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merkerlerspeaks · 1 year ago

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Right now, I feel bad. But thats okay. I wont always feel bad. And even if I feel bad for a while (it feels like i will, but that is because I feel bad) it still will pass. So its okay and so am I.

#The past couple of days its been like I've been hyperaware about my body and its functions and existence that doesn't feel nice #Its not an insecurity over appearance or my being aware Im percieved #But like its like. I have to eat. That feels weird.#I have to eat and sometimes burp and take a drink and bathe and breathe #And more too #I can feel my clothes on my skin #The blankets I cover up with #When I shower I feel the water #and its like #its not a normal “well yeah you feel this”#its this hyperawareness of it #and it makes it seem....odd. embarassing. existential.#Like im not meant to be in a body but rather. Something else.#An orb of energy #Everything else feels weird and offputting #This has happened before and its the first time Ive ever voiced it #Things feel like a nonexistent dream almost #But I know that it isnt #but I feel like Im going to wake up and be something or someone completely different #I know I wont. Its not delusion.#But it FEELS that way. Not even emotionally but physically #emotionally its like Im numb to it #Not in a depressed way #but in a way thats just kinda repressing because I cant do anything about it and it just has to run its course #sometimes I get this weird hyperawareness of the fact that clothing merely covers the body and doesnt make it disappear #and then Im aware of what Im wearing #And I just don't like it #merkerler speaks

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lucabyte · 11 months ago

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Comfortable in New Skin

#wanted to give loop some like... vague clothes. since while they dont Need to be covered... accessorising is a human right #and boy do they need some of those. one can assume the only place theyd be getting clothes is isa though. so. ponder it #in stars and time #isat fanart #isat spoilers #isat loop #loop isat #isat #lucabyteart #SPOILERS TAG BECAUSE UM. CAPTION IS UNNEGOTIABLE. SOZ #anyway i do have Even More doodles on the way. primarily about loop. predictable. a lot of thoughts on the body horror of it all.#if you were to ask me. i think loops quote unquote skin is uncannily loose when pushed or pulled in any way #almost as if it were clothes covering the skin rather than skin itself. probably feels fuzzy and vague too. as for their head?#non-solid but in the way where theres a force pushing outwards. radiating you could say. yknow. vague. undefined. not quite real #but thats just my headcanon. tee hee

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valtsv · 6 months ago

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god there was something so incredible about shrue condemning our inclination to hide behind stories as a means of denial and wilful ignorance, delivered to the listener through the medium of a story. of course shrue was talking more about the lies we tell ourselves to avoid confronting the hard truths and ugly realities of the world we live in than, like, fiction in general, but goddamn. what a fucking meta move. this is a story about stories, about how they can be used as vehicles for both beautiful lies and terrible truths; their limitations as a medium and those of language as a whole. of how we can talk, and talk, and talk ourselves to the end of the world, to the bottom of our self-made graves, but without action, that's all they are, and all they ever will be. words. enough to drown us all beneath the crushing weight of our conviction in them, but not enough to save us.

#🐉#AND THEY PULLED IT OFF!!!#i can hardly speak i feel like i need to tear off all my clothes and skin and walk naked and flayed through the streets #the silt verses #the silt verses spoilers

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soullessseraphim · 7 months ago

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I am spiritually convinced they can fucking slay any kind of fashion event they want and they just... Choose not to-

BONUS ! :D

I just wanted to put them in that funky bandage thing leeloo (liloo?) wears in the 5th element because like............. Because.

It's their pajama now /hj.

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stargirlstabber · 1 month ago

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the weather is nice here pookie. Getting chilly it’s my fav ! Hope you’re doing well 😚😚😚

hi looove🌸 ah same, fall and winter are my fave seasons😌 i'm doing alright, me and my bestie were spilling tea earlier so yeah, i'm alright. and u (and tora)? how was your day?

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quantomeno · 3 months ago

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I was playing around on Fashion Dreamer today:

One thing I really dislike about Fashion Dreamer is that there aren't any 'outer' jumpers, so you can't wear a shirt under them. There also aren't any good v-neck ones so I'm not so happy about how the first outfit turned out but the second I think is pretty accurate.

(also no bags is another thing I miss)

(also my friend code on Fashion Dreamer is a83vyjNAkA. My main muse is called Luke, coincidentally, though he doesn't usually look like Luke)

#Luke Triton #professor layton #fashion dreamer #professor layton and the new world of steam #I feel I should've chosen a different skin tone for the younger Luke #but it was hard to colour match from my phone and the switch screen #so I just used the same one #I also just now realised I meant to change the muse's height for young Luke but anyway #I doubt you'd notice it in the picture since there's nothing to reference his height to #I also noticed while making this that Luke's clothes have become a lot more blue and vibrant in the new game #I put a slight sepia filter on the young one but you can still see pretty clearly that his old clothes had a greenish hue

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gamebunny-advance · 4 months ago

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Hmhm~

It finally happened. I finally have a conventionally attractive anime(esque) boy that I can fawn over.

#fields of mistria #i don't know if i've talked about this #but i'm not generally attracted to anime style characters #they just don't do much for me most of the time. (and there's a difference between characters I like and characters i fawn over.)#but this guy right here is hitting almost all of my checkboxes #pink haired boy? check #pink haired boy with dark skin? bonus points #he's got something he's nerdy about? (digging in the dirt and D&D) check.#i can feed him snacks? check.#the only thing i don't really like about him are his outfits #he's a noble so his outfits are very princely which just isn't my thing #i'd like to see him in more casual/modern clothes #otherwise i can see myself getting really obsessed with him. maybe even 'make a doll' levels of obsessed #oh. speaking of this game. it's my first farm sim ever. it's early access but i like it so far #however it is what i feared a farm sim would be:#something that causes me anxiety because i'm trying to do so much at once in a time limit #from what i can tell this game is very unpunishing compared to other farm sims so i should take it easy #but there's a self-imposed pressure that's hard to shake #like sometimes it feels like i can't to the thing i actually want to do because something else takes priority #however since i've mostly done all the things that early access has to offer #that pressure has been alleviated somewhat. so now that i'm taking things at a slower pace i feel like things are more enjoyable #and i can focus on breeding all the pink animals~

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thehealingsystem · 7 months ago

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being biracial between white and poc will always be so alienating for me I don't relate to anyone. I don't quite fit in with whites but I don't quite fit in with people of color. been more white passing than the rest of my family doesn't help

#with white people I always feel like I'm gonna be “found out” with people of color I feel like a token white friend #or seen as white even though I'm poc too #I literally lived on a reservation for a huge portion of my life but I still don't feel like I'm allowed to claim the poc experience #or that I'm a person of color at all #now that im experiencing the life a lot of white americans experience #which btw you people lack so much community it's actually isolating #indigenous #native american #biracial #bipoc #poc #I can wear the most obvious indigenous jewelry and accessories or clothing and still assumed im white #I literally wore a shirt once from a powwow with my tribe on it and an adult went “oh you really like Indians huh.” what the fuck #and when I say I'm native every single time without fail is just #“oh my god I love native culture btw im so jealous of ur skin color you lived on the rez wow did you live in houses made from sticks”#“oh but you're like white native I don't think of you as actually native you can't claim that im still gonna make white jokes about you”

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itsjaywalkers · 1 year ago

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talking to mil today about iwtywmm jeggy i've come to the conclusion that not only they're that kind of couple who's very annoying about pda but they also have to be touching at All Times

#and i mean touching skin on skin #nothing over the clothes that's not close enough #james will have his hand under reg's shirt while they wait in line #not even trying anything he just Wants to feel him #reg will be wearing ripped jeans and james is immediately slipping his fingers through the holes #grabbing on his thigh while they're seated at a table #he'd make the tears so much bigger without noticing #reg can never wear the same ripped jeans more than twice bc james ruins them #and yes he's the one who does most of the touching but reg can and will get pouty if james doesn't put at least one of his hands on him lik #all the time #it goes both ways really #they're just . obsessed with each other #jegulus my beloveds #fic: i will touch you with my mind

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deva-arts · 2 months ago

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You got isekai'd into SYSTEMA. What now.

Be amazed.

Remember I spawned into the "everything sucks" world.

Break down and cry.

Consider death as an escape.

Summon the global chaos by leaking insider secrets that could make about 200 new conspiracy theories.

Hope that Sera's conspirator ass tries to find me before one of the hits get me first.

Ending 1: I get sniped.

Ending 2: I get jumped.

Ending 3: I get kidnapped.

Ending 4:

Ending 200: It worked! Sera insults me. I cry from both the height she's holding me at and the insult respectively. She tells me to quit sobbing so I weep in incognito mode.

Make it into the Manumission. Wipe my face. Contemplate death again.

Get interrogated.

Get welcomed in! (I am still under close observation)

Quietly fangirl about my characters in 4k then feel incredibly weird about how much I know.

Get interrogated again.

I know that Nathaniel knows that I know but he doesn't know how much I know until I make it known that I know that he knows.

Consider death as- oh. He heard that too.

Literally everyone freaks me out for different reasons. I hang out with Sonia. She calls me fat. I still like you Sonia.

Live in the manumission under witness/informant protection and try not to die.

#devarambles #i can't do shit in this world let's be honest #i'd just be a regular person #who can magically draw everyone with perfect detail (to them)#I'd at least know what's going on with everything. That foresight would save them from like... 60% of what goes down #I'd never be able to get along with Vincent. I do not have the rubber skin nor the emotional security + he would scare me to high heaven #Fucker looks like a spooked horse and he's tall NUH UH i'm not havin it. I'd maybe help him behind the scenes though. Stroke his ego a lil.#I could not be around Nate I'm sorry I'd avoid him. The fear of being known is real.#People can deal with him because nobody knows that he's intimately familiar with the core of their personalities and thats why he won't say #but I just know that this asshole can hear me thinking about how orange juice should be in cereal. I KNOW what he would think. SO NO. NO.#Uh.. What else... Sera? I don't think I have what it takes to bore through that shell of hers. Her personality is incredibly strong.#And only people like Nathaniel Sonia and Eric can get through because they're both perservering and self-assured. I don't fw distant ppl #I wouldn't chase her and she wouldn't seek me. No friendship just acquaintances type beat #Amon is cool but I don't know how I'd feel around him knowing his story. It's like hanging out with Rodtang. But he's hot. ough #Eric is cool but I know that this guy is super smart and he's a bit too silly. I'd end up telling him one too many secrets without realizin #Strohl is a genius and he'd find me really dumb and unprofessional which honestly I get. He's also just not my type of company #Which brings me back to Sonia. We'd get along. I'd be able to brush off her comments and she'd vibe with me. She'd get me good clothes too.#So that's that that's everything yay gwenchana gwenchana #ark_systema

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moose-goosey · 6 months ago

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Some touhou redesign concepts mixed with full first drafts

#I often feel Mokou looks too similar to Reimu #do I chopped off some of mokou’s clothes skin and hair #kept the bow cause it alludes to the childhood aspect of her character #but it was clearly last minute #these are all rough drafts #oh also she has a sun shaped scar on her chest #idea is that Kaguya would have some moon symbol as a parallel #youmu is obviously very different #I leaned into a jet stream Sam or Carlos Miyamoto idea (Brazilian samurai cuz they’re awesome)#as you can see I didn’t have those spots on the fancy shirt tux thing before #on a second draft I’d remove the spots and make the sleeves white like the undershirt #tho I wonder how much of that I’d even keep #sakuya izayoi #yukari yakumo #marisa kirisame #fujiwara no mokou #youmu konpaku #touhou #touhou project #my art #I def went too far with the clock hands for Sakuya’s blush and eyebrows but I do like the button line ribbon set up #came up with that while designing Marisa and went back to add it to Sakuya #and Yukari I don’t know how to draw that was a learning exp above all else #touhou redesign #moose art

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waywardsalt · 4 months ago

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probably going to rework my human bellum design again

#surprise surprise im still not satisfied with it but i think i have the base down #might just rework his clothing a liiiiitle and maybe like. give him at least slightly darker skin #he still comes off as edgy or some shit to me. i still want to stick with the violent delinquent sorta angle #i just feel like its a bit much or whatever. he just seems too unremarkable but also too detailed #or something. with the scars all over. maybe its bc i cant picture him v well in the game artstyle? but ive never cared much abt that #tho looking at the comms ive gotten of him. he seems fine. the x on the eyepatch might be a bit much #maybe he can customize it when he materializes it idk and the x is a default. its made of sand when you inspect it #it might also help to write him more. force myself to think abt him in situations #in other news im thinking abt damien possible post ph healing magic. i like the idea i have #i really need to fiure out more defined post ph arcs it does bother me how aimless it is #i know vague stuff but very little specifics. it needs a fucking plot #i do want to keep bellums human form making him look closely related to link. i like that #its funny if nothing else #salty talks #damiens fine hes just a guy he doesnt need anything too fancy. if i think abt it too long my certainty dissolves #wow i love being insecure ablut my ideas. i love rsd. ohhhhhhhhh boyyy #now its a minor vent. w/e. at rhis rate im. gonna start talking abt how my job scheduled me on a shift #with the literal bare minimum number of scheduled workers so if its slightly busy its going to be a living hell #at least i get paid for closing so when closing inevitably takes over an hour bc i have to do it alone im getting paid more #if i wasnt motivated by money itd be so fucking over for me in the workforce

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gideonisms · 2 years ago

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explaining my lifestyle: no see this looks like horrible depression but I actually feel much better than I did when I was putting work into improving myself ♥️

#my apartment looks fine and average and my grades are fine and average #my skin looks fine and average my clothing is just okay my relationships aren't in the trash fire #yes i spend 10-12 hours a day zoning out or doing stuff unrelated to anything i'm supposed to be doing #yes i only leave this apt a few times a week #yes i struggle to eat enough sleep at consistent times and turn stuff in on time #but being kind of dysfunctional is incredibly relaxing #i go to bed actively hoping i'll wake up! like i will be there going oh hope i get to live the whole year/decade/next fifty years so i can #do my fun activities!#idk if this is actually true but it *feels* like the very first time since i was 18 that nothing is on fire #love to not be actively on fire #i think everyone should experience 'oh man i've been exhausted for a decade and i am going to spend most of a year being weird about it'#you truly have to work it out of your system it makes you hateful and anxious otherwise

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faaun · 8 months ago

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the forest looks like heaven today i woke up feeling the heaviest weight at the top of my heart