazai does look up at you now, feeling particularly vulnerable, still scared that he might find a mocking expression on your face but he doesnât. Only an uncharacteristically soft expression is painted on your face as you look up at the ceiling, a genuine oneâa small smile and a look in your eyes that makes his heart feel warm. You donât notice him looking until he lets slip out:
âIâve missed you so much,â he whispers.Â
(I love you, he means)
âIâve missed you too,â you say back quietly.
(I love you too)
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heyy how are you! i have this idea that wont leave my head, the reader is scared of love and runs away from it and keeps pushing anyone that tries anything away, but klaus does everything to prove to her that his intentions are pure, and after he does with a little while, she find out about him being a hybrid (maybe she gets really scared) and he has to grovel his way into her life
Mendable Inside Your Ribs
Y/n, all her life, had reached for love and then felt her white-knuckled dying grip on it slip. Then suddenly, Klaus comes in her life looking like the light at the end of the tunnel â and maybe, just maybe, their monsters have more in common than they originally thought.
Warnings - Mentions of animalistic urges, monstrosity, blood, wounds and bruises but it's all in a metamorphic manner (well, except for the blood) Word Count - 3.2k
Finally, Anon, I'm posting your request! I'm so sorry I took so long, but I truly hope that you find the wait worth it once you're done reading this! I could've written this in an entirely different and simpler manner, but I was already half-way through it already written it in a poetic/metamorphic way, so I hope you guys still enjoy it for I am quite proud <3 Please do tell me if you do!
Y/n, all her life, had reached for love and then felt her white-knuckled dying grip on it slip. So many times had it happened that now she was found sat with her hair tangled, dried blood and dirt on her face and inside her nails with crooked teeth, clawing at her own skin sitting in a corner, rocking herself back and forth to comfort herself as she saw love creeping towards her with a smile so sinister that it could make shivers run down the devilâs spine.Â
From her parents shaming her for wanting something so simple as love, to her romantic partners whoâd always stumble a couple steps back upon realising just how hungry she was for love â how animalistic she could get just for an ounce of it.Â
All of it turned her into a person as cold as a tombstone standing over a dead personâs grave, unfeeling and unmoving.
But when she would feel, it felt like her own heart was pushing her head under the water, holding her in there until she had only one more breath left in her. It made her want to snarl and to hiss, to bite and to claw at the person who made her heart leap out of her chest.Â
Which would then make her turn and run the other way as fast as her feet could carry her, back to the corner where she belonged. Sometimes she would raise her head and look at the walls inside of her, reading the numbers she had madly tally-marked on them to keep track of just how many days she had kept herself chained there. And somewhere along the passing time, sheâd begun defeatedly losing count.
Yet as she sat in that very corner and raised her head this time, she saw something bright. Almost like a light at the end of the tunnel. So sheâd gotten forward on her hands and moved on her knees, curiosity pulling her forward until she reached the border which sheâd have to cross to get to the other side.Â
And thatâs when she saw him standing there â Klaus Mikaelson. Smiling down upon her like she was the cutest lamb heâd ever come across, instead of falling backwards because he actually saw the love-hungry animal that she was.Â
So, she had taken it upon herself to back off, and ran away from him. But horror crept over her and held her tight when she saw that he had followed her back inside, back to her corner where she resided.Â
âLove,â she heard him whisper as he brought his open hands in front of him, wanting her to place her own calloused ones in them and come with him.Â
But she never did, always turning away with a growl so that heâd leave. But every time sheâd look his way to check if heâd finally left, sheâd find him still standing there, with that same smile and those same open arms.Â
âGo away, Klaus,â she said coldly, looking away so her dead eyes wouldnât have to witness hurt flash through his starry eyes.Â
He wanted nothing more than for her to see herself the way he saw her. Wanted for her to know that he was the one whoâs undeserving of her love, actually. He was the animal here, not her.
But she profusely denied all of his pleas and begs, holding herself strictly uptight so that she wouldnât fall into pieces upon him and crush him under the weight of all her grief, anger and tragedy.Â
He just couldn't seem to get through to her, no matter how hard he tried. So he just decided to remain persistent, and show her how truly pure his intentions are via small acts. Like buying her gifts that he knew would matter to her, such as those small plants that never grow, or random postcards that he knew she put up on her walls, or books that heâd annotated for her to get her to take a glimpse into the way he saw her.
But sometimes, those acts got rather intimate. Like that time he brushed her hair for her for a week long when she had broken her wrist, or that night when he took her feet in his lap to massage them gently after sheâd given her best performance on stage. Hell heâd even gone as far as to cook for her on especially hard nights so that he could feed her his love.Â
And maybe he was just growing delusional now, but he was beginning to feel like she was taking down her walls around him brick by brick. She no longer glared at him with those ice cold eyes when he would enter into a close proximity to her, nor did she sneer at him to go away.Â
Instead, he saw her eyes grow a little wider when heâd enter the same room as her, the dead stare tucking itself away for other people as some life took a dive in her eyes. And he heard a lullaby in her voice when sheâd greet him back, her body turned towards him and eyes on him to give him all of her attention.
Thatâs how he knew that he had brought her away from that corner and back to the very border, again. And he also knew that he now had to tread carefully so that she wouldnât go back, tumbling away from him.Â
And Klaus didnât know if the Salvatore brothers telling her all about the supernatural world, about who The Klaus Mikaelson was, was his fault or not.Â
But what he did blame himself for, was for lowering his guard when heâd brought her just one step away from crossing the border and loosened his grip on her because the moment she was told about his past, not only did she go fumbling back but she also left crescent moons dug in his shoulders from when sheâd been shaking him, sobbing loudly and crying out for him to tell her that all of it wasnât true.
But Klaus couldnât lie to her, so heâd stood frozen with tears spilling from his eyes as she ran back to her corner, tally-marking another day after so long that her eyes had taken a moment to adjust to the darkness that surrounded her again, this time, more like an evilly laughing capturer instead of holding her in itâs arms like a pitiful mother.Â
Y/n awoke this morning with her eyes puffed up, it happened every time she went to sleep exhausted out of her mind. And as the flashes of last night began reeling through her mind again, her eyes grew moist and her vision grew blurry while she climbed down the stairs to go into the kitchen.Â
Grabbing a glass of water she chugged it down, leaning over the sink and mumbling to herself that everything was fine, that she was fine. Her eyes remained shut but tears slipped out regardless, sniffling sounds echoing through her house as she tried not to retain any of the information that had been dumped on her.Â
âHeâs a âŚhybrid,â Stefan had said, looking at her through his lashes like he was talking to a child about how tooth fairies arenât real. Â
âAnd whatâs that?â She asked, a feeling in her gut telling her that it was, in no way, a sweet creature.Â
âHeâs half vampire, and half werewolf,â Damon finished saying behind her.Â
Breath was knocked out of her lungs at that. Sheâd always had her suspicions about some certain people surrounding her, like Stefan and Damon themselves, but never once had she felt anything remotely scary when Klaus would stand in front of her.Â
Perhaps it was because of his big starry eyes, and those unruly blonde curls that he kept trimmed for some reason. Or those dimples that would shy away from her gaze and that mouth which would always stretch into a smile upon her sight. Or, those hands that held her so gingerly, and those feet that held the weight of her body as he carried her home.Â
And maybe it was the fact that heâd never once told her about this himself, that hurt the worse. He had lied to her, or kept the truth from her, dare she say to defend his honour. But it felt like a punch square in the chest when she learned about the blood that stained his hands, his clothes, his face and his mouth.Â
Despite that horrifying revelation, she had run straight to his home and shouted at him to come outside. And the moment he had, she was pushing and shoving at him, putting her hands on his shoulders and shaking him, crying â âtell me they are lying! Tell me that you arenât what they say you are, that you have no blood on your hands!âÂ
âTell me!â She had broken down, resting her head on his chest as she let out the sobs.Â
âTell me this wasnât your intention!â She shook him again and Klaus had opened his mouth to agree with her, but she had fallen to her knees then, looking up at him with tears staining her cheeks and blood swirling in her eyes.Â
âPlease donât take me home,â she had told him despite the hot tears streaming down her face and fog settling in her mind. âI can never go home now,â she whispered, scared.Â
Home was something that was supposed to be a constant in one's life, that one returned to every single day. And there hadnât been anything like that for her until Klaus. And now that the shelter of his frame had been uprooted and thrown away, cold rain scraped at her skin all over again as she scrambled around to find her corner to go back to.Â
She didnât want that corner to be her home but time and time again, it was proven to her that it was â whether she liked that or not.Â
Taking deep breaths to gather herself, Y/n went back up to her room to get ready for the day â knowing that all she was going to do was read and write and water her dying plants and maybe bake some biscuits that she was never going to get Klaus to taste now.Â
And just as she came back to make her first cup of tea, she heard a hissing sound and turned to see a paper that had been folded into half. It had been slipped in through the crack underneath the door.Â
She picked it up and opened it, immediately recognising Klausâ handwriting.Â
Y/n,
I know Iâve wounded you deeply by keeping who I truly am from you. But spending so much time with you, Iâd somehow mistaken myself to be just the Klaus Mikaelson that you saw. I'm the one whoâs wrong at that part, forgive me for it. I never meant to lie to you, perhaps, I was waiting for the right time. But itâs never the right time, is it? Iâve learned that now.Â
And while Iâm sure the brothers told you enough, Iâd still like to introduce myself to you all over again. This time, by laying all my defences down. I shouldâve said it then and there, but something came over me and I couldnât form words. But I hope youâd believe me when I tell you that hurting you was not my intention â itâs something far far away from what I truly do intend.Â
My family is hosting a traditional ball tonight. Please save this sick lover of yours a dance. And, you need not fret for I have brought you a dress, come outside?Â
Yours truly,
Klaus
A deep weight rested itself on top of Y/nâs chest as she slowly walked towards her door, and opened it. Sheâd been expecting to see Klaus, but instead there was a box on her porch with a silk bow resting on top of it. She sat down and brought it to her lap, opening it to reveal a blue dress, folded neatly inside the box.Â
She knew she was going â there was no doubt about that. But what did gnaw at her, was the chance of what would happen when sheâd get there. She wanted to accept the feeling that told her he wouldn't hurt her. And yet, a tremor coursed through her body as she sat and sipped on her tea, waiting for the evening to roll around.Â
She wanted for him to unleash himself and show her who he truly is, so that she can love him for him. She didnât want to fall in love with just his bruised upper skin â no. She wanted to get to know him, inside and out. Wanted to know what his guts found intimidating and what his soul found peaceful.Â
But if he wasnât going to show her that, then nothing could ever make her clean herself up and rid herself of all the wounds that had been inflicted upon her, so that she doesnât bleed on him from the cut that he didnât inflict. She had a feelling that maybe, just maybe â there monsters had more in common than they thought they had.Â
There must be a reason behind the blood tainting his skin, perhaps, it was thrust upon him for all she knew! Maybe he didnât want to be the monster that he had been turned into.Â
And if thatâs true, Y/n wondered if she would still want to unravel him if it turned out that he was just a monster that had no other driving force apart from some personal fun.Â
So she dressed herself up for the night. Prepared to listen to him and ask him questions if he wouldnât have answered them already in his explanation.Â
Entering the mansion that she always ran far away from, Y/n took a huge breath before wandering her eyes around to search for the one and only. And It didnât take long before their eyes locked, with him already looking at her with rather guilty eyes and a relieved smile for she had shown up.Â
Walking to her, Klaus took in a shaky breath as he fixed his suite. He was nervous, hell, scared even. Honestly, terrified that tonight might be the final time he would see her and the final memory heâd have of her would be of her sprinting away from him for she couldnât bear the sight of the ugly monster he had ended up growing into.Â
âYou came,â Klaus smiled, looking at her with those same starry eyes except tonight they were shining because of the sheen layer of tears glossing them up.Â
âYou asked me to,â she shrugged faintly, her mouth cold to sight but her eyes were big and almost smiling up at him.Â
With her hand still in hisâ from when he had bent down to kiss the back of it, Klaus walked her over to the vacant balcony â nothing to witness the tragedy but the sky that had itself gotten dressed in its best constellations and ornament, the moon.
Klaus wanted to believe his heart when it told him that she would listen to him and try to love him, but his headâs juxtaposition was not gentle. It prepared him for the worst, reminding him of how no one had ever loved him before, and no one would now. For all that was true, he had only gotten worse over time.Â
âTo hurt you, was never my intention,â he whispered, his big eyes looking into hers.Â
âIt is true that I am a Hybrid â a vampire and a werewolf. It is also true that Iâm covered in blood from head to toe, from my bones to my skin, I am drenched in it.â
His legs were growing jittery and breathing was becoming harder to do than it should be. But his hold on her hand only tightened, tears collecting on his bottom lash line.Â
âIt is true that I am a monster. One with a heart that doesnât beat and a soul that feasts upon the love it never gets,â with his free hand, Klaus wiped the tear as it slipped down the slope of his cheek.Â
She only stood still in front of him, urging him with her eyes to go on. Her own breathing ragged as she began seeing him and listening to him
âBut I need you to know, before you leave tonight,â his voice shook as he stole his eyes from hers for a second to gain back his courage, as all of it had been spent the moment he mentioned her inevitable departure. âThat I would never hurt you, I never can, hurt you,â he assured her, searching her eyes for anything.Â
âI truly am in love with you. And I will take forever to show you that if thatâs what youâll ask of me,â bringing her hand to his chest, he rested it there. âI want you to lay yourself bare in front of me so that I can show you that even your ugliest is loved by me,â he whispered.
âSay something, please,â he almost cried, his voice cracked, not having anticipated her departure to come so soon.Â
âI â,â Y/n began, her voice hoarse due to not having used it for so long. âI think I can love you, Klaus,â she uttered, looking away from his eyes, fearing that he was going to deny her heart upon realising just how ugly and bruised and beaten it is.
Upon the realisation that sure, her insides are a million colours â but they are all shades of blue.Â
And when the deafening silence got too much for her to bear, she turned away from him to make a run back home.Â
But her hand felt to have gotten caught in something and she was pulled right back, into a hard and vulnerable chest as her mouth felt something soft press itself hardly against it.Â
Klausâ mouth.Â
His mouth was on hers and one of his hands was curled against the back of her neck while the other cradled her face with force.Â
Everything inside of her erupted into flames as she tilted her face to better mould it against hisâ, and fisted the curls on the nape of his neck, pushing him further into her while bending her back to accept the force.Â
âSay it again,â he breathed, breaking the kiss and resting his forehead on hers, his tears slipping from his eyes and falling onto her cheeks.Â
âI think,â she exhaled sharply, trying to catch her breath while her eyes remained stuck on his mouth. âI think I can love you,â she confessed again, instantly moving her lips in sync with hisâ as he kissed her desperately, finally.Â
âMy heart â it is shabby and broken but itâs already yours,â she choked out. âAnd itâs only mendable inside your ribs,â her shoulders shook as she cried, now fisting the shirt of his collar to keep him close to her.Â
âMy love, your heart â it, it is safe with me,â he breathed with her, trying to calm his racing heart down. âAnd my heart will forever beat on your command,â sniffling, he tucked her hair behind her ear, gently lifting her face to seal his confession by breathing in her breath and letting her take away hisâ as he pressed his mouth against hers, once again.Â
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Could you write a continuation of yandere satosugu where the reader lived and they try everything to help her get better and care for her?
| making up for mistakes | yandere satosugu x reader |
-> continuation of the first part: link đ
you had survived the almost suicide attempt you so carefully & yet so carelessly attempted. you were sure you werenât getting up after this. damn it you made sure to hit your head hard, you could see blanks, you could see stars in your eyes until it all faded to a peaceful nothing-ness.
now, youâre awake again. nothing hurts. you know they mustâve told their friend shoko to aid in your injuries. you feel like youâve woken up from a long slumber. unwanted as it may be⌠it does make you feel eerily refreshed. you stretch your limbs from the bed, theyâre going to kill you for this. kill you for hampering with their property. oh well â at this point youâre fine with it. whatâs it going to do? hurt you. pain is all there is they could ever offer anyways. maybe you can scream out and wish it gets over. thatâs all you set your mind to.
you look to the side, the curtains are open and there is a little drizzle of snow. it brings a smile to your face. what if you hadnât been kidnapped? it wouldâve been so fun to hop into one of the lovely cafes you like & order some hot cocoa. put both your hands and wrap them around the ceramic of the hot cup and exhale in utter relaxation of the aroma the sweet cafe has to offer. oh⌠happy days.
its nauseating what your life is now, wrapping a blanket around yourself and checking down below. you are wearing clothes, decent clothes⌠not the sultry, slutty ones that satoru forces you to wear. you feel like you could throw up when the reminder occurs again. beaten up like you were nothing but an animal, throwing up in pain and anxiety--
"there we go! princess! awake! oh my god!" satoru comes in and hugs you tightly, his bulky arms wrapping against you, he doesn't let your mind have the time to panic. besides, satoru was... not the one who inflicted you that pain. even though he did nothing about it, in a moment of pure misery, your mind would latch on to him for comfort. "baby- you scared daddy, please don't do that ever again. fuck! i thought i lost you." you could hear the heartbeats on your snow haired man, they were ragged and reminded of the same panic you once bore.
"sorry." your eyes lack all emotions, just a soft murmur escaping you. the haunting realization that you were alive was eating you up. even so, it was your soul that had died. it's the dejected way you answered that makes satoru panic even more. immediately at your knees, leaning against your thighs and mumbling soft apologies, tears wetting your skin. "please baby, I'm so sorry, i should never have let that happen... you did a mistake that's all! you- you- pissed us off." he shakes his head, hugging you tightly.
your hands robotically landed across his hair, caressing. "it's okay, i did wrong, i understand."
your responses were making him nauseous, he hated seeing you in pain, but suguru always says its something that's needed. why is it needed? you're not an animal, are you? the ways with which satoru and suguru try to 'discipline' their toy they are delusional enough to call their lover is insane.
"i got breakfast, little one." now, your heart sinks. you hear the voice of the man who did this to you, mothering, now that his rage is faded into pure, eviscerating guilt. "you have no idea the joy it gives me seeing you awake." suguru hums, and you latch onto satoru, hugging him tightly. satoru's heart skips a beat. this was not the first time you had reached out to him, yet, you did it by your own. it gives him a sick sense of protectiveness. "he wouldn't do anything to ya baby, suguru loves you too." he reminds, looking at a devastated suguru.
"please don't hurt yourself again, angel" suguru hums, leaning in and kissing your forehead. it makes you sick to your stomach, how they treat you right now. you know that whatever you did yielded no results. and they are ever so careful about the same. you're pretty sure you'd have either of them by your side at all times.
"let's go and eat, suguru's made your favorite!" satoru chirps, happily holding you princess-style and going to the dining area. your eyes wandered to the other room on the way, the same room where this all happened, it's making you panic internally. the grotesque reminder of how they treated you. you're about to throw up again.
as soon as satoru puts you down, you run to throw up in disgust, nothing comes out except a few drops of water. your stomach is empty as is. a large, looming hand caresses your back. "I'm sorry, angel. please relax." suguru-- it's suguru...
"i'm sorry." you answered, "i am so sorry." you nodded to get back to the dining area, you should know better than to be with satoru. its not like suguru wouldn't do anything he wants anyways... you'd just like to have some comfort over it.
luckily for you, the breakfast went fine, you were eating quietly, while satoru just observed you. how uncomfortable you looked, the subtle shift in your demeanor. every tiny thing. suguru is essentially doing the same, gazing at your way and observing you. "you look beautiful." suguru comments, and you force a smile from the deepest pits of your psyche. "thank you, suguru."
you know he's ticked off, you need to call them 'daddy' and you're here, addressing them by their first names. sigh... they just have to help you heal, there isn't anything they can do about it really. they pushed you this far, and they should make up for it.
however, as days turn into weeks, satoru and suguru are forced to face the haunting realization that your mental and physical health is worsening. you barely eat, barely talk... you just, stare into the nothingness of empty spaces. satoru has avoided missions to take care of you. he is by your side, sleeps next to you, kisses your forehead, helps you take a shower. while earlier, you tried to at least pretend and work with it. answer however you could, talk to them, fake your smiles, now its nothing. you barely talk.
this time, satoru has a mission to take care of, but suguru is the one who's spending time with you. gently placing you on the bathtub, caressing your forearm, massaging it, decorating it with petals. "there we go little girl, there we go. feels nice?" he coos, and when you don't respond, sighs weakly. he wishes he could at least hear something out of you. when he sees you immersed in auto-pilot, he hums by himself; "yes, yes it is." he has to talk to himself in hopes that its you talking to him. "you know, me and satoru... we were thinking a trip to Italy sounds nice, or maybe Paris.." you used to love travelling, he hopes that would utter out a response from you. NOTHING comes out of you however. that makes suguru's heart break a little, "or maybe, anywhere that you like." he hums, sighing.
"angel?" he asks softly, leaning in and kissing your neck, maybe that would at least earn some leaning back. your resistance...
none.
"talk to me for fucks sake!" suguru snarls, glaring hard at you. you don't even flinch at that, contrary to your earlier flinching and tweaking. a sigh escapes him and then comes bubbling tears. he has truly fucked you up. the haunting realization finally hits him. he can't live with it anymore... it's choking the very fiber of his being.
the rest of the shower passes by in a haze, and suguru is quiet, tears dripping from his face. "what should i do so that you become normal again?" he asks again, pouting and begging with his eyes. no response...
he gets up after tucking you in bed. the dark circles in your eyes are an explicit example of how less you're sleeping. sometimes you wake up with irritating nightmares, screaming and crying. that's the only moment when satoru and suguru are welcomed by your affections.
suguru sighs, he needs to win you this time. or maybe... what's that called? stockholm syndrome?
or maybe, he needs to discuss with satoru about erasing your memory...
or maybe, he needs a curse that can shove your memory off and then they can date you.. from scratch...
either way, they're not leaving you. anytime soon.
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â PRAISE with QIMIR/THE STRANGER
wc: 786 | content: p in v smut, i was again reasonably tipsy while writing this
ââgood.â he breathes the word into the skin of your shoulder, watching intently as you work.
you wonder if he does it on purpose; if heâs feigning complete obliviousness to how suggestive he sounds. like right nowâ saying good like that when all youâve done is properly mix a poison the way he taught you. maybe itâs because youâre a quick study when your reward is him.
when you first met qimir, you thought he was just like every other apothecary owner you utilized when necessary: clumsy, generally oblivious, a drunk who saw nothing wrong with being intoxicated before noon. to your defense, he played the part very well. it was only when you mentioned that youâd be extending your stay for a while and could use some work that you started to see the cracks in his facade.
spending so much time with him gave you a glimpse into his true personaâ something darker, yes, but instead of scaring you off, it drew you in. you had a feeling that there was more to him underneath his baggy clothes and perpetually messy hair, but you never thought that all youâd have to do was let him teach you his trade in order to find out what more was.
âgood,â he says again now as you insert the stopper into the vial of poison. âthatâs perfect.â
you chew on your lip as you think about the last time he said that to you. âanything else you need from me?â
he hums, fiddling with the material of your sleeve at your wrist. âstay while i close up?â
you never understand how heâs able to get you to do what he wants so easily until youâre in bed with him.
his arms are so much more built than youâd imagined, his whole body really, and the first time he used that hidden strength to get you exactly where he wanted you, the words âthank youâ genuinely slipped past your lips. you told yourself you were thanking the maker.
you do a lot of thanking the maker these days.
he moves differently in bed than he does in all other aspects of his life. here, heâs fluid, powerful, commanding. and he spares no detail.
âyes, yesyesyes,â he moans out when you sink down on him, his hands gripping your hips tight enough to leave bruises, slowly beginning to guide you back and forth. âjust like this. you know how to do it.â
your hands are gripping his shoulders, anchoring yourself to him while he clutches at your back, and your hips seem to move with a will of their own. you donât care if it exhausts you. if his pleasure is at your own expense.
âthere you go, pretty girl,â he says, voice deep with desire, passion, for you. âlet me see how good you are.â
you lean forward and press your lips to his, let him pry you open with his tongue, pull depraved sounds from your mouth. his hips cant up into yours as you do everything he taught you, everything that you know makes him feel good.
it makes you feel good too, knowing youâve earned every gasp and moan and touch he gives you. heâs a different animal when itâs just the two of you, and you love knowing that youâre the only one that can bring it out of him.
âqimir,â you whine into his mouth, right when he hits that spot inside of you that has you seeing white. âgood?â
you need to hear him say it. he needs to tell you.
âso good. so warm, so tight, so beautiful, fuckââ his hand is between your legs, thumb brushing you with practiced ease. âalways my good girl.â
âonly me?â you canât think properly, not when it feels this good, this right to be so close to him, skin to skin, mouth to mouth, soul to soul with the way he reads your mind.
he nods, pushes your hair back from your face.
âonly ever you.â he says it with such a passionate intensity, his dark eyes searching yours.
it sets you aflame, has you crying out mere moments later, collapsing into him as he gives you everything he has to give.
thereâs something darker inside of him. a deep, yearning darkness prowling under his skin, simmering in his bones. you can practically feel it as you slide a hand over his chest, his pounding heart. like itâs calling to you.
âyou always do so good for me,â heâs whispering into your hair, letting you press yourself against him. âsometimes i think i dreamt you up.â
you smile, kissing his neck just to make him shiver.
maybe thereâs something darker inside of you too.
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Isagi yoichi & dumbfication!!! I just need to turn this man in a dumb whore for dick (top!male reader)
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pairing. male reader x isagi yoichi
warnings. amab!reader, top!reader, bottom!isagi, anal sex, bondage, dumbfication, humiliation, crying, overstimulation, squirt, ahegao, cumming inside, a lot of 'petnames' (doll, baby, whore, slut, stupid, boytoy), (+bonus: Isagi has a small penis)
a/n. dumbfication is just đŠđ¤ (and as you guys can see I'm still very creative with titles) and this is unedited
Isagi was easily the most beautiful thing in the world when beneath you, pliable under your hands, completely limp and unable to put up a fight even if he wanted. A life-size inflatable doll for you to play with.
He was usually talkative even in bed, telling you to hurry up while interrupting himself to comment on how strange it felt to be penetrated and how he could never get used to the feeling of having something inside him. All the talk, however, immediately died on his tongue when you slid in, slowly, so that he could feel every inch of you causing a burning sensation as it stretched his only briefly prepared hole.
It felt like a routine, pride making him unable to admit how much he truly loved it and then, the sensual curve of his back leaving the mattress as you reached the bottom, completely engulfed in the heat of the tight walls. The words became stutters and soon, it was as if all of Isagi's rationality had disappeared, only leaving him with erotic moans and whimpers that reminded you a lot of an animal in heat.
âUghh- aah~â Isagi's mouth hung open, allowing the pink tongue to hang out over his bottom lip. Saliva ran down his chin and he seemed lost in his own world as his lean, flexible body was used by you. He was beautiful like that, no thought in mind other than how unbearable the pressure felt inside him, the pounding in his hole reaching so deep that you just knew he could feel you rearranging his insides.
His hands were stretched over his head, the blue rope the same shade as his teary eyes keeping them tied to the headboard. Before forgetting how to speak, he had begged you to let go and let him touch you and touch himself â 'you know I can't cum without touching my dick,' he had argued.
But now, Isagi's cock drooled against his stomach, semen from his three untouched orgasms drying there countering that.
The memory of his words amused you. âFor someone who said that could only cum if he touched his own dick, you look completely ridiculous right now,â you canât help but mock your boyfriend, reduced to a sensitive, overstimulated mess in mere minutes. âA liar, that's what you are Yoichi. A liar and a whore for dick.â You punctuated your last words with deep, sharp thrusts, delighting in the wet sound Isagi's hole made whenever your cock sank into him and how his entire body convulsed as if he'd been shocked.
Isagi's blue eyes seemed unfocused and when all that responded back to you was a strangled, stuttered, "p-pl-ea- aawn... -se," you couldn't help but laugh, feeling your cock twitch inside Isagi at how pathetic he sounded, just to you.
âItâs okay, donât talk, you donât need to talk,â you said, calming his shameful attempts at forming words. Your tone, however, is sadistic and amusing, full of mockery. âYou just have to stay there and let yourself be used, that's what you're good at, isn't it? To be my fuck toy, my fleshlight? And I donât even need to touch that useless little dick of yours to make you cum, just fuck your ass, like the good slut you are.â
Your words found a target and Isagi could only nod, gratefully accepting the permission to not need to think or try to speak. He just needed to be your dumb little slut, nothing more.
Adorable, really.
Isagi was always thinking a lot during matches, his mind was always racing a mile a minute, studying the field, his opponents and forming strategies. But now he didn't need to do anything, nothing at all. Nothing was all you wanted from him, how ironic.
Isagi whimpered, sweet hole clenching around your cock and you immediately recognized the tension coursing through his firm legs and toes curling in the most erotic way in the world. Your hips reacted on their own, darting in and out of the hot, wet tightness. âYour hole is squeezing me so much, do you want to cum for me again, doll? Come on, let go. Show me how good you can be to me, coming just for a few dirty words.â
And like the ridiculous and obedient little thing he is, Isagi obeys. The orgasm comes like a wave, fast, unpredictable and crashing against him with surprising force. There is no slow build or sensations building to the breaking point. One second Isagi is drooling over himself and making shameful attempts to meet your thrusts and the next, tears are streaming down his flushed, sweaty face, a violent tremor making his whole body convulse and his little pink dick jumps, twitches and expels a stream of clear, odorless liquid that seems like it will never end.
The bed quickly becomes wet beneath him and the crying grows louder as the embarrassment seems to set in. Isagi moves from side to side, pulling on the rope that keeps his hands tied as he seems to try to escape the stimulation. It's a vain attempt. He looks so pornographic that all you can do is grab his ass, forcing him to remain lying on his side in the new position while you fuck him mercilessly, fingers grabbing the soft, pale flesh; pulling to allow you to see the little hole greedily swallowing your cock.
âThatâs it, boytoy, let go,â you speak through gritted teeth, breathing quickening as you feel your own orgasm quickly approaching at the glipse of isagiâs lewd expression: blue eyes beautifully rolled back, tongue lolling out of his mouth. âNothing wrong with making a mess like the stupid little thing you are, wetting the whole bed.â
Isagi opened and closed his mouth several times, tears and drool wetting his pretty face as he struggled to speak through the moans: âah- I-I... you c-cum...â
âWhat is this, baby? Do you want me to cum in you? Want me to fill your dirty hole?â
His body had already stopped obeying his will and all he could do was moan in response, trying unsuccessfully to communicate.
And what kind of boyfriend would you be if you denied him that?
You sped up, sweat prickling against your bare skin and heat seeming to eat you raw, your heavy breathing covered by the sounds Isagi made. It felt like fire licking his veins; you could feel your pulse racing in your dick, pleasure hitting you as your member pulsed and spilled deep inside Isagi.
âAgh! Ahh!â A broken scream died in Isagi's mouth as heat fill his insides. The possessive complaint made a muscle in his thigh pull, more liquid joining the mess on the bed.
You lean over him, searching for his mouth. The teeth clack together briefly before your tongues meet in a filthy, messy kiss. You swallow the saliva, salty tears and Isagi's moans, nails digging into his skinny ass as you continue to move in and out of him, riding out your orgasm and brutally fucking your cum deep into him, wanting to force him to accept every drop, wanting permanently leave the mark of your belonging on his body. You wished that afterwards, even after take a bath, Isagi could still feel the phantom sensation of your seed inside him, filling him and marking him as your dumb little whore.
How much better would it be if Isagi gave up his football career and lived just for that, to be used 24/7 by you.
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hii can you do something like a corruption kink with any enha hyung line membet you want and like virgin reader? where they're like lowkey going wild over the fact that she's a virgin and can't wait to corrupt her and stuff. sorry if this makes no sense or you don't want to write it, i totally get it if you don't. thanks and have a nice day <3
corruption ~ enha hyung line
if the enha hyung line would have a corruption kink or not , and the extent of which how badly they want to ruin your innocence and take you for themselves.
enha hyung line x reader | corruption kink
warnings : semi smut , corruption kink , multiple positions , daddy kink , sub / dom dymanic , breeding kink , dacryphilia , degrading , praise , size kink , this kinda sucks , not proof read
LEE HEESEUNG .á ----- âĄ
I feel like heeseung would have a corruption kink - but only to a certain extent and only for you.
the two of you have been dating for a couple months now , and everything has been so blissful and sweet... apart from your sex life.
every time the two of you make out and things get heated , you always shy away and make up an excuse not to do anything sexual.
he is so patient with you though and would never get mad at denying any sort of sexual intimacy , he is such a sweet boyfriend ugh I love him sm.
but one day , the two of you are making out , and his fingers slide up the fabric of your skirt , your skin leaving goosebumps trailing on your skin.
just as he's about to reach your underwear , you whine and break the kiss. your lips wet and swollen as you catch your breath before you speak in a whisper.
"I-im not ready" heeseungs eyes open and meet with yours , his lips also swollen and hungry.
"wassa matter baby ? you can tell me angel , im here to listen" your face turns a shade redder than it already was and you sit back a little on his lap , shifting uncomfortably. your eyes dart away to look anywhere else but him . his fingers rub gentle patterns on your thigh , coaxing you to calm your nerves.
"im... uhm... im not- I dont know.. god this is embarrassing," you face palm and bite your lip. heeseungs ears perk up , his mind racing at your words.
he's had a suspicion about the topic at hand , he's just been waiting for you to confirm it.
and oh god does this make things so much better for him.
his own personal , little baby to corrupt and ruin . the thought of taking your virginity for himself and showing you how to have sex , teach you how to use your pretty mouth makes his dick harder than ever.
you feel his cock harden underneath you , and your eyes widen in shock, your hips squirming in his hold.
"h-heeseung... im- I dont know how... ive never done anything.." you shake your head and cover your face in embarrassment once more.
heeseung brings your hands down from your face and force you to look at him, both of your faces red.
"I don't care angel ... I'll take care of you, kay'?" one of his hands trail to your thigh, trailing upwards once more.
"I'll make you feel good baby , so so good..." his fingers met with your damp panties , pressing them against your clothed bundle of nerves
"you'll be beggin' me to stop.."
he would finger you on his lap to prep you, your first orgasm rushes over you , and you can't help but fall apart on his lap underneath his control.
after making you come undone on his lap , he would force you onto your back and eat you out , lapping and sucking your juices like a starved animal , showing you just how good he can make you feel
he never wants to stop ever because you have such a sweet , sweet taste.
"my pretty girl has such a sweet taste , such a good girl for me baby , you gonna cum again my love ? wanna cum for me angel ?"
the though of having a perfect , little virgin right in the palm of his hand coming undone all for him and because of him quite literally makes him cum in his boxers , and he hasnt even touched himself yet !
ugh how he can't wait to fuck your tight , soaked pussy and make you drool all over him with the dumbest , braindead look on your face makes him hot and heavy - so that's exactly what he does.
PARK JONGSEONG ----- .á âĄ
oh yes he would 100% have a corruption kink , and its BAD bro.
the two of you are just friends , but its so obvious that you have a crush on each other .
some sick and twisted part of Jay stops him from confessing first - wanting to see just how worked up he gets you before you fall apart in frustration.
that's the sadistic side of him.
you always go to him with your frustrations - and recently , its been about how you can't get yourself off no matter what toy you use - and you have a pretty good collection.
"I dont know what im doing wrong ! im so- ugh. I can't do anything by myself and I dont even have a boyfriend to help me. the guy I like doesn't like me back and it's so frustrating" you take a deep breath , your cheeks coated in a deep , pink blush before you continue
"I want... I wanna be able to pleasure myself so badly - im so frustrated all the time , espically with the guy I like ! its so frustrating being around him he makes me so..." your eyes lock with his , and you swear your heart stops for a second.
Jay is man spreading on your bed - it would be a cute sight due to your cute stuffed animals surrounding him in your pink bedroom - but the look on his face makes you fold in on yourself and stutter over your words.
"I-i ... n- nevermind..." your arms cross over your stomach and you advert your eyes from his figure.
the reason you came to him was because you've been best friends since you were children , and a conversation like this was never awkward because you have told each other literally everything - when you hit puberty and you didn't even know how to put a tampon in , how much gooey blood there was - and none of it made jay feel weird , of course it wouldn't ! he could never feel weird around you.
Jay's thoughts are running wild , especially with the way your thighs are clamped together and rubbing against one another. you dont realize you're even doing it , and that thought makes him want to pin you down and use your body as he pleases.
"look at me." his demand causes you to jump , and you obey him with shy eyes. your eyes interlock with his and he tongues his cheek , eyeing you up and down.
hes had enough of this little game ; he's caught you inbetween his fingers and now here you were , squirming in the palm of his hand like a pathetic little mouse.
"you truly have no idea what you do to me, huh y/n?" you suck in a deep breath , your lips parting as he continues.
"you wanna know what I wanna do to you , sweet thing ?" your heart rate increases , your body frozen just a mere foot or two away from the man in front of you.
"oh so many disgusting , dirty thoughts come to mind." your eyes dont look away from his , not for a second as he continues.
"you think I didn't know about your little infatuation , y/n ? its so abundantly obvious , its honestly adorable how innocent you are."
"j-jay..." you say breathlessly. he chuckles at your words , but continues nontheless.
"you honestly think I didn't see you humping your pillow after I left your house ? how you whimpered my name so pathetically ? you still couldn't get yourself off huh baby ?" you shake your head without thinking .
"aww , my poor baby couldn't do it herself huh ?" you shake your head again.
"I went home that night and thought of all the positions I wanted to fold you in. how badly I wanted to use your body however I wanted." you whine at his words , your thighs rubbing against each other more harshly.
"I wanna eat your sweet pussy with my fingers fucking you from the inside out" he sits up and begins to crawl over to you, your heart rate picks up and you lean back on instinct. Jay chuckles , enjoying the little cat-mouse game you've begun to play.
"I wanna fuck and abuse you tiny cunt until your eyes roll into the back of your head , my name being the only thing you can remember" your back hits the mattress below you, Jay crawling over your small frame right after. his fingers come in contact with your damp panties under your pretty dress.
"tsk, so wet already, how pathetic." you whimper at his cruel words , but he feels your hole clamp and his eyes widen.
"I'm gonna make you cry all over me baby . want me to use your pretty body ? want fuck you dumb ? "
you nod your head , but that's not enough for jay.
"words, princess"
"y-yes daddy..." now its his turn to feel flustered, his cock straining in his jeans at your words.
"oh god , you're so perfect , such a good girl for me , a good girl for daddy hmm?" you nod your head , gasping as his cold fingers pull your panties to the side and run through your wet folds.
god he can't wait to strip you of your innocence and alter your mind to where you can't even process anything but him and him alone , forcing you into submission and mark you his and only his.
SIM JAEHYUN ----- .á âĄ
I feel as though Jake wouldn't have much of a corruption kink - he would be more into the experienced women.... however, you would be the one and only exeption.
the two of you have been friends for a couple years , meeting through a mutual friend of yours , sunghoon. since the moment Jake has laid eyes on you , he knew he was fucked .
the two of you dont hang out one on one often , only a few times has it happened , deciding on the fact that hanging out in a friend group setting was more ideal.
he tried to get rid of the little crush he had on you , he really really did.
until one day you two had ran into each other while walking to class . you decided to hang out for the day and do some shopping .
Jake wishes he would have never ever agreed , because that day he figured out just how innocent you truly are .
you literally took him into a Victorias secret for fucks sake , and despite his protests and cherry red cheeks , his looks of lust mixed with embarrassment flew right over your pretty head .
what made the situation worse was a couple guys tried hitting on you after figuring out you were single - you were beautiful , of course you would get people hitting on you from time to time.
you were so oblivious to their remarks , that when they walked away , you literally said with your entire chest
"I made a new friend !" you were so cute , it took Jake all his restraint in his body from bending you over the display and fucking you raw.
his last bit of sanity slipped from his fingers when you were hanging out with all of your friends at jakes house. the topic of sex came up and everyone was talking about how they've had sex before , and Jake couldnt help but stare at you the entire time .
your cheeks were dusted red and you were shyly sitting with your knees pressed together , looking around the living room and avoiding the conversation.
"what about you y/n , you've ever had sex ?" sunoo wiggles his eyebrows
"dont make her uncomfortable dude , y/n dont listen to him" sunoo rolls his eyes at jays lecturing words . you purse your lips into a pout and look over at Jake , who is already staring at you , waiting for an answer
"actually.... im a virgin." you say , embarrassment laced in your tone. Jake feels his dick harden and his eyes widen. how could he have been so blind ? of course you were a virgin , you're so oblivious when guys hit on you , and you literally took him into a Victorias secret .
he feels his sanity snap the second the words leave your mouth , and he quickly ushers everybody out of his house , claiming that something came up and everybody has to leave.
you were about to leave , waving Jake a goodbye before you took a good look at him ; he was avoiding all eye contact with you and didn't say goodbye.
he was acting weird , and you had to get to the bottom of it.
"Jake , are you okay ?" worry written in your tone , it made Jake groan
"im fine y/n , ill see you later " he goes to close the door , but you push it open before it had the chance to click closed .
you push your way in, looking up at the man with a questioning look. you cross your arms over your chest and shift your weight onto one of your legs.
"Jake , please tell me what's wrong , did I do something" Jake groans again , and his patience is wearing unbearably thin as you question him.
"y/n please , I don't want to talk about it" the thought of you being a virgin is eating away at his morality , his entire demeanor shifting dark as you stand in his doorway .
he's two seconds away from lifting you into the air and throwing you down onto the nearest , comfortable surface and showing you how experienced he is , taking away your innocence and virginity and carving his name all over it , making you his in every way possible .
"please , im here for you" you go to reach for his hand , but are quickly met with the front door slamming right before being pushed up against it, Jake hovering over your smaller frame and trapping you with his arms .
your clit throbs , an unfamiliar feeling as he looms over you.
"you drive me so. fucking. insane." he speaks honestly , and your thighs clamp down and rub together , needing some sort of friction.
"you mean to tell me you dragged me into a lingerie shop , and had no idea that you were turning me on ?" you gulp at his words - you half knew what you were doing, and you're now starting to feel embarrassed for doing so.
"I-im... yun.." you whine, not being able to form a coherent sentence.
"im giving you two options; you can leave and our friendship will go back to how it was because its clear that this isn't normal , or you can stay" you're about to answer , but you're cut off before you can speak
"if you stay , im warning you now that you're not going to be able to walk out of here tomorrow" you dont answer , your voice cut too small in order to do so.
Jake takes your chin between his index and thumb finger , forcing you to tilt your head up to look him in the eyes.
"i'm gonna to make you scream my name and cum as many times as I want" his hand moves from the wall to your waist , pressing his front against yours , resulting in his hard cock pressing up against your thigh. you gasp , nodding your head quicker than you can think
"please- want you yun.. pl- yes.. wanna stay" that's all he needs before he's lifting you into the air , your legs wrapping around his front while your hands find their way to entangle in his hair.
his fingers work magic on your clit , your slick coating his digits perfectly
"so wet for me , you have such a pretty pussy baby" he kisses your bundle of nerves as he presses two fingers into your tight , wet cunt. your back arches off the bed as you approach your first orgasm in your life. you feel a weird sensation in your tummy and your hands frantically grab jakes shoulders
"o- oh my god I feel... please" you beg for something you aren't even sure of.
"c'mon darling , finish for me pretty girl" and so you do , squirting all over jakes face and bed and his eyes widen in shock. he coaxes you to relax before kissing your temple
"looks like I got a little squirter on my hands" he chuckles
"g-gentle please.." you shouldn't have said those words oh god , that only makes Jake want to be more rough , but he listens anyways as his thrusts are slow and concentrated . the way you're pussy is unbelievably tight and new is so, so taunting.
you hiss at the sting and before long , he's folded you in half and showing you all the right positions and angles , fucking you through your third orgasm of the night.
"y-yun feels so - ugh ff-uck" you squeal at the angle , his bulbous tip kissing your sweet spot with every thrust
"want me to fill you up with my cum sweet ? breed your tiny pussy ? oh god you're so small fuck " your back arches off the bed and you scratch his back , leaving trails of red blood.
"tell me how it feels baby , let go all over me" he speaks , demanding an answer
"f-feels so good , so full , mmmf , oh my god" you respond , your legs shaking in jakes hold and your eyes squeezed tight
Jake doesn't seem to care as you flutter around his cock , screaming as your fourth orgasm just about washes over you.
"please , want you to use me ! d-da... ddy please!" as if you couldnt be any more perfect , Jake chuckles before snapping his hips against your ass , your knees besides your head.
"dont worry baby , daddy's gonna take such good care of you . such a good girl , giving daddy your innocence , takin' me so well" you just about sob at his sweet words
letting Jake take your virginity was the best fucking thing that could have happened ever
PARK SUNGHOON ----- .á âĄ
he has the worst corruption kink fucking ever dude it drives me INSANE
sunghoon is someone you met in a college class.
although he was reserved and somewhat cold , you tried to get along with him anyways , he was your seat partner after all.
it took a while for him to start getting comfortable with you and soon , the two of you became friends.
it took him way longer to let you in than most people because of how badly he wanted to fuck you.
yes, fuck you. the way you hold yourself was so cute. you were a shy one for sure. you were soft spoken and quiet - reserved in the exact same way he is and it would be a lie if you were to say you didn't find him attractive either.
a mature , strong man is all you needed - so you were bound to start lusting after him as he was you.
but you couldnt ruin such an early friendship , the two of you were starting to get to know each other and you didn't want to mess things up. the more you two hung out , the more you realized he was different with you than with other people he knew
more gentle in a way. how he would talk to you so soft and caring , he was the biggest sweetheart - especially to you.
but dont let his actions deceive you - his thoughts were definitely nothing like how he acts.
every lingering, soft touch on the small of your back makes him want to force you into an arch and pound into you from behind , pulling your hair and making you scream out his name.
bite and suck pretty little marks into your perfect skin, make you cream all over his cock as many times as he wishes as you lay down and take it like a good little girl.
every time you would get too close to him , resulting in getting a wiff of your vanilla perfume makes him want to force your legs apart and eat you out for hours until your too weak to move , yet still cumming all over his face.
you would send him a selfie of your makeup and outfit before starting your day , and each time you did that he would groan and rub one out
"fuck-" he moans , squeezing his tip in his palm as he looks at his phone screen - a beautiful picture of you - your hair is up in two curled ponytails , your glittery eyeshadow and wispy eyelashes make your doe eyes pop , and oh god your lips are pink and glossy , pouting as you snap the picture
he wishes he could stain your lips with his cum and stuff your cheeks full of his warm seed
he would face fuck you until you pass out due to lack of oxygen
his pearly beads of precum leak from his tip as he smears it down his shaft , using it as lubricant as he moans your name , imagining his hand was your mouth instead
he would teach you how to suck his cock and would be oh so patient with you. you would look into his eyes for praise and he would gift it to you gratiously
"such a good girl , taking my cock so well-"
"sunghoonie?" one of his friends breaks him out of his trance. you're in a group setting and one of his female friends is trying to talk to him- more so flirt.
he pays no mind to the girl, focusing on your figure instead.
the way your short skirt compliments your thighs makes him feel hot , and it doesn't help with the thigh highs you decided to wear along with the dainty article of clothing.
you're talking to Jake , who is flirting with you shamelessly. you are also paying him no mind as you're ears are focused on sunghoons conversation.
you feel anger bubble in your chest as this chick flirts with him. Jake notices your soiled face and says something about it. you mutter under your breath
"I got to go" before walking away and towards your apartment - which was just a couple minutes away. sunghoons eyes follow your figure and he up and leaves his conversation , not caring that he just ignored the girl.
"y/n , y/n wait " sunghoon catches up to you and grabs your wrist , spinning you around to face him. your face is contorted into one of anger , and sunghoon can't help but coo at your cute face
"what's the matter?" he pouts , your anger doesn't disperse though as you clench your jaw. you feel more embarrassment now because he actually followed you - you have no idea what to say.
"I don't know , I dont feel good" you lie through your teeth , and he catches it. sunghoon shrugs his shoulders and starts walking in the direction of your apartment , wrapping his arm around your back , his hand finding the slope of your waist and directs you towards your apartment.
you blush under his hold as you open your apartment door , letting the man in and following in right after.
"why did you get upset and storm off?" he asks , sitting down on your couch with his legs spread. you walk into the kitchen and grab a glass of water , chugging it before answering.
"I just wasn't feeling good" he raises his eyebrows at your lie , eyeballing you from across the room.
"are you sure about that?" your cheeks glow red and you shift uncomfortably under his gaze , fidgeting with your fingers.
"you have no clue huh?" you shoot him a questioning look, not quite picking up what he's putting down. he chuckles at your face , finding it adorable how you squirm just from him looking at you.
"about what?" you respond , sunghoons eyes grow dark , racking his eyes up and down his figure.
"tell me y/n , do you have any experience with guys?" your breath hitches at his question and you slowly shake your head back and forth, answering him. sunghoon smirks at you , bringing his hand into the air , motioning for you to come to him.
"come here, love"
you obey , walking over to him slowly and standing inbetween his spread legs. he sits up and places his hands on the hills of your waist , massaging gentle circles on your skin.
"tell me why you were upset" he looks up into your eyes and you can't help but feel like falling apart in his hands.
"that girl earlier... she was flirting with you.." your voice was above a whisper , but you answer anyways. sunghoon bites his cheek , his hands running down your body and towards your thighs. goosebumps trail on your skin at his touch.
"and you were jealous ?" you nod your head as an answer , sunghoon admiring your submission.
"you think I touch her like this hmm?" his hands move up your short skirt and towards the hem of your underwear, playing with the straps of your lacy thong. you shake your head , your chest heaving up and down.
"want me to tell you a secret?" you shake your head yes , not being able to find any words in your racing mind. sunghoon pushes you to sit in his lap , his hands coming to cup the plush of your ass under your skirt , playing with your underwear.
"ive been wanting to fuck you since the day I saw you. I masturbait to the selfies you send me every morning" you wrap your arms around his shoulders and neck , pressing your chest against his with a hushed moan , burring your face into the skin of his collarbone and neck. his hands move to your hips , guiding you to grind down onto his growing cock.
"do you fuck yourself thinking about me , little one?" you nod your head shamelessly , whimpering out a pathetic "yes". sunghoon moves his face to kiss up and down your bare neck, beginning to grind his hips up into yours for friction.
"have you ever came to the thought of me , pretty ? you ever cum to the image of me fucking you ?" you shake your head no , an embarrassing whine vibrating through his neck through your lips.
"my poor baby. needs daddy's help getting off hmm? can't do it yourself so you need daddy to do it for her huh?"
"y-yes please, need daddy's help making me cum"
so that's exactly what he does
over
and over
and over again
your first orgasm was gifted to you by sunghoon so sweetly , eating you out with your back flush against the couch with your panties pulled to the side , gifting you words of praise such as
"doing such a good job for me baby doll"
and
"just like that pretty girl , my perfect little girl"
earlier, you would have thought he was the sweetest person on earth, but that quickly changed as he has your ass in the air and your face down into the cushions of the couch , screaming his name over and over again
"d-daddy slow ! can-cant ,, too much please !" you squeal , but your cries are useless as he abuses your tiny hole.
"gonna make you mine , fill you up so nicely - ill put a fucking baby in you , want me to make you a mommy?" of course he's bluffing , god this was your first time having sex for fuck sake .
"y-yes please daddy fuck- need,, oh god please" your legs kick under him , your arms held in place by his hand behind your back. he chuckles at your words , his hips snapping against your ass in a rough pace that doesn't let up.
"who's pussy is this, who owns you doll?" you scream as you feel the coil in your abdomen unravel , sunghoon landing a harsh smack against your ass.
"you do ! daddy does !"
"that's right baby , daddy does. gonna fuck you dumb and take your goddamn innocence until you're a puddle in my hands."
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Temperance (1/3)
pairing: wanda maximoff x female!reader plot: Your best friend Kate convinced you to do charity work in Sokovia with some of your old classmates, including your former bully Vision and his girlfriend Wanda Maximoff, who you inconveniently took too much of a liking in. warnings: 18+ !! minors dni. wanda is with vision... also, suggestive content I guess word count: 1115
Patience is a virtue. Patience is the solution. These have been your only thoughts for days now. From a self-imposed affirmation to a recurring echo in your head, this reminder is all you had to get through the situation at hand. What else could you do? Keep trying to ignore your desire? The craving that has kept you awake for days and nights?
The thing is, you may be able to trick your brain for a while. Convince yourself that the way her nose wrinkles when she grins doesn't do anything to you. That the way her middle and ring finger draw the same patterns over and over again on the pages of her book whenever she is deep in thought, doesn't stir something inside of you. That the muffled moans coming from her and Vision's room at night don't bother you. Your brain has managed to lie to itself for a long time, but you can no longer ignore what Wanda is doing to you. So instead of denying your feelings, you decided that you have to sit through them. Until you can finally leave this place.
You weren't planning on pining after your old classmate's girlfriend, but here you were. Miles away from home, locked up with the constant reminder that you can never be with Wanda the way you want to. Originally, the three months in Sokovia were supposed to fulfill you. You just wanted to take care of the local street dogs with your best friend Kate. Do something good. That was it.
âCome on y/n, you've always had a heart for street animals,â your best friend said to you at the time. Back then she turned up at your door without a warning and told you about this great trip Vision had planned.
âKate, I barely got anything done last semester. I can't waste another one. Besides, my boss never gives me that long of a vacation.â
You knew Kate wouldn't leave your apartment until you said yes. You could tell by the way her eyes were gleaming. How she slightly bend over the table you were sitting at, her gaze not leaving you for one second. Of course, the whole thing is much easier for Kate. Her mother is filthy rich. Kate can basically do whatever she wants. She could disappear for one year, travel the world with money she didn't earn and wouldn't have to worry about her life back home for one moment. You don't have that luxury.
âThink about it. First of all, you do something that fulfills you. Besides, I know you y/n. You haven't wanted to work in that rancid bakery for months. We'll find something new for you afterwards. Not to mention that volunteering to help street dogs for three months looks great on your CV. Plus: I heard Vision rented a mansionâ
Vision. The name alone triggered something in you. Vision is not only the son of the famous billionaire Tony Stark, but also a giant asshole. Before Vision knew you were friends with Kate, he took every opportunity to trigger you in some way. Like standing in front of your locker with his group of followers for no reason, just so you couldn't get to it. The worst thing he ever did was probably when he stole your notebook and read out loud in class what you had written about your former classmate Natasha. Some cheesy and cringe poem you managed to suppress from your memories. From that day on, it wasn't just the whole school that knew you liked women. You also were never able to look Natasha in the eye again. But Vision somehow always managed to come out of it okay. His reputation was disgustingly squeaky clean.
âIt's so weird imagining Vision doing something voluntarily that doesn't serve only himself. Are you sure he isn't just joking?,â you had asked back then.
âI think he has really changed since high school. Besides, his girlfriend is originally from Sokovia and I think it was her idea? I don't know for sure. But please, y/n, join me. I'd do anything to spend more than an hour a week with my best friend. And this is a once in a lifetime opportunity! Vision specifically asked if you want to join.â
You've never been able to deny Kate a wish. But also, it's never led you into such a miserable situation before. So this is where you were. In a villa far too grand for it to feel like a prison. Besides Vision, Wanda and Kate, there were two other old classmates; Steve and Bucky. Living together turned out to be easier than you thought, especially considering the fact that Vision was there. But your feelings for Wanda kept causing you problems. Whenever the redhead came near you, you started to stumble over your words. One long look alone could throw you completely off balance. But it was even worse when she smiled at you. When she listened to you and her head slightly tilted at the same time. Or when you were cooking and she suddenly appeared behind you, her hand softly placed around your waist and her head set down on your shoulder.
âWhat are you blessing us with this evening?,â she inquired with an almost teasing tone in her voice.
Before you were able to even articulate anything, she took her free hand, slid it along your arm and took the wooden spoon out of your hand.
âMay I?,â her voice dangerously low, as she already moved the spoon towards her mouth, looking straight at you. You just gulped and managed a small nod as Wanda put the spoon in her mouth, her gaze never leaving you as she sucked it clean. Her green eyes were barely visible as her dilated pupils covered them almost completely. A soft moan escaped from her lips as she handed the spoon back to you.
âYou're so good at this y/n,â Wanda groans, her hand which still holds onto your waist making its way to your lower back, smoothly slipping under your loose t-shirt. The cold rings on her fingers on your warm skin immediately sent shivers down your spine. Her pinky slightly slipped under the waistband of your sweatpants before she left you standing alone in the kitchen.
She must do this on purpose. There is no other way.
You thought to yourself. But what was the use? Either you are right and she does it on purpose or you are wrong and project your fantasies onto her. In both cases, it is best to simply stay away from Wanda. Because there is no way you don't end up completely fucked. Right?
: Part 2
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Inspiration: âDon't love me. I've survived this long without it, and if you try, I will collapse under the weight of my loneliness and desire. Start running, please."
I couldnât help myself and I had to write a Yandere Jason Todd when I saw this quote. Put a poll up for this and then I wrote it anyways. Oops. Enjoy!
Yandere Batman Shorts:
The Wolf and The Lamb
Yandere Jason Todd x Fem Roommate Reader
All his life Jason Todd lived for revenge. He had slaughtered so many that his hands were permanently stained with blood. He was violent and unpredictable like a wild animal⌠a starving wolf. One that was a lone wolf rejected by its pack.
His volatile temper controlled most of his actions and decisions. Decisions that severed ties with anyone who dared to get close to him⌠so why was it different with (your name)?
(Your name) was a pretty, young woman he moved in with when she posted a listing. Jason didnât expect much but she had somehow became a constant in his life. A balm to his wounded soul. One who didnât judge him no matter what insults her hurled⌠a lamb in a sea of predators.
Jason would explode and burn down everything in his path yet she hardly batted her eyelashes at his outbursts⌠sheâd just patiently wait for him to cool off before sheâd ask him if he needed to talk. Why did she even want to waste her precious time to listen to him? He was a mess⌠a broken man that had experienced unspeakable trauma. Why didnât (your name) treat him like everyone else did? Like she⌠like she cared about him. (Your name) was the only one who didnât look at him like he was a monster. (Your name) looked at him like he deserved love and care⌠how could he have stopped himself from completely falling for her warmth? His fate was sealed the moment they moved in together.
(Your name) was patient, warm, and kind⌠an anomaly in a place like Gotham city. Jason was terrified that one day she wouldnât be here when he came back to the apartment early in the morning⌠she was too trusting. Too soft. Too precious to be in a hellhole like this.
Jason hated himself for feeling so protective of a woman who was simply his roommate. She had never given any indication that she even wanted to be with him romantically or even sexually⌠yet the thought of her secretly pining for him kept him awake. Those delusional thoughts slipped its fingers into his mind until she was all he ever thought about anymore. That woman had driven him insane with yearning.
Jason often imagined her hands tangled through his hair as his lips pressed against her delicate throat. Of how heâd sink his teeth and leave a mark to show others he had claimed her- Jason was sick. He was sick in the head for his desires. For this all consuming fire of desire he had for her.
Jason put his face in his hands as he tried not to scream in frustration and wake up (your name) from her sleep. Gods he despised himselfâŚ
He had this new habit as of recently to watch her as she slept. In his sick, twisted mind, he kept her safe in a way. He made sure she didnât have nightmares. That her dreams were only filled with the sweetness she selflessly shared with him. That she didnât shiver or sweat in her sleep. That her expressions were always peaceful. Itâs what he believed she deservedâŚ
Jason didnât know how to love. Heâs never experienced it before⌠yet he didnât want anyone else to have (your name). A selfish desire he had, but he was a selfish person. He knew she deserved softness. Someone who would be gentle and patient. Someone who wasnât rough like he wasâŚ
But Jason didnât care anymore. She had done something that no one else ever had⌠she had given him warmth. And jason would do anything to keep it as his forever. No matter who he had to eliminate out of his way.
Jason may be a wolf, but now he yearned for the lamb.
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Compass
Summary: Iâve got something to confess, I keep you in my pocket to use. Youâre my only compass, I might get lost with you.
an: letâs ignore the fact that Iâve been gone for a long time, yeah? Hehe. this most definitely is not the fic that Iâve been working on literally the entire time Iâve been gone (thatâs coming donât worry), but I got this idea at 2 in the morning and I had to jump on it IMMEDIATELY. Hope you all like it mwah mwah love you.
Warnings: SMUT!! Minors please for the love of everything that is good, do not interact, modern day vampire!Ellie, semi graphic descriptions of blood and wounds, shy!reader, Ellie bites you a lot, Ellie feeds on you and honestly itâs borderline soft core porn, fingering Ellie!receiving, grinding, mentions of bruises, Ellie is extremely fucking strong, Ellie watches you in your sleep/can get into your apartment without a key, let me know if Iâve missed anything!!
You arenât really sure how you and Ellie became friends.
Well, you are, maybe a better question would be why you two became friends. You were both so different, you were convinced the first time you met that she hated you. The night filled with quick glances as she damn near avoided speaking to you like you were the fucking plague. It took you a bit to not take it too personally, reminding yourself that you werenât for everyone, and that was okay! So what if the mutual friend didnât like youâŚit wasnât the end of the world.
So, it came to a surprise to you when a few nights after meeting Ellie passed, you had not one, not two, but three of your friends texting you and asking you if it was okay if they gave her your numberâŚ
Because sheâd asked for it.
And suddenly youâre texting each other every day, and well into the wee hours of the night. You know, like one of those friendships. The ones that makes you smile every time you see their name pop up on your phone, or the ones where you send each other stupid videos on TikTok all day just to talk about them on a different messaging platform, because of course youâre interacting with each other every where that you have a presence.
Ellie becomes your best friend before you even realize it, and it makes you realize that maybe she didnât dislike you as much as you thought before.
It always did confuse you a bit in the beginning how you two got along so well. You were both so different from one another. Ellie was a party animal, you were a home body. Ellie was up late at night, you were up early in the morning. If Ellie was the moon, then you were the sun. Polar opposites coming together to find a home in one another, the most unusual pairing stuck by the hip from that point on.
You of course, kept all each otherâs secrets. Youâd learned very early on that no one really knew much about Ellie, which you simply chalked up to her being a private person. However, she seemed eager to tell you any and everything about her. Like her dad, sheâd talk about him all the time, you figured on early on that she really loved him. Or whenever she had a a new fling going, youâd be the first to know of course. Sheâd even told you about the time she threw away her dadâs playboy magazine after stealing it from him, which she swore sheâd never told a soul.
She wanted to know all about you too! Your favorite color, favorite animal, childhood crush, family relationships. Truthfully? If you werenât so oblivious, you wouldâve seen a long time ago that Ellie was the slightest bit obsessed with you.
But you loved her, and you trusted her with your life, so you told her everything! Because you didnât keep things from each other.
So, on a night out with everyone else, Ellie disappears, and of course you try to look for her, asking around only to be told that everyone saw her leave. Going outside to make sure sheâs okay is the only logical thing to do, right? You have to make sure sheâs okay.
What you donât expect though, is when you look down a dark alleyway a few buildings down from the club youâre at, and spot the tall figure of your friend tucked into the brick wall of the dark corner, shielding way whatever it is thatâs behind her. You call out for her, and when she turns around you gasp.
Because her eyes were red, and not red like you havenât gotten any sleep, or youâve been crying, the green of her eyes are now red, bloodshot red, and sheâs holding a lifeless body in her tattooed armsâŚand thereâs blood covering her pink lips, dripping down her chin.
Yeah, Ellie was a vampire.
You let out a gentle yawn as your hand went down to grab the remote control to your tv, your other hand coming up to rub your eyes a bit, a sorry attempt at trying to wake yourself up enough to get from the couch to go to your bed.
You pouted softly, lazily bringing your phone up to check the time before you sighed, finally finding the strength in you to push yourself up off the couch to leave your living room.
Work had been absolutely plowing you into the ground, your publicist constantly hounding you to keep working on the most recent installment of your book series. It was just so fucking hard, everytime you sat down in front of your computer, it was like writing your own book was the last thing you wanted to do.
It was draining you, and it felt like every time you finished a set of chapters, your brain was complete mush.
The upside though, was that it tired you out enough to completely knock out once you were in bed.
A gentle sigh left your lips once your head hit your soft pillow, plush blankets wrapping around your body, sliding down your bare legs and making you feel absolutely blissful. You couldnât even stop yourself from the soft smile on your lips as your eyes grey heavy, the low lighting in your room making you feel all the more cozy, all the more warm.
You were out in seconds, soft snores leaving your sleeping body as you entered a world of dreams, escaping reality for a few measly hours before you were bombarded with the real world around you in the morning.
Ellie was on the other side of town, or at least, leaving the other side of town. It was late, and while she did love to be a creature of the night, there was something that sounded much more inviting than a glass of whiskey and a cigarette.
You, of course.
You were Ellieâs kryptonite, the single thing in this entire fucked up world that convinced her there was something worth living for, in her case, existing for. You were so fucking good, so sweet, so forgiving of literally everything. There were too many times that Ellie recalled where she wasnât even sure you were real, perhaps another mythical creature much like herself, sent to this world to lure others into a trap that was just as filthy and terrible as the rest of the world.
But you werenâtâŚthere were never any cons or secrets that you held, and if you did hold any secrets, you were more than willing to let Ellie in on them. NoâŚno you were different.
God were you different.
Ellie recalls the night she first laid eyes on you like it was yesterday, her cold, dead heart jolting back to life for only a second when she saw you, at least thatâs what it felt like. Your smile radiant in the dim, multicolored lights of the club, cheeks shining, eyes twinkling, like an angel sent from above. Ellie almost felt like a being as evil, and sour as she wasnât worthy of being in the same room as you.
And godâŚyour fucking smell.
Ellie could go on about it for hours. Sure, you were remarkable without it, but it was just the icing on the cake, the twisting of the knife in her chest.
She has mastered the art of walking into a room filled with warm bodies pumped full of blood and while ago, her throat burning with the urge to sink her teeth into her next poor victim. It was easy, annoying, but easy, and she couldnât really remember the last time she struggled being around anyone, especially friends, or even friends of a friend.
But the second she saw you, your sweet, dulcet smell wafting against her nose, she was transported back in time. Back to a time where she was but a young vampire, clueless of the world around her, of her new life, adapting to something she didnât even know existed before all of this, without a single guide or a fucking pamphlet for gods sakes.
It made her eyes widen, and she stopped breathing instantly to try and dull the scent of you sneaking into her nostrils and down into her eager throat. She noticed the way you pouted and sighed whenever sheâd ignore you, or give her nothing but a brief response whenever you tried to get to know her. She could tell this wasnât your thing, the night life, partying, you were here because someone asked it of you, and you being the good friend you are would never let anyone you cared about down.
Despite Ellie being a total dick to you because she simply couldnât control herself around you, you sucked it up, carried on and stayed until everyone else decided to leave.
Watching you leave that night, made Ellie realize you werenât something she could pass up.
Asking for your number was probably the best thing Ellie had ever done in her immortal life. Speaking to you was far better than thinking about you constantly, and after sheâd convinced herself she wouldnât do anything stupid with you, she was finally ready to introduce herself to you, the right way.
Itâs how she constantly found herself like this, searching for your warm embrace around her cold, dead body every time she found the opportunity. Sheâd come to you when she was done working, sheâd come to you when the girls at the bar were boring her, sheâd even come to you when she simply knew you were home and she had nothing to do.
Ellie hummed softly as she looked up at your apartment building, the warm summer breeze wafting against her skin as she stared up at your window, the white curtains blowing out with the wind. She sighs to herself.
âTold you to stop leaving your window openâŚâ she mumbles softly to herself.
The human eye wouldnât ever be able to catch the way Ellie climbs up the side of your building, her arms and legs scaling it like a pro, making it look as simple as walking, or even breathing. Itâs too fast, and in the blink of an eye, sheâs at your balcony, long fingers pulling back your curtains to get a look at your sleeping figure.
She watches as your chest rises and falls, your blanket covering your sleeping frame, bare legs kicked out from under them, shining under the moonlight. She isnât sure how long she stays there at your window staring at you, watching in awe as you do something as simple as sleep.
It isnât until you shift slightly in your sleep, a dreamy sigh leaving your lips, that Ellie finally pushes her long legs over your window to step into your room, sneaker clad feet pressing onto the wooden floor of your bedroom.
She looks around for a moment, taking a deep inhale as she lets your scent wash over her for a moment, eyes fluttering shut as she simply lets you consume her, fill her up and make her feel whole again.
Make her feel alive again.
You never really understood it, why Ellie lingered when she hugged you, face pressed at the nape of your neck, swaying you slowly as she clung to you longer than normal. WellâŚyou did know, at least youâd find out later on when Ellie finally explained everything to youâŚwhat she was, how it happened.
Although, it was only half what you thought. Sure, the smell of your blood made Ellieâs mouth water, her nostrils flare and her throat burn, but it was so much more than that. You made her feel whole, and even if it were a few seconds, she was going to make the most of it every time she got the chance.
And thatâs what she felt when she was in your little room. The cool breeze filling up the space, the dim lights casting a warm glow over you because you couldnât sleep in the dark. You used the excuse of creating an ambiance for yourself when you slept, but Ellie knew you far better than that. It was like youâd perfected the feeling of comfort, bottled it up and sprayed it around your room every other day.
The wind blowing your curtains a bit harder caught Ellieâs attention, and she sighed softly as she walked over to it and shut it. She had told you time and time again to quit it, warning you about the weirdos that would love to take advantage of a pretty girl with her window open while in the most vulnerable state.
Even though the only weirdo that ever snuck into your room through said window, was Ellie. If anything, your little habit only fueled Ellieâs addiction for you further.
The sound of your window closing makes you groan softly in your sleep, and at that sound, Ellie knows sheâs done it.
While she wanted nothing more than for you to be awake when she came over, she hated waking you. You looked so fucking serene when you slept, and Ellie felt like the devil himself whenever she accidentally ripped you away from that, even if the only thing she wanted was for you to be awake and talking to her.
Your body twists and turns a bit, slowly finding its way out of the drowsy state of sleep you were in. You let out a gentle yawn before one of your hands come up to rub your eyes, moments before you turn to your side to face her, hand resting between your cheek and your pillow as your eyes open and focus on the tall frame standing in front of your bed.
Ellie is convinced nothing scares you, because for as long as sheâd been doing this, sneaking into your bedroom and watching you sleep, on the rare occasion that you wake up and catch her, you never seem scared. You donât gasp or scream, you donât even flinch when you see the dark, looming presence stood there in front of you. Ellie was sure the first time you caught her there, that youâd scream in horror before calling the police on her.
But you never did. You always stared at her with a sleepy smile, eyes puffy with sleep, lips a bit swollen, looking at her as if she were your favorite person in the entire world.
And like all those nights before, you do the same. A gentle yawn falls from your lips as you rub your eyes once more before tugging your blanket further up your shoulder.
âEllieâŚâ you sigh out softly, and you sound so fucking dreamy, so beautiful does her name sound falling from her lips. It makes Ellie weak in the knees.
She walks over to you slowly, smiling softly down at you as she grows closer and closer to your bed until sheâs standing over you, one of her hands coming down and running around your blanket clad shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze.
âWanted to come visitâŚsorry I woke youâ she hums soft, her hand traveling up until it reaches your face, one of her fingers caressing your cheek ever so slightly. Your eyes flutter shut at this, and she can see that the gesture alone is nearly enough to lull you back to sleep.
âSâokayâŚI wake up in the middle of the night all the timeâŚyou know thatâ you assure her, words falling with yet another yawn before you open your sleepy eyes up again to stare up at her.
Before she can even speak though, your content expression is replaced with one of worry as you finally get the chance to focus on her face, your eyebrows furrowing as you prop yourself up on your elbow, your other hand reaching up to touch her cheek as you become more and more alert with each passing moment.
âAre you okay Ellie? You lookâŚwhy are your eyes soâŚâ you mumble, now on your knees to reach her better, your face in front of hers as your eyes search hers.
She looked pale, paler than usual. Her lips were chapped, eyes dull and sunken in, she looked like she hadnât slept in centuries, like all the life had been sucked out of her. And while that technically was the case, Ellie often looked vibrant for her dead state, eyes sharp and alert, green eyes almost fluorescent with color when you looked into them.
Immediately, you know what was wrong.
âWhenâs the last time youâŚhad something to eat?â You ask sternly, eyebrows furrowed and a firm frown on your pouty lips.
That was another thingâŚEllie hadnât properly fed in about two weeks, going on three now.
She let out a gentle sigh, her hands resting on your hips as your own rested on her cheeks, cupping her face and forcing her to look into your eyes even though she avoided eye contact.
She hated when you saw her this way, so weak, so small. She liked it when she was the best version of herself, the version that was well fed, agile and strong. Not like this, not like when she was turning into a shell of the woman she once was.
âIâŚitâs just been a few nights, angelâŚitâs no big dealâ she tries, giving your hips a firm squeeze as she attempts to convince you that she was fine. However her appearance and her voice is a dead giveaway that sheâs lying, the sound hoarse and scratchy, sounding as if sheâd been clawing at her throat for days to ease the pain she felt.
âYou canât lie to me, Ellie. You look horribleâ you scold the girl.
She lets out a sigh, and she almost feels ashamed of herself. Sure, there were times where a meal was a bit harder to come by, people becoming a bit more aware of the danger that lingered when she was near, but god, Ellie couldnât remember a time where it was this bad. It was like every single time she got someone in her arms, trapped in her little scheme, something cock blocked her entirely from finishing the deed.
And the more times that happened, the weaker she got.
âIâve just been really unluckyâŚokay? Most of us do this in packs or with a fucking partner at leastâŚit gets tricky when youâre on your ownâ she finally admitted, a gentle sigh falling from her lips as she leaned down to rest her head against your shoulder, pressing her weight against you in the process, as it was slowly becoming unbearable to hold it up herself at this point.
âMâjust going through a thing right now, babyâŚdonât worry about itâ she mumbled against you, lips ghosting over your soft skin as she again tried to assure you sheâd been fine.
Ellie had always made it a point to never get as low as this, and if she did, she made it a point to never let you see her. What would her sweet best friend think of her if the monster she truly was had the chance to shine through? How would you ever allow her in your presence again once you finally realized how disgusting she truly was?
What Ellie didnât know, is that you didnât think any of those things. You could never find her to be a monster or disgusting, you adored her far too much to ever see her that way. No, what you did think when you saw her that way, were any of the things you could do to help her. That was the only thing you wanted, to help her.
You donât even think twice before you say it, giving yourself a moment to mull over the idea and weigh out the pros and cons before itâs escaping the confides of your mind and making its debut out into your bedroom.
âFeed on meâ you blurt out, so quickly you arenât even sure Ellie fully catches it properly.
But she does, Ellie hears every word, every syllable, she can even hear the way your heart beat quickens after youâve said it.
Sheâs slowly lifting her head from your shoulder, eyebrows furrowed and lips frowning as she stares down at you, your eyes wide and hopeful, hopeful that sheâll take the offer, that sheâll allow you to give yourself to her for the sake of her wellbeing.
âNo.â She deadpans without a second thought. She doesnât even give herself a second to indulge in the idea of it, knowing how badly it could end, how terrible it could be with one wrong move, or one gulp too much. Ellie knows that this is nothing to toy with, especially with you.
Youâre quickly shaking your head once she rejects your offer, your hands falling from her face to rest down on her shoulders, leaning in a bit to press your body closer to hers.
âEllieâŚlook at yourself. How were you even able to climb up here?â You plead with the girl, giving her shoulders a gentle squeeze before you inhale deeply.
âIâm giving you permissionâŚI want you to do thisâ your words almost come out like a beg, wanting nothing more than to simply help the girl, to help a friend in need that clearly needed it.
And you knew deep down, that no matter what, Ellie would never hurt you.
Ellie knew it too. She knew that she wouldnât go too far to take your life away from you. She had been around long enough to have the self control to stop whenever she knew youâd had too much.
However, that didnât mean it wouldnât be hard.
She inhaled deeply, giving your hips a gentle squeeze before she finally brought her own eyes up to look into yours. Her pink tongue darted out to run along her lips, wetting the chapped skin before she let out a gentle sigh.
âYouâll tell me when it becomes too muchâŚright?â She asks, desperate for confirmation from you that you wonât let her go too far, even if she wanted to.
You give her a bright smile, a gentle giggle leaving your lips as you nod. âI willâŚnow go onâŚsooner you do this, the sooner I can sleepâ you tease her playfully, which makes her groan softly with a pout.
She sighed softly, reaching forward and pushing your hair to the side to expose the soft, supple skin of your neck. Her eyes zeroed in on it, and she could practically see your pulse from beneath your skin, making her shudder at the thought of it. She leaned in, pressing a gentle kiss to your throat, which earns a gentle sigh from you.
âThisâll hurtâŚâ she mumbles against you, peppering your skin with gentle kisses. You simply tilt your head further to the side, resting your temple against her shoulder as your arms hang loosely around her neck, your body pressed against hers.
âMmâŚIâll be okayâ you mumble out sleepily, your fingers coming up to toy with the hair at the nape of her neck.
Ellie can feel the way your pulse slows under her lips, and she has to stop herself from groaning due to how fucking strong your smell was right now with your body pressed against hers. She knew that the longer the stood her, mouthing away at your neck instead of actually feeding, sheâd just keep you from getting back to the rest that she had interrupted in the first place.
It was now or never.
She sighed softly, swallowing thickly before she opened her mouth a bit wider, fangs protruding out from her gums and taking their rightful place. She let them graze your skin, the sharp teeth sure to leave scratches from something as small as a graze, before she finally latched her lips to your throat, and sunk her teeth into your flesh.
NowâŚEllie had her fair share of tasty meals within her immortal life time. There were maybe a handful of people that left a faint memory in her head, better than most of the others sheâd fed on in her past, so she was no stranger to a warm body with a nice taste.
But you? GodâŚ.there was nothing in this world that couldâve prepared Ellie for how fuckingâŚdivine you taste. It was like liquid gold on her tongue, the smell that had plagued her mind from the moment she met you a mere tease to the real deal. It made Ellie moan against you, her eyes fluttering shut as her tattooed hands clawed at your waist, gripping the skin so tightly she was sure to leave bruises, pressing you flush against her body.
She could practically feel the essence of your life filling her up and bringing all of her strength back, replacing the once empty, dull feeling in her body with one that could only be described as rejuvenation. The taste you gave her flowing into her mouth and making her feel like sheâd died and gone to heaven.
The noises you made only aided Ellie in her blissful state, tiny moans and huffs leaving your lips as you continued massaging her scalp with gentle fingers, allowing her to take whatever she needed from you.
Ellie knew she couldâve drained you, taken every last drop of your life and left you dry. She could do it ten times over if it were an option, however it wasnât, and she knew at the back of her head she could only take what she needed, and nothing more. So she knew once your grip around her neck loosened a bit, that she needed to stop.
She unlatched from your neck breathlessly, your crimson blood painting her plush lips, red eyes blown out wide as she eyed the damage sheâd done to your poor neck, the punctures filling Ellieâs chest with a sense of pride as some of your blood and her saliva dripped down the base of your throat. She leaned in, licking you clean before pressing a gentle kiss to the wound, groaning softly as when she heard you hum softly.
âAllâŚfinished?â You mumbled out with a dreamy smile on your lips, eyes half lidded as you stared up at the girl who had just nearly sucked you dry.
Ellie stared down at you with a look of disbelief, the back of her hand coming up and wiping her lips. âYou said youâd tell me to stopâŚâ she groaned softly as she gently set you down to lay back on your bed.
You let out a soft yawn, nodding as you tugged your blanket up with a weak hand to drape over your body. âI wasâŚyou stopped sooner than anticipatedâ you giggled out sleepily before you eyed the girl from your bed, already feeling the drowsy affects of sleep taking over.
âYou look better already, ElâŚâ your compliment made her dead heart swell. She could feel it too, your life coursing through her veins and bringing back all of the good aspects of being immortal, the strength, the radiance, all of it brought back because of you.
She chuckled softly at your words, walking over to your closet and grabbing your first aid kit, fishing a little band aid out before walking back towards you. She sat at the edge of the bed, her pointer and middle finger pushing your jaw up slightly to get a look at the wound sheâd given you.
âHereâŚso you donât get blood on your pillowâ she explains as she pressed the bandaid to your neck. You simply hum in response, and Ellie knows youâre probably already asleep. Between being tired before all of this, and losing blood, she expected for you to be out like a light long before she bid you a goodnight.
She stays a bit longer after youâve fallen asleep, her long limbs crawling over your body to lay in bed with you, marveling at the way the color returned to your body, the way your chest rose and fell slowly, the way your lips would part with a gentle sigh ever so often. Sheâd let her hands caress your skin, watching as goosebumps appeared to trail after them. She simply appreciated how human you were, how warm and responsive you were even during sleep.
She leaves once the sun begins to peak above the horizon, knowing youâd want your privacy when you woke up in a few hours. She makes sure to close your window after sheâs left too, scaling down the building much quicker than she did when she first arrived.
And while she walks home, the sun slowly casting a warm glow onto the city she lived in, she knew that sheâd made a mistake by feeding on you.
Because now? She was completely and utterly ruined for anyone else that sheâd feed on after you.
Bloodlust
The word had entirely different meaning for those like Ellie, creatures of the night that fed on the essence of life, the scarlet, metallic liquid that flowed and pumped throughout the bodies of the living.
She had heard of it happening to other vampires, in an instance of finding the human being that acted as a drug to them, making it hard to function without their taste on their tongues. It was an occasion that only ever happened when there was a mutual agreement between a vampire and a human, a hunter/prey proposition that acted in a moreâŚethical way.
It consumed the one feeding, making it hard to function without the person near, almost creating an inseparable bond between the two, paired with a constant line of food with it as well. It took over nearly everything, mind, body, soul, all of it belonging to the person they fed on, the human often times having more control over the vampire.
Ellie never really believed in it, instead viewing blood as something that was of and in itself, the same all the time. Sure, there were some people that tasted better than others, but blood was blood, no matter who the person was, they were more or less all the same at the end of the day. A meal was a meal, and that was that.
So if that was true, why were you the only thing on Ellieâs mind every waking second after the night she fed on you?
You were always on Ellieâs mind before it all, lingering at the back, making her smile when she thought of something silly youâd said to her earlier in the week, face beaming whenever youâd send a text her way, so it wasnât out of the ordinary that you were on her mind.
She thought of it constantly, the way you were soâŚso fucking eager for her, a sense of intimacy lingering in the air of an act so selfless. Your pouty lips parted as you moaned and sighed her name, her lips attached to your neck as you gave her everything. Feeding was always something that felt the slightest bit romantic, the closeness of it all.
But youâŚdoing it with you was different than anything sheâd ever experienced.
She knew it meant nothing to you, she knew that it was simply you being a good friend, which meant it was borderline wrong for her to take it any way other than what it was, but she couldnât help herself. She could still taste you on her tongue when she got home, plopping down into her bed and staring up at the ceiling in her dark room as she felt her core tighten and flutter as she referenced back to the memory.
Ellie couldnât help herself when she unbuttoned her jeans, slipped her hands down to cup her pussy, and caught her aching clit against her calloused fingers to give it some much needed attention.
And she moaned your name as if it were the only word in her vocabulary, blubbering and crying out for you as she angrily fucked her aching pussy, eyebrows furrowed to the point where she almost looked upset.
âF-fuckâŚ.thatâs my fucking girlâŚthatâs itâŚgonna cum all over your pretty fuckinâ faceâ she groaned out, picturing you settled between her legs, eagerly lapping at her weeping core, grinding down onto your face and giving you everything she had, much like you did when you allowed her to feed on you.
Sheâd cum with your name falling from her lips, back arching as her hips rolled against her palm, sopping wet cunt painting her slick all over her hand, making it hard to even keep it where she needed it with how wet she was, how fucking riled up you had her.
And sheâd do it again, lying in her bed and thinking of the memory over and over again, hanging on to the sound of your voice sighing out her name, moaning for her as she licked her lips, searching for the taste of your blood still soaked on them. All while you were sound asleep in your apartment where she left you.
If Ellie thought she was drawn to you before, she was sorely mistaken. Because now? All she could do was crave you. It interrupted her day to day, made her brain foggy when she wasnât with you or talking to you.
And soon? It became a habit.
Ellie was at your door every other night, long fingers searching for your hips to pull you closer as she pressed her face into your neck, tongue slipping out of her mouth to run along the now permanent marks on your neck, whispering in your ear about how badly she needed you.
It had become a bit of a routine, Ellie would come over, youâd let her feed on you until she saw fit, sheâd go home and fuck herself, and then she would live in her own personal hell for the next few days that she wasnât able to see you.
Itâs how she found herself dragging her body down the hallway to your apartment, a heavy hand coming up to the door and giving it a firm knock.
When you answer, Ellie thinks you look like a dream. Your body is leaned up against the door, head resting against it as you give her a dreamy smile, oversized t-shirt hanging off of one of your shoulders, sleep shorts barely visible beneath the end of the shirt, hugging your ass so perfectly, your white socks bunched up at your ankles.
She has to bite back the moan that threatens to escape when she lays eyes on you.
âMmâŚhi Ellieâ your voice sounds like the sweetest melody, and sheâs smiling sheepishly as she walks towards you, bending her knees a bit as she wraps her arms around your waist, pulling you flush against her tall frame, nearly light you up off the ground completely.
âThere she isâŚâ she sighed against you, and it sounds like Ellie can finally breath, like the weight holding her back from breathing in the air she so desperately needed has finally been granted to her, it makes you giggle softly.
You wrap your arms around her neck, humming softly as your fingers come up to tangle in her hair, simultaneously pulling her into your apartment. She kicks the door closed behind her, arms still wrapping you up and keeping you close.
She keeps you close, her head coming up to take a look at the set up you have going in that sheâs walked in to. She can tell youâve been working on your book, your laptop set on your couch paired with your favorite blanket, and a mug set on your coffee table that was still steaming.
âWorking on the book?â She asked softly, you nod as you turn around in your arms, and excited smile on your face as you walk over to your spot, clicking the keypad a few times before you shut it.
âYup. Iâm getting pretty farâŚ.was wrapping it up right before you came overâ you practically beamed.
Ellie always found it so endearing how dedicated you were to your work, and rightfully so, Ellie reminded you time and time again that sheâd lived through many eras of famous writers, but you always topped them ten times over and then some. Sheâd never let you forget the talent you had was rare.
You plopped down on your couch after sliding your laptop into its little compartment under your coffee table, your legs coming up to cross over each other as you pat the spot next to you eagerly, to which she easily obliged of course.
Her old denim jacket rustled a bit as she sat down, resting her back against your couch as she slouched down a bit, legs spread as she stares up at you through the dim, cozy lighting of your living room.
You giggle softly, resting your cheek against your palm as you look down at her. âWhat are you staring at? Youâre looking at me like Iâm something to eatâŚâ your words trail off, eyes narrowing at the girl playfully before you sit up, crossing your arms.
âDid you come all the way here to get a free meal out of me, Williams?â Your tone is accusing, but playful, and it makes Ellie chuckle as she bring her tattooed hands up to rub up and down her face before she groans.
âWhen you say it like that it sounds badâŚ.I see it as seeing my favorite person with something extra added into itâŚâ she defends herself before chuckling, looking back at you as she tugs her bottom lip into her mouth, sucking gently on the plump skin, letting her mind linger to imagine it was your lips she was sucking on instead as her eyes slowly zeroed in on them, similar to if she were under a spell.
âYou know you donât have to if you donât want toâŚâ she mumbled out softly, voice gentle and truthful.
It was true, Ellie would cut all of this out the second you made even the slightest signal that you were tired of it, or if your body simply couldnât handle it anymore. She knew that sheâd never use you as her personal blood bag. The minute you wanted out, you got it, no questions asked.
You give her a gentle smile though, shaking your head as you shifted your body a bit so that it was now laying down on the end of the couch opposite of Ellie, your head resting against one of the plush pillows you had next to you while you were writing. You spread your legs a bit, making space for Ellie to crawl into before you stretched your arms out for her, a silent call for the girl to come closer.
âIâll always give it to you, ElâŚyou know that. ComeâŚâ you call her again with a slight flick of your wrist.
Your words make Ellieâs head swirl, all of it sounding, and feeling, much too similar to something else, something more than just a friend helping another friend out. It sounds like youâre giving something else to her, something sheâd dreamt of taking from you from the moment she laid eyes on you.
But she canât indulge in that, not now, not when youâre being so kind.
She chokes back a groan, the girl slowly crawling over your body, similar to a predator creeping over its prey. Her body consuming yours as she pressed either one of her palms into the plush couch near your head, staring into your eyes as she settled between your warm thighs, the plush skin pressing against a sliver of her hips that was exposed at the top of her jeans. The feeling of her body pressed against your warm cunt, the only thing separating the two of you being the think material of your shorts, drove Ellie to the brink of insanity.
She hummed softly, her eyes trailing down your every feature, taking you in, eating you up for a moment before she grabbed your chin, tilting your head up and away to give her better access to the little area of your throat that had now become hers and only hers.
Soon, sheâs leaning down, her body pressed against yours as she peppers kisses along your jaw until she reaches your throat, licking at the two little wounds that were in the shape of her fangs before she sighed against your skin, finally giving in and letting her protruding fangs sink into your skin.
Youâd always been comfortable around Ellie, never shying away from her touch whenever sheâd grab you whenever you were out together, or letting her easily pull you into her lap whenever you watched movies or played video games together, intimate touches never being out of the ordinary in your relationship.
But now, ever since you and her had startedâŚwhatever it was that youâd been doing, you had seemed to cross a boundary that was once put up. What was once little sighs and huffs, turned into full on moans whenever Ellie would press her body against yours and take what she wanted. Youâd grip her hair, keeping her close as you moaned and whined out her name, breathless begs for her to keep going.
âFuckâŚEllieâŚâ you moaned out for her, your eyes fluttering shut as your fingers laced into her brown hair, keeping her close as her hands moved from either sides of your head to instead grip your body. Your hips were her favorite, holding onto the plush skin and keeping you close, massaging and kneading you as she pleased, a small piece of her wanting to bruise you up, just so she knew she was able to leave marks on you other than your neck.
It egged her on further, your calls for her making her swipe her tongue over the wound before she continued sucking your sweet essence from your body. Ellie wasnât sure if you were fond of it at first, but now? With how you reacted? She was sure you enjoyed it, if even a little bit.
She became so drunk off of you, her mind clouded with the intense flavor of your blood, nearly choking on it with how quickly she drank sometimes. One of her hands left your hips, sliding down until she gripped your thigh, pulling it up and closer to wrap around her body, massaging the soft skin as she let one of her legs slip over your other one, so that her thigh was slotted against your cunt, and yours against hers.
Ellie didnât even realize it at first, but she slowly began to grind into you, letting her thigh rub against your barely clothed pussy as she drank from you, her senses completely overwhelmed with just how fucking good you tasted, how good you felt. She felt her mind and body buzz with electricity when she pressed her chest against yours, and she could feel your nipples hardening through the thin material of your shirt, pressing against her own chest.
âMmâŚh-hahâŚEllie..IâŚ.Ellie pleaseâŚâ you begged, and Ellie was able to hear the way your voice was slowly going, growing more and more hoarse with every moan, every pant.
She was taking too much, and she wasnât sure if she was begging for you to stop, or to keep going.
Ellie groaned loudly against you, prying her lips away from your dulcet neck, panting loudly as she pulled away further to look down at you, letting herself get a good look at the mess sheâd made of you.
Your lips were swollen, eyes growing heavy, skin getting dull. Your hair was messy, and your shirt was pulled down further, revealing more of your shoulder and collar bones, while the bottom was pushed up to show more of your stomach.
It was like a dream and a nightmare all at once.
You blinked a few times as you tried catching your breath, staring up at Ellie as one of your hands came up to cup her cheek gently.
âA-all better?â You stuttered out, giving her that notorious dreamy smile of yours, the one that made Ellie feel like she was the only person in the world that got to see it.
Sheâs drained you, and yet you were asking if she felt better.
Ellie held back a groan, her large hand wrapping around your wrist before she brought your hand down to press a kiss to your palm, giving you a gentle nod before she inhaled deeply to control the emotions that threatened to escape while she saw you this way.
âAlways when Iâm with you babyâ she chuckled out sadly.
The smile you give Ellie nearly has her in tears, because you look so genuinely happy, so content with the fact that youâve helped her, that youâve made Ellie feel better, even if itâs at the expensive of your own comfort.
At the expensive of your own life.
âIâm gladâŚâ you hummed out softly before you yawned, clearly tired out from what Ellie had done to you. It makes Ellie frown, and sheâs quickly pushing herself off of you before she scoops you up into her arms to carry you off to your bedroom.
Soon, she has you tucked into bed, your eyes closing almost as soon as your head hits the pillow, and Ellie has your blankets pulled up over your arms. Itâs almost mind blowing how quickly you fall asleep, it makes Ellie feel a bit jealous, because she canât remember a time where she was that comfortable in a bed to fall asleep so fast.
She watches you, of course. Sticking around for a few hours after youâve slept, keeping an eye on you to make sure your chest continues to rise and fall slowly. She knows it would never go that far, but she always gets nervous after feeding.
Tonight was also different, and it was eating away at her because she knew there wasnât really a right or wrong way to go about cleaning about it, or comforting you about how wrong this was, and how much Ellie had been draining you. Even the fact that you expected it of her when she came over left a bitter taste in her mouth, one that replaced the sweet one that usually lingered on her tongue after she had a taste of you.
And as she watched you sleep, so peaceful and so serene, Ellie began to think of any way this would blossom into something more. How would this carry on? She would continue sucking from you until you died one day? Sheâd come to you like a thief in the knight well after you had a family? Children to look after? Your life moving on while she stayed in an immortal purgatory? One where she continued the cycle of coming to you for a quick bite to eat? Paired with a warm body to lay on top of for the time being?
There was no way it could surpass this. You being her friend, helping her in a way not many could. Ellie knew, that deep down, the life she wanted with you was not one that was easy to come by, something that she wouldnât dare ask of you. From the moment she saw you, she wanted more. Because thatâs what she did, she took, and took, and took until there was nothing left to take, and it was slowly happening with you.
But Ellie loved you too fucking much to take until you were nothing but a shriveled up peace of what you used to be.
So, she took one long last look at you and she left your window. Because that night, she promised herself that she was finished. The life she wanted with you unfortunately wasnât written in the stars for her, and she knew that from the moment she saw you.
Ellie was letting you go, because she knew it she didnât.
Sheâd just end up killing you.
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