#I did NO research on klonopin so now I’m scrambling to build up the courage to take this stuff | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

floral-hex · 2 years ago

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Got a month’s prescription of klonopin. Wish I could find out how other people are affected by it, but all I find are posts about getting fucked up. I mean, I guess good for y’all, but not very helpful for me 🤷🏻‍♂️

#I’m about to take my first one in a bit #been trying to find actual reviews online that aren’t from people just partying #it suuuucks #okay first of the nurse was super sweet and nice BUT I ASKED FOR XANAX #I did NO research on klonopin so now I’m scrambling to build up the courage to take this stuff #I’m sorry. I’m not a big drug user. I’m paranoid about side effects #I just want to feel mellow and not as sad #I know this is for anxiety not depression but my new antidepressants aren’t in yet and I need SOME kind of relief #I kinda just sat and cried and freaked out in the car earlier so… wanna get on this before that hits again #I tried to go for a run this morning.. which… I can’t run. this body sucks and I have bad balance and it just feels bad #so instead I walked around the neighborhood for awhile. it was nice. so pretty.#it rained earlier so it was cool and dewy and peaceful #and I could hear the birds and felt peaceful for awhile #now I’m in this house and it’s OPPRESSIVE!#THIS WORLD IS SHIT PRISON IN ISOLATION GALAXY!#I went to Walgreens earlier and tried to see if I would be able to work in a place like that #trying to hear people talk while wearing hearing aids #it… wasn’t a hopeful trip. depressing. I want a job and to get out so bad #I need cash and I need to be around people #it’s just hard. trying to adjust. trying to see some hope. it’s rough.#I wish I could listen to music but it’s just noise now #and I can’t eat because nothing tastes good. it’s all dry and bland and I know I’m hungry #and being hungry makes my mental state worse but it’s hard to feel the need to eat #blegh whatever. gonna try some ramen and I got a Gatorade for the calories so we’ll see #sorry about the bitching #I appreciate if you actually read all of this #text

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