#I don’t need this new anxiety 😀😀

[minyardapologist]

Ao3 is down how am I supposed to get endless andreil content

[beauspot]

Thoughts on my second watch of Good Omens 2

i heard the fly buzzing in my first watch but didn’t know why and now i know

Maggie my sweet darling angel baby i love you

Aziraphale turning their car yellow

crowleys “no more dying” in extreme scottish.

Disposable Demon i’ll save you from these awful people i promise 😭

Aziraphale’s little smile when he says “smitten” to Crowley

i wonder if crowley was especially hurt because aziraphale seemed to be able to forgive gabriel who tried to kill him but can’t seem to forgive him being a demon.(still seeing all of this as a metaphor for internalized homophobia, like aziraphale knows he’s not the perfect angel he wants to be and he’s projecting his feelings about that onto crowley)

I can’t believe we got an actual ball. like pride and prejudice, bridgerton ball.

the beautiful score that started playing when aziraphale brought the chandelier down

i didn’t even realize that when they walked in the outfits changed. mrs sandwich made me realize(also i love her)

Nina being the only one to question the weird magical shit Aziraphale and Crowley do sends me so bad.

Season 2 took everything i liked about the first season (aziracrow, queer subtext, gay people, archangels, and beelzebub) and expanded on it

The adorable smile on Aziraphales face when he asked Crowley to dance 😭 he’s so pure(i should have known something was up, everything was going too well)

Crowley saying i won’t leave you on your own and Aziraphale saying i know 🤒

why isn’t aziraphale able to miracle nina and maggie??

crowley and mrs sandwich flirting. too cute

crowley saying he’s neither nice nor a lad.

crowleys little run in heaven when he’s following muriel

maggie giving the middle finger to the demons and laughing in their face when they tried to belittle her. queen

defensive aziraphale is so badass. just because he’s soft doesn’t mean he can’t stand up for himself or the people he loves

the random guitar solo in the final episode theme is so bizarre to me. why is it there?

ahh the raining hearts symbolizing crowleys vavoom plan!

crowley’s heavenly outfit not being white but “light grey”

the relief in aziraphale’s voice when crowley came back 😀

also him mumbling about the halo like he did with the sword 😭 but he sure loves to boast about the things he’s done right to crowley

aziraphale and crowley doing magic together has the power to set off alarm bells in heaven and they barely tried, they’re just in sync

saraqael was such a good addition to the cast.

crowley smiling at aziraphale going off on the angels and demons

“where beelzebub is, is my Heaven.” 🥹

the little knowing look after crowley mentions alpha centauri

the way they just interrupted michael’s speech by leaving 😭

i think that aziraphale was about to ask crowley to move in but that’s my opinion

the look the metatron gave crowley is so strange. i don’t like that

“JUST US. NOT YOU.”

“You’re not helping, angel.”

the softness in aziraphale’s voice when he talked about making crowley an angel again? how can you hate him! he thought he was doing the right thing!

also the miscommunication these two have is completely out of hand because crowley asked aziraphale if he said no and aziraphale hadn’t given an answer AT ALL to the metatron. the metatron told him to take his time. he went back to tell crowley the news first.

crowleys confession makes my stomach hurt. the way his voice broke when he said “we’ve spent our existence pretending that we aren’t.”. the way he had to force himself past his anxiety to tell aziraphale he wanted to spend eternity with him? fuck.

the way aziraphale tells crowley to come with him. like and through all of this they are losing each other, oh my god.

“i need you!” god aziraphale punch me in the face next time why don’t you?

i feel like in all this anger towards aziraphale a lot of people are ignoring that he put himself out there too. he was telling crowley he needed him just like crowley was

“no nightingales.” FUCK YOU GAIMAN

the way aziraphale touched his lips after. dear GOD. someone get michael sheen an emmy

seeing aziraphale struggle against his wanting to kiss crowley back and his fear and wanting him to come back to heaven further supports my internalized homophobia analogy

also even knowing the kiss was going to happen because of the spoiler it still didn’t quell my shock. nor did it ruin the scene, i think it actually surprised me more because it did not happen how i thought it would.

side note i saw some people saying they thought the kiss was going to be a cop out in some way. like a body swap or as a joke and i don’t really know why?

it just occurred to me that both aziraphale and crowley thought the other one was just doing that thing they do where they say they won’t help, or they’re on their own but they eventually come back not knowing that the other was completely set on these plans they had. this wasn’t like armageddon or saving gabriel.

the second coming…of jesus…

crowley cutting off “a nightingale sang in berkeley square”...i’m gonna jump

this being the ending for the next 3-4 years. oh.

[nanamin-nah-nanamine]

This is for the matchmaking, I'm a non-binary person in my early 20 who is extremely introverted, i struggle with social situations when I'm alone, i also struggle with depression and anxiety which makes life rather hard, i have been diagnosed with autism so when i get interested in something that tends to be my main interest for months if not a year or more. I am a very emotional person i cry at everything and anything honestly, due to being diagnosed with Autism very late in my life i have spent a lot of time masking, to make myself appear as normal as possible, so much so that i don't even know what I'm actually like normally. Even though i am a very anxious person i have a major case of Resting Bitch face, so much so that some of my friends told me they were scared of talking to me at first because they thought i look mean.

I'm a very creative person, i love expressing myself in ways that don't have anything to do with talking, i also love fashion and i usually dress in a mix of goth and comfy clothes, though comfy clothes usually overtake my need to look fancy due to major dysphoria so i usually opt for large hoodies. My hair is currently in a chin long undercut which is a kind of very light pink/purple due to the colour fading over time, i have green eyes, wear glasses and have a septum as well as tattoos. I'm also currently a major in art and Theatre, mostly focused on painting. I am a theater kid at heart, i love musicals and have acted in a few myself. I'm also Pansexual so i will literally just go for anyone I'm interested in no matter the gender.

Hi pookie! I apologize for the wait cause finals were a bitch but they’re finally DONE

Aight now lets get into this

Due to the information provided you will be matched up with…🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

My lovely chosito osito!!(ignore everything that’s happened in 259😀)

Okay now walk with me🚶🏾‍♀️

I feel like you and Choso would really vibe together for numerous reasons. Choso is an eldest sibling so he’s incredibly patient and he’s proven to be very nurturing so I feel as though it would be second nature for him to always be thinking about you and how things might affect you. I think lil homie also has anxiety so he would be able to relate to you on that level, and since so much of this world is completely new to him you guys would be able to bond over the lovely overstimulation of day to day life.

From one autistic person to another I really feel like Choso would understand a lot more than some of the other characters? Idk I just get that vibe from him. He’s very blunt and straightforward, doesn’t cut corners in his explanations and he’s also got one hell of a resting face so I feel like he wouldn’t take lack of expression personally if you’re ever feeling burnt out.

Like I mentioned prior this boy is 🗣️NURTURING

He basically had to sub in as mom,dad,brother for all of those siblings so he’s got you bby don’t worry. I feel like he can be really protective and overbearing at times though but if that crosses a like for you then you just need to let him know. He’s no stranger to tears and he has no problem scooping you up in his arms and letting you cry it out.

If you wanna yap about a new hyper fixation you better believe Choso will listen!! The world is new and exciting and even though the bright lights and media tend to give him headaches, he can’t get enough of you relaying him the information because he’s kinda obsessed with you ngl.

Y’all with be THAT alt introverted couple who everybody is kind of scared of but are actually sweethearts. Once Choso figured out about department stores and piercing parlors it’s over for you bitches.

He thinks your tattoos are so cool and he’s kinda just like fascinated by the entire process. If you ever choose to get more he would wanna go with you but he’d be holding your hand and staring at the tattoo artist like this 😠

I also feel like he would definitely respect your pronouns once he wrapped his head around them because he is just not from this era so it’ll take him a bit😭 it’s genuinely just pure ignorance and not disrespect but he WILL get the hang of it.

Activities you do together include….

•going to see musicals and live theatre(he will be enchanted or overstimulated, it’s a 50/50 on this one)

•staying inside✨(a fan favorite)

•p i e r c i n g d a t e s

•painting!! More or less so him watching you paint but it’s the thought that counts🥰

[alluraaaa]

18 for the whole team. I'd like to know your thoughts.... (sits in front of you with a notepad and pencil) owo

VERY good question arbor. class is in session

18. what they’d go to see a therapist about

(this quickly turned into what the team is like in therapy as well. but i love talking so <3)

the entire team would obviously be in therapy about. the intergalactic war they were on the front lines of. that goes without saying but i’m saying it anyway

shiro: not just the PTSD but how he’s so nonchalant about it. he goes into his first session like “yeah. i think i have PTSD? like i’m not a professional i’m not gonna definitively say i do but… (describes how often he gets panic attacks and how distressing they are in detail)” and the therapist is like “😀… okay. do you wanna talk about what happened? it’s okay if you don’t it might be difficult to recall”

meanwhile shiro’s like “oh yeah! i was kidnapped and forced to fight to the death in a gladiator ring for a year. then i had to lead a team of teenagers in a war against a ten thousand year old empire. just the seven of us against an entire militia :|-)” and the therapist is already pulling out all of her books on post traumatic stress like “uh huh uh huh uh huh continue”

keith: getting keith to actually participate in therapy in a meaningful way is gonna be like trying to pull teeth. and once he’s in there it’s gonna be boring conversations about his day where his therapist sneakily gets him to open up about his past. you ever see in the office when micheal goes to therapy with toby? it’s like that.

but when keith starts actually opening up he forms a ride or die bond with his therapist and is the only person he talks to so openly about his abandonment issues. he’s just on the couch crying his eyes out like “diane… you’re the realest bitch i’ve ever met.” and diane is like “thanks keith. you’re real as hell too. i can tell the people in your life really love you” and thus a new person gains keith as a purse dog

pidge: she definitely needs to learn how to be more open with her affection. stems from repeated loss like keith and like keith her response is to be more guarded. but rather than be closed off and a loner she snaps at people and is aggressive to people before they can be aggressive to her #bulliedgang ✌️ but as she’s grown closer to the team her jabs are more lovingly said, though still she’s scared to openly admit she loves people because ew affection she’s gonna get shoved in a locker!!!!

her approach to getting into therapy is very similar to keith in terms of “fuck that i’m perfectly fine” but she lets her walls down a lot quicker because she didn��t lose quite as much as keith #hasamom

lance: i know i said the post war therapy goes without saying but he’d be processing the war so much more than the others. his personal issues are an afterthought when he’s dealing with “omg i KILLED someone diane what do i tell their family?” also he doesn’t like talking about himself in terms of “i’ve had issues my whole life and need help” and makes it very apparent. it’s complicated to be in therapy and trying to better yourself when you’re convinced that you don’t deserve better things!

but once he does get to that level it’s allllll about the coping mechanisms. very much giving “no i don’t care where my self esteem issues came from how to i FIX IT?” he gets told his braggadocio stems from overcompensation for his perceived shortcomings and he’s like “YEAH? DUH???? how do i start calling myself awesome and believe myself when i say it?” also maybe once he’s processed and progressed enough he gets a bit transgender with it who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

hunk: he was already considering therapy for his anxiety before the war so like. this has been needed for a WHILE. his anxiety has gotten both worse and better. worse because he’s always looking out for a surprise attack and better because he knows his limits a lot better than he did and is like “well. if that guy who looks shifty DID stab me, i’d know how to deal with that! just like on planet naenov that one time”

in therapy he asks plenty of questions about the specific limitations of doctor patient confidentiality before absolutely oversharing. diane learns more about keith in hunk’s sessions than keith’s for a while. there’s a period where hunk is more worried about how well they’re doing than his own well-being and has to keep himself from breaking THEIR doctor patient confidentiality. there’s also him knowing she can’t and won’t share what he says so he vents about petty stuff in side tangents every five minutes

allura: “how am i supposed to be queen of an entire planet i feel bad telling pidge what to do when she’s tired” and other such questions. allura is overjoyed to have a new altea, but she’s terrified about ruling it wrong. it’s self esteem issues AND anxiety! what fun! there’s also the general grief of old altea and all she’s lost, but that comes with so much survivor’s guilt too. she knows she was raised to rule one day and believes in fate enough to trust in herself being the one to survive the war, but still. a lot on her plate.

there’s also the fact that she treats her therapy like a new religion. “you know how to fix me so i will do anything you say. i’ll kill someone for you. i’ve killed before actually, did i tell you that? i can’t not forget the life draining out of his eyes…. anyway, i’ll do whatever you say if it means no more nightmares.”

coran: he’s dealing with everything allura’s processing, plus the fact that he was her rock the entire time. he made himself available to the whole team as a shoulder to cry on, but he didn’t have anyone in return. he jumps at the chance to go to therapy because he’ll FINALLY have an outlet outside of his brain

he happy shares every detail with his therapist, but intersperses every sad memory with some of the most batshit insane stuff anyone’s ever done because they often happened one after the other. real sentences coran has said in therapy: “yes, i had killed someone long before this war. i’ve been in others, but never like this. i tell you, seeing these kids lose their innocence so quickly yet so gradually… it rocked me to my core…. but! it reminds me of when i first killed a man. funny story, actually.”

also fun fact. therapists sometimes have to go to therapy themselves for all the stuff they deal with and stories they hear from patients. diane is also in therapy; why she chose to see all seven of them, she’ll never know

[bimobuddy]

I had my wisdom teeth out when I was 16 because my teeth were growing in sideways! I was put under for the surgery and it went well with no complications! I was swollen for about a week, but I just took Tylenol/Motrin and the pain was pretty well controlled. It’s been about 7 or so years and I don’t regret it at all!

Yeah for a couple days I kept telling myself "It's new teeth, it's gonna be uncomfortable," because I was terrified of admitting I needed mouth surgery 💀

but when I found myself getting up at 3:30 am to get an ice pack because I couldn't sleep, I remember thinking "Yeah, this is bad, I need them yanked out, this is horrible"

I'm gonna ask if I can stay conscious and just be numbed, because the thought of being put under actually scares me more than the extraction itself, I like being in control of my thoughts and words, and I'm worried I'm going to admit to being in this community or something 😀

Also, I spent a couple hours today looking at videos of the procedure, and videos of doctors/ dentists talking about it to get more familiar with the idea, and it actually worked, I'm lot less nervous about it. For now anyway, I'm sure when the day comes to get them pulled, my anxiety will spike again but that's normal lol

[francis-mulcahys-angels]

Honestly I don’t post a lot because of anxiety and all that but the new situation with idkhow and all that just broke me

Like if it’s true, it implies so much stuff that just is horrible

Poor Dallon I could not imagine being him and having another bandmate just not respecting him

And the idea that Ronnie Radke knows all this and is right is just the fucked up way the universe is cursing us

Anyways being sick and working this weekend evening shifts and learning about all this is just what I needed😀

[ransprang]

HIII! I was wondering if I could get a JJBA part 5 matchup? I’m sorry for making it so long btw :((

I am a female who identifies as bisexual/biromantic, and my gender preference is always changing so don’t worry about that lol. I’m an INTP pisces.

As for my personality, I’m quite aloof and prefer to spend time indoors, however I don’t have a preference between an extrovert or introvert lover. My love language is words of affirmation and physical affection (need to be very close to them first or else it makes me a bit overwhelmed), and I don’t like gifts cuz I don’t feel worthy lmao🧍‍♀️. I’m also quiet but I love listening to other people speak and tell stories, I like to think that I’m a good listener.

I’m quite smart and LOVE subjects like physics, psychology, geology, and art. I hate school tho. I also love every type of music, from kpop to metal to rap/hiphop, and I am also a good dancer. I don’t like big parties with people I don’t know as it can cause me to have anxiety but I do like small get togethers with friends. OH YEAH and I also love baking!!

I struggle with anxiety/depression (+ probably an underlying mental illness 😀), so I need someone who will add structure to my life and comfort me….. but I also don’t mind someone who will get me outside doing fun things and allow me be spontaneous

As for my appearance, I have medium length dyed blue hair (I dye it a new colour every couple of years), I’m average height and am slim. My aesthetic switches between the usual fashion trends and super dark makeup/clothes, depending on who I’m around or where I am. I don’t like wearing my glasses even tho I can’t see shit. I also want to get a lot of tattoos so I spend a lot of time doodling ideas for them.

THANK YOU U ARE ALL SO TALENTED AND FUNNY IM SORRY FOR MAKING THIS SO LONG 💙💜

aa thank you're so sweet <3 hope you like your match up :D

your jojos match up is.....MISTA!!

- Mista is a talkative boy. He will talk your ear off about the stupidest thoughts going through his head. Six pistols will probably talk a lot with you too or they'll probably complain about one another while you silently watch.

- He is like a big affectionate dog who'll give you lots of love and affection. You wouldn't really have to return any of the hugs at first he doesn't mind if you take a while to warm up. It won't stop him from hugging you.

- You will always be invited to hang out with the Bucci gang and you'll get closer to them. Since you like dancing you'll be forced to dance with Mista & Narancia (:<

- You can forget about having a structured life. This man is C H A O T I C. Y'all will probably end up doing borderline illegal things that may spike your anxiety oops

- Since you don't like wearing glasses Mista can sit on your lap and put contact lenses into your eyes for you <3

yours blindly,

admin sar

[annunnaki7]

WE'RE GOING TO DIE!!! 😮 OR COVID-19, A LITTLE PERSPECTIVE

Disasters, war, danger shows our true nature. Britain is having a SLIVER of what many other countries face yearly. Hurricanes, cyclones, followed by epidemics. Civil War, ect. Remember the AIDS epidemic? If others can be STRONG and cope then why can't you? I've seen 9 YR OLD facing dissaster calmer than many ADULTS right now. No one is born strong. Strength of character is something we build. And it won't happened if we act like drama queen's to our own personal soap opera by panicking each time we get the chance. No one will starve anytime soon with all the food between us. And we'll have enough toilet paper to build a bridge to the moon soon! Its a RESPIRATORY desases right? So unless we speak from our arses, we won't cough nor sneeze from there either! 😀 Yes, stock, but don't horde. Can't you see you'll force the sick to HAVE to go shoping and get YOU sick as a result? Can you see as a result someone you know and love will end up getting infected? Are we rally this selfish and ignorant? We REALLY want to live with that guilt? Yes. Some of us might die. Is that news? Last time I checked we are mortals! I am immunosupressed with not just asthma but lung desases and diabetes, ect... If i panick what exactly will I achieve? My cortisol level, a hormone will shoot up. THIS will make me more at risk of desases.. Elders you are supposed to support the adults. Adults, the kids look up to you. Is this the role model you want to be? Let's say we die. Do we want to be remembers as bring eternally seeking a "there, there", "oh poor you?" It's there there any kids that need more attention? Actual ill people? Is there nothing better we can do? No one has a hobbie? Really? You want panicking as your favourite hobnie? Those with clinical anxiety and depression fight that war EVERYDAY. And I don't mean those who are just nervous. Let's not look for a new desease of we don't have it Those sufferers are different. Help them. Instead of making them worse. EVERYONE has a phone! Learn to press call! That's the time to make that call you planned to do 6.month ago but got distracted. Wish someone happy birthday. Good intentions are just that, Intensions. No one here with a phone and/or Internet is so poor a happy birthday, get well soon, how are you doing will bankrupt you. Remember those who were by your and your family or friends side for years. If you're of the Me Only Society, then don't. But don't cry asking for anything after. Healthy relationship are balanced, not one sided. Not everyone has the Internet, sure. Last time I checked none of us are Fairy Godmothers granting every wish. No one wants YOU worrying on their behalf. If they do there's something abnormal there. Yes it's scary. I actually had a terminal prognosis so I went through it at 18 yrs old with pneumonia. I wanted to be strong for my family. And I was. Not by repeating every two minutes how scare I am.. That would have made me more scared by repeating it again and again. Is that what we advise kids to do when they are scare? Yes, sweetie, tell me again how the Boogieman will get you? And again please. Don't stop now, you're helping! You can't cope now. What are you going to do if it gets really bad? Mass burial bad? And when the younger than you needs you, you want them to have to babysit you? Nurses, midwives, doctors, and a number of specialist are putting themselves at risk EVERY DAY to keep Britain going. Dealing with even less staff. . What you see on TV of their work, is a watered down, staged version of reality. They'll face emotionally crippling life and death decision EVERYDAY. We can't cope because oh, our TV gets boring. We haven't seen a tree this week! Oh lord! Save us from our sofa. We'll rather be be cleaning vomit and handling blood. Poor us! Many don't have the luxury of leaving their bed or flats regularly. We have to stay in for after all a fraction of our life but we can't cope. Let me pass that message to the house bound please. We dont have much control of what happens in life. But we have control of how we CHOOSE to respond to it. We ALL have grand parents, uncles, ancestors who fought in the war for Britain. Ask yourself.. Would they be proud of you? Are your family friends truly proud? Should they? Are you? If not. Make that change today. Don't talk the talk if you can't walk the walk.