#I have a new respect for pro editors

[shirajellyfish]

When I was just reading a lot, sometimes I’d come across a typo in a book and be shocked. What a blatant error! How could they have published a book with such a glaring mistake?

Then I actually wrote an entire longfic, and realized what a mountainous task editing it would be. Now it’s just like...

HOW in the WORLD do more books not have typos in them?????

Fan fic authors are not professional writers.

Expecting them to be perfect and never make mistakes is setting yourself up to be an asshole.

Do you know how long it takes to write and publish a 60k novel for most published authors? Years. Plural.

That includes time spent writing multiple drafts and doing research and multiple rounds of edits. Access to a professional editor, and the ability to hire sensitivity readers. The list goes on and on and on.

Fan fic authors owe you nothing. They are churning out multiple novel length fics (or the equivalent in one shots) a year while still holding down school/jobs.

And you're gonna jump down their throats because they wrote a pairing differently than you prefer??

Shut the fuck up.

Tags exists for a reason. Read them and move on if the fic is not for you.

I mean really. We all just lived through fucking 2020. Let people enjoy their FAKE gay porn in peace.

Jfc.

[librarycards]

hello! i apologize in advance this is probably something that you get asked a lot. but do you have any recs on literary magazines to submit to? im a trans poet, ive been writing for over a decade but never shared anything and ive been wanting to try to send my stuff to get it published somewhere. obv ive been google searching but theres so many big and small publications and i was wondering if you have ones you like especially and/or tips on how to choose a magazine/journal to submit to. thanks a lot! <3

no worries, thank you for reaching out!! i've been publishing for like 8 years + an editor for almost 4, so i always appreciate the opportunity to help people new to the world find ethical publications that will treat their work with the care it deserves.

first and foremost: there are going to be pubs out there that are awesome and i don't know about. you may be the one to discover them for yourself! one aid in finding the best mag for your work is the wonderful, writer-created chillsubs. it's a fantastic platform that keeps a huge list of mags and presses and their relevant stats, and lets you create an account and bookmark those you're interested in. everyone i know uses them, and it's very worth it given the sheer volume of mags out there.

i also have some recs of my own, ofc. i'm going to list them below. if they pay (which i prioritize) I'll mark them with a $. some are trans/queer focused and some aren't, but all are pubs i've either edited and/or published with and can confirm their ethics + respect for writers.

manywor(l)ds - my mag! i'm co-founder and eic. break genre _ shapeshift with us. ($)

Sinister Wisdom - old, well-regarded lesbian+ lit mag, now open to everyone who is/loves a dyke. I'm guest-editing an issue on Madness with them, now open for submissions!

fifth wheel press - run by a beloved friend and comrade of mine. i've published here. excellent transparency, care, great for first-timers. ($).

kith books - headed by trans literary icon kat blair. a mag/press/community centered around bodymind non-conformity and noncompliance.

Honey Literary - QTPOC-centered, unabashedly pop-culture + social justice oriented. the vibes are simply immaculate.

Whale Road Review - not queer/trans focused, more oriented toward....'grown up' poetry/prose/pedagogy papers. Katie Manning (eic) is a fucking gem.

Graphic Violence Lit - just had my first experience publishing with them, and their care + consideration for the whole writer is amazing. they publish boundary-pushing work.

beestung - one of the brainchildren of Sarah Clark. nb/gq/2s SFF. I just edited a few guest issues w them and have published with them. amazing work. ($)

A Velvet Giant - genrequeer work. the editors are experienced, enthusiastic, and amazing at promoting writers long after publication. it's a family! ($)

Ethel Zine + Press - handmade with love by Sara Lefsyk (as you can see, trans/nonbinary/2s sarahs dominate indie publishing, as well we should :3). Sara is a sensitive and care-full editor and bookmaker whose every publication is a work of art.

Protean - pro- as in proletariat. awesome left mag with a mix of politics and culture and everything in between. they take reprints! ($)

Mudroom - publish your work along with a picture of your mudroom/shoe rack. very responsive editors who will hype you tf up. ($)

The Institutionalized Review - for psych survivors. the editors concreteness of vision and dedication to their community know no bounds.

Just Femme + Dandy - queer and fashion-focused! led by the inimitable Addie Tsai. They pay *handsomely*. ($)

In addition, there are also some "big" mags I have had excellent experiences publishing with and wanted to shout out. These are harder for a beginner to break into, but worth keeping on your radar + have been fantastic to me as a writer.

Electric Lit

Split Lip Magazine

The Offing

Nat. Brut

Santa Fe Writers' Project

Bodega

New Orleans Review

Augur Magazine

I hope this is helpful to you + others! the literary world is ever-changing and this is just a snapshot. Hopefully you find some that you like!

[rthstewart]

So is John Pevensie still an antagonist in Stone Gryphon? (Am I asking this because I love Helen and Mrs. Godwin? Yes. I am also asking because I love a furiously protective person and John seemed like that in the snippets from his perspective)

@becauseforoncethisisme asked:

So is John Pevensie still an antagonist in Stone Gryphon? (Am I asking this because I love Helen and Mrs. Godwin? Yes. I am also asking because I love a furiously protective person and John seemed like that in the snippets from his perspective)

First, thanks so much for reading and reaching out about the first chapters of Heart and Crow Make The Peace.

Ware below for LONG meta/history/ruth stewart blather

For many years, the first and last look readers had of John Pevensie was a scene in the posted Apostolic Way.  It’s a disastrous dinner at the Rainbow Room in New York City, where Col. Walker-Smythe has brought Edmund to America to work as his aide and batman.  John is, as presented in the story, a writer and editor, recruited by the SOE, to work on the generation of pro-British propaganda.  He is a serial philanderer, is bitterly disappointed that it is Edmund, rather than Peter, who has come to America, and the dinner is excruciatingly painful as John’s memories of his children are several years old and certainly pre-Narnia, leaving Edmund to, once again, be far kinder than his father deserves and Walker-Smythe is furious.  It’s made worse by numerous women who have obviously enjoyed John’s attentions in the past stopping by the table to say hello.  

Meanwhile, Helen Pevensie is back in London, and true to what was more common in 1943 than it was in 2020, has been in a sexual relationship with Mrs. Beatrice Goodwin, the widow next door.  

I was probably too successful in the scene as John can come across as a craven and cruel person. Readers’ sympathies (and mine) have always tilted to Helen.

With the reposted story, I slightly tweaked the previous version of the Rainbow Room scene and have introduced in text that a part of John’s issue is untreated PTSD. So, is this signaling a change of heart for me in John's role? and what about Mrs. Goodwin and Helen?

John's untreated illness is an explanation, in part, but not a justification to be sure.

I’ve always intended for Helen and Beatrice to go their separate ways.  As broad-minded as the Four are, it's different when your parents are involved and I’m finding it hard to push myself to writing that as a resolution or where it’s all just one big happy polyamory.  From discussions with readers, I could see Beatrice moving to a small market town for economy, meeting another widow with young children and you know, there are only 2 bedrooms in the cottage, so of course….   Post-war England was filled with these kinds of relationships of economy and convenience and, presumably, potential romance amongst widows.

As a writer, I also want John and Helen to both put some work in and try to rebuild their relationship.  This is something millions of people had to do post-War and I’m interested in how and whether couples can overcome infidelity.  I’m not sure I could, personally (I’ve been married for over 30 years!) and I’m interested in developing it.  TSG itself presents numerous different takes on bonding and infidelity which, while true to the time period, is also intended as a contrast to Edmund and Lucy’s  own sense of loss for their partners.  Something I’ve not decided is whether Morgan and Aidan, respectively, went on to have their own relationships some period of time later.  

There’s another reason for introducing John’s PTSD.  TSG was originally supposed to be a two-fer, Peter-centric story.  I was going to do a time-skip after the conclusion of Ox 1942 and jump to post war, with Peter starting an affair with Mary, dropping out of uni, finally finding his path, and then everyone dying, with Susan left behind (I had this about half-written, even). I never, EVER wanted to touch the 1940s UK educational systems or Peter’s potential service in the military as I deemed bothway beyond my storytelling skill.

[TQSiT was never in the cards – that’s the fault of an early reader, Miniver on ff dot net long since gone, who asked, Well, given these adventures for Peter, and Lucy and Edmund off on the Dawn Treader, surely Susan is up to something exciting in America, which coincided with me reading a WaPo review Connant’s The Irregulars.  Oops.]

So to avoid having to write Peter in the service, from the very beginning, back in Ox 1942, I wrote that Peter’s parents are opposed to his service and he’s willing to go along with it because he thinks he’s an insubordination risk.  I never explained why they are opposed which is really not especially consistent with the patriotism of the time.  

So, in the story I’ve picked up again 12 years later, John’s trauma at Dunkirk as now part of the reason for that opposition.  He goes to War to protect his family and early on is deeply traumatized by the failures to evacuate soldiers on the beaches; he hears the screams of men and ships going down in his dreams.  In his own protective misguided way, he wants to protect his family from that horror. And when he finds out that Aslan plucked his children out of England and turned them into warriors, he is going to be PISSED.  

 Oops.

Thanks so much   @becauseforoncethisisme!!

[baroque-hashem]

Hi, i saw your post about wikipedia’s ranking of sources, and I’m not familiar with where to find Wikipedia editing standards, so i wanted to ask: what sources does Wikipedia cite as green/trustworthy on the subject of antisemitism, if not ADL? Are any of them Jewish sources?

The only Jewish sources I could find listed as generally reliable are Haaretz and the Jewish Chronicle. Both are newspapers with decades of history, generally respected, but Wikipedia even considers them "possibly unreliable" on topics like I/P, and says that they are okay for general news, but not necessarily for topics related to the Jewish people. They do not make such a distinction for Muslim or Arab sources like Al Jazeera, and I wonder why Jews are the only ones who are considered untrustworthy when it comes to our own issues. (Antisemitism obviously)

The big problem with the ADL decision is that Wikipedia specifically is casting doubt on the ADL's reliability as an authority on antisemitism. They've changed the ADL's page to list them as a "Pro-Israel advocacy group" which is laughable. The ADL is, and always has been, a Jewish advocacy organization and an institution which fights bigotry in all its forms. The ADL is one of the most respected Jewish advocacy groups in the US, probably the most respected actually. They do good work, and everyone else considers them reliable, and major news sources consistently cite the ADL in their articles. Wikipedia is picking a fight with a credible organization that everyone else with any credibility considers very reliable. Wikipedia's editors are proving what we have all known for a long time: they are just average schmucks with no authority pretending to have credibility. They're just people. And they are fallible. Very fallible, it would seem.

Here's where I got those screenshots in my initial post from:

[drdemonprince]

I wrote a really dogshit essay for the Brookings Institution for an edited collection while I was high -- I have no respect for them, they're a pro capitalist liberal org, but I knew the publication line would impress my bosses (and I really need a recent academic publication credit on my CV) and make my old advisor jealous, and it paid okay. Ultimately the editor of the collection at Brookings did not like what I wrote very much, and asked me to make a bunch of edits before the final submission. But then that same editor got a new job at a completely different institute and left entirely like a month later, and a new editor came on who had no familiarity with the project, so I was able to send her my same, shitty old first draft, tell her it was my final draft, and get paid my second half of the advance for the project.

on some level i was subconsciously banking on this. in academia, people start projects and fail to see them through all the time. and especially careerist editors and institute heads make so many lateral moves and take on so many different jobs so quickly that they dont really see the consequences of the projects they started. im glad i made this whole bullshit work for me.

[simply-ivanka]

Trump’s Best Lies Weren’t Trump’s

By Holman W. Jenkins, Jr.

May 8, 2024

In an act of editorial cowardice, the Economist devotes a leading editorial plus an entire special section to the problem of disinformation yet never mentions the Steele dossier and Hunter Biden laptop lie.

Its package is timely for all the reasons I’ve written about: Disinformation is likely to flow in even greater abundance to influence the 2024 vote. But it also botches the most important insight. The anonymous AI-generated disinformation on the web that preoccupies the magazine’s editors is trivial in effect next to official disinformation from government sources circulated by mainstream media.

The Economist details a surreptitious Russian plot to blame America for dengue fever in Africa. It ignores a story of open disinformation of gobsmacking continuing influence, which has half of America watching as the other half (and most of our political class) lie about what happened after 2016. If the magazine thinks these voters aren’t drawing conclusions that will shape the 2024 outcome, it needs its medication adjusted.

Let’s step back: Political causes may be good or bad, but few or nonexistent are those campaigns or campaigners who have been unwilling to lie in their causes.

Eisenhower lied about the U-2 program in one of the best causes ever, keeping a check on Soviet ICBM development.

Sam Harris, the popular podcaster and neuroscientist, exhibited his essential adulthood when he recognized and approved the laptop lie because of the importance he attached to defeating Trump.

Knowing when you lied and why you lied is psychologically healthy. Do I think Leon Panetta, the longtime respected congressman and Obama CIA chief, is of healthy mind? Yes. He and colleagues saw that it would help Joe Biden to associate Hunter’s laptop with Russia and left unspoken between them that it was a lie.

The Economist, in contrast, gives us a blaring, billboard-like exhibition of the psychological disorder known as splitting. See if you recognize the pattern:

Splitting means claims and assertions hostile to Mr. Trump should be repeated and emphasized; any that aren’t should be suppressed.

The Steele dossier should be trumpeted until it stops being useful for discrediting Mr. Trump and starts to discredit his enemies—in which case it should never be mentioned again.

If a statement is true and favorable to Mr. Trump, the only motive for voicing it is pro-Trumpism. (This will create problems for weather reporters if Mr. Trump says it’s raining and it’s actually raining.)

Russian meddling can’t both have happened and have been trivial—because the first part sounds anti-Trump but the second doesn’t. This is unacceptable to the splitting mind.

I know it would be unthinkable at this late date for our media and political elites to come clean. It would amount to abdicating the election to Mr. Trump.

Telling the truth, unfortunately, needed to start long ago before it could change the moment we’ve reached today.

And yet the perverse consequences ought to be beating us over the head. As David Brooks of the New York Times tweeted after Mr. Trump won 11 million more votes in 2020 than he did in 2016: “Our job in the media is to capture reality so that when reality voices itself, like last night, people aren’t surprised. Pretty massive failure.”

In 2015 Donald Trump was a noisy celebrity ranting about illegal immigration. Nine years later, he and his legions have an epic narrative to tell themselves, true in many particulars, about the U.S. government and media thwarting them with lies and fabricated evidence.

Most of all, in bold letters, our current fix should recall the wisdom of the media’s former motto: “Without fear or favor.” Or as Walter Lippmann put it a century ago, “In his professional activity it is no business of [the reporter’s] to care whose ox is gored.”

We tell the truth and let the chips fall because we don’t know where the chips will finally land even if we think we do. Moreover, once we allow ourselves to start lying to the public for its own good, inevitably our reasons for doing so become more corrupt and self-seeking over time. Whatever his demerits, the press now paints Mr. Trump in impossibly lurid colors to justify its past behavior. Witness also the “Trump bump” in paid subscriptions and TV ratings. Lying about Mr. Trump works commercially for media owners even as it benefits Mr. Trump too. In fact, nothing has been more profitable, even salvational, for many mainstream media companies than MAGA.

But the ultimate exploiter is Joe Biden, cynically using Mr. Trump’s antichrist image as a lever to shove his unwanted self down his own party’s throat despite age and poor polls.

If Mr. Trump now wins—he would only have to draw a middling hand in November—the recriminations against Mr. Biden deservedly will be scalding and eviscerating. The blame game might wreck the Democratic Party for a generation.

[beardedmrbean]

Videos showing pro-Palestinian student protesters who set up an encampment on Columbia University's campus forming a human chain against people they say are Zionists have gone viral on social media.

Hundreds of protesters formed the blockade against "a small group of Jewish students," Sahar Tartak, the editor-in-chief of the Yale Free Press, wrote on X, formerly Twitter, alongside a clip.

Another video posted on X by Jessica Schwalb, a reporter with the Columbia Daily Spectator, a student newspaper, showed one person calling for others to form the human chain because of "Zionists that have entered the campus."

"Can I get everyone's attention?" the person can be heard saying in the video.

The person then calls on others to repeat: "We have Zionists who have entered the camp. We are going to create a human chain where I am standing so that they do not pass this point and infringe upon our privacy and try to destruct our community. Please join me in this chain."

At one point, a man can be seen confronting a protester and asking: "Excuse me, do you see what you're doing to us? Do you see how hostile this is and you're asking me not to record?"

Protesters can then be seen linking arms and taking steps forward, chanting: "We ask that you please respect our privacy and our community guidelines which you have so far disrespected and leave our camp."

Tensions on university campuses have been high over the past six months as Israel continues its war in Gaza.

The Israel-Hamas war has killed more than 34,000 Palestinians in Gaza, the Associated Press reported, citing local health officials. It erupted after Hamas' unprecedented October 7 attack on Israel, which killed around 1,200 people and saw about 250 others taken hostage.

Last Wednesday, students at Columbia set up a "Gaza Solidarity Encampment" on campus to protest Israel's ongoing military action in Gaza and Columbia's "continued financial investment in corporations that profit from Israeli apartheid, genocide, and occupation in Palestine."

The university called in New York police to clear the encampment on Thursday. More than 100 students were arrested, and the university has said they have been suspended.

Student protesters have since resumed their encampment, saying in a statement that they "demand [their] voices be heard against the mass slaughter of Palestinians in Gaza."

There have been reports of Jewish students facing harassment on campus, prompting condemnation from the White House and other officials.

In a statement, the student protest coalition said it was "frustrated by media distractions focusing on inflammatory individuals who do not represent us." A reporter for NBC wrote on X, formerly Twitter, that they didn't see a "single instance of violence or aggression" at the student encampment on Thursday and Friday.

On Sunday, a rabbi associated with the university urged Jewish students to go home, saying recent events "have made it clear that Columbia University's Public Safety and the NYPD [New York Police Department] cannot guarantee Jewish students' safety in the face of extreme antisemitism and anarchy."

A Columbia spokesperson told Newsweek on Sunday that the university is acting on students' concerns.

"Columbia students have the right to protest, but they are not allowed to disrupt campus life or harass and intimidate fellow students and members of our community," the spokesperson said. "We are acting on concerns we are hearing from our Jewish students and are providing additional support and resources to ensure that our community remains safe."

The university cancelled in-person classes on Monday, with university President Nemat Minouche Shafik saying it was an effort to "deescalate the rancor and give us all a chance to consider next steps."

Shafik said that a "working group of Deans, university administrators and faculty members will try to bring this crisis to a resolution" in the coming days. "That includes continuing discussions with the student protestors and identifying actions we can take as a community to enable us to peacefully complete the term and return to respectful engagement with each other," she said.

New York Mayor Eric Adams said on Sunday that the NYPD has increased the presence of officers around the Columbia campus to "protect students and all New Yorkers on nearby public streets."

He said the NYPD cannot have a presence on the campus unless it is requested by senior university officials but that officers "stand ready to respond if another request is made by the university, as they did on Thursday."

The Columbia student protesters' statement late on Sunday said they will continue to peacefully call for "divestment from genocide."

"At universities across the nation, our movement is united in valuing every human life," it said. "Our members have been misidentified by a politically motivated mob, doxxed in the press, arrested by the NYPD, and locked out of their homes by the university. We have knowingly put ourselves in danger because we can no longer be complicit in Columbia funneling our tuition dollars and grant funding into companies that profit from death."

It added: "We firmly reject any form of hate or bigotry and stand vigilant against non-students attempting to disrupt the solidarity being forged among students—Palestinian, Muslim, Arab, Jewish, Black, and pro-Palestinian classmates and colleagues who represent the full diversity of our country."

[a-student-out-of-time]

Elaborate. Please

//Alright, this is gonna be a big one, but I promise you it's worth it.

//So, recently, I got into the lore of the Hearts Of Iron IV mod The New Order: Last Days Of Europe, which is probably the most interesting Axis victory timeline I've ever seen. One of it's most compelling details is that the Soviet Union collapsed into a series of warlord states and there are various powers vying for control.

//One of these men is Sergey Taboritsky, whose victory leads to one of the worst possible outcomes for Russia. This was a man who was so violently ashamed of his Jewish heritage that he tried to pass himself off as a German Russian and sided with the nazis during World War II. Seeing the chaos that happens in-game, I asked myself, "Boy, I wonder what this guy did IRL."

//I was not ready for the answer.

//During the Russian Revolution, there were also various powers vying for their own goals in Russia: republicans, monarchists, communists, anarchists, ethnic nationalists, etc. Taboritsky was a far-right pro-monarchist journalist at the time, and together, alongside fellow far-right journalist Pyotr Shabelsky-Bork, they decided to carry out an assassination attempt on a leader of the democratic party-in-exile: Pavel Milyukov.

//Milyukov was a liberal and was pro-democracy, and these two saw him as their best target to avenge the crown. On March 28, 1922, these took some drugs and went on their revenge mission armed with revolvers.

//However, they were stopped by one of Milyukov's companions that day: Russian criminologist, journalist and progressive statesman, Vladimir Dmitrievich Nabokov. After he disarmed Shabelsky-Bork, Taboritsky shot Nabokov three times at point blank range, with one shot hitting him in the heart.

//Both men would be arrested, but our story then shifts to the impact this death would have on his son, Vladimir Vladimirovich Nabokov. So much so that he never returned to Russia, and instead remained in Berlin, where he became an accomplished writer and became engaged to Véra Evseyevna Sloni.

//However, in 1936, due to rising antisemitism in Europe, which cost his wife her job, and Taboritsky himself being appointed as deputy head of Germany's Russian-émigré bureau, Nabokov and most of his family moved to France and later the United States.

//Nabokov later became interested in entomology, and between 1948 and 1953, on butterfly-collecting trips in the Western U.S., he worked on his most famous book, with Véra as "secretary, typist, editor, proofreader, translator and bibliographer; his agent, business manager, legal counsel and chauffeur; his research assistant, teaching assistant and professorial understudy"

//And if you're familiar with the name, you probably know where this is going. If you're not, in 1953, they published Lolita.

//Lolita is, in my opinion, one of the most misunderstood works in the English language. Many mistakenly believe that it's meant to be a romance, when it's really about what people in power believe they can get away with and the justifications they use to rationalize it to themselves even when they know it's wrong. Both perspectives have had a major impact on pop culture, as Lolita has been adapted into two films, a musical, four stage-plays, one completed opera, and two ballets, along with various incomplete works.

//And in turn, the romance perspective has had a major role on later generations of writers. In many ways, it's reinforced unhealthy, toxic ideas about what makes a good romance: excessive drama, massive age gaps, women villainized for "leading men on", and attempts at making truly despicable men sympathetic. The things that have made writers like EL James, Ana Todd, and Colleen Hoover both successful and highly infamous.

//In other words, everything wrong with the modern romance genre can, at least in some respect, be traced back to Taboritsky's decision to try and assassinate Milyukov over a century ago.

//Life is weird and time is built upon itself.

[blowflyfag]

WRESTLING FURY: June 1989

PAUL E. DANGEROUSLY 

The Manager Fans Love To Hate

By Don Laible 

[The original Midnight Express are wreaking havoc in NWA rings everywhere.]

What a difference two years can make. It wasn’t too long ago that this Scarsdale, New York resident was juggling responsibilities as managing editor for several internationally recognized professional wrestling magazines. Always tagged as the ‘Boy Wonder’ who worked best under pressure, a career as a spokesman and manager to some of the most respectable grapplers seems to have been destined to Paul E. Dangerously. 

With the encouragement and support from key wrestling personnel and his family, Dangerously has become the top ‘mouthpiece’ in the sport today, at least he has according to this writer. As a result of his dedication and will to succeed in such a brutal game filled with more disappointments than highlights, Paul E. has overcome the biggest hurdle of them all–the rookie jinx. Dangerously has been riding high on victories and championships for two years now with no let up in sight. 

The weight that tipped the scale in favor of Dangerously giving him a shot at becoming a manager actually occurred several years back.It was the late Grand Wizard of Wrestling, one the sharpest dressers and smoothest talking men among the managerial ranks, that encouraged Paul E. to follow his dream. Through his father-son type of a relationship with the Wizard, the managing seed was planted within Dangerously. 

“The Wizard was a wonderful man who commanded respect,” stated Paul when asked about the man he admired for so many years. “I owe so much to him. You know, I studied his actions both in and out of the ring. To me, he was the master and who better to learn from than a man who managed world heavyweight singles and tag team champions,” continued Dangerously from his home in Atlanta, Georgia. 

[Paul E. and Eddie Gilbert really got things cooking at the CWF.]

Everyone, regardless of their profession, needs a place to begin from, a so-called launching pad. In January 1987, the state of Florida was where Paul E. Dangerously unleashed his managerial talents to the wrestling world. His first proteges who paraded the ‘Sunshine State’ territory were billed as The Motor City Mad Madmen: Tombstone and Man Mountain Mike. What a pair of bookends Dangerously was nestled between! Both men were over 6’4” and 260 lbs. And, needless to say, opponents found it frustrating and difficult to take a swipe at the bold young manager. 

During their first pro tour, Dangerously and his duo wanted to send a message loud and clear that they could not be intimidated. Kevin Sullivan, a seasoned veteran with numerous championship belts displayed in his trophy case, was targeted by Dangerously to be the Madmen’s first victim to get their ‘no mercy’ policy across to the rest of the wrestling pack. 

Sure enough, after being on the receiving end of a few brutal beatings by Dangerously’s duo, the much heralded Sullivan disappeared from the Florida region for apparently safer grounds in the Mid-Atlantic area. In a few short weeks, Paul E. Dangerously was not only a respected managerial mind but the talk of all wrestling promoters throughout North America as well. 

Shortly after his stint drew to a close in Florida, Paul E. Dangerously became a household name with wrestling fans. Once signing on with the Minneapolis, Minnesota based American Wrestling Association, whose television show aired on the ESPN Cable Network, Dangerously was brought into millions of households on a daily basis. With the confidence he gained with the Motor City Madmen carried over into the AWA, Paul E. began an intense search to bring together a wrestling family that would play ‘second fiddle’ to no one. He didn’t just want to make a name for himself, the brash rookie manager was culminating a plan to totally dominate the prestigious organization. 

Paul E. Dangerously didn’t waste any time in ruffling a few feathers within the AWA. “Loverboy” DEnnis Condrey and “Ravishing” Randy Rose, the Original Midnight Express tag team, through lengthy negotiations, were reunited and brought into the AWA by Paul E. They most assuredly entered with a bang. At the time Dangerously brought in the Original Midnight Express, Jerry Lawler and Bill Dundee held the AWA Tag Team title. 

[Randy Rose and Paul E. inspect the bloody damage done to Tommy Rich by Austin Idol. Idol was one of the first men handled by Dangerously.]

After winning challenges in convincing fashion from such respected teams as Greg Gagne and Steve O, Dangerously shrewdly secured a contract calling for his prized up to get a shot at the tag champs in a match that was to be held in Whitewater, Wisconsin. The championship match went according to his most fans anticipated, quick paced and lots of high flying maneuvers. However, it was because of Dangerously ‘two cents’ thrown into the encounter that had a profound impact on the outcome. 

As Lawler let his temper get the best of him, he chased Paul E. around the ringside area. With the referee’s back to the action in the ring, Dangerously successfully noticeably flipped his ever present cordless telephone to Dennis Condrey who wacked it across the unsuspecting Dundee’s forehead. The pin was now academic. One, two, three–on October 30, 1987 the new AWA Tag Team Champions, led by Paul E. Dangerously, were the Original Midnight Express. 

The late ‘Adorable’ Adrian Adonis and ‘Cowboy’ Bob Orton, Jr. were two other established wrestling machines who entrusted their careers in the hands of Dangerously. It was through the strategy set forth by Paul E. that enabled Adonis to run Tommy “Wildfire” Rich out of AWA rings.

When asked about his feelings towards Adonis, Paul E. was quoted as saying. “Adrian put on quite a bit of weight when we were together but it never affected his performance on the mat. He was a remarkable athlete and it was a privilege to have worked with him.”

[Veteran wrestling announcer Boyd Pierce puts a headlock on Dangerously as “Kangaroo” Al Costello takes control of the famous phone.]

Once his goals in the AWA were accomplished, it was off to the Alabama headquartered Continental Wrestling Federation. What a greener pasture the CWF proved to be for Paul E. Dangerously. The services of “Hot Stuff” Eddie Gilbert were quickly secured by Dangerously. Together, Gilbert and his manager literally brought back front he grave a promotion experiencing unhealthy low attendance figures to all-time high box office receipt records. 

Dangerously and Gilbert were the pulse that pumped exciting ring action throughout the CWF circuit. Fan favorites Austin Idol and Willie B. Hurt were Eddie and Paul E.’s main adversaries. With some of the painful, degrading stunts executed by Dangerously on Gilbert’s opponents, there wasn’t a fan in Dixie that had any compassion for what would happen to the cocky, quick-talking Yankee. Unfortunately, and much to the fans disappointment, Paul E. Dangerously had the last laugh on all of them. He departed from the CWF without a scratch on his body. 

With all the attention Jim Cornette’s Midnight Express (“Beautiful” Bobby Eaton and “Sweet” Stan Lane) had been receiving, Dangerously regrouped his Express and headed back to the National Wrestling Alliance to reclaim the right to be known as the one and only Midnight Express. Right off the bat, Paul E. got his angered message across to Jim Cornette. 

While the verbose Cornette was being interviewed during an NWA television taping, a phone call for Jim was received. The voice speaking to Cornette was that of Dangerously. Apparently there had been bad blood between the two managers in the past as Jim Cornette was screaming derogatory remarks at Dangerously at the onset of the call. A challenge was then made by Cornette to Dangerously. 

Just moments after the heated conversation, all hell broke loose. Paul E. Dangerously and his Original Midnight Express miraculously appeared on the set. Eaton and Lane were overcome by the surprise attack by Dangerously’s tag unit. Cornette was victimized with a wallop to the forehead by Paul E.’s phone and bled profusely. When order was finally restored, a feud was born within the ranks of the NWA–Express VS Express and manager clawing at manager. 

Intimidation isn’t in Paul E. Dangerously’s  vocabulary. Wherever he turns up, whatever task is put to him, Paul E. challenges it with a vengeance. Young, articulate, professional, agree or disagree with his tactics inside an arena, one fact remains unblemished–Paul E. Dangerously remains on top in wrestling due to his will to be the best. Second best is all the motive the “Scarsdale Superbrat” Needs to keep him working overtime on staying ahead of the rest of the pack.

[allfillernothriller]

Yard Act (+ Murkage Dave) @ Cabaret Sauvage, Paris, Dream Job Tour, 05.04.24

I made 4th-5th rows! Which isn't bad at all considering how tiny the Cabaret Sauvage is (there's no barrier, the front row's at the foot of the stage. From the 4th row, I wasn't further away from the stage than I was back when I was front row at Ally Pally for Jamie T).

I was once again rewarded for my decision to NOT listen to Murkage Dave before going. Hearing new stuff for the first time live slaps, that's why I love festivals and support acts. Successfully set myself up for a nice surprise ✨

I took a shit ton of videos, kept the parts that were decent enough, and compiled them in a montage like it's 2013. Here's the link:

[YouTube description:

[CW eyestrain: flashing lights @ ppl prone to seizures, proceed with caution]

Disclaimer! I can't afford a fancier phone and I'm no pro. Not to mention the fact that I will NEVER sacrifice my live experiences over footage. So yeah, it's shaky, but again, if I feel like dancing, I'll do just that; and if I'd rather keep my eyes on the band than make sure they're in the frame, that takes priority too. I guess what I'm trying to say is that those are primarily there for me to relive the memories, they weren't meant for aesthetics. Buuut, that doesn't mean I can't share them with you, does it?

Dropping this collection of excerpts from the gig like barging in your living room with a stack of pics from my latest trip. Look, I'm no film editor either, and evidently my brain was stuck in 2013, so that cringeworthy montage will have to do.

I know it's a shame I didn't record Payday & Dark Days (among others), but what can I say? I was too busy moshpitting.]

The atmosphere was incredible. There was a respectful vibe in the audience that made me feel safe. I actually partook in a moshpit wilfully and without fear for the first time in my life and that is a HUGE deal to me bc I'm usually too big of a wuss to try and on the rare occurrences I got caught up in one, people pushed too hard and some wound up hurt. Not this time. No one pushed too hard, no one tripped over, it was all friendly, benevolent horseplay and I HAD fun!!

A few complementary anecdotes:

When they played Land of the Blind, someone from the front row handed James a coin for the 'magic trick' part of the song. Who was this anonymous hero? Was it a spur of the moment decision? Did they just happen to have a coin in their pocket? Did they plan this??? So many questions. Defo in my top 3 most wholesome moments I've witnessed at a gig.

Most of my fellow croissants didn't know the words (I mean apart from The Overload and 100% Endurance bc they're from the 1st album; or they knew the words but couldn't pronounce them? Idk, point is, they didn't sing much), which was to be expected, but there were a few expats & brit tourists here and there, and throughout the concert, after a coupla moshpits & crowd movements, nearly all of us english speakers ended up gathered in a single group and we all sang along together: that was mint.

James pointed at everyone he could see wearing a trench coat and I was among them 🥰

Once again, not so many ppl knew the words, especially the newest songs. And there was me, who's obsessed with song lyrics, singing along nearly the entire time. The look on James' face when he made eye contact with me during When the Laughter Stops, Fizzy Fish and A Vineyard for the North, and realised I was singing too was priceless. He had the same reaction all 3 times lmao. The man was a mix of surprise, confusion, pride and amusement, he's such a sweetheart 🥲 I'm always a tad apprehensive when I get caught singing by the artist bc I don't know how'll they react, they all tend to feel differently about audience participation (e.g. Jamie T loves it so much when we sing along, I suspect it's one of his favourite things about going on stage and Brian Molko didn't pay it much mind, like it made not much of a difference to him lol) but James didn't seem to dislike it (I've heard there are artists who hate it but no one I've seen so far). I posted the bit from the video with the caption "backing vocals from the pit" to my Instagram story mentioning them and they shared it to theirs, so I take it they're okay with pit choirs.

James asked us to make some noise and when he saw how responsive we were, he had us do it 5 more times like he couldn't help himself and his giddy giggling made it impossible to be annoyed with him tbh

I love them. I love them so much.

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

Bonuses

One thing I didn't include in the video

The mandatory pre-gig youth hostel mirror selfie to show off my fit

Turning my trench coat into an Ace Trench Coat™ with merch

[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

By: Joseph Figliolia

Published: Jan 11, 2024

When I learned of the controversy over Lisa Littman’s seminal paper from 2018, which introduced the concept of rapid onset gender dysphoria (ROGD), I did not understand the nature of the backlash. Littman’s paper appeared in a respected journal, Plos One, and had passed through the peer-review process. Shortly after its publication, however, the dean of public health at Brown University, where Littman, a physician, worked, published a letter noting that the Brown community was concerned that “conclusions of the study could be used to discredit the efforts to support transgender youth and invalidate perspectives of members of the transgender community.”

The letter also claimed that Littman’s research design and methods were problematic, despite her paper’s surviving an unusual post-publication assessment by senior journal editors, academic editors, a stats reviewer, and an expert reviewer. Littman claims that, after the post-publication review, her methods and findings were left virtually intact in a republished version of the paper. Most of the changes involved highlighting how her data were collected from parent reports and the limitations of those reports.

But the dean’s letter and the backlash to Littman’s paper suggest that critics’ real concern was Littman’s tentative conclusion suggesting the emergence of a novel developmental pathway to gender dysphoria. In her study, Littman hypothesized that a new form of gender dysphoria, and trans-identification, was presenting among peer groups of adolescent girls typically immersed in online trans subcultures and who often had preexisting mental-health and developmental issues. Strikingly, most of these girls had no childhood history of gender dysphoria, or even gender nonconformity, and their newly announced identities seemed unexpected and caught their parents by surprise. 

Littman speculated that gender dysphoria was becoming a catch-all interpretive framework for a range of phenomena, from normal pubertal angst to specific mental-health issues. She also speculated that, among youth with existing mental-health issues or unprocessed sexual trauma, a trans identity could serve as a maladaptive coping mechanism to avoid dealing with intense negative emotions. This notion was tentatively supported by her finding that 61.4 percent of parents surveyed reported that their trans-identifying children were easily “overwhelmed by strong emotions and go to great lengths to avoid experiencing them.”

Critics realized that Littman’s hypothesis directly challenged the tenets of gender-identity theory, which hold that people have a felt sense of gender that is both innate and immutable. That theory has become a central justification for hormonal and surgical body modification. Critics alleged that Littman’s method of surveying parents was unreliable, but Littman showed that her method was consistent with other papers that support “gender affirmation” and are widely accepted by the pro-affirming side.

Fast forward six years, and Littman’s academic critics seem more committed to their intellectual and ideological priors than pursuing truth. Their main argument against ROGD is that what appears to parents as the sudden onset of transgender identity is really a late disclosure of an identity that has existed since childhood, even if the adolescent hasn’t felt comfortable revealing it to family and friends.

In a recent letter to the editor published in the Archives of Sexual Behavior, the Manhattan Institute’s Leor Sapir, along with Lisa Littman and Michael Biggs, take on the latest iteration of this argument in a paper by researcher-activist Jack Turban and his colleagues. The paper, “Age of Realization and Disclosure of Gender Identity Among Transgender Adults,” purports to show evidence of the early-realization/late-disclosure explanation for the rise in ROGD. Sapir et al.’s letter not only indicts Turban et al.’s subpar research but also, by extension, the current state of academic publishing on matters pertaining to identity (exemplified by the “ethics guidance” released by the journal Nature Human Behaviour).

Turban et al.’s argument is based on responses from the 2015 U.S. Transgender Survey, the largest of its kind to date, with a total of 27,715 respondents. USTS-15 asked adult participants to recall—and as critics have pointed out, recall itself is notoriously unreliable—at what age they “first felt their gender was different from their assigned birth sex” and at what age they “start to think they were trans (even if they did not know the word for it).” Turban and his coauthors took the answer to the first question rather than the second as the moment respondents first “realized they were transgender” and assessed the median time between realization and the disclosure of the identity to others. They divided participants into a “early realization” group (age ten or younger) and a “late realization” group (11 or older). Because a key premise of ROGD is that a trans identity develops rapidly within the context of adolescence, if the Turban study could show that a trans identity developed in childhood but was only disclosed later, it would undermine the ROGD hypothesis.

Yet, Turban and his colleagues seem uninterested in rigorously testing the ROGD hypothesis. Well-known for his mischaracterization of existing research, Turban made interpretive choices that strongly suggest he and his coauthors were avoiding any USTS-15 data that might undermine their broadside against ROGD.

Sapir et al.’s response is worth reading in full, but some examples of their findings should suffice here. First, to be eligible to participate in USTS-15, respondents had to identify currently as transgender. By definition, this means that anyone who identified as trans as adolescents but no longer did so as adults was excluded. Since this excluded group may include individuals whose dysphoria presentations match the ROGD phenomena, the USTS-15 sample is highly biased against ROGD hypothesis testing. Amazingly, Turban and another coauthor pointed out this limitation of the sample in a previous paper they published. Here, however, they simply ignore it.

Second, the ROGD phenomenon is hypothesized as an emergent phenomenon among a cohort of trans-identifying youth who came of age in the late 2000s or later—intersecting with widespread changes in social media, phone use, and the rise of the transgender social movement—which means that the phenomena would apply only to the 18–24 age group of the USTS-15. Despite this, Turban & colleagues analyzed the time period from realization to disclosure for the entire adult sample, and then only for those who said that they had early realization (age 10 or younger)—meaning not the cohort that would be relevant to ROGD.

Third, Turban and his coauthors chose as their proxy for age of realization a question put to participants about their age when they “felt that their gender was different than their birth sex”—instead of another question that asked them “at what age they first thought they were trans.” Asking people about their gender is more nebulous and less precise than asking them when they first thought they were trans. Not least, the problem of recall bias means that adult respondents—who, in this case, were recruited through transgender advocacy networks—could retroactively interpret reasons for “feeling different” through a gendered lens. In short, “feeling different” is a less reliable proxy for “realization” than an explicit question about the adoption of a transgender identity.

Turban et al. don’t explain this interpretive choice, but one suspects the reason: it produces a longer time from realization to disclosure. Because they take respondents’ answers about when they first “felt different” (which they code as “realized they are transgender”) at face value, they are left defending the absurd proposition that hundreds of USTS-15 respondents realized that they were transgender before their second birthday.

As Sapir’s letter notes, had the researchers analyzed data for the precise measure, they would have found that nearly 75 percent of the total sample reported late realization of a trans identity, compared with 40.8 percent originally reported. Moreover, data analyzed for the precise measure in the ROGD 18–24-year-old cohort reveals participants reported 83 percent late realization and only 17 percent early realization.

Of central importance, Turban and his coauthors claim to find that the median time from realization to disclosure was 11 years and the mode was 13 years. Had they analyzed the correct group (“late realization”), they would have found that both males and females had a mode of one year and a median of three years. In a follow-up reply to critics, Sapir and Littman point out that 2,127 respondents to the USTS-15 said that they went from “first feeling different” to disclosing a transgender identity to others in one year or less. The number of respondents who went from “first feeling they are transgender” to disclosing that identity to others within the same timeframe was 3,685. The denominator here (all 18–24-year-old respondents) was 5,880, which means that the data source Turban et al. themselves chose as reliable for testing ROGD shows that between one-third (if we’re being generous to Turban) and two-thirds (if we’re taking respondents’ report of “realizing they are transgender” at face value) meet the criteria for “rapid” development of transgender identity.

Additional features obscured in the Turban analysis also support the ROGD hypothesis. For example, ROGD is hypothesized to affect women more than men due to greater susceptibility to peer influence and because of the documented mental-health crisis among girls. While the Turban paper reports that 63.2 percent of the late-realization group was female, that percentage increases to 75.2 percent if only the relevant 18-24-year-old cohort is analyzed. Relatedly, data from the 18-24-year-old cohort also reveals that the younger cohort reported more psychological distress than older cohorts—lending more support to the ROGD hypothesis that trans-identification is a coping mechanism for preexisting psychological distress. This is consistent with research suggesting that comorbidities predate trans identification in this cohort.

Taken together, it is hard to see Turban et al.’s paper as anything but a sloppily engineered effort to discredit a hypothesis the authors disagree with for political reasons. That the Journal of Adolescent Health published their paper is yet more evidence of the ideological capture of medical journals. To add insult to injury, Sapir posted a thread on X regarding his letter to the editor and tagged the Journal of Adolescent Health, which promptly blocked him. This is behavior befitting a moody teenager, not the managers of a medical journal’s social media account.

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Jack Turban is an activist, not a researcher, not a scientist. He just uses the language, but he doesn't even understand what "evidence-based medicine" means.

[1tsny4nc4t]

My intro :p!⁠｡⁠☆ (OUTDATED! NEW ONE COMING SOON)

✯ Hii I'm dex/Dexy (or just Debbie) I'm a artist,editor & animator ,i go by he/any/pup (I'm ok with she/her,they/them or love/loves)-(I'm a transmasc,demigirl,xenogender,non-binary & bigender) (⁠^⁠^⁠) (and yes :3) welcome 2 my blog person (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)!! ✯

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Know here Is my BYI & DNI !! (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠) ⇊

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[lunaefleurs]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞(𝐬) 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐬𝐞?

a. i'm currenty using photoshop 2024 (latest), premiere pro 2024 (latest), after effects 2024 (latest), canva, and polarr! sometimes if the quality is not that good, i upscale it using waifux2! i actually only started learning how to use adobe apps last year for my uni, so i'm still getting used to it!

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐡𝐲 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬? 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐮𝐧𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬, 𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐞𝐭𝐜.?

a. i'm totally fine with other mhy games! as for the latter, it really depends if i do feel like doing it; but if i do, while requesting, please make sure to include the series and character names! if there's a specific pic u want me to use, include a (hyper)link to it!

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐮𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐬/𝐠𝐢𝐟𝐬/𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐬?

a. as much as i would love to, i really don't think i'm the best at this. however! you can always ask me for editing tips / advice on specific elements in my graphics!

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐬?

a. i follow supportcontentcreators, which is the easiest and i think the best blog to get resources from as they reblog many stuff from many creators! i also have a few favourite resource blogs like notoriousaesthetics, tragedynoir, hisources, and cavalierfou! as for genshin and hsr, i easily got them from genshinpng, genshinresource, and the-astral-express-archive! but if you want to ask where i got a certain png from, expect a negative answer because i either got them from pinterest and/or couldn't find it anymore. any resources used will be credited in its respectives posts!

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐬𝐝/𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬?

a. most of the time, i use polarr for filters from numerous creators. i used to use polarr a lot about 5 years ago and saved many, but i recently started using it again for this blog , so i'm using about 5 years old filters since i can't import new filters for free anymore (they introduced paid plans a few years ago...). i also use a lot of psd from many creators! but when i do make my own filters, it's my own psd made from scratch almost every single time which i most likely won't save.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐬𝐝?

a. no and i don't plan on doing so. i'm not confident with my skills in photoshop yet and i feel a bit inferior, it's better to get templates from other editors!

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝐪. 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐢𝐝 𝐢𝐧 [𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐭 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞]? 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐰𝐞 𝐛𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬?

a. you probably didn't read my about me post, but i actually wish to keep things about me outside of this blog private, like the name i usually use online isn't yue. so naturally, i'm also unwilling to share my game ids and i only add moots and irl friends. if you're curious about my character builds, you are allowed to ask me and i can share a showcase of it!

ㅤ✎ updated on 240416

[apocalypticanuyushi]

Pinned Post

I feel like it's about time I stop lurking and actually try so uh, pinned post here we go!

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[jeromekoehler]

2025-01 Gear and Software Loadout

Happy New Year, all! Here is an update to my current setup (some have respective links to Amazon that help defray some of the hosting costs and get me more funding to purchase cool, new gear) for January. I am also including an AI generated image to see if it will improve over time and get better at generating images. If you all have any questions about the items below, please feel free to reach out as I am always glad to share my thoughts.

The changes plus the detailed hardware list are below:

Added:

Apple Passwords

Apple Notes

Drafts

Camera - Fujifilm X-M5

Speaker - Beats Pill

iPad - iPad Mini

Remote Control Application - Screens 5

Leuchtturm1917

Retroid Pocket Mini

Daily Carry Backpack - Alpaka Elements Backpack Pro X-Pac VX42

Removed:

Things

Physical Scanner - Fujitsu ScanSnap iX1300

Camera Backpack - Shimoda Explore V2 35

Open World RPG (PC) - Elden Ring

Board Game - Unsettled Board Game

macOS Applications

Task Manager - Reminders - I have fully moved to reminders as my task manager.

Text Editor - BBEdit

Terminal App - Terminal.app

Automation App - Hazel

Online Backup Service - Backblaze

Backup Application - Carbon Copy Cloner

iOS/iPadOS Applications

Podcast App - Castro

Camera App - Halide

Video Recording App - Kino

Object Scanning App - Scan Thing

Document Scanning App - Simple Scan

iOS/iPadOS/macOS Applications

Password Manager - Bitwarden + Apple Passwords

Package Tracking App - Parcel

Calendar App - Calendar.app

Recipe Manager - Mela

RSS Reader - The New Reeder

Read Later Application - Goodlinks

Email Application - Mail.app

Note-Taking App - Tot, Apple Notes, Drafts

Mastodon Application - Ivory

Social Media - Threads

Social Media - Bluesky

Mind-Mapping Software - Mind Node

Remote Control Application - Screens 5

Hardware

Keyboard - HHKB Studio

Dock - OWC Thunderbolt Pro Dock

Laptop - 14" MacBook Pro

iPad - iPad Mini

3D Printer - Creality K1C

Watch - Apple Watch Series 10 Black Aluminum 46mm with Cellular

Phone - iPhone 16 Pro Max

Inkjet Printer - Epson 4850

Charger - Anker MagGo 3-in-1 Charging Stand

Charger - Anker MagSafe Compatible MagGo UFO 3-in-1 Charger

Automation - Elgato Stream Deck Neo

Lighting - Elgato Key Light Neo

Game Capture - Elgato Game Capture Neo

Webcam with Smarts - Obsbot Tiny 2

Camera - Fujifilm X-M5

Audio Hardware

Microphone - Rode Podcaster White

Speaker - Beats Pill

Gaming

Emulator - Retroid Pocket 4 Pro

Emulator - Retroid Pocket Mini

Gaming with Friends - Helldivers 2

Universal Controller - 8BitDo Ultimate Bluetooth Controller

Storage/Bags/Cases

Daily Carry Backpack - Alpaka Elements Backpack Pro X-Pac VX42

Travel Backpack - Peak Design Travel Backpack

Tech Pouch - Peak Design Tech Pouch

Stationary

Pen - Tactile Turn Pens

Pen - Leuchtturm1917

Kitchen/Cooking

Indoor Grill - Ninja Foodi Indoor Grill

Pressure Cooker - Ninja Foodi Pressure Cooker

Convection Oven - Ninja Foodi Convection Oven

Coffee Maker - Fellow Aiden

Coffee Grinder - Baratza Fortè AP Coffee Grinder

MISC

Car Error Code Scan Tool - BlueDrive OBDII Scan Tool

Hosting Service - Hetzner

Universal Remote - Sofabaton Remote

Cell Service - US Mobile and T-Mobile - US Mobile is now just being used for my iPads. The family and I have moved back to T-Mobile as the seamless integration of international roaming and pricing was too good to give up.

[jiessicas]

07.07.23 field trip notes

nice day <3 thankful for pretty lights and health insurance (more notes below)

notes on light

light at mcad - michelle yi martin's petaled cosmos" - woven lighting gels with light cast through, which is then photographed, then printed onto layered silks

took the muni to the new station in chinatown; the light indoors/underground felt like natural daytime light, maybe in thanks to the mirrored ceiling

golden hour along california street; a place i & i meandered along some day during spring 2019

thinking about my dad (nam june paik) at the ambient rave with projects cast throughout the entire depth of the cathedral

most memorable part of seeing the sutro tower installation was walking on the uphill road in the dark, listening to the trees swaying through the wind, seeing their silhouettes cast against the glow of tower

misc wants/wonders

noticed the mentioning by z of the experience as transcendent/otherworldly; i wonder what it would be like to keep my gaze upon something steady, with a belief, an insistence that this could exist in this world, as much as it is possible to do so

broadened imaginations; people who help challenge/broaden that imagination

wanting for myself and others: a sense of deep okayness and a zest for life and intention and surprise

field trip!

field trip day at the dogpatch ~ we went to mcad, the exhibit was about crafting a life in the bay area was an artist, one of the pieces made me wanna carry around pencils to draw again; at their maker station, i lined my notebook with butterfly fabrics, and taped a silvery paper onto random pages

picked up "design by time," a survey of projects that focus/collaborate with time >:)

light at mcad - michelle yi martin's petaled cosmos" - woven lighting gels with light cast through, which is then photographed, then printed onto layered silks

took the muni to the new station in chinatown; the light indoors/underground felt like natural daytime light, maybe in thanks to the mirrored ceiling

wandered around a large walgreens; saw skincare products staged with furniture in a very ikea type way

went to an ambient rave at grace cathedral

scooted to sutro tower and got to stand amid many a powerful laser & many a camera pro/enthusiast (thank you v)

most memorable was the walk up to the tower in the dark, listening to the trees swaying through the wind, seeing their silhouettes cast against the tower

additional notes

putting faces to names for mag was sweet! a lil writer/editor meet n greet <3 "in 10 years when we're like [redacted]"

venkatesh rao's "cafes & grand narratives" post was wild

small world; running into a at the ambient set, met z, c at sutro and of course we have mutual friends, small world when we took a shared car to our respective homes that made a neat route between sutro and v's spot

everyone laid down at some point to look up at the lasers; it was funny to see people responding to it in a way that they would an ambient set (which is where i was coming from before sutro)

health note

a relief, light at the end of the convoluted bureaucratic tunnel ....!!! i feel so insanely grateful to have access to a solid hospital through insurance

and yet the process of scheduling felt kafkaesque because multiple (3-4 times) attempts to talk to a person were autohangups; i got routed between three different departments, and when i was with the right department they thought i was looking for something different