#I feel completely hollow
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There is an idea of a manic pixie dream cock—some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me—only an entity: something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shape my hand and feel flesh gripping yours—and maybe you can even sense that our lifestyles are probably comparable—I simply….am not….there.
#shitposting#fuckposting#live laugh love#status#american psycho#I feel completely hollow#I relate to Patrick Bateman#I feel so shallow inside it’s unbearable
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if you see a male character kiss a male character, you assume they are gay.
if you see a female character kiss a female character, you assume they are a lesbian.
if you hear a character say they don't feel like their gender, you assume they are trans.
so why do a-spec characters have to jump through so many loops?
a character saying they've never had a crush or don't want a relationship or that they don't understand romantic love is so often ignored or used as fodder for other queer or autistic headcanons (reinforcing stereotypes that aroace people are secretly gay or always autistic)
why is it that our stories are always "up to interpretation"? why do we have to wait for the words aromantic or asexual to be said to be taken seriously? why is it that even when characters say they don't want relationships, fans will scream and cry about sex/romance favourable aspecs and qprs?
when it comes to gay and trans characters, even the likes of bisexual lighting is often treated as though it canonises their sexuality. for aroace characters, even the most explicit coding possible is swept under the rug in favour of other "interpretations"
i'm so tired of fighting for representation just to have it ignored and minimised by fans. let characters be aroace. please.
#obviously there are a ton of circumstances where the qpr and sex/romance favourable is completely fine#but when characters explicity say they dont have sex or dont want relationships it feels so hollow#fandom is fandom and there is nothing i can do to stop you shipping or writing smut or headcanoning or whatever#but please just think it through. the characters aren't real but there are so many geniunely harmful ideas doing stuff like this reinforces#rhi rambles#aroace#aromantic#asexual#a-spec#a spec#aspec#aro#ace#aspec representation#asexual representation#aromantic representation#lgbtq+#queer
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ok, I am relatively new to this little fandom but I binged Cinderella boy and I'm just wondering... did everyone forget about that one part where buddy has this dream and he's in ragged clothes in a fancy manor house? Like, no wonder the man likes looking fancy. if that's Ex Libris and that's how they keep him, of course he likes looking good. maybe it's because he doesn't have the chance to otherwise?
also did everyone just forget that bit existed because I'm scrolling through and I'm seeing nothing on buddy seeing chase in the mirror, shattering the mirror, and jumping through. That was deeply impactful and yet I can't figure out what and i've been hyperfixtaing on that for a while now. Can you give me a rant about that bit because I know there's something up there I just cant figure out what, am I the only one who read that part?
This is so funny to me. I'm so happy you got into CB! And I'm so happy you enjoy it! But LMAO I think the Dreams episode broke tumblr--there were so many speculations and it's the basis for like 80% of our Buddy theories! (People analyzing the episode is what caused me to make a tumblr account in the first place, actually!)
(Which! Since you're new to the fandom, I can understand how it might look like we missed it, but I promise--this fandom soaks up Buddy content like it's water and we're in the Sahara)
So since it's a dream, we have to assume a lot of symbolism--we know the outfit Chase wore in his dream was a representation of himself (likely a nod to his repeated selfless, angellic actions, like trying to save Buddy or trying to save his mom), so we can assume the same for Buddy.
He's likely not actually dressed in rags--although we don't have that confirmed, but based off of Chase's fit--but it's possible that he ISNT dressed in the fancier outfit we saw him wear earlier. It's really likely, actually, although we shouldn't discount the possibility that Punko wanted him dressed so simply to reflect how dim/bare his situation is.
Someone (I cant remember who, but if anyone does know, PLEASE @ them bc this was life-changing) pointed out that if that's the case, then Violet would have been making outfits for Buddy the whole time, which would cement Buddy having a good relationship with his key well before Chase. We can assume Buddy has a good relationship with Violet anyway, since she makes him outfits he likes, but still.
The rags also serve another purpose: it reminds us that Buddy is ALSO a protag. That's what Chase realizes, in his dream, and it's what we have to keep in mind when we read the chapters. Buddy's not a side character, nor an antagonist. This is his story, too, and he's trying to secure his own happy ending, just like Chase.
(The title of the Webtoons is Cinderella Boy--and in that episode, between Chase and Buddy, only Buddy looks like Cinderella. Another nod to his true role as a protag, and another reason why we need to treat his attire with caution.)
What the dream DEFINITELY confirms is that Buddy has a bad relationship with Ex Libris. There's really no plausible alternative--from how frantic he is to escape, and how afraid he is of being caught. Beach Boys set the question of whether or not Buddy's in a bad spot with Ex Libris, but we didn't know how truthful he was.
We still don't, really, since he still hasn't told us, 'cause he's a paranoid asshole that we tragically love. But this episode laid some facts: Buddy is definitely in a bad situation, regardless of the specifics.
Plus, the final scene of him throwing the clock at the mirror, effectively destroying the reflection of Chase--clocks are often a representation of time. He's running out of time. There's a time limit, somewhere, but we don't know anything except that the clock's ticking.
(Someone else pointed out the clocks/time thing before me. I swear, I will hunt these @s and give proper citations.)
His escape via the mirror likely refers to his real motive: Buddy wants to escape, and he's aware his escape is going to involve, to some extent, harming Chase. From here, it's pure speculation: does Buddy need the keys to escape, thus betraying Chase? Does Buddy know something important? Is the mirror, or Buddy's escape, in any way tied to how he finds Chase in the books?
It's VERY likely that the keys are critical to Buddy's escape, due to the lock with 12 keyholes. This would also ensure the plotline of Buddy's strive for the keys remains intact, and would give us another reason for why Buddy was so desperate for Chase's key. HOWEVER, this isn't the only theory, and we know Punko's always two steps ahead.
The episode feels symbolic and important because it IS, but until we know more about Buddy's actual situation, it's hard to really break down what the episode means. I promise, though: the more we learn about Buddy's backstory, the more people (including myself, because i cannot shut up) will refer to that episode to swoon over the foreshadowing Punko brilliantly laid out.
#cinderella boy#chase hollow#stargoth#there is SO much in that episode#that i'd need to sit down and literally go frame by frame#and i might do that later#AFTER we get more info--so i can find the foreshadowing too#i feel like im forgetting so much about this episode#but i do recall going absolutely feral when it came out#it was my fav episode actually#if anyones like#yo Pali you completely forgot about This Important Thing in the ep#then ill add on!!#lmao can yall believe im supposed to be studying for the mcat
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@luminescent-cow (frantic) I love the way you worded this because it reminds me of 2 of my favorite art pieces that I think fits sukuita in a way (it's probably the brainrot but wtv)
"The anatomy of a hug" by Luna Lu
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"this is what love feels like I think" by sardineslayer_ on twt
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sharing one heart and one mind in addition to one soul... it makes me a bit insane and I want to grab these two and smash them together until they're indistinguishable from one another <3
#my post#sukuita#god I ADORE the ambiguity of their relationship you can tell me that they're actually the same person and I'll just say 'yeah that tracks'#some of my favorite flavor of them are the ones that make them gods with very ambiguous origins and relationship#with the myths being so muddled and confusing that they seem to be parent and child lovers and the same entity all at once#not sure i'm still on track here but wtv#fun fact! I was thinking about anatomy of a hug when writing the fourth segment of the last fic i posted#but i think i completely failed to express the feelings i wanted to in this part#it is what it is. i'll get better#Honestly just looking at these pieces makes me inspired to draw something#the 2 of them hugging with the outline of their superposed hearts making it look like there's only one...#ah... I don't think I'm good enough to draw it#reminds me of a DIFFERENT fanart of them hugging with Yuuji's hand going through Sukuna's hollowed chest-
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In my heart of hearts, at the end of the session the snails seemed to disappear inside their shells with a little pop, and after curiosity got the better of the lifers, they lifted the shells up to reveal a pocket-sized, completely harmless version of their snails they could keep as friends
#complete with a pocket-sized shell. the original crumbles into dust or whatever#i just think it’d be fun if the different wild cards are gone by the end of each session but a tiny unseen hint of it sticks around#their heights are all back to normal but for several days afterwards everyone still feels a bit of vertigo or swears they’re off by an inch#cravings for certainly inedible items have yet to fully fade and stomachs feel that bit hollower even fully saturated#snail buddy that can be easily kept in a pocket or a corner of a chest :)#kaya posts#wild life smp#wild life spoilers
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Me who is obsessed with Hollow and the Pale king and has been crying over the Ithica saga (from Epic the musical) this past week listening to "I cant help but wonder" and piecing together a Hollow reuniting with (spirit) pk sequence in my mind and going insane:
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#yes i have to make every song i get obsessed with relate to hk somehow#first of all its fun#second of all i have a disease and no other choice#i also have the perfect characters for “would you fall in love with me again” but one of them is an oc#haha#sorry i haven't been posting a whole lot lately#as you can see i am still insane about hk#hollow knight#hk thk#hk pv#hk the pure vessel#the pale king#tbh i know this song is way too sweet for them#realistically their reunion would be a complete mess#idc they would feel this way inside !!!#i know it#!!!!#let me have my delusions#!!!!!!
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My (very bad) take on gijinka Hornet and Lace!!
Don't know how to feel about Hornet's design though cuz I feel like she resembles Marggri's too much :/
Might change some stuff later on idk, I'm tired so I need a break rn o(-(
Edit: crap I just noticed a design mistake on one Hornet's glove AA-- it's not a fingerless glove btw it's closer to how Reva's gloves are 🥲
#hollow knight#silksong#hollow knight gijinka#hk hornet#hk lace#lacenet#im putting that tag and you cant stop me >:)#rainycreation#gijinka#hollow knight fanart#hollow knight hornet#hollow knight lace#why do i always struggle picking clothes for hornet like-- i dont understand o(-(#lace feel easier to design for me but hornet's a complete nightmare
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i am legitimately tempted to let the scoundrel lose her soul. not permanently, but just as like. An Incident™, y'know. a one-off goof. a gag, if you will
#again. not permanently. just for a few weeks at most#just to enjoy the Experience. and make all of her buddies fret over her#yin-thoughts#fallen london#the thing abt the scoundrel is losing her soul is definitely 100% in-character. she's completely charmed by devils#she falls victim to that stuff Very Very Easily#she's been riding along at like. 12-13 intimate with devils for months at this point#it's just that on a character and thematic level i dont think it works for him#in a meta sense i feel like the scoundrel already has more than enough going on as a character without adding soullessness on top of that#and in a thematic sense there's not really much removing her soul could accomplish in the long-term#that isnt already fulfilled by like. her preexisting chronic depression issues. yknow??#walking around with a hollow feeling in her heart isnt new to the scoundrel.#sure being soulless will just bring that sensation to the forefront all over again#but it's not doing much for her beyond making her confront that sensation and Potentially come to terms with it.#only because she's literally forced to.#beyond that one-time occurrence i don't think being soulless would add to her narrative. and as yall probably already know#/probably can already tell by now#hypothetical oc narratives are very important to me ( ꈍᴗꈍ)#tldr if the scoundrel ever fails that 90% luck check and loses her soul i wouldnt fix it immediately but i Would fixing it At Some Point#there's only room for one violant-eyed soulless aristocrat in this city (hi hiram)
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Day 16, final day before the Pristine Cut, my attempt at Ms. Chain Princess (possibly Prison3r but I've seen ppl speculate she's sp3ctre) from the trailer. See you all post pristine-cut 🫡
#slay the princess#stp#pristine cut spoilers#<- for anyone who wants to go in COMPLETELY blind#art#im of the opinion she's prison3r bc of all the chains + face in shadows#(prison3r seems to come from post head-abandonment so it would make sense if she's got some head weirdness going on)#i unfortunately don't really see the argument for sp3ctre#however I do agree with some of the reasoning i saw#i saw someone point out that since there are already assets in-game for a sp3ctre ending where you stab yourself while possessed#it doesn't really make sense for it to get replaced by something new#and i kind of agree tbh. like im prepared to eat my words but i think the possession-stab gambit is going to remain the same#what if we're both wrong and this is somehow dams3l tho. what then#anyway i feel a bit bittersweet about pris cut coming out#ive had so much fun in this community & knowing there's no new content after this (aside from some merch)#is a lil sad#like im sure i'll be revisiting the game plenty & probably continue creating fanart#but i am going to miss there being such active ongoing discussion around it#but I will be picking up scarlet hollow sometime and YOU SHOULD TOO!!!
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spent the evening drawing a little something to commemorate my first time playing hollow knight
just entered greenpath and I LOVE the ambiance of it, i really couldn’t do it justice here
#art#hollow knight#I really can’t draw waterfalls alaaaas oh well#they just look like Big Blobs I’m gonna. explode if I keep thinking about it I’m too tired to fix em#for those absolutely DYING to know my thoughts on it so far—#it is SO fun but in all honesty I do not know what I’m doing at any given time#I think I’m slightly getting the hang of it?? but I definitely did more wandering around than actual plot progression#speaking of which I’m completely lost on the plot and lore. it’ll be explained more later on I’m positive but for now? no idea#don’t know who these people are or why they’re here or what’s going on but#yknow. I like it so far!#I am also very bad at it so far!! I’ve lost an embarrassing amount of times because I got knocked into spike pits#I think that rest areas being benches is so whimsical. nothing special just. a bench. love that#I was gonna draw the bench but then I remembered I can’t draw seats of any kind so. standing up it is#the only thing I can really say as a negative right now is there aren’t many fleshed out characters so far#oh I’m 100% sure that’s going to change so it’s not a complaint#but as someone who mostly gravitates towards the characters in games? right now it feels very lonely. sad#I like the map guy. cornifer I think his name is#I can’t get his name right for the life of me. so far I’ve called him corn cornfield and confield#also his wife. she seems so depressed I think she needs someone to talk to#or a bigger doorframe#and that little miner thing? what’s her name? I want to say it starts with M#she was adorable. the children yearn for the mines#but yeah overall I crave more characters…..I’ll have to actually play through the game more for that won’t I#only other issue is that. fun fact. did you know dyscalculia can affect one’s sense of direction and reading maps#in other words I spent most of my time playing the game being confused and lost because where the hell am I#but that’s a me problem lmao#overall. good game so far mhm 👍 I can’t say I know what any of it is actually about but yeah I like it#goes without saying but. please don’t spoil anything for me!!!auhghhh
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Rank 52: The final duel!!
#I don't even know how to start in saying how much this scene hurt me. I don't even know if I can express what I'm feeling with words#because all I can think right now is how much I love Astral and how much he breaks my heart#he was born from hopes and he was given a mission that would protect the hopes and futures of his world (and all other worlds probably)#at the cost of his own existence#but that wouldn't have hurt because he wasn't created for feeling anything#He would have complete his mission with no regrets with no past with nothing to miss#just a little light of hope that would have defeated E'Rah sacrificing himself without leaving anything behind#and then he met Yuma#he started to know Yuma and his friends and adversaries and what emotions were#and the hollow hope become a person#a person who felt happiness fear love a person who now had a story and people who he would miss#and he still decided to carry on his mission because that would have protected what he now holds dear#those new emotions those connections were the key to beat E'Rah but were also what made him understand how tragic his fate was#but he didn't regret any of that#because it was Yuma and his friends and the emotions that they had made him feel that made his brief life worth living#(sometimes I forget that in the manga Astral was probably sent to Earth soon after he was created. That “brief life” is heart-breaking)#and Yuma asking him if he was okay with that and if he wasn't scared#and Astral saying that he wasn't given any means to feel such terror but he was now scared#and yet he found that fear wonderful because that means he was alive#all those emotions were what made him truly alive#not a tool not a hollow hope but a real person who still decided to sacrifice himself for protecting everyone#astral zexal#astral yu gi oh#yuma tsukumo#yu gi oh zexal#zexal#yugioh zexal#zexal manga#Zexal manga spoiler#ygo zexal
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bucktommy fans I'm opening the floor for a discussion: I'm confused.
I've been a buddie shipper ever since I saw them for the first time. And season after season I have WAITED for movement to happen on that front.
Then in comes Tommy, he's cool. I get it. But the hype train? I don't get it. I don't understand the feral excitement over him. I feel the same emptiness watching buck with him as I felt with Lucy tbh. He's cool, but he's not Eddie. Like, yay, a guy, but he's just as random as Buck's other relationships. It's just as rushed, Buck sees them, at some random non-sequitur moment Buck decides "this is it" and jumps in. Three seconds later they're kissing. It ain't it for me. There's no buildup, there's no nothing.
And then I come here, and all I see is folks frothing at the mouth over Bucktommy. Credit where it's due, he helped Buck out of the closet, but aside from that? Thank goodness he has a personality worth a damn, and he's funny, unlike Buck's other love interests, but he still isn't Eddie, and that puts him in a long line of love interests that I don't much care about.
I literally don't understand the people who are so excited with this utter left turn. Putting Buck together with anyone who isn't Eddie still feels like crumbs. I still feel cheated, It's like if I was in a restaurant with the fandom and there are pictures of lasagna everywhere and it smells like lasagna, and so we all sit down and wait for lasagna for YEARS and the restaurant keeps offering us all breadsticks, and we're all firm on this: "breadsticks aren't lasagna, we're holding out for lasagna." And 7 years later the restaurant puts a Caesar salad down before us and everyone around me is like "Oh great this Caesar salad this is perfect I'm starving so I'll eat this and forget lasagna" And I'm like "this isn't lasagna its clearly a salad, I didn't wait years for some random salad, where's my lasagna." And they're all like "Shame on you salad is perfect"
So I guess the question is, what am I missing? And outside of the thrill of the coming out story, how do you find this relationship any more satisfying than any of Buck's other last minute loves?
#buddie#bucktommy#911 spoilers#real talk#i actually want to know#because the bucktommy relationship makes me feel completely nothing#like at all#hollow tunnel filled with the echoes of others excitement
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Passionate reminder to The Hollow Fandom, and honestly to any fandom on this website that’s currently struggling to stay alive, that fandom is a community of various creators and non-creators supporting each others’ interest in the same show. It is not a secondary source of consumer content.
“Our fandom is dying!” Have you recently reblogged a post where you shared your thoughts in the text or in the tags? Have you posted anything about the show yourself? Have you actually engaged with the fanbase? A fandom isn’t dead when there’s only a couple people in it, a fandom is dead when no one is talking to each other or supporting each other.
“I don’t need/want to reblog!” Tumblr does not have that kind of algorithm. If you don’t reblog a post, it doesn’t get spread out there. Yes, you need to reblog if you want a thriving fandom. Don’t call yourself a part of a fandom if you’re not even willing to reblog content that the members of that fandom create.
Stop expecting “top dog fandom creators” to constantly feed you the content you want without any sort of encouragement from you. They are not showrunners making a huge profit off their work. They are not gods. A lot of them have lives of their own and/or are struggling with their own issues, and usually they’re very approachable. If you like what a fandom creator is doing, pay them back with reblogs and engagement. Posting in a fandom where its members refuse to interact with its community in a meaningful way isn’t fun, so everyone needs to step up here and start supporting each other.
Talk to your fellow fandom friends. Ask them about their interests regarding the show you all like and what headcanons and AUs you all have of them. Create content for each other. Can we please bring back old fandom culture, folks? Does anyone here remember the old days of fandom where we were passionate and we made connections with each other? What happened to that?
Remember: the word “fandom” is a combination of “fan” and “kingdom”. This is a fan kingdom, not a fan restaurant.
Fandom isn’t just about content. It’s about connection. You are allowed to reblog a post and compliment someone and start a conversation with them. That is actually what you SHOULD be doing!
#the hollow#the hollow netflix#save the hollow#the hollow cartoon#the hollow fanart#the hollow fanfic#the hollow fanfiction#fanfic#fanfiction#fanart#fandom#support your fandom#reblog#I lowkey feel like the concept of an intertwined fandom community is a foreign concept nowadays#which is very sad because isn’t like most of the fun of fandom interacting with people?!#like are most people just completely missing the point of fandom?#what happened?#why are people afraid of engaging with each other?#anyways I’m gonna see if I can find more the hollow stuff to reblog
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do you ever just feel the depression fog settling in and suddenly feel like all your words, spoken and written, just aren’t making sense? like oh i’m just spewing nonstop nonsense aren’t i.
#it feels like someone’s cut off a fucking limb when i’m writing and suddenly stare at the screen and just#it’s not what i want it’s not coming out right and it almost feels as though ive completely disassociated#but if im not writing i feel entirely useless?#idk#ignore me#is there a way to disappear into the void until this brain fog figures itself out so no one else has to deal with it lmao#wanting to write and being entirely unable to leaves me feeling very very hollow inside#ghost talks too much
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#couldn't figure out how to make it flow better so I'd a[[recite suggestions#drawing an oc interacting with existing characters feels awkward but assuming interactions outside of my scope when I don't have#complete information also feels strange#anyway I have a few of these but they need some clean-up#scarlet hollow#risuyu#вышедшее из под моего пер��
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increasingly salty about the state of media today. can't have shit without corporations ruining it with their grimy money seeking
#i'm just so sick of the things i like getting neutered or crippled#things with LOVE and CARE in them#things that would be great if these assholes would just let the artists do their work#things that get cut off before they're finished or rushed to the end for the sake of dipshit timelines#i'm done!!! i'm over it!!!#and it's worse when it feels like everyone pretends that it's fine!!! the schlock comes out and everyone rushes to eat it up!!#and i get it. there's good things to be salvaged. but the fact that we're left fighting over fucking scraps to begin with boils my blood.#the fact that we have to rush to salvage anything at all. fuck that.#it's one thing to pick over media that sucks#it's another to pick over media that sucks because of Decisions Made By People Who Hate Art And Love Money#i'm just sick of the cycle. i'm sick of sloppy stories and sanitized themes and hollow characters.#and i'm sick of the fact that i can't be angry about it because everyone is just trying to have a little joy in their lives.#something that is completely reasonable and valid. but i can't do that anymore. i just get to let it simmer.
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