#I don't care if they were cold heartless manipulative

[adoregojo]

tiktok makes me wants to bang my head to the wall TF YOU MEAN YOU HATE WHEN WRITERS GAVE YN A PERSONALITY????? YOU TELL ME YOUD RATHER READ A PLAIN AND BORING YN LIKE THEY'RE A DAMN NPC???

[podcastenthusiast]

So that scene where you ask Astarion for sex and he breaks up with you in Act 3 if you slept with him in Act 1 but somehow missed his Act 2 romance stuff/character development.

This scene here:

(Sorry I could only find it on Tiktok. Not my video.)

What I find interesting about it is how unnecessarily mean he is. Personally I think he's trying to avoid a much more difficult conversation.

"I never slept with you for pleasure alone. Couldn't you tell?"

...Yikes. Yeah. I could tell.

"Back in the forest, we both came out on the winning side. The game was clear."

But it wasn't, though. He almost makes it sound like they both had a deal here but he was manipulating Tav, using himself like he always has, and it's like he's angry they never cared enough to notice that.

"You get a moment of escape with a world-endingly beautiful vampire. I get someone to defend me from Cazador."

Something about the way he refers to himself here reminds me of that line he says when he's bitterly lamenting the way everyone just wants his body. "There's nothing more desirable in the world than a vampire, is there?"

"I don't think, honestly, that your services are worth the cost."

...What cost, exactly? He really emphasizes the word. Plus, focusing on Tav's "services" as a protector shifts the focus away from his role in things. Astarion was the one knowingly, well, offering a service, for lack of better phrasing. This reminds me of another line of his, too, if you tell him after Araj he doesn't have to keep using himself like that, and he says "It isn't worth the scars anymore."

"This is what I do. Who do you think you were dealing with? Some fairytale prince? Haha! You are one of a tiny number of people I've slept with who aren't dead. Cheer up! It's quite the achievement."

This is so over the top extra rude. He even does his most fake laugh. Brings up his victims like that as if he killed them when we all know he was forced and there's layers of guilt, disgust, and self-hatred there.

He's trying so hard in this conversation to present himself as the monster he expects the world to see. He's saying 'yes, I'm exactly as cold and heartless as a vampire should be so don't look any closer' because in his mind it's too late to be anything else. They're in Baldur's Gate or near enough and he'll have to face Cazador soon. This is Astarion in full advanced survival mode, imo. Nothing matters but his revenge and the promise of power/safety.

He can't afford to let feelings distract him, even if that means burning some bridges with Tav. He can't be vulnerable anymore, because Tav hasn't shown him by now they could be a safe person for that.

[misti-chan]

❤ King x reader general romantic headcanons ❤

Note : And here it is! A nice anon and @kaizokuwritings asked for some King content awhile ago, but at the time we didn't have many informations about him! But now I was confident to write for him! So, hope you and everyone likes it!!

Also I try to find content for him, but almost found nothing, so if you want something specific for King don't hesitate to ping me! I'll be happy to write for him! ♥

After all he had gone through during his childhood, King is averse to anything related to socializing or people in general. He is someone with huge trust issues towards everyone beside Kaido whom he trusts blindly and thinks he’s Joy Boy, his real savior. So don’t expect him to trust you and be kind to you at first.

In the beginning, he would actually be cold and kind of sarcastic to you, as he doesn’t seem to care about other people besides, you know, Kaido. So it would be a long and bumpy road before King shows any kind of interest in you or deigns to look at you.

You definitely need to be patient and resilient with him as it would be hard to stand against his hard criticism. Indeed, expect him to criticize you every time you make a mistake. His harsh comments are not necessarily there to bring you down, but are on the contrary there to help you do better and to improve yourself. King believes in hard work in order to progress. So you would also need to be a hard worker, someone searching for growth, for him to get a slight interest in you.

I can also see kindness be something that would attract him to you. He certainly deems you as weak at least at first. But, since he was always beaten as a kid and feared as a man, King doesn’t know kindness nor understand it. If he doesn’t deem you weak he would think you’re trying to manipulate others by showing them appreciation. So, then he understands you’re being 100% true. It clearly intrigues him and attracts him your way. 

King may be hard and seen as heartless by many, but he is far from being emotionless. He believed in Kaido, and literally hoped for him to be his savior. Thus, when he felt his heart infatuated with you, he understood that he was in love with you, and that you were a new hope for his future, a better one. King doesn’t feel shame about his love for you, therefore he wouldn’t have any problem confessing to you. In fact he would be the first to make a step.

King is ready to get rejected since he knows about his reputation and his awful behavior, but ready to get accepted? Not at all. He would be totally surprised and a little moved to see that you’re ready to give him a chance even though he is far from being perfect boyfriend material.

During the dating stage, King would be on his tiptoes. He doesn’t know anything about dating and romance, so he would be kind of clueless in the beginning. But he is trying. He would give you your favorite flowers and compliment your progress, giving you tips to improve and encourage you to continue your efforts. However, he is a very busy man, therefore he wouldn’t have a lot of time to go on dates with you. Nevertheless he would try to make some time for you to take you on strolls around the castle. 

Indeed, he is a secret man and wouldn’t want people to know he is dating you. He likes to keep his life private, especially since it could harm you if people knew about you two. So don’t expect dates outside the castle.

Talking about secrets, you would be the only one allowed to look at his face. You are a new and important part of his life. He trusts you and wouldn’t want to hide anything from you. He really hopes you are as ready as him to share your experience as he wishes you to trust him. However, he would only show you his face in private , as he doesn’t trust others.

As for affection and anything related to touch, King is awkward. He was never touched with desire to show him love, as the only touch he knows is violent and brutal. Thus, when you began to show him your eagerness to touch him, he was reluctant at first. But you started to touch each other little by little, small steps by small steps. After some time and adaptation, King finally found himself reaching out for your touch. It is something that he considers relaxing and soul soothing.

The best part of the day for King, is the evening, where the two of you are eating together and telling each other your day. He loves to hear you talk about your tasks, your work and your colleagues. And if one of them has the audacity to hurt you, you can be assured that you won’t see them the next day. Your security and your happiness is one of King’s priorities. And he is so pleased to see you happy and comfortable in his arms at night, when you snuggle against him for his warmth. 

With you, King is happy and hopeful for better days, and a better life. He wishes that one day, you two could have a small house on a faraway island, where the breeze of the ocean would be the only thing to mess with you.

[internetmisfitsworld]

I know Call of Duty Mobile comics are not canon (at least to my knowledge), but it's nice to see some crumbs of Makarov contents. Most importantly, there's a hint of "Makarov being a girl dad" moments in the comic that had me screaming.

We get to see more of his personality, though some of it were a bit OOC to me. But most of the time, they got him right. More russian quips and all, something we don't see much back in MW2 and MW3.

His sassy bitchy side. We got glimpse of that back in MW2 and MW3 but in the comics? Deadass he's such a sassy little shit, that at some point I couldn't even be mad at him 😂 .

We also get to see him sort of, kind of, but not really, have this odd sometimes wholesome, mostly questionable, father-daughter vibe with Sophia Couteau. This bit was probably that caught me off guard the most, mostly because we know him as this cold heartless bastard that he is. It was mentioned that he took her in as his protege after her father died. She became part of his crew along with another character Wraith. Funny enough, Sophia even slightly defend Makarov against Dame (her mother) here.

"I know how much you long for big strong parental figure to make things right for you"

"Big Daddy Vladimir" (The way I cackled when I read this line agagahhaha we get it Dame ✋️✋️✋️Makarov is big and strong lmaooo she so real for that)

"As much my mother as Makarov is" (Confirmed. Makarov is mother 💅🏻)

Anyway, back on the topic.

Interestingly, Sophia's father, Edouard "Templar", once tried to kill Makarov. Sooo, you can see why I label Sophia and Makarov father daughter vibe as "questionable", since well... it's Makarov we're talking here. Trusting Makarov is a deathwish.

So, what was Makarov's intention of taking Sophia, whose father tried to kill him, under his care?

Personally, I believe there's a thin line between genuine care and using her for his own cause. I do believe he initially took her in to use her for his personal agenda. But overtime, he grew to care for her a little bit. Maybe he sees himself in her, reminding him back in his days when Zakhaev took him in (different circumstances but still there's similarities). But of course, I don't believe his growing care for her diminished any thought of using her as a pawn for him to use. But damn it he did had me thinking that he genuinely, truly cared for her.

Another thought I had is that, he might took her in because he sees it as some kind of twisted way to get back at Edouard? Maybe he thought; "You tried to kill me? Imma steal yo kid and be a better dad than you then lmfaoo *runs away with adoption paper in his hand*"

But not really though. Considering at the time, Edouard was considered dead (turns out to be alive sometimes later though agaaag this comic really kills me because anyone can never be truly dead). So, him doing this in the name of "getting revenge" on Edouard, is pointless. Unless of course, he's always known Edouard is alive the whole time.

Yeah all in all, it was really a treat to see Makarov being nice and affectionate with someone. A treat and kinda astounding sight too. Especially since we know what he's like in the game agagaa. Like yeah we know who he is and what he is, we know if push comes to shove, he will probably betray Sophia in a heartbeat. But still, it's heartwarming to see their interaction.

Makarov Parenting 101: Gives manipulation tactics advice

Makarov Parenting 101: Be the first to cover your kid's back. Also, keep your kid's close.

Makarov Parenting 101: Teach your kid your language

(FYI Sophia is French. And yeah I know that it doesn't really mean anything considering that a) it's a pretty simple and common phrase so maybe she doesn't really know russian and only knows a couple of phrase or b) maybe she learned the language herself. But still, it's fun to consider that maybe she pick it up from Makarov. Bet she learned a few curse words as well 🤣 Mak disapproves at first but overtime he finds it amusing and snickers whenever she said it)

Makarov Parenting 101: Gives reassurance to your kid (even if you have to lie)

Yeah I'm on the fence on this one, because as much as I want to believe it, part of me have a feeling that he had that family killed. Also,

"I'm not a monster" The audacity of his ass to say this line lol 💀

Bonus:

It's a funny sight to see him helping someone up. Because we know what happened the last time he did that (rip allen you should've never take that hand). Also, he didn't have to help her up. She's more than capable to do that. Not just Wraith but Sophia too. But here he is giving his hand to them. Notice that Sophia was ahead of them, so I'm gonna assume Mak went up first then wait out to help Sophia up the roof then help Wraith. "He really said "I might be a mass murdering psychopathic terrorist but at least I'm a gentleman 👍"

Also another Makarov Parenting 101: Always help your kid up first in high altitude situation.

So yeah. In the comic, they seem to tone him down a little. Shows his light and sometimes dark, humorous side (a nice change though I'm not complaining). A little flirty too ("never darling" "Freya my dear").

"Never, darling" (SWOON GAGAHAHAGA)

[nomoreusername]

The Plan (Part 2)

Pairing:Aris x female reader

Summary: Despite what he knows Aris is conflicted on how to truly let you go.

I can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. I don't want to believe that Y/N could do that to me.

She had told me herself though. I was nothing more than a plan.

It was depressing really. Now that I look back on it, it's so obvious that she hadn't just grown feelings for me. The change in attitude from a few girls, the way we always ended up as alone as you could get, and how she seemed so interested in everything I said, should have been a huge red flag, but no. Instead, I just decided that she actually felt something for me. I thought that she actually was different and would get to know me and who I am, my morals and beliefs, the things I like and don't, before deciding whether or not I deserve to die. I thought that I had actually meant something to her. I thought she cared about me.

She says she does now, but I don't believe her. I can't. Even if I did, what next? We just move on from the fact that she was just as bad as basically everyone else?

Actually, no. She's worse. I had fallen so deeply in love, and she used that to her advantage.

She's not just cold.

She's heartless.

The fact that I know all of this and am still carrying her back to her tent is pathetic. I could easily wake her up so she wouldn't die of frostbite. Instead, I had her in my arms, curled up to my chest.

I have never hated snow so much before. Not until it meant her needing to be near me.

Of course, that's sort of an excuse. Like I said earlier. I could just wake her. I didn't have to carry her bridal style to her place.

I was though, and I have never felt like more of an idiot doing something good. At least when I was with her I didn't know she was a master manipulator. Now that I did, with me still caring, the pain’s probably on me now.

It actually all is. I blindly loved her and didn’t spot what she was thinking when she acted like she did.

It kills me even more that the very first time she said those three words was after I found out our entire relationship was built upon lies.

But whatever. I’ll just keep holding her until I can't. It's all fine. Everything is fine. I’m fine.

As I approached her already opened tent I felt tears pour down my face. Ignoring them, I ducked my head and entered the place I had spent so much time in.

Holding my breath, I tucked her into her sleeping bag, making sure she was on her side the way she always slept. With her tears shining like dying stars through the dark, she was almost blinding to look out. There were too many things to take in. Too many small details and unwanted, maybe real, emotions.

Looking at my feet to avoid those, I spotted a small paper. Picking it up, I saw my handwriting.

A letter.

A stupid love letter I had given her a few nights ago.

Picking it up, I crumpled it into a ball before throwing it on the ground. Glaring at it, I pretended it was her through my blurry vision. Wiping more tears with the back of my hand I actually gave her a cold look before saying one last thing.

“It's not like it meant anything to you anyway,”I spat. Stepping over it on the way out, I zipped her tent and stormed to mine, of course being just a little further away than everyone else's.

Because screw me, right? Because I definitely asked to be here? Because I definitely didn't spend my first month here sobbing my eyes out every chance I got because of how alone I was?

At least when they were all adjusting to their home and wondering how they got here, if they did something wrong, if they were being punished, if they were meant for something, or if they were dangerous, they had each other. They could just ask for help from someone. And what did I get? People talking about whether or not to send me to die, right in front of me.

I hate this place! I hate all of them! I hate her! I especially hate her!

Without bothering to close it, I fell on the floor of my tent and sobbed like it was the first night all over again.

[fizzingwizard]

My favorite things ever created for Lupin III were Mine Fujiko's Lie, and The Woman Called Mine Fujiko

Not because I don't love the fun, energetic, quirky vibe of the classic series. Not because I prefer Fujiko to the boys (though I do adore her).

For me, The Woman Called Mine Fujiko resurrected not just Fujiko, but every female character written by a man who assumed he knew what makes women tick - or didn't care whether he knew, and just wanted to write her that way.

In the classic series, Fujiko's both a strong, dangerous woman who regularly betrays Lupin, yet she's also a helpless damsel in distress who needs Lupin to save her. How much she is of either depends on the writer and the story. Her saving grace is that, even back then, there was already more than just a sense that Lupin enjoyed getting outmaneuvered by her. They were the kind of perfect rivals who make the fan girls drool when it's two men, and start to see secret romantic longing in every look. Lupin and Fujiko really were rivals in love, but instead of making them more interesting, it hurt them. It made Lupin seem stupid, and it made Fujiko seem cold, heartless, selfish, and arrogant. What's more, because the story always favored Lupin and the boys' POV, we rarely ever got a glimpse of what Fujiko thought or felt - so fans were free to attribute to her whatever motivations they wanted. And fans, when it comes to beautiful, treacherous women, aren't very open-minded, let alone forgiving.

So The Woman Called Mine Fujiko was desperately needed. It somehow managed to pull Fujiko out of the grip of the male gaze without turning her into some kind of angel. It subverted the whole "she turned out like this because she was damaged as a child," by making us think that's what happened to her and then making it all a lie. She's still a criminal. She still betrays and uses people and is less spiritual and more practical about taking life than the romantics Jigen and Goemon (and often Lupin) are. And the underlying message was, it really doesn't matter what made Fujiko. She's a woman, and she's free to do what she wants. Even if it's bad. If we admire Lupin, we really have no business hating Fujiko. (Specific episodes can make most anyone hate her, but that should be chalked up to bad writing and low respect for characterization. This is, after all, fiction.) And, we learn, Lupin isn't in love with Fujiko just because she's beautiful and dangerous. He's also in love with her because he loves freedom, and freedom is Mine Fujiko.

In Mine Fujiko's Lie, we once again get this amazing, nuanced Fujiko who subverts tropes as neatly as she high kicks in heels. Her antagonist is a warped version of herself, a master manipulator who doesn't realize how he's manipulated by others, whose freedom comes with his first taste of desire - and which ultimately leads to his destruction. Nothing ventured, nothing gained - or lost. In her usual style, Fujiko defeats him by seducing and betraying him. While the art avoids the gore of Jigen's and Goemon's episodes, the eroticism highlights Fujiko's body's softness and vulnerability in a way that makes her seem desperate but determined as she uses psychological manipulation to win over sheer male power. Thematically, yeah, she's still talking about love and sex. But there's something existential about the way she talks, something deep that digs into the human psyche.

And the reframing of Fujiko's skill as psychology rather than seduction is only part of what's modern and liberating. The other is her relationship with the little boy (whose name I can't recall atm :P). We're primed to think (or dread) that Fujiko is about to tap into her latent maternal instincts. She's a woman, so of course she won't be able to resist a motherless child! And, as un-Fujiko-like as that would be, the alternative - her stealing the boy's only chance at a healthy life along with stranding him as an orphan - was too distasteful to hope for. The story string us along, making us think it'll be one, it'll be the other... and then, in the end, she's neither drawn into motherly sentiment, nor does she turn out to be utterly irredeemably (the usual fate of women who don't perform femininity in an acceptable way). She gets what she wants and the boy gets what he needs. He probably won't have stellar memories of her - and she's still far, far from an angel. But she's worked the job the way that she wants to work it, with resourcefulness and independence. Unlike her helpless charge, or her helpless antagonist. It's telling that this is the only movie of the three in this series which results in a direct kill (of the main antagonist, I mean). If there's anything Fujiko can't stand, it's helplessness. She's going to survive. She doesn't wax romantic about what it means to be a warrior. Someone came for her, she gave as good as she got - that's Fujiko. And yet, though she can't afford to be weak, she isn't so hard that she can't fall asleep on Lupin's shoulder.

I needed both of these stories to love Lupin III. Without them, I don't think I'd be able to look at it as anything more than a boy's fantasy. Fujiko's gotten some better development and overall treatment in some of the more recent anime series - but I will say that I was really disappointed in her in season six, because I felt she was rewritten to be more like ScarJo's Black Widow than anyone who could function as Lupin's rival and lover at once.

rabbit trail: The bit in Goemon's Blood Spray, where Fujiko walks off because Goemon's self-punishment is too ridiculous to watch, and Jigen and Lupin are all "This is how men are," about it, gets a mixed reaction from me. On the one hand, I tend to feel like Fujiko, that as confused yet determined as Goemon was, him killing himself through training is just wasteful. As is his friends letting him, because that's what he wants and he's got a warrior's spirit and yadda yadda. But on the other, my real issue is claiming this is a gender difference. It's glorifying the warrior philosophy yet again, when in the real world strong, war-hardened men run from battle every day, not because they aren't real warriors, but because they have sense. Live to die another day. (Which, incidentally, is what happens for Goemon, because he survives the training.) IMO Fujiko left because she's practical. Goemon did what he did because he's spiritual. Jigen didn't understand him, but went along with him anyway, because Jigen is emotional. And Lupin did understand him and deliberately didn't get in his way because he's a mix of little bits of all the other characters.

[tripleguess]

Your thoughts don't define you, solely your actions do — what a cute sentiment, one you'll faithfully subscribe to, following the guidebook on 'How To Be A Good Person' to a T, like the gospel for a priest. Call it masking, call it acting; it doesn't matter. If you're defined only by your actions, then your actions shall be selfless and compassionate.

— how did it come to this? She's yelling at you, calling you horrible and manipulative. Oh, I know. By being unconditionally helpful, she has been relying on you for over a year, confiding in you, as you help her with whatever you can. In the process, with the belief that your thoughts do not define you, you've been lying to her. Yes, you care for her. Yes, you'd never leave her, you'd be heartbroken if something happened to her. Yes, you worry for her. Yes, she means a lot to you. Yes— please, don't let these fears plague you, even if - and you omit the latter part - they're entirely true. You may lack the capacity for remorse, but lying— I mean, masking everytime you're with her, it is exhausting. It exhausts you. It frustrates you. Right then, you slip, and as you share a truth with a broken voice, she'll not recognize you anymore. Because, while you may see it as something kind, to put in effort for someone even if you don't emotionally feel the urge to, face it; to anyone normal, it is simple deceit. If your thoughts don't define you, but your actions do— the action in question, deceit, that defines you. Your thoughts have tainted your actions to an ugly shade of red.

Easy fix, you think, still clinging onto the belief that your thoughts do not define you. You can be compassionate and selfless despite them, and you can be honest, too. That's what you'll do. You'll be honest, but compassionate nonetheless. This time, it is foolproof.

— how did it come to this? He's yelling at you, calling you a heartless freak he shouldn't have wasted his time on. Oh, I know. Did you truly think people are this simple? In an attempt to be both helpful yet honest, you've only been scarring him, a cycle of setting something on fire and dipping it right into cold water. Countless times you'd check in, make sure he's not only aware, but also does not mind your lack of emotional attachment to him, that he does not mind to solely profit off of your help. You thought you were being straightforward, but in truth, what you've been sending him is only understood as a chaotic mix of signals. He stayed with you, for he believed there to be a hidden part in you that is capable of love, taking your selfless actions as evidence for its existence — and one day, he'll give up, realizing that it isn't the case. Your thoughts don't define you, your actions do— but honesty, isn't that just brutality? For over a year, you've been torturing him with this hot and cold mix, as he's been desperately trying to "win over" something that doesn't exist. Words hurt; you've been hurting him. If your thoughts don't define you, but your actions do— the action in question, cruelty, that defines you. It is an ugly shade of red.

…

There's no way around it, is there? Your thoughts may not define you, but your thoughts do not exist in a vacuum. In the long run, it'll shatter whatever you build, and instead of building another tower in vain, perhaps it is time to accept the broken shards as a defining trait. You'll still show kindness; still act on the guidebook in your hands. But at an arm's length, pushing those away who step too close with a harsh reminder that No, you're not a good person, even if your actions may have given a different impression, for your thoughts do not match it, and that is indeed a defining trait. Your thoughts make you a bad person. A simple truth, that you wear as a glove. Nothing you'll do will change that.

[kitakeo]

Okay this is kind of what I'm talking about. I have unbridled rage for this take. I for real do not understand it my issue with the book was liking him too much that it was easy to overlook the very minimized murder and i thought that was the point . If you couldn't stand him I don't know how you'd make it through to the end? Did you not sympathize with his final snapping? Did you think him not crying for his mother was damning?

I'm not saying you have to think he's a good person as you know. The murder and his compliance in a lot of bad shit. And not everyone will find the same characters resonating with them but he was just so practical and logical and all of his emotions and actions had clear thought— even if the result was that it didn't much matter to him so he'll remain indifferent— outside of the murder.

And to imply that he's almost manipulative like "the people who care about him think that he returns the feelings" "seems to have genuine feelings but doesn't" is just... incorrect to me? He is incredibly honest and never misrepresents himself at pretty much every point like that's why he's sentenced to death because he didn't see why he should lie about feeling sad about his mother!!! Do you want a murderer to lie? Do you want him to proclaim a love he doesn't have? Would that make him more likable to you? What??

When Marie asks to marry again he is very honest and clear that it doesn't make any difference to him so he will if it is important to her. She knows that love doesn't mean anything to him already! And she smiles and understands and says it's important to her so they will! What part of this is manipulative like what do you want him to do?? Him lying about loving her in the way that she means it would be manipulative. He can't just make up feelings??

HHHDRGH. I don't know why this pisses me off so much. I felt that his trial reflected how both he and his victim were unfairly treated to focus on his low empathy as opposed to, you know, the victim. We never learn the victims name but the prosecution sure does say Meursault is cold and heartless just look into his eyes. So to have this takeaway is just so hard for me to fathom

It's unfair of me to say that it is wrong and be upset I suppose as I can't tell anyone how to feel about a character but I do think the arguments and implications for why here are just so shallow. There are very very clear reasons to not like Meursault and out of them all his lack of emotion/empathy is a bizarre thing to hinge your dislike on, to me at least

[robotlesbianjavert]

i'm not sure what to ask besides what do you think the nayuta + denji + power + aki dynamic would be like? my sister and i were discussing it the other day i think the nayuta + power interactions would be explosive given how needy both are. they definitely band together to dogplie people though there's no doubt about that. aki and denji would not survive it i think. ik some people aren't fans of "everyone lives and is happy" aus but idk love, peace, and, happiness on the planet earth i love em <3

but like fujimoto's works mean so much to me. his work has made me cry more than once. he puts so much thought into his characters and their behaviors. the payoff after all the buildup is amazing.

i bought chainsaw man 1-14 + the csm light novel + fujimoto's one shots in japanese the other day. cus i really want to learn japanese. buying jp manga to read will serve as a motivator. plus i got the complete could you die, my darling? and the tokyo bride story series. since both are favorites of mine. they haven't come in yet but i will be so happy when they do. also i think you can cross reference this with other asks i've sent since i'm kind of frequent in your inbox LOL. will probably fall asleep after sending this

OH HO MY MANGA REC ANON EYYYYY HOW YOU DOIN

anyways excellent question had to think about it a lot while getting through my post-camping haze. i think in some ways i have to mentally break it down in two camps: does nayuta + aki/denji/power take place in a scenario where shenanigans have taken makima out & brought nayuta in before makima's scheming were able to manifest, or a scenario where makima shows her hand and the plot more or less plays out except aki and power manage to eke out a survival?

this distinction would be most apparent for aki. if we're dealing with the former scenario, where aki can still 'love' makima, he's gonna grieve her, feel guilty about not being able to stop it because he just feels guilty about everything, so he's gonna be really protective of nayuta. a bit smothery. in the latter situation though, where makima's plans have come out and he's feeling shock and betrayal, and probably fear and anger and guilt over how power and denji were in danger? i think aki would be much less open to having her around, even cold and distant. not outright mean, but think how he was with denji and power turned up a notch. not like completely heartless about her, she's still sooooooo baby, but it'd be a rocky relationship. nayuta is gonna think he's annoying probably. but he makes good food. so he may live.

with denji, i think the most important factor to consider in comparison to what we're seeing from the denji+nayuta canon relationship, is that here denji isn't alone with her. while i still think denji and nayuta would still be the closest, but i feel like denji doesn't have to Single Dad it so soon after losing aki and power. like, in this reality has he been forced to confront the truth of his childhood? confront makima's manipulation of his feelings? while i don't see denji like, being less close to nayuta and wanting to take care of her, i do think there's some room where he's less compelled to make her #1 while aki and power are still in his life, or if he thinks that aki can help take care of her the way he takes care of everything.

this probably is of no surprise to anyone but the idea of a power + nayuta dynamic intrigues me the most. i think first and foremost that they would Not Get Along (At First, Shenanigans Can Still Happen). their brashness and pushiness are so similar that i think they'd just fuckin clash. ESPECIALLY over denji. they both want denji to pay attention to them and be their bestie and not hang out with the other. in particular, i think that power would delight in being Bigger and More Powerful (from her perspective) than the former makima, and try to pay back all those times makima intimidated her. this won't work out for her! but then something looney tunes slapstick will happen to denji and they will take a break from their rivalry to laugh at him and all will be well.

the other aspect of power+nayuta i kinda mull over is like - so we see power openly disobey makima, The Control Devil, in chapters 90/91. and i'm going to have to reread the series to recall whether power had disobeyed makima before, because i feel like i had the thought before those chapters came out but i can't remember. we do see power pathetically pushing back or whining when makima tells her to do something, only to be cowed when makima looks at her like :) but it's still different from the more servile or fawning way people influenced by makima. though maybe it's because power is a fiend rather than one of the humans that makima condescendingly dotes on. idk i just want power to be My Most Special Girl and have that 'it factor' that lets her resist makima's direct control or something. and nayuta recognizing this and being both threatened and intrigued by her. it's not a legit theory i have but i do think of it.

but eventually. EVENTUALLY. there will be love peace and happiness on the planet earth. fujimoto would never deny us that.

but yeah 110% agreed on fujimoto's works meaning a lot. csm, fire punch, his pre- and post-csm oneshots, pretty much everything has a spark that i straight up can't resist. i do get extra sentimental about look back and goodbye, eri just because they happened to come out after i was dealing with a loss and it was like, Man He Gets It. and he's a fan of psycho goreman dude has taste.

anyways. wishing you LOTS of luck in learning japanese. i will never be able to do so because i do not have a head for languages (my mom lost the form for doing french immersion and from that point i was doomed) and can only subsist on what my friends share, but there's a lot of value in learning any language. which sounds corny. but it's legit.

[supersonicob]

I can't believe i won! I actually won the war! No more toxic b.s., no more fighting, no more love bombing, no more manipulation! It's finally ended! You text my phone some b.s. fake ass, cold, heartless apology. Only apologizing for the fact you yelled at me, cussed at me, and said F*** YOU! To me....but you turned and with the same evil tongue said you meant everything else you said. Yeah I was right you were indeed some kind of evil prick. I look forward to the day you receive your karma. When the most high checks you and puts you in your place. And smashes that ego, pride, and Vanity. When the most high HULK SMASHES your narcissistic ass straight into the fucking mud! Even if you don't get it sooner rather than later....YOU WILL get it when the most high gets back. Your judgement WILL be a dish best served cold indeed. But aside from that, not talking to you FEELS SO DAMNED GOOD! I FEEL SO MUCH WELCOMED PEACE! 🥰😊☺️💯 it's so much more calm and peaceful now that I've kicked you out of my life. My life was better off without'cha in the 1st place....and I should kick the guys ass who gave you my damn number and hooked us up in the 1st place. 😤 you WILL be the VERY last male I WILL EVER let get close to me. EVER! You have taught me how to be cold and heartless. You taught me how to have apathy, to not care about emotions and feelings. You and all the other lovers that's come and gone out of my life. You all have taken a turn in destroying my empathy, and kind hearted personality. Before I met you I had some sliver of hope still in me. Before I met you, I still believed that I would have my happily ever after. But oh man did you destroy that entirely. You need to stay the fuck away from women, your a manipulative heart breaker and you can't fix it. There is 0 hope for you. So I'm going to now enjoy this new found peace and quiet and calmness 🫠☺️and celebrate this occasion!🥳 i honestly don't give a damn about what you think of me. I'll still handle my bills, household, and eat and sleep every day regardless. Your opinions don't matter. You are now deceased to me as far as I'm concerned. I dont need the headache and your ass gave me a damn migraine. No more taking chances, no more dating, no more males coming in and out of my life! And this is a serious vow I make to myself. I put that on my dad's grave 💯. At the end of the day though. I won this battle! I kicked you out of my life for good!

[thetruthbehindtheemotions]

Selfishness

I am the one who likes to be considered the "owner of the world." I am the one who always wants to be the center of attention. I like to feel superior, to be praised, and constantly admired. I hate having to give up things, even though I know that many times I am the cause of sadness for others. I don't give up on myself to help or listen to others. I like everything my way and on my terms, without caring whether it will harm someone else or not. Who am I? I am Selfishness.

Selfishness derives from emotional immaturity, characterized by incomplete development of individuality. The selfish person cannot be individualistic because they have to be favorable to group life since they lack the ability to generate everything they need. They will extract benefits from the group—or some individuals within the group.

The selfish person is the one who needs to receive more than they are capable of giving. They are weak, not smart. Or rather, they are smart because they are weak and need to use intelligence to deceive others and obtain what they need but cannot generate. The selfish person has to be friendly and outgoing. They are not like that because they genuinely like people and enjoy being with them. They are like that because they need others and have to charm them to extract what they need.

Selfishness, as such, is a concept opposite to altruism. An altruistic person sacrifices their own well-being for the sake of others; that is, they prioritize the well-being of others over their own.

For example: A group of three starving people find themselves in front of a table with two loaves of bread. The selfish person, without thinking twice, will quickly eat one of the loaves just so they don't have to share with the others. On the other hand, the altruistic person will let the other two individuals serve themselves and eat freely, and they themselves will end up without eating.

But despite everything, it is wrong to say that being selfish is inherently bad. That is definitely a mistake! Just like everyone else, I also have my positive and negative sides. The positive side is that selfish people are the ones who make the world go round, who create arts and civilizations. Selfishness is the secret to a happy and successful life. Instead of pleasing others and constantly saying "yes," let's try to live for ourselves. On the other hand, the negative side is that often we do absolutely everything in pursuit of always being rewarded. It is manipulating people into doing things that we are not capable of, and in the end, we boast about it without giving the deserved credit to those who were truly responsible for our victory.

A selfish person doesn't have time to care about others because they are always preoccupied with taking care of themselves. That's a fact, isn't it? Well, I know that many of you have been selfish at some moments in your lives, but do you know me? Do you know who I really am? Where I came from? No? I should have guessed. Do you know what the biggest flaw of humanity is? It's judging without getting to know first. And that's exactly what you do with me, always judging me, blaming me. But if you knew my true story, you would know that behind every selfish person, there is also a blend of feelings that make us who we are. Selfishness is the most inhumane feeling that exists, or ironically, the most human. Why is that? Well, the selfish person can be considered inhumane because I am simply seen as the heartless part of humanity. I am that cold, egocentric, unscrupulous part that only cares about my own well-being above everything and everyone. But I am like this precisely because I was created this way! But I am also considered the most human feeling because the positive side of selfishness is that it has learned that the best way to navigate through life is by being true to its convictions, vocations, and passions.

I am the product of a troubled love, full of insecurity and uncertainty. I am the result of a passionate love that was born between Pride and Envy. Are you surprised? Well, you shouldn't be. It's even funny to think that not even two negative and vengeful emotions could escape Love. Yes, I am the child of Pride and Envy. And because I am the child of these two feelings, typically considered negative and bad, I have been judged and despised by many. Loneliness is not as comforting as I forced myself to believe at first. You like to judge, you like to poke the wound, but what you really should do is seek the origin of the selfish person. And do you know what the origin is?

Loneliness. That's right! Every good selfish person became selfish because they have always lived in the shadow of loneliness since their existence. That's why we hate giving up a person or an object. That's why we always prioritize our well-beingand satisfaction above others. We have learned to survive by looking out for ourselves because no one else was there to do it for us.

But does that justify our actions? No, it doesn't. Selfishness may have its roots in loneliness and self-preservation, but it doesn't excuse the harm it can cause to others. It's important to recognize that being selfish is not a desirable trait, as it disregards the well-being and needs of others. It can lead to a lack of empathy, strained relationships, and a negative impact on society as a whole.

However, it's important to note that everyone has moments of selfishness. It's a natural human instinct to prioritize our own needs and desires. The key is to strike a balance between self-care and considering the needs of others. Developing empathy and understanding can help counteract the negative effects of selfishness.

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Egoísmo

Eu sou aquele que gosta de ser considerado o "dono do mundo". Sou aquele que quer sempre ser o centro das atenções. Gosto de me sentir superior, gosto de ser vangloriado, de ser sempre elogiado. Odeio ter que abrir mão das coisas, mesmo sabendo que muitas vezes sou o causador da tristeza de muitos. Não abro mão de mim mesmo para ajudar ou ouvir os outros. Gosto de tudo do meu jeito e na minha hora sem ligar se isso vai ou não prejudicar alguém. Quem sou eu? Eu sou o Egoísmo.

O egoismo deriva da imaturidade emocional que se caracteriza pelo incompleto desenvolvimento da individualidade. O egoísta não pode ser individualista porque ele tem que ser favorável à vida em grupo já que não tem competência para gerar tudo aquilo que necessita. E do grupo - ou de algumas pessoas pertencentes ao grupo - que ira extrair benefícios.

O egoísta é aquele que precisa receber mais do que é capaz de dar. É um fraco e não um esperto. Ou melhor, é esperto porque é fraco e precisa usar a inteligência para ludibriar outras pessoas e delas obter o que necessita e não é capaz de gerar. O egoista tem que ser simpático e extrovertido. Não é assim porque gosta das pessoas e de estar com elas. É assim porque precisa delas e tem que seduzi-las com o intuito de extrair delas aquilo que necessita.

O egoísmo, como tal, é um conceito oposto ao altruísmo. A pessoa altruísta sacrifica o seu próprio bem-estar a favor dos outros; isto ��, zela pelo bem-estar alheio antes do seu próprio bem-estar.

Por exemplo: um grupo de três pessoas esfomeadas encontra-se frente a uma mesa onde estão dois pães. O egoísta, sem pensar duas vezes, irá comer um dos pães muito rapidamente só para não ter que dividir com os outros. Já o altruísta deixará que os outros dois sujeitos se sirvam e comam à vontade, e acabará por ficar sem comer.

Mas apesar de tudo, é errado afirmar que ser egoísta é algo ruim. Isso é definitivamente um erro! Assim como tudo e qualquer pessoa também tenho meu lado positivo e meu lado negativo. O lado positivo é que, pessoas egoístas são aquelas que fazem o mundo girar, que criam artes e civilizações. O egoísmo é o segredo de uma vida feliz e de sucesso. Em vez de agradar os outros e dizer "sim" constantemente, vamos procurar viver por nós mesmos. Já o lado negativo é muitas das vezes, fazer absolutamente tudo em busca de ser sempre recompensado. É manipular as pessoas para que façam algo ao qual não somos capazes e no final, nos vangloriarmos daquilo sem dar o merecido crédito a aqueles que realmente foram os responsáveis pela nossa vitória.

Uma pessoa egoísta não tem tempo para se preocupar com os outros, porque estão sempre preocupadas cuidando delas mesmas. Isso é fato, não? Bom, eu sei que muitos de vocês já foram egoístas em alguns momentos de suas vidas, mas vocês me conhecem?

Sabem quem realmente sou? De onde vim? Não? Já devia ter imaginado. Sabe qual o maior defeito da humanidade? E julgar sem antes conhecer. E é exatamente isso que vocês fazem comigo, estão sempre me julgando, me culpando. Mas se vocês conhecessem minha verdadeira história saberiam que por trás de todo egoísta também há uma mescla de sentimentos que nos faz ser quem somos. O egoísmo é o sentimento mais desumano que existe, ou ironicamente, o mais humano. O porquê disso? Bem, o egoísta pode ser considerado desumano porque eu simplesmente sou considerado a parte da humanidade sem coração. Sou aquela parte fria, egocêntrica, sem escrúpulos que só liga para o próprio bem estar acima de tudo e de todos. Mas eu sou assim justamente por ter sido criado assim! Mas também sou considerado o sentimento mais humano porque o lado positivo do egoísta, é que ele aprendeu que a melhor forma de transitar pela vida é sendo fiel as suas convicções, vocações e paixões.

Eu sou fruto de um amor conturbado, cheio de insegurança e incertezas. Sou fruto de um amor avassalador que nasceu entre o Orgulho e a Inveja. Ficou surpreso? Pois não deveria. É até engraçado pensar que, nem mesmo dois sentimentos negativos e vingativos foram capazes de escapar do Amor. Sim, eu sou filho do Orgulho e da Inveja. E por ser filho desses dois sentimentos, normalmente considerados negativos e ruins, que fui julgado e desprezado por muitos. A solidão não é algo tão reconfortante como eu me obrigava a acreditar no começo. Vocês gostam de julgar, gostam de enfiar o dedo na ferida, mas o que realmente deveriam fazer era buscar a origem da pessoa egoísta. E sabe qual é a origem?

A Solidão. Isso mesmo! Todo bom egoísta só se tornou egoista porque sempre, desde sua existência viveu na sombra da solidão. Por isso odiamos abrir mão de uma pessoa ou objeto. Por isso sempre colocamos nosso bem estar acima de tudo e de todos, porque sempre fomos ignorados, desprezados e por isso aprendemos que nossa felicidade sempre seria a prioridade. Por isso sou egoísta, por isso as pessoas se tornam egoístas.

Mas o que eu não esperava era que, assim como meus pais, eu também não escaparia do amor. Quando a Paixão surgiu em meu caminho foi impossível não amá-la.

Sempre tão linda, tão cheia de vida. Ela surgiu em minha vida e a virou de ponta cabeça.

Ela fez dos meus dias solitários e desprezíveis mais felizes e coloridos. É isso mesmo. Eu, o Egoísmo, me vi caído de amores pela Paixão. E para minha completa surpresa e felicidade, ela também estava caída de amores por mim.

Mas, infelizmente ela sofria do mesmo mal que o Amor. Eles jamais, em hipótese alguma, seriam capazes de permanecerem ao lado de uma única pessoa. Eu não sabia bem quando tudo havia começado a desandar, ou quando as paredes foram se tornando enfraquecidas e podres, quando o nosso relacionamento perdeu o teto e já não tinha mais sua morada. Eu sabia que algo havia mudado, o sentimento já não era mais o mesmo, os toques não eram mais iguais. Eu não me permiti deixá-la, mesmo que ela já não risse mais das minhas piadas, ou fizesse amor comigo daquele jeito só nosso. Eu fui egoísta, porque a amava demais e temia perguntar o que estava acontecendo. Mas no fundo eu sempre soube a resposta. Porque no fundo era eu, porque ela já não me amava mais. Nunca havia me sentindo tão mal por ser quem sou, fui egoísta o tempo todo por nunca ter percebido que ela não era feliz comigo, fui ainda mais egoista por querer a minha felicidade acima da dela. E agora tudo o que me resta é a solidão e um apartamento vazio, porque a Paixão hoje mora do outro lado da cidade, com alguém que a faz feliz como eu nunca fiz.

É isso meus caros, não julguem uma emoção pelo que ela é ou representa, busque sempre saber sua fonte, sua origem. Por trás de todo bom egoísta sempre há uma solidão, uma rejeição, um desejo incontrolado de fazer os demais nos notarem e saberem que também somos dignos de ser amados. Esse sou eu, o Egoísmo.

"Egoísmo não é viver à nossa maneira, mas desejar que os outros vivam como nós queremos."

— Oscar Wilde

[yourcasualreligiousfanatic]

Watching community. On the 4tb season rn. Just wanted to put down some of my observations. The pilot characterisation is drastically different compared to the later seasons. Abed is functioning(he can read time, when later on he can't??? Tf??), but special quirky funny smart kinda way. Idk he seemed so much more mature compared to the later seasons. Dreamatorium, and all his schizo tendencies infantanlised him too much. Troy was the American football start still hung up about his high school life, young cool dumb and kinda stereotypically normal. He was rooted in reality, and could actually be a real person. But then they turned him into the other schizo sheep for their rainman duo. Dumbed him down and made him into a different character. Annie was supposed to be the young naive insecure girl unsure of sex...?ish. Like sheltered and unsure. She was worried about her social standing, popularity and shit. Shallow stuff, but again, real and relatable. Then she turned into... Bruh I don't even know. I guess one can argue that she grew up, and I guess Ill acclet that. She ok if guess, believable character growth that I honestly don't mind. Britta was smart, cold, strong, SMART OK?! she was independent and knew her worth. She was cooooollll as a cucumber. Like. What happened??😭😭😭😭 They made her so WEIRD WTF. Like she was sexy and cool bro, then she became dependent on guys(blade... Like, NAHHHH)and became dumb as shit. What the fuck, they did her so dirty, like frrrr lobotomised her. Like she was the girl you were intimidated of, but was still attracted to, and knew you had to put in a lot of effort into charming, but then she became some brain-dead retard. LMAOOO. Not exactly complaining about all of these changes btw, just kinda confused and a little sad. But wtv. Shirley was kinda the same. And Pierce too. Made him dumber tho, but maybe that's cuz he's just getting older and more senile. Idk, he's kinda funny.😭😭idk why ppl hate him so much, (yeah, he's homophobic, annoying asf, dumb, old, racist, everythingphobic, but that's funny bro, grow a thicker skin, Jesus fuck. Just cause your funny little show is full of cannon rainmans and rupauls, you don't get to filter out the guy.) think he's needed in the dynamic and he adds the flavour. Ppls shouldn't excluded him from their fanarts and stupid fanon shit I've been seeing. Idk, I think he's part of the group, they clearly care for him, and he's an important part, so idk. I guess ppl just seeing and selectively talking about what they want to see kind of pisses me off. But also, it's just a show, so I really shouldn't be so pressed, it's really not that deep. Ppl can do whatever they want, idc, and even if I did, no one else does. So. Jeff. Side note, he can stab me, beat me, gaslight me, manipulate me, hurt me, punch me, kick me, and I wouldn't mind. He cute asf.😭😭 And he was so cool and smart and aloof in the beginning. Twisting your words around like THAT. SO COOL. I have a thing for smart white guys with a little scruff and windblown hair. (House, and Lucifer spn, etc...) But yeah, he gets kind of lame later on. I hate that he starts having a heart and CARING for the ppl around him. Like....Ew....no. I wanted him to go back to being a cool heartless lawyer who cares about superficial things and thrives with other soulless bastards. Mmmm. Now that's sexy. Idk, he got so.... Lame. Lame lame lame. Not cool. No. Got less smart too. Hmmmm. There might be a direct correlation between coolness and intelligence.

Also, the banter of the show was smart and interesting and intricate and funny as hell. I'm not saying it still isn't(at least in season 4), but I feel like they put in a little less effort. The pilot was so good, so many iconic moments in ONE episode, so many good jokes I got pulled in LITERALLY the first scene. That's how good and consistent the jokes were.

Overall, I like what I'm seeing, really really funny show, so much fucking better than SUPERNATURAL. YES, IM STILL PISSED I WASTED SO MUCH TIME ON THAT HOT PILE OF GARBAGE. I love how much reference they put in there, the cinematography, filming styles, stylistic choices..... SOOOOOOO GOOODDD. I could cum, I love shows that do this type of shit. Documentary one ep, heist format, law and order, courtroom style drama, who dunnits, all so funny and Samer, they way they rewrite all these tropes to fit into a fucking COMMUNITY COLLEGE SETTING. WTFFF SO GOOD. I give it, so far at least, a 8.5/10. Yay.

[beomgyuwifey]

Atlantis; chapter 3

Yesterday at night

The long haired boy soon came into view as he towerd over yn frame , covering the moon light as he did so .

" yah beomgyu , move . I want to watch the moon"

" but I'm prettier than the moon , look at me " he said as he moved closer to her face which gave her clear view of his long lashes and his black hair framing his face as he continued to stare her down , she noticed how a faint blush quickly rose to his cheeks as she hitched her breath and felt like she's falling in love all over again .

But she didn't want that so she bonked her head against his as he groaned loudly but all she did was laugh at his stupidity. Beomgyu quickly turned to look at her and tried not to be fazed by her ethereal beauty under the stars tonight . So he quickly hurried to her side and layed down beside her .

Soon the atmosphere got peaceful and almost serene with the moon light shines on the two ex lover's figures .

And each one of them would sometimes sneak glances towards each other as they reached the bottle of alchohol to drink their anxiety away .

" so " yn started as she suddenly felt awkward after remembering that it's been a long time since they had a friendly chat

" YN you don't have to feel pressured to carry a conversation around me , let's just enjoy each other's presence in silence if you'd like " beomgyu reassured her while looking at her soft fetaures as her eyes filled up with a nostalgic and longing stare.

" beomgyu , i miss you "

The boy beside her was caught off guard as soon as the words came out from her mouth directed towards him .

" i missed you t-"

" i still miss you , i never stopped missing you even now . Even though you're here with me it still doesn't feel real "

" neither do i to be honest yn , you changed i changed people change everyday , they grow and evolve. And it breaks my soul everytime i remember that i wasn't there for you- "

" it's not your fault beomgyu, we've been through this-"

Suddenly the boy rose up from his previous relaxed state then turned around his body to look at his ex lover's eyes trying to understand her more even though he pretty much failed everytime he tried to .

" no we didn't yn , you know we never did and honestly i could never blame you for this , i don't know who to blame more your parents or your company that they've been pushing you ever since you decided to pursue this stupid choice of career i-i- everytime i remember our past it breaks me more and more ."

His tears were rolling down his cheeks as he was frustrated from the lack of reaction the girl gave him . She was as stone cold and heartless as he remembered when it comes to sharing her emotions or facing her problems.

" you don't know anything about me choi beomgyu "

" but i know yn , I've never been happier ever since i got your message a while ago i wish we'd go-"

" yeah well when I'm drunk i enjoy making stupid decisions and giving worthless people a piece of my mind " and suddenly all the alchohol dissapeared in his body as he saw how she suddenly became sober and mindful of her words like he always knew her .

He'd always hated how she could sometimes be , he swore she could be so manipulative sometimes. Her words didn't effect him that much anymore. After all he was used to it , everytime he would bring up her parents she'd be all over the place with her words , not caring whenever it hurt him or not . She never did care .

If only soobin didn't talk him out of this relationship he would still be stuck here all over again which at that time when the honeymoon phase of their relationship was over , everything went upside down from his career to his personal life stirring up problems between him and his members .

Yn suddenly got up from her spot and proceeded to leave the place as the boy behind her was still processing her words . She knew she hurt him , she felt bad that she didn't actually feel bad for him anymore after all this time she was getting used to him crawling back to her after every argument they had .

"Yn.."

"Yn !"

Two voices reached out for her at the same time , one was so low and pathetic you could barely hear it which she recognized was beomgyu's

But the other one completely stopped her movements as her breath hitched in her throat trying not to throw up fom all the alchohol she'd consumed .

The voice was alarming and sharp as it called out for her again , its owner was standing before as he scanned her appearance.

" manager yona i-"

" what are you doing here at this late time yn ? "

The woman said as she glared down her frame .which made yn cower away as she replied in a tiny voice fearing for the consequences of her reckless actions.

" i went out for drinks with karina and Giselle "

" oh really where are they now huh ? " the manager voice said back as she mocked her answer.

" they left to go back at the dormitory, i told them i wanted to get a fresh air "

" yeah fresh air with an empty bottle of alcohol "

" sorry ..."

" we'll talk about this later " the older woman said as she grapped yn's arm forcefully dragging her to the car in front of her , taking one last look at her surroundings as she shoved the poor girl in the seat .

Beomgyu watched the scene unfold in front of him as he not dared to interfere again . His eyebrows were furrowed as his lips formed a scowl, he never liked the way SM managers treated their artists especially how particularly harsh was aespa manager on yn .

Then his eyes darted downwards to the bracelet he gave to yn on her birthday last year , which fell off when she left earlier. A smile faintly formed on his face as he knew the yn earlier wasn't his yn . She was just forced to say those words trying to pry him away from her .

But oh dear yn , the heart want what it wants

Previous & masterlist & next

[ *english is my third language, so please excuse any grammar or vocabulary errors . ]

[aajjks]

Yandere!BTS: You reject them.

Disclaimer: This is a yandere reaction. It’ll contain obsessive behaviours, possessive behaviours, threats, manipulation. DO NOT ROMANTACISE THIS BEHAVIOUR. Please keep in mind that this is purely fictional and I don’t think that any Bts member would ever act like this!

A/N: pls someone beat me.. I’m so bad 😭😭 it HAS BEEN AGES SINCE I ACTUALLY WROTE SOMETHING... why are you still with me? Bc you are an angel!!!! Also pls DO NOT ROMANTACISE THIS BEHAVIOUR!! Pls give me some of ur love and support bc I need it, ALSO PLS SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS! Also pls tell me why are Jungkooks reaction always longgg? 😳 tell me are u all well? Pls take care of urselves!!! ENJOY!! Remember English is not my first language and I got this done like quick! So not edited!

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Jimin:

He felt like the world was falling apart slowly. His knees trembled, he felt someone was choking him. He couldn’t get a grip on himself. You stood in front of him in all your glory. You were heartbreakingly beautiful, he felt so weak for you. “Y-Y/N please!” Jimin cried, the tears coming out like waterfalls. This had to be a bad dream. This couldn’t be reality.

You were supposed to accept his love for you. And make him yours. But fate had other plans for him. This must be a sick joke. You couldn’t tear his heart into millions of pieces. Your eyes were cold, there was no warmth in them. “Y-Y/N please d-don’t reject me! Please!” His voice was rough. He couldn’t even form proper sentences because of crying. Eventually his knees gave out and he fell in front of you.

“Jimin! Please get up! Don’t make me feel like a bad person. I don’t love you and I’m sorry I don’t want to be with you! But please don’t embarrass me!” You rolled your eyes at the crying man.

Jimin shook his head negatively. You had to accept him! Fate has to accept that you and Jimin are meant to be together!

Now, his mind was blank. All he saw was you were not his. And that made him furious! He stood up and grabbed you harshly without caring about hurting you. All he cared about was having you, all to himself. By any means.

You yelped in pain. His Impassive eyes drawing holes into your soul. His sudden change in demour scared you. While jimin finally understood the reason behind your rejection.

His eyes hardened as he asked the question. "Is there someone else, sweetheart?" His teeth were gritted in jealousy. Your mouth opened wide in shock at his question. You tried to deny and tell the truth but jimin had you speechless. And jimin took this as a sign of admitting and pulled you even closer.

His lips grazed your earlobe as he whispered quietly, "if I can't have you than no one ever will, Y/N. So you better be mine. Because you obviously don't have any idea of what I'm capable of." Jimin smiled. "Remember if I can beg then I can force you too, baby." He kissed your earlobe gently.

Taehyung:

“N-No! Please taehyung I'm sorry p-please!” You were getting tired of begging, crying and screaming. Your eyes were now void of tears. You had nothing left. Not even your pathetic tears. "Stop moving Y/N!" Taehyung hissed, taking a puff of the half cigar in his hands. How could he even tell you to not move? He had you restrained while making you watch as his men beat your lover. You closed your eyes at the sight of minhyuk's bloodied state.

Your heart pierced at the sight. Taehyung was merciless, heartless. He couldn't have a heart because he did not care about anything or anyone. What was your mistake? Why did you have to be suffering, forced to watch your lover slowly die? Why? Because you rejected the devil in disguise? Or maybe because you loved somebody other than him?

“Y/N, baby stop crying. You’re hurting me.” He stood making his tall frame visible. He was unfairly attractive, but looks were always deceiving. “T-Taehyung please stop this! P-Please let us go. I-I beg you! H-He’s bleeding so much Taehyung! Please!” You cried again. All you could do was cry. You closed your eyes. You couldn’t bear to his face now, Taehyung disgusted you. You couldn’t ever dream of him stepping so low. Taehyung growled at you, you opened your eyes to see Taehyung kicking minhyuk hard. “Because of this man you’re crying and rejected me huh? Should I just kill him?” Taehyung asked innocently while looking into your wide eyes.

“N-No please Taehyung!” You trashed around the restraints, but no use. Taehyung smirked coming closer to you. He bent down to his knees so he could face you directly. “Maybe I should mark you as mine, by force in front of this weak fucker? What do you say Y/N?” Taehyungs intense gaze held Obsession.

You didn’t even get the time to process his words as he kissed you deeply. In front of your love. This was the price of rejecting Kim Taehyung. And now you had to pay.

Jungkook:

“Jungkook please let me go! Please!” You were almost at the verge of tears now. Jungkook held you captive against your will. You thought he’d understand, you were foolish enough to think that Jungkook would be strong enough to take your rejection lightly. You knew Jungkook very well. You were just his friend but Jungkook thought of you as more. Way more than what you thought of him. He was like a little brother to you. Jungkook took your kindness the wrong way. And now that made you regret being friendly with him.

Being tied to the bed was not on your bucket list, especially in a penthouse. Jungkook drugged you and kidnapped you because you rejected him.

But that was months ago. You forgot about it as an awkward moment, nothing more. Jungkook was sensitive. “Y/N you’re awake.” Jungkook spoke sleepily while snuggling into you further. He slept peacefully while you cried and cried. You glared at the long haired man coldly. “Jungkook where the fuck am I? Why am I with you, in your fucking bed!” You cried. It was like your worst nightmare was slowly coming to life.

You always felt long stares at you while you taught him, you always felt a presence behind you when you went out, and of course the creepy love letters.

You couldn’t comprehend why the Jeon’s favoured you so much. Why the whole campus didn’t dare to even look your way.

It all made sense to you when Jungkook confessed to you. He was cute and nice. But that decent image of him faded when you glanced in his eyes after rejecting him. And that became the worst mistake of your life. There was not a day where you did not feel guilty. Because Jungkook had done something to him. And the world seemed to hate you because of it.

“Jungkook please let me go!” You begged him. His sleepy eyes suddenly opened wide. “W-What do you mean Y/N? Let you g-go?” Jungkook’s tone was so scared. As you nodded he immediately jumped in you and pinned you down on the large bed.

He was heavy. “J-Jungkook!” You screamed at him. He was out of his senses. Ignoring you, he buried his face in your neck and took deep breaths. After nuzzling he finally spoke. “N-No Y/N! Please don’t ask me to leave you! I-I can’t live without you! Please! Y-You rejected me without even thinking of my feelings? I was broken! I-I couldn’t eat or sleep! All I think about is you! You’re engraved in my brain and heart Y/N please love me! Please!” Now, the heartbreaking sobs came.

Jungkook was hard to leave. And you were completely helpless because Jungkook depended himself on you. You hated him.

You hated him as much as he loved you.

[life-rewritten]

A Chance to Love: A chance to know Tin and Can Part 2/2

Identity in a Name, as a literary device used for Symbolic Foreshadowing.  

A chance to love episode 4:

What’s in a name? A chance to love episode 4 introduces the background of each of the names of the main characters to the audience. Both Tin and Can reveal the reasons for their names at the same time sharing their perspectives and what it represents to them.  Both these two scenes are catalysts for the relationship between these two and will be explained further. This post will focus on how Mame uses  names in this story to  reveal the subtext/understanding of these two’s characterisation. 

The reason for Tin

Tin later reveals the context  for the creation of his name in a vulnerable moment. It is Tin who tells Can the origin of his name which already showcases again intimacy because he’s showing a vulnerable side of himself to Can. Unlike Can's embarrassment, Tin shows resentment and bitterness towards his name and also towards his mother. Whilst Can doesn't want him to know about his name because of fear of being teased, Tin reveals his and lies that it's a messed up joke done to play with Can. Tin's mum named him after his brother as an afterthought; she didn't want him as a baby and preferred Tul over Tin. She named him after his brother so he can follow his footsteps and be like him. This  already starts to unveil his characterisation and his story arc especially when it revolves around  the shadow of Tul in Tin's life.

Tin first shows up to the show, cold and distanced from people in his world. Until he bumps into Can who’s determined to not let him get away with his rude behaviour.

First thing we should notice about the naming of Tin

1. He’s resentful and bitter because of his relationship with Tul. He did use to look up to Tul but a revelation about his family dynamics has made him stop trusting Tul and also feeling betrayed by Tul.

2. He feels neglected and without his own space to fit in, and belong 

3. He feels like a shadow without his own story, character or importance in his own environment. 

Tul and Tin brother’s who are forced to see each other as enemies, both turned cold and heartless because of the lifestyle they were forced into.

A shadow of Tul

Tul is portrayed as the most significant emotional impact on why Tin is the way he is. He shows massive resentment towards Tul, always calling him out and threatening to expose his fakery. Tul acts naïve to his claims but also indicates a snide approach enjoying Tin's insults, even saying to himself he won't be able to break down his mask. In Love by Chance, we're shown that Tin looked up to Tul, but something he did cause him to be broken and not to trust, his family members, Tul or even the world. Tin being named after Tul suggests that the shadow of Tul is what follows him around throughout his whole life until he meets Can. As a shadow Tin feels he has to always be behind Tul, never foward or in the spotlight, always being overshadowed by Tul’s presence and achievements. And it also suggests a competition for the family inheritance/wealth which both brothers may have to go through. Tin is determined to be seen as stronger, wiser and just over all ahead of Tul in everything in order to survive in life. Tul isn’t just a competition but he’s the very obstacle Tin will have to overcome to really grow and find peace/joy this until he meets Can who represents to him light and trust. 

 The shadow also suggests again the feeling of being haunted (connecting to trauma, pressure, neglect). Tin's stifling family environment has made him become someone who has to be cold, to survive. It suggests a competitive environment in which he has to fight to be noticed and taken seriously. The harshness of what he has to go through has shown him to distrust everyone, always to be alert and to see everyone as manipulative. (Including the poor, who he's been taught to see as gold diggers who would do anything for money)

The tin man is a known character in Wizard of Oz his goal is to get a heart and start to feel again. Meeting Dorothy helps him regain the ability to emote and take care of someone again.

The actual Tin Man:

Based on connotations of the wizard of oz. Tin’s name is alluded to the very archetype in the story known as Tinman. A man who’s been cursed to be made of Tin, he feels stuck, can’t move forward and also loses his heart. Being a man made of tin has been alluded to stiffness, coldness, (without a heart), and emotionless. A very dark atmosphere and mood is set and  like the Tinman, Tin is seen as heartless by Can; he acts stiff and cold to everyone he meets apart from his nephew. He's also been taught or turned into someone who should not feel emotions that allude to trust, or love because he's built up a wall to protect him selves from others. Especially as the story unveils his past we see Tin is suffering from wounds of  being too trusting and to naïve. 

The way others perceive Tin is not who he is though, from episode 4 he slowly starts to reveal who he really is and Can also senses that he's more than just cold-hearted which is why he likes hanging out with him. We also see his transformation alluded to in the future events like in episode 1 where he calms down Can and comforts him.

Can’s sunny and childish atmosphere contradicts with Tin’s cold and brooding atmosphere. One is  a child, whilst the other was forced to grow up to quickly in order to survive the hostile environment.

Can and Tin's dynamics: Juxtaposition as a device

From both analysis of these twos names, it’s obvious to notice the dynamics hinted and reasons for why they both need each other. There's a juxtaposition with the sunny personality of Can and the heaviness of Tin's disposition. Can's family dynamics also differ from Tin's, making Tin realise that warmth can exist in a family, (from season 1). There can be a trustworthy and loyal person that is for him who wouldn't be affected by money and greed, someone who doesn't think about his family's name (this also needs a complete analysis) because he doesn't care about wealth, or kissing up to people. 

Can hates feeling like someone bought him, and this is precisely the proof that Tin needs to know he isn't by his side for his money. Tin's love for Can makes Can realise that he doesn't need to be alone, and having someone by his side is worth the pain because of how much joy and happiness can be found from being with them. Their personalities compliment each other, provide the paths for the character developments needed, and they cover their shortcomings.

Tin comforting Can shows how much his character grows and how much influence Can has on him. They both form an intimate connection where they both rely on the other the most.

The reveal of both their names: A catalyst for their relationship

The scene where Can's name is revealed is what causes Tin to start to opening up to him. Mostly because it makes him adore Can all the more because he begins to understand and trust him. He tests out Can's reaction immediately by opening up to him about his name. In the previous season he uses it as a way to tease and get Can flustered, he also uses it to blackmail him though I don't think that's happening in this season. (which is fine by me). 

Can's name being revealed to Tin changes their dynamics in the first season, gives Tin more power and reasons to be near Can. In this season it's used to make him reveal the truth because it makes him even more convinced that he likes being around him and he enjoys the warm atmosphere of Can’s family.

The reveal of Tin's name also causes a change in their dynamic both in season 1 and this season. Tin is shocked to see Can openly believe his story and Can reacts by feeling guilty for calling him unloved previously and also sympathises with him. 

For Tin, it makes him realise that Can is very trusting again, the same reason why he likes him, and Can like a child   latches onto his words and  takes on his burdens to comfort him. On the other hand, this is the first time Can sees Tin vulnerable and slowly starts to piece together why Tin acts the way he does, why he spoke to his mother the way he did and why he doesn't trust anyone. Can starts to find him self caring for Tin because of this reveal and ends up feeling hurt even more when Tin plays it of as a lie. 

Their relationship focuses on having a hand to hold, someone to trust and feel understood and known by. Someone who invades their comfort space and makes them confront their insecurities.

The relationship changes because Can is more open to Tin and willing to be a friend to him because of this reveal. This makes them see parts of themselves that people don't see usually making them start to lean on each other whenever the other needs, i.e. episode 1 when Can cries to Tin on his shoulder about his failures.

Tin and Can played by Mean and Plan in A Chance to Love

Both the names of Tin and Can while seeming odd actually ends up revealing layers of their characters which also shows why the two are made for each other. Whilst this post might be repetitive; it's because there is an emphasis on how different they need to be to complete each other. You've heard the phrase opposites attract, Mame uses Tin and Can to showcase the strengths of that argument. As we continue to break down the dynamics of these 2's relationship, I can't wait to know more about the two, especially why Tin is the way he is, is Tul actually as bad as he thinks or is it a misunderstanding, and how will Can realise his feelings for Tin and will the family try to ruin that. So many places the story can go and I can't wait to watch it. 

[spinelxreader]

Okay so it's taking a while for me to write the spinel babies headcanon, so as a lil gift from me to you I'll give yall a sneak peek and share the spinel babies and talk a bit about them, provided by art from the absolutely amazing @gliderbudgie and @spin-in-hell i love you 💖💖 and thank you!!

(Ps. Reader is half gem/half human just like to point that out first)

Everyone I'll like to introduce you to the triplets:

Edel the troublemaker:

Name: Edel

Birthday: July 19

Gem placement: Chest

Hair color: She was born with almost white hair but as she grew older it started taking a slight pink hue

Eye color: bright magenta

Skin color: same as spinel

Edel is a mischievous troublemaker and self-proclaimed underachiever and prankster.She is usually unintentionally mean and exercises mocking judgment towards others she isn't very familiar with.

She is quiet boisterous, exuberant and unorthodox. She has a tendency to be very lazy, when given the option to pick between the easiest way and the proper way she will pick the easiest way every time without hesitation, which results in her getting into more trouble; because the easy way always has consequences but Edel doesn't bother to think about them until they're upon her.

Edel is the most misunderstood of the family, constantly frustrated by the narrow-minded people of beachcity and homeworld, who judge her merely by her actions.

Despite her frequent unkindness and pranks, Edel is far from heartless. She deeply cares for her siblings, going so far as to revealing her secret to them out of guilt for lying, She loves them dearly despite their constant antagonism. Edel can also feel remorse and guilt for her actions and has apologized and taken responsibility for them, and often goes out of her way to set things right whenever her disregard for the consequences directly affect her friends and/or family. Though these instances are rare.

Edels biggest trait, is her desire for acknowledgement; her pranks around her home were for her parent's to notice, or at least scold her.

Unlike her Sister Sweetpea, she is not overly studious nor is she an academically gifted student who performs well in school. Rather, she relies more on her street-smarts than academics. She's very manipulative, using everyone's weaknesses to her advantage. One of her flaws is her own reliance on her gem powers and her laziness, which often results in some big trouble, as well her lack of disregard for rules.

She despises Sweetpea's "nerdiness", though she's jealous at how smart, good, and generous Sweetpea is. However, sweetpea is  always the first person Edel goes to when she needs help in solving her many mistakes.

Little fun facts:

her eye markings are diamonds

She was named after the edelweiss flower

Edel is the first born

Edel calls spinel pops alot to annoy her

She got all her chaotic energy from her pops lol

Sweetpea the sweet heart:

Name: Sweetpea

Birthday: july 19

Gem placement: Chest

Hair color: Half pastel pink and half brown

Eye color: pink & brown (heterochromia)

Skin color: Stevens skin tone but with a bit of a pink hue

Sweetpea has a cheerful and straight-forward personality. She is very opinionated and usually speaks her mind.She can get very enthusiastic about things that catch her eye and if there is something that even remotely interests her, she will instantly act upon and pursue those feelings.

She is a friendly and encouraging girl who love's sweet foods and has many interests.  Sweetpea is independent and is more of a support for others, as well as an innovator. She puts up a smile in front of others, regardless of how she feels, in order to avoid her family or friends worrying about her. Sweetpea has an open mind and seems to have trouble settling on one thing, before moving to the next.

She can be quite pushy in achieving her goals, especially when Her siblings don't share the same opinion with her. She is also shown to have a dry and somewhat twisted sense of humor.

Despite people thinking of her as naive, Sweetpea can be quite observant, picking up on things others miss and retaining information casually gathered through conversation.Sweetpea is an innovative, insightful and extremely intelligent girl, far exceeding the standards of a regular human child.

She has also been known to have a mischievous side, this is shown when she uses her quick wits and smarts to convinve her parents that her other siblings had caused trouble when it was in fact her.

Little fun facts:

Sweetpea is able to switch her eye color back and forth (one day her Brown eye could be on her left then another day on the right)

Her eye markings are teardrops

She is the only one who i have given a weapon and it's a cane that's also a sword

Sweetpea is the second born

Felix the Soft

Name: Felix

Birthday: july 19

Gem placement: chest

Hair color: Black

Eye color: grey

Skin color: a light grey

Felix is usually very calm, aside from the few times they become flustered or angry.

Because of his quiet nature, some to most of his dialogue is overlooked in conversation and the others will carry on without his views being acknowledged in the heat of the moment. Still, he's usually the first to try to calm a heated moment and if he feels others' attitudes disturb a specific person, he immediately calls them on it and discovers a way to diffuse the tension amicably. When he's truly angered many of his family members shuddered at his cold words, hard tone and frightening expression.

Others have called him too open minded and too generous because of his lack of reluctance or hesitance to do or go along with things.

He's also has said and done sweet things for others so smoothly that they will cause even the most stoic/explosive of a person to become flustered or open their hearts to him.

Little fun facts:

Felix was born mute

Although he can't speak, his siblings always seem to know what he's exactly saying

His eye markings are like his mom's but they only go a bit down his eyes and his marks are a bit thicker

His eye's turn pure black when angry/sad

Felix was based off of 1930's cartoons

He has his moms stretching abilities

He's a momma's boi

He was the last born (he's baby)

Here are the full pictures and fanart: