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it's extremely critical that you see the photo of the perp walk for luigi mangione as being propaganda. i've seen so many people wave it off and instead fawn over his looks. and trust me, i know it ended up being kind of pathetic and weird - but please don't brush it off as a "modelling opportunity" for him. it's a fucking terrifying message the police are sending.
i want to make a few comparisons here, in case you're not from the US or familiar with why the perp walk thing is something to pay attention to. just to set the groundwork for why this is a purposeful, unusual, and cruel act by the nyc police - for why this is not a common occurrence and for why that matters.
the prosecution alleges the show of force is due to the charge of "terrorism." for comparison, in june 2015, tsarnaev was found guilty for the boston marathon bombing, which killed 3 people and injured hundreds. his actions are considered to be an act of domestic terrorism. i have spent the last hour looking through google for pictures of similar to mangione's perp walk - and so far, i have found zero. i also just do not personally remember a moment like that, despite living in boston at the time.
they allege that luigi is a stone-cold killer who carried out a longterm plan, making him particularly dangerous. again for comparison: in nyc, recently cory martin was found guilty of the killing of brandy odom. the murder was planned and premeditated to steal insurance money. and yet no staged perp walk. why didn't her life matter enough for a "show of force"?
but mangione gets paraded by a veritable army of police officers as if he is a rabid animal. for a single citizen who allegedly killed one other single citizen, the "largest perp walk ever" occurs.
so what is the "strong message" that the mayor and the police were trying to send here? the mayor speaks as if mangione is already convicted of terrorism. there is a very thin number of people who feel threatened by the CEO's death. none of us felt like mangione needs to be under massive armed guard.
the message is that you shouldn't resist. they are trying to "make an example" of him - that if you behave badly and kill a single rich person, you'll be treated as if you killed hundreds of people. you will be treated worse than a man who was found guilty of terrorism. you will be considered guilty without trial. the message is that the rich are a protected class, and you cannot touch them without massive punishment. they are trying to prevent a revolution by showing dominance and force against you.
the message is that the police are a puppet of the wealthy and that the law is not equally applied across class disparity. it is "some are more equal than others." it is "one life is more precious than another."
the show of force wasn't for luigi. it was for us. it was a warning. they are trying to remind us who is really in control.
#i bring up tsarnev only bc i feel like people DID want blood. i lived in boston. people wanted to rip him apart.#i do not personally remember a moment where he was paraded around like that. and the fact we gave more dignity to him#than luigi .... is startling.#and i just realized last night i was like - i don't really remember a perp walk like that. maybe im misremembering#but i went to google and i was like. wait why the fuck was it so fucking big.#it WASNT a random act of terror. it WASNT to injure/kill as many as possible.#even if we consider it to be premeditated murder: when have we ever done this.#so brandy's life didnt deserve “a show of force?”#the mayor doesn't say ''our city wont stand for this'' when it's a planned murder for insurance money????#anyway . ur not immune etc etc etc#but i also wanted the comparisons in here in case ppl aren't from amercia etc#this ISNT normal or usual. this was overkill by like a million#on the other hand they gotta do this bc they're scared :)#i kept this bc i had ppl ask me not to delete this but i just felt like#it wasn't really poetry just talkin
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Countdown to October 19th (19/19)
Happy 15 Years of Dan and Phil 🩵🩵🩵
#woop it is done#19 gif/edits over the past 19 days#I just finished this with like 20 minutes to go#considering I have had this planned for months I sure left a lot to the last minute#I am glad I did it considering mere hours before the first one I was so close to deleting everything I had done#because my mind was just like nooopppee it's not going to be good and people will hate it#so I just scheduled my first couple of posts and just backed away from my computer before I could delete anything#and it was all fine and people were really nice about it#people have said a lot of nice things on many of these posts and I have really appreciated it#because I know at least one person liked my post which was a nice feeling#dan and phil#dnp#danandphil#phan#amazingphil#my gifs#dnp gifs#danandphilgames#dan and phil games#daniel howell#dpgphanniversary#phan countdown
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Holy crap this is like world record breaking pace guys
Speedrun/Time Travel AU masterlist
#speedrun au#one piece#time travel au#op fanart#sabo#monkey d. luffy#portgas d. ace#asl brothers#time travel aus are my favourite trope for any fandom's fanfic#but this especially is why i want it for one piece#because I needed ace to die in canon. luffy NEEDED to get that wake up call and his whole crew NEEDED badly to get stronger#but ace is so much more than just a plot device for luffy... he was a person who was loved by so many people because#he made so many people happy#if luffy and his crew travelled back in time... they wouldn't need to worry anymore about their strength#Ace could live you know....#He could meet sabo while he was an adult#sabo could meet ACE while he was an adult#ALSO SIDE NOTE BUT SABO ALSO REMEMBERS THE TIME TRAVEL SHENANIGANS!!! but def not as well as any of the strawhats#i think the thing he remembers most is what he felt when he regained his memories in the first timeline#u guys... this comic was so vivid in my mind i HAD to draw it out... like i was planning on doin other time travel au comics before#but like I HAD to draw this because i had such intense ASL feelings#I tried to think if Ace would just start cussing sabo out cause like WHY DID YOU LET US THING U WERE DEAD ; - ;??? WHY DIDNT U CONTACT US??#but i think ace is really tired... like he's been worrying about luffy... and suddenly his brother starts uncharacteristically start#full out bawling in his arms... and he's really confused right now but both of his brothers are here and they're both crying#so there's really only one thing he can do#anyways i hope u enjoyed the comic#op spoilers#<- oops forgot to add that my b
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Who?
(Can't do digital art again yet. Traditional has been fun, though. Click for not blurry quality)
#dca#daycare attendant#moondrop#sundrop#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#fnaf eclipse#ruin eclipse#dca fandom#fanart#villain.jpeg#this was done in less than an hour and if you desire the lore and meaning behind it#it went through many stages. I didn't plan it I was taking a break from drawing l/o/t/r characters#initially it was going to be a creepy sun emboding moon's whole thing. Then moon playing pretend and mascarading as sun#then a nod to sun and moon being indeed the same person. something I usually dont draw because I view them as separate#then I accidentally added in moon's hat even though I already had the rays. because I rarely draw sun so it's instinct#and this all started because I had this vivid image of sun's wide eyes in shadows so deep you can make out his ghostly white iris#point is: not even I the artist know if this is eclipse. if this is sun. if this is moon. if this is them mid switch. this is the DCA#traditional art#done with grey brush pen tgat I added water to. a black brush. black fineliner. and several layers of white pencil to wash out that eye#(it was painted black)#plus white watercolour for the iris#yes I had to do it like this. the camera doesn't capture it well but in person all that work made the eye exactly how I envisioned it#what a tag rant for a fanart that took less than an hour before dinner lmao
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happy "our marriage is never gonna recover from this" day
#this is why you share your plan with 1 (one) other person; kids. otherwise you end up embarrassing yourself in front of the people#you were trying to impress (and the man youve fallen head over heels for)#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#ed teach#edward teach#blackbeard#september 1st#s01e04#Discomfort in a Married State#gif#i didnt get the colour grading quite how i wanted it but i had fun tweaking them! its all learning; baybeee#im having fun! hopefully new laptop will have the power to let me control more things. maybe#(or maybe thats just skill issues ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)#yall gotta be nice to me ok im still figuring things out#also like. as i said earlier. i knowwww this scenes been giffed to shit. but also not so many with the leap year note! so.#i learnt that 1717 was NOT a leap year in the process of making this. djenks i feel betrayed & lied to#did YOU remember we had a february 29th this year? because i sure didnt. i squandered her
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rainbow dash and j makes so much sense i think
gift for @hayleymarriedjakuraii !! hope u enjoy <3
#danganronpa despair time#drdt#drdt fanart#j rosales#j moreno#arei nageishi#jarei#my art#artlying#i havent drawn ponies since like 6th grade why was this so hard#also its AREI DAY !!#i forgot and i dont have time to draw anything else#so i added her last minute oops#silly fun fact!! i used to not rlly like jarei but ive now been enlightened#i need to draw them Even More to atone i think#later tho too many ideas not enough time#more j art coming your way guys i just have hw to do first#not to get real and personal for a sec but#i also had two family members pass in the past couple months and have been doing Not Too Well lately#but drdt and esp content from the vas has really been helpful in lifting my spirits#so i really wanted to do something for hayley while shes going through something similar#idk how much this will actually help but i hope it brings u a bit of joy during hard times!!!#but yeah this was the only gift i planned#the other j art coming up is just bc you have too many fire ideas and i have to draw them all lest i perish
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just a heads up that enmeshment with your therapist is a sign that you need a different therapist. you go to these people to offload and heal, but if you're emotionally enmeshed and that's keeping you from bringing topics forward, that is no longer a healthy relationship nor a therapist that should be treating you.
just so you're aware. your therapist should not be an uncle figure you're afraid to talk about embarrassing stuff with, he's an impartial audience to help you heal. that emotional connection is now HINDERING you from healing.
honestly! me making one personal post! does not tell you the full story! while i defintly have an emotional connection with him- i have had other therapists in my life in and out the entire time. i seek help from other sources frequently! i said it was like talking to an uncle simply because of the fact he’s known me since i was a child, which makes talking about adult topics at times a little embarrasing because he knew me when i was 11!! he is not like an uncle to me in an other respect, i have a seperation. and i have openly discussed this with him and why im uncomfortable at times!! but we talk it out!! because its my therapist and me making one post doesnt mean you know everything!! geez!! also ive been embarrassed to talk about sex with every other therapist ive had!! not your call to make!!
#in the time ive been seeing him ive had easily a dozen other social workers clinicians case workers and speciality therapists. ive been to#groups and classes and everything.#having a stable person in my life who i can trust to help me is important to me because ive been to so many doctors and a lot of them i dont#trust at all. there are some times i struggle with him but i feel safe to talk to him#it just takes me a minute sometimes because i remember playing board games in our sessions and its weird to be an adult now#he’s probably retiring soon so i plan to stay until he does. and then i will move on#impartiality sure. but i need to trust someone to some level. the social worker i saw the longest it took me several years with to discuss#my abuser with because its!! hard to talk about that stuff with someone you dont know
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I got a government grant from a clean air project for turning in my '97 Corolla for a very hefty chunk of money off of a new (or new-ish) hybrid vehicle from an approved dealership, finally went to purchase my new car today with my dad, and ended up getting a 2025 Toyota Camry SE.
Sorry, Alastor, I think I'm with Vox on the front of technological advancement, ahaha. It's almost a 30 year jump in car technologies and I damn well feel like I've upgraded into the new century (or, well - millennium, technically)! This car does so many things and they all manage to feel like they are actually convenient rather than useless technology bloat. I think this is technically what Nietzsche meant when he said that to live is to suffer, LOL. Can't appreciate the good stuff if you haven't experienced the alternative! Also, y'know. My breaks lost pressure on me in the middle of a winding mountain road with no cell service last month, so. That was the sign to move on.
It's so wild to go from a car that's got a plain metal key, a phone charger operated through the cigarette lighter that only succeeds in making my phone lose charge more slowly, an AC system that would vibrate the whole dashboard alarmingly if it had to work too hard, and music that I played through a casette tape with bluetooth connectivity...to a car where I get in, put my phone down on the wireless charging pad, and watch the touchscreen automatically turn on with my Spotify and Google maps. Never again am I going to accidentally leave my headlights on and drain my car battery, LOL. Thanks, battery-attached jumper cables, you served me well. The car is so damn quiet and smooth, too.
Also, it's a very pretty car! I got it in white. Sorry, "windchill pearl."
Anyway, I'm just experiencing a delightful bit of awe and joy. Happy graduation and early birthday to me! <3
#personal#dear diary#my birthday's tomorrow on the 22nd so the timing on this was great#I was gonna get a corolla hybrid but we straight up could not find one in any of the grant-approved dealerships#and my dad convinced me to go for the camry instead and is helping me pay what the monthly payments are over my planned budget#for the next 3 years until I make attending physician money and can just pay the thing off posthaste#I'm also excited for dynamic cruise control instead of regular basic cruise control#and the safety features have already come in handy for pinging at me when a dude with a moped swerved into my blind spot#getting things squared away at the dealership took many hours so I had no energy to write today but man am I pleased as punch
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Have you been assesed for adhd?
nope, though im pretty sure i got it ... or its something similar bc although also not officially diagnosed there is no way im not autistic OTL
the only things i have been .. 'diagnosed' with is anxiety and chronic depression, though both of which by a therapist that got arrested for fraud and harassment (hahaha .. ._.) and im not sure how much weight that can hold both bc of .. THAT and bc i honestly have no idea how much a therapist can do (its been many years since then too) and the only meds he ever offered me where like .. drugs ('herbs')
i have been thinking of asking our family doctor about it but im rather afraid of whatever process i gotta go through to get anything that might help since im sure its also not JUST adhd that causing all this (and ... im afraid it could impact how i am treated ... like if they know im autistic are they not gonna take me seriously anymore or stop me from making choices about myself.. welp theres the anxiety ndfjkgndfknvgfdk)
(and a new therapist is pretty impossible bc theres a really big problem of not enough therapists around ESPECIALLY where i live ... also fear bc of the previous one .. haha ._, )
#ganondoodles answers#ganondoodles talks#personal#i am german so whatever process it is in america is not gonna be how it is here#.....also doesnt help that i nearly got put in a ... mental health .. facility (idk what its called in english) when i was younger#and uuh .. barely managed to make them not do it#one of the scariest moments in my life#mom made the plan with my oldest sister in secret and drove me off to the doctor .. idk if they told me just before and forced me to go#or literally on the parking lot of the doctor .. i think it was the latter#being out on a parking lot and being talked down to by my sister (who never tried to talk to me about anything mental health wise btw)#AND by the doctor .. i had to convince him to not do it .. literally so scary#-and mom about putting me in some facillity .. cant even describe it .. to me it was pure horror#im sure those facilities arent that bad or soemthing but i felt like they where trying to kick me out and into a prison#i do NOT do well anywhere that isnt home#AND doing the thing i haven been trying to make it clear makes everything a thousand times worse-#-talking about it behind my back and then just doing things without me gettign any say in it and then given no choice#its literally the worst thing you can do!!!!#sorry TMI perhaps but!!! many things have happened!! bad!!
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say cheese! 📸
#LUCY#Band LUCY#Band LUCY fanart#Cho Wonsang#Jo Wonsang#kitkatart#listen... i had plans to draw other things this weekend#i really did!#but nothing was working until i started drawing silly wonsangs and then that was the only thing that would cooperate#he is so cute i love him terribly#he really is so sweetheart with the shiny eyes like#how are his eyes so pretty and warm and full of stars??#the amount of times i had to stop for a moment while drawing this bc he's so handsome and cute...#i didn't capture it well but the juxtaposition between his adorable poses and the protruding veins on his hands and arms is so funny to me#also i didn't even realize all of these pictures had a similar palette until i started coloring them haha#lucy truly makes me want to create soooo many things!!#we'll see how many of those things i have the time energy and ability to actually do though lol#it's silly but every time i finish a drawing that i'm somewhat satisfied with i'm like#neat! glad i haven't lost the ability to do that yet!#also “drawing is fun” i say while gritting my teeth and focusing on every little detail#i wish i was one of those artists who had the ability to make cute sketches and upload those bc they're so nice but#unfortunately that's just not who i am as a person 😓#anyway i hope everyone is taking care!#i had to draw something silly and cute to cope with... current events. everything. you know how it goes lol
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quite pleasantly surprised by wicked movie but i Will say we were robbed of elphaba leaning in close to glinda saying “come with me to the emerald city” followed by glinda’s “i’ve always wanted to see the emerald city” while looking deep into her eyes arms around her shoulders twirling elphaba’s hair
#not sure if this was unique to the last time i saw wicked but either way. shoutout to those two leads fr 😘✌🏻 <- that’s me kissing#two fingers and holding them out btw#personal#other notes:#- fiyero looked too old sorry but he did perform pretty well#- still unreasonably annoyed by ariana’s eyebrows being so pale and blending into her skin under certain lightings esp when they gave her#giant black lashes like at least be consistent 💀#- otherwise pretty pleasantly surprised by her performance there were still moments esp when she laughed where i was like this is too#‘ariana’ and not ‘glinda’ enough but for the most part she did wayyy better than i had anticipated#- the instrumentation to vocal balancing was weird throughout but i’m not sure if that came down mostly to it being in theatre vs on a home#tv ik it can depend on how they designed it#- was not a fan of nessa or madame morrible the way both of them sang and even how madame morrible spoke sometimes came off very stilted to#me i did like nessa’s spoken delivery tho#- not sure how but i had no clue abt the kristen/idina cameo ahjdf the way my mom#grandma and me all gasped#- cynthia did well i wasn’t concerned abt her initially but then saw the way they were marketing with her and got a little worried bc it#wasn’t very ‘elphaba’ but she portrayed her personality great#- they paced defying gravity weird i wasn’t super fond of the end. the bit where she’s falling and facing her younger self i was like okay#this is a cool change actually but then they interrupted in the middle again after that and suddenly cut to the ‘nobody in all of oz’ bit#and i went mmmm don’t like that#- liked the effects!#- wasn’t overly fond of jeff goldblum as the wizard but i suppose there is time to change my opinion there with act ii#- enjoyed what is this feeling flipping btwn so many settings to show how much they were clashing in every respect#- costumes!!#- was slightly bothered by autotune first half and then im not sure if they cut back on it or if i just got used to it#- probably more stuff that i might add later but can’t think of rn. overall nice experience don’t plan on rewatching anytime soon but still#intend to see part 2#wicked 2024 spoilers#<- for the cameo mention mainly
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i think i could heal if people were more crazy about spydoc. btw
#guys u dont understanddd ☹️☹️☹️#they are so tragic#spy is like a fucking psychopath right (i can say that i have psychosis 😊)#and thirteen is too but she tries to push it away#spy reminds thirteen of everything she wants to forget#they bring up all this shit right?#but its also.#the way she treats him#its this thoschei thing but ESPECIALLY THEM#‘oh u think ur good? im going to get under ur skin until you realize how horribke u really are’#thats the plan but it doesnt work#she just goes further into their toxicity#i love theta sigma. theyre such a horrible person (meeee)#spydoc symbolizes this huge thing cause like.#they had been traveling with the fam for awhile right? usually the doctor doesnt have that many companions (which is an entire other#conversation)#everything was calm. it was GOOD#‘you think u can escape me. darling i will always come back when u hate it most’#spy wants to crawl under thetas skin until their souls are merged into one#which is why she killed her#tried.#koschei will forever try but the fact of the matter is#they WANT theta to survive#it would be no fun otherwise#and theta wants koschei to survive. ofc they do#(ie: tensimm)#u love him and u hate it. u love him and u hate yourself for it. u love him and he is always going to be the reason u die#ahauahh#anyway pls talk about spydoc. pretty pls and ty#spydoc
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found this pic on pinterest &. i am using it in an edit, because this gave me huuuuuge vibes of sarastus being woken up by hydaelyn/venat from the protective sleep in the aetherial sea she cast upon sarastus when the star got sundered, waiting for the time the fates would align, &. when her presence would be needed the most in the new world.
#☼ ⊰ ooc. › deax rambles. ❜#it was black and white originally so i *tried* to color it!#personal lore for sarastus as the upper stated is - i think it is so wild HOW MUCH HYDAELYN/VENAT PLANNED FOR#like in complete canon. so many instances & meetings she had a hand in#anyways. i miss venat. give her back
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if the only footage youve seen of the game doesnt actually give you a good idea of what the game/story is like (like its from a parody video or is otherwise heavily edited for example) then it doesnt count as having watched the game and you should pick little to no actual exposure to the game. only interacting with the games content through fanart/fanfic/etc also counts as little to no actual exposure to the game
#tried to include as many options as possible but theres only so much space i think i did the best i could with the spacei had though#but i wish i could have had separate categories for if youve played the game in full or if youve only played part of it#since theres definitely a huge difference between playing one level and playing the whole game#anyway me personally ive played the game in its entirety up to the true ending and i think its good#especially good from a writing standpoint theres some very good sonic characterization in there#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic and the black knight#sonic polls#< okay making a tag for the polls because im planning on doing similar polls for other games that are considered bad
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very very tired of all the many many things :')
#hello friends. it's the semi-yearly check-in.#school is rough this year but I'm hanging in there#I feel tired basically all the time and feel like all the motivation I have is what I can manage to scrape out from under my fingernails.#but I'm also very glad to be back at school for many reasons#I am working through some weird emotions that I didn't entirely expect (missing graduates from last year far more than I had planned to)#(a few specific people especially which is... interesting. I would much rather ignore some of that than try to interact with it.#but I'm trying to handle it as healthily as I can.#and I got to see a bunch of them last weekend for a little while and that was lovely)#(I may hop on and give some more detail about this later but for now that's where it's at)#I've been struggling with what people think of me/how to measure up LOTS more this semester so far and I really hate how it makes me feel#so if y'all want to pray for that... would appreciate it :)#also my roommate is having some really concerning health things going on and we're trying our best to muscle through but it's getting rathe#heavy for both of us. prayers for her would be appreciated as well.#also funny thing has happened -- i'm in a reading group thing with the guy I mentioned briefly here last semester#(the one I looked at and was like “aw shoot he's really cute” but didn't really know at all at the time)#so I've been able to actually have some conversations with him which is funny to me looking back now for some reason#he's cool; I hope we get to be friends eventually. :)#personal#tag post
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damn bro you good?
I'M OKAY TY FOR CHECKING IN. i think it just got slightly overwhelmed, both by the amount of asks i received, as well as struggling to find a personal life/tumblr life balance. i love this blog, but as i've alluded to in tags, i'm a live-in nanny for my infant nephew. and i'm very lucky to have this living arrangement and i certainly have a lot of free time, but bc babies have no schedule and like to fight god, it's hard to get into the groove of writing when at any moment, i might have to help with him. it took me a while to get used to it, but i'm still here i promise!
i think as for future housekeeping, i will continue answering the fun asks i get, but at a much slower rate. and i want to go back to posting more serious comic metas as well, as well as just the things i want to post here. i got a little in over my head and i'm very very pleased to have found the fellow freaks in this fandom, i just did not expect to get so much interaction on such a new blog! so while i did not mean to vanish for a month, i do think it helped me adjust a bit and figure out a personal balance! i should be back for good now tho! <3
#necrotic answerings#I'M ALIVE I SWEAR#also it doesn't help that lately the baby has had some health issues#nothing big! but serious enough that it's just making life rough for him#and life is already rough when you're four months old so you can imagine the stress he's under.#I will say i've got a lot of personal experience with infants now so. if you ever need advice writing a kidfic- /hj#i wanna be so clear I do love the asks#and I will get to them all!#I just got bamboozled. this blog has only been around since August. how are there so many of you#I got descended upon by a flock of crows#also. I fear the stupid firefighter show got my ass. I plan on making a 911 blog tho that one won't be nearly as active as this one#that fandom also doesn't have nearly the dead dove presence. by God. they're all vanilla. they scare me.#no one is inspired. I've heard of migratory slash fandom but good GOD I've never experienced such a potent example firsthand.#anyway! I plan to write at least one whump fill tonight#baby has an appointment so i'll have a couple hours to myself at least#three stressed adults vs one itchy baby who will win#(it's the baby. he wins.)
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