#I feel let down

[doesnotloveyou]

if martin sheen died you nerds would tell me, right? Right?

CUZ NONE YALL TOLD ME JAMES EARL JONES DIED. I HAD TO FIND OUT FROM AN AD

[canonkiller]

but you can't keep holding on like this.

[myheartxmyman]

Sometimes loving you feels like living in the past.

Or like being in love with a ghost.

You look the same, but you aren't. It's just a shell.

Still I hold on, I can't let go.

Even on the days when I look at you and I see a familiar stranger.

Holding on gets harder and harder.

Looking at the face of the man I love and asking myself 'who are you', wondering if I'll ever feel connected and at ease, secure with you, safe to trust you without hesitation or second thoughts, it diminishes my hopes of finding back to 'my man'

[hinamie]

make it vicious, take a stab

[chloesimaginationthings]

I know Vanessa regret saying this in the FNAF movie,,

[bigfatbreak]

Birds of a Feather previous / next

[thebrainrotsreal]

Drew this real quick because I fucking love these two so much ???? Especially Bee. I wish they interacted more so badly. PLEASE.

Also learning how to draw these guys.. slowly.

[introspectivememories]

was it casual when i sat in your lap in public? was it casual when i said "recently my heart is crying because you're leaving"? was it casual when we decided how your last name would fit with mine? ("yuki tsunoda-gasly" / "no tsunoda, only gasly" / "yuki gasly?") was it casual when we sang adele's "someone like you" together at your going away party? was it casual when i knew it was you just by touching your ass? was it casual when i knew it was you by smell alone? was it casual when "will you miss me?" / "for 2-3 minutes maybe" / "i'll take that. even if it's just 2-3 minutes, i'll take that"? was it casual when that bus was completely empty and we still sat right next to each other, all the way in the back? was it casual when i picked you up multiple times so you could dunk a basketball? was it casual when i begged to come over to your house multiple time and then you finally let me and we cooked fried rice together? was it casual when we played christmas twister together and i said "your big eggplant is touching my ass"? was it casual when we were pressed up against each other on a scooter going two miles per hour? was it casual when-

[puppyeared]

horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago

[inkskinned]

there are a lot of posts out there that are positive and healthy coping mechanisms for handling the holidays. this is not one of them :)

i think there's like. going to be times in your life you will be stuck in a social situation that you cannot escape from gracefully. i do not know why the internet doesn't believe these times exist. it's not always just that your physical safety is at risk - sometimes it's legit like "i just don't currently have the energy or time to put in the effort of responding to this." sometimes it's a coworker you hate so much. sometimes it's just like, fine, you know? like you know you can handle your aunt when she's cheerily horrible, but if you actually set a boundary around her, it's going to be weeks of fallout with your father.

i don't know why people think the answer is always just "cut them out!" or "don't let them get away with that!" because ... the real world is tricky and complicated. i think kind of a lot of us have an internal "radiation poisoning" meter for certain people. like - i'm talking about the ones who are absolutely giving you gradual ick damage. like, you can handle them, but you'll be exhausted.

and yes. you absolutely should listen to your therapist and the good posts about handling others and set good boundaries and take care of yourself. prioritize peace.

HOWEVER :) ...... since im often in a situation with a Gradual Sense of Ick person i cannot just "cut out" of my life (without losing someone else precious to me) - i have sort of developed the most. maladaptive form of mischief possible. because like, if i'm going to have to listen to this shit again, i like to have a little bit of private fun with it.

now! again, i am physically safe, just mentally drained by this man. you should only do this with people you are not in danger with. which leads me to my suggestions for when your Unfortunate Acquaintance shows up and says oh everyone pay attention to me.

my favorite word is "maybe!" said as brightly and happily as possible. whenever the Horrible Person starts in on a topic you do not want to go further with, particularly if they make a claim that you know to be inaccurate, do not respond to it. you and i have both tried to actually argue with this person, and it hasn't gone well, because this person just wants the drama of an argument. however, "maybe!" gives them literally nothing to go on. it is incredibly disarming. they are used to people having some response. they know they can't prove what they're saying, and maybe! treats them like the child they are. it dismisses them in the politest way possible.

i like to say maybe! and then, in their stunned silence, immediately change the subject. this is because i have adhd and i will have something unrelated to talk about, but if you can't think of topics fast enough, i recommend just pointing to something and saying, "isn't that lovely?" because fuck you let's bring in some positivity.

by the way. that second trick - of pointing to something and stating an opinion about it? - that just works on its own, like, 70% of the time. i picked it up from teaching preschoolers. it's an intentional "redirect". it stops children crying and it also stops grown adults from finishing their explanation on why women belong in kitchens. dual wielding!

keep it silly for yourself. i absolutely do not care if people think i'm fucking stupid (it's more fun if they do) and as a result i will purposefully misunderstand things just to see how long it takes them to realize i've completely removed them from the subject at hand. when they say "women aren't funny" i get to be like. "which women." "all women." "all women in america?" "no in the world." "like the mole people? the people in the world?" "what? no. like, alive." "oh are we not counting the mole people?" "what the fuck are you talking about." "you don't believe in the mole people?"

similarly, i play a personal game called "one up me." my Evil Acquaintance literally knows this game exists (my family & friends caught onto it and now also play it) and it always fucking gets him. i don't know why. you have to be willing to be a little free-spirited on this one, though. the trick is that when they make one of those horrible little bigoted or annoying comments they are always making, you need to go one unit weirder. not more intense, mind you - just more weird. "you don't look good in that dress." "yeah, actually, my other dress was covered in squid ink due to a mishap at the soup store." "you shouldn't wear such revealing clothes." "wait, what? oh shit. sorry, your son tears off strips when no one is looking and eats them. i swear it was longer before we left the building."

the point of "one up me" is to completely upend this person's narrative. we both know this person likes setting up situations where you cannot "win" and then they really like telling other people how badly you handled it. in a usual situation, if you respond "please don't say something that rude", you're a bitch. but if you let it happen, you're letting yourself be debased. they are not usually expecting door number three: unflappably odd. because what are they going to say when they're telling everyone how badly you behaved? "she said my son eats her dresses" ".... okay?"

if you can, form an allyship with someone whomst you can tagteam with. where they can pick up on your weird "soup store" story and run with it.

the following phrase is amazing and can be deployed for any situation: "oh, be nice :) it's the holidays!" i do not know why this works as often as it does. i'll say it for the most random shit. i think this is bc most of the time these people know they're being impolite, they just like to fight.

godbless. when in doubt, remember that you could always start stealing their pens.

the whole point of this is - if you can't escape. maybe see how long you can just be. like. a horrible little menace.

[oathkeeper-of-tarth]

Then all those years of building - were they worth anything? Yes - they're just hoping you don't realize it.

Rebecca Sugar going in for the kill with some sketches out of absolutely nowhere. Here's my best attempt at getting an okay-ish image out of a blurry vertical phone recording of a screen. Original video was posted on the official rebeccasugar account on TikTok - a big thank you to @jeejyboard for bringing it to my attention.

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 113

“I seem to have been taken hostage.” Batman’s words almost had Superman panic if not for the wry tone, a tone which the others didn’t know if their freaking out was to go by. Clark sighed through the comms, tired after battle and honestly wanting to go to bed now.

“I’ll be right over, what child has latched onto you now?” He asked while switching to a more private channel. 

“I can already hear you making fun of me…” Wha- Oh. Clark bit his lip to keep himself from laughing as he took to the air. “They appear to be a pair of twins with…” 

“You gotta’ say it Bruce, you gotta’,” Clark couldn’t stop the chuckle when he saw his friend on the top of a building, cape curled around his form in a way usually reserved for the robins. 

“... with dark hair… and blue eyes…” That was it. Clark absolutely lost it in laughter. 

[skylie-spiderlillis]

How did people got "a straight guy rejecting a gay guy" from "I can't answer you right now but we have forever to figure it out" Charles Rowland I'll never understand.

[myheartxmyman]

Du bist es Riehm schuldig? In vier Todestagen haben wir nicht einen wirklich miteinander verbracht... Ich kam mir sogar abgefickt vor. Im Stich gelassen. Konnte mir dann noch anhören, dass es meine Schuld ist.. Ich fühle mich null wie eine Priorität. Nicht unterstützt. Fühle mich nicht so, als wäre ich in einer Partnerschaft. In den letzten sieben Tagen hast du Riehm wesentlich öfters gesehen als mich. Scheint dir egal zu sein, oder eher sogar ganz Recht.. Du meintest gestern "ich hab morgen noch nichts vor", ich hab mich mal wieder dumm wie ich bin darauf eingestellt, dass wir was machen.

V: "komm ich danach dann zu dir?"

M: "Lass das gleich besprechen wenn Post, Lauffen und mein to do Punkt abgehakt sind."

Aus diesem Gespräch wurde ein "ich fahr jetzt zu Riehm, du kannst ja mit wenn du möchtest, bins ihm schuldig."

Wow...

Dann frag ich "mit wohin?", keine Antwort aber online...

Ehrlich gesagt finde ich, dass du mir was schuldig bist nach Dienstag und Mittwoch letzte Woche. Donnerstag war zwar auch alles andere als toll, allerdings habe ich mich selbst dafür entschieden. Zwar nicht ganz "freiwillig", weil ich wusste "entweder ich komm mit, oder wir sehen uns wieder nicht".

Und ich Depp hab grad wirklich geschaut wo Milky Chance nächstes Jahr Konzerte gibt. Duisburg, allerdings spielen dort auch deichkind, kontra k und einige Andere welche du nicht sonderlich magst... Australien, Neuseeland und Florida. "Australien und Neuseeland schon im Januar, zu früh um das nötige Geld anzusparen" war mein Gedanke. Also Florida... Ich hab nach Flügen geschaut, nach Hotels in der Nähe und nach den Festival Tickets. 12. April bis 14. April.

Ich wollte dir zwei Karten + zwei Flüge schenken & eine Unterkunft. Wollte dir die Wahl überlassen, mit wem du dorthin gehst. Wohlwissend, dass wir bis dahin eventuell kein "wir" mehr sind, oder besser gesagt noch weniger ein "wir" als jetzt. Wissend, dass du eventuell bis dahin sogar mit einer neuen Freundin dorthin gehen würdest.

Allerdings hat mich deine Nachricht, in welcher du mich mal wieder vor vollendete Tatsachen gestellt hast, obwohl wir meiner Meinung nach was geplant hatten, kalt erwischt. Hätte nicht gedacht, dass das nach den letzten Wochen noch möglich ist... Mein Herz bricht jeden Tag mehr. Wenn du "uns" bzw die Beziehung nicht mehr möchtest, warum beendest du sie dann nicht? Ich hab das Gefühl, du versuchst mich mit deinen Taten dazu zu bringen, die Beziehung zu beenden. Ich bin so verwirrt, so verletzt, verständnislos, fühl mich im Stich und allein gelassen, unwichtig, ungewollt. Es tut wirklich weh, und jede dieser Aktionen der letzten Wochen zerstört. Zerstört mich, zerstört was wir haben/hatten, zerstört mein Vertrauen in die Menschen generell, macht mich misstrauisch, zurück haltend, vorsichtig.

Mein erster Gedanke auf deine Sprachnachricht "morgen hab ich zum Beispiel noch nichts vor", war die Antwort "noch". Ich hätte es wissen sollen. In letzter Zeit hab ich zu oft anderen abgesagt, weil ich lieber mit dir sein wollte, am Ende saß ich alleine da. Wieder und wieder. I feel caged sometimes.

[nightthinker-08]

I couldn't sleep so I drew some Pomnies shes surprisingly fun to draw lol Oh and some doomed yuri too I guess xD buttonblossom is cute n all but calling them doomed yuri or digital yuri is a lot funnier to me

[backjustforberena]

I wonder if any of them knew it was all for her.