#I didn't get wrecked here so success :3

[windfighter]

Someone said the skyvault's nether was amazing but all I see is just... nothing

so is there something somewhere in here or am I just wasting my time if I try to bridge around?

[666anxiety666]

Need more ideas? I gotchu~ ;-)

I wanna see Sebby get *wrecked* with raspberries! >:3

And, this is a lil embarrassing but- I also kinda headcanon Sebastian having a chubbier belly. Like, just this little pouch of tummy pudge right at the center, but his clothes usually hide it well (and that part is extra sensitive) Maybe you could incorporate that into it too..? If you want to of course.

HELL YEAH‼️

Raspberries

Sebastian x gender neutral reader

LEE: Sebastian LER: Y/N

Warnings: none :)

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It was quiet. quiet, but peaceful. Sebastian sat with his back against the wall, cradling you in his arms. Against his chest.

You loved times like this. Not anglers or wall dwellers. Just you and him. The only sounds you could hear were each others breathing and water dripping every once in a while.

You sighed. you were bored out of your mind. You looked up at Sebastian. His eyes were closed, yet you could tell he wasn't asleep.

You poked Sebastian's side. Trying to get his attention. Sebastian opened one of his eyes.

"What is it, Y/N?"

Sebastian asked, his voice a little raspy. You blinked up at him, pointing at the vent. You wanted to head out for a while. But you knew Sebastian wouldn't let you without him there. Sebastian groaned.

"Not now, Y/N..."

Sebastian whined. Leaning his head back against the wall. You grumbled, poking Sebastian again.

"Not now, Y/N. I'm tired..."

Sebastian grumbled. Not even looking at you this time as he closed his eyes again. You frowned with a pout. Crossing your arms as you wracked your brain for something to get him to come.

Your eyes lit up as you thought of an idea. You grinned and climbed up him more. Sebastian grunted but held you as you climbed.

You got just to where his gills were on his neck before you took a deep breath in. Sebastian heard and opened his eyes. But it was too late to stop you.

You blew right onto his gills, and Sebastian let out a shriek.

"WHAHAHAHA-"

Sebastian instantly started to try and push you off. But you had a good grip on his shirt for him to pry you off.

"YOHOU LIHIHITTLE SHIT!"

Sebastian howled with laughter. You grinned as you drew in another breath. Your grip on his shirt loosened a little, and you slid down him just a bit. Sebastian panted as you stopped for a moment.

"W-What... was that for-"

Sebastian let outba loud shriek as you blew a raspberry right onto his chubby tummy.

"W-WAHAHAHAIT! NOHOT THEHEHEHERE!"

Sebastian practically screamed. The other creatures on the facility could probably hear him. He pushed and shoved at you, but it was no use.

You grinned as you kept up the raspberries. Using your hands to also squeeze where his tail met his body on occasion.

Sebastian was losing it. His tail thumped against the shop floor. Don't think you didn't notice... you stopped for a moment. Looking uo at him innocently. Still requesting for him to come with you.

"W-What? No! I said no, Y/N!"

Sebastian panted. But just like that. You got right back to it, just ten times worse. You weren't giving up. Not at all, and Sebastian knew that.

"OHOKAY! OKAHAHAHAY! FINE! IHIHI'LL GOHO!"

And just like that, you stopped. Leaving Sebastian panting. You grinned. Proud of yourself and your successful work in convincing Sebastian.

Sebastian regained some sense and looked at you.

"You want me to go so damn bad?"

Sebastian asked, cocking his head to the side. You nodded, looking uo at him like an innocent child, like you hadn't just wrecked him ten seconds ago. Sebastian chuckled.

"Fine... but I'll give you a five second head start...~"

Your face dropped as did your stomach. You knew what this meant. You quickly jumped down from him and dashed for the vent.

"I'm coming for you!~"

Was all you could hear behind you as you sprinted. But it didn't take Sebastian long to catch you. And just like that, the facility filled with squeals and laugher once again.

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I know it's short and took ages to come out, but here it is! 😭🙏 I hope yall enjoy anyway. I have way more coming soon! 💙

[ferrstappen]

love love love your work 🥹

can we get some Carlos love with “and whispering in their ears, “i love you,”

please and thank you!

a/n: hello lovely anon! thank you so much and yessss omg my first Carlos request <3

prompt: and whispering in their ears, "I love you"

i will do whatever you want l Carlos Sainz blurb

Another Saturday, another disappointment.

At least, to give your boyfriend's team some credits, the day of the weekend didn't matter, you didn't really expect results now, you just made sure your boyfriend was alright, smile not fading and spirit not wrecking.

But it was so hard. Almost impossible when he felt so helpless, desperate, his chest filled with different emotions wanting to leave him, his lungs filled with air, waiting for the moment where Carlos decided to let himself be heard.

Now it was rainy Canada, all by himself, waiting for your arrival for race day, aware you didn't see the qualifying since you are flying across the ocean from Madrid.

The hotel room was quiet but the voices inside his head were loud, too loud.

You don't have a secured spot for next year.

You are mediocre.

You belong in the midfield.

You're only here because of your family.

They were so loud and his eyes were so fixed on the foggy window, he didn't listen the clicking noise of the hotel room opening with a key card, his ears didn't warn him of your soft steps walking towards him on the big rented room.

"What's on your head, handsome?" You asked Carlos and were surprised he didn't jump.

He didn't jump, didn't flinch. The only thing you noticed was his back rising, neck relaxing, taking a deep breath before facing you.

His brown eyes closed tightly, waiting for your arms to embrace him, cover him, protect him.

You could feel how your boyfriend's eyes were heavily closed, chest constricted, arms tight around your waist.

Nothing mattered, you were with him, tracing his thick and disheveled hair with your hands, softly and reassuringly kissing his neck, reminding him you were right there.

Leaving a soft kiss behind his ear you reminded Carlos the voices inside were fake, didn't matter, "Mi amor, cariño... Te amo, ya va a pasar y voy a seguir aquí contigo, siguiéndote a donde sea que quieras ir,"

My love, sweetheart... I love you, it's all going to pass and I'll still be here with you, following you wherever you want to go.

Carlos took in the words, melted in your embrace and faced you, putting his hands on your cheeks before kissing your lips.

"Vamos a acostarnos, que se nos hace tarde y no hemos visto el último episodio de Succession," Carlos told you and made you smile, eyeing the king sized bed with fluffy pillows, cozy blankets, picturing your frame supported by Carlos back, with one arm around your waist and the other pointing at the TV in disbelief, his breath tickling and comforting you.

Let's go to bed, it's getting late and we haven't watched the last episode of Succession.

[fluffomatic]

Didn't mean to stay up so late drawing this but fuck, I've been playing Fallout 4 again, all day everyday, and of course I've been thinking bout all my favs getting wrecked! I was planning on drawing some Nick tickles for a while, and then, in a discord group I'm in, a friend said they wanted to draw robo tickles, too! Made me want to draw Lee!Nick even more~! Also, meet my boy, Hawke! He's obviously my Sole Survivor in my Fallout 4 playthrough.

There's gonna be Fallout Far Harbor spoilers under the cut, so keep that in mind.

So, when we meet DiMA in Arcadia, we learn about his and Nick's past. How Nick can't remember anything because of his old processors. DiMA got around this by programming and installing his own sort of memory card for himself. That got me thinking that if he was able to upgrade his body, what else could he make? Of course, my mind went for tickles! Gem 3 synths already have nervous systems cause they have flesh and organs and shit, but the other synths are all metal and circuitry. So how do these older synths like DiMA and Nick get to experience this innately human thing? Well, DiMA creates a fake nervous system! He, of course, tries it on himself first, and it was an immediate success. Soon, he could physically feel everything a human could. When he meets Nick again and they build a better relationship, he offers to install the program in Nick, and he accepts. My boy Hawke here offers to test the system out for Nick, and of course, he tickles him silly! It was a success, much to Nick's dismay, for the poor synth got a highly sensitive nervous system, one that is incredibly ticklish~! Even his insides are ticklish!!! Hawke never lets him live it down.

(My art don't repost but please reblog)

[otdiaftg]

The Raven King - Chapter Nine

Day: Saturday, October 14th Time: 3:10 PM EST

"Dad liked partying it up with the other rich shits of New York," Matt said, "but his party favors were drugs. He let me—encouraged me, even—to try whatever I wanted so I would fit in. When Mom realized what was going on she took time off from the circuit to get me clean. We thought I was okay until I started here. The juniors we had back then were into some pretty heavy things, and I was tempted. The only way I stayed sober was by hiding from them. Last year the monsters joined our team. It took Andrew all of two weeks to figure out something wasn't right with me, and he took it upon himself to fix things. They invited me out with them to Columbia. When we got there Andrew gave me speedballs." Neil's stomach bottomed out. "He what?" "He didn't make me take them," Matt was quick to say. "He just offered them, and I was drunk and stupid and desperate enough to say yes." "Coach should have kicked him off the team." "He should have, except Andrew cleared it with Matt's mother first," Dan said, jaw tightening a little in old anger. "She knew Matt was having a hell of a time here and she wanted him to kick the habit for good. Andrew promised he could help, so she gave him her blessing. She flew in for the summer to help walk Matt through withdrawal and asked Coach not to punish Andrew. She even offered to pay Coach for the trouble." "But—" "No harm, no foul," Allison said carelessly. When Neil stared at her, she gestured at Matt. "You can't really have an opinion on this because you weren't here then. You didn't see what Matt was like. It was pathetic. He couldn't even look any of us in the face. Look at him now. The monster's methods might have been a little extreme but they worked." "You're not really okay with this," Neil said to Matt. "What if it backfired? What if you hadn't gotten back up again?" "Andrew had too much invested in Matt's success to let him fail," Renee said, speaking slowly like she was choosing her words with great care. Neil guessed she knew Andrew's reasons better than anyone else did, given herfriendship with him. "I don't know if they've talked to you about Aaron's history, but you understand Andrew's, don't you? He's not allowed to fight his addiction. Watching Matt struggle was very hard on them both." Her reference to Aaron didn't make sense at first, but then Neil remembered. On his second trip out to Eden's Twilight he asked Andrew why he bothered with cracker dust. Andrew said they'd picked the habit up for Aaron's sake. Just the other week Nicky mentioned that Aaron used his mother's drugs, though he hadn't specified what all she'd been into. Chances were cracker dust was a paltry substitute. Watching Matt crumble under temptation would have wrecked hell on Aaron's own sobriety. Neil was starting to rethink how apathetic Andrew was about Aaron's life. Matt misinterpreted Neil's silence. "You're a year too late to get mad on my behalf, Neil. Trust me: I'm okay. I'm more than okay, really. I thought rehab was bad the first time through. The second time almost killed me. It definitely killed any chance of me being tempted ever again. I'm clean for good and I feel better than ever." Neil needed more time to figure out how to feel about this, but it wasn't his life, so he said only, "It's your fight."

Art used with permission by rainbowd00dles. Thank you @rainbowd00dles

[saninthebuilding]

love kills. or does it? - xavier thorpe

summary: crackstone has been brought back from the dead, and it seems that along with mass destruction, there are also some other forms of chaos to be dealt with. feelings, so to speak.

(inspired by the last episode of wednesday)

word count: 2.1k (i got excited)

warnings: potential spoilers for wednesday, modified plot, swearing, emotions, mention of injury & blood, L-bombs, confession, xavier & reader being idiots in love

a/n: recently finished wednesday and i cannot tell you how bad i have wanted to write something for xavier since then. and i finally did!

hope you enjoy it! <3

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there was chaos everywhere.

students were screaming as they ran out the front gates of nevermore, grabbing their friend's sleeves to drag each other away from the large fire sparking in the center of the quad. people collided and stumbled as they shoved past in an attempt to get away.

crackstone was back.

ms.thornhill- or should i say laurel, had been successful in resurrecting the century-old outcast-hater in his crypt because i was unable to stop her in time.

and now he was wrecking havoc all throughout the nevermore campus.

crackstone was back.

and it was all my fault.

gritting my teeth, i forced a path through the crowd of panicked students, attempting to reach the quad before any real damage could be brought about.

this is my fault.

the fact that it had come to crackstone actually being able to fulfill the prophecy of destruction was on my hands.

maybe xavier was right-

no.

rowan's mother had painted that based on a vision, and they only gave the seer half the story. i had learned that countless times based on my own experiences.

i can fix this.

anger rising at the chaos surrounding me, i managed to find an opening between the students and pushed forward, ignoring the shouts of protest from my peers as they tried to piece together why i was going in the opposite direction.

i rushed into the quad and headed straight to the staircase. from what i could recall, there was a sword set on display on the upper floor of the building.

if i can get that, i can finish this.

halfway up the stairs, i heard a scream and whirled around, peering over the railing to see crackstone entering the quad, staff glowing green.

"i have arrived to rid the world of thy kind!" he roared, energy pulsating through the air.

shit.

taking the stairs two at a time, i slid into the hall of the second floor and instantly spotted the blade. spirits rising, i ran towards the case and swiped it off the stand, giving it a quick once over before turning back towards the staircase.

running down the steps, i went over what goody had told me back in the crypt.

through his black heart, huh?

when you put it like that, his teeth and his heart seemed to be twins.

clearing the final step, i rushed into the quad, and saw crackstone raise his staff at a couple huddled together in front of him.

seriously, did she really step in to protect him? ridiculous.

"howdy, pilgrim." i called to the walking-dead man before he could blast the two of them to ash.

he whirled around, shock etched across his rotting face, and the pair of love-struck fools took the chance to rush out of the main gates to safety.

no wonder there's that saying about love and death.

"how canst thy heart still beat?" crackstone spits, his eyes wide and filled with rage.

"the real question here is how can yours? you look like a walking corpse. oh wait- that's exactly what you are." i adjust my grip on the blade in my hand, before looking the man up and down.

"quite an ugly walking corpse as well."

his face twisted inhumanely, and he let out a seething roar as he raised his staff, moving to charge at me.

suddenly, there were thuds echoing behind me, and a voice yelled out-

"stay away from her!"

xavier.

i spun around, eyes wide and breathing ragged, just in time to see him shoot the arrow lodged into his bow at crackstone. it sped through the air straight at the space between the man's eyes, directly on target-

but it didn't hit its mark.

i watched in horror as crackstone raised his staff, and it glowed green as the arrow simply...froze in place. he twisted his fingers, and the arrow turned in midair, aiming for xavier.

no.

crackstone spread his palm, and the energy his staff released compelled the arrow toward xavier.

no.

i lunged forward, throwing myself into the arrow's path. it struck me straight in the chest, and the sheer force of it threw me off balance. the sword i was holding flew out of my hand as i rolled across the wet grass beneath me, before landing hard on my back.

"no!" xavier cried out, and within seconds he was at my side.

"y/n! what the fuck- would you do that!" he snapped, but instead of anger, there was fear in his voice. his eyes fell on the arrow sticking out of my chest, before meeting my own.

he's scared.

"go, xavier" i winced, struggling to keep my breaths even. i gripped the arrow at the base, before clenching my teeth down and breaking the shaft from as low as possible. i let out a scream as my vision blurred, and my body jerked upward at the sudden pressure being applied to the wound.

"y/n!" xavier's voice was full of panic, and he instantly moved to help me, but i pushed him away with my free arm, exhaling sharply at the pinpricks of pain shooting through my sternum.

"i'll be fine, but you need to help the others."

he stayed crouched next to me, shifting slightly to take the other half of the arrow from me and throwing it away, showing no sign of moving. grimacing, i reached over to grip the hand he had placed on my shoulder and squeezed.

"go, xavier."

his eyes locked on mine, and he hesitated for a moment. suddenly there was a scream echoing from somewhere behind him, and he shook his head, before squeezing back and forcing himself to stand.

he ran.

i watched him go and pull the last few students who were standing around with him out the gates of nevermore, before i turned over and pulled myself up.

ah, that's what the saying is. "love kills."

i stomped down on the handle of the blade, and it shot into the air.

but is this love?

ignoring the thoughts rushing through my mind and pangs of protest from the arrowhead that was still lodged into my skin, i turned to face crackstone.

whatever. at least if i die tonight, it'll be in a swordfight and not of blood loss.

"i suppose you seek an honourable death by my hands" he sneered, before swinging at me with his staff.

"oh please, as if a dead man attacking innocent civilians has any honour" i bit back as i ducked out of the way, before jabbing at his side. he sputtered angrily, deflecting my blade and swiped low, aiming for my feet.

i jumped backwards, slashing the sword up at his face, but rather than nicking skin i ended up knocking his hat off his head.

it hit the floor with a light thump, and crackstone stared at it for a second, frozen in place, before looking up me and letting out a snarl.

"you seem to be taking the revelation of your thinning hair a bit too personally" i smirked, but was quickly overwhelmed by the sudden blast of energy his staff let out. it hit me with more force than the arrow, and i was thrown into the building wall behind me. my sword shattered upon impact, metal bits flying everywhere.

"or a lot too personally" i wheezed, struggling to breathe under the pressure of his magic. a metallic scent filled the atmosphere, and i could feel goosebumps rising on my skin.

"silence, you wretched piece of filth!" crackstone roared, and i felt the strain on my body increase as his magic surged, trapping me. i gasped, fighting for air as my lungs were crushed by the invisible force he had over me.

crackstone grinned at me, his face scrunching up to reveal numerous scars and missing teeth. "finally, thy voice will be silenced forev-"

he didn't get to finish his sentence because there was a blade pointing through his stomach. from behind.

the attacker pulled the sword out of crackstones chest, and it distracted the man enough to weaken his hold on his powers. i slid down the wall and landed on my side, letting out a hiss of pain.

"be gone, you vile creature!" crackstone roared, and i looked up to see him hit xavier in the head with his staff, sending him stumbling back into the fountain.

"no!" i yelled, pulling myself up once again, except this time everything was drowned out. the pain from the arrow wound, the exhaustion from being thrown up against the wall, everything.

except xavier.

i grabbed one of the blade shards that were littered across the grass, and as crackstone turned his attention back to me, stabbed him straight through the heart.

he let out a sputtering sound, looking down at the metal lodged into his flesh. i pushed it deeper, twisting it for good measure, before looking up at him.

"you be gone, you fucking waste of space."

as if on cue, he burst into ashes, and the magic he had both within and around him flooded the quad. i held my ground, and when the air was clear, rushed to xavier's side.

"xavier!" i breathed, dropping down next to him. cringing at the pain that was resurfacing from my arrow wound, i gently pulled his head into my lap, before brushing his hair out of his face to get a look at his head.

"you're a fool, you know that? why the hell would you come back?"

trying hard not to panic, i cut off a strip of my skirt to wrap around the wound, only to stop as i felt him shifting in my grip. looking down, i saw him staring up at me with an unbelieving look on his face.

"are you serious right now?" he breathed, and i raised my eyebrows in question as i proceeded to wrap his head. pushing my hands away, he exhaled sharply as he pushed himself to sit up.

"stop moving!" i snapped, gripping the side of his face with one hand to keep him in place. using the other, i finished tying the cloth together. "you might have a concussion."

"'why would i come back?'" he ignored my protests and pointed at my chest. "you took a goddamn arrow for me and you're telling me i can't try to save you?"

"you could have died!"

"so could you!"

"but i didn't!" i said, gesturing at my completely alive self.

"what if you did? huh? then what?" xavier was getting increasingly irritated, and i couldn't figure out why.

there's no way-

"what do you care?" i tsked, and was about to tell xavier to drop it but he was faster.

"because i love you!" he yelled, "i love you, y/n! for fucks sake, i love you, and that's why i care!"

i froze in place, my heart pounding in my chest.

i suppose that love does not actually kill, which means that whoever said that line was terribly wrong.

"what?"

"did you not hear me? i said i-"

i cut him off before he could finish his sentence, grabbing the sides of his face to pull him down to mine.

and kissed him.

xavier let out a startled sound, before letting one hand rest on my hip as he gripped my collar with the other. i could feel the sweat and blood coating his skin, but it was nothing compared to the feeling of him.

despite the chaos, his hands were steady and he was sure of himself as he kissed me back. i let my hands wander, tangling them into the hair at his nape, tugging gently. he groaned slightly before letting out a surprised laugh, and i laughed as well, savouring the fact that he was here and he was safe and he was alive.

ironically, i seem to have become the very fool i was unimpressed by not so long ago.

i pulled away, breaths coming out in short gasps as i gazed up at him, clutching onto the front of his sweater.

xavier opened his eyes and gazed down at me, breathless. his eyes were blown wide, and there was a small smile playing on his lips.

then again, you don't fall in love every day.

and he was just so, so, beautiful.

"be mine" i whispered.

he stared at me, before sighing.

"y/n, i have always been yours. you just had to ask."

my heart sped up- "will you?"

"of course."

i smiled, wrapping my arms around his torso and resting my head against his chest. i could feel my wound protesting, but for now i focused on him and only him.

"i love you, xavier"

xavier placed a hand on the back of my head, carefully drawing me close and placed a soft kiss on the top of my head.

"i love you, y/n."

[littlefankingdom]

I watched the One Piece live action and here are some notes I took.

I'm a huge One Piece fan since I was like 10-ish? And so, I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about it. It had a lot of impact on my personality (Nico Robin is my role model). This live action adaptation matters to me and I'm going to rant. Spoilers ahead.

The director is a woman, and one of the two writers is a woman. Manga and anime are male dominated hobby (and the comic's world is sexist), so the live action of the most popular shōnen being run by women is so great, imo. Also, it's pretty successful, in contrary to other attempts, so it's a win for women.

Garp's actor is a very handsome man. Wtf, they made Garp hot. He also has a beautiful Welsh accent, which is great because it's an accent that gives a "tough guy" impression. At least, it does for me.

Luffy's actor is perfect. This Luffy is slightly different from the original one, but he's perfect in his own way. I will die and kill for him. Also, him being brown with a white grandpa is so good, it had a racial gap between the two of them, where there are already a generational one and a moral one. Like, the white grandpa in the army do not understand how his brown grandson do not like the gov, because he doesn't see it from where he is when the kid does.

Alvida's actress is so beautiful, she's so pretty. I suddenly support women's wrongs.

Damn, the violence is going up a notch (Roger executed on screen, Mr 7's body cut in half, MERRY IS FUCKING KILLED,...)

The actors for Koby and Helmeppo are queer (They/Them pals) Oda is, once again, showing his support to the trans community.

I do not like the colors. It's too dark for One Piece, imo. Look at how saturated the colored pages are, I would have preferred it to be more saturated. I know, this is because of the CGI (issues are less perceptible this way), I'm going to need to make some edits. But, they didn't have to do it to the costumes too. Like, Buggy, except from his hat, his outfit is not flashy like it should be. Would help with the colored hair if it was more colorful and flashy.

Young Luffy wear the same shirt as in the manga is a nice touch.

THERE'S A CAVENDISH'S WANTED POSTER IN SHELLS TOWN!

Dead bodies smell strongly, and Zoro is bringing half of one in a bar???

Episode 2 is pure art. I love it so much.

Buggy is attractive, wtf. I find him more pretty than Shanks.

Bogard is so cool looking. I'm gonna die if Hina is introduced one day (she's going to be so cool)

They changed the "If you’re gonna point your gun toward someone, you better use it" scene. The new one is cool, but the original is iconic.

THE MUSIC WHEN LUFFY REALIZES THAT SHANKS LOST HIS ARM! It's like the orchestra is interrupted, incredible, love it.

Nami and Zoro's siblings' energy is so strong.

Kaya and Nami interraction about the dress "it belonged to my mother" is so good, Nami gets uncomfortable because she also lost her mother and knows how it is to cherish her memory. But Kaya is nice and share it with her, which break her view of rich folks.

The decor's department must have had the time of their life for this show. It's a great job.

Zoro wanting to wear black and drink wine in the 3 episode, he's already embodying being Mihawk's adopted brat.

Kaya makes the oof roblox sounds when she slapped Usopp.

Usopp x Kaya let's gooooooooooo my boy deserves the best (Oda confirming a romance with one of his protagonists is huge)

Zoro IMMEDIATELY trying to look at something else the moment Kaya kisses Usopp.

Luffy sitting on Going Merry with "We Are" playing... Art.

Without a cook, they are eating pasta, with some fruit and drink (just like me, fr).

Garp is wrecking a brand new ship!

Episode 5 Title Card, my beloved.

Mihawk music, and voice, and character: beautiful.

"Oh, I do like your hat." Mihawk to Luffy upon meeting him, great.

Sanji needs to stop talking about food, I'm getting hungry but I'm broke and a terrible cook.

"Oregano is for savages!" 😂 ok kiddo.

Me watching Zoro nap for a whole episode because of 1 cut: "Bro, you’re going to go through so much worse, you better stop whining rn"

The "YES, YES WE DO" after Sanji says "heard you guys need a cook" is so good.

Sanji is, like, the only one after Nami to have the most experience sailing, they fucking need him.

Buggy coming back all the time is perfect. Love him.

Having Bell-Mere slaps Nami was not ok. Y'all are ruining a character I loved.

Sanji knows a man that can cook well is attractive.

Usopp and Luffy are 17 and drinking, and Koby is 16. Underage drinking baby 🍻

Garp is already having the crisis he has during Marine Fort Arc, it’s going to be difficult for him.

Buggy be swinging being carried by Sanji, who's fighting.

Luffy breaking Arlong's sword axe thingy is badass.

The fishmen are so ugly and weird looking

Buggy saying "I'm gonna get out of here" with 🖕🤡🖕(If we ever get young Ace, I expect so much vulgarity from his little shit mouth)

Usopp exploding star was badass.

Sanji's ass after Mouton Shot.

Zoro "Yeah, you're gonna fit in just fine" means you're as crazy as all of us

Sanji opening is arms for Nami and Nami ignoring him to hug her bros, lol.

Arlong Park destruction be crazy.

Sanji little laugh.

Luffy is a true bestie to Usopp.

It’s the confrontation from after Seven Arc

It's Logue town after right? Like, where Luffy's father is introduced? With the comparison to Roger? But they just compared them, are they going to do it again?

The wanted poster is the exact same, with usopp in the background.

Employee of the month lol.

Alvida and Buggy meeting, the bad bitches.

Mihawk and Shanks!!! (Shanks gave him the "ableist pos" look, lol)

Smoker introduced -> Logue Town

[eriexplosion]

Vibrating excitedly because it's time for Battle Scars and I am READY.

Obsessed with this opening honestly. Everything is happening at once. Everyone is yelling. Echo is just trying to get the hyperdrive back online. Omega has named the lizard. (Interesting that it IS Ruby and she picked the name... but when we see it with Roland, the name is in fact Ruby. So either she DIVINED THE NAME or Roland hadn't named her yet and somehow the Ruby name got passed to him and he's like. Yeah this is a Ruby. Great instincts kid I will surely never meet!)

Also crawling onto Wrecker's face, he is ALREADY HAVING A BAD TIME. IT'S GONNA GET WORSE.

Successful Cid job tally: 1 failed, 2 successes

Hunter's very doubtful UH-HUH... THE KID. is so cute.... I miss him, season 2 Hunter is SO FUCKING DEPRESSED. LIKE LITERALLY ABOUT TO LAY DOWN AND SLEEP FOR 200 YEARS DEPRESSED.

Cornered introduced them to Money and Bribes, Battle Scars introduces them to CREDIT CARD DEBT.

TWENTY CARTONS OF MANTELL MIX. JUST BEEN PUTTING IT ON CID'S TAB THE WHOLE TIME.

Bolo and Ketch trying to fight Rex is SO fucking funny. Boys you won't win that one. Go sit down.

I'M SORRY I AM NEVER OVER TECH PIPING UP WITH "THAT'S NOT HER UGLY SIDE?" DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF CID. ABSOLUTE LACK OF SHITS TO GIVE. LOOK AT HIS FIELD OF FUCKS AND NOTE THAT IT IS BARREN.

We do love Rex's poncho disguise. Nothing says stealth like having your EXTREMELY DISTINCTIVE ARMS ON DISPLAY.

"Being dead in the Empire's eyes has its advantages" sounds like another line that could come back with Tech.

CUTE SMILES <3

Rex immediately kneeling down to talk to Omega is adorable but when she gets way into his personal space he looks SO NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS. AND THEN SHE TELLS HIM HE HAS WRINKLES.

Tech very casually like OUR INHIBITOR CHIPS DON'T WORK EXCEPT IN CROSSHAIR like yes Wrecker is having migraines, etc, but it's probably fine. Genius that cannot conceive of his family continuing to dwindle so he just assumes Wrecker will be okay probably. He has to be right?

Still seeing Rex go for his blaster for them hurts me.

HUNTER STANDING IN FRONT OF TECH THOUGH WHEN THINGS GET TENSE. HE PROTECT.

I don't want to bury anymore of our brothers.

Listen I do still think it's funny that Rex unlike Cut has Zero Reaction to Crosshair being missing and apparently has not asked, but I do think that it would be interesting to get him talking about the chips with Crosshair. Rex has no reason to lie to make him feel better. You can't resist the chips and Crosshair isn't special in that regard.

Wrecker thinks he's nervous about the surgery now but soon he gets to see that the surgery suite is also a complete wreck!

Obsessed with this shot WHY does Tech looks like he belongs in blurry bigfoot footage?

Rex not mentioning Ahsoka makes so much sense actually he has no idea what might make their chips suddenly activate so best not to mention the help he got from a former Jedi

So Wrecker starts out getting attacked by a lizard, has a horrifying migraine, has to go across a terrifying pit on a cord which immediately breaks, smacks him into a wall, and dangles him upside down by one leg to fish for some sort of horrid creature. AND IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE FOR HIM FROM HERE.

Tech complaining about the cleanliness again like he didn't live in some sort of biohazard train wreck in a bed that looks like this

God the way Omega is already worried about being left all alone in Battle Scars. Baby, I want you to have your whole family back so bad more than I've wanted anything ever. Also Hunter's response here is "You're stuck with us for the long run" and I just feel like it would be exceptionally mean spirited to have that and then have Omega alone at the end like a lot of theories predict.

God the moment that Wrecker grabs Tech is still the most fucking chilling thing. And obviously the chip was already activating but I wonder if it's what Hunter was talking about, saying 'at least we helped the Padawan escape' that finally pushed it over the edge.

THE MUSIC CUTTING OUT WHEN WE ZOOM IN ON WRECKER'S PUPIL EXPANDING.

Someone pointed out ONE TIME that when Wrecker is pinning him to the wall Hunter tries to tap out by tapping his wrists twice and I can never again NOT notice that. Trying to get through to Wrecker but Wrecker's not in right now. It's just the fucking chip.

HE WAS JUST GOING TO MURDER THE FUCKING CHILD.

Chipped Wrecker is terrifying and honestly vital to see before we get to Reunion. The viewer NEEDS to understand just how unbeatable the chips are in order to understand Crosshair's character arc, we need to see it in someone that we know is completely trustworthy and good in order to see how much it Does Not Matter how good you are.

The thing with this show is that I've always felt like it REALLY understands where it's going with its narrative. Whatever else people might think about it, it does understand how to lay the groundwork to support the themes and family dynamics and it does feel completely sketched out.

Omega honey shaking him will not make Wrecker wake up faster please give him some breathing room.

EVERYONE FALLING ASLEEP AROUND WRECKER. MY HEART.

The way Tech pops straight up from being completely conked out in a chair KILLS ME.

They went so far as to shave like a quarter of Tech's head for the surgery but they didn't touch Hunter's at all. He allowed exactly one (1) square inch to be shaved off and he immediately hid it under his fucking bandana.

The animation is so detailed though, they left hair stubble behind even.

Here Wrecker eat Omega's pocket mix that she has been carrying for who knows how long.

Hunter saying he's still figuring out what's best for his squad. End of season two he still doesn't have it yet.

Rex mysteriously fucking vanishing into the fog is so funny, that is exactly how to exit the screen. Just fade into the fog like a mysterious unicorn.

And of course the Doom Ending to lead into Reunion.

[winterchimez]

donks my head on the wall.. hyunjae!

tagging @stealanity in this too cs matty also asked for the same member hehe

here's my hyunjae wips!

summary: you have been working in your law firm for years, and it wasn't until your company finally decided to host a masquerade party to commemorate their success. surprisingly, a huge riddle me game has taken place where each employee gets an unknown letter addressed to them from one another, including you. you find yourself wrecking your mind over who your secret admirer may be until it turns out to be the infamous CEO's son, Lee Hyunjae, and the greatest womaniser you've ever met.

pairing: lawyer Hyunjae x lawyer f!reader (feat. lawyer Juyeon)

genre: angst, suggestive, some crack & humour, slight fluff

a/n: lmao i wrote this so long ago hence the terrible banner 😭 this was inspired by their o sole mio performance from kingdom!! i originally had a thought of writing an ot11 series based on their rtk & kingdom performances and ofc hyunjae gets the red wedding 🥰 

summary: you and your best friend Haknyeon finally secured a job at one of the most successful companies out there in Seoul, the Lee Corps. what seemed like a normal working life for you as you're in your early 20s would soon take a turn, when you have 3 guys having their eyes on you and having to pick one that your heart calls out to at the end of the day

pairing: ceo Sangyeon / senior Hyunjae / best friend Haknyeon x f!reader

genre: office au, otome (pick your own route), fluff, angst, suggestive, some crack & humour

a/n: another ot11 series help 😭 this time i have otome in mind bcs if you didn't know, i'm a huge otaku and love playing otome games!! hence this ot11 series (titled: four seasons) is where each season will depict a diff pairing with y/n & aus and basically you will have to decide which tbz member your heart calls out to lol

this is under the first season, spring (hence: senbonzakura) with our fav sangmilhak <33

summary: you have had the biggest crush on your senior at work, Hyunjae ever since joining the company years ago. when your company decides to host a summer weekend getaway, you find yourself with no escape as you come face-to-face with the man who's given you butterflies for the past several years

pairing: co-worker Hyunjae x co-worker f!reader

genre: fluff, some crack & humour

a/n: this is actually written for my 100 followers event & requested by my lovely @flwoie so sona if you see this, here's a little snippet of what to expect 😉 (though i’m still in the midst of writing it so some things might change in the end!)

ask me about my wips! - send me a tbz member!!

[an-obssesed-lesbrian15]

PART TWO FOR A LESSON

A lesson part 2- Revenge

Ler and lee!Enid lee!Wednesday

Summary: Enid finally got her revenge!

Words:904

Sorry that it took me so long to write the fic but here it is! I hope you like it<3

Enid found herself in the same situation as a week ago. She was laying on her bed laughing so hard she had tears in her eyes. 

Wednesday was on her hips, pinning her down and tickling her sides and tummy. That is because Enid keeps poking her ribs and jumping out of nowhere and tickling her from behind. She managed to get Wednesday to giggle but not to laugh.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! OKAHAHAHAY IM SOHOHOHORY! PLEHEHEHEHEASE STOHOHOHOHP!" Enid screamed while laughing, Wednesday listened to her and stopped the tickles. Still not getting up from her hips she said "i swear to you that if you will do it one more time i wont have mercy on you". She shaked her fingers into Enid's stomach one more time before she got up from her waist.

Enid just rolled into a ball of giggles, hugging herself still feeling like Wednesday was tickling her. 

After a couple minutes Enid calmed down and said "shit we are late for Thornhill's class!" And ran out of the dorm to the classroom, Wednesday ran after her smiling a little about the fact that she can make Enid laugh and smile whenever she wants, but mostly because she can torture her with something that wont hurt her, Just make her laugh.

The pair made it to Thornhill's class just in time and sat down next to each other in the back row. Miss Thornhill started to teach and Enid got bored. She decided to try and play with Wednesday's hand. What she didn't realise was that Wednesday is ticklish on her hand and she was tickling her. 

Enid thought Wednesday would move her hand away from her but she didn't do anything about it. She just bit her lower lip to try and hold her giggle.

"E-enid stop that" Wednesday said while trying to hold her giggles, "but whyyy? I'm bored and your hand looks fun to play with!" Enid said as she continued to play with Wednesday's hand.

After some time of Enid tracing her finger on the back of Wednesday's hand the shorter girl broke and giggled quietly.

She hoped no one heard her giggle and buried her face in her hands on the table.

What she didn't know was that Enid heard her giggle and realised that she was tickling her. After the class the girl walked in complete silence to their dorm. All the way there Enid was smiling on Wednesday and couldn't stop thinking about her laugh and the fact that she wanted to make her laugh more. 

 

In the next couple of days she tried to find more of Wednesday's tickle spots, other than her ribs and her hands.

On the first day she tried to squeeze the girl's hips from behind when Wednesday wasn't paying attention. Wednesday jumped a little from the surprise and immediately grabbed Enid's hands to try and get her away from her hips. It was a success for Enid.

On the second day, she somehow convinced Wednesday to be on her side of the room and just chill and talk. Wednesday was reading a book, annoying Enid about how colorful her side of the room was and teased her about it. Enid said to herself 'here it goes.. life or death' and diged her hands into Wednesday's stomach, Wednesday didn't expect Enid's attack and started to laugh quietly. Enid's eyes sparked and she went up and sat on Wednesday's lap. 

While Enid was tickling the girl's stomach, Wednesday couldn't control her giggly laughter and tried to get Enid's hands off of her stomach and sides but it didn't work for her. "You can see that as revenge for the wrecking from a few days ago!" Enid said and moved her hands to the shorter girl's ribs. 

She started on her lower ribs and worked up to her upper ribs. 

Wednesday was trying to control her laughter but she couldn't. When Enid got to her upper ribs she squealed and laughed even harder than before. Enid was in shock, she never heard Wednesday laugh like that, And you can be sure she fell in love with the girl's laugh!

"Holy shit! That was so adorable" the blonde girl said while moving to Wednesday's hips. 

Wednesday flinched and giggled quietly, what she didn't know is why her face was so warm. Was it because of all of the laughter or because she was blushing. (The second one is the right answer)

Enid was smiling at her with the brightest smile ever. She was happy that she was probably the first one to make Wednesday laugh like that and that Wednesday was feeling comfortable with her. 

After minutes of Enid tickling all over Wednesday's torso she finally gave the girl a break and stopped the tickles. Wednesday was breathing heavily and tried to get Enid off of her waist by poking her tummy and sides. The girl fell off Wednesday's waist and curled up while giggling next to Wednesday. 

IN THE MORNING

Wednesday woke up before Enid and saw that she wasn't in her side of the room in her bed. She looked to her side and saw Enid curled up into a ball, sleeping. Wednesday saw that she was probably cold so she took the blanket and covered Enid with it. She got in the blanket too and snuggled closer to Enid.

They slept like that for the rest of the morning.

 the end<3

I hope this wasn't too short!

[bearbluebooks]

Chapter 9 of Christmas in Velaris

The first thing she wanted to do was call Nesta, who knew she was going on a date and offered to kick “Christmas ass” if needed. Instead of a SOS, she decided to send Nesta a GPS, just in case. “Hey Nesta, I’m just walking home, could you keep me company and follow the location I just sent you?” Just like old times, when they didn't go to sleep until everybody sent their 'I'm home' text.

Gwyn became so entranced in her conversation, that she didn’t see the shadow that followed her too.

Read Chapter 1 here or Chapter 9 here on AO3

December 10th, 20:00

Soft Christmas songs played in the background as Nesta and Gwyn spent the entire morning in bed. Breakfast and stories filled the space they slowly reclaimed together. Nesta shared all the memories Gwyn couldn’t be a part of, and together they made a promise to create new ones. They had already planned their next catch-up with Emerie, who couldn't be there sooner because she had to meet "the inlaws from hell."

Nesta told Gwyn about the Valkyrie bootcamp Cassian started two months ago which she could join for free as long as she gave a review at the end. Gwyn practically jumped up and down on the bed when Nesta told her about it.

Nesta left around 3 pm after they had breakfast and talked for hours. 

Something in Gwyn healed after the night, and Gwyn couldn’t help the hope that softly blossomed in her chest.

Gwyn spend the rest of the day coming up with a solution to her money problem. All her brainstorming almost made her forget about the date.

She had never gotten ready so quickly in her life. One glance in the mirror told her the brown eyeliner and red lipstick were where they were supposed to be, and not smeared across her face as she worried. With hurried hands, she straightened the red dress she hastily put on. A white knitted cardigan with wide sleeves kept her warm from the coldness that was sure to follow her inside. Her trusty all-stars provided the perfect aide in her run to the restaurant. Normally she was a stickler for time, but tonight she needed all the help she could get.

“Don’t wreck the place,” Gwyn said to Mouse as she moved her ass at record speed to the Italian restaurant. 

Before she made her way inside, she took one minute to catch her breath. Even though it was just an eight-minute walk, she rushed the whole way from her house and her stamina wasn’t what it used to be- which was even more reason to join the bootcamp.

Even from outside, she could hear the restaurant was full. One look inside confirmed her suspicion, the dimly lit place was filled to the brim. Tables of all different sizes occupied the small space- not a single one of them was empty.

Nerves already swirled in her stomach, and suddenly they increased tenfold as thoughts entered her brain in rapid-fire: what if there was no more space? What if they had to awkwardly find another restaurant? Why didn’t she make a reservation?

As she took one more look inside, she decided to focus on the good instead: she made it. She didn’t cancel. And that in itself was a success, no matter what would happen tonight she promised herself to see it as such.

With more confident strides, she went inside. The smell of food hit her as soon as she walked in, and her stomach growled in response. One hand shot to her stomach in a desperate attempt to squelch the sound. 

With searching eyes, she tried to spot her blonde date. Instead of finding the green eyes she expected, she felt a familiar pull across the room. On instinct, she turned towards the source and found a pair of piercing hazel eyes in return. They looked at her with such intensity that her entire body heated.

Suddenly she wasn’t so cold anymore.

“Azriel?” she asked in what was becoming a repeat occurrence.

Without looking away, both stared at each other until a rough voice yelled from across the restaurant “Gwyn! I’m here.”

The mention of her name interrupted her singular focus.

When she returned her gaze towards Azriel, he was back talking to whoever he came to dinner with.

Which wasn’t her business.

She wasn’t jealous of the beautiful brown-haired female sitting across from him. Or the way her hand was positioned on his arm.

It was curiosity that urged her to walk over and introduce herself, but before she could, Troy yelled again, “Gwyn!”

She couldn’t let him wait any longer. As she navigated the crowded space, she finally found his table near the kitchen. With a smile she sat down across from him, skipping the awkward choice between giving a hand, a kiss on the cheek, or a hug. “Hi Troy, how are you?” She asked instead.

Before he could answer, the waiter was there to take her order, “What will it be for the lady?”

She didn’t have to think long, she already browsed the menu online before she came, “One red wine, a cabernet sauvignon if you have it, and a pasta Bolognese please,” she said as she handed the menu back to the young waiter who enthusiastically responded, “Coming right up.”

As soon as the waiter left, the dreaded silence followed. Instead of looking into his eyes she looked at the wood-paneled walls, the couple sitting behind Troy, and the candlelight that slowly flickered on their table. All the while she tried very hard not to look at the table by the bar.

At the devastatingly handsome male.

Who was on a date with someone else?

“This was a mistake,” resounded in her mind, as she took one more look at the male who spoke said them.

Maybe she should move on too.

“How’s the Christmas business treating you?” she asked in a desperate attempt to fill up the silence.

“Good, it keeps us busy,” Troy responded. 

Gwyn forced herself to make eye contact. Forced herself to pay attention to his words, “We got this new shipment that will hopefully be enough for all the customers. Otherwise, we’ll have another Christmasgeddon on our hands.”

She chastised her brain for being distracted. But all she could see were the hazel eyes that gazed at her every couple of minutes.

She found herself sitting up straighter, squaring her shoulders and holding her chin up high.

Why did she care? They called it “a mistake” when they last saw each other. Why was he looking at her? And why was she looking back?

“Gwyn, what about you?”

The mention of her name brought her back to the scene in front of her again.

The date.

Shit, what was his question?

“I’m sorry what did you say?” she asked in an attempt to get back to the conversation.

He asked without any hint of annoyance, “What would you take with you if the world ended today?”

That was a good question. Not too personal but specific enough to find out more about the other person. “Mouse, my cat,” she replied honestly.

He looked at her with such kind and engaged eyes, that it made her stomach drop as guilt overtook every sense. She only heard half of the words that came out of his mouth, and she looked at another male the whole evening. 

She only thought about the other male- with the black suit, obsidian hair, and hazel eyes. During the entre, the main course and dessert. During every sip of wine. And every moment in between.

This was not fair to either of them.

She kept torturing herself with something that could never be, just like she gave Troy false hope for something else that could never be.

“Troy-“ she started to say.

“Oh oh.” He said with a sad smile.

“I knew it was too good to be true. A pretty lady like yourself with a brain like yours and a cat named Mouse?”

Even in rejection, he was perfect. 

Just not for her. The least she could do was to not make him think otherwise.

“It’s not you, Troy, you are amazing. You’re going to make someone very happy one day.”

“Just not you,” he finished her sentence.

“Just not me,” she conceded.

When the waiter walked by Troy gave him his credit card before Gwyn could offer to pay. “Thank you for tonight, Gwyn,” he said instead.

“Thank you,” she said in equal gratitude. 

It was the best first date she could have had. He was kind and respectful. Engaging and understanding.

He just didn’t make her heart skip every time she saw him. Or send a shiver of warmth all over her body every time his gaze lingered too long.

“It’s my pleasure,” he said with a look of sadness mixed with acceptance.

 I’ll see you around,” he said as he took off towards the bathroom.

Gwyn took it as silent permission to leave without making things more awkward for either of them.

One last look at Azriel showed him in deep conversation with the lady across from him. Every fiber of her being urged her to walk over there. But it wasn’t her place, she reminded herself. It was his right to have a life of his own, she thought as “This is a mistake,” resounded in her mind again.

Without looking back, she walked towards the exit as she put her white knitted cardigan on. 

As soon as she got outside, she looked at the vast night sky. One look up sent happiness throughout her body. It always reminded her how small everything was compared to the vastness of the sky.

With a contended smile, she reminded herself tonight was a success, even though her match with Troy was not. She couldn’t help the feeling of pride that blossomed in her chest and followed her steps.

The first thing she wanted to do was call Nesta, who knew she was going on a date and offered to kick “Christmas ass” if needed. Instead of a SOS, she decided to send Nesta a GPS, just in case. “Hey Nesta, I’m just walking home, could you keep me company and follow the location I just sent you?” Just like old times, when they didn't go to sleep until everybody sent their 'I'm home' text.

Gwyn became so entranced in her conversation, that she didn’t see the shadow that followed her too.

Azriel POV

He felt the pull before he saw Gwyn come in. He knew that even if he tried, he couldn't take his eyes off her- just like the first time they met.

She looked stunning in her red dress. The red lipstick she wore made her lips look even fuller, and he couldn't help but think how they would look wrapped around his cock. He quickly pushed away the thought to look at her adorable searching eyes.

Before she found his eyes it felt like he was watching a painting- beautiful yet mysterious. When those luminous teal eyes finally found him, it was like nothing else existed in the world and the whole world faded to black.

Until he heard that annoying male yelling her name, and she looked away and he already missed her eyes on him.

Budget store Thor, he thought as anger rose in his chest and the memory of last night's text popped into his mind. He knew it was happening, but seeing it still made his stomach churn and his hands ball into fists.

As he looked the scene unfold, he wanted desperately to be the one making her laugh, ordering her wine, and making sure she felt taken care of.

The whole night, his eyes found her table as he wondered: what were they talking about? Was she having a good time? Was she cold? Because she looked cold.

He could hardly focus on the business meeting that had him sit in a restaurant at eight p.m. on a Sunday. He had better things to do than to be forced to spend time with someone only because they thought business was better handled outside of the office.

Until he saw that long copper hair and those teal eyes. When he was suddenly grateful for the forced dinner and borderline inappropriate arm touches.

As soon as Gwyn left without Troy, he said goodbye to the brown-haired businesswoman whose name he couldn't remember. “I’ll send you the contracts by 10 pm,” he said as he abruptly stood up and placed three hundred dollars on the table, “This should be enough.”

He didn’t wait for whatever came out of her mouth next. 

He needed to be somewhere else tonight.

When he looked around the restaurant, he saw Troy leave the bathroom, and he wondered why he didn’t accompany Gwyn home- the date must not have gone as well, he must not have learned manners, he was an asshole or an fool. 

Either way, neither applied to him. Maybe the last one. But not in this case.

When Azriel made it to the door, he caught a glimpse of the copper-hair. He was just in time to see her teal eyes full of wonder. He knew that look because he was just as captivated by the sight in front of him.

When he looked closer, he saw her body shivering from the cold and he had to fight every instinct not to run over and cover her body with his coat. All kinds of scum walked the earth nowadays and he could guess every thought in their mind. His hands already balled into fists at the possibility of someone hurting Gwyn.

Just as he was about to walk over to give her his coat, she pulled out her phone, and the sound of her voice faintly carried over to him as she said “Follow...location.”

Even though she could take care of herself, he still needed to make sure she got home safe. His focus was singular and stronger than the urge to breathe. He wouldn’t leave until he saw her walk into her apartment. Until he knew she was safe.

Just as he did last night. As soon as he got his head off his ass and realized the real mistake- his words, not the moment.

[riverstardis]

series 32 episode 11:

weird how lily used to fancy mr grayling🤢

RASH!! also his mum🥺

ah rash says "good luck gift for your favourite child?" so he DID used to have siblings!! guess none of them care enough about their dad to help rash look after him or contribute to getting him in a good care home huh

lmaoo madia nearly crashing into connie on her motorbike

lily saying her father used to say "emotion is the enemy of success" and elle nods and goes "my dad told me the queen is really a lizard" SJDFJDJF

"staff nurse david hide" "ha ha not seek?" "no, i'm a buddhist" SJSKJFJF oh no is this gonna renew my anger about them wrecking david and rash's friendship for that pointless ollie and rosa storyline

"i have our new f1, dr rashid masum" "well, he appears to be invisible" 😭😭😭

"some of the women working here, they're pretty er, brusque" LMAOOO

lmaoo robyn asking louise what she thinks of the new f1 and louise goes "i'll give him a month" sjsjdjf "i mean totty wise. i think i'm gonna give him an 8 out of 10. 9 if he's got a thing for redheads with kids" 😭😭

LMAO rash saluting connie😭😭😭 she goes "strange boy" SJSFJJF that reminds me of louise saying ethan was "a bit odd" in his first episode. also i just realised in both their first scenes they're with their mums👀

i'm still bitter about ethan not being in this episode to say goodbye to lily

aww dylan saying sanosi's no longer part of his life :(

oh yeah i forgot lily and sam had beef lmao. sam nicholls i mean obviously, weird cos i just came straight from reap the whirlwind where she has beef with sam strachan lmao

ohh rash i love you <3

alicia looks GORGEOUS💍💍💍

awww rash running out of connie's office to throw up sjsdjffg

he almost leaves his glasses in the toilets lmaoo the first sign that he doesn't actually need them? honestly that whole glasses thing is so funny like they didn't want to commit to another character with glasses after they already got rid of lily's and ethan's and they knew how they complicated things, but they did want us to know immediately that he was a stereotypical glasses-wearing character (like lily and ethan) so they just decided to give him glasses for a few months and then reveal he never even needed them?? tbf it worked, i mean we could already tell he was a new ethan by this point lmao

iain telling lily how he feels about her right before she goes in to do her talk. way to sabotage her career mate :/

aww connie talking about how she's seen lily grow into a very fine doctor🥺

aww alicia introducing herself to rash and saying she heard he did alright today and inviting him to the pub with everyone. he's like "i don't really drink" and she goes "me neither, see you there" sjfjfjdf oh yeah i forgot this was during her "given up alcohol and men" era

awh rash overhears robyn and david talking about how they rate him :( he nearly doesn't go to the pub but lily tells him that it's something she should've done on her first day🥺 oh yeah cause she was pretty isolated from everyone until she made friends with ethan... SO WHY TF ISNT HE HERE SAYING BYE TO HER

she thought she'd blown her talk and she didn't seem that upset about it, ig bc it stopped her from having to choose between hong kong and iain, but then she finds out that not only did she get the research post they're asking her to talk over from mr grayling as the leader because they don't like working with him LMAO

now iain's literally begging her to stay bro wtf???

"i am lily chao, and i have to go" 😢😢😢

does she not like,,, need to empty her locker or anything??

bye bye lily I MISS YOUUU

i firmly believe that if not for cal's death ethan and rash would've been friends immediately

[nottheleastbrave]

4 for "They Just Don't Have Any Proof" and 8 (:

me: reblogs an ask game also me: immediately forgets that I reblogged an ask game and is baffled by the fact that I got an ask

ANYWAY

4. What detail in [insert fic] are you really proud of? for They Just Don't Have Any Proof

I really enjoy the list of bands with relationship drama, since it's a classic Psych gag but also relevant to JatP so I didn't have to force it. And I enjoyed making Reggie a fan of No Doubt for absolutely no reason.

8. What song would make a great fic (to either write or read)?

Okay. OKAY. So, Ben Thornewill of Jukebox the Ghost put out a solo album and it WRECKED me in the best way but two songs in particular scream Juke to me.

In the hypothetical fic, we're post-canon, and Julie has magically brought the boys back to life, and the band is very successful and all their dreams are coming true etc etc. And Luke gets kind of overwhelmed about the Julie of it all and obviously can only communicate his feelings through song, and so he somehow convinces the label to let them play a smaller and more low-key venue and ambushes Julie with Change My Life. There is not a dry eye in the house, obviously. Because imagine Luke doing some soulful fingerpicking on the acoustic and telling Julie how she changed everything??? Verse 5 just taking everyone out with: "Do I know you from a different place, another time / How did you find me here? / How did you know / How much I needed you?" Fuck.

BUT THEN

Julie is obviously very touched and they make out a lot, but she also wants Luke to know that this isn't one sided. And she knows that he still has some residual angst from when they weren't sure how long the boys could stay, and she wants him to know that she's in this forever. So a couple venues later she hits him with Final Days. Because the whole song was written for Juke honestly, but please think about "And in this garden of the years that came before us / We have the feeling that this is something more / Surrounded by the sound of all you've waited for" and "And I will be your best friend thats the easy part / You'll keep me honest, keep me laughing keep that spark" and obviously the chorus "I know that I'll always see you how you look today / And I hope that you know that I will love you when you're gray/ So I'll promise if you let me / To love you just the same until our final days" with the SOARING PIANO!!! FUCK!!!!! And everyone cries for years and years and they make out a lot again.

Anyway I will never write this because it's too emotionally intense and sincere and that is not exactly my wheelhouse, but I still like imagining it. Also I like forcing other people to be emotionally decked by Ben Thornewill.

Thank you for the ask, friend, ilysm and you are a delight <3

[krystlind]

todays signs, messages

this morning, Bible devotional

"For we hear that there are some who walk among you in a disorderly manner, not working at all, but are busybodies. Now those who are such we command and exhort through our Lord Jesus Christ that they work in quietness and eat their own bread." 2 Thess 3:10-12

Heard from God: "silent work, quiet work"

Feeling a bit wrecked/triggered from seeing Kristina's post. it went like this: "yay go you!" "wow, why can't you just do that? you have a powerful story" "why do you feel superior?" "why can't you just tell it? what would it look like, sound like.." fantasizing, visualizing it, getting annoyed at the poisonous unproductiveness of it all

"Serve silently"

Daniel

"success is overrated, no one really cares, it's about what makes you happy"

Nikole

"you seem really intune, you have a knowing, you are fine tuned to what God is saying"

"you're looking to decrease the impulse of creating, so that you get seen, recognized noticed"

we were at the Wine & Bookstore today. I asked her what she is ready to do, she said "what I'm ready to not do, is fundraising. it's an unsustainable, unethical model." and I noticed how most of what I was sharing with her:

1) I'm transitioning away, ready to NOT be always talking about identity, I've honestly moved on. she used the word "reinvention"

2) I have to cut off the root of wanting to be noticed, acclaimed, it's suppressing me. I want to be humble, like Jesus. he never had a thing written about him

3) I'm ready to go in deep, learning mode again, to be a student, to be in mastery

4) "this next season, what God is telling me, "serve in silence, don't make noise, just take in everything you've created, and let me show you the new path and new way"

Serve in silence, savor in silence, celebrate in silence

I shared how I wanted to go into the Christian-based leaders thing more as a personal interest

I expressed "I'm so ready to kill that desire off. to be recognized." "sometimes we want to let it go, but we need something else to refocus on. you'll find what it is."

It's starting to become real, how much I don't want this hustle life. I want to be in a partnership where I can do my projects and be present.

I want to be in health and happiness.

Shewolves Dinner at Nikki's

5) Nikki labeled me as "Galvanizer, you know how to organize fast"

Jess said towards the end, "What I see in you, is someone who is so good at being in child-like wonder, and pulling people into it, like the arts & crafts"

I sat there, during the Detaching from Hustle Call today, and looked and was proud. Look at what I have created. I am so proud. Look at everyone here. I'm proud of myself. I can start calming down off of it now. Practicing not being responsible for people's experiences anymore. I no longer want to be responsible for people's experiences.

I am worthy of a life where I feel it is all good enough. and I just act on duty. when was the last time that happened? that felt like that?

You know what I'm tired of? figuring it out all the time. letting my mind do it's mind thing. Today was not a good food day, but it's okay, I give myself grace, to start over again tomorrow.

I don't know what made it go all over the place. I drove to the workout place, but it's like my mind just got attacked with the order of operations. it did this:

workout? acutally you need to sit down, have coffee at Carpenter's. (I've been needing those calm moments lately) well I didn't have my phone on me. but on my way to Carpenter's Oh! you need a banana.. and a nutrition bar. got that, sat down, got my cappacuino. immediately regretted my bar, took hafl banana, half bar, threw it away, was this close to getting a bagel. talked to Daniel, he gave me advice, glad I did that was a good interaction. did my work out. got ready, was about to stay at home to do work, NEEDED to get out, went to Medici, they didn't have a bagel, went to croissant shop, went back to Medici, almost got taco, got scone, immediately regretted it, dipped it was happy for awhile, realized it was too buttery. threw it away. distracted myself at notebook shop until lunch. finally 12. went to bathroom. got distracted by asian food stand. got roti. sat down, had it with salad. was relieved. at almost all the roti but not everything, with the salad. was a bit disgusted with myself for almost eating the whole thing. drove to target to get supplies. ended up getting coconut sparkling water (felt like it would get me through the next window until meeting up with nikole). actually then went next door to whole foods. well i might as well get the stuff for the dinner party tongiht. milled around and got random things. went back to the car. parked. sat and had a cracker and cheese. felt relieved. what is going on? went and picked up nikole. we got tea. got a box of nuts with that. i felt relieved by that. yay i get to pick one by one, and not stuff my face in front of someone. dropped her off. went straight to nikki's, took my call. 8pm came downstairs all the food is out. felt relieved to see all the amazing food. ate.. was too full. not sure how i feel about everything i just ate today, feel disappoitned and defeated because it was a lot of processed stuff. iw as supposed to eat healthier this week. listened to the podcast about how all the processed food is making us this unhealthy, had thoughts about how America food is really changing me, and I have to live abroad, or something's gotta change. what is causing all this? there was a lot of chaos today

i think what induced it: aimlessness with work, driving from place to place, just a lot of.. unsureness? and no one to interact with. things felt more in control when I had the launch and clear sales obejctives. now.. not clear. so this is what happens. i really do need a focus and pin point

Favorite things and sparks from today

Daniel saying, "Success and working hard is overrated. Find what makes you happy." (also said marry rich haha)

Being with my girls again, and just feeling like I could lean back and be proud. I called myself "mama wolf." seeing them all together. everyone each getting to share their stories with details we didn't even know from each other from before (Lauren held at gun point, Brittany lost teddy bear in fire, Clem never thinking she'd live in the states)

I felt proud because I uplifted people "Clem got a new position! tell them about it"

Someone saying "Krystl loves to celebrate people" "Yes something you'll expact I want to throw a launch party or celebration party for everyone"

I noticed myself letting everyone talk more, and I just sat back, was quiet, soaked it all in

I'm proud of myself for talking about the importance of community, and an inner circle, I've moved cities a couple of times and wherever I go the first thing is always "find a strong girl group, find a strong community, I was raised with these values having been in a SDA community and immigrant community" I could feel myself forming the story I will eventually tell

Me telling Nikole, "I'm trusting, God will exalt you, promote you, look for His promotion, at the right time, trust that"

I'm so ready for a partner and to not be tired

I am ready to be softer, slower, gentler on myself. getting out of this loop of what i should be creating.

I am enough, everything is already enough.

What a beautiful night this was, to be with my girlfriends, in their presence, I'm so grateful <3 I love everyone.

Thank you for my community, my city, my friends, my loved ones.

Mommy sending the sweet text message, "Thank you for sharing that about Adam. I pray the right man will come in your path. I love you."

[youonlyzingonce]

“i hate that we don’t talk at all now. I hate that the one person I wanted to spend The rest of my life building a family and growing old with, is no longer in my life.

Now we're just strangers that know each other's secrets. Not having you around anymore definitely doesn't make my life any easier, nor does it make my life better without you here. It's been 2,670 nights that I've gone without an actual decent night of sleep without holding you in my arms since the night we went to Monster Jam. Our second to last date and the last night the 3 of us would sleep under the same roof.

I love you. I have since the very first day we met and I always will till my last breath.

Our relationship was never complicated. I was always there for you no matter what. I never lied to you once. I never swore at you or directed anger at you or our son ever. I was never physically violent towards you or our son. I never hit any walls. I only ever encouraged you to work towards become everything You wanted and achieve all your goals because They were important to you & I knew you could. Your successes made me happy & I was so proud of you. I love bragging about how lucky I was to have you in my life and how proud of you I was.

All I ever wanted was your happiness & to create millions of little & big happy moments together with you while we created a life together making memories spread over a lifetime together.

And it fucking sucks that we can’t even be friends because we have gone too deep. Because you didn't just burn down a bridge, rather loaded a car with explosives driving the car right over a cliff with me still inside only realizing halfway into the fall, that you had gotten out of the car at the very last minute without me noticing and were there at the top of the mountain in another's arms. Not even giving a shit if I was okay, because you already had your exit plan You already had my replacement..

But I crawled out of that burning car wreck like Anakin. My heart broken into a millions of pieces unable to be repaired, mentally fucked up from the pain and trauma you inflicted upon me. Stuck between wanting you & wanting to forget. Unable to do one or the other so I was doing both at the same time.

. And to be honest, I don’t know how to be happy for you. I mean I want you to be happy, it's all I've ever wanted for you and to give you it’s just that I still want to be the reason.

I just wish you would have obviously not cheated in the first place. But I wish you would have been honest with me. And I wish you would have let me continue to be a part of riker's life, or at least send me photos and updates of him.

I still love you. I still wish things were different. I Still wish you were here. I still hope that maybe one day I'll bump into you again & maybe then the timing will be right for us & maybe someday we'll get to create the happy ending we were supposed to have had all along. Because I still miss you my zing....... And I always will love. I will never love anyone else, like I had loved you

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Thursday, November 16th

8:30am I have one more big assignment and two more small assignments. It feels impossible and I'm so tired. All I want to do is call my best friend but he won't answer. Just have to do this myself again. I'm extremely strong and resilient and I can't believe I made it to this point.

3:30pm I survived Verbal Defense! I did it! I am really proud of myself for everything I have survived this semester! It's raining really hard which is fucking up my vibe and shit but the rain will stop eventually! I'm like shaking from all the overflow of emotions. This semester took so much from me, out of me, really just beat me tf up. My life has been a trainwreck for so long. I just want peace. I just want to calm the persistent anxiety that's been propping me up for months. I just want to rest my mind. I'm literally shaking from the release of stress. Stress is so undeniable physical and just wrecks your body in so many ways. It's time to rest and heal. You've been through so much trauma the past few months and here you are, still alive, still strong. Don't ignore the trauma you experienced but it's time to heal and grow and begin another chapter, not ignoring the previous chapters, but building off of the lessons learned. We go on.

4pm Just remember that most people don't gaf what you do bro just don't hurt anyone and ur good. I just put fish sticks in the oven and popped open a mojito and I'm chilling until I change my mind and want to do something else.

4:20pm I feel like I can finally process what has happened to me. School put me in survival mode and now I'm free to heal. Yeah I'm crying when I should be feeling nothing but joy. I'm crying bc I didn't get the chance to when I was just trying to survive. I went through so much having my trust broken and my life ripped out from under me. I am traumatized but I'll heal. I know I will. This will pass and then I'll feel the joy of my success. It was all mine and all my hard work. I'm seriously proud of myself and I'll say it 1000x ❤️

4:40pm added image of my fish sticks bc it makes me happy that I'm feeding myself

5:00pm intrusive thoughts but wow I can't believe I didn't kll myself this semester I'm so proud :)

5:10pm I made green beans sauteed in the pan instead of the microwave 🥰 I love myself and I know I am worth so much and I know I can take care of myself when I'm not insanely stressed with school. I'll find myself again in no time ❤️ it's like a dark storm cloud has lifted from above my head

7:47pm I woke up from a nap and my stomach hurts lol I think I made the green beans too oily/buttery but it's ok! Haha. I need to clean out my fridge and get some me foods in here. I haven't gone grocery shopping in ages. Everything is probably freezer burnt tbh but that's ok! You were just trying your best ❤️

I have rented Silence of the Lambs and I think I will take a Tums and have some Sprite and some ice cream and rest some more ❤️

9:25pm ok so I had a finish an assignment that nobody wanted to do so I took one for the team and did it 💕 the Tums helped tremendously and now it's movie time :) I'm glad I don't feel like I'm about to shit myself anymore so that actually worked out 😂

9:49pm physical feelings/ sensations have such a profound impact on my mental status. Seeing something gross or feeling physical pain just send me into a spiral. I would like to know how to work on this more. I think the best thing to do for now is to focus on what I can control in my surroundings.

1am lol ok I ended up not watching the movie and that's ok! MasterChef marathon ftw. Got both my little boys laying on the couch with me ❤️

Woke up and I started thinking about being in a relationship and about him or whatever but I'm not really sad. I think I'm asexual or like really minimally sexual. Idk what it is but like I enjoy people for so much more than sex? Like I want to have a connection with you first and then that will follow. Idk how people just be out here jumping and dumping 😂 it's just a waste of time for me. Long story short, I'm not seeking out another relationship rn so it's hard for me to even feel sexual really. Maybe it's a trauma thing or a stress thing, I really don't know. I do know I can't be the only one who feels this way and that's ok ❤️

2am I think I have autism and yeah I mean I thought of it before but then it's like 🤷‍♀️ ok and? And yeah I just think it explains a lot of things about me. But it's like I don't know what to do with that information lol.