#I deleted the fic be happy now

[k0yaz]

guys what the actual hell?

Why did I lose so many followers? If it’s because of my recent fic I will delete it and remove it from my master lists but can I have an explanation as to why I lost over 150 followers in under a few hours?

I’m not blaming anyone ily all but im just curious as to WHY I lost followers over one single fic which didn’t even contain anything problematic in it, and there’s plenty of other fics for you all to read so why focus on ONE just because it’s from a game that you don’t like?

Again I’m sorry if this came off as harsh I’m just upset and not in my right mind rn because this feels ridiculous

[lesbianherald]

I’m going to phrase this delicately because I’m so deeply grateful and awed by the support I’ve received.

But I will say it is a little anxiety inducing how many people feel they can talk about coming home whatever way they want openly and publicly because it has “numbers” or whatever (referring to my own work like this makes me want to claw my eyes out because they baffle me and I don’t necessarily feel I deserve them but it’s important for context).

This is Especially true for the way people speak under things I very much see. Art of the fic. My Twitter mutuals posts. Things I will very obviously interact with. It feels like someone is walking into my back yard and talking shit as if I'm literally not standing in said yard like this 🧍

You make something for a community for free as an act of passion and then the community in turn becomes something that isn’t quite accessible to you anymore. I’ve seen this happen to a lot of fic writers in my previous fandoms and idk man it’s just kind of a bummer.

Like. Fanfic and fanart is made by people in the fandom for the fandom. It’s not work being produced by some distant people in Hollywood who shouldn’t be in the fandom space in the first place.

Idk, it’s actually pretty rare that this happens to me but I wanted to mention I am a human who can very much read the things you say guys 😭 like if you reblog art related to my work and call it a bunch of petty names and say you had to dnf I can see that. It’s totally ok to feel whatever way you want. But maybe don't feel that way in my back yard.

Again. I’m so grateful for everything I really am. You absolutely do not have to fuck with my work. Fuck I don't fuck with my work sometimes DKLFJSDHF. This is probably the last time I’ll talk about this because the last thing I want to do is come off like I can’t take criticism and I’m ungrateful. But sometimes I really am chewing at my enclosure like IM RIGHT HERE MAN IM LITERALLY BEHIND YOU HOW DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT.

[calamitoustide]

jegulus microfic | 622 words

"Stop moving," Regulus shoves James' shoulders back down, his palm laid out wide against his back.

James sighs, moving his neck regardless trying to look over at him, "I want to see!"

"It's not done yet," Regulus grumbles, reaching forward to move his head back to staring straight. Not before James caught a glimpse of him with a paint brush tucked between his teeth.

They've been sitting here for almost an hour, with James' chest pressed into blankets that don't do much protecting him from the hard wood floor, and Regulus straddled over his back. It was James' idea, after he spent too many nights with Regulus pretending to paint against his back while they were lying together before they slept he suggested Regulus just do the real thing. James could sit all nice and Regulus could use his body as a canvas. And it was nice. For about ten minutes before James remembered how impatient he is especially when Regulus is so close and he's only been able to get small glimpses of him over the past hour.

Regulus let James pick out the playlist thinking it would help with him getting fidgety but it went rough too many songs ago and his phone is much too far away for him to reach now. Plus Regulus is far too in it now for James to ask to take a break.

"How much longer?" James asks softly.

Regulus doesn't answer at first, and James thinks he's ignoring him on purpose. He wouldn't be surprised and it certainly wouldn't be the first time. When Regulus gets in a passion like this he's normally gone to the rest of the world. James could have entered his studio and been sitting there for an hour and Regulus wouldn't know a thing. He falls out of it eventually, and then jumps out of his skin when he sees James sitting on the couch watching him and demands to know how long he's been in there. James never finds himself answering, he just smiles softly at him instead.

"It's done," Regulus murmurs, completing one more brush stroke before getting off him and sticking the brush in the water right beside him.

"Wait, really?" James goes to move before Regulus pushes him back down.

"You're gonna smudge it," Regulus tells him.

"I want to see it!" James repeats, looking behind him to catch Regulus rolling his eyes before he grabs his phone.

"Lay back down," Regulus demands, but it doesn't really come off that way, he's soft around the edges, James swears.

Wordlessly Regulus hands James the phone to reveal what he's done. As expected it's a landscape. Regulus has gotten really into them lately, there's at least a dozen half finished ones sprawled around their apartment. This one is of the sea, with the sun creeping over the horizon. It mixes with the water, becoming one with the tide. James thinks it's the most beautiful painting he's ever seen.

Carefully he sits up to face Regulus properly, "It's beautiful."

Regulus hums, indifferent, as he always does, "My canvas wasn't very cooperative. It could've been better."

James just smiles at him softly, cupping his cheek to pull him forward. Regulus goes easily, giving in to his kiss. When James pulls away he says, "I don't think I'll ever be able to wash it off."

"If you refuse to take a shower I'll break up with you," Regulus says, getting up and grabbing his paints with him.

"Hey!" James exclaims, turning to follow him with his gaze.

Regulus glances back at him before dumping out his cup in the sink.

James sighs, before he sits up straighter, "What if you tattoo it?"

Regulus' silence is an answer in itself.

[boasamishipper]

🧮🔥💕 (last one for your current WIPs) for the fic writing asks? Thanks :D

🧮 what are you working on? describe it in 20 words or less

post s2 au of perry mason hbo where pete and perry get their shit together

🔥 what’s something that’s currently going really well?

i finally figured out how to get from point a to point b in Modern Architecture (my forementioned perry mason fic), and i have fully outlined both remaining chapters of No Grave Can Hold My Body Down (my bathena amnesia!bobby au)

💕 what's your favorite part of your writing process?

when i've got my music going and i've got all the time in the world and the words are flowing as easy as breathing and i know exactly where i'm going and how to get there

[compacflt]

OKAY I’M DONE‼️ tomorrow‼️

(Subtract about 3-4k [in-progress notes and afterword for my print version—which will be sent to those who asked once i finish editing (might be a minute)!] but here’s proof)

sorry it took so long. I was really unhappy with a couple sections and decided to stop bitching about how unhappy I was with them on tumblr and take the time to rewrite them to a standard that I would actually be happy posting… which I thought would take like a week… silly compacflt… always triple the amount of time I estimate i might need… so sorry I’ve been MIA. ive been working on this the whole time.

but now I’m actually really happy with these. And with their completion, it means this series is over. I think this is an ending I can actually be proud of, now. so for me it was worth it.

also i think i should reiterate, these aren’t supposed to be read all at once, i just thought it would be crazy to post these dozens of individual one-shots as their own chapters. that’s crazy. Lol. so you can treat them like chapters if you want. or don’t. I’m not your mom

these sections (ice/mav retiring, getting married, hangster wedding, retired life etc.) will be posted tomorrow. Thank you for waiting‼️

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[spectascopes]

lemme Preface this with I'M HAPPY ABOUT IT AND LOVE ALL FEEDBACK-

I've gotten a bunch of comments on old fics in the last month or two?? Like, 2016-era fics of mine both finished and abandoned that I feel like haven't gotten comments in YEARSSS have gotten some, and not just from the same users, either! What is going on??? On one hand, the bigger and greater hand, I appreciate all feedback and comments BUT ON THE OTHER...

nah actually there IS no other hand, I was going to say "wah wah having to face the cringe and unpolished shit I wrote when I was 18-19-20 and know it lives where people can see it" but all the comments have been NICE so I'm going to be NICE to me too :] It's really touching to get comments on fics I might not personally reflect on positively where somebody is like "I LOVED THIS IT WAS SOOO GOOD" like wow. maybe I am my own worst critic? Perhaps. many such alleged cases.

[justawrites]

(there's a poll at the bottom of this as I'd like some opinion)

this might sound absolutely insane but I... kinda wanna start God in a Godless Land (main fic, not the whole series) over. I'm not exactly happy with how I'm writing it and I suspect it's because I'm trying so hard to keep the chapters a "reasonable length" that I think my writing's degraded for it... and I figure if I do wanna restart I should do it before I get 100k words in

I was thinking this when I was struggling to write the last chapter but like... I think I was trying to move on from Riverwood too fast? Like logically I know it hasn't been fast but I dropped a lot of details and events I would've liked to write about before Riverwood got attacked for the sake of "chapter length" and "moving on with the story", and I. Kinda feel like I got them to Riverwood too fast.

And there were also things I wanted to write about in Riverwood- like I completely dropped a scene with Lamb and Narinder's daughters for the sake of "flow" which I really shouldn't have dropped because it was supposed to come back later but it just didn't feel like it had a place and now I am. Sitting here wondering why the fuck I did that, because?? that conversation is??? Really super fucking important later on wHY DID I drop it???? I was just. Trying to usher them out so fast that I completely forgot that there were reasons I should have taken my time.

.... So I might start over. For my sake AND the story's sake, bc I think I got so hung up on chapter lengths and "moving the story along" that I've, ironically, written a good chunk of Nothing At All and the story feels stunted for it. Like, I could've written so much more about the Lantern Festival and the Lamb and Bishops seeing this completely different culture in this completely different land really alive and thriving, despite everything. But then I basically bulldoze through the Lantern Festival to get to Narinder and Lamb's little confrontation and the attack after it.

I could've done. So much more with the adventure leading up to Riverwood and the whole Riverwood section, but I didn't. Because I wanted to push the story on, but the story is. Really suffering for that.

I've just reread Death Comes Home to Stay and am rereading Rise of the New Faith right now and, legitimately, they feel like much fuller stories than God in a Godless Land despite literally being chopped up snapshots of a bigger story taking place over two hundred years. Like, my writing just feels better in them than God in a Godless Land.

Also I feel very weird about Narinder's reasoning for leaving his literal ten year old child in a sixteen and nineteen year old (neither of whom are adults by Arcadia's standards)'s care, and I much prefer the reasoning I had given him during the planning stage of the fic... Don't get me wrong, Narinder choosing to go for the sake of revenge? VERY in character, even for godless!Narinder. Leaving his ten year old behind when he KNOWS he could (perma!!)die for this, just for a chance at revenge? That is where I feel like this falls apart, because godless!Narinder's love for his family FAR outweighs his desire for revenge. Like, if he just wants the chromatic Crown's cult wiped out he could just give the Lamb and Bishops something to prove they know him and people throughout Arcadia would be willing to help them?? He wouldn't need to go with them?? He KNOWS the Lamb and Bishops will wipe the floor with that cult?? Like why did I go that route instead of the original route. Hello. What.

So yeah. I might just... start the main fic over and let chapters be as long as they want. I'm better at writing in arcs than chapters and I think it's really showing, and as much as people are enjoying it if I'm not enjoying it then I think I need to make a change. Writing is supposed to be fun, I like writing, but I'm just. Not having fun right now. It would mean longer time between updates but I think those updates would be more worth it, because right now it all feels so... I dunno. Rushed. Disjointed. The biggest problem is I'm not having fun writing it, except for specific Scenes™, and I also don't feel like I'm giving those scenes enough to hit the way I want them to... But I write for fun so if I'm not having fun it's just. Work. I've literally had a doc titled "08" up for more than 24 hours now and it's completely blank. I haven't written a single word yet, and usually I'd have at least a scene done already.

Anyway... the question is, if I do start over, what should I do with the current God in a Godless Land? Delete it? Leave it up with a note? Remove it from the series page or leave it there? ... What do y'all think?

[the-kipsabian]

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[phantom-curve]

so I woke up to this fucking comment in the middle of the night

and I just wanna say, not only did I absolutely NOT use a fucking AI or bot to write my fic, but also if this is something that is going to happen now and I’m gonna have to be anxious/worried that someone is gonna accuse me of doing something like this OR that someone is gonna upload my work to a machine to teach it how to steal the work of a real human: I just won’t post anymore. like it’s literally as simple as that.

and that kills me because I already have enough reasons not to post the things I write and I was legit so excited to put something new up and now I’m like a sad leftover birthday balloon and I honestly don’t know if I will continue posting this fic or not. I feel super gross about this and frankly, really violated too. we’ll see if that changes by wednesday, but no promises on updates anymore at this point. most of the joy I had about posting this fic is gone now because of this.

so whoever is out there feeding fics into bots, here’s my PSA: fucking do better. be better. and stop ruining creative outlets for actual real people. you suck.

[freshwater--mermaid]

I’ve started working on my ancient FMA post-COS fic for the first time in a straight up decade, and I finally caved and made a spotify account so I could organise all the old songs I listened to when I was writing it.

You can find it here if you wanna hear some pretty songs that make me think of fma 2003 and CoS. It’s short rn but it’ll grow as my memory comes back.

If any of yall have been here long enough to remember my old abandoned fic, I’m finally bringing that ol corpse back to life and working on it again, miracles really do happen!

[viking-writing]

Ok I honestly hope that this is just the universe playing a mega fat april fools on me...

BUT as for NOW it is sadly true:

I DON'T have a computer/laptop anymore 😭 The battery died...and I don't know if it can be changed or if I at least can save what is on the harddrive/memory card..

Which means that SOME (not all of it! Most of it is thankfully saved on a separate hardisk) of the chapters/pages of my Rammstein WIP Fic MAY be lost FOREVER 😞 I never learn by taking several copied snd save them somewhere else and so now I am being punished (just like that time when my phones SD card got broken when I dropped the phone into concrete and the card couldn't be saved and my ENTIRE 1 and a half year stay in Gothenburg was lost!)

I wish I was fooling everybody right now but it's true! Fuck. I really HOPE that everything that is saved there can at least be taken out somehow and saved before I buy a new laptop. Otherwise I am gonna cry...

[todayisafridaynight]

[General fic. Jo Sawashiro and Masato Arakawa ft. Masumi Arakawa]

Sawashiro had joined the yakuza in order to reunite with the son he abandoned son Masato Arakawa, that much was clear. However, apparently he'd done too fine of a job gaining the senior Arakawa's trust and respect in the process: what would seem like a dream and perfect opportunity to some could only promise an awkward evening for Sawashiro as he was given the important task of babysitting Masato. By himself. When he had no experience whatsoever with children on his own.

But if Arakawa appeared to have enough faith in him, then what reason did he have to doubt himself? Plenty, really.

[skitskatdacat63]

same anon here who sent the original ask,,, it’s not exactly in video format but i swear, by sheer coincidence, i wasn’t even actively searching for it, i found an extended version of the cute lil punching thing???

https://www.tumblr.com/beyondallreasonablesport/16985250525/fuckyeahsebson-maythekersbewithyou-mark-acts

what a coincidence frrr i wasn’t even trying to search for it and it just… popped up… it’s 4am and i’m freaking out at this coincidence. anyway! it’s not the best quality but aaaaaaaa

Anon tysm omfg!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 you really delivered!! <3

I think I'm still gonna be a bit sad for a while that I can't go find it in the archive itself, but I really appreciate you sending it!! What a crazy coincidence! It's a shame that the op is deleted because I'm really curious if I had the race correct or not. But finding out that something has been deleted is one of the worst things to experience online I think, you just feel kind of empty because it's something you'll probably never get back sigh sigh :,)

[good-beans]

Ughghh being an easily emotional person is not always fun :((

[aromanticasterisms]

DIRECTOR FURINA I AM SHOUTING AND CHEERING