#I guess this is very Seventeen heavy but they did just have a comeback so...

[musicalgrl]

Post a screencap of your lock screen photo, a screencap of the last/current song listened to, as well as the last photo you saved in your phone!

I was tagged by @mrsandypants lol sorry it took me so long.

[onewfantaesy]

Crime Baby is living up to my expectations. Taemin ever so slightly embracing his dads side is kinda cool. I know he's morally against everything his dads family stands for, but theres got to be some things he takes from heechul. Like the smirk, wave, wink thing! I loved that, perfectly Taemin/heechul style. Does he take any other traits from HC? Is he actually a mini-me!?!

I also feel like HC is very involved with his kids and takes "parenting" serious, likes one on one time, wants the relationship to be good, like to help them and encourage them, make them confident...but he also just happens to like blowing ppl up when they make him mad and getting them hooked on drugs *shrug* lol

Taemin actually is the spitting image of Heechul in this AU! A total mini-me! Heechul brings it up often, mentions as if it’s a cute little quirk that that’s how he realized his past affair had hidden a child from him. It makes Taemin feel sick to his stomach.

Anyways, onto Crime Baby AU

(tw for like general crime family murder I guess lmao)

Taemin learns quickly that Heechul takes his role as head of the family very seriously. Family dinners, family meetings, family calls. And at least once a month, Taemin is summoned for a one-on-one meeting.

It was nerve wracking at first. Heechul always asked what Taemin wanted to do, but it was Heechul who told Taemin to be there, shouldn’t he have something planned? Shouldn’t there be a reason for Taemin to be there? But after just a few meetings together, they quickly find how they best mesh together.

Heechul likes imparting his wisdom on his children. He especially likes passing on this wisdom to Taemin, partially because he’s the youngest and partially because he missed so much time with him. He’s decided these one-on-ones are best spent teaching Taemin the smaller details about being a man.

Taemin finds he actually sort of enjoys it, but mainly because it involves playing a lot of billiards and learning how to handle his liquor. He’s still just a teenager, but Heechul seems insistent on Taemin learning how to be a “smart drinker,” as Heechul phrases it. Taemin doesn’t question it, but he learns quickly which alcohols he likes and which he absolutely despises.

But playing pool is fun, Taemin decides. Sometimes, it’s almost like they’re a normal father and son. Sometimes, Taemin pretends that’s all it is: just normal father and son time. No hidden agenda. No ulterior motive. No hushed phone calls in the other room while Taemin pretends he���s still practicing a trick shot and not listening in on what can only be plans for a new scheme of sorts.

When Heechul comes back into the room, Taemin just smiles and asks if he can have another drink. Heechul smiles back, tucks his phone into his back pocket, and teaches Taemin how to make the drink himself. After a couple drinks and a long night, Taemin is exhausted. He’s tired, and his eyes feel heavy, and he just wants to sleep.

He doesn’t often spend the night at his father’s penthouse, but sometimes Heechul insists. The first night it happened, Taemin was terrified, and he didn’t even know what room he was supposed to sleep in. He didn’t feel comfortable sleeping in one of his half-sibling’s unused bedrooms.

Until Heechul tells him, “This is your room. For you to use anytime you need it.”

Taemin is too tired to resist. The room is spinning and his head hurts and he mumbles a “Thank you” before falling into the bed. He has terrible dreams the first night; confusing, freaky dreams that don’t connect to each other and don’t make sense. He hates sleeping after drinking, but mainly because he never really sleeps. Not well. He ends up waking up the next morning feel like death.

“Hey sleepy head,” Heechul calls softly the next morning, a chuckle escaping his lips as Taemin flops over and groans, covering his eyes with his hands. “Time to get up. Euisoo’s on his way to pick you up.”

It’s how most mornings go, with Heechul telling him when Euisoo is on the way. When Taemin falls stumbles out of bed, it usually also leads to a clap on the shoulder and a, “You did well last night,” before Heechul leaves Taemin to get ready.

It’s incredibly intimidating, but Taemin comes to find it strangely comforting after a while. Heechul listens to him during their one-on-one time, lets Taemin talk about whatever he wants, offers advice if he has any to give. Offers to take care of any problems Taemin might have, with any people who might be causing him trouble. Taemin always declines.

Until one night when he’s seventeen and walking into Heechul’s penthouse, extension freshly put into his hair for an upcoming comeback, his entire body shaking like a leaf and his chest heaving and Euisoo standing next to him, an arm wrapped tightly around him, looking like he wants to hurt someone. It was supposed to be a family meetings. They were late. Everyone was already there. Watching him.

“Can I sleep here tonight?” he manages to ask, his words stuttered and mashed together, Heechul quick to come over to him and find out what happened.

One of the other managers - a senior manager known for being harsh and a hardass - had taken Taemin to get his hair done early that morning, then had to bring him back to record his lines for the new album. Euisoo, despite protesting and arguing that Taemin was typically his responsibility, had been tasked with taking a couple of the other members to a different schedule. By the time he got back, he heard from other staff members how Taemin had made the same mistake in the recording too many times for the manager’s liking and had been “disciplined” for it.

It’s not like it was a new thing. It’s not like Taemin hadn’t gone through the same thing during his trainee days. But this manager was ruthless, was hot-headed, and was clearly on a power trip. He’d never been left alone with this manager before. He’d never not had one of the other members with him or another manager with him when he was with this manager. And now he was traumatized, and he had the bruises to show for it.

Taemin has never seen Heechul as mad as he saw him that night. Like he’d seen red, like the devil was in his eyes. He’d tried to send Taemin off to his room with one of his half-siblings, but Taemin freaked out. He refused to be away from Euisoo, refused to go anywhere without him. But he was also refusing to go back to the dorms that night, so Euisoo stayed with him, kept him safe in his room, and comforted him as best he could while Heechul planned his revenge with the rest of the family.

When the other manager doesn’t show up for work a few days later, Taemin doesn’t think anything of it. Ignores it. Puts it out of his head.

Until his body washes up in a river, stripped of all his clothes, his hands cut off and missing (found washed up in the same river a few days later).

Everyone knows right away it’s related to one of the major crime families, what with the state his body was found in, but no one can find out exactly who or why. No one ever connects it to Taemin. The case quickly goes cold.

Taemin continues pretending it never happened. Continues putting it out of his head. He doesn’t want to know anything about it. Because his family is terrifying, even if they are on his side.

[mywonuderful]

Not So Cold-Hearted Pt.3

Summary: Y/N, a member of a popular newly debut girl group and Wonwoo has what some may call a relationship with emotional ambivalent. Will their relationship remain cold-blooded or will they finally come to an agreement and become something more?

Pairing: Jeon Wonwoo x Reader

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“Eunoia, Please be on stand by. You guys are after this performance!” one of the backstage staff announces as she looks over her list. Fans chanting could be heard as the group ahead performs. Your members warm up as you stand around, nervously. Even after multiple performances you’ve done throughout the year, you still struggle from stage fright. Yun Hee, who sees you fidgeting around, walks over with a camera that the Music Show gave who show what idol’s do backstage. “And here we have one of our best choreographer in our group! Y/N worked really hard on our comeback so we’re all excited to show you our performance!” She points the camera at you as your face quickly changes from nervous to a soft smile as you wave at the camera. “I hope you guys enjoy our performance.” luckily, the loud noises were able to hide your shaking voice. 

“Alright, Eunoia let’s gather and cheer before we perform!” Remi calls us all over as we hundle around, hands on top of each others as we wait for our leader’s message. “Now, today’s performance is just like any other. We’ve all worked hard for today so let’s give it our all, alright?” She yells as the current group finishes their performance with applause and screams. Once they got off, we went up when you felt someone tug your wrist. Looking back, Na On gives you a thumbs up and mouths ‘don’t be nervous, it’ll be alright’ and you knew she meant your trembling body. You give her a firm nod and entered the stage one by one as the audience starts scream everyone’s name. Hearing the screams, it sent shivers through your spine as you tried to maintain calm and bow before performing. Going into your position, you closed your eyes for a second, taking deep breaths to focus on the music and your facial expression. Once the music starts, you open your eyes as the stage light turns on, cheers from the audience fills the room as you and your group perform.

...

“Wonderful job, everyone!” your manager said very a proud smile when everyone enters the dressing room, exhausted from the performance. Wiping your sweat, your manager pats your shoulder, handing you and your members water.“Great job, I couldn’t even tell you were nervous.” He praised as you collapsed on couch. You look at the TV screen as Seventeen enters the stage, getting ready to perform their comeback. You’ve got to admit, their performances never fails to disappoint. You and your members started watching their performance through the screen also, amazed at their synchronization. After all the idols performed, everyone was gathered back on the main stage to see the voting results. Feeling uneasy about the voting results, you weren’t aware that all your members left, leaving you alone in the room as you run out where everyone was crowded on the stage. “Aren’t we missing someone?” Skye whispers to Remi as the stage floods with idols. She quickly scans her surroundings, mentally counted before her eyes widen. “Where’s Y/N?” Hoshi suddenly appears from behind with his members following. “She’s too smal-” Seungcheol was in the middle of talking when you pushed through between him and Wonwoo “I’m here, I’m here.” You panted as your members and Seventeen started to laugh at your actions. “You were trying to say that she’s too small that you’ll lose her in the crowd within seconds, right?” Wonwoo nudged his shoulder as they chuckle, leaving you on the urge to smack them. The MC’s on the stage as they announce the top 3 groups with the highest votes. Your group cheered as they made it into the top 3 as well is Seventeen. “Now, for the remaining top 2... Seventeen and Eunoia please stand to the front of the stage!” Your members and you walk on the the front as Seventeen did the same. Standing side by side, you ended up standing beside Wonwoo as his shoulders pushed against yours. Glancing up at him, he looks down with a faint smirk before facing towards the audience. “We now have the votes from fans from today’s performances...” Unconsciously, you closed your eyes and clasped your hands together as you felt him look down at you. “And the winner is.....Seventeen who beat Eunoia by just 9 votes! Congratulations to Seventeen for today’s win!” Confetti shoots open as your jaw drops from the result, praying that it wasn’t real. Turning to your side, you see the boys jumping up and down, cheering. Your members walked towards them, congratulating them as you gradually follow behind, still in shocked about the point difference. “Congratulations!” Kira cheers as we bowed and slowly left the stage “As expected, of course you guys would win. There’s not a chance we’ll beat you!” Remi high-fives the members while passing. “Free dinner is always tastier than paying it yourself.” Wonwoo says with a smirk as you pass him. You bowed regardless but gave him a quick glare before smiling. “Congratulations. You’ve worked hard today.” you mumbled as you went backstage. Glancing back, you saw the boys singing their song when Wonwoo turns around and caught you looking. You quickly turn back, stomping, feeling your cheeks heat up. You enter the room, worn out as your members fooled around. 

“I can’t believe we lost by just 9 points! That was a really close call.” Mira, one of your members exclaimed as they all nodded in agreement. “I guess we have to feed 13 people and ourselves for dinner now...” Euna thinks out loud as we started groaning. “Let’s think of it more as a healing and get-to-know dinner instead.” Na On tries to lighten to mood.  “Healing my ass, our wallets are already crying for help.” You mumbled as your members can’t help but to laugh nervously. Knocks were suddenly heard before the door flings open, entering the boys who were smiling from ear to ear. “What’s the point of knocking if you’re just going to barge in like that.” Rina pouts. “Why the sad faces? Oh right, you lost the bet.” Jeonghan speaks matter-of-factly as his members join him laughing. “Alright, alright, a bet is a bet. When are you guys free?” Remi stands up with her arms crossed, waiting for their reply as the spoke among themselves.

“Our schedule next week is free.” Woozi says as Remi gives them a slient nod. The boys cheerfully leaving the room as you and your members remain quiet until you hear your manager bursting into laughter. “Sorry, I just couldn’t hold it in. Your interactions are just too adorable.” He confesses as she told us to pack up to leave to our next event. With heavy sighs, you drag yourself up to change.

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[kpopgerapitico]

Song of the Week

I’m actually excited for this week . . . I’m not sure why, because I don’t actually remember who has a comeback this week, but something made me excited . . . and current me has forgotten what past me was excited about. So, a usual week for me.

Honorable Mentions:

Lots of semi-interesting indie stuff this week that I wasn’t really in the mood for. Mirrorball, Super Sound Bugs, and Genie had quite a bit of it. For a good example of the trending style (and one I particularly liked) from a different channel, check out Nostalgia from Ha Hyunsang. A lot of the others have some more different ideas, but this one is still nice.

Hey, so lowkey I’m loving this era of soda brands producing summer bops? Like, we had Kang Daniel and Zico earlier in the year for Pepsi, and now Chungha with Be Yourself doing a Sprite ad. Like, if the songs keep being cute and having adorable messages with carefree summer vibes who am I to complain.

K.R.Y did a ballad. The visual was beautiful, even if I was bored in actual seconds. WayV went off with Turn Back Time, which is M-pop, but still posted to smtown’s main channel so I watched it. They seem to fit into the NCT model of music well.

Jun. K as a soloist is a powerful thing. His previous stuff has consistently been pretty good. This is Not a Song, 1929 fits into the model of his previous tracks well, with a heavily belted chorus, jazzy sounds, and mature themes. And he sounds great throughout this one. My only complaint is the hair. IDK why he and Hyungwon are trying to make this a new trend, I am not a fan. (P.S., Junho in the audience of the live in a mask, while JunK and Wooyoung are on stage without, and while is very obviously separated but still supporting is so cute, and so sweet, and so so funny.)

WJSN’s Butterfly skews a little too cute for me, but has the synth heavy musicality I’ve grown to expect from them. And it has the nice summery feel I was craving last week, so I’m glad to have it. I may spend some time digging into the b-sides to see if any of them have some experimental interest for me.

Seventeen tracks fit into one of 2 categories for me for the most part. One is the tracks that push boundaries. They are musically different, or change the definition of the Seventeen sound. Songs like Home, Don’t Wanna Cry, and all of the unit stuff fit in this category. The other category is cute/sweet stuff that is there is put a smile on your face. Mansae, Oh My, and Pretty You fit this genre well, as does their new release My My. I’m not really sure why My My is out though. It doesn’t appear to be off an album, and they are fresh (ish) off of a successful Japanese promotion. It also has almost no dancing in the video, which is very uncommon for them, and no promotion outside the video (as of yet at least). So I think it’s here for one of two reasons. First, it could be for the fans. Usually tracks that are for that make that pretty explicit in the lyrics and/or the video. It isn’t super obvious here, but I guess the lyrics are hopeful enough. Second, it could be Big Hit testing the waters. I saw no promotion for this track, mostly because it seems to be on Big Hit’s channel only, not on Seventeen’s already well established channel (where they incidentally have a fan track out this week). I don’t know what Big Hit’s plans are, but hopefully it involves supporting Seventeen well. 

And while the essay I just wrote about Seventeen would suggest it is the winner this week, that is not the case. Also, second essay alert. Feel free to skip, it is just me saying I love N.Flying a whole lot and that they deserve the world. Oh Really is N.Flying’s newest track, which is sweet and fun, and totally fits into their sound. They are also the only currently active band from FNC, the home of idol bands, which means they not only have big shoes to fill, but also have to help keep the company going while those groups get their lives together (or don’t, as the case may be). And for a group with the rockiest of starts (they debuted in 2013 in Japan and 2015 in Korea y’all), with 3 lineup changes in as many years, they still manage to seem upbeat and happy. The most recent change, with the 3rd added maknae, seems to have settled just fine for them, with them embracing Dongsung. Basically, it is heartwarming af to see them being successful and doing it while having cute sweet songs like Oh Really. It gets the win for being a great song and for being such a great group.

[blogaboutmusic]

all the playlists !

did this a while ago, but my spotify changed so much that i decided to do it again, and also because i have a lot of new followers! thank you & thank you if you follow my playlists! Be sure to check the list out bc i have a playlist for almost every genre & mood!

● ✧･ﾟ*✧･ﾟ* existential crisis:  everything i have that is sad ● 2019 ; letz getit: music i discovered so far in 2019 / music that is important to me in 2019 ● 20(18)GAYTEEN: every album that came out in 2018 (at least of artists i like) ● 20(19)BITEEN: every album that came out in 2019 (/artist i like :) ) ● 5sᴏs ; complete: i think the title says it all ● ａｌｉｅｎｓ: a mix full of alt. songs. dope. 10/10 recommend to aliens ● all of it ; alternative ?: stuff that is alt but not quite, pop punk but not quite, rock but not quite, etc! ● all of it ; emo music: EVERYTHING YOU NEED. EVERYTHING SAD. EVERYTHING ANGRY. EVERYTHING GUITAR. pop-punk punk-rock emo/rock indie/alternative ● all of it ; k-pop: all the k-pop music that I listen to, stuffed into one mix. ● ᴀʟʟ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʟᴏᴡ ; ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ: all of all time low’s music ● angry k-pop bops: a playlist that was inspired by district 9 of stray kids ● autumn, baby: perfect songs for fall! ● back to the future: idk some albums that i love listening to that go really well together ● bandito tour ; twenty one pilots: a playlist for an upcoming concert ● b͓̽a͓̽n͓̽g͓̽ ͓̽c͓̽h͓̽a͓̽n͓̽: a playlist for my bias of stray kids! ● ʙᴀɴɢᴛᴀɴɢ sᴏɴʏᴇᴏɴᴅᴀɴ ; ʙᴛs: all of bts’ music in one playlist ● best intro's, no argue: okay but really 505 is one of the best songs ever don’t fight me on that one ● bi bops: actually it doesnt matter if you’re gay, straight, pan or bi, these all work. just bops. ● b-sides, : songs i tend to forget about because i mostly listen to other songs on the albums... but they deserve the world so there you go ● 𝖇𝖎𝖙𝖊 𝖒𝖊: kinda angry, kinda alternative. ● bon voyage: i listened to this a lot when i went to paris and when i have to travel a lot. travel worthy. ● bop that Bussy ; emo version: FAV EMO JAMS AND BOPS AND BANGERS ● bring me the horizon ; complete : all of bmth’s music ● bts amsterdam 13.10.18: SETLIST ly tour amsterdam but also europe. i miss them a lot & wanna thank them for one of my best nights ever

● calm my anxious ass: what i need when i’m breaking down & alone again ● chanyeol (っ◔◡◔)っ: a playlist for my exo bias, mostly english sung songs though ● chilly billy doobop: so nice to have as background music or for when there’s a friend over. just ever so fckn CHILL ● classical // piano: classical music, mostly piano ● current mood: songs i’m probably listening to right now (lmao still) ● daniel james howell: a playlist for my fav youtuber!!! ● daydream: my playlist with music that makes me dream for a better version of me ● ᴅᴀʏ6 ; ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ: every day6 song ever. stan talent stan day6 ● death / school mix: songs about dying & other relatable stuff for school, ha ha ● dizzy tummy: stuff i listen to strolling through the city or being in a specific trainride ● dope on a rope: no, this isn't a playlist for the growlers' song, it's old beats. ● emo & alternative: sum emo tunes! totally random *insert that one crazy emoji with the tongue out* ● energize this tired bub: upbeat tempo music that really energizes me ● energetic appleflap: playlist for a friend (that i have crush on) ● eɴᴛᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴᴍᴇɴᴛ ᴛᴏᴜʀ ᴡᴀᴛᴇʀᴘᴀʀᴋꜱ: music i  listened to before & after my waterparks concert + every waterparks song ever & the setlist ● ᴇxᴏ ; xᴏxᴏ: exo complete. please give us a ot9 comeback ● exploring: stuff i have yet to listen to ● fᴀʟʟ ᴏᴜᴛ ʙᴏʏ ; ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ: all of FOB’s music. can you believe i’m still emo trash? ● frickity freck!: fresh alt-ish music ● fuck me up: a ReAlLy gOoD aLterNaTiVe / IndiE / eMo playlist? ● funky dunky business: the bass in these is mostly really mcflipping good ● geez, morty: playlist for fake friends ● ɢᴏᴛ7 ; ᴀʜɢᴀsᴇ: all of got7 their music ● ɢʀᴇᴇɴ ᴅᴀʏ ; ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ: all of green day aka my fav band their music ! every.thing. ● grrr. : just metal and grunge. heavy shit ● guitars: really good guitars like guns ‘n roses & beatles and just guitars that i love??? ● guns  n' roses setlist: setlist g ‘n r Europe 2017 ● halsey: indie artist, all her music in a playlist ● happy vibes: music that makes me smile!! ● hoe anthems (k-pop ver.); k-pop bops that make me go wanna hoe the heck out ● homework // calm: music i listen to when i make homework ● hug me pls: acoustic songs i wanna listen to while cuddling ● i’m a mess: a good, short playlist i- lol- unironically made when i discovered Michael Clifford had a girlfriend lmao i hope theyre happy they deserve it ● i, an intellectual: a nerd: music from movies and series i really dig ● interactive introverts: music they played and i listened to before interactive introverts ● jae = bae: this one goes out to jae, guitarist and vocal legend in the band day6 ● jazzin' away: jazz, my friend. ● j-pop ; rock 'n soul: my favourite j-pop songs!! yes, that includes all one ok rock songs. ● journal writings: i attempt to keep up a journal. this gives me vibes. sometimes a bit more uptempo, but mostly a bit softer ● judith.eliza: for a friend ● jughead's tape: for jughead jones, of riverdale ● just guitars, nothing else.: just acoustic guitars of some of my fav songs, really good for while studying i think ● k-grooves: korean r&b and indie ● k-pop ; essential jams: my favourite k-pop songs, which are quite a lot! ● k-pop ; girls: all my girl groups’ music ● k-rock ; you make myday: all my favourite k-rock songs, yes that includes every day6 song because they are just that good sorry ● last young renegade tour: music i listened to before & after my all time low concert + the setlist ●  letters to you: songs that made me think of my crush. i think people can realate? ● let there be luf: some new alt, sum songs about love ● lilacskyjimin ; fav: playlist for a friend ● lone hours: in: feeling lonely? we do, too, dont worry. youre not alone. ● mama: stuff i grew up with / stuff my mother and i both like ● marina & the diamonds: apperantly she’s only called marina now? one of the best female singers i know, indie as f*ck ● ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ; 5sos:  playlist for the 5sos concert, setlist and the songs in between! ● micmicbudgee ; fav: playlist for a friend ● mom jeans, tired eyes: mostly 70s and 80s BOPS ● ᴍᴏɴsᴛᴀ x ; ᴍᴏɴʙᴇʙᴇ: all of monsta x’s music in a playlist ● muse ; complete: all of alt rock band muse their songs ● my chemical romance ; complete: emo rock band mcr all of their music ● my youngblood chronicals: alt rock songs. the reason why i’m still fighting ● nederlandse bodem: my favourite Dutch songs! ● ɴᴇᴏ ᴄᴜʟᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴛᴇᴄʜɴᴏʟᴏɢʏ ; ɴᴄᴛ: nct complete, in a playlist ● nienisneckdeep ; fav: playlist for a friend ● nights: songs i like to listen to before going to sleep ● noa.myg: fav: another playlist for a friend ● non-english bops: jewish, french, spanish, swedish, irish and celtic music like omnia (which is partly english but i think it fits here so tough luck) ● one ok rock ; complete: one ok rock is a japanese rock band that sings in english in their latest work ● ᴘᴀɴɪᴄ! ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪsᴄᴏ ; ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ: all of panic! at the disco’s music in a playlist ● paramore ; complete: paramore was a punk rock band with a female singer, and now they make alt rock ● paris: a playlist for a city that i miss, a time that i miss ● ᴘᴇɴᴛᴀɢᴏɴ ; ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ: aka all of k-pop group Pentagon their music in a playlist ● pizza punk: waterparks, neck deep, with con and music like that. perfect for skating eheh ● power vocals: beautiful voices ! voices that make me jealous ● problems with sleeping: lovely alt songs, some of them are about not being able to sleep ● queen discography: you know that movie, bohemian rhapsody..? ● rad activist shit: end gun violence. black lives matter. abortions should be legal, pedophiles and rapists should not be able to walk free. oh and love is love, get over it. angry songs, songs about revolution. ● rainbow: love songs, some sad (rain), some ever so happy (sun). together they make a rainbow ● red hot chili peppers: the red hot chili peppers are rock band and if you dont know them, look them up!! ● revolution radio 2017: music i listened to before & after my green day concert + the setlist ● rev up my spaceship, bois: modern hard rock in a playlist! ● sad boi o’clock: another sad playlist, you can never have enough of these ● sᴀʏ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ; sᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴇᴇɴ: seventeens (k-pop) complete music discography ● skylinn ; khaleesiqoyi: first playlist i made for a friend: my best friend ● slytherin headgirl: this is what the people in slytherin listen to, i swear ● socrates would deffo stan: indie and alt, only for intellectuals (i’m just kidding) ● soft; rock™: soft (old) rock ● soft; k-pop: for if you wanna weep along with exo, bts,, etc ● soundtrack of my life 🌙: the basics to my music ● space jams 🚀: most songs are about wanting to run away, perfect for when you’re in space ● spoopy rave: i secretly listen to this through the year, idec ● starry skies, snazzy beats: mostly cute beats, perfect for studying or staring at the sky ● sᴛᴀʏ ; sᴛʀᴀʏ ᴋɪᴅs !: all of stray kids songs, go stan them already and please stay ● stranger things: songs that give me a stranger things vibe ● supernatural ; rock & grunge: stuff Dean Winchester would listen to, blue oyster cult, aerosmith, black sabbath, stuff like that ● tae tae: a playlist for v of bts, one of my biases ● the 1975: an alt band, latest work: an brief inquiry into online relationships ● the neighbourhood: very chill music. kinda rap, kinda alt ● these physically turn me on: really, really good songs, or nice vocals, idk how to explain ● tits out for harambe: the closest thing i have to pop music / rap i guess, with khai dreams, frank ocean, childish gambino, ari, troye, ya know ● tokyo: a playlist for dreaming about the feeling of a city ● travel back in time: 50s, 60s music, stuff i listen to with my grandpa but also alone cuz its fun ● twenty øne piløts ; complete: all of twenty one pilots their music ● underappreciated alt songs: alternative songs that i think deserve (even more) hype! ● waterparks ; complete: nice new pop punk band that deffo has a lot of talent! ● when the week ends: a mix for the weekend ● wubbalubbadubdub: old bops that make me forget about my sadness ● year in review: 2018: music i discovered in 2018 / music that was important to me in 2018 / songs that came out in 2018 ● yoongi: songs where you can sing yoongi really clearly and songs that make me think of him ● you’re making me feel miserable: songs i listened to after i confessed to my crush and he turned me down sksksksk

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[jisuwuu]

a little jealousy - Chwe Vernon

anon request: can I request a Vernon smut imagine where he usually doesn’t get jealous and he tried not to show (you both are idols) but one day he just got too jealous and you know then smut

author’s note: hi! this took longer than expected and it reached 2.6k words. i hope its okay and enjoy your smut!!

pairing: vernon x idol female!reader feat. nct and oc

warnings: swearing, smut under the cut uwu

SUMMARY: After your stage performance, you come across some of your trainee friends from the past. Vernon was already having problems and when he found out that you were with nct, he invites you over back to the dorms to rest. Sort of.

“Flowers under the moonlight, MOON FLOWER! Thank you everyone!” You and eight other girls bowed in front of the hundreds of fans that attended your music bank promotions. Today was the start of your 3rd full length album promotions. After having four months to prepare for this very much anticipated comeback, your group, MOON FLOWER was able to go up on stage again and perform. Not to mention that this would go on for about a month.

MOON FLOWER just finished performing your title track for this album, artwork. With such an innocent title who would’ve thought that the concept was very.. dark.

Artwork was produced by you and the other members with the help of Woozi, a member of SVT who is also under the same company as you. The song’s concept connects with your other albums mysterious storyline. In your newest song, it mainly talks about the sinful plan of the devil to captivate you and your members through a painting. Not only that, the song you just happened to perform earlier was very sexy. Which was too much for your liking. Though, you couldn’t protest against it as your company had already made the settlements and you couldn’t suggest anything less intriguing that could still connect with the plot line.

Turns out it wasn’t only you who felt uncomfortable with your song. Your boyfriend, Hansol or also known as Vernon from Seventeen, was also having problems while watching your performance on tv from your group’s waiting room. One of which, he was jealous. Jealous that the whole world would be looking at you in ways only he wanted to see. Throughout the performance, Vernon stayed or tried to stay calm. Even if the other members that tagged along with him going to the music bank to watch you perform were teasing him, he stayed composed. He hated showing his jealous side, he didn’t want to hurt his pride.

After waving goodbye to the fans in front of you, all nine of you walked back to your waiting room where you wanted to rest for a while before continuing with your own plans for the day. Luckily your next scheduled promotion would be three days from now. While walking through the corridors, nct, your trainee friends and junior greeted.

“Y/N sunbaenim!” Doyoung, one of the NCT members called you out. Making you turn your head only to be greeted by 18 boys. “Hello, Doyoung!” You greeted back, your members signaled you to go ahead and chat with your previous trainee friends while they would take the time to rest.

“Its been such a long time. We watched your performance and it was great! You improved a lot.” Taeyong, their leader noted giving you a warm smile despite his dark outfit.

“Thanks, you guys also did a great performance! By the way, your group expanded, really. SM wasn’t joking when he said infinite members.” You laughed, causing the members to motion to the six of the members.

“Yeah, Hansol left the company before we debuted and we got added six other people into our group.” Johnny spoke. The boys motion for the six to introduce themselves, since you haven’t met them because you left before they got accepted into the company.

“Hi~ I’m Chenle!”

“Nice to meet you, I’m Lucas!”

“Hi I’m Jungwoo!”

“I’m Winwin.”

“Nice to finally meet you, sunbae! I’m Kun!”

“And I’m Renjun!”

They shortly introduced themselves, you smiled. Trying to make sure you would remember their names if ever something happens.

You all talked together for a while, some had to already go after being called by their stylist so you were left alone with Doyoung to chat.

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“You already have a boyfriend?!” Doyoung asked, quite shocked with what you had said. The two of you were seated in the cafeteria, Doyoung insisted on buying you food which you shyly agreed to. Your conversation had ended up with talking about your love life.

“Yeah. In fact, he’s a great guy.” You stated with a smile. Your mind wandering off to earlier that day when Vernon made you breakfast in bed.

“He must be so lucky to have you. I’m happy for the both of you but, what did your company say about the two of you dating?” Doyoung asked, taking a sip from his iced americano.

“Nothing, really. They just told us to keep it lowkey in public.” You replied with a shrug, drinking water from your bottle.

“That must’ve been nice.” Doyoung stated, eating his sandwich.

“Y/N!” Someone from behind you called. You happened to recognize the voice as it was a member of seventeen. It was Seungcheol.

“We thought you got kidnapped.” He joked, standing beside you as you ate the last of your salad.

“Sorry, it’s been a while since I last met them and we wanted to catch up.” You motion to Doyoung, who bowed to Seungcheol who had debuted first.

“Well, guess it’s time to say goodbye. You have my number already so let’s keep in touch?” Doyoung smiled at you, and you waved back at him nodding.

“Of course! Bye Doyoung~” you said your goodbye and the two of you went your separate ways just after cleaning the table you used.

You and Seungcheol walked over to your waiting room. Him asking about what did you talk about and all that, you answered all of the questions he threw at you. Finally, you arrived at your waiting room.

“You’re back!” Your co-member, Yoojin stated the obvious. Standing up to greet you.

“So… what happened?” She asked with a grin, excited to hear about your talk with the nct boys.

“Just talked about random stuff. Say, where’s Vernon?” You asked, looking around the room. Vernon wasn’t there.

“Oh, right. He wanted the two of you to go back to the dorms to get some rest before the dinner later on. He’s probably waiting for you by the entrance.” Seungcheol said.

“Okay, I guess I shouldn’t make him wait any longer. Bye guys!” You greeted, taking your belongings and ran towards the entrance to meet your boyfriend. Something must’ve happened for him to want the two of you to head home early. Usually he’d want to stay with the rest of your and his members. Though, alone time with your boyfriend wouldn’t be bad.

You saw Vernon by the entrance, you called for him and he smiled, taking a hold of your hand. Kissing your cheek before walking over to his manager’s car without another word.

“Is something wrong, Sol?” You asked after getting in the car. His manager sat on the drivers seat and started driving back to the dorms. Vernon shook his head.

“It’s nothing, I just figured you would be tired so let’s get back to the dorms to get some rest okay?” He pecked your lips, giving you a cute smile before holding you by your waist bringing you closer to him. Laying your head on his shoulder and he laid his head on top of yours.

Though, what Vernon said was a lie. He wasn’t going to let you rest . After what you’d gotten him into, the only way he could release his jealously without admitting it was through sex.

Once you gotten back to seventeen’s dorms, Vernon helped you carry your bags to his room. Luckily you only had your two backpacks. One for your personal belongings and the other for your outfit, mics and earpiece.

You and Vernon settled your stuff on the floor beside his bed. Vernon took a seat on his bed. Watching you lay beside him with your body sprawled across the bed. As if you were asking him to do it.

“Sol,” You called him, turning your head to meet his gaze that was eyeing you up and down. Making you feel embarrassed of yourself for looking so tired in front of your boyfriend. You tried to sit up next to him but Vernon pinned you back down on the bed. Tickling your sides which made you squirm and giggle while trying to pry off his hands on you.

“Vernon!” You scolded in between giggles. Vernon replied with an innocent ‘yes’, a loving smile spreads across his lips while continuing what he was doing.

After numerous attempts of making him stop (those ranged from the regular holding him off to biting his arm playfully), he finally gave in to your pleads and lied on the bed next to you.

“Okay, seriously. What do you want?” You asked after taking a moment to catch your breath. Vernon grabbed you by the waist and made you lay on top of him. Luckily, you weren’t that heavy for him to handle.

“Can we? It’s been a while..” He shyly asks. You knew exactly what he was implying. It was true that it had been a while since the two of you did it. You would be lying if you said that you weren’t dreading to do it again anytime soon. Even if the growing wants to have each other, none of you had the guts to talk about it with the other.

“I’m fine with that.” You replied, kissing his cheek to reassure him that you want it too. Vernon held you close to his chest, twirling a few strands of your hair in his finger and kissed your forehead.

Whenever you both had sex, Vernon was usually soft. He hated to break you, but a part of him wants you to feel that he can break you when he wants to as well.

Vernon kept the two of you in that position for a while. Just then, Vernon’s mind started to wonder back to the time when your co-members said that you were hanging out with the nct members earlier. It triggered his feelings, making him tightened his grip on your hair lightly pulling on it.

“Tell me, you and Doyoung?” He asked, naming one of the NCT members who you’d constantly talk about.

You weren’t sure why Vernon was talking about someone else when you’d both be having sex. That was when it clicked in. He was jealous.

“We’re just friends.” You stated, moaning lightly at how he pulled on your hair.

“Of course I know that. You’re mine, right baby? Say whose are you.” Vernon whispered in your ear. His hands wandering lower to remove your button up purple ruffle top.

“Yes, I’m yours Vernon.” You replied. You could already feel yourself getting wetter by how his hands roam freely on your skin after exposing your top.

Vernon smirked in satisfaction after hearing your words. It was great how you’d boost his pride without hesitation. He sat up on the bed with you sitting on his lap facing him. Your top and bra thrown on the floor to be forgotten. Vernon took one of your breasts in his mouth, lightly bitting on your nipple making your breathing hitch at the sudden feeling. His hand held the other breast, massaging it.

You held onto Vernon’s shoulders for support while he attacked your breasts without mercy, and he wasn’t going to leave your lower part without being given attention.

Vernon took your other breast in his mouth, being more rough. Leaving purple marks around your nipple and bit down on your nipple harder making you moan out his name out loud. “That’s right baby. Let them know whose making you feel this good.” He paused to suck in your moans and kiss you deeply, messy and full of tongue.

While the two of you were kissing, Vernon held your hips down to grind you on his member who was hard in his pants. You didn’t know that you could be more wet than now until you felt a tent in your boyfriend’s pants.

“Shorts off.” He demanded, breaking the kiss and made you whine from the loss of contact. But you obeyed him nonetheless. Removing your shorts and panties, throwing them to the side. Vernon doing the same and took off his pants and underwear to free his member. He watched you get back on the bed, completely naked for him. Vernon was on his knees, just in front of you. Pushing you back to lay down on the pillows as he pumped his member a few times.

“Do you need help, baby? Are you already wet? Why aren’t you saying anything?” Vernon whispered in your ear, biting lightly on your jaw. Then on your neck, shoulder blades and breasts. You moaned as his hot breath tickled your skin, how he’s ruining you already. Though you wanted more, you wanted him to touch you in other places.

“Vernon, please help me. I- ah!” You weren’t able to finish your sentence, getting cut off by Vernon attacking, biting down lower. He was now targeting your clit. His hands spreading open your legs and his lips wrapped around your little bundle of nerves. He wasn’t gentle, he held up your thigh to spank your ass.

“What did you say babe? What do you need help with?” He asked while his face only centimeters apart from your core and clit. When he spoke, his hot breathe made contact with your core and made you whimper in anticipation.

“Please fuck me Vernon, I need you.” You tried to say as you were getting close to your orgasm just from his mouth. What more if he filled you with his cock.

Vernon licked a few more stripes up your core before replacing his tongue with his two fingers. Dipping them in your juices before filling you inside. Making you moan his name out loud. Luckily no one was at the dorm right now, you hoped.

You tugged harder onto the locks of Vernon’s messy hair as you felt a knot in your stomach tightening. Just as you told him the words that you were gonna come, he stops. Sitting up nicely in front of you with a grin.

“Vernon what the-” You though he was done with you, but no he wasn’t. Vernon stroked his member before positioning it at your entrance. He wasted no time, too impatient now and pounded into you relentlessly.

“You like this huh? How I touch all of your sweet spots and exploring your pussy?” He dirty talks in your ear, leaning in to plant a kiss on your lips to capture your moans in his mouth. You nodded, moaning his name in a higher pitch. It felt so good.

“Please don’t stop.” You pleaded, hopefully he will allow you to cum. He chuckles and pounded into you harder. “Only for you, baby.”

It went on like that for a while, chasing both your orgasms. Vernon was already close, but he restricted himself to make you cum first in which you did not long after, his release followed yours.

Vernon collapsed next to you, hugging you close to him as you take in his release. His cum slowly dripping out of you.

“Sorry, I’ll help you with that.” Vernon said, taking a few tissues from the bedside and cleaned you up. You smiled at his sweet gesture, still exhausted from your session with him.

“You wanted to have sex because you were jealous, right?” You asked, a giggle following your words and Vernon shook his head, burying his face in your chest.

“Of course not! I just miss being this close to you, yeah, that’s why.” He reasoned out. You held him closer to you while taking the blankets to drape over your bodies.

“So, round two?”

[gladioluuss]

SEVENTEEN Album Collection

The title seemed pretty straightforward...

But please do click that Keep reading and read about what I think about the albums and some fun memories that I had with these albums.

Introduction

Welcome to the first post, I’ll be sharing with you what I have collected for the past 4 years of being a Carat. I’ve started being a SEVENTEEN fan aka Carat 3 days after their debut/ when the Adore U MV was released. When I started the entering the fandom, I promised to myself that every album of this group I’ll buy because I started when the debuted but guess what.. I dont have AL1 and Directors Cut also I only have one version for every album with multiple versions (oh come on I don’t only buy albums, I also have expenses for my living yah know!) but yeah the promise is broken. Well its okay because being fan doesn’t define how many album or merch you own right? Anyway, when I already work (I’m still a student) I’ll collect every album and complete it even the japanese version. Please Pledis stop making SEVENTEEN albums have multiple version because my wallet aches and that’s not good :(

Well enough of this long intro and let’s get going with my albums.

Content

17 Carat ; This baby over here is my very first SEVENTEEN album, well its not my very first album because I have 2 fandom before entering the Carat world so yeah. This is I think the 4th to the last copy of the physical store that I bought it to and I feel so lucky because I get to grab one before it comes out of stock in x store. They don’t stock too much album with their branches that often and it may take months and years and ya gurl here doesn’t know online shopping before so I rely on physical stores more than online stores. I got the Black Version of the 13 individual PCs that they have and its fine, its fine no worries.

Boys Be; The start of the version expansion. When its their first comeback I was like wow impressive songs and concept. Well when you’re diving into a new world, you discover a lot and at this point its not about their singing and dancing talent that I admire about SEVENTEEN but their individual special talents like Hoshi doing Choreographs and Woozi composing songs. And I REALLY LOVE THEIR TITLE SONG AND B SIDE SONGS TBH. I even played it into our new speakers and my mom loved it she even saved (songs like rock and fronting) it in her phone! I really think Mansae is SEVENTEEN’s era but still I love Adore U more than anything else (because its their first).

Love and Letter; ITS THEIR FIRST ALBUM! Well I can’t say no to buying both of the version even though its a great pain in the wallet. (TBH its pricey and heavy also haha) I love the letter version but I can’t say that I hate the love version because it has aesthetic content! I pre - ordered this but its not an online store, it is the store where I also bought the 17 Carat and Boys Be. Lucky Me! I had my very first Jeonghan PC.. though its not really a PC but still my baby <3 p.s They had their first win in this era in Show Champion! What a great memory <3

Very Nice / Love and Letter Repackage; Thank God its not a 2 version repackage album. because I’ll go nuts! I don’t have money anymore because I bought 2 versions of Love and Letter right? and its a pricey album each and my mom won’t allow it(me buying another 2 version that is pricey after buying 2 albums in the first time) so there. I really like how I got Wonwoo for the first time here :D and as for having 2 Seungkwan PCs, before it was an okay only because he is a little below my bias list but now YEAH IM HAPPY <3 OF COURSE. He is one of my bias wrecker so its good that I’ve got him (mah bb sunshine <3) 

Going Seventeen (Make it Happen); MY FAVORITE! I mean not really my favorite era but my favorite PCs <3 I got another Wonwoo and a bonus Wonwoo plus Jeonghan PC WAH <3 I ship these two and they are a very lowkey ship but I thank destiny that it exist even though only small population including me supports this ship. This is a very special album for me because so many things happened. First is its delayed for like 2 months so I’m near on giving up but when my friends (I’ll give them initials N and A) went to my house, N and A are KPop fans too like N is a die hard (BTS and SVT) and A is a little bit of a fan (2NE1 Baby); It arrived when we’re having our last day mini celebration (because I’ll be transferring school after that year) in my house. So its like we video ourselves and do an unboxing xD and it was so fun they saw first the photocards before I did. The album has 2 posters, first is the member and the second is a group poster and I GOT A WONWOO POSTER. Our adrenaline was so high that we’re screaming at the top of our lungs when they revealed it to me. Next is reading the photobook AND THE PICTURES ARGHH <3 we just screamed because of these 13 handsome princes and the last part THE PCs! I wasn’t really expecting being so lucky because I got A WONWOO AND WONWOO AND JEONGHAN PCs!!! AND WE JUST SCREAMEDDD  and after that we ate and they left but its fine because THIS MEMORY IS SO PRECIOUS <3 It occurred in 2016. 

Teen Age; This is my least favorite album. Because I wasn’t patient enough to see what the album version looks like and order ROSE QUARTZ AND SERENITY  then when the visuals came out... its black HAHAHAHAH :( I was like not ready about the album. I expected it to be full of rose quartz and serenity and with all the aesthetic feels of it but I just got disappointed with the color and the concept is just too emo for seventeen (sorry if the one reading this loves this version but personally I don’t want to lie just because I wanted to show love) but regardless of this album visuals.. The songs in the album are bop like each and every song were unique and special. Overall its a tie I think? I have a positive and negative output to it. Next time Pledis please release version name and visuals altogether okay?.

You Make My Day/ You Made My Dawn; I won’t elaborate what version are these 2 because so many version so confusing :( ( I h8 u pledis for making me broke). So the You Make My Day Album (on the left) was a gift to me (WAH <3) because my dad has a friend who went to Korea and I asked if he can buy an album and we’ll pay it but He gave it as a gift instead :D That’s a really nice experience hehe. I got Seungkwan Lenticular, to be honest I like this Seungkwan picture a lot. Then I got my 4th Wonwoo PC (he loves me <3) plus I had I cheol in the YMMDawn and 2 shuas for both YMMDay and YMMDawn. Then LOOK AT THAT HOSHI LENTICULAR UGH MY HEART. 

Some last words...

Sorry if some of the pics and blurred or too much white ;_; the lighting in my house was so awful that I had to put some extra lights (and some album picture had so much light in it and turned bad). Also excuse my feels (look at all the words that are in Caps Lock xD). I advise that if you’re just starting to collect albums, don’t rush it. Take time on collecting because if you collect albums too fast you’ll be too overwhelmed and won’t enjoy each uniqueness of the album that you bought. Also if you have albums, try to store it properly to avoid destroying in (well except if you received it with dents already.. we can’t avoid that kind of issue if its shipping tbh. Just be extra careful with the album/s that has dents.) Remember that collecting albums are pricey but if you think that you can handle it financially then I don’t think there won’t be a problem. Hope you enjoyed this first blog entry <3

Annyeong~

[thekidultlife]

Audiophile | Jihoon Idol!AU

Words: 3878

Genre: Plain smut, folks.

(A/N: Well, good luck on this one. It was pretty long like 80% of it is smut)

You entered Jihoon’s studio in the manner that you usually did.

It wasn’t out of the ordinary. You, as the music producer of your own group, had rights and reasons to have a space in the studio. Pledis was still skeptical in giving you your own studio, so thus you had to share with Seventeen’s music prodigy.

It wasn’t like he minded your presence, though he was wary at first. Yet as you gradually assimilated into the room, Jihoon actually took comfort in your company. After all, it could really get lonely at some nights.

And so you entered casually.

Most of your things were left untouched on top of your desk, including your phone. Well, there really isn’t any reason for them to be touched since you just went to eat dinner at three in the morning and Jihoon was somewhere you didn’t know and the studio was one of the most heavily secured places in the building.

You nonchalantly approached your desk and cleared the top; moving notebooks riddled with lyrics away and awakening the PC so you can continue a song you were producing. Picking up your phone, you noticed that you left it on record. Probably because you were recording a melody just before you went to eat and forgot to turn it off.

It was recording for two hours and forty-seven seconds.

You shrugged and sighed.

Before you left for the chicken restaurant just in front of Pledis, Jihoon was still working on something and had refused your invitation to eat with you. You figured that he was working on something really important, so you didn’t bother to persuade him and just went out. Since he wasn’t in the studio by the time you went back, you guessed he had probably went to eat as well.

You tapped on the stop button and placed it on top of your desk as you sat on your armchair. You stretched your arms before you and again tapped on your phone to play the recording. The first part might still be valuable after all.

And so it played—you humming a tune as Jihoon’s furious mouse clicking and keyboard typing is heard on the background. Listening while massaging your fingers, the cogwheels in your head began turning on how you would do the verse. You did some backing and sung a bit of lyrics which you thought would match. However, you still had trouble with how you would do the beat of the song so you began tapping your palms and fingers on the wooden desk until you found it right.

Immersed in the beat that you were creating, you barely noticed the part where you were humming was already over and was replaced just by sheer silence.

And then someone groaned.

Your fingers stopped tapping and you looked around you, confused. Like hell were you getting haunted right now when you have a comeback next month.

Then there was a whimper.

“What the—”

“—ah…haa…”

You shivered at the sounds. Obviously, there were sounds which you shouldn’t be hearing right now. It may either be someone having sex in the studio which was impossible since there were no cabinets nor anything to hide in; or someone was watching porn and left it open.

You rose from your seat and looked around. You definitely weren’t imagining things—there were really legit sounds yet you couldn’t fathom where it was from.

“Oh fuck…yes…”

Now you could clearly identify who it was. Well, you weren’t that surprised really.

“Well, Jihoon is a guy,” you said casually and shrugged, turning to return to your chair.

“Ahh…Y/N…god…”

But that wasn’t what you expected.

The air in the room immediately changed into something heavier.

Another thing which caught you in the headlights was where the sounds were coming from. It finally clicked to you that everything was coming from your phone. That two hour recording was Jihoon jacking off to the thought you.

He groaned in the recording. “…Shit…haa…Y/N…you feel so good….”

You heard the swivel chair creak in the recording and you could imagine Jihoon arching his back and throwing his head on the backrest as he pumped his dick as quickly as he could.

“Fuck…ahh…haa…god…Y/N…I wish I could fuck you…”

His words sent currents right to your core as you immediately rubbed your thighs together; still denying that the recording was turning you on. Slowly, you returned to your seat and continued listening to the recording even though you knew you had to turn it off. But you couldn’t. His moans and grunts were too hypnotizing to your ears which left your throat dry but your underwear drenched.

Your hands which were gripping the armrests tightly gradually crept down to your lap and rubbed circles on the skin exposed by your shorts. Licking your lips, the thoughts which swirled in your mind was getting the better of you, urging your hands to slide down your inner thighs as your legs parted hesitantly.

He grunted.

Slowly, your fingers dipped to your apex and rubbed the forming wet patch on your shorts. It was languid and teasing while you enjoyed the breathy gasps of Jihoon from your phone. Shit. Getting a tad naughtier, your free hand unbuttoned and unzipped your shorts as the other pulled them down to your ankles.

Freer than before, your hand immediately went to your covered clit and placed small touches which had you hitching your breath. You also played with your entrance and imagined Jihoon touching you at the same places you did.

“Shit…ughh…ahh…” You could hear skin on skin as the image of him rubbing his thick cock with parted lips and heavy breaths tainted your mind. Everything in that recording happened in the very same room you were in just a little while ago. It was just some sort of porn clip—it was Jihoon at his dirtiest.

“Ji…” a segment of his name escaped from your lips as you finally removed your underwear and directly rubbed circles on your sensitive nub. “…ahh…Jihoon…”

“…nnm…Y/N…I’m…so, so close…”

His voice had gotten higher and louder as you wished he would whisper those exact same words on your ear as he fucks you hard on the desk. You inserted a digit in you as it slid without trouble and you imagined yourself as the recipient of Jihoon’s rough thrusts and dirty words.

“haa…haa…uhh…yes…Jihoon,” you mumbled, your eyes long closed as you slipped another finger in you yet feeling frustrated at how they just could not reach the spot you wanted. If only Jihoon’s fingers were in you…surely, surely…they would…

“Mmn…Jihoon, please…there…ah—”

 “Y/N, you calling for me—OH SHIT. FUCK. I’m sorry—”

Everything was happening too fast.

First, when you heard the real Jihoon’s voice at the doorway, you lunged to pick up your underwear and shorts from the floor and wore them back at Mach speed. Second, Jihoon almost had his eyeballs pop out from its sockets when he saw you half naked and masturbating to none other than him. Third, he slammed the door shut but to his dismay, he shut it the other way, with him and you locked inside the studio together with the awkwardness and the tension swirling in the air.

The both of you tried to avoid each other’s gazes until you accidentally met his and now the two of you were trapped.

“…oh god fuck…ughh…Y/N! I’m coming—”

Jihoon tapped the stop button on your phone and looked away guiltily as his ears were red with embarrassment.

“Wait! I can explain!” you exclaimed first, hiding your hands on your back, away from his sight. “I didn’t record you intentionally, okay? It’s just…! I…uh…I left it on record accidentally and—”

“Oh just fuck this!”

Jihoon interrupted you with a sharp curse and marched towards you with a darkened expression. He pulled you towards him and with a single second of a pause, he had his lips on yours within the next moment.

You couldn’t even process what was actually happening. All you knew was how the kiss was so soft and languid despite how he held on you so tightly on your waist; pushing you flush against his hardness. Yet you enjoyed it all as you mewled in agreement when he slid his tongue in your mouth to play with yours. Instinctively, your arms wound itself around his neck, pulling on his strands of dark hair between your fingers.

“Jihoon…” you whimpered in a soft voice as soon as he left your lips and began nibbling on your jaw and neck; feeling the tingly sensation of his tongue sucking and licking your soft skin.

 The grasps on his shoulders tightened when Jihoon began to urge you towards the leather sofa behind you and when your knees had hit its peripheries, he suddenly pushed you down and pinned you underneath him. He returned to giving you numerous splotches on your jaw down to your collarbone as he now slipped his hands underneath your hoodie—an indication that he needed them off of you.

Getting his hint, you pushed him off of you and took them off, throwing them beside the sofa along with your shorts; leaving you basically naked except for your underwear. Jihoon seemed to have forgotten how to breathe when he saw you so bare for him and had been taken over by an instinct to place more marks on your beautiful skin.

“Finally…fucking finally…” he mumbled over and over like spell on your chest as if binding you to be his.

His nimble fingers crept to the hook of your bra so that it could join the rest of your clothes beside the sofa in a bundled heap. Jihoon then leaned forward to catch your hard nub between his lips and sucked as his hand groped your other breast, loving how they felt against his hand.

You squealed at the sensations he was doing on your body as you melted against his touch like putty; repeating his name on your lips like a broken record. Arching your back as Jihoon teased your breasts, you reveled at how his eyes turned feral when you ground your aching core to his clothed hardness.

Feeling too warm and overdressed for the moment, Jihoon removed his shirt as well as his skinny jeans and rejoined you on the couch; hovering above you with a deadly smirk. Inclining himself, he whispered right beside your ear.

“I heard you get off with my voice.”

Without even looking, you could feel his smugness dripping between his words; implying at how you were masturbating with his moans earlier. You could sense a flush of warmth on your cheeks and a lump on our throat yet you couldn’t deny it—you loved his voice especially when it’s saying how he wants to fuck you so much.

His hand crept down to the band of your panties, teasingly slipping his finger around it and pulling it down so, so slowly while the other was caressing your waist in gentle circles.

“Do you want to hear how I’ll fuck you tonight, my baby girl?” he started, now peppering small kisses up and down your neck. “How I’ll fill your tight wet pussy with my cock and fuck you until you can’t walk straight until next week?”

“…fuck…Jihoon…ahh…” you moaned, the hand which was playing with your panties now raking up and down your sensitive inner thighs.

“Oh god, baby. You’ll look so good covered in my cum as I pound into you again and again…” he smiled at you so sweetly and the contrast between his expression and his words made your stomach do somersaults.

Jihoon’s hands then found purchase on your panties and slipped it off of you, a string of wetness on your pussy evident which Jihoon playfully swiped his two fingers with; a mocking grin on his lips.

“I haven’t even touched you here and you’re so wet?” he remarked, placing both hands underneath your legs and spread you wide before him.

“Please touch me…Jihoon, please…” you begged as you covered your face with your arm, unable to look at him when you’re so open and bare.

Jihoon clicked his tongue at you and gently coaxed your arm away. As soon as he was done, he closed the gap between your lips; giving you a long-drawn kiss. His hand found its way on your cheeks and rubbed it slowly and reassuringly.

“Don’t hide, baby girl,” he smiled against your lips, his eyes boring right through you. “You look so beautiful like this. I want to see you looking so dirty, understand?”

Nodding in understanding, you gave Jihoon a small smile as he went back to his position between your legs. Without any warning, he leaned in and took a long stripe on your pussy; his tongue brushing against your sensitive clit as you jolted in surprise, holding to anything you can reach.

“Oh my god…Jihoon…” you cried, as he continued his assault on your clit, lapping all your juices.

He held on to your legs tightly as they instinctively try to close—you were unable to do anything but hold on to his dark lock as he slipped a finger into you. Jihoon then accelerated his face faster and faster as his tongue sucked on your swollen nub; adding a digit and then another when you got significantly wetter than before. Basically, you were nothing but a moaning mess, arching and screaming out Jihoon’s name in praise of how fucking good his tongue was.

When you could feel the beginning of your climax pooling on your stomach, Jihoon pulled out his fingers from you and replaced it with his tongue, exploring your hole earnestly as he gave you dark expression from between your legs. You groaned at this; tears forming in your eyes at how sensitive you have become.

“Are you coming for me, my baby girl?” he asked with his fuckingly rough voice that had you whimpering and bucking against the three fingers which returned pumping in and out of you.

“Ahh…Ji…! Ji…hoon…fuck yes…!” you replied with half lidded eyes and parted lips as your breasts bounced at both of your movements.

Jihoon grinned at you and went back down on your clit so that a few sucks and licks could push you towards your climax. In several minutes, he had you quivering and moaning as your climax had hit you like a bullet train—looking so utterly sexy and dirty for him only as you came.

Jihoon then pulled his fingers out of you and licked them clean on by one, tongue dragging at ever digit while you were unable to look away though your climax still had you shaking. He then leaned in towards you and gave you a peck on the lips. However, you knew this was far from over as the glint on his eyes had not faded yet but rather turned darker.

“My baby girl is up for another round, yeah?” he asked you, his eyes lingering on yours with a mischievous smile playing on his lips. “You can take on my cock now, right babe?”

His use of words made electricity run up and down your spine once again as excitement filled your blood. You can’t help but nod at his suggestion as you felt his clothed length nudge against your thigh. In a sudden impulse, you reached out to him and slowly rubbed your palm against the tent on his boxers while Jihoon gave a restrained moan.

“Yes, just like that, baby,” he muttered under his breath; his eyes closing to feel your touch a bit more.

Feeling a tad courageous, you slipped your hand underneath his underwear and played with the tip of his bare cock which was already slippery with precum. You reveled at how he was so hard and big because of you and only fueled you to pump his length faster; tightening your grip. Jihoon was already humping against your hand as his jaw fell and eyes shut tightly in pleasure.

“Fucking hell, Y/N…ughh…that’s…enough,” he growled at you, yet you didn’t stop. You couldn’t stop.

Jihoon could come with just your hand however, what he wanted today was to fuck you on the couch. Handjobs and blowjobs were for another time. So he got rid of your arm despite how difficult it is and pinned you back on the sofa. You noticed that there were sweat dripping down his brow to his cheeks and the deep pink flush on his skin and ears and you thought that nothing could be so endearing and so sexy at the same time.

“I told you, that’s enough,” he warned you in a low and husky voice that seemed to make you more excited than ever. “You know, bad girls should be punished. On your knees, now.”

Obediently, you turned around so that your ass was in front of him while your arms were supporting your upper body. Jihoon breathed in this sight of you; your wet glistening pussy right there for his taking and your butt so pretty for spanking.

He took his position behind you and dipped two fingers into your core as you keened in delight however, a sudden sharp pain hit your butt cheek that you had to arch your back.

“Count,” he commanded as he hit your ass once more and then rubbing it gently, a third finger burying inside of you. “And don’t come without my permission.”

You couldn’t seem to comprehend what he was asking of you because of the strange mixture of both pain and pleasure you were feeling, so you struggled to utter a single number.

“Baby girl, what did I say?” he asked you with a voice restrained but hungry. You know you couldn’t continue to disobey him anymore.

“C-count…” you replied with a hoarse voice.

“Good.”

As soon as he replied, he struck your ass again as you moaned a number, struggling not to come with how his fingers were thrusting into you. He continued to hit your butt several times until you were merely whispering the number.

“…Ji…I can’t…please…let me come…” you pleaded as tears glassed your eyes.

Sensing that you can’t handle it anymore, Jihoon pulled out his fingers and gently caressed your ass to ease the pain. You were breathing heavily as you noticed him crawling towards you and giving you several chaste kisses on your lips, cheeks, nose, and basically everywhere on your body.

“You’re such a good girl for me, baby,” he smiled down at you as you crept your arms around his shoulders.

“Please give me my reward now…” you replied with a small grin while Jihoon could only kiss you hard on the lips, tongue playing and teeth biting lips.

“Only for my baby girl,” he whispered as he finally removed his boxers; his dick hard against his stomach.

Jihoon then spread your legs apart and teasingly rubbed his length on your still sensitive clit. Mewling, you slapped his arm in reprimand and he only chuckled at you.

Slowly, he slid into your wet and hot pussy as the two of you wallowed in the sensation of each other. You felt him stretch you out in proportions you did not consider despite all the intense foreplay and you could only spread your lips and arch your back in pleasure. Jihoon didn’t expect how different it felt to be inside you; it was a hundred times much better than his good old hand or anything he could think of.

He didn’t try to move at first, considering if you felt comfortable. When you began bucking against him, Jihoon thrusted into you sharply and you groaned so loudly; glad the studio was sound-proofed.

“Fuck, baby…! You feel so good around me…” he muttered beside your ears as he tried to establish his rhythm; pounding inside you so roughly and steadily.

“Ji…hoon…oh my god…ahh…!” you could only utter sweet rasps as he had you gasping with how he pressed his thumb on your clit.

As he continued fucking you hard, Jihoon had his eyes nowhere but on yours as his lips parted in pure pleasure. You could see how he adored you so much with the way he gazed at you—his dark fringes now damp with sweat as it flew in motion with his deep thrusts.

Your arms reached for his back, nails raking on his skin which you realized was one of his kinks as Jihoon grunted in delight at feel of your fingers burying on his shoulder blades. He then lifted your left leg up and placed it over his shoulder so that Jihoon could pound into you deeper. This had you gasp as the new position had the head of his cock brushing against your sensitive spot, nudging you closer and closer to climax. Squeezing around him unconsciously, Jihoon gathered all of his strength not to come so early, yet he knew he wouldn’t last any longer.

In a sudden impulse, Jihoon bent towards you, his eyes searching yours in a whole different level. He had you at the mercy of his intense gaze, forever trapped and mesmerized by his dark chocolate brown orbs. And as if driven by the moment, both your lips touched and melted into a soft and sensual kiss—totally in contrast with how he was driving his cock into you.

“I…I like you…so much…shit…Y/N…I just…!”

He kept on whispering sweet nothings into your ear as he continued to drive into you, while you were holding onto him around his neck, feeling nothing but love and pleasure.

“Ji…ughh...! Faster! Yes…!”

You squealed as he upped his speed to a notch, the knot in you tightening and closing around his cock. You could feel it twitch inside of you and you understood this as a sign that he was already close to climaxing.

“Fuck…Y/N…I’m so close…!”

As soon as he whispered to you, you arched your back and gripped on his shoulder tightly as you reached your long-awaited climax. Jihoon cursed right beside your ear as he kept on pounding through your orgasm, and pulling out soon after; his seed covering your breasts and stomach.

You were still out of it when Jihoon muttered profanities again; wondering how he was supposed to clean you up. Having none of it, you pulled him down to lie next you and buried your face on his bare chest, reveling on the afterglow.

“Let’s think of that later…” you murmured against his skin, littering innocent pecks on his collarbones. “Right now, I want you beside me.”

Surprisingly, Jihoon blushed a deeper shade of red despite how he just had sex with you a few moments ago and without a protest, he swung an arm around your waist to pull you closer.

“I’m serious, you know…about earlier…” he stuttered like a little boy, making you grin.

“Don’t worry,” you replied as you gazed into his concerned eyes. “I think I might share the same feelings as you do…”

When he heard you, Jihoon immediately lit up and held you more closely as he kissed the tip of your nose.

“But seriously…you touching yourself was fucking hot,” he grinned mischievously. “How about a show for me next time, baby girl?”

-Hyeri 

[jinwoowoohoo]

@cha-eunwoow and @sanhatation hit me with that x2 tag combo (💖💕💞) I was gonna put them both in this post but it.... got very long... so I will split them up after all 😅

First up is a Kpop one from lovely Liv (hey girl I hope things are going better for you!!)

To anyone who genuinely reads through all of this bless your heart and ily

1) 5 favorite groups?

f(x), ASTRO, SHINee, Day6, Dreamcatcher

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

Lol I just did this, so: Amber, Jinjin, Onew, S.coups, Wonpil (though if we can double from groups my girl Luna would 100% be here)

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

f(x) - they were my first group and will forever be my ults. I just love how unique they are both as a group and each member individually! Every member shines so much in their own way and can absolutely stand as artists in their own right (and have been proving so with their solo projects the past 2+ years), and when they come together they create things that are so cool and beautiful and unique 💜 Honest to god after I sat down and listened to their whole discography on Spotify for the first time, I listened to nothing but them 8+ hrs a day, 7 days a week for almost a month I was so in love (i'm not exaggerating you can ask my roommate aldbaj) (SM please let us have f(4) again I would literally cry). That being said I also consider ASTRO and SHINee to be ults, and could write whole paragraphs for them as well 💕 

(but y’all please support my girls, Victoria put out a Chinese single and should be following with an album, Amber’s halfway through releasing videos for her mixtape & Luna is releasing 2 digital singles this coming week! Krystal has no musical projects atm but you can check out her dramas and modeling~)

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

My kpop origin story revolves around me coming across the Electric Shock mv in 2013 and being both in love with and absolutely floored by Amber. A girl? In a girl idol group? With short hair?? Who presents in a masculine way?? I couldn’t believe it was something the companies would let happen and it was so. I don't even know. But I knew it was really meaningful and important to me. 3 years later I actually fully listen to the group (honestly thank got I needed new music to listen to at work) and I finally learned her name - Amber Liu. I'm someone who id's as nonbinary, and I've really struggled with my perceived femininity my whole life - its something I'm still working through. When I saw Amber, a person working in a very gender stereotype-heavy industry and culture, being able to present in the way she's comfortable and standing up for the rights of others to do the same, it just really touched me on a deep personal level. Even though I know she id's as cishet she still has done a lot for those of us that don't, and I'm sooo insanely proud of her for sticking to her guns and choosing to live her truth through all of the hell people have given and continue to give her for it. Not only has she stuck it to the haters by prospering, but she's taken her experiences and her talents and made them into absolutely beautiful works of art. 

She uses her music to express her feelings and talk about her struggles, and the fact that her work is so personal and has so much of her in it also means a lot to me (please listen to Borders, Need to Feel Needed, Beautiful, Heights, and this cover of One More Light NOTE: if self harm is a bad topic for you, maybe skip One More Light and the Borders mv (the song is fine and ultimately uplifting, and the mv does end happily). She has worked so. damn. hard. to pursue her dreams and passions, often having to rely on just herself and her friends to work when SM just straight up refuses to do their JOB as her MANAGEMENT COMPANY, and somehow she keeps doing it with that beautiful smile.

Aside from all the gooshy stuff, she’s just really goofy and fun (and attractive >>) AND she was born just 2 months before me so I feel there’s a connection (also my parents considered naming me Amber and she considered my name as a stage name??? #starcrossedlovers). Finally she has literally the cutest dog in the world please look at this picture and cry with me

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

lmaooo now that I’ve poured my heart out over Amber, lets look at the human meme that is Lee Taemin (i just picked one but my favorite meme is just. him.)

And a special shoutout to all of the rest of the SHINee memes, like I thought about linking just one but there are so many legendary classics how do you choose (I got to experience the burnt Gucci story in person though so a super special shoutout to that one)

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

I’ll do both my ults since this is my Astro blog but I’ve only talked about f(x) so far ;;;;;

For Amber, this picture has been my phone background for well over a year now so I guess this one?? It’s from the song festival when she and Ksuke debuted Breathe Again (many months before it’s official release) and she was just feeling herself so much during the performance (credit for the pic most likely goes to her fansite Ambossing)

As for Jinwoo adljasdfs I only have like 100 pics of him just on my phone this is fine I’m gonna pick this one, bc when he posted it I loved it so much I came very close to literally printing it out and framing it...... he just looks so happy!! And he’s being his most natural self, no hair/makeup, out with his family, doing something he loves. It just Warms My Heart

7)  Favorite Kpop MVs

Ok this is a whole can of worms, so I’ll try to limit it to just 10 I quite like?? (in no specific order)

1) Astro - Baby 2) VIXX - Error 3) Seventeen - Lilili Yabbay 4) SHINee - Boys Meet U 5) EXID - DDD 6) KNK - Rain (performance ver) 7) Oh My Girl - Closer  8) f(x) - Electric Shock 9) Crayon Pop - FM 10) Taemin - Saynoara Hitori (I know it was a Japanese release but ssssh I’m counting it WAIT HECK i just realized Boys Meet U was a Japanese release too asdlfjasf welp) 

Also shoutout to this cover Dreamcatcher did of Maroon 5′s Lucky Strike

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

I don’t have a single specific one, there are so many quality compilations (I have watched a surprising number of Seventeen as Vines videos though lmao) 

10) Favorite content creator(s) within the fandom?

All Aroha are super talented ok, If I listed everyone that came to mind we’d be here for longer than anyone needs to be....

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

the only fandom I’m fully in that’s  been active in Korea the past year is Astro :’) But that’s well enough, I really do love this community!

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

omg no why

F-Jinjin asldfjasdf

M-Amber

K- Onew..... no this is wrong :< I’m changing the k from kill to kiss ok? ok.

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

Honestly probably Luna - she is one of the single most uplifting people in the world and she’s always ready for a good time! Queen of self love!

14) If you could date any idol, who?

I would never want to date an idol unless they were no longer/never an idol - trying to date around the antis and media would just be way too stressful on its own, plus the idol would be so busy all the time you’d barely get to see each other anyway

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

SHINee - Married to the Music

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

yes (depends on the idol)

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Yoon Sanha, my soft noodle, my potato son

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

@ Park Jaehyung meet me behind the Taco Bell at midnight

19) Favorite vocalist?

MJ/Luna/Onew

20) Favorite Rapper?

I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately and I’m honestly not sure??? Some contenders are Rocky and LE though

21) Favorite dancer?

sdflajsfadsf why must you hurt me in this way I’ll say Taemin because he really puts a lot of thought and self into his dance, and he’s actively trying to create change in the way the industry thinks about gender and dance

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

I think I pretty much touched on all that with Amber, so for Jinjin we both love dogs and like the drums, we can be quick to smile, we try to lead in an understanding/accommodating way rather than a total authoritarian way, we do That Face™ when someone is pushing our buttons lol

23) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

Kindness and an open mind

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

how....long do you want to be here adsflj I will say the song that gets me jamming the MOST at work is N.Flying - Hot Potato

25) Your worst wrecker?

I’m here today to talk to you about a dangerously beautiful man named Kim Myungjun

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

I saw SHINee in Dallas with my bff in 2017, then I went to Astro in DC all by my lonesome this past February! (so I just need to see f(x) and I’ll have gone to all 3 ult groups) Also fun fact my good friend @jinjins-freckles was also at those two concerts, but we didn’t know each other yet for the SHINee one - funny how things work out~

27) Favorite choreo?

THIS. THIS IS THE HARDEST QUESTION. I CAN’T. IMPOSSIBLE. I’m not even gonna try and list some.... theres.... too many;;;;

28) Favorite live performance?

ok look first of all, you come into MY house, and ask me to pick ONE performance adslfj I’ll say SHINee’s Woof Woof bc I was absolutely obsessed with it after I discovered it, its just so fun and goofy but also bops hard as heck??? Legends Only

29) Favorite debut mv?

Hide & Seek cleared my skin watered my crops and gave me a lil smooch on the forehead

30) Recommend a rookie group

Dreamcatcher!!! They’re having a comeback in May please support our goth goddesses

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

Astro - Puss n Boots

32) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

Since she’s tagged me a few times lately I’ll tag @myunghjun (and that’s it asdlj if you read all the way to the end consider yourself tagged too ok ily)

[j-wonwootrash]

The8 || Change

Word count: 2k Genre: Soulmate!au, fluff, slice of life, romance A/N: Part of the Seventeen soulmate!au. Enjoy! Do dm me for requests~ 

|| s.coups || jeonghan || joshua || jun || hoshi || wonwoo || woozi || dk || mingyu || the8 || seungkwan || vernon || dino

Your scream made Ayeon deaf for at least 10 seconds. She was reading a book when she jolted in her seat, your dolphin scream irritated her. “What now Y/N?” It wasn’t surprising for her to hear you scream because well, you were quite a scaredy-cat. 

“Ayeon!” you cried as you removed the towel from your damp hair- blonde with pink and blue highlights. No! This can’t be! 

“Ooh you’re so gonna get in trouble!” she hit you jokingly. “Hello detention!”

It wasn’t your doing, rather it was your soulmate- whom you never met. Your soulmate could’ve waited until the end of your school year. Did he even know how the school worked? Was he a rebel thinking that it was okay to color his hair in 3 shades? Did he ever think of you before he did it? All this thinking had you in a worried state. 

Luckily for you, you have a roommate who thought of an idea: Wear a beanie, she said. True enough, it was winter and it was alright to wear anything that would make you warm. As long as it fit the color coding of the system, no problem. You were in a girls’ school and you had to abide with the rules. No hair-dye was one of them. And it was that rule you never expected to break. You were the school’s ace and breaking the rules would be hindering your reputation.

And off you were, you tied your hair in a bun and wore the beanie. This is bothering, you thought, as you walked down the hallways of the lockers. Every girl whispered to themselves, curious of your attire. Your heels hit the slippery floor when they stopped at the call of the disciplinary teacher. “Y/N, come to my office.”

Oh boy, this is it. 

———

“I understand the weather is cold but as the school rules goes, you have to remove it once you’re at school grounds.” Mrs. Park reminded you.

You looked down to your shoes, not wanting to take it off. But you had to obey her. “Mrs. Park? Are you familiar with the soulmate thing going on nowadays?” you bravely asked her, avoiding her gaze.

“I’m well aware that most students consulted me of the matter. I supposed you have the same reason?” she closed her hands together, as she saw the blonde strands at the ends of your hairline.

 “Yes Ma'am,” you managed to speak without wavering. “I know I’m the school’s ace and reputation is most important and-”

“Nothing is more important than meeting your soulmate. I understand, you may leave.” she assured with a smile.

You left the office and sighed heavy. Ayeon and Risa came running to you, worried that you might get a warning. “Well she let me off the hook.” 

“As expected from the school’s ace!”

———

Months went by and you saw how your hair changed- the blue and pink strands slowly faded, curly blonde and now silver blonde. 

It worried you though, because the shoot for annual school magazine was approaching. And you didn’t want anyone to know of your hair colour. Might as well ask the editors to change from blonde to your hair colour.

“Just a few takes and we’re done.” Mr. Kang insisted. You politely asked for a request, and surprisingly they agreed. You let your hair down and they complimented how it suited you. 

“Well, it looks like I got it permed, but it’s natural enough.” you chuckled shyly. 

Minghao thought of dyeing his hair red for the next comeback of their first full album. He wasn’t aware of the whole soulmate thing but he was already reminded by his members to be careful of the colour he chooses, to be considerate of his soulmate. Apparently, he didn’t believe in such thing. 

“I want to dye my hair red.” he told Chan as he wiped his sweat from practice.

“You.. Hyung we have told you many times that-”

“But I don’t believe in those. I’m not convinced.” he hissed, looking at the younger one, who stared at his blonde hair that slowly turned copper brown. “What?”

Chan didn’t speak, he quickly just grabbed Minghao’s shoulders to the mirror behind him. “Are you convinced now?” 

The rest of the members came back from break and were amused to see Minghao’s hair. “Whoaho, we left for three minutes and it changed.” Jun touched the newly dyed hair. 

“Your soulmate seemed pretty annoyed with the marshmallow colours.” Soonyoung laughed. 

“Well, it was quick of her to realize it was Minghao hyung’s doing.” Seungkwan put down the boxes of chicken. 

Minghao wondered if you knew who he was, if you saw him perform at live shows or on tv. He was slightly convinced, however he later got bummed out after he knew he wouldn’t get to dye his hair red. 

His fans loved his hair, and one thing he could thank you for. His group was rising to be more popular than he thought. So he planned to let it slide for a while. 

———

He stared at the mirror, checked his watch where it marked the 7th month of having copper brown hair. He was getting impatient. No matter he tried to dye his hair red, you were always a step further. It got into his nerves. He really wanted to dye his hair red.

His members made fun of him, they copied his ways of tantrum, his expressions when his hair would always turn to brown just a day after he’d dye red. 

This year-end month, it was such good timing. Another comeback was approaching and he made sure you wouldn’t stop him from getting what he wanted. Even if you knew who he was, he’d do it right now. When his company agreed to let him dye his hair for the umpteenth time, he was beyond the clouds. For a few weeks at least, you did not bother him at all. 

“Finally I could be less stressed.” he laid down on the couch of their dorm.

“Well, when there’s achievement, always gotta be prepared of the consequences.” Jeonghan warned.

What could it be? he thought. He was happy that you finally let him choose the color he wanted. There was nothing he could think of.

Boom Boom was successful and the guest shows they did was too. He thanked you for that, that he made countless of memories with his group and fans. He thanked you for being understanding. Yet something in his heart felt empty. He couldn’t figure it out. His unit didn’t know what it was, though they knew what he felt. There he realized.

It was you he missed.

It was the continuous arguments of the change of hair color. It was the only thing that connected him to you, his soulmate. At least to figure out who you were or where you came from. Why was he inconsiderate of you in the past? Was it his beliefs that nearly made the both of you in pain?

———

For seven months you wondered why he let you have the copper brown hair. It was the color that you have always wanted after you finished school. For seven months you tried to figure who he was, why he would dye his hair so often that it took your happiness away. He annoyed you, yes, but you just couldn’t understand why he let you off the hook. It was the only connection, the only clue to his identity.

“Why soulmate why?” you stared at your red hair you had for weeks. “Who are you? And why do you do this?”

“Because I love you and the colors expresses my feelings for you.” Risa crept up from behind you as she pretended to be your soulmate.

“Ha ha very funny.” you rolled your eyes. “I just don’t understand. One moment he does it and then leaves it. And when I do it, he lets me. Now that my hair is red, I don’t know what to do.”

“The answer will probably come to you soon. You just have to wait for him.” Risa entered the toilet as she prepared a new hair color. “I’ll help you dye your hair. It’ll probably leave an impression on him once he sees his hair change.”

You took the packaging and your eyes widened. “Yellow blonde?” “Yeah, it suited you before, but this is a lil’ darker. I mean, I can tell you miss him. So why not show him?” she started to untie your hair.

“Yeah, I guess there’s no harm. There might be a lead.”

Once your hair was done, you felt weird. It suited you but you felt uneasy. Maybe I’m just overthinking things. Ayeon smiled at you, she saw how there were times you’d complain about him- so stubborn and rude.

It took you a lot of time to adjust to the blonde hair again, but you just let it be. It was the only way to know him. And for a few weeks, he acknowledged the hair color.

———

“Thank you for the hard work!” Minghao said to the staff after filming his unit’s music video. 

“Ah your hair suited you.” Jun praised him, messing his hair. “She probably got tired of the red hair and went back to blonde.”

“Wasn’t that the color that the universe introduced the both of you?” Chan asked the older one.

“Yeah. And I think she missed me.” Minghao went to a room where they rested.

“How?” Soonyoung questioned him with furrowed eyebrows.

“Think about it, if one of us stops then this whole soulmate thing would lose connection. It’s the only way that links us together.” he shyly covered his face.

“It’s the new year soon, what are you planning to do?” Jun placed his arms onto Minghao’s shoulders. 

“I’ll dye my hair brown.” 

———

A few months have passed and you liked the shade of brown your soulmate chose. You could tell he wasn’t annoyed anymore.

“Y/N!!!” Risa called you, her hands holding tickets.

“Did you win the lottery so that it made you hyper?” you pinched the girl’s cheeks, her lips forming a weird shape.

“I wish but no! Ayeon and I got VIP tickets to a concert!” A concert? You never been to one and you never got the time. You’ve always knew your friends have been into K-pop but you don’t really give much attention. Risa begged you to go with them in case they fainted, you would be the one to catch them.

“Okay okay I’ll go! Just tell me when.”

“Tomorrow!” she jumped several times.

That quick? You just let it slide and maybe just this once, have fun.

———

The concert was fully packed and you were shocked to see the amount of fans this group has. And to be honest, they were good, talented young men. There was this performance that left an impression on you, you believed it was a duo with a garter perhaps. It was graceful and elegant, you wondered how long they practiced.

All you could remember was the screams of Ayeon and Risa. They waved their lightstick almost throughout the whole concert and their energy was still full. Once the concert ended, you all lined up for a hi-touch. Your friends never mentioned about it but here you were, so close, despite being the last one to see them.

And then you saw them. They were handsome, tall and polite. You recalled one of the duo to be the next one in line. As you hands touched, a flow of electricity ran through your bodies.

Minghao saw a particular girl who he assumed was dragged by her friends. And that made him laugh. When he saw you approaching and he brought out his hands, a sensation ran his body.

Everyone saw the ends of your hairs, like lightsticks, they lit up in colors, from blonde to silver to red to blonde and to what was original, brown.

You both blushed, upon realizing your hands were still together. You tried to let go but he tightened his grip. “No, don’t. Stay like this for a while.” he whispered. “My name is Minghao.”

“Y/N..” you averted his gaze. “I’m not sure what to do now.” His large hands were still in yours.

“I- uh..” he started. “Hi soulmate.” his tinted cheeks became more red that his friends, took notice of.

“Ni-nice to meet you..” you cleared your throat. “..soulmate.”

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Runaway (SEVENTEEN Mingyu Imagine) | Part 1

Pairing: SEVENTEEN Mingyu | Reader Genre: Fluff | a tint of humor | Runaway AU Summary: They ran away at the age of sixteen. Mingyu left behind his perfect life and comfort zone, he made his way to the big city, searching for an adventure. She was just a girl, unbowed and unbreakable, dusting herself off through the sticks and stones for her wildest dream.At eighteen, they met at a train station. He thought she was pretty.At twenty-three, she took hold of his hand and ran off in the night. Her kiss tasted like magic and wildfire.At twenty-seven, she showed up out of nowhere. Back into his life. At the altar. On his wedding day.

Author’s note: Enjoy another new series sunshines, celebrating SEVENTEEN comeback, which is too soon, I’m emotionally unprepared. ~

Disclaimer: photo taken from #Seventeen 4th Mini Album “Al1” Naver x Dispatch

The first time they met was at a train station, exactly one mile from his house. The big suitcases and bags, stacked in an enormous pile where they stood, made the two very noticeable late in the night.

It was a considerably large city and there were countless people, endless variety of faces he’d seen every day. But the moment Mingyu stole a glance at her face he had an odd feeling, unraveling in his stomach like butterflies, that he would not forget. She was tall. And she was standing tall, even with the heavy backpack on her back.

Traveler. Maybe. She had that tough, unfiltered look. Messy shoulder-length hair and there was that sparkle in her eyes.

Moving away. Too young.

Wanted criminal. Unlikely.

Runaway. Likely.

There were not many pretty girls running away from their cozy home in this city. And some to here. But he’d had the honor of seeing a few in his short lifespan and all of them always looked so proud, so determined, so sure of themselves. All standing straight despite the fact that their back and legs must be killing them. He liked them. He found something very endearing in the look in their eyes and the big wild dreams they had. But no, there was more. A little more in this girl, something in her gaze that told him differently. That her home was not cozy or that she didn’t have one, to begin with. Though that was all his imagination playing a trick on him, as one tended to when they stared at something for too long. Or someone.

She was maybe, possibly, just a little tougher than all those girls. And a little taller. A little prettier. It was her black ankle boots, her leather jacket tied around her waist, the green eyes focus steadily on the distance, waiting for her ride, the firmness of her cheekbones, the little scar just below her ear and the curl of her lips. And from this distance, she was unbreakable.

Oh you innocent soul, how little you think for you to be so quick to judge. Maybe he was bored, so late in the night with so little to do. That night and in life in general, he was bored. Because thing always went well for him. His schoolwork, his girlfriend, his social life. Everything always fell into places on their own. Kim Mingyu never had to try. Even the fact that he got into a college on the other side of the country required hardly any effort from him. Even his face required no effort. And so it was him and his mind alone, making up scenarios, judging others, a little here and a little there. He kept his time occupied and his mind too, anything to keep him from going insane in this big city that seemed so small to him. He had to leave. And so in the dark of the night, only five more minutes from then, he would.

Guess he was no exception either. He was no better than the rest for them for the sparkles in his eyes shone brighter than any hopeful souls. He could almost taste the freedom, bitter and sweet at the same time, but it would be the loveliest cut of them all.

And then, at the corner of his eyes, there it was, his ride to a place far far away from here. He checked his bag and suitcase, the rest had already been sent across the country. Strapping his backpack a little tighter to him, the self-confessed runaway took one last glance at the girl next to him, silent and distant from the dull laid before her. She was very pretty and he felt a little sorry that he was never going to see her again, an impulse, the inevitable lust of being eighteen.

But here it came and he had to be on his way, to end what had yet to start. At that moment, he did not know what had gotten into him, for he turned around and smiled at her. His charming, effortless smile he had used a million times.

“This is random. But I am running away, too,” he said.

And then he was on the train, the doors were closing and in one swift move, everything was out of sight, returning the quiet to the night as if nothing had been there before.

She must have thought Mingyu was crazy, and a little dim, but he couldn’t care less, he had so much more to look forward to. And for the girl, she had so much more to run away from than just a mere dull life. She stood there, silent as the night, thinking about that handsome smile.

The girl waited for her train to come.

Mingyu awoke to the happy chirping sound outside his window. The sun was exceptionally bright that morning, its ray boldly pierced through the glass, invading his bedroom, making his white sheet a little more blinding.

Oh right, today was Monday.

He hated Mondays. And he hated mornings. There was something about the beginning of a new day that deeply irritated him. But he was twenty-three and living alone. He had a job that started at nine. He couldn’t really afford to throw a tantrum at this age, nor this early in the morning.

And so he got up, brushed his teeth, got dressed and has the same breakfast he had every other day. He remembered when he was nineteen, taking his first step out of his comfort zone and going to live in another city across the country. Just a few years ago and the memory was so clearly, too. The feeling. Of freedom. Of starting things over. Getting all excited toward his new life as a new person. Getting all excited for nothing.

Duh.

Seriously, what exactly did he expect? That he would magically leave everything behind, his family, his friends, his girlfriend and had a fresh started. To end his dull life so easily. No, those things would follow him to his grave. He would have to call his girlfriend every night. Long distance is hard. And she made it even harder. The crying. The arguing over the phone at 2 A.M. The “I miss you” and “I’m sorry” and so on and so on. Oh dear God, make it stop. And of course, he would have to visit his family even holiday season. And they would all hug and kiss and say they missed him and start a fight right in front of him a few hours later. At the dining table. In the middle of the meal.

Fast forward a few years down the road and he was still visiting them. And they still fought over the pettiest things. Mingyu was single. And working a mediocre job. And alone. And unhappy.

And the worst part was he didn’t know where to start with the mess he found himself in. And then, an image flashed across his mind. Red lips, green eyes, firm cheekbones. Standing tall at the train station that night.

He smiled to himself.

He hadn’t thought of her in a while.

Sure, he knew nothing about the girl. She could be a serial killer for all he cared. But the way she looked so tough, so unbreakable. It made him think. It made him wanted to think about the invulnerability and the strength in her gaze and made up pretend scenarios.

She may be the exact opposite of the wildness he had assumed of her. She was nothing but a fleeting image he once cast eyes on and he knew nothing. She was an idea.

But a perfect one. Made up from his excruciating craving for freedom, along with years and years of boredom.

Snapping himself out of his fantasy, he picked up his bag and jacket and went to work.

It was unusual, even for her, to be ambushed and hunted down this early in the morning. She groaned in frustration, awaken by the merciless banging on her door. Well, not exactly her door. She didn’t even know whose place it was, even if she had been sober enough the night before. But then again, she never actually knew where she was and never learned to. She hadn’t paid her rent for months now, though the act was completely redundant considering the fact that she never spent more than three hours there. The landlord must have rented it to somebody else already, cursing her name for running away with the money she was supposed to give away.

The shouting and aggressive knocking resulted in one of the worst headaches she had ever had for years and a healthy dose of displeasing. Healthy enough to make her get up, grab her backpack and dashed for the emergency exit.

The truth was she didn’t know what was going on behind those doors. Or whether it had anything to do with her. It could easily be someone coming for her friend, who supposedly owned the place for the time being.

“Open the fucking door, we know you’re in there.” Okay, maybe they were coming for him (or her) in a not quite friendly way.

She was fast to climb downstairs to make her getaway. Just a few more steps. Her feet and hands quickly brought her down from the building’s twelveth floor. Her hair messy, unbrushed and untucked. Her eyes sparked a wicked shade of green and a dash of adrenaline.

Quickly, little girl.

The wolves are coming for you.

But before her feet touched the ground and the safe and sound, she was faced with two men in police uniform, their face stern, giving nothing away. One of them said in their ever so robotic voice, “Miss Anderson.”

In the corner of her eyes, she spotted her friend whose name she didn’t recall, only his face, running for his life, followed by the men cursing loudly. They must have been those people banging on his doors earlier. So much for making her escape.

Then there was a crashing sound and both the two officers in front of her whipped their heads around to see what was going on.

Big mistake. Once you have her, don’t ever think the game was over. Let her out of your sight and she would slip right through your fingers.

And indeed, for as soon as they tore their stare away from her, she ran. Into the street, around the building, through the fences, and into the suffocating crowd in the subway station. And on went their chase.

~ Zee

———END of part 1———

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8 questions tag~

hellooooo❁

well i was tagged by @king-hao​ and also i just wanted to do @strawberryboo​ ‘s questions bc i’m bored and she’s a damn gem so yayyyy i’m not gonna tag anyone tho

sister’s questions(✿◠‿◠)

1. What is your favorite kpop choreography? i legit wrote an article abt this soooooooo yeah i was struggling.... but then i remember that nct dream’s my first and last happened and if you think that isn’t THE best choreo you’re a fool... consider that the dance moves never repeat except for a single move at the end of the chorus. not to mention the moves are very rigorous too thanks to the extensive floor work. also the fact that there are an even number of members (comeback jaemin) the formations are even more tricky... bye i could talk abt this for 700 years

2. What MV is the most aesthetically pleasing to you? (not necessarily your favorite MV, just which one matches your aesthetic the most) uhhhhhh what even hmmmm i’ll say check in by svt’s hip hop unit actually bc i really like traveling and also wonwoo’s face:3 (and luna’s free somebody but what’s new) oh shoot also all the loona mv’s ahhh the one i like aesthetically best is probably choerry’s love cherry motion tho edit: shoottttttt i forgot fri.sat.sun by dalshabet a true fave

3. Literally just write a paragraph about your ultimate bias. Here’s your chance to rant about ur fave bye you fool you asked for this AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH well for starters if you don’t know... jeon wonwoo is the actual love of my life. for so many reasons he has become and remained my bias for about a year and a half which doesn’t seem long but he has been my only ult bias! usually i make fun of him but to be honest he is one of the most sweet and caring people i’ve ever seen. he may tease his members and make dumb comments but that’s really the only way he can express his affection. he’s very shy and he’s said without svt he wouldn’t have been friends w the members bc he is introverted. but he’s so grateful to be able to be so close w the boys my heart. he’s also such a huge dork which i love. as a fellow dork i support. i love how he’s so smart and witty and always has the best comebacks. i love how he gets so invested in books that he was ready to actually fight soonyoung for throwing his book once akhgfkal. he’s such a soft boy also like can you imagine him w a tiny kitten?? he’s afraid of dogs (like a damn dork) but w a kitten he’d be so careful holding it and loving cry. also i want to protect and care for him so much he has so many physical ailments like wonu how are you still in one piece but he stays strong for his members and for carats♡ wow dude i didn’t even yell i must be in a soft mood tonight hmmm

4. When did your bias look the softest? (include photo evidence if u have it) i mean wonwoo is soft 24/7 like i’m p sure his “style” is just comfy okay but basically all of pretty u era was just the SOFTEST honestly wonwoo invented soft mhmmmm like sweater paws ??? all ? the ? time ????? iconic

if i had to choose tho...

but any nose crinkles are verified the softest™

(creds)

5. What kpop merchandise do you own? (if any) well not a whole lot sister buys a lot of albums but i have some photo cards and posters from her and other friends:D when we went to LA tho we bought a lot of kpop stuff but i guess i only got some postcards and a poster hmmmm but @strawberryboo​ hAS SENT ME FOUR BEAUTIFUL KEYCHAINS WHICH I LOVE W MY WHOLE HORT THAT SHE MADE W HER OWN TWO HANDS WHAT KIND OF LEGEND (my keys are very heavy but it’s definitely worth it)

6. What August debut or comeback are you most excited for? well the main reason i’m finally doing this is bc august is tomorrow oops oh shoot technically it’s in two hours h e l p and this question is illegal bc literally so many faves are coming back i can’t even remember them all... i know for sure snsd, gfriend, samuel, n.flying, wanna one, weki meki, nu’est, boyfriend uhh ofc day6 and loona uhhhhhhhhh shoot i know there’s more fuck and i would say nct dream is who i’m most excited for but technically they haven’t announced it yet so...

7. Of your favorite groups, which one do you think has the prettiest lightstick? hmmmmm i may be biased... but seventeen’s is so pretty... i like monsta x’s too and vixx’s.... apink’s and got7′s are cute too... but carat bong has my heart

8. Of your favorite groups, which one do you think has the best fandom name? i mean again... biased... carat is so frickin cute bye~ but monbebe, honey10 and tinkerbell are also very cute! and i should mention that i didn’t really like NCTzen at first but them being excited abt it made me love it:)

emma’s questions(✿◠‿◠)

1. Ok so I’m gonna steal one of the questions that Mir answered in hers and its is if you could have any idols hairstyle past or present whose would you choose? bye i already did this lol but i’ll add taeyeon’s hair in why promotions and luna in this look:

byeeeee (i think creds to © No.91812 ? but there’s no credit:( (y’all don’t steal shit from fansites pls))

2. If you could take your bias group or just your bias and put them into another universe i.e. wizarding world or similar what world would you but them in? And why? okay i’m gonna copy sister and say ATLA too just bc i want to go there tbh~~~ i feel like wonu and i would be two average peeps tho w/o bending... unless i can maybe see wonu as a fire bender but he only uses it for dumb things like heating up his tea dfhlalfkjdaf oh shoot it’s bias group hmmmm well they will be our children i guess idk it’s late no it’s not it’s only 10:20 who am i anymore

3. Fave idol outfit? doesn’t have to be your bias just any outfit you’ve liked! Provide pictures if you want! i’ve really liked all of chungha’s outfits in why don’t you know promotions they’ve all been so summery kaflhjadskj also seohyun’s looks in don’t say no like destroy me and all of mamamoo’s you’re the best looks were iconic bye and ofccccccc luna in free somebody my all time fave ever

(i got this poster in LA and i’m still screaming)

i said ‘all’ so many times wow but i was gonna do boy groups too but it’s fine

4. Favorite fancams? Im a fancam ho I need recs plx. wellll i don’t watch a lot of fancams tbh but i think i have a couple faves? (oops they’re all my biases too but it’s fine)

wonwoo was so damn soft another soft time and also one of my favorite outfits eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i just love this

dowoon is so dang cute he’s having such a good time and also thE END WATCH THE END YOU WILL NOT REGRET HE MAKES ME SO SOFT A TRUE BEAN

this one doesn’t need an explanation just that it’s illegal... but i do wish they hadn’t cut up the footage so much

5. What are your favorite girl group non title songs, if you don’t have any what are your favorite gg mvs? hmmmmm i really like magic by seohyun, mojito by red velvet (happy 3 years every bunny), next page by twice, babyface by wjsn, u & me by hyuna (does that count she’s a soloist ah), all mine by f(x) uhhhh tbh i mostly listen to title tracks bc i’m lazy... i normally don’t listen to full albums unless it’s svt, nct or monsta x or astro or a couple others idk i listened to all of wjsn and red velvet’s new ones why am i even still talking i should delete this...

6. ok so this was a question Claudent made up in another 8 questions tag that I just love she a brilliant bean! But if you could create your own group drawing from all other groups regardless of companies who would you choose and what would there concept be? whale whale whale i’m gonna keep my last plans but add more boys i think : 99line w dancey rap boys such as nct mark lee! svt chan! sf9 hwiyoung! astro rocky! and i’ll add wanna one park woojin! now it’s an odd number which is perfect! i’d like to see them do smth fun and age appropriate:) maybe a refreshing song abt youth and friendship w awesome choreo:D

7. so you are going to a music festival and in this dream world you get to decide all the ppl/groups that are going to be there, who would you choose? It doesn’t just have to be Kpop! wahhhhhh how many groups can i pick i was thinking of adding some non kpop artists i really like but;;;;; honestly;;;; i mean i love the music but also if i could see kpop artists instead i’d like it a lot better? florence welsh might be my favorite musician ever ever but w all the other things kpop idols do i’d rather see them i think... soooooooo i’d choose ofc svt and nct as co-headliners w monsta x, astro, day6, sf9, wanna one, red velvet, twice, oh my girl and aoa !!!! like how good? also this concert would last so long bc they all need to perform like 5-10 songs bc i love them too much okay... oh damn it could be like a festival nd each night two groups perform yayyyy also i need the interactions™

8. If you could have any talent in the world what would you want it to be? I would want to be in anyway musically inclined rip me tbh. well everyone knows i’m a language ho so i would want to be able to speak at leasy five different languages akfhlas but idl if that’s really a talent... maybe i’d want to be able to write better? or draw that would be so cool~

[dreamycarat]

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Characters: Lee Jihoon, Hong Joshua Genre: idk slight angst maybe Words: 3410 words Summary: Joshua’s sudden leave from Seventeen surprises everyone.

“An angel, you are?” Jihoon mumbled alone, a pen in his hand, writing lyrics for Seventeen’s new song. Jihoon’s eyes kept blinking out of tiresome, realizing that he hadn’t slept in two days. It hit him right in the chest that he didn’t even go back to his dorm for almost a week up to the day, nor did he see his members. He literally locked himself up in the four walls of his not-so-small studio, producing some presents for the Carats. His beloved Carats.

Somehow, the lyrics seemed so wrong. So cheesy too. Jihoon sighed in frustration, running his fingers along his black hair before crumpling the paper full of his messy handwriting. He then threw the paper ball into the dustbin at the corner of the studio. Jihoon took out another piece of new paper, put it before his eyes and he put his head on the table. He was exhausted.

Jihoon’s iPhone 7 lighted up with a message popped up on his lockscreen. It was a message from Joshua. The 21-year-old man shrugged, not caring to read the message and he put his phone aside, making sure to turn it off beforehand. Jihoon glued his eyes on the blank paper and he exhaled sharply, feelings mixed with exhaustion and annoyance. He was extremely worn out and the fact that none of the lyrics made sense to him annoyed him to the core.

“ARGH!” He shouted in top of his voice. The thought of disappointing his members and Carats clouded his busy mind that he didn’t realize a knock coming from the door. Someone opened the door slightly, peeking from outside.

It was Joshua.

“Jihoon,” Joshua’s soft voice called his name. Jihoon immediately turned around with a frown pasted on his face.

“Yes?”

“You didn’t read my message?” The older man asked, leaning against the door frame. He had a luggage behind him - the one Vernon gave him as a Christmas present when they were still trainees.

Jihoon shrugged. “I’m in the middle of thinking. I don’t have time to read your message, hyung.” The tone of his voice screamed annoyance but he didn’t give a slight damn about it. ‘Joshua understands,’ he thought to himself. The man before him only nodded before plastering a small smile on his calm face, showing off his cat-like eyes. His eyes were his best features, according to Jihoon three years ago. But as time passed by, Jihoon realized that Joshua’s manners were indeed his best features. Joshua was somehow raised to be a true gentleman who constantly put on a smile while helping others. Not to mention that he always held back his anger - he was really good in it. An expert, indeed.

“Okay. I just-” Joshua paused. He seemed to take a deep breath. “Want to say goodbye.” His voice was laced with a hint of sadness but Jihoon let it off. The younger man nodded and turned away, trying to get back to work. Joshua was still holding the door knob, blinking a few times, wondering if this was the best decision he could make.

“I love you,” Joshua voiced out before shutting the door. It happened so fast that Jihoon couldn’t even make a face. But his heart was literally screaming, it felt like ripping apart without knowing why. However, Jihoon pushed the thought away and continued writing the lyrics.

He didn’t read Joshua’s message that day.

-

Seungcheol barged into Jihoon’s studio without even knocking, face as white as sheet, beads of cold sweat could be seen on his forehead. Jihoon turned around in slight surprise, asking why. The older man panted, putting his hand on his chest, catching his breath. Seungcheol seemed so restless - shocked, even.

“Joshua,” he muttered, chest heaved. “He left.” Jihoon told Seungcheol to reiterate, in case he was hearing it wrong. The leader of Seventeen put a hand in the air, as if telling Jihoon to wait as he paid off his oxygen debt. Jihoon guessed that Seungcheol ran all the way from their dorm to his studio, by looking at Seungcheol’s pyjamas.

“Hong Joshua left the group,” the handsome man stated.

“WhatsApp group?”

“No! Seventeen! He left Seventeen!” Jihoon stilled, trying to digest the words. Seconds later, a rush of adrenaline flowed, thousands of thoughts and questions surrounded his mind like dark clouds, eating him alive.

“What the hell?” Jihoon mumbled to himself. He focused on the tall man before him whose eyes were trembling with fears - to disappoint the fans and also the members. He pitied Seungcheol, knowing that later on, the older man would’ve to see the press and explain the hella confusing situation. He would be bombarded with millions of questions regarding to Joshua.

'Is it because of a fight between the members?’

'Does Pledis kick him out of Seventeen?’

'Is it because of health issues?’

'Did Joshua discuss it with you?’

'How are the members reacting to the news?’

'Are you still going to comeback in March?’

Jihoon could hear the questions at the back of his head, loud and clear. He could imagine Seungcheol with a fist under the table, surpressing his anger towards the heartless press. But he knew that Seungcheol would be very smart in answering the questions. The leader was trained for five long years to control the situation. He knew everything - what to answer and what not to answer.

But still… WHY?

Seungcheol informed that an urgent meeting between the members will be held in ten minutes at their dorm, thus he insisted Jihoon to go home. Jihoon was still dumbfounded. He couldn’t insist to stay, especially when the situation was extremely dangerous to them. And so Jihoon followed Seungcheol back to their dorm, where the other 10 members were already sitting in a big circle, impatiently waiting for them.

Jihoon immediately filled in the empty spot of the circle between Mingyu and Jun as Seungcheol locked the front door. Jeonghan sat opposite of Jihoon, serious as hell, not caring to at least greet Jihoon who had not been home for 6 days. The surrounding was silent but tensed. Even Seungkwan, the loudest member in the group kept silent, fingers playing with Vernon’s, lips forming a pout. Chan, on the other hand, was crying but Jihoon could see how hard the youngest man tried to hold back his tears. His sobs were slow but heavy. Minghao helped to wipe those tears away. As soon as Seungcheol completed the big circle, he asked in his stern voice, “Does anyone know anything?”

Silence.

Mingyu shrugged, saying, “Joshua hyung didn’t say anything when I asked him why was he packing his things up.” Jeonghan looked up to see Jihoon straight in his eyes and said, “Joshua said this is not our fault.” There was a hint of sarcasm in Jeonghan’s voice, as if he was telling Jihoon something indirectly.

“Perhaps you know something, Jihoon?”

Jihoon furrowed his eyebrows at Jeonghan, fingers unknowingly curled into a fist before Jun slowly wrapped his fingers around Jihoon’s and uncurled his fist. “I know nothing,” Jihoon replied, trying to stay calm, when all eyes were on him. “I am in the studio all the time. How the hell would I freaking know about anything?”

“If Joshua is still here, he would’ve reminded you of your language, Jihoon,” Soonyoung remarked. “We are not here to blame anyone, guys,” Seungcheol reminded them before a sigh escaped his lips. Jihoon bit his lower lip. Minghao then asked, “Is this permanent? I mean, he really left? Forever?”

“We don’t know yet,” Mingyu answered. Wonwoo ran his fingers along his hair in slight frustration, though he didn’t seem to say anything about the situation. Jihoon’s eyes narrowed the moment Seungcheol’s phone rang. Everyone’s eyes landed on the leader, who quickly slided his index figer along the green button, answering the call. Jihoon’s heart beat so fast that he could actually hear it in his two ears.

“Yes, our manager told us about that,” Seungcheol said. He mouthed 'CEO’ to the members as he replied, “Nothing is wrong, sir. No. No. There’s no such things. We don’t fight.” The other members exchanged glances on each other, wondering, still puzzled of the situation. Seungcheol seemed to listen to their CEO’s so-called explanation as he nodded and mouthed 'Yes, sir’ over and over again. Jun once again wrapped his fingers around Jihoon’s, slightly caressing the soft hand as if he was telling Jihoon that it would be fine. Joshua would be okay.

“I’m sorry you have to face this situation,” Jun whispered. Jihoon turned to his left to take a closer look at the Chinese man’s handsome face and he nodded. “It’s fine.” “No, it’s not fine. You are already so stressed out from composing our songs. You shouldn’t have been pulled into this problem.” The shorter man shook his head and replied softly, “I am a part of the group, Jun. Of course I should-” his words were cut off when Seungcheol finally hung up.

“Joshua met the CEO last week. He said that he needed time to think.” Seungcheol took a deep breath, pausing, and Seokmin asked, “Think of what?”

“I don’t know, dude. Maybe you annoyed him to death,” Vernon attempted a joke. Seokmin glared the younger man and said, “He was voted as the most annoying member in Seventeen, if you forget.”

“Stop it, kids. We are not going to argue about this. We are here to find a solution. Explanation, maybe. Anyway, Joshua said that he would be meditating for a long long time. There are things that bothered him so much. And he would appreciate it if we stop communicating with him in any ways.” Seungcheol took a pause and added, “Just until he is fine.”

“How do we know that he is fine?” Chan asked.

“Is he still in Korea?” Seungkwan asked. Seungcheol shook his head. “He took a plane to L.A a few hours ago.”

“I can’t believe he just left without saying anything to us. Not even a goodbye,” Mingyu whined, pouting. Jihoon stilled. “He what?” Mingyu turned to Jihoon and asked, “What?”

“He didn’t say goodbye?” Jihoon asked, wanting to make sure he heard it right. The tallest member im the group nodded.

“What the hell…” Jihoon muttered, closing his eyes. He cursed under his breath before saying, “Joshua came to see me this morning. With a luggage. He said goodbye. But… That’s it.”

“What’s your point, Jihoon?” Jeonghan furrowed his eyebrows. “The point is, Joshua came to see me. To say goodbye.”

“Okay, wait-” Soonyoung said, “Who was in the dorm when Joshua left?” Everyone looked at each other and at the same time, they glued their eyes on Mingyu. “What? I saw him packing but then I went to get my morning coffee.” Minghao asked, “Then?” “Then, I went to our practice room, obviously.”

“So, Jihoon is the last person to see Joshua,” Jeonghan stated as a matter-of-fact. Jihoon sucked in more air. Something then hit him right in the chest. The message. Jihoon’s hands roamed along his pockets, trying to find his phone. Damn. He left his phone in the studio.

-

Jihoon spent the night at the dorm, not sleeping, but thinking. He couldn’t stop wondering about the message. He was calculating the possibilities that he was the one who made Joshua leave. If he were to list down all the things he did to the elder man, the list would be endless. Most of the things would be making a face when Joshua talked to him unknowingly. It wasn’t exactly a hobby but he couldn’t help but to only focus on his work. He didn’t really like it when Joshua randomly popped out of nowhere and invited him to dinner and lunch and breakfast. Joshua had always been there, annoying him- or taking care of him, to be exact, but in an annoying way. He would make sure Jihoon had his meal right on time, never muttered profanities out loud and always slept on time. Joshua was always there, until a week ago.

Jihoon remembered the day Joshua started acting all weird and odd around him, avoiding him in any ways. They didn’t fight the day before. Jihoon never knew why. He didn’t even bother to ask since he was secretly enjoying the time he had to himself. He was quite selfish, he realized. He only cared about himself and his work and nothing else.

But oh, Jihoon remembered something. He was quite drunk the night before Joshua stopped caring about him. He remembered being all tensed up and Joshua brought him a bottle of soju, his favorite alcohol. Joshua didn’t drink, literally. And Jihoon knew he muttered something bad. Maybe curses. Or maybe he said that Joshua was annoying.

Oh God.

-

Joshua’s message was simple yet complicated. “I love you so much that it hurts.” Jihoon could hear Joshua’s soft voice at the back of his head. He tried to understand the words but he couldn’t. Why would it hurt? Why would loving your friend hurt? It didn’t make any sense at all. Jihoon couldn’t come out with anything.

“Hey, you wanna lunch?” Vernon asked, startling Jihoon. The shorter guy literally jumped out of his seat, holding his phone close to his chest. “Seriously, Vernon? I could’ve died because of hesrt attack!” The Korean-American man shrugged, “I knocked, okay.” Jihoon let out a sigh before nodding, following Vernon and the others to a 'gopchang’ restaurant.

Jihoon stood in front of the entrance, eyes glued to the signboard. Gopchang Restaurant. Joshua. He remembered forgetting Joshua in November when he had dinner with the vocal unit. Joshua talked about that with his sad eyes in Yang and Nam Show.

Jihoon took a deep breath.

“Come on, hyung!” Seungkwan pulled Jihoon into the restaurant. They settled in a table at the corner of the restaurant, greeted by Kyungsoo’s sweet voice singing For Life, EXO’s new song. The young men exchanged glances on each other and without a cue, they played rock, paper and scissors to talk to the owner and change the song. It was a usual thing to do for them - shamelessly asking the owner of the restaurant to play their song in the restaurant.

Seungkwan and Vernon held out a rock, Jihoon forcefully made a paper and Seungcheol made the scissors sign. No loser. Again. This time, everyone but Jihoon held out a paper as Jihoon made a rock sign. He puffed his cheeks annoyingly and pouted when his three friends happily beamed and cheered for him.

“Go talk to the owner, Jihoon.” Slowly, Jihoon made his way to the counter and asked to see the owner. The young girl standing before him seemed to be knowing him as her lips curled into a big smile, eyes not even blinking, nodding. But she stood there, frozen.

“Ehem,” Jihoon faked a cough and the girl quickly apologized and called the owner of the restaurant. An old woman with grey hair tied up in a bun walked out of the kitchen, smiling at Jihoon.

“Hi, I am from a group called Seventeen. Um, is it possible for you to play our song in the restaurant?” The old woman’s smile became bigger as she nodded. “Of course, young man.”

When Jihoon finally reached his members, he could hear 'Don’t Listen Secretly’ by the Vocal unit. Joshua’s soft voice started the song and his first line hit him hard.

“We grow further these days.”

Jihoon gulped. It felt as if Joshua’s words were slicing his heart open, slitting it mercilessly that Jihoon had to clutch his chest. His breathings were uneven, not that he cared but deep down inside, he couldn’t deny the fact that he kind of missed Joshua.

“I feel you, Jihoon,” Seungcheol said, putting a hand on the younger man’s shoulder, trying to console Jihoon. Seungcheol knew Jihoon was trying so hard to adapt to the situation. Being in charge of producing the songs, it would’ve been so frustrating for Jihoon to actually focus on his work, not when his person - Joshua - was gone.

“We just have to give him some space, I guess,” Vernon added with a sigh. Their smiles literally faded away, replaced with a frown and a permanent scar in their heart. A scar that would always remind them of the pain to lose someone they loved, even when losing Joshua could be temporary. Could…

-

February had arrived even though Jihoon begged for the time to stop. He couldn’t focus on his work. The CEO had already scolded him for postponing the recording of their main song and also vocal unit’s song but he didn’t give a slight damn about it. He believed that Joshua would be back. He knew that Joshua would appear one day, looking fine as hell, smiling with his cat-like eyes and wanted to participate in this comeback. Of course, he was Hong Joshua. He was a part of Seventeen after all. It took 13 people to complete the group. 13, including Joshua. This was where he needed to be. Not in L.A. But here, in Korea, performing in front of their fans. This was his home.

And Jihoon was right. For the first time in what he felt like years, he was right.

Joshua came home.

He was clad in the long-sleeve shirt Jihoon gave him as a birthday present and a pair of his favorite jeans, hair swiped up like how Jihoon loved, sitting on the chair, strumming the guitar smoothly as if he had no problem in this world. The corner of his lips curved upwards, head bobbing up and down slightly when Jihoon’s small figure appeared in the reflection of the mirror.

Jihoon blinked. He stilled. He literally stopped breathing because the sight of Joshua in front of him took his breath away. He missed his brother so much. But he was also mad, realizing how Joshua just turned up in front of him with a freaking smile without a notice, as if he did nothing wrong. As if he never tortured the 12 men mentally for a month.

But, anyway, Joshua came home.

-

“Why?” It was the first word that came out of Jihoon’s mouth. The question was amazingly short, compared to the amount of curiosity he had inside. His emotions were overflowing that he couldn’t differentiate whether he was actually mad or sad or happy.

Joshua looked at the younger man straight in his eyes, not blinking. The smile he put on his face earlier eventually disappeared, lips forming a straight line. A sigh escaped his lips, heart heavy, not wanting to answer the question.

“Why?” Jihoon repeated his question, louder this time. Joshua turned away. This was not how he wanted to be greeted by Jihoon, not after all the sessions with his psycologist.

“Joshua…” Jihoon whimpered. His chest felt like bursting and if Joshua didn’t say anything this time, it could actually blow up. His heart would explode out of anger and curiosity and when the time came, Jihoon knew that he wouldn’t be able to forgive Joshua. The silent treatment he was receiving was disturbing him so much.

“I couldn’t,” Joshua finally spoke, “You were a distraction.” Jihoon was taken aback. “You- I liked you a lot, Jihoon. Not as a friend. But more… I liked you more than the others. And it was disturbing me because I was afraid that this could lead me into a path full of sins. And so I had to go. I had to find a cure to this stupid feeling before it consumed me. I had to because I needed to be straight. And I have been seeing a psycologist and also a councellor and now, I’m here, right in front of you. I am home. And I am fine as heck.”

Jihoon was speechless.

“I am perfectly straight now, in case you’re afraid of me.” Jihoon stood there, frozen, dumbfounded. He didn’t know what to say. He wasn’t afraid of Joshua. He was just surprised. “Okay, you know what, forget about it. Pretend as if I said nothing. Gosh. This is so awkward.”

“Okay.”

Jihoon opened his mouth to say something but then he paused and eventually closed it again. Jihoon closed his eyes for a moment. He took a few deep breaths.

Joshua came home. The group was now complete.

“Perhaps you wanna record the songs tonight?”

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Note: This is a sin oh god I did not just write that omg. I am not into yaoi at all. I am also very straight. Oh Gosh. Anyway, Shua is currently wrecking my bias list. All of the members are bias wreckers tho.

[khottiesofkchatjjigae]

KCON is pretty much all any of us here at Kchat Jjigae can talk about right now since we’re all descending on LA next weekend for the big event.  This will be my first time to attend LA (and the last time I was in the city I was 8 years old, which was a loooooong time ago).  I was having a hard time deciding who from the lineup would feature as this week’s Khottie and so I bounced my ideas off SaraG who basically told me not to choose.  Brilliant!  Khotties of KCON it is!

Who here saw the problem before I did?  First, there are 93 (yes, I counted) individual idols coming. They’re all gorgeous, and I can’t choose all of them.  Instead of choosing from my initial two options, I have to pick a handful of somebodies from this crowd!  /sighs and pulls up her boots.  The only way is forward.

Let’s start with ASTRO!  Since I covered Eunwoo for my 2016 year end wrap up post, I get to pick somebody else!  And thankfully, over the last few months I’ve had MJ threatening to take Eunwoo’s place in my heart.  Despite being the oldest, MJ may be the beagle-iest in the group. While I don’t normally care for the noisy types,  it’s hard to resist his power vocals and the gorgeous shape of his eyes.

Next, Cosmic Girls (WJSN)!  One of my favorite girl group songs and videos of last year was Secret, with I Wish not far behind.  Space cars! Wolf shaman! Pagan priestesses!  I have no idea whats going on, but I am delighted by the whole thing.

I would like to apologize to anyone I made fun of for being overwhelmed by Seventeen’s thirteen members.  When confronted with the same number of idols in WJSN, I feel like there are at least 20 of them.  With this many members, I feel like you should be allowed to choose several biases, but I’m going to be mean to myself and and pick just one.  And since she’s the one I went “Oooo!” to first, I’m going to go with the pretty wolf shaman girl, Yeoreum.  She is one of the rappers and subvocals and my eye just always goes to her Girl’s Day was one of the very first girl groups I got into. I looooved Female President and the girl who caught my eye in that video was Hyeri.  She’s a great dancer and there is just something about her that makes me not want to look away.My love for her since then has grown with her roles in Reply 1988 and The Entertainer (with my boo, LJoe).  I’m pretty excited I get the chance to see her, and the rest of Girl’s Day who I also love, in person.

Wooo!  I don’t have to sulk!  The freedom to bend the rules for these themed posts lets me post whatever I want about GOT7’s BamBam.And “whatever I want” is to wax poetic about his gorgeous lips and the perfect little mole under his left eye.  He was quite the wild child the last time I saw them live, so I am curious what my naughty Bam will do at KCON.  I squeed when I heard the Heize was going to be appearing at KCON.  I think she may be one of the coolest female artists out there right now.  She has a wide array of styles and I’m excited to see what she performs.

Even though my favorite member of KARD is actually J.seph, I decided to pick one of the girls, Somin, because it’s gonna get pretty testosterone heavy from here on out.

Somin looks like a classic Hollywood actress to me.  So classy.

NCT is one of my bias groups.  I’m almost incapable of making a choice here, but Japanese member, Yuta, looks especially yummy this comeback.I am a sucker for a collar.  Bless SM for using them so often as fashion accessories.Lordy, Seventeen…  One of my other favorites.  I’ve covered Woozi in my Pocket Idols post. And Wonwoo in my 2016 round up.  Until recently, I didn’t really have a super bias in this group.  But then this happened.

I had been trying to convince myself that maybe my SVT bias was S.Coups, then one day, The8 stepped into the frame and I gasped and put my hand on my heart.  Well, I guess that decides that.  I promise we will be very happy together.

Y’all have been paying attention to SF9, right?  I already covered Zuho, sexy nosed rapper, and Youngbin, their leader.  Since sexy eyes seem to be a theme thats developing here, I think Inseong will fit in perfectly.Instead of a beagle, Inseong is the group’s Fennic Fox.  He and the rest of SF9 are coming for your hearts.There is no way I’m not going to post pictures of both Donghae and Eunhyuk.  Donghae is one of my early drama biases.  I discovered him before I learned to love Super Junior.I love boys in eyeliner and Eunhyuk does it better than anyone else.  I hope he dances for us at Kcon.

I’m going to go with the easy route with Vixx and choose Leo.

I was lucky enough to get a hi-touch with them at Toronto KCon.  The pictures do not do him justice. He is otherworldly beautiful in person.

I couldn’t watch this season’s Produce 101 because I am too tender-hearted.  You know me well enough by now, I love the babies.  It kills me that they can’t all succeed. And cutting 101 trainees down to 11 is like a mass slaughter.  So, I don’t know any of Wanna One except Minhyun (because I’ve been a Nu’est fan for a while).

Because of that, I picked my Wanna One hottie based entirely on how pretty his eyes are and the shape of his lips.  Turns out Jisung is also the oldest at 26.  I’ve really enjoyed Wanna One’s videos, so I’m excited to see this group perform. I wonder if my bias will stay Jisung or change? Finally, we also get a little bit of Oh My Girl.  Seriously, KCON LA chose their girl groups well this year because this is another group where I enjoy a bunch of their stuff.

I don’t have a particular favorite in Oh My Girl, but I have always enjoyed Binnie’s fresh girl next door look, so she’s who got my vote.  Isn’t she pretty? 

Have you seen Kim Tae Woo’s new video and song?  So summery!

Gosh, this thing is huge!  A gift for you guys just in case we don’t manage to put one together for next weekend.  Stephanie thinks we can do it. I’m thinking we will probably be too busy.  Keep your fingers crossed and I hope we get a chance to see some of you in LA!