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Fluff alphabet- Minato
(I'm gonna do the fluff alphabets before any of the nsfw ones :3 I'll probably post these alphabets as extras while I wait for asks)
a = affection (how affectionate are they?)
Minato doesn't have any romantic relationship experience and I think Minato would be generally touch starved At least in the beginning of the relationship he'd be really awkward when it comes to affection but I think he'd open up more with time. Not super affectionate though, not physically anyways.
b = beginning (what was the beginning of your relationship like?)
Once again, super awkward. He has no experience so he has no clue what to do. He'd probably try to look up things couples do, maybe ask his grandparents for advice as a last resort because he can't handle the teasing he gets from them.
c = cuddles (do they enjoy cuddling? how would they cuddle?)
He does enjoy cuddling! He doesn't care about who's the big spoon or not but he really enjoys holding onto you because it makes him feel like he can protect you more easily. Although he likes the warm feeling and the butterflies swarming in his stomach that being held gives him.
d = domestic (what’s domestic life with them like? do they plan on settling down?)
He's had to take care of his parents and his grandparents for as long as he can remember, he just considers taking care of others to be his thing, he enjoys it y'know? He wakes up early to cook breakfast, has a calendar he marks every night, a planner where he writes down everything, has a schedule he goes by, he's very organized and healthy and he'll use that to take care of you. Encourages you to go to sleep early, eat three meals a day, do some excise like going out on walks, if you take medicine he's reminding you to take it. He makes a schedule for you as well and puts you in his, you're a huge part of his life. He would love to settle down with you but he's down to do whatever you want to, as long as you two are together, he's overjoyed.
e = ending (if you were to break up, how would it go?)
I know I've said it before and I will continue to say it, Minato is the least yandere out of everyone else. He'll respect your decision, he just hopes that you two can still be friends, he doesn't want to lose you entirely. If he were to lose you entirely I think that's when the yandere tendencies really show. Ever since the beginning of your relationship he's always checked up on you to make sure you were okay, after you cut him out of your life completely he still checks up on you often but now it's more so in the shadows. He probably does it even more since he can't outright be by your side to protect you.
f = favorite (what’s their favorite thing to do with you?)
Despite the constant embarrassing remarks his grandparents make about you two, he really loves when you come over and hang out with him and his grandparents. It's his favorite people all in the same room together, you feel like a major part of the family. He wants the most important people in his life to get along so he loves it when you come over and everyone is talking and playing games and eating dinner together, he adores those moments.
g = gentle (how gentle are they, psychically, and emotionally?)
EXTREMELY gentle! He knows his height and appearance can be intimidating so he's really gentle to try and help make people not afraid of him, most people don't typically give him a chance, but you did sooooo. He very unsure where his hands should go. Like, is holding your hand okay? What about pulling you just a little closer to him, or is that too rough? What about when he hugs you, should his arms be higher up or closer to your waist? He doesn't know so his hands are shaky, unsure, and gentle with you. He's pretty clueless when it comes to emotions honestly, he can't read you like how Haruto can and so if you want something you'll need to be direct with him. But he's never rude on purpose if he is rude, he always tries to sound gentle while still being somewhat direct.
h = hugs (how do they feel about hugs? how often do they happen? what are their hugs like?)
Loves hugs! He loves holding you and loves being held. Much like with cuddling, when he hugs you he feels like it's easier to protect you, like you're safe in his arms. In the beginning of your relationship, they probably wouldn't happen much, but I think with time they'd happen more and more. He always tries to hug you gently but if maybe you two haven't seen each other in a while or anything happens to you he'll hug you a bit tighter. He's a big dude so his hugs kinda engulf you <3
i = i love you (when do they first say it? how often is it said?)
He knows he loves you way before saying it. Honestly he most likely won't say it until after you've said it. If he does say it before you then it would probably happen when he thought you were sleeping or maybe something happened and he thought he was going to lose you, he'll say it then. After the first time it's said he'll say it to you every morning, every night, and every time you two have to separate from each other.
j = jealousy (are they the jealous type? how jealous do they get? how do they act when they’re jealous?)
Minato does get jealous but not super often. Like he knows you have friends like Aki and Haruto and he's happy you have friends. I think he'd get jealous of certain aspects though. Like how Haruto can read you and know what you want, he wishes he could do that for you. Or if any of your friends are touchy with you just so casually, he'll wish he could touch you as casually like that. Or if you're more comfortable around someone else then you are with him, he'll wish you were that comfortable around him. Gets jealous when you talk to someone more then him because he wants to talk to you more. Rarely does he get jealous of people just talking to you but if you don't give Minato a bit of attention he'll get jealous. He'll glare at the other person without realizing and stick close to your side, holding your hand. He'd play it off as he didn't get good vibes from that person and that he was just protecting you.
k = kisses (what are their kisses like? how often do they happen? where do they like to kiss you? where do they like to be kissed?)
Much like him, his kisses are gentle and unsure. With time and practice his kisses will get more confident but they remain gentle. They don’t happen much at first but they eventually become an every day thing. After every "I love you" he presses a little kiss to your face. He likes to kiss you on your forehead, nose, or lips and he likes to be kissed in the same areas.
l = language (what’s their love language?)
Quality time and acts of service are his main love languages and his secondary one is words of affirmation. Loves just being in your presence, it's instant relief. He loves doing things for you, I said a bit of in in Domestic, but he puts you in his schedule, makes sure you're taking care of yourself. He really likes word of affirmation but he's just not the best with it.
m = morning (what are mornings like with them?)
He probably wakes up earlier then most people. He won't wake you up when he wakes up but he likes to make sure you're up by at least 11:30. He probably watches you sleep for a little, thinking about how lucky he is to be dating you. He makes breakfast for him and his grandparents, making sure they take their medication. When you wake up he smiles upon seeing you, he'll say good morning and give you little kiss. He'll make you breakfast as well :3
n = night (what are nights like with them?)
He goes to sleep early and will encourage you to go to sleep early as well. He'll kiss you goodnight after telling you he loves you. If your sleep schedule is really bad then he'll set an alarm for like 1 or 2 in the morning and make you go to sleep then. Sleeping with him is kind of a pain though because of his sleeping habits.
o = open (are they an open book or more closed off?)
He doesn't mean to be closed off, he just genuinely doesn't try to think about his issues. If he contemplates how his life has been thus far it makes him upset so he just represses and stuff. He doesn't want to reject you trying to know more about him but he just hates reliving his childhood. He'll have to tell you things more slowly.
p = patience (how easily angered are they?)
It kind of depends on the situation. Typically he doesn't get mad at you and when he does it's more like concern. Like lets say maybe you did something dangerous and possibly life threatening, he's pretty upset that you put yourself in a situation like that but he's mostly concerned and just wants you to be safe and value yourself more. But as long as you aren't doing anything dangerous he doesn't get mad often.
q = quizzes (how much do they remember about you? do they remember every little detail or are they forgetful?)
He has written stuff down that you tell him so that he doesn't forget. So things like favorite color, favorite foods, etc etc he has memorized for things like gifts or dates. When you tell him anything from your home life he thinks about it a lot, if it's something happy then it makes him happy and if it was a bad experience he thinks about how much that must've hurt you and it makes him sad. He also has things like your birthday, important anniversaries, medicine schedule all written down in his planner and calendar.
r = remember (what’s their favorite moment in your relationship?)
Honestly, any time you would go over to his place and hang out with him and his grandparents are some of his favorite moments. It's all of his favorite people in the same room having fun and getting to know each other. The first time you went over to his place was when you two first got to really know more about each other so whenever you come over he just remembers that moment and smiles.
s = security (how protective are they? do they like being protected?)
Minato is very VERY protective. He's pretty protective of everyone because he doesn't really like violence but he gets REALLY protective when its someone that's really important to him, like you. He doesn't really feel the need to be protected but when he is, he can't deny it feels nice to be be cared for.
t = try (how much effort do they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, etc.?)
He puts in a lot of effort usually, but it also kinda depends on the date. Sometimes he wants to have a stay at home date y'know, he'll make an at home fancy dinner date or a really cozy movie date. He'll spend HOURS looking up date spots for you two to enjoy. Puts his all into anniversaries and birthdays, only the best for you. Much like in Remember when he wrote down stuff you like for gifts, he does put effort into his gifts, he's not really crafty so he just buys stuff that reminds him of you.
u = ugly (what’s a bad habit/trait of theirs?)
Taking care of others before himself. He finds pride and joy in taking care of others but he often forgets to do things for himself. He mostly does everything for other people and in the end he can end up getting easily used by others. He's gotten a lot better at taking care of himself but no matter what he will always put other people before himself. If he fails at taking care of people he often blames himself, thinking that maybe he could've done more and that it was his fault.
v = value (what’s their biggest priority regarding you in your relationship? ex: your safety, your happiness, etc.)
I think your safety is probably the biggest priority for him. Your safety is the reason why you two became close and eventually something more. As long as you're okay, he will be okay. He really values everything though.
w = whole (do they feel incomplete without you?)
Definitely! But I think unlike the other Li's Minato can eventually move on. Will it take a long time, absolutely, but I think he's capable of doing a lot of self-reflection and will realize that everything will be okay and that there's other people. But it also depends on the situation. If you two stay friends after breaking up then it's easier to accept moving on and feeling whole "without" you. If you die then it's over for Minato and he won't move on at all.
x = xtra (random headcanon!)
His grandparents are his biggest supporters! Minato has been living with them since he was 11 after certain events happened at home. His grandparents are still very much and love and see a lot of themselves in Minato and you and so they constantly tease Minato for his obvious crush on you. They're his wingman and wingwoman, trying to help Minato confess or push you to realize Minato's feelings and confess yourself. Don't let them know that you confessed to Minato, Minato will never hear the end of their teasing.
y = yearn (what’s something they want from you but will never admit to?)
Maybe perhaps wants your approval to get like 3-5 dogs, all corgi's LMAO. He would never put that on you cause animals are a lot of work, he's happy as long as he's allowed to have 1. He just wants at least ONE fur baby. Of course if you want a different animal then like yuh, as long as the proper research is done before you two get it :)
z = zzz (what’s a sleep habit of theirs?)
He goes to sleep early and wakes up early. He sleeps in pajama pants most nights but during nights where it is just too hot he'll sleep in just his boxers. He can't go to sleep without being covered by blankets(at least his upper body needs to be covered) but during the night he will push the blankets off of himself. He also sleeps on his back and kinda starfishes, his body temperature is too warm to be curled up.
#💝-minevn#visual novel#yandere vn#🎤-asks#🐠-minato#I hate how i always write i think#like im not sure but its like#they're my characters how arent i sure#anyways whenever i write i think it means they are#i just dont have to energy to try and change my writing style at all
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Checking up on his commission
#hate this guy. spoilers under tag cutoff#i fear i may have cooked with the tags. slash jay.#I've always imagined him with Particulars but I keep forgetting to draw them til like now#he speaks in lowercase to me. for reasons#I wanna know more about this untrustworthy bisexual but I also kinda wanna attack him every time he shows up#cant wait for the inevitable boss fight#fun fact: according to the dictionary 'nebulae' can refer to a clouded spot on the cornea that can cause defective vision#a limbus is 'the junction of the cornea and sclera in the eye'#so I think I speak for us all when I say WHAT THE FUCK MAN#what the hell was he on abt with Dante falling from the sky. and by sheep does he mean June 985 or?#if anyone wants to theorise on my post I'm all for it#limbus company#dante lcb#demian lcb#⏰🐍#unfortunately proud of that caption btw he really is just wanting his comm#HM WAIT BACK AGAIN#is the way the San was on about with leading the fallen nebulae home what causes J985?#as in - it is not people dying but them returning to their rightful place outside the City#with Purgatorio being the war 📘[i think] mentioned#is the doomsday Dante's head leading to the war? it typically refers to humanity's self destruction#or any globlal catastrophe#oh ok with PM is being sneaky again the Wiki page says it was inaugurated in June and guess when the MDE is#but generally things like nuclear war - AI and climate change are the main factors contributing to it#and we've already faced AI in the prev games via Angie so presumably one of the others will be the main force behind Dante's midnight#i personally like the nuclear angle given how Dante's head is already a clock#*BOMB. THEIR HEAD IS A BOMB THAT CAN BLOW UP#please do not write tags at night this was a bad idea
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heeyyy gaaanggg
the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.
#my art#digital art#digital painting#fanart#resident evil 7#ethan winters#goddd PLEAAASEEEE#i havent known if i was gonna post this or not multiple times in the process of drawin this. but ultimately i spent too much time on it to#NOT post it. embarrassment be damned#but at the same time what am i even doin yknow. what is this what is goin on pleaaseee PLEASEEEEE#I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT RESIDENT EVIL!!! I DONT KNOW N O T H I NG I KNOW LESS THAN NOTHING#HOW?? HOW DID I GET HERE??? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN???? i know exactly the answer to all those questions but it still boggles me how fast this#happened. usually it takes WEEKS if not MONTHS for me to start makin fanart. this was faaasttttt TOO FAST and im like. genuinely constantly#thinkin about this game. im ALWAYS thinkin about this game. part of why this took me so long to do is cause i always wanna play re7 or thin#about re7 in a strange and deranged way. ive actually genuinely been SICK WHAT HAPPENEDDDDDD#im losing it!! anyways this took me a looonggg ass time and i redrew it soo many timmmessss#i did like. 3 lineart passes. the album version i did 3 shading passes. i really struggled!! and ultimately i dont know how i feel about it#like i kinda resent it. for takin so long and makin me suffer so much#never again. never again will i spend that much time on a drawing. i HATE when drawins take a long time. i HATE that. it makes me madddd#ive been insane. ive been so insane. and im not gettin better like i cant sleep sometimes cause im thinkin about this game and this guy and#that gal like i think about them!! so! so much!! oh my god!!#in the time it took me to finish this ive done like 10 sketches for other pieces like. and ive had like 3 ideas ive written down.#and like 50 that i havent written or sketched.#IVE WRITTEN POETRY!! P O E T R Y !!!#i write the occasional poem when im feelin some kinda profound emotion but i NEVER write poetry about media SOBBING#anyways thats the post i think this is the beginnin of the end so lets hold hands and pray. ugh sorry if i get sick. im shakin.
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One makes him up, so the other can break him down.
This is a little terrifying but hello!! Posted my first fic on ao3!! I would've saved the illustrations for the fic's eyes only, but I'm too happy with them haha. Hope you'll still go on to read regardless!!
As always, my thoughts and progress, since I can't help myself:
I'm soooooo proud of these. I never ever really do dramatic lighting, so I'm really surprised that I pulled it off.
It's surreal actually posting this because for a while, I've thought about how if I ever post a fic, I'll have to make illustrations too because I can't do anything not full force. Look at me now! I'm shocked. Also didn't think I'd finish it tonight, but here it sits before you nevertheless(though as always, I'm writing this past my bedtime before class, time efficient as always.) So with that being said, here are some notes, though if I had known I'd be writing this so soon, I would've prepared more lol.
First of all, I hope it's clear both of these are Mark's perception. Gah, the fact that his face is the only one you can see clearly. The first is obviously him unwillingly fantasizing about what exactly went down last night.
Aghhhhh the difference in colors and settings of the two drawings is so important to me. The warmth and intimacy of the bed behind curtains in the first one, and the coldness and openess of the second. It's so clear Mark feels like he's been distanced, like he's been ousted. It's like he's been thrown outside on a cold winter's day, no longer able to feel the heat from the comfortable warm stove inside.
Mark was probably assigned to Seb bcs he has a much greater appreciation for the Spanish etiquette, which Seb has very little interest in. He'll abide by it when he absolutely has to. But he's just a very non-typical Emperor. People find it charming so it's not a public death sentence for him, but it is an issue. Thus, Mark is there to keep him in line. Though important to note that when Fernando, who has an equal if not greater respect for the showmanship of etiquette, realizes Mark is interested in that as well, they start warming up to each other.
The inherent disrespect of Fernando just. Throwing Seb's clothing onto the floor. Meanwhile he probably took like, 20 minutes folding his up(that's what Seb was gonna tell Mark at the end of the fic.) Borderline ripping off Seb's clothes only to edge him. Its not even like the ripping off the clothes is because of passion or anything, he's deliberately being an asshole. Don't worry Nandl, Seb's turned on by it!
So sorry to marknando fans if their dynamic feels like a complete 180 haha. Its not like I'm like, they actually hate each other!! It's just their relationship under completely different circumstances. They're like two dogs in a dog fight, they don't have any real reason to hate each other, but they're put against each other regardless. They don't understand their hatred, just know that they have it and that they're supposed to have it. The inherent hatred the mistress has for the spouse, and vice versa. If they actually were able to talk without barriers, they'd realize they actually get along pretty well. They kinda just hate each other because of their respective relationships to Seb. And then there's Seb who's mostly completely oblivious to his effect, though of course plays with it a bit.
Seb's marriage completely recontextualizes their relationship in Mark's eyes. Though there's something incredibly sado-masochistic about the way he can't blame Seb for it at all. He's a loyal dog after all. But when it was just them, he was obviously Seb's main companion and lover. Seb definitely slept with people on the side, but Mark brushed that off: 1. Bcs its very period typical. 2. He was the main, they were the side, what more needs to be said! But now *he's* the side piece, and is left wondering if their relationship was down to proximity alone. Not to pull a Mark and completely excuse Seb, but it's not. Just very different perceptions of love and relationships. And again, as I've mentioned before, he was raised to always be the most important person in the room, so he obviously has very different understandings, especially since he's always the center.
NANDL!!!!!! In my Habsburg book I've been reading lately, they randomly referred to one of them affectionately as "Nandl" and it's stuck in my head ever since. Can we start a movement to canonize that as an official Fernando nickname? I'm sooooo fond of it, I litrally ended the fic that way just so I could shoehorn that nickname in.
Speaking of the ending. It was really tough, I almost wanted to have Fernando burst in, looking for his ring, and then coming across whatever that is. But I didn't want to disrupt their moment anymore, it felt cruel. Though shame I couldn't mention that the reason why Seb's pants are nowhere to be found is because Fernando accidentally put them on and didn't realize till he was out of the room.
*I FORGOT TO POINT OUT ONE OF MY FAVORITE PARTS! Truly the danger of writing a post while falling asleep. There's something so incredibly funny to me the way they're talking so refined and then Seb just throws out: "that guy." It's a way to show his own disrespect of Fernando, not even using his name, implying he's just some guy(nur ein Kerl.) I laughed writing it cause it reminds me of the random dry humor anecdotes I've read lately.
#GAAAHHH WHY DO I ALWAYS WRITE THESE WHEN I START FEELING SLEEP DIZZY#haha anyways. first fic!!! so terrified icl#i really cant tell if this makes sense or appeals to anyone but me#BUT I LIKE IT AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS#im ngl i started feeling way too existential and self critical of it so i somehow pushed myself to finish it despite#working on it w a lot of delay and fuss for the month prior#yay for being anxious and self hating i guess....?#waugh anyways please reblog/comment and let me know what you think!!!!!!!#im desperate to know how others perceive this slddsfjls#though im a little scared this fic is too mean LOL#f1#formula 1#mark webber#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#catie.art.#boy king au#sebmark#martian#vettonso
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Wild how we know that Elizabeth Woodville was officially appointed to royal councils in her own right during her husband’s reign and fortified the Tower of London in preparation of a siege while 8-months pregnant and had forces gathering at Westminster “in the queen’s name” in 1483 – only for NONE of these things to be even included, let alone explored, in the vast majority of scholarship and historical novels involving her.
#lol I don't remember writing this - I found it when I was searching for something else in my drafts. But it's 100% true so I had to post it.#elizabeth woodville#my post#Imo this is mainly because Elizabeth's negative historiography has always involved both vilification and diminishment in equal measure.#and because her brand of vilification (femme fatale; intriguer) suggests more indirect/“feminine” than legitimate/forceful types of power#It's still bizarre though-you'd think these would be some of the most famous & defining aspects of Elizabeth's life. But apparently not#I guess she only matters when it comes to marrying Edward and Promoting Her Family and scheming against Richard#There is very lacking interest in her beyond those things even in her traditionally negative depictions#And most of her “reassessments” tend to do diminish her so badly she's rendered utterly irrelevant and almost pathetic by the end of it#Even when some of these things *are* mentioned they're never truly emphasized as they should be.#See: her formal appointment in royal councils. It was highly unconventional + entirely unprecedented for queens in the 14th & 15th century#You'd think this would be incredibly important and highlighted when analyzing late medieval queenship in England but apparently not#Historians are more willing to straight-up INVENT positions & roles for so many other late medieval queens/king's mothers that didn't exist#(not getting into this right now it's too long...)#But somehow acknowledging and discussing Elizabeth's ACTUAL formally appointed role is too much for them I guess#She's either subsumed into the general vilification of her family (never mind that they were known as 'the queen's kin' to actual#contemporaries; they were defined by HER not the other way around) or she's rendered utterly insignificant by historians. Often both.#But at the end of the day her individual role and identity often overlooked or downplayed in both scenarios#and ofc I've said this before but - there has literally never been a proper reassessment of Elizabeth's role in 1483-85 TILL DATE#despite the fact that it's such a sensational and well-known time period in medieval England#This isn't even a Wars of the Roses thing. Both Margaret of Anjou and Margaret Beaufort have had multiple different reassessments#of their roles and positions during their respective crises/upheavals by now;#There is simply a distinct lack of interest in reassessing Elizabeth in a similar way and I think this needs to be acknowledged.#Speaking of which - there's also a persistent habit of analyzing her through the context of Margaret of Anjou or Elizabeth of York#(either as a parallel or a foil) rather than as a historical figure in HER OWN RIGHT#that's also too long to get into I just wanted to point it out because I hate it and I think it's utterly senseless#I've so much to say about how all of this affects her portrayal in historical fiction as well but that's going into a whole other tangent#ofc there are other things but these in particular *really* frustrate me#just felt like ranting a bit in the tags because these are all things that I want to individually discuss someday with proper posts...
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A little promo with my little obsession on the side...........
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#klance#halloween au#im projecting on the internet my own impostor syndrome#i feel that im awful and should be learning how to draw instead of writing shitty fics#and when i want to write a post and share a little doodle or smth - 'sorry' is right between the lines and its so frustrating#like???? nobody probably cares#im either here or im not#and if i need to finish that little abomination of a fic then so be it you'd think people wouldnt mind too much#and would still want to listen to my captions and see whatever silly doodle however silly it is as long as its true#..............but what if its all redundant#what if i cant draw after i had to flip my entire routine upside down#and will forever chase a thrill of feeling like a prolific artist and it will be always out of reach now#what if people scroll past my art and feel nothing now#what if world is filled with people who kinda hate klance but stay out of reflex and not bc its their deeply routed source of comfort#what if i reached an artistic plateau and will never be good enough#what if this is the limit of my 'talent'#what if i will forever love the projects i want to share but will always hate the execution of it wanting to fix it fix it fix it learn mor#i keep reading the little notes i get on orders#some screenshots i saved#i find good words and opinions and love letters to art as a whole#and i feel insufficient#subpar#i drew a comic about it to an old poem and still havent finished it#there is a point of trying your best when it stops feeling like a challenge and feels like a failure#its the moment where you keep going of course#and yet#there are emotions im sure nobody shares on social media bc we just try to get through them#but who else will take it better than tumblr tags#either way if im less around its because im dealing with creational self-hatred and artistic ambitions#but on the other hand arent all artists like that? i ran out of tag space btw have an awesome weekend
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asking nerd Bakugou to give you a ‘pearl necklace’ and he starts grumbling about you tryna drain him dry but instead of pulling out his cock, he pulls out his phone to actually search for a pearl necklace </3
and to both his surprise and embarrassment, his phone is quickly tossed away in favor of you showing him what you’re actually asking for. he’s not mad though—not when you end up looking so pretty covered in white, grinning, and asking for another necklace <3
#I wanted to write this full out but my head actually feels like it’s gonna explode#I’ve been feeling a little more inspired lately tho which is great!!#I’ve been reading and watching (more watching) a lot of creative works/media#and I always forget how much it helps inspire creativity#I wrote a poem last night for the first time in a month I think#and now I wanna continue writing my original story and my tengen fic#I just hope the academic week doesn’t drain me too much this week#bc I would love to write more ;-; I miss it!!#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#my tags r still gone tho I hate this shit
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yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.
to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!
i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.
also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.
they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.
they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.
i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.
#eve text#elmike#stranger things#byler#only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol#tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS#god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear#i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable#i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts#elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about#even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike#i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up#the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me#and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing...#the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me#and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin#also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice…#fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK#so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows#i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too???#love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk#tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO...#like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO#stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest#anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul#i need frivolity#ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show
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ijbol idk man releasing screenshots of very polarizing things said in a private discord server between friends in a public "callout" post is #the most #tumblrific thing ive ever seen LOL.
#opinion 😱 in tags
#our life#gb patch#gb patch games#our life beginnings & always#i also think it should be acknowledged that the white queer 'experience' and the black queer 'experience' are totally different#bc there are multiple occasions where GBLady has recieved an ask where shes accused of Something bc of a super specific issue#this whole situation is just the biggest case of GetOverYourself ive ever seen icl#i think rose is entitled to their opinion as a black trans person + a person who previously identified as a trans man#i think its easy to attack rose as an inflammatory person who 'purposely incites discourse' bc they dont use that super-pacifying#everyone is welcome on my blog tone that if not used is immediately interpreted by white people as hostility and rudeness#i don't agree with a lot of their takes that ive seen on their blog that were allegedly posted BEFORE they became a sensitivity reader#but irdgaf#bc its their personal blog and theyre entitled to their opinion and i don't believe u get to feel insulted or slighted#or deem them as unprofessional and inflammatory just bc they didnt speak to u on their personal blog as Nicely as u wanted them to#i just think this all leads back to a growing sense of entitlement in the gb patch fan community#esp among the our life fans#just bc this is a deeply customizable game doesn't mean that the dev can customize Every Single Thing to ur liking#it also doesn't mean that ignorance on the devs part or the staffs part in most capacities is purposefully discriminatory in nature#like no offence but wdym 'ur hands are shaking and u need to get offline' bc of all of This... please grow up and go outside#also This is controversial but a lot of yall use the fact that GBLady is a white cis woman who happens to b writing stories#with a very diverse and nuanced cast to railroad ur ideals on how the characters should b written#and if they don't meet Your personal experience as a member of that marginalized community then They are automatically written incorrectly#again just a very entitled community IJBOL#idgaf if u disagree come and kill me over it 🤷🏾♀️#but also im very curious abt what people think !! 👁#i also dk how to phrase this but the white gb patch community also Reeks of this strange entitlement and i hate to say it but . . .#Sensitivity ??#they have this weird almost parasocial relationship with GBLady + this fantastical relationship with the characters themselves#LOL idk if anybody gets what i mean
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Which do you prefer, Spideypool or Poolverine?
glances at my decade-long running spider-man and deadpool blog
...hm. good question. i'll have to think about th
#sci speaks#contrary to what people may think. i actually do like spideypool#and it actually. is my favourite.#crazy insane. i know.#i don't know i just don't think logan/wade are end game. logan has got way too much other stuff going on to wind up with wade.#i just think it's hot when logan and wade kiss and stuff.#but i think it will always be hate fucking and will never be stable.#but spideypool... yeah. they're each other's brand of loser. they can make it work.#hi everybody i don't know if you know this about me but. i like spideypool. (sorry)#weirdly i think peter/logan would even work better than wade/logan. am i weird for that?#maybe it's just what i've read. but peter and logan have more mutual respect for each other in a weird way.#it feels more like a balance of powers. whereas with logan and deadpool wade does always kind of feel. like a doormat.#i know logan IS better than that but it's just what i see in a lot of portrayals. wade feels like dirt when he's standing next to logan.#whether logan treats him like dirt or not. doesn't matter. that's how wade feels. wade feels like dirt.#i really like wade being in relationships where he doesn't feel like dirt. 👍 big fan of that.#sure there are plenty of portrayals that have wade feel like dirt when he's with spider-man too. but... not the way i write them.
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Anyone's sent today's Wolverine issue to Brevoort yet? You know since he keeps on yapping how the throuple is lacking evidence especially in recent issues LOL. This is exactly what the starving throuple fans deserved. It's not EVERYTHING of course, because this is still Marvel, but you can read it however you like and they didn't just retcon it from orbit as was at some point rumored. These panels make me mighty emotional, and now I'm ready to write ALL the throuple and scogan things for pride month :D.
#x men#across misc x verses#scott summers#scogean#scogan#this is what my hurting heart needed#after last week's bullshit#thanks to dear scottxlogan for the find#i wasn't a big fan of this wolverine run#because i don't see the need for all the gore in an all age medium#like god beware you show anything explicitely queer#because THINK OF THE CHILDREN#but who cares about children seeing all the gore amirite#anyway imma write now#wolverine#jean grey#countering all the poly hate i have to see in these tags lately#SO DOES LOVE INDEED#and this leaves the door open for a return someday#if that's what they're courageous enough at some point#and even if not#this is our we'll always have paris#cyclops#no i don't know how to tag in proper order thanks for asking
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horror has KR dust can't be affected by KR unless it's by another version of himself. horror's (somehow) still a judge dust wants repentance for his wrongdoings,,,, someone must see where i'm going with this
i just wanna imagine like if dust ever feels like he's doing something wrong (like having thoughts about gaining LV again or something,,,,) he'll just ask horror to give him like. a quick little punch. hit him with a bone fragment because he needs to feel his sins crawling on his back from a true judge,,,,
and then horror's more than happy to do it 😁😁😁 he winds that shit up before he bitch slaps dust :33 oh you need to be judged DONT WORRY DUST horror is a totally impartial judge that totally won't find your situation both ridiculous and entertaining 😁😁
#something something this can totally be morphed into a more toxic dynamic#dust keeps asking to get hit.... horror totally agrees#but yk he feels BAD because of course he'd feel bad he still has some sort of fucked up morals#buuuut then again dust IS asking for it.... and he's saying that it'll improve himself!! AND ok maybe horror likes seeing him beat up SO WH#dust thinks that he needs this to stop the thoughts that he has and accidentally slipping into the LV grind mindset#and horror's nice (?) enough to do it!! dust isnt doing this to fufill his own hatred of himself. THIS IS TO IMPROVE HIMSELF!!!!#and also maaaaybe just an eensy bit so he can give horror that mental struggle abt dust since he always thinks that he's better than hin#i'm sorry i cant do toxicity if its not equal on both ends i HATE IT when toxic relationships have like.... 100/0 toxicity in them#i've been LOCKED IN TODAY with writing what the hell#me when i write more than 3 words after not writing since fucking MAY of this year#yeaaaah its soooo fun detailing how i think the trio met eachother#(i am dreading the part where i have to make dust and horror meet killer but ill deal w it later)#i have ideas...... i have bountiful ideas....... i only fear that i write something that none of these 3 would do or say or think..........#ill totally post the dust and horror sections once im done with horror's#but once again..... i fear of killer's section...... i will probably cry during it slash half joking#idk bc i dont want horror's part to be disproportionately longer than dusts.......#and killer's will probably be EVEN LONGER!!! which i DONT like#UGH is it so bad to just want killer to experiment on horror and dust the minute he sees them for the first time IS IT IS IT SO BAD#and then dust and horror have a little mini fight about who gets to be named sans :3333#AND THEN I WANNA GIVE THEM CUTE LITTLE TEMPORARY NICKNAMES UNTIL THEY GET TO SMTH NEW :33333#because killer would know their coded names but horrortale residents wouldnt. horror gets to be named red and dust purple!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!!!#horror cant do more than just ONE hit because dust's KR would probably affect him massively#the og hit is just like 6 dmg and then the KR lasts for like 20 seconds and then dust's at 3/99 HP 💀#tricule hc#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#horrordust is so silly my favorite pair of mildly tense abt eachother yet surface level friendly frenemies!!! YES!!!!! I LOVE HRDT!!!! ❤️💜
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it’s so hard being a datv lover on the internet right now, i can’t make any comments about how much im enjoying the game without some weirdo on reddit being like “yeah but dont you find the dialogue so cringe? doesnt it feel so disney+ to you?” and when i ask what they mean without fail they’re like “well have you seen taash talk about their gender” 😐
#like idk how to explain this#bc obviously ppl can have criticisms of the game 😭 but so curious to me how many ppl are like#only giving one example of ‘cringe’ writing and it’s always ab taash’s gender exploration 😭#i thought their talks were extremely touching as someone who is nonbinary but sure lets let a bunch of cis ppl control the narrative#idk it makes me sad to see how adverse ppl are to having a nb main character#i get it that the whole ‘discovering your identity’ trope isnt everyones favorite but#the way i see it i think it is amazing that theres a character who is vocal ab their identity#too often i see cis ppl have sentiments like#‘you can do what you want in your own home just dont talk to me about it’#so i appreciate that taash is vocal about this. i like that they’re not afraid to talk about their identity#like idk but i can’t remember EVER having a nb main character who is explicitly so#so genuinely seeing someone being vocally represented. it’s nice. idk!#i just hate how much ppl are attacking them bc ‘talking about gender identity is cringe’#like maybe you just think nb people in general are cringe if you recoil at the mere discussion of one’s identity idk#anyways. this was long winded. i’m gonna stay off reddit for a while bc everyone annoys me 😭 ty tumblr for being the only place w#good opinions
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“white mourning.”
#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’#jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice#judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice.#she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry#he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as#he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back.#he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb.#planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco#you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen#his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but#jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control#i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation.#but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse.#i relate to jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late#my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone.#kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon#disco elysium#de fanart#jean vicquemare#disco elysium fanart#jean heron vicquemare#jean posting#illustration#de#artists on tumblr#I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!!#i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings#my little maiu maiu#cryptiduni#my art
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is it fair to call people like this "hack writers" if the only way they find a relationship interesting is when it involves pedophilia, incest, cannibalism or necrophilia?
#context: this was in response to a quote about cannibalism in a romantic context#note: this is purely in a writing perspective.#i find the value in romantic cannibalism because it is a interesting metaphor in general#but maybe look at irl examples of cannibalism and you'll realize that it is WAY more complicated#(ex. families in different cultures eating parts of a dead family member to connect them together; even after death)#(or the written historical accounts of slave-owners cannibalizing their slaves & the subsequent trauma for black people related to it)#cannibalism as a metaphor should never be restrained to only romance or love#do you recognize how interesting it can be to use cannibalism as a metaphor for hate? or for literally anything else?#it can be used as a metaphor for control; power; possession; abuse or destroying someone at their very core#im sure it can be used for both simultaneously but i think its limiting to perceive it as 100% romantic#also it limits the discussions of real life cannibalism; both modern and historical#+ is it really impossible to think of a “forbidden relationship” without these 4 subjects?#but the persons' bio starts w/ them being into winc3st (the one who wrote that) so i dont think they give a shit#(sorry for the fuck-ton of tags. it always bothered me as someone who does writing analysis sometimes & get fixated on culture and history)#[just me yapping]#ok to rb#proships dni#tw pedophila mention#tw incest mention#tw necrophillia#racism tw#tw cannibalism#<- these definitely apply here
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the writing in csm is genuinely so genius but it’s also so . crude . and i think that’s the reason people misunderstand it so often. it makes you feel deeply uncomfortable and it Should but that doesn’t make it bad . you need to pay attention to the undertones and narrative and i genuinely don’t think a lot of shounen fans bother to 😭😭
#not to throw dirt on my own people but like#…… yknow .#there’s a big portion of shounen bros who aren’t interested in analysis at all#and i don’t think csm is the kind of manga you can appreciate properly without analysis#idk im just 🤨🤨 really… irritated by how upset some people are over the new chapter#it’s Supposed to make you feel uncomfortable. that doesn’t make it bad writing#and it also doesn’t mean that the narrative is trying to justify it#csm has always been written in a very crude way but it’s also telling a very grounded and impactful story#and i think that contrast in itself is super special..#anyway i just needed to ramble a bit 😭 stan tatsuki fujimoto my glorious king they will never make me hate you#ari noises ✩
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