#I have Disengaged and I Will Not

[kabretoss]

please be proud of me, I ollied out of an Internet Discussion before it became an Internet Argument

[communistkenobi]

like god you guys need to get like a government stipend for explaining racism and colonialism to fandom bloggers or at the very least a big red button to press that kills them immediately bc like I remember last summer trying to talk about colonialism in star trek (a very basic observation) and that was some of the most intensely negative reactions I’ve gotten from people on here about fandom in years lol. truly don’t know how you do it on a daily basis. I can imagine the constant sense of alienation whenever interacting with people who are basically just telling you to leave their digital whites-only neighbourhood

[ratwithhands]

I had this AU archived off my accounts for a few years, but I'm thinking about it a lot more these days so I'm digging it up for sketches.

This is Kudari from Codebreaker, functionally the starting antagonist for the story when Emmet accidentally collides with him and takes parts of his body.

For a little debrief, the main idea of Codebreaker is that Emmet discovers that he exists in a false reality, and that there is a parallel plane where all of the instructions for his reality exist. He finds his way to this plane by accident after walking back from another lonely day at work, and is hellbent on learning how to manipulate it in the hopes that he can recover Ingo with that knowledge. Kudari is his own set of instructions, who he partly dismantles, allowing him to actually interact with the code. This leaves a hollowed out shell that starts trying to find his own way to get his body back from Emmet.

I'd been thinking about the Beta Submas leaks which lead me to sketching him again. Here's the first rough warmup sketch I did with a fight between him and Emmet.

From there I just started reworking his old design to be worse 💀

Let me know if you guys want more of this freak, he's honestly really fun to sketch.

[some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat]

ADHD hack: you may be able to say "last post" aloud and then not keep scrolling beyond it

(emphasizing the word "not" so your brain remembers to read it)

[vanglaggle]

im so sick of toxic yaoi slop im actually upset . show me healthy yaoi . PLEASE . I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE . MAKE THEM LOVE EACH OTHER . PLEASE

[carsonjonesfiance]

And I love how gay unemployed 20 somethings on think that a vast interconnected network involving the US government, independent media, Verizon, etc, conspired to delete a couple dozen blogs on a dying blogging platform is somehow more likely than a gay unemployed twenty something disillusioned with American politics unknowingly following a sockpuppet account or two back in 2016.

[celluzu]

occasionally kind of feels like people are just. forgetting that quackity mistreated his employees

[anto-pops]

you don't have to post this.

I'm just happy you nodded to how destructive that blog is. I'm glad to see some resistance to that blogs fucking existence.

I'm sorry anto. Parts of me is happy you've slightly moved on from HL just so that hopefully didn't barb you as bad as I'm sure "bitch of the blog" wanted it to.

Yes she self-submitted it. She does that with all her worst ones. It's for attention - and blatantly visible in her discord servers. Do not take it to heart.

I will post this because if you and I feel similarly about it, there’s bound to be others.

I’ll say it with my whole chest: that entire blog is a joke and an excuse for insecure, mean spirited people to harp on others. I blocked the entire page basically right at the beginning when I started seeing it pop up in my feed, but from what I gathered when my attention was dragged there by the anons in my own inbox, it’s full of people who:

A. Hate the game and all the characters

B. Are jealous of other creators and their success

C. Are too lazy to write their own stories yet have the gall to criticize other writers’ work

The fucking audacity to make a blog like that and defend the blatant bullying with “well we’re allowed to dislike things and have our own opinions” is so unbelievably lazy it’s not even funny. Nevermind the fact that there’s nothing anonymous about half the asks there— I could clearly tell who certain asks were referring to. Maybe the whole thing started with a few harmless polls (which is what I saw at the start) but it’s transformed into something so nasty that to defend it just leaves a sour taste in my mouth. Fuck that blog and fuck the people who feed into the toxicity.

[lord-squiggletits]

Part of why I hate this fandom's take on Autobots vs Decepticons is ppl (mainly 'con fans honestly) who can't have any nuance of the situation whatsoever and love to write plots like "oh the humans are racist and abusive towards Cybertronians so this is how Megatron is right" no actually I don't think colonialism/imperialism and racism are justified so long as you can point the finger and say "they were the aggressors first" or "their hands are no cleaner than ours bc their society sucks too" sorry. Please come up with better sociopolitical narratives in your war story.

[vividxp]

I've tried a couple of times to get my thoughts organized regarding white viewers commentary on how AMC's IWTV handles race, but I'll just simply say there's definitely a cynicism that is common in a lot of those analysis that is...bemusing.

[abirddogmoment]

Rory has been here a week today! Let's do a recap:

I've been trying to do targeted socialization outings to practice neutral behaviour in lots of settings!

Sunday: Hotel lobby

Monday: Vet (wellness exam)

Tuesday: Outdoor light display

Wednesday: Vet (vaccines)

Thursday: Bus stop

Friday: Canadian Tire (dog friendly)

Saturday: Bus stop (post-event)

She's been crushing general good citizen behaviour! She has also been crushing:

House training (no accidents so far!)

Crate training

Offering engagement

Tolerating nail trims (50/50)

Sit/Down/Stand

General bravery in new situations

I'm very proud of her 💜

Areas for improvement include:

Stop bullying Pike

Stop chewing her own ears

Excitement around people/dogs

Demand barking (already improving)

Our biggest victories for the week:

✅ Worked through noise sensitivity from cars driving by, can now ignore them!

✅ First baby "hike" with phenomenal enthusiasm despite the cold and snow!

Big goals for next week:

✴ More polite play with Pike

✴ Staying home alone while the humans work

✴ Reduce demand barking

Overall she is a perfect puppy and I love her very very much 💜

[szampers]

I feel why szpd is less well documented (and widely known) is because it's one of the most harmless personality disorders. It brings the least harm to the people around you. Any harm would come in a subtle way, and it isn't something someone would be madly concerned over, including the schizoid individual themself. What bothers the most is the frustration of being the way you are, the lack of understanding and acceptance from others.

I think most of the harm szpd can cause to other people is through passivity - the lack of interest in interaction. In our presence, they would only feel uncomfort, annoyance, confusion or self-doubt by our lack of engagement, all of which can be solved by simply distancing yourself from the schizoid individual, who aren't known to chase after people either. Simply ignore them like how we ignored them in the first place. The amount of input has to be equal, nothing receiving nothing. Szpd doesn't actively bring harm through interaction, it passively does it through disengagement. And can it harm any relationships if bridges were never built in the first place? But those who were misled by the act of masking would be hurt the most out of all. Lacking a will to maintain relationships, you wouldn't start any of them either unless it's unavoidable. This way whatever harm that might come is minimalized, but this act itself is arguably what brings the most harm, disengagement.

[pridetempt]

lucifer calling everyone by pet names / nicknames ( darling , dear , hot stuff , sir snakes-a-lot (pentious) , legs (angel) , etc. ) and people thinking omg lucifer gave me a nickname ! he likes me !! no , babe. he just doesn't remember your name. he doesn't remember anyone's name. honestly , you're lucky he remembers he's met you before.

[brittlebutch]

I’d apologize for being pedantic but if you write a book for autistic people i feel you must expect it. anyway why is it okay for other kids to express boredom by visually disengaging from the conversation but not the autistic reader?

[wednesdaythunder]

Curate my blog?

Listen, I won't curate FUCK, like ma'am, this is a Tumblr. If I can't spam my latest obsession then what's even the point

[plaquerat]

oh yeah guys its official as of halloween but im very much uh. an ocd haver