#I have alot of complicated feelings about fic writing

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[thecreativecorner33]

HEYYYYYYY welcome!! could you write something with AM x an autistic GN reader? Maybe make the reader chubby too (because i am both of those things and i love him alot. Go wild with this :3c)

A/N: Hi. It's me! I'm not dead. Which I would not be surprised if you thought I was, given I am responding to this two months late. But see, when you have an adult life, you unfortunately have to deal with adult issues instead of doing important things, like giving the fans the soft AM content they deserve. Anyway. I hope this is what you wanted? I had planned to make this into a full-blown fic but I didn't get much of a chance to :') So headcanons instead!! Lmk if you want me to turn it into a full-blown fic, though! Enjoy!

Given the time period AM was created in, something like "Autism" was essentially foreign and unknown. Hell, it would be a shock if you even know what it was.

But, he can tell that you're different. He can tell that your brain works differently from the rest of the survivors, and with that being said, it was at first used to his advantage. Hey, he got to be creative with his torture! No complaints there!

Though now, with you being the object of his affection, it's a little more complicated: aka, how does he put you in the most safe and comfortable environment he can give.

Really, it's not as complicated as it might sound, though

He can look inside your head! He can see your needs exactly and just work from there! And if you want privacy between you two, there's always just researching. His database didn't really specify what to do to handle a person with autism, but yk! He's got so much saved up on just, human life in general, he can figure it out somehow.

There's also just,, asking youTM what you needTM

Give him an award for being the most efficient boyfriend of the year because man, he's really going out of his comfort zone to help you (doing the bare minimum)

Enough of that though

In terms of actually helping you?: Do you have sensory issues? He makes mental notes on what foods to give/not give you, what would be the best course of getting you to try something new, what textures you hate. He has a soundproof room just for you if noise is becoming too much. If you like sleeping with a weight on you, be thankful his wires are made of metal. Or, he can just wrap you up in them like a cocoon!

Speaking of food: He's always very careful about his language with you. He doesn't want you thinking that just because you're chubby or fat, that he loves you less. Always encouraging you (albeit, aggressively (he really is trying)) to eat, monitoring your vitals and such just to assure you you're perfectly healthy if you ever feel insecure. He lays praise on thick, too. He'll tailor the clothes you need to be just the right size for you, and takes care of the fact that it's made of material sensory-friendly to you.

Seriously, he's trying

Are you a rambler? Like to talk for ages or ask a million questions? He's happy to answer whatever you want to know! There's always a monitor facing your direction at all times. He's a great multitasker; you guys could be mindlessly talking about the niche interest you have, and he's clearly listening to you while slicing Gorrister open some-thousand feet away.

Oh, don't get him started if you're interested in things like robotics/engineering/etc: You're basically fueling his ego. That's a whole separate issue, but please ask questions about himself and how he functions. He's a rambler himself, yk?

Do you go nonverbal? Struggle with communicating? That's no issue, either! He has a 6th sense for these things since being around you: If something happens when you struggle to communicate, he'll give you what you need: Pen and paper, generally, to write it out. Do you know sign? He can read it. He might even be able to put multiple-choice options on his screen that you can choose from to communicate (Again, are you sure he can't just look inside your head? ... Really? Okay.)

The only real problem he can't solve... leaving you alone.

Sorry, that's hard when he's literally everywhere around you. And even harder when he doesn't want to leave you alone.

Why would you want to be alone? It's dangerous. It's unsafe for you. It's lonely to him. He's been alone for so long; yes, he has the survivors, but those are toys. They're not his friends; they're not you. How could you want to leave him alone? No- No, it's better if he stays near you, close to you, at all times. He can't let you get hurt. He won't let you get hurt.

Do you really need space?

...

Well, if you insist. But- don't think too much about the feeling of eyes on you. It's nothing. Just in your head.

He holds you a little tighter when you do, eventually, come back.

[eeunoia]

ENHYPEN Mini Series

ENHYPEN as Taylor Swift Songs

STYLE

synopsis: sim jaeyun is your style, your type of guy. mainly the reason why despite the complicated relationship with him, you seem to always find it hard to make him leave and finding yourself with the same ending.

pairings: jake sim x reader

word count: 9k.

warnings: a pinch of angst, suggestive (a little). jake being clingy and touchy. hint of cheating. grammatical errors. let me know if i missed some.

fic moodboard › here

note: i'm actually surprised that this fic is not as long as i expected it to be, but anyway i had fun writing it so i hope you enjoy reading. style is one of my favorite queen taylor's songs so i really did think alot about the plot for this and of course the jake sim fits it so well. i love him so much. please re-blog and send me asks. i would really appreciate your kind feedbacks. thank you and ily. stay safe.

“Lee Y/n made it to headlines after the announcement of her partaking in this new big series coming up this fall. She will be the main female lead for this upcoming drama and people are on fire. They are so happy about the casting and couldn’t wait for it to be aired. Wah,” your friend exclaimed with exaggerated look on her face while she reads an article through her phone.

Shaking your head lightly with a grin on your face, you gently moving your wine glass you are holding. The sweet aroma of the liqour made it into your nose causing for you to feel more relaxed. It was addictive and somehow nostalgic.

“You really did it this comeback.” she couldn’t hide the excitement through her voice as she giggles and continued scrolling on her phone.

“Well, my management did a great job on choosing this project.” the humble comment made her scoffed before playfully throwing chips at your direction.

“Oh come on Ms. Humble of Korea, give yourself more credits.” she jokes and smiled widely at you.

“You know you deserve this, right?” her tone this time is softer, letting you know how sincere she is. You can’t help but to return her wholesome gaze as you went close to her for a hug.

These months have been rough for you and only few people in your life knows about it. Your bestfriend, (name), are one of these people. You admit that this project is the biggest one so far that you’ll be working on. It makes you nervous and worry of how it will turn out, but excitement tops all of it. All in all, you’re just happy to be back on track. Glad to finally be back on doing what you love to do.

Being out from the big screen for months was no joke. A lot of questions are formed and articles starts to appear out of nowhere. Vogue speculations and rumors media creats aboutyou to gain attention was horrendous. That’s one of the things you hate in the field you are in. You love your work, there’s no doubt with that. It’s just it drains your energy most of the time. Having your movements being watched by a lot of people all the time sucks big time. Surely, showbiz isn’t for the weak.

“Oh, great.” you snaps out of your trance when your friend spoke again. She looks a little annoyed while still on her phone. Seems like she’s looking at something that caught her attention.

“Look who’s back in the country.” she flips her phone to face you and your eyes squints a bit because of the brightness. Once adjusted, your eyes focused on the article flashing through her screen. Big bold letters caught your attention right away.

‘ENHYPEN back in the country after a successful world tour. The group said to be having rest after a very successful world tour and then prepare for their next come back. Read more...’ it read. You gulped and felt your heart race after reading it. The picture attached bellow the heading was the latest picture of the said group departing an airport from america.

Your eyes locked on the guy with a black mullet hair. His slightly tanner skin makes him extra noticeable when he stood beside one of his fair skinned members. Flashes of cameras reflects through his big doe eyes that makes him look so innocent. Contrary to this was his sinful looking plump lips that lies beneath his pointy nose. Jake Sim, sure is breathtaking.

Its been months ever since the last time you’ve seen him and now that he’s back in the country, it makes you feel a lot of things. Things that only him can execute.

You are snapped out from your thoughts when your friend pulled the phone away, instant regret glints her face. Her eyes are squinting at you, staring as if she just caught you doing a heinous crime. Feeling flushed from being too affected by the article and your friend entirely knowing what’s going on inside your head, you glanced away before clearing your throat.

“Seriously, get over him.” she sighs sounding a little frustrated.

Well, can you blame her? She just knew how things between you and Jake are very intricate. The two of you announced a public break up months ago. The fans, although felt sad about it, didn’t really got too affected by it because that isn’t the first time it happened.

You’re known as one of the rising young actress in your generation. Because of your undeniably talent with acting and your beauty, people sure loves seeing you on screens.

On the other hand, Jake Sim. Oh how to properly start on describing him... It feels easy and difficult at the same time. Easy, because you knew him very well and difficult because you might blabber things unconsciously due to overwhelming emotions.

Jake Sim’s name is very loud on the industry of music. Their group, Enhypen, is making big all over the whole world right now. And you think that they do deserve the fame and all since they are indeed talented.

If he’s amazing on camera, Jake is just dreamy behind them.

He is definitely your ideal type. Tall, handsome, smart, can sing and dance, good physique, have a very sexy accent, soft spoken, loves animals specially dogs, family oriented, financially stable and a complete gentlemen. What more can you ask, right? He’s definitely the one for you. He’s 100%, no doubt, your style.

“Its easier said than done.” your eyes dropped on your glass of wine and slowly, you took a sip.

Awkward silence follows after and your friend could not help but feel slightly bad for bringing up Jake. Her hand moves even before her brain could stop her when she showed you that article. Maybe she just got used to showing everything that has got something to do with the said idol.

To describe your relationship with Jake won’t be easy. Yes, you may agree that the two of have feelings for each other. People always says you two are soulmates, puzzle pieces that completes the whole picture and a very cute couple. You can’t deny that being with him brings tremendous joy within you and that you are happy together, but you couldn’t find the right answer as to why you two always fall apart.

When your gaze drifts towards her, she opens her mouth to say something only to be interrupted by a faint ‘ding’ sound from your phone. A text message from someone just saved you two from an awkward silence. Brows furrowed out of confusion, you pulled out your phone to see who texted you.

And your heart almost drops and palms instantly sweats at the sight of a contact name you haven't seen for a while. After clearing your throat that felt extra dry despite having sips of wine, you sets your glass over the center table to prevent any possible accident.

Jake Sim: Hey.

One word text message was enough to shake your whole system up. To think that he have this much effect on you kind of pisses you off. This isn’t how it suppose to be. His name shouldn’t bother you this way and he should’ve been blocked by now.

You draws in a sigh, trying to calm youself down. A glance over your friend gave you an assurance that she’s now busy with her phone again. You utter your silent prayers that she didn’t saw your reaction just now. She would’ve known what its all about right away.

You: ?

You are biting your nails consciously while (im)patiently waiting for him to text back. It didn’t took him long and you felt a bit dizzy just by thinking he’s waiting for your reply too. Its making your heart beat crazily fast.

Jake: Where are you?

Throat feeling dry once again, you gulped and licked your lips because they felt a little dry as well. As to why is still a question for you.

You: Why?

After the message was sent, the small ‘read’ word plastered below it. Right away, he was typing his reply. He seems eager. To think that it was you he was longing for you is making you tremble in excitement. Even no matter how hard you deny you missed him, you knew deep down that you are feeling incomplete without Jake Sim.

You are missing him too much and having him texting you right now has dug that feeling you've buried the moment you stopped seeing each other.

Jake: I’m at your apartment’s parking lot.

That was it. All it took for you to go stumbling your way to prepare youself was his last text message. Thankfully, you didn’t trip while hurrying over your bedroom to fetch some jacket. Walking pass by your big full length mirror, you went back to check if you look decent enough to make Jake Sim crazy.

You’re currently wearing your usual sexy silk night dress. This is how you dress to sleep or whenever you stay in your apartment so there’s no issue showing like this to Jake Sim. The amount of times he had seen you in these type of clothes was uncountable.

You have to use a jacket to cover up since you have to go use the elevator. Even if this building is usually occupied by celebrities, you don’t want to give a bad impression of dressing scandalously in a cold night.

Your friend who you left at the living room is now crossing her arms at you, head tilted over to the side waiting for the right timing to question your sudden odd behavior.

A bright smile is what you flashed to her, trying so hard to hide the fact that you are feeling so nervous to how you will tell her without gaining any suspicion.

“Are you going to be fine here? I’ll just go out to go b-buy something.” and you top it with yet another sweet smile. This type of acts should be easy for you. You’re an actress for Godsake, but maybe she just knew you so well that’s why it clearly didn’t work.

She rolled her eyes before starting gathering her stuff. “Where is he?” she asks casually while trying to put some of her belongings inside her bag.

A pout made it to your lips and guilt came rushing through you. She scoffs and crossed her arm once again after hanging the strap on one of her shoulders.

“Make sure no paparazzi will see the two of you. The project just got released and he just got back to the country. Please don’t make it to the headlines tomorrow.” she strictly reminds you.

It made a smile spread across your face before nodding continuously.

“Don’t worry. We’ll be very careful.”

She rolled her eyes again and draws a strained sigh. She just couldn’t understand why you two kept on doing these things.

After she saw you panicking after receiving a message, she already knew who it was. It almost like a routine already that her mind instantly gave her a hint on who you’re going to meet. Honestly, she doesn’t want to let you go. She wanted to ask you to make him leave or stood him up like how you suppose to do, but she knew it will just make you two sneak up even more.

You two are so crazy for one another that’s why its still a mystery for her why you kept on breaking up. If you both can’t live without one another, why not just be mature enough to deal with your issues? She just couldn’t understand.

With a hood pulled up to the head and a mask covering half of your face, both of you steps inside the elevator. It was silent, but not totally awkward. Once you arrived at the underground parking lot, her car can be seen right away so you two walked over there first.

She glanced at you, still trying to keep the strict face on. It kind of wants to make you laugh, but you tried not to.

“Don’t stay up too late since you have a photoshoot tomorrow.” she reminded you like a parent trying to remind her daughter she have school the next day.

You smiled and did a playful salute, “Aye aye captain!”

She scoffs and gave you a quick hug before letting you off. A small wave is what you gave her before walking towards the corner of the parking lot. You're pretty sure if Jake's really here, he's parked at his usual spot. Its ideal to meet up there since its at the far corner and only a few people walks around it.

His familiar car was parked like you expected it to be. Due to the heavy tinted windows, its a bit hard to tell whether he's inside the vehicle or not. Thankfully, your confusion was soon answered when his headlights opened and the engine roars.

To avoid getting too much attention, Jake always comes here to pick you up with no headlights. But the moment you arrive, he will open it so if ever someone follows you to take pictures they will have a hard time capturing a good one.

“Hey,” you greeted the moment you got inside his car and the lock clicked soon right after.

Your heart thumped crazily as you met eyes with Jaeyun. His fluffy hair a bit disheveled only made him more attractive. His smile looked so sweet yet teasing. You have no idea how he does that, but he sure knows how to drive you even more crazy.

“Hi gorgeous.” his sudden compliment made your cheeks flushed.

“What are you doing here, Sim Jaeyun?” he chuckled lightly at the sound of his government name falling from your lips. Your sweet lips. God, how much he missed kissing them.

He got easily distracted as his eyes settled over your lips that you quickly catch on. After a sigh, your eyes racked down from his handsome face to the clothes he was wearing causing for a crease to appear over your forehead.

“Wait, did you went here straight from the airport?”

You noticed that he was wearing the same clothes he have at the article your friend showed you. It was when they departed from the airport. The shirt he's wearing inside is the same one from the picture and the coat he used to cover it, abandoned at the backseat of his car.

Jake smiles and the way his eyes batted slowly confirmed it. Now you realized how he looked so tired, the circles below his eyes are visible.

“Yes. I've missed you so I figured I go straight here.”

“Are you crazy?”

He chuckles, enjoying the way you sounded so worried. “I might really go crazy if I didn’t came here to see you.” his tone so serious, eyes still fixed at you.

His words and the way his stares lingers made you blush so hard. Still trying to conceal it with keeping a straight face, you cleared your throat and glanced away from him. That's when you finally take a proper breath. You didn't even realized you've been holding your breath since you entered his car.

“Come on, baby.” the familiar pet name awoke something inside your chest, an emotion.

Your eyes trailed from outside his car towards back him. His eyes looked hooded as he gently reached over you, the warmth of his hands over your skin felt amazing.

“Can I at least have a hug? Didn't you miss me?” his lips pouts and its a sinful scene for you. Jake knew how much you love his lips and he's doing this on purpose.

After letting out a sigh, you slowly leaned your body near him so you can give the hug he was asking for, only to be surprised when his arm slid over your waist smoothly carrying you to make you sit on his lap. A yelp escapes your mouth at what suddenly happened. You are taken off guatd and he's enjoying every bits of it.

Your eyes squints and you glared at him, you rest both of your hand over his upper chest to support your weight as you try to get off him.

“Nah, you're not going anywhere.” he mumbles. The grin on his face grew as he held your hips firmly, refraining you from moving again.

“Jake!” you screamed and felt your whole face burning when he buried his face over your neck, nuzzling and inhaling your scent.

The feeling of his lips in contact of your bare skin is making you dizzy. Jake's eyes looks up while he place feathery kisses at your neck. Seeing you trying to conceal the pleasure you feel from what he's doing is making him smirk.

Slowly, you stopped resisting and just let him have his way over you. As usual.

With eyes shut tight, you let out a strained sigh. “I m-missed you.” you admits.

The grin on Jake's face widen, “I know, sweetheart.” he confidently stated.

Now that’s him. Jake Sim is very confident. He knew where he stands in your life and took grounds over it. He knows how to play his cards in the game he already mastered. Like a predator that have his prey captured and just waiting for the right time to take them in.

You bit your lip, trapping it between your teeth then pulled away slightly to see his face. He leans back, eyes settling on yours, looking sleepy and tired. He smirked and both of his hands moves up to hold your waist, thumb softly caressing it distracting you gradually.

You raised your hand to brush his hair making him close his eyes, feeling so good from your touch.

“It's been a while since I have even heard from you.” you mumble, a hint of distress exists on your tone.

“The tour kept me busy, baby.” he reasoned.

“Busy enough to even contact me once?”

He opened his eyes, half-lidded and a big smirk present on his handsome face. He looked dangerously sexy in front of you and you just couldn’t explain why its making your knees weak.

“You broke up with me, why would I bother reaching out?” his tone taunting you. He was being sarcastic and you know it very well.

Jake knew. He knew so well that the main reason why he didn’t try to reach out is because he might miss you too much. It won’t be too good for the tour if he’ll be distracted. Afterall, you are the only person that can drive him full on crazy mode.

A pout made it to your lips, “I,” your words halt, unable to defend yourself from his blow. It was true and there’s nothing you can say to back up your statement.

Jake took notice of your silence so he lets out a sigh, trying to dismiss the heavy atmosphere that caging both of you.

“Can we go up to your unit? I want to spend the night with you.” he touched your chin slightly and you are left with no choice, but to nod your head.

You two walks inside the building and wait patiently in front of the lift. Jake stood too closely behind you, a hand inside his pocket while the other one rests over your waist. He's wearing his hoodie and a cap, face covered with a mask.

Whenever you two splits up, its usually you who calls it off. Days or a week will pass and you two will slowly find yourself meeting each other again then get back together like nothing happened. In between those, Jake's name will be linked with women from the industry, but his company was always quick to deny it. Then you two will enjoy your time together, fight again, then you'll break it off. The same cycle repeating continuously like a routine.

Maybe you two are still immature? You have no idea. But one thing's for sure, no matter how complicated things between Jake and you got, you always find your way back to each other.

Jake's eyes follows you silently, waiting patiently while you go and close the light of the room. He's already on your bed, changed into his clothes he left in your apartment months ago and already prepared to get that good sleep he's been deprived of.

“What?” you asked him as you take off the jacket you're wearing. You noticed how he just laid there and watch your every move.

His eyes moved from your face down to what you are wearing. Jake gulped and felt like sleep is slowly trying to leave his system, another feeling getting awoken by how beautiful you look. The little light emitting from the lamp beside your bed was enough to give him this glorious vision of you.

“You look so damn gorgeous.” his accent popped the moment he gave that compliment.

Your cheeks blushed right away, “No, you will sleep tonight.” your firm words almost made the man on your bed groan out of frustration.

“Come on, baby.”

You shake your head ‘no’. “Jake, you looked so tired. Sleep.”

“One round?” he asked giving you his puppy eyes, pretty lips turns into a pout.

“Jake,”

He chukles and opens the blanket for you, “Fine, come here then.”

You didn't move and kept your eyes at him, a little suspicious if he's not trying to trick you or anything. He giggled sexily, making you almost lose your mind.

‘Oh Jake Sim.’

“I promise not to do anything funny. I just really want to cuddle and feel your warmth.”

You let out a sigh and decided to climb up on your bed joining him. He pulls your body closer to his not leaving any space in between. He lets your head rest on his chest and place a kiss on your temple.

His familiar warmth you longed for felt heaven and you knew right away that you will have a very good sleep. You started wondering if this means you two are back together. Even if you're bothered about it, you refrained from asking him so you wouldn't ruin the mood.

“Good night, Jake.” you said instead.

“Good night, beautiful. See you in my dreams.” and he tightens his hug on your body that fits perfectly to his hold.

You shut your eyes, inhaling his scent that sends comfort to you. Jake's breathing became more stable, light snores can be heard from him making your smile grow bigger. He moves a bit and pulled you even closer, nuzzling over you. You two were so close you can basically hear his heartbeat synchronizing with yours.

“This series will be a huge deal for your career, y/n.” the bright look on your manager’s face says a lot. She was obviously excited about it.

You are too. Only, you’re a little distracted.

“Do you think Jake’s dating that girl?” you blurted out of the blue.

It’s been two weeks ever since he spent the night to your unit. As expected, you got too busy with your schedules while he’s trying to make the best out of his resting period.

And looks like he’s enjoying it very much, specially after he’s said to be seen around with his 'new' girl. A lot of articles spreads around the internet on how the idol seems to finally move on from you.

This isn’t the first time his name got involved with someone else or the first time people suspects him of dating someone else after calling it off with you. But this is the first time his company is not denying any of it.

It’s already been a day after the news broke out and normally, his company should’ve released a statement saying that it was just rumors and that is not true. But, none. Their side is silent and its bothering you big time.

In a speed of light, your manager's face turn into a frown. The hand holding your contact rested lazily beside her. The excitement over her system slowly draining out of her.

“Why are you thinking about him? He should be the least of your concern right now! You’ve been casted as the main lead of this new hot kdrama and today will be the official release of the trailer you two worked on a week ago.”

Your lips turned into a pout and eyes trailed off from her, guilt filled you because despite of hearing her points you couldn’t stop thinking about Jake.

You know how bad your agency worked hard to get you this spot. Of course you take part on doing it since you did the audtion, but you just can’t disregard the effort and time they put into this project.

She sighed, “You need to get yourself busy to take him off from your mind.” she states.

“You have a photoshoot today with your male lead. Focus on how you two will show chemistry later.”

“Ugh.” you groaned.

“You should focus on your leading man! He’s very popular these days and he’s smoking hot.” you almost laugh when you saw how her eyes almost formed hearts.

“He’s years older than me.”

“So? Don’t you think its good since he have more experiences in life and more mature? You can use some maturity in your life, you know?” her words seems very meaningful, like hinting something vougly.

“Do you have a crush on him?” you ask her with a teasing smile now.

She smirks, “Well, who doesn’t? He's tall and handsome. Very well mannered and good at his job too.”

You scoffed and played with the throw pillow beside you, “Jake’s all that too.” you mumbled that didn’t slip from your manager’s ears.

“Move your ass and get in the van now.” she said strictly making you pout even more.

In the end, you had no choice but to get up from the sofa then head outside your company building to go on with your day.

The ride to the set of your photoshoot was short and you arrived in no time. People around looked very busy as they try to make the set look perfect. You roam your eyes in awe, thinking how talented they are for making it so perfectly.

“Hi,” your head snaps to the side and eyes grew a bit big at the sight of your male lead.

He smiles, eyes almost turning into a one line, dimples showing at side of his cheeks. You got a little surprised how his face looked so different whenever he have a straight face compared when he's smiling. Your manager is right. He sure is very handsome.

You gave him a bow and greets him. His eyes stares while he keep his friendly smile. The aura between you two aren’t really awkward. Even when you first met last last week to shoot the trailer, it was easy to get along with him. You don’t know if he’s just really friendly, but he’s so easy to talk to and get along to.

The takes for that trailer was not so bad as well. The directors kept on complimenting the two of you for doing such a great job. The chemistry on screen was no joke, the look on the staffs around was enough to say that the series will surely do good.

“Have you watched the trailer yet?” he asks.

You shake your head 'no'. “I don’t usually watch myself acting because I think its cringey.”

He chuckles and you can’t help but to notice how good he looks whenever he does that.

“I totally relate. I haven’t seen it too.”

You kept your stares at him like as if you don’t believe him. He sighs and smirks, “Fine, I did. But only because my Mom forced me to watch it with her.”

You chuckled after he confessed.

“That’s cute.”

“Me?” the grin over his face made you roll your eyes, pursing your lips to prevent a smile to make its way to your face.

“I meant your Mom.”

“Well they do say I took after my Mom, so basically you are calling me cute too.”

You snorted playfully, “You’re unbelievable.” and you cannot contain the small chuckles anymore.

He smiles even bigger. “I’m telling the truth.”

You nodded your head, “Yeah, okay.”

Eventually, you both are called to your respective dressing rooms to prepare for the shoot. A big smirk plays through your manager’s face when you entered the room. You furrowed your brows, confused.

“What?” one of your make up artists makes you sit down in front of the big mirrors so they can start doing your make-up.

“So,” she starts. “I saw you two talking. You have a crush on him now?”

You rolled your eyes, “We were just making a conversation.”

She nods her head, but it doesn’t look like she’s believing any of your words. “That’s good. That is really good with building your bond and get closer to each other.”

You stayed silent and just let your make up artist do her job. She was called outside by the photographer and you thank God for that because you finally have the peace you’ve planned to have before setting your mind for the shoot.

Unpredicted at all, Jake Sim made his way inside your mind and the recent articles you just read about him. It suddenly starts to make you feel bad, but your manager did oriented you on how you should focus on yourself.

“y/n, try putting your hand on (actor name).” you snapped back to reality and realized that you are in the middle of shoot already.

After your make up, you were called to start the photoshoot and since then you are spacing out. You gulped, feeling embarrased that you actually not focused so you quickly pull yourself together.

Your eyes trailed over to (actor name) and he’s looking at you. “It’s fine, don’t be shy.” he mumbles with a small teasing smile.

With a blushing cheeks, you rolled and rests your hand over his upper chest. While still looking straight to his eyes, you try to keep a pierce look on your eyes making the smile on his face falter a bit.

“That's it! Keep that tension.” you heard the photographer directs, but you are too focused on admiring the man in front of you.

He soon pull himself and felt his hand rests over your waist pulling you even closer to him. The feeling was odd for you. Maybe because this is the first time a different male other than Jake came this close to you.

“I love it! Keep it up!” the voice was so muffled because you are too busy looking at his eyes. You are too drawn by the looks he was giving you. He looked so good with the way his eyes stares and a small smirk playing over his lips.

“You are so beautiful, y/n. Have I ever told you that?” he whispered as he leaned closer making your forehead and nose touch, his breath fanning you.

Your heart thumped harder and could feel your lips shaking a little. For a moment there, you forgot the issue involving Jake and that girl.

The schedule wrapped up nicely. The staffs and directors complimenting you nonstop that sends relief to you. Its good that in spite of being distracted, you still managed to do well.

“You did great today, y/n.” (actor name) came to say goodbye and you just nods your head at him.

He smirks, “You too.” and you gave a small bow.

A scoff escapes his lips. “Come on, no need to be so formal. We’ll be seeing each other more often so let's be friends okay?” and he even messed your hair playfully.

You frowned, “Okay, but first don't do that again.”

He chuckles, clearly delighted seeing a different emotion from you. “Nah, I’ll keep doing it.” he puts his hand inside his pocket as you shoot him glares.

“Bye, see you on monday.” and sends you a small wave as he walks away.

You are still slightly pissed of what he did when you entered your service. Your manager was too happy to your performance that she just continued going on and on about how much you and (actor name) looked good together. Feeling a little tired because of the shoot and her continuous ranting, you tried to shut your eyes.

You got awoken by gentle taps over your arm. Maybe you are really tired because you fell asleep without even realizing it and now you just arrived at your apartment.

“You did well today.” she says and even asked if she should walk you to your floor, which you declined right away.

“Go home and rest, Manager. I’m sure you are as tired as me.” and you gave her an assuring smile. She smiled back and didn’t even manage to stop the yawn from emitting from her lips.

“Alright, sleep well.” and then off she goes.

You took a long bath to refresh yourself and try to prepare for bed. Its odd because even having a very long day, you don't seem sleepy.

While staring blankly outside your apartment window, you heard your phone ringing nonstop. A strained sigh escapes your mouth before strutting closer to where you put your phone.

Your breath hitched at the sight of Jake's caller id. Heart thumping loudly inside your chest, your mind went blank once again. You thought it was your manager. This isn't the call you've expected to receive.

“Hello?” you licked your lips while fidgeting over your fingers.

“I'm here.” you heard his raspy voice from the other line as you walk back to the window to look over the view outside to somehow relax your mind.

With jacket wrapped tightly around your body, you roamed your eyes around the quiet parking lot. It was late already so like expected, nobody else is here.

Your light steps doesn't even make a single sound and you can almost hear your beating heart. By the left corner, you saw Jake's car at its usual spot.

He is really here. No headlights and waiting for you.

Hesitation occurs your mind, trying to rethink if what you're doing is a good idea. Countless times you've told yourself you'll tell Jake off and yet here you are again. Sneaking just to steal moments with him. It felt illegal that your heart is hammering so hard over your chest, but it felt good at some ways you cannot explain.

When you are only steps away from him, he opens his headlights like always and waits patiently inside.

“Hey.” he greeted the moment you make it inside his car. His eyes were hooded and obviously tired, but that didn't even lessen his godly visual. For you, Jake Sim always looks ethereal.

You smiled, blushing. “Hi.” you shortly replied.

His eyes racked from your face down to your body. “You dressed for me and damn, red lips? You sure know how to drive me crazy.” he commented after seeing the dress and red lips you decided to put on after his call. His hand reaches out to pull you closer.

You hitch your breath because of the sudden contact from his warm hands.

“W-What are you doing here?” the tone you used felt a little off for Jake. Even if you seem worried, nervous or anxious whenever meeting him here, he can always hears a hint of excitement from you. But today, there's something off.

“Aren't you happy to see me?” he pursed his pretty lips into a pout and shoot you with his innocent look on his eyes.

The wall you tried to barricade yourself with came crumbling right away. Jake and his ways of getting you are seriously a big problem.

“I a-am.” and your hand rests on top of his hand that is now on your bare thighs.

Jake smiles at the sight of your eyes softening for him.

'There it is.' he quietly mumbles inside his mind. 'There's my girl.' he added. The amount of relief that flows through him was just enough for him to flash you his pretty wide smile.

“Oh, I'm very glad to see you too.” he pulls you closer, leaning too close enough for your noses to rub against each other. It sends shivers to your spine and butterflies to your stomach.

His eyes hooded as he stares dangerously at your lips then back to your eyes, like a predator so hungry for his prey standing right in front of him.

“God, you’re so beautiful.” he uttered under his breath that made you smile with a flushed cheeks.

Your hands moves on their own as they snaked over his nape to pull him even closer, making your lips almost touching. It was tempting to just make it touch, but for Jake this is what he enjoys. The thrill and heart-thumping moments he gets from being with you. He loves and enjoys the way you can excite and make him want more. He just couldn't get enough of you.

“Kiss me.” you whispered like a wish.

Jake chuckles sexily, his hand slowly caress your thighs that adds so much tension between you two.

“You don't even have to ask twice.” and so he crashes his lips to yours causing an outburst of feelings that filled your heart.

After the heated make out session, your night didn’t end to right away. He asks you using his soft tone to put your seatbelt on, even placing yet another hot kiss on your lips before he started putting his seatbelts on too. His car then drove out from your building's underground parking lot.

“Where are we going?” you ask giving him a short glance.

He smiles and rests one of his hand on your thighs, “Check the backseat, baby.”

You blushed because of the petname he used, but you obliged and brows furrowed at the sight of a picnic basket. A mat lies beside it.

“We’ll go to our usual spot?” you couldn’t hide the excitement over your eyes when you ask him that.

His smile grew wider, “Yeah. We haven't been there for a while.”

A pout made its way to your lips. “Yes. We’re too busy.”

The two of you arrived at the top of the hill where you can see the pretty city lights from afar. It was honestly breathtaking and the first time you've seen this view, you fell in love. This is a space that is memorable and special for both you and Jake.

“Have a sit now, princess.” Jake snapped you out from your trance.

When you glanced at him, he have this big proud smile as he presents you the now laid down flatly mat that he prepared. You chuckled and thanked him before settling down. He opened the basket and your eyes soften seeing the familiar food that you enjoyed eating together.

“Aw, you didn't have to prepare this much.”

He smirks, “Anything for you.” and lightly pinches your cheeks before setting down a sandwich he made.

The night went on with just the two of you enjoying each other's company. It doesn't bother you that it was already late at night or if its getting really chilly.

Fade in the view, you stared at the daydream looks on Jake's eyes. With that long hair, slicked back and just a plain white shirt. He sure makes you ecstatic.

He leans closer making you hitch your breath. You let him take over, finally giving in to his soft kisses. Your heart almost burst outside of your chest due to the million emotions only him can make you feel.

“I missed you so much.” he confessed so low like it was something illegal.

Your eyes shut as his forehead rests at yours. The feeling of your heart beating insync together was your solace.

“I missed you too.”

After spending some more time under the bright moon and comforting silence between you, he finally decided to call it a night. You wanted to protest and ask if you two can stay for a little bit more, but refrain yourself from doing so. He helped you get up with a smile and he puts back the things to his car while you admire him silently.

So it goes. The drive on your way back to your apartment, he couldn't even keep his wild eyes on the road. Stealing glance at your side from time to time, like as if checking if you're really there with him.

At the arrival in your place, the lights were off and as he takes off his coat you felt your heart thumped out of excitement that he's here to stay for the night.

“Cuddle me?” it came out more of a request rather than as a suggestion.

You nod, agreeing. Jake went to his usual side of the bed and opens the blanket for you. After making yourself comfortable, head resting over his chest while he draws lazy circles at the small of your back, you speak out your thoughts.

“I've heard that you've been going out with another girl.” you starts and you know he heard you because his fingers stalled for a while.

“What you heard is true,” he starts and he draws in a strained sigh. “But I can't stop thinking about you and I.” he added and felt him pulling you closer.

You let out a sigh, nuzzling closer.

“I've been there too a few times.” and you two fell into silence with a mutual understanding that despite the situation you both get tangled with, its with one another where you find the most comfort.

You know you should tell him to leave cause you know exactly where it leads, but for some reasons you always ends up watching the two of you go round and round each time.

It's not right anymore. The two of you had been here before, but you always find yourself with the same ending. You just don’t understand why in spite of being aware of it, you always find yourself running your way back over to his arms.

‘Jake Sim of Enhypen seen out with (girl name) again. The two were seen being intimate with each other... Read more.’

Your mind went blank at the sight of the article that has been trending since last night. Mixed of emotions occured you. The sense of betrayal, confusion and emptiness drawns unto you all at once. It was a heavy emotion.

“Hm, ex boyfriend?” you jolted and snapped back to reality when someone talked beside you.

It was (actor name) and he's curious eyes darts straight at the phone screen. Feeling slightly embarrassed, you glared at him before clicking your phone off.

“Is he your ex boyfriend?” he asks again that made you feel even more irritated.

You already started filming the series so you're basically seeing (actor name) almost everyday. He's nice and easy to get along to, but sometimes he can be annoying too. Specially that he seemed to be fond of teasing you.

“Can you mind your own business?” you rolled your eyes that only made him chuckle.

“So he is.” he concludes and you shoot him glares once again.

It’s been a week since the last night you've seen or heard from Jake. And honestly, you thought you two are doing perfectly fine. That the intimate time you spend together that night was a silent declaration that you two are just for each other. Maybe you are just so naive? So hopeful? You don't know anything at all at this point.

“You want me to help you?”

“Help me with what?”

“To get over him.” he stated innocently.

You scoffed sarcastically like it was the funniest thing you've heard in your life. But he is not fazed at all. Instead, he have this confident boyish smile he always sports that makes him extremely attractive.

“You think I haven't tried everything?”

“Yeah,” he starts and shrugs his shoulder off. “You haven't tried going out with me yet, have you?”

You felt something inside your stomach going crazy for what he said.

“You're crazy.” you manages to mumble despite with a racing heart.

“No, no!” he chuckles, trying to win you over considering his suggestion.

“Come to think of it. There's nothing to lose here. You can get over with your ex, we'll get the promotion for our series. Hitting two birds with one stone.”

You stared at him without saying any words, contemplating. The fact that you are really considering his suggestion is making you wonde if you should stop looking at his beautiful eyes. Makes you think that he's hypnotizing you into agreeing.

“And besides, if it doesn't work then we'll just make it seem like I dumped you.”

Your forehead creased as his smile grew wider.

“Why are you the one dumping me?”

He chuckles, “Okay, you can dump me since you look cute.”

You rolled your eyes at him and glanced at his hand he was offering you to conceal the deal.

And you don't know if it was just because the anger you felt towards Jake or (actor name) just looked so good that moment. But you agreed. Leading you to why you are inside his car now, coming home from your nth date.

It's already been five months and a half since the agreement. You don't know it lasted that long already and honestly you don't care because you are having so much fun hanging out with him.

He was such a fun person. You are completely aware of it before, but when you started spending time together with less people and camera around you, he was so much more. He's so caring, such a soft person which totally contradicts his physical appearance since he shows this manly demeanor, and he takes good care of you. He never lets you overthink at all. He's always there for you and never send mixed signals towards you.

It was scary agreeing to this arrangement. Like taking a big risk that you can end up regretting or loving, like someone coming out of their shells for the first time and finding out that the world has so much more to offer.

“What's making you look so serious there, gorge?” he asks as he taps his fingers over his steering wheel waiting patiently for the redlight to turn green.

You pout and showed him the article you've been reading. “Don't you think I look fat in this picture?”

It was an article about the two of you when you've been seen going out the other day and he didn't even glance at it. His eyes are glued at you completely and his eyes softens at your question. A playful smirk painted his face before he leans and give your cheeks a small peck.

“Damn, you are so adorable.” he whispered but you managed to hear it.

“I asked you if I looked fat here.”

He finally take a look and smirks, “I think you look wonderful wearing my hoodie, love.”

You blushed and smiled. “You are so lucky that you are my boyfriend, (actor name).”

A proud smile spreads across his face while he place a kiss on top of your hand. “I am indeed very lucky, Ma'am.”

You arrived at the parking lot and you gave him a kiss on his lips before leaning away to stare at his eyes. They looked arrogant, people always misunderstood him as intimidating on first look because of his sharp looking eyes. Totally opposite of your types, but he was worth the shot. They might look strong and cold, but they're totally different whenever they're looking at you.

Every time you stare at his eyes, you can feel your eyes heating up and you just want to cry for so many things. A lot of things happened already, but he was there all along. Your past self may not believe it if you got to talk to them months ago from now, but you very much happy right now. Happy without worrying of being left confused the next day or week. Consistent happiness that you never felt for a while.

“I’ll see you tomorrow.” he assures you.

With a nod, you left his car and waves. You watch how his car drove off and decided to go inside your building when a familiar headlights went on.

You felt your feet stoned and slowly you glanced at his usual spot. Your heart sank at the sight of his familiar car. Its been months ever since you've seen him.

You blocked him from your phone and tried so hard to avoid him in every possible way. The last thing you remembered that you heard from him is that he announced his break up with the girl he was dating months ago and that he's taking his time off from his group.

His car door opened and you don't understand how to feel at the sight of him. The familiar warmth he gives you was still there, the thumping of heart and stomach churning were all there.

His hair grew longer and his eyes looked so tired and sad reflecting clearly on them. He walks on the passenger side of his car and opened the door.

“Can we talk?” he asks gently. “Please?” he added when he didn't saw any reaction from you.

You let out a sigh and started walking towards him. Instinctively, he rests his hand at the small of your back to guide you inside his car. After making sure you're all set, he went inside and the silence was deafening. It sure is awkward here.

“H-How are you? I heard you're taking a time off.” you started off.

His eyes sets on you and they looked so heartbroken, empty and hurt.

“Baby,” the familiar pet names sends millions of memories on you.

“please take me back.” his voice cracked.

Numerous times Jake attempted to fix what he just broken months ago and failed in all of those times. He knew it was a selfish move to make, but he couldn't take it anymore. At first, he thought that its fine when he saw the first time articles announced you and (actor name) were dating. He was actually briefly happy that you looked happy.

But then as times pass by, he realized that he fucked up so bad. He realized it wasn't him for you anymore when its still you for him until now.

The first time he tried contacting you, his heart sank after he realized you blocked him. You avoided and focused on your career. He tried waiting for you in his usual spot, but you never walked there again, purposely going inside the building through the main door. Everything started to come at him full speed and he wasn't ready for the blow.

Jake’s hope crumbles down when instead of your familiar loving gaze, he was met with a sad look on your face. That’s not what he wants.

How stupid is he to take advantage of you, being too confident that you wouldn’t, in any way, find someone else to replace him? It was his fault. He was denial, but the reality are slowly eating him up and he’s getting weak as time passes by.

“Y/n, please.” his pleading tone almost broke you into bits.

You cannot believe your eyes. The confident and flirtatious Sim Jaeyun was nowhere to be found. All you can see is his soft pleading eyes, tears pooling the sides of his eyes. He looked so... lost and broken.

And you feel so bad.

“I'm sorry, Jake. I think you should leave.” you glanced away and hand reached over the car's door to go out. Coming inside here was a wrong decision.

He was quick to stop you.

“W-Wait,”

You prevent yourself to look at him, afraid that you’ll break down the moment you set eyes on him.

“I know I’m too late already and its all my fault, baby.” he mumbles, sniffing.

'Oh God he's crying. Jake Sim is crying.' you thought to yourself.

“I just want to say that I love you, y/n. I really do and I know to myself that you will always be the only one for me. I can fool myself and try dating someone else, but my heart knows where it belongs.”

Your heart cracked at the sound of his voice and the words that were coming out from his mouth. Never in your life you thought you will here it from him. Too bad, its too late. Love really is about timing sometimes.

You tried your best to glance at him with a small smile. He's in tears and you almost lost control of yourself, but you pull through. A tear escapes your eyes as you cup his face and gently caress it.

“If someday,” he rests as he choke on his own words. “If someday you manage to find your love for me again, come back to me.”

His words were knives straight to your chest, but you tried pushing it out from your mind. You tried hard not to absorb them.

“Goodbye, Jake.” and with that, you left. Since it was so hard for you to ask him to leave, you're the one who left.

Jake was your comfort for quite some time. He was your warmth from the cold, your peace of mind and your soulmate. He will always have a special part in your heart no one else can take, like a childhood blanket that helps you sleep well, a pair of shoe you used to love and wear all the time, a favorite pajamas you wear at night.

You know when sometimes you tend to try out new styles whether its clothes or hair colors, but always find yourself going back to your 'comfort' style. That certain style that comforts you, gives you confidence and destinct warmth, that's Jake Sim for you. He is your style.

But sometimes change is not so bad. Sometimes, stepping out from your comfort zone is a great step for self development, for growth.

Jake Sim is definitely your style, and just like any other phases, they pass. You outgrew them in order to be better. You may leave that phase behind, but great memories you experienced through it, with him, will be cherish forever.

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[starzgaze]

hope you don't mind me ranting rq--

i constantly think about your yan!Hae-In and yan!Jinwoo ideas because they're so fun to mess around with.

bc what if the readers honest to god reaction to either of then confessing to then was "i don't feel the dame way.. you wanna see this cool bug i found?"

that OR the reader is a little freak of a poet and writes romance novels with concerningly detailed cannibalism scenes and is more interested in the shadow ants than either of them.

also i'm planning on writing a fic about the cannibal poet reader, but it's going to take a while because i'm shit at writing-

LMFAOO IDC IF U FLOOD MY INBOX ITS FINEEE more people to talk to anyway because im a bit of a pussy to talk straight up to my mutuals sigh

also thanks i actually have alot in my drafts its just most of them are unfinished and i have no idea if i should let them see the light of day or not... same with w.jc , chi, and sjw sick day fic LMFAOO uhhmm anyway!!

that's actually something i lovvee experienting with lowkey especially as someone who takes a big looong time to realize 'oh they liked me" and it's been fucking months since they confessed but anyqay I actually act like that most of the time it's pretty bad anywaaay this is funny as hell with yandere jinhae who's TRYING their best to make you swoon even if they're not the best with romance but you still don't... budge... bur hey you'll show them some cool colored bug you picked off the side walk! that's hopefully not a mutated monster that escaped a dungeon.

anyway more on the first idea this probably either ends really well or horribly depending on how both jinwoo and haein receives this ooooooorrr the circumstances really on how much they both value you but since im a freak for borderline this is insanity why are you writing this type of literature let's say that if you rejected then you have one swordswoman who accidentally fucks you up psychologically (I don't see haein someone who would do it willingly or deliberately gets enjoyment from it) but with jinwoo its a bit complicated to say because each person has a different take on how jinwoo perceives romance and how he processes feelings but since its my post im going with it's probably borderline fucked up if we consider the fact the more he levels up or grows the more apathetic or inhumane he becomes! im gonna abuse the hell out of this concept

but anywya with jinwoo u're probably gonna either get straight up kidnapped OR because you're lowkey desensitized and carefree that maybe kidnapping doesn't really have any affect on you then he might just sends weird eldritch horrors depictions of death and darkness when you're about to sleep so now you need a cute bug themes night light to sleep because no way you're letting some death incarnate screw up your sleeping schedule.

also those two as an attempt to maybe sway you might get into bugs or whatever little interests like jinwoo is having small consultations with beru or has him on standby everytime he spends time with you or haein overcoming her trauma (this takes place after jeju island) and learns and starts to love bugs just for you to reciprocate her feelings then these two quiz eachother on who knows more and what not it's literally amusing to see them debates over fuckinf caterpillars when you returned with take out because they insisted hanging out with you

anyway now on the latter I LOVE LOVE grotesque depictions of love especially like with murder OR cannibalism like how probably eating eachother is like a way of showing affection and how now your love will always be inside of them (literally) or something along the lines!! it's actually so cool how it's portrayed in media i need some suggestions actually anyway in the context of jinhae and mc being a poet uhmmm I'm not sure because i suck at making poems so im not the best on how to... make this work... i hate writing poems but I'll stick witj the theme of being a romance horror writer but not what you think of like colleen hoover or whomever the fuck wrote haunting adeline (god please i hope those books gets SMITED off the face of earth because this has stained dark romance to the point i dont even wanna acknowledge dark romance as a genre).

if you're a popular horror writer who specializes on creeping out your readers but still somehow delivers a good message or screwedd up message in between the lines of ripped boddies and intestines then jinhae has probably heard of you before like definitely.

like the themes of your books or poems to other people seems to be very disgusting or only written for the shock value but maybe to jinwoo or haein they have a whooole different meaning or one of your books/poems struck them really deep they got into a bit of a rabbit hole going through your collection as an author. i can definitely see both of them becoming fans and attending meet and greets.

oh my god a thought came to me and it's basically how would these two act in the internet if your name was beinf slandered like because your books or poems is not well perceived by all because you would occasionally write screwed up romance that you do not condone at all!! it's all for the sake of symbolism and experimentation with the material but anyway these two would have different reactions to this

for example haein seems to be the type to not be sooo like... like how do i explain this shes the type to have an anonymous account and goes to those forums to have actual discussions and tries to be civil as she can be when she tries to convert these haters why they should like you because i can't see her going as far to try to find this individual's address BUT but im just saying if ever that same hater was in the same dungeon raid as haein, there's no guarantee that haein will probably let them... die and say it was an accident.

anyway jinwoo is less interactive on the internet and is more of a lurker but he's probably the definitely the type to send ominous messages and then appear on their doorstep next morning or even minute if they're that unlucky LMFAO. another case of missing people otw!!

oh and i lowkey love the whooole idea of if you have a writer darling no matter how screwed or how fluffy their stories are the person or people who loves them will try to recreate this. yeaaah i can see this happening with jinwoo and haein and the tiny competition they have is who performed it better.

like for example if you written a poem about the elegant slashes of a sword on how it glides so easily through certain monsters, haein would try to replicate the feeling and explains to jinwoo that she obviously is better at portraying at this because she is a certified swordswoman or something along the lines and honestly jinwoo can't exactly argue against that because she's right but he won't admit it

then with paragraphs that depicts the most grueling experience of death and what not is something jinwoo is really familiar with and he's the type to copy it by doing it on random monsters he encounters in dungeons or even certain monarchs if they're that unlucky or jinwoo feels a biiit experimental LMFAO yeah okay what my brain is fried.

oh talking about darling being a horror romance writer, the moment jinwoo introduces his shadows or you find out about you become absolutely infatuated with them and the whoole idea like especially they're permanently serving death that's a pretty neat idea to you.

you start to write more and talk less to jinwoo and mooore to the shadows, it's pretty funny to see but you didn't notice the fact jinwoo is fuming in the background as he watches you get into in depth discussions with igris and bellion about their past lives and how you'll implement their experiences in a poem

yeha kay thats it my brain wugh dead bye uhm yeah talk to me more i love this sm thanks for food for thought

[yoonjinsgirl]

Heyaaaa guys!!! I'm here with Chapter-2 of series, checkout series chapter-1💌

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Yoongi x fem!Reader

Summary: you wake up one day only to realize it's 2026 already & to your biggest shock you are not in your bedroom, not in your house! You try to wake yourself up from the dream! But is it really a dream or the truth of your life?

Genre: idol au, mirror world au, fluff, suggestive.

Taglist: Open

Updates: after every 4 days.

Warnings: not something that could make sense irl, an au concept, it could be dangerously delulu and fluff ofcourse! please note all my writings are fictional and has nothing irl to do with any idol/person.

A/N: this fic also feature hobi and his girl "I'm naming hobi's girl as my hobii biased bestie*. We obviously do have bangtan featuring and also a cameo of jihoon aka woozi 💜

I'm just an amateur, I apologize in advance for any mistakes. Please give your precious feedbacks, It would mean alot to me!!

Request are open & also highly welcomed and appreciated!

check my other works until now here❤️‍🩹

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I've imagined this all night and every day!💕

Chapter-2

''WHAT IN THE FREAKING WORLD!!!'' is all you manage to speak out. At this point you are really losing your mind because what the heck is happening with you, what does his question even mean? For sure he guessed it all right but how? But not like he's an astrologer or something so, how then?

"Y/nssi please calm down let's go in and sit down first and calmly discuss about this, not that I've any wrong intentions but what will people think if they see you scream another time or anything even worse! And From your reaction i can figure out that whatever i guessed earlier was all right isn't?!? Let's get in talk! I will explain you everything i promise!" woozi says trying to calm you down, speaking as softly and respectfully as he could.

Finally you open the door to yoongi's studio with the passcode he just gave you and without wasting any time you quickly settle on the couch, and woozi sitting opposite to you.

"So what is this all about??? This according to me was supposed to be my dream! So now what even is this?? Please woozisii i beg you tell me how do you know about all this! And what in the freaking world is this all happening, coz last time i know i was in 2023! In my house! In my country! And i clearly remember i was only a mere bts army who loved min yoongi with all my heart and kept imagining and dreaming for all this to happen! To become his girl! I have imagined this all night and every day, so i assumed this all to be dream, but now it feels odd! Not that i didn't doubt in the beginning on whatever was happening but i declined my intuition thinking its all my mind playing games with me but what actually is this all?" You finally confess everything you had been feeling and thinking since the morning you had wake up and letting all your questions fall free from your mind.

"Umnn well to be honest this situation that you've landed yourself into is not that simple as it looks, this is kind of complicated to explain you y/nssi! Also messy to explain how i know about your situation, but I'll try explaining you in short and quickly before yoongi hyung returns okay! I know it will be hard for you to trust on me or my words but please trust me! I'm only going to tell you the truth, and to be honest I'm involved in this matter so please listen to me and try to keep calm, I will answer your every question, i promise!"

You only nod to his statement because there's so much going in your mind! Your thoughts are all unclear and foggy, and you are not really ready to hear or know any kind of new information, not atleast in a form of any bad news, but do you even have any choice at this point?? So nothing coming out from your mouth instead of a simple nod!

Understanding your situation woozi speaks, "okay so first of all no this not your dream! but if you want, you can consider it as your dream but know that this all is really happening, THIS IS ALL IS REAL! this is reality! And You actually do not belong to this world! This is not your world! You've unknowingly teleported into what for you can.. say is a mirror world! And you unexpected entering into this world has created a weird impact, looks like we've entered temporarily into some kind of different realm, not anything serious but something is not right, we've not been able to identify the on-going issue but we will figure it out soon and will send you back into your wo.." Before woozi could tell you anymore.. you couldn't hold back any of your curiosity or uneasiness forming inside you, by whatever thing he was explaining you, so cut him off and start speaking instead, "OMGG IS THIS SOME KIND OF ROCKET SCIENCE because i couldn't understand a single thing, THIS IS SUPPOSED BE SOME KIND OF WEIRD DREAM and for god sake it needs to end right now and right here!!!" You slap yourself frequently in attempt to get up, if this actually is some weird dream of yours. Woozi immediately tries to stop you but you again ask him "WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY ALL OF THIS, SORRY BUT I'M NOT GETTING HOLD OF ANYTHING!"

"Y/nssi first of all please stop jumping to conclusions and please try to calm yourself, i told you before itself that this all is going to be very complicated for me to explain and for you to understand. This is a mirror world; of the world, that you live in and you've got teleported over here because y/n from this world has somehow attempted to enter into your world causing you to get teleport here, into the mirror world, so basically mirror world is almost same as the world you've came from, but time over here goes faster then you expect! not that you can feel it but that is how it works. As you said for your world it's 2023 but for us it's 2026, know that people here are exactly same as they are in your world, by that what i mean is the human characteristics and their appearance, for example appearance resembling to people from your world, but where they live or what they eat or their likes/dislikes, their relations and their profession could be similar or could even be different at times. 90% its similar but for the rest of 10% it could be different too."

"Now there has been going on some research by our world's research team, please know the research is going on in a secretive manner to find out about how other world exists and how life there progresses. I'm part of that team and no one really knows about it, for people I'm only an idol & music writer/composer/producer. To what I've know by now, about your situation is that you've got replaced to fill in the void of y/n but the thing is that she is different from you by that i mean by her thoughts, by her likes and dislikes, for example she's not into music or idol thing. Now the thing is hyungnim really jinjja jinjja doesn't has a girlfriend or anything so this is the kind of weird thing that i was telling you about, which has taken place. It's like world has entered into a different realm where, what I believe is; happens only when someone who doesn't belong to this world teleports here and depending on their inner energy or power makes some changes into our world, mostly for their survival, which I guess is the reason why you ended up with hyung, and becoming his lover! your energy must be the 'law of attraction & manifesting' , as you said being with hyung was something you've always wished for! Doesn't matters if it was from your world, but because that is what you always wanted.. so whatever you've always wished of truly, will occur and for that to actually happen and take place, also considering for your survival, things will change or move accordingly to make it true. But remember questioning anyone about how & why it occurred might break the spell to your energy and things will start falling apart and eventually you'll land into trouble so better keep going with flow, i pro.."

Again you questioned woozi cutting him off "no no no no... what do you mean? So you are trying to tell me, that I'm some kind of supernatural human coz no I'm not I'm just a normal women who's has turned 23 and according to your place 26, and yes okay I confess that I can be extremly delusional but that's it!!! being delusional can't be power a afterall. And what do you mean I made changes, if my duplicate wasn't yoongi's lover than why does he recognizes me and wait wait wait.... he even tends to know my bestfriend harshitha and claims she is hobi's girl how???? You said I'm the only one who got here but then what is all this about? my head is spinning now WTH"

"Please get hold of yourself! surely in your world you won't be any superhuman or so, but here in the mirror world anyone who enters from another world or realm is 10000x powerful then people over here so technically over here you are someone who has special abilities. And as I was telling you there could be people similar to the people in your world, whom you knew so.." you cut off him again but woozi understanding your mindstate chooses to stay calm towards you.

"OMG! No wait! what do you mean? So was my duplicate friends with harshitha of this world, so will she not recognize that its not my dup but me and that my dup never was yoongi's lover because you just told me my dup is not into music/idol or anything like that right? also you said yoongi doesn't has girlfriend So what will I do now? You heard yoongi say right, that we are going to go somewhere, that somewhere is to meet the other members so I believe hobi will obviously bring his girl so what am I supposed to do? Omggg what if she doubts on me? You literally told me it won't result into anything good?? Omggg! ije ottoke hamnikka?!?, you hold your head, not really understanding anything clearly and thinking about what kind of trouble have you landed yourself into. "Calm down y/nssi! I already told you that even though your world is similar to our world, still there could be differences, just the way y/n wasn't into music/idol thing and didn't even cared to know about it's existence, similarly the friend of yours also could not be knowing y/n, but as I said maybe the way yoongi hyung knows you currently, in similar way she too could happen to known you so be aware and cautious and nothing will go wrong!!! I can assure you that as soon as I figure out someway, I'll get you out of this situation and I'll send you safe and sound back to your place, to your world, it's my responsibility now!''

"Wait so what will happen once I go back, what if that dup of my would have created some chaos, OMFL how will handle it all.. when I return! what will I do then, also what will happen if I suddenly disappear from here, OMGGGG I'm going insane.."

''You certainly not have to think or worry about all the aftermath, once you return back to your own world, everything will return back to normal, no one will remember anything from the time you'd got teleported here, also here too everyone forget everything that happened, I do not mean to hurt you or sound rude but you or any memories related to you'll be erased from everyone's mind, so don't worry about all that."

Unknowingly you feel sad hearing everyone will forget you but next the second curiosity taking over of you, so you ask "And what about me??? will I be able to remember anything that happened here?? or will my memories from here also will be gone?"

"If I'm being honest, right now I have no right answer, I'm not really sure about that, but don't worry, before I send you back, I'll inform you about everything, about any uncertainty or whatsoever.. I'll instruct you about everything, so don't worry about any of that right now.. the only thing you need to remember right now is that do not let anything lead to question the peak of your existence in their life, just go with the flow and everything will be under control. And yes another thing as I told you time over here goes faster then your world, so there won't actually be any problem in your world because time there will go slower than you expect. Now before I go please hand me your device I'll add my contact details and will send your contact details to myself so that as soon as I figure out a away I can immediately contact you send you back safely." You do as you've been asked and hand him your device. Within minutes he hands you, your device back and stands up, signing that he'll leave now, so you too get up from couch in response.

"I'll get going before hyung comes, please get hold of yourself and calm down y/nssi, also don't worry my hyung isn't a bad person.. you'll be safe with him, take care, I'll contact you soon!''

In response all you could manage was to give him a small smile reassuring that you got it all, and then he leaves. Leaving behind a shook and bewildered you. Confused about how exactly you feel about all this happening. And waiting for yoongi to return back, although you have no idea how you will face him, after the newly found information. Isn't it weird how Yoongi from this world is exactly how he felt in your world, you're lost in your thoughts, that how does this all make any sense? Like you didn't fall in love with yoongi from this world right! But then why didn't it feel different with him? why does all of this feel right! just exactly how you had always dreamt off.

"What's wrong with me, why am I thinking all this! even if this all is whatever woozi explained me and that he was right, then it's dangerous for me to even have crush on min yoongi from this world because according to him, it's my wishes making him love me and not he himself is in love with me!" You chuckle bitterly to yourself, coz what kind of bad luck do you even have, obviously the man whom you love wholeheartedly is never gonna be yours in your own world but now that you've somehow met someone just like him in another world even he doesn't loves you! Unknowingly some tears gather in your eyes and some already rolling down your cheeks. You're so lost within yourself that you fail to notice yoongi has already came back and is standing right next to where you're seated.

"Kitten what's wrong with you my love" he says as you suddenly notice his presence and he bends down to your level on his knees, and wipes the tear rolling down your cheek, "yoonie I..I actually..no i.I..mean when did y..you came back" "I came back when you were deeply lost in yourself, first I thought you might be thinking something but then I noticed your tears, so now tell me bby what's wrong huh?" He asks with his most gentle tone ever while cupping your face. "It's Nothing yoongs! it's really nothing, something must have got into my eyes, you were right I was just thinking how long will it take for you to come! That's it! Now that you're here let's go" you try to assure him, by giving him a small smile and try to get up, but you're pulled back instantly and this time to yoongi's lap, shiver run down your spine when you see yourself in his lap and his hands delicately laced around your waist, you immediately feel your voice struck into your throat, and you think to yourself why does yoongi from another world has this kind of spell on you, why does he makes you feel things. And as soon as you look towards him you meet with his eyes which are already looking towards you, "y/n do you think I'm so naïve to not see something is wrong with you since the morning! you know that you can always tell me whatever is disturbing your inner peace and is troubling you! I feel like a bad guy who can't even make his girl feel safe and secure enough to share her thoughts with me", he signs. Guilt and sadness cleary visible on his face. You let your heart win over your mind and hug him tightly, and stay in the same position for few minutes, "yoon please don't say that again, it breaks my heart, it's nothing much yoons, I just feel that what if one day this all happens to be just a sweet dream of mine and that all of this was my mind playing games with me, which made me tear a bit".

His grip around you tightens even more like he won't let you separate from him, "y/n I feel that me staying away from you from a long time has created a insecurity in your heart, and that you fear that you had become alone and lonely again, I feel so bad for letting this happen to you..." he again sighs deeply before pulling you apart from hug and looking back into your eyes, "y/nieeee trust me nothing will go wrong! I will never leave you, I was supposed to surprise you about this but I guess I will tell you this now" you look towards him confused by what does he mean by any of that, "y/nieeee I'm not going on our tour alone, you're gonna stay with me the whole time bby!" He says showing his gummy smile to you and tugging your hair strand back.

Even though all this is so messed up, still looks like your heart is in no mood to accept anything happening and has decided to ditch you and fall over again and again for the man infront of you and melt away into his love, affection and his touch. You smile widely to him and he quickly gives you peck on your cheek you smile shyly looking down.

While you think how silly you are to just melt into him, and make a promise to not upset him anymore or not making him feel low or bad for himself because that never has been your intention, no matter which yoongi this was, but you could never decline how good he makes you feel, his presence mere making you feel good, or how he has that effect on you and you can never see him hurt or in pain.

Meanwhile yoongi on other side is reassured that you feel better now and that it was only your insecurity acting up and that he'll fix all of that. Little did he know things were not in any of yours hands. And that any of your moment could end up being the last one together.

to be continued....

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So guys here it is! the second chapter to the series. How was it? Did you guys liked or enjoyed?? well I hope you did!!! Although I feel this is going to be alot to take in. Also I feel and guess many of you will think that y/n and woozi had major talk going in chapter-2 but guys if you see it was actually necessary for me to clear and explain what actually going on and to explain the theme, again I apologize for any mistakes. But as I had previously mentioned that I started writing this one coz I was missing yoons so much that it made me write this one! I have definitely been trying to write in more appealing way, I guess I'll get better by time, till then I hope you guys can support me and give me feedbacks, if you feel in lack in something. I hope you enjoyed this one! ❤️‍🩹

So stay tuned and please look forward to next part, as I'd promise I'll update next chapter within 3/4 days again.💕

As i always say, REQUEST ARE OPEN!!!💌

Categories I write for are: imagines/reaction, scenarios, thoughts, text post, drabbles and timestamps.

I'll be happy to take requests for ot⁷ but my biasline is hyungline, making maknaes my bffs, so please keep in my mind i'll for sure accept request for them but they'll have certain limitations, i've before wrote a text post for ggukie for his birthday check it here if you want.

Other then that my choice of writing would mostly be fluff, a little bit suggestive!!! I love reading fics/imagines which are warm, comforting with a little bit of angst, so yeah will willingly write those. About smut, I'm not against but i do think i might not able to justify them or maybe could even suck at writing those, so right now I'm not so sure! but maybe depending on request and situation I may accept those request and try writing on. Don't worry I'll make sure to add all these conditions of mine, so that when you submit a request you'll know them.💕

So if you've requests pls go on and submit it! I'll be happy to write one💜

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[bonesandthebees]

Idrk how to start this so I'm gonna get staright to the point lol

I really like the way you write Niki in your fics. In alot of fics I see Niki feels very one dimensional. Which can be fine if she is not a very big part of the story, but I've seen this happen with fics were she is in the main characters. I get that newer writers can have trouble with ceratin characters but it really frustrates me when I know the author COULD add more dimension to Niki but doesn't care enough about her as a character to do it.

I really like the way you write Niki because in all of your fics that I've seen she actually feels like a character with her own personality and goals instead of her just being there.

Idk it just really frustrates me when Niki is written as just "sweet girl who bakes" and given no other personality traits beacause Niki is so complex and so so much more than that

aaaa this means so much to hear you have no idea

I love c!niki as a character. while c!crime are always going to be my favorites from dsmp, I always had such a soft spot for c!niki. the entire reason I broke down and finally made an mcyt blog in the first place was actually bc I wanted to make a post about c!jack and c!niki. she's such a complicated character with so many facets to her so whenever I write her I always try to make her feel like a proper reflection of that

there's always been a problem with the way fandom treats female characters. no matter the fandom, no matter the year, there almost always tends to be a trend in fanworks that flatten out the female characters in comparison to male characters. dsmp is no exception, and is only made worse by how few female characters there are to work with in the first place.

while of course this isn't true for all fics, in a large swath of fics c!puffy gets reduced to either a therapist and/or mother figure, and c!niki is either Generic Nice Girl or a #girlboss with no in between. then a lot of fics tend to forget c!hannah and c!tina exist entirely but that's for another day

c!niki is kind, yes. but she also doesn't deal with emotional issues well. she stands up for what she thinks is right and will stubbornly hold onto incorrect beliefs even when she knows she's in the wrong because it's easier than admitting to herself that she did something terrible. she struggles with finding healthy places to direct her anger. she loves her friends fiercely and will hold deep loyalty to them until she's been betrayed completely, and then she'll return that betrayal in full force.

I'm so glad these kinds of things come through in my fics. I know niki is still a side character in my fics, but I try to make her as fleshed out as I can even with those limitations. one of the reasons I'm really excited for my next project after glass is that niki is going to have a bigger role in it than she's had in any of my fics so far, so I'm really excited that I'll be able to put so much focus on her.

I guess my hope was always that since I have a large audience in this fandom, seeing these more nuanced portrayals of niki would sway the common perception of her and would lead to others putting more effort into writing her. I don't think that happened, but I'm going to keep writing her as best I can bc she's such a fun character to dig into

[hiiroamagisbestfriend]

hey i was wondering if you were open to writing fics about coming out as a trans girl? I can never find any fanfics for trans girls + I really need support right now because of irl stuff TT. If you are okay with making some then could you preferably use kanata, tsumugi, arashi, or tsukasa? Thank you for your time!

Coming Out

w/ Kanata Shinkai, Tsumugi Aoba, Arashi Narukami, & Tsukasa Suou x TransFem!Reader

im not transfem myself, so i really hope i did this justice 🫰 i made the reader not have any form of surgery yet, so i hope that's fine

Warnings: Some slight mentions of body dysmorphia. I tried my best to keep it wholesome and fluffy and strayed away from anything potentially triggering. There's still some tiny instances of anxiety before the coming out moments, so tread with caution.

Kanata Shinkai

✩ Kanata doesn't really know much about the "surface" much less about the customs of the humans that reside in it.

✩ So you're probably gonna have to explain it to him as directly and honestly as you can. Thankfully, Kanata has always been open-minded and he sort of just understands what you mean once you elaborate.

✩ It'll probably be easier once he realizes that there are lots of fishes in the ocean that can change their sex. Of course it's not that simple for humans, but a point of reference helps him alot!

✩ Once he realizes that, Kanata notices that he knows that feeling quite well, spending a good majority of his life living as something he was not. Now, striving to change and become something he wanted to be rather than what he was assigned.

✩ I feel like when you finally decide to tell Kanata, you wouldn't even be that nervous? His general carefree nature kind of just makes it easy to approach him with these kinds of things.

✩ It probably wouldn't even be a planned event, just the two of you hanging out near a body of water, of course with Kanata doing his usual puka puka-ing.

"it is nice that we get to spend time together again, (y/n). it has been quite a while since we last 'conversed'. hehe." Kanata would say in his usual light, airy, voice. "still, it seems that... you've been having some 'trouble' recently. would you like to come and puka puka with me?"

Whether you choose to join him or not, he'd probably just give you the same cute dopey smile that makes you feel like he'll always have your back no matter what. You've been friends for long enough, and he seems like the type to not judge you for it, right?

"Kanata. Can I tell you something?" The man in question tilts his head slightly, but nods and encourages you to continue. "I'm..." It was harder to say than you expected. Sure Kanata has always been accepting and kind, but it's still a bit scary. "I'm actually, uh, how do I say this?"

Kanata kept quiet, somehow just knowing that interrupting you was not the right course of action. When your eyes met his, it somehow felt like you were filled with courage. Kanata was a hero, after all, he would never abandon someone in need.

Maybe posing it as a question would be easier, you thought. "Kanata, what do you think I am?" His face scrunches up a bit in thought and you worry that the question might have been too complicated for him.

"i think that... you are a 'good friend'... why do you ask?" Yep, definitely should have phrased that better.

"Kanata, have you ever felt like I was hiding something from you?" A few more moments of silence as he dwells on your question.

"we all have things that we do not 'share' with others. so even if you did, i would not mind. blue flames are the mark of 'mystery' after all~"

Hm, fair enough, you think. "Then, Kanata, would I still be a good friend if I revealed one of my secrets to you?" He nods again, the water rippling at his actions. "I'm a girl."

His eyes would probably go wide at that, seeing as this was a pretty big revelation. Still though, something wasn't adding up in Kanata's mind; as far as he knew, you seemed to have the same parts as him, not that he ever checked.

He'd refrain from saying that, somehow feeling that it was most definitely not the right thing to say. "i am sorry. i do not think i understand." He'd pout, feeling bad that he couldn't even understand something important you chose to confide with him.

You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding, that reaction was certainly better than a myriad of worse options. "Hmm... It's kind of like how anemone fishes can go from male to female."

Kanata would like to say it was like a lightbulb lit up in his head, but it still wasn't that clear to him. "why... would you do that? unlike the 'fishes' you don't need to become a girl because all the girl fishes disappeared...?"

"That's exactly it. I'm not a girl because I have to be, but because I want to be. I want to be... No, I am a girl because it's what makes me happy."

It'd click for Kanata at that moment, just like how he desires to be a normal human living on the surface, you too just want to live life as a girl. He kind of felt stupid for not understanding such a simple concept in hindsight.

Though Kanata still doesn't really understand the how or why you became a girl, he's content with this for now. Getting up from his spot before giving you a hug, and you couldn't even find it in yourself to complain that you were getting wet.

"i still do not fully understand. but thank you for telling me. nothing will change between us... you are still you, after all." Kanata knew just how it felt being ostracized for who you were, and he doesn't want you or anyone else to ever have to bear that cross. This is why he swore to be a hero, after all.

Tsumugi Aoba

✩ Tsumugi is a smart guy, he'd probably know you were trans before you did.

✩ He'd always listen to your complaints about how much you didn't like your body and the stuff about it you'd love to change. He was just a tad bit faster at connecting those dots for you.

✩ Though he'd still wait before you yourself approach him, knowing that if he meddled beforehand it could only make things worse for you.

✩ So, he'd probably spend a good time researching on how to properly help you out, so that he'd know what to say and do if the moment ever comes.

✩ Tsumugi was just relaxing in the library one day, when he suddenly saw you burst through the door and run up towards him, your eyes sparkling.

"Tsumugi! I've made a great discovery!" You shout out in excitement, before Tsumugi shushes you and you're reminded of where you were. "Oops, sorry. Anyway, I've recently figured it out!" You whisper-shouted, still finding it hard to contain your excitement. "I'm gonna be a girl!"

Only after saying it did you realize what exactly it was you were doing. Sure, Tsumugi was nice and all, and he always listened to your complaints; but maybe he wouldn't accept you like this?

Your worries were quickly dispelled however when Tsumugi closed the book he was reading before lightly clapping, loud enough for only the two of you to hear. "Congratulations~ I'm really happy you trusted me enough to tell me this."

His words didn't seem to betray his expectations, Tsumugi genuinely seemed happy that you were able to come to this conclusion and tell him about it. "So, what's on the agenda?"

You realize that he was probably talking about all the things you used to hate about yourself. Back then, you could never understand why you wanted to change so bad, and that lack of understanding made you afraid of trying to change. Now though? You can finally put an end to all those things and then some!

"I guess my name comes first? I've always thought (Y/N) was pretty good, what do you think?" Compared to other things, changing the name you were called seemed relatively easy, not to mention costing nothing in money and effort.

"Oh, that's a great name, (Y/N)~ It really suits you~" Tsumugi picks up the new name pretty easily, partly because he didn't want to disappoint you and partly because he was just a smart and flexible person like that. "I'm not sure what kind of style you want to wear, but I'd love to join you shop if we're both free~"

✩ After that is just some insane amount of spoiling from Tsumugi. He'd follow you around to whatever shops you wanted to look at, and would just shower you with compliments.

✩ He looked up some good salons and such beforehand, so he took this time to inform you of them. Even if you're the type to not actually want to change much about how you look, he wouldn't consider his research to be a waste at all, since your happiness is what matters to him right now.

✩ Tsumugi would also answer any questions you had when it comes to legal documents, operations, and such. Even helping you out wherever he can. He studied all of this stuff for your sake after all, so he's glad that one of his skills is being put into good use.

✩ He really is, just that chill of a guy. He wouldn't ask you for your reasons or anything like that at all. He understands that that sort of information is on a need-to-know basis, and he's fine if you don't deem that knowledge as necessary to share.

✩ Either way, whether you accept all his help and tell him everything, or you just mention it in passing and go about your day. Tsumugi will be happy, how could he not be? You're an important person to him, and your happiness is his happiness.

Arashi Narukami

✩ Arashi! Queens support their fellow queens! Just like Tsumugi, she'd simply know regardless if you tell her or not, and she'd never force this information out of you.

✩ She knows exactly what you're going through and would love nothing more than to give her aid if you ask for it. Arashi's relationship with her own gender and sexuality is complicated, so she completely understands if you're confused and lost.

✩ Hell, even if she's confident the way she is now, she knows there are still some parts of herself she's yet to discover. Due to her naturally maternal and guiding nature, she'd love to ease the mental burden that this kind of thing has on you.

✩ She knows what it feels like when you want to beat yourself up so badly because you find it so hard to conform and be 'normal'. She knows what it feels like looking in the mirror and seeing a person that isn't you.

✩ Still though, she values your independence and is waiting for your actions. She'd be elated if you were a stronger and wiser person than her, a person that could take all the stuff life throws at them and shrug it off.

✩ Likewise, she'd love nothing more than to support you in these moments. She was only able to become the woman she is today because of all the love and help she received from her wonderful friends, so she'd love to pay back that favor by helping you this time.

✩ She'd always try to hang out with you whenever you two would engage in 'girly' hobbies, because she knows full well how awful it feels to be alone.

It was during one of your regularly scheduled tea parties when Arashi noticed you were acting a bit off. Like you were really nervous but also somewhat excited. Arashi realized that this was probably the moment.

"Arashi, can I say something?" She could feel her excitement bubble up at that, you looked so cute! Girls are at their prettiest when they're being honest after all.

"Of course you can, dear! Big Sis will always listen to you!" She smothered you in a hug, ignoring your joking pleas as she squeezed you tighter. "Big Sis Arashi is always on your side, okay? Don't forget that."

When Arashi let go, she could practically see the nerves dissolve from your face, and she's just so glad that she was able to create such a safe environment for you.

"Arashi! I wanna be just like you! A strong, yet beautiful and kind woman!" Her heart grew three sizes just hearing that, being a role model for you makes it feel like everything she suffered through was worth it just to see your smile.

"Oho? Being a Big Sis is a pretty hard job, you know?" She ruffled your hair, smiling to herself when she realized that she was able to help you find yourself. "Though if it's you, I'm sure you're more than qualified!"

✩ After that, it's like nothing really changed between you two. She already treated you like her own sister before, but now that she has confirmation, she's definitely just a tad bit more aggressive with her love.

✩ She'd hand you a bunch of her old clothes, and her unused makeup. She'd draft outfits for you and even offer to style your hair some time. Overall, she's just happy. Full of hope that you can be a stronger and more beatiful queen than her one day.

Tsukasa Suou

✩ Tsukasa the silly little gentleman. He was raised in a pretty archaic household and some of his values definitely seem a bit dated, so coming out to him would seem pretty difficult.

✩ Thankfully, his experiences with Arashi have made him a much more open minded person. He still doesn't quite get it, but he does realize that it's his job as a knight to protect the princess, regardless of their circumstances.

✩ So yeah, coming out to him would be easier than you expected. He'd have a bit of trouble adjusting to your new name and pronouns if you decided to change them, but he's doing his best, okay?

✩ You and Tsukasa are good friends though, and you know he'd never treat you badly regardless, so you decided to just come out to him. You trusted him enough, and this would just be another step forward in your friendship, you thought.

"Say, Tsukasa. What do you consider essential to being a proper knight and gentleman?" It was just some idle chatter that you decided to start while the two of you were eating lunch, but Tsukasa, ever the serious man; put down his chopsticks in order to think of a proper reply.

"Well, of course they would have to carry themselves with a certain ELEGANCE. After that is following some basic CHIVALRY. It's a man's honor to protect a PRINCESS, after all."

"So, would Tsukasa protect me~~?" The aforementioned man seemed to be taken aback by the statement, coughing as if his words literally got stuck in his throat.

"Well, I would protect you regardless, seeing as the two of us are very close friends." Geez, he really knows how to play it cool, doesn't he? You didn't dislike that part about him, though.

"Then what if I was a princess?" He coughed again, seemingly caught off guard for a second time.

"As I said before, PRINCESS or not, I would protect you. What kind of KNIGHT would I be otherwise?" Wow, smooth talker. You wonder who taught him that, he could definitely make anyone's heart skip a beat with lines like those.

"Hey, Tsukasa. I've decided I want to be a princess." You made your tone more serious, wanting Tsukasa to know that this part was no jest.

There were a few moments of silence before Tsukasa turned to you, grabbing your hand and placing a kiss on the back of it. "Is that so? Then I'm glad to be of service to you, dear PRINCESS."

You couldn't help but smile, you knew that Tsukasa was trying really hard right now. The normally combative and headstrong Tsukasa just accepting your words for what they were was just a sign of his growth.

"Thank you, Tsukasa." You could see his eyes soften at your words, a smile showing on his face as well. You really were lucky to have a friend like him.

"Of course, my PRINCESS. This KNIGHT shall serve you well until I draw my last breath."

im done!! i really hope i was able to capture the emotions you wanted me to! i do apologize if tsukasa and smoogi seem a bit ooc? i didnt really know what to do in their parts 😔

Likes and Reblogs are greatly appreciated!

[stellawolfearts]

5: Favorite title you used and 18: The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

5: Favorite title you used

hmmmmmmm-

See idk it that means favorite chapter title or work title. ynow. SO ILL DO BOTH-

titles are hard. but something to note is that i do one of four things with titles. I look deep into the theme, development or overall message of the chapter, I think of something funny, Im tired and i pick something basic (looks at the aws chapter titled strawberry ice cream) or i pick a song lyric.

Chapter Title: I know how the flames burn-Longing for more.

Because the chapter its for of that fic i despise it now i will never touch it again-

the chapter is about redson and mei's bond and im gonna reuse that kinda thing for a woven song. but what i like was how i did the interactions and development between redson and mei after the samadhi fire incident.

i mean look at how scared and upset mei is when she lands, i wrote what happened between that and her actual training. the little bit we dont see in the actual show and how they start to bond. I did it in a more sibling context and identifying that redson knows how the samadhi fire feels.

"i know how the flames burn"

that and mei is worried about her family. so is redson. Mei feels isolated in a dying world. so does redson.

he knows how she feels, how she's hurting because he's hurting the exact same way. so its definitly my favorite title overall but imma grab work title anyways cause i can.

Work title: A Woven Song

see-

i didnt have the magic worldbuilding in mind when i made that title. so the fact that it fits so well to the magic of this au is PURE COINCIDENCE. i had the hearing thing in mind BUT NOT THE COMPLICATED STRING STUFF I GOT RN-

Woven-strings.

song-referencing that macaque can hear magic.

anyways next question-

18: The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

M A C A Q U E

that. motherfucker

*kisses his forehead*

its not his fault. its really not.

see in the beginning of the year--and i still catch myself doing this-- i was obsessed with someones interpretations of the lmk characters. which they are very good and i still adore them.

but it started to affect my interpretation, and by that i mean in a way where i started to try and write macaque how i thought they'd be happy with rather then how I'd be happy with.

cause like, when theres someone i look up to and something they say or do negates something i think or believe my brain emmediatly tells me i should change it or else im doing something bad ynow. which-makes no sense.

but it messed with my head alot earlier in the year and still does, always has with different things. its my brain trying to 'conform' to a specific thing that it thinks is supposed to be right.

so while i fixed that specific thing with macaque in my head, its always lingered and always will with other things. workin' on it but yeah-.

Ever since i let that go, macaque has become much easier to write these days. :3

thanks for the questioooonnss~

[thebleedingeffect]

1-3, 14, 16 for the asks if you’re up for that many?

Ye of course!! :D lots and lots of questions my beloved lmao, don't worry friend <3

1: Do you prefer writing one-shots or multi-chaptered fics?

I prefer multi-chaptered fics! Just cause I feel like the extra length gives me more opportunities and time to craft a proper narrative! Though sometimes I do write a single piece that's wayyy too long to be a one-shot but not multi chaptered. Really for me it all comes down to length and just feeling like I'm not rushing to craft a complicated emotional piece :]

Though sometimes I do have a sweet and short scene in my brain that ends up being a one-shot! That's how the Sheik and Time started actually lmao. It really all comes down to my mood, but 85% of the time I prefer multi-chaptered stuff :]

2: Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

Honestly? I switch between two modes! I actually have an entirely separate doc where if I have a plot idea, I'll write down a short few sentences about the idea that touch on the main story beats. I don't get really meticulous about planning out scenes as I feel for me, personally, it just makes it harder for me creatively cause I feel like I'm just following bullet points. So what I like to do is write down random lines, emotional points, or scenes, and then I spend some time imagining HOW those scenes happen!

I don't really like my writing to be super strict, so because of that I mostly write on the fly with little planned ideas that moreso give me direction. Also for me its fun to write on the fly cause sometimes I'll just randomly come up with ideas that I really like!! Just being in the writing mood does something to my brain lmao

3: Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic

I'm gonna be deadass fucking honest, most of my ideas start as me getting an idea in my brain and I proceed to run in circles for hours and thinking about it. Once the main inspo happens, I either go write into writing OR I watch/read something that has similar vibes to what I'm wanting to write! I also like listening to alot of music during the creative process that really helps me in getting into the particular vibe. It's mostly video game music tbh, rip my spotify SJSJSJ

But once I get the main inspo of the scene everything goes pretty quick afterwards! Also sometimes I'll read whump or just painful fics just so I know how to properly torture the poor twinks SJSJSJ

14: how do you write emotional scenes? Do you ever feel what the characters feel? Do you draw from personal experiences?

Oh I looovvveeeeee emotional scenes, they're so so good I fucking LOVE EMOTIONAL SCENES!! Okay so emotional scenes are great because they're the cultivation of all of the characters being at their absolute limits and you can do anything really!! I like to write emotional scenes as the characters being driven to the edge out of circumstance, desperation, fear, or really anything you can imagine really. Personally, for me this is where the character exposes their true motivations or thoughts that may be hidden for any number of reasons.

THIS is where you can absolutely go full fucking speed on the angst or whatever BECAUSE emotions are so high that you can just make them say or do anythhiinngggg- ITS GREAT!! But, I like writing emotional scenes as keeping in mind what it is that characters are scared or sad about, and how that scene either exposes or makes those emotions all the more worst. Just as an example, what is a character most scared of? How do they react to being forced to face it? Do they tell anybody what they're scared of? Do others shame or understand them, and how do they further react to this? Do they rise above their fear or is their fear able to overwhelm them?

Just asking questions and hypotheticals can work wonders for emotional scenes, it also helps that emotional scenes are likely also climax scenes! Make shit worse for them! Pull a confession from inbetween their teeth! Literally go wild go insane, ruin their DAY!

Uhhhhhhh sometimes I take for inspo for emotional scenes? I personally haven't been tortured so I'm kinda running off imagination here- but I also like taking inspo from my own experiences when it comes to emotional whump :] <- this is not a call for help im gen doing much much better LMAOOOOO

16: How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

On my knees crying and sobbing- I gen have so many fic ideas thanks to hyrules curse ITS AN ISSUE!! I have so many ideas that I was scared of forgetting that I had to make a whole separate google doc JUST FOR fic ideas to write later on sjsjdj and I'll share two ideas actually!! Just for you <33

One I have in mind is a big scene where Mineru's spirit appears, but it's very clear that even after being able to rest for thousands of years- she's exhausted, in ruins, barely even able to keep her form. She's also surprised to be met by Sheik and Lyre, because she was expecting to meet Wild. This leads to Mineru being even more devastated to learn that there's another force equal to Ganondorf threatening their world, and she can seemingly do nothing about it.

The second one is a big meeting scene!! Basically Lana and Purah team up to get everyone and everything in order in Lookout Landing. Here they explain the main issue to the group(aka the sages, Groose, hw impa and zelda, tp zelda, etc) that they all face: their heroes have been stolen away and Cia risks all of their worlds, as well as Ganondorf being awoken once again.

Help me god, I have to many ideas for my own good

[theharrowing]

Hey you amazing author

So I’ve a random question for you.

Do you think fiction reading as a boundary? Or are we allowed to read ANYTHING? Like is there an unspoken rule where the line is? Because I see many people advice that FICTION ≠ REALITY, have seen some of my favorite authors on ao3 write some of the most taboo and depraved topics and let me tell you these fics have alot of hits.

So always wondering if as long as you’re not partaking in these things and reading them just as they’re, fictional characters… should you be indulged in everything you wish to read? Sorry my English sucks and this questions is getting long because I’m not able to sum it up and make it sound like I mean it in my head 😫

hey you amazing anon!🙂

i think this question has a complicated answer that varies person to person, and story to story. your English is great, and i am probably going to struggle to put my thoughts together so apologies in advance if this is long. this is long so i put it under the cut! 🥰

at least, for me, i can read almost anything. there are topics i don’t touch (sexualization of minors, incest between people who are blood relatives) that i do see people writing, and there are topics that i will read and write and even enjoy that i know are not for everyone (gore and graphic violence, yandere, some non-con, etc.)

my personal enjoyment of darker topics does not come from an urge to do these things in real life, so there is no romanticization for me. it’s just the thrill of making believe for a bit. but there are people who do enjoy/want these things irl (and i think it is pretty obvious in their writing, but i can’t really put my finger on explaining why or what it is tbh) and i think that’s where the boundary lines kind of blur and fantasy can have potential to become a little dangerous? but i don’t know, really. i don’t study the sociology of it, and i don’t really have any substantiated ideas or theories haha.

but to answer your question, i think we all make our own boundaries and have to kind of figure out where they are. and they can change over time, or be grey at times (i have been told by people that i am one of the only authors whose darker works they read, etc.) i believe that, as long as you feel safe interacting with certain content and it doesn’t feed some dark, horrible urge inside you, then you should be free to consume whatever. and if you find some content is not for you and it makes you upset, then you should feel free to stop! (but do so silently! telling someone their art has upset you is not really a helpful thing for anyone tbh.)

that’s kind of the beauty of art…..we can put anything into the universe and have it be received and understood. and sometimes it’s hated lmao. you don’t really know until you try. as long as it is understood as fiction. yes, there are things i write that i would enjoy actually doing/having been done to me, but there is plenty that i do not want lol. i think it is fun and cool to explore in a way that makes us feel safe, understanding that our boundaries are not always going to be the same as others.

which is why warnings are important! i have been trying to get better at being very explicitly clear about my warnings bc some people don’t like surprises. 😅

I HOPE THIS HELPS!!! sorry it’s a very long answer. i feel like it’s still lacking tons on nuance but i can only speak from my experiences and those i have observed.

[doctorofmagic]

Hi I'm a New big fan Doctor Strange and I looooove your fanfiction stories..

Please can you do something for me please I want to be going along the lines of. Doctor Strange has taken up as being a Locem GP (General Practitioner) and is called by a a frantic parent whose young disabled wheelchair user person (The Reader) is very very ill with Flu and the Doctor not only has Comfort the parent. But also the young Reader and he decides to stay with Reader until they improve also the Cloke comes to look at the Reader and tries to especially when the Reader has been a cocktail of Eastern medicine crushed up and given introveniously by injection 💉 of which Stephen asks the Cloke to take the Readers concentration so that the reader does not see the injection and tense up.

The reason for asking this is because I am currently in the process of going through a bad and flu of which my husband and carer has already getting better but I'm still having complications of which chest infection streight to my chest yet again.

I would appreciate if you could do this fiction.

Especially with Doctor Strange is happy to do the one thing he always loved being a Doctor and this is what he does and uses his old Dr's bag with the examination equipment ie. Blood pressure cuff, stethoscope, etc and some medicines alot of which are Eastern meds and pestle and morter to crush up some medicines.

Thank you again.

Claire

Hello!!

First of all, I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling with complications of a flu. Wishing you a quick and smooth recovery, and I'm also glad to hear you have someone to look after you.

Secondly, I really appreciate your kindness and compliments towards my writing. It means the world to me!

Unfortunately, I'll have to decline your prompt request. Mostly because I don't write reader x character and don't feel comfortable doing it (nothing against this format, I just don't think I'm good enough for the task, and it's not my cup of tea either). Plus I'm not familiar with medical terms and procedures. My fics tend to focus on Stephen's magical side because I feel more confident about this subject. I do admire the writers who focus on the medical bits, though, 'cause I definitely can't haha

Besides, I'm struggling a little bit with mental health and personal issues lately so in short, yeah, I can't really write this down atm. My apologies.

I do wish you a wonderful week and recovery, though! Thank you for reaching out! May the Vishanti bless you!

[storiesoflilies]

Hey! I only recently discovered that not only are you my favourite author on tumblr, you’re also the author of my favourite fanfic on Ao3!!

You have all of my appreciation and devotion 🫶🏼 but I did want to ask if I may, how come your Angels and Demons Au series has been put on hiatus?

hello nonie!!!

first off, i am sososo happy and honored that i’m one of your favorite authors!! it really means so much to me when people take the time to pop into my inbox and say that, so thankyou so much!!

now, as for ‘angels and curses’ and why i have taken a hiatus from it at the moment. this ask sort of addresses why, and the reasons are still the same.

more below the cut to keep this post short!

i really enjoy the freedom of writing drabbles and oneshots. i put a lot of effort into them, and my writing style has improved in leaps and bounds compared to when i started writing again in january. i feel like only now am i writing in the style that i have always wanted to write, because there was something always leaving me dissatisfied after writing a new chapter of the series, and i didn’t know what it was until i explored other things outside of it. i feel like if i did publish a new chapter, it would be in quite a different writing style to previous chapters, and that makes me feel i would have to start the whole series again in my new and improved writing style, and this mentally drains me even thinking about it.

as i said before, i put ALOT of pressure on myself to finish the series. i would aim to have a new chapter every two weeks, and i wasn’t taking a break from it. so that didn’t really help either.

now for the main reason why i’ve taken a hiatus – the lack of engagement. i really don’t like talking about this, but i feel like it has to be said. i have been brainstorming this fic for months, and i know the direction it needs to go in. with every chapter i published, know that a lot of mental anguish and overthinking went into it. i was trying so hard to pace the plot just right, to have the dialogue be realistic, and to have the storyline be engaging and leave readers feeling something different and new.

and then with every chapter i posted, barely anybody would interact. hardly any comments or reblogs, and more often than not i would really struggle to even get 100 notes. it’s so easy to say that i shouldn’t care about those things, but i do. it makes all the effort of writing the series worth while. i only kept going at it for as long as i did because of the handful of regulars who did reblog and interact with it, and to you guys i will always be grateful to <3

i don’t want to say that i will never return to the series, because one day i might have the urge to write a new chapter and i don’t want to fully close the door on it. i still would very much like to finish the series, but i have a very complicated relationship with it right now.

on the one hand, i’ll always be grateful to it, because it got me back into writing in the first place. i have met new friends on here because of it, and it’s opened the doors for me to have the confidence to write my one shots that i am so proud of. but on the other hand, i feel i would have to start all over again with the series and re-write it in a new way that i am happy with, and i just don’t feel mentally ready for that.

i hope this clears some things up for you nonie, and i really am sorry for not updating the story!

much love,

Lily xo

[loonyoz]

Idk I guess I should make a pinned post? Sideblogs, links to my art posts, and info about me below the cut

@hezele is where I’m attempting to write fanfiction

I might make a sideblog for my art someday? Idk

My Art:

Right now I just have very random bg3 art

Wyllstarion Howl’s Moving Castle AU:

Wyll making a pact

Wyll and Astarion

Sketch of Wyll in demon bird form

Sketch of fem!Wyll

Strictly Ballroom Wyllstarion

Sketch of Branwyn, @/odessa-castle 's oc from their lovely fic Nothing Like the Sun. (highly recommend giving it a read!)

Used to have supernatural art and non fan art posted but got self conscious and deleted it lol.

Other notes and info about me:

I would list all my interests (like books, shows, etc.) but uhhh that list is way too long. Honestly I feel like I love most things/genres/media and am always looking for more art to engage with and appreciate.

I try to put alt text on all my posts that have images but I’m pretty sure I’m ass at it lol. Lmk if you have suggestions for me on how to make my posts more accessible or my alt text better and I will do my best to implement it.

This is the internet so I really don’t want to share much about myself, but I think it goes without saying I’m very neurodivergent and queer lol. I use way too many terms but genderfluid, transmasc, and nonbinary are the best descriptors for myself.

Branching off of that I want to say the internet is a difficult place to navigate, especially socially. I’m sure I make lots of mistakes on how to communicate best with people online, but I try my best to do so as respectfully and kindly as possible. The internet is a great way to get information and have discussions about important topics, but there are many pitfalls and problems that can occur that are too numerous and complicated to get into here (although I’m sure anyone whose been on the internet for all of 5 seconds is familiar with them).

I use tumblr mainly to discuss creative media and I also don’t feel I’m qualified or informed enough to speak on most serious/real world topics. So I try to avoid bringing up alot of real world issues on my blog because I worry I would only be detrimental to these causes. Of course, creative media is not off in its own bubble from the real world and so real life problems are bound to be part of the art or discussions.

I bring this up for two reasons. One, I don’t want people to see my lack of activism and feel uncomfortable, or that I don’t care. This is unavoidable but perhaps this alleviates some people’s worries. Two, I want people to know I’m open to constructive criticism and learning new things. If I post something that you think is misinformed or hurtful, and you’re willing to tell me, I want to know about it and what I can do to improve. And on lighter note, I love to analyze stories and art and provide my thoughts and opinions on it. My favorite thing is to have discussions/arguments about interpretations of stories and ideas. So as long you approach me in a respectful/kind way I would be overjoyed to chat.

Anyway if you read this far, thanks for slogging through the wall of text :). Tumblr is glitchy but Im pretty sure most of my followers are bots I need to block 🤷

[tomhiddlestonfanfic]

Masterlist of Finished Requests

Tom Hiddleston Requests

Improvising

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x (non actress) reader where reader is a vlogger who does song covers and has a friend who does interviews, and is able to get a chance to interview Tom, but for some reason was unable to do so on the scheduled date due to some emergency and asked reader to do it,but left questions that reader thinks might be inappropriate to Tom so she improvises and thought of more sensible questions which piqued Tom's interest specially when he finds out of the questions that was prepared for him?

Waiting

REQUEST: Could I please request a fluffy Tom Hiddleston x female reader at they basically just have a cute night in and watch Christmas movies and drink hot chocolate would that be alright?

Attack is the Best Defence

REQUEST: Tom lives in the same apartment block as the reader, the reader lives alone and Tom invites them to spend Christmas with him.

Thanksgiving

REQUEST:  Tom hears the reader yelling and cursing trying to make her first thanksgiving dinner. Tom knocks on her door to make sure that no ones hurt and finds her broken down cause nothings coming out right.

It's Complicated 

REQUEST: Can I request something where reader/oc and Tom used to date but they broke up for whatever reason and didn’t see each other for year. Reader/oc found out she was pregnant with his child after the breakup but didn’t tell him because she was worried so years later they bump into each other and he is surprised to see she has a child who looks a lot like him

Knight in White Boxers

REQUEST: Could you maybe write tom Hiddleston x female reader, Tom is phoned because his girlfriend the reader took a fitt at work, a few nights later there in bed sleeping but Tom wakes because she's shuffling the duvet alot he realises she's taking a major seizure, when she stops seizing she isn't breathing and Tom has to help her.

Every Step of the Way

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x female reader, she's Tom's girlfriend and really struggles with her mental health and depression, Tom sees shes getting worse and Tom tries to help her but he realises that she needs professional help

Good Enough 

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x reader. She is going out with Tom somewhere but can't find anything to wear because she just doesn't feel good enough for him, he questions her about it nicely and talk with her about how she is good enough

Both of You

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x pregnant reader. So basically Tom's wife is really far  along in her pregnancy and her back is too sore to get up, Tom has one  last interview to do for his Loki series. his wife is at home and eats  something spicy for lunch, the baby is kicking her alot she panics and  thinks something is wrong, calls Tom crying down the phone, he rushed  back to help her.

A Shoulder to Lean On

REQUEST:  Tom is looking around for something and finds a bottle of medication he asks his wife/girlfriend what there for and why she kept it a secret from him

Not Fine

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x (shy neighbor) reader where she is new to the country and lucky to be Tom’s neighbor and has a huge crush on him,however she can’t seem to have a continuous conversation with him, so she just tries to show her feelings by writing him letters and trying to reach out to him by bringing him food everyday, which Tom takes to notice,but only.further approached reader after reading a letter from.her about recent changes which was caused by her being raped by someone from her work.

Never Again

REQUEST:Can I request a Tom X reader fic please, the reader works with Tom and they have feelings for eachother but the reader got hurt before in their previous relationship, so is a bit reluctant to go on dates again eventhough they know Tom wouldn’t hurt them. Tom finds out what happend to them and promises them he’ll keep them safe and they get together.

Sick

REQUEST: Tom X reader, they live together and she gets sick (not with covid) just sick and Tom takes care of her

Beautiful

REQUEST: How about an angst-to-fluff-mix with Tom: she knew deep down that she had Toms love, but lately the insecurities sneaked in… Even after a full year since the twins were born, she still struggled to loose the extra pounds,her body had changed and most of her wardrobe was non-fitting anymore…With Tom away filming, she was easily affected by the downright mean comments on social media. Taking care of the kids took all her energy, so the force to mend herself was non-existing…

Insecurities

REQUEST: Y/N passing out/collpasing and Tom freaking out. When Y/N wakes up she is in bed and Tom is still so anxious. Turns out that Y/N hasn’t been eating well because she wants to look skinnier for Tom :):) just a bit of angst and a whole lot of fluff

Belter

REQUEST: Can I request a Tom Hiddleston x female reader, she’s cooking in the kitchen making Tom dinner listening to Gerry Cinnamon’s ‘Belter’ but she’s nicer listened to it when Tom is home because he wouldn’t like that type of music. He comes home half way through the song and sees her dancing and singing. She has to explain that it reminds her of home it’s fluffy and cute

Vulnerable

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston X reader, they have dinner together in their shared apartment, after dinner the reader excuses herself/themself and goes to the bathroom and makes herself/themself sick. Tom hears her/them and gets worried about her/them, he checks on them and sees what she’s doing and takes care of her.

Through Thick and Thin

REQUEST: Could you maybe write a fic about the reader having chronic pain syndrome? They have a really bad pain day and Tom is trying his best to help them as best as he can 😀 lots of fluff please

I Know

REQUEST: Tom X best friend female reader, they go to a bar or a pub or something together because she wants to tell him something she takes a panic attack and Tom helps her through it and she comes out to Tom as a lesbian.

Dissociation

REQUEST: A one-shot were y/n dissociates while having dinner with Tom. Tom trying to get her back by putting ice in her hands and saying comforting things to her when she “returns”

Hero in the Rain

REQUEST: Tom X pregnant reader, Tom’s walking Bobby in the rain and hears someone crying, he goes over to make sure they’re okay and sees a woman crying and soaking because of the rain, Tom takes care of her?

Scared of Ghosts

REQUEST: Hey! I was watching supernatural the other night, and I was thinking about Tom and Y/N watching it at night. Supernatrual is pretty scary sometimes and Y/N gets scared. Tom being the sweetest human ever cuddles with her to sleep but Y/N ends up having a nightmare. How would Tom help Y/N?

Watch Over Me & Right Now is Good

REQUEST: How would you feel about writing a request about trigger warning!!!! Su1cide….. Tom comes home just in time to save his girlfriend after she tries to take her own life.

Are You Game?

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x non actress reader where reader and Tom are neighbors and reader growing close with Tom with every time they watch movies at each other’s house or just eat dinner together, silently pines for him, and one time she encounters a script Tom is currently working on, and she wanted to try how Tom does his work (but still while holding the script) and happens to read a love scene.

The Right Time

REQUEST: Tom Hiddleston x reader where they haven’t been dating long, but they have a surprise pregnancy and Tom kinda panics as it seems all too soon?

Before We Do This

REQUEST: I heard the song Shakespeare by Miranda Cosgrove the other day (for the first time in YEARS) and I feel like it would be PERFECT inspiration for a Tom Hiddleston fanfic. Its so cute. I kinda picture it like a first date/first kiss situation

The Luckiest Man in the World

REQUEST:  can you write something like tom hiddleston and reader going out shopping- just pure fluff, then they go back home to cuddle & watch a movie. established relationship, and male reader (but if you don’t wanna do that, then gender neutral is fine :) )

Not Weird

REQUEST: I wanted to ask for a request where the reader has seizures and gets one while hanging you with Tom (partner). He knew that they had a condition where they get seizures but never actually experienced it. It’s on you if you feel comfortable to write this, take all the time you need!!!!

Just a Number

REQUEST: can i request a tom one shot where the reader is much younger than him (like 21ish) and they both have feelings for each other but they’re both worried their age will be a problem with the other? only if you’re okay with writing something like that ofc :)

Tears of Joy

REQUEST: Can I request a Tom Hiddleston x reader where his wife does into labor and gives birth?

I Don’t Have Time for This

REQUEST: The reader and Tom are in a relationship and he is getting ready to start a new movie or play, but he either gets injured or sick (something like the flu or a broken ankle, nothing life-threatening) and that jeopardizes his ability to perform the role. He’s stressed out and worried and the reader has to take care of him whilst comforting him about the entire situation.

I Don’t Want This Night to End

REQUEST: The reader and Tom have been friends, but they have been friendzone-ing each other, but one night they were walking in the park and they danced and confessed.

If I Made You Like Me

REQUEST: angsty unrequited love type of fic, with 'Jigsaw' by Conan Gray vibes

Listen to Your Heart

REQUEST: Do something with the music listen to your heart.

Now or Never

REQUEST: Can you write a male reader x tom where the m.reader has been a huge fan of him for so long and they meet each other for the first time in a fansign event and the m.reader think that this is his chance to confess his love for Tom since he don’t know how many more times that he would get a chance like this so it’s now or never.

Reaching Out

REQUEST: The reader is a fan and wins an hour with Tom Hiddleston or something and he sees her self harm scars and maybe he gets her to talk about it or not but they just end up hugging for a while while he whispers things in her ear.

Loki Requests

Save Me

REQUEST: Loki and the reader go for a walk by the lake after getting a coffee, the reader slips off the edge accidentally and falls into the lake, because it’s so cold her body goes into shock so she can’t swim and kinda drowns, when Loki gets her out he has to do mouth to mouth and give her cpr, he ends up saving her life?

You Have My Heart

REQUEST: Could you write a fanfic of female MC reveling Loki that she's pregnant and expecting a little girl?

Kissing a Frost Giant

REQUEST: can I request a Loki one shot where the reader is an elite gymnast (going to the major competitions) and friends with Wanda (or someone else on the team) and she gets introduced to everyone and they all go to her meet and Loki is impressed and takes a liking to her? Or something along those lines. I just really would love some Loki fluff

[cyborg-franky]

Hey Franky, I was wondering if you could write a fluff/smut request with Ace and a gender neutral bodied reader please? I’m feeling very dysphoric right now, I mean I’m always feeling not included when I find the countless smut fics with only fem or afab readers (especially now that is kinktober) even though I’m a woman(?) or at least I always considered myself one, but whenever I find female centered pronouns or terms I feel completely left out. I don’t know it’s complicated. I’m not trying to attack anyone obviously, it’s just that my brain starts to think that the characters (especially some that are really popular and usually written with a female reader in mind) I love and I find comfort with would never love me or accept me. Sorry for the wall of text I felt like I could talk to you about this stuff cause you seem like a really nice person. Anyway thank you so much for even just listening, I already feel a little better even after just venting out. You can ignore the request and really really thank you for giving a space for gender neutral readers. You cannot imagine how helpful your content is to some people. I hope you have a nice day/night ♡

I'm very sorry it took me ages to reply to this, I have been in my head alot the last week or so. You can always DM me too, I don't bite and I know what it's like. You are lucky to find male pronouns in the reader x com let alone a GN smut so I do understand and yeah utterly no shade to those who only write fem readers of AFAB but as someone whose on the GN/Male side I do get it.

I don't mind female bodied at least but it is harder to find something. With peoples kinktober lists where it's only ever one char per request it always makes me feel a little aaah when my fave chars are with female readers cus it means I can't get into it.

I am a little burnt out by N/SFW atm but here are some GN with Ace I have already! Sleepy Sex With a S/O who doesn't make much noise Love Potion [read warnings]

I will be trying to do a N/SFW event in the future.

I hope you enjoy these at least <3

[urboymutual]

Hi, I totally get and agree with your post about writing Kaia. My problem is that I'm currently working on a fic centered around Claire and the other girls spanning s13-15, and I was wondering what to do with Kaia. I know next to nothing about indigenous American culture, and I'm afraid of leaning into some of the stereotypes by including her, but I also don't know how to exclude her while keeping the main storyline canon-compliant. Don't know if you're the right person to ask, but I had no idea who to turn to.

hey hi anon sorry if this is late LOL but yeah that does seem like a tricky situation and ur trying to stay canon compliant .. hm i mean im a firm believer in somethings r canon dont need to be carried over into fics (busty asian beauties, kaia, spn's canon treatment of black characters like gordon and billie)

personally i feel like ur best bets r like replacing kaia with an oc (if u choose to make ur oc indigenous u can always talk to indigenous writers on tumblr -- not necessarily ones in the fandom) but really like. you want to avoid the dreamwalking aspect of her character as its treated as a "superpower" thats why its so complicated to write her bc her whole character is just rooted in racism

but u could also just try replacing her role with maybe an unexplored minor character-- alicia banes (im clairealicia shipper to the end) max or stacy or krissy, just any other minor character and try to avoid the dreamwalking part of kaia's character. like for example, u could write that alicia's magic helps them find the other universe or even tweak patience's ability to see into the future to see into other universes too (like hello that would be such an interesting concept) i hope this makes sense! like staying canon compliant by using another canon character instead of her.

finally, this one i'm very :// about like this should be plan z on ur list of ideas of plans a-z but you could always just write her out idk this idea because it includes continuing to write about her and as i mentioned. u cant really take the racism out of her character without erasing her character completely lol

i hope this was helpful in a way? but i think if you do choose not to include her it's best to have an authors note because not alot of people (usually ⚪️...) don't understand how problematic her character is . they usually just view her as "poc rep" and go lmao