#I am suffering from lack of OCs to draw

[abby-wolf]

y’all, I’m opening requests for WOF/silly creature OCs! Open till 15 august 10am aest

please submit through my ask box!!

don’t hesitate to give me OCs, or to give me info about them!!

[sang8262]

in a yapping mood, and i cant draw well, so here's some *gasp*, self insert-OC related ramblings?!?!?

the elevator pitch summary is:

A fledgling author and researcher who becomes unwittingly enthralled in JP's schemes after visiting Nayshall for a thesis project.

Forced to work for his NGO (and later Neo Shadaloo) as an advisor after showing promise with Psycho Power.

Wrestles with doing the right thing and opposing JP's influence, yet unable to abandon her deeper emotions towards him.

...with more deets below-

I don't even have a proper name for her yet, since I'm bad with that lmao. But I guess as a sorta self insert, they could be Millon.. for now?? Eh I'll figure it out later.

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The impetus and circumstance for which she meets JP is that,

she's researching Nayshall's rapid devlopment, and the public health problems its facing as a nascent country. Particularly, how the visitors and participants of the Suval'Hal Martial Arts Tournament (SMAT) have access to the best doctors and emergency aid available... yet the greater local population lacking reliable access to affordable health care.

She has the chance to interview and speak with tournament organizer, Johann Petrovich, about the SMAT and current issues. She surprisingly finds him agreeable, polite, and level-headed. Realizing he has a lot of power as the country's policy advisor, she tries to convince him towards implementing healthcare policies that would allocate more resources for those who need it.

Her mistake is trusting JP as someone willing to aid the suffering, someone who wants things to be better for everyone. Once she does though, it's far too late to rid of his clutches on her.

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I'm imagining she initially is on good terms with him. She respects his investment into developing the country, and even finds his NGO, Terra Network Partners (TNP) potentially a place to work at. Of course, this is before realizing the money laundering and his connections with Shadaloo.

I can see JP convincing her into relying on him and being complicit in his schemes by offering her a stable position within his NGO. Or funding her research and writing. Having the support and endorsement of someone his calibur would be a huge boon to her academic career afterall...

Then, maybe it's either from her own prying, or after a not-so-chance meeting with Kalima and the resistance, but she eventually realizes the kind of person JP is.

By then though, she's far too entangled with JP and his organization to cut ties and escape. In fact, she realizes that her discussions with him have been helping him make more predatory decisions.

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In a heated revelation of the truth, he might use Psycho Power to fully subdue her: mostly with expectations that she'd not survive it, silencing any incriminating publication about him in the future. And because even if she didn't die, she would now be dependant on him as a mentor, to continue surviving the awful power forced upon her.

Turns out she has a lot of disdain and despair, enough to fuel and sustain Psycho Power. He's not fully interested in helping her per se, but decides she will do less potential harm if kept close under his watch. And so she struggles now, to find a way to escape Shadaloo and quell her bloodlust. But it's not an easy influence to overcome...

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I mean, it's a self SHIP afterall, so I'm having it be like a development of:

-wow this guy is GREAT, i respect him a lot! he's so kind! we could work together to do a lot of good things :)

-wow nevermind, this guy SUCKS, i have to escape/ stop him!! >:(

-Psycho Power makes it very difficult to think clearly and all my worst emotions are amplified a ton! i am also forced to learn under JP, and work for him, and woah did he always look so handsome :0

Then throw in a healthy amount of manipulation and sweet talking on JP's behalf and poor self insert OC is doomed to tragedy.

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Design wise, I have no idea!!!! I guess I would make them The Cooler Me, but right now I got nothing. I'll come back to it lmao

[reallyprofoundkryptonite]

Why do you draw this particular character so often? This worries me a bit.

I saw your drawings of a "krogan" with albinism.

It's not very wise to repaint a character who has a "healthy" skin color and turn him into albinism or melanism. People with albinism are not a fetish that you can transform your characters into.

Would you feel good if you suffered from albinism and suddenly someone decided that for the sake of his "au" they would repaint their character/ oc so that they would also suffer from it?

This isn't hate, I just want to know your way of thinking. I felt a bit uncomfortable when next to "au's" like cyborg or mermaid I noticed "albinism au" as if it were some weird. creature or fictional species.

I just don't understand. Is this some kind of fetish or fantasy? A strange desire to become an albino? (even though you wouldn't want to be, believe me)

I repeat - it's just a question. No hate, please don't take it so strongly.

[The question is private, please do not share it publicly. But it's up to you - what you think]

/by the way - there are animals that cannot be albinos, such as horses

First of all. No. I’m not setting this to private. This is the SECOND ask i have gotten with similar perimeters in my inbox in the past day and, personally that is extremely fishy to me, considering the fact that this is coming from a blog that was made that is not following anyone, has no likes, and hasn’t posted anything which leads me to the conclusion that this is the original person who asked the question with that same exact asks’s alt account.

Now I might just be throwing out things into the water, however, I’d rather be safe than sorry. By the way, because I have already answered asks about why I like Krogan in the past. which you can find if you dig around my blog, I won’t be going into graphic detail because there’s already an ask that ANSWERS that question on my blog somewhere if you would go look for it.

But anyways.

1. I’m autistic. I have a hyperfixation on this specific character. I just like him and i cannot put it into words.

2. I am asexual. I do not have a “Fetish.” As you would put it. I am an asexual and I am actively sex repulsed. I do not need to offer you any more of an explanation as to why trying to say I have a fetish is gross.

3. It’s. An AU. An alternate universe. I like exploring other possibilities for canon. That’s… literally it. Nothing else to explain there. I don’t see albinos as “less than.” I do not see them as something that “doesn’t exist” or whatever. I am not stupid. Yes, there are animals that cannot be albinos however humans are inherently a species that carries this trait so I don’t know what you’re trying to point out there.

4. I should also point out that using the wording you did to state that while yes, albinism is an inherently dangerous condition that does have its risks with people, I have done more than enough research to understand that there are ways to keep their skin healthy. The fact that they are so extremely pale complected is due to a genetic mutation that causes a lack of pigment in the skin, eyes and hair. It can lead to skin cancer due to having no melanin however plenty of people with the condition live completely normal lives, so referring to the individual afflicted with albinism as being “unhealthy” is inherently ableist.

Also i myself am so pale i’m fucking translucent in some lights. I don’t have to “fantasize” about being pale.

5. Melanisim is an over abundance of pigment within the flesh. I haven’t done as much research on the topic and i won’t claim to be an expert in any way because I am not but still, referring to someone like this is inherently ableist regardless simply because they have a pigment mutation.

6. AUs are inherently just that. Alternate universes. It’s not saying that a real life condition that people have doesn’t exist. It’s an alternative version of canon. That’s it.

[mangaka-neko-chan]

I'd like to know more about Moggy and Harald! What made them realize they liked the other, and how did that confession happen? I did see you said on one of your comics that you may or may not share the story up to the confession as it was a long process, so if you'd prefer to not share, that's fine lol c:

Oh I am absolutely down to share some details. I'm mostly withholding information outside of asks because I might draw about it. But it's actually very easy to convince me to share OC lore, haha. And I am super duper happy whenever someone asks about the two~

Moggy and Harald took a while to realize they like each other and then another while to confess. They are Zealot and Psyker, natural enemies on the Mourningstar. Harald absolutely hates Zealotry and Moggy was very crowded by the other Zealots in the squad who saw Harald as no good. On top of that, Moggy has had NO relationship experience up until this point and Harald has gotten very very closed off from other people.

What caught their interest in each other at first was very simply put physicality and combat skill. Moggy is very impressive in combat and unstoppable in a fight while Harald can do some serious and impressive damage with his Psyker powers. Moggy was the first to admire Harald's flashy kills. She has always been curious, brought up more open minded and entered Zealotry pretty late so her stance towards Psykers was more of cautious curiosity. Her to her unknown latent Psyker abilities perhaps drawing her to them as well. And even simpler for Harald, tho he saw Moggy as an absolute airhead, he had to admit that Moggy was cute, strong and good looking.

The attraction ran deeper as they were ordered to be on more missions together. Moggy couldn't resist laughing along Harald's jokes and wit. They would often end up debating (or rather arguing) as well, trying to question each others world view or faith. Harald noticed that unlike the other Zealots, Moggy would actually consider what he said and he found himself doing the same.

Furthermore Moggy's wears her heart on her sleeve, it is very easy to read her mind and feelings, sth that Harald excels at. So he did catch that she had feelings hinting towards interest but Moggy goes through 50 billion emotions per second especially with the fact that she's inexperienced in love and supposed to avoid him, so it was very confusing for him to pick up what exactly she was feeling towards him. She was just as confused. And because Harald lacks tact and results to snarky behaviour as a defense mechanism as well as Moggy being a stubborn hot-head, whenever they could have a moment it resulted in someone storming off. But this strange circumstance brought Harald a sensation he thought long forgotten. He could share Moggy's excitement and happiness. Her alive and bright perspective lightened up his life.

The moment they realized beginning feelings in each other was the moment they opened up to each other about their past. Both initially viewed the other in arrogance and with prejudice but both of them also suffered numerous losses in their lives and sharing what they went through until now brought perspective and understanding. It showed them that they were more alike than they thought. It brought them closer. They began treating each other with more openess and respect, protecting each other, working together.

From then on it was two idiots trying to navigate their feelings. One absolutey inexperienced, the other trying very hard to deny true emotions. If at all, their emotions became more complex to deal with to them. And then there was public expectation of them remaining apart. Long story short, it was absolute "youthful" hilarity between them until the final moment that they realized that any day they could loose the other forever. They finally confessed to each other, a storm of feelings figuratively and literally shared between them. The most exhilarating experience. A deep happiness about mutual feelings.

I will draw some of these mentioned moments and more over time :3

[dogmetaph0r]

🎹 🎓 🍀 For Sammy pretty please

SAMMY-BOY TIMEEE

🎹 - Do they have any hobbies?

Yes! As a boy Sam was taught how to box by his father, which he didn't enjoy at first but started to warm up to once it turned out that he was a decent boxer. He also loves to ride horses, whether on a hack or in a race. But I'm not really sure if it counts as a hobby at this point, considering he works with horses as a career gldkjgslj.... nowadays he doesn't really have a lot of time for hobbies because it's hard to find farrier work thanks to the new popularity of cars among his wealthier clients. If you get him drunk enough, he'll learn basically any dance, but he'll never admit it sober.

🎓 - How long have you had the OC?

Not terribly long in the grand scheme of my ocs' existences. He's been A Concept since late August, and then in early September he finally got a name and the start of a story. I've only been writing Sic 'Em in a real document like a real writer since late December. It's been wicked fast, compared to the (lack of) oc fic writing I've done before, especially canon x oc stuff! It's a fun silly habit of mine that I have to make an oc for everything I love, but that rarely becomes anything more than lore in my head and maybe some art. So good on Sam, making it to the sideblog level!

🍀 - What originally inspired the OC?

Omg ok so. skdgjsklgjslg. This is so dumb but I saw a tiktok featuring a guy with really sad droopy looking eyes and I was like. Holy shit. Why don't I have an oc with really sad droopy looking eyes yet. So what I really wanted originally was more of a "living dead" vibe, based partially around the idea of that particular eye shape with some elements of classical art to draw in some of that dramatic shadowy contrast to emphasize the eyes. I was drawn to the long-suffering expressions of martyrs and saints in Catholic art, and that very quickly drew me into the religious metaphor (coming from me?? shockerrrr am i right). And, in an "all roads lead to Rome" sort of way, this led me to the dog metaphor. And that became Sam's THING. I've used elements of it in other projects before of course because it really is such a lovely analogy for obsession and devotion.

[spottys-rathole]

8, 25 and/or 30 for the ask game ? :]c

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

Pour n'en choisir qu'un qui ne me rendrait pas triste en y repensant :

Une animation sur Raccoon sur la chanson "The Other Side of Paradise" de Glass Animals dont j'ai écrit le script en Juillet 2021 (avant de rejoindre le serveur Commu RPZ oh wow) Le script est tout écrit, l'audio de la vidéo est mixé, les placeholders posés, mais juste avant de commencer à la storyboard je me suis relu et j'me suis dit "hmm c'est yikes hein ouais allez hop ça dégage"

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

Mostly used in real life from various people, but they seem to like to use the term "Disney-like" when describing my artstyle- Which is a broad ass term to use btw. I definitely grew up with these movies so maybe there's a touch of inspo in it whether I realize it or not, but it is also really not something that I try to get close to- (I love expressionism way better lol) I assume it's the way I sometimes draw eyes, combined with a clean coloured lineart + my simplistic 2D shading style that reminds them of that Though it is far from an insult, it remains a term that I do not embrace as my art teachers like to use it when they actually mean "bland/too tame/too generic"

Couple of pieces that got qualified as such by people in the past :

If I have to name one conscious inspo of mine that inspired me to model my artstyle after theirs though, is Skailla's. And it becomes even more obvious if you dig into her ~2014 art and compare it to mine from back then 30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

I believe I absolutely do NOT suffer from lack of success at all Whatever I do, no matter if I actually try hard or not, I have always received positive feedback from people, strangers or friends I have overheard conversations of people praising my work without knowing who the author was It is something I feel very priviledged but also feel very guilty about, because whenever people validate my work but overlook that of a colleague, I get to hear them compare their own work to mine Long story short : I could only call a piece "underrated" in comparison with my other more popular fanart pieces (which obviously get recommanded because people actually look for them) but I am more than satisfied and overwhelmed by the attention I already get

I guess take this one animation, it took me over a year to finish it, and I put way too much effort into it. It's far from perfect but I still like it, it taught me stuffs, and it features two of my OCs who's relationship I really really enjoy

[yandereocs]

Just here to tell soem fun facts about Ame, hope you don't mind cuz I don't have any drawings to show this time 😭😭

- Anyways, I chose Ame to be a hamster because hamsters were actually bred in real life to be pets and are known as best first pets for children, so I thought it'd just be a neat thing for my oc (aka, I want to see her suffer).

- Ame can't protect herself because she was bred to not be able to attack a human child or adult, she does have a pretty gruesome bite though.

- While Ame is stupid and lacks knowledge of basic care, she's really good at running away and not trusting strangers. (Which is how she constantly gets away from humans and hybrids with violent intentions)

- Ame also has a very good sense of smell, it's so good that she can use it to tell the twins apart.

- Ame's whole purpose was to be sorta like a pet to humans but was abandoned and scrapped so she's basically homeless and struggling to survive. Without her major plot armor, Ame would have died at a young age already. But who knows, maybe some cat hybrid could successfully trick her into his home 😭 (also, Ame is 19-21 years old, don't worry)

- She sucks at cleaning, cooking, reading(obviously), and basic survival instinct.

- Ame is almost blind during daytime but has good night vision because hamsters are nocturnal.

- Hamsters have no depth perception so if Ame is ever walking down stairs, she'll just straight up fall down because she doesn't understand how the ground suddenly went down. Or if she's walking near a cliff, she'll just walk off of it because she doesn't understand that there is no ground there.

- Did you know that hamsters can store air in their cheeks so they can float on water? I just found that out 😭

* AME FACTS LET'S GO

* AND I MADE DRAWINGS FOR SOME OF THEM SO IT'S ALL GOOD

* ^ Twins reactions when Ame told them apart for the first time. They just thought of her as an idiot so it was very surprising (they almost cried when she kept being able to tell them apart HAHA)

* ^ Elijah being so nice and totally not suspicious at all. ALSO THE PLOT ARMOR COMMENT HAHA YOU'RE SO REAL FOR THAT (So many of my OCs have plot armor bro 😭😭)

* ^ She fell off the stairs. But it's okay because after Bonnie lost her eye, her depth perception was thrown off so the two of them can fall down stairs together (only difference is that Elijah would actually catch her and let Ame fall 😭😭)

* ^ SHE FLOATS IN WATER

[onmywaytofanfic]

REINA ABURAME (So far NEW HEADCANNONS)

So, as I mentioned in a previous post I am rebooting Reina, looking for a new approach to her story within the "cannon verse". I have been working, believing or not and I know that it has been a while since I uploaded anything. So here, I wanted to share not just how the HC for Reina are going but also some drawings, well...one that I feel secure to share. So here you got some HC of this new Reina. Waiting to hear what you all think about her!

Reina Aburame

Born: 1st August

Sign: Leo

Ages: The same as the main crew (Also it can be diverse in different AU)

Main ship: We don’t talk about this…yet because it hurts like hell. (I don't know with whom pair her really Shino, Muta, Zetsu, and OC, Kimimaro, Joribo, Ino I just don't know)

Chakra: Yang, Earth, Water

Techniques: Aburame techniques mixed with Uzumaki’s sealing techniques. Creating bugs who can hold different seal regarding the type of bug that they are they have an affinity or another. Plus, with her kikaichu she can do long distances sealing, (learns in Shippuden).

Background:

-Born on her parents’ way back to Konoha to introduce her to the clan members and to wait until she was three months old to introduce the hive on her. Once that was done, it would be the last time that she set foot there and her mother too.

-Daughter of Takeo Aburame, famously known for his insubordination towards the head clan after they do nothing about Tatsuma’s abduction into root. His pass glories long forgotten together with everything that he had ever done for the clan just for asking help to retrieve Tatsuma from Danzo’s side. Daughter of Hana Uzumaki, the pity of the clan; unable to control her chakra paths and the shadow of her twin brother Sen Uzumaki who managed to be the perfect example of finest shinobi.

-Spent her whole life wondering from one place to the other until their parents settled in Moon Island.

-Moon Island is known for its luxury and as the perfect destination for everyone with money and that doesn’t belong to the island. The island was once part of the Land oof Whirpools, but war and destruction brought the perfect opportunity for the Tsuki family to purchase land. And land did they gain, buying the whole island and proclaiming themselves as rulers of it and monarchs.

-The islanders suffered the consequence, native from the land of Whirpools, saw how their traditions started to disappear, how they started to have “designated areas” to live since other areas may be attractive for the tourism and therefore it should be available for them. This situation remained for ages and centuries until Shabadaba started the cup d’état.  It worked mostly because he appalled to the islander and their lack of resources and opportunities as the tourist. Of course, everything was fake, he wanted the big cake for himself.

-At that time, Reina was already far away from the land. She was seeking being a shinobi, however, she was in contact with her original three- people-squad. Chokako Akimichi and Shiori Nara, the three of them were secretly trained by Gen Yamanaka. The four of them rather young (Gen 25 a few years younger than Kakashi). Were descendants of non grata people for the head-clans. They were paying the price of their forefathers and the four of them wanted it over.

-Reina was the luckiest, since the head of the clan allowed her to look for a suitable village that may held her as their shinobi. Under one condition, if Konoha needed her, she would be there first and foremost for Konoha. She agreed, after all she wanted to be back there and safe her brother. She is sure, that the ANBU who helped her during the Chunin exams there was no other that her brother. She could feel it in her bugs.

-Chunin exams, her team enters as a non-affiliated village. However, the three of them kneeled and promised fidelity to Konoha as original dwellers of that land.

-Reina’s objective is to get into ROOT and find information about her brother, during the chunnin exams she also wishes to have a face-to-face with Shino, the future clan leader. The reason, humiliate Shibi as he did with her father. She is not aware that these men relationship only seems rivalry but each other help within the shadows. Shibi but allowing him having her and helping him getting his wish of a family without Danzo’s intervention. And Takeo gives useful intel in his travels, seems everyone perceives him as a retractor and a possible rioter they think they can trust him about peculiar intel about the upbrings that lesser clans have in other villages against their clan or the village itself. Feeding the village with useful information in secrecy while keeping his façade.

-Konoha is aware of Otagure trying to do something but not aware that they were plotting with Suna. The attack upon Konoha happens and the third Kage still dies but the events unfold a little bit differently since Konoha’s elite was aware of it, thanks to Takeo’s intel.

[shallow-wordsalad]

"hello world"

not since the vaunted days of myspace has my old ass ever considered having a blog, much less post anything on it. I think maybe as I've gotten older I just want somewhere to say things and hopefully someone will say something like "I feel that" or generally agree with my vague and unspecified and untargeted ramblings - this included.

it's the early days of 2023, and I've been alive for far longer than I expected to be, and yet I feel like I haven't created or said or imposed any impact on the world around me. aside from a very small group of close friends, I barely communicate anything to anyone, and that makes me feel very transparent and insubstantial. not that I have much of a unique experience to share, I guess. I don't have anything making me exceptional in regards to success or failure; no grand story of triumph or tales of misery based on forces I can't control. I don't know if that says anything about me except that I'm boring, and I don't suffer the problems that warrant having a platform to speak on, but maybe someone someday will also feel like they're boring and relate and I guess that would feel pretty nice. maybe that's ambitious of me to assume.

I want to leave things here that I want written down. I do a lot of creative writing around OCs and tabletop games, and I used to draw a lot so maybe this will motivate me to try picking up a pencil again. for lack of a place to draw, I stopped doing it, so I hope maybe in keeping a blog I can keep myself from losing interest in writing as well. everyday it feels a bit like I'm losing grip on things I used to enjoy - things I still do enjoy - simply because they become troublesome to pursue.

this blog is as much a diary as it is a reminder to myself to do things I like doing, even if they're bothersome. maybe I'll discover something I'm good at in keeping it. maybe not. in either case, here I am - to some measure of "here" and "I".

[mitskiesque]

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We need your help. 🙏😔🍉🍉

It has literally been a whole year and we are suffering from the woes and groans due to the brutal and barbaric war we are living through

.Suddenly our lives have been turned upside down. We suffer every day. We are persecuted every day because of the war and the siege.

In this war that ended all our dreams and hopes of living in safety and achieving our academic dreams and others

We suffered from the lack of food until we had to eat animal feed.

We suffered from the lack of clean drinking water due to war and pollution. We live in an environment full of diseases.

My brother suffered from jaundice, a disease for which there is no treatment in Gaza due to the siege and the lack of hospitals and clinics.

Yes, we suffer every day, and here I am, knocking on the door of help for those who have a conscience, a heart, and feelings towards us.

This is a small part of what we have lived and what we live every day.

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Hello Anas, I’m so sorry about your situation. It is horrible and unacceptable. I hope you and your family are able to stay as safe as possible now and will be happy and comfortable in the future. I’m keeping you in my thoughts.

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Please share regardless of if you’re able to donate!!

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[sirmedicknight]

Hello, my dear🫂

I'm Lama and my husband Mohammed and I have been living in this war for 11 months under hunger, destruction and displacement from one place to another every while, and we suffer from a lack of food, medicine, and personal care tools.😞🍉🍉🇵🇸

Our beautiful 6-story house was destroyed, and our car was bombed, my husband and I lost our work, and we were without work and without income for 11 months, my husband supported a whole family and my husband needs a necessary operation for an expensive amount because his health is bad.😞💔🍉🇵🇸

Help us and donate us $20-$30 or as much as you can. 🙏

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[rainymonth]

Withering Desire: On eds, self-h@rm, and Lacan

content warning: EDS, self-h@rm, depression, psychoanalysis, toxicity

themes: withering, desire, demand, 'cool girl', self-analysis

tldr: A self-analysis using Lacan's Desire/Demand to understand why I want to 'wither' away. I frame anorexia as a form of self h@rm and as a form of non-verbal communication. The harm of anor3xia fixates on what Demand produces: Lack.

TO CLARIFY: This is not a pro-ed post! This post is pretty vulnerable at points. There are also moments of irony. It's a serious subject, and I try my best to approach the topic in a productive manner.

05/19/24 "Blue Sugar"--Whirr

Staring at the screen. Staring at the mirror. I hate what I see--sometimes.

I'm being better, and hopefully it'll stay like that. I probably won't become anorexic. I can't. I'm midway through basically a second puberty--I need to eat. However, every encounter with a bone-y, sunken photo or drawing makes me itch. Sometimes I want to scratch so badly. A desire to wither away. Like pulling a cigarette, I know it's harmful. That's the point. Withering shouldn't be pleasant, but O may it be beautiful. In my case, this itch is a form of self-h@rm.

This is a long winded analysis of this desire. An@rexia functions paradoxically: An attempt to control the 'chaotic', the uncontrollable. A silent expression with no words until an eruption. A literal internalization of the patriarchal Mind≈Subject/Body≈Object. A regime of disavowal and desire.

I'm framing anorexia as a form of self-h@rm. In this context, the 'adoption' of an eating disorder rather than like cutting or burning means something. Adoption is in quotes because it implies agency thereby blame. People are not at fault for their pathologies; they're at fault for any harm they cause to others (given the context oc). Particularly with self-h@rm, social issues and violence are to blame. Self h@rm is not solely for attention. It is a person by person situation. Still, I would say that self harm is a type of expression, a form of non-verbal communication. Thus, like a person's word choice, the mechanism of harm says something about them.

Thinking about anorexia in relation to like cutting reveals aspects I hadn't considered at least. Anorexia as absence is a significant theme of this posts. Harm via inaction.

When writing about ed's, it's implied that the person has or had one. TO CLARIFY, I have never had an ED nor an@rexia. I've struggled with food for many years. Maybe at times I've had an ED; however, I would characterize my relationship to food as problematic. I am not an authority on eating disorders. I am writing about me, my itch. While I hope others find it relatable, I do not want to speak on others experiences nor do I claim to share similar experiences. EDs and Self Harm are complicated, and I'm stupid despite the tone. I am sure that what I'm saying is not new. It's probably been said elsewhere.

These writings are screams to screens. Ideally, something I say will make someone feel "yes".

A Lacking Body

Her body is bodying: She looks like the bitch from corpse bride. Decaying yet beautiful. Melancholic but in like a yearning way. She's tired and hackneyed; an overplayed trope that persists in various forms. She can't die, but she can't change. The Cool Girl is dead! No, we just stopped looking. We moved on while she waited for the next teenage girl, trans person, model, etc. Some may be surprised to see her alive, but truthfully we always knew. The clean girl simply kicked the heroine, opting for organic supplements.

I prefer the heroine.

Cigarette smoke twirling past my lips; a momentary heaven that brings me closer to god. Dying is holy--I'll show you my pinterest. Beauty in suffering. Aesthetically dissociating on the dl. Death, though, offers nothing. Over. Done. Total absence. No more body-checking or fatphobia! Lord, may her corpse be thinspo on tumblr.

At its most extreme, an anorexic person appears 'corpse-like' and is straight up dying. This is where the contradiction of anorexia is best seen. To stay in that position, a person cannot change nor can they die. This position may offer a sort of identity, an aesthetic. Some form of meaning through which the subject identifies with said image. Death provides nothing. The dead cannot identify with death. Thus, anorexia seeks a form of dying, of withering, but not death.

Her Corpse. My Body. To be looked at.

Unlike cutting, anorexia works through absence. The anorexic body--real or fiction--is identified through its lack. Knives leave a scar. Cigs leave a burn. Either produce an identifiable sign(s). Anorexia is silent. The harm is there, but it's suppressed. Most likely to be recognized by those close. This is also applicable to the other forms; but anorexia, in it's 'pure' form, has no markers of presence. No signs on the body. Rather, the body itself is a sign. The lacking body. Or the lacking number of meals/calories. The harm of anorexia is not getting enough. An absence sustained through disavowal and self-discipline (in a catholic guilt way, not a protestant work ethic manner). These are characteristics associated with thinspo images.

As someone whose experienced periods of ‘I don’t want to live’��which is different from ‘I want to die’—anorexic idealization makes perfect sense even down to the linguistic structure. Anorexia is about the not. The harm is due to not acting. I did not want to live. Compared to other forms of self-harm, anorexia aligns the most with that desire because (in theory) I do not have to do anything. [This isn’t to say anorexia is ‘passive’ harm. You have to actively suppress a bodily need and in reality you have to act when purging]. Furthermore, my transness is unfortunately associated with lack, with absence. Tbf how could it not? I want to have a baby, but I lack a uterus. I wish I was cis—hell even just normal—but I’m not.

Now, this thinking is verrrrryyy toxic. Very harmful not just to me but also others. Transness has it own special moments. I love my sisters both trans and cis. It simply hard to feel good enough. It’s already getting too much. Desire surpassing Demand.

Can I speak Softly?

The other central part of anorexia as self harm is its yelling silence. No cuts or blisters to show you. Besides me talking, a person could only tell if they know me (and they are also aware of anorexic signs). The Subject represses quietly until the other confronts them. Considering the expressive element in self-harm, anorexia communicates something to the Other without have to speak. Sorry to say: It's Lacan Time.

Anorexia is a perfect example of Lacan's Desire vs. Demand. Both arise out of need like the need for food, water, etc. As infants, we come to learn that our needs are fulfilled--or at least addressed--by others. Desire pertains to how the other fulfills the need. At some point in infant development, the Other can no longer satisfy the desire in full--think like the shift away from breast/bottle feeding. This is when Demand dominates the subject. Demand is the vocalization of Desire to the Other. Critically, something is lost in this translation because words are hard. Language isn't perfect both in the subject's articulation and the Other's reception. For a demand to be fulfilled desire has to be repressed. This is why to Lacan the subject is perpetually lacking. Desire is unsatiable. The Subject's relationship to the Other may be in danger if they said their desire in full. To speak, one must suppress. Most of this is occurring unconsciously.

With anorexia, desire surpasses demand. It is the prime example of this--almost a trope at this point. The anorexic subject does not repress desire thereby does not 'speak'. Consequently, the need is never addressed. This view is fine and all; however, it ignores the expressive component, which is important for me at least.

Language produces Lack

Anorexia fixates on Lack

Demand cuts Desire

Eyes cut my body

The Signifier Kills

The hunger's killing me

The Language of thinspo images is absence. Anorexia actually fixates not on desire, but on what demand produces: Lack. Repression is the desire of the anorexic. In this way, anorexia is about what's not said. What's Leftover. So maybe my itch is actually interpersonal. Lacan says every demand to the Other is also a request for Love. Thinking interpersonally, Withering is not the object of desire but the means for expression. Maybe withering is a desire for self destruction while conversely a desire for 'love'. I might be hoping for 'love' from the other on two fronts: To 'save' me from myself--or to consume me. To quote Lana Del Rey:

Fuck me to Death Love me until I love myself

To be consumed or to be saved are sort of the same. At the very least, either responses are 'fine': Consumption plays to the desire for absence while saviors maintain the basic instinct To be. Both are deeply narcissistic in a sense. By fixating on repression, desiring one's leftout desire, the chain always leads back to the subject in a violent cycle. Either options point to the subject. A hope for self-destruction or self-love. I can't decide. I don't know. I don't want to speak. Any 'affection' from the Other is good enough.

I'm Actually Very Fun, Relaxed, and Easygoing

The vibe of this post does not match my everyday reality, and that's kind of the point. I'm not Amy from Gone Girl nor do I want to be a 'cool girl'. I try to be sweet and kind to others, to have a warm aura. I guess to still be. For presence rather than absence. But life kind of sucks for a variety of reasons. It's pretty easy to feel shitty. It's hard to convey just how awful I feel at points. Even after telling a bestie, there remains this lingering sense of lost. Something didn't make it through. And of course it didn't! Jesus, if I did let everything out (even the stuff I'm not conscious of) that would be draining for everyone involved. Its bad social etiquette. Plus, words are hard. So there's this weird gap between how I'm actually doing versus what I'm telling people--and it's pretty frustrating at times!! I am sure this feeling, this frustration, is not unique. My besties are also probably leaving stuff out consciously or unconsciously.

Due to my circumstances and thought-process, I respond to this frustration in this particular form. Withering as a kind of coping mechanism? As a way of getting around the limits of social etiquette and language? To disregard the Symbolic and instead to communicate the Real (stupid Lacanian terms)?

If you read this far, thank you dear. I hope something I said related to your life or made you think. Please excuse any excess vulnerability in this post; I think it makes talking about Lacan and theory easier.

There's a lot I left on the cutting room floor: anorexia as a means to control the body, the connections to self discipline and Foucault, the role of gazes and the language of cinema (and images), and the production of 'female' sexuality. So, more to come hopefully!!

To wrap up, I learned somethings about my desire; however, this will probably continue bc change is difficult. Tumblr posting isn't therapy. But it's good to analyze why I'm like this, and to try identifying the root causes.

Time to make dinner!

With Love,

AP

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expldoes

all fotthem

1. When did you start creating art? when i was born

2. Do you do art in any professional capacity? (Graphic design, commissions, animation, etc.) no

3. What are your favorite subjects to draw? (OCs, your fan faves, etc.) art based on media or topics i like or am passionate about

4. What's your least favorite part of the body to draw, if any? all of it. i rarely draw people in detail. id probably say faces if we get specific

5. What piece of art are you still proud of to this day? (Show or describe)

i like these two but i could also put a bunch of my spiderverse art up there

6. Favorite and least favorite angles/perspectives to draw? i hate drawing

7. Who are some artists that have inspired you? too many to count. mainly fanartists

8. How would you describe your art style? art style?

9. What's the longest you've ever suffered from artblock? i once dropped a genloss piece for several months, but i typically go through frenzies of drawing then i stop for a bit

10. How do you deal with art block? i dont i let it sit until it goes away on its own. normally this works

11. Have you ever drawn a meme with your OCs or canon characters from a fictional media? i almost have but i got bored. i have certainly IMAGINED memes with them

12. Ever participated in a multi-artist collaboration (3 or more) such as a multi-animator project? no

13. What kind of art do you personally not see the appeal of, and why? i dont think theres an art form i dislike.

14. Do you prefer to make fan content or original content? ratio wise i make a lot more fan content but i like original concepts too. its harder to get those to take off cause people arent exactly searching for original characters on purpose

15. Do you/have you participated in Artfight or art trades in general? no

16. What was something you used to struggle to draw with confidence/ease, but have now mastered? ive gotten better at hands if i use refs

17. Your personal favorite works of art (not made by you) are...? aw man specifically??

this by SOMEONE I CANT REMEMBER THEIR USER BT ITS YELLOWHOODIE OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT HELP

18. Do you typically use filters on your art? yes

19. What's your biggest insecurity when it comes to your artwork? my lack of consistency

20. What motivates/inspires you artistically? (topics, emotions, etc) i like using quotes or song lyrics and my most recent WIP is based off of a song lyric

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Cloaked in Green | Pt.2 || Chp.24: Family Legacy

word count: 1k

warning(s): cursing, self-hatred, mentions of: family legacies (negative and positive.) Death of family members

summary: A third person view into Thorin’s thoughts in his cell in Mirkwood.

a/n: short, I know but this is just a interlude. Don't forget to Like! Comment! Reblog! Please it's truly does help. :)

Thorin Oakenshield x fem!OC

Links: series masterlist, chp.23, reader guide

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Legacy.

No matter what you are, who you are, the power of your parents legacy has the ability to shape you. . It's how you let it shape you that matters. Do you let it control you? Or do you perhaps control it instead?

That is what Thorin is trying to figure out. Stuck in the cells of Mirkwood. He is truly starting to wonder if he can achieve what he set out to do.

Take back the mountain, kill the dragon Smaug and live to tell the tale…Live to take back his family legacy.

=//=//=//=

“I would not trust Thranduil, the great king, to honor his word should the end of all days be upon us!” Thorin stops walking. Still facing away from Thranduil, he speaks. His voice gets louder and louder as he goes.

“You lack all honor!" He is now shouting. Thorin spins around and points at Thranduil.

"I’ve seen how you treat your friends. We came to you once, starving, homeless, seeking your help, but you turned your back. You turned away from the suffering of my people and the inferno that destroyed us! Imrid amrad ursul!” [ Die a death of flames!]

Thranduil puts his face right in front of Thorin’s.“Do not talk to me of dragon fire. I know its wrath and ruin. I have faced the great serpents of the north.”

As Thranduil speaks, his face contorts, revealing his burns and scars from his past encounters. His left eye is milky and blind. He draws away, and his face returns to normal.

“I warned your grandfather of what his greed would summon, but he would not listen.” Thranduil turns and walks up the winding steps to his throne.

“You are just like him.” he spat, motioning to the guards, who grabbed Thorin and began hauling him toward the dungeons.

“Stay here if you will, and rot. A hundred years is a mere blink in the life of an elf." He plopped down in his chair as Thorin growled at him, smirking as he continued, "I am patient. I can wait.”

Thorin is thrown into a cell beside the other dwarves, and his jailer walks away with a ring of jangling keys.

=//=//=//=

The Good, the bad and the sickness. The minds of his father and grandfather were not healthy ones. Driven mad by the heart and precious gold inside that mountain.

Thorin shuddered, pulling tighter into himself in the corner of the cell. What else was he expecting?

Of course he would fail. He sighed. It's not the first time in his life. He has failed more than one person, including himself in his 154 years. He has failed more than one person in the last 3 days.

=//=//=//=

After the guard walked back up the stairs after locking him in. Thorin listened as Fili spoke loudly through the bars of his"You know Uncle would never approve."

Thorin's eyebrows pinched together, Kili scoff followed his brother's statement quickly, "Uncle doesn't have a place to talk right now."

=//=//=//=

Fi and Ki…Thorin’s head fell back against the wall behind him. Eyes closed in thought. Having children was never on the plan for Thorin. As a spare to the line succession, he never thought much of it. Than came… Azanulbizar and the death of his grandfather, Víli and Ferin.

With his father's disappearance, He had to step up into a position he was unfamiliar with. A position he never saw himself as.

The position of King…and the position of a Father.

Fili and Kili were no more than bairns at the time and Dís was in no shape to raise them alone. Fí was now the heir, with Kí as his spare. There was no other choice but for him to step up and raise them as he thought Ví would want.

He has failed them. He let his head bang once against the wall.

He has failed his sister. Two bangs.

He has failed his brother. Three bangs

He has failed his sister's one. Four bangs.

And worst of all, he failed his one. Five bangs.

All because he couldn’t bear to see her hurt. But by doing so. By saying so. He has hurt her and hurt his sister's sons even worse than if he had said nothing, done nothing.

That was his legacy.

Failure.

Breathing deeply through his nose, Thorin raised his hands to twirl the 2 silver beads, tied back behind his right ear. He smiled slightly at the memory of craving them.

The lion and the wolf.

He had craved them the day each of the princes took their titles in the Blue Mountains. And from that very moment as they both pledged their services as not just royalty but as protectors of the people. Thorin was sure that even if he had children of his own. Fili and Kili would always remain as his first and second heirs. For he couldn’t see them being any different than his own. Though he definitely did not tell them that. Or even showed them the clasps on his braids.

Now especially, he was so ashamed to be near them. What happened at Beorn's house, was not him. It didn't feel like it was him. What kind of example did that leave Fi and Ki? What legacy did that leave them.

What happened with Aranea was not something that he thought was possible for him. It was so uncharacteristically him, could he have gotten so blindsided by his love-…or was it love?

It had to be?

Aranea was his one, he knew that. It couldn't be more obvious. His heart swoons at the mere sound of her name.

So if she is his one. Which he knows. And in his heart is what he feels as love. Then what the hell happened that evening at the shapeshifter's house…

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𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚜: 𝙰𝚐𝚎: [𝙱𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚝. 𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚎𝚕𝚜𝚎]

𝚃𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜: 𝚂𝚊𝚏𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍: [𝙰𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚜 𝙼𝚒𝚊𝚔𝚊 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚝𝚘 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑]

𝙲𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚗 𝙿𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚠𝚊𝚢/𝙳𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝙿𝚕𝚘𝚝: [𝙸𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚜𝚌𝚎𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚘 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎, 𝙸, 𝙰𝚍𝚖𝚒𝚗 𝙼𝚘𝚘𝚗, 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚍𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞]

𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓣𝓸 𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓿𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓜𝓲𝓪𝓴𝓪 𝓒𝓪𝓶𝓹𝓪𝓷𝓪:

𝚃𝚘 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚛, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚐𝚘 𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏: "𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚢, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎. 𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚜𝚎𝚝."

𝙾𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜, 𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚌𝚔 𝚒𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚘 𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗. 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚎𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚛, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙼𝚒𝚊𝚔𝚊 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚝 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔. 𝚂𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚝𝚎, 𝚊𝚕𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚢𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗.

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Anon said: [Spoilers for non-manga readers] opinion on Baku's hero name?

Very Bakugou, honestly don’t mind it at all! Mostly just surprised it’s, like, legal in the bnha universe for heroes to call themselves stuff like explodo-kills (and also that there isn’t a character limit for hero names??) but that Bakugou would stick with it is pretty damn in character for him so I like it xD still, I’ll probably just call him Dynamight if I’ll ever need to use his hero name lmao

Anon said: not to be the most romantic sap but uh just a kiss by lady a is killin me

Nothing sappy about letting romantic songs get to you!!!! I say, as I’m constantly crying over romantic songs so this mindset benefits me as well lol

Anon said: i may or may not have stumbled across some of your older kiribaku art, the stuff with akane, and she's the best child oc tbh. i actually like her and i tend to not be a fan of child ocs but she's just the cutest darn thing 🥰

I’m so glad you like her!!!!! She was a lot of fun, what a good gremlin ;;;

Anon said: uve heard of dragon!kiri w his hair spikes up, now get ready for dragon!kiri w his hair dowm lookin like the softest boy

AW HECK I think I’ve drawn him in the past, actually!!!! Spike-haired Kiri will forever be my fav Kiri, but there’s just something about hair down Kiri isn’t it!! What a cute boy ;;;; all sharp edges and soft curves, what a lovely sight

Anon said: can i just say your itafushi art is so cute? these two already make me feel and then your art just (つω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

THANK YOU SO MUCH I really need to draw them more, don’t I! goge kinda monopolized my attention there, but the way itafushi makes me feel..........boy the way they make me feel ;;;;

Anon said: good day, poké au thought: 12 y/o bakugo somehow catches a dreepy as like his 2nd pokemon and never questions it

WHY NOT WHY NOT I have a whole team in my mind for the boy tbh but dreepy is so cute ;;;; and anyway, I like my poke!bakugou with as many dragon types as he could possibly get his hands on hahaha

Anon said: Please know that, amongst other factors, you were one of the maon reasons I stsrted Jujutsu Kaisen two days ago and there isnothing more to say except thank you and I'm absolutely in debt with you for that, thank you so much 😍

I’m so so SO glad you’re liking it!!!!!! It can get kinda heavy but it’s such a great story.... honestly I’d been wanting to start it since I saw the first pv for the anime all the way back last year but I was like, you know it’s a mappa anime! so I wanted to watch the anime as a new thing, cause I love mappa, but three episodes in I couldn’t hold back and just binged it. It’s kind of story that just makes you wanna drink it all in one go, isn’t it? so good so good

Anon said: makeup artist kirishima and model bakugo or makeup artist bakugo and model kirishima? :0c

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm can’t say I see either of them much into fashion tbh, but if I had to pick probably model Kiri and artist Baku? I just don’t think Baku would be able to stay still enough to get photographed, and he wouldn’t like the photographer bossing him around anyway, and catwalks would be impossible for him to stomach imho, he’s too restless for it! At least it’s the way I see it haha

Anon said: fdgdhdkfhdafs i had a thought, what if bakugo prefers dogs and kirishima prefers cats and when they meet each other and become friends it's like, "oh." because they have some striking similarities to their fave animals

That’s been my headcanon for a while now, actually!! I think for me it came from two characters in a manga I like that are a lot like a dog and a cat but have inverted fav animals and when I read about that I was like “oh, right, makes sense since they like each other” and then my brain turned it krbk because when does it not lmao

Anon said: your art is the soothing balm to my soul recently, thank you for posting so much beautiful content. i hope you have a lovely week. ♡

sob thank you so much, I’m glad my doodling can help you feel better ;; <3

Anon said: Friendly reminder anon from last time: that post I left last time I had only eaten 7 gingersnaps that day and hadn’t drank any water. So that encouraged me to actually self care. Thank you.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well I hope you’re taking care of yourself today too! And as fair trade, I’ll do the same myself! <3

Anon said: Hi! I'm an artist and I'm thinking of making a sideblog for my art. Do you have any tips?

Ah man, I’m sorry but I’m not the best person to ask this to! I started this sideblog cause I had too many followers on my main and I didn’t want my stuff to be seen by that many people at first, so whatever I did probably isn’t what you’re looking for :( but really there isn’t much to it, just post whatever you like to draw, tag it as best as you can (but remember that only the first five tags appear in the search page) and be patient, since whatever you do at first you won’t get much attention anyway - the only real advice I can give is to draw something that makes you happy and that you’d draw anyway even if no one were to see it, it’ll make keep posting despite a possible lack of activity a lot easier!

Anon said: Your goge art🥺🥺

I just love them so much ( TT’’’TT)9

Anon said: how the fuck have i not been following you? I remember seeing your bakushima art in the bnha tag and always thinking it's so cute. Now you're into JJK too??? and the satosugu art??? fuckin, diabetes incarnate. I love it. I love you. Your art 10/10. I'm tired lmao.

WELL thank you for the follow!! And for thinking my stuff is cute!!!!! I do my best with that, I want all the soft things for my favs 😌

Anon said: Are you gonna draw Gojou/Getou comic?? 👉🏻👈🏻 WOULD LOVE TO READ IT

you mean an actual doujin? I don’t think I will, sorry! I’m really no good at long projects orz but thank you so much for wishing to read something like that from me!!! ;A;

Anon said: Hello! YOUR ART IS SO FREAKING GORGEOUSSSS!!! I love them so much!! If I may ask you one question. Between Getou amd Gojou, who do you see as top/bottom? Just curious

THANK YOU!!!!! And I honestly don’t care as long as they’re happy and together!!! please let them be happy and together 🙏🙏🙏

Anon said: i want you to know!!! i followed you for your kiribaku art but!!! i love your art so much that idc what you post because it's all just!!!! incredible and wonderful and stunning!!!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!! this means a lot to me so seriously thank you so much!!!!

Anon said: d'you think bakugo has like headaches or migraines after training or battles because of how loud his quirk is? like, i listen to music slightly too loud and my head is sending me to hell. (unless you go with the hoh hc which is also 👌)

I like to think Baku’s body is attuned enough to his own quirk that he wouldn’t get drawbacks of the kind tbh, though that wouldn’t be a bad thought for when he just starts to increase the output/width and strength of his explosions............ well, I myself suffer from chronic headaches and migraines so I’m always up for projecting on my favs ngl lmao

Anon said:  so like... dragon kirishima's eyes glow right? like, if we equate his dragon-ness to unbreakable his eyes glow? they also glow when he's half shifted? honestly i just live glowing eyes

Oh hell yeah I’m all for that, definitely definitely, I love glowing eyes with my whole heart and Kiri’s eyes in unbreakable are just so!!!!!! NGH *chef kiss* the more of unbreakable there is in his dragon form the happier I am ( TT^TT)9

Anon said: me, scrolling through your blog: ah shit guess im gonna have to start watching jjk

!!!!! hope it won’t hurt you too much, anon!!

Anon said: dragon!kiri and bakugo having a tug-of-war match over a piece of meat. both have it in their mouths. both are determined to win.

Kiri is turned into his dragon form and Baku still wins, hell yeah

Anon said: your satosugu is top tier!! it's hard to find stuff for them that isn't straight up angst so your art has been super cool and also very very cute!! (tho if you went with angst, it wouldn't be a bad thing obviously)

AH I’m so happy to hear you like them!!!! but also happy you wouldn’t mind angst, as I do like them the best happy and soft but my brain, my brain has been throwing sads my way for a while now 👀 I got some ideas

Anon said: What program/device do you use??

Easy Paint Tool SAI and a wacom intuos!! Though I got myself an ipad+procreate just yesterday and I’ve been messing around with it, let’s see how that one goes!

Anon said: *inahles* i am simping for mohawk man please tell me everything about your ocs immediately or i will detonate

THANK YOU FOR LIKING HIM HE’S CALLED DAVIDE Dav for short, he’s a cat of a man and a music instrument enthusiast (mostly string ones, but he’s very good with the piano as well) - he works in a music instruments store, and he’s a uni student majoring in philosphy! He doesn’t like bothersome things, he isn’t very good at taking anything seriously or putting effort in stuff, but he’s very chill to spend time with and generally a nice chat both if you want mindless thoughts or deep conversations (he’s a philosophy major after all). He can’t sing for shit, he’s got two cats (tago and schelly!), and he just wants a quiet life to laze around but all his friends are hurricanes in human bodies, but then again, he picked them himself so he can’t complain. He’s a good boy!! I’m planning a comic for him and his boy Ross >:]