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actualhumancryptid · 2 years ago
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So I found out today that my spam filter just automatically decided to throw every annoying Twitter update email into spam, unprompted.
Who’s a good spam filter? You are! Yes you are!
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godmadeaterribleerror · 5 months ago
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Just Your Time - No Love Lost Bonus Chapter
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Author's Note: Silly, silly fluff. Title from ordinary things by Ariana Grande.
Word Count: 1.5k
Summary/Warnings: You give Ben internet lessons. Takes place in Chapter 14, Usual warnings.
Tags: Soldier Boy/Supe!Female Reader, canon divergence, fluff
“There are three major platforms. Instagram, TikTok, and facebook. We’re going to go one by one.” You glance up at Ben, who’s scowling down at his phone like it’s just made a very personal insult about his mother. “Why are you making your grump face.”
His glare turns to you. “I don’t make a fucking grump face.”
“You do. You get all pouty, and the lines here,” you reach up, tapping a finger between his brows. “Get deeper.”
“Shut the fuck up.”
“Tell me why you’re being a baby.”
“I am not being a goddamn baby-“
“Benjamin.”
“This is fucking stupid.” He snaps, glower returning to the phone. “I don’t need to know about Instagran or tiktak-“
“Tiktok,” you grin at him. “And Instagran was a big Freudian slip, Pretty Boy. It’s Instagram.”
“I don’t fucking care what they’re called, this is fucking pointless shit for shallow pussies-“
“Oh, fuck off, I’ve seen you flexing in the bathroom mirrors, Ben.”
“That’s different. You fucking love it, and it’s to make I haven’t lost any fucking muscle-“
“You are biologically incapable of losing muscle. And this is shallow,” you shrug. “But it’s fun. And you promised you’d do it.” 
He scowls. “Fine.”
“Can I get a little more enthusiasm-“
“No. Start talking.”
You wrinkle your nose at him, scooting closer to reach over his arm, pointing to the apps as you speak. “Instagram. TikTok, Facebook. There’s also YouTube, but that will have to be a whole other thing, and Snapchat, but you’d hate that-“
“Why.”
“Have you ever wanted to have all your messages instantly deleted and look like a puppy dog in the camera?”
“No, that sounds dumb as fucking balls.”
“Then no Snapchat. That’s Twitter, but-“
“Says X on it.” Ben drawls your name, giving you a smug look, and you sigh.
“Well, that’s why we’re not talking about it. If I tell you about Elon Musk and Tesla, you’ll have an aneurysm and that would just be huge bummer for me.”
“Aw, Sunshine,” he leans down, bumping your nose with his. “Would you fucking miss me? Get all damn sad if I died?”
It’s very difficult to hold your ground. Ben’s hand has moved to your thigh, and his mouth keeps brushing yours, and you feel his hunger running from his body into yours. But you manage to raise a hand and push his face backwards with a scoff, sticking your tongue and ignoring how to hunger flashes in his chest. 
“You know I would, don’t be a cunt.”
“Brat.”
“Uh huh,” you tap the phone, still in his hand, and don’t allow yourself to meet his eyes. If you meet Ben’s eyes you’ll start climbing on top of him, and you’ll lose. “Pay attention.”
Ben scoffs, but falls silent, waiting for you to continue. 
“No Twitter. Just these three.” You risk a glance up at him. He’s still distractingly handsome—the world didn’t like you enough to change that—but glowering at the phone, and you nudge his shoulder with yours. “Tell me their names.”
“Instagram,” he grunts, raising a finger to point at them one by one. “TikTok, and…” His eyes narrow, and he pauses for long enough that you’re not sure he’s going to figure out that the names are right there on the display. 
“Ben-“
“Facebook.” He looks up at you with a smirk. “Fucking nailed it.”
“Yeah, you’re a genius.” You mutter, but still smile at him. Something warm grows in your gut, and you have to stop meeting his eyes again. “Facebook is probably the least important one, but you would like it-“
“Why would I-“
“Because it’s for old people.” You grin at him, and Ben rolls his eyes. 
“Shut the fuck up.”
“No. I think we’ll do Instagram today, because TikTok will break your brain and I’m not ready to explain the Minions to you yet.”
“What the fuck is a minion-“
“Nope. Not today.” You lean over him, opening Instagram. “And remember, the less of a little bitch you are about this, the faster we finish and the sooner we can do something else.”
“We could just do something else right fucking now, no one’s damn making us do this-“
You give him a flat look. “I am, Benjamin. Eyes on the phone.”
He gives you one last glare, and turns back to the phone. “What the fuck am I looking at.”
“Instagram,” you sigh, hanging over Ben’s arm to frown at the screen. “Essentially, it’s a photo sharing app. People post about their lives, pets, memes-“
“What the fuck is a meme.”
“It’s like a funny photo or Internet joke. We’ll have to talk about it later as well. There’s a lot of business accounts, celebrity accounts, celebrity fan accounts-“
“What-“
“It’s an account that posts a bunch of photos and news and videos about one specific celebrity.” You tilt your head at the phone. “There are probably some for you, actually.”
“For me?” Ben blinks at you. “The fuck are they doing on them?”
“Posting photos of you.”
“How did they get fucking photos of me-“
“The internet, Ben.” You grin at him. “Believe it or not, there are photos of you on the internet.”
He pauses, frowning between you and the screen. “Are they good photos?”
Every photo of him is a good photo. Ben has a stupid, amazing face that looks like it was carved by Michelangelo, and every photo of him is a good photo. He doesn’t get to know that.
“They’re fine.”
“Just fucking fine?! The hell did all the good ones go-“
“Jesus, Benjamin, they’re good.” You give him a flat look. “Who’s shallow now?”
“You’d be worried about how you look if your face had to be fucking everywhere,” he snaps your name, but it’s fake anger. You can feel his amusement, and any annoyance is coated in a layer of complete comfort that makes you a little dizzy. “My job was my damn face. I’m not a vain pussy, I’m a business man-”
You snort. “You are not a fucking business man, Pretty Boy.”
“Fuck you, Sunshine, I made millions-“
“I’m sure you did,” you pat his arm, and Ben glares at you. “Are you going to keep being a huge baby, or can I keep talking?”
“Whatever.”
“That’s the spirit.” You take the phone from his hand, and start to swipe through the app, talking Ben through the what turned out to be the many nuances of Instagram. You’d—incorrectly—thought this would take twenty minutes, but Ben wouldn’t stop asking questions. You made the mistake of showing him a Soldier Boy fanpage, and that alone took ten minutes to explain and move on from. By the time you hit livestreams, Ben looked like he might start throwing something—what the fuck is the point of this shit, I don’t care about what these pussies have to say about fucking nothing—so you called it. He knew how the explore page worked, not to answer strange DMs, and if someone promised him hot MILFs in his area that it was probably a lie.
“I’m not an idiot,” he grumbles your name, closing the app. “And I don’t even know what a fucking MILF is-“
“Mother I’d Like to Fuck.” You grin at him. “But you might be more into GILFs.”
He frowns. “The fuck’s a GILF.”
“If MILF is an acronym, I think you can figure out GILF yourself.”
It takes a second of Ben glaring at you—the gears of his brain slowly turning to find the answer—and you can see the moment he gets it, because he rolls his eyes and a flash of indigence runs through him. “Brat.”
“I don’t know what you could possibly be referring to-“
Your words die in your throat as Ben tosses his phone somewhere across the room and hauls you onto his lap, burying his face in your neck and grumbling against your skin.
“You’re fucking stuck with me, beautiful, no damn GILF on the internet is taking me away.”
You hum. “What if they’re horny, and in your area?”
“Only old lady in my area is Mallory, and I’d rather cut off my goddamn dick than fuck her.”
“That’s not very nice, Benjamin-“ Your word turn into a long, breathless sound as he starts to leave open, wet kisses along your shoulder, and he’s so hungry, and it’s all fucking on purpose. YYour heart is racing as his hands tangle in your hair, and words start to feel a little far away, and you can feel how smug he is about it. “Cunt-“
“We’re done with the internet shit today.”
Not a question, but his muscles flex around you as he pulls you closer, so you don’t argue. “Yeah.”
“Good.” Ben flips you over in one, smooth movement, moving up to your mouth and smirking as you moan. “Next time, we’re doing this shit first. I don’t give a fuck about the internet,” he lets out a low groan as you tug at his hair. “But I can get the fuck on board if this is how we start.”
You answer a little too fast to be dignified, but he’s dropped back down to your neck, and you feel a little high. “Deal.”
“Deal.” Ben looks up at you, grinning as you start to try and tug him back to your mouth. “Let’s get started on it right fucking now.”
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alsktudy · 1 year ago
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paring. soonyoung x reader genre. angst, exes to lovers, fluff at the end wc. 1.5k warning. mention of skipping meals and swearing
synopsis. you thought breaking up with soonyoung would make you more focused at your job. you couldn't be more wrong.
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his sharp, angular eyes were filling with tears, you hate seeing him cry, you hate it even more that it was you making him cry.
“what?” his voice shaky and struggling to produce a coherent sound, “i- i don’t understand.”
“let’s break up.”
he shakes his head in disbelief, the tears which had been collecting over the past few moments finally beginning to trickle down his cheeks.
“you don’t actually mean it, you aren’t being serious.”
“i wouldn’t joke around about something like this soonyoung.”
soonyoung furrows his eyebrows at his full name being spoken, his ears had gotten used to you calling him ‘soonie’.
you swallow the thick lump forming in your throat, “i really mean it, let’s break up.”
you convinced yourself were fine.
the attention which he constantly bathed you in ultimately made you unproductive at work. your supervisor got annoyed at you for entering the wrong numbers and decided to force your whole section have to work over time to fix your mistake.
you wanted focus on your work, that was the whole reason why you broke up with him in the first place, so why you can’t you focus on entering any of the data into the stupid glowing screen in front of you?
it’s a simple task, punch a few numbers into the computer and you’re done. you’ve done this for 7 months already that it feels like muscle memory, yet your hands are unable to move, currently occupied with the task of holding tightly onto the thoughts of your past relationship.
your eyes gaze shift to the phone resting on the table.
a part of you wishes soonyoung would call you or even send a message. he didn’t block you on social media, heck, he didn’t even unfollow you. that means he wants to keep in touch… right? you think it’s safe to assume he didn’t have the heart to press the unfollow button and honestly, you’re secretly glad he didn’t becuase you didn’t have the heart to unfollow him either.
but a part of you also wishes that you could shelf your pride away and text him first. ask him how work’s going, if he’s found any good music lately, after all, thats what friends on facebook do, right? or possibly the monstrous task of apologising.
with a sigh you reach for your phone and search up his instagram for what seems like 17th time today. all the posts which contained you disappeared 2 weeks ago – you really hope he archived them and didn’t delete them.
your thumb shifts to click on his most recent post: a video of him dancing. the shadow from his black adidas cap obscuring most of his face, making it hard to make out his eyes.
maybe it was for the best that you couldn’t see his eyes. they’d probably remind you of how desperate his sharp, glossy eyes yearned to find a single glimpse of remorse in your gaze that night.
you analyse the way his body effortlessly moves to the rhythm of the song until a loud thud on your desk snaps you out of your trance.
“didn’t you break up with that kid?” nayeon asks as she looks over your shoulder, her eyes gazing at the replaying video.
“yeah,” slightly embarassed that nayeon had caught you looking at his profile, “why?”
“then why do you keep watching him dance?” you gulp audibly and reach for your phone and turn it off, “you’ve checked that thing,” she points at your phone, “countless times over the past hour. i keep hearing the same song over and over again.”
rolling your eyes you shove your phone into a drawer, “i was just checking up on him.” you retort, crossing your arms.
“checking up on him every 7 minutes?” she scoffs.
“well…” you exhale shakily, “i haven’t seen him in a while, i was just curious…”
“wait! lemme check your screentime real quick.” she exclaims.
“what?”
“just… pass me the damn phone.”
you comply, opening the drawer, handing her the phone after unlocking it.
shit, you didn’t realise that you checked up on him that much.
“9 hours… 9 hours!?” nayeon’s eyes go wide as she reads your average daily screentime. “do i have to confiscate your phone?!” she jokes with a light slap on your shoulder.
“well.. i like watching youtube.”
“most used app… instagram.”
well shit. thanks apple.
“what the hell is wrong with you!?”
“could you keep it down?!” you say in a whisper-shout, lightly slapping her arm.
“you gotta fix that.”
“are you my mum or something?”
“no, i’m a good friend.” her thumbs rapidly tap at the glowing screen.
“what the hell are you doing?”
“setting you a damn limit since you obviously can’t control yourself.” she says grinning at the screen, “gave you one minute allowed on insta, you’re welcome.” she places the phone back into your hands and walks away chuckling.
“i can just disable it when i get home!”
and disable it you did.
it had been 2 months since you last saw him in person and fuck, you were missing him like crazy.
your life became a grey scene devoid of all colour, but you can’t really blame anyone but yourself. you pushed away the man who brought a range of beautiful colours that you couldn’t even imagine before you met him.
yeah sure, you slowly regained your focus on work and even got a promotion, but did it really mean anything if soonyoung didn’t attempt to make a congratulations cake and somehow burn it? or pepper your face with a multitude of kisses saying that your his smart, pretty girl until you beg him to stop with a shy giggle? you didn’t fucking think so.
“soonyoung?” you say smiling, “what a coincidence to see you here! it’s so nice to see you again.”
you couldn’t help it, you had to see him. soonyoung taught lessons at a dance studio nearby, you were bound to run into him sooner or later if you continued to lurk around the area.
he flashes you a feign smile, “oh! oh- uh it’s nice to see you too.” well that sounded like a lie. he looks down and hesitates before looking up to meet your eyes once more, “how have you been?”
“im just living life, i guess.” you say, fiddling with the hem of your t-shirt, the confidence (and the adrenaline) which pumped throughout your body moments ago disolving in a instant after hearing his voice, “how have you been, soonie?”
soonyoung breath hitches at the old nickname but continues to keep his composure.
“well, i’ve been...” he takes a breath, “living my life too.”
you look up to meet his gaze, his cold gaze. no warmth behind those pupils, the glimmer of passion which once used to call his eyes home had disappeared.
an uncomfortable silence fell between you two as you stared at each other feeling an obvious tension blanketing the atmosphere.
“i guess… i guess i should go.” you say, knowing that this interaction wouldn’t lead to anything other than more tension, “see you around.” you give him wave accompanied by a small smile.
as you awkwardly turn around and begin to walk away, soonyoung shaky voice rings through out your ears, “are you taking care of yourself? you’ve been eating well right? i hope you have, i always told you not to skip your meals.”
you spin around to meet his glossy eyes staring at you, “what?” you ask breathlessly.
“you’ve skipped meals right? you always do that when you-”
you run into him, wrapping your arms around his waist, in response he cloaks with his own warmth with an embrace. “soonyoung,” you sob into his shirt.
he exhales, “i know, i missed you too.”
you peel your face off his chest and look at him – his gaze full of love as he looks down at you with his tears threatening to fall with one simple blink.
your heart shatters as the thought of all of the emotions he probably went through the past 2 months rapidly fly throughout your mind. all you can say is a pathetic ‘i’m so sorry.’ repeatedly into his chest.
all he does is slowly caress your hair and press kisses onto the top of your head as you continue to sob your apologises.
you hate that your the one who’s crying the most out of the two of you, shouldn’t he be crying more? you’re the one who broke up with him. but it’s like soonyoung can basically read your mind, after all, you were together for 1.5 years. he immediately comforts you and all of your worrying thoughts, “it’s okay, let it all out, i forgive you.”
it takes a while before theres silence bewteen you two. his scent is comforting, his soft whispers into your hair make you giggle and tighten your arms around him and his warm, loving gaze makes you never want to leave him again.
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a/n. requested by @kwonshiho, heres the ask! its loosely based on screentime by epik high ft soonyoung and a tad inspired by our beloved summer. i used this to practice for my english exam LOL. also this took long to write LOL
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au-mashup-party · 3 months ago
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Hey I have an announcement I would like to make, I know it’s not what you’re normally expecting, but I just wanna get this off my chest. Lately I’ve been dealing with a lot of mental health issues in and out of Tumblr, some too personal to talk about, so I’ll leave it with how I been feeling about Tumblr.
I always found drawing as a great stress reliever. Whenever I’d post a drawing and it will receive up 50 likes at the most, it would always put the biggest smile on my face. My art style improved by a mile, yet it still feels like I’m falling behind my mutual peers.
I learned the hard way while using Tumblr that if you’re not considered ‘popular’ from the get-go, you’re much out of luck. Art takes time, years even, and I’ve been drawing for 15 of em so I would know that sometimes you gotta work with what you got—even if it’s not a lot.
I’ve known some people who’s gotten famous within a day or two, I always found it impressive as heck and wondered if it was possible for me. However, lately I’ve been questioning myself about a few things:
“Is my art style the problem?”
“Should I start posting more on this blog?”
“Are my friends and fans, losing interest?”
“Have I’ve been gone too long?”
“Should I just quit?”
“Should I bring Micro back?”
“Am I too underrated for this fandom?”
And these questions stuck with me for a few months, I’ve noticed things haven’t been the most exciting on my blog since I stopped drawing Microtale content, which to be honest was the only reason I got noticed in the first place. The truth was I slowly lost interest in Microtale after getting spammed over and over and over again while wanting to take a break from drawing him.
Sadly, there’s still one person in my asks that just can’t accept that i’ve moved on from Micro. Now don’t get me wrong, I will always appreciate how far Micro has gotten me these past 3 years and I won’t forget him. I still have plans for Microtale’s third year anniversary, but anything revolving the AU I just won’t be working on anymore
Where it all began.
When I first created Micro, I didn’t think I was gonna get very far, in my eyes he was just your typical lazy run of the mill ‘Sans OC’. I made the blog for fun at first because I figured “Hey, at least if this doesn’t blow up, I can have my underrated artist use him for their stories as long as they credited!”
Little did I know, that was only the beginning. I got noticed by a popular artist at the time, and I was overjoyed to find out that someone far superior than me in drawing liked my silly old drawing. It made me realize that not all popular artist are drama baiting, narcissistic human beings. It opened my eyes more meeting even more humble artists.
The more I made, the more my audience grew. When I reached 1000 followers last year, it was the best day of my life. I finally reached my goal and everything was good. After I stopped drawing him I got spammed constantly by an unknown person (forgot their name) asking if their character can meet Micro or if Micro could come back sooner than later.
Anyone who’s known me long enough knows I hate being spammed, it’s not gonna get your point across, point blank period. It’s my blog and I’m allowed to draw whoever I want, it’s not up to you to decide what content I make unless I decide we vote by poll. But after deleting the spamming one day, eventually things cooled down so I moved on too.
You’re allowed to like my AU’s, just please don’t shove your obnoxious opinions down my throat. I already have a lot going on and I don’t need anyone adding more pressure to the plate.
But let’s take a quick moment to appreciate underrated artists, they are the future of the art community and don’t get enough appreciation for their work. I myself am still somewhat underrated, and I’m okay with that now. You win some you lose some, but you have to draw another day.
Thank you for coming to my TED talk, have a good day/night.
-Crayon
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episbep · 5 months ago
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I made everything worse and relapsed. Well I was already deep in a relapse but I got found out. It never stays a secret for long. I’m really ruining everything and risking the love and trust and at times safety of my family. My mum is picking up my slack, again, and I feel such immense guilt I just want them all to leave me alone and stop trying to save me. I know that using would make this situation so much worse and potentially irreparable but it’s all I can genuinely think about. I’m still waiting for the text from the dealer to tell me he’s about. I’m trying to sus out ways that I can get cash out (gave my card to my mum and there’s only one place I know of that I can withdraw cash using contactless on my phone) and I don’t fucking know why. I’m happier sober. I don’t hate myself when I’m sober and I’m not acting in ways that I’m ashamed of. I’m functional and life doesn’t feel “too much” when I’m not using, and yet all I want to do is use?? There is no logic in this addiction. There is just misery and lies, struggles and loneliness… I want to be alone and rot with ket, even though I know there comes a point where it doesn’t even work anymore - I get stuck in a rut of desperation, sniffing lines hoping that something will change that- best case scenario is that I k hole and become incapable of thinking for a little while (but come back down to earth with a slam), worst case scenario is that I do something stupid while I’m out, or that it doesn’t really touch the sides at all and I’ve wasted more drugs. I fucking went to rehab idk how I haven’t learned that I just. can’t. use. it’s fucking haarrrdddd. I’m doing everything on my recovery plan but still using around my recovery activities. Like the rehab counsellor said when I asked if that was a possibility (lol) “pure insanity”. Idk where to go to start again. I can’t afford rehab again. I can’t afford to sink back into a life of addiction. I reached a point on Saturday where I was insistent that I was going to self-delete, and I couldn’t even do that. All the time that there is hope, I can’t put that on the people that I love. I can’t give up on the beauty of life because when it is good it really is quite wonderful, and it doesn’t have to be as bad as I’m making it. So why can’t I just fucking quit?
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oneuldoh · 2 years ago
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06월 06일 2023년
Life Log — Entry # 03
I almost made a new account here on Tumblr. I deleted it after 5 minutes of signing up. I (again) wanted to make a separate account for personal stuff. I tried doing it four months ago and when I did, I stopped posting all together; thinking no one’s going to read it anyway. But that was the point though? I ended up deleting it and moving back to this account.
I just couldn’t delete this account mainly because I have followers here even though I haven’t interacted with most of them. Anyways! I decided to make a side blog instead so I could still access my main account. I made this private too so I could post at ease without having to worry about getting judged. Guess I’ll never be comfortable spilling my thoughts out in the open.
This week, dad and I are alone at home. Mom went to Japan and will be staying there for a week. Jan is at Boracay with Pau, babysitting. I’m doing my best to do house chores while getting my stuff organized.
These days I am trying to be productive by:
Cleaning up my socials. I set up my Letterboxd account! I also made a new YouTube channel because I felt like separating my fangirling account will make my life seem like it’s organized. I also cleaned up my Twitter accounts.
Applying to jobs. I’ve been applying to jobs since last year but I didn’t took it way too seriously. Now that I’m desperate for money, I’m taking it seriously by answering calls and attending those damned interviews. I really suck at interviews. I stutter a lot and I couldn’t make a cohesive sentence. Maybe it’s one of the reasons why I couldn’t get a job offer. Oh, I have a scheduled interview this Thursday at Makati near my old office. It’s an 8am-5pm job and I’m not sure if I’m ready to commute. I hope there’s a job opportunity where I could work from home.
Listening to kpop boy group discographies! These days I’m into EXO, BTOB, and Seventeen! I’m kinda giddy that I’m discovering these groups like I’m in my teens again. I can’t believe I only liked one boy group since 2007 and that’s Bigbang. There’s news that TOP is no longer with YG and Bigbang. GD’s contract ended, too. Well, Still Life felt like it was a really good bye but I was hoping it was a See You Again type of song. Anyway! I’m listening to all of these boy groups’ albums from their first album release up to present. I want to sincerely enjoy their music. I have been following EXO since 2020 but I haven’t had the chance to discover their old songs so I couldn’t say that I’m a solid fan yet. As for BTOB, I’ve known them because of Sung-Jae BUT it’s just this year that I wanted to dive into their fandom because of Chang-Sub. I would say he’s my bias. I discovered him thru his Youtube segment Jeongwaja in ootb studio’s YouTube channel (I’ve watched all of his videos! This week, he’ll go back to the military as a promise for reaching 500k subscribers haha!) As for Seventeen, I’ve been seeing this member on Twitter and he’s just handsome af haha! His name’s Wonwoo! Although I hate getting into boy groups with more than 10 members (my memory is frail plus I can’t remember who’s singing), this group may be an exception. Their albums and songs are all a bop (although most of it were kinda sound the same). I really liked it!
Here’s a song I recently discovered that I like:
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Chanyeol launched his personal YouTube channel! He talked about the meaning behind his channel name and how he got it (thanks to Zzar!). Zzar stole the show here. She knows she’s the boss haha! Hoping to get to know more of Chanyeol through his YouTube! He’s my bias (just look at that face!!!!) and seeing him with Zzar made me fall in love with him more.
I know this is a distraction from SM Ent because of the ongoing lawsuit. I hope all members of EXO leave that shitty company and just make their own company. I’ll support them no matter what happens!
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Photo credit of Chanyeol’s drawing
Anyway! I typed a lot which is new. Maybe because no one’s going to read about this? And I didn’t care about whether my sentences made sense or not. I just wanted to post something.
It’s currently 11:30pm and I wake up at 6am to drink meds. Oh, I finally finished all those big pills for treating TB today. I was taking 1200mg of meds in the past two months. I can finally say good bye to those big pills. Tomorrow onwards, I’ll be taking the small pills. Hopefully, my month 2 sputum result is negative. Lately I’ve been coughing again.
Anyways. Bye for now!
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wellthatwasaletdown · 2 years ago
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The Taylor/Harry UA has more likes,mentions and impressions then the Hoivia account. And they were barely seen out together. Imagine if Taylor was attention hungry like girl boss. Wait until the PDA drops and see the reactions harries will give. That’s when they’ll turn on her ///
Some Harries are only being nice now cause they can still think of them as friends and the realization of them being an actual relationship has not sunk in yet. That’s why the tides haven’t shifted they will get sick of her sooner or later. They don’t have enough content to truly get annoyed yet (even though some are) but the point still stands. The hate hasn’t even reached the highest level yet. Just wait for that PDA it’s gonna be hell. I know Taylor doesn’t handle hate very well. So I’m expecting the instagram comments to be turned off and she might even delete her instagram again.
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cosmal · 2 years ago
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𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥 — 𝐄𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐌𝐮𝐧𝐬𝐨𝐧
note — this is for @sparklingsin spookinktober!! it was queued to be posted on halloween but tumblr deleted it!! so I had to rewrite it :((( so I'm sorry that this is so late and so terrible!! I tried my best to rewrite it like it was fr. i do genuinely hate this now, i’m sorry.
summary — eddie comes back after a week and sees you in your angel costume. he has to fuck you right then and there.
warnings/tags — fem!afab!reader, she/her pronouns, smut, mdni, piv, fingering, needy!reader
wc — 1.8k
“Steve, have you seen Eddie yet?” You stand on your tiptoes to get closer to his face, leaning over the breakfast bar that separates the two of you. 
Steve probably yells too eagerly. The music is loud, but you’re not exactly far away, “Y/N like I said fifteen minutes ago, he’ll be here at 9 o’clock.” 
“What’s the time?” You laugh. Winding Steve up is always fun. 
Steve sighs like he’s annoyed. You know he’s really not, “8:45.” 
“Awesome. I’m gonna go sit on the couch until he gets here.” You tell him before spinning on your heels. The feathers of your angel wings tickle his face as you turn and Steve wrinkles his nose. 
“I’m sure you will, Y/N!” he calls before you turn the corner. 
And you do exactly that. You’ve waited for Eddie to get back all week, what’s fifteen more minutes? By the time Eddie arrives, the wiry angel wings on your back have grown a little itchy. You’d take them off if you weren’t excited to show Eddie your costume. 
Picking at a loose thread on your frilly, white skirt, you don’t even notice the pair of knees in ripped, black denim, hovering over your own. Eddie leans forward to nudge your leg with his and you startle. 
“Hey, sweetheart.” Eddie does that signature smile of his, it almost fries your brain and you forget to react. 
“Oh my god, Eds!” It’s a blur of feathers when you leap from the small couch. Pushing your arms over his shoulders and leaning your whole weight into him. He almost topples when he wraps his own arms around your back. “Eddie,” 
Eddie’s mouth finds its home in the juncture of your neck like it always does, breathing in your lost scene and pressing his lips to your skin. “Y/N.”
He pulls away, but not before you give him one last squeeze, holding you out at arm's length. “God, baby. You look so fucking hot,” he groans. 
You turn your hips until your skirt swishes, “You think?” 
Eddie reaches around to fiddle with one of the feathers, smoothing it out between his thumb and pointer. “Shit, yeah.”
“Where’s your costume?” you ask, poking him in the chest until he rocks on the balls of his feet. Heavy boots thump along with the bass of the music. 
“I’m in it,” he laughs. 
“Yeah?” 
Eddie swishes like you did but the only thing that moves is his leather jacket that stiffly flaps around his waist, “Yeah. Your boyfriend.”
You roll your eyes like you’re actually not amused by his answer, “You wear that every day.” 
“Well, you haven’t seen me in it for an entire week.” He leans in to peck your cheek. Twice for good measure. You grasp his jacket in firm hands and hold him close.
You hum, “Yeah. Missed you.” 
Eddie leans in again to snake his arms around to give your ass a squeeze, bunching your skirt in his hands. You’ve forgotten where you are for a moment when he says, “Wanna show me how much you missed me?” 
Pretending to act like you don’t want Eddie more than anything at this moment would be harder than telling him exactly what you want — so you don’t. You run a hand down his chest, over the cotton of his shirt, feeling the bumps and divots tentatively until your reach his waist. Hooking a finger around a belt loop to tug him closer. 
“I think I do.” you smile. 
Eddie groans, “Shit,” 
You can’t even pretend to be surprised at how quickly it takes Eddie to drag you to the nearest bathroom. His insatiable need has you giggling the entire way there. Pushing through strangers and ignoring the pointed look Robin shoots you from the bottom of the stairs.
Once you’re inside, Eddie fumbles with the lock on the door while you tug at his free arm, “C’mon, Eds,” you whine.
Eddie cheers when he gets the door to lock, turning to lift you up and onto the basin. The ceramics are cold where it touches the bare skin on your legs and you gasp. Eddie is quick to catch any noise with his mouth when he leans in to kiss you.
“Fuck,” kiss, “angel,” kiss, “you look so hot.”
Your laughter peels from within you and you’re huffing into his mouth, “I thought I was the one who was supposed to be showing you how much I missed you.”
He pulls away to lift your skirt up so it pools around your waist, tugging your panties down until they stretch over your knees, “Just sit there looking all pretty, that’s enough for me, baby.”
Eddie lets you do as you please, placing a firm grip to stable yourself on his shoulders when he traces the tip of his finger up your slit. Grazing down to your entrance to gather the slick that’s already begun to pool on the counter.
“So messy,” he coos, exploring with his finger to push through your pudgy folds, “Missed this pussy, angel.” 
You lean forward to press the top of your head into his shoulder, wrapping a hand around his bicep. When he finally slips a finger inside you, you let out the tiniest gasp and your hand tightens in its grip until the leather of his jacket squeaks. 
You angle your head up to leave a line of lazy kisses along his neck. Your hot breath and tiny gasps are a whisper against Eddie’s skin. He pushes a second finger in, now middle and marriage, and you hiccup against his skin. Eddie pushes in further, determined to get you to make more pretty noises that get him all worked up. 
“Eds,” you pant uselessly. More tiny gasps. 
“Y/N,” he almost mocks, exploring deeper inside your weeping hole. Slick traces down his palm and threatens to dirty his sleeve. If Eddie has ever cared about that, he’s never shown it. 
You rock your hips against the bench to try and get closer to his hand, his palm pushing into your clit. The stickiness of his thumb and pinky thudding against your skin echo in the tiny bathroom. 
Eddie can sense your neediness, “Slow down, baby.” 
You grip the hair around the base of his neck which only causes him to groan out. “Need,” you pant. 
“What d‘you need, hmm?” Eddie asks, pulling back to check you over. Using his free hand to brush the hair from your eyes. You blink at him slowly. 
“Fuck me, Eddie. Please.” Your eyes are terribly pleading and Eddie stills, deep-seated inside you. “Missed you- need you, Eds.” 
Eddie can see you working yourself up and kisses you on the highest part of your cheek. Pulling his hand from you he says, “Yeah? Need my cock?” 
“Please.” 
“You’re so, very polite,” he coos.
There’s a metal zzz of his zipper unravelling and the shushing of his jeans being pushed down just below his ass, before he’s tugging at his cock with familiarity. A familiarity that has your stomach aching. 
Eddie wraps his wet hand around the fat of your thigh to tug you closer to the edge of the basin and you yelp, bracing yourself on his chest. 
Once you’re close enough, the ruddy tip of his cock presses into your clit and you jolt, head lulling into the juncture of his neck. Eddie wraps his arms around your back and holds you close, dotting kisses over your clavicle. His teeth scrape and nip playfully until goosebumps raise your skin. 
“Ready?” he asks as he runs his cock down your slit to line up with your entrance. 
“Uh-“ you stutter, wrapping your legs around his waist, hooking your ankles together, “Uh-huh.” 
Eddie sinks in and you have to squeeze your eyes shut. “That’s it,” he groans, breath trembling, “Fuck.”
You squeeze him closer like it’s possible and gasp when the air is forced from your lungs at the proximity. Your hands tremble around stiff leather and your hips ache when he rocks in to the hilt. Filling you completely. 
“Ah — Eddie,” you gasp, harder when he’s rocking in stronger. 
Eddie starts to move, slow and tentatively, rolling his hips into your wet heat. Spreading your legs further apart and your underwear slips down onto the floor.
“Please,” you plead, “harder.” You dig your knees into his side. 
Eddie grips your thigh to hold it up and closer to him and when he feels as if he’s not hitting the right angle, he hooks his arms under both of your legs to lift you from the counter. 
Gasping, you sink down onto him, keeping your arms and ankles hooked around his body. 
Eddie moves to grasp at your ass, squeezing fat between his fingers to keep you upright. Lifting you up and you help him settle back down until you find a perfect rhythm. 
“So,” Eddie grunts, hard to be heard over the sounds of skin slapping and your pitched-up moans. You’re also lucky the music outside is loud enough to muffle anything. “so wet, sweetheart.” 
You hum what sounds like an uh-huh, trying your best to meet his movements. Eddie’s grip is tight and it stings. Pain turns to pleasure when he starts to hit the spongy spot deep inside you. 
Eddie’s doing his best to fuck you onto him. Especially when your pelvis burns and your arms ache, going limp against his frame. 
His grunts mix in with your Ah ah ah’s, Eddie has no free hands to smother your noises so he plants his lips to yours, catching any sounds. 
“Eddie,” you say against his lips, hot and wet, “M’gonna…” 
“Cum f’me, baby,” he says, speeding up. 
When he’s repeatedly hitting your sweet spot at the perfect rhythm, the coil in your core snaps, bleeding through your abdomen until you’re clamping around Eddie—tensing up in his hold. 
Weak and panty, Eddie throws you back down to the basin, hips stuttering inside you. 
“Fuck, where can I?” 
“Inside,” you say. No, beg. 
“You sure?” he groans. 
You nod your head, clamping your twitching walls around him and that’s all it takes. Dragging, now slowly through your gummy heat, his own cum sobbing from your hole when he’s finished. 
He’s pulling out, slowly when he watches your face crumple, keeping your legs hooked around his sides. Placing a wet kiss against your damp hairline, he says, “That was amazing- You’re amazing.” 
“I know,” you grin, resting your legs down until your knees click. 
“Mmm,” he kisses you again, “M’never leaving for that long, ever again.” 
“Never,” you agree. 
There’s a beat, that’s not very silent, filled with the party that’s still thrumming. Loud chants and chatter fill the bathroom from the crack under the door. 
“We should really go home,” he says. 
“I think so,” you hum, “I think I heard about ten people knocking on the door.”
“Shit,” Eddie snorts. 
“Shit.”
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illicitlimerence-writes · 3 years ago
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one chance | c. leclerc
pairing: charles leclerc x reader word count: 2.4k words requested: yes, by an anon: “magic hour!!! hello!!!! so goooooooodd!!🥰🥰 plis make a part 2❤️❤️” & by @purpledianezzzzzz “BESTIE MY HEART 😭 imma need a pt2 after that absolute SWOON of a fic” & by @poison0bee “we NEED a part two where after the next day, we see a time-skip, where we meet him again n have a cute happy ending. 🥺🥺” warnings: fluff, angst, language maybe?, idk idk a/n: their story isn’t over yet. REPOSTING BC IT WASN'T SHOWING UP IN THE TAGS. also, i’ve been absolutely HATING everything i’m writing rn, which is why i haven’t been posting as much lmao. i literally write a few sentences and then end up deleting everything bc it sucks looooool. i don’t know when part three of this story will be up, so pls be patient. alsooo, this is not the story i was talking about when i said i was writing something with sharl, that one’s taking a bit more time but i don’t want to rush it bc it’s based on one of my favorite movies<3
my masterlist / this is a part two to 'magic hour'
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it had been five months since her trip to cancun.
the main reason she hated going on vacations was exactly this, the sad realization that she had to return to her normal routine after living her best life only for a few days. it was sad.
the hardest part was saying goodbye to charles. three days with him were not enough.
that was also why she was apprehensive to let herself be free and try new things. when she liked something, or someone, she did it with her whole being. she wasn’t one to do things halfway, she committed every cell of her being into it. it was difficult when things ended. 
their last day together was one she’d always remember. he picked her up early, way too early to be awake. but, he wanted to see the sunrise with her, and wanted to spend as much time with her as possible. their time was limited, so they had to make the best of the minutes and hours they still had left. they went down to the beach, watching the sun making its way up, through the calm waves of the clear water in front of them. she was sitting in front of him, his legs on either side of her, her back against his chest, his arms around her protectively. he’d noticed small goosebumps on her skin, so he leaned in closer, giving her the warmth she needed. his heart skipped a beat at the soft sigh she let out as she snuggled her cheek against his arm. 
next, they walked to a restaurant near the hotel. at some point during their walk, charles grabbed her hand, lacing their fingers together, all while keeping his eyes ahead. his clammy hands gave away his nervousness, though. she chuckled to herself, holding on a little tighter, letting him know she wanted this, she was okay with it. 
the rest of the day was spent sharing knowing glances and soft touches. as they ate, his arm was around her chair, the pads of his fingers against her back, her shoulder. as they walked through crowds of tourists, one of his hands would be holding her own, whilst the other one was on her waist. at night, as they watched a firework show, she slid her arms around his waist. the air wasn’t chilly, but it was enough for the thin dress she was wearing. he took that as his sign to envelop her in his arms, placing a kiss to the top of her head as they watched the bright, colorful dots light up the sky.
just as they had all day, they walked back to the hotel hand in hand. their faces were flushed and hair was a mess from having been up since before dawn, but they were inside an invisible bubble where only the two of them existed, and they didn’t care about anything or anyone else. as they entered they reached her floor, he walked out of the elevator first, but she suddenly stopped in her tracks. there had been an ache inside her chest when she first woke up, that had vanished throughout the day. but now that the end was near, so close she could almost touch it, it became impossible to ignore. 
“what’s wrong?” he asked, standing in front of her, he lifted a hand, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
“i don’t… i don’t want to say goodbye just yet.” she whispered. her eyes were slightly glossy as she stared up at him. “i want more time,” she begged.
“it’s okay,” he whispered, his hands holding her face gently. “i wish we could have more time as well.” 
“distance sucks,” she tried to smile, but the tears in her eyes revealed her true feelings. 
“i’m right here, i am still here,” he told her. “i’m not going anywhere,”
“promise?” she asked, “just for tonight… will you stay with me?”
“of course. i’ll stay until you get sick of me, until you’re begging for me to leave you alone for at least five minutes,” he pressed his lips against her temple, hearing her sigh.
“i don’t want to say goodbye,” she repeated, a part of her wanted to be mad at herself for allowing herself to get close to him, to be foolish enough to open her heart to someone she could not have.
“then don’t,” he whispered against her ear. “let’s not say goodbye tonight.”
he took her to his room. thanks to a friend that had bailed at the last minute, charles had a room all to his own. he led her to the bed, sat her down on the bed, that was still messy from when he slept in it the night before, since he’d hung the ‘do not disturb’ sign on the doorknob. he handed her one of his shirts and a pair of shorts so she could change. she walked to the bathroom, shaking her head at her reflection. the adventures of the day were clearly visible on her messy hair, her skin affected by the sun. she splashed some water on her face, drying it with a towel she found by the sink, and got her hair out of the way. she wanted to hurry up, didn’t want to waste the little time she had left with charles.
as she stepped out, charles was ready for bed, too. he heard the click of the door as she closed it behind her, he raised his head, a smile making its way onto his face instantly.
“hey,” he whispered, letting out a deep breath.
“hi,” she said, taking a step towards him. he did as well, meeting halfway. “i have to be up early,” she reminded him.
“i’m a light sleeper,” he told her, “i’ll set an alarm,” he placed a hand on her waist.
“okay,” she nodded, one of her arms went to his neck, playing with his hair, “i don’t want to say goodbye,”
“then don’t. come with me, back home,” he said, leaning his head closer to her. she smiled.
“i can’t. we both know i can’t. and i can’t be upset, because you’re not mine. not mine to have or to lose. but i don’t want to say goodbye.”
“it doesn’t have to be a goodbye,” he tilted his head, pressing his lips against her cheek, “it can be a see you later. we can make plans to see each other, somewhere, sometime.”
“i’d like that,” she gave him a small smile.
charles’ lips went up from her cheek to her temple, he wrapped his arms around her, like he’d done all day, but this time felt different. they didn’t have a whole day anymore, they had hours left together. 
“thank you for these past few days,” she mumbled against his neck.
“i would like to give you many more days like this, if you let me,”
“i would love that,” the corners of her lips tilted upwards, but her eyebrows settled in a frown. 
“it’s a plan, then,”
“okay,” she nodded, leaning her head back. she looked into his green eyes, stared at his face, the flushed cheeks and red nose, she wanted to memorize every part of his face. she didn’t know when or if she would see him again, so she wanted to remember him like that, soft and gentle and caring, loving and attentive and perfect.
she snapped out of her daydream, the voice announcing that the plane was landing in nice, france was loud enough to catch her attention, although, thinking back to the happiest days of her life was not an unusual occurrence, it’d become part of her daily routine by that point. it was pathetic, she knew that, but she hadn’t felt happiness like the one she felt back in that piece of heaven on earth.
she looked to her right, where her friend, helen, was sitting. it had been helen’s idea to go to france. and as much as she wanted to stay home, helen wasn’t taking a ‘no’ for an answer. it was stupid to say that after catching feelings for a stranger back in cancun, she became afraid of traveling. she didn’t want to admit it, but that was the truth. but after much debate, she caved in, and there she was, landing on france. she knew she was close to charles, which made the whole trip ten times worse. 
“we’re going to have so much fun this weekend,” helen said, nudging her shoulder, (y/n) gave her a small smile. they made the way down the airplane, walking inside the airport to collect their bags. after they secured their luggage, they walked to a car rental service. the airport was crowded, there were people all over the place, so she stayed close to the desk as they waited for the keys. 
she grabbed her phone, sending a quick text to her family, saying she was okay. a small voice in her head told her to text charles, tell him that they were just a couple hours away from each other, but she was interrupted by her friend.
“let’s go!” she smiled, and together they walked out of the airport, finding the car that would be theirs for the weekend. once they settled in, she sat on the driver’s seat, with helen by her side. she wasn’t the biggest fan of planes, so driving made her feel a little bit better, more grounded. they put on music, a fun playlist to get their moods up for all the adventures they’re going to have that weekend. “okay, i know i said we were going to have a fun, chill weekend here,” helen starts, (y/n) nods, “but… i just- i know how much you’ve missed charles,” it takes everything in (y/n) not to slam her foot on the brake, she eyes helen, who has a guilty look on her face, “we’re going to see him.”
“you’re kidding,” she says.
“no. listen, i have it all figured out,” helen starts, grabbing her phone to read her plan, “we’re going to drive there, we’re staying with rob,” she could practically hear the smile on helen’s face as she mentioned charles’ friend, the one she’d met back in cancun, the one who introduced her to charles. she didn’t know whether to hate him or thank him. “and we’re going with him to the grand prix,”
“the what? where?”
“in monaco. it’s charles’ home race,”
“fuck,” she whispered, looking at helen, “i don’t know if i can-”
“yes, you can. listen, i’ve seen you moping around for this guy more than i ever have. i know you try to bury those feelings down deep, but it’s not okay. so we’re going there, you’re going to see him again, and you’re not going to let him go.”
“but what if- what if he’s already found someone else?” she asks, thinking out loud.
“he hasn’t. i promise you, he hasn’t. and if he has, i’m sure he’ll drop whoever it is just to be with you.”
truth is, despite the fact that her and charles had exchanged numbers and other ways to communicate despite the distance, she hadn’t made much effort to get in touch with him. she thought it was dumb, because there was no point in getting even more attached to someone she simply couldn’t have.
but as she stood in front of a room with his name on it, inside the ferrari motorhome in glamorous monaco, the fear turned into something else.
she knocked twice, but the sound was barely perceptible, so she did it again. she waited, with her heart pounding inside her chest. she waited, and felt a knot in her throat as the door swung open. 
he was standing on the other side of the door, wearing a red polo and jeans. his eyes went wide as he recognized her, a face he hadn’t been able to forget since they said goodbye that morning back in december.
“wh- how…” he mumbled, a deep breath leaving his lungs quickly, his chest heaved as he took one in, “how- you-” he continued. (y/n) parted her lips to speak, but was left with the words inside her throat as charles pulled her in. he closed the door, wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close. “you’re… here…” he said, leaning his head back to look at her. she did the same.
he looked just the same. his hair was a little longer, though. but the spark in his eyes was just the same.
“you- you never called or…”
“i know,” she whispered, swallowing the lump that had been inside her throat since she arrived in the small country of monaco. “i know, i-”
“was it… me? or…”
“no! no, god no. i… it was me, i- i couldn’t… i couldn’t risk it,” she said.
“risk… what?” he asked, lifting his hand to caress her cheek. she’d missed his touch. it had been too long since they’d been away from each other, the time they’d spent together was not enough.
“i’m not…” she paused, “good at this. i don’t- i don’t let people in because i’m afraid they’ll leave. i don’t like getting attached, or get my hopes up only to end up disappointed. i can’t risk another goodbye.”
she said, and charles listened. he knew she was in a delicate position at that moment. there was no doubt that her feelings for him were exactly the same as what he felt for her.
“i told you,” he started, he kept his voice soft and gentle, “we don’t have to say goodbye. not back there in december, not today. not ever. it doesn’t even have to be a ‘see you later’ either.”
she stayed quiet, staring up at him. his eyes reflected the sincerity in his voice, in his words. 
"i have traveled all around the world, seen the most beautiful places you could ever think of. yet nothing, nothing compares to what i felt the moment i saw you. you were reading a book, lying on a lounge chair by the pool, and i just thought you were so… cool. i knew i wanted to get to know you. even before we were introduced in the boat, i was already enthralled by you.” her breath got caught in her chest as charles spoke, “i haven’t stopped thinking about you since we said,” he smiled before continuing, “see you later,” she smiled at that as well, “at the hotel.”
“neither have i. but i-”
“i know. i understand your fears and worries, but all i’m asking is for one chance. give me this weekend, or however long you’re staying here, to show you that i’m all in. i want this, i want you,”
“i want you, too.” she whispered, the words were barely audible, but he heard.
“one chance. give me one chance,”
“okay.”
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@ireallydontknowdudee @spideyanakin
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burnedbyshoto · 4 years ago
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bakugou leaving reader for the unknown, for his dream, because where they were wasn’t good enough, it was a hindrance on his future. it wasn’t so much that he hated his hometown, the people, or even you — he loved you, after all — but he just could never keep himself tied down to the place he was trying to outgrow.
he leaves for university, in the big city, a campus that is known for making the best, creating trailblazers in every field imaginable, and when he leaves at the age of eighteen, he doesn’t come back. all he remembers is the shocked look on your face and the helpless tears streaming down your face when he broke up with you.
it’s been twelve years, and he’s thirty now. he changed his number when he got to the new city, only keeping touch with his parents out of obligation than anything else. it’s short phone calls, three minute conversations of mitsuki scolding him for not calling enough, for never visiting, masaru trying to gently express their concerns for their only son, and of course, bakugou saying he needs to leave.
his parents are strangers to him, practically, and whenever they try to speak of his past life, the one he exchanged away for the current CEO position he’s found himself in, he hangs up. he doesn’t want to hear it, he doesn’t want the bitter pit in his stomach when they even begin to speak your name.
but they haven’t mentioned you in years.
but the thing about katsuki is, unfortunately, his attitude.
thirty years old and a prominent CEO of a company no older than four years old and yet already a billionaire? practically unheard of. sure, people, normal people, praise him for it, but the board? men who used to people like katsuki don’t praise him.
they hate his harsh attitude, his ridiculous will power, and necessity to do everything, and somehow… katsuki gets put on a leave of absence for a minimum of a year.
at first, it’s fine. bakugou spends the newfound free time traveling, seeing the world, doing things he never was able to because he was building his empire. but three months of nothing leads him to grow restless, bored, and the worst feeling in the world crawls into the pit of his stomach and he realizes in month number five what it is.
for the first time in his life, bakugou katsuki is: homesick.
so he goes home, trading the concrete jungle and modern technology for dirt roads and rusting machines. it’s just for a moment, he says as he sees the life he left behind ages ago.
it’s much slower in his hometown, people much more open and conversing with one another instead of cellphones like he’s grown used to. he isn’t quite ready to knock on his mother’s front door so he goes to the general store and walks straight to where he just knows his past time favorite snacks are.
to his total surprise (notice the sarcasm?) it’s right where he remembered it was through the cobwebs of his memory. there’s one bag of spicy corn chips left and as he reached for it, another hand goes for it too.
he freezes for a bit, eyebrows furrowing as he looks at the person who’s hand is connected to the bag of chips he wants.
but he stops breathing for just a moment.
it’s a young girl, most definitely no older than twelve, with your face. it’s exactly the same. but unlike you, the girl had ash blonde hair and deep red eyes.
the girl blinks eyes looking taken back and slightly lost, as does bakugou, and then as if finally caught up on the situation of things, she scowls.
“hands off the chips, old man! I got here first!”
the magic is gone and bakugou feels his eye twitch as he reels backward.
“what the hell did you just say to—?!”
“I said hands off! arent you too old to be eating chips anyways?! you’re practically a million years old, eat the lame corn nuts or something,” she scoffs rolling her eyes as she tucks the bag of chips under her arm.
“aren’t you some shitty little brat!” bakugou hisses, his hand twitching with irritation. “don’t you know to respect your fucking elders.”
“ain’t nothing to respect from what I can tell!”
“aiko, hurry up,” a voice bemoans from behind the aisle and bakugou feels his chest constrict in the weirdest, most heart aching way as you walk around the corner with an armful of party supplies. “we have to get to your grand—”
bakugou stares at you, and you at him. the tension and silence so thick and heavy on the both of your shoulders and tongues.
in the twelve years he’s been away, bakugou has had other relationships. most of them due mostly to friends insistence, and others mostly just because he wanted a warm body nearby. but no one could ever match what you meant to him, not that he could have realized that because he could never think back to you. you were his past, not his present, not his future.
and bakugou was suddenly feeling a lot of things, thinking a lot of things as he looked between you and well… aiko.
“y/n,” bakugou’s voice is hollow, almost unbelievable. “i-is she — are we—?”
“this is my daughter, y/l/n aiko,” you say, steely calm and dangerous. the warm smile you were wearing moments ago clean off your face and your eyes were like glass — shiny, unemotional. “she was born after you left, so you never got a chance to meet her, did you?”
“y/n—“
“y/l/n!” you snap, face still void of emotions. “you don’t have that right anymore.”
bakugou stiffens for a moment, but he knows that you’re right. “y/l/n,” he tries again, your last name a word he’s never had to use in his entire life to address you. “how old is she?”
“mama,” aiko whispers, eyes glaring at bakugou as she stand protectively in front of you, fingers digging into your blouse. “I wanna go now.”
your eyes drop from bakugou, and he watches as a strained but kind smile is expressed to aiko as you press a kiss to her forehead. “okay, go pay for these things for me, will ya? tell tayo-sama we’ll pay him back tomorrow. i’m going to finish this conversation with… with my old classmate.”
aiko looks between you and bakugou, eyebrows furrowed with unsaid questions but she nods, grabbing the things from your arms and going to the cash register. bakugou keeps his gaze on the young girl until your fingers dig into his bicep and your pulling him into a corner that he had definitely made out with you in ages, lifetimes ago.
“what are you doing here?!” you hiss in a near terrible whisper, face frazzled and overwhelmed. “you’ve never been back home! what’s different?!”
“is she mine?!”
“no!” you shriek, fist hitting his chest. “she’s not yours! she’s mine! she’s not some claimable object you get to collect years later!”
bakugou stiffens but also feels like he melts with guilt under those words… youre right. he has no claim to her. all he did was give her life but it was a life where he was probably nothing more than an empty space in. but he looks at you, millions of emotions swimming through your watery eyes, and the snarl on your lips as you stand before him as if you could do anything.
“i’m… i’m sorry, you’re right,” bakugou says, lips pressing into a thin line.
“you shouldn’t have come back,” you laugh miserably, fingers massaging your temples. your tone is weak, defeated, as if for the first time in your life you felt the bottom of the pit. “why did you come back home?”
“mama!!!! let’s go already!!!” aiko whines by the entrance and you tremble in front of him before shaking your head.
“coming!” you call back to her.
bakugou steals another look at what is his daughter. a girl he never knew existed.
“do me a favor, bakugou,” you say passing him with small but domineering steps. “don’t do anything to make her suspect youre her father.”
it took a few hours, probably more, maybe less, but bakugou finally finds himself at his childhood home. he’s heart feeling like it was being swallowed as the front door opened and he saw his older mother and father standing at the entrance. bakugou couldn’t understand what they were saying as they welcomed him in, he could only notice how their home looked exactly the same… well except that the walls that were decorated with photos of him and only him were also covered with pictures of aiko.
“did you know?” bakugou asks before he can even say hello.
mitsuki stopped mid rant, her face moving from irritated mother to exasperated but pitiful silence.
“since she found out.”
“why didn’t you… why didn’t I know?”
“she tried telling you, called you multiple times only to be blocked,” masaru gently explains. “you always shut us down when we so much as mentioned her.”
“she even flew out there at one point but caught you making out with some dumb model too.” mitsuki inserts with a huff. “we tried, brat. you just…”
bakugou is silent, his heartbeat roaring in his ears at the thought of his initial monstrous attempt of deleting his past life. mitsuki sighs, sad and sullen.
“there was no point in telling you when you won’t listen.”
or the story of a one sided bitter ex as bakugou and reader are challenged at creating some semblance of a relationship because aiko pieces it together the moment they looked at each other. including a lot of angst, a six month time limit to rekindle a once in a lifetime love story because choosing between family and work is damn hard.
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fruitydiaz-archived · 4 years ago
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from the prompt - "i think you look beautiful" for @lesbiandiaz
let's not talk about how long ago you sent me this <3
Buck asked for this. Not consciously, but he did ask for this. He has no one to blame but himself, really.
He’s sitting cross-legged in Hen and Karen’s backyard, nose itching with spring allergies, with Nia, innocently oblivious, spreading sparkly eyeshadow and lipgloss all over his face in the name of beauty.
(He had walked outside and found her chasing Harry around with a lip gloss wand, demanding that someone let her make them beautiful. And Buck, well, he couldn’t resist that face, could he?)
Meanwhile, Denny, Harry, and Chris, all significantly less innocently oblivious, are weaving leaves and twigs into his curls.
May, who was supposed to be watching over them, is no help from where she’s sitting stretched out on one of the lawn chairs, fingers tapping away at her screen, looking up occasionally, snorting, and shouting out words of encouragement to the kids.
“We’re making Buck pretty!” Nia giggles and all three boys nod their heads in agreement.
“And I so appreciate this generous makeover from you, Nia,” Buck says as she takes a brush and swipes some blush down the side of his face. He’s watched enough random makeup tutorials on YouTube to know that that is not his color, but he’s not going to tell her that. “Because you are a true artist. The rest of you I’m not so sure about.”
He reaches a hand behind him and digs his fingers into Harry’s side, tickling him.
“Hey,” Harry shouts, batting his hand away and jumping back a foot. “We’re just trying to help.”
“Yeah, Buck, we’re just helping Nia out,” Denny adds on, shooting a grin at Harry.
“We’re professional hairdressers, Buck,” Christopher says, trying to keep his voice level and serious, but he can’t really keep back his laughter.
“Oh are you, really? Remind me—when did you three go to cosmetology school again?”
“I don’t know what that is,” Harry says, dropping a handful of leaves over Buck’s head. Nia chastises him as some of the leaves drop over the front of his face, and he at least has the conscience to look a little guilty about it.
“I help my dad with his haircuts sometimes,” Christopher points out. Buck smiles.
“Well someone has to. Your dad’s too cheap to get them done professionally.”
“One time he used the clippers by himself and ended up with a bald spot on the back of his head. Abuela said he wasn’t allowed to do his hair unsupervised after that.”
Buck snickers, glancing over his shoulder at Christopher.
“I bet he looked real funny like that. You take any pictures?” Christopher’s eyes light up and he nods, dropping his voice down to a whisper.
“Yeah! But they’re on Pepa’s phone. I can ask her to share them with you.”
“That’s my boy,” Buck whispers back, holding his hand out for a fist bump.
“Oh, that can’t be good,” Eddie’s voice cuts through the yard. All five heads snap up and look in his direction before Christopher utters a tiny uh oh and all the kids scramble to different parts of the yard, Denny pulling Nia along by her hand.
Buck twists around, staring at the space around him.
“What, you're all just gonna leave me here like this? Traitors,” He shouts after them. He reaches a hand up and attempts to shake out some of the leaves, wincing as his hair gets caught on several twigs.
“Kids,” Eddie starts, crossing the grass towards Buck. “Can’t trust ‘em.”
Buck grins sheepishly at him. “You’re telling me. This bunch is sneaky, too. They pull you in with their cute charm and then you can’t get free.”
Eddie reaches a hand out towards him and Buck eyes it appreciatively before grasping it and hauling himself up.
“Yeah, kids are like that,” Eddie says, a little distracted, his eyes dancing around Buck’s face and hair. He presses his lips together, valiantly holding in his laughter, and starts helping dismantle the bird’s nest the boys made of Buck’s head.
“Thanks,” Buck says quietly, eyes dropping to the ground and watching as sticks and leaves fall down onto the grass. “They really did a number on me, huh?”
Eddie laughs, brushing some debris off Buck’s shoulder. “You haven’t seen your face yet.”
Buck’s eyes shoot up to meet his and Eddie freezes before stepping back and grinning. He pulls his phone out from his back pocket and tells Buck to smile, which earns him a scowl, and snaps a picture, turning the phone around for Buck to see.
“Please delete that immediately.”
“No,” Eddie pulls his phone away before Buck can grab it, sliding it back into his pocket. “I don’t think I will.”
“Well—just so you know, your son just promised to share some pictures of that time you shaved a bald spot into the back of your head, so.”
“Hey man, I’m just helping you out.”
“Funny, that’s what the kids said when they were turning me into some kind of forest monster.”
“And what kind of father would I be if I deleted the proof of all of their hard work?”
“I hate you,” Buck frowns—which just makes Eddie want to laugh harder. He bites his lip.
“Okay, okay. I think I have some wet wipes on me.” Buck watches as Eddie slips his hands into his jacket pockets, pats his chest pocket, pats along his legs, then finally pulls a packet of wet wipes out of the back pocket of his jeans.
“You carry wet wipes with you everywhere you go or did you just set me up for this?” Eddie gives him a look.
“We’re at a kid's party, Buck. And I have a kid. These are a staple for all parents everywhere.” Eddie pulls a wipe out and studies Buck’s face, not even really sure where to begin. The longer he stares, the more pitifully Buck stares back at him. Eddie blinks and decides to start with the eyes.
He steps closer to Buck, holding his jaw lightly with his fingers and whispering for him to close his eyes. There’s a moment of prolonged eye contact before Buck finally obliges, and Eddie starts gently sweeping the wipe over his eyelid.
“Plus,” He adds quietly. “I’ve got a best friend who somehow always manages to find himself caught up in all kinds of messes.”
“Aw, you carry those around just for me, Eds?”
There’s a pause, just for a moment, and Eddie swears he can hear his heart beating. He swallows.
“Just for you.”
Neither of them says anything for a minute and Eddie concentrates on making sure Buck’s eyes are clear of all glitter and makeup. He startles a little when Buck chuckles and Eddie feels the warmth of his breath.
He braces himself for whatever Buck’s about to say and then—
“Did you not like my makeover?” Buck and Eddie glance down, surprised to see Nia staring back up at them, standing to the left of Eddie.
“Uh,” Eddie says helpfully.
When did all four kids surround them? Eddie looks back up at Buck expectantly. Buck blinks back at him.
“I did,” He licks his lips. “But we’ve got to get ready for dinner now. So Eddie was just helping me clean up. My...face.”
“Did you tell him he looked beautiful?” Nia asks, this time staring right at Eddie, who blinks back at her.
“...I’m sorry?”
“When I used to do Mama Hen’s makeup she wasn’t allowed to take it off until Mama Karen told her she looked beautiful.”
Eddie stares at her, hand still hovering in the air by Buck’s face. Christopher tugs at his shirt from his other side.
“I think she wants you to tell Buck he looks beautiful, dad.”
Eddie turns slowly to look at him. “Thank you, Christopher.”
Christopher has the nerve to laugh at him.
Eddie straightens up and looks at Buck who stares back at him blankly, offering no assistance. He notices May setting her phone down out of the corner of his eye, a sly smile spreading on her face.
He definitely stepped into some sort of trap, walking outside. He’s sure of it.
“Um,” He says, dropping his hand to his side. Buck ducks his head a little, fluttering his eyelashes at Eddie. Eddie’s gonna kill him.
“You got something you want to say to me, Diaz?” Eddie shakes his head, letting himself laugh at the absurdity of the situation, Buck still with makeup smeared over half of his face, a bunch of kids surrounding them, watching them expectantly.
“Yeah, Buck. I think you look beautiful.”
The kids all burst into cheers and Eddie watches in amazement as Buck’s cheeks turn a shade of pink he’s pretty sure he’s never seen before.
May stands up from her chair.
“Alright let’s all get inside to wash up before dinner, okay?” She ignores everyone’s protests and ushers them back towards the house, sending a wink in Eddie’s direction before shutting the patio door.
Eddie lets his eyes linger on the door, daring anyone else to come out and catch them in another trap.
No one comes.
He turns back to Buck and they both just stare at each other before laughing softly. Eddie looks down at the wipes in his hand, almost forgotten. He steps back towards Buck and starts removing what’s left of the makeup.
“So...beautiful, huh?” Buck says eventually. Eddie focuses on the movement of the wipe against Buck’s face.
“Well, maybe not like this,” He says honestly. Buck huffs out a laugh.
“That’s good. I was worried I was gonna have to get done up like this all the time just for you to notice me.”
Eddie swallows, wiping the last stray swipe of glitter gloss from Buck’s face. He lets his fingers linger against his skin.
“I always notice you, Buck.”
Buck doesn’t say anything for a moment, just watches Eddie ball up the used wipes in his hand before slipping the pack back into his pocket.
“Really?” He says eventually, looking back up and holding Eddie’s gaze. Eddie hesitates.
He wants to play it off—say something about how of course everyone notices Buck, he demands attention all the time. He’s loud and bold and sometimes obnoxious—but Eddie knows that not everyone notices Buck the way he does.
It’s different. It’s not something that he can’t help—it's natural, instinctual. He’s drawn to Buck at all times, always. He doesn’t think there’s a way he could ever stop noticing Buck. He’s in everything Eddie does.
He notices Buck in the new alarm clock that sits on his nightstand—the one that’s supposed to wake him up gradually like the sun—the one Buck had insisted on buying for him because he thinks Eddie’s sleep schedule is shit and this clock’s supposed to be better. He never tells him that it actually does work for him—but he imagines the way the dark circles under his eyes have started to fade probably tell him all he needs to know.
He notices Buck in the oat milk that sits in the back of his fridge, in the extra protein bars in his pantry, in the box of baking supplies up high on the tallest shelf (maybe Eddie can cook—but he never bakes.)
He notices him in the extra clothes that end up in his laundry basket every once in a while—leftover from nights when Buck passes out on their couch. Notices him in the LAFD hoodie hanging on the hook by his front door (the one that’s just a little too big to be his own,) in the spare key to Buck’s apartment that’s been on his ring of keys for years now.
He’s in the way Eddie makes his morning coffee, the playlist he listens to on the way to work, the movies and TV shows in his Netflix queue, in the new phrases and mannerisms that Christopher picks up—ones that always hit Eddie right in his gut.
Of course Eddie always notices him. He could never miss the way Buck’s smile lights up a room or the way his laugh loosens up every tense muscle in Eddie’s body.
Sometimes, like if he’s had too much to drink, Eddie starts to think of Buck as a lighthouse. A really tall, really sturdy lighthouse. And through whatever—rain, fog, sleet, hail—Eddie’s always able to find his light.
Sober Eddie thinks that’s corny. But the thought always comes back to him—a truth he can’t shake.
“Yeah, Buck,” He says quietly. “Really.”
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likeadog · 3 years ago
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It astounds me youre so pathetically idiotic you still haven’t deleted your blog when everybody on here clearly hates you. Just like Amber Heard, you use your status as a “weak victim” to spread lies, in her case about Johnny Depp abusing her after she divorced him which btw she did right after his mom had died. This so-called human being basically ruined his acting career because he prioritized caring for his mom over giving her spending money. Also she slapped in a lawsuit cause god forbid Depp gets any money from the divorce. Coming from a fellow woman…I fucking hate people like you and Amber Heard with every fiber of my body so get fucked you dimwad and I hope your parents die in their sleep.
this idiot thinks i have parents
anyway, clearly you dont understand how i feel about this case or how this actually played out legally, so ill elaborate under the cut my actual opinion so u can see we're really not fighting on this
Inferno: Canto I Midway upon the journey of our life I found myself within a forest dark, For the straightforward pathway had been lost. Ah me! how hard a thing it is to say  What was this forest savage, rough, and stern, Which in the very thought renews the fear. So bitter is it, death is little more; But of the good to treat, which there I found,     Speak will I of the other things I saw there. I cannot well repeat how there I entered, So full was I of slumber at the moment  In which I had abandoned the true way. But after I had reached a mountain’s foot,     At that point where the valley terminated,  Which had with consternation pierced my heart, Upward I looked, and I beheld its shoulders, 
Vested already with that planet’s rays Which leadeth others right by every road. Then was the fear a little quieted That in my heart’s lake had endured throughout  The night, which I had passed so piteously. And even as he, who, with distressful breath,     Forth issued from the sea upon the shore, Turns to the water perilous and gazes; So did my soul, that still was fleeing onward, Turn itself back to re-behold the pass  Which never yet a living person left. After my weary body I had rested,  The way resumed I on the desert slope,     So that the firm foot ever was the lower. And lo! almost where the ascent began,�� A panther light and swift exceedingly,  Which with a spotted skin was covered o’er! And never moved she from before my face,  Nay, rather did impede so much my way,  That many times I to return had turned.
The time was the beginning of the morning,  And up the sun was mounting with those stars  That with him were, what time the Love Divine At first in motion set those beauteous things;     So were to me occasion of good hope,  The variegated skin of that wild beast, The hour of time, and the delicious season;  But not so much, that did not give me fear  A lion’s aspect which appeared to me. He seemed as if against me he were coming  With head uplifted, and with ravenous hunger,  So that it seemed the air was afraid of him; And a she-wolf, that with all hungerings  Seemed to be laden in her meagreness,   And many folk has caused to live forlorn! She brought upon me so much heaviness, With the affright that from her aspect came,  That I the hope relinquished of the height. And as he is who willingly acquires,  And the time comes that causes him to lose,   
Who weeps in all his thoughts and is despondent, E’en such made me that beast withouten peace,  Which, coming on against me by degrees     Thrust me back thither where the sun is silent. While I was rushing downward to the lowland,  Before mine eyes did one present himself,     Who seemed from long-continued silence hoarse. When I beheld him in the desert vast, “Have pity on me,” unto him I cried,  “Whiche’er thou art, or shade or real man!” He answered me: “Not man; man once I was,  And both my parents were of Lombardy   And Mantuans by country both of them. ‘Sub Julio’ was I born, though it was late,     And lived at Rome under the good Augustus,   During the time of false and lying gods. A poet was I, and I sang that just   Son of Anchises, who came forth from Troy,  
 After that Ilion the superb was burned. But thou, why goest thou back to such annoyance?     Why climb’st thou not the Mount Delectable,     Which is the source and cause of every joy?” “Now, art thou that Virgilius and that fountain     Which spreads abroad so wide a river of speech?”     I made response to him with bashful forehead. “O, of the other poets honour and light,     Avail me the long study and great love     That have impelled me to explore thy volume! Thou art my master, and my author thou,     Thou art alone the one from whom I took     The beautiful style that has done honour to me. Behold the beast, for which I have turned back;     Do thou protect me from her, famous Sage,     For she doth make my veins and pulses tremble.” “Thee it behoves to take another road,”     Responded he, when he beheld me weeping,     “If from this savage place thou wouldst escape; Because this beast, at which thou criest out,     Suffers not any one to pass her way,     But so doth harass him, that she destroys him; And has a nature so malign and ruthless,     That never doth she glut her greedy will,     And after food is hungrier than before. Many the animals with whom she weds,     And more they shall be still, until the Greyhound     Comes, who shall make her perish in her pain. He shall not feed on either earth or pelf, 
  But upon wisdom, and on love and virtue;     ’Twixt Feltro and Feltro shall his nation be; Of that low Italy shall he be the saviour,     On whose account the maid Camilla died,     Euryalus, Turnus, Nisus, of their wounds; Through every city shall he hunt her down,     Until he shall have driven her back to Hell,     There from whence envy first did let her loose. Therefore I think and judge it for thy best     Thou follow me, and I will be thy guide,     And lead thee hence through the eternal place, Where thou shalt hear the desperate lamentations,    
Shalt see the ancient spirits disconsolate,     Who cry out each one for the second death; And thou shalt see those who contented are     Within the fire, because they hope to come,     Whene’er it may be, to the blessed people; To whom, then, if thou wishest to ascend,     A soul shall be for that than I more worthy;     With her at my departure I will leave thee; Because that Emperor, who reigns above,     In that I was rebellious to his law, 
  Wills that through me none come into his city. He governs everywhere, and there he reigns;     There is his city and his lofty throne;     O happy he whom thereto he elects!” And I to him: “Poet, I thee entreat,     By that same God whom thou didst never know,     So that I may escape this woe and worse, Thou wouldst conduct me there where thou hast said,     That I may see the portal of Saint Peter,     And those thou makest so disconsolate.” Then he moved on, and I behind him followed.
Inferno: Canto II Day was departing, and the embrowned air     Released the animals that are on earth     From their fatigues; and I the only one Made myself ready to sustain the war,     Both of the way and likewise of the woe,     Which memory that errs not shall retrace. O Muses, O high genius, now assist me!     O memory, that didst write down what I saw,     Here thy nobility shall be manifest! And I began: “Poet, who guidest me,     Regard my manhood, if it be sufficient,     Ere to the arduous pass thou dost confide me. Thou sayest, that of Silvius the parent,     While yet corruptible, unto the world     Immortal went, and was there bodily. But if the adversary of all evil     Was courteous, thinking of the high effect
   That issue would from him, and who, and what, To men of intellect unmeet it seems not;     For he was of great Rome, and of her empire     In the empyreal heaven as father chosen; The which and what, wishing to speak the truth,     Were stablished as the holy place, wherein     Sits the successor of the greatest Peter. Upon this journey, whence thou givest him vaunt,     Things did he hear, which the occasion were     Both of his victory and the papal mantle. Thither went afterwards the Chosen Vessel,     To bring back comfort thence unto that Faith,     Which of salvation’s way is the beginning. But I, why thither come, or who concedes it?     I not Aeneas am, I am not Paul,     Nor I, nor others, think me worthy of it. Therefore, if I resign myself to come,  
 I fear the coming may be ill-advised;     Thou’rt wise, and knowest better than I speak.” And as he is, who unwills what he willed,     And by new thoughts doth his intention change,     So that from his design he quite withdraws, Such I became, upon that dark hillside,     Because, in thinking, I consumed the emprise,     Which was so very prompt in the beginning. “If I have well thy language understood,”     Replied that shade of the Magnanimous,     “Thy soul attainted is with cowardice, Which many times a man encumbers so,     It turns him back from honoured enterprise,     As false sight doth a beast, when he is shy. That thou mayst free thee from this apprehension,     I’ll tell thee why I came, and what I heard     At the first moment when I grieved for thee. Among those was I who are in suspense,     And a fair, saintly Lady called to me     In such wise, I besought her to command me. Her eyes where shining brighter than the Star;     And she began to say, gentle and low,     With voice angelical, in her own language: ‘O spirit courteous of Mantua,     Of whom the fame still in the world endures,     And shall endure, long-lasting as the world; A friend of mine, and not the friend of fortune,     Upon the desert slope is so impeded     Upon his way, that he has turned through terror, And may, I fear, already be so lost,     That I too late have risen to his succour,    
From that which I have heard of him in Heaven. Bestir thee now, and with thy speech ornate,     And with what needful is for his release,     Assist him so, that I may be consoled. Beatrice am I, who do bid thee go;     I come from there, where I would fain return;     Love moved me, which compelleth me to speak. When I shall be in presence of my Lord,     Full often will I praise thee unto him.’     Then paused she, and thereafter I began: ‘O Lady of virtue, thou alone through whom     The human race exceedeth all contained     Within the heaven that has the lesser circles, So grateful unto me is thy commandment,     To obey, if ’twere already done, were late;     No farther need’st thou ope to me thy wish. But the cause tell me why thou dost not shun     The here descending down into this centre,  
 From the vast place thou burnest to return to.’ ‘Since thou wouldst fain so inwardly discern,     Briefly will I relate,’ she answered me,     ‘Why I am not afraid to enter here. Of those things only should one be afraid     Which have the power of doing others harm;     Of the rest, no; because they are not fearful. God in his mercy such created me   
That misery of yours attains me not,     Nor any flame assails me of this burning. A gentle Lady is in Heaven, who grieves     At this impediment, to which I send thee,     So that stern judgment there above is broken. In her entreaty she besought Lucia,     And said, “Thy faithful one now stands in need     Of thee, and unto thee I recommend him.” Lucia, foe of all that cruel is,     Hastened away, and came unto the place     Where I was sitting with the ancient Rachel. “Beatrice” said she, “the true praise of God,     Why succourest thou not him, who loved thee so,     For thee he issued from the vulgar herd? Dost thou not hear the pity of his plaint?     Dost thou not see the death that combats him     Beside that flood, where ocean has no vaunt?” Never were persons in the world so swift     To work their weal and to escape their woe,     As I, after such words as these were uttered, Came hither downward from my blessed seat, 
  Confiding in thy dignified discourse,     Which honours thee, and those who’ve listened to it.’ After she thus had spoken unto me,     Weeping, her shining eyes she turned away;     Whereby she made me swifter in my coming; And unto thee I came, as she desired;     I have delivered thee from that wild beast,     Which barred the beautiful mountain’s short ascent. What is it, then? Why, why dost thou delay?     Why is such baseness bedded in thy heart?     Daring and hardihood why hast thou not, Seeing that three such Ladies benedight     Are caring for thee in the court of Heaven,     And so much good my speech doth promise thee?” Even as the flowerets, by nocturnal chill,     Bowed down and closed, when the sun whitens them,     Uplift themselves all open on their stems; Such I became with my exhausted strength,     And such good courage to my heart there coursed,     That I began, like an intrepid person: “O she compassionate, who succoured me,
   And courteous thou, who hast obeyed so soon     The words of truth which she addressed to thee! Thou hast my heart so with desire disposed     To the adventure, with these words of thine,     That to my first intent I have returned. Now go, for one sole will is in us both,     Thou Leader, and thou Lord, and Master thou.”     Thus said I to him; and when he had moved, I entered on the deep and savage way.
Inferno: Canto III “Through me the way is to the city dolent;     Through me the way is to eternal dole;     Through me the way among the people lost. Justice incited my sublime Creator;     Created me divine Omnipotence,     The highest Wisdom and the primal Love. Before me there were no created things,     Only eterne, and I eternal last.     All hope abandon, ye who enter in!” These words in sombre colour I beheld     Written upon the summit of a gate;     Whence I: “Their sense is, Master, hard to me!” And he to me, as one experienced:     “Here all suspicion needs must be abandoned,     All cowardice must needs be here extinct. We to the place have come, where I have told thee     Thou shalt behold the people dolorous     Who have foregone the good of intellect.” And after he had laid his hand on mine     With joyful mien, whence I was comforted,     He led me in among the secret things. There sighs, complaints, and ululations loud     Resounded through the air without a star,     Whence I, at the beginning, wept thereat. Languages diverse, horrible dialects,     Accents of anger, words of agony,    
And voices high and hoarse, with sound of hands, Made up a tumult that goes whirling on     For ever in that air for ever black,     Even as the sand doth, when the whirlwind breathes. And I, who had my head with horror bound,     Said: “Master, what is this which now I hear?     What folk is this, which seems by pain so vanquished?” And he to me: “This miserable mode     Maintain the melancholy souls of those     Who lived withouten infamy or praise. Commingled are they with that caitiff choir     Of Angels, who have not rebellious been,     Nor faithful were to God, but were for self. The heavens expelled them, not to be less fair;   
Nor them the nethermore abyss receives,     For glory none the damned would have from them.” And I: “O Master, what so grievous is     To these, that maketh them lament so sore?”     He answered: “I will tell thee very briefly. These have no longer any hope of death;     And this blind life of theirs is so debased,     They envious are of every other fate. No fame of them the world permits to be;     Misericord and Justice both disdain them.     Let us not speak of them, but look, and pass.” And I, who looked again, beheld a banner,     Which, whirling round, ran on so rapidly,     That of all pause it seemed to me indignant; And after it there came so long a train     Of people, that I ne’er would have believed     That ever Death so many had undone. When some among them I had recognised,     I looked, and I beheld the shade of him     Who made through cowardice the great refusal. Forthwith I comprehended, and was certain,     That this the sect was of the caitiff wretches     Hateful to God and to his enemies. These miscreants, who never were alive,     Were naked, and were stung exceedingly     By gadflies and by hornets that were there. These did their faces irrigate with blood, 
  Which, with their tears commingled, at their feet     By the disgusting worms was gathered up. And when to gazing farther I betook me.     People I saw on a great river’s bank;     Whence said I: “Master, now vouchsafe to me, That I may know who these are, and what law     Makes them appear so ready to pass over,     As I discern athwart the dusky light.” And he to me: “These things shall all be known     To thee, as soon as we our footsteps stay     Upon the dismal shore of Acheron.” Then with mine eyes ashamed and downward cast,     Fearing my words might irksome be to him,     From speech refrained I till we reached the river. And lo! towards us coming in a boat     An old man, hoary with the hair of eld,     Crying: “Woe unto you, ye souls depraved! Hope nevermore to look upon the heavens;     I come to lead you to the other shore,     To the eternal shades in heat and frost. And thou, that yonder standest, living soul,     Withdraw thee from these people, who are dead!”     But when he saw that I did not withdraw, He said: “By other ways, by other ports     Thou to the shore shalt come, not here, for passage;  
 A lighter vessel needs must carry thee.” And unto him the Guide: “Vex thee not, Charon;     It is so willed there where is power to do     That which is willed; and farther question not.” Thereat were quieted the fleecy cheeks     Of him the ferryman of the livid fen,     Who round about his eyes had wheels of flame. But all those souls who weary were and naked     Their colour changed and gnashed their teeth together,     As soon as they had heard those cruel words. God they blasphemed and their progenitors,     The human race, the place, the time, the seed     Of their engendering and of their birth! Thereafter all together they drew back,  
 Bitterly weeping, to the accursed shore,     Which waiteth every man who fears not God. Charon the demon, with the eyes of glede,     Beckoning to them, collects them all together,     Beats with his oar whoever lags behind. As in the autumn-time the leaves fall off,     First one and then another, till the branch     Unto the earth surrenders all its spoils; In similar wise the evil seed of Adam     Throw themselves from that margin one by one,     At signals, as a bird unto its lure. So they depart across the dusky wave,
   And ere upon the other side they land,     Again on this side a new troop assembles. “My son,” the courteous Master said to me,     “All those who perish in the wrath of God     Here meet together out of every land; And ready are they to pass o’er the river,     Because celestial Justice spurs them on,     So that their fear is turned into desire. This way there never passes a good soul;     And hence if Charon doth complain of thee,     Well mayst thou know now what his speech imports.” This being finished, all the dusk champaign     Trembled so violently, that of that terror     The recollection bathes me still with sweat. The land of tears gave forth a blast of wind,     And fulminated a vermilion light,     Which overmastered in me every sense, And as a man whom sleep hath seized I fell.
Inferno: Canto IV Broke the deep lethargy within my head     A heavy thunder, so that I upstarted,     Like to a person who by force is wakened; And round about I moved my rested eyes,     Uprisen erect, and steadfastly I gazed,     To recognise the place wherein I was. True is it, that upon the verge I found me     Of the abysmal valley dolorous,     That gathers thunder of infinite ululations. Obscure, profound it was, and nebulous,     So that by fixing on its depths my sight     Nothing whatever I discerned therein. “Let us descend now into the blind world,”     Began the Poet, pallid utterly;     “I will be first, and thou shalt second be.” And I, who of his colour was aware,     Said: “How shall I come, if thou art afraid,
   Who’rt wont to be a comfort to my fears?” And he to me: “The anguish of the people     Who are below here in my face depicts     That pity which for terror thou hast taken. Let us go on, for the long way impels us.”     Thus he went in, and thus he made me enter     The foremost circle that surrounds the abyss. There, as it seemed to me from listening,     Were lamentations none, but only sighs,     That tremble made the everlasting air. And this arose from sorrow without torment,  
 Which the crowds had, that many were and great,     Of infants and of women and of men. To me the Master good: “Thou dost not ask     What spirits these, which thou beholdest, are?     Now will I have thee know, ere thou go farther, That they sinned not; and if they merit had,     ’Tis not enough, because they had not baptism     Which is the portal of the Faith thou holdest; And if they were before Christianity,     In the right manner they adored not God;     And among such as these am I myself. For such defects, and not for other guilt,     Lost are we and are only so far punished,     That without hope we live on in desire.” Great grief seized on my heart when this I heard,  
 Because some people of much worthiness     I knew, who in that Limbo were suspended. “Tell me, my Master, tell me, thou my Lord,”     Began I, with desire of being certain     Of that Faith which o’ercometh every error, “Came any one by his own merit hence,     Or by another’s, who was blessed thereafter?”     And he, who understood my covert speech, Replied: “I was a novice in this state,     When I saw hither come a Mighty One,     With sign of victory incoronate. Hence he drew forth the shade of the First Parent,     And that of his son Abel, and of Noah,     Of Moses the lawgiver, and the obedient Abraham, patriarch, and David, king, 
  Israel with his father and his children,     And Rachel, for whose sake he did so much, And others many, and he made them blessed;     And thou must know, that earlier than these     Never were any human spirits saved.” We ceased not to advance because he spake,     But still were passing onward through the forest,     The forest, say I, of thick-crowded ghosts. Not very far as yet our way had gone     This side the summit, when I saw a fire     That overcame a hemisphere of darkness. We were a little distant from it still,     But not so far that I in part discerned not     That honourable people held that place. “O thou who honourest every art and science,     Who may these be, which such great honour have,     That from the fashion of the rest it parts them?” And he to me: “The honourable name,
    That sounds of them above there in thy life,     Wins grace in Heaven, that so advances them.” In the mean time a voice was heard by me:     “All honour be to the pre-eminent Poet;     His shade returns again, that was departed.” After the voice had ceased and quiet was,     Four mighty shades I saw approaching us;     Semblance had they nor sorrowful nor glad. To say to me began my gracious Master:     “Him with that falchion in his hand behold,     Who comes before the three, even as their lord. That one is Homer, Poet sovereign;     He who comes next is Horace, the satirist;     The third is Ovid, and the last is Lucan. Because to each of these with me applies     The name that solitary voice proclaimed, 
  They do me honour, and in that do well.” Thus I beheld assemble the fair school     Of that lord of the song pre-eminent,     Who o’er the others like an eagle soars. When they together had discoursed somewhat,     They turned to me with signs of salutation,   
And on beholding this, my Master smiled; And more of honour still, much more, they did me,     In that they made me one of their own band;     So that the sixth was I, ’mid so much wit. Thus we went on as far as to the light,     Things saying ’tis becoming to keep silent,     As was the saying of them where I was. We came unto a noble castle’s foot,     Seven times encompassed with lofty walls,     Defended round by a fair rivulet; This we passed over even as firm ground;     Through portals seven I entered with these Sages;     We came into a meadow of fresh verdure. People were there with solemn eyes and slow,     Of great authority in their countenance;     They spake but seldom, and with gentle voices. Thus we withdrew ourselves upon one side     Into an opening luminous and lofty,     So that they all of them were visible. There opposite, upon the green enamel,
   Were pointed out to me the mighty spirits,     Whom to have seen I feel myself exalted. I saw Electra with companions many,     ’Mongst whom I knew both Hector and Aeneas,     Caesar in armour with gerfalcon eyes; I saw Camilla and Penthesilea     On the other side, and saw the King Latinus,     Who with Lavinia his daughter sat; I saw that Brutus who drove Tarquin forth,     Lucretia, Julia, Marcia, and Cornelia,     And saw alone, apart, the Saladin. When I had lifted up my brows a little,     The Master I beheld of those who know,     Sit with his philosophic family. All gaze upon him, and all do him honour.     There I beheld both Socrates and Plato,     Who nearer him before the others stand; Democritus, who puts the world on chance,     Diogenes, Anaxagoras, and Thales, 
  Zeno, Empedocles, and Heraclitus; Of qualities I saw the good collector,     Hight Dioscorides; and Orpheus saw I,     Tully and Livy, and moral Seneca, Euclid, geometrician, and Ptolemy,     Galen, Hippocrates, and Avicenna,     Averroes, who the great Comment made. I cannot all of them pourtray in full,     Because so drives me onward the long theme,     That many times the word comes short of fact. The sixfold company in two divides;     Another way my sapient Guide conducts me     Forth from the quiet to the air that trembles; And to a place I come where nothing shines.
Inferno: Canto V Thus I descended out of the first circle     Down to the second, that less space begirds,     And so much greater dole, that goads to wailing. There standeth Minos horribly, and snarls;     Examines the transgressions at the entrance;     Judges, and sends according as he girds him. I say, that when the spirit evil-born     Cometh before him, wholly it confesses;     And this discriminator of transgressions Seeth what place in Hell is meet for it;     Girds himself with his tail as many times     As grades he wishes it should be thrust down. Always before him many of them stand;     They go by turns each one unto the judgment;
   They speak, and hear, and then are downward hurled. “O thou, that to this dolorous hostelry     Comest,” said Minos to me, when he saw me,     Leaving the practice of so great an office, “Look how thou enterest, and in whom thou trustest;     Let not the portal’s amplitude deceive thee.”     And unto him my Guide: “Why criest thou too? Do not impede his journey fate-ordained;     It is so willed there where is power to do     That which is willed; and ask no further question.” And now begin the dolesome notes to grow     Audible unto me; now am I come     There where much lamentation strikes upon me. I came into a place mute of all light,
   Which bellows as the sea does in a tempest,     If by opposing winds ’t is combated. The infernal hurricane that never rests     Hurtles the spirits onward in its rapine;     Whirling them round, and smiting, it molests them. When they arrive before the precipice,     There are the shrieks, the plaints, and the laments,     There they blaspheme the puissance divine. I understood that unto such a torment     The carnal malefactors were condemned,     Who reason subjugate to appetite. And as the wings of starlings bear them on     In the cold season in large band and full,     So doth that blast the spirits maledict; It hither, thither, downward, upward, drives them; 
  No hope doth comfort them for evermore,     Not of repose, but even of lesser pain. And as the cranes go chanting forth their lays,     Making in air a long line of themselves,     So saw I coming, uttering lamentations, Shadows borne onward by the aforesaid stress.     Whereupon said I: “Master, who are those     People, whom the black air so castigates?” “The first of those, of whom intelligence     Thou fain wouldst have,” then said he unto me,     “The empress was of many languages. To sensual vices she was so abandoned,     That lustful she made licit in her law, 
  To remove the blame to which she had been led. She is Semiramis, of whom we read     That she succeeded Ninus, and was his spouse;     She held the land which now the Sultan rules. The next is she who killed herself for love,  
 And broke faith with the ashes of Sichaeus;     Then Cleopatra the voluptuous.” Helen I saw, for whom so many ruthless     Seasons revolved; and saw the great Achilles,     Who at the last hour combated with Love. Paris I saw, Tristan; and more than a thousand     Shades did he name and point out with his finger,     Whom Love had separated from our life. After that I had listened to my Teacher,     Naming the dames of eld and cavaliers,     Pity prevailed, and I was nigh bewildered. And I began: “O Poet, willingly     Speak would I to those two, who go together,     And seem upon the wind to be so light.” And, he to me: “Thou’lt mark, when they shall be     Nearer to us; and then do thou implore them     By love which leadeth them, and they will come.” Soon as the wind in our direction sways them,     My voice uplift I: “O ye weary souls!     Come speak to us, if no one interdicts it.” As turtle-doves, called onward by desire,     With open and steady wings to the sweet nest
   Fly through the air by their volition borne, So came they from the band where Dido is,     Approaching us athwart the air malign,     So strong was the affectionate appeal. “O living creature gracious and benignant,     Who visiting goest through the purple air     Us, who have stained the world incarnadine, If were the King of the Universe our friend,     We would pray unto him to give thee peace,     Since thou hast pity on our woe perverse. Of what it pleases thee to hear and speak,     That will we hear, and we will speak to you,     While silent is the wind, as it is now. Sitteth the city, wherein I was born,     Upon the sea-shore where the Po descends     To rest in peace with all his retinue. Love, that on gentle heart doth swiftly seize,     Seized this man for the person beautiful     That was ta’en from me, and still the mode offends me. Love, that exempts no one beloved from loving,     Seized me with pleasure of this man so strongly,
   That, as thou seest, it doth not yet desert me; Love has conducted us unto one death;     Caina waiteth him who quenched our life!”     These words were borne along from them to us. As soon as I had heard those souls tormented,     I bowed my face, and so long held it down     Until the Poet said to me: “What thinkest?” When I made answer, I began: “Alas!     How many pleasant thoughts, how much desire,     Conducted these unto the dolorous pass!” Then unto them I turned me, and I spake,     And I began: “Thine agonies, Francesca,     Sad and compassionate to weeping make me. But tell me, at the time of those sweet sighs,     By what and in what manner Love conceded,     That you should know your dubious desires?” And she to me: “There is no greater sorrow   
Than to be mindful of the happy time     In misery, and that thy Teacher knows. But, if to recognise the earliest root     Of love in us thou hast so great desire,     I will do even as he who weeps and speaks. One day we reading were for our delight     Of Launcelot, how Love did him enthral.     Alone we were and without any fear. Full many a time our eyes together drew     That reading, and drove the colour from our faces;     But one point only was it that o’ercame us. When as we read of the much-longed-for smile     Being by such a noble lover kissed,     This one, who ne’er from me shall be divided, Kissed me upon the mouth all palpitating.     Galeotto was the book and he who wrote it.     That day no farther did we read therein.” And all the while one spirit uttered this,     The other one did weep so, that, for pity,     I swooned away as if I had been dying, And fell, even as a dead body falls.
Inferno: Canto VI At the return of consciousness, that closed     Before the pity of those two relations,     Which utterly with sadness had confused me, New torments I behold, and new tormented     Around me, whichsoever way I move,     And whichsoever way I turn, and gaze. In the third circle am I of the rain     Eternal, maledict, and cold, and heavy;     Its law and quality are never new. Huge hail, and water sombre-hued, and snow,     Athwart the tenebrous air pour down amain;     Noisome the earth is, that receiveth this. Cerberus, monster cruel and uncouth,    
With his three gullets like a dog is barking     Over the people that are there submerged. Red eyes he has, and unctuous beard and black,     And belly large, and armed with claws his hands;     He rends the spirits, flays, and quarters them. Howl the rain maketh them like unto dogs;     One side they make a shelter for the other;     Oft turn themselves the wretched reprobates. When Cerberus perceived us, the great worm!      His mouths he opened, and displayed his tusks;      Not a limb had he that was motionless. And my Conductor, with his spans extended,     Took of the earth, and with his fists well filled,     He threw it into those rapacious gullets. Such as that dog is, who by barking craves,     And quiet grows soon as his food he gnaws,     For to devour it he but thinks and struggles, The like became those muzzles filth-begrimed   
Of Cerberus the demon, who so thunders     Over the souls that they would fain be deaf. We passed across the shadows, which subdues     The heavy rain-storm, and we placed our feet     Upon their vanity that person seems. They all were lying prone upon the earth,     Excepting one, who sat upright as soon     As he beheld us passing on before him. “O thou that art conducted through this Hell,”     He said to me, “recall me, if thou canst;     Thyself wast made before I was unmade.” And I to him: “The anguish which thou hast     Perhaps doth draw thee out of my remembrance,     So that it seems not I have ever seen thee. But tell me who thou art, that in so doleful     A place art put, and in such punishment,     If some are greater, none is so displeasing.” And he to me: “Thy city, which is full     Of envy so that now the sack runs over,     Held me within it in the life serene. You citizens were wont to call me Ciacco;  
 For the pernicious sin of gluttony     I, as thou seest, am battered by this rain. And I, sad soul, am not the only one,     For all these suffer the like penalty     For the like sin;” and word no more spake he. I answered him: “Ciacco, thy wretchedness     Weighs on me so that it to weep invites me;
   But tell me, if thou knowest, to what shall come The citizens of the divided city;     If any there be just; and the occasion     Tell me why so much discord has assailed it.” And he to me: “They, after long contention,     Will come to bloodshed; and the rustic party     Will drive the other out with much offence. Then afterwards behoves it this one fall     Within three suns, and rise again the other     By force of him who now is on the coast. High will it hold its forehead a long while,     Keeping the other under heavy burdens, 
  Howe’er it weeps thereat and is indignant. The just are two, and are not understood there;     Envy and Arrogance and Avarice     Are the three sparks that have all hearts enkindled.” Here ended he his tearful utterance;     And I to him: “I wish thee still to teach me,     And make a gift to me of further speech. Farinata and Tegghiaio, once so worthy,     Jacopo Rusticucci, Arrigo, and Mosca,  
 And others who on good deeds set their thoughts, Say where they are, and cause that I may know them;     For great desire constraineth me to learn     If Heaven doth sweeten them, or Hell envenom.” And he: “They are among the blacker souls;     A different sin downweighs them to the bottom;     If thou so far descendest, thou canst see them. But when thou art again in the sweet world, 
  I pray thee to the mind of others bring me;     No more I tell thee and no more I answer.” Then his straightforward eyes he turned askance,     Eyed me a little, and then bowed his head;     He fell therewith prone like the other blind. And the Guide said to me: “He wakes no more     This side the sound of the angelic trumpet;     When shall approach the hostile Potentate, Each one shall find again his dismal tomb,     Shall reassume his flesh and his own figure,     Shall hear what through eternity re-echoes.” So we passed onward o’er the filthy mixture     Of shadows and of rain with footsteps slow,
    Touching a little on the future life. Wherefore I said: “Master, these torments here,     Will they increase after the mighty sentence,     Or lesser be, or will they be as burning?” And he to me: “Return unto thy science,     Which wills, that as the thing more perfect is,     The more it feels of pleasure and of pain. Albeit that this people maledict     To true perfection never can attain,     Hereafter more than now they look to be.” Round in a circle by that road we went,     Speaking much more, which I do not repeat;     We came unto the point where the descent is; There we found Plutus the great enemy.
Inferno: Canto VII “Pape Satan, Pape Satan, Aleppe!”     Thus Plutus with his clucking voice began;     And that benignant Sage, who all things knew, Said, to encourage me: “Let not thy fear     Harm thee; for any power that he may have     Shall not prevent thy going down this crag.” Then he turned round unto that bloated lip,     And said: “Be silent, thou accursed wolf;     Consume within thyself with thine own rage. Not causeless is this journey to the abyss;     Thus is it willed on high, where Michael wrought     Vengeance upon the proud adultery.” Even as the sails inflated by the wind
  Involved together fall when snaps the mast,     So fell the cruel monster to the earth. Thus we descended into the fourth chasm,     Gaining still farther on the dolesome shore     Which all the woe of the universe insacks. Justice of God, ah! who heaps up so many     New toils and sufferings as I beheld?     And why doth our transgression waste us so? As doth the billow there upon Charybdis,     That breaks itself on that which it encounters,   
So here the folk must dance their roundelay. Here saw I people, more than elsewhere, many,     On one side and the other, with great howls,     Rolling weights forward by main force of chest. They clashed together, and then at that point     Each one turned backward, rolling retrograde,     Crying, “Why keepest?” and, “Why squanderest thou?” Thus they returned along the lurid circle     On either hand unto the opposite point,     Shouting their shameful metre evermore. Then each, when he arrived there, wheeled about     Through his half-circle to another joust;     And I, who had my heart pierced as it were, Exclaimed: “My Master, now declare to me     What people these are, and if all were clerks,     These shaven crowns upon the left of us.” And he to me: “All of them were asquint    
In intellect in the first life, so much     That there with measure they no spending made. Clearly enough their voices bark it forth,     Whene’er they reach the two points of the circle,     Where sunders them the opposite defect. Clerks those were who no hairy covering     Have on the head, and Popes and Cardinals,     In whom doth Avarice practise its excess.” And I: “My Master, among such as these     I ought forsooth to recognise some few,     Who were infected with these maladies.” And he to me: “Vain thought thou entertainest;     The undiscerning life which made them sordid     Now makes them unto all discernment dim. Forever shall they come to these two buttings;     These from the sepulchre shall rise again     With the fist closed, and these with tresses shorn. Ill giving and ill keeping the fair world     Have ta’en from them, and placed them in this scuffle;     Whate’er it be, no words adorn I for it. Now canst thou, Son, behold the transient farce     Of goods that are committed unto Fortune, 
  For which the human race each other buffet; For all the gold that is beneath the moon,     Or ever has been, of these weary souls     Could never make a single one repose.” “Master,” I said to him, “now tell me also     What is this Fortune which thou speakest of,     That has the world’s goods so within its clutches?” And he to me: “O creatures imbecile,     What ignorance is this which doth beset you?     Now will I have thee learn my judgment of her. He whose omniscience everything transcends     The heavens created, and gave who should guide them,     That every part to every part may shine, Distributing the light in equal measure;     He in like manner to the mundane splendours   
Ordained a general ministress and guide, That she might change at times the empty treasures     From race to race, from one blood to another,     Beyond resistance of all human wisdom. Therefore one people triumphs, and another     Languishes, in pursuance of her judgment,     Which hidden is, as in the grass a serpent. Your knowledge has no counterstand against her;
    She makes provision, judges, and pursues     Her governance, as theirs the other gods. Her permutations have not any truce;     Necessity makes her precipitate,     So often cometh who his turn obtains. And this is she who is so crucified     Even by those who ought to give her praise,     Giving her blame amiss, and bad repute. But she is blissful, and she hears it not;     Among the other primal creatures gladsome     She turns her sphere, and blissful she rejoices. Let us descend now unto greater woe;     Already sinks each star that was ascending     When I set out, and loitering is forbidden.” We crossed the circle to the other bank,  
 Near to a fount that boils, and pours itself     Along a gully that runs out of it. The water was more sombre far than perse;     And we, in company with the dusky waves,     Made entrance downward by a path uncouth. A marsh it makes, which has the name of Styx,     This tristful brooklet, when it has descended     Down to the foot of the malign gray shores. And I, who stood intent upon beholding,     Saw people mud-besprent in that lagoon,     All of them naked and with angry look. They smote each other not alone with hands,     But with the head and with the breast and feet,     Tearing each other piecemeal with their teeth. Said the good Master:
“Son, thou now beholdest     The souls of those whom anger overcame;     And likewise I would have thee know for certain Beneath the water people are who sigh     And make this water bubble at the surface,     As the eye tells thee wheresoe’er it turns. Fixed in the mire they say, ‘We sullen were     In the sweet air, which by the sun is gladdened,     Bearing within ourselves the sluggish reek; Now we are sullen in this sable mire.’     This hymn do they keep gurgling in their throats,     For with unbroken words they cannot say it.” Thus we went circling round the filthy fen     A great arc ’twixt the dry bank and the swamp,     With eyes turned unto those who gorge the mire; Unto the foot of a tower we came at last.
Inferno: Canto VIII I say, continuing, that long before     We to the foot of that high tower had come,     Our eyes went upward to the summit of it, By reason of two flamelets we saw placed there,     And from afar another answer them,     So far, that hardly could the eye attain it. And, to the sea of all discernment turned,     I said: “What sayeth this, and what respondeth     That other fire? and who are they that made it?” And he to me: “Across the turbid waves     What is expected thou canst now discern,     If reek of the morass conceal it not.” Cord never shot an arrow from itself     That sped away athwart the air so swift,     As I beheld a very little boat Come o’er the water tow’rds us at that moment,     Under the guidance of a single pilot,  
 Who shouted, “Now art thou arrived, fell soul?” “Phlegyas, Phlegyas, thou criest out in vain     For this once,” said my Lord; “thou shalt not have us     Longer than in the passing of the slough.” As he who listens to some great deceit     That has been done to him, and then resents it,     Such became Phlegyas, in his gathered wrath. My Guide descended down into the boat,     And then he made me enter after him,     And only when I entered seemed it laden. Soon as the Guide and I were in the boat,     The antique prow goes on its way, dividing     More of the water than ’tis wont with others. While we were running through the dead canal,     Uprose in front of me one full of mire,     And said, “Who ’rt thou that comest ere the hour?” And I to him: “Although I come, I stay not;     But who art thou that hast become so squalid?”     “Thou seest that I am one who weeps,” he answered. And I to him: “With weeping and with wailing,     Thou spirit maledict, do thou remain;     For thee I know, though thou art all defiled.” Then stretched he both his hands unto the boat;     Whereat my wary Master thrust him back,  
 Saying, “Away there with the other dogs!” Thereafter with his arms he clasped my neck;     He kissed my face, and said: “Disdainful soul,     Blessed be she who bore thee in her bosom. That was an arrogant person in the world;     Goodness is none, that decks his memory;     So likewise here his shade is furious. How many are esteemed great kings up there,     Who here shall be like unto swine in mire,     Leaving behind them horrible dispraises!” And I: “My Master, much should I be pleased,     If I could see him soused into this broth,     Before we issue forth out of the lake.” And he to me: “Ere unto thee the shore     Reveal itself, thou shalt be satisfied;     Such a desire ’tis meet thou shouldst enjoy.” A little after that, I saw such havoc     Made of him by the people of the mire,     That still I praise and thank my God for it. They all were shouting, “At Philippo Argenti!”     And that exasperate spirit Florentine  
 Turned round upon himself with his own teeth. We left him there, and more of him I tell not;     But on mine ears there smote a lamentation,     Whence forward I intent unbar mine eyes. And the good Master said: “Even now, my Son,     The city draweth near whose name is Dis,     With the grave citizens, with the great throng.” And I: “Its mosques already, Master, clearly     Within there in the valley I discern     Vermilion, as if issuing from the fire They were.” And he to me: “The fire eternal     That kindles them within makes them look red,     As thou beholdest in this nether Hell.” Then we arrived within the moats profound,     That circumvallate that disconsolate city;    
The walls appeared to me to be of iron. Not without making first a circuit wide,     We came unto a place where loud the pilot     Cried out to us, “Debark, here is the entrance.” More than a thousand at the gates I saw     Out of the Heavens rained down, who angrily     Were saying, “Who is this that without death Goes through the kingdom of the people dead?”     And my sagacious Master made a sign     Of wishing secretly to speak with them. A little then they quelled their great disdain,   
And said: “Come thou alone, and he begone     Who has so boldly entered these dominions. Let him return alone by his mad road;     Try, if he can; for thou shalt here remain,     Who hast escorted him through such dark regions.” Think, Reader, if I was discomforted     At utterance of the accursed words;     For never to return here I believed. “O my dear Guide, who more than seven times     Hast rendered me security, and drawn me     From imminent peril that before me stood, Do not desert me,” said I, “thus undone;  
 And if the going farther be denied us,     Let us retrace our steps together swiftly.” And that Lord, who had led me thitherward,     Said unto me: “Fear not; because our passage     None can take from us, it by Such is given. But here await me, and thy weary spirit     Comfort and nourish with a better hope;     For in this nether world I will not leave thee.” So onward goes and there abandons me    
My Father sweet, and I remain in doubt,     For No and Yes within my head contend. I could not hear what he proposed to them;     But with them there he did not linger long,     Ere each within in rivalry ran back. They closed the portals, those our adversaries,     On my Lord’s breast, who had remained without     And turned to me with footsteps far between. His eyes cast down, his forehead shorn had he     Of all its boldness, and he said, with sighs,     “Who has denied to me the dolesome houses?” And unto me: “Thou, because I am angry,     Fear not, for I will conquer in the trial,     Whatever for defence within be planned. This arrogance of theirs is nothing new;     For once they used it at less secret gate,     Which finds itself without a fastening still. O’er it didst thou behold the dead inscription;     And now this side of it descends the steep,     Passing across the circles without escort, One by whose means the city shall be opened.”
Inferno: Canto IX That hue which cowardice brought out on me,     Beholding my Conductor backward turn,     Sooner repressed within him his new colour. He stopped attentive, like a man who listens,     Because the eye could not conduct him far     Through the black air, and through the heavy fog. “Still it behoveth us to win the fight,”     Began he; “Else. . .Such offered us herself. . .     O how I long that some one here arrive!” Well I perceived, as soon as the beginning     He covered up with what came afterward,     That they were words quite different from the first; But none the less his saying gave me fear,     Because I carried out the broken phrase,     Perhaps to a worse meaning than he had. “Into this bottom of the doleful conch     Doth any e’er descend from the first grade,  
Which for its pain has only hope cut off?” This question put I; and he answered me:     “Seldom it comes to pass that one of us     Maketh the journey upon which I go. True is it, once before I here below     Was conjured by that pitiless Erictho,     Who summoned back the shades unto their bodies. Naked of me short while the flesh had been,     Before within that wall she made me enter, 
  To bring a spirit from the circle of Judas; That is the lowest region and the darkest,     And farthest from the heaven which circles all.     Well know I the way; therefore be reassured. This fen, which a prodigious stench exhales,     Encompasses about the city dolent,     Where now we cannot enter without anger.” And more he said, but not in mind I have it;     Because mine eye had altogether drawn me     Tow’rds the high tower with the red-flaming summit, Where in a moment saw I swift uprisen     The three infernal Furies stained with blood,     Who had the limbs of women and their mien, And with the greenest hydras were begirt;     Small serpents and cerastes were their tresses,     Wherewith their horrid temples were entwined. And he who well the handmaids of the Queen     Of everlasting lamentation knew,     Said unto me: “Behold the fierce Erinnys. This is Megaera, on the left-hand side;     She who is weeping on the right, Alecto;    
Tisiphone is between;” and then was silent. Each one her breast was rending with her nails;     They beat them with their palms, and cried so loud,     That I for dread pressed close unto the Poet. “Medusa come, so we to stone will change him!”     All shouted looking down; “in evil hour     Avenged we not on Theseus his assault!” “Turn thyself round, and keep thine eyes close shut,     For if the Gorgon appear, and thou shouldst see it,     No more returning upward would there be.” Thus said the Master; and he turned me round     Himself, and trusted not unto my hands     So far as not to blind me with his own. O ye who have undistempered intellects,     Observe the doctrine that conceals itself     Beneath the veil of the mysterious verses! And now there came across the turbid waves     The clangour of a sound with terror fraught,     Because of which both of the margins trembled; Not otherwise it was than of a wind   
Impetuous on account of adverse heats,     That smites the forest, and, without restraint, The branches rends, beats down, and bears away;     Right onward, laden with dust, it goes superb,     And puts to flight the wild beasts and the shepherds. Mine eyes he loosed, and said: “Direct the nerve     Of vision now along that ancient foam,     There yonder where that smoke is most intense.” Even as the frogs before the hostile serpent     Across the water scatter all abroad,     Until each one is huddled in the earth. More than a thousand ruined souls I saw,     Thus fleeing from before one who on foot     Was passing o’er the Styx with soles unwet. From off his face he fanned that unctuous air,     Waving his left hand oft in front of him,  
 And only with that anguish seemed he weary. Well I perceived one sent from Heaven was he,     And to the Master turned; and he made sign     That I should quiet stand, and bow before him. Ah! how disdainful he appeared to me!     He reached the gate, and with a little rod     He opened it, for there was no resistance. “O banished out of Heaven, people despised!”     Thus he began upon the horrid threshold;     “Whence is this arrogance within you couched? Wherefore recalcitrate against that will,     From which the end can never be cut off,   
And which has many times increased your pain? What helpeth it to butt against the fates?     Your Cerberus, if you remember well,     For that still bears his chin and gullet peeled.” Then he returned along the miry road,     And spake no word to us, but had the look     Of one whom other care constrains and goads Than that of him who in his presence is;     And we our feet directed tow’rds the city,     After those holy words all confident. Within we entered without any contest;     And I, who inclination had to see     What the condition such a fortress holds, Soon as I was within, cast round mine eye,     And see on every hand an ample plain,   
Full of distress and torment terrible. Even as at Arles, where stagnant grows the Rhone,     Even as at Pola near to the Quarnaro,     That shuts in Italy and bathes its borders, The sepulchres make all the place uneven;     So likewise did they there on every side,     Saving that there the manner was more bitter; For flames between the sepulchres were scattered,     By which they so intensely heated were,     That iron more so asks not any art. All of their coverings uplifted were,     And from them issued forth such dire laments,     Sooth seemed they of the wretched and tormented. And I: “My Master, what are all those people     Who, having sepulture within those tombs,     Make themselves audible by doleful sighs?” And he to me: “Here are the Heresiarchs,     With their disciples of all sects, and much     More than thou thinkest laden are the tombs. Here like together with its like is buried;     And more and less the monuments are heated.”     And when he to the right had turned, we passed Between the torments and high parapets.
Inferno: Canto X Now onward goes, along a narrow path     Between the torments and the city wall,     My Master, and I follow at his back. “O power supreme, that through these impious circles     Turnest me,” I began, “as pleases thee,     Speak to me, and my longings satisfy; The people who are lying in these tombs,     Might they be seen? already are uplifted     The covers all, and no one keepeth guard.” And he to me: “They all will be closed up     When from Jehoshaphat they shall return     Here with the bodies they have left above. Their cemetery have upon this side     With Epicurus all his followers,     Who with the body mortal make the soul; But in the question thou dost put to me,     Within here shalt thou soon be satisfied,     And likewise in the wish thou keepest silent.” And I: “Good Leader, I but keep concealed     From thee my heart, that I may speak the less,     Nor only now hast thou thereto disposed me.” “O Tuscan, thou who through the city of fire     Goest alive, thus speaking modestly,   
Be pleased to stay thy footsteps in this place. Thy mode of speaking makes thee manifest     A native of that noble fatherland,     To which perhaps I too molestful was.” Upon a sudden issued forth this sound     From out one of the tombs; wherefore I pressed,     Fearing, a little nearer to my Leader. And unto me he said: “Turn thee; what dost thou?     Behold there Farinata who has risen;     From the waist upwards wholly shalt thou see him.” I had already fixed mine eyes on his,     And he uprose erect with breast and front
   E’en as if Hell he had in great despite. And with courageous hands and prompt my Leader     Thrust me between the sepulchres towards him,     Exclaiming, “Let thy words explicit be.” As soon as I was at the foot of his tomb     Somewhat he eyed me, and, as if disdainful,     Then asked of me, “Who were thine ancestors?” I, who desirous of obeying was,     Concealed it not, but all revealed to him;     Whereat he raised his brows a little upward. Then said he: “Fiercely adverse have they been     To me, and to my fathers, and my party;  
 So that two several times I scattered them.” “If they were banished, they returned on all sides,”     I answered him, “the first time and the second;     But yours have not acquired that art aright.” Then there uprose upon the sight, uncovered     Down to the chin, a shadow at his side;     I think that he had risen on his knees. Round me he gazed, as if solicitude     He had to see if some one else were with me,     But after his suspicion was all spent, Weeping, he said to me: “If through this blind     Prison thou goest by loftiness of genius,     Where is my son? and why is he not with thee?” And I to him: “I come not of myself;    
He who is waiting yonder leads me here,     Whom in disdain perhaps your Guido had.” His language and the mode of punishment     Already unto me had read his name;     On that account my answer was so full. Up starting suddenly, he cried out: “How     Saidst thou,—he had? Is he not still alive?     Does not the sweet light strike upon his eyes?” When he became aware of some delay,     Which I before my answer made, supine     He fell again, and forth appeared no more. But the other, magnanimous, at whose desire     I had remained, did not his aspect change,     Neither his neck he moved, nor bent his side. “And if,” continuing his first discourse,
   “They have that art,” he said, “not learned aright,     That more tormenteth me, than doth this bed. But fifty times shall not rekindled be     The countenance of the Lady who reigns here,     Ere thou shalt know how heavy is that art; And as thou wouldst to the sweet world return,     Say why that people is so pitiless     Against my race in each one of its laws?” Whence I to him: “The slaughter and great carnage     Which have with crimson stained the Arbia, cause     Such orisons in our temple to be made.” After his head he with a sigh had shaken,     “There I was not alone,” he said, “nor surely     Without a cause had with the others moved. But there I was alone, where every one     Consented to the laying waste of Florence,     He who defended her with open face.” “Ah! so hereafter may your seed repose,”     I him entreated, “solve for me that knot,     Which has entangled my conceptions here. It seems that you can see, if I hear rightly,     Beforehand whatsoe’er time brings with it, 
  And in the present have another mode.” “We see, like those who have imperfect sight,     The things,” he said, “that distant are from us;     So much still shines on us the Sovereign Ruler. When they draw near, or are, is wholly vain     Our intellect, and if none brings it to us,     Not anything know we of your human state. Hence thou canst understand, that wholly dead     Will be our knowledge from the moment when     The portal of the future shall be closed.” Then I, as if compunctious for my fault,     Said: “Now, then, you will tell that fallen one,     That still his son is with the living joined. And if just now, in answering, I was dumb,     Tell him I did it because I was thinking     Already of the error you have solved me.” And now my Master was recalling me,   
Wherefore more eagerly I prayed the spirit     That he would tell me who was with him there. He said: “With more than a thousand here I lie;     Within here is the second Frederick,     And the Cardinal, and of the rest I speak not.” Thereon he hid himself; and I towards     The ancient poet turned my steps, reflecting     Upon that saying, which seemed hostile to me. He moved along; and afterward thus going,     He said to me, “Why art thou so bewildered?”     And I in his inquiry satisfied him. “Let memory preserve what thou hast heard     Against thyself,” that Sage commanded me,     “And now attend here;” and he raised his finger. “When thou shalt be before the radiance sweet     Of her whose beauteous eyes all things behold,     From her thou’lt know the journey of thy life.” Unto the left hand then he turned his feet;     We left the wall, and went towards the middle,     Along a path that strikes into a valley, Which even up there unpleasant made its stench.
Inferno: Canto XI Upon the margin of a lofty bank     Which great rocks broken in a circle made,     We came upon a still more cruel throng; And there, by reason of the horrible     Excess of stench the deep abyss throws out,     We drew ourselves aside behind the cover Of a great tomb, whereon I saw a writing,     Which said: “Pope Anastasius I hold,     Whom out of the right way Photinus drew.” “Slow it behoveth our descent to be,     So that the sense be first a little used     To the sad blast, and then we shall not heed it.” The Master thus; and unto him I said,     “Some compensation find, that the time pass not     Idly;” and he: “Thou seest I think of that. My son, upon the inside of these rocks,”    
Began he then to say, “are three small circles,     From grade to grade, like those which thou art leaving. They all are full of spirits maledict;     But that hereafter sight alone suffice thee,     Hear how and wherefore they are in constraint. Of every malice that wins hate in Heaven,     Injury is the end; and all such end     Either by force or fraud afflicteth others. But because fraud is man’s peculiar vice,     More it displeases God; and so stand lowest     The fraudulent, and greater dole assails them. All the first circle of the Violent is;     But since force may be used against three persons,     In three rounds ’tis divided and constructed. To God, to ourselves, and to our neighbour can we     Use force; I say on them and on their things,  
 As thou shalt hear with reason manifest. A death by violence, and painful wounds,     Are to our neighbour given; and in his substance     Ruin, and arson, and injurious levies; Whence homicides, and he who smites unjustly,     Marauders, and freebooters, the first round     Tormenteth all in companies diverse. Man may lay violent hands upon himself     And his own goods; and therefore in the second     Round must perforce without avail repent Whoever of your world deprives himself,     Who games, and dissipates his property,     And weepeth there, where he should jocund be. Violence can be done the Deity,     In heart denying and blaspheming Him,     And by disdaining Nature and her bounty. And for this reason doth the smallest round     Seal with its signet Sodom and Cahors,     And who, disdaining God, speaks from the heart. Fraud, wherewithal is every conscience stung,     A man may practise upon him who trusts,     And him who doth no confidence imburse. This latter mode, it would appear, dissevers     Only the bond of love which Nature makes;     Wherefore within the second circle nestle Hypocrisy, flattery, and who deals in magic,     Falsification, theft, and simony,     Panders, and barrators, and the like filth. By the other mode, forgotten is that love     Which Nature makes, and what is after added,
   From which there is a special faith engendered. Hence in the smallest circle, where the point is     Of the Universe, upon which Dis is seated,     Whoe’er betrays for ever is consumed.” And I: “My Master, clear enough proceeds     Thy reasoning, and full well distinguishes     This cavern and the people who possess it. But tell me, those within the fat lagoon,     Whom the wind drives, and whom the rain doth beat,     And who encounter with such bitter tongues, Wherefore are they inside of the red city     Not punished, if God has them in his wrath,     And if he has not, wherefore in such fashion?” And unto me he said: “Why wanders so     Thine intellect from that which it is wont?     Or, sooth, thy mind where is it elsewhere looking? Hast thou no recollection of those words  
 With which thine Ethics thoroughly discusses     The dispositions three, that Heaven abides not,— Incontinence, and Malice, and insane     Bestiality? and how Incontinence     Less God offendeth, and less blame attracts? If thou regardest this conclusion well,     And to thy mind recallest who they are     That up outside are undergoing penance, Clearly wilt thou perceive why from these felons     They separated are, and why less wroth     Justice divine doth smite them with its hammer.” “O Sun, that healest all distempered vision,     Thou dost content me so, when thou resolvest,     That doubting pleases me no less than knowing! Once more a little backward turn thee,” said I,     “There where thou sayest that usury offends
   Goodness divine, and disengage the knot.” “Philosophy,” he said, “to him who heeds it,     Noteth, not only in one place alone,     After what manner Nature takes her course From Intellect Divine, and from its art;     And if thy Physics carefully thou notest,     After not many pages shalt thou find, That this your art as far as possible     Follows, as the disciple doth the master;     So that your art is, as it were, God’s grandchild. From these two, if thou bringest to thy mind     Genesis at the beginning, it behoves     Mankind to gain their life and to advance; And since the usurer takes another way,     Nature herself and in her follower     Disdains he, for elsewhere he puts his hope. But follow, now, as I would fain go on,     For quivering are the Fishes on the horizon,     And the Wain wholly over Caurus lies, And far beyond there we descend the crag.”
Inferno: Canto XII The place where to descend the bank we came     Was alpine, and from what was there, moreover,     Of such a kind that every eye would shun it. Such as that ruin is which in the flank     Smote, on this side of Trent, the Adige,     Either by earthquake or by failing stay, For from the mountain’s top, from which it moved,     Unto the plain the cliff is shattered so,     Some path ’twould give to him who was above; Even such was the descent of that ravine,     And on the border of the broken chasm     The infamy of Crete was stretched along, Who was conceived in the fictitious cow;     And when he us beheld, he bit himself,   
Even as one whom anger racks within. My Sage towards him shouted: “Peradventure     Thou think’st that here may be the Duke of Athens,     Who in the world above brought death to thee? Get thee gone, beast, for this one cometh not     Instructed by thy sister, but he comes     In order to behold your punishments.” As is that bull who breaks loose at the moment     In which he has received the mortal blow, 
  Who cannot walk, but staggers here and there, The Minotaur beheld I do the like;     And he, the wary, cried: “Run to the passage;     While he wroth, ’tis well thou shouldst descend.” Thus down we took our way o’er that discharge     Of stones, which oftentimes did move themselves     Beneath my feet, from the unwonted burden. Thoughtful I went; and he said: “Thou art thinking     Perhaps upon this ruin, which is guarded     By that brute anger which just now I quenched. Now will I have thee know, the other time     I here descended to the nether Hell,
    This precipice had not yet fallen down. But truly, if I well discern, a little     Before His coming who the mighty spoil     Bore off from Dis, in the supernal circle, Upon all sides the deep and loathsome valley     Trembled so, that I thought the Universe     Was thrilled with love, by which there are who think The world ofttimes converted into chaos;     And at that moment this primeval crag     Both here and elsewhere made such overthrow. But fix thine eyes below; for draweth near    
The river of blood, within which boiling is     Whoe’er by violence doth injure others.” O blind cupidity, O wrath insane,     That spurs us onward so in our short life,     And in the eternal then so badly steeps us! I saw an ample moat bent like a bow,     As one which all the plain encompasses,     Conformable to what my Guide had said. And between this and the embankment’s foot     Centaurs in file were running, armed with arrows,     As in the world they used the chase to follow. Beholding us descend, each one stood still,
   And from the squadron three detached themselves,     With bows and arrows in advance selected; And from afar one cried: “Unto what torment     Come ye, who down the hillside are descending?     Tell us from there; if not, I draw the bow.” My Master said: “Our answer will we make     To Chiron, near you there; in evil hour,     That will of thine was evermore so hasty.” Then touched he me, and said: “This one is Nessus,  
 Who perished for the lovely Dejanira,     And for himself, himself did vengeance take. And he in the midst, who at his breast is gazing,     Is the great Chiron, who brought up Achilles;     That other Pholus is, who was so wrathful. Thousands and thousands go about the moat     Shooting with shafts whatever soul emerges  
 Out of the blood, more than his crime allots.” Near we approached unto those monsters fleet;     Chiron an arrow took, and with the notch     Backward upon his jaws he put his beard. After he had uncovered his great mouth,     He said to his companions: “Are you ware     That he behind moveth whate’er he touches? Thus are not wont to do the feet of dead men.”     And my good Guide, who now was at his breast,     Where the two natures are together joined, Replied: “Indeed he lives, and thus alone  
 Me it behoves to show him the dark valley;     Necessity, and not delight, impels us. Some one withdrew from singing Halleluja,     Who unto me committed this new office;     No thief is he, nor I a thievish spirit. But by that virtue through which I am moving     My steps along this savage thoroughfare,     Give us some one of thine, to be with us, And who may show us where to pass the ford,     And who may carry this one on his back;     For ’tis no spirit that can walk the air.” Upon his right breast Chiron wheeled about,     And said to Nessus: “Turn and do thou guide them,     And warn aside, if other band may meet you.” We with our faithful escort onward moved     Along the brink of the vermilion boiling,     Wherein the boiled were uttering loud laments. People I saw within up to the eyebrows,  
 And the great Centaur said: “Tyrants are these,     Who dealt in bloodshed and in pillaging. Here they lament their pitiless mischiefs; here     Is Alexander, and fierce Dionysius     Who upon Sicily brought dolorous years. That forehead there which has the hair so black     Is Azzolin; and the other who is blond,     Obizzo is of Esti, who, in truth, Up in the world was by his stepson slain.”     Then turned I to the Poet; and he said,     “Now he be first to thee, and second I.” A little farther on the Centaur stopped     Above a folk, who far down as the throat     Seemed from that boiling stream to issue forth. A shade he showed us on one side alone,
   Saying: “He cleft asunder in God’s bosom     The heart that still upon the Thames is honoured.” Then people saw I, who from out the river     Lifted their heads and also all the chest;     And many among these I recognised. Thus ever more and more grew shallower     That blood, so that the feet alone it covered;     And there across the moat our passage was. “Even as thou here upon this side beholdest     The boiling stream, that aye diminishes,”     The Centaur said, “I wish thee to believe That on this other more and more declines     Its bed, until it reunites itself     Where it behoveth tyranny to groan. Justice divine, upon this side, is goading     That Attila, who was a scourge on earth,     And Pyrrhus, and Sextus; and for ever milks The tears which with the boiling it unseals     In Rinier da Corneto and Rinier Pazzo,     Who made upon the highways so much war.” Then back he turned, and passed again the ford.
Inferno: Canto XIII Not yet had Nessus reached the other side,     When we had put ourselves within a wood,     That was not marked by any path whatever. Not foliage green, but of a dusky colour,     Not branches smooth, but gnarled and intertangled,     Not apple-trees were there, but thorns with poison. Such tangled thickets have not, nor so dense,  
 Those savage wild beasts, that in hatred hold     ’Twixt Cecina and Corneto the tilled places. There do the hideous Harpies make their nests,     Who chased the Trojans from the Strophades,     With sad announcement of impending doom; Broad wings have they, and necks and faces human,     And feet with claws, and their great bellies fledged;     They make laments upon the wondrous trees. And the good Master: “Ere thou enter farther,  
 Know that thou art within the second round,”     Thus he began to say, “and shalt be, till Thou comest out upon the horrible sand;     Therefore look well around, and thou shalt see     Things that will credence give unto my speech.” I heard on all sides lamentations uttered,     And person none beheld I who might make them,     Whence, utterly bewildered, I stood still. I think he thought that I perhaps might think     So many voices issued through those trunks     From people who concealed themselves from us; Therefore the Master said: “If thou break off  
 Some little spray from any of these trees,     The thoughts thou hast will wholly be made vain.” Then stretched I forth my hand a little forward,     And plucked a branchlet off from a great thorn;     And the trunk cried, “Why dost thou mangle me?” After it had become embrowned with blood,     It recommenced its cry: “Why dost thou rend me?     Hast thou no spirit of pity whatsoever? Men once we were, and now are changed to trees;     Indeed, thy hand should be more pitiful,     Even if the souls of serpents we had been.” As out of a green brand, that is on fire     At one of the ends, and from the other drips     And hisses with the wind that is escaping; So from that splinter issued forth together     Both words and blood; whereat I let the tip     Fall, and stood like a man who is afraid. “Had he been able sooner to believe,”   
My Sage made answer, “O thou wounded soul,     What only in my verses he has seen, Not upon thee had he stretched forth his hand;     Whereas the thing incredible has caused me     To put him to an act which grieveth me. But tell him who thou wast, so that by way     Of some amends thy fame he may refresh     Up in the world, to which he can return.” And the trunk said: “So thy sweet words allure me,     I cannot silent be; and you be vexed not,     That I a little to discourse am tempted. I am the one who both keys had in keeping     Of Frederick’s heart, and turned them to and fro
   So softly in unlocking and in locking, That from his secrets most men I withheld;     Fidelity I bore the glorious office     So great, I lost thereby my sleep and pulses. The courtesan who never from the dwelling     Of Caesar turned aside her strumpet eyes,     Death universal and the vice of courts, Inflamed against me all the other minds,     And they, inflamed, did so inflame Augustus,     That my glad honours turned to dismal mournings. My spirit, in disdainful exultation,     Thinking by dying to escape disdain,     Made me unjust against myself, the just. I, by the roots unwonted of this wood,     Do swear to you that never broke I faith     Unto my lord, who was so worthy of honour; And to the world if one of you return,     Let him my memory comfort, which is lying     Still prostrate from the blow that envy dealt it.” Waited awhile, and then: “Since he is silent,”     The Poet said to me, “lose not the time,     But speak, and question him, if more may please thee.” Whence I to him: “Do thou again inquire     Concerning what thou thinks’t will satisfy me;  
 For I cannot, such pity is in my heart.” Therefore he recommenced: “So may the man     Do for thee freely what thy speech implores,     Spirit incarcerate, again be pleased To tell us in what way the soul is bound     Within these knots; and tell us, if thou canst,     If any from such members e’er is freed.” Then blew the trunk amain, and afterward     The wind was into such a voice converted:     “With brevity shall be replied to you. When the exasperated soul abandons     The body whence it rent itself away,
   Minos consigns it to the seventh abyss. It falls into the forest, and no part     Is chosen for it; but where Fortune hurls it,     There like a grain of spelt it germinates. It springs a sapling, and a forest tree;     The Harpies, feeding then upon its leaves,     Do pain create, and for the pain an outlet. Like others for our spoils shall we return;     But not that any one may them revest,     For ’tis not just to have what one casts off. Here we shall drag them, and along the dismal     Forest our bodies shall suspended be,     Each to the thorn of his molested shade.” We were attentive still unto the trunk,   
Thinking that more it yet might wish to tell us,     When by a tumult we were overtaken, In the same way as he is who perceives     The boar and chase approaching to his stand,     Who hears the crashing of the beasts and branches; And two behold! upon our left-hand side,     Naked and scratched, fleeing so furiously,     That of the forest, every fan they broke. He who was in advance: “Now help, Death, help!”     And the other one, who seemed to lag too much,    
Was shouting: “Lano, were not so alert Those legs of thine at joustings of the Toppo!”     And then, perchance because his breath was failing,     He grouped himself together with a bush. Behind them was the forest full of black     She-mastiffs, ravenous, and swift of foot     As greyhounds, who are issuing from the chain. On him who had crouched down they set their teeth,     And him they lacerated piece by piece,     Thereafter bore away those aching members. Thereat my Escort took me by the hand,     And led me to the bush, that all in vain     Was weeping from its bloody lacerations. “O Jacopo,” it said, “of Sant’ Andrea,     What helped it thee of me to make a screen?     What blame have I in thy nefarious life?” When near him had the Master stayed his steps,     He said: “Who wast thou, that through wounds so many     Art blowing out with blood thy dolorous speech?” And he to us: “O souls, that hither come     To look upon the shameful massacre     That has so rent away from
me my leaves, Gather them up beneath the dismal bush;     I of that city was which to the Baptist     Changed its first patron, wherefore he for this Forever with his art will make it sad.     And were it not that on the pass of Arno     Some glimpses of him are remaining still, Those citizens, who afterwards rebuilt it     Upon the ashes left by Attila,     In vain had caused their labour to be done. Of my own house I made myself a gibbet.”
Inferno: Canto XIV Because the charity of my native place     Constrained me, gathered I the scattered leaves,     And gave them back to him, who now was hoarse. Then came we to the confine, where disparted     The second round is from the third, and where     A horrible form of Justice is beheld. Clearly to manifest these novel things,     I say that we arrived upon a plain,     Which from its bed rejecteth every plant; The dolorous forest is a garland to it     All round about, as the sad moat to that;     There close upon the edge we stayed our feet. The soil was of an arid and thick sand,     Not of another fashion made than that     Which by the feet of Cato once was pressed. Vengeance of God, O how much oughtest thou    
By each one to be dreaded, who doth read     That which was manifest unto mine eyes! Of naked souls beheld I many herds,     Who all were weeping very miserably,     And over them seemed set a law diverse. Supine upon the ground some folk were lying;     And some were sitting all drawn up together,     And others went about continually. Those who were going round were far the more,     And those were less who lay down to their torment,
    But had their tongues more loosed to lamentation. O’er all the sand-waste, with a gradual fall,     Were raining down dilated flakes of fire,     As of the snow on Alp without a wind. As Alexander, in those torrid parts     Of India, beheld upon his host     Flames fall unbroken till they reached the ground. Whence he provided with his phalanxes     To trample down the soil, because the vapour     Better extinguished was while it was single; Thus was descending the eternal heat,     Whereby the sand was set on fire, like tinder     Beneath the steel, for doubling of the dole. Without repose forever was the dance    
Of miserable hands, now there, now here,     Shaking away from off them the fresh gleeds. “Master,” began I, “thou who overcomest     All things except the demons dire, that issued     Against us at the entrance of the gate, Who is that mighty one who seems to heed not     The fire, and lieth lowering and disdainful,     So that the rain seems not to ripen him?” And he himself, who had become aware     That I was questioning my Guide about him,  
 Cried: “Such as I was living, am I, dead. If Jove should weary out his smith, from whom     He seized in anger the sharp thunderbolt,     Wherewith upon the last day I was smitten, And if he wearied out by turns the others     In Mongibello at the swarthy forge,     Vociferating, ‘Help, good Vulcan, help!’ Even as he did there at the fight of Phlegra,     And shot his bolts at me with all his might,     He would not have thereby a joyous vengeance.” Then did my Leader speak with such great force,     That I had never heard him speak so loud:     “O Capaneus, in that is not extinguished Thine arrogance, thou punished art the more;     Not any torment, saving thine own rage,    
Would be unto thy fury pain complete.” Then he turned round to me with better lip,     Saying: “One of the Seven Kings was he     Who Thebes besieged, and held, and seems to hold God in disdain, and little seems to prize him;     But, as I said to him, his own despites     Are for his breast the fittest ornaments. Now follow me, and mind thou do not place     As yet thy feet upon the burning sand,     But always keep them close unto the wood.” Speaking no word, we came to where there gushes     Forth from the wood a little rivulet,     Whose redness makes my hair still stand on end. As from the Bulicame springs the brooklet,     The sinful women later share among them,     So downward through the sand it went its way. The bottom of it, and both sloping banks,     Were made of stone, and the margins at the side;     Whence I perceived that there the passage was. “In all the rest which I have shown to thee     Since we have entered in within the gate     Whose threshold unto no one is denied, Nothing has been discovered by thine eyes     So notable as is the present river,     Which all the little flames above it quenches.” These words were of my Leader; whence I prayed him     That he would give me largess of the food,     For which he had given me largess of desire. “In the mid-sea there sits a wasted land,”  
 Said he thereafterward, “whose name is Crete,     Under whose king the world of old was chaste. There is a mountain there, that once was glad     With waters and with leaves, which was called Ida;     Now ’tis deserted, as a thing worn out. Rhea once chose it for the faithful cradle     Of her own son; and to conceal him better,
   Whene’er he cried, she there had clamours made. A grand old man stands in the mount erect,     Who holds his shoulders turned tow’rds Damietta,     And looks at Rome as if it were his mirror. His head is fashioned of refined gold,     And of pure silver are the arms and breast;     Then he is brass as far down as the fork. From that point downward all is chosen iron,     Save that the right foot is of kiln-baked clay,     And more he stands on that than on the other. Each part, except the gold, is by a fissure     Asunder cleft, that dripping is with tears,     Which gathered together perforate that cavern. From rock to rock they fall into this valley;
   Acheron, Styx, and Phlegethon they form;     Then downward go along this narrow sluice Unto that point where is no more descending.     They form Cocytus; what that pool may be     Thou shalt behold, so here ’tis not narrated.” And I to him: “If so the present runnel     Doth take its rise in this way from our world,     Why only on this verge appears it to us?” And he to me: “Thou knowest the place is round,     And notwithstanding thou hast journeyed far,     Still to the left descending to the bottom, Thou hast not yet through all the circle turned.     Therefore if something new appear to us,     It should not bring amazement to thy face.” And I again: “Master, where shall be found     Lethe and Phlegethon, for of one thou’rt silent,     And sayest the other of this rain is made?” “In all thy questions truly thou dost please me,”     Replied he; “but the boiling of the red   
Water might well solve one of them thou makest. Thou shalt see Lethe, but outside this moat,     There where the souls repair to lave themselves,     When sin repented of has been removed.” Then said he: “It is time now to abandon     The wood; take heed that thou come after me;     A way the margins make that are not burning, And over them all vapours are extinguished.”
Inferno: Canto XV Now bears us onward one of the hard margins,     And so the brooklet’s mist o’ershadows it,     From fire it saves the water and the dikes. Even as the Flemings, ’twixt Cadsand and Bruges,     Fearing the flood that tow’rds them hurls itself,     Their bulwarks build to put the sea to flight; And as the Paduans along the Brenta,     To guard their villas and their villages,     Or ever Chiarentana feel the heat; In such similitude had those been made,     Albeit not so lofty nor so thick,     Whoever he might be, the master made them. Now were we from the forest so remote,     I could not have discovered where it was,     Even if backward I had turned myself, When we a company of souls encountered,     Who came beside the dike, and every one     Gazed at us, as at evening we are wont To eye each other under a new moon,  
 And so towards us sharpened they their brows     As an old tailor at the needle’s eye. Thus scrutinised by such a family,     By some one I was recognised, who seized     My garment’s hem, and cried out, “What a marvel!” And I, when he stretched forth his arm to me,     On his baked aspect fastened so mine eyes,     That the scorched countenance prevented not His recognition by my intellect;     And bowing down my face unto his own,     I made reply, “Are you here, Ser Brunetto?” And he: “May’t not displease thee, O my son,     If a brief space with thee Brunetto Latini 
  Backward return and let the trail go on.” I said to him: “With all my power I ask it;     And if you wish me to sit down with you,     I will, if he please, for I go with him.” “O son,” he said, “whoever of this herd     A moment stops, lies then a hundred years,     Nor fans himself when smiteth him the fire. Therefore go on; I at thy skirts will come,     And afterward will I rejoin my band,     Which goes lamenting its eternal doom.” I did not dare to go down from the road     Level to walk with him; but my head bowed     I held as one who goeth reverently. And he began: “What fortune or what fate     Before the last day leadeth thee down here?     And who is this that showeth thee the way?” “Up there above us in the life serene,”     I answered him, “I lost me in a valley,     Or ever yet my age had been completed. But yestermorn I turned my back upon it;     This one appeared to me, returning thither,   
And homeward leadeth me along this road.” And he to me: “If thou thy star do follow,     Thou canst not fail thee of a glorious port,     If well I judged in the life beautiful. And if I had not died so prematurely,     Seeing Heaven thus benignant unto thee,     I would have given thee comfort in the work. But that ungrateful and malignant people,     Which of old time from Fesole descended,     And smacks still of the mountain and the granite, Will make itself, for thy good deeds, thy foe;     And it is right; for among crabbed sorbs     It ill befits the sweet fig to bear fruit. Old rumour in the world proclaims them blind;     A people avaricious, envious, proud;
   Take heed that of their customs thou do cleanse thee. Thy fortune so much honour doth reserve thee,     One party and the other shall be hungry     For thee; but far from goat shall be the grass. Their litter let the beasts of Fesole     Make of themselves, nor let them touch the plant,     If any still upon their dunghill rise, In which may yet revive the consecrated     Seed of those Romans, who remained there when     The nest of such great malice it became.” “If my entreaty wholly were fulfilled,”     Replied I to him, “not yet would you be  
 In banishment from human nature placed; For in my mind is fixed, and touches now     My heart the dear and good paternal image     Of you, when in the world from hour to hour You taught me how a man becomes eternal;     And how much I am grateful, while I live     Behoves that in my language be discerned. What you narrate of my career I write,     And keep it to be glossed with other text     By a Lady who can do it, if I reach her. This much will I have manifest to you;    
Provided that my conscience do not chide me,     For whatsoever Fortune I am ready. Such handsel is not new unto mine ears;     Therefore let Fortune turn her wheel around     As it may please her, and the churl his mattock.” My Master thereupon on his right cheek     Did backward turn himself, and looked at me;     Then said: “He listeneth well who noteth it.” Nor speaking less on that account, I go     With Ser Brunetto, and I ask who are     His most known and most eminent companions. And he to me: “To know of some is well;     Of others it were laudable to be silent,     For short would be the time for so much speech. Know them in sum, that all of them were clerks,     And men of letters great and of great fame, 
  In the world tainted with the selfsame sin. Priscian goes yonder with that wretched crowd,     And Francis of Accorso; and thou hadst seen there     If thou hadst had a hankering for such scurf, That one, who by the Servant of the Servants     From Arno was transferred to Bacchiglione,     Where he has left his sin-excited nerves. More would I say, but coming and discoursing     Can be no longer; for that I behold     New smoke uprising yonder from the sand. A people comes with whom I may not be;     Commended unto thee be my Tesoro,
   In which I still live, and no more I ask.” Then he turned round, and seemed to be of those     Who at Verona run for the Green Mantle     Across the plain; and seemed to be among them The one who wins, and not the one who loses.
Inferno: Canto XVI Now was I where was heard the reverberation     Of water falling into the next round,     Like to that humming which the beehives make, When shadows three together started forth,     Running, from out a company that passed     Beneath the rain of the sharp martyrdom. Towards us came they, and each one cried out:     “Stop, thou; for by thy garb to us thou seemest     To be some one of our depraved city.” Ah me! what wounds I saw upon their limbs,     Recent and ancient by the flames burnt in!     It pains me still but to remember it. Unto their cries my Teacher paused attentive;     He turned his face towards me, and “Now wait,”
    He said; “to these we should be courteous. And if it were not for the fire that darts     The nature of this region, I should say     That haste were more becoming thee than them.” As soon as we stood still, they recommenced     The old refrain, and when they overtook us,     Formed of themselves a wheel, all three of them. As champions stripped and oiled are wont to do,    
Watching for their advantage and their hold,     Before they come to blows and thrusts between them, Thus, wheeling round, did every one his visage     Direct to me, so that in opposite wise     His neck and feet continual journey made. And, “If the misery of this soft place     Bring in disdain ourselves and our entreaties,”     Began one, “and our aspect black and blistered, Let the renown of us thy mind incline     To tell us who thou art, who thus securely   
Thy living feet dost move along through Hell. He in whose footprints thou dost see me treading,     Naked and skinless though he now may go,     Was of a greater rank than thou dost think; He was the grandson of the good Gualdrada;     His name was Guidoguerra, and in life     Much did he with his wisdom and his sword. The other, who close by me treads the sand,     Tegghiaio Aldobrandi is, whose fame     Above there in the world should welcome be. And I, who with them on the cross am placed,  
 Jacopo Rusticucci was; and truly     My savage wife, more than aught else, doth harm me.” Could I have been protected from the fire,     Below I should have thrown myself among them,     And think the Teacher would have suffered it; But as I should have burned and baked myself,     My terror overmastered my good will,     Which made me greedy of embracing them. Then I began: “Sorrow and not disdain     Did your condition fix within me so, 
  That tardily it wholly is stripped off, As soon as this my Lord said unto me     Words, on account of which I thought within me     That people such as you are were approaching. I of your city am; and evermore     Your labours and your honourable names     I with affection have retraced and heard. I leave the gall, and go for the sweet fruits     Promised to me by the veracious Leader; 
  But to the centre first I needs must plunge.” “So may the soul for a long while conduct     Those limbs of thine,” did he make answer then,     “And so may thy renown shine after thee, Valour and courtesy, say if they dwell     Within our city, as they used to do,     Or if they wholly have gone out of it; For Guglielmo Borsier, who is in torment     With us of late, and goes there with his comrades,     Doth greatly mortify us with his words.” “The new inhabitants and the sudden gains,     Pride and extravagance have in thee engendered,
   Florence, so that thou weep’st thereat already!” In this wise I exclaimed with face uplifted;     And the three, taking that for my reply,     Looked at each other, as one looks at truth. “If other times so little it doth cost thee,”     Replied they all, “to satisfy another,     Happy art thou, thus speaking at thy will! Therefore, if thou escape from these dark places,     And come to rebehold the beauteous stars,   
When it shall pleasure thee to say, ‘I was,’ See that thou speak of us unto the people.”     Then they broke up the wheel, and in their flight     It seemed as if their agile legs were wings. Not an Amen could possibly be said     So rapidly as they had disappeared;     Wherefore the Master deemed best to depart. I followed him, and little had we gone,     Before the sound of water was so near us,  
 That speaking we should hardly have been heard. Even as that stream which holdeth its own course     The first from Monte Veso tow’rds the East,     Upon the left-hand slope of Apennine, Which is above called Acquacheta, ere     It down descendeth into its low bed,     And at Forli is vacant of that name, Reverberates there above San Benedetto     From Alps, by falling at a single leap,     Where for a thousand there were room enough; Thus downward from a bank precipitate,
    We found resounding that dark-tinted water,     So that it soon the ear would have offended. I had a cord around about me girt,     And therewithal I whilom had designed     To take the panther with the painted skin. After I this had all from me unloosed,     As my Conductor had commanded me,     I reached it to him, gathered up and coiled, Whereat he turned himself to the right side,     And at a little distance from the verge,     He cast it down into that deep abyss. “It must needs be some novelty respond,”     I said within myself, “to the new signal     The Master with his eye is following so.” Ah me! how very cautious men should be     With those who not alone behold the act,     But with their wisdom look into the thoughts! He said to me: “Soon there will upward come     What I await; and what thy thought is dreaming     Must soon reveal itself unto thy sight.” Aye to that truth which has the face of falsehood,    
A man should close his lips as far as may be,     Because without his fault it causes shame; But here I cannot; and, Reader, by the notes     Of this my Comedy to thee I swear,     So may they not be void of lasting favour, Athwart that dense and darksome atmosphere     I saw a figure swimming upward come,     Marvellous unto every steadfast heart, Even as he returns who goeth down     Sometimes to clear an anchor, which has grappled     Reef, or aught else that in the sea is hidden, Who upward stretches, and draws in his feet.
Inferno: Canto XVII “Behold the monster with the pointed tail,     Who cleaves the hills, and breaketh walls and weapons,     Behold him who infecteth all the world.” Thus unto me my Guide began to say,     And beckoned him that he should come to shore,     Near to the confine of the trodden marble; And that uncleanly image of deceit     Came up and thrust ashore its head and bust,     But on the border did not drag its tail. The face was as the face of a just man,     Its semblance outwardly was so benign,     And of a serpent all the trunk beside. Two paws it had, hairy unto the armpits;  
 The back, and breast, and both the sides it had     Depicted o’er with nooses and with shields. With colours more, groundwork or broidery     Never in cloth did Tartars make nor Turks,     Nor were such tissues by Arachne laid. As sometimes wherries lie upon the shore,     That part are in the water, part on land;     And as among the guzzling Germans there, The beaver plants himself to wage his war;     So that vile monster lay upon the border,     Which is of stone, and shutteth in the sand. His tail was wholly quivering in the void,     Contorting upwards the envenomed fork,   
That in the guise of scorpion armed its point. The Guide said: “Now perforce must turn aside     Our way a little, even to that beast     Malevolent, that yonder coucheth him.” We therefore on the right side descended,     And made ten steps upon the outer verge,     Completely to avoid the sand and flame; And after we are come to him, I see     A little farther off upon the sand     A people sitting near the hollow place. Then said to me the Master: “So that full     Experience of this round thou bear away, 
  Now go and see what their condition is. There let thy conversation be concise;     Till thou returnest I will speak with him,     That he concede to us his stalwart shoulders.” Thus farther still upon the outermost     Head of that seventh circle all alone     I went, where sat the melancholy folk. Out of their eyes was gushing forth their woe;     This way, that way, they helped them with their hands 
  Now from the flames and now from the hot soil. Not otherwise in summer do the dogs,     Now with the foot, now with the muzzle, when     By fleas, or flies, or gadflies, they are bitten. When I had turned mine eyes upon the faces     Of some, on whom the dolorous fire is falling,     Not one of them I knew; but I perceived That from the neck of each there hung a pouch,     Which certain colour had, and certain blazon;     And thereupon it seems their eyes are feeding. And as I gazing round me come among them,   
Upon a yellow pouch I azure saw     That had the face and posture of a lion. Proceeding then the current of my sight,     Another of them saw I, red as blood,     Display a goose more white than butter is. And one, who with an azure sow and gravid
   Emblazoned had his little pouch of white,     Said unto me: “What dost thou in this moat? Now get thee gone; and since thou’rt still alive,     Know that a neighbour of mine, Vitaliano,     Will have his seat here on my left-hand side. A Paduan am I with these Florentines;     Full many a time they thunder in mine ears,     Exclaiming, ‘Come the sovereign cavalier, He who shall bring the satchel with three goats;’”     Then twisted he his mouth, and forth he thrust  
 His tongue, like to an ox that licks its nose. And fearing lest my longer stay might vex     Him who had warned me not to tarry long,     Backward I turned me from those weary souls. I found my Guide, who had already mounted     Upon the back of that wild animal,   
And said to me: “Now be both strong and bold. Now we descend by stairways such as these;     Mount thou in front, for I will be midway,     So that the tail may have no power to harm thee.” Such as he is who has so near the ague  
 Of quartan that his nails are blue already,     And trembles all, but looking at the shade; Even such became I at those proffered words;     But shame in me his menaces produced,     Which maketh servant strong before good master. I seated me upon those monstrous shoulders;     I wished to say, and yet the voice came not     As I believed, “Take heed that thou embrace me.” But he, who other times had rescued me     In other peril, soon as I had mounted,     Within his arms encircled and sustained me, And said: “Now, Geryon, bestir thyself;     The circles large, and the descent be little;
   Think of the novel burden which thou hast.” Even as the little vessel shoves from shore,     Backward, still backward, so he thence withdrew;     And when he wholly felt himself afloat, There where his breast had been he turned his tail,  
 And that extended like an eel he moved,     And with his paws drew to himself the air. A greater fear I do not think there was     What time abandoned Phaeton the reins,     Whereby the heavens, as still appears, were scorched; Nor when the wretched Icarus his flanks     Felt stripped of feathers by the melting wax,     His father crying, “An ill way thou takest!” Than was my own, when I perceived myself     On all sides in the air, and saw extinguished     The sight of everything but of the monster. Onward he goeth, swimming slowly, slowly;  
 Wheels and descends, but I perceive it only     By wind upon my face and from below. I heard already on the right the whirlpool     Making a horrible crashing under us;     Whence I thrust out my head with eyes cast downward. Then was I still more fearful of the abyss;     Because I fires beheld, and heard laments,     Whereat I, trembling, all the closer cling. I saw then, for before I had not seen it,     The turning and descending, by great horrors     That were approaching upon divers sides. As falcon who has long been on the wing,     Who, without seeing either lure or bird,
   Maketh the falconer say, “Ah me, thou stoopest,” Descendeth weary, whence he started swiftly,     Thorough a hundred circles, and alights     Far from his master, sullen and disdainful; Even thus did Geryon place us on the bottom,     Close to the bases of the rough-hewn rock,     And being disencumbered of our persons, He sped away as arrow from the string.
Inferno: Canto XVIII There is a place in Hell called Malebolge,     Wholly of stone and of an iron colour,     As is the circle that around it turns. Right in the middle of the field malign     There yawns a well exceeding wide and deep,     Of which its place the structure will recount. Round, then, is that enclosure which remains     Between the well and foot of the high, hard bank,     And has distinct in valleys ten its bottom. As where for the protection of the walls     Many and many moats surround the castles,     The part in which they are a figure forms, Just such an image those presented there;  
 And as about such strongholds from their gates     Unto the outer bank are little bridges, So from the precipice’s base did crags     Project, which intersected dikes and moats,     Unto the well that truncates and collects them. Within this place, down shaken from the back     Of Geryon, we found us; and the Poet     Held to the left, and I moved on behind. Upon my right hand I beheld new anguish,     New torments, and new wielders of the lash,     Wherewith the foremost Bolgia was replete. Down at the bottom
were the sinners naked;     This side the middle came they facing us,     Beyond it, with us, but with greater steps; Even as the Romans, for the mighty host,     The year of Jubilee, upon the bridge,     Have chosen a mode to pass the people over; For all upon one side towards the Castle     Their faces have, and go unto St. Peter’s;  
 On the other side they go towards the Mountain. This side and that, along the livid stone     Beheld I horned demons with great scourges,     Who cruelly were beating them behind. Ah me! how they did make them lift their legs     At the first blows! and sooth not any one     The second waited for, nor for the third. While I was going on, mine eyes by one     Encountered were; and straight I said: “Already     With sight of this one I am not unfed.” Therefore I stayed my feet to make him out,     And with me the sweet Guide came to a stand,
   And to my going somewhat back assented; And he, the scourged one, thought to hide himself,     Lowering his face, but little it availed him;     For said I: “Thou that castest down thine eyes, If false are not the features which thou bearest,     Thou art Venedico Caccianimico;     But what doth bring thee to such pungent sauces?” And he to me: “Unwillingly I tell it;     But forces me thine utterance distinct,     Which makes me recollect the ancient world. I was the one who the fair Ghisola     Induced to grant the wishes of the Marquis, 
  Howe’er the shameless story may be told. Not the sole Bolognese am I who weeps here;     Nay, rather is this place so full of them,     That not so many tongues to-day are taught ’Twixt Reno and Savena to say ‘sipa;’     And if thereof thou wishest pledge or proof,     Bring to thy mind our avaricious heart.” While speaking in this manner, with his scourge     A demon smote him, and said: “Get thee gone  
 Pander, there are no women here for coin.” I joined myself again unto mine Escort;     Thereafterward with footsteps few we came     To where a crag projected from the bank. This very easily did we ascend,     And turning to the right along its ridge,     From those eternal circles we departed. When we were there, where it is hollowed out     Beneath, to give a passage to the scourged,     The Guide said: “Wait, and see that on thee strike The vision of those others evil-born,     Of whom thou hast not yet beheld the faces,     Because together with us they have gone.” From the old bridge we looked upon the train     Which tow’rds us came upon the other border,  
 And which the scourges in like manner smite. And the good Master, without my inquiring,     Said to me: “See that tall one who is coming,     And for his pain seems not to shed a tear; Still what a royal aspect he retains!     That Jason is, who by his heart and cunning     The Colchians of the Ram made destitute. He by the isle of Lemnos passed along     After the daring women pitiless     Had unto death devoted all their males. There with his tokens and with ornate words
    Did he deceive Hypsipyle, the maiden     Who first, herself, had all the rest deceived. There did he leave her pregnant and forlorn;     Such sin unto such punishment condemns him,     And also for Medea is vengeance done. With him go those who in such wise deceive;     And this sufficient be of the first valley     To know, and those that in its jaws it holds.” We were already where the narrow path     Crosses athwart the second dike, and forms     Of that a buttress for another arch. Thence we heard people, who are making moan     In the next Bolgia, snorting with their muzzles,
   And with their palms beating upon themselves The margins were incrusted with a mould     By exhalation from below, that sticks there,     And with the eyes and nostrils wages war. The bottom is so deep, no place suffices     To give us sight of it, without ascending     The arch’s back, where most the crag impends. Thither we came, and thence down in the moat     I saw a people smothered in a filth
   That out of human privies seemed to flow; And whilst below there with mine eye I search,     I saw one with his head so foul with ordure,     It was not clear if he were clerk or layman. He screamed to me: “Wherefore art thou so eager     To look at me more than the other foul ones?”     And I to him: “Because, if I remember, I have already seen thee with dry hair,     And thou’rt Alessio Interminei of Lucca;     Therefore I eye thee more than all the others.” And he thereon, belabouring his pumpkin:     “The flatteries have submerged me here below,     Wherewith my tongue was never surfeited.” Then said to me the Guide: “See that thou thrust     Thy visage somewhat farther in advance,  
 That with thine eyes thou well the face attain Of that uncleanly and dishevelled drab,     Who there doth scratch herself with filthy nails,     And crouches now, and now on foot is standing. Thais the harlot is it, who replied     Unto her paramour, when he said, ‘Have I     Great gratitude from thee?’—‘Nay, marvellous;’ And herewith let our sight be satisfied.”
Inferno: Canto XIX O Simon Magus, O forlorn disciples,     Ye who the things of God, which ought to be     The brides of holiness, rapaciously For silver and for gold do prostitute,     Now it behoves for you the trumpet sound,     Because in this third Bolgia ye abide. We had already on the following tomb     Ascended to that portion of the crag     Which o’er the middle of the moat hangs plumb. Wisdom supreme, O how great art thou showest     In heaven, in earth, and in the evil world,     And with what justice doth thy power distribute! I saw upon the sides and on the bottom  
 The livid stone with perforations filled,     All of one size, and every one was round. To me less ample seemed they not, nor greater     Than those that in my beautiful Saint John     Are fashioned for the place of the baptisers, And one of which, not many years ago,     I broke for some one, who was drowning in it;     Be this a seal all men to undeceive. Out of the mouth of each one there protruded     The feet of a transgressor, and the legs  
 Up to the calf, the rest within remained. In all of them the soles were both on fire;     Wherefore the joints so violently quivered,     They would have snapped asunder withes and bands. Even as the flame of unctuous things is wont     To move upon the outer surface only,     So likewise was it there from heel to point. “Master, who is that one who writhes himself,     More than his other comrades quivering,”     I said, “and whom a redder flame is sucking?” And he to me: “If thou wilt have me bear thee 
  Down there along that bank which lowest lies,     From him thou’lt know his errors and himself.” And I: “What pleases thee, to me is pleasing;     Thou art my Lord, and knowest that I depart not     From thy desire, and knowest what is not spoken.” Straightway upon the fourth dike we arrived;     We turned, and on the left-hand side descended     Down to the bottom full of holes and narrow. And the good Master yet from off his haunch     Deposed me not, till to the hole he brought me     Of him who so lamented with his shanks. “Whoe’er thou art, that standest upside down,
    O doleful soul, implanted like a stake,”     To say began I, “if thou canst, speak out.” I stood even as the friar who is confessing   
The false assassin, who, when he is fixed,     Recalls him, so that death may be delayed. And he cried out: “Dost thou stand there already,     Dost thou stand there already, Boniface?     By many years the record lied to me. Art thou so early satiate with that wealth,     For which thou didst not fear to take by fraud     The beautiful Lady, and then work her woe?” Such I became, as people are who stand,     Not comprehending what is answered them, 
  As if bemocked, and know not how to answer. Then said Virgilius: “Say to him straightway,     ‘I am not he, I am not he thou thinkest.’”     And I replied as was imposed on me. Whereat the spirit writhed with both his feet,     Then, sighing, with a voice of lamentation     Said to me: “Then what wantest thou of me? If who I am thou carest so much to know,     That thou on that account hast crossed the bank, 
  Know that I vested was with the great mantle; And truly was I son of the She-bear,     So eager to advance the cubs, that wealth     Above, and here myself, I pocketed. Beneath my head the others are dragged down     Who have preceded me in simony,     Flattened along the fissure of the rock. Below there I shall likewise fall, whenever     That one shall come who I believed thou wast,     What time the sudden question I proposed. But longer I my feet already toast,     And here have been in this way upside down,  
 Than he will planted stay with reddened feet; For after him shall come of fouler deed     From tow’rds the west a Pastor without law,     Such as befits to cover him and me. New Jason will he be, of whom we read     In Maccabees; and as his king was pliant,     So he who governs France shall be to this one.” I do not know if I were here too bold,     That him I answered only in this metre:     “I pray thee tell me now how great a treasure Our Lord demanded of Saint Peter first,     Before he put the keys into his keeping?     Truly he nothing asked but ‘Follow me.’ Nor Peter nor the rest asked of Matthias 
  Silver or gold, when he by lot was chosen     Unto the place the guilty soul had lost. Therefore stay here, for thou art justly punished,     And keep safe guard o’er the ill-gotten money,     Which caused thee to be valiant against Charles. And were it not that still forbids it me     The reverence for the keys superlative     Thou hadst in keeping in the gladsome life, I would make use of words more grievous still;     Because your avarice afflicts the world,  
 Trampling the good and lifting the depraved. The Evangelist you Pastors had in mind,     When she who sitteth upon many waters     To fornicate with kings by him was seen; The same who with the seven heads was born,     And power and strength from the ten horns received,     So long as virtue to her spouse was pleasing. Ye have made yourselves a god of gold and silver;     And from the idolater how differ ye,     Save that he one, and ye a hundred worship? Ah, Constantine! of how much ill was mother, 
  Not thy conversion, but that marriage dower     Which the first wealthy Father took from thee!” And while I sang to him such notes as these,     Either that anger or that conscience stung him,     He struggled violently with both his feet. I think in sooth that it my Leader pleased,     With such contented lip he listened ever    
Unto the sound of the true words expressed. Therefore with both his arms he took me up,     And when he had me all upon his breast,     Remounted by the way where he descended. Nor did he tire to have me clasped to him;     But bore me to the summit of the arch     Which from the fourth dike to the fifth is passage. There tenderly he laid his burden down,     Tenderly on the crag uneven and steep,     That would have been hard passage for the goats: Thence was unveiled to me another valley.
Inferno: Canto XX Of a new pain behoves me to make verses     And give material to the twentieth canto     Of the first song, which is of the submerged. I was already thoroughly disposed     To peer down into the uncovered depth,     Which bathed itself with tears of agony; And people saw I through the circular valley,     Silent and weeping, coming at the pace     Which in this world the Litanies assume. As lower down my sight descended on them,     Wondrously each one seemed to be distorted     From chin to the beginning of the chest; For tow’rds the reins the countenance was turned, 
  And backward it behoved them to advance,     As to look forward had been taken from them. Perchance indeed by violence of palsy     Some one has been thus wholly turned awry;     But I ne’er saw it, nor believe it can be. As God may let thee, Reader, gather fruit     From this thy reading, think now for thyself     How I could ever keep my face unmoistened, When our own image near me I beheld     Distorted so, the weeping of the eyes     Along the fissure bathed the hinder parts. Truly I wept, leaning upon a peak 
  Of the hard crag, so that my Escort said     To me: “Art thou, too, of the other fools? Here pity lives when it is wholly dead;     Who is a greater reprobate than he     Who feels compassion at the doom divine? Lift up, lift up thy head, and see for whom     Opened the earth before the Thebans’ eyes;     Wherefore they all cried: ‘Whither rushest thou, Amphiaraus? Why dost leave the war?’     And downward ceased he not to fall amain 
  As far as Minos, who lays hold on all. See, he has made a bosom of his shoulders!     Because he wished to see too far before him     Behind he looks, and backward goes his way: Behold Tiresias, who his semblance changed,     When from a male a female he became,     His members being all of them transformed; And afterwards was forced to strike once more     The two entangled serpents with his rod,  
 Ere he could have again his manly plumes. That Aruns is, who backs the other’s belly,     Who in the hills of Luni, there where grubs     The Carrarese who houses underneath, Among the marbles white a cavern had     For his abode; whence to behold the stars     And sea, the view was not cut off from him. And she there, who is covering up her breasts,     Which thou beholdest not, with loosened tresses,     And on that side has all the hairy skin, Was Manto, who made quest through many lands,     Afterwards tarried there where I was born;     Whereof I would thou list to me a little. After her father had from life departed,     And the city of Bacchus had become enslaved, 
  She a long season wandered through the world. Above in beauteous Italy lies a lake     At the Alp’s foot that shuts in Germany     Over Tyrol, and has the name Benaco. By a thousand springs, I think, and more, is bathed,     ’Twixt Garda and Val Camonica, Pennino,     With water that grows stagnant in that lake. Midway a place is where the Trentine Pastor,     And he of Brescia, and the Veronese     Might give his blessing, if he passed that way. Sitteth Peschiera, fortress fair and strong,     To front the Brescians and the Bergamasks,    
Where round about the bank descendeth lowest. There of necessity must fall whatever     In bosom of Benaco cannot stay,     And grows a river down through verdant pastures. Soon as the water doth begin to run,     No more Benaco is it called, but Mincio,     Far as Governo, where it falls in Po. Not far it runs before it finds a plain     In which it spreads itself, and makes it marshy,   
And oft ’tis wont in summer to be sickly. Passing that way the virgin pitiless     Land in the middle of the fen descried,     Untilled and naked of inhabitants; There to escape all human intercourse,     She with her servants stayed, her arts to practise     And lived, and left her empty body there. The men, thereafter, who were scattered round,     Collected in that place, which was made strong     By the lagoon it had on every side; They built their city over those dead bones,     And, after her who first the place selected,     Mantua named it, without other omen. Its people once within more crowded were, 
 Ere the stupidity of Casalodi     From Pinamonte had received deceit. Therefore I caution thee, if e’er thou hearest     Originate my city otherwise,     No falsehood may the verity defraud.” And I: “My Master, thy discourses are     To me so certain, and so take my faith,     That unto me the rest would be spent coals. But tell me of the people who are passing,     If any one note-worthy thou beholdest,     For only unto that my mind reverts.” Then said he to me: “He who from the cheek  
 Thrusts out his beard upon his swarthy shoulders     Was, at the time when Greece was void of males, So that there scarce remained one in the cradle,     An augur, and with Calchas gave the moment,     In Aulis, when to sever the first cable. Eryphylus his name was, and so sings     My lofty Tragedy in some part or other;    
That knowest thou well, who knowest the whole of it. The next, who is so slender in the flanks,     Was Michael Scott, who of a verity     Of magical illusions knew the game. Behold Guido Bonatti, behold Asdente,     Who now unto his leather and his thread     Would fain have stuck, but he too late repents. Behold the wretched ones, who left the needle,     The spool and rock, and made them fortune-tellers; 
  They wrought their magic spells with herb and image. But come now, for already holds the confines     Of both the hemispheres, and under Seville     Touches the ocean-wave, Cain and the thorns, And yesternight the moon was round already;     Thou shouldst remember well it did not harm thee     From time to time within the forest deep.” Thus spake he to me, and we walked the while.
Inferno: Canto XXI From bridge to bridge thus, speaking other things     Of which my Comedy cares not to sing,     We came along, and held the summit, when We halted to behold another fissure     Of Malebolge and other vain laments;     And I beheld it marvellously dark. As in the Arsenal of the Venetians
   Boils in the winter the tenacious pitch     To smear their unsound vessels o’er again, For sail they cannot; and instead thereof     One makes his vessel new, and one recaulks     The ribs of that which many a voyage has made; One hammers at the prow, one at the stern,     This one makes oars, and that one cordage twists,     Another mends the mainsail and the mizzen; Thus, not by fire, but by the art divine,     Was boiling down below there a dense pitch     Which upon every side the bank belimed. I saw it, but I did not see within it     Aught but the bubbles that the boiling raised,     And all swell up and resubside compressed. The while below there fixedly I gazed,     My Leader, crying out: “Beware, beware!”     Drew me unto himself from where I stood. Then I turned round, as one who is impatient     To see what it behoves him to escape, 
  And whom a sudden terror doth unman, Who, while he looks, delays not his departure;     And I beheld behind us a black devil,     Running along upon the crag, approach. Ah, how ferocious was he in his aspect!     And how he seemed to me in action ruthless,     With open wings and light upon his feet! His shoulders, which sharp-pointed were and high,   
A sinner did encumber with both haunches,     And he held clutched the sinews of the feet. From off our bridge, he said: “O Malebranche,     Behold one of the elders of Saint Zita;     Plunge him beneath, for I return for others Unto that town, which is well furnished with them.     All there are barrators, except Bonturo;     No into Yes for money there is changed.” He hurled him down, and over the hard crag     Turned round, and never was a mastiff loosened     In so much hurry to pursue a thief. The other sank, and rose again face downward;     But the demons, under cover of the bridge,     Cried: “Here the Santo Volto has no place! Here swims one otherwise than in the Serchio;  
 Therefore, if for our gaffs thou wishest not,     Do not uplift thyself above the pitch.” They seized him then with more than a hundred rakes;     They said: “It here behoves thee to dance covered,     That, if thou canst, thou secretly mayest pilfer.” Not otherwise the cooks their scullions make
   Immerse into the middle of the caldron     The meat with hooks, so that it may not float. Said the good Master to me: “That it be not     Apparent thou art here, crouch thyself down     Behind a jag, that thou mayest have some screen; And for no outrage that is done to me     Be thou afraid, because these things I know,     For once before was I in such a scuffle.” Then he passed on beyond the bridge’s head,     And as upon the sixth bank he arrived, 
  Need was for him to have a steadfast front. With the same fury, and the same uproar,     As dogs leap out upon a mendicant,     Who on a sudden begs, where’er he stops, They issued from beneath the little bridge,     And turned against him all their grappling-irons;   
But he cried out: “Be none of you malignant! Before those hooks of yours lay hold of me,     Let one of you step forward, who may hear me,     And then take counsel as to grappling me.” They all cried out: “Let Malacoda go;”     Whereat one started, and the rest stood still,     And he came to him, saying: “What avails it?” “Thinkest thou, Malacoda, to behold me
    Advanced into this place,” my Master said,     “Safe hitherto from all your skill of fence, Without the will divine, and fate auspicious?     Let me go on, for it in Heaven is willed     That I another show this savage road.” Then was his arrogance so humbled in him,     That he let fall his grapnel at his feet,     And to the others said: “Now strike him not.” And unto me my Guide: “O thou, who sittest     Among the splinters of the bridge crouched down,     Securely now return to me again.” Wherefore I started and came swiftly to him;     And all the devils forward thrust themselves,     So that I feared they would not keep their compact. And thus beheld I once afraid the soldiers   
Who issued under safeguard from Caprona,     Seeing themselves among so many foes. Close did I press myself with all my person     Beside my Leader, and turned not mine eyes     From off their countenance, which was not good. They lowered their rakes, and “Wilt thou have me hit him,” 
  They said to one another, “on the rump?”     And answered: “Yes; see that thou nick him with it.” But the same demon who was holding parley     With my Conductor turned him very quickly,     And said: “Be quiet, be quiet, Scarmiglione;” Then said to us: “You can no farther go     Forward upon this crag, because is lying  
 All shattered, at the bottom, the sixth arch. And if it still doth please you to go onward,     Pursue your way along upon this rock;     Near is another crag that yields a path. Yesterday, five hours later than this hour,     One thousand and two hundred sixty-six     Years were complete, that here the way was broken. I send in that direction some of mine     To see if any one doth air himself;     Go ye with them; for they will not be vicious. Step forward, Alichino and Calcabrina,”     Began he to cry out, “and thou, Cagnazzo;     And Barbariccia, do thou guide the ten. Come forward, Libicocco and Draghignazzo,     And tusked Ciriatto and Graffiacane,     And Farfarello and mad Rubicante; Search ye all round about the boiling pitch; 
  Let these be safe as far as the next crag,     That all unbroken passes o’er the dens.” “O me! what is it, Master, that I see?     Pray let us go,” I said, “without an escort,     If thou knowest how, since for myself I ask none. If thou art as observant as thy wont is,     Dost thou not see that they do gnash their teeth,     And with their brows are threatening woe to us?” And he to me: “I will not have thee fear;     Let them gnash on, according to their fancy,     Because they do it for those boiling wretches.” Along the left-hand dike they wheeled about;     But first had each one thrust his tongue between     His teeth towards their leader for a signal; And he had made a trumpet of his rump.
Inferno: Canto XXII I have erewhile seen horsemen moving camp,     Begin the storming, and their muster make,
    And sometimes starting off for their escape; Vaunt-couriers have I seen upon your land,     O Aretines, and foragers go forth,     Tournaments stricken, and the joustings run, Sometimes with trumpets and sometimes with bells,     With kettle-drums, and signals of the castles,     And with our own, and with outlandish things, But never yet with bagpipe so uncouth 
  Did I see horsemen move, nor infantry,     Nor ship by any sign of land or star. We went upon our way with the ten demons;     Ah, savage company! but in the church     With saints, and in the tavern with the gluttons! Ever upon the pitch was my intent,     To see the whole condition of that Bolgia,     And of the people who therein were burned. Even as the dolphins, when they make a sign     To mariners by arching of the back,
   That they should counsel take to save their vessel, Thus sometimes, to alleviate his pain,     One of the sinners would display his back,     And in less time conceal it than it lightens. As on the brink of water in a ditch     The frogs stand only with their muzzles out,     So that they hide their feet and other bulk, So upon every side the sinners stood;     But ever as Barbariccia near them came, 
  Thus underneath the boiling they withdrew. I saw, and still my heart doth shudder at it,     One waiting thus, even as it comes to pass     One frog remains, and down another dives; And Graffiacan, who most confronted him,     Grappled him by his tresses smeared with pitch,     And drew him up, so that he seemed an otter. I knew, before, the names of all of them,     So had I noted them when they were chosen,     And when they called each other, listened how. “O Rubicante, see that thou do lay     Thy claws upon him, so that thou mayst flay him,”
   Cried all together the accursed ones. And I: “My Master, see to it, if thou canst,     That thou mayst know who is the luckless wight,     Thus come into his adversaries’ hands.” Near to the side of him my Leader drew,     Asked of him whence he was; and he replied:     “I in the kingdom of Navarre was born; My mother placed me servant to a lord,     For she had borne me to a ribald knave,   
Destroyer of himself and of his things. Then I domestic was of good King Thibault;     I set me there to practise barratry,     For which I pay the reckoning in this heat.” And Ciriatto, from whose mouth projected,     On either side, a tusk, as in a boar,     Caused him to feel how one of them could rip. Among malicious cats the mouse had come;     But Barbariccia clasped him in his arms,     And said: “Stand ye aside, while I enfork him.” And to my Master he turned round his head;  
 “Ask him again,” he said, “if more thou wish     To know from him, before some one destroy him.” The Guide: “Now tell then of the other culprits;     Knowest thou any one who is a Latian,     Under the pitch?” And he: “I separated Lately from one who was a neighbour to it;     Would that I still were covered up with him,     For I should fear not either claw nor hook!” And Libicocco: “We have borne too much;”     And with his grapnel seized him by the arm, 
  So that, by rending, he tore off a tendon. Eke Draghignazzo wished to pounce upon him     Down at the legs; whence their Decurion     Turned round and round about with evil look. When they again somewhat were pacified,     Of him, who still was looking at his wound, 
  Demanded my Conductor without stay: “Who was that one, from whom a luckless parting     Thou sayest thou hast made, to come ashore?”     And he replied: “It was the Friar Gomita, He of Gallura, vessel of all fraud,     Who had the enemies of his Lord in hand,     And dealt so with them each exults thereat; Money he took, and let them smoothly off,     As he says; and in other offices     A barrator was he, not mean but sovereign. Foregathers with him one Don Michael Zanche     Of Logodoro; and of Sardinia    
To gossip never do their tongues feel tired. O me! see that one, how he grinds his teeth;     Still farther would I speak, but am afraid     Lest he to scratch my itch be making ready.” And the grand Provost, turned to Farfarello,     Who rolled his eyes about as if to strike,     Said: “Stand aside there, thou malicious bird.” “If you desire either to see or hear,”     The terror-stricken recommenced thereon, 
  “Tuscans or Lombards, I will make them come. But let the Malebranche cease a little,     So that these may not their revenges fear,     And I, down sitting in this very place, For one that I am will make seven come,     When I shall whistle, as our custom is     To do whenever one of us comes out.” Cagnazzo at these words his muzzle lifted,     Shaking his head, and said: “Just hear the trick  
 Which he has thought of, down to throw himself!” Whence he, who snares in great abundance had,     Responded: “I by far too cunning am,     When I procure for mine a greater sadness.” Alichin held not in, but running counter     Unto the rest, said to him: “If thou dive,     I will not follow thee upon the gallop, But I will beat my wings above the pitch;     The height be left, and be the bank a shield
   To see if thou alone dost countervail us.” O thou who readest, thou shalt hear new sport!     Each to the other side his eyes averted;     He first, who most reluctant was to do it. The Navarrese selected well his time;     Planted his feet on land, and in a moment     Leaped, and released himself from their design. Whereat each one was suddenly stung with shame,     But he most who was cause of the defeat;     Therefore he moved, and cried: “Thou art o’ertakern.” But little it availed, for wings could not     Outstrip the fear; the other one went under,     And, flying, upward he his breast directed; Not otherwise the duck upon a sudden 
  Dives under, when the falcon is approaching,     And upward he returneth cross and weary. Infuriate at the mockery, Calcabrina     Flying behind him followed close, desirous     The other should escape, to have a quarrel. And when the barrator had disappeared,     He turned his talons upon his companion,
   And grappled with him right above the moat. But sooth the other was a doughty sparhawk     To clapperclaw him well; and both of them     Fell in the middle of the boiling pond. A sudden intercessor was the heat;     But ne’ertheless of rising there was naught,     To such degree they had their wings belimed. Lamenting with the others, Barbariccia     Made four of them fly to the other side     With all their gaffs, and very speedily This side and that they to their posts descended;     They stretched their hooks towards the pitch-ensnared,     Who were already baked within the crust, And in this manner busied did we leave them.
Inferno: Canto XXIII Silent, alone, and without company     We went, the one in front, the other after,     As go the Minor Friars along their way. Upon the fable of Aesop was directed     My thought, by reason of the present quarrel,     Where he has spoken of the frog and mouse; For ‘mo’ and ‘issa’ are not more alike     Than this one is to that, if well we couple     End and beginning with a steadfast mind. And even as one thought from another springs,   
So afterward from that was born another,     Which the first fear within me double made. Thus did I ponder: “These on our account     Are laughed to scorn, with injury and scoff     So great, that much I think it must annoy them. If anger be engrafted on ill-will,     They will come after us more merciless     Than dog upon the leveret which he seizes,” I felt my hair stand all on end already     With terror, and stood backwardly intent,     When said I: “Master, if thou hidest not Thyself and me forthwith, of Malebranche
    I am in dread; we have them now behind us;     I so imagine them, I already feel them.” And he: “If I were made of leaded glass,     Thine outward image I should not attract     Sooner to me than I imprint the inner. Just now thy thoughts came in among my own,     With similar attitude and similar face,     So that of both one counsel sole I made. If peradventure the right bank so slope     That we to the next Bolgia can descend,     We shall escape from the imagined chase.” Not yet he finished rendering such opinion,     When I beheld them come with outstretched wings,     Not far remote, with will to seize upon us. My Leader on a sudden seized me up, 
  Even as a mother who by noise is wakened,     And close beside her sees the enkindled flames, Who takes her son, and flies, and does not stop,     Having more care of him than of herself,     So that she clothes her only with a shift; And downward from the top of the hard bank     Supine he gave him to the pendent rock,     That one side of the other Bolgia walls. Ne’er ran so swiftly water through a sluice     To turn the wheel of any land-built mill,     When nearest to the paddles it approaches, As did my Master down along that border,     Bearing me with him on his breast away,     As his own son, and not as a companion. Hardly the bed of the ravine below     His feet had reached, ere they had reached the hill 
  Right over us; but he was not afraid; For the high Providence, which had ordained     To place them ministers of the fifth moat,     The power of thence departing took from all. A painted people there below we found,     Who went about with footsteps very slow,     Weeping and in their semblance tired and vanquished. They had on mantles with the hoods low down
   Before their eyes, and fashioned of the cut     That in Cologne they for the monks are made. Without, they gilded are so that it dazzles;     But inwardly all leaden and so heavy     That Frederick used to put them on of straw. O everlastingly fatiguing mantle!     Again we turned us, still to the left hand     Along with them, intent on their sad plaint; But owing to the weight, that weary folk     Came on so tardily, that we were new     In company at each motion of the haunch. Whence I unto my Leader: “See thou find     Some one who may by deed or name be known,  
 And thus in going move thine eye about.” And one, who understood the Tuscan speech,     Cried to us from behind: “Stay ye your feet,     Ye, who so run athwart the dusky air! Perhaps thou’lt have from me what thou demandest.”     Whereat the Leader turned him, and said: “Wait,     And then according to his pace proceed.” I stopped, and two beheld I show great haste     Of spirit, in their faces, to be with me;     But the burden and the narrow way delayed them. When they came up, long with an eye askance
   They scanned me without uttering a word.     Then to each other turned, and said together: “He by the action of his throat seems living;     And if they dead are, by what privilege     Go they uncovered by the heavy stole?” Then said to me: “Tuscan, who to the college     Of miserable hypocrites art come,     Do not disdain to tell us who thou art.” And I to them: “Born was I, and grew up     In the great town on the fair river of Arno,     And with the body am I’ve always had. But who are ye, in whom there trickles down     Along your cheeks such grief as I behold?     And what pain is upon you, that so sparkles?” And one replied to me: “These orange cloaks     Are made of lead so heavy, that the weights 
  Cause in this way their balances to creak. Frati Gaudenti were we, and Bolognese;     I Catalano, and he Loderingo     Named, and together taken by thy city, As the wont is to take one man alone,     For maintenance of its peace; and we were such     That still it is apparent round Gardingo.” “O Friars,” began I, “your iniquitous. . .”     But said no more; for to mine eyes there rushed     One crucified with three stakes on the ground. When me he saw, he writhed himself all over,     Blowing into his beard with suspirations; 
  And the Friar Catalan, who noticed this, Said to me: “This transfixed one, whom thou seest,     Counselled the Pharisees that it was meet     To put one man to torture for the people. Crosswise and naked is he on the path,     As thou perceivest; and he needs must feel,     Whoever passes, first how much he weighs; And in like mode his father-in-law is punished     Within this moat, and the others of the council,     Which for the Jews was a malignant seed.” And thereupon I saw Virgilius marvel     O’er him who was extended on the cross     So vilely in eternal banishment. Then he directed to the Friar this voice: 
  “Be not displeased, if granted thee, to tell us     If to the right hand any pass slope down By which we two may issue forth from here,     Without constraining some of the black angels     To come and extricate us from this deep.” Then he made answer: “Nearer than thou hopest     There is a rock, that forth from the great circle     Proceeds, and crosses all the cruel valleys, Save that at this ’tis broken, and does not bridge it;     You will be able to mount up the ruin,  
 That sidelong slopes and at the bottom rises.” The Leader stood awhile with head bowed down;     Then said: “The business badly he recounted     Who grapples with his hook the sinners yonder.” And the Friar: “Many of the Devil’s vices     Once heard I at Bologna, and among them,     That he’s a liar and the father of lies.” Thereat my Leader with great strides went on,     Somewhat disturbed with anger in his looks;     Whence from the heavy-laden I departed After the prints of his beloved feet.
Inferno: Canto XXIV In that part of the youthful year wherein     The Sun his locks beneath Aquarius tempers,     And now the nights draw near to half the day, What time the hoar-frost copies on the ground     The outward semblance of her sister white,     But little lasts the temper of her pen, The husbandman, whose forage faileth him,     Rises, and looks, and seeth the champaign  
 All gleaming white, whereat he beats his flank, Returns in doors, and up and down laments,     Like a poor wretch, who knows not what to do;     Then he returns and hope revives again, Seeing the world has changed its countenance     In little time, and takes his shepherd’s crook,     And forth the little lambs to pasture drives. Thus did the Master fill me with alarm,     When I beheld his forehead so disturbed,   
And to the ailment came as soon the plaster. For as we came unto the ruined bridge,     The Leader turned to me with that sweet look     Which at the mountain’s foot I first beheld. His arms he opened, after some advisement     Within himself elected, looking first     Well at the ruin, and laid hold of me. And even as he who acts and meditates,     For aye it seems that he provides beforehand,     So upward lifting me towards the summit Of a huge rock, he scanned another crag,     Saying: “To that one grapple afterwards,  
 But try first if ’tis such that it will hold thee.” This was no way for one clothed with a cloak;     For hardly we, he light, and I pushed upward,     Were able to ascend from jag to jag. And had it not been, that upon that precinct  
Shorter was the ascent than on the other,     He I know not, but I had been dead beat. But because Malebolge tow’rds the mouth     Of the profoundest well is all inclining,     The structure of each valley doth import That one bank rises and the other sinks.     Still we arrived at length upon the point     Wherefrom the last stone breaks itself asunder. The breath was from my lungs so milked away, 
  When I was up, that I could go no farther,     Nay, I sat down upon my first arrival. “Now it behoves thee thus to put off sloth,”     My Master said; “for sitting upon down,     Or under quilt, one cometh not to fame, Withouten which whoso his life consumes     Such vestige leaveth of himself on earth,     As smoke in air or in the water foam. And therefore raise thee up, o’ercome the anguish 
  With spirit that o’ercometh every battle,     If with its heavy body it sink not. A longer stairway it behoves thee mount;     ’Tis not enough from these to have departed;     Let it avail thee, if thou understand me.” Then I uprose, showing myself provided     Better with breath than I did feel myself,     And said: “Go on, for I am strong and bold.” Upward we took our way along the crag,
   Which jagged was, and narrow, and difficult,     And more precipitous far than that before. Speaking I went, not to appear exhausted;     Whereat a voice from the next moat came forth,     Not well adapted to articulate words. I know not what it said, though o’er the back     I now was of the arch that passes there;     But he seemed moved to anger who was speaking. I was bent downward, but my living eyes  
 Could not attain the bottom, for the dark;     Wherefore I: “Master, see that thou arrive At the next round, and let us descend the wall;     For as from hence I hear and understand not,     So I look down and nothing I distinguish.” “Other response,” he said, “I make thee not,     Except the doing; for the modest asking     Ought to be followed by the deed in silence.” We from the bridge descended at its head,     Where it connects itself with the eighth bank,     And then was manifest to me the Bolgia; And I beheld therein a terrible throng     Of serpents, and of such a monstrous kind, 
  That the remembrance still congeals my blood Let Libya boast no longer with her sand;     For if Chelydri, Jaculi, and Phareae     She breeds, with Cenchri and with Amphisbaena, Neither so many plagues nor so malignant
   E’er showed she with all Ethiopia,     Nor with whatever on the Red Sea is! Among this cruel and most dismal throng     People were running naked and affrighted.     Without the hope of hole or heliotrope. They had their hands with serpents bound behind them;     These riveted upon their reins the tail     And head, and were in front of them entwined. And lo! at one who was upon our side     There darted forth a serpent, which transfixed him     There where the neck is knotted to the shoulders. Nor ‘O’ so quickly e’er, nor ‘I’ was written,   
As he took fire, and burned; and ashes wholly     Behoved it that in falling he became. And when he on the ground was thus destroyed,     The ashes drew together, and of themselves     Into himself they instantly returned. Even thus by the great sages ’tis confessed     The phoenix dies, and then is born again,  
 When it approaches its five-hundredth year; On herb or grain it feeds not in its life,     But only on tears of incense and amomum,     And nard and myrrh are its last winding-sheet. And as he is who falls, and knows not how,     By force of demons who to earth down drag him,     Or other oppilation that binds man, When he arises and around him looks,     Wholly bewildered by the mighty anguish     Which he has suffered, and in looking sighs; Such was that sinner after he had risen.     Justice of God! O how severe it is,  
 That blows like these in vengeance poureth down! The Guide thereafter asked him who he was;     Whence he replied: “I rained from Tuscany     A short time since into this cruel gorge. A bestial life, and not a human, pleased me,  
Even as the mule I was; I’m Vanni Fucci,     Beast, and Pistoia was my worthy den.” And I unto the Guide: “Tell him to stir not,     And ask what crime has thrust him here below,     For once a man of blood and wrath I saw him.” And the sinner, who had heard, dissembled not,     But unto me directed mind and face,     And with a melancholy shame was painted. Then said: “It pains me more that thou hast caught me  
 Amid this misery where thou seest me,     Than when I from the other life was taken. What thou demandest I cannot deny;     So low am I put down because I robbed     The sacristy of the fair ornaments, And falsely once ’twas laid upon another;     But that thou mayst not such a sight enjoy,     If thou shalt e’er be out of the dark places, Thine ears to my announcement ope and hear:
   Pistoia first of Neri groweth meagre;     Then Florence doth renew her men and manners; Mars draws a vapour up from Val di Magra,     Which is with turbid clouds enveloped round,     And with impetuous and bitter tempest Over Campo Picen shall be the battle;     When it shall suddenly rend the mist asunder,     So that each Bianco shall thereby be smitten. And this I’ve said that it may give thee pain.”
Inferno: Canto XXV At the conclusion of his words, the thief     Lifted his hands aloft with both the figs,     Crying: “Take that, God, for at thee I aim them.” From that time forth the serpents were my friends;     For one entwined itself about his neck     As if it said: “I will not thou speak more;” And round his arms another, and rebound him,     Clinching itself together so in front,     That with them he could not a motion make. Pistoia, ah, Pistoia! why resolve not 
  To burn thyself to ashes and so perish,     Since in ill-doing thou thy seed excellest? Through all the sombre circles of this Hell,     Spirit I saw not against God so proud,     Not he who fell at Thebes down from the walls! He fled away, and spake no further word;  
 And I beheld a Centaur full of rage     Come crying out: “Where is, where is the scoffer?” I do not think Maremma has so many     Serpents as he had all along his back,     As far as where our countenance begins. Upon the shoulders, just behind the nape,     With wings wide open was a dragon lying,     And he sets fire to all that he encounters. My Master said: “That one is Cacus, who     Beneath the rock upon Mount Aventine     Created oftentimes a lake of blood. He goes not on the same road with his brothers,     By reason of the fraudulent theft he made  
 Of the great herd, which he had near to him; Whereat his tortuous actions ceased beneath     The mace of Hercules, who peradventure     Gave him a hundred, and he felt not ten.” While he was speaking thus, he had passed by,     And spirits three had underneath us come,     Of which nor I aware was, nor my Leader, Until what time they shouted: “Who are you?”     On which account our story made a halt,     And then we were intent on them alone. I did not know them; but it came to pass,     As it is wont to happen by some chance,   
That one to name the other was compelled, Exclaiming: “Where can Cianfa have remained?”     Whence I, so that the Leader might attend,     Upward from chin to nose my finger laid. If thou art, Reader, slow now to believe     What I shall say, it will no marvel be,     For I who saw it hardly can admit it. As I was holding raised on them my brows,     Behold! a serpent with six feet darts forth
   In front of one, and fastens wholly on him. With middle feet it bound him round the paunch,     And with the forward ones his arms it seized;     Then thrust its teeth through one cheek and the other; The hindermost it stretched upon his thighs,  
 And put its tail through in between the two,     And up behind along the reins outspread it. Ivy was never fastened by its barbs     Unto a tree so, as this horrible reptile     Upon the other’s limbs entwined its own. Then they stuck close, as if of heated wax     They had been made, and intermixed their colour;     Nor one nor other seemed now what he was; E’en as proceedeth on before the flame     Upward along the paper a brown colour,   
Which is not black as yet, and the white dies. The other two looked on, and each of them     Cried out: “O me, Agnello, how thou changest!     Behold, thou now art neither two nor one.” Already the two heads had one become,     When there appeared to us two figures mingled     Into one face, wherein the two were lost. Of the four lists were fashioned the two arms,     The thighs and legs, the belly and the chest     Members became that never yet were seen. Every original aspect there was cancelled; 
  Two and yet none did the perverted image     Appear, and such departed with slow pace. Even as a lizard, under the great scourge     Of days canicular, exchanging hedge,     Lightning appeareth if the road it cross; Thus did appear, coming towards the bellies     Of the two others, a small fiery serpent,  
 Livid and black as is a peppercorn. And in that part whereat is first received     Our aliment, it one of them transfixed;     Then downward fell in front of him extended. The one transfixed looked at it, but said naught;     Nay, rather with feet motionless he yawned,     Just as if sleep or fever had assailed him. He at the serpent gazed, and it at him;     One through the wound, the other through the mouth
    Smoked violently, and the smoke commingled. Henceforth be silent Lucan, where he mentions     Wretched Sabellus and Nassidius, 
  And wait to hear what now shall be shot forth. Be silent Ovid, of Cadmus and Arethusa;     For if him to a snake, her to fountain,     Converts he fabling, that I grudge him not; Because two natures never front to front    
Has he transmuted, so that both the forms     To interchange their matter ready were. Together they responded in such wise,     That to a fork the serpent cleft his tail,     And eke the wounded drew his feet together. The legs together with the thighs themselves     Adhered so, that in little time the juncture     No sign whatever made that was apparent. He with the cloven tail assumed the figure  
 The other one was losing, and his skin     Became elastic, and the other’s hard. I saw the arms draw inward at the armpits,     And both feet of the reptile, that were short,     Lengthen as much as those contracted were. Thereafter the hind feet, together twisted,     Became the member that a man conceals,
    And of his own the wretch had two created. While both of them the exhalation veils     With a new colour, and engenders hair     On one of them and depilates the other, The one uprose and down the other fell,     Though turning not away their impious lamps,     Underneath which each one his muzzle changed. He who was standing drew it tow’rds the temples,     And from excess of matter, which came thither,     Issued the ears from out the hollow cheeks; What did not backward run and was retained     Of that excess made to the face a nose,     And the lips thickened far as was befitting. He who lay prostrate thrusts his muzzle forward,    
And backward draws the ears into his head,     In the same manner as the snail its horns; And so the tongue, which was entire and apt     For speech before, is cleft, and the bi-forked  
 In the other closes up, and the smoke ceases. The soul, which to a reptile had been changed,     Along the valley hissing takes to flight,     And after him the other speaking sputters. Then did he turn upon him his new shoulders,     And said to the other: “I’ll have Buoso run, 
  Crawling as I have done, along this road.” In this way I beheld the seventh ballast     Shift and reshift, and here be my excuse     The novelty, if aught my pen transgress. And notwithstanding that mine eyes might be   
Somewhat bewildered, and my mind dismayed,     They could not flee away so secretly But that I plainly saw Puccio Sciancato;     And he it was who sole of three companions,     Which came in the beginning, was not changed; The other was he whom thou, Gaville, weepest.
Inferno: Canto XXVI Rejoice, O Florence, since thou art so great,     That over sea and land thou beatest thy wings,     And throughout Hell thy name is spread abroad! Among the thieves five citizens of thine 
  Like these I found, whence shame comes unto me,     And thou thereby to no great honour risest. But if when morn is near our dreams are true,     Feel shalt thou in a little time from now     What Prato, if none other, craves for thee. And if it now were, it were not too soon; 
  Would that it were, seeing it needs must be,     For ’twill aggrieve me more the more I age. We went our way, and up along the stairs     The bourns had made us to descend before, 
  Remounted my Conductor and drew me. And following the solitary path     Among the rocks and ridges of the crag,     The foot without the hand sped not at all. Then sorrowed I, and sorrow now again,     When I direct my mind to what I saw,     And more my genius curb than I am wont, That it may run not unless virtue guide it;     So that if some good star, or better thing,
  Have given me good, I may myself not grudge it. As many as the hind (who on the hill     Rests at the time when he who lights the world     His countenance keeps least concealed from us, While as the fly gives place unto the gnat)  
 Seeth the glow-worms down along the valley,     Perchance there where he ploughs and makes his vintage; With flames as manifold resplendent all     Was the eighth Bolgia, as I grew aware     As soon as I was where the depth appeared. And such as he who with the bears avenged him     Beheld Elijah’s chariot at departing,
   What time the steeds to heaven erect uprose, For with his eye he could not follow it     So as to see aught else than flame alone,     Even as a little cloud ascending upward, Thus each along the gorge of the intrenchment     Was moving; for not one reveals the theft,     And every flame a sinner steals away. I stood upon the bridge uprisen to see,     So that, if I had seized not on a rock,     Down had I fallen without being pushed. And the Leader, who beheld me so attent,     Exclaimed: “Within the fires the spirits are;     Each swathes himself with that wherewith he burns.” “My Master,” I replied, “by hearing thee     I am more sure; but I surmised already
   It might be so, and already wished to ask thee Who is within that fire, which comes so cleft     At top, it seems uprising from the pyre     Where was Eteocles with his brother placed.” He answered me: “Within there are tormented     Ulysses and Diomed, and thus together     They unto vengeance run as unto wrath. And there within their flame do they lament    
The ambush of the horse, which made the door     Whence issued forth the Romans’ gentle seed; Therein is wept the craft, for which being dead     Deidamia still deplores Achilles,     And pain for the Palladium there is borne.” “If they within those sparks possess the power     To speak,” I said, “thee, Master, much I pray,     And re-pray, that the prayer be worth a thousand, That thou make no denial of awaiting  
 Until the horned flame shall hither come;     Thou seest that with desire I lean towards it.” And he to me: “Worthy is thy entreaty     Of much applause, and therefore I accept it;     But take heed that thy tongue restrain itself. Leave me to speak, because I have conceived     That which thou wishest; for they might disdain     Perchance, since they were Greeks, discourse of thine.” When now the flame had come unto that point,  
 Where to my Leader it seemed time and place,     After this fashion did I hear him speak: “O ye, who are twofold within one fire,     If I deserved of you, while I was living,     If I deserved of you or much or little When in the world I wrote the lofty verses,     Do not move on, but one of you declare     Whither, being lost, he went away to die.” Then of the antique flame the greater horn,  
 Murmuring, began to wave itself about     Even as a flame doth which the wind fatigues. Thereafterward, the summit to and fro     Moving as if it were the tongue that spake,     It uttered forth a voice, and said: “When I From Circe had departed, who concealed me     More than a year there near unto Gaeta,     Or ever yet Aeneas named it so, Nor fondness for my son, nor reverence 
  For my old father, nor the due affection     Which joyous should have made Penelope, Could overcome within me the desire     I had to be experienced of the world,     And of the vice and virtue of mankind; But I put forth on the high open sea   
With one sole ship, and that small company     By which I never had deserted been. Both of the shores I saw as far as Spain,     Far as Morocco, and the isle of Sardes,     And the others which that sea bathes round about. I and my company were old and slow     When at that narrow passage we arrived     Where Hercules his landmarks set as signals, That man no farther onward should adventure.     On the right hand behind me left I Seville,   
And on the other already had left Ceuta. ‘O brothers, who amid a hundred thousand     Perils,’ I said, ‘have come unto the West,     To this so inconsiderable vigil Which is remaining of your senses still     Be ye unwilling to deny the knowledge,     Following the sun, of the unpeopled world. Consider ye the seed from which ye sprang;   
Ye were not made to live like unto brutes,     But for pursuit of virtue and of knowledge.’ So eager did I render my companions,     With this brief exhortation, for the voyage,     That then I hardly could have held them back. And having turned our stern unto the morning,     We of the oars made wings for our mad flight,  
 Evermore gaining on the larboard side. Already all the stars of the other pole     The night beheld, and ours so very low     It did not rise above the ocean floor. Five times rekindled and as many quenched     Had been the splendour underneath the moon,    
Since we had entered into the deep pass, When there appeared to us a mountain, dim     From distance, and it seemed to me so high     As I had never any one beheld. Joyful were we, and soon it turned to weeping;     For out of the new land a whirlwind rose,     And smote upon the fore part of the ship. Three times it made her whirl with all the waters,     At the fourth time it made the stern uplift,     And the prow downward go, as pleased Another, Until the sea above us closed again.”
Inferno: Canto XXVII Already was the flame erect and quiet,     To speak no more, and now departed from us     With the permission of the gentle Poet; When yet another, which behind it came,     Caused us to turn our eyes upon its top     By a confused sound that issued from it. As the Sicilian bull (that bellowed first     With the lament of him, and that was right,     Who with his file had modulated it) Bellowed so with the voice of the afflicted,  
 That, notwithstanding it was made of brass,     Still it appeared with agony transfixed; Thus, by not having any way or issue     At first from out the fire, to its own language   
Converted were the melancholy words. But afterwards, when they had gathered way     Up through the point, giving it that vibration     The tongue had given them in their passage out, We heard it said: “O thou, at whom I aim     My voice, and who but now wast speaking Lombard,     Saying, ‘Now go thy way, no more I urge thee,’ Because I come perchance a little late,    
To stay and speak with me let it not irk thee;     Thou seest it irks not me, and I am burning. If thou but lately into this blind world     Hast fallen down from that sweet Latian land,     Wherefrom I bring the whole of my transgression, Say, if the Romagnuols have peace or war,     For I was from the mountains there between  
 Urbino and the yoke whence Tiber bursts.” I still was downward bent and listening,     When my Conductor touched me on the side,     Saying: “Speak thou: this one a Latian is.” And I, who had beforehand my reply     In readiness, forthwith began to speak:     “O soul, that down below there art concealed, Romagna thine is not and never has been     Without war in the bosom of its tyrants;     But open war I none have left there now. Ravenna stands as it long years has stood;     The Eagle of Polenta there is brooding,  
 So that she covers Cervia with her vans. The city which once made the long resistance,     And of the French a sanguinary heap,     Beneath the Green Paws finds itself again; Verrucchio’s ancient Mastiff and the new,     Who made such bad disposal of Montagna,  
 Where they are wont make wimbles of their teeth. The cities of Lamone and Santerno
   Governs the Lioncel of the white lair,     Who changes sides ’twixt summer-time and winter; And that of which the Savio bathes the flank,     Even as it lies between the plain and mountain,     Lives between tyranny and a free state. Now I entreat thee tell us who thou art;     Be not more stubborn than the rest have been, 
  So may thy name hold front there in the world.” After the fire a little more had roared     In its own fashion, the sharp point it moved     This way and that, and then gave forth such breath: “If I believed that my reply were made    
To one who to the world would e’er return,     This flame without more flickering would stand still; But inasmuch as never from this depth     Did any one return, if I hear true,     Without the fear of infamy I answer, I was a man of arms, then Cordelier,     Believing thus begirt to make amends;  
 And truly my belief had been fulfilled But for the High Priest, whom may ill betide,     Who put me back into my former sins;     And how and wherefore I will have thee hear. While I was still the form of bone and pulp     My mother gave to me, the deeds I did     Were not those of a lion, but a fox. The machinations and the covert ways  
 I knew them all, and practised so their craft,     That to the ends of earth the sound went forth. When now unto that portion of mine age     I saw myself arrived, when each one ought     To lower the sails, and coil away the ropes, That which before had pleased me then displeased me;     And penitent and confessing I surrendered,     Ah woe is me! and it would have bestead me; The Leader of the modern Pharisees     Having a war near unto Lateran,
   And not with Saracens nor with the Jews, For each one of his enemies was Christian,     And none of them had been to conquer Acre,     Nor merchandising in the Sultan’s land, Nor the high office, nor the sacred orders,  
 In him regarded, nor in me that cord     Which used to make those girt with it more meagre; But even as Constantine sought out Sylvester     To cure his leprosy, within Soracte,     So this one sought me out as an adept To cure him of the fever of his pride.     Counsel he asked of me, and I was silent,     Because his words appeared inebriate. And then he said: ‘Be not thy heart afraid;   
Henceforth I thee absolve; and thou instruct me     How to raze Palestrina to the ground. Heaven have I power to lock and to unlock,     As thou dost know; therefore the keys are two,     The which my predecessor held not dear.’ Then urged me on his weighty arguments     There, where my silence was the worst advice;
   And said I: ‘Father, since thou washest me Of that sin into which I now must fall,     The promise long with the fulfilment short     Will make thee triumph in thy lofty seat.’ Francis came afterward, when I was dead,     For me; but one of the black Cherubim     Said to him: ‘Take him not; do me no wrong; He must come down among my servitors,     Because he gave the fraudulent advice     From which time forth I have been at his hair; For who repents not cannot be absolved,  
 Nor can one both repent and will at once,     Because of the contradiction which consents not.’ O miserable me! how I did shudder     When he seized on me, saying: ‘Peradventure     Thou didst not think that I was a logician!’ He bore me unto Minos, who entwined     Eight times his tail about his stubborn back, 
  And after he had bitten it in great rage, Said: ‘Of the thievish fire a culprit this;’     Wherefore, here where thou seest, am I lost,     And vested thus in going I bemoan me.” When it had thus completed its recital,     The flame departed uttering lamentations,
   Writhing and flapping its sharp-pointed horn. Onward we passed, both I and my Conductor,     Up o’er the crag above another arch,     Which the moat covers, where is paid the fee By those who, sowing discord, win their burden.
Inferno: Canto XXVIII Who ever could, e’en with untrammelled words,     Tell of the blood and of the wounds in full     Which now I saw, by many times narrating? Each tongue would for a certainty fall short     By reason of our speech and memory,  
 That have small room to comprehend so much. If were again assembled all the people     Which formerly upon the fateful land     Of Puglia were lamenting for their blood Shed by the Romans and the lingering war     That of the rings made such illustrious spoils,     As Livy has recorded, who errs not, With those who felt the agony of blows     By making counterstand to Robert Guiscard, 
  And all the rest, whose bones are gathered still At Ceperano, where a renegade     Was each Apulian, and at Tagliacozzo,
   Where without arms the old Alardo conquered, And one his limb transpierced, and one lopped off,     Should show, it would be nothing to compare     With the disgusting mode of the ninth Bolgia. A cask by losing centre-piece or cant     Was never shattered so, as I saw one     Rent from the chin to where one breaketh wind. Between his legs were hanging down his entrails;  
 His heart was visible, and the dismal sack     That maketh excrement of what is eaten. While I was all absorbed in seeing him,     He looked at me, and opened with his hands     His bosom, saying: “See now how I rend me; How mutilated, see, is Mahomet;     In front of me doth Ali weeping go,     Cleft in the face from forelock unto chin; And all the others whom thou here beholdest,   
Disseminators of scandal and of schism     While living were, and therefore are cleft thus. A devil is behind here, who doth cleave us     Thus cruelly, unto the falchion’s edge     Putting again each one of all this ream, When we have gone around the doleful road;     By reason that our wounds are closed again  
 Ere any one in front of him repass. But who art thou, that musest on the crag,     Perchance to postpone going to the pain     That is adjudged upon thine accusations?” “Nor death hath reached him yet, nor guilt doth bring him,”
    My Master made reply, “to be tormented;     But to procure him full experience, Me, who am dead, behoves it to conduct him     Down here through Hell, from circle unto circle;     And this is true as that I speak to thee.” More than a hundred were there when they heard him,     Who in the moat stood still to look at me,     Through wonderment oblivious of their torture. “Now say to Fra Dolcino, then, to arm him,     Thou, who perhaps wilt shortly see the sun,
   If soon he wish not here to follow me, So with provisions, that no stress of snow     May give the victory to the Novarese,     Which otherwise to gain would not be easy.” After one foot to go away he lifted,   
This word did Mahomet say unto me,     Then to depart upon the ground he stretched it. Another one, who had his throat pierced through,     And nose cut off close underneath the brows,     And had no longer but a single ear, Staying to look in wonder with the others,     Before the others did his gullet open,
    Which outwardly was red in every part, And said: “O thou, whom guilt doth not condemn,     And whom I once saw up in Latian land,     Unless too great similitude deceive me, Call to remembrance Pier da Medicina,     If e’er thou see again the lovely plain     That from Vercelli slopes to Marcabo, And make it known to the best two of Fano,     To Messer Guido and Angiolello likewise, 
  That if foreseeing here be not in vain, Cast over from their vessel shall they be,     And drowned near unto the Cattolica,     By the betrayal of a tyrant fell. Between the isles of Cyprus and Majorca   
Neptune ne’er yet beheld so great a crime,     Neither of pirates nor Argolic people. That traitor, who sees only with one eye,     And holds the land, which some one here with me   
Would fain be fasting from the vision of, Will make them come unto a parley with him;     Then will do so, that to Focara’s wind     They will not stand in need of vow or prayer.” And I to him: “Show to me and declare,     If thou wouldst have me bear up news of thee,  
 Who is this person of the bitter vision.” Then did he lay his hand upon the jaw     Of one of his companions, and his mouth     Oped, crying: “This is he, and he speaks not. This one, being banished, every doubt submerged     In Caesar by affirming the forearmed     Always with detriment allowed delay.” O how bewildered unto me appeared,     With tongue asunder in his windpipe slit,     Curio, who in speaking was so bold! And one, who both his hands dissevered had,     The stumps uplifting through the murky air,
    So that the blood made horrible his face, Cried out: “Thou shalt remember Mosca also,     Who said, alas! ‘A thing done has an end!’     Which was an ill seed for the Tuscan people.” “And death unto thy race,” thereto I added;  
 Whence he, accumulating woe on woe,     Departed, like a person sad and crazed. But I remained to look upon the crowd;     And saw a thing which I should be afraid,     Without some further proof, even to recount, If it were not that conscience reassures me,     That good companion which emboldens man 
  Beneath the hauberk of its feeling pure. I truly saw, and still I seem to see it,     A trunk without a head walk in like manner     As walked the others of the mournful herd. And by the hair it held the head dissevered,     Hung from the hand in fashion of a lantern, 
  And that upon us gazed and said: “O me!” It of itself made to itself a lamp,     And they were two in one, and one in two;     How that can be, He knows who so ordains it. When it was come close to the bridge’s foot,     It lifted high its arm with all the head,     To bring more closely unto us its words, Which were: “Behold now the sore penalty,     Thou, who dost breathing go the dead beholding;     Behold if any be as great as this. And so that thou may carry news of me,     Know that Bertram de Born am I, the same  
 Who gave to the Young King the evil comfort. I made the father and the son rebellious;     Achitophel not more with Absalom     And David did with his accursed goadings. Because I parted persons so united,     Parted do I now bear my brain, alas!     From its beginning, which is in this trunk. Thus is observed in me the counterpoise.”
Inferno: Canto XXIX The many people and the divers wounds     These eyes of mine had so inebriated,     That they were wishful to stand still and weep; But said Virgilius: “What dost thou still gaze at?     Why is thy sight still riveted down there   
Among the mournful, mutilated shades? Thou hast not done so at the other Bolge;     Consider, if to count them thou believest,     That two-and-twenty miles the valley winds, And now the moon is underneath our feet;     Henceforth the time allotted us is brief,     And more is to be seen than what thou seest.” “If thou hadst,” I made answer thereupon,     “Attended to the cause for which I looked,     Perhaps a longer stay thou wouldst have pardoned.” Meanwhile my Guide departed, and behind him     I went, already making my reply,     And superadding: “In that cavern where I held mine eyes with such attention fixed,  
 I think a spirit of my blood laments     The sin which down below there costs so much.” Then said the Master: “Be no longer broken     Thy thought from this time forward upon him;     Attend elsewhere, and there let him remain; For him I saw below the little bridge,     Pointing at thee, and threatening with his finger     Fiercely, and heard him called Geri del Bello. So wholly at that time wast thou impeded     By him who formerly held Altaforte, 
  Thou didst not look that way; so he departed.” “O my Conductor, his own violent death,     Which is not yet avenged for him,” I said,    
“By any who is sharer in the shame, Made him disdainful; whence he went away,     As I imagine, without speaking to me,     And thereby made me pity him the more.” Thus did we speak as far as the first place     Upon the crag, which the next valley shows     Down to the bottom, if there were more light. When we were now right over the last cloister     Of Malebolge, so that its lay-brothers   
Could manifest themselves unto our sight, Divers lamentings pierced me through and through,     Which with compassion had their arrows barbed,     Whereat mine ears I covered with my hands. What pain would be, if from the hospitals   
Of Valdichiana, ’twixt July and September,     And of Maremma and Sardinia All the diseases in one moat were gathered,     Such was it here, and such a stench came from it     As from putrescent limbs is wont to issue. We had descended on the furthest bank     From the long crag, upon the left hand still,     And then more vivid was my power of sight Down tow’rds the bottom, where the ministress     Of the high Lord, Justice infallible,     Punishes forgers, which she here records. I do not think a sadder sight to see     Was in Aegina the whole people sick,   
(When was the air so full of pestilence, The animals, down to the little worm,     All fell, and afterwards the ancient people,     According as the poets have affirmed, Were from the seed of ants restored again,)     Than was it to behold through that dark valley     The spirits languishing in divers heaps. This on the belly, that upon the back     One of the other lay, and others crawling     Shifted themselves along the dismal road. We step by step went onward without speech,     Gazing upon and listening to the sick 
  Who had not strength enough to lift their bodies. I saw two sitting leaned against each other,     As leans in heating platter against platter,     From head to foot bespotted o’er with scabs; And never saw I plied a currycomb     By stable-boy for whom his master waits,     Or him who keeps awake unwillingly, As every one was plying fast the bite     Of nails upon himself, for the great rage     Of itching which no other succour had. And the nails downward with them dragged the scab,  
 In fashion as a knife the scales of bream,     Or any other fish that has them largest. “O thou, that with thy fingers dost dismail thee,”     Began my Leader unto one of them,     “And makest of them pincers now and then, Tell me if any Latian is with those     Who are herein; so may thy nails suffice thee     To all eternity unto this work.” “Latians are we, whom thou so wasted seest,
   Both of us here,” one weeping made reply;     “But who art thou, that questionest about us?” And said the Guide: “One am I who descends     Down with this living man from cliff to cliff,     And I intend to show Hell unto him.” Then broken was their mutual support,     And trembling each one turned himself to me,     With others who had heard him by rebound. Wholly to me did the good Master gather,     Saying: “Say unto them whate’er thou wishest.”     And I began, since he would have it so: “So may your memory not steal away   
In the first world from out the minds of men,     But so may it survive ’neath many suns, Say to me who ye are, and of what people;     Let not your foul and loathsome punishment     Make you afraid to show yourselves to me.” “I of Arezzo was,” one made reply,     “And Albert of Siena had me burned;     But what I died for does not bring me here. ’Tis true I said to him, speaking in jest, 
  That I could rise by flight into the air,     And he who had conceit, but little wit, Would have me show to him the art; and only     Because no Daedalus I made him, made me     Be burned by one who held him as his son. But unto the last Bolgia of the ten,     For alchemy, which in the world I practised,   
Minos, who cannot err, has me condemned.” And to the Poet said I: “Now was ever     So vain a people as the Sienese?     Not for a certainty the French by far.” Whereat the other leper, who had heard me,     Replied unto my speech: “Taking out Stricca,     Who knew the art of moderate expenses, And Niccolo, who the luxurious use     Of cloves discovered earliest of all
   Within that garden where such seed takes root; And taking out the band, among whom squandered     Caccia d’Ascian his vineyards and vast woods,     And where his wit the Abbagliato proffered! But, that thou know who thus doth second thee     Against the Sienese, make sharp thine eye     Tow’rds me, so that my face well answer thee, And thou shalt see I am Capocchio’s shade,     Who metals falsified by alchemy;     Thou must remember, if I well descry thee, How I a skilful ape of nature was.”
Inferno: Canto XXX ’Twas at the time when Juno was enraged,     For Semele, against the Theban blood,     As she already more than once had shown, So reft of reason Athamas became,     That, seeing his own wife with children twain     Walking encumbered upon either hand, He cried: “Spread out the nets, that I may take 
  The lioness and her whelps upon the passage;”     And then extended his unpitying claws, Seizing the first, who had the name Learchus,     And whirled him round, and dashed him on a rock;     And she, with the other burthen, drowned herself;— And at the time when fortune downward hurled     The Trojan’s arrogance, that all things dared,     So that the king was with his kingdom crushed, Hecuba sad, disconsolate, and captive,  
 When lifeless she beheld Polyxena,     And of her Polydorus on the shore Of ocean was the dolorous one aware,  
 Out of her senses like a dog she barked,     So much the anguish had her mind distorted; But not of Thebes the furies nor the Trojan     Were ever seen in any one so cruel     In goading beasts, and much more human members, As I beheld two shadows pale and naked,     Who, biting, in the manner ran along     That a boar does, when from the sty turned loose. One to Capocchio came, and by the nape     Seized with its teeth his neck, so that in dragging     It made his belly grate the solid bottom. And the Aretine, who trembling had remained,     Said to me: “That mad sprite is Gianni Schicchi,  
 And raving goes thus harrying other people.” “O,” said I to him, “so may not the other     Set teeth on thee, let it not weary thee     To tell us who it is, ere it dart hence.” And he to me: “That is the ancient ghost     Of the nefarious Myrrha, who became     Beyond all rightful love her father’s lover. She came to sin with him after this manner, 
 By counterfeiting of another’s form;     As he who goeth yonder undertook, That he might gain the lady of the herd,     To counterfeit in himself Buoso Donati,     Making a will and giving it due form.” And after the two maniacs had passed     On whom I held mine eye, I turned it back     To look upon the other evil-born. I saw one made in fashion of a lute,   
If he had only had the groin cut off     Just at the point at which a man is forked. The heavy dropsy, that so disproportions     The limbs with humours, which it ill concocts,     That the face corresponds not to the belly, Compelled him so to hold his lips apart     As does the hectic, who because of thirst     One tow’rds the chin, the other upward turns. “O ye, who without any torment are,     And why I know not, in the world of woe,”     He said to us, “behold, and be attentive Unto the misery of Master Adam;     I had while living much of what I wished,
   And now, alas! a drop of water crave. The rivulets, that from the verdant hills     Of Cassentin descend down into Arno,     Making their channels to be cold and moist, Ever before me stand, and not in vain;     For far more doth their image dry me up    
Than the disease which strips my face of flesh. The rigid justice that chastises me     Draweth occasion from the place in which     I sinned, to put the more my sighs in flight. There is Romena, where I counterfeited     The currency imprinted with the Baptist,     For which I left my body burned above. But if I here could see the tristful soul     Of Guido, or Alessandro, or their brother,     For Branda’s fount I would not give the sight. One is within already, if the raving 
 Shades that are going round about speak truth;     But what avails it me, whose limbs are tied? If I were only still so light, that in     A hundred years I could advance one inch,     I had already started on the way, Seeking him out among this squalid folk,     Although the circuit be eleven miles,  
 And be not less than half a mile across. For them am I in such a family;     They did induce me into coining florins,     Which had three carats of impurity.” And I to him: “Who are the two poor wretches     That smoke like unto a wet hand in winter,     Lying there close upon thy right-hand confines?” “I found them here,” replied he, “when I rained     Into this chasm, and since they have not turned,     Nor do I think they will for evermore. One the false woman is who accused Joseph,
    The other the false Sinon, Greek of Troy;     From acute fever they send forth such reek.” And one of them, who felt himself annoyed     At being, peradventure, named so darkly,     Smote with the fist upon his hardened paunch. It gave a sound, as if it were a drum;     And Master Adam smote him in the face,
    With arm that did not seem to be less hard, Saying to him: “Although be taken from me     All motion, for my limbs that heavy are,     I have an arm unfettered for such need.” Whereat he answer made: “When thou didst go     Unto the fire, thou hadst it not so ready:   
But hadst it so and more when thou wast coining.” The dropsical: “Thou sayest true in that;     But thou wast not so true a witness there,     Where thou wast questioned of the truth at Troy.” “If I spake false, thou falsifiedst the coin,”     Said Sinon; “and for one fault I am here,     And thou for more than any other demon.” “Remember, perjurer, about the horse,”    
He made reply who had the swollen belly,     “And rueful be it thee the whole world knows it.” “Rueful to thee the thirst be wherewith cracks     Thy tongue,” the Greek said, “and the putrid water     That hedges so thy paunch before thine eyes.” Then the false-coiner: “So is gaping wide     Thy mouth for speaking evil, as ’tis wont;     Because if I have thirst, and humour stuff me Thou hast the burning and the head that aches,     And to lick up the mirror of Narcissus   
Thou wouldst not want words many to invite thee.” In listening to them was I wholly fixed,     When said the Master to me: “Now just look,     For little wants it that I quarrel with thee.” When him I heard in anger speak to me,     I turned me round towards him with such shame     That still it eddies through my memory. And as he is who dreams of his own harm,  
 Who dreaming wishes it may be a dream,     So that he craves what is, as if it were not; Such I became, not having power to speak,     For to excuse myself I wished, and still     Excused myself, and did not think I did it. “Less shame doth wash away a greater fault,”     The Master said, “than this of thine has been;     Therefore thyself disburden of all sadness, And make account that I am aye beside thee,     If e’er it come to pass that fortune bring thee     Where there are people in a like dispute; For a base wish it is to wish to hear it.”
Inferno: Canto XXXI One and the selfsame tongue first wounded me,     So that it tinged the one cheek and the other,     And then held out to me the medicine; Thus do I hear that once Achilles’ spear,     His and his father’s, used to be the cause    
First of a sad and then a gracious boon. We turned our backs upon the wretched valley,     Upon the bank that girds it round about,     Going across it without any speech. There it was less than night, and less than day,     So that my sight went little in advance;     But I could hear the blare of a loud horn, So loud it would have made each thunder faint,
    Which, counter to it following its way,     Mine eyes directed wholly to one place. After the dolorous discomfiture     When Charlemagne the holy emprise lost,     So terribly Orlando sounded not. Short while my head turned thitherward I held     When many lofty towers I seemed to see,     Whereat I: “Master, say, what town is this?” And he to me: “Because thou peerest forth 
 Athwart the darkness at too great a distance,     It happens that thou errest in thy fancy. Well shalt thou see, if thou arrivest there,     How much the sense deceives itself by distance;     Therefore a little faster spur thee on.” Then tenderly he took me by the hand,     And said: “Before we farther have advanced,     That the reality may seem to thee Less strange, know that these are not towers, but giants,     And they are in the well, around the bank,     From navel downward, one and all of them.” As, when the fog is vanishing away,  
 Little by little doth the sight refigure     Whate’er the mist that crowds the air conceals, So, piercing through the dense and darksome air,     More and more near approaching tow’rd the verge,     My error fled, and fear came over me; Because as on its circular parapets     Montereggione crowns itself with towers,     E’en thus the margin which surrounds the well With one half of their bodies turreted     The horrible giants, whom Jove menaces 
  E’en now from out the heavens when he thunders. And I of one already saw the face,     Shoulders, and breast, and great part of the belly,     And down along his sides both of the arms. Certainly Nature, when she left the making     Of animals like these, did well indeed,     By taking such executors from Mars; And if of elephants and whales she doth not     Repent her, whosoever looketh subtly     More just and more discreet will hold her for it; For where the argument of intellect 
  Is added unto evil will and power,     No rampart can the people make against it. His face appeared to me as long and large     As is at Rome the pine-cone of Saint Peter’s,     And in proportion were the other bones; So that the margin, which an apron was     Down from the middle, showed so much of him 
 Above it, that to reach up to his hair Three Frieslanders in vain had vaunted them;     For I beheld thirty great palms of him     Down from the place where man his mantle buckles. “Raphael mai amech izabi almi,”     Began to clamour the ferocious mouth,     To which were not befitting sweeter psalms. And unto him my Guide: “Soul idiotic,     Keep to thy horn, and vent thyself with that,     When wrath or other passion touches thee. Search round thy neck, and thou wilt find the belt     Which keeps it fastened, O bewildered soul,     And see it, where it bars thy mighty breast.” Then said to me: “He doth himself accuse; 
  This one is Nimrod, by whose evil thought     One language in the world is not still used. Here let us leave him and not speak in vain;     For even such to him is every language     As his to others, which to none is known.” Therefore a longer journey did we make,     Turned to the left, and a crossbow-shot oft  
 We found another far more fierce and large. In binding him, who might the master be     I cannot say; but he had pinioned close     Behind the right arm, and in front the other, With chains, that held him so begirt about     From the neck down, that on the part uncovered    
It wound itself as far as the fifth gyre. “This proud one wished to make experiment     Of his own power against the Supreme Jove,”     My Leader said, “whence he has such a guerdon. Ephialtes is his name; he showed great prowess.     What time the giants terrified the gods;  
 The arms he wielded never more he moves.” And I to him: “If possible, I should wish     That of the measureless Briareus     These eyes of mine might have experience.” Whence he replied: “Thou shalt behold Antaeus     Close by here, who can speak and is unbound,     Who at the bottom of all crime shall place us. Much farther yon is he whom thou wouldst see,     And he is bound, and fashioned like to this one,     Save that he seems in aspect more ferocious.” There never was an earthquake of such might     That it could shake a tower so violently, 
  As Ephialtes suddenly shook himself. Then was I more afraid of death than ever,     For nothing more was needful than the fear,     If I had not beheld the manacles. Then we proceeded farther in advance,     And to Antaeus came, who, full five ells     Without the head, forth issued from the cavern. “O thou, who in the valley fortunate,     Which Scipio the heir of glory made,   
When Hannibal turned back with all his hosts, Once brought’st a thousand lions for thy prey,     And who, hadst thou been at the mighty war     Among thy brothers, some it seems still think The sons of Earth the victory would have gained:     Place us below, nor be disdainful of it,     There where the cold doth lock Cocytus up. Make us not go to Tityus nor Typhoeus;     This one can give of that which here is longed for;     Therefore stoop down, and do not curl thy lip. Still in the world can he restore thy fame;   
Because he lives, and still expects long life,     If to itself Grace call him not untimely.” So said the Master; and in haste the other     His hands extended and took up my Guide,—     Hands whose great pressure Hercules once felt. Virgilius, when he felt himself embraced, 
  Said unto me: “Draw nigh, that I may take thee;”     Then of himself and me one bundle made. As seems the Carisenda, to behold     Beneath the leaning side, when goes a cloud     Above it so that opposite it hangs; Such did Antaeus seem to me, who stood     Watching to see him stoop, and then it was     I could have wished to go some other way. But lightly in the abyss, which swallows up     Judas with Lucifer, he put us down;     Nor thus bowed downward made he there delay, But, as a mast does in a ship, uprose.
Inferno: Canto XXXII If I had rhymes both rough and stridulous,     As were appropriate to the dismal hole     Down upon which thrust all the other rocks, I would press out the juice of my conception     More fully; but because I have them not,     Not without fear I bring myself to speak; For ’tis no enterprise to take in jest,     To sketch the bottom of all the universe,     Nor for a tongue that cries Mamma and Babbo. But may those Ladies help this verse of mine,
   Who helped Amphion in enclosing Thebes,     That from the fact the word be not diverse. O rabble ill-begotten above all,     Who’re in the place to speak of which is hard,     ’Twere better ye had here been sheep or goats! When we were down within the darksome well,     Beneath the giant’s feet, but lower far,     And I was scanning still the lofty wall, I heard it said to me: “Look how thou steppest!     Take heed thou do not trample with thy feet     The heads of the tired, miserable brothers!” Whereat I turned me round, and saw before me   
And underfoot a lake, that from the frost     The semblance had of glass, and not of water. So thick a veil ne’er made upon its current     In winter-time Danube in Austria,     Nor there beneath the frigid sky the Don, As there was here; so that if Tambernich     Had fallen upon it, or Pietrapana,     E’en at the edge ’twould not have given a creak. And as to croak the frog doth place himself   
With muzzle out of water,—when is dreaming     Of gleaning oftentimes the peasant-girl,— Livid, as far down as where shame appears,     Were the disconsolate shades within the ice,     Setting their teeth unto the note of storks. Each one his countenance held downward bent;     From mouth the cold, from eyes the doleful heart     Among them witness of itself procures. When round about me somewhat I had looked, 
  I downward turned me, and saw two so close,     The hair upon their heads together mingled. “Ye who so strain your breasts together, tell me,”     I said, “who are you;” and they bent their necks,     And when to me their faces they had lifted, Their eyes, which first were only moist within,     Gushed o’er the eyelids, and the frost congealed     The tears between, and locked them up again. Clamp never bound together wood with wood    
So strongly; whereat they, like two he-goats,     Butted together, so much wrath o’ercame them. And one, who had by reason of the cold     Lost both his ears, still with his visage downward,     Said: “Why dost thou so mirror thyself in us? If thou desire to know who these two are,     The valley whence Bisenzio descends 
  Belonged to them and to their father Albert. They from one body came, and all Caina     Thou shalt search through, and shalt not find a shade     More worthy to be fixed in gelatine; Not he in whom were broken breast and shadow 
  At one and the same blow by Arthur’s hand;     Focaccia not; not he who me encumbers So with his head I see no farther forward,     And bore the name of Sassol Mascheroni;    
Well knowest thou who he was, if thou art Tuscan. And that thou put me not to further speech,     Know that I Camicion de’ Pazzi was,     And wait Carlino to exonerate me.” Then I beheld a thousand faces, made     Purple with cold; whence o’er me comes a shudder,     And evermore will come, at frozen ponds. And while we were advancing tow’rds the middle,  
 Where everything of weight unites together,     And I was shivering in the eternal shade, Whether ’twere will, or destiny, or chance,     I know not; but in walking ’mong the heads     I struck my foot hard in the face of one. Weeping he growled: “Why dost thou trample me?     Unless thou comest to increase the vengeance  
 of Montaperti, why dost thou molest me?” And I: “My Master, now wait here for me,     That I through him may issue from a doubt;     Then thou mayst hurry me, as thou shalt wish.” The Leader stopped; and to that one I said     Who was blaspheming vehemently still:
   “Who art thou, that thus reprehendest others?” “Now who art thou, that goest through Antenora     Smiting,” replied he, “other people’s cheeks,     So that, if thou wert living, ’twere too much?” “Living I am, and dear to thee it may be,”  
 Was my response, “if thou demandest fame,     That ’mid the other notes thy name I place.” And he to me: “For the reverse I long;     Take thyself hence, and give me no more trouble;     For ill thou knowest to flatter in this hollow.” Then by the scalp behind I seized upon him,     And said: “It must needs be thou name thyself,     Or not a hair remain upon thee here.” Whence he to me: “Though thou strip off my hair,     I will not tell thee who I am, nor show thee,  
 If on my head a thousand times thou fall.” I had his hair in hand already twisted,     And more than one shock of it had pulled out,     He barking, with his eyes held firmly down, When cried another: “What doth ail thee, Bocca?     Is’t not enough to clatter with thy jaws,     But thou must bark? what devil touches thee?” “Now,” said I, “I care not to have thee speak,   
Accursed traitor; for unto thy shame     I will report of thee veracious news.” “Begone,” replied he, “and tell what thou wilt,     But be not silent, if thou issue hence,     Of him who had just now his tongue so prompt; He weepeth here the silver of the French;     ‘I saw,’ thus canst thou phrase it, ‘him of Duera     There where the sinners stand out in the cold.’ If thou shouldst questioned be who else was there,     Thou hast beside thee him of Beccaria, 
  Of whom the gorget Florence slit asunder; Gianni del Soldanier, I think, may be     Yonder with Ganellon, and Tebaldello     Who oped Faenza when the people slep.” Already we had gone away from him, 
  When I beheld two frozen in one hole,     So that one head a hood was to the other; And even as bread through hunger is devoured,     The uppermost on the other set his teeth,     There where the brain is to the nape united. Not in another fashion Tydeus gnawed     The temples of Menalippus in disdain,     Than that one did the skull and the other things. “O thou, who showest by such bestial sign     Thy hatred against him whom thou art eating,     Tell me the wherefore,” said I, “with this compact, That if thou rightfully of him complain,     In knowing who ye are, and his transgression,     I in the world above repay thee for it, If that wherewith I speak be not dried up.”
Inferno: Canto XXXIII His mouth uplifted from his grim repast,     That sinner, wiping it upon the hair     Of the same head that he behind had wasted. Then he began: “Thou wilt that I renew     The desperate grief, which wrings my heart already  
 To think of only, ere I speak of it; But if my words be seed that may bear fruit     Of infamy to the traitor whom I gnaw,     Speaking and weeping shalt thou see together. I know not who thou art, nor by what mode     Thou hast come down here; but a Florentine
   Thou seemest to me truly, when I hear thee. Thou hast to know I was Count Ugolino,     And this one was Ruggieri the Archbishop;     Now I will tell thee why I am such a neighbour. That, by effect of his malicious thoughts,     Trusting in him I was made prisoner,     And after put to death, I need not say; But ne’ertheless what thou canst not have heard,  
 That is to say, how cruel was my death,     Hear shalt thou, and shalt know if he has wronged me. A narrow perforation in the mew,     Which bears because of me the title of Famine,     And in which others still must be locked up, Had shown me through its opening many moons     Already, when I dreamed the evil dream 
  Which of the future rent for me the veil. This one appeared to me as lord and master,     Hunting the wolf and whelps upon the mountain     For which the Pisans cannot Lucca see. With sleuth-hounds gaunt, and eager, and well trained,     Gualandi with Sismondi and Lanfianchi     He had sent out before him to the front. After brief course seemed unto me forespent    
The father and the sons, and with sharp tushes     It seemed to me I saw their flanks ripped open. When I before the morrow was awake,     Moaning amid their sleep I heard my sons     Who with me were, and asking after bread. Cruel indeed art thou, if yet thou grieve not,     Thinking of what my heart foreboded me,     And weep’st thou not, what art thou wont to weep at? They were awake now, and the hour drew nigh    
At which our food used to be brought to us,     And through his dream was each one apprehensive; And I heard locking up the under door     Of the horrible tower; whereat without a word     I gazed into the faces of my sons. I wept not, I within so turned to stone;
   They wept; and darling little Anselm mine     Said: ‘Thou dost gaze so, father, what doth ail thee?’ Still not a tear I shed, nor answer made     All of that day, nor yet the night thereafter,     Until another sun rose on the world. As now a little glimmer made its way     Into the dolorous prison, and I saw     Upon four faces my own very aspect, Both of my hands in agony I bit;     And, thinking that I did it from desire     Of eating, on a sudden they uprose, And said they: ‘Father, much less pain ’twill give us     If thou do eat of us; thyself didst clothe us     With this poor flesh, and do thou strip it off.’ I calmed me then, not to make them more sad.  
 That day we all were silent, and the next.     Ah! obdurate earth, wherefore didst thou not open? When we had come unto the fourth day, Gaddo     Threw himself down outstretched before my feet,     Saying, ‘My father, why dost thou not help me?’ And there he died; and, as thou seest me, 
  I saw the three fall, one by one, between     The fifth day and the sixth; whence I betook me, Already blind, to groping over each,     And three days called them after they were dead;     Then hunger did what sorrow could not do.” When he had said this, with his eyes distorted,     The wretched skull resumed he with his teeth,
   Which, as a dog’s, upon the bone were strong. Ah! Pisa, thou opprobrium of the people     Of the fair land there where the ‘Si’ doth sound,     Since slow to punish thee thy neighbours are, Let the Capraia and Gorgona move,     And make a hedge across the mouth of Arno     That every person in thee it may drown! For if Count Ugolino had the fame     Of having in thy castles thee betrayed,     Thou shouldst not on such cross have put his sons. Guiltless of any crime, thou modern Thebes!     Their youth made Uguccione and Brigata, 
  And the other two my song doth name above! We passed still farther onward, where the ice     Another people ruggedly enswathes,     Not downward turned, but all of them reversed. Weeping itself there does not let them weep,     And grief that finds a barrier in the eyes     Turns itself inward to increase the anguish; Because the earliest tears a cluster form,     And, in the manner of a crystal visor,
    Fill all the cup beneath the eyebrow full. And notwithstanding that, as in a callus,     Because of cold all sensibility     Its station had abandoned in my face, Still it appeared to me I felt some wind;     Whence I: “My Master, who sets this in motion?     Is not below here every vapour quenched?” Whence he to me: “Full soon shalt thou be where     Thine eye shall answer make to thee of this, 
  Seeing the cause which raineth down the blast.” And one of the wretches of the frozen crust     Cried out to us: “O souls so merciless     That the last post is given unto you, Lift from mine eyes the rigid veils, that I     May vent the sorrow which impregns my heart     A little, e’er the weeping recongeal.” Whence I to him: “If thou wouldst have me help thee
    Say who thou wast; and if I free thee not,     May I go to the bottom of the ice.” Then he replied: “I am Friar Alberigo;     He am I of the fruit of the bad garden,     Who here a date am getting for my fig.” “O,” said I to him, “now art thou, too, dead?”     And he to me: “How may my body fare     Up in the world, no knowledge I possess. Such an advantage has this Ptolomaea, 
  That oftentimes the soul descendeth here     Sooner than Atropos in motion sets it. And, that thou mayest more willingly remove     From off my countenance these glassy tears,     Know that as soon as any soul betrays As I have done, his body by a demon   
Is taken from him, who thereafter rules it,     Until his time has wholly been revolved. Itself down rushes into such a cistern;     And still perchance above appears the body     Of yonder shade, that winters here behind me. This thou shouldst know, if thou hast just come down;     It is Ser Branca d’ Oria, and many years     Have passed away since he was thus locked up.” “I think,” said I to him, “thou dost deceive me;     For Branca d’ Oria is not dead as yet,
    And eats, and drinks, and sleeps, and puts on clothes.” “In moat above,” said he, “of Malebranche,     There where is boiling the tenacious pitch,     As yet had Michel Zanche not arrived, When this one left a devil in his stead     In his own body and one near of kin,     Who made together with him the betrayal. But hitherward stretch out thy hand forthwith,     Open mine eyes;”—and open them I did not,   
And to be rude to him was courtesy. Ah, Genoese! ye men at variance     With every virtue, full of every vice     Wherefore are ye not scattered from the world? For with the vilest spirit of Romagna     I found of you one such, who for his deeds     In soul already in Cocytus bathes, And still above in body seems alive!
Inferno: Canto XXXIV “‘Vexilla Regis prodeunt Inferni’     Towards us; therefore look in front of thee,”     My Master said, “if thou discernest him.” As, when there breathes a heavy fog, or when     Our hemisphere is darkening into night, 
  Appears far off a mill the wind is turning, Methought that such a building then I saw;     And, for the wind, I drew myself behind     My Guide, because there was no other shelter. Now was I, and with fear in verse I put it,     There where the shades were wholly covered up,     And glimmered through like unto straws in glass. Some prone are lying, others stand erect,
  This with the head, and that one with the soles;     Another, bow-like, face to feet inverts. When in advance so far we had proceeded,     That it my Master pleased to show to me     The creature who once had the beauteous semblance, He from before me moved and made me stop,     Saying: “Behold Dis, and behold the place 
  Where thou with fortitude must arm thyself.” How frozen I became and powerless then,    
Ask it not, Reader, for I write it not,     Because all language would be insufficient. I did not die, and I alive remained not;     Think for thyself now, hast thou aught of wit,     What I became, being of both deprived. The Emperor of the kingdom dolorous     From his mid-breast forth issued from the ice;     And better with a giant I compare Than do the giants with those arms of his; 
  Consider now how great must be that whole,     Which unto such a part conforms itself. Were he as fair once, as he now is foul,     And lifted up his brow against his Maker,     Well may proceed from him all tribulation. O, what a marvel it appeared to me,     When I beheld three faces on his head!     The one in front, and that vermilion was; Two were the others, that were joined with this     Above the middle part of either shoulder, 
  And they were joined together at the crest; And the right-hand one seemed ’twixt white and yellow;     The left was such to look upon as those     Who come from where the Nile falls valley-ward. Underneath each came forth two mighty wings,     Such as befitting were so great a bird;
   Sails of the sea I never saw so large. No feathers had they, but as of a bat     Their fashion was; and he was waving them,     So that three winds proceeded forth therefrom. Thereby Cocytus wholly was congealed. 
  With six eyes did he weep, and down three chins     Trickled the tear-drops and the bloody drivel. At every mouth he with his teeth was crunching     A sinner, in the manner of a brake,     So that he three of them tormented thus. To him in front the biting was as naught     Unto the clawing, for sometimes the spine    
Utterly stripped of all the skin remained. “That soul up there which has the greatest pain,”     The Master said, “is Judas Iscariot;     With head inside, he plies his legs without. Of the two others, who head downward are,     The one who hangs from the black jowl is Brutus;     See how he writhes himself, and speaks no word. And the other, who so stalwart seems, is Cassius. 
  But night is reascending, and ’tis time     That we depart, for we have seen the whole.” As seemed him good, I clasped him round the neck,     And he the vantage seized of time and place,     And when the wings were opened wide apart, He laid fast hold upon the shaggy sides;     From fell to fell descended downward then     Between the thick hair and the frozen crust. When we were come to where the thigh revolves     Exactly on the thickness of the haunch,
   The Guide, with labour and with hard-drawn breath, Turned round his head where he had had his legs,     And grappled to the hair, as one who mounts,     So that to Hell I thought we were returning. “Keep fast thy hold, for by such stairs as these,”     The Master said, panting as one fatigued,     “Must we perforce depart from so much evil.” Then through the opening of a rock he issued,     And down upon the margin seated me;
    Then tow’rds me he outstretched his wary step. I lifted up mine eyes and thought to see     Lucifer in the same way I had left him;     And I beheld him upward hold his legs. And if I then became disquieted,     Let stolid people think who do not see     What the point is beyond which I had passed. “Rise up,” the Master said, “upon thy feet;     The way is long, and difficult the road,     And now the sun to middle-tierce returns.” It was not any palace corridor     There where we were, but dungeon natural,     With floor uneven and unease of light. “Ere from the abyss I tear myself away,  
 My Master,” said I when I had arisen,     “To draw me from an error speak a little; Where is the ice? and how is this one fixed     Thus upside down? and how in such short time     From eve to morn has the sun made his transit?” And he to me: “Thou still imaginest     Thou art beyond the centre, where I grasped  
 The hair of the fell worm, who mines the world. That side thou wast, so long as I descended;     When round I turned me, thou didst pass the point     To which things heavy draw from every side, And now beneath the hemisphere art come     Opposite that which overhangs the vast     Dry-land, and ’neath whose cope was put to death The Man who without sin was born and lived.  
 Thou hast thy feet upon the little sphere     Which makes the other face of the Judecca. Here it is morn when it is evening there;     And he who with his hair a stairway made us     Still fixed remaineth as he was before. Upon this side he fell down out of heaven;     And all the land, that whilom here emerged,     For fear of him made of the sea a veil, And came to our hemisphere; and peradventure     To flee from him, what on this side appears  
 Left the place vacant here, and back recoiled.” A place there is below, from Beelzebub     As far receding as the tomb extends,     Which not by sight is known, but by the sound Of a small rivulet, that there descendeth     Through chasm within the stone, which it has gnawed     With course that winds about and slightly falls. The Guide and I into that hidden road 
  Now entered, to return to the bright world;     And without care of having any rest We mounted up, he first and I the second,     Till I beheld through a round aperture     Some of the beauteous things that Heaven doth bear; Thence we came forth to rebehold the stars.
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Taking Chances Ch. 16: Summertime Nightmares (Alt prompt: Consolation/advice)
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The following week was the last of the school year. And it was...weird to say the least. Some of her classmates were upset that she hadn’t been the one to tell them. Many of them (most) assumed that she’d known and just hadn’t told them. She didn’t want to argue with them and she knew her dad hadn’t announced her existence in Gotham yet, so she just pointed out the fact that the Wayne family was very private.
That mostly worked. Lila kept poking though, insisting that Marinette would have told them if she trusted them. Nino disagreed, which shocked Marinette. He usually believed Lila, or at least he hadn’t ever openly gone against her before. But not this time. This time, he insisted that Marinette trusted them and it was probably her dad who asked her not to say anything. While wrong, Marinette didn’t disagree. She’d let her dad take the fall for this one. Alya though...she wasn’t taking it well. She thought Marinette should have told her ages ago. If she had known before Lila came, maybe she would have told Alya. But Alya had been more lax on what she posts on the Ladyblog since Lila’s arrival. She’d done less research, and was posting things not related to Ladybug and Chat Noir. While that wouldn’t usually bother her, Marinette did not want her newly discovered family to be the next big story on Alya’s blog.
So she basically just kept her head down, kept quiet at the class hangouts. And now school was finally out for the summer. It would be a little over two months with no Lila. Breathing out a sigh of relief, Marinette walks into the bakery and smiles widely at her Maman and Papa.
“Hello honey, how are you?” Her Maman asks, sliding a croissant into her hands.
“I’m fine, Maman.” She says, mentally preparing herself to ask what she’d been avoiding. Her dad had offered to let her stay in Gotham for the summer. It was both a chance to bond, and a chance for him to train her a little so that she could fight better, help her make a case against Hawkmoth, maybe even find his identity. He also wanted to give her a break. He thought that taking a step away from Paris, from always policing her emotions, was in her best interest. She agreed, but she still hadn’t talked to her Maman. Or her Papa.
“Bruce called.” Her Papa says. Marinette freezes. He wasn’t supposed to call yet! “Asked if we’d made a decision about letting you go to Gotham for the summer.” Rats.
“I was gonna talk to you guys today! I didn’t wanna upset you. I love you guys so much, but I also really wanna spend time with the other half of my family because I just met them and we haven’t really had a chance to bond or get to know each other and-”
“Honey, we understand.” Her Maman says, cutting off her ramble with a smile. Marinette blinks.
“Really?” She asks in a small voice. She didn’t want to hurt them. Her Maman smiles and relief floods her body.
“Of course honey. It would also give you a chance to not deal with constant akuma attacks.” She says. Marinette squeals in excitement, running over and wrapping her parents in a hug.
“Thank you, thank you, thank you!” She yells. Watch out Gotham, Marinette Dupain-Cheng Wayne is coming back!
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“Why hasn’t Marinette answered yet? She’s always down for a class picnic.” Alya says with a pout. Lila suppresses an eye roll, opting instead for a worried frown.
“Do you think she’s mad at you?” She prompts, knowing exactly why the little brat wasn’t answering. She was supposed to be on a plane right about now. Lila had borrowed Alya’s phone the day before (to make sure Marinette hadn’t tried to say anything about her again) when she saw the text. Marinette would be spending the entire summer in Gotham.
Lila, in a moment of what was surely pure excellence, deleted the text. It was perfect! Alya wouldn’t know Marinette had left and Marinette would be waiting for a text from her stupid BFF. But Lila had thought of that too. She’d changed the phone number on Marinette’s contact in Alya’s phone. It was now set to go to a fake number in a messaging app that Lila spent €1 on each month. It was worth it though, it’d definitely come in handy before. And now all she had to do was wait. Sure Marinette could always text Alya first, but Lila had heard too many times that Alya usually reached out first. Probably because of how much of a scatterbrain Marinette is.
“Why would she be mad at me?” Alya asks with a nervous smile. Hook, line and sinker. Lila frowns and places a hand on Alya’s arm in a faux attempt at reassurance.
“I didn’t wanna say anything, I really shouldn’t.” She says, shaking her head.
“Please. I’ll owe you one!” Alya insists, just as Lila had hoped. This would be a key part of her plan later on. Once Marinette has been silent for a few weeks.
“Well...okay. I heard her talking to Adrien the other day.” Lil starts, using the only other person who could go against her (but won’t!) “She said- she said she couldn’t trust you!” Alya flinches back as if she was hit.
“She said that?” She asks in a small voice. Lila nods sadly, celebrating on the inside. She’d be able to use this summer, while Marinette is away, to finally take everything away from that no good brat. It would be glorious.
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Marinette was moments away from committing a murder. She was only going to do it because she knew for a fact that she’d get away with it. With a singular pout, she’d have the world’s greatest detective on her side. She was certain of it.
“Miss Marinette please put down the knife. I assure you prison is not lovely this time of year.” Alfred says with a sigh as he walks into the kitchen.
“Then tell Dick to get out of the kitchen!” She complains, pointing at her oldest brother who was currently covered in frosting and flour. She was trying to make cupcakes for after dinner, since she knew how much Dick likes sweets. She was trying to do something nice. And when Dick came into the kitchen, claiming he just wanted to spend time with his baby sister, Marinette let him stay. Because she loves her brother, she does.
But somehow in the two minutes that he was in the kitchen, he managed to dump the entire canister of flour. Not good, but she’d already baked the cupcakes so it wasn’t the end of the world. But then somehow, he’d managed to dump the entire mixing bowl of frosting. The entire thing. She had no clue how he had managed to do that, considering the fact it was frosting. It didn’t exactly run smoothly out of a bowl. It’s supposed to be able to hold its shape. Honestly, it was a mystery.
“Master Dick, you know that you are not allowed in the kitchen.” Alfred says with a frown. Dick pouts.
“I just wanted to spend some time with Mari.” He mumbles. Marinette almost regrets wanting to kill him. Until she watches as he wipes some of the frosting off of his head and eats it. Yeah, she doesn’t regret it anymore...but she does still love him.
“Okay, we’ll definitely have to spend more time together later. But for right now please go take a shower or something. I need to make more frosting and I do not trust you to be in the room when I do.” Marinette says exasperatedly. Dick sighs but leaves. Marinette puffs out her cheeks, giving Alfred a look.
“Yes?” He asks, his lips quirked up slightly.
“I honestly don’t know how you deal with them sometimes.” She grumbles before grabbing a new bowl. The cupcakes aren’t going to decorate themselves.
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Jason huffs, annoyed that he’d been talked into staying at the manor with Marinette. He wasn’t mad at Marinette, he would do just about anything for the kid. Didn’t mean he wanted to stay at the manor just to make sure she didn’t sneak onto patrol. She’d assured them that she was too tired to try anything, but Bruce hadn’t believed her. Thus, Jason stuck at the manor.
But the kid had made a shit ton of cupcakes and Jason had a copy of his favorite book, so the night wouldn’t be too bad. After a few hours lounging in one of the rooms near Marinette’s, Jason starts to nod off. He’s about to welcome the rest, knowing everyone would be back from patrol soon, when he’s yanked from sleep by an ear piercing scream. Shit.
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Marinette blinks as she looks around. Oh god. No, no please don’t let this be real. She chokes out a sob as she looks around her. Paris was once again completely underwater. The Eiffel tower was split in half. Hands shaking, she glances up and sees the moon. Or, what’s left of it. She moans in distress, letting her tears fall freely. She tries to breathe, but it won’t come. She’s panicking now, trying to ignore the burn in her chest as she sees the disaster around her. The terror around her. The destruction. She clutches her throat, trying to force her body to breathe. Force herself to suck in air, to be okay.
“Oh, Marinette, I see you’ve decided to join us again.” A familiar voice says. She tenses, slowly turning and looking behind her. Standing in front of her, just as she remembered him, was Chat Blanc. She should’ve known. She should’ve known that just because it was okay for a couple days didn’t mean it would stay okay. She should’ve tried harder to find Bunnix, should’ve tried to find a way to stop Adrien from finding out. Movement by Chat Blanc’s feet catches her attention and she glances down, regretting it immediately.
“What have you done?” She asks, rushing forward and falling to her knees, desperately trying to stop her little brother from bleeding out. “What have you done?” She yells, glaring at Chat Blanc through her tears. Her hands shake as she puts pressure on the wound, using Damian’s cape in an attempt to stop the blood.
“Marinette-” He tries to say, and she just shakes her head, hating that there’s blood coming out of his mouth. She knows what that means. She knows that this is bad. And there are no hospitals anymore. Everything is underwater. Everything except the three of them.
“Hey no, it’s okay. It’s gonna be okay, I’ve got you little brother.” She chokes out, trying to smile at him.
“Father,” He manages to say, his voice barely audible. “Help him.”
“No, no, please. Please don’t leave me! Please, no, no!” She screams, trying to wake him back up, trying to force him to get back up. He couldn’t die like this. He couldn’t die at all. She just found him. And now she’s lost him.
“Now we can be together forever Marinette.” Chat Blanc says, finally speaking up. She glares at him and his stupid smirk. The smirk that had haunted her since the first time she saw the white suit.
“I don’t want anything to do with you! You killed my brother!” She screams. Glancing down at her shaking hands, she can’t help but notice they’re covered in blood. She shudders, trying hard not to throw up.
“Brothers, actually.” He quips. She snaps her gaze back to him.
“What?” She hisses, standing so that she can hopefully run and get to one of her brothers before it’s too late. She can’t lose all of them. She can’t. He casually steps to the side, revealing her other brothers. But none of them are moving. Cass is also lying with them, but she’s not moving either. Gone. All of her siblings. And it was all her fault. She let Adrien know her identity. She didn’t try to fix that mistake and this is what happened. She lost every- her dad. Damian said- She turns and runs away from Chat Blanc, scanning the horizon and trying to stay as together as possible. She had to try. She could still save her dad. She could still help him. As she looks around, she manages to spot his cowl. Rushing towards it, she lets out a sigh of relief.
“Marinette?” He says, looking at her with a frown. She scans him for injuries, relieved that he just had a few small wounds. Nothing that couldn’t be fixed.
“I’m so sorry dad.” She whimpers, throwing her arms around him. He holds her for a moment before pulling away.
“Marinette, we have to go. We can’t stay here. It’s only a matter of time before-” He stops talking and his face morphs into the most horrified, anguish filled face that Marinette had ever seen. Right before he starts to crumble into ash.
“No!” She screams, horror and grief washing over her in waves. She was all alone and it was all her fault. And now she was going to die too.
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“Come on Pixie, wake up kid. Come on, it’s okay, I’m here. Jay’s here.” A familiar voice soothes. Marinette stops thrashing, coughing slightly as she realizes the loud noise had been coming from her. She’d been screaming. Jay’s here? But then- She immediately opens her eyes, sobbing in relief when she sees Jason looking at her. No blood. Okay. She lunges forward and wraps her arms around him, sobbing into his chest.
“I’m sorry.” She cries. “I’m so sorry.”
“Oh kid, you don’t have to be sorry. It’s okay. You’re okay.” He whispers, holding her close. They sit like that for a few minutes, until a knock on the door frame makes her reluctantly pull back. She glances over and a new wave of tears immediately appears. She launches herself off the bed and runs into her dad’s arms, sobbing once more.
“Jason, what happened?” He asks quietly, she knows that Jason doesn’t know, but she doesn’t answer for him. She can’t. All she can do is cry in her dad’s arms, relieved that she could cry. That her nightmare didn’t end with her almost being akumatized like it had before.
“No clue. Heard her scream so I ran in here, but she was asleep. Once she woke up she started crying and apologizing.” Jason says softly, probably for her benefit. She tries hard to remind herself that the nightmare didn’t mean anything. Her family wouldn’t be hurt because of her.
“Is everyone okay? Damian and Tim and Dick?” She asks, still buried in her dad’s arms. She’d ask about Cass, but she was still in Hong Kong. Marinette made a mental note to text her later.
“Everyone’s fine. Did you- do you want to talk about it?” He asks, and she almost agrees. Maybe it would be better to finally tell someone about Chat Blanc. To share that burden with someone else. But...maybe not her dad. Especially not since Adrien actively knows her identity and she wouldn’t be opposed to dating the boy in the future.
“I- er, um.” is all she manages to say before shaking her head. She won’t talk to her dad about this, and she doesn’t want to leave his arms right now. Not while she feels safe. She can almost hear him whispering to Jason, but she knows he’s trying not to let her hear, so she ignores them and instead wraps her arms around him tighter.
“Can I go get you a glass of water? Maybe a cookie for Tikki?” Her dad asks after a few moments of whispering with Jason. Marinette frowns. She didn’t want to be left alone. Not yet.
“I’ll stay with ya Pixie Pop.” Jason says, almost as if he had read her mind. She nods, giving her dad one final squeeze before walking back over to the bed and climbing up, letting Jason wrap her in a hug.
“I’ll be back in a couple of minutes.” Her dad says before walking away. The silence only lasts a beat.
“You wanna tell your big brother why you woke up screamin’?” He asks. Marinette squeezes her eyes shut, desperate to get rid of the images from her nightmare.
“Nightmare.” She says simply. Jason chuckles.
“Kinda figured that part out Pix.”
“I’ve had it before.” She starts, aware of how her voice shakes. “But this time it was a lot worse. This time, I wasn’t the one who died.”
“What could be worse than dyin?” Jason asks, though she can tell by his tone that he knows. He knows what’s worse than dying.
“Watching all of you die.” She says simply. His hug tightens and she lets out a shaky breath, desperately wiping at her tears. “That’s not even the worst part Jay.”
“You don’t have to tell me if you don’t wanna.” He says softly.
“I know.” She says. “A version of it has happened. In a different timeline. That’s the worse part. Luckily when I had to go save that timeline, I didn’t know you guys. So you weren’t caught in the middle of everything. But in my nightmare, since you know about me and- and you guys just wanted to help but no one can win against that. No one. It was so hard to beat him when it actually happened. But the dream. It was awful.” There’s silence as he just holds her, lets her know he’s there without saying it. She’s so thankful for her family. For her brothers.
“Here’s your water.” Her dad says. She finally sits up and looks at him, noting the way his face is creased in worry. She manages a small smile.
“Thanks dad.” She says, her smile growing slightly as his face begins to relax.
“Mari! You’re still up?” Dick says, walking into the room. She blinks at him in confusion, not expecting him to just walk in. She watches as he looks between everyone else, clearly putting it together that something was wrong. He frowns, before his face stretches back into a grin. “Come on, bring all your pillows and blankets and we’ll have a Disney movie marathon until we fall asleep.” He directs, running out of the room to presumably get his own materials for the movie marathon.
“You don’t have to.” Her dad reassures her, laying a gentle hand on her shoulder. She shrugs.
“Might as well. I know I’ll definitely not be able to sleep anymore tonight.” She says, grabbing a couple pillows and her blanket, dragging it with her to the movie room. Leave it to her brothers to have a way to help her feel better after a nightmare. Marinette smiles to herself, once again relieved that she was in Gotham.
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wander-wren · 2 years ago
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Wren’s Concept Box
i always have a thousand ideas for different fics in my head, so this is where i keep track of them! since these are just ideas i’m throwing around, you’re also welcome to take them for yourself, as long as you tell me so i can go see it and hype you up!!
my current wips generally take priority, but i’m always down to just chat about everything here. i’m also a rlly big pushover and easily convinced to write things, lol, so do with that what you will. obligatory disclaimer that there’s no guarantee i’ll write anything here, and if i stop being interested in a concept i’ll delete it.
Upcoming Fics
these fics are almost certainly going to be written eventually bc they’re connected to current wips/completed fics, i just haven’t gotten to start them yet.
three of swords- power of three rewrite following my other rewrite fics. main changes: three are born in windclan, sol actually has a purpose, and their powers have been…reimagined. also hollyleaf has a power.
sign of the four- omen of the stars rewrite. main changes: dovewing is the fourth cat, not firestar. other changes TBD.
hold my hand (i’ll lead you through)- working title, third installment in the emetophobic!adam verse, but WAY fluffier than the others. more montage/character study style of the gangsey helping adam.
Other Ideas
everything not 90% guaranteed. ordered alphabetically by fandom, and in no particular order after that. a few have titles, most don’t.
BNHA
there’s beauty in the bleeding (at least you feel something)- touch-starved!todoroki who doesn’t know how to get touch except via sparring. eventually some?? people?? figure it out and there is fluff
snowed in- huddling for warmth/mission gone wrong bkdk with todoroki third wheeling, and potential ot3?
only time we’ve held hands (i threw a punch and you caught it)- the title is the concept i just Like It. definitely bkdk, maybe…soulmark fic? idk.
dabihawks old guard au- i wrote in this universe for whumptober and had a lot of fun, so i’m definitely down to write a full longfic with it at some point. when i have fewer longfics in progress lol.
The Old Guard
joenicky character study- them through the ages. for the express purpose of writing their final death bc i have Thoughts and Opinions on it but i don’t just want to write it by itself, yknow?
The Raven Cycle
gansey and the ship of theseus- the world needs more gansey angst! i imagine my guy has weird feelings about being resurrected twice. sarchengsey roadtrip era
pynch & possession- just adam post That Scene at the end of the raven king hating himself/being terrified bc he hurt ronan
cambridge, take two- a different version of ronan going to harvard in cdth, with no murder crabs but still angst. honestly i don’t remember what i thought with this and my notes have like no details but i’m intrigued.
soulmarks- au where people get to choose soulmates, and they can be unrequited. once you choose someone, a mark appears on the first place they touched you, like a tattoo, that represents them. if they choose you back, same thing. ik that destroys the idea of soulmates but i like the idea of the gangsey choosing to be bound to each other.
pynch mind reading- after cabeswater possesses adam, either he can hear ronan’s thoughts or ronan can hear adam’s, or both. then they fall in love, or something.
genderbent pynch- no thoughts i just rlly like lesbians. girl!ronan owns my entire soul.
Six of Crows
character studies- thats all, just. getting in their heads. a little series. i have a nina one i wrote for a friend as a gift but that was like two years ago and i’m afraid to check if it holds up. but i like doing them.
Warriors
mosskit lives au- i had this idea ages ago where mosskit survives and somehow manages to reach bloodclan? and becomes it’s leader instead of scourge? idk about the logic there. but they (they’re nonbinary to me) are obsessed with revenge on bluestar and become the Actual big bad of tpb, pulling the strings on everything.
swiftgorse- i was introduced to swiftpaw/gorsepaw and idk what i’d do with it but i’m very interested
Welcome to Night Vale
ripping at the seams- cecil finally cracks under the pressure of being night vale’s voice. the “stuck in my booth, only able to narrate and not to help” quote inspired this.
carlos 113 aftermath- i have a note about carlos learning about the events of 113 and freaking out but i don’t fully remember that episode or my thought process. i’m still intrigued.
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scriptaed · 4 years ago
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cherry blossom avenue [teaser]
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❀ genre: angst/fluff; arranged marriage!au; f2l!au;
❀ pairing: jin x reader; 
❀ length: ~20k;
❀ synopsis: college would’ve been unbearable if it weren’t for your wallowing sessions with your best friend jin over a shared “forever alone” woe, so it really was only a matter of time until the two of you sealed a shoddy promise to betroth the other at the age of 27. perhaps it was only a silly joke to you then, but you should’ve known better nonetheless; because when a wedding invitation arrives five years later down the road with his name signed next to another’s, feelings that were once buried begin to blossom once again.
❀ coming 1/19 at 7 P.M. PST;
❀ a/n: yes, i posted a teaser half a year ago but here’s a little snippet that i finally got around to writing!
POSTED AS OF 1/19
“Hey, I said I don’t plan on being forever alone.”
“Right, right,” you brush him off, “tell me that when you actually get a girlfriend—actually, tell me that when you find someone to marry who doesn’t run for their life just one month into your relationship.” 
“‘Marry?!’” he gawks at your demand. “I haven’t even had my first kiss yet and you’re talking about marriage?!”
“What?” you turn to face him, cheek resting in hand. “Didn’t you say the world would soon recognize your charms?”
“Hmph, well,” he says with a jutted lower lip, “definitely sooner than you.”
“Really?” you gape at his bold proclamation despite clearly being the one with the upperhand. “You really think you’re gonna get married before me?” 
Your best friend doesn’t even bother glancing at you before answering, “bet.”
“Okay, if you win, then I’ll eat the crust to your breads whenever you want. I’ll even throw in a bonus for you and spare your wife from having to see fetus photos of you in college,” you can only snicker at the lightbulb that goes off in his widened eyes. “And if I win, then you’ll have to eat my crust and delete all the ugly photos you have of me on your phone.”
“Sorry, can’t do. That would take me an eterni—”
“—shut up.” 
“Okay, fine, bet,” he cackles, straightening his back and stretching his arms out before him, “and what if neither of us ever get married?”
“Hm,” you purse your lips, “good point. Should we set a time cap to our bet? Ideally, if I want to have a stable job and income by 25, have children by 30, enjoy two or three years of marriage without kids, then…”
“Why do you have to have children by 30?” Jin frowns. “Why set all these unrealistic standards on yourself?” 
Putting a finger to hush his lips, you almost find yourself distracted by the plush texture of his lips. Quickly, you answer, “long story short: parents.”
“Ah,” he utters even as your fingers are pressed to his lips, “ditto.” 
“Let’s set the cap to 27,” you propose. “If neither of us get married by the age of 27, then we’ll just call off the bet. But damn—” the two of you simultaneously lean your chins into your palms “—that means we’re really gonna be a disappointment to our parents forever, huh?” 
A loud, heavy sigh escapes the both of you; and while you stay pouting into your hands, staring into the fresh green grass on the downside of the hill off in the distance, Jin props his hands back against the blanket and cranes his neck back to look off into the distant sky. You hadn’t noticed it until now, but for a devilishly dashing guy like Jin—broad shoulders, facial features that could only be gifted, and a prominent Adam’s apple, especially with his head rolled to the back like this—you have to admit his lonely status must have been much more of a choice to Jin than it is for you; because even for someone like you, his best friend who gets to stare at his profile for as long you desire in all its glory, you have yet to become desensitized to his dazzling visuals that is anything but normal.
As much as you hate to admit it, even now, with a clear blue sky, an array of warm pastry aroma, and a field of freshly cut grass, you can’t help but become enamored by the person before you. 
And when another sigh befalls his lips and the two of you have settled into a comfortable silence and a breeze passes by the both of you, rustling a dozen or so of the hovering cherry petals to grace the surrounding air, he speaks. 
“Let’s get married if we’re still single by then.” 
“...huh?”
“I said,” only his eyes move to peer down at you effortlessly, “if we both lose the bet, then let’s get married.”
Your eyes pop and you can only utter the few words that reach you, “to each other?” 
“No, to food,” he says sarcastically, grabbing a piece of his bread and stuffing your face with it when you continue to stare at him and he shuffles awkwardly in place. Looking away, he mumbles, “of course to each other, who else, dummy?”
“Uh….huh,” you blankly nod your head as a series of laughs are stifled by the bread. “Okay, and you’re being serious?”
He doesn’t look at you when he answers, “uhuh.”
“Pffft, and you’re saying you would keep that promise? That you would even remember this moment? We’re just gonna marry? Like that? And you’re assuming I’m just going to agree?”
“Hey,” he turns to frown at you, “why wouldn’t you agree? I’m offering you a once in a lifetime opportunity!”
Munching down on the bread, you continue to play along in amusement, “really? And what exactly are you offering me? You know I have high standards right? I’m not just going to accept any proposal.”
“I know. That’s why you’re still single…” the boy deadpans, even as you glare at his remark, “...but, that’ll all change when you witness my proposal! Hear me out. First, I’ll cook every meal for you for the entire day.”
“You almost already do that except for breakfast.”
“Okay, but I’ll hone my skills by then. It’ll be even better than any restaurant we’ve ever been to.”
You raise a brow, “so you think food is the way to my heart?”  
“No offence, but yes, that’s why we’re friends,” he quips before continuing, “second, I’ll bring flowers to you at work. Everyone at your job will be burning with jealousy!”
“Because of your public display of affection, which we both clearly disdain?” 
“No, because they would think you have such a handsome boyfriend like me!” he wags his finger. “Plus, who doesn’t like a little PDA when they’re about to be proposed to?” 
“Okay, fair enough, but those are two promises you’re making for the proposal. A marriage is a lifetime commitment. Why would I want to marry you just for food and flowers?”
“Hmmm, even for someone like you, I’m surprised you have so many requirements,” Jin hums, tapping his finger on his chin. “How about this, I’ll make three more promises for our marriage.”
“Quit saying ‘our marriage,’ I keep shuddering at the thought of it,” you remark as you rub your arms. 
“Third promise, I won’t break your achey breaky heart,” he deliberately emphasizes each word in a fruitful attempt to send shivers down your spine. “Fourth promise, I’ll remember all of my promises.”
“Okay… and fifth?”
“I’ll keep all of my promises! And I’ll do it all right here at this spot. Our spot.”
“What? That’s dumb,” you giggle. “Just keep at four, then.”
“No,” he grabs the bagel in your hands and fills his mouth without a second of hesitation, “ish eashier to wememba fibe promishesh.”
“Right, right, right,” you nod, pressing your lips in a vain attempt to muffle your chuckles. “And what promises would you want me to make?”
“You?” he quirks a brow before shaking his head. “Nothing. You’re fine. I like you just the way you are.”
Huh. Has Jin always been this nice? Because you don’t quite recall ever feeling the heat of an oncoming blush of your cheeks or the bashful flutters that come with your best friend’s witty remarks. Maybe the topic of marriage has thrown you off today or maybe it’s the aftermath of a high having just graduated college and being thrusted into adulthood, but the stretched smile that adorns your lips is an undeniable fact that your confidence and spontaneity has reached its pinnacle.
Grinning, you lean across Jin’s lap to grab and unlock his phone to access the camera, “okay, wanna take a photo to commemorate this moment?”
“Gee, if you want a photo of me that bad, you could just ask me to send you a selfie, y’know—what the,” Jin starts to cackle when you raise the phone into the air and suddenly press your cheeks against his without warning. With a side-finger gun to frame his cheeks and chin, your best friend readies his pose as you wear a mischievous smile. “Hurry up and take the picture already, Y/N. My time is money.” 
“Hey Jin,” you call out to him with your eyes still fixated to the phone screen, as does his. 
The boy almost drags his words, “now what?”
“You’ve never had a girl kiss you on the cheeks before either, right?”
“What��”
—click.
“There,” you chirp jubilantly, grinning at the stunned look on his face, his eyes popping and his lips just slightly parted but failing to utter a single word as his hand grazes the spot on his cheeks where your lips had just touched, “now you have zero excuses to forget our promise!”
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thewritinggrindstone · 5 years ago
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Identifying Harmful Repetition in Your Writing
Something I’ve encountered ad nauseam over the last few projects I’ve edited is a relentless repetition of words, phrases, and ideas. One of the most frustrating and confidence-destroying issues a reader can encounter is poorly executed repetition, which can stem from different problems, including:
Too much reliance on your natural stock phrases.
Limited vocabulary.
Not proofreading close enough or editing thoroughly enough.
Lack of confidence.
Not writing with the reader in mind.
I want to preface this with the fact that obviously certain types of repetition aren’t bad. Repetition is an incredibly powerful tool when used effectively, and what’s effective is subjective per book and per reader. That’s a massive topic for another time. This post is specifically about egregious uses of repetition, the types that any good editor or beta reader will point out as in need of fixing.
Stock Phrases and Words
Every person has their own unique lexicon, a repository of words and phrases they naturally will draw upon when they speak, write, and even think. There’s a reason clichés are prevalent, and that’s because the brain likes the path of least resistance. It’s easy to mentally grab those words and phrases that are constantly in arm’s reach, those words and phrases that are comfortable and familiar, but constantly doing this while writing and then not changing them can result in overuse that is noticeable on both stylistic and technical levels. It can also lead a reader to the understanding that you haven’t thought critically about what you’re writing, which can and will undermine their confidence in you.
If you’re writing a first draft, don’t worry about this too much. You probably just need to focus on putting words down, not exactly what those words are. Repetition is an issue that can and should be intentionally fixed during the revision process.
If this is a problem that bugs you even when you’re drafting, there are different ways of dealing with it. I tend to be highly aware of most repetition within my work, and because I constantly edit as I write, backtracking to add/move information as I go doesn’t tend to interrupt my workflow too much. If I know I’ve already used a word and can’t think of something better after several seconds’ thought, I’ll use the repetition and immediately flag it somehow—usually with a “repeat” comment—so I can deal with it once I’ve completed the draft. Opening a thesaurus or dictionary tends to be more disruptive during drafting than it’s worth, but sometimes it isn’t, and you will need to determine what works best for you according to your own style.
Once you’re ready to target the issue of repetition, you will need to work hard, think hard. Don’t settle for the easy word, the stock phrase, the cliché. Discard the timeworn, the tired, the used-before. Play with language—try to come up with new phrases, unique descriptions. Get silly, flip rocks over, dig around under them, push things as far as you need to create something different, then go back and edit again, refining what you’ve written until you’re satisfied.
It’s going to be a process. It’s going to be difficult. It won’t be natural at first; you’ll need to form new pathways in your brain, just like when you learn any new skill, and that’s uncomfortable, but if you persist, your writing will be fresh and alive and won’t be as prone to being bogged down by reader-infuriating repetition.
Limited Vocabulary
Tying into the idea of your personal lexicon is the size of it. No matter how much you pay attention to precisely what words or phrases you’re using, you won’t have much in the way of options if you don’t have at least a good-sized repertoire to draw from.
Increasing your lexicon is something that just takes dedication and time. You can’t rush it, you can’t force it, but you can be deliberate in growing it. Read broadly, maybe bookmark or sign up for your favorite dictionary’s word of the day, or keep a word cache of interesting words or phrases you like.* I have a document titled “word hoard” in Dropbox where I keep all unusual, unfamiliar, or beautiful words I encounter as well as their function(s) and definitions. Most of these words haven’t properly entered my own lexicon yet, but actively being aware of words that are anywhere from slightly to completely outside what you usually use will help you become a more mindful writer.
* I got this idea from Barbara Baig’s Spellbinding Sentences, which is one of my favorite books I’ve ever read on writing.
Lack of Proofreading/Editing
The identification and elimination of repetition hovers somewhere between content editing and technical editing. It’s an easy problem to skim over, especially when you’re the writer because you’re likely too familiar with every word you’ve put down, and issues like this tend to fade into the background. This is particularly true of writers who have reworded or reorganized a given piece of writing, since repetition can easily become lost in the jumble.
If possible, set your project aside for at least a few days—preferably a few weeks or even longer—then come back to it and read it with fresh eyes while intentionally noting and commenting on or highlighting all uses of repetition, big and small. If you aren’t sure if it’s something you repeated, flag it anyway—you can always check later.
If you don’t have time to set the project aside for a while, read your work aloud. If you can’t bear reading your work aloud or you aren’t able due to circumstances, listen to the document instead. Word has a read aloud function, and there are many online text-to-speech websites where you can paste a piece of writing. The unnatural cadence of the artificial voice might be weird and awkward at first, but listening won’t fully engage the “reading” portion of your brain, and you’ll likely find it easier to notice uses of repetition, among other problems. While writing this post, I have listened through it three times, tweaking phrasing and eliminating repetition—and deleting some of the harsher statements—as I go.
If you’re feeling really brave, have another person read your writing back at you. Nothing like being uncomfortably hyperaware of every word you’ve put down to recognize pretty much every single problem within your work. Just do not overcompensate and decide that nothing you’ve written has any value at all (it does), or that you’ll need to change everything (you don’t). If you approach this method with the understanding that it’s going to be awkward but are nevertheless determined to get something useful out of it, you’ll benefit, especially if your reading partner is willing to help you with any areas you feel you need assistance in.
When editing for repetition, if possible, pay attention not only to noun/verb/adjective usage. Go deeper. What types of repetition are you prone to using? Do you begin a significant portion of your sentences with conjunctions? Are there certain conjunctions you use more frequently than others? Do you reiterate entire sentences two or more times with only slight variations in wording? Do you return to the same idea numerous times? What about tone, do you use lots of rhetorical questions? Sarcasm? Self-deprecation? Self-boasting? Do you frequently return to the same imagery or settings or use of metaphor? Or grammar—are there certain punctuation marks or grammatical conventions you use more than others? Do you have a sentence construction you consistently fall back on?
Again, some of these questions might require an outside opinion for you to find suitable answers, but becoming self-aware of not just what you do but why you do will help you recognize these patterns, which in turn can help you mentally eliminate repetition before it even makes it past your fingertips.
Lack of Confidence
Widespread repetition of sentences and ideas is often a major symptom of a writer who isn’t confident in their abilities to communicate what they’re talking about. “If I just tell you this fact again, surely you’ll believe me this time. I’ll make you believe me. Do you believe me now? What about now? Now? Now?”
The painful truth is... no.
Encountering mindless or fear-based repetition is extremely frustrating for readers. Inevitably, without fail, every single time I edit a book by a writer who has repeated themselves over and over and over again, with every single repetition, I increasingly doubt both their credibility and their ability to pass on important knowledge to me. I feel either patronized and insulted, or I feel annoyed because it seems like the author threw their thoughts down on paper in whatever order they came out and then hit publish with
no regard for how those thoughts will be perceived by others, and
no regard for how they are wasting the reader’s time.
Please, please do not undermine your credibility by repeating yourself. Readers usually only need to read information one time for them to absorb it, maybe twice, so trust your readers. If the reader needs to come back to information, they have that ability. Do not force unnecessary repetition in their faces. Always assume readers are at least as smart as you. If you don’t need the information repeated, give your readers the same respect.
Increasing your writing confidence will once again take time and effort. You’ll need to determine why you’re not confident and then seek out methods of correcting the issue(s). In general, fear of not being heard or understood tends to be the underlying cause of repetition, so learn how to be deliberate in your writing. Say what you mean to say. Say exactly what you mean to say. Understand that you have something important to share with the world, so share it—then stop. Readers will appreciate you for not wasting their time.
 Writing for Yourself
Yesterday I finished editing a project just over 88,000 words. Nineteen chapters. Almost 250 pages.
I hated every word, and I learned nothing.
If it had been a line edit, I could’ve cut the book’s word count down below 50K merely by eliminating all of the repetition. This author is infatuated with the sound of their own voice, talked on and on and on merely to hear their own self-revelations and how special they are compared to everyone else stated again and again in near-identical sentences.
I’m editing another book right now that is less self-important and is far more interesting on the whole (and is thankfully over a hundred pages shorter), but again, the author has repeated themselves sometimes three or four or five times, with some phrases appearing over fifteen times, and I can feel my resentment growing. If an author isn’t going to take the time to put forth a thoughtfully crafted piece of writing, why should a reader likewise invest in it?
There is absolutely nothing wrong with writing for yourself. You should—you’ll learn a lot about yourself as both person and writer, and you’ll enjoy writing more, and you’ll (hopefully) be able to refine your skills.
But if—if—you intend to share your writing with the world, if you actually have something to say, you need to be aware that you have a duty to make yourself understood without wasting people’s time. Do not make people regret having picked up your writing by being so in love with the sound of your own voice that you are no longer courteous to others.
Love your writing. Love it fiercely and passionately and with reckless abandon, but reach a place where you know how your writing is going to be perceived at large. Use as many words as you need to get your point across and no more.
In Closing
If you’re still having difficulty identifying repetition within your own work, ask someone who is skilled at recognizing this issue to look over your writing. It’s always easier to recognize repetition when you haven’t written it, so fresh eyes can give you the insight you might not be able to see yourself.
Know your audience. A children’s book will require a different level of repetition than an instruction manual or a sci-fi novel or an autobiography. If you’re reading a recipe, you’d be annoyed and confused if the author told you to add the same ingredient twice due to shoddy proofreading. Write and repeat accordingly.
Whatever you’re writing, make a point of intentionally performing at least one round of editing with the intention of eliminating unnecessary repetition. Your readers will appreciate it more than you’ll ever know.
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