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Not sure i can consider myself exactly bilingual, i didnât grow up in English speaking setting, i learned it as a second language. But than i was in boarding school for two years and well, firstly a lot of terminology about school life was from English. Secondly our boarding staff used English with us on a daily basis. This resulted in almost everyone in school speaking runglish (russian + English) + casually switching to English because why not
So! Things that i and my friends have done / still do / have witnessed
⢠Often switch to English to talk about heavy topics or feelings. Itâs a second language for all of us, so it kinda puts some..distance from all the emotions
⢠On multiple occasions i caught us all writing messages, where we spell an english word in Cyrillic and then switch to English fully
⢠Generally we often write English words in Cyrillic for various reasons
⢠We donât notice that we code switch. On multiple occasions i said a very common for me phrase and my mother was just starring at me until i understood that the phrase was in English and i needed to translate
⢠Forgetting a word in both languages NEVER GETS OLD. BELIEVE ME. But usually itâs not something complicated, no, i can remember how to write deoxyribonucleic acid in both languages but forget the word âearlyâ
⢠two years ago i tried learning Spanish. When we were writing essays in English class i wrote âtrabajadorâ meaning âhardworkingâ. I knew something was wrong with it but i didnât know WHAT. I didnât understand until my teacher pointed it out for me
⢠I personally do not analyse English abbreviations. Sometimes i forget it has A TRANSLATION. Or a full version. Once i said âwtfâ in front of my boarding staff and well it took me three shocked stares and a â Valery!â to realise itâs not just a phrase with âwhat the hellâ meaning but a swearing.
⢠*tries to speak English but fails because itâs too early* *tries to speak Russian but fails because brain demands that this setting needs ENGLISH*
⢠My first sports club, where not only the coach counted, but also the kids - aikido. We counted in Japanese. i haven't practiced Aikido for about three or fours years, but every time i do sports, i count in Japanese to myself
⢠Grammar? Spelling? Vocabulary. Oh no, what IS confusing IS PUNCTUATION. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE CODESWITCHING.
⢠at least one of my friends also spells difficult words while writing, but not with the correct pronunciation. we read them as if they're written in Cyrillic/pronounce every letter. It helps with not messing up the letter (for example when I write various i read it as ĐĐĐ ĐĐĐŁĐĄ in my mind because I'm a) silly b) ADHD and often mess up the order of vowels when typing fast)
⢠OH ALSO - some of us (including me) don't have a stable accent. You watch Shelock - you''re British, you watch TikToks from a South American - you're South American. Or! Sometimes accents sticks to phrases and words :D. So it goes like
*speaking with one accent/neutral accent* *uses the Britishest accent in the world for ONE PHRASE* *continues normally*
⢠Dialects are the Death Of Us. My guy, i have NO fucking idea which pronunciation of "dance" is for UK and which is for America AND I LEARNED THAT WORD WHEN I WAS SIX!!!!
⢠interjections and sounds are ALSO confusing! You'd think we make similar sounds of surprise or joy or sadness. WE DON'T.
i keep adding things god help
anyway
⢠people can have different names for different languages! I don't consider my legal name (Lera) to be my deadname, i like it! but don't usually use it in English speaking spaces because...English doesn't have the sounds (it has similar sounds but still)...that are in my name...and it sounds VERY STRANGE
⢠same with pronouns btw! English doesn't gender verbs, adjectives, nouns, your way to point out gender is simple - pronouns. But in Russian words change depending on a gender ( he is clever - Он ŃПнЍĐ, she is clever - Она ŃПнĐĐŻ). And the way words change for they/them pronouns doesn't sound right to me, so I don't use they/them for myself in Russian, only she/he! But i don't mind in English, because verbs, adjectives and etc don't change :)
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can you pls write more about yandere viđđ i love your writing
yandere violet continued
WARNINGS: possessive behavior, implied threats, toxicity, forced proximity if you squint
authors note: weâre pushing out this vi content ^^
Her presence felt suffocating tonight. Her scarred knuckles tapped impatiently on the table as her piercing blue eyes drilled into yours, unblinking. You knew what would follow was inevitable, but youâd do the best you could to pacify the beast.
âWho was it this time?â she demanded, her voice low, almost calmâbut there was an edge beneath it that set your nerves on fire. âVi, it wasnâtââ You started softly, but she was having none of it.
âDonât lie to me.â She stood abruptly, the chair scraping against the floor. Her imposing figure cast a shadow over you. âI saw the way she looked at you. I saw the way you smiled at her.â Her words were sharp, cutting through any protest you mightâve had. You swallowed hard, unsure of what to say. The truth wouldnât satisfy her, and a lie would only fuel her fire.
âShe was just being polite,â you murmured, trying to de-escalate the situation. But that was the wrong move. Viâs jaw clenched, and her fists tightened, the veins in her forearms flexing. âPolite?â she repeated, her voice dripping with disbelief. âNo one looks at you like that out of politeness.â
You flinched as she stepped closer, her movements deliberate and slight erratic. She crouched slightly, bringing her face level with yours. There was an unsettling intensity in her gaze, a mix of love and possessiveness that made it hard to breathe.
âDo you think Iâm stupid?â she asked suddenly, breaking the silence. Her voice was calm, too calm, and it made your chest tighten. âDo you think I donât notice the way people look at you? The way they talk to you, like they have a chance?â
It was upsetting. It was like she was never pleased, never satisfied with what you said. âNo, Vi, I donât think that,â you replied quickly, hoping to placate her. âItâs not like that. No oneâs trying toââ
âThey are, though,â she interrupted, her voice rising. She turned to face you fully, her hand tightening around yours. âThey think Iâm not paying attention, but I see it. Every glance, every smile, every time someone gets too close to you.â Her lips curled into a bitter smirk. âThey must think Iâm weak, that Iâll just sit back and let them try to take you from me.â
âIâm here with you, arenât Iââ
âFor now,â she muttered, her gaze darkening. âBut people like them, theyâre never satisfied. Theyâll keep pushing, keep testing me, until Iââ She stopped herself, exhaling sharply. Her free hand clenched into a fist, and you could almost see the storm raging inside her.
âYou donât get it, do you?â she said the words softly, but it came off condescendingly, and there was nothing tender in her tone. âYouâre mine. Mine to protect, mine to love. And anyone who thinks they can take you away from meââ Her hand shot out, gripping your wrist firmly but not enough to hurt. Her touch was paradoxical: both gentle and possessive.
âI would do anything for you, you know that,â she continued, her voice barely above a whisper now. âBut if someone threatens what we have⌠if someone so much as touches whatâs mineâŚâ Her words trailed off, but the unspoken promise hung in the air like a storm cloud. The look in her eyes was honest and dangerous, you wouldnât dare to test the theory.
âVi,â you began, your voice trembling. âYouâre scaring me.â
Her expression softened, but only slightly. âGood.â she said, cupping your cheek with a calloused hand. âI love you too much to lose you. Youâre the only thing in this world that makes sense to me. Donât you see? Iâd tear this whole city apart if it meant keeping you safe.â
The ferocity in her confession left you speechless. She leaned in, her forehead resting against yours. Her breath was warm against your skin, and for a moment, you almost believed she was calm. But then she whispered, âTell me youâll stay. Tell me you wonât ever leave me.â
Her tone wasnât a requestâit was a command cloaked in desperation. Your heart pounded in your chest as you nodded, knowing there was no room for argument.
âIâm not going anywhere,â you said, the words feeling heavier than they should. It made you feel unsettledâlike you were signing a contract you werenât sure of.
âGood,â she murmured, pressing a kiss to your temple. âBecause if you did⌠well, letâs just say no one else could ever love you like I do.â The implication lingered, unspoken but clear. In Viâs world, her love was both a sanctuary and a cageâand you were the only one who could decide which it would be.
The tension between you and Vi didnât ease, even as she pressed a gentle kiss to your temple. Her grip on your wrist lingered, and though it wasnât painful, it was unyieldingâa silent reminder of her control over the situation. The air between you felt thick, charged with an intensity that was hard to name but impossible to ignore.
She moved to sit beside you, pulling your hand into hers. Her fingers, rough and scarred from years of fighting, traced lazy circles over your skin. The contrast between her touch and her earlier aggression sent a shiver down your spine. You wanted to believe this was her way of calming down, but the gleam in her eyes told a different story.
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David Gaider on Cassandra (the last of these retrospective character threads), under a cut for length:
"This is the last of the (major) characters I wrote during my time on Dragon Age. I could go into others, and considered moving onto Stray Gods... but I feel like fewer would be interested, and I honestly can't keep up the pace. So let's make this the last, for now. So, yeah. Cassandra. We knew early on that Cassandra would come into DAI as a companion, along with Varric, that this was part of what DA2 set up for the sequel. Now, I'd written Cassandra's short scenes in DA2, yes, but I wasn't her writer for DAI. Initially, she was Jennifer Hepler's character. By mid-project, in fact, Cassandra was more or less fully written. Jennifer did a great job - solid character, solid quest. The sticking point, it turned out, was her romance. Now, to be fair, Jennifer told me straight up when we began that writing romance wasn't her forte, but she'd give it a go. The problem with the romance as she wrote it wasn't in its execution but more a clash between the character as Jennifer envisioned her and the requirements of her being a romance. See, I mentioned previously that a romance arc inherently limits the kinds of stories you can tell with a companion. Many responses I got can be summed up as "lol skill issue", but consider this: a companion romance isn't a fic you can just throw up on AO3. It's an investment of a lot of resources. If a companion has one, most of their resources need to be devoted to it - it's not "now let's ALSO add a romance"."
"That means it needs to take priority in who they are as a character and their arc. What's more, they need to be *appealing* to a big chunk of the player base - or at least someone we can imagine being broadly appealing, anyway. Thankfully, there are still many many stories this can accommodate. đ This, however, wasn't one of those. Was Cassandra a fascinating character? Absolutely. Her romance, though... Well, Jennifer DID warn me. She'd written Cassandra as a serious, self-righteous, pious woman who put the Inquisitor on a messianic pedestal. Romancing her meant changing her view of you. You did this by being... pushy. Jennifer didn't mean it to, I'm sure, but sometimes it came off as, at best, negging. At worst, a bit harassy. And Jennifer would have fixed it. This was a 1st draft, and the issues - while serious - were something a skilled writer like her could handle. No problem. Thing is, Jennifer left. You may not remember, but this was around the time a bunch of GamerGate dudes decided Jennifer was somehow responsible for ALL of BioWare's faults. Oh, the power she wielded! She, a writer, could even command the combat Bio made! The result was a LOT of ugly harassment. đ Is this why she left? You'd have to ask her, but it undoubtedly didn't help. The important thing is, she left - and there was nobody as senior nor as superhumanly fast as her to take over any unfinished work. This is where Patrick Weekes comes in: a solid, senior writer who could fill her shoes."
"It was great timing - not only did Cassandra need a writer, I'd slowly fallen more and more behind. It was clear by that point that I'd never be able to write Dorian AND Cole AND Solas as planned. They needed to pick up two. And I let them choose the ones who interested them, like all my writers. Patrick taking Solas was no surprise, and while I had Big Plans for Solas in the future I knew at least he'd be in good hands. I was reeeeaaaally hoping Patrick would then pick Cassandra... but they wanted Cole. My baby. Who I created in Asunder. I grumped, but Patrick clearly loved the character. They had ideas for Cole which... yeah yeah, sounded cool. Fiiine. đ
Now I had to figure out what *I* was going to do with Cassandra. We couldn't move the romance to someone else, all the other female characters were well underway, and I didn't know the character well enough to fix her with tweaks. That meant a re-write. I didn't WANT to erase all that good work, but I needed to start from scratch. Yet how? A pious, self-righteous character was already a risk in terms of romantic appeal. There are only a small number of traits sorta considered universally unappealing but they're on that list. In this instance, Cassandra already being a known character helped. I came across a webcomic (by aimo, I think? AHH I wish I could find it now) that made a joke about Cassandra reading Varric's books. Off-hand, no basis for it, but funny. đ And I thought: YES. THAT'S IT. THAT'S WHAT I'M MISSING."
"I sat down and wrote the "fangirl" scene, just to test it out. Everyone loved it, and it served to change my image of who Cassandra was - a view of the inside, at the idealistic and awkward passion she felt, for so many things... AND the Maker. "Yes," I thought. "I could fall in love with this." Who knew Cassandra could be funny? Not anyone, coming out of DA2, yet here we were. It worked so well and her voice came so easily. Miranda Raison was game ofc, and amazing. Though Caroline did gripe that, if we ever met more Nevarrans THAT accent meant we'd have the Tali Problem all over again. đ
Cassandra's romance is burned into my brain as the time when we THE most awkward conversation with the animators ever. See, that moment during the sex scene on the picnic blanket when she leans back and... there were suddenly these strategically-placed candles, juuuust covering the Sordid Bits. Thing is, they were so obviously placed just to do that. Plus, we'd already decided to do full nudity in DAI, hadn't we? WHY WERE THEY EVEN THERE? Turns out, the nudity thing was still pretty new to the team. They'd forgotten and put the candles there almost as a reflex. So prudish. So Canadian. đ I do find it kind of funny that, these days, what I mostly hear about Cassandra is from female fans upset at me because she wasn't a lesbian option. I mean, right? Who wouldn't want that? Technically not my decision, but I guess I WAS behind the companions having set preferences so... fair enough?"
"Some of them do take it to an entitled place, though, like Cassandra *should* have been a lesbian. Why? Because she looks like one, apparently, and that that's a bit of stereotyping which feels... odd? But it's not as if lesbian players are spoiled for choice left and right, so again: fair enough. It did lead to the best end credits VO perhaps ever, and overall I'm pretty happy with how Cassandra panned out. Things never end up like you expect, right? But such is game dev lyfe. đĽ¸đ Did you know Cassandra was THE most-romanced DAI character, by a good margin? Least, by a good margin? Dorian."
[source thread]
User: "Did you have any hand in her writing for Dawn of the Seeker?" David Gaider: "No, none. Nobody at BioWare had any hand in Dawn of the Seeker, outside of maybe Mike approving the script or direction? Only he could say for sure." [source]
User: "Was Miranda a specific casting choice by anyone on the team (similar to your picks for Merrill/Fenris/Solas), or was she simply a lucky find? I loved Miranda on the BBC series "Spooks", so I was very pleasantly surprised to learn she voiced one of my favourite DA characters" David Gaider: "I donât remember how Miranda was cast. Auditioned, I expect, and she had a good âsteely warrior voiceâ which is surprisingly uncommon among actresses. The accent she made up was all her, as well." [source]
User: "What's the Tali Problem?" David Gaider: "When Tali was the only Quarian, the actress doing a made-up accent was fine. Once there were others⌠do we get them all to mimic her? Thatâs a tall order!" [source]
User: "I'd say Solas is the most popular nowaday, but you need to be such a specific race/gender combo + most straight guys wouldn't go for him, i get hes not on top of the list, but I'd have expected Josephine over Cass." David Gaider: "You canât go by how fans online talk about playing the game. There is almost zero correlation between the playstyles of the vocal hardcore and the masses." [source]
User: "I was a Dorianmancer. The cut content in Trespasser DLC was sad to read, it definitely felt short/abrupt for Dorianmancers. Anyway to share what was cut at all?" David Gaider: "I donât know what was cut out of the conversation, as I never played it. I just heard about it after the fact." [source]
User: "Those end credits are truly incredible. Do you remember who wrote them? I'm guessing a combination of Mary Kirby & you?" David Gaider: "I wrote them, but I recall the entire team kind of took part in brainstorming the pieces of it." [source]
User: "Iâm very curious- Do you know what direction you would have taken Cole and his story if youâd kept him?" David Gaider: "It's hypothetical at this point, but I suspect I would have been less willing to lose the serial killer aspect... or, at least, would have made that transition occur as part of his arc in DAI. Yet that's easy to say from this side of the divide. Who knows, really?" [source]
User: "With Cassandra you created one of the best characters in DA history." David Gaider: "Personally, my favorite response of hers is where she gets mocked for loving romance and she comes back with a retort about how it's a strength - how loving something and striving for the ideal takes courage. To me, that's central to her core." [source]
User: "inquiry: did you not write any of the Awakening characters?" David Gaider: "I wrote Anders, Justice, and Nathaniel in Awakening - but it was such a hurried project, my memories of it are pretty much a blur. "Yes, I worked on that" is almost all I can say about it, I'm afraid." [source]
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Hello, I hope you're doing well and just wanted to say I love your writing đ
Could you please write scenarios for a reader that has trouble sleeping
Thank you if u do end up writing this â¤
A/n: I hope you like it !!
Vi, Jinx, Caitlyn, Ekko, Jayce, Viktor, Mel
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Vi notices the dark circles under your eyes, and though she tries to brush it off, she canât help but feel concerned. Sheâll make sure to stick around late at night, even if it means sitting in silence with you while you try to fall asleep. If you ever have a bad night, sheâll offer to keep you company, maybe even making soft jokes to help calm your mind. "Hey, you know Iâm always here. No need to stay awake alone."
Jinx
Jinx is a bit erratic when it comes to comforting you at night. On nights you canât sleep, sheâll sometimes pace around with her weird gadgets, making odd noises to distract you. Other times, sheâll climb into bed with you, quietly holding onto you in a tight hug, just making sure you feel her presence. "I know how it is. Canât sleep, but youâre not alone. Iâm here." She'll sometimes hum quietly or whisper little things to ease your nerves.
Caitlyn
Caitlyn, ever the practical one, will try to find solutionsâmaking herbal teas or drawing the curtains to block out any distractions. Sheâll make sure the room feels as peaceful as possible for you. When you canât sleep, sheâll curl up beside you, reading something quietly to help soothe you. "Just breathe, love. Weâll get through this." Her gentle tone and steady presence act like a lullaby, and though she may not fully understand, sheâll do whatever it takes to help you find rest.
Ekko
Ekkoâs the type to offer to stay up with you, watching movies or talking about anything and everything to distract you from your racing thoughts. If itâs particularly bad, heâll try to stay up with you as long as it takes, refusing to leave until youâre comfortable enough to sleep. "Donât worry, weâve got time. Just letâs hang out until you feel better." Heâs patient, letting you know you donât have to deal with it alone.
Jayce
Jayce isnât great with emotions, but he tries his best to understand. When you canât sleep, heâll sit with you, his voice soft as he gently talks about mundane things to calm you downâscience, the Council, anything that will distract you. Heâll be there in the quiet moments, his hand gently resting on your shoulder. "If you ever need me to stay up with you, I will. Just say the word." Heâs sincere, even if he doesn't quite know what will make it better.
Viktor
Viktorâs compassionate but also very careful. He notices when youâre restless and wonât hesitate to offer small comfortsâa warm drink, a blanket, and sometimes his own presence as he sits beside you, working quietly. If itâs late, heâll try to find a way to calm your mind with gentle conversation or even offer a calming distraction, like explaining his latest project in a way that eases your worries. "Itâs okay. Rest will come, just... breathe with me for a moment."
Mel
Melâs the quiet and steady comfort you need when sleep doesnât come easily. Sheâll let you talk if you need to, though her calming presence is often enough. Sheâs a gentle listener, knowing just when to speak and when to let silence envelop you both. Sometimes, sheâll brush your hair back or run her fingers over your hand in a simple, comforting gesture. "Close your eyes, darling. Iâm here. Everything will be okay."
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Let's see if I can add MORE confusion in with my previous close reading of every single book in the series so that I could write my own Redwall novel!*
I see that you OP have heard of The Cookbook but for everybeast else: there's a cookbook! Most of the recipes are extremely simplistic but we'll get to why I think that is in a second.
WRT dairy: they make mention of "greensap milk" and I don't think any of their cheese comes without nuts. In ahhhh the one with the badger and his hawk, they talk more deeply about how cheeses are made (after you have the cheese) including wrapping them in nettles. So I Guess So since it apparently acts Just Like Dairy Cheese.
Yes! We are! Society doesn't exist yet! If you look at the books in chronological order, they move from using spears and sharpened stakes to swords and daggers and simple bows, and - in the last couple of books - crossbows. There's only one smithy and it's made in a dormant/dead volcano. They're literally just not that advanced at this point (although who knows where this would have gone if Jacques had been able to continue!) In earlier books, he refers to various tribes of species all living together in groups, such as squirrels in bands of trees, or the molehill of the Longladle family. Actually circling back to this there *is* one society that sort of rises up as a "city" -- in the Rogue Crew. There's a group of peaceable beasts who all live (mixed!) together in an enclosed sort of fort. It's one of the only other mixed-species places that exist, besides the Abbey and technically Salamandastron. (does Martin's temporary home have other species? I can't remember.) So this is also why I think recipes are a little simplistic. While they have so many vegetables (and don't UTILIZE THEM why are potatoes ONLY USED IN DEEPER'N'EVER PIE!? HUH??!) I think we're given to assume those are local and grown in their own ground, and they don't. have. spices/trade/etc yet.
*I* think the only idea of 'currency' is 'the currency of goodbeasts to do slave labor'. I think this one I would lean more heavily into "he was telling these stories to children" as an excuse; kids don't want to hear about money and capitalism they want to hear about pirates and heroes. But I also find this aspect of society confusing so I was mostly glad we didn't have to deal with money.
There's a bread dimension. That's my only excuse. As far as we know, the Abbey is very large - the front gates are tall enough to admit a full sized ship on wheels (a casualty of one mast) which is able to roll fully into the Abbey, hit a tree, and stop, without ever coming within weapons range of the front doors. We know there are lawns on either side of this path, a graveyard, a small-to-medium-sized spring-fed-lake, and a generous orchard. I assume Jacques was modeling this after abbeys in Europe/England, which I don't know jack and shit about, but that they did live there year round. shrug? I will note that there is a scene in a book (no I don't remember which one) where a gardener explains to a peer that 'we don't plant or harvest it all at once because then we'd have a bumper crop of parsley and what use is that? by planting some seedlings now, some later, we will have parsley throughout the season instead' so he was thinking about it, at least, even if it doesn't quite work out to reality terms. but there's just a fucking bread dimension, there just has to be, there's not enough room to grow the plants needed nor mills to grind them nor processing or ever making or even mention of flour. I GUESS we could talk about nutflour and other flour-like-flowers which the mice would have access to but BREAD DIMENSION. This was my one concession in my writing, I gave myself an out here because it drove me NUTS.
I don't think Jacques ever thought about this. We get ONE instance of a mouse adopting a. rat? what the hell is he. I think he wasn't the same species, I don't remember that one well, but there's him and Tagg, and that's "otter adopted by vermin" which isn't quite this either. I think this is probably another "kids story concession" which isn't an answer I like to give but it's the best I've got.
ha! ha! he actually retconned this! if you read Redwall the first book, he makes mention of several species (beaver? horse) which are WIPED FROM EXISTENCE in the rest of the series. There is a cart drawn by a horse which makes it seem like the mice and rats are living in a world with humans & human-sized equipment but that is RETCONNED. I do think the trees vary in size because we have various scenes of "two maidens bound hand-to-hand around a tree to keep them confined for the night" and "tied all [4-6?] of the vermin together with their belts, around a tree" in various locations in Mossflower and its environs. I don't? think? we ever hear of trees large enough to be giants to mice like they would in our reality. an addendum to this: I have never bloody been able to figure out the size of the fish. shrimps are the size of shrimp to us because otters eventually 'Skipper popped one in his mouth' in the kitchens which gives us an idea of how large they are to otters, at least. but fish??? ha. HA! we have the feast-day fish catching where multiple beasts are needed to reel in a huge trout or carp. we have pike, which are enormous man-eaters (mice-eaters?) but can also be beat to shit by a big otter and his rudder (Lord Brocktree iirc) and there is one kept as a tame uh, "pet", by an otter tribe. there is ALSO the wolf question. Gods know I don't remember which one this is but there's a book where a ... big fox? i think he is? is up far north, and he finds a dead wolf? and takes its skull and pelt and puts knives in for the claws? or some such. so we DO have extra-large-predators like wolves and wolverine, but then when we get. to the wildcats. oh the wildcats. they drive me NUTS. by rights they should be as big as badgers? when Martin fights Verdauga it feels like Martin is half the size of the cat? but then in every other way the cats seem to be as big as otters! or hares! uugghhh. BIRDS TOO birds are WILDLY inconsistent in size, I don't know how a mouse helps an osprey re-set his wing nor how a mousebabe rides on a flying eagle's head without disappearing.
do I have any burning questions still. hmm. OH I want to know what they make! their clothing! out of!!! WHAT IS IT. I also want answers about the far west, the scorpion??? and lizards??? as well as what the other side of the continent towards the east looks like, because in Martin's history we get to visit that coast AND we learn of several locations (TM) like Noonvale, which are never referred to again.
which BLOWS MY MIND because he made Brockhall + Castle Kotir literally affect the landscape temporally throughout his books. Brockhall is discovered and rediscovered and lost again and again, and Kotir eventually rises from the dead to menace the Abbey wall because fucking Germaine built a wall over the top of it when it sank into a mire. MA'AM. Even when we get to Doomwyte, the cavern they are in is a cavern mentioned in earlier texts! this is not our first interaction with the deep deep fissure in the earth that emits green gas!!!
oh and The Tapestry. I have so many questions about the tapestry. canonically the image of Martin was sewn by his (mother? wife? someone) and preserved through many things to eventually be set as the 'cornerstone' for the tapestry. And it "depicts vermin fleeing from him in all directions" and his "calm easy face" which seems to smile at Redwallers etc etc. but then. the SWORD. sometimes it it set next to the tapestry which to me makes sense; held vertically along the side it is accessible to many but not to babes. I don't think it is ever placed below the tapestry. but it IS placed ABOVE and there is a part where a goodbeast does acrobatic parkour to SNATCH IT FROM THE NAILS and I want to know HOW??? how big is the tapestry. how did you get that. is it landscape or portrait. what. WHAT. also where did the shield go! where did the sheath go! those were so important aaagaggghhhhhh.
Okay that's it I think I'm done. I hope any of this was useful or amusing, or better yet caused more chaos and questions đ
^* I did in fact write most of this, 50k/100k words over two NaNos, but I could never get anyone to fucking read it or give me any feedback, despite handing out the first fifteen chapters to like seven people, so I lost steam. So if you're reading this and going "wow! I sure would like to read even more Redwall content and I would LOVE to get into in-depth discussions of shit in a fanbook, this sounds like a great way to build community," HI PICK ME.
hobbies include: close reading the Redwall series to answer my most burning questions. such as:
- can I replicate any of these delicious-sounding foodstuffs and would they in fact be delicious if I was able to
- corollary to the above: are we just supposed to read âoat creamâ and ânut cheeseâ every time we see the words âcreamâ and âcheeseâ? I think so. bc if not, what tha hell are their livestock animals
- what is Society like? I donât think we ever see a Mouse City or even Mouse Town though we do see castles and obviously an abbey. are we supposed to believe that most creatures are either in wandering bands or these societies based around a single structure (castle/abbey?)
- they appear to have an idea of what currency is (the bad guys always want treasure â maybe just to have, not to sell? but less ambiguous is some dialogue I just read, âacorn for your thoughts?â âyou can have them for freeâ) but again, we never see anyone using money or making goods for the market. is this after the fall of Mouse Capitalism? are the bad guys (the idea of rat pirates gives me a headache, vis a vis the political/economic systems needed to power piracy) raiding preindustrial mouse societies for treasure/meat?
- corollary to the above: the abbey creatures have oats and wheat but we donât see anybody farming or trading for farm goods on a large enough scale. is the abbey âorchardâ really a like an indigenous forest farm of mixed foodstuffs? is that possible if you live in the same place the whole year or only if you travel each season? I have to do some googling
- both the lack of mixed-species families and the idea of mixed-species families give me a headache. has a squirrel never fallen for a handsome otter? what is the culture shock like if you marry into a subterranean mole family?
- this is the least âimportantâ question but this read through Iâve been desperately trying to figure out What Size Everything Else Is. iâve come to the conclusion that everything other than animals are at mouse scale, given that they can make seaworthy vessels their own size (a mouse sized vessel with real-world-sized waves seems impossible) and pick and eat apples and plums. but so far it seems like theyâve avoided mentioning how tall trees are â like a person compared to a tree or a mouse compared to a tree?
#shin adds shit to posts#redwall#I hope you don't mind me jumping in on this my friend sent me the post and I have been MISSING WRITING TRIDENT ALL MONTH#between the ai-debacle and no-feedback I haven't been able to write much this year and it's aaauuuggghhhh#so thank you for letting me exercise this little bit of my brain :thumbsup: it's good to do! it's fun!#I am also dead serious about that offer. no judgement I don't care who you are or if we share fandoms or not or whatever.#I'm a weird furry and I will respect the fuck out of you. READ MY FAN BOOK. TELL ME HOW TO MAKE IT BETTER.#Redwall's Trident is a story about the daughter of the High North Coast Otter King going on her own adventure with her own Rogue Crew#summoned by Martin to protect his Abbey from a monstrous dragon [crocodile]. along the way she picks up hares and mice and even a snowy owl#there are pigeons in the Abbey because THERE SHOULD BE. there is slightly less bioessentialism. there's a LOT less sexism.
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Pairing | Tommy Shelby x reader
Summary | Tommy is stressed so you help him take his mind off it. (Inspired by those gifs)
Warnings | Smut, gentle sex, gentle kissing, forehead kisses, dry humping, praise, light dom/sub, cuddling, role reversal.
Words | 1.7 k
Notes | I bet yâall didnât think I was capable of writing dom!reader as anything other than a sadist, did you?đź
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Kinktober | day 18: role reversal
âWhatâs wrong?â You asked, trying not to frown. Tommy was sitting on the bed, his elbows on his thighs and his head in his hands, but he looked up at the sound of your voice. You remained in the doorway, hesitating.Â
He shook his head and let out a heavy breath. âNothing. Iâm fine.â
âTommyâŚâ He sighed quietly, but just closed his eyes and shook his head again instead of responding. You carefully walked over to him and took his chin in a gentle grip, tilting his head to look up at you. âYou donât have to tell me. But let me help you.â You said softly.Â
âI,â he cut himself off and swallowed the lump in his throat, trying to continue. He couldnât get any words out though and eventually wrapped his arms around you tightly, resting his head on your stomach. You were shocked at first, but you quickly returned the embrace, holding him against you in a way that you hoped was comforting. He let out a soft sound and hugged you tighter. The gesture was endearing, but you were starting to worry a little because heâs rarely ever like this. Keeping your arms around him, you rubbed your hands up and down the back of his neck a little bit, trying to do everything you possibly could to comfort him.Â
âWhat do you need, Tommy?â You asked softly, wanting to be sure before you tried anything. In response, he nuzzled into your stomach and hugged you even tighter. Eventually though, he tilted his head back so his chin was on your stomach and he was looking up at you with what you could only describe as puppy dog eyes. You continued running your fingers through his hair, waiting patiently for his response.Â
âDonât want to think about it anymore.â He finally said, voice barely audible.Â
âYeah?â You were hoping you understood what he actually meant⌠When he nodded, you gave him a small smile. âWill you lay down for me, love?â He reluctantly pulled away from you to lay down on the bed, watching you crawl over him. You hiked your dress up to your hips so you could straddle his thighs, then leaned down over him and cupped his cheek. Your gaze shifted between his eyes and his lips as you slowly moved closer until you could feel his breath intermingling with your own.Â
When you finally kissed him, his hands moved to your waist, then snaked around to your back. He pulled you closer and wrapped his arms around you, holding you. You started slowly rocking your hips, rubbing your pussy on his cock through all of the layers of clothing, and he let out a soft sound in response.Â
âYou need me to get rid of all those pesky thoughts, hm?â You asked softly, moving down to kiss over his neck, feeling him nod. âWords, love.â You urged gently.Â
âYes.â He choked out, making you smile. You continued grinding and kissing for a while until you got too worked up to continue teasing both of you like that. Tommy seemed to share a similar sentiment.Â
You quickly took his length out of his pants, then pulled your panties to the side and lined up. It stung a little when you sunk down on his thick cock, however, that was all but forgotten when you heard the little whimper that slipped out of him. Once you were fully seated on his lap, you leaned down to kiss him again, feeling his hands roaming all over your body.Â
âThat feel good, love?â You whispered, lips brushing his as you hovered above his face. He stared up at you through half lidded eyes and nodded dumbly, making you smile again. âWhat about⌠this?â You murmured, snaking your hand up to wrap around the front of his neck, not yet squeezing. âDoes that feel good?â You wanted to be sure before you did anything, especially with how fragile he seemed right now.Â
âYes.â He whispered, staring up at you with an expression that you didnât recognize. You started rocking your hips, then tightened your grip on his neck, making his lips part in a silent moan.Â
Leaning down so your lips were brushing his ear, you murmured, âYour cock feels so good, TommyâŚâ He let out a shaky breath that cut off into a choked moan when you squeezed his neck even tighter. âSo good.â You moaned breathily.Â
With your free hand, you grabbed his hand and intertwined your fingers, then pinned it to the bed beside him, adding another small display of dominance. You were being extra careful not to overdo it because you didnât want to scare him off.Â
You pulled back to look at him, keeping your face close enough that you could feel his breath fanning your lips. He was looking up at you with wide eyes, his lips still parted as he panted quietly.Â
âPlease.â He whispered, voice not even audible, but you read it on his lips. You faltered for a moment, but quickly snapped out of itâ Now that you think about it, youâre not sure youâve ever heard him beg for anything before. You continued rocking your hips, enjoying the feeling of his cock inside you as your clit rubbed against his pelvis.Â
âI got you, love.â You murmured, tightening your grip on his neck until his eyes rolled back from the pleasure. The movement of your hips just barely sped up as you grew closer to your release. âYouâre safe with me, Tommy.â You whispered.Â
When you felt his throat bob under your hand and watched his brows knit together as he closed his eyes, you tried not to frown. Whatever he was worried about was clearly stressing him more than you originally thought. You placed a gentle kiss on his forehead and his bottom lip started wobbling, but he quickly took it between his teeth.Â
âShh⌠look at me, baby.â You uttered softly. His eyes fluttered open to look up at you, now a little glossier than before. âJust focus on me.â You whispered, placing another kiss on his cheek. âMy lipsâŚâ the next kiss was on his jaw, âmy hands,â you kissed the side of his neck, then let your lips brush the shell of his ear as you whispered, âmy pussy.â He sobbed out a quiet moan and your walls fluttered around his cock at the soundâ never having heard anything like that from him before.Â
âThatâs it⌠Can I make you come, angel?â You asked softly, feeling him give a small nod.Â
âPlease..â He whimpered.Â
âGood boy⌠Just let me make you feel good.â You cooed. Your hips sped up even more, but your movements remained mostly gentle. Regardless, you could see the way his cheeks flushed and his breathing picked up, signaling his impending release. âShould I rub my clit or do you want to do it?â Youâd have to let go of either his hand or his neck and you had a feeling that he wouldnât want either option. You were proven correct when his free hand slipped between your bodies and sought out your clit.Â
âIâm so close, but I want you to come first. Can you do that for me, love?â He nodded in response and squeezed your hand harder, making you smile a little. When he tilted his head back so his neck was jutted out more, you assumed that was a silent request and you squeezed even harder, making his breath catch in his throat. âGood boy. You can do itâŚâ You whispered, watching him closely.Â
His eyes fluttered and his lips parted even more, then his body was trembling as his orgasm washed over him. He let out a choked moan and squeezed his eyes shut, his hips bucking up unconsciously. As the pleasure washed over him, his fingers on your clit faltered, but your hips maintained a steady rhythm, working him through it.Â
âGood boy⌠Iâm so proud of you, love.â You said softly, moaning a little at the feeling of hot come filling you up.Â
He sobbed out a moan and it was hard to tell from his expression if he was still feeling pleasure or if he was about to cry⌠Honestly it mightâve been both. When his orgasm finally faded, his body sagged into the bed and you paused as he panted heavily, catching his breath.Â
âCan I keep going or are you too sensitive?â You asked, slightly loosening your grip on his neck.Â
âDonât stop⌠Please.â He whispered. His fingers picked back up on your clit so you started moving your hips more desperately, taking in the sight of his flushed cheeks and wide, teary eyes. Something about the vulnerabilityâ the sheer overwhelming trust that he was displayingâ had you barreling toward your own release.Â
You finally fell over the edge, your hand unconsciously tightening around his neck once again, forcing a quiet whimper out of him that was drowned out by your own sounds. You could see the way his face scrunched up in pain the slightest bit as your pussy fluttered around his sensitive cock, but he didnât complain.Â
As you came down from your high, you let go of his neck to cup his cheek, giving him a small smile. He didnât return it, but you didnât really expect him to. You leaned down and kissed him gently, then pulled back with your forehead resting on his.Â
âDo you need more or do you just want to lay with me?â You were going to offer to leave him alone too, but you had a feeling he wouldnât want that in his current state.Â
âLay.â He whispered. At his request, you carefully lifted yourself off his cock, then rolled onto your back and urged him closer. He hesitated at the unfamiliar position, but eventually laid down with his head on your chest, hugging you tightly as your arms wrapped around him.Â
For a while you just ran your fingers over his back and through his hair, trying to relax him. He remained stiff though and you desperately wanted to know what was wrong, but you knew better than to ask right now.Â
âWill youâŚâ he swallowed audibly and hesitated before continuing, âwill you sing to me?âÂ
Your heart melted immediately at the request and the corners of your lips turned up into a small smile. âOf course, love.â You said softly, placing a gentle kiss on his head before beginning to sing quietly. He hugged you tighter and nuzzled into your chest, trying to focus on the vibrations against his cheek and the soft lull of your voice, rather than the thoughts threatening to consume him.Â
Still donât know how to end one shots lol
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HOW DIFFERENT BATBOYS APOLOGIZE AFTER A ARGUMENT ââ .âŚ
a/n: Lowkey I feel like Iâm like slightest but problematic in arguments (not me exposing myself) but srs I got this request by a anon! (Here) So yeah tysmm, I wonât be writing the argument because lowkey, I canât do angst at this time đđ
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BRUCE WAYNE ââ .âŚ
The "I'm Sorry, ButâŚ" Apology: Bruceâs apology might be a little stiff at first. Heâs not great with words when it comes to his emotions, but he does know how to make up for things. His apology might start with something like, "I know Iâm⌠difficult, but I didnât mean to hurt you." The real comedy comes in when he tries to "fix" the situation by throwing money at itâlike suggesting an extravagant dinner or buying you a new wardrobe because, "I know it will make you feel better."
Trying Too Hard to Be âNormalâ: He might try to act like heâs ânot Bruce Wayneâ for a second, attempting to be goofy to show you heâs truly sorry. Picture Bruce awkwardly trying to make a joke: "Iâm sorry I made you feel like I was ignoring you. How about we go out⌠without my bodyguards this time? You know, like a normal date?"
The Silent Apology: More often than not, Bruce will show you heâs sorry with actions, like preparing your favorite meal or doing something thoughtful (such as leaving you a handwritten note or taking care of something you've been stressing about). But if you press him for words, he might simply mutter, âIâm not good at this⌠but I am sorry,â and leave it at that.
DICK GRAYSON ââ .âŚ
The Full-On âIâm Sorry, Please Forgive Meâ Routine: Dick is extremely sorry whenever heâs messed up, and he knows how to make it entertaining. Heâll show up with flowers, chocolates, or maybe even your favorite ice cream. And then, with a totally sincere but dramatic flair, heâll say something like, âListen, I know I was an idiot, and I have no excuse except that Iâm clearly emotionally stupid when Iâm upset. So please, for the love of all things holy, let me make it up to you.â
Humorous Apologies: Dick might also make you laugh with his over-the-top apologies. Maybe he tries to outdo himself by setting up an elaborate âromanticâ date, only for it to completely go awry (think spaghetti noodles flying everywhere or a very unromantic âromanticâ location). Heâll laugh it off, saying, âOkay, so maybe thatâs not exactly how I imagined it⌠but you have to admit, itâs unforgettable.â
The Super Dramatic âIâm Sorryâ Speech: After an argument, Dick is not shy about admitting when heâs wrong. Heâll deliver a heartfelt, exaggerated apology, something like, "I was a fool, and I see now that I was wrong. You are perfect, and I am definitely not. How do you put up with me?" Then, he might give you puppy-dog eyes, as if expecting you to immediately forgive him.
JASON TODD ââ .âŚ
The âI Know I Messed Up, But⌠Hereâs a Giftâ Approach: Jason is quick to apologize, but itâs not usually with a heartfelt speech. Instead, heâll show up with a giftâmaybe something small but thoughtful, like your favorite snack or a new book he knows youâve been eyeing. Heâll casually hand it to you and say, âAlright, alright, I messed up. But you know Iâm not great at this, so hereâs my attempt at being a decent human being.â
Comedic Self-Deprecation: Jason, knowing heâs not always the best communicator, might start with a little self-deprecating humor. "Look, Iâm sorry, okay? Youâre right, I am a jerk sometimes. But hey, at least I didnât set anything on fire this time, right?" Heâll try to make you laugh with his inability to fully express himself, but you know he means it.
The âIâm Sorry, Now Letâs Get Back to Normalâ Routine: Jason might awkwardly try to move past the argument, brushing it off with a gruff, "Look, Iâm sorry for being a pain. Can we just⌠go back to how things were?" It's not the most eloquent apology, but itâs Jason, and itâs his way of saying he wants to make things right without diving too deep into feelings.
TIM DRAKE ââ .âŚ
The "I Overthought This" Apology: Tim is a perfectionist, so when he messes up, heâll overthink how to apologize. Heâll probably try to do something really thoughtful, like writing you a letter or planning a whole day dedicated to making it up to you. But the real comedy comes when he gets so wrapped up in planning that heâs awkward about it. "I, uh, made you a list of everything I could do to make it up to you, starting with⌠well, taking you out for dinner. You like sushi, right? But if you prefer something else, I can alsoâ"
The "What Do You Need?" Routine: Tim might also take a very logical approach. Heâll ask, "What would you like me to do to fix this?" but in a way that makes it seem like heâs creating a spreadsheet of ways to apologize. "Iâve compiled some options for you to choose from. Option one: Dinner. Option two: A walk in the park. Option three: Let me do your laundry for the next weekâŚâ
The 'Nervous, Over-Apologetic' Tim: Tim is likely to be the one who apologizes over and over again. Heâll say âIâm sorryâ about a dozen times in a single conversation, with increasing levels of anxiety. "I really didnât mean it that way. Iâm so sorry. Are we okay? You donât seem mad, but if you are, I understand, and Iâm really, really sorry."
DAMIAN WAYNE ââ .âŚ
The Reluctant Apology: Damian isnât one to apologize easily, and when he does, itâs more formal. He might say something like, âI apologize for my behavior. It was uncalled for.â And then heâll awkwardly pause, before adding, "I... didnât mean to upset you." The comedic part comes when he clearly doesnât understand how heâs hurt you. He might ask, âIs there anything I can do to make it right? Or⌠was this just another one of your moods?â
The Unintentional "Nice Guy" Apology: Damian will give you something as an apologyâperhaps a bouquet of flowers or something that he âfound interesting,â but heâll likely be very stiff about it, saying something like, âThis is for you. I thought you would appreciate it. Itâs⌠an apology gift.â Heâll be surprised when you react positively, since heâs convinced that youâll just think itâs lame
A Small Gesture of Remorse: As an apology, Damian might ask you to join him for a quiet walk or for tea, giving you a rare moment of sincerity. He might even throw in a joke (but itâll be one of those very dry ones), saying, âThe tea will be of the highest quality, so I suppose that should count for something."
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if you would could you write a part two?
like she really leaned on lando but also ollie and ollie was serious when he could he her bf âŚ. and they get together
Enjoy reading and send some requests!!!
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Part 1
Big Brother to the Rescue Part 2
The following months were a whirlwind for Yn. Since that difficult weekend at the Grand Prix, Lando had made it his mission to bring her along to as many races as possible. At first, sheâd been hesitant, worried about being a distraction. But Lando insisted.
âCome on, Yn,â he said one evening over dinner. âI drive better when I know youâre there. Youâre like my good luck charm.â
Yn snorted. âYou canât use me as an excuse for a bad weekend, you know.â
âNever,â Lando said with a grin. âSo, what do you say? Come to the next one?â
She agreed, and soon, race weekends became a regular part of her life again.
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At first, Lando kept a close eye on her. Heâd constantly check inâasking if she needed anything, cracking jokes to make her laugh, and making sure she wasnât overthinking about her ex. But as the months passed, Ynâs laughter returned, and her smile became brighter.
Lando couldnât help but notice the change. She seemed genuinely happy again, which filled him with relief. But something gnawed at him. Why?
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It was during a particularly busy race weekend when Lando finally got his answer. The McLaren garage was bustling with engineers, mechanics, and team members preparing the cars for qualifying. Lando had just finished a debrief and decided to swing by the garage to check on Yn.
As he stepped inside, he froze.
There she was, standing off to the side with Ollie.
They were deep in conversation, their faces lit up with wide smiles. Ynâs laugh echoed softly over the hum of activity, and Lando narrowed his eyes. Why is he making her laugh like that?
Then he saw it.
Ollie leaned in, saying something that made Yn blush and look down shyly. And before she could tuck a strand of hair behind her ear, Ollie gently did it for her.
Landoâs jaw tightened.
Oh no, no, no.
He started striding toward them, fully prepared to put an end to whatever this was. But before he could take more than a few steps, a hand caught his arm.
It was Oscar.
âWhere are you going?â Oscar asked, his tone calm but firm.
âTo remind Ollie that heâs not allowed to flirt with my sister,â Lando said through gritted teeth.
Oscar raised an eyebrow. âWhy?â
âWhy?â Lando repeated incredulously. âBecause sheâs my little sister. Thatâs why.â
Oscar glanced over at Yn and Ollie. They were still talking, completely unaware of Landoâs growing frustration. Yn laughed again, her eyes sparkling in a way Lando hadnât seen in months.
âLook at her,â Oscar said, nodding toward them.
âI am,â Lando snapped. âThatâs the problem.â
âNo, thatâs the solution,â Oscar replied. âSheâs smiling again, Lando. Sheâs happy.â
Lando hesitated.
Oscar continued, his voice softer now. âYouâve been worried about her for months, and now sheâs back to being herself. Donât ruin that because youâre being overprotective.â
Lando opened his mouth to argue but stopped. He looked at Yn againâreally looked at her. She was radiant, her cheeks flushed from laughter as she teased Ollie about something.
And Ollie...
Lando hated to admit it, but Ollie looked at Yn with genuine affection. The way he leaned toward her, hanging on her every word, and the tenderness in his gazeâit wasnât just flirting.
It was something more.
Oscar gave Lando a pat on the back. âThink about it,â he said before walking away.
Lando stood there for a moment, torn. His instincts screamed at him to protect Yn, to pull her away and remind Ollie who she was. But Oscarâs words lingered in his mind.
Sheâs smiling again.
With a heavy sigh, Lando took a step back. He turned and walked out of the garage, leaving Yn and Ollie to their moment.
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Later that evening, Yn found Lando sitting outside the hospitality area, staring at the sky.
âHey,â she said, sitting beside him.
âHey,â he replied.
She nudged him with her elbow. âYou okay?â
Lando glanced at her, noticing the contentment in her expression. âYeah. Are you?â
Yn smiled softly. âI am.â
They sat in silence for a while before Yn spoke again. âThanks for bringing me to all these races. I needed this.â
âYou needed more than that,â Lando said, his voice teasing but warm.
Yn tilted her head, confused. âWhat do you mean?â
âNothing,â Lando said quickly, shaking his head. âJust...Iâm glad youâre happy.â
She studied him for a moment, then leaned her head on his shoulder. âI have the best brother in the world, you know that?â
âObviously,â Lando replied with a grin.
They stayed like that for a while, the sounds of the paddock fading into the background. And though Lando still had his reservations about Ollie, he decided he could live with it.
As long as Yn was smiling, that was all that mattered.
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ęšëŻźě â - -> Empty classroom's~! -> K.MJ
Warning â Sex, sex in school bathroom, Jelousy, over 18! Sex without protection, mommy kink, Gp!Minjeong, dirty talk.
Paring -> BadGirlGf!Minjeong x SoftieGfFem!Reader
Synopsis -> Sheâs jealous of another boy talking to her girl.
You were talking to one of your male classmates, Leehan, you guys were talking about the project that your science teacher set that was due in two weeks.
It was about doing some research and writing an essay. Lucky for you, you got a nerd to work with so it would be more easier.
As you were talking, you felt a tap on your shoulder as you turned you saw that it was your girlfriend, Minjeong. Minjeong was a bad-girl, well that what people call her as she's either in trouble or causing fights with someone.
She glared at leehan then at you, "Why are you talking to him..?" She asks the obvious jealousy shown on her face.
You looked her in the eyes, "We were just talking about a science project we have to do." you said, trying to explain to her why you were talking and walking with leehan in the first place.
She took your hand and pulled you behind her. She then looked at leehan.. "I don't want to see you ever talk to my girlfriend again.. you hear me.?"
Leehan pushed up his glasses, "Well then how are me and Y/n supposed to get the project done..?"
"I don't know and I don't care." Minjeong said rolling her eyes and walking off, dragging you into an empty classroom.
You gulped, you knew how Minjeong could get when she was being jealous.
She pinned you against the wall as she stared into your eyes, "You got anything to say about what happened back there.?" She asked, gritting her teeth.
You spoke up, "W-well I-" but before you could finish, Minjeong kissed you.
You hummed into the kiss, you felt as her tongue entered your mouth and started to explode it. Which made you whimper and go weak in the knees.
The kiss broke as you pulled back for air, gasping as you feel her lips kissing your neck.
She left wet kisses before stopping and giving you a Hickey on the right side on your neck. "Ah.. M-Minjeong w-wait.!" You tired to stop her, but it was too late.
She already was gonna mark you, showing everyone that you're hers and only hers.
You let out a whimper, your neck leaning back to give him more space. You had your eyes closed as you tried to concentrate on the pleasure she was giving you.
She groaned, moving her head from your neck to look down at you. As you guys locked eyes she moved her hands to your sides. "You mine and only mine.. got that sweetie?"
She gripped your waist causing you to whimper. He leaned back in and kissed you, you wrapped your arms around her neck as she moved one on his hands between your legs.
Causing you to let out a small moan, "Hmm you like that, huh?" She chuckled as she continued to rub up and down your wet folds through your underwear.
She continued to rub your cunt as she whispered dirty talk into your ears, "Hmm just getting all worked up over my fingers baby."
You felt as her fingers started to pump in and out of your cunt, "Hmm my baby's hole is tight.. no matter how much times I fuck you..huh..? I wonder if you really take me.."
"H-hmpf.. fuck.. Minjeong." you moaned as she chuckled at your state before pulling away her hand from inside you.
"Nuh huh, we're not done yet.." she turned you around and held your hips, "I know you can take it." You look behind you to see her unzipping her jeans and pulling out her huge girthy dick.
You gulped, well you've taken her fully before but she was always big. She then lifted your skirt and moved your panties to the side, she then rubbed her tip all over your folds to gather all your slick to use as lube.
You whined, "Impatient are we now?.." she stopped the teasing and she alined the tip of her cock to your hole.
"Hmm now gonna get what you want princess.." she mumbled as she slowly pushed inside you.
"A-ah fuck." Your brows frowned as you had your mouth in an 'o' shape.
She started pounding into your tight little cunt as you whimpered about it 'being too big' and that 'Its making you feel so full'.
She pulled up your top and let your tits hang out as she massaged them and praised them for how 'they perfectly fitted his hands' and that she 'loved your perky pink breasts.â
She grunted, "hmm so you like that? Huh? You like my big fucking cock pounding deep into your tight little pussy eh?" He muttered as he continued to thrust into you.
"yes..ahmm."
"Yes.. who?" She took your arms and held them behind your back as he pounded into you.
"Ye.. yes. Mommy." You whimpered as you felt yourself coming closer and closer to the edge.
"Haa.. fuck.. who's pussy does this belong to?..." she groaned as she picked up her pace.
"All.. ah hunggg Yours..daddy haa all yours~" you couldn't even think straight. All that could be heard was your moans and her grunts.
"I-im.. hmpff close m-.. mommy." you whimpered as you started to clench around her.
"Hmm cum for me baby... I'm close too. daddy's close..." her thrusts came sloppy indicating that she was close to cuming as well as you are.
After a few more thrusts you felt her seed fill you up,
"Oh shit i'm cumin, l'm cumin." She grunted as she held you close.
"Oh.. Minjeong. i'n f-fxck." You also came all over her cock, so as she pulled out of you. Your and her cum dripped out of your aching hole as you held onto the wall for support.
She pulled your underwear back then let down your skirt, she pulled back your shirt down and fixed you up. As if she didn't just take you here in one of the empty classrooms.
She then tucked away her cock before zipping back up her trousers and putting back on her belt.
Minjeong then kissed your cheek before walking out and leaving you there in the empty classroom all by yourself.
Your legs shaking and now you filled with her cum.
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Hello! I saw your homicipher requests were open, and I wanted to request some general mr scarletella fluff if possible! :D
âą General Fluffy Headcanons â° || Mr. Scarletella Headcanons
âââââââââââââââ⎠Character(s): Mr. Scarletella (Homicipher/ćĺĺĺ) Reader Type: Human (Gender-Neutral Pronouns) Warning(s): Canon-typical Mentions of Violence (and horror-elements), Unhealthy Obsession/Possessiveness, Cultural Barriers (Mr. Scarletella Doesnât Fully Comprehend Certain Emotions/Expresses Them Differently Than a Human Would). Genre: Headcanons, Fluff, Romantic or Platonic Relationship (Itâs Complicated, honestly). Word Count: ~900 words Request: âHello! I saw your homicipher requests were open, and I wanted to request some general mr scarletella fluff if possible! :Dâ Authorâs Note: Iâll be honest with yâall, writing straight-up fluff for these characters is really hard to do lmao. I try to stay as canon-compliant as possible (itâs low-key a curse, but itâs such a great way to practice writing đ), so I hope these are fluffy enough for you given, well⌠the source material as a whole haha. Mr. Scarletella wasnât originally one of my favorite characters from the game, but heâs honestly starting to grow on me at a concerning speed â shout-out to all the artists on Twitter who have added to my enjoyment of this man. âď¸
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đŠ¸: Whenever it rains, Mr. Scarletella is always standing right there next to you, holding his red umbrella over your form so you do not become drenched because of the dreary weather. He takes his job very seriously, too, not minding how cold water causes his clothing to cling to his already deathly cold skin. He does it with an ever-present smile, too, watching you with unblinking eyes while he happily follows you around. Mr. Scarletella doesnât get cold, he typically doesnât feel any physical sensation in the first place, so getting a little wet while being able to keep you dry is something he doesnât mind doing for you. If you invite him to join you under the umbrella, he falters for a bit before eventually standing next to you, shielding both of you from the rain (he loves being able to stand that close to you â he can almost feel the warmth radiating from you, and he finds himself craving it even after the two of you have found somewhere to take shelter).Â
đŠ¸: If thereâs something you express an interest in, whether or not Mr. Scarletella is around when you make the off-handed comment, youâll wake up to it lying right in front of your door. Itâs honestly a bit creepy sometimes, just waking up to the article of clothing you looked at for longer than three seconds or the book whose title you briefly mentioned sitting at your feet when you open the door. In the past, any gift he left used to just be haphazardly placed in front of the door, and it reminded you of when a cat would catch a mouse and bring it to their owner (youâre not going to talk about the time you woke up to a literal human heart waiting for you, thoughâŚ). However, Mr. Scarletella noticed that humans who exchanged gifts typically had them wrapped in paper, so he started to mimic their behavior, too, in the hopes you would like them more. Sure, his wrap-jobs were bad, almost hilariously so, but it was the thought that mattered.Â
đŠ¸: Whenever he looks at you, his pupils further dilate (even more than they usually are â itâs almost to the point where his entire eye is purely black, the red of his irises lost in the dark void of his gaze). Mr. Scarletella loves being able to just look at you, needing nothing more in life. Heâll watch you with an unblinking stare while you do literally anything. Whether it be cleaning your home or making yourself a meal, he will observe you as if you were the most interesting thing to have ever existed. As stated before, Mr. Scarletella is very good at mimicking human behaviors so, sometimes, heâll ask if he can join you in whatever task youâre doing. Heâll copy the way you clean the floors or perfectly execute chopping the vegetables for the dish you were making after showing him what to do a single time. Heâs very pleasant to be with during moments like these since heâs very good at acting like a human most of the time (other times, though â say if you need something from the top shelf â his body will twist and morph in very unsettling ways... It just emphasizes that, even if heâs good at pretending, he still isnât human at the end of the day).  Â
đŠ¸: Being with Mr. Scarletella means that you cannot have an unserious relationship, itâs just not in his vocabulary (because heâs obsessive, especially regarding you). Heâs devoted to you entirely â body, mind, and soul â gladly letting you have the red umbrella to do with it whatever you wish. Heâll shiver slightly whenever you hold it in your hands, your touch is so strangely gentle as you softly run your fingers along the handle or press a kiss to the unassuming object. It hurts but in a different way. A part of him wishes you would just throw the umbrella to the ground, dig your heel into it, and have him experience a pain that was easier for him to understand⌠but you donât. He loves your sweet touches, even if itâs painful and causes his chest to ache. He finds himself wishing he could touch you in that way, too, his ghost-like caresses causing your skin to tingle with static whenever his feather-light hands graze over your flesh (he loves cuddles and loving touches, even if he canât experience them with you in a conventional sense).Â
đŠ¸: If you ever find yourself being bothered by someone who wonât leave you alone or someone who wonât take no for an answer, well⌠they may or may not end up missing. If you donât want Mr. Scarletella to take care of anyone who is bothering you for you, youâll definitely have to explain that itâs not appropriate because of the differences in your cultures â death and murder are common in the other world, after all (Iâd also explain to him that he cannot harm or threaten people you care about, either, since he honestly wants you all to himself). This does mean, though, that you know that youâre safe no matter where you are. Mr. Scarletella is always watching you so, if you find yourself in a situation where your safety is at risk, you honestly have nothing to fear. Heâll keep you safe â youâre his love, his world, his reason for living, and he wonât let someone else take that from him.
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What Couldâve Been [Viktor x GN!Reader]
Plot Summary: In which you find yourself in a world so similar yet so different to your own and are simply too tired of life knocking you down again and again to still play the selfless hero.
Word Count: 3,9k
Warnings: spoilers for Arcane Season 2, talk about character death and illness, suicidal thoughts, slightly suggestive at the end
A/N: I saw that alternate timeline and went âEkkoâs a stronger man than I amâ and went with that; actually wanted to write sth fluffy and happy, and this is wholesome-ish, but with some very bleak undertones so I might have to write some actual fluff to compensate. Also, the religious imagery wasnât planned from the get go but it kinda happened and it is on brand for this man, I just decided to turn it on its head a little đ¤ˇ
âInteresting. When I told you about this last, you advised the exact opposite.â
You freeze mid movement, plate hovering an inch or so over the table you were setting. âWell I⌠I suppose Iâve changed my mind.â
The soft tap of a cane against the floor alerts you to him crossing the room, appearing in your peripheral as you put down the porcelain with shaky fingers. âA rather⌠hm, siginificant change in such a short time, wouldnât you agree? Not to mention you acted like I was telling you for the first time.â He doesnât receive an answer, so he keeps going. âIâve had a theory for a while. I donât believe Iâve told you about it, because really, itâs only a pipe dream at this point, but entertaining for the duller moments nonetheless: alternate timelines. The possibility of several different realities, all co-existing with each other simultaneously. Some would call the mere idea preposterous, Iâm fully aware, but then again, how would we know for certain? How could we know? Unless one or more of said timelines happened to⌠overlap.â The silence that follows is deafening and heavy; a precursor of whatâs to come. âYouâre not originally from this world, are you?â
While he knows this is a conversation that needs to be had, the way you curl into yourself and seem to wither and grow small before his eyes makes him wish he could take it all back. He tries to catch your gaze, but you purposely avoid his as you drag yourself over to the couch. Body heavy and tired, you all but slump down into worn cushions, blankly staring into space as you weakly reply with âNo. Iâm not.â
He doesnât move, nor does he speak, cause while heâd been expecting your answer to a degree, now that itâs out in the open heâs⌠unsure what to even do with it. It isnât a worry for long, though, as you continue speaking, slow and weary. Like you had been expecting, dreading, this moment just as much as him.
âIt wasnât a⌠conscious choice. To come here, I mean. It was an accident really, I didnât even know what had happened at first.â A weak chuckle. âThis was a shock to me as much as it mustâve been for you.â
And what a shock it had been for you. To have been standing with your friends in the bowels of the Hexgates one minute and to wake up in an unfamiliar bed the next. Dizzily traipsing through a space that had felt familiar yet foreign all at once; pictures and mementos from times you couldnât remember staring at you from every surface. And to have had Viktor come through the door, bag of baked goods under one arm, to find you in the living room of what shouldâve been your home, looking every bit as lost as you felt. It had been a miracle youâd stayed standing then and there, with the way heâd looked: same lanky figure supported by a cane, same messy chestnut locks, same two beauty marks against the pale skin of his sharp face, same concern in his honey colored irises when he took in your state. But no dark circles borderlining bruises under his eyes, no hollowed, sunken in cheeks, no blood on his lips to betray another attack. And no Hexcore devouring him whole. Your downfall had come in the form of slender fingers gingerly wrapping around your forearm to try and steady you; a silent question and a gentle offer of help. One of those fingers wearing the very same ring you usually kept on a chain around your neck, because youâd always been too busy or too in your own head to just ask him. To offer him your heart, your life, your everything, if only he wanted it. Always too terrified of rejection, of losing him to his illness; too scared of fucking something until it was too late. And when your hand had come up in search for said necklace, a nervous habit that had developed at some point, and youâd found a matching ring on your own finger instead, youâd finally dissolved into a wailing, sobbing mess against his chest, never wanting to let go again.
And what a shock it had been for him. To have talked to you, not twenty minutes prior, an exchange of sleepy, lazy kisses and quiet murmurs, telling you heâd go get breakfast and be right back, watching as youâd curled back up under the blankets with a content sigh. To come through the door, expecting you still in bed and instead finding you in the middle of your living room, looking utterly lost and misplaced in your own home, an almost manic look in your eyes, staring at him like youâd seen a ghost. Heâd approached you, carefully, like one would a wild caged animal, and then a simple touch of his had sent you into a meltdown. And at an absolute loss, heâd simply held you. Let you cry yourself to utter exhaustion in his arms, the both of you a heap on the floor, propped up against the back of the sofa. When you had finally, finally calmed down, youâd played it off as the aftershocks of a nightmare. The kind that makes you believe theyâre real and keeps you trapped in them for what could feel like a lifetime. And Gods youâd looked like you had aged a lifetime while he was gone. And ever since that night youâd been⌠different. Getting lost in your own head more often than not. Suffering from nightmares almost every night. Migraines and something akin to epileptic seizures every once in a good while. He had let it go on, assuring you that if you needed anything he would be there for you, and in the following months, youâd seemed to settle and things had gone back to normal. Relatively. But it had been the memory loss that had made him suspicious. Or more so the fact that while some things remained, others seemed to have happened differently for you and some had never happened at all. Never having been able to leave well enough alone, heâd started digging for explanations. And now, at the end of his research, his most impossible theory proven right - heâs yet again at a loss of what to do. How to help you.
âI didnât know how I got here, much less how to get back. From what I do understand about all of this, and it ainât much, the thing that sent me to this world doesnât even exist here. So at first I didnât have much of a choice but to just⌠live. To pretend like everything was normal and I belonged here. But eventually I realized that even if I got the chance to go back, I didnât want to. I wanted to be selfish, I wantedââ Your voice cracks, thick with emotion and he watches your head drop forward like a dollâs whose strings have been cut, eyes downcast at your trembling hands. âI wanted to be happy again. And for once in my damn life I wanted it to last. It just never fucking lastsâŚâ
Stride over to you and hold you tight, kiss you and tell you that everything would be alright, that you would figure this out together, like always. Thatâs what he should be doing. Every bone in his body tells him to, but just like so many other times in the past, his oh so brilliant mind prevents him. Tells him that there is no âtogether, like alwaysâ because the person in front of him isnât the person heâs known his whole life. Isnât the person he married. Everythingâs an ugly mess and he doesnât mean for his next words to come across as cruel, doesnât perceive them that way; blissfully unaware of the implications, heâs simply, truly curious.
âWhat would you do if you were to go back home?â
An inelegant snort leaves you and you wipe the back of your hand over your eyes in a desperate and vain attempt to stop the tears from flowing.
23 seconds.
You were counting, just to give you something to occupy your spiraling mind with, really.
23 seconds.
Thatâs how long it had taken him to no longer refer to this world, this apartment, him as your home. To prioritize whatever might be going in your other life. And you know itâs not fair, to be this upset with him, this version of him that youâve been deceiving from the start; even though he has never wronged you. But you canât help it. Guilt and regret would soon be all youâd have left again, so might as well leave him with some, too.
âWell⌠if I hadnât gotten sucked into this mess, I wouldâve killed myself by now. I guess Iâd be getting back to that.â
The breath that escapes him sounds like you actually just sucker punched him in the gut and immediately makes you feel terrible about how casual and bitter youâd made it sound, but heâd wanted the truth and that was it. Limbs heavy und unsteady, you rise from your position on the couch and make your way over to the front door. âIâll go take a walk or⌠you know, go do⌠whatever. Give you some space, time to think.â Your handâs already on the door handle, but you pause and somehow find it in yourself to turn around and at least give him the courtesy of looking at him for what youâre about to say. âFor what itâs worth, I never meant to let it go this far. It just became so⌠easy to pretend like things had always been like this. You made it easy. And while Iâm sorry that I lied to you, tricked you, intentional or not, I got the chance to fall in love with you all over again. And I could never be sorry about that.â
Youâre fairly certain youâve never seen him move as fast as he does now and before you know it, youâre wrapped in a hug almost too tight, his cane landing on the carpeted floor next to you with a dull thump. âYou cannot say things like that and expect me to just let you walk out of that door, I-â
Readjusting his hold on you, he cradles your head against his shoulder and loops his other arm around your middle, continuing in a hushed, gentle tone. âI canât bear the thought of harm befalling you. Even worse, you harming yourself. In any timeline. Please, just stay. No matter what might happen in the future, just⌠stay with me. Right here.â
He means for it to be reassuring, comforting, loving, you know that. Itâs not his fault that it has the exact opposite effect.
Wincing, a new wave of tears springs to your eyes and you remove yourself from his hold, but canât bring yourself to let go completely; hands now linked between the two of you. âViktor, I stole the body and life of a person you actually love. I donât want you to force yourself to try and love me out of pity.â
âAnd why are you so certain thatâs what this is?!â It surprises you, how genuinely upset he sounds, and a gasp is forced out of your throat when he wrenches his hands out of your grasp and his palms find your face, to force your gaze onto him and keep it there, wether you want to or not. The expression heâs wearing almost scares you; thick brows furrowed in anger and lips curled back in what could nearly be a snarl, but as soon as gold eyes find yours, red and puffy and so very desperate and grieving, whatever fire seemed to have been burning him up inside goes out all at once.
His shoulders drop and he rests his forehead against yours with a sigh, warm breath fanning over your face. âIâm sorry, moje lĂĄska, please forgive me. Iâm not angry with you, I just⌠I can not comprehend why you are so ready and willing to accept rejection, but will not even entertain the possibility that loving you comes as easy to me as your affections for me do to you. Why can you love every version of me, but Iâm not allowed the same with every version of you?â He watches you blink owlishly, your mouth opening and closing several times and heâs not sure wether itâs endearing or heartbreaking, how clear it is that this possibility never even crossed your mind. âYou act like this entire situation only penalizes me, when in reality, Iâm not actually your Viktor, either, am I?â
He expects this to help, to give you a new perspective. To make it clear to you that you are both the same; you are not a villain in his story. And there is a smile on your lips, but itâs so small and sad that his stomach drops at the sight. âNo, youâre not. You couldnât be. My Viktor is gone.â
And all of a sudden, it makes so much sense. How sometimes youâd stare at him with the most haunted look in your eyes, like he was a dead man walking, ready to collapse at any given moment. How youâd grow frantic when he came back late from the academy. How youâd insisted on tagging along on the most mundane of tasks, always under the guise of wanting to spend more time with him, but really just keeping a close eye on him at all times. Though he suspects the former to be true; the chance to spend even a few more precious hours with a loved one youâd thought lost, who wouldnât jump at that chance?
His world would simply seize spinning if you were no longer in it, he canât even begin to imagine how you feel. How tormenting it mustâve been to see him everyday, a second chance dangling right in front of you, but never certain if you were to wake up back in a world where he was gone.
Youâre in his arms again in a heartbeat, one hand carding through your hair, the other rubbing soothing patterns into your back; whispering sweet little nothings into your ear as you bury your face into the crook of his neck and sob. All so much like the day you arrived and saw him for the first time, and yet⌠softer. More intimate.
You stay like this until your bawling dies down to whimpers and sniffles at which point he gingerly coaxes you to look at him.
âMilĂĄÄek, listen to me. As it stands now, you have no way of going back to your original world.â He doesnât call it your home anymore, you notice. âYou did not ask for this, you did not choose this; you had it thrust upon you while going through enough pain and grief you considered taking your own life. For the love of everything, you neednât feel guilty for wanting to use this chance to find happiness again. And you shouldnât feel guilty if you continue to do so.â Still sniffling you gently caress his face, thumbs running over his chiseled cheekbones and heart stuttering when he leans into your touch. But then you catch sight of the ring on your finger again.
âIâm not⌠Iâm not the person you married, Vik.â Unknowingly, you parrot his own thoughts back to him, but surprisingly enough, he finds he doesnât much care anymore. Heâs flabbergasted how he could ever even doubt for a second that it would matter which timeline you were originally from. Because itâs still you. Damn it all, itâs still you. âMaybe so. But Iâve seen the same kindness in you in those past few months that Iâve always known. The same wit. The same ambition and passion. All the things that made me love you in the first place. You said this gave you the chance to fall in love with me again; would you allow me the chance to do the same?â
The truth is, while you want to try and build a life here, you feel guilty. Guilty about the friends you left fighting a war. Guilty about taking over the life and joy of someone else, even if they are a different version of you. Guilty about forcing the man you love into a relationship with a person he technically doesnât even know. All these months, youâd only ever reciprocated his affections, never initiated them, had barely let him touch you at all, because youâd always felt like somehow you were coercing him into cheating on someone he actually loved. But here he is now, telling you that he wants you, this version of you, all of you. Could you really do it? Leave behind everything and everyone youâve ever known, for a chance at happiness, a fresh start? You had no guarantee that things would go smoothly in this universe either, after all. Wouldnât you just be playing pretend for the rest of your life?
âSo what, weâll just⌠pretend like itâs the first time then?â you ask, a quiet breathless laugh accompanying your question. He shrugs and smiles at you. âSomething like that. Falling in love with you again and again and again? I could imagine a worse fate.â
So could you. Much, much worse, in fact.
Your expression shifts somewhat without you even realizing and he immediately recognizes that he mustâve triggered some form of painful memory. He places tiny little kisses all over your face, murmuring apologies all the while and when you sigh in contentment it finally dawns on him that this is very much the first time youâve let yourself enjoy being close with him since you got here. He doesnât blame you; the moral dilemma that was forced on you would put anyone on edge and make them anxious about what they could allow themselves to experience without some form of consequences. He would prove to you that there would be none, heâd make sure of that; singlehandedly destroy them if they did decide to raise their ugly heads. That you didnât always need to give and give and ask for nothing in return. That you could take what you wanted and not be punished for it. Youâd taught him that after all.
âMoje svÄtloâŚ?â
Gods have mercy on your soul, you never could say no to him when he used those damn pet names on you.
You crash your lips to his, desperate and practically starved; in direct contrast to all the sweet promises and gentle reassurances you just shared, thereâs nothing romantic about it. Itâs all tongues and teeth and absolutely filthy and itâs exactly what you need right now. Your back makes contact with the door youâd been oh so insistent on walking out of not even fifteen minutes ago, that thought now the furthest thing from your mind as his hands are already under your shirt, leaving goosebumps in their wake.
Your head falls back against the worn wood with a thump as his lips find your neck, leaving marks and bruises for everyone to see and maybe the moan that escapes your throat with a broken version of his name coupled with how weak your knees already feel couldâve been embarrassing, but you donât have it in yourself to care; it feels like itâs been years since he last kissed you like this. Touched you like this. The whine of protest as he pulls back is cut short when he drops to his knees in front of you, hands on your hips to keep you in place and placing on last kiss on your stomach before he puts some distance between you both, not more than a few inches really, but still too much for your liking. One hand goes to cover his own, while the other cups his face, trying to tug him closer again, but he refuses. Brows knitting together in confusion and frustration, youâre about to ask him what he thinks heâs doing, but he beats you to it.
âI wonât go further unless you tell me you want this.â You almost laugh, because he can not be serious. How much more obvious could you be? Your own body is doing half the talking for you, really. But of course thatâs not exactly what he means. âI want you to admit to me, and more importantly to yourself, that you want this life. I want you to realize that it is perfectly alright for you to be selfish every now and again.â
His words trigger a memory from long ago, when youâd found him passed out on the desk in the lab one too many times. After youâd been done yelling at him, youâd told him that he couldnât just always give and give and give until there was barely anything left of himself. That it was okay to be a little selfish and take things for himself every once in a while.
Take your own advice, liar.
A voice somewhere in the back of your head purrs bewitchingly and itâs right. You are still lying. Not to him though - to yourself. Telling yourself that you feel guilty for wanting to stay here, when in reality thatâs how you should be feeling. But the truth, the real truth, is that youâre scared.
Scared of how little you actually care. About the friends you left fighting a war. About taking over the life and joy of someone else, even if they are a different version of you. About forcing the man you love into a relationship with a person he technically doesnât even know. You havenât truly cared about any of it from the get go; always too self righteous to admit it to yourself, though.
Practiced fingers slip from his cheek to the hair at the nape his neck and pull; he goes along willingly this time, head forced back and his eyes lock onto yours, right as fresh, hot tears start to travel down your face. But youâre done grieving; you are livid, plain and simple. âI want thisâŚâ you breathe out, so quiet he almost misses it. You donât stay quiet, though, you canât anymore, and your voice rises in volume with every sentence spoken. âI want to stay. I want a life with you. All blissful boredom and domesticity. Itâs all I ever wanted. WhyâŚ? Why was even that too much to ask?!â
He doesnât have the answer, but he does have the solution, delivered with a slight turn of his head and a kiss to your wrist.
âIt wasnât. It isnât.â
Breaths heavy and irregular, you simply take in the sight of him: all disheveled hair and kiss swollen lips, pretty blush all the way down to his neck, eyes dark and pupils blown wide, only a thin ring of gold left, looking at you so longingly, on his knees for you and you alone; like a worshipper ready to commit any atrocity for the sake and love of their god.
âYou can take what you want, andÄl. No one will punish you for it. I wonât let them.â
Angel. Oh, the irony. Irony turned certainty. Certainty turned reality.
So take you would. And you wouldnât bother looking back at the things youâd left behind.
#arcane viktor x reader#hurt/comfort#arcane#gender neutral reader#viktor x reader#arcane x reader#arcane imagine#viktor arcane#league of legends#arcane season 2#pretend like it's the first time
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You know, between stuff like OPâs arguments here, and the fandom discourse towards the 90s Sailor Moon anime as a whole, it made me realize the sheer cognitive dissonance people on here have with queer-coded villains in general. Say something positive about Grell from The Black Butler, The Devil from The Cuphead Show, or Ursula from The Little Mermaid? Youâre all good! Say something positive about any queer villain from the 90s Sailor Moon anime? Nah, you canât say anything nice about them because of âreasonsâ. Iâm not trying to say itâs bad to enjoy any of these villains, Iâm just sick and tired of the double standards.
But, putting all of that aside, I donât fully agree with the notion that Naoko only included queer themes in her manga âbecause she found them funny/exoticâ. Do I think that the HaruUsa/MichiMamo love square in the Infinity Arc was pointless and unnecessary? Absolutely, but her writing pretty much fully evolved by the Dream/Stars Arc. I donât deny that the Sailor Moon manga has flaws, because it certainly doesâŚbut I donât think the flaws negate any of the strong points it has either (same with the 90s anime).
Guys⌠Itâs one thing to take power and representation from Zoisite & Kunzite in the anime, lord knows I do, but you gotta recognise that they werenât written that way to be representation, they were written that way to be homophobic stereotypes, and itâs kinda directly related to why neither of them had a redemption arc (contrasted to how all of the shitennou were redeemed in the manga even if they stayed âdeadâ)
And can y'all stop acting like the manga is bad for âpairing the sparesâ with SenShi implications when the anime just straight up invented four (five if you include Asai) new guys out of nowhere in order to pair the spares. Just Iâm so tired of this. I donât even like SenShi pairings either but lord, I am so deeply tired
Like what you like but please stop acting like one is more moral/âprogressiveâ than the other when both are flawed products of their time lmao
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i am too tired and stuck at work to make a proper post regarding my feelings for the recent announcement, but to keep it simple: though i am thankful for the work the storywriters, artists, voice actors, composers, and devs have done for the game, i remain extremely disappointed at solmare.
obey me is a one of a kind game. though it marketed itself as an otome, it welcomed players of all backgrounds and created a world where the players can fully immerse themselves into. It remains one of the very few mainline otome-style gacha games to be inclusive of sexuality and gender, which is usually unheard of in the genre.
they had such a good thing going on for themâ massive potential, content value, world and lore exploration, and to throw it all out in the guise of "a new era" is frankly, a spit on the face for fans.
again, i respect and admire the work and effort of the people who worked on the game, it couldn't have been easy considering the turnaround of events and nightmares and constant changes to the app. however, that gratefulness will not cloud me from feeling devastated.
i won't push any conspiracies or theories as to why this happened, or echoings of people who felt like the devs abandoned the game for money. i will, however, say that i am bitter, and will continue to be.
despite that, i still love obey me. i love the cast, the story, the communityâ i've always firmly believed that the community was what made the series feel alive; there was always something new to read, an artwork to appreciate, a theory or analysis to dive into. and that won't change! it's people like you guys that keep the game alive.
as for me, i'll keep writing mephisto. if solmare won't make him a canon dateable, i'll do it with my own hands, idc.
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Agatha All Along deep dive: episode 5 part 3
(Wandavision entries: [1][2][3])
(AAA entries: ep1 [1][2][3][4] ep2 [1][2][3][4] ep3 [1][2][3] ep4 [1][2][3][4][5][6][7][+1] ep5 [1][2][3][4])
when I first watched this I reallllllly hoped sharon was about to come back. but she wouldn't have ever called herself mrs. hart, that was an obvious giveaway
I know I'm repeating myself but - THIS MOTHERFUCKER
aw of course alice is immediately protective. that's so hot of her.
rio you'll have to stop being delighted at her antics, you're only enabling her at this point
agatha you fucker. and kudos for the excellent debra jo rupp impression, kathryn.
it's sweet and so sad that lilia fell for it. she consistently loses her seer abilities when dealing with the guilt for the people she couldn't save
jen is so done
rio is dismissive but also soft when she says this. and then she raises her eyebrows at agatha, as if dating her to deny it.
you can literally see her mask falling off.
billy shakes his head, disappointed. this is the first time he sees agatha fall so low
rio is like, come back here and face the music, my darling. she's really not letting her off the hook anymore
rio laughing in delight when death is mentioned, like yes! that's me! I'm here! just happy to be included!
agatha's panic is so overwhelming she's already at the point when she bolts. but there's no running this time. billy, like wanda, is merciless.
screaming so awful that lilia jumps back to episode 2 to escape it. meanwhile, rio.
(is jen wearing bunny slippers lolll)
yes, yes, it's hilarious that she had to spit out her retainer. but dear god evanora getting to jen first because she's the one agatha hurt the most.
now rio is casually modeling. she's making a great show of not caring about what agatha is going through
her coven turning her back on her. again.
sorry for always pointing out what rio is doing, but aubrey is killing me. now she's going oh well! you heard what the lady said! looks like I'm not the only one who thinks you're a piece of shit!
and despite it all rio (who, once again, is not allowed to kill a fly) is not doing what everybody else is doing. she's just being butthurt at agatha
the essays I could write about agatha's internalized misogyny
oh billy, no. you didn't ever realize all the shit you were stirring.
wow this particular line coming from jen really hurts
rio is trying to decide if she's into zombie agatha, lol. it's like she's always in a different show than everybody else. or rather, she's transcending genres, she's always doing her own thing because the Road doesn't affect her. while the others see real danger, she sees painted sets she can cut through with her knife.
but look what happens next. rio suddenly turns serious, and there's even a hint of panic in her voice. it's as if she realized this is not all tricks and smoke.
and finally, she fully comprehends how dangerous billy is. like, the staggering scale of it. chaos magic creates life in an artificial way that goes against everything rio stands for. wanda did not create an illusion of Vision, she made a real, alive vision out of thin air. billy himself was created the same way. and now he has effectively brought back evanora - not a pale imitation, a ghost Evanora functionally indistinguishable from the real thing, just as full of hatred and just as capable of hurting agatha. if it wasn't personal before!
you know, I didn't like this episode as much as the others on first watch, but I was wrong. there is a lot to unpack here. like many things on AAA, it's all in the subtleties.
go to episode 5 part 4
#agatha all along#agatha deep dive#agatha harkness#rio vidal#jennifer kale#billy maximoff#alice wu gulliver#lilia calderu#character study
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âąâżâ° summary: your bestfriend asks you to teach him how to please a woman
âąâżâ° warnings: fingering, kissing, touching boobies, fem reader, SMUT WRITTEN BY A MINOR (dont report jst block pls), part one out two maybe, title from a wattpad book I read ifykyk
âąâżâ° notes: uhm so im slightly afraid to write smut abt a character ik my sister likes especially since she is in tumblr and knows my account. but like this idea is too good to pass up im sorry gang. Sissy if you see this dont judge â ď¸ in fact dont mention it to me unless you liked it
im sorry for sinning đ
"you want me to...what?" you asked, staring incredulously at the boy in front of you. his hair was a flaming pink, hiding his face in his hoodie. but you really had to hear him again, make sure you knew exactly what he was asking you to do.
"i want you to t-teach me," he stuttered, peeking a glance at you, "how to touch a g-girl."
so you hadn't misheard him originally, he really wanted you to show him the ropes on...sex? you could feel your heart speed up, imagining having his hands on you.
fuck, if you didn't already have a crush on idia this might just take you over the edge. it was to no surprise he was a virgin, he was a major recluse. but the fact he wanted to learn how to have sex, how to take care of the woman? that was more exciting than the actual thought of fucking him. (that was a lie but nobody needs to know that.)
he must've taken your silence negatively because he immediately groaned and said, "just forget it. it was a bad idea to even ask, i'm sorry."
before you could even think about it, you said quickly, "no,no don't be sorry. i'll do it; i'll teach you."
now it was his turn to give you a shocked look, surprised you had agreed. maybe it's weird for two friends to have sex, but you weren't sure you and idia had ever had a fully normal friendship. and if this is the only way you can have him close, then so be it.
but starting off strong might scare him off from the idea of sex - and romance - for the rest of his life. so you ought to start small, very very small.
you got closer until you could feel the warmth of his skin aganist yours, feeling his breath aganist your cheek. you gently grabbed his face, holding onto him delicately. your hands cupped his cheeks, as though he was your whole world and you were trying to contain it between your two palms.
"we can start with kissing," you whispered, watching the way he trembled when your lips brushed aganist the corner of his mouth. he was nervous, so delightfully scared you couldn't help but feel a flutter of excitement in the bottom of your tummy.
he swallowed and nodded, eyes wide and unsure. but that was alright, as long as you were the confident one for him. you brought his face closer to yours until you were kissing.
it was...awkward at first. he smashed his lips aganist yours, accidentally crashing his teeth into you. but then he tried again- softer this time. he savored your taste, letting you tilt his head this way and that to maximize the delicate sensations.
once he got more used to your kisses, you got closer. close enough you were quite literally straddling his lap. his bulge poked into your thigh, coaxing the fire in your core you hadn't even realized turned into an inferno.
you kissed him again, more insistent this time. your hands tangled in his hair, tugging on it until he let out a pretty little moan. you took the opportunity to slide your tongue into his waiting mouth, allow your muscle to explore him. to utterly and entirely devour him.
idia whined, pulling away for a moment. he blinked, cheeks flushed and his expression ful of wide eyed wonder. you felt your lips curve into a smile, the slightest flicker of pride when you realized you caused your friend to look like that.
"i want to t-touch you," he huffed, whispering your name like it was a confession of sin. perhaps it was, after all you were now a teacher of seduction. the lecturer of debauchery.
"patience, baby." you said, patting his cheek. he glared at you half heartedly, though it quickly vanished when you rolled your hips ever so teasingly. he groaned, eyebrows knitted together as though he was trying to concentrate on holding himself together.
"i've been patient." idia argued, lifting his hands from his sides to squeezing your hips. it felt nice, the large expanse of his palm pressed aganist the squish of your hips. squeezing it, kneading it...
"alright alright." you laughed, focusing on idia instead of the wetness collecting in your underwear. fuck, how was he getting to you so effortlessly?
now you had to figure out how to possibly get idia to not combust into flames at seeing you naked. (though a small, devious, part of you enjoyed the idea.)
"tell me to stop if it gets to be too much." you said softly, pulling off from his lap. you missed the contact, but it didn't matter much. you would be much closer in a matter of moments.
a strange part of you enjoyed having him stare so intently as you pulled off your clothes, letting each item crumple to the ground. his eyes were so wide, his hair that pretty pink flaming behind him.
you pulled off your underwear until you were left there entirely exposed to your best friend. his eyes were everywhere, scanning every inch of you as if you were a new puzzle for him to solve.
"you're so pretty," he whispered, his voice almost achingly raw. his hands clenched the fabric of his pants, as if he was wishing to reach out and touch you.
"alright, idia." you said, clearing your throat from the sappy and decidedly not friendly feelings forming. you crawled back into the bed, patting it so he was sitting in front of you.
despite your initial hesitance, you laid on the bed and opened your legs for him. you let him stare at your pussy, practically drooling. although you were growing antsy for his hands on, and inside, you. so you didn't last very long with only his eyes caressing your skin.
you sat up and grabbed his hand, placing it on your tit. he practically jumped in his skin, letting out a surprised sound. but it could partially be due to the fact your nipple had hardened so quickly under his touch, pebbled and ready for him to play with.
"most girls need quite a bit of foreplay before the whole sex thing," you explained, trying to remember the whole reason you were in this situation was because he wanted to learn how to pleasure a woman. "and boobs are pretty sensitive so its good to play with."
he nodded, still fondling your breasts in his hands. he glanced at you, as though needing one last ounce of permission before he touched you fully. so you gave it to him, nodding and laying down.
a squeal was ripped from your lips when he suctioned his lips to your nipple, pinching your other. how the fuck did he learn that?
idia popped his mouth off your tit and gave you an anxious look, "i'm sorry! i heard that was something people do and i wanted to try but i didn't realize you might not-"
"its okay, idia." you interrupted, not wanting him to stress over something as silly as your noises, "i made that noise because it feels good. if i don't like something i'll tell you, okay?"
he frowned a bit, blushing, but overall nodded. then as if he was on a mission, he went back to licking and sucking on your nipples. he altnerated between them, making sure they recieved equal attention.
"idia," you said, though it ended up sounding a bit more like a whine. your pussy was feeling neglected, the cool air hitting aganist the slick to make you even more sensitive.
you grabbed his hand, trailing it down your stomach and lower until it brushed aganist your wet folds. he let out a shocked gasp, reanimating his hand and collecting some of the slick.
"you're so wet," he murmured, sort of exploring your pussy like it was some sort of invention he wanted to know how was made. you bit your lip to hide your whimper, wishing he could just find your clit and help you already.
"ngh, fuck," you groaned, giving up on letting him explore. you were needy enough that your head was spinning, your bones were melting.
"can you find go a bit higher, find my-" your voice was cut off when he found your clit, his eyes on your face the entire time. they were wide and innocent, examining your reactions like he was going to write a lab report about it.
he rubbed it in rough circular motions, slightly harsh that tinged the edges of your pleasure with pain. but overall he was doing a good job, even more so when you told him to rub your bundle of nerves more gently.
"do you just watch a lot of, ah, porn?" you asked, your hips twitching whenever he pinched that sensitive bud.
he gave you a shy look and shrugged, "i g-guess. i just tried learning about this online but it's not the same."
you nodded, knowing that was true. if you could get real dick online you'd be a lot more relaxed than you usually are. those with lack of orgasms tended to be rather high strung.
"well you're doing a good job, idia." you said, giving him a smile. it was slightly breathless, broken up by the whimperish sounds you were making. idia seemed to like them though, knowing he was causing you to feel that way.
"put your fingers inside, y-yeah, fuck," you sighed, "just like that."
his fingers were longer than they were thick, filling you up in ways you didn't realize those particular appendages could. he kept them there without moving for a moment, unsure, but when you nodded he started pumping them in and out. he started with two fingers, god were you really that wet? how down bad were you for this man?
"mhm, shit." you mewled, bucking your hips up when he curled his fingers inside of you. he wa still rubbing your clit as he did this, remembering what you taught him.
your core tightened, closer and closer to the edge of ecstasy. it was like being on a roller coaster, waiting for the drop. it was going higher, higher, higher still. pausing right at the edge, teetering to make you feel even more blissful when you rushed down.
"fuck, fuck, idia!" you whined all of a sudden, feeling your orgasm slam aganist you. your pussy gushed, creaming around his fingers. your cunt clenched, tightening around his fingers like a vice.
once you came down from your high, you blinked in awareness cutting through the haze of lust. you hadn't even touched idia, was he upset? technically this was about him learning how to touch a girl but it felt embarrassing you came when he didn't.
he pulled his fingers out of you, wiping them with a napkin. so you sat up, ready to ask him if he wanted you to return the favor when your eyes fell on to the very apparent dark spot on the front of his jeans. oh.
he noticed you looking and said loudly, "stop looking! i know it's such a noob move of me but leave me alone! i'm still learning the control to this game."
you laughed in surprise, a bit amused that he was still acting normal. and to be honest you were flattered he came in his pants just at watching you.
"i'm not making fun of you, idia. it happens, okay?" you said, patting his hand slightly. he watched you but nodded, his face still that pretty bright red.
"alright well i got to get dressed before somebody walks in and realized what we were doing." you said grabbing your clothes and hurrying to the bathroom to hide the way your heart fluttered.
you were in big big trouble. now that you've felt his hands on you, how would you ever go back to normal? to just being friends when all you wished was to be his and for him to be yours. maybe you won't get his love, but at least you had his lust for this fleeting moment.
lori Š 2024. please don't copy, modify, or do anything weird with my writing! i like reblogs and comments but please be kind as this was my writing.
#â lori writes#twst mc#twst wonderland#disney twst#twst yuu#twst#twst headcanons#twst x reader#twst smut#twst oc#disney twisted wonderland#twst x you#twst x yuu#twst x oc#twst x mc#idia shroud#idia x reader#idia twst#idia twisted wonderland#idia shroud x reader#idia shroud x yuu#idia shroud x oc
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That's the thing!!! C!Thomas could probably benefit from indulging in dark creativity, be that breaking something, writing something gruesome, or in general just screaming really loud. He hasn't ever really fully leaned into that and I think it'd be good for him to have that catharsis.
But dark creativity and intrusive thoughts are not the same and can't be treated that way regardless of the fact they are combined into the one facet.
Especially in WTIT where he's fully leaned into the intrusive thoughts role.
Dark creativity is generally beneficial to Thomas because giving Thomas a greater perspective for his art is useful. However, intrusive thoughts are never helpful, and none of them have anything to do with the actual issues Thomas is dealing with. Generally Remus is much more likely to emerge and cause chaos when Thomas is already upset or anxious about something else because when Thomas is already feeling low, it is easier to further upset him. You could say that Remus showing up is beneficial to the other sides to indicate to them that Thomas is upset about something, but nothing Remus does has anything to do with his actual issues or realistic problems, he is just creating more anxiety and chaos because it is fun for him, and that anxiety and chaos that Remus causes has nothing to do with Thomas's actual real life issues, they are separate.
As someone who also has intrusive thoughts (twinsies, you and me, I want the window seat), I agree that Remus works like a litmus test, but more so like a check engine light. The light comes on when something is wrong enough, but the light itself does not tell you exactly what is wrong. You have to go into the system, you can't just trust the light. Remus comes around when something is wrong, but hes not giving any good indication as to what. He's playing to sensitivities and insecurities, and while those things are stuff to work on, they are not the root problem. He's misleading.
The issue is that, if Remus is showing up to show something is wrong and he's trying to help fix it, he's going about it in the literal worst way possible. He's not helping by making Thomas anxious and giving him Intrusive thoughts. And he's not really trying to guide anyone to a solution either. Yes he tells Logan he can't fix Thomas by himself, but that's more of a dig at Logan specifically cause Logan would want to fix Thomas by himself, and he can't. Remus is enjoying the misery.
He may be recognizing something is wrong, but he doesn't seem to care about the solution. If anything, it would be more beneficial for Remus if Thomas was to remain upset and anxious cause that's when remus is more likely to be listened to and kept around.
On one hand I can agree that it might be a disservice to reduce Remus to shits and giggles. How ever, he hasnt really proved much reason otherwise. In general I actually do believe he is in it for shits and giggles and that his character is that one dimensional. He's shallow enough that he would do things, and has done things, for the soul purpose of making someone upset or because he thinks it's funny.
The only solution I can see him being a part of is pushing Thomas so far to the breaking point so that he does indulge in dark creativity, but if he does that, he's not doing that to fix things, he's doing it because it's going to be fun.
In the end I think we just have a fundamental disagreement on what Remus motive is. I just haven't seen anything that indicates he wants to help as a whole. He likes poking the bear "just because" in my opinion.
But I do still agree with original sentiment, I think he's incredibly clever in the way he does what he does, he knows exactly how to get under everyone's skin and takes full advantage of it.
I don't think Remus is given enough credit for being clever.
#remus sanders#this has genuinly been such an entertaining conversation#normally when i talk to others about remus characterization its usallly either#a) someone who agrees with me and thats validating but the echo chamber isnt exactly thought challenging#or b) someone who thinks my disagreement is personal attack on them and either wont or cant explain their pov#its so nice to talk to someone who has conviction in their opinion#regardless of the fact that i dont think we are going to agree on certain points of character#this has been the most fun talk#(ďžâ˘Ěoâ˘Ě)ďž*:ââĄď˝Ľďžâ§âĄ#my wife spell checked this for me đ
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