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Bun In the oven? No no, cake in the oven. I’m baking a cake because my period is late…
#badger boyfriend#it’s one about the boyfriend#I’m not actually pregnant#just off of birth control and super hormonal and stressed because my period is three days late#I did take a test and it was negative#like a hard negative#that line was fucking GLOWING no baby#but I’m still stressed#I CRIED the other day because the Burger King drive through lady said#sorry we can’t take any orders#which was definitely code for I just finished cleaning everything and we close in half an hour I’m not dirtying shit again#which fair#but I did cry about it#which obviously because I ran out of birth control last month and can’t see an OBG until the fucking 30th#means I MUST be pregnant#that’s something pregnant ladies do right?#it’s probably just pms and weird hormone balances because it’s my first time off birth control in like 3 years#but stress baking!#so now I have a because cake!
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what did you think of the iii finale?
SO sorry i meant to answer asks sooner but i just kept putting it off to better word my thoughts later. so um. Well
ill be very brutally honest, i thought the iii finale was stupid as all hell. i don't have the right words right now to fully elaborate on the specific parts i hated (maybe if i remember ill add onto this in a reblog,) but everything about it felt so unnecessarily rushed and nothing like the energy of the original show that i loved so much. and im not saying this to be a hater !!! trust me, i avoided speaking on the finale for a while on purpose, in case i just needed time to process it (i was iffy on the alien plot in ii14 on the first watch too but now i LOVE it, so yknow that can happen with sudden new twists and characters sometimes)
i really really wanted to like it, but as it simmered in my head more, and the more i rewatched it, the more ridiculous and out of place it all felt. they weren't just throwing spaghetti at the wall until it stuck at this point, they threw out the whole damn pot and wasted it all. (does that even make sense?)
most of all, it just felt so deeply disappointing. it did have some interesting parts (like the reference to the s1 finale or opening more on mephone issues) but they did them all so strangely, all i can think about is all the ways it could've been better. and thats honestly way more frustrating than just being plain bad.
so many characters were filed down and reduced to clean, perfect Nice Ones by the end just so they could have a sweet feel-good ending which really doesn't fit into any of the rest of the current show's tone, especially if they plan to connect it back to s2. on top of that, it all felt so undeserved and empty. there was hardly any real conflict, emotional or otherwise lasting any longer than 5 seconds at a time throughout the entire season for the character's rest by the end to truly feel cathartic. it felt more like those shallow kids movie endings where everyone dances together and everythings fine. and sure, i know kids are the primary AE audience, but so much of iii just felt near insulting how much the the characters would talk down and overexplain every single emotion they felt and end every conflict with a hug or whatever. its like watching petty toddler fights lmao
this is more than i was expecting to write and ill admit its mostly about my issues with how they wrote mephone by the end but whatever lol i do not like most of iii . sorry 👍
#meeple.ask#iii neg#ii neg#i do not like iii. canon iii didnt happen I wrote it now. its mephoj now. take my hand#also i will never forgive ae for what they did to fantube#fantube was the most weird nerd maybe romantic maybe platonic maybe qpps Secret Fourth Thing#and they made them into a nuclear cishetallo family#test tube is just Motherly Woman Character TM now they took her insane autistic scientist swag from her#iii3 was like. the last good iii ep i think. its my favorite still#iii4/overthinkers makes me so autistically mad i wanna chew my arm off#for numerous reasons#ALSO THE FUCKIG. INNER FLAME SHIT WITH SILVER SPOON GAH#ITS SO STUPID#THEY BUILT ALL THAT UP FOR WHAT !!!!!!#the most anticlimactic fight scene ive ever seen in any media#its so sucks. help.
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So I thought I just had a cold I'd caught from my dad but I haven't been able to smell or taste very well for like three days so I took a covid test and uh
shit
#my dad took two tests and was negative supposedly so like where the hell did this come from??#i'm making my mom take a test too#no wonder i've felt so fucking awful#thank god i always wear a mask in public#shut up bri#i think i hauve covid for real#update: my mom's positive too and my dad's still testing negative#and like...the only place where i've had my mask off recently is the vet's office when we had to put tweak to sleep#so i have to assume that's where my mom and i both got infected#which is just great#can't even fucking sob over your deathly ill pet without fucking catching covid in this country i guess
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have you ever written any analysis of anything ii? would love to see it :-] especially any regarding fan's relationships to other characters
idk if it counts but i did write the personality section for fan on his wiki :D
I dont have any clear written analysis of anything except how fan would react upon meeting bot but I think a lot about many of his relationships and how he works but nothing specific I can think of rn but I would consider myself to know him Very Well to a point I Could probably write an analysis on him but I'm Not the best at it <- guy who is terrified of how it'll be received by the public
(iii neg in the tags oops)
#pankie ask#if anyone is interested in the fan and bot thing i could post it again <- guy about to rant in the tags#i kind of immediately deleted it because i got terrified of how people would perceive it since it goes into iii neg and criticism territory#in summary it's about how he'd have trouble with it and probably freak out and get reminded of egg (which I illustrated like a while ago)#and id be very disapointed if fan blindly accepts bot when they meet since it'd kind of disregard his entire struggle and it feels like tha#would be more in favour of fanservice for the whole family thing they're trying to push which wouldn't make sense for fans character#he only took care of egg because he could project onto it and use it to potray himself and his thoughts he wasn't even that good at it#i dont get how he could be able to take care of bot and plus test tube wasn't even the one who cared for egg as much as he did#so her taking care of bot is more of her just doing it because she has to be a parental figure#which doesnt make sense to me when bot can fully function without test tube since they're an adult who has shown to be more mature than her#and i pray to god bot doesnt stick to fan and test tube and interact with cabby goo floory or mephone more in the finale#I DIDNT MEAN TO RANT HERE BUT BASICALLY fan wouldnt be able to handle bot because bot is the embodiment of change and fan sucks at adapting
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HUGE VENT
I'm sorry but i need to get this out, just please don't worry too much or take anything personally/gen
My routine these last two weeeks has been:
-Wake up at my 10 am alarm and spend the whole day in bed, mentally and physically exhausted, brain fog and no motivation for anything, only getting up to eat, having to wait for the "food time" hours to roll around that my therapist gave me because I'm not allowed to eat outside of those hours and if I'm hungry but missed the last food time then too bad, struggling to stay awake because again I'm not allowed to sleep out of the "sleep hours" she gave me and that includes naps, excitedly waiting for 21h30/22h to roll around so i can finally sleep
-Spend the evening mentally screaming in my mind because, while my body is still just as physically exhausted, my mind is suddenly sharp and full of ideas and motivation, but i'm still too tired to get up and draw
-Then spend midnight and onward rolling around in bed, hot and bored out of my mind because my physical tiredness also vanished, but i'm not allowed to get up and draw because it's "sleep hours" and i need to reschedule my body, and end up falling asleep at around 5 am
I'm totally not slowly loosing my mind 😃👍
Edit: Oh also the constant noise in my ears has gotten worse, i don't know what silence is anymore
Silence is actually worse than loud rooms
It's driving me insane
It's so loud
#literaly so mentally exhausted to the point that i forgot to ask a bunch of really important stuff and tests at my last gyneco appointement#i can't remember which med I'm supposed to take at a specific hour and which one is whenever. so i just take them both at the same time#i can't remember if i have still boxes of meds in advance and which one i need to go refill#because they're stuff i need to constantly take and not suddenly stop with#but i keep forgetting to check#and i can't remember where i put the prescriptions anyway#and which one are the right one and which one are old#I'm so tired#and I'm so tired of being tired#and I'm SO so so tired of constantly fighting to have my health and struggles acknowledge#i kinda just gave up and now i'm just mindlessly sitting there at the appointments for only 10 minutes being being told that i can leave#I've just been run in circles for way too long#and i get aggresively criticised every time i use advice and seek for help on the Internet. by the same doctors who don't give me ANY advic#or help#and my head has been pounding for two days#and my verbal ticks have gotten so bad that it genuinely gets hard to breathe sometimes#with a therapist that just made me talk in circles and lowkey criticised me for two hours#(this was our first real therapy meeting and they're supposed to only be 1 hour and are NOT reimbursed because the autism center will NOT#fucking answer to ANYONE. medical professional or not. so i had to go private 😃👍)#and the only thing she gave me at the end of those 2 hours was this schedule that I'm not allowed to bend#I've been trying to daydream about my AUs and develope them as usual to try to feel better#but now that i have time to draw. i just get more and more drawing ideas that keep pilling up and tear me apart from the inside because i#can't draw any of them thanks to this damn fatigue#i literally only did 1 af revenge and still need to do 3 more. and i genuinely don't know if I'll manage to do that#i told two friends that ill draw something for them. but nothing. because too tired and everything keeps slipping from my mind#i will daydream about Dimentio for hours straight. then forget that i did. and panic that the fixation is slipping because i “haven't#thought about him in a while“. ”a while“ was 40 seconds ago. I'm not exaggerating this keeps happening#i also keep spending the night DRENCHED in sweat because i just can't sleep without my blanket on me anymore. so more struggles#vent#negative
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it's my favorite guessing game of the year: is it covid, a cold, the flu, or allergies? place your fuckin bets, your prize is congestion
#wow shush lavi#i'm. suffering.#i did take a covid test this morning and it came back negative. soooo i'll take some other ones later in the week#i don't think its covid but better safe than sorry u know#fuckin lame as hell#i also got roped into doing extra shit at the end of the day too#like man!!! i coulda been on my way home by now
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I'm so tired
#not to come on here just to complain and feel sorry for myself especially because i know things are so much worse for so many other ppl#but as hard as i'm trying it's hard to believe things will be okay i'm trying so hard not to fall into defeatist attitudes#but fuck man. fuck. it's not even that i'm surprised or anything it's just. man#i want to curl up in a ball and just be comforted and cry and be upset but i can't do that and i have no one to do that#my worker's comp payments aren't coming through like they're supposed to and i have like ten dollars and barely any food in the apartment#my injuries aren't getting better the pain is still there even though i'm doing everything i'm supposed to#my meds aren't working but meds have NEVER worked on me and i keep hoping and praying some day i'll find one that will but i fear they won'#i have more psych testing in january but a part of me worries about doing it because if (when) i test positive for certain things it will b#on my record and considering..... the state of things i worry about what that means for me and my autonomy esp regarding anything medical#i still can't convince any doctors to take my issues that are almost CERTAINLY endometriosis seriously and again.... given the state of thi#i find it very hard to believe that will change and will in fact only get worse and i will never be able to get any kind of sterilization o#hysterectomy and if something ever ended up happening and i DID get pregnant well. it would not be good for me#i feel very alone and like i need to and must handle everything on my own but i feel like i'm about to break doing that#and then this. this. this this this this. i know it's not fair to be upset about it. like i said things are so much worse for so many other#but fuck dude. fuck man. mentally i have not been doing good recently and nothing has happened in my life to really help that recently#i want to go back to being so repressed i genuinely felt/believed i was emotionless this was not a good year for the dam to break#i told my therapist the other day that i feel like a toddler. i was so repressed and emotionless for as long as i can remember#so i never learned to deal with big ugly and overwhelming emotions. so i react as a child still learning would because i never got the#chance to learn how to manage them and FUCK MAN i feel like i'm losing it#i know it's important to do what you can and not fall into overly negative mindsets but that's not something i was good at anyways#and now it's even harder but i'm trying. fuck dude i'm trying so hard i want to be hopeful i want to do what i can#i don't want to hate everything and jump immediately to wanting to kms or destroying my whole life because what's the point#i just. holy fuck. man i need a minute to breathe and i wish i had someone physically here to hold me and tell me it's okay#but i don't have that so i'll be a big girl and sort myself out like usual and just hope i don't break yet#i'm gonna go watch anime and try and read fic to distract myself but mannnnnnnn i feel like i'm losing it#kaz rambles
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reaching the "pit of despair" portion of the emotional rollercoaster that is today
#speak friend and enter#like i just have to cry it out rq bc i know realistically itll all be fine#and even if its not i can go home.#but i walked to get pizza and cut the walk sign too close and almost got hit by a car and then immediately got shat on by a seagull#and my blood sugar is low and im afraid im spending my money all wrong and i miss my family and my pets and my friends :(#but on the flip side ive been here for a grand total of seven hours and everyone ive talked to has been super nice.#and its not like i was seeing my friends in person at home either. none of them live near my parents#so realistically is this different from being in like my junior year of college when i didnt have any irl friends? no not really#and did i have fun then? yeah i did#so im definitely excited to see what all this will bring and i know ill meet people and get to see way more of the country#and the positives outweigh the negatives but admitting that doesnt get me off the emotional roller coaster.#so i gotta thug it out while i use these tags as a journal and then eat my dinner ans watch some tv and take a shower and go to sleep.#see the bad thing about being medicated is that now im self aware. being unaware was worse dgmw#but now its like cmonnnnn i should be able to test out of this i know the answersssss
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i don't want to be sickkkk but i fear that i might be .
#two weeks of work did me in < guy who knows that children are germ factories#ARRGHH like im fine its mild cold symptoms ill take a covid test to be safe#i just dont want to be sick like i just started working... but i probably shouldn't go even if i test negative#because i don't want to get the kids sick......#babbling
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i really want to start making a table collecting statistics on the audience demographics i'll perform my aubrey material for (like what generation most of the audience is, whether i'm performing in a predominantly queer space, etc.) and how well the jokes land bc like. i need to collect more data points before i can properly present my findings but the results so far have been fascinating
#again i do not have enough performance experiences to make any definitive claims about who ''aubery's audience'' is#but i find it funny that any time i show my aubrey material one-on-one to a queer gen z person#they're always like ''i love it but straight people will definitely hate it or not get it''#and i get the inclination to be like. ''i like this thing so people like me will like this thing''#and cishet society seems so polarized w/r/t queer topics it's like. the assumption makes sense#however. whenever i've done an aubrey performance in front of an audience that's predominantly queer and gen z#i've actually received a primarily negative response!! and somehow straight people have never given me shit for my aubrey material#(''well straight allys don't count'' i told some of my aubrey jokes to a joe rogan dudebro and he enjoyed them)#(which yeah maybe could be a mark against my comedy but i like to think i opened his mind a bit at the very least)#i really want to test my aubrey monologues in front of a primarily gen x/boomer audience#bc so far i only have actual performance experience in front of gen z or millennials#and the older people i've told jokes to individually or shown videos of my stuff have really liked it#luckily paul has said a goal for when i'm in town this summer is to get me to perform my aubrey stuff in as many different places as possib#for both queer audiences and non-queer audiences so i can gauge reactions since i don't want to be confined to one demographic#so i'll get a lot of data points this summer#@ paul get me a performing slot at senior citizen pride lmao these are my people#(shoutout to paul going ''jess stop collecting the old homos!'' last time i was in town)#(and when i imitated him and was like ''old gay men are not your pokemon!'' bellini was like ''ok but they may be your audience'')#also one data point i really want to see the variation on is how my one specific joke plays in these different demographics#bc i have a joke that like. it's literally not even about AIDS and doesn't punch down at all#i literally say ''if you're gay and over the age of 50 you could violate the geneva convention and i'd still be like support our troops''#like obviously being like ''you have been through hell so i will let you get away with literal war crimes you deserve ultimate immunity''#BUT. in the line right before the quote i use the phrase ''AIDS generation'' not as a derogatory term but being like.#this horrible thing impacted the entire generation y'know? and bellini and scott and their friends call themselves that it's just the term#but when i said the phrase ''AIDS generation'' in front of my gen z audience i heard gasps and felt like they all hated me#and when i did the same line in front of millennials it wasn't quite as striking but their eyes did widen#like i was suddenly an ''edgy comedian''. but like this is a part of our history and it does inform the story i'm telling#the story i'm telling is comedic but it's grounded in this real world context#and i'm like. @ the audience who was offended: when was the last time any of y'all spoke to a gay man over the age of 50#bc bellini loves that section of the monologue and was offended that people would even take offense to that phrase
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i can't believe i have finally tested positive for the plague :(
#personal#i was so so careful for so long#and then i went to this dang convention and now here we are sigh :(#i thought i'd just lost my voice like normal after con and then felt bad bc period cramps#but my friend said she tested positive so i tested and yeah :( me too :(#i also feel extra bad bc i went into the office for a 3hr meeting on tuesday 🙃#and technically have meetings in the office on tuesday next week i uhhh should not go in for now 🙃#i did test before i went into the office on tuesday and it was negative then! sigh#damn it all#i kinda wanna cry i just really hope i didn't give it to anyone. or give it to my parents who i liVE WITH 😭#serious question am i allowed to take a sick day tomorrow. i am actually sick so uh.....
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Somehow by the grace of Jesus we NARROWLY missed catching covid. Masking fucking works baby!!!!!
#according to her she Did wear a mask but took it off every now and then. which is less than ideal but jeeeesus#i believe she's asymptomatic personally but i tested negative after a week so ? I'll take it
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family brought some bug into the house im gonna take a covid test tomorrow
#zenith.txt#beyo d frustrating that i do literally everything right by not leaving my house and if i do i wear a kn95 every single time#and i dont eat at resturaunts and i dont go into enclosed spaces with other people and yet bc of other people being irresponsable#they mightve guven it to me..... im beyond pissed#if it is covid im going on a rampage no one will be spared my wrath they KNOW im immunocompromised#everyone hope for the best and its just strep throat or the common cold#ill still be incredibly pissed off that my supposed family put my life in danger like this but at least i wont be in actual danger#anyways if you dont wear a mask and you dont take covid precautions and act like its over give all disabled people $500 and kill yourself#im also gonna buy a portable HEPA air filter for my room#im just so annoyed i beg them to take it seriously and they refuse to...#im going to die out of spite to make them guilty....#anyways i have like 8 vovid tests stockpiled so ill take one every day for the next week just in case i get a false negative#im.even more frustrated bc i havent gotten it this entire time like i did literally everything in my power and avoided it for years#and now if i got it bc i of shit ass family visiting whom i didnt even want here.....#die die die die kill yourself jump off a bridge etc
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36+2= 38 🙂
38-10=28 ☹
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#cheeseburgerboy#lost#im working on a test. im supposed to finish it but ill never really get where i want to#things like this don't feel the same negatively as they did#still negative#i used to feel like a was stupid#like i had to be hurt like this for my family. do all this work#i still have to#but i don't take that part as seriously anymore#i know what i cannot do#i want to give up. but what is the point in that.#i want to try really hard and see where i go#even though i hate this. i have to for some reason. ive tried so hard but i know will mostly always have a lower grade than my peers
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#on day 13 of this throat infection#so tired of not being able to swallow without awful pain :((((#I'M SO HUNGRY DUDE#and i KNOW i'm dehydrated#but geez louise#i'm spitting in the sink every ten minutes because just swallowing my saliva is too painful#jaw is stiff and sore#ears feel swollen esp the right one#i can FEEL the swelling on the outside of my throat#nose is congested off and on#went to the er on saturday and they tested for strep covid rsv and influenza and they all came back negative#so the doc just told me to stay hydrated and take tylenol/ibuprofen#which IS what i was ALREADY DOING arhghrhg#along with saltwater gargles and honey tea and all that other stuff#ordered a bunch more medication monday night to TRY and make a dent#mucinex cough drops throat spray all of it#none of it did anything#went to urgent care this morning#they ran the same tests which still came back negative#plus a couple others#(also negative)#BUT they DID prescribe me some steroids and antibiotics#so once my pharmacy fills those#i'm PRAYING that'll help with all this excruciating swelling#dude i'm so hungry and my throat hurts so bad and aaaghghhhh just wanna feel better when i wake up tomorrow!!!!#i've been getting sick more easily and often these days#and i'm worried that covid damaged my immune system#i never used to get sick at all really#miss those days
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Hi! I hope you’re doing good in life! So it’s spooky season so I have an ask related to that. I don’t know if you play horror video games, watch horror movies/shows, or read horror books, but if you do, I have to ask: What is the most disturbing book, or video game or show/movie that you’ve played/watched/read? In my opinion, there is two types of horror: the ones that scare you, and the ones that traumatize you. If you can think of any book, movie, or game that really kind of fucked you up, I’m curious to know if you feel like answering. I hope you have a good day and a good life.
Hey, I’m doing good and I hope you are too!
the answer ended up being really long lol
Woof, this is honestly a pretty hard question, since I can't really name any horror (or otherwise) media that actually left me kind of fucked up for a bit, at least not to the degree where it affected me for a while. I probably haven't been really fucked up by anything since I was a kid, so I'll try and recall what a few things fucked me up back then...
Off the top of my head I know that two different spongebob episodes got me bad, the first being one with that tunnel of love thing (tho tbh i havent seen it in a while so it might still spook me today) and the one where i'm pretty sure for whatever reason squidward gets locked in some small locker and has some kind of fucked up dream, whatever that was. I remember there was an eagle in that one. the eagle terrified me. (i looked them up, and the first episode is titled 'tunnel of glove' and the second is 'squidward in clarinetland'. with how badly that second one got to me, i'm surprised i ended up learning to play the clarinet at all)
other than that, i think the courage the cowardly dog episode 'the house of discontent' got me pretty bad, too, but i think everyone who saw any amount of that series as a kid has at least one episode that got them fucked up.
there's probably a handful of scooby-doo stuff that got to me when i was a kid, but i could not name any specifics (asides from charlie the robot's original episode, christ) because i think i managed to see just about every bit of available scooby media around that time.
nowadays stuff still does kinda fuck me up, but it's usually only for brief bits of time. the most recent example I can think of is cowboy bebop's 20's episode, pierrot le fou, which is honestly some great horror, especially how it uses the show's typical format and flips it on it's head, but i wouldn't necessarily say it got to me because of it being scary, more because of the way the ending disturbed me for a bit. it was the only episode that had me stop afterwards and really look into it for anything other than clarifying a character's gender, lol.
the endings of both neon genesis evangelion and end of evangelion had me shaken, the latter more so than the former, but not really due to horror aspects, though. i did have to take a walk after finishing end of evangelion. i don't really watch horror movies, i just... read the wikipedia plot descriptions of them.
honestly, i think some of the more popular youtube analogue horror series have gotten to me worse (likely due to the fact that they can get a bit more fucked up than, say, a tv show or movie), specifically the walten files (which i did watch) and the mandela catalogue (which i just watched wendigoon's vids on), and those two and mostly because facial distortion is generally just an incredibly effective form of horror imo. a lot of the time (esp with the childhood examples) the way i was 'fucked up' was that id be in be visualizing the stuff that scared me, and both the mandela catalogue and the walten files had me doing that for a bit.
now that i remember it, i was really scared of fnaf when it first came out. i first learned of it second-hand from seeing some other kids looking into it, and the bits and pieces i put together about it really scared me.
honestly, it's usually straight-up disturbing sequences or imagery that gets to me the most, and i know my limits well enough to generally identify and avoid that stuff, which is probably why i don't have too many recent examples. i've got one or two examples of non-horror movies that fucked me up as a kid, but that's mostly because they were wildly inappropriate for someone of my age (at the time) to be witnessing, so that's a different sort of topic.
i mean, i think i generally have a decent tolerance for fucked up stuff in media, anyways, i mean, i enjoy berserk and haven't really been too upset or disturbed by what happens in it (look theres some nasty shit in there im not saying its not that bad) so there's definitionally some kind of line that media needs to cross to really get to me nowadays, or it just needs to be a specific kind of fucked up. books generally don't do that for me so i don't have any book examples. no games, either, though shadow mario and the haunted house segments in super mario 3d world scared me so much that i had to make my mom do the levels for me, and i'm pretty sure scooby doo: first frights scared me a bit when i first played it on ds.
other than that, though, I just think that, in pokemon x, the story that an npc tells you during your first trip to route 14 and then the strange office building encounter with the animation-less hex maniac creeped me out pretty bad.
yeah, it's kind of hard for me to think of anything (recent) that actually really fucked me up or anything. most stuff just scared me, never really fucked me up or figuratively traumatized me in recent years.
#asks#zeldanamikaze#salty talks#i think for media to really fuck me up there has to be some kind of intense emotional aspect to it or have some specific visual stuff#my enjoying of berserk is proof that it takes specific stuff to really get to me. the way i tested if id be fine reading berserk is so#fucked in hindsight. i straight up looked up the two most infamous eclipse chapters online and read them to make sure id be fine#what the fuck. i just dove in head first fucking god#anyways yeah. like berserk is generally fine for me but cowboy bebop episode 20 did have me a lil fucked up. its so good#ive been looking more into horror stuff recently and i have a lot of respect for (well-executed) horror games like damn. i wanna play#silent hill 2 so bad. it's a really interesting genre when pulled off effectively on a level deeper than just 'oh look at this scary thing'#anyways. i recently watched mononoke and its not really horror just kinda unsettling. its so fucking good#tbh tho there are some fanfics ive read that did actually fuck me up (which is why i kinda have an aversion to angst)#but i didnt want to talk abt those bc i dont want to name names or anything. theyre good fics they just affected me pretty negatively#generally its more like. freaky irl things that fuck me up but thats not fun to talk about its just like. depressing#sorry it took so long to reply to this i hadnt really sat down to write it or anything an just. couldnt think of much lol#anyways ig bottom line is that its more likely for non-horror stuff to fuck me up? or its gotta be specific stuff idk#i played a few hours of portal 1 at a friends house years ago and for some reason it creeped me out a whole lot#strangely enough i dont think scooby doo mystery incorporated fucked me up when i first watched it#i think there was like 1 episode that scared me more than the rest but it was never too bad#and that show is regarded as likely the most actually scary scooby thing. its rlly good#im pretty sure scooby doo was my first (or one of my first) special interest#also (similarly) i dont really get nightmares too often my dreams are just kinda really weird most of the time#i did actually have like. a scary dream recently but i dont know if id fully call it a nightmare
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