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IT HURTS SO MUCH
#I literally feel like my body is gonna split open#Even my legs are shaking lol#I fucking hate my periods#Also like why today#I literally have 3 exams tomorrow#And 3 exams day after tomorrow#I missed it for 2 months#2 more days wouldn't have hurt#Ugh I hate mother nature#Even the pain killers aren't doing shit#I'm literally curled up like a ball#Crying for no reason#I don't wanna deal with anything#Fuck#i'm just a girl#i can't atp
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Dating!Jinmao where Jinshi gets very insisting on Maomao to use pet names with him. Of course, she refuses multiple times due to the embarrassment it provoked her, the sheer thought making her shiver.
He never ceases on his petitions though, so she ends up giving in. But under one condition—only after he'd finished every single one of his daily bureaucratic endeavors. He agrees,
It takes days of trial and error, until it happens—just like an unexpected rain during dry season, that day's workload had been significantly smaller compared to the others. And with the power of simpism enthusiasm, he'd managed to finish it all in one seating.
Jinshi let out a satisfied sigh as the set the last document aside, his work for the day finished. He tried repressing himself, although there were some stray maiden-in-love-like giggles here and there. Basen, once again, considers early retirement.
He abandons his office to and makes a beeline towards his beloved's workplace. (Un)Fortunately, he finds Maomao by herself. His smile gets even bigger as he stands there in silence, awaiting for his much deserved treat of the day. Her expression denoted anguish and later defeat, knowing she only had herself to blame for this.
She let's out a sigh, leaving her matter aside and getting face to face with her now partner. The girl makes a manner with her hand, indicating him to lower his head to which he does. She then pets his head and says "Well done, slug".
His eyes open wide in surprise. She starts thinking to herself that she might've messed things up, until she saw him getting flustered. Yes, she had definitely messed up.
They (she) never did that again.
#i love writing pathetic men#specifically pathetic men in love#the apothecary diaries#jinshi x maomao#jinmao#kusuriya no hitorigoto#i'm in volume 8 chapter 6 in case there's anything that doesn't make sense to those up to date with the ln#i had a headache while writing this#the closest to writing a fic about them that i'll ever be#programming this for midnight because i don't wanna deal with this bs rn
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behold! a kakaobi painting from literally months ago!
#I wanna draw more obighost#very fun#but also it kills me sometimes to think about how devastating it was for little kks to deal with growing older while obito never got to#and especially when he reaches the age obito was when he died....#I imagine this is placed on that birthday#I dunno...#think I was thinking about the idea of Obito slipping through Kakashi's fingers#he's aging and feeling as he leaves Obito behind#He fell in love with Obito and Obito died before he got to be anything more than a child#and now it's really sinking in that Obito's /gone/#and he's never going to get older#Dead kids don't age#nurt#yeah I just think this would utterly break Kks again#as a bonus to everything else ofc!!#kakaobi#Not to mention by this point it's both Kakashi's teammates that will never grow old...#hatake kakashi#uchiha obito#obikaka fanart#chearts
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These "ugh the Crows have been sanitized :\" posts that I keep coming across are starting to make me think that y'all maybe didn't feel the alarm bells go off and an icy chill run down your spine when Viago de Riva said to the governor that the Crows are their own oversight.
Personally, I was under the impression that there's a reason most of Rook's allies are deserters, criminals, pirates and renegades (one that maybe even goes beyond "Rook sounds objectively coocoo bananas every time they open their mouths about the purpose of their mission"), and that they simply all go to great lengths to keep their shadier dealings secret, even from the person they're trusting with saving their world.
.... Then again, I'm also still all too aware that Solas in Inquisition was unequivocally an ally to the protagonist, and helping him without asking many questions then, did also turn out to be something akin to a mistake, but that suspicion took like two years to pay off, so, y'know. I'll see.
#squirrel plays datv#datv spoilers#no matter how nice Teia and Viago are; I don't buy that the Crows are all above board#i was always under the impression that the Talons very simply have an agenda#and that they're not going to share all that's going on on the dl with every recruit#more realistically the writers probably just didn't wanna startle players who chose to play as a Crow without knowing anything else#with “surprise! you're a member of a ring of murderous child kidnappers!”#but i mean. I'm like pretty sure that most are kinda just seeing what they want people to see.#i don't buy that the Crows are Zorro-type vigilante heroes.#i think Taash was lied to or misled about the Lords' dealings in artefacts.#i think the First Warden is right when he calls a Shadow Rook a criminal#and their cause insane.#whether we; who are looking at it from Rook's perspective; are meant to think so is debatable#am i too generous? maybe. but i think my read of the game is a LOT of fun and i think more of you should join me on board
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Little heads up!
Sonic Movie 3 premieres Dec 25/26 for me, and I'll go watch it on theaters with my fam and friends one of the following days (God willing 🙏)
so once it premieres on USA I might dissapear for a few days until I watch it because I know for a fact people will be spoiling it around 😭
I might be gone for a few days everywhere except for Discord, so now you know in case you wonder "where did rad go omg" lol
#update#blog update#rad talks#sonic movie#sonic movie 3#uninstalling cuz I'd definitely find shit like “SONIC 3 FINAL BATTLE!!!” with a picture of fucking super sonic and shadow#NAH I'VE GOT SPOILED ENOUGH FOR THE PAST TWO MOVIES. NOT DEALING WITH IT NOW#bye guys#just kidding lol. im not going yet. I'll be gone like a week after S3 premieres worldwide#I'll be cooking art meanwhile dw#I ALREADY FOUND A MINOR SPOILER >:(#I DON'T WANNA SEE ANYTHING#silly#goofy ahh#heads up
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if my boyfriend kills himself because of your cyberbullying online clique bullshit I'm killing myself too because this is absolutely insane and immature and unfair
#he hasn't done anything wrong and he gets treated like an outcast regardless#if you don't wanna deal with him for whatever reason at least stop stringing him along and just unfollow or block him#this is cruel#and I'm tired of going to bed every night with him crying in my arms just because people can't treat him right#why is he always the one left out? why is he always the secret friend everyone refuses to associate with in public?#it's not fair#not directed at anyone#just a general plea idk#idk what to do guys#I can't lose him#I really can't lose him#but this is driving him over the edge
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i know a lot of people think jess just likes to antagonize dean for the sake of antagonizing him but in a scene like there's the rub where he just keeps talking it's so clear he's trying to divert dean's anger towards himself to protect rory (which makes you wonder if that's something he's done in the past) and like obviously it didn't work bc he did in fact start screaming at rory the second jess was gone but it's just like the way he's talking in that scene it's very much what he does when he's trying to distract someone even if it's not from their anger, maybe for a conversation he's trying to avoid, whatever it may be, like it just isn't so simple as trying to piss people off (though that may be an effect anyway) but to defuse a tense situation and i just think it's a v interesting aspect of his character
#like more than anything i think you see him do it with luke like i'm just gonna keep saying things bc i don't wanna deal with this#but yeah like i hate that people think jess is just a dick through that whole situation for funsies#like yeah he wants rory but also he clocked what a piece of shit dean is and he's just like hey focus on me not her#gilmore girls#gg 2x16#anti dean forester
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chat I'm ranting
there's this girl: I'm not mean to her but I'm not exceptionally nice to her either, I find her a tad annoying and I sit with her in my econ class. As a person I just generally make a lot of jokes but today she was getting ON MY NERVES - She was like 'can you finish the graph so I can copy' and I literally replied with 'Can you do it yourself?' I was so done AND THEN on top of this she's like 'But ur a nerd' and I said 'huh' and she was like 'a cute nerd who gets no guys' WHAT THE FUCK BECAUSE WHERE DID THAT COME FROM HELLO?? Keep in mind that there's a guy sitting right behind us probably listening in on this entire convo. I was so embarrassed. And the weirdest thing is that she has never had a bf either so. Genuinely confused
#IDK SHE'S GIVING ME A MAJOR BAD VIBE#But I don't wanna be mean or anything so I just deal#BGEKONGOLWJMOP
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#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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from a vibes perspective, i totally understand why so many people look at keefe and go ‘this guy would be the male equivalent of a wine aunt when he’s older’.
but. but.
taking lore into consideration, in my heart, he’s terrified of alcohol (even if he tries really hard to hide it). because. like. his first exposure is almost guaranteed to be through cassius, and cassius canonically threw a glass extremely close to him at least once when he was, like, 8. maybe cassius wasn’t always extra nasty when he was drunk, but there’s gotta be a correlation in keefe’s brain between risking getting seriously hurt (emotionally or physically) and alcohol consumption that’s really hard for him to shake.
#tw alcohol#tw child abuse mentions#lmk if there's more trigger warnings i should put#i have a thing for hurt/comfort lmao#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#this is brought to you by:#that one fic my brain started writing internally where it's sophie's 21st bday and she's like man i#have saved the world so many times we've all lost count. i want a fucking drink#and keefe's internally like OH GOD OH FUCK in a bad way but externally he's like yeah babe whatever you want!!#and then she's like. i don't wanna do anything super stupid though. and drinking alone is super stupid when you've never drank before#will you stay w/ me? please?#and keefe's like. i cannot say no to that face#so he spends the night doing an increasingly bad job of hiding how bad he's freaking out#because sophie is a safe space and alcohol is not safe and he doesn't know how to deal w/ the two colliding#ESPECIALLY since sophie's just getting dorkier and sweeter as her filter goes down instead of throwing insults or objects at him#(i feel like sophie would be the kind of drunk that's very impulsive and says EVERYTHING that comes to the forefront of her mind#and stellarlune was more than enough to prove that she sees keefe and a lot of the time her brain just goes hnnngh soft little tortured#artist. MY soft little tortured artist.)#yeah but even intoxicated sophie can tell something's wrong even before he flinches super obviously at an empty glass falling over w/o#breaking. and so she's like nah man it's hurt/comfort time and he's like BUT YOUR BIRTHDAY and she's like do you really think i'm#gonna just let go of the fact that i know you're stressed? i'm not a dickhead keefe#so yeah it ends in cuddles. because of course it does#keefe sencen#annnnd out of the drafts this goes. post!
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Not touching ao3 yet but i sincerely hope there are some devastatingly beautiful fics that deal directly with data having -or not?- a soul, whether they are soulmates aus or alien shenanigans
#i doubt they actually deal with it in the show but i'm only on s2#also recs are welcome and appreciated tho i don't wanna read anything just yet#anyway#data <3#star trek the next generation#data soong#star trek#star trek tng
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#im not looking for sympathy or anything with this post i just need to fucking say something#but i don't want to dump it all on one person#or even multiple people#because idk what i'd do#or what i'd say to someone in this situation#'just keep going' is all well and good but it only works for so long#so i don't expect anyone to try and deal with this#i wouldn't want them to#because it's fucking stressful#so this is just. screaming into the void.#but uh#fuck#im not ok and idk what to do#dont worry ill be fine#ill still be here tomorrow#and the next day#and the next day and the next day#cause im like a fucking cockroach#living out of spite#but im so fucking sick of feeling like this all the time#im so fucking sick of having no energy or motivation and feeling like my life is gonna go nowhere#im so sick of just. hurting all the time.#it hurts so much#vent post#tw vent#im gonna tag this shit from now on#cause i understand why ppl might not wanna see it#cause there's enough depressing shit going on right now#and if you saw this im sorry and it's not your responsibility to deal with this 🫂#go drink water and take care of yourself
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I do really enjoy living alone but sometimes things happen like my lights flickering at 10PM at night and I get hit by a very deep wave of anxiety bc like... if I lose power wtf do I do? sit in the dark? do I even have a flashlight?? ? Guess I could light some candles????
#like hello stop that don't do that again please#if anything I know it would be my whole apartment building that would lose power#I could potentially text my neighbor#but like idk man I dont wanna deal with that shit
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Shit morning. Very very shitty morning. The rest of the day better not suck or I swear to fuck I'm gonna riot
[I highly recommend not reading the tags, but I needed to vent]
#CW blood#cw periods#don't read further if you don't wanna read about me describing my bloody morning#so I knew I had my period right? it's day 3#and I went to bed last night without pants bc they weren't fitting right bc of the bloating#thank you body#as per usual I tossed and turned all night and when I woke up I felt it#I felt the mess#on my thighs and on the bed and I did not wanna get up bc that meant dealing with it#and I did not wanna deal with it (I knew I would have to but I didn't wanna)#it was SO MUCB WORSE than I thought#the bed was a mess and the blood was halfway down my thighs and ain't my stomach and the pad was so thoroughly soaked thru#it couldn't hold anything more even if I wanted it to#I ran to the bathroom and stripped and cleaned myself as best as I could#and then I had to soak my underwear and wash my blankets (cold water folx not hot)#(cold water prevents stains in this specific instance)#anyways my morning was shit and now I have extra laundry to try and fit in before work and oh yeah I still have work today too#it's file tho so just taking down and putting up tags#and I'm off tomorrow so I can stay in bed most of the day and not have to deal with bullshit#I need to yeet the uterus... I can't keep doing this... I shouldn't wake up to messes this bad multiple times a year#I can't say monthly bc I don't always bleed monthly#and my husband and I have talked and there's some decisions we have to make#he said he'll support me and he understands that this isn't normal or okay#and he told me he only wanted to do pregnancy bc I wanted to do pregnancy and idk anymore y'all. I don't know...#is keeping my uterus for another potentially five years worth it? I know the answer is no#god I fucking hate this can someone please just rip it out for me and save me the decision making? pretty please?#personal
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pretty sure i’ve seen romance movies with scenes like this
#tomgreg#where do i even start with t his horseshit okay here we fucking go.#so tom's first instinct is to go to greg when he's on shaky ground with shiv. the only way he feels safe is to have GREG with him.#who tf would want greg as an attack dog??!?!? lets be fucking real. when he says that i think he means just a dog. just someone loyal.#who loves him and won't dick him around. i think he's pretty tired of it by now.#he wants an alliance with like. ok in this show who would you pick to ally with. i love greg but he's abso useless in terms of skills that#would keep you safe. if anything TOM would keep HIM safe. in fact tom himself says who else has taken care of you. literally spells it out.#he even says greg is a joke; will fail; will fuck up; so what use does he have for tom other than companionship. other than love?#a dog might do tricks for you but your main reason for getting one is usually love. right? at least it should be. it would be in tom's case.#and don't even fucking get me STARTED on ''do you wanna come with me? ...sporus?" like girl.#you know what you told him about nero and sporus right. and now you're saying to him; yeah i was talking about you.#you and me. you're my favourite and i wasn't joking when i said i'd marry you.#the whole while tom is asking greg to be his attack dog his fuckin. eyes and expression we get it you're in love with him. like it's ridic.#and all this coming with phrasing it sounds like they're fucking ELOPING. I HATE IT!!!!!! SHUT UP! stop saying that fucking shit god. god#they are so annoying. anyway#the way tom's voice breaks as he says he has things to do [what things. will i find out later.] and the deal and!!#what am i gonna do with a soul anyways... i have you what do i need it for. and as that paragraph said somewhere. he castrates his soul.#then they giggle and are fucking annoying and greg'S HANDS LOOK LIK EHE'S ABOUT TO IDK. HUG TOM? AROUND THE MIDDLE MAYBE#or do something else. and then they just hug instead and i fucking. ugh. i've had enough tbh good fucking bye
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somewhere out there is a demand that needs supplyin' — and once it comes across settrigh's desk, he's making sure it gets fulfilled.
the glaringly obvious centerpiece of the boss' portfolio is what we know as THE PIT — ionia's biggest, most well-known underground fighting ring. it's here that sett made his first step towards entrepreneurship, taking over the establishment at the age of 21, after fighting in the ring himself for 5 years. i won't go too far into detail about the pit ( and it's subsidiaries ) in this post, as i've already got a much more refined post saved in my drafts — but just know, that his revenue from the pit makes up a little over 50% of his annual profits. now, while VIOLENCE is settrigh's main business, he's got his hands in quite a few other ventures. another chunk of his purse is funded by textile production and sales. specifically high end fabrics native to ionia, such as SILK. less than 30% of his sales are domestic, the rest being sold all over runeterra, in places that can afford the delicacy — his main buyers being in piltover, demacia and shurima, but he's got accounts in just about every region. it's a relatively tame component of his assets, compared to some of the others. the whole process is fairly transparent, and surprisingly legal, as sett refuses to extort his own people in such a way. he pays his laborers well, and doesn't force egregious hours to meet quotas. this is due in part to his mother having been part of that particular workforce before. growing up, he's seen first hand how she was treated and what it did to her over time. this is one of settrigh's only business ventures that his mother is fully aware of and only makes up around 15% of his portfolio — it's still, however, equivalent to a multimillion-dollar book. a slightly heftier piece to the puzzle would be his hand in the shipping trade. ionia, being the land of unspoiled beauty and natural magic, it's people were never ones to cultivate it's harvest beyond their own needs in an attempt to protect it's resources. the land is also surrounded by treacherous seas few are willing to sail. between those two quandaries, selling and trading beyond the continent weren't really concerns of the people for quite some time — and the few who did, lost interest and faith after the first noxian invasion. with their lands ravished, a general sense of unease settled across ionia. total resources were demolished and, those that weren't, quickly depleted over the years. this remained an issue for years to come. for the first time in the land's history, they would need to rely heavily on external trading and importing of goods across the entire nation to survive. but they lacked the infrastructure for international trading — a gap settrigh would later fill. it not only helped in supporting the business for his textile and other smaller dealings, but enriched the first lands as a whole — finally allowing the people to buy, sell and trade across runeterra. as sett's dealings in shipping and trade stand today, over half of ionia's trade is shipped straight through him. and that number is so large because his business model is quite the gray area. while it started out as mostly dry goods and his own products, as word got around that ionia joined the major trading scene and the business began to boom, questionable offers began to roll in. the BLACK MARKET TRADES, the weapon shipments — the payout was too good to pass up. and, well, as the boss always said:
the only thing an honest livin' makes you is BROKE.
so he'd accept those too — typically covering it up with the more legal contracts as they moved through each region. the operation as a whole makes up another 30% of his profits. those are the main three business ventures sett's found himself tangled in. all three of course branch off into smaller, more local covenants and dealings, but seeing as this post is already longer than i originally intended it to be, i won't keep babbling about it here. but just know, he has a contact for just about anything you can want, need or think of under the sun. no, really — anything.
#✘ — [ headcanon ]#✘ — [ ᵗᵉᶜʰᶰᶤᵠᵘᵉ...ᶤˢ ᶠᵒʳ ˡᶤᵍʰᵗʷᵉᶤᵍʰᵗˢ ] → settrigh#ah...yes.#the few things sett loves:#his momma#breakin' necks#and fine ionian silk...#i know i'm gonna have to make another post for that last 5% of his profits 'cause#while it's only 5% — that's where a lot of the uh..........bad stuff is.#the stuff that will put him in jail for life. the stuff that will get him killed.#it's mostly just local — is why the percentage is so small.#( but even 5% is still the equivalent of millions mind you... )#those dealings he cares more about the partnership than the actual money most of the time.#he's capable of seeing the value in *good terms* when it comes to certain people.#and don't think that 5% is a small amount in regards to how many contacts that actually is.#ionia's crime scene......wasn't really anything of significance until the noxian invasion.#ionia's crime scene was built on the backs of people like sett. it's why he's considered a leader of ionia's criminal underground.#but yeah and the percentage he gets from the pit is so large because#there's a lot more to it than just#the fights.#but like i said#i didn't wanna detail that out here cause i got another post that'll probably be just as long as this one#that does just that so....
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