#I have barely slept this week
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honey-olive · 2 months ago
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Is that… Deathpierce??
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And Deldry??…
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from-the-owls-nest · 1 month ago
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open starter?
you hear a quiet knock at your cabin door. When you open it, you see a little girl/child in a big hoodie sitting on the doorstep. It's pulled its legs to the chest into a little ball, looking panicked and having visibly cried.
"... help?"
taglist @nico-sees-dead-people @dr-flipflops @the-eclipse-is-in-me @quinn-is-victory @demigod-jack-hearth other tags i cant remember
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stealingpotatoes · 1 year ago
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In your Family Fix-it AU, does Ahsoka re-join the order or is she still, in Mace Windu's words, a civilian?
yeah I do think she would!!! in season 7 ik she says smthn like "not yet" abt being a jedi to yoda, so yeah, I do think she intended to join again if the order kinda��� became more what she originally thought it was. so doesn't rejoin immediately, probably a few years after the twins are born and when the Jedi have solidified themselves as a peaceful organisation again and ahsoka feels emotionally ready herself to rejoin
but getting to that point is difficult. made even more difficult bc obvs in this au, Anakin's ALSO left the order! so she partly doesn't want to go back out of her own pride, but also partly doesn't wanna go back bc of his pride. is it a betrayal to go back to the order both of them left?
she and anakin discuss this at some point (probably on a nighttime balcony or smthn for the aesthetic) and he basically explains he left for very different reasons to her. he left because he knew he personally wasn't a fit for the jedi with the whole wife and family thing, but ahsoka left bc of insitutional stuff. if she thinks its better now then she has anakin's blessing (they both know she doesn't need it but hey, it's nice to have that support from her big bro)
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the-satellite · 3 months ago
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I am thinking about. The blood n knife n alcohol in Boone's room. And the broken mirror.
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phantaloon · 4 days ago
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i cant stop thinking about like apart from lore wise, what this means in a more mental / psychological interpretation
bc like the entirety of trench and the dema story, it's all been about learning to fight your demons, about learning how to overcome and how to stand up after falling and how to find a way to keep going
in trench it was fighting, finding purpose, finding that strength and that spark to cope in a way
sai was all about distractions, about faking it til you make it, about well if i tell myself everythings okay everything is going to be okay, only for it to end in the same themes blurryface had going on kinda, with fear and anxiety and grief for the things you've lost, of losing more, of losing yourself
and with clancy, those themes about anxiety and fear and depression are stronger than they were in trench even, clancy is about falling back into patterns you thought you left behind and struggling to get back on track, but ultimately knowing that you had a support network, that you weren't alone, that you can start fresh and push on through and that you have people who love you on the other side
and then the end of paladin strait happened
you're back in the hands of fear, of insecurity, of anxiety, but this time you're going to take those feelings and claim them back and you're not going to bend for them anymore
but then
putting things into real world words, what does the line and the theories of clancy becoming a bishop truly mean?
it can't be that you are now the one who causes insecurity and fear and anxiety, can it? bc then what would be the point
i dont really participate much in dema lore talks bc honestly im quite behind on it, but still, it doesn't really make sense, for the end of it to mean that it's now us who are in the place of the bishops, that its now us who will inflict these feelings
and really, with the theories of clancy becoming a bishop booming lately, i genuinely thought oh this is going to be a situation where clancy is in power, and he's going to change things, he's going to preach about better things, essentially doing tylers role irl
so like, for me it symbolizes getting to a point where you're replacing old people of power with bigoted and old fashioned and hurtful ways of thinking and doing and speaking, with these ideals of respect and resilience and self love and just you know, everything twenty one pilots stand for
but with the line, it feels as if whatever clancy is becoming, it's not something the object of the song is particularly proud of
its not something about winning and persevering
its about giving in, about apologizing for not being able to make it, about settling for the path of least resistance
its regretful and sorrowful and grieving
so what does that mean for clancy? what does that mean for us?
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icewindandboringhorror · 11 months ago
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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detentiontrack · 2 months ago
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btw just giving this disclaimer preemptively: if i start posting weird things (or weirder things than normal) i promise i didn’t relapse and i promise i’m still sober. i’ve been sober for a while now. my bipolar is just getting bad again and i might be going into an episode
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ana-rends · 5 months ago
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i would rather live with ana for the rest of my life than binge like this ever again
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dandyshucks · 6 months ago
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little man on an adventure :]
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rinnstars · 1 month ago
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me rn
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irhabiya · 9 months ago
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today sucked the life out of me ya Allah
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eldragon-x · 2 months ago
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urgh
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kingtankgirl · 2 months ago
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this is officially worse than when i had e.coli i can definitely say that now
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lieutenantselnia · 2 months ago
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I finally finished and handed in my thesis on Friday and it felt like such an incredible relief😭 I think I haven't felt so at peace in literal months because it was constantly looming over me but I felt too paralysed with fear to start writing. BUT that's finally over now! I still need to do my final exam now but that's only in October. Also I've started my master's degree programme on Thursday (at the same university that's why I could start despite not actually having my bachelor's degree yet) and I'm actually already looking forward to my classes :D
I feel like it really affected my mental wellbeing during that time though and especially in the last few months I found it much harder to keep in contact with online friends or even just go on social media, I got overwhelmed much more easily and it just felt too exhausting :( I lowkey feel bad for all the self ship postings and art and fanfics that I missed😭 So please, take this as a free pass to come into my inbox and gush about your f/o(s)! I'd love to hear about them🫶
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3amsnek · 1 year ago
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just a lil guy,,,, who has been trapped in my drafts for three months. oh dear.
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indiegame · 3 months ago
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hate coming back so late, i miss watching the sunset and getting to sit on the porch until im too tired or have smth creepy happen
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