#I feel numb I feel sick

[mfjenks]

season 4 in nutshell (IT'S BEEN JUST 2 EPISODES HELP)

yes, I know what the show I'm watching and love it for this, BUT HEY PLEASE STOP I WANNA KMS YOU SAID IT WOULD BE FUN

[simarcana]

Yesterday I was thinking about something "dumb" but I'm posting it anyway: no one is here on Simblr TO make content. We're here to have fun, post what we like and most importantly WHEN we like and feel like doing it. Some users worry about notes on their posts, or rush to fill up their queues. It's not a job and it's not tiktok! The simblr community is a comfort zone. Take care of yourself darlings, the world is such an exhausting place already and you deserve some rest at least in your free time!

[u3pxx]

i want to have the time and energy again to draw more complicated illustrations. i want to draw drawings within drawings. i want to spend hours on carefully inking, i want to enjoy the rendering process. i want to go bonkers on a piece. hello, can anyone hear m

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

It’s been a rollercoaster of unfortunate events. I don’t feel like a person. I just want to sleep.

[halinski]

rant in tags about perscription medication and withdrawals

continued here bc i reached tag limit and i'm still??

it's kinda scary tbh

like i was scared for years now of what would happen off my meds and

when i tried tapering off my antidepressants oof i was breaking down every day and now i /know/ i'm dependant on them and idk if that's better or worse

and with the antipsychotics it's like i thought they were helping my depression too bc when tapering off i was also so panicked and depressed (tho my situation is kinda stressful rn)

but idk i've been trying meds on and off for half my life now and most of the time i'm like 🤷

but the truth is

it's fucking scary how it messes with your body

it's fucking scary when you're dependant on a pill

OR ALSO

when pills fuck your body up to the point you can only eat one thing

bc that's the reason i'm going off the antipsychotics and guess what, i'm able to eat more again now

idk if it's just in combination with the hormon pill tbh i'm just going off both now and we'll see how my iron levels and migrains deal lmao

i feel like i can't think straight anymore

gonna have to get new docs anyway so we'll see what they say if(/when) i go anemic again or if going off the antipsychotics will actually fix the issue??

if so, then it'll be like how did this sneak up on me, i've been taking them for 2.5 years like

??

and now i've lost 20lbs despite trying everything to maintain or gain some the past year and a half and i'm at my lowest weight since i was like a preteen lol

and that's all bc of a med that didn't feel like it had an acute effect

or maybe i'm so removed from my body i didn't notice until i got the acute gastritis ??

i mean i can't even be sure its the meds or not until i'm off

and tapering the rest off is gonna be so fun fuck

i dont wanna

i wanna be able to eat more than bread i guess but at this point the thought just scares me and like i associate it with pain and nausea

which as long as i can manage it is fine

but i've only tapered off half, i still have to taper off the other half of the dosage 😭

and with the hormon pill gone again the worst menstrual pain will be back and idk how to manage that, i guess hopefully with the meds gone i won't go anemic again but who knows at this point??

also praying my migraines don't come back but uh... i am pessimistic. i don't have much hope

anyway

moral of the story.....

ALWAYS MAKE SURE TO TAPER OFF YOUR MEDS KIDS BC EVEN JUST TAPERING IS SCARY AND GOING COLD CHICKEN IS PROBABLY HELL

doctors can be annoying (and make things harder, like in my case bc i literally asked if it could be my current meds MONTHS ago, and everyone was like noooooo but guess who was RIGHT) sometimes BUUUUT you should listen to them avout certain things

like

tapering off meds

[skwivr]

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[jvzebel-x]

[auphelia]

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[drivemysoul]

please keep yourselves safe. please. and i love you all so so fucking much.

[alaskan-wallflower]

(vent in the tags and under the cut. don’t read if you don’t want.)

sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. there’s just no point anymore tbh.

[agentcherricola]

venting in the tags real quick bc it’s 2016 again

[deprixpainsblog]

I feel um i feel

nothing

[thehauntedp0et]

Tonight, my head is a war zone and I don’t know where to step.

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Sometimes I get so unbelievably anxious

I can’t think

I forget to breathe

Everything is too much and not enough all at once

I feel trapped in my body

Just me and my relentless thoughts

There is no getting away from my mind

My hands start getting clammy and my friend is speaking but all I hear is the erratic beat of my heart in my ear

BuM BuM BuM

I try to listen

I try so hard

But then my stomach gets queasy

And I ask random questions about the last thing that came out of her mouth

so she thinks im invested

I nod my head but I’m not listening

I go right back to the monstrosity of my head

And I feel myself going on overload

I see my hands are shaking but I don’t feel them at all

I think I might puke

don’t puke don’t puke don’t puke

The anxiety gets so bad I can’t move

I’m staring at a wall and my legs are shaking

And I see nothing

And I feel nothing

But the overwhelming sense of impending doom.

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

There isn’t enough space in the world for me to retreat to.

[tamarieatsbatteries175]

Nature is healing <- is feeling a lot better now ::] yayyyyyy

[dollc0llector]

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