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opikiquu · 6 months ago

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miwtual · 1 year ago

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im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them)#we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op'#reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

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huldrabitch · 10 days ago

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Fuck I just have to write a fic about Emmrich noticing Rooks hidden injuries now

#Its so sweet that his favourite color is lilac and i happened to have made her eyes purple #anyways adore this dapper man #im romancing taash next (harding is low key making me jealous but i just know theyll be good for each other when taash finally tells her)#or shit lucanis i was so close to swaying towards him but emmrich is so sweet im just scared hell turn into a lich but i wanna support him #ahh so excited to see how things go from here!#dragon age the veilguard #dragon age the veilguard spoilers #emmich romance #emmrich volkarin #emmrich romance spoilers #im playing on low graphics because thats all my poor gaming laptop can handle but i wouldnt even know and i dont care it looks so good #i liked neve but hardened her maybe ill see what happens when lucanis gets hardened instead (hehe) but poor spite...

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tinukis · 5 months ago

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im rereading one piece (i'll watch certain arcs too as i get into OP again)

and man i forget how much i loved the baratie arc especially seeing how luffy and sanji first interact... "i refuse your refusal!" is so good and while bickering like an old married couple, they both yell at gin simultaneously i love them so much

#and i find the old art style really charming too!!#and it's just so nice to see luffy's adventure from the start again and knowing how far he's come #i cant wait to watch my fav arcs though!!#oh and this one filler arc i think is after skypiea? idk theres a lot of filler eps i wanna watch #and i just know i'll adore the straw hat crew even more #BUT im sooooo not ready to read marineford again 😭#genuinely ace's death mentally scarred me and i Kind of want to try watching it #but i dont know if i'll be able to handle it animated or even voiced #thats what im most scared of #but the asl backstory has a lot more content in the anime #which is one thing i look forward to most #idk man but i am. mentally preparing myself #ANYWAY #lusan #one piece #luffy #sanji

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p4nishers · 1 year ago

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yeah that's uhh that's definitely something

#'david jenkins is a neil gaiman fan' U SHUT UP!!! IM SO FUCKING SCARED RIGHT NOW U SHUT UP?!!!#the difference in crowley's and ed's expression tho. one is in complete panic and agony and the other is just numb #says a lot if u ask me #something something the demon (or demon coded) character shots at the angel (coded) character who has complete trust in them #something something i dont even know what this means #good omens #good omens s2 #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale #ofmd #our flags mean death #gentlebeard #stede bonnet #edward teach

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nabaath-areng · 2 months ago

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Orbital trajectory.

#ieeha grew up with horrible tall people hes not scared of anything (even when he should be. actually *especially* then.)#ieeha ''i will not be the bigger person i WILL drag you down to my level'' de verral #sincerely hes a pain in the ass LOL. hissy cat coded #he and magnai are so funny to me cause theyre both passionate and clueless #in ways that are similar but also different simultaneously #its a LONG road. i dont think bridging the gap even comes into question until EW *earliest*#but im running out of tag space thanks for coming to my shiptalk--#ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #final fantasy 14 #hyur #midlander #magnai oronir #xaela #au ra #wolship #gpose #magnai oronir x warrior of light #wol #ffxiv screenshot #ieeha #ieeha de verral #nabaath-areng #ffxiv ship #ffxiv oc #and so they bicker a lot especially at first. and then dont know what to do once they grow closer

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skunkes · 2 months ago

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never underestimate a cheye's ability to think "what if this is as good as it gets" about any situation

#talkys #during my week away from home and especially after meeting that server our age i was like #yes ok. a life for me is possible. qhen i get home ill work on my resume and look for interview and work clothes #and ive gotten home now and its like. why bother. i dont think it can get better than this #my life would be largely the same except now I have to struggle even more to survive #especially since im still finding it so difficult to get used to Having to drive to do anything #i dont know. i dont know #i rly am the stayer #qhats that post about finally getting what u want and being scared.#i have a potential not even 100% certain opportunity here and im too afraid.#what if it goes wrong. what if it goes Right. idk if i can handle either. i dont think im meant to be here or anywhere #i keep getting scared. i need change but i fear change and I just want a Home

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ganondoodle · 5 months ago

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i cant lie, im also beating myself up about not being able to get excited for the new game, or anything anymore it seems, while it can be fun to criticise things, some things you just dont like so badly that the frustration knowing it could be so much better but isnt and you not able to change it outweighs any fun- i dont like being a 'hater', i hate totk, but not bc i hate zelda but bc i LOVE it and want it to be better (though im starting to doubt my ability to do anything good with it too..)

and with the new game trailer (like, i still hope its better than im fearing rn) i feel similarly as when the next totk trailers dropped after the first one (which DID excite me), all of them gave me a sense of dread bc it seemed to go into a direction i wouldnt like, i tried to tone that voice down to enjoy the game, but then .. i was right

i dont want to be an annoying complainer about everything new, but maybe i am and i dont like that thought, i dont want to spoil anyones fun, i want to partake in it :(

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #either way #i know im in a bit of a swamp of bad feelings rn so i dont trust myself and what i say fully #but i have been thinking about trying to only work on destiny in terms of fanart #and look at my original stuff and perhaps gamedev a bit more seriously #dont get me wrong im not 'leaving' the fandom #but the things i like are so few and tiny parts of old games that are pretty much irrelevant to the modern fandom #like trying to keep driving on tires even when they lost all their rubber #after botw and the first botw2 trailer i was so deep into the theories of it all- and now i dont even want to look at the thumbnails #(even if those were largely boring or kinda weird- i felt like i was taking part in a fun group about stuff i like? in a way?)#what scares me about doing more original stuff though is ...#even my fanart was niche and largely not “popular” so doing oc stuff might be even worse and idk if my frail self worth can handle that dro #and to the last point of the post itself................. maybe a fear of losing community too #like how in school you where at first a part of the class #and as you got older your classmates started to notice how different and weird you were #and then you were alone

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blueskittlesart · 5 months ago

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oh so THAT’S what you guys meant about persona 4.

#finally seriously attempting to finish it. just got to naoto’s whole. thing. jesus christ #btw i thought playing persona 5 on the family tv was bad but NOTHING prepares you for your 55 year old mother #watching you play through rise’s midnight channel scene. truly. and i can’t even explain what the hell is going on because I DONT KNOW #i am enjoying it though. i’d die and kill for nanako in a heartbeat #and i’m very slowly getting dojima to stop neglecting her which is great 😐👍#deeply scared for what is to come though because i still don’t know JACK SHIT #i feel like at this point in persona 5 i at least had a suspect. like i knew akechi was WEIRD at the very least #anyways. wish me luck everyone i haven’t actually saved naoto yet and im pretty sure im very underleveled #personal

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bunnihearted · 2 months ago

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being too weird and unlikable and off putting and always being shunned and turned into an outcast everywhere i go and not having felt the connection and healing friendship has on you for so many years has really done a number on me

#irl mostly. but even online. i cannot connect or find communities or support systems the way most of u can #even if i do have found great connections and one connection in particular im more than grateful for #but i have had so much of my humanness torn off for so long that i am awkward and useless in handling it #but yeah idk :/ im just so profoundly jealous of how everyone can just fit into a slot #even online when ppl talk abt being anxious and stuff they still have ppl to talk to #or ppl irl to hang out with and im like.. wow... i cant even do that :/#it is just so lonely in general. and it has made me confused and incapable of knowing how to be a human #and fully realise and actualize the one connection i do have #if i had gotten to learn and now know how to be a human and a person i would've... been a person #but now i feel so removed and far away from that idek how...#like im at a point where i cant even have simple and shallow conversations online bc im like so useless #maybe only other ppl with avpd and who have been socially rejected and isolated and alienated can fully understand what i mean #it is so scary and weird and i feel such deep envy for how people can just like... talk to eo. irl and online. i dont get it #and like the connection i do have that i mention bc it is so important to me.. that does all of those things #but it is like im so not used to anyone even keep wanting to have a connection with me #that i feel like bambi on ice 💀 for lack of a better metaphor #and inside of me idk how to dare to open up to it bc i've been numb and shut off i just dont know #i dont know. but i want to but idk how.#ahhhhhh wanna scream bc just trying to describe it so i can make sense of it is frustrating!!!!#it also sucks bc other ppl really dont seem to get how fkn weird and scary it is to feel so removed from humanness #and not even be able to do most basic human people things most ppl who are mentally ill or anxious do.. i cant even do that idk #talking and communicating is the main thing like ppl do not understand how fkn hard it is for me to even have a simple convo #and i cant explain it bc theres no way someone who doesnt feel the same and have avpd could get it...#but idk. i just hate all of this and i wish i had a normal functioning brain. i just wanna be like everyone else #even ppl w social anxiety are capable of having friends. and im terrified of losing the only connection i've somehow been lucky to get #in my hands??? im so scared of losing that but idk HOW to be a person and idk!!! idk!!#other ppl dont even think abt these things im so fkn jealous lmao #anyway whatever 😔

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moeblob · 9 hours ago

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Right and his work menaces (Brent and Karen).

I don't remember last I mentioned it but apart from crude nicknames to people (except Chris), he also just puts them in his phone really weird (except Chris, who is literally in his phone as Chris). And I bring this up because in Right's phone, Karen is saved as "Lawful Obligation".

#my characters #oops i fell in love #can you guys tell im stressed and hyperfixating on my own fucked up ocs cause i am #also brents nickname at work and in rights phone is fuckwad #and hes like yeah if im called anything else at this point by right its weird and uncomfortable #and when it is finally approached as if paul is only in rights phone as shitty-ex (answer) now that hes an excoworker #what was he in rights phone BEFORE the transfer #and right is like annoying dickwad ... karen is like oh i see thats why you call him a dick still #thats like a nickname from his phone name #and brent has to ask why fuckwad and dickwad and right looks at him and takes a deep breathe before saying #because i like the word wad and it is very comforting bc like a wad of paper ? you can throw it away #and so if i realize i gotta get rid of attachment i wad it up #also dont tell paul that dickwad was a form of attachment or he will never shut the fuck up about it #karen and brent both swear to never mention it to paul #paul is honestly such a weird anomaly in the plot bc he doesnt directly work at the same police station #but he is CONSTANTLY a topic of gossip or annoyance or updates #hes literally karens best friend! aside from chris he was one of the few right worked with who HAD touch privileges before right banned it #hes also just genuinely well liked but no one can actually tell him or he will become insufferable #which is a crime that rick is guilty of once when he meets paul and karen introduces him #and rick is just OH i know that name! youre her best friend #and she looks so betrayed and paul looks so delighted and stunned and radiant over this fact #and rick makes up for it before the night is over which is why karen forgives him - he made paul back in his place #anyway yeah right has lots of fears and hes my bundle of anxiety and i love him and his atrocious nicknames #i think i would die if i gave someone a rude nickname even affectionately irl #also also final note on this ig #since right is a detective and not always at the station its worth pointing out brent and karen just work taking calls and #doing misc other work at their desks which are nearby so they 100% bond and its wonderful #ok i lied final note on them is #for a very long time karen has to check with right to make sure she isnt annoying brent because he doesnt emote well #and shes scared she wont know if shes annoying him please help youre like the only one who reads his moods accurately

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thekidsfromyestergay · 2 years ago

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While I love all the jokes about Scotland gaining independence from the UK I do need you all to realise exactly how terrifying this is for trans people living in England. The government have proved time and time again that they don't care about the safety of trans people, but this in particular is an act of hatred so strong that they are using an unprecedented level of power just to prove it, and once they've done it once, they will do it again. And while Scotland may gain independence (as they should), things are only going to continue to get worse for people still forced to live under the UK government.

#its been horrifying to watch all this happen and i dont even get to enjoy the idea of scottish independence #because they get the hope of far better treatment under an independent government #i get the knowledge that its only going to get worse with no hope of leaving #please continue celebrating but. please don't forget that for so many of us there's nothing to celebrate #uk politics #sorry i know this isnt what i usually post im just. so scared

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ef-1 · 2 months ago

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