#I don’t do poetry often (I feel you can see why)
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desperatecheesecubes · 8 months ago
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I said
Your actions will decide
Your future
And you said
It is fine
This is not my bed
I am not making it
But you are lying in it
You are lying in it
You are lying in it
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padfootagain · 4 months ago
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Your life seems perfect. You're engaged, your career is thriving as you become an assistant professor at Trinity College, and this Andrew Hozier-Byrne you're sharing an office with seems to be a nice guy you hope to call a friend soon. Life seems to be smiling at you... until everything goes sour. When your fiancé breaks up with you, your perfect world shatters. And when your colleague also gets his heart broken soon after, your shared office seems to be a curse rather than a blessing. But Andrew seems determined to mend your broken hearts... Will things finally go according to plan?
Pairing : Hozier x fem!reader
Professor! AU
Warnings: hurt-comfort, angst, fluff, no smut but suggestive scenes so 18+ only
Chapter 1 : 'And that orange, it made me so happy, as ordinary things often do just lately'
Chapter 2 : 'Through me the way to the City of Woe'
Chapter 3 : ‘I miss him in the wheeping of the rain; I want him at the shrinking of the tide’
Chapter 4 : ‘For he gave all his heart and lost’
Chapter 5 : ‘But here comes the lyrebird passing through the sky’
Chapter 6 : ‘I’ll lie here and learn how, over their ground, trees make a long shadow and a light sound’
Chapter 7 : 'And so I still wait, like a lonely house, for you to see me and inhabit me again. Until that time, my windows ache.'
Chapter 8 : 'I hope she never learns how to peel oranges'
Chapter 9 : 'I think I will always be lonely in this world, where the cattle graze like a black and white river-- where the vanishing lilies melt, without protest, on their tongues'
Chapter 10 : '[I] was angry that my trust could not repose in the clear light, like poetry or freedom leaning in from sea'
Chapter 11: ‘Lived to see you throwing me aside.’
Chapter 12 : 'Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again'
Chapter 13: ‘So as not to be the martyred slaves of time, be drunk, be continually drunk! On wine, on poetry or on virtue as you wish.’
Chapter 14: ‘Why should I blame her that she filled my days with misery’
Chapter 15: ‘He’s bored- I see it. Don’t I lick his bribes, set his bouquets in water?’
Chapter 16 : ‘Only the things I didn’t do crackle after the blazing dies’
Chapter 17 : ‘Dear pine cone, let me hold you as you open’
Chapter 18 : ‘What the devil do I care what I know, and what I say?’
Chapter 19: ‘I knew winter cold like the nuzzle of fjords at my thighs’
Chapter 20 : 'My heart has made its mind up and I’m afraid it’s you'
Chapter 21: ‘I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, I love you directly without problems or pride: I love you like this because I don’t know any other way to love’
Chapter 22 : ‘And if you missed a day, there was always the next, and if you missed a year, it didn’t matter, the hills weren’t going anywhere’
Chapter 23 : 'Even the dearest that I loved the best are strange – nay, rather, stranger than the rest'
Chapter 24: ‘Sometimes, when I’m pleased, I let out a little sound. A poet noticed this and it made me feel I might one day properly be loved. Because no one is here to love me, I make tea for myself and leave the radio playing’
Chapter 25: ‘They will think of ways to make you smile so you can be happy for a while’
Chapter 26: ‘Well, how else are you to live except by denial’
Chapter 27: ‘They loved music and swam in for a singer, who might stand at the end of summer’
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reverieblondie · 8 months ago
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I really like the shy s/o headcanons you did. If I can, I’d like to request hcs of Haarlep, Gale, Halsin, & Astarion (& anyone else you might feel like adding) w/ a s/o that’s almost always cool and collected (sort of like a kuudere).
Thanks! 💜
So I am unsure If I didn't go cool enough or if I went to Kuudere for this request, but I really enjoyed writing it so I hope you enjoy reading it! Last Bullet point is NSFW!
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Gale
Gale isn't exactly sure how to explain why his heart stirs when he sees you, it just does. You could be reading quietly by the campfire or cutting down enemies, but he always has the same thought when he sees you: Elegance. Your stoic demeanor and how you carry yourself with such grace have been swirling in his brain since your first meeting. You could be covered in any amount of filth but you will still have that keen look in your eye and speak in such an articulated fashion that to him it sounds like poetry, though you know it's not. Posed and a cool tone always the same, Gale finds a certain comfort from being around you. It's kinda nice he's always close by. Sure, he can be a dork, but Gale feels things so deeply, a thing you wish you could relate more to. Though with Gale you find that a part of you is becoming softer, it's mainly directed towards him but it's an improvement. Gale admires you and you think he deserves to be as equally admired and you don’t mind being that person for him. It only will lead to him falling for you more. 
You and Gale were enjoying a moment together in his tent. It had become something like a ritual that at the end of the day as everyone settled into their tents Gale would read aloud a book to you or anyone else who wanted to join. Tonight, however, his tent only had one guest, you. As Gale read his eyes flicked up toward where you were sitting beside him listening intently. You two had found yourselves in the position before on other nights, but tonight was different. You were quiet and so close, in fact from how close he could smell the subtle sweetness that laces itself to your skin. Always so elegant, even now with your hair slightly disheveled from the day. Sitting so patiently for him to continue reading. Gently, Gale brushes the hair back, his fingers grazing you so delicately. Looking at the text you see his smile as he slightly leans in, you follow his lead without a second thought. Forgetting all about the story and relishing in the passionate kiss. You were both happy nobody joined you two for the story that night. 
Gale is always showing you his appreciation in any way he can. Making dinner for you and the rest of the camp. Reading to you and recommending books. Teaching you what he knows about magic, turns out he's a great teacher. You just want to be able to show your appreciation to him, you can just kiss him or go to his tent later and show him what he means to you ,but you want to work on expressing yourself. You were helping him prepare dinner for everyone, as he cooked and would look over at you he would have that same sweet smile on his face. It’s time to express yourself and dig deep. “Do you know how much you mean to me? You are wonderful, and…I’m happy to be yours.” Hours later Gale was still giddy from the sudden phrase. 
Though you try to express your love for Gale through words like he so often does, sometimes words just lack the way you truly feel for him. That's how you two often end up in this situation. Gale with a fist full of your hair bites his lip as he watches you through lidded eyes. He's cummed twice now but you're still down there sucking and licking on him, overstimulating him for more. Though he's completely flushed, you're still looking up at him with those keen eyes as cool as always. On the inside your body is a flame of want, but you know how much he loves your elegant lips wrapped around him. Don’t worry it's your turn after he gives you one more…
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Haarlep
You drive them crazy…You're so calm and collected at all times, despite their teasing and taunting you never give anything away. Harrlep wants you to break, they are desperate to be the cause and are very open about telling you this. But you always keep your cool demeanor. It's become a game for them, to be the one to have your resolve tremble down to lust. You on the other hand find their want oddly amusing. Typically games like this don’t interest you but the amount of time Haarlep devotes to you, the way their hungry eyes rake over you does make something in you stir…Maybe one day you will let their game progress, but it will be on your terms, for now, they will have to be pleased with your smiles as you leave them hanging. The chase makes it all the better. 
They had grown tired of the game as they watched you ramage around the House of Hope looking for whatever artifact you needed this time on your adventure. Haarleps fiery eyes watched as you were browsing around not even turning to share a glance with them. Haarlep had tried it all, whispering filth in your ear, running their tail up and down your back, hells they even tried ignoring you back but nothing worked in making you want them. Now here you are alone with them and still nothing. Their irritation grew till they finally cracked. Grabbing your arm Haarlep spun you around to grab your chin “I don’t take kindly to be ignored.” they growled right before they brought their lips to yours and kissed you. The kiss was raw and passionate, their heated lips made you feel like you caught an instant fever. Haarlep had to hold your weight as your limbs turned to jelly. A sudden rush in your lower stomach was tempting you with depraved thoughts of more. They tasted like the finest wine you could indulge in forever if you wanted to. As they broke the kiss and looked at you expectantly for any kind of reaction; hate, want, anything to tell them you felt anything at all. Haarleps eyes widened at what they saw and their lips spread to a delighted smile. Your eyes doe like in a breathless expression with the tinting of red to your cheeks. You were blushing because of them. 
After defending Raphael Haarlep was free to do whatever they wanted and what did they decide to do? Join you on your adventures, though the relationship between you two was never defined exactly you knew that deep down you were theirs, your soul be damned. Haarlep was always waiting for you and though they would play it off as just for fun you saw the way their eyes would soften when you emerged to your room. Though, sometimes you felt like Haarlep was putting on a show for you at times. You want them to be comfortable and not have to perform for you. “No games Haarlep…Can I please just hold you?” When you first asked this Haarlep seemed confused by the idea of cuddling, but as they laid their head against your chest to have you then softly you wrapped your arms around them. Haarlep lays there in your arms silent, the only noises are the soft sounds of your breathing and the thrumming of your heart. This intimacy…stirs something within them…
Haarlep is always the one to take the lead in your relationship, you figured they liked the feeling of control. But after they made a teasing comment about you needing to be more aggressive with what you want, you took it to heart, and they were so happy you did. They were getting drunk off it, your moans leaving your swollen lips as they held your wrist in their warm hands. You bounce up and down on them, taking them in so deeply. You're delicious as you tighten around their cock so close to coming undone but holding back. Your eyes are watching Haarlep so intently, it's strange they rarely ever get raddled during sex but with how you are looking right now they might be the ones to come undone first this time…
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Halsin
You're different compared to others he has encountered. Halsin is so used to people becoming nervous or giddy when he is around, some disdain him, many are eager to befriend him, and then there are others wanting to bed him. But you? You never give anything away to how you might feel…well that was the case till he figured you out. It was a simple praise, he thought nothing much of it as he told you how good you were. The way your cheeks glowed red as your eyes stayed to his…it was a slight crack to your shield and he wanted more, he wanted to watch you blush and be the reason for it, he wanted you to feel better and have all the praise you deserved. Halsin would praise you every day just so he could witness your flustered features. Halsin figured out how to get past your shields and despite this usually being something to mortify you, it was instead a welcomed change. It's odd feeling vulnerable to another person but Halsin is a gentle soul, he will treat you tenderly.
Halsin had invited you out on one of his typical hikes through nature as the others visited the nearby town. Halsin being a druid preferred nature to make him more relaxed and you preferred being around Halsin so it was a win-win situation. Halsins soothing voice and calm dementor always put you at ease, though today as you walk closely to his towering figure something deep within you stirs. You come to an abrupt stop and he follows looking down at you curiously. His hazel eyes took you in then smiled softly, it made your heart skip and you finally knew what was happening to you. “I think I want to kiss you.” You say bluntly. Halsin looks at you surprised then smirks, “You think, or you know?” You stare at him, not breaking your gaze, “I know I do.” Halsin opens his arms out to embrace you, “Then come here.” His voice purrs. You place your hands on his wide chest and let him take the lead. The kiss was slow and intimate and tasted like honey.
Halisn is a giver, he is always bringing you gifts like flowers, fresh ingredients, rare stones, and his favorite showering you in praise till your cool dementor falters and you blush like an idiot. You want to do something for him, give him something that you know he would enjoy. After much consideration and time, you had the perfect gift. You approached him very casually with it hidden behind your back. Halsin, not being a fool, knew something was up when you were already blushing and he hadn’t praised you yet. When you finally revealed it he felt his heart squeeze. A poorly made wooden duck, “You make it look so easy…” you say simply and he can’t help but laugh, the rest of the day he told you how to properly make a wood carving. It's now become your favorite bonding time.  
Lovers in the past have always been so ravenous when it came to intimacy with him. Scratching, Biting, just being rough in general. You, however, treat him as if he were made of glass, blushing softly, cooing, and caressing him tenderly. Halsin has seen you in a fight, you are forced to be reckoned with, but in the intimacy in his arms, you are blushing and sweet. You speak every honeyed praise that comes to your mind as he goes down on your drinking in your release. Your voice in pleasure is becoming his favorite song these days. 
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Rolan
When he first laid eyes on you he immediately thought you were one the coolest people he’s ever seen. It was right after a fight, your teammates were cheering and hollering as you all came into the grove, and you walked in the background watching your ragtag group. Then your eyes met his. You didn’t wave, or smile, you just simply gave a nod towards him. Cal and Lia swear they have never seen Rolan blush so much, of course, he denied it, but on the inside his heart was racing. After that day he found himself wanting to have you think he was as impressive. Lucky for him you did find him impressive, not only because he was a talented wizard but because he was an ambitious dreamer. You admired all he did for his family and found yourself lightening up every time you got to talk to him. His rich voice always made your head fill with stars despite your cool outside. As a couple you and Rolan are almost inseparable, you're always there to be his calming present and he brings an extra spark to your life. He might think you're the cool one, but in your eyes it's him.   
Rolan had done what Cal and Lia deemed impossible, he managed to ask you out on a date finally and was successful. A sunset stroll through the city was the plan and it was going well. Rolan was putting on his best confident demeanor as you listened to him intently, your bright eyes watching him carefully. Gods, how he loved your eyes, hair, body, and lips. Rolan felt his palms getting sweaty as he kept glancing at you. Each time his eyes landed on your perfectly kissable lips. He wanted so badly to just grab you and kiss your lips, stealing a taste for him to hold onto forever. Though his stuttering and nerves were getting in the way of that, he wanted you to think he was cool and collected, a perfect match for you. He can’t just grab you and kiss you!  Tail swishing around irritatedly, he is chastising himself to get a grip on his emotions and to stop staring at you so desperately. Then feels his collar being pulled and suddenly your lips are on his. All of Rolans resolve leaves as he grabs your hips and deepens the kiss to one of desperate hunger. Backing you up to the closeted ally he wraps his tail around your leg as his tongue pushes into your mouth finally tasting you. Breaking from the kiss to catch your breath Rolan accidentally lets a whimper slip from his throat. “You…kissed me, why?” You shrug, “I figured you wanted to considering how you kept staring at my lips.” Rolan groans, “You must find me pathetic…” you touch your hand to his cheek and kiss his lips again, “No, I think you're just passionate. Makes me want to be more like you.” Rolan felt the blush creeping to his ears, it was the best date. 
Rolan worked so hard it was something you both admired about him but it also made you worried for him. He just worked so hard to provide for his family. You wish you could do something for him to help, but pulling him away from his desk is often an impossible task. He was in his study for what might have been hours now. Entering his study you saw him scribbling away, it wasn’t until you cleared your throat that he looked up. In your hands a tray of his favorite meal he had mentioned his adoptive mother making for him Cal and Lia as kids. He was a bit shocked you remembered him talking about the dish. Placing the tray down you cooed at him to take a break. And as he smelt the food he found that he was incredibly hungry. As he ate you undid his hair and scratched your nails on his scalp. Lending down you told him to join you for a bath and he of course couldn’t deny you.  
He just couldn’t help himself anymore, watching you handle everything effortlessly, always acting so cool…he needed you, now… His buckle was gently knocking against the shelf, your head leaning back against him as his breathy whines rang in your ear. Hard thrust drives his cock deeper and deeper, the tip nudging against your sweet spot. Then he brings his tail in and your cool demeanor melts away and you're a moaning crying mess. Rolan brings his hand to cover your cries…His hot breath pants in the shell of your ear, “Keep it down…The customers will hear you…” Nothing makes him feel more confident than feeling you come undone… 
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Wyll
If Wyll had to pick anyone to follow blindly into a fight it would be you. You're smart and tactful, you keep a level head despite anything. Wyll sees you as the perfect definition of a leader and he would follow you to the hells if you needed it. Though if anyone asked you the same question you would answer that Wyll makes the better leader with his kind-hearted nature and determination. Despite you being quiet you find that with Wyll it doesn't matter, he can carry the conversion easily for the two of you and it wouldn’t even get awkward. You two just enjoy being around each other, you bring out the best in each other. With Wyll you are more gentle and he helps you see the world in a less harsh perspective. with him by your side you find yourself understanding and experiencing more emotions you didn't think you ever would. With you around Wyll finds fulfillment, if someone like you sees him as someone you want to be with maybe he is not as worthless as he once thought. You two are each other's perfect complement.
After a time of getting to know one another and being each other's closest confidants, Wyll knew it was time to take the relationship in a more serious direction. Wyll Imagined your first kiss would be underneath a canopy of stars. Alone so he could share all his feelings for you that he hoped you would reciprocate. Everything changed though when you took that arrow to your shoulder, mere inches away from your heart. Shadowheart had patched you up and now Wyll was here devotedly at your side listening to you chastise yourself for being careless and already planning a counterattack on the enemy camp. Reaching out carefully Wyll grabbed your hand to bring your attention to his gentle face. “Today I thought I would have lost you. In our adventures, I know there will be times when one of us will get hurt, maybe even killed. Please let me show you the depths of my affection before I am ever able to.” “How will-” “May I kiss you?” surprised you and gave a nod, with your permission Wyll gently dipped down to your still body and kissed your lips softly. His lips were as soft as you imagined they would be. 
Wyll from the moment you meet him you always think of him as the most self-sacrificing and selfless person you have ever met. He would give the shirt off his back for a stranger if need be. But after watching him long enough you noticed how he carried heavy loads and pushed himself so thin, and when he thought no one was looking he would wince and rub his neck. He needs to be shown how to treat himself better. In his tent he was resting his sore muscles when you walked in, a bottle of fine-smelling oil in your hand. “What-” but you are quick to cut him off “You have been neglecting yourself, let me rub this into your skin. Halsin says it's good for healing, now shirt off.” his cheeks warm, that same matter-of-fact nature he adores. The rest of the night was spent gently massaging all the knots and aching pain from his muscles…and talks of your futures after this adventure. the plan? You two staying together…
Your skin was so hot against his lips, every sweet whisper from his lips made your once stone-like body shake. The party's leader, always so composed, until underneath him… “You look perfect, here…and here…” As Wyll mumbles his praises he kisses every one of your scars tenderly, worshiping you in a way you didn't know you needed. Words die in your throat as he goes lower and lower till his lips are wrapping around your sex and you feel his tongue licking against you sloppy…Is this what it's like being worshiped by another? 
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Astarion
When first meeting Astarion he was not so impressed by your cool and collected demeanor. Everyone at the camp had their quirks and then there was you, like a perfect impenetrable wall. Of course, He thought you had something to hide and was determined to get to the bottom of it. First getting through your walls was a challenge, he tried flirting and intimidation tactics but found that they didn’t make you stir in the slightest. (when in fact you know you would go to your tent after those conversions holding your hand to your chest like your heart was going to explode, but he didn’t need to know that.) It wasn’t until he stopped his facade and was more honest that you started to open up as well. Over time as he found out who you were and you found out more about him the two of you became fiercely protective of one another. Definitely a stranger to friends to lovers situation. In fact, on your first date you didn’t even realize it was a date till he told you. You were odd and not always easy to understand but for the first time in a long time he wanted to have real intimacy with someone and you wanted to let down your protective walls. 
You had gotten to him today with your bluntness, of course, he played the whole thing off like he didn’t care but inside he did and it was eating away at him not knowing why. It's late, the time of night that no creatures stir, well only one kind of creature does…his kind. You're asleep on your bedroll by the fire as per usual. You always sleep next to its warmth, Astarion figures that's what you crave like most creatures, warmth; something his cold body could never provide to you. Astarion shakes the thought, why would he even think of holding you? He doesn't even like you. Your damned aloofness pisses him off to no end. But as he is about to leave your slumbering side, you reach out and touch him. Your heated skin warms his icicle-like fingers, he half expected you to wake and recoil, but you didn’t you seemed to be eased by it. Your plump lips parted slightly as you dream. Slowly leaning down he keeps his crimson eyes on your face, completely unaware of the danger you are in. This is where he bites your neck and drains you of your blood like the monster he is. But instead, he brings his cold lips to your warm ones and kisses you. After a moment he comes back to his senses and pulls away. As he looks down at you now there is just the slightest curl of a smile to your lips. Sweet dreams he supposes.  
Astarion, usually so charismatic and open to say anything he wanted, had seemed to be rather reserved lately. Now you are usually one to never notice these changes in people but when it comes to Astarion you couldn’t help but notice those subtle shifts. It was late, but you knew he would be up, you went into the tent he had been reading and immediately started to put on his cocky dementor when he saw you but you just ignored it and sat next to him. “So why do I get the pleasure of such a late night visit darling?” looking through his short stack of books you pick one that seems the most interesting to you, open it then speak, “You have seemed off, so this is me being here for you. I understand if you don’t want to talk about it, and I will leave if you would like.” you turn to look into his eyes “but spending time with you always makes me feel better so I am trying to do that for you.” Astarion seemed shocked but the confession for a moment before he gave you that rare soft smile. The night was spent in silence with you reading and he laid his head in your lap. Your warmth was exactly what he needed, but he wasn't ready to confess that yet.    
“Bite me…” Astarion looks down at you, your neck exposed and flushed, the slightest sheen of sweat causing you to glisten in the candlelight. He feels his gums itch above his fangs…he wants to feed from you…but would you think him a monster after? Insecurities and anxieties swirl in his mind. You two had just started getting intimate with one another…would this turn out to be too much for you, for him…Then a soft touch to his pale skin brings him back, “Star…Only if you're comfortable, but know I trust you. I just…I want to give you everything I can.” Your words are so calm, so confident in him, he loves it, feeling so safe with you. Leaning down slowly he Kisses your neck before sinking his teeth in. Your body tenses for a moment before you're lulling into the saccharine of pleasure. Breaking away he licks your running blood from your neck as he looks down at you. Please know…that he loves you, endlessly.
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wonderrot · 5 months ago
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hi! i don’t know if you write for spike (btvs) but could you maybe write dating spike hcs? sfw & nsfw?
hi my lil crow <3! i do most certainly write for our favorite lil bad boy spike, i hope you enjoy <3!
XOXO, CHESHIRE — depressingly this is shorter than my one with angel but that doesn’t mean that i don’t love him any less! i just literally ran out of headcanons at the moment cause my brain stopped working whoops! i could always expand upon him on a later date like i can with angel.
WRITING WARNINGS: lovely fluff, some hints of angst thrown in because of our beloved troublesome tortured poet and some nsfw content as well!
alright let’s state the obvious about our favorite troublesome poet : he will write tons of poems about you. his favorite topic to write about would be about love, at least i headcanon from his former human life, and so when he finds himself enthralled with you, you become his center focus in his beloved artship.
even if you do not like poetry, still please be supportive of him especially when you learn why he doesn't write his poetry as often as he used to when he was human. you see, in my personal headcanon, william (his human self of course) had been seen as too soft for a man as he liked the more feminine oddities such as : poetry, flowers, jewelry, fashion, and baking. mind you, this is all my personal headcanons as to why he was seen as soft.
so this vamp would adore you so so much more if you were to let him be himself and perhaps show interest in the oddities that he likes. obviously he would be the most supportive of you but if he was super supportive of you and didn't receive any back, i feel like he’d be put off of you despite how he feels towards you.
if you are an artistic soul like he is, spike would proudly marvel over your art — no matter how melancholy it might appear to be. he would goat about how his partner is the best at (insert your craft(s) here) and it would get to the point that the whole scooby gang would in-synchronicity claim "we know!" which would turn him into a blushing stuttering mess as he tries to play it off that he doesn't talk about your craft(s) that much. he contradicts himself sometimes as we all know.
he is the definition of a badass with a good soft heart. y'all get stuck out in the rain? he`s sacrificing his good leather and placing it over your head as he moves the pair of you underneath something where you would be dry and then y'all can watch the rain fall down upon sunnydale in a pretty lil art form. anyone happens to look at you in a wrong or potentially harmful way? spike is throwing hands with his vamp face out to scare them halfway to death before he even touches them. he`s a little protective over you, that`s all.
he’s obsessed with your touch. he’s severely touch deprived even if he doesn’t show it — please show him that he is capable of love, one that doesn’t surround around the madness of the woman who he believed to have been his soulmate before you came into his life. the man would be so touchy with you in private, especially if you did any hobbies of his that he loves — meaning baking of course! he would wrap his arms around your middle and use his hands to help you with anything you need for baking. definitely the type of man to put you on his feet and the pair of you penguin waddle together to put the trays in the oven for whatever you’re baking.
speaking of him being obsessed with your touch … time for a lil bit of nsfw 😈
spike is definitely a switch with a bratty sub lean, i mean literally just look at this vampire. he tries to act like a badass who is known for causing trouble over the years and yet if you play your cards just right you can turn him from a brat into your precious boy, but that takes a while. i tend to headcanon that even though drusilla loved him in the way she did, she never got to have him this way, and spike only trusts you to show this side of him. despite the trust, he will indeed make you work for it like i said previously. but you know how to handle your troublesome boy and how to practically turn him into a puddle with your mere touch overtime.
he’s definitely a mean service dom though when he is in a the dominant state of mind. man loves to torture you and deny your orgasms left and right only for a few turns though and then sends you over the edge quite a few times after that. he turns you into a total mess for his own pleasure but the aftercare is spectacular fr!
his version of aftercare is ; cleaning you up with a towel while smothering you with kisses all over as soon as he wipes down each and every spot upon your body, then he goes and gives you a drink (whether water or your favorite soda or alcoholic drink or maybe a blood bag if you’re a vampire like him — y’alls choice!) before he goes off to fill up a bath with the rainbow colored child bubbles that he found at the store the other day, and then he carries you in there once the bath is all filled. then he goes on to wash your body and hair for you while making sure that you’re genuinely alright with whatever occurred during your time together, then he asks you for whatever you want or need — his beloved flower’s wish is his command that he wishes never ends.
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bitethedevil · 5 months ago
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Raphael the Cat (Character Analysis)
I’ve thought a lot about the whole cat and mouse metaphor from his Cormyrian rhyme, even when I first started playing the game and hadn’t developed my unhealthy obsession with Raphael. It is an odd thing isn’t it? Why a cat?
The mouse thing makes perfect sense for his character. He often refers to others as ‘little’ or something to that effect (such as ‘pipsqueak’). You are small and he is big. That’s always the gist of it. Of course, the ‘mouse and cat’-trope is pretty common, but why not identify with something bigger and scarier? He does it by calling himself a ‘devil’ instead of what he really is: a cambion.
We know that he doesn’t just do it with us. In the Devil’s Den at Sharess’ there is a book where someone had written about winning over a devil in a poetry contest and the devil is clearly Raphael. We know because he has circled it in red that his ‘down came the claw’ line is mentioned in it. Which means that this loser (affectionate) reuses the same old material for clients.
He’s not a lion, or a wolf, or whatever absolutely terrifying creature you can find in the D&D universe. He’s a cat. That’s what he’s chosen as his fursona, if you will. Why though? The more I think of it, it makes complete sense, and it is such an apt metaphor for his character.
“Is there anything duller than a loyal dog?”
Raphael says that line and then says ‘I much prefer a cat. Meow.’ Iconic, honestly. It also says a lot about his character. What is a dog’s role in a house? They protect their owners because of some sense of fondness or at least because they are trained to it. What does a cat do? It kills mice.
Not because of any sense of fondness or duty to its owners, but because it is nature for it to do so. It is specialized to kill mice and rats. A cat does what a cat wants, which is exactly what Raphael does.
It’s written somewhere in the Devil’s Den that he sometimes doesn’t even really need to claim someone’s soul or help them, but simply does it because he feels like it. Cats are notorious for killing even though they don’t even really need to.
Considering how ordered and hierarchical the Hells are, I really think that Raphael is a bit of a wildcard. It comes with his nature, I think. Most cambions are loners and solitary by nature. He does what he wants. It certainly takes some balls to directly hand over an opportunity to fuck over the literal Archdevil of Cania by telling us about Cazador’s ritual.
No matter how much he claims that he loves order, I think order is mostly what he personally deems as order. It’s whatever he feels like, which is the general theme with him.
Master of the House
A cambion isn’t seen as much in the Hells. Don’t get me wrong, he still seems really successful for a cambion, and he certainly is higher in the hierarchy than most of his heritage. In the Hells he really is a cat surrounded by lions and tigers. He might see himself as a lion, but which cat doesn’t? Though, he is still aware of his place in the Hells, or he would not have lived for so long.
A cat might not be the king of the jungle, but they certainly rule their tiny kingdom of the house they reside in (ask any cat owner). It’s the same with Raphael. The House of Hope is his little kingdom where he rules. It’s obvious from all the plaques you see around his house.
He has created his own little space where he is the most fierce and dangerous thing there is, and all the little mice who enter buy it. To a mouse, a cat might as well be a lion, which is why I think Raphael ‘dotes on mortals’. He likes feeling important, big, and scary, and mortals see that image of him.
The Cat
Though they are small, cats are apex predators. At the same time, they are irresistible to humans. We pet them, we take them into our homes, but compared to a dog, the attention you get from a cat is very much dependent on the cat and not the owner.
Raphael is the same. He comes and goes as he pleases. He appears and gives you attention, nuzzles up against your leg, making you feel special for even getting his attention. Remember what he said to Mol if you help her win?: ‘She won, you know. She’ll be the one who comes to me.’
He wants people to want his attention, so when he gives it to you it almost feels like a gift. He keeps talking about us knocking on his door as well. We know that he has most likely talked to Voss before we arrive to Sharess’ because Voss knows he has the hammer. Still, he seems very uninterested when Voss is actually there, practically on his knees begging for his help. Peak cat behavior.
However, we know what happens if one chooses to spite Raphael. It becomes very clear that he is not a cuddly and patient pet, and you suddenly realize that you were the mouse all along and that you never were in any control over the situation.  
He was that apex predator all along, you just never quite realized just how small you were. Again, a cat is a lion to a mouse. He actually even alludes to this idea himself if you have tried hurting him: ‘Like a mosquito nibbling at a dragon. Begone.’.
He’ll tell you that you can be friends with him, pretending that you are something that could resemble equals, but it is all smoke and mirrors. Everything he does is to pretend that he is less intimidating that he is, and he even refuses the notion that he is the cat in the lullaby in the beginning. But if you happen to get too comfortable or think you can best him, he reminds you just how small you are and that’s a theme throughout all his interactions.
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loveemagicpeace · 11 months ago
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🧜🏼‍♀️Poetic Neptune🩵
Part 2
🦋Neptune in 8th house- Neptune Giving your all in a close relationship can bring the spiritual or emotional connection you seek with a partner. But it can also mean making sacrifices or feeling vulnerable. Here you can seek your escape in intimacy or in control. You can have a wild fantasy about the perfect deep relationship, but it never really happens. A Neptune in the eighth house in the natal chart can indicate trust issues. Generally speaking, heavy placements in the eighth house indicate traumatizing experiences, betrayal, loss of trust you put in others. This can be a very painful placement. This house shows financial gain through other people: for example, your spouse or inheritance
🎸Neptune in 9th house-Neptunes here have a lot of imagination in terms of travel, the world and life. You can have your own religion that you believe in, or you can believe in things that others don't. Along with this is also a hopeless optimism that often carries the person through the darkest nights with the light of faith, optimism, and belief. You can travel a lot to places by the sea. And it's also one of your favorite holidays. The gifts of Neptune here could be found through their ability to intuit the future; they can be something of a prophet and have the ability to read meaning in the lives of others. Neptune here suggests a gift for spiritual vision or for intuiting future trends. Travel might invoke a longing for a paradise island.
🥂Neptune in 10th house-you can manifest your career. A lot depends on what you believe in and what you want to be. People may see you as a mystical, dreamy person, or they may not be able to clearly define you. You have an intuitive understanding of how the public feels. You are in tune with the collective mood, what can be an advantage when it comes to career. Here neptune can also mean that one of the parents is not present. A career in the arts might appeal or something that allows you to use and develop your imagination and put your imaginative gifts or show to the world.
🧁Neptune in 11th house- you can manifest success on your social networks. Many of your dreams can come true. Neptune gives you the illusion that you start things without fear and usually people find you as a spiritual person or you share something related to spirituality or art on social networks. You are very kind and want to help people with what you do. You want people to feel comfortable when they come to your profile. But you can attract a lot of friends who are secretly jealous of you or don't like you (but it doesn't show from the outside). When you feel that others don’t like you, it bothers you deeply. Neptune shows where you seek the ideal and perfection. That's why you often look at things as perfect, and that's why you're often not completely satisfied.
🩷Neptune in 12th house-Neptune is here in his house, which means that he can unknowingly help you find your spiritual path. They may excel in artistic fields like writing, poetry, painting, music, photography, filmmaking, or any form of creative expression. These people are very creative and imaginative, but this shows more in their work and not in their personality. When you get to know them, I wouldn't say that they are so artistic, but they show it through the things that, for example, musicians deal with (many times I notice that they have a special album look, which they usually invent themselves). They also have a lot of drawing skills. But these people are usually not spiritual or believe in it. But there is a possibility that they become addicted to drugs or other substances. And many times they have very interesting, confusing dreams that are difficult to understand.
-Rebekah🦋🫧🩵
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spade-riddles · 2 months ago
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Submission:
💛 I like the Gracie theories!
Part one :-)
Gracie said the song ‘Us’ is a conversation where they’re singing to each other. What if Gracie and Taylor met earlier? Did you know they allegedly met because Taylor invited Gracie to her birthday in 2021, seems a rather personal thing to invite someone you’ve never met to right? What if it was an olive branch?
Late 2020-Early 2021 First meeting:
Gracie starts the conversation:
I know you know
(I know you that i’m queer and that I know that you’re queer)
It felt just like a joke
(We’re dancing around the topic it feels so silly)
I show, you don’t
(I tell you i’m queer, tell you about my girlfriend perhaps)
And now we're talkin'
I know your ghost
(Karlie)
I see her throw the smoke
(Through the smoke and mirrors, the lavender haze, the bearding)
She’ll play her show
(The performance of her life, the husband and kids)
And you’ll be watchin’
(You have to watch her do this)
From here we presume Taylor doesn’t take it the best or rather just doesn’t open up to her, perhaps it’s around just after the masters heist which is how Gracie picked up on her flagging and had the courage to bring it up.
And if history’s clear someone always ends up in ruins
(We don’t talk about it because someone ends up upset now)
And what seemed like fate becomes "What the hell was I doin'?"
(Reflecting on the conversation, I’m such an idiot why was I asking her that, this line calls back to failed coming out in Taylor’s verse)
Babylon lovers hanging lifetimes on a vine
Do you miss mine?
(I showed, you never heard about her again)
Gracie:
I know you know
It felt like somethin' old
It felt like somethin' holy, like souls bleedin', so
(A way to describe recognising queerness in another person, it does feel holy in a sense)
Gracie:
It fеlt like what I've known
(I recognised this in you and when i’m near you I can recognise it more)
You’re twenty nine years old
So how can you be cold when I open up my home?
(Why didn’t you give me yours? Why didn’t you open up to me? You’re twenty nine, you’re older than me, I should be the one that’s scared about this)
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💛 Part Two
Late 2021:
Taylor:
And if history’s clear the flames always end up in ashes
(Failed coming out, likely reason for not opening up)
And what seemed like fate give it ten months and you’ll be past it
(“Come to my Birthday party?”)
Babylon lovers hanging missed calls on the vine
I gave you mine
(I told you about my queerness and Karlie)
The chorus between verses floats through different targets. Gracie may have harboured some hurt feelings about the interaction, in turn probably hurt feelings about Taylor’s role in continuing the machine of closeting (especially in a time when she could be pivotal in breaking that machine for a young queer artist like herself; times are rapidly changing now but even five years ago there weren’t many out and proud big pop artists). Directing the “do you miss us?” at Taylor, do you miss the idea of what could have been? I felt it, I held it, I felt that you were coming out with Lover, I felt the ice castle cracking, do you regret not doing it?
By the second chorus they’ve teamed up, directing the questions at their audience, US. Do we mind? Do we mind that they’re glass closeted, that they know we know, do we miss what could have been? Do we regret listening to the queer signalling and being transfixed while also watching them being spineless in their tomb of silence?
The bridge is where they turn on the machine together, everyone that keeps them closeted, Record Labels, CEOs, Managers, Family etc etc
That night you were talking false prophets and profits
They make in the margins of poetry sonnets
(You made me into this idol for the world that I don’t want to be because it’s not who I am but I continue to do it and it is lining your pockets)
You never read up on it, shame could’ve learned something
(These people didn’t read the poetry sonnets, often that they’re the target of, could’ve learnt that they were destroying their lives)
Robert Bly on my nightstand, gifts from you, how ironic
(Robert Bly is famous for self help material, how ironic that you’re giving me this gift but also causing me to need it)
The curse or a miracle, hearse or an oracle
(Is being famous and closeted awful or once in twenty lifetimes? Will it kill us or save us?)
The last chorus is to this group of people, likely in the future.
All speculation :-)
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charliedaltonsentpgf · 5 months ago
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my boyfriend charlie dalton headcanons ☀︎︎
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very passionate writer- not just poetry, but letters, mini stories, etc
writes said love letters to you often
he’ll spray them with his cologne
there was only once he forgot an anniversary, and he spent the next week making it up to you
flowers every day, chocolates on your doorstep every night
likes to bring you to dead poets meetings- sometimes he’ll let you take his part in reading, just so he can hear you speak passionately
likes to draw on you, whether it be with actual pen or just his fingers
you’ll leave with either mini hearts or something very inappropriate
escapes with you to the theatre quite often
he once snuck you backstage to meet a cast you were crazy about
“this is y/n, and i know you guys are a big deal but so are they-“ “charlie!”
another time was just so he could get you alone for more than 15 minutes, doing what, he’ll never tell.
he’s very funny but you’re never the bud of his jokes
actually very cleanly and takes great care of himself
however he doesn’t want anyone to know his elaborate skincare routine
has a very hard time opening up, but once he does, it’s like it’s the easiest thing in the world for him
will do anything to see a smile from you
once jumped into a frozen over lake just to get you to laugh after a long day
he crawled out shivering, cut up a bit from clashing with the thin ice
“why the hell would you do that?!” you say between laughs
looking with a sense of longing you’d had yet to see from him, he said “you could cure the world with that laugh”
you’ve never seen him nervous- that’s not something he does
however, on the rare occasion you sense the tiniest bit of antsy-ness, you’ll grab his arm, ever so gently, and not let go
has never been rough with you in anyway, shape, or form, unless you ask for it, of course.
interlocks fingers when holding hands
has the most meaningful look to him, he doesn’t half ass anything he looks at, especially you
denied how he felt about you for a very long time
the king of avoidance on his feelings, until he met you, that is
the first time he kissed you was when he confessed he liked you
outside of the first annual ball welton academy ever hosted, you followed him outside in a rush of anger after he rejected your plea to join the dead poets for the billionth time.
“i don’t understand why you treat me like this- let me join the dead poets. you know i’m a good writer and an even better poet. how much longer is it going to take for you to realize i’ve already won? and that everyone is against you on your denial to let me in? are you afraid of my talent? my wit? what? my seemingly flawless ways i’ve won everyone over except you?”
“i’m afraid of how i feel about you. i’m afraid of the dread, the longing, the space, everything. the continuous push and shove i feel inside every time i find myself enjoying your company for a little too long. I’m afraid of you. you’re my dread and desire in one goddamn place and it kills off every wall i’ve ever put up in my life”
the shock on your face was all it took. he closed the distance and within seconds, you found yourself feeling as weightless as a man on the moon.
he’s the most dedicated person you’ve ever known- surprisingly to even his studies
he hates on cameron the most, but that’s mainly because of his unrequited crush he had on him as kids
you tease him for it all the time,
“i wasn’t the one who was in love with cameron-“ “but you’re in love with me now, so who’s really losing?”
really an incredible romantic
couldn’t plan a bad date even if he tried
a very good kisser,
incorporates everything into a kiss, it’s a full out affair to him
a world class champion at rolling his eyes
very avid in helping you study
he likes to host actual study sessions for just the both of you
but when the others are invited, he always gets it done no matter what
very serious board game player,
tries to get everyone to take up a game with him but they all know how that’ll end
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bruisedboys · 2 years ago
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LITTLE WOMEN—
“ there is a little bit of you in all the words i write. maybe you’re the language of love my heart speaks. “ with remus!!
roma coming through with the remus request yes!!!! tysm baby xxx
summary: remus writes poetry about you
fem!reader 0.5k words
Remus shows you an excerpt of a poem he’s written and you’re sure it’s about you. As much as you don’t want to assume, because that would be totally self-centred if you’re wrong, you’re pretty sure he’s written it about you. It’s good. It’s really good. He writes about sunlight in the colour of your hair. He writes about a birthmark on the hip of a girl with your skin tone. He writes about the lanterns at the Thai place you’ve been to together a million and one times.
He stands behind you while you read it at the kitchen table, waiting for your reaction. When you’ve taken too long to respond, he asks, “What do you think?” almost self-consciously.
You stare at the notebook in your hand, the words he’s scrawled that describe, however vaguely, you.
“It’s good,” you say weakly, but that’s not enough, so you say, “It’s brilliant, Remus. Really. But I— um. It’s not about me, is it?”
You cringe the second you say it. Remus doesn’t. He laughs.
“Of course it’s about you, dove,” he says gleefully, squeezing your shoulder with his big hand. He squeezes down your arm until he reaches your hand, weaving your fingers together with his. He rests his cheek on your head. “That’s why I showed you, silly. Do you like it?”
“Of course I like it,” you say, breathless. You like it so much you feel dizzy with it. “I love it. I’m just … well, I didn’t know you wrote things about me,” you finish shyly.
Remus squeezes your hand. “Are you kidding? There’s a little bit of you in all the words I write,” he says, and you feel like your heart might give out.
You blink. Look up at him, sick as a dog in love. “Remus,” you say, chiding.
Remus looks at you like you’re the crazy one. As if. He’s the one writing poetry about you.
“What?” He laughs, eyebrows disappearing into his hair. “I’m serious. You’re in every little thing I write. Maybe you’re the language of love my heart speaks.”
You gape at him. You can’t tell if he was joking or not with that last line. But he looks like he’s being completely serious, eyes all brown and melty, which is even worse than if it was a joke.
“That’s like, sickeningly poetic,” you say, a poor attempt to hide how he’s making you feel. Like you’re the only girl in the world. You think he can probably see right through you, anyway. But it’s worth a shot to avoid boosting his ego. “Did you make that up yourself?”
Remus’ grin is staggering and a tiny bit taunting. Yep. He can definitely see right through you.
“You like it?” He asks mischievously, and now he’s just rubbing it in. “Maybe I should write poetry about you more often, hm?”
He plucks his notebook from your hand and you’re left sitting there, knowing if he ever writes another word about you, you’ll probably die on the spot.
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justcallmefox89 · 10 months ago
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Gale and the Gith: Chapter Eight - Eavesdropping Part II
X'aa'nath finally shows Gale how he feels.
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“It seems that we’ve lost our audience, my dear,” Astarion murmurs, running the brush through my hair one last time.
I shrug, trying to appear unbothered, as if I’m not hyperaware of Gale’s movements every time he is near me, as if seeing him smile is not the brightest part of my day.
What sentimental drivel.  How far I have fallen…
“Normally I don’t advocate for such things, but have you considered just talking to Gale?”
I glance over my shoulder at the vampire, confused.  “About what?”
“Oh by the hells,” Astarion sighs.  “Anything?  Everything?  Whatever it is that has the two of you so discombobulated?”
I hunch my shoulders, curling in on myself.  “Purification is our only goal.  After that Lae’zel and I will reunite with our kin.  The wizard is a distraction.”
“I’d find that a lot easier to believe if you didn’t look so miserable while you say it,” he says, languidly reclining back onto his bedroll.
“I am not… That is, I don’t…” I take a deep breath, picking at a loose thread on my trousers in an attempt to settle my nerves.  “I do not have experience in matters like this.  I don’t understand how to do… this.  Whatever this is.”
“Oh.”  Astarion sits up slowly.  “Oh dear.”
*Later that evening*
I’m beginning to think that Khou’zal left out some of the finer points of my education.
My earlier conversation with Astarion has at least filled in a few of the blanks concerning humans and their mating rituals, but it leaves me no closer to knowing what to do in regard to the wizard.  I grunt in frustration and scrub my hands over my face.
The first person to ever stir my blood is a human.  Of course it is.  Not a fellow gith, or a dragonborn, not even an elf.  But a human.  Between the tadpole and this Vlaakith must be testing me.
Without thinking I raise my head and search the camp for the reason for my inner turmoil. 
Gale stands outside his tent casting a spell, uniting tendrils of Weave together to form the likeness of a woman.  Cursing myself for my curiosity I creep closer to observe, wrinkling my nose in distaste when I recognize the subject of his spell.
“That’s that deity you wizards adore.  Mystra, right?”
Gale twitches and the image of the goddess fades away.  “Oh!  My, you startled me.  I… I was miles away.”
“Care to tell me why you were conjuring an image of the goddess?” I ask, eyeing him curiously.
“Just pondering what I lost.  Mystra commands all magic.  Salvation, if such a thing exists is hers to bestow or withhold.”
She doesn’t command my magic.
I conjure a miniature ball of lighting to reassure myself, silently thanking Vlaakith that I was chosen by the storm.  Something I’ve done more often since meeting Gale and learning of the limitations of wizards and their goddess.
“And yet, even now, more than I fear losing my own self and soul, I fear losing my command of her art,” Gale continues.  “Magic is… my life.  I’ve been in touch with the Weave for as long as I can remember.  There’s nothing like it.  It’s like music, poetry, physical beauty all rolled into one and given expression through the senses.  Is it the same for you?”
I tilt my head to one side, considering.  “The elements of the storm live within me.  I am magic.  While talented, you still had to be taught the command of magic.  It is like music.  While you need it written down, I can play it by ear.”
“Fair enough – though in the end we’re still playing the same composition.”
“One of us is playing it slightly better though,” I mumble.
“What’s that?” Gale asks, raising one eyebrow in question.
“Nothing!”
He smirks at me knowingly.  “Perhaps I can show you what I mean by reaching into the Weave together.”
“By all means.”
“Then follow my lead,” Gale mumurs, moving closer to me.
His proximity and the tone of his voice send a small thrill down my spine, and I have to force myself to focus on his next words.
Gale makes a series of hands gestures, Weave sparking between his fingertips, then nods to me.  “Now you.”
I glance over at him skeptically, then imitate the gestures with ease, the Weave obeying me as easily at it did Gale.  As familiar feeling – like a kind word and a kind touch at the same time – washes over me.  It’s warm and comfortable.
“Excellent!”  Gale nods in approval.  Now repeat after me: Ah-Thran Mystra-Ryl Kantrach-Ao.
“Ah-Thran Mystra-Ryl Kantrach-Ao,” I whisper.  The sudden scent of rosewater fills my nostrils as a general sense of well-being settles over me.
“Very good,” the wizard murmurs.  “Now I want you to picture in your mind the concept of harmony.  As true as you can.”
My body shudders traitorously at Gale’s praise, and I close my eyes in an effort to force myself to concentrate on his instructions.  I focus on one of my most treasured memories; the first time Khou’zal and I journeyed to Tu’narath, the feelings that coursed through me as, for the very first time, I beheld that great city built on the bones of a fallen god.  The Weave courses through the night in bright waves, and I feel Mystra’s unmistakable presence all around us. 
“You did it!”  Gale laughs in delight.  "You’re channeling the Weave.  How does it feel?”
I smile over at him.  “Incredible.  Though of course, I could have managed it all by myself…”
“You’re hard to please aren’t you?” he teases playfully.
The Weave connects us.  Joins us together in a way far different from the ghaik’s tadpole.  The moment feels intimate.  I grasp onto the feeling, knowing it will be my only chance to feel this kind of closeness with Gale.  Belatedly I realize the Weave has slipped between my mental defenses, that Gale is now witness to all my innermost desires.  Lost in the sensual haze of the Weave I picture kissing Gale, gently at first, then with increasing passion as my hands explore the soft skin beneath his wizard’s robes.  I imagine kissing the delicate skin behind his ear, burying my hands in his hair and tugging his head back, biting and licking the exposed column of his throat and then further down onto his chest, marking him, tasting him, possessing him…
“I… I didn’t think…”
Quick gusts of embarrassment and trepidation that are not my own pull me out of my fantasy and I open my eyes to see Gale staring down at me, red-faced and wide eyed.  I quickly sever our connection before anymore of Gale’s emotions break through, cursing myself for my stupidity.
“I’m sorry,” I mutter, turning to dart away, already planning to throw myself off nearest cliff and put an end to this madness the wizard has cursed me with.
“X’aa’nath.”  Gale catches my hand, tugging me closer to him, still flushed but slightly more composed.  “I wasn’t expecting… but it is a pleasant image to be sure.  Most pleasant, in fact.  Most welcome.”
I freeze the moment his skin touches mine, the small motion of his thumb gently stroking over my knuckles causing my heart to thump unsteadily in my chest.  The Weave slowly evaporates around us, and as it does so, the night feels suddenly cold and lonesome. 
“There it goes,” Gale whispers, still holding onto my hand.  “How easily things slip away from us, no matter how hard they were in the obtaining.  Stay with me a moment.  Please.”
I nod wordlessly, my eyes fixed on our interlocked hands.
As long as you will have me by your side, I’ll be here.
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maangajuice · 3 months ago
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BLEACH Headcanons
this is 100% my own headcanons, i do this for fun bc i have severe bleach brain rot! excited to write more for the first time in awhile.
please do enjoy. feel free to comment + request xx
── .✦ shinji hirako [my fave]
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.✦ let’s be real, shinji loves jazz and you don’t think this man ever took the time to learn how to play at least ONE INSTRUMENT? i KNOW he would love playing the saxophone + bass guitar.
.✦ his favorite jazz artist would def be either julie london or billy holiday. no question abt it.
.✦ bro definitely smokes weed are you serious?! he’s well versed but… somehow i get the feeling he prefers sativa / hybrids. pearls every joint he rolls and only uses papers.
.✦ POC lover through and THROUGH— this man is def bisexual. he isn’t vocal abt it but is vocal abt how much he LOVES his s/o.
.✦ light academia is his FAVORITE style.. however i can also see him dressing himself like an italian man- as long as he gets to wear his slacks.
.✦ would also love k-pop (100% stans newjeans) !!! 2010s r&b on rotation heavy, plus a huge bedroom pop fan (men i trust + the marias HEAVY)
.✦ huge history nerd- esp from the 20s-70s
.✦ 10000% texts like a gen z kid with brain rot. loves tik tok memes and most def a twitter comedian.
.✦ hugeeeee hopeless romantic, i know he has a collection of romance novels
.✦ secretly needs reading glasses and never lets anyone see it on him— he has a strict night routine.
.✦ collects vinyl ! loves vintage vinyl but wouldn’t mind spending a pretty penny on a nice one.
.✦ super into noir + classic films.
.✦ why do i get the feeling he is such a cappuccino lover? genuinely enjoys making drinks (alcoholic or not-)
.✦ this man has severe ADD- can yap for hours beyond hours but also loves to listen to others. info dumping is his favorite way to communicate but rarely gets the chance to and often imposes when he gets excited.
.✦ enjoys nature walks— would often go on hikes early in the day or late just to watch the sunset/sunrise. as much as he loves to hangout sometimes, he genuinely loves his alone time.
.✦ writes the most heart touching poetry. even goes to open mic night at a local jazz/poetry club.
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asordinaryppl · 1 month ago
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A3! Backstage Story Translation - Tasuku Takato SSR: A Story From His Trip - Part 2
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tysm to fuyugumiyuri on twitter for providing a video of the story!
Tasuku: (Guess I’ve got some time to spare now.)
Tasuku: (Everyone went their own way quick… Reminds me of a training camp.)
Tasuku: The map of the park is... Found it.
Tasuku: Guess I’ll go… there.
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Tasuku: First things first, the sweets corner.
Tasuku: The marshmallows are… over here.
Tasuku: You don’t see marshmallows this big in Japan often. He should be fine with this.
Tasuku: (At the time, I was just thinking about how this is the same old thing. But now that I think about it, Mikage’s request was the most specific and reasonable one.)
Tasuku: … Only the thing that inspires poetry and an interesting story left.
Tasuku: (For now, I’ll look at everything from top to bottom. There’s got to be something in a store this big.)
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Tasuku: This is… the headdress area?
Tasuku: A headband like this would inspire poetry… Uh, will it, though?
Tasuku: (How does that guy get inspiration for his poetry, anyway?)
Tasuku: …
Izumi: Tasuku-san…?
Tasuku: Huh? Oh, Director. Being spoken to in Japanese startled me.
Izumi: Me too. I never thought I’d meet you in a place like this, Tasuku-san!
Izumi: … Are you interested in those too, Tasuku-san?
Tasuku: Huh? What are you talking about?
Izumi: Aw, you don’t need to play dumb. I mean, you’re holding it as we speak.
Tasuku: … Uh. No, you’re wrong. This headband is—
Izumi: I get it. I also feel like wearing one whenever I’m in a place like this.
Tasuku: You really don’t get it.
Izumi: Now’s a great time to wear one and explore the amusement park!
Tasuku: Hey, stop and listen to me.
Izumi: It’s okay, it’s okay. Don’t be shy now!
Tasuku: Don’t push.
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Izumi: How’s this headband?
Tasuku: Ah, a cat? It suits you, I think?
Izumi: … You don’t really think that, do you.
Tasuku: Whatever’s fine. Just get something from a character you like.
Izumi: Sure, but if I’m going to wear one, I want it to be something that suits me.
Tasuku: I never said it couldn't suit you.
Izumi: I’ll believe you, alright? Then I’ll take one with cat ears.
Izumi: What about you, Tasuku-san? Is there a character you like?
Tasuku: Not in particular.
Izumi: I’ll pick out something for you, then!
Tasuku: *Sigh*... Alright. I’ll leave it to you. You won’t stop even if I tell you to, will you?
Izumi: Okay, you’ll wear… this!
Tasuku: Back up. Why does this headband have a ribbon?
Izumi: Because it’s a headband of the girlfriend of the character I chose.
Tasuku: Are you insane?
Choice 1: I’m perfectly sane
Izumi: I’m perfectly sane. I mean, it’s cute, isn’t it?
Tasuku: Just the fact that you chose something cute for me makes you insane.
Izumi: I don’t think so. Isn’t this the kind of thing that fits the people you’d least expect the best?
Tasuku: Even if that’s the case, surely you’ve got other options.
Choice 2: I thought it’d be nice for an adventure
Izumi: Since we came all the way to the US, I thought it’d be nice to try something adventurous.
Tasuku: This is way too adventurous.
Izumi: But I saw a lot of men wearing one on the way here.
Tasuku: … Looking back, there were quite a few of them. But they were all, like, families and stuff….
Izumi: Just pretend you’re practicing for a role.
Tasuku: I’m not falling for that.
Izumi: Wasn’t it you who said I could pick for you in the first place?
Tasuku: Yeah, but… can we at least switch our headbands?
part 1 | part 2 | part 3
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yzeltia · 2 months ago
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FFXIVwrite2024 8. Wedding Vows
Characters: U'rahn Nuhn, Postmoogle Expansion: Endwalker(Timeline Wise, Otherwise Irrelvant) Rating: G Summary: U'rahn practices for his big day with his biggest antagonist. Notes: Freeday prompt given to me by @beyond-mortal-limits *Based on Shakespeare's Sonnet 18 **Based on George Michael's Father Figure
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“Alright! Have we started? Now remember, only write the stuff down that I’m saying for the vows. You don’t have to write it all down…you better not be writing this down…Augh. Anyway. My Vows….My vows….Let’s try:
“Nyx, I’ve loved you since you first took your hand and led you to go do all the stuff Zoissette didn’t want me to do with me…-
“Yes it was a date for someone else? Why? What do you mean that’s lame. Don’t you kupo at me! I’m paying you to write stuff not give me dating advice! Let’s try again. …Maybe traditional?”
“I, U’rahn Nuhn, take you, Nyx Blackmoon, for my eternally bonded spouse, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do…well, until death do I part. I will love and enrich you all the days of my life.
“How’s that? What do you mean ‘lame, kupo?’!? It’s traditional! …Okay …Nyx is not a traditional bride but that doesn’t matter cause they’re going to be the most beautiful and special brrride there’s ever been. Don’t ‘Sure, kupo!’ at me! It’s trrrue! But you’re right…Nyx loves me for my orrriginality and that I enrrrich them…Maybe poetry? I can be poetic! Urianger taught me sonnets after Nyx taught me Haiku!!…Can too! Oh yeah!?
“Shall I compare thee to a Summer’s Night?
Thou art more um…lovely and temperature
Rough winds do shake my darling buddies in May
And Summer’s heat hath all too short a date,
Sometimes too hot the eye of Nidhogg shines
And often is gold and complex and I’m dimmed,
And every faerie from faerie sometimes decides
By chance of nature’s changing course to their whim…d
But thy eternal Summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of thou wanderer’s shade
When in eternal bonds to time thou grow’st
So long as Nuhn can breathe or eyes can see
So long lives this one, and he gives his life to thee-* Stop laughing!
“I swear, moogles are nothing but trouble. That was really good! Yes, I recited it perfectly from the book that Urianger gave me! No I didn’t guess! Just keep your comments to yourself and help write down my vows or I’ll feed you to a sandworm!
“Now…if poems won’t work. How about a song:
“That's all you wanted
Something special, someone enriching 
In your life-
Just for one moment
To be warm and naked
At my side-
Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me 
But something tells me together
We'd be happy, oh-oh, baby
I will be your Nuhn figure
Put your tiny hand in mine 
I will be your preacher teacher
Anything you have in mind-”**
“What? That off key? …Yeah, I’m not very good. Maybe if I asked Big Bro Erick or Big Bro Thancred to back me up in the vocals? No? Yeah…no. I can even admit I’m not the best singer. Alright. Fine…What do you think I should do? … … … Ah…I can try that…:
“Nyx…When I’m around you I feel invincible…Not like my normal invincibility, but like, y’know, that I could do anything and everything I put my mind to. Even the stuff that I’m super bad at. I know I’m not the smartest or wisest guy out there but you never hold that against me and when I meet something that I can’t overcome, you let me try until I ask for help. You never judge me or put me down. I feel so seen and loved around you. 
“And…well, it’s no secret my family is super important to me. You’ve fit right in with us in your own Nyx way. I know that if something ever happened to me, you’d be there to watch over them where I cannot. I named my first daughter after you ‘cause I don’t know anyone more strong and beautiful that I would want her to look up to. 
 “So uh, what I’m trying to say is that I’ll always love you…And I promise, as long as I draw breath, to keep enriching you and making every day be filled with new, fun experiences when we are together.
“Why are you crying? Me? I’m not crying? I just got stuff in my eye! It was good though wasn’t it? Let’s stick with that version….C’mon, I’ll get you a kuponut.”
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raayllum · 1 year ago
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Anyway said I wanted to talk about TDP's stage motif so here I am
The stage motif refers to well, references to the stage/theatre in terms of framing, word choice, and general dramatics. It isn't employed often, and I first noticed it upon reading the S2 novelization, in which the text states:
Callum was on a stage, but there was no one in the audience. This bed of keys was a horrible resting place. Sharp pieces of metal poked into Callum’s back. […] He heard an irritating buzz somewhere beneath him. Callum turned the cube frantically to see which primal was glowing. How could any of the primals glow in this dark place?  Something about this cube tied his stomach in knots. It wasn’t natural. A vision flickered in front of his face. Dozens of dead animals in a field. A dead butterfly. A dead deer. A dead unicorn. Cackling laughter. He chucked the cube away from him with all his might. The glowing rune was dark magic. It represented death.
This of course makes sense. Callum's dark magic dreams with a spotlight focused heavily on him easily invoke the visuals of a lone performer on a stage - often there to declare monologues that reveal a character's internal thoughts, feelings, and particularly struggles - much the way the literal visual dive into Callum's brain shows us his thought process in figuratively imaginative language (sort of like poetry).
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And in many ways, Aaravos' possession scene in 4x04 is also a monologue (and performance) with even a bow to close the 'scene' out. He even sort of assigns everyone their role - a few lines to define each character before the play begins, the way a director may hand out script information in the casting process. This is also where the stage motif begins to overlap with the game motif; you can play a game, yes, but you can also play a role. Play your part.
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Puppets are, after all, inherently performance pieces.
4x04 also complicates this further by tying it to both Rayla's goodbye letter and Viren's speech to Terry:
They said that, sometimes, we make sacrifices so that the ones we love don’t have to. It’s part of protecting them—part of protecting you. Taking on hard choices and going to dark places is an act of love. It’s a gift.
I have always been ready to do anything to protect my family, however dangerous, however vile. In the name of love, you may perform acts so unforgivable... you will never forgive yourself.
With the stage motif coming back in loop with Viren's dream sequences in S5 as well. While his nightmare in the throne room has curtains mostly for the Twin Peaks reference, it still invokes a feeling of performance and insanity that has to be discarded, much the same way Viren has to dismantle his lies (that everything he did was for his family > himself / that he had no choice but to do the things he's done, i.e. "every step" was not because he had to) as we see the spotlight come again. (Fun fact: Viren's is the only one thus far to change from white to red to white again.)
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And Finnegrin also brings up aspects/implications of performance in 5x08 as well:
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The chains are an illusion. A performance, a ruse, a show. The real thing that keeps everyone in line - under Finnegrin's control - is fear (for themselves, assumedly). Callum tried to assert otherwise, that love and connection are the decided opposite of control:
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and Finnegrin called that out as a performance, too, along with his behaviour towards Rayla that proved that love and the desire to protect can also be what controls you.
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All that talk about how love makes you stronger, but the second you see that elf girl in pain, you completely lost yourself [it makes you weak].
Lurking underneath the performance is the truth in what makes people tick - their fears, their loyalties, their instincts. And it's these that Aaravos preys upon. It's why he believes they'll fulfil their roles per his predictions. They're his puppets, his performers.
His instruments
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And well, the show must go on.
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madschiavelique · 1 year ago
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The way you describe miquels love is pure fcking poetry 😭😭😭🤌🏻 esp in the yandere drabbles and hi!!! I’m that anon btw who rambled in your inbox the other about it lol this man just itches a part of my brain that has me go brrrr!!! I love your choice of prose tbh, it fits him oh so beautifully 😭😭😩
love me a man who has all sorts of storms brewing inside of him bc he loves and feels so deeply and violently but on the outside isn’t always so expressive through his words but shows it oh so overwhelmingly through touch and actions and sometimes to most dire and desperate lengths like damn i know you want them to be safe but does that have to include putting trackers on their phone, their car and the beautiful piece of jewellery you gifted them for their bday?! and don’t get me started when you come home a bit too late for his likings, bc you decided to get drinks with a few work friends after your shift. you’ve canceled way too many times on them already bc miguel doesn’t like you staying out too late. He gets a bit worried and overprotective and lectures you too much, so you lie and tell him you had to stay late at the office for paperwork 🥴mistake no 1 bc he already knows when you left and where you went to. And he saw with who (he has access to security cameras too). One particular coworker of yours who was present has been flirty w you on many occasions, a younger guy who is like that with everyone, according to you but of course miguel doesn’t accept this excuse. He also doesn’t understand why you felt like lying to him. He doesn’t get angry though, he could never get angry at you. He just wants to understand. And he wants you to understand. How much he loves you, how much he fears for your safety when you stay out late in the city where he knows what lurks around after dark. Everything he does, is for your own good and your own safety. He doesn’t outright confront you, bc then he’d have to confess the security measures he had to take beyond your knowledge (again, all of your own good and safety), but maybe he pulls a string or two to get you to work more from home. Of course he never tells you this (you’re too proud to accept favours and the perks that comes with his position of power, something that often frustrates him bc this man just wants to spoil you rotten🥴)
and who knows? Maybe he has to show you some extra attention, so you remember what’s yours (he is) and what is waiting for you at home (eager and willing, always and forever)
and if that doesn’t do the trick (entirely), he resorts to something else... Something he isn’t proud of, but you are giving him no other choice with being too stubborn for your own good. some lessons are apparently learned the hard way 🤷🏼‍♀️🥴 lets just say there’s a suit or two he has once developed, prototype armour to be exact and not in use, black in color so perfect to conceal him in the shadows as he follows you in the alley while you walk out of the bar to catch the subway home. He just wants to rough you up, nothing too serious. So he snatches you away before you can protest, cornering you in the darkness of the alley and trapping you in between himself and the cold wall of a building. He just wants to scare you so you have a real reason to reconsider these nights out. What he doesn’t expect is how much a part of him finds it so strangely appealing and downright arousing to see the fear and tears in your eyes though, as you struggle to get out of his grip. Huh 🤔
ANON
OMFG
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DO YOU EVEN KNOW THE WAY MY JAW WAS TO THE FLOOR WHILE READING THIS ???? LIKE OMG
anon this did unspeakable things to me.
how dare you.
i need more.
anon you just
you just convinced me to write a multiple chapter fic for a good yan!miguel x reader x yan!peter b
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with stockholm syndrom
I AM SO GOING TO WRITE THIS AFTER I’M DONE WOTH REQUESTS
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lgbtqreads · 25 days ago
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hello there! this isn’t exactly a rec request, but it is something i’ve thought about a lot over the last couple of years — and i thought i could maybe ask you or your followers for some advice on it, since it sort of pertains to the idea behind this blog, if that’s okay?:)
so i’m a writer, and someone who reads a lot of queer books, and also someone who’s really passionate about seeing more queer books with characters from lesser-known places, with lesser-known queer identities, etc.
being someone from a place that’s definitely not as widely talked about as say, the usa, with a somewhat ‘complicated’ queer identity that i haven’t quite seen reflected in books before, and also someone who loves to write… i really want to write a book with queer characters who are similar to me and the queer community around me. but i genuinely can’t. and i know this sound stupid, but i honestly don’t know why that is.
the issue isn’t the writing itself, i don’t think — i write fic quite often, and a lot of the fic writing i do is about queer headcanons for characters. and whilst i’ve never written a novel before, like in a published sense, i’ve written a lot of (not fic) short stories, and have a couple of (also not fic) projects that could be described ‘almost complete novel-length drafts that i’ve put a lot of planning and editing into’
the problem is that all of these above projects were written before i realised i was queer. so whilst many of them have characters whose queerness is just a ‘casual’ thing that isn’t a huge part of the narrative — while that’s perfectly valid, it isn’t the sort of thing i’d like to write now.
i’ll often get ideas for queer novels or short stories i could write, and i’ll often try to outline those ideas. sometimes i even start writing these ideas — i’ve started so many of these projects — but i can never continue with them past a couple of pages, and i really don’t know why. i’ve tried switching povs, tried different genres, etc.
as i write this i think that some part of it may be that, for the past couple of years, most of what i’ve written has been fic; maybe i’m having a problem going from that to creating my ‘own’ worlds, even though i’ll often put more creativity into fic but that same creativity just doesn’t show up even when i only need a bit of it for writing that isn’t fic, lol
but i don’t know if that’s the whole problem. i write plenty of (not fandom related) poetry, but i can never bring myself to write poems that centre around the idea of queerness even though it’s a huge part of my life, even though i want to be writing poems about it.
i also wonder if the problem isn’t related to writing, but rather my life — i’m in a place where still forced be closeted, still living with homophobic parents and still living in a community that where i feel unsafe to even discuss queerness. although i’ve been able to write about, in a fandom and not fandom way, things that are also heavily disapproved of by those around me, like being mentally ill, so i don’t know why i can write about those things but when it gets to stories about being queer my brain just says ‘nope’
and this just… makes me really sad. i want there to be certain queer stories in the world, and i know that no one else can write the way i will (not an ego thing, just a ‘all stories are unique’ thing), and i want to create the stories i would’ve always wanted for others around me who want the same thing. i love this blog, and it always makes me so happy to see the amount of queer reads that exist, but i also kind of want to facepalm myself whenever i see the amount of stories on here because i always think, how is it possible that so many people can write what they want to but i just can’t, even though i also want to, like what is wrong with me, you know?
i’m so sorry, this got super long! feel free to delete/ignore, that’s also valid.
but after all of this my question is basically ‘i want to write original stuff that centres around queerness, can’t. does anyone have any advice, or has anyone been in a similar position and would like to share their experience’?
also really wanna say thanks to you and everyone who contributed to this blog, through rbs, replies, etc… seeing the amount of and variety of queer stories that people love makes me so emotional and grateful, and i love y’all for telling our stories and sharing them. even though i struggle with adding to this as a writer, that struggle hurts less when i know how much love there is for all of these stories that already exist<33
Well, I can only speak from my own experience as an author, but it is very much possible to be too close to something to be able to write it at that time... but it sounds like maybe it’s the idea of taking full ownership of a queer work from start to finish is really difficult considering where you’re coming from, or even an instinctive safety concern, and that certainly makes a lot of sense to me! 
You might try different points of inspiration, so that rather than fic, it still feels grounded in someone else’s source (e.g. my book Home Field Advantage was entirely inspired by a photograph from the New York Times), or maybe try working off one of your fics and just revising it so thoroughly that it becomes its own thing that way. Or, since you love poetry, maybe try a different form by writing a novel in verse? Could be a real fresh start to get you out of your head. 
I do hope you will find a way to put your work out into the world eventually, because while we do have many, many queer books, as you said, all stories are unique, and especially when it comes to stories from perspectives outside the US, there are certainly massive gaps I know would mean a lot to readers to see filled <3
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