#I am so intensely picky about pizza

[delulujuls]

crumbs | op81, ln4

hi! i hope you don't mind that i am serving another landoscar you can probably already tell how many comfort i am finding in the papayas

anyway please enjoy and feel free to send requests if you have any!

summary: y/n gained a little bit of weight and didn't get well with that

warnings: problems with eating, body dysmorphia

pairing: oscar piastri x fem!mclarendriver x lando norris

"I would eat pizza"

Y/N wrinkled her nose, hearing Lando's suggestion to her left.

"Pizza? You can afford more than that" she replied, eyes glued to the screen while browsing restaurant offers on her phone.

"Pizza is always a good option" he added, shrugging and looking at Oscar for support.

Piastri let out a sight and streched his legs.

"Pizza is a safe choice, I must admit"

"Seriously? You too?"

The girl looked up from her phone and glanced at the aussie sitting to her right.

The three friends were sitting outside the medics' room, waiting for their routine check-ups before the race. It was lunchtime and they were intensively pondering what to eat.

"I would love some Mexican, but I'm not sure if it's a good idea" Oscar said after a few minutes of thinking.

"It's a shitty idea if you ask me" Lando laughed at his own excellent joke and continued until he entered the room for tests, leaving his friends alone.

"I would go for sushi, but I know this big baby won't let me eat fish in his presence" Y/N said, referring to Lando's picky choices.

"How about a burger?"

Oscar asked, glancing at her phone and pointing to a restaurant. She handed her phone to him and they both started looking at the menu.

"It looks decent enough"

After Lando came out it was time for Oscar and then it was Y/N turn. She had her blood pressure, sugar, and blood test taken. Finally, it was time for her weight check. Without thinking too much she took off her shoes and stepped on the scale, straightening up and looking ahead.

"Are you before your period?"

The girl blinked a few times, somewhat taken aback by the unexpected question, but she shook her head.

"Two weeks ago before the race you were four kilos lighter"

She looked down at her body and was surprised by the number on the scale. At the nurse's request she repeated the measurement, but it remained the same.

"Is there a chance that it's a weight scale error?" Y/N asked as she put on her shoes.

The nurse shook her head and wrote down the results.

"Lando and Oscar's weights are the same as during the last measurements, so i guess it's not about the scale"

The girl felt embarrassed. Did that mean she had actually gained weight?

"Do you stick to your diet and training?"

"Yes, I'm trying as best as I can" she quickly nodded, but the woman still looked dissatisfied.

"I'll inform your coach and dietitian, but you need to have more self-discipline."

Y/N nodded and lowered her gaze, feeling bad about herself. When she left the examination room, she noticed Lando and Oscar were still discussing where to eat that day.

"We thought burgers would be a good idea, but we changed the place, let us know if it suits you."

Oscar said, handing her the phone. She took it, but her appetite had completely left her, along with her good mood.

"I don't feel great after the blood test, so I'll pass on lunch today."

"We can eat later when you feel better" Lando suggested, glancing at her. Oscar agreed, nodding.

"No, you can go on your own."

"Then pick something for yourself, we'll get it for you to go."

Y/N handed back the phone and shook her head.

"No, there's no need. I need to rest for a while and I'll eat something later."

Her friends insisted for a while, but she remained adamant. When they lost the verbal battle with her, they both left the hotel together and she returned to her room. She immediately went to the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror. She carefully observed herself from every angle, raising and lowering her shirt, sucking in and relaxing her stomach. She didn't think anything had changed in her appearance, but the longer she looked at her reflection, the less she was liking what she was seeing. She slipped her finger under her waistband, trying to remember if her pants had been looser at some point. She leaned closer to the mirror, examining her face. Were her cheeks perhaps less round?

The girl shook her head, left the bathroom and sat on the bed. So yes, it is a fact. She had gained weight, which didn't bode well, especially for her performance. Not wanting to succumb to negative emotions, she got up and changed quickly, wanting to start her training for the day earlier. She headed to the hotel gym, spending two hours doing cardio exercises which killed any appetite she had left and certainly any craving for food.

"I thought I was the only one who came here with such a big head start" her trainer joked, putting his bag with her training equipment on the floor. Seeing her sweaty and flushed from exertion, he furrowed his brow.

"How long have you been here?"

"Not long, just warming up. We can start, im ready"

She replied, pretending not to have any trouble catching her breath. She wiped her face with a towel and took a sip of water. In reality, she had had enough.

After another two hours of intense exercise, Y/N had had even more than enough. If that was possible at all.

And that was how her days started to passing away, quickly turning into weeks. She spent more time on training than necessary, completely avoiding recovery time. She also avoided going out with Lando and Oscar, knowing it was better to avoid them than to come up with excuses for not ordering anything to eat and only drinking water with ice. But there were moments like this, when avoiding them was impossible.

After the pre-race conference, there was a big dinner from which Y/N couldn't escape. Everyone was milling around big swedish tables with their plates in hand, but she sat on the side, clutching a bottle of water. Suddenly, a plate of freshly prepared lasagna appeared in front of her. A few pieces of broccoli and a small portion of greek salad, her favorite, lay next to it. Lando and Oscar sat down in front of her, their plates also filled with delicious food. There was no way out of this, but she couldn't let herself be defeated.

"I took you some yummies, don't be grateful too much" Lando said and sat down, starting to eat. She forced a smile and held her fork, pushing the food around her plate. She took a knife in her other hand, starting to cut a piece into smaller portions while maintaining an active conversation with her friends. Her utensil movements were dynamic, she speared the food, waved it near her mouth. However, no piece eventually made it onto her tongue and not a single calorie disrupted her balance. Another great success.

Both Oscar and Lando easily sensed the change in her behavior. They had noticed it a while ago when she began to avoid them like the plague and when she was with them, she wasn't the person they used to know.

"We see what you're doing and you better stop that or at least tell us what's going on" Lando said firmly, setting aside his utensils. She looked at them, pretending to be surprised.

"You know what I'm talking about"

"I have no idea" she replied immedietaly.

"You haven't eaten anything even though your plate is full of your favs" Oscar pointed out.

"I just don't have an appetite, I ate earlier"

"You haven't eaten earlier, Y/N"

Oscar shook his head, looking at her with concern.

"You have no idea what I was doing earlier.

The girl said, shaking her head in irritation. What did it matter to them whether she ate or not? They had probably noticed she gained weight so they knew her results would be poor, which meant she would be worse than them. She wouldn't be worse than anyone.

"It's just that we don't know because you cut yourself off from us without a word"

"I didn't cut myself off from anyone"

"You stopped spending time with us, you don't talk to anyone and it's almost impossible to reach you so how you will call it other than cutting yourself off?"

Y/N snorted, shaking her head.

"This is absurd"

"We're just worried, that's all"

Lando said, not angry but genuinely concerned. And even if he was angry, it was only with himself for not knowing what was happening with his friend.

"No one has to worry about me"

She cut him off and stood up. She had no intention of listening to this nonsense but when she got up abruptly, her head spun and she staggered uncontrollably. Oscar caught her just in time and he exchanged a meaningful glance with Lando. They held the girl tightly and the three of them left the dinner.

Once they were outside, the cold night air somewhat cooled Y/N's unwarranted anger. Lando and Oscar were her friends, not enemies and none of them had ever made her feel like they had ill intentions.

"I feel weak" she finally admitted, squinting her eyes. After a moment, she felt something warm tickling her lips. Lando cursed when he saw a trickle of blood from her nose. He began frantically searching his pockets, but Oscar was faster and pressed a tissue to her nose.

"It's okay, just breathe"

Piastri said calmly, sitting her down on a bench. He laid her down, gently placing her head on his lap, telling Lando to lift her legs. He did what he was told, but he felt like he could faint at any moment himself.

The three of them sat in silence and Oscar and Lando from time to time were exchanging worried glances. They didn't want to press on Y/N too much. They knew her nature and that she had to open up to them on her own.

"I lied" the girl said quietly after few minutes of silence, so quietly that Oscar and Lando thought it was just the whistle of the wind.

"I didn't eat anything today. Yesterday, too and the day before either"

"You haven't eaten anything for three days?" Lando asked, looking at her with concern. She weakly nodded.

"Why?"

"I gained weight"

"Who told you that you gained weight?"

Lando asked, frowning his brows. He was ready to throw hands with anyone who let his friend down.

"It came out during the check. I gained weight, which shouldn't have happened"

"And that's why you stopped eating? Completely?"

"I shouldn't eat"

She admitted, still pressing the tissue against her nose. She felt her eyes filling with tears. She hated being weak, but that was exactly what she was in that moment. Just weak.

"You should eat, you need to eat," Oscar said, wiping away the tears that escaped her eyelids "Everyone needs to eat"

"Not me"

"Everyone deserves to enjoy delicious food, especially you"

"It would be better for me if there was no food in the world"

"You're being silly" Piastri said, gently caressing her cheek. She opened her eyelids and immediately met a pair of big brown eyes, looking at her calmly.

"We'll take you to your room, you'll rest. One of us will bring you something good to eat and you can have it in peace without any weird glances. Okay?"

She nodded weakly, not being able to continue this fight. Shortly after that all three of them were in her bedroom. They sat on the bed, each of them having a paper plate with something to eat. Oscar and Lando were already quite full, but they wanted to show their support to their friend, so each of them took a large piece of cake.

Y/N looked hesitantly at her meal, her nervous gaze shifting between her friends.

"This is safe food, good ingredients. Your stomach will thank you for it" Lando assured her, smiling encouragingly.

She nodded and slowly started eating. Lando and Oscar joined her, and they ate in silence. No unnecessary comments, no lectures. Just the comfort offered by friends. And nothing tasted better than that.

[pjunicornart]

Okay sooo ummmm I've been working on something in the background.

So like, I've been working on a Meet the Robinsons AU idea that I plan on making a ton of content for in the background, I even have some art for it already. However, I wanna see if people would be interested in it... so I'm gonna describe the main players of the AU and answer some questions here in this post because I've just been DYING to info dump about this! Okay, let's start with...

The explanation of everything! What even is this AU I'm working on? It'll be called "Lazy Days." Essentially, this is an AU where the Robinson family stays in their comfy clothes and bedheads all day while drinking tea and/or coffee and binging junk food while watching movies... to name a few activities. My vision for this AU is a super cozy and chill vibe. Sweaters, socks, sweatpants, sleep shorts, donuts, whipped cream cans, coffee mugs, pizza, lo-fi, and more await in this AU!

What are some key differences? Besides the comfy lounge wear? Well, for one, Neil and Franny have more kids. Wilbur is still the eldest, he just has three little siblings now! One of which is adopted! I'll tell you more about them later on in this post. As for another key difference? Neil is still a super genius and everything, however, all of his inventions have a noticeably more... cozy, aesthetic feel. All I'm saying is, Carl looks REAL different in this AU.

Will there be a story? Meh... I'm still debating that. For now, it's just kind of a thing I entertain when I want to/am prompted to. If it were to have a story, it would probably focus on Wilbur and his sibs.

What did you mean by the "main players?" Just what I what refer to as the "core" members of the family. So, Neil and Fran, plus their four kids: Wilbur, Freddie, Mazie, and Leo. Speaking of...

Cornelius 42 years old. Summary: Caffeine Junkie, Sleepyhead, Scatterbrain Owner of his own engineering company, and a pretty chill one at that. He baffles others in his field because on the surface, he seems to not be all there - his choice to show up to important meetings and talks in sweatpants doesn't exactly help with that assumption. However, nobody can deny his amazing intellect, even if it at first glance it seems buried under all the goofball-ness.

Franny 41 years old. Summary: Intense, Mama Bear, Prideful A global phenomenon for her music featuring her own frog band! She's made up her brand from the fact that she's the only musician in the world right now who makes music using little amphibians who miraculously learned how to walk and talk. Besides music, Franny also adores everything about her husband.

Wilbur 16 years old. Summary: Sheepish, Easily Bored, Bookworm When he's not sneaking snacks from the kitchen in the middle of the night, he's usually curled up in a chair reading the book he recently checked out from the local library. His parents are surprised just how much he mellowed out compared to three years ago. That being said... ADHD doesn't magically go away after you grow up a little.

Freddie 13 years old. Summary: Old Soul, Green Thumb, Foodie She was adopted into the family two years after Wilbur was born. It was a circumstance of her father not being able to take care of her at the time. She's the plant person of the family, opting to spend her days taking care of her little garden in the backyard. Which includes fresh produce!

Mazie 10 years old. Summary: Weirdo, Hypersensitive, Pouty She's absolutely OBSESSED with cryptids. Bigfoot, Night Crawlers, Aliens, Mothman... you name it, she probably knows a whole book's worth of information about it. Hell, she'll even watch cryptid adjacent stuff. For example, kaiju movies. Her ultimate dream is to see the Loch Ness Monster. Or Bigfoot. Or aliens. Or any cryptid.

Leo 3 years old. Summary: Non-Verbal, Picky, Loner Leo is the only one who takes after his father, sharing his blonde hair. Which couldn't have worked out better! You see, after Leo was born, Franny went on a massive world tour. So Neil was the one taking care of him during his early years, and so Leo got very attached to his daddy. Wherever Neil goes, Leo follows. He's very fussy and uncooperative if Neil is away at work or just out for groceries.

I'm super curious to see your thoughts on this, if any. I'm gonna make stuff for this regardless, but I still want to start some conversations! Ask box is always open! THIS POST HAS A SISTER POST NOW! This one has images! :o Here it is -> Lazy Days Character Busts.

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hello! I was wondering if you could do a match up for Hazbin Hotel and Fullmetal Alchemist?

• Pronouns: She/her mainly, but I’m ok with pretty much anything

• Sexuality: Demi-bisexual, greyromantic

• Zodiac/MBTI: Virgo, INFJ

• Appearance: Very short, under 5’0, honey skin tone that easily darkens in the sun, very dark brown hair and eyes which can be mistaken as black, mainly wear braids and ponytails, VERY LONG HAIR, square glasses, slightly chubby ig?, small hands, thick eyebrows, lots of body hair specifically on my legs (which I like), I think that’s just about it?

• Personality: I'm quite reserved and introverted, one to blend into the crowd and not one to stand out, but once you get to know me l can be very open and expressive. An introverted theater kid essentially. I'd also say I'm pretty kind, but can also be sarcastic. I can also be a bit mischievous as I like to do random stuff because I think it's funny. Despite all this I'm still a more lower energy person and am pretty calm, the mediator (and quite mature I'm told). The therapist friend who also needs a therapist if you will. But that more hyper part of me definitely comes out more intensely if something I like is involved. As in bouncing up and down at the seams explaining my interests hyper. I also seek for deep connections with people, so I hate small talk. I also get quite socially anxious but am getting better about it, and have some trust issues

• Likes: Robotics and engineering, art, hanging out with friends when I have the energy, relaxing at home by myself, swimming, hiking, watching YouTube, anime, musicals, music, collecting miniatures (like things that you’d find in a dollhouse), museums, dad jokes mainly but all sorts of humor, dark humor would probably be second, traveling

• Dislikes: jogging, conflict, hurting people I love, loud noises, a lot of foods/I am a VERY picky eater (typically it’s an aversion to anything with melted cheese like burgers or macaroni and cheese, pizza I only stopped disliking recently), SPIDERS and just bugs in general,

• Hobbies: drawing, writing, singing, reading, collecting rocks, playing video games, daydreaming (ideas for shows, books, etc), listening to music

• Any extra information: I have epilepsy (am medicated and not photosensitive) so maybe you could add that in somewhere?

Thank you for your time!

Hi! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took a while. I hope you like your matchups!

In Hazbin Hotel, I match you with...

The mediator and the therapist friend who also kind of needs a therapist you say? Yep, sounds like Vaggie would be the perfect match for you! You can help each other out since you both understand the others struggles.

Since you have trust issues, there’s definitely going to be some rough times when it’s revealed that Vaggie’s an ex-angel. But she’ll do whatever she needs to win your trust back.

Please make dad jokes around her. It’s the only time you’ve ever seen such a large crack in her usually stoic façade. I see Vaggie as someone who loves dad jokes. She just thinks they’re funny.

Will get rid of any bugs and spiders for you. Of course, when Angel Dust is getting on her nerves, she’ll use this as an excuse to try and drive him out but it hasn’t worked yet.

Vaggie’s an amazing help when it comes to your epilepsy. She’s very attentive and can usually spot triggers before they become a problem and will steer you clear of them. In the case of an incident, she’ll pull out all the stops to help you in whatever way she can.

In Fullmetal Alchemist, I match you with...

First of all, expect to have a very excited Winry talking to you about everything automail. She’s so happy she’s found someone as interested in robotics and engineering as she is!

I think she would enjoy going on hikes with you. It’s a nice break away from the workshop and she likes getting to stretch her legs while also spending time with you.

Loud noises are unavoidable in Winry’s workshop, so she’ll never ask you to visit her while she’s working. She’ll also do her best to keep the volume down when Ed and Al visit but there’s only so much she can do there...

In a modern au, she would definitely be into watching YouTube videos, especially anything DIY. Please give her recommendations though! She’s more than willing to watch anything you like.

With the amount Ed breaks his automail, Winry has to travel a lot. Since you like travelling, she would love it if you accompanied her. There some extra safety travelling with someone, and she gets to explore new places with you.

[enneagram-reblogs]

Countertype Series: Type One.

From NineTypesCo by Steph Barron Hall.

Meet Steven! In this interview, he shares what it's like to be a Sexual One.

Defining the Sexual One subtype:

SX Ones are often driven to perfect and improve specific others and the way society works overall. It's common to find a sexual One launching into an explanation about why the way that things work is wrong and how it can be better. These Ones are focused on reforming others, and they don't always concentrate on inner perfection (though most still report having an inner critic). They are the most openly angry and intense of the three One subtypes.

Did you ever mistype?

"When I first took the test through the Enneagram Institute, it typed me highest as 2, 4, and 7, with 1 being my fourth highest scoring type. I was really enamored with the language of the enneagram in general, so I started reading through the types.

"As you might expect, 1 resonated somewhat with the three types presented to me, but when I read the fuller description of the 1, I knew those were the fears and drivers that actually informed most of my decisions on a daily basis, even if aspects of 'the perfectionist' didn't fit on the more surface level."

How would you describe the SX1 subtype? What is it like for you to move through life as a Sexual 1?

"Being the sexual subtype for me means that I spend most of my time focused on the energy I feel from the people around me. I will often even attribute problems that are due to something like hunger or discomfort to perceived issues I have with people I'm close to in my life.

"As a sexual 1, I feel like my rigid perfectionism is often playing tug-of-war with the passion I have for my friends and close ones. I often feel as though I come across as chaotic, being very structured and articulate, but also leaning toward big romantic gestures, dropping everything to have a significant moment with a friend, and over-expressing my feelings of appreciation and affection for those I am close to.

"I have always been VERY picky about who makes the cut in my life. I almost always know instinctively in the first couple of interactions if someone is going to get my time and attention or not. I am often playing this narrative in my head where I and a few people I approve of are special and rare, having a positive impact in a world of people who just don't quite have what we do (yes I am aware this is not a healthy narrative)."

What is the biggest challenge you face in your life related to your subtype?

"[One is that] I will sacrifice my schedule, principles, and good habits for the people in my life.

"If I am on a strict diet, but my friend wants to blast through a pizza, I'm right there with them. If I have 6 things on my to-do list for the day, but someone I care about needs to talk or wants to go do something spontaneous, I will drop that whole to-do list to have that experience. I chase the charisma and energy to an unhealthy degree.

"This always results in my beating myself up later for not doing what I wanted to with my time. I always take the hit internally later. I somehow expect myself to give the people in my life all my time and energy, and then just be able to do all the stuff I planned anyway."

What do you think is the biggest difference between yourself and other Type Ones?

"When you interact with most 1s, you can feel the rigidity. Their responses are always controlled. Their style is simple and clean. It always feels like they are holding back a little. I can have that same filter when I am in new situations or around people I do not know, but that filter comes down for me far more quickly and with greater frequency than other 1s. I quickly loosen up and become louder, more excited, more passionate, and even more silly.

"My subtype is called Zeal, and I feel like I approach many situations with zeal. I have lots of energy and fewer boundaries, especially when I have confidence or I care about what's happening in a situation. I can lean into excess and even be chaotic when I feel like it's the 'right' thing to do in the moment.

"At my core, I see myself being driven by the same deep need as all 1s to be good, do what's right, and always get better. I don't feel the same restrictions I see many other 1s dealing with trying to achieve those goals. It's much more natural for me to push energy into a moment, especially when I'm convinced it's good or I'm right."

Is there anything else you'd like people to know about your subtype?

"We are still perfectionists!! Our hair may be messy and our rooms might be disorganized, but we are probably crazy organized and structured somewhere else (like with our thoughts or in our work ethic or with our relationships, etc.)"

[aactailmon]

Autism ask game (except I do all of the questions at once for AAC practice)

From this post

⏰- when were you diagnosed/when did you start suspecting you were autistic?

I don't actually remember being diagnosed with Autism, nor do I remember being told what it meant to have Autism. However, I was diagnosed when I was 7, but would go through a number of diagnoses before my Autism was recognized. (Fun fact: I was diagnosed before you could have both Autism and ADHD, with the latter being my original diagnosis. This was also before the DSM allowed patients to be diagnosed with both Autism and ADHD, so my ADHD diagnosis would become null and void. I still wonder if I could have both...)

🌙- are you a morning person or a night person?

Definitely an afternoon and evening person, my chronic fatigue makes me have unrestful sleep, so getting a good night's sleep is difficult.

🎁- what’s your special interest(s)?

A few of my special interests include toys and toy collecting, cats, music, disability, and roller coasters. There are a few others as well, but they aren't as intense as my main ones.

🍔- do you have sensory problems with food? what food do you like to eat?

I struggle with food and eating, but I have been learning how to cook over the past year and I think its been helping me to cope with my sensory issues. I like to cook with meat, grains and dairy, so I like dishes like chicken Alfredo and other pastas, steak, pizza, hamburgers, and grilled cheese. I like some fruit and vegetables too, but while I am trying my best, I can still be picky with them.

🎧- what symptom(s) of yours is the hardest for you to deal with?

There are a lot of things about Autism that I struggle with... Social interaction, emotional regulation, communication, harmful stims, sensory issues, executive dysfunctional, amongst other related mental health problems.

🦄- what do you excel at?

People would say that I am skilled at art and painting, I have been doing it since I was very young and I used to want to be an artist, but these days I don't think the art industry is a good match for me. I also think I am decent at customizing toys, sewing and cooking. I also like technology and photography.

🍯- do you stim? what are some ways you stim?

I stim a lot and have many methods of stimming, too many to list here, and I do pretty much every type of stimming there is. A few of my favourite stims include hand flapping, body rocking, listenning to music, petting my plushies and cat, looking at calming visuals, and playing with my stim toys. I also have a unique finger stim that is difficult to describe, but I have had it since I was a young child.

🌡- do you prefer the heat or the cold? is one or the other stimmy? does one or the other cause sensory problems?

Both heat and cold make my chronic illnesses flare up in different ways, so neither are ideal. If I had to choose between the two, I would probably go with hot weather, but there is only so much I can tolerate before I reach my limit.

🌈- are you a part of the lgbt+ community? what is your lgbt+ identity?

I am a gay androgynous man and I am very proud of my identity. Also, my pronouns are he/him and she/her.

🎢- what are some common phobias you have?

It is not nearly as bad as it used to be, but I have a fear of fire, and I have had this fear since I was a young child. I am able to cope with it better since, but being around it makes me very anxious. Even things like candles make me nervous to be around. Nowadays, my fears are more hypothetical concepts rather than existing things. I don't even find things like heights or the dark to be scary.

🎆- fireworks: yes or no?

They are pretty to look at, but I will appreciate them from a distance, they are way too loud for my liking.

💬- are you an introvert or an extrovert?

I am actually an extrovert, but I struggle with socializing a lot, and keeping up with neurotypical standards is very exhausting, so I prefer to socialize with other Autistic and developmentally disabled people.

🍫- do you have a sweet tooth?

Yes, and I probably have more of it than I should. I love chocolate and chocolate-covered almonds and pistachios, cookies, donuts, brownie, ice cream, and cake.

☕- do you regularly consume caffiene? do you find that caffeine helps manage your symptoms or makes them worse?

Never tried caffeine before, but I have been meaning to for a while now. I am curious about whether or not it would do anything for me.

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦- do you have friends or family members with autism?

My sister is considering the possibility of having Autism, but nothing has been confirmed yet. Other than that, there is no one else in my family who has Autism as far as we know. When it comes to my friends though, almost all of them are Autistic or developmentally or mentally disabled in some way.

👕- what kind of clothes do you usually wear?

No textures are off limits, but I don't like anything too tight. Too bad I have to wear braces.

✏- do/did you like or dislike school?

It got easier when I went to special ed and alternative high school, but school has always been a struggle for me due to my Autism, and learning and physical disabilities. Even with an IEP, it was still a major struggle, both for learning and making friends.

💅- how do you usually practice self care?

I have an app on my phone called Habitica that tracks my chores and self care habits by turning my life into a video game, it helps to have an interactive schedule in my hands that I can bring with me wherever I go. Without it, I wouldn't be able to function as well as I can.

❤- what’s your favorite color?

Pink, yellow, green and red are my favourites, specifically in that order.

[cake-warlock]

Tagged by: I mean @raeofalbion posted it and said anyone should do it, so here I am putting off modelling assets in Maya 

Rules: answer and then tag nine people you want to get to know better

Favourite Colour: pink! Specifically a very warm pastel pink like Pantone 176 C

3 Favourite Ships: Reaver/Sparrow, Byleth/Seteth are the only two I’m into atm that aren’t...just OCs of mine and my partner lmao

Lipstick or chapstick: Lipstick (though I really need to moisturize my lips more) I mostly wear reds with the occasional hot pink or neutral

Last song you played: Bloody Stream by Coda (YUP as in the JJBA OP)

Last Movie: Apollo 18 (it was pretty bad :/ I love first person/shaky cam horror but this one was so boring and the moon creatures were just...crabs)

Currently Reading: mostly sifting through fanfics as usual, but I just got the first volume of the English translation of Rose of Versailles I need to dip into

What food are you craving right now? There’s a pizza chain that’s really only in Louisiana called Johnny’s Pizza House, and I grew up with one like five minutes from my parents’ house. Now I would have to drive almost an hour across the Causeway to get it (not even factoring in quarantine). I miss that sweet sweet ‘za. No other can compare.

Also anyone can answer this. I’m not gonna tag anyone specifically, so just go for it!

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OWOWOW MY FANGAN

THANK YOU SO MUCH AT EVERYONE WHO IS INTERESTED IN THIS SERIOUSLY YOU CAN'T BELIEVE HOW HAPPY THAT MAKES ME MY HANDS ARE SHAKING (that's also why it took so long to post this akhdjwjs)

Baiko Omori – Ultimate Lucky Student

"My name is Baiko Omori, I am here as the Ultimate Lucky Student. The pleasure of meeting you is mine, my dear friends! There are actually quite many things that I'm talented at and hopefully, this academy helps me find my 'true Ultimate.'"

  Birthday: March 11th (Pisces)

    Blood Type: A+

    Height: 165cm / 5'4”

    Weight: 67kg / 148lbs

    Likes: vintage 50s music, street food, grocery shopping

    Dislikes: cockroaches, the smell of gasoline, betrayal

Baiko never means harm as he values life over everything else. He is friendly and considerate, always smiling. He offers help where he can, sometimes coming off as intrusive but never does something that would put him at a disadvantage. He has the habit of calling everyone his “dear friend” and is in general, quirky and a little detached from normality. When you're around him, you can't help but feel like there's something off but Baiko is too nice for you to bring that up.

Ei Hagakure – Ultimate Ghost Whisperer

"Name's Ei Hagakure, Ghost Whisperer. Sup? My gramps went to this school back in his days. Sadly didn't inherit his spiritual powers, so guess I'll substitute with a bit of science."

Birthday: April 29th (Taurus)

Blood Type: B+

Height: 177cm / 5'8”

Weight: 57kg / 126lbs

Likes: bad television shows, abandoned buildings, the pizza they have on Wednesday at her university's cafeteria

Dislikes: family fights, doctor's appointments, olives

Ei is a laid-back young scientist that leaves the world of academics in wonder at her more or less successful inventions. Her greatest goal is to prove the existence of ghosts based on scientific findings. Despite Ei's grand ambitions, she is relaxed and calm and just weird enough to get along with almost everybody.

Hideaki Yukiyama – Ultimate Mathematician

"Yukiyama Hideaki, Hideaki Yukiyama, Mathematician and the Ultimate at that! This class looks pretty alright so far. You shitwits seem like the type a smart boy like me can have fun with, hehe."

Birthday: May 2nd (Taurus)

Blood Type: 0+

Height: 156cm / 5'1”

Weight: 62kg / 137lbs

Likes: the feeling of chalk, messy notes, his own laugh

Dislikes: boredom, sitting straight, school uniforms

Contrary to what his talent might lead you to believe, Hideaki is actually a brat. Constantly in the search for mischief and entertainment, he likes to ridicule and annoy others. His genius lies hidden in his complicated speech and spectacular knowledge that he uses to confuse the people around him. All negativity and criticism towards his character simply bounces off him. It is not easy to befriend him as he believes that friends hinder him but deep down, he wishes for someone to get through his irritating personality to know him better.

Ichini – Ultimate Robotics Engineer

"My model's name is 1.2, that's Ichini for you. Ultimate Robotics Engineer. Be prepared to have that weirded-out look wiped off your faces, meatbags! Someday I'll drown this world in chaos and rule humanity with my machines!"

Birthday: August 13th (Leo)

Blood Type: 0-

Height: 210cm / 6'8”

Weight: 132kg / 291lbs

Likes: the smell of electricity, children's' shows, energy drinks

Dislikes: being photographed, asparagus, humanity

Ichini is a mean cyborg that has rejected humanity and all its aspects. Xe thinks xemself superior to everyone around xem because they are still human and will not survive the overthrow of the machines that xe is planning. Despite xir large, armed metal body though, Ichini is all bark, no bite and wishes to be more courageous and confident in xir choices.

Jun Nagao – Ultimate Escapologist

"My name is Jun Nagao, I'm the Ultimate Escapologist. There's nothing much about me, really. Sorry."

Birthday: September 25th (Libra)

Blood Type: AB-

Height: 171cm / 5'6”

Weight: 63kg / 139lbs

Likes: flower bouquets, art from the Romantic era, freshly laundered clothes

Dislikes: skin tight clothing, reading out loud, overcrowded subways

After his face was paralysed in a kidnapping incident, Jun has adopted the perception of him being emotionless and cold. As he usually dismisses others and their feelings, Jun is a loner. Because his talent stems from his continued abductions, he finds it distressing to be enrolled at Hope's Peak Academy but accepts his fate to ensure his own safety.

Kaida Tsutsumi – Ultimate Stock Broker

”Kaida Tsutsumi... Ultimate Stock Broker... That is all.”

Birthday: January 9th (Capricorn)

Blood Type: AB-

Chest: 82cm / 32”

Height: 153cm / 5'0”

Weight: 58kg / 128bs

Likes: coffee, Paganini, listening to the rain while falling asleep

Dislikes: the cold, bitter coffee, wool sweaters

Kaida is a small and timid girl, so shy that it is hard to imagine that she works at the stock market. Kaida is great with numbers and probabilities and rather spends time with diagrams and prices than with people. She only speaks as much as necessary and gives her answers clear and direct. Because of her reluctance to talk about herself, she is mostly seen alone but will get extremely attached to you the moment you show that you acknowledge her. It feels like she holds a secret that she can't reveal.

Kyo Kido – Ultimate Horror Author

"My name's Kyo. Uh, Kyo Kido, that's probably how you know me. I'm the Ultimate Horror Author? I'd offer to give out some autographs but my hands are kinda shaking right now cuz– Wow– Hope's Peak, y'know! So it's gonna look kinda ugly, ahah."

Birthday: November 21st (Scorpio)

Blood Type: 0+

Height: 180cm / 5’9”

Weight: 79kg / 174lbs

Likes: romance novels, romantic comedies, the clacking sound of typewriters

Dislikes: ink stains on his hand, sharp pencils, soup

Kyo is really just a normal teenager with a knack for writing; at least, that's what he believes. Like every other teenager, he is a little awkward and shy and, in contrast to his talent, not at all scary. However, Kyo's books manage to evoke such terror in his readership that it's dubbed and loved as 'Kido's curse'. Kyo is flattered but honestly can't handle the fame.

Maxis von Läuterbach – Ultimate Knight

"My name is Maxis von Läuterbach, wielding the title of the Ultimate Knight. It is not often that you see someone as wondrous as me, so my lieges, I am ever at your service."

Birthday: June 21st (Gemini)

Blood Type: AB-

Height: 182cm / 5'9"

Weight: 75kg / 165lbs

Likes: stained glass windows, historic castles, Belgian pralines

Dislikes: blisters, ignorance, ill-behaved children

Growing up surrounded by ruins of glorious pasts and with the wish to set themself off from their peers, Maxis chose to walk the path backwards and do everything in their power to become a historically accurate knight. Unfortunately, Maxis had miscalculated and noticed that a knight lives to serve, not to be served but there is no turning back now.

Shiori Ishimaru-Owada – Ultimate Team Captain

"I'm Shiori Ishimaru-Owada, proudly bearing the title of the Ultimate Team Captain! I'm excited to get along with y'all! Honestly, I don't really know why I'm at this academy, but as long as I make my Dads proud, I'm probably doing the right thing!"

Birthday: December 14th (Sagittarius)

Blood Type: AB+

Height: 185cm / 6'0”

Weight: 79kg / 174lbs:

Likes: racing games, exercise, cooking

Dislikes: reading, hospital stays, basements

Shiori is an intense and upbeat girl. She is a capable leader with strong beliefs that she defends well and at times, imposes on others without noticing. While not being truly talented at a singular sport, she has tried out many things and has always effortlessly attracted a group of allies around her, no matter where she went. She is kind and motivational and, strange for a teenage girl, very attached to her parents.

Tamae Shiroma – Ultimate Whistleblower

"I'm Tamae Shiroma, Ultimate Whistleblower. Pleasure. Before I get any complaints later: Know who you're talking to, alright?"

Birthday: May 21st (Gemini)

Blood Type: B+

Height: 159cm / 5'2”

Weight: 73kg / 161lbs

Likes: hot baths, spicy food, her sister

Dislikes: reality TV, sugary food, caterpillars

Famous for her small but well-placed leaks, Tamae is the tiny thorn in the side of many politicians. In the shithole that she considers the world, Tamae tries to find the truth as painful as it may be to some. She is wary and never fully trusts anyone, knowing that how dirty people play for their achievements. While talking to her, it always seems like she knows more than you've told her. That is probably true. At the cost of her anonymity, she is attending Hope's Peak where she is promised security. Her talent is her duty, whether she is happy with it or not.

Etsuya Iwata – Ultimate Opera Singer

"My name is but fleeting. A rose by any other name would smell as sweet, a song of any other melody would sound as fine. For now, call me Etsuya Iwata, forever I am the Ultimate Opera Singer. Allow me to bring pleasure to your ears, my darlings!"

    Birthday: July 9th (Cancer)

    Blood Type: B-

    Height: 174cm / 5'7”

    Weight: 65kg / 143lbs

Likes: being on stage, tea, sightseeing

Dislikes: having to keep secrets, incompetence, boring drama

Etsuya is a charming lad that likes to bathe in the spotlight. He comes from renowned music schools and stages and he is aware the extend of his talent such as his vocal range, performance abilities, musical expertise or the languages he is fluent in. However, Etsuya is not arrogant, he rather aims to make people happy with his performances. It's easy to fall for his appeal and compliments but it's just as easy to notice that he is moody and picky and overall dramatic, and terrible at lying.

Rokuro Nakatani - Ultimate Fraud

"Rokuro Nakatani, sixth son of my generation. This school calls me the Ultimate Fraud yet there's no actual evidence for this claim. I fear they might have given me that title based on my sisters who were arrested for theft and forgery. Well, these are only two of my eight siblings, black sheeps aren't uncommon, right?"

Birthday: April 14th (Aries)

Height: 167cm / 5'6"

Weight: 66kg / 146lbs

Likes: lucky charms, rabbits, looking stylish

Dislikes: noisy places, manual labor, seaweed

Rokuro comes from a family of forgers and grew up in criminal ranks with limited contact to a normal life. He is used to being assessed and given a value and, just like everyone else in his clan, is a perfectionist through and through. His talent, artistic skills and his eye for detail all came naturally to him without much effort. Rokuro is the poster child of his family, earning him prestige and confidence but also pressure and envy from his parents and siblings. Towards others, he is condescending and belittling. Despite his standing in the Nakatani family and with his crafting abilities at hand, Rokuro often wonders if there is a way for him to create something original.

Miyoko Iwata – Ultimate DJ

"Miyoko Iwata, Ultimate DJ! The lil' hodgepodge I'm wearin' on my face isn't actually a laser or sumthin', it just helps me see. So no worries, I don't bite! Or at least, not that often."

    Birthday: July 9th (Cancer)

    Blood Type: B+

    Height: 172cm / 5'6"

    Weight: 68kg / 152lbs

    Likes: bass, crowds, playing violin

    Dislikes: the quiet, being lonely, salty instant meals

Miyoko is a young music producer that is known for her remixes and features and grew her large international fanbase through social media. With how many experiences she has made in so little time, she has matured quickly and developed a sort of maternal protection over those she holds dear. However, that protection often slips into violence. Miyoko lashes out and threatens people, sometimes pulling the knife she carries on her. There seems to be something hidden underneath her visor and neon clothes that Miyoko doesn't wish to talk about. She says that she is looking for something.

[malefi-andromeda]

Long Winding Road Stay Strapped My Dude

By: Astoria Cathryn Andromeda

Alrighty, this is a long one boys. So I touched briefly on this in my Welcome to Literally Everything post. No worries I'll recap you, so you don't have to switch back and forth. I just diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder, and then ADHD when I was 18 years old, and even then I had to fight for it after countless hours of research. See, there seems to be a wee bit of misogyny in the neurodiverse diagnoses. When I say a wee bit, I mean that scientists used to think that only boy could be autistic or ADHD. They only studied autism in males. Fortunately, nowadays we know that girls can be autistic and/or ADHD, but we present the traits differently than boys, and a lot of our traits are played off due to gender roles in society. For example, being overly talkative in girls is called chatty, whereas boys who can't sit still are sent off for testing immediately. This also causes problems for the boys, because little Johnny gets put on Adderall at the ripe age of 6 years old, just because he can't sit still for 8 hours straight, which by the way should not be expected of any elementary school kid, By the time, he's 25 he's 1) completely dependent on amphetamines 2) his body will stop producing dopamine due to being on the medication for so long. Nicht Gut. Generally, boys who are on the spectrum get picked out earlier due to late speaking, or lack of social skills. This is the one thing that girls happen to do better than boys. Girls are good at masking, which is basically taking social traits, phrases, personalities, demeanor, and copying them. In public, they put on a mask and at home, they have a meltdown. Girls are still not picked up as being on the spectrum, because shyness is called being 'ladylike' and 'dainty', and having a meltdown is just because :( girls are oh-so emotional, boohoo. Anyways tons of women do not get diagnosed with autism until they are well into their adulthood, I actually can be considered lucky to have technically still been a teenager when we finally got all the pieces together.

Alright, let's start with I don't know me as a baby. I did not speak until I was 2 years old, and then it was immediately full sentences from then on. I didn't do the babbling thing, which I don't know how impactful that really is to the topic. I was a very shy little girl. I was teeny tiny, we didn't know I if I was going to make it to 5 feet tall until I had a big growth spurt in 7th grade. I am 5'2 now and definitely done growing in case you were wondering, so not that short anymore. I did not like talking to adults, especially strangers, especially men. I did not look anyone in the face, and I will always hide behind my parent's legs when they would try to introduce me to people. I am an only child, and I spent a lot of time entertaining myself. I always had seasonal affective disorder, where my grades would dip in the winter. My parents knew I had a timer, they had 45 minutes from the moment they stepped into a restaurant before I would start breaking down. If I got off schedule as a toddler in any form, it was a catastrophe. Or this is what my parents and family tell me. I didn't really notice. I did not like being out in public a lot, I was a very picky eater, and I was extremely hyper. I was a very eccentric child, I only had 1-2 close friends and they were always a very well-liked outgoing girl who I just followed around. Looking back, I don't know how we missed it. I was shy because I didn't understand how social interactions worked, I was anxious about it because I didn't understand, I had sensory overloads, routines, and a very bland diet with a safe food which was ketchup. I put that shit on literally everything, eas, apples, mac and cheese, pizza, all meat, anything something forced me to eat that I did not like. But because I could sit still in class, and because I could zone out and daydream all day through school and still make A's nobody ever flagged me for anything and how I was supposed to know that not everybody just copied other people, scripted things before they talked, and could never pay attention. My mom always required me to be in a sport, and I was a gymnast and a swimmer for a long time, two very high-intensity sports, to help lower my energy levels, and because my mom has mild depression and she knows that exercise does help. Skip to middle school, my mom tells me I'm being bullied at church. It's not that I wasn't observing my surroundings I knew I was being excluded, but I didn't understand vindictive behavior, I thought it was my fault. I had zero friends in 8th grade until I sat down next to a random acqutaince I had gone to school with since I was 4 and the same gymnastics place. Then we were immediately attached at the hip after that. She is my best friend due this day and definitely got me through high school. Led me through so many social situations without either of us knowing. I had a very close friendgroup in highschool, all of them were on the drumline which I met through my best friend, and my first boyfriend was my best friend's neighbor. I ended up playing bass guitar for my high school's indoor drumline, and it was the best experience ever. I love my friends, but I had really bad depression when I was 15-now:) jk It's better. I didn't really realize I was depressed, I just didn't want to go to school, or swim practice, or do anything so of course, my mom noticed, and then once it was pointed out to me it got worse. My severe anxiety spiraled with my depression. Senior year of high school, my boyfriend and I were like toxic star crossed lovers, hurting each other over and over again without meaning to. My friends and I were self harming, all my close friends gad some demon going on. I finally decided to try therapy again after the disaster of being forced to go when I was 15 and the lady told me I wasn't depressed because I had a boyfriend and good grades. It helped a bit, I was able to get my panic attacks under control. Then I went away to college and stayed dating my senior high school boyfriend, we were just up and down as always, but with slightly better communication. My freshman year of college I joined a fraternity, a research lab, and my first hs boyfriend/ex/best friend and I went to a Christian campus place. By second semester, I had a lot of people who knew me and talked to me, but I didn't have any close friends, and even less close friends who were girls. All my close friends who were girls were at another college. My parents were worried about me, so they made me rush a sorority, which I knew was never my scene, but my parents made me join and I found a few girls I liked. Soon I was going to 6 classes, fraternity chapter, research lab meetings, christain crash group meetings, soriorty pledge meetings all on every Tuesday. I was different person at each of these events and wore a different mask. I was having what I know now were autistic burnout meltdowns every single day on the phone in my crusty dorm's stairwell. It was not cute. His mental health had always been bad too. Finally I decide I need to try a psychatrist and go back to therapy, and then he broke up with me. Then I made my first close friend, a guy who was in 3 of classes, and I took him to my fraternity's formal, and then coronavirus happened.  Rona kinda saved my grades, and mental health by sending us home event though it did suck. I got on anti-anxiety meds and things went up, but I was still having what I thought were panic attacks, they were austistic meltdowns. My psychiatrist, he's kinda an asshole, he diagnosed me with Obessive Compulsive Personality Disorder. I'll insert definition here: (OCPD) is a personality disorder that's characterized by extreme perfectionism, order, and neatness. People with OCPD will also feel a severe need to impose their own standards on their outside environment.> Basically hr told me I had rules for everything like how everyone drives on the right side of the road, but nobodythinks about it andwhen I broke one of my rules I got depressed, and when wasn't perfect I got depressed, and when I made an A I was relieved not proud. The diagnosis seemed to fit really well, and my therapist and I started working finding my rules, and getting rid of the bad ones, and making the others less harsh. I had thought every once and in a while in my life when I was really upset, what if I'm on the spectrum, because I just felt so hopeless for social interactions and I didn't understand. I always felt like I was a very specific person, but after the ocpd I started thinking more and more, and I saw a tik tok of a girl with lae diagnosed autism basically describing me and ranting about the misogyny. I did more research and I decide, yea I'mm gonna bring it up to mypsychatrist well he's a dick, so he was like um you don't act like sheldon cooper from the Big Bang theory,and I was like wellI just I have always thought I might have adhd like be neureodiverse, and he was like your grade point average in hs was a 97.8%, you're not adhd. I immediately cried, because I can't handle when anyone says anything in a even a slightest stringent tone. I'm baby, I know lmao. It made me angry though because I felt like he just brushed away all of my struggles I had in my whole life. I spent hours researching and typed up a 47 page document on evidence for why I was on the spectrum, and had my parents help will some of checklists to make sure I was getting outside perspectives. I rally my parents to be my back up and next psychiatrist appointment we actually talk about it and he asked my parents questions about when I was young and such and finally he was okay you're on the spectrum. I felt so validated and like I could start being myself. I slowly got more and more confident, changed my style of clothing, and researched more about adhd pushed to be tested, and oh look at that I also have ADHD. So basically discourse: "I feel like as a child I coded a machine to do life for me so I didn’t get bothered except I didn’t know about the machine I thought i was the machine and now I’ve become self aware and I have to learn how to read the code and rewrite the code because it’s dysfunctional because I’m not functioning well as a human being. I was really shy as a child. I would turn beat red when people talked to me or looked at me so I think I started cookie cutting situations and using them over and over again because they worked until I accidentally hard wired these expansion rules and expectations for myself. I didn’t may attention is class ever I just day dreamed and if I got good grades i wouldn’t be bothered i could just stay in my head and if I did my sport well my parents didn’t bother me. I was never asked if I did my homework I just did it so I wouldn’t be asked and have to deal with that situation. I would cookie cutter situations in class that would draw the least attention to myself.

I feel like i don’t have friends I just fulfill the expectation like a side quest on video games" I wrote this down pre autism confirmation when i just thought I had ocpd. Now I don't directly identify with ocpd, but I definitely think I developed that personality disorder a bit from living with undiagnosed autism. I am linking below the very informative Tik Toks by the lovely Paige on autism in girls. The imposter syndrome one really hit home. I had had so many panic attacks about thinking I tricked people into being my friend, or thinking I was smart.

I highly suggest watching these short tik toks, you'll definitely learn something

https://vm.tiktok.com/wVvcYA/

https://vm.tiktok.com/wqRRUf/

https://vm.tiktok.com/wnqhvX/

https://vm.tiktok.com/wqeyYg/

https://vm.tiktok.com/wnoE7u/

https://vm.tiktok.com/Kas6gB/

https://vm.tiktok.com/owM9hs/

Imposter syndrome

I am also linking an article about Sheldon Cooper from Big Bang Theory and Autism that explains why my psychiatrist was wrong, and also I am a girl and the spectrum is called a spectrum because it's a fucking spectrum no two autistic people are exactly the same it's like a color wheel.

http://www.autismsupportnetwork.com/news/problem-sheldon-cooper-and-cute-autism-387783

Here is a fun comic about the spectrum and how to view it.

https://the-art-of-autism.com/understanding-the-spectrum-a-comic-strip-explanation/

I am still learning about myself, and how to be me, and how to be myself but without breaking bad social rules. It's quite humorous though because I'll learn something is related to autism and I'm like oh shit again, like still, like, we're still discovering things.

"Tu ne me manques pas"

Bis später,

Astoria.

[butiknewyou]

50 questions you’ve never been asked! I was tagged by @ifthiswasmovie , ily girlie!

1. what is the colour of your hairbrush? black I’m boring!

2. a food you never eat? I’m picky so there’s a lot lol, let’s go with beef cause I’m Hindu!

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? too cold!

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? drinking coffee!

5. what is your favourite candy bar? hmmm Kit Kats

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event? Hahahahaha no

7. what is the last thing you said out loud? “Do you need any help?” To my mom

8. what is your favourite ice cream? there’s one called Intense Chocolate which is chocolate with chocolate syrup and thick chunky chocolate chips :( a close second if Blue Bell’s chocolate peanut butter

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? Coffee

10. do you like your wallet? The one I use daily is fine, it’s practical which is great but not very cute (just plain black)

11. what was the last thing you ate? a chocolate muffin

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? no

13. the last sporting event you watched? hahahahahaha I went to a homecoming football game when I was in high school uhhh about 4.5 years ago now? And I don’t think I’ve even watched a sport on TV since

14. what is your favourite flavour of popcorn? Omg at the place I worked last summer this dude made popcorn and had like twenty powdered flavors to choose from...:( and my faves were chocolate caramel and I think the ranch flavored one

15. who is the last person you sent a text message to? an old friend

16. ever go camping? nope

17. do you take vitamins? sometimes

18. do you go to church every sunday? nope

19. do you have a tan? no? I’m a brown girlie but you can see when you move one of the bracelets I wear permanently a clear difference in skin tone so maybe?

20. do you prefer chinese food or pizza? BOTH

21. do you drink your soda with a straw? No...

22. what colour socks do you usually wear? I don’t usually wear socks but black or white when I do

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? yes I have a license. no I can’t drive. yes when I passed my driver’s test the guy who passed me marked me down for driving too slowly. I exist. (tl;dr no)

24. what terrifies you? on a basic level, driving and bees

25. look to your left, what do you see? my sister’s laptop and my headphones

26. what chore do you hate? most of them...I used to really hate hanging up my clothes though

27. what do you think of when you hear an australian accent? idk some actors? Chris hemsworth?

28. what’s your favourite soda? Sprite or Orange Fanta

29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? Drive through

30. who’s the last person you talked to? My sister

31. favourite cut of beef? don’t eat that!

32. last song you listened to? New Angel by Niall Horan

33. last book you read? Uhhh I’ve been rereading kids books but other than that Son by Lois Lowry

34. favourite day of the week? I like Wednesday’s and Saturdays

35. can you say the alphabet backwards? yes a student teacher or substitute taught us how in kindergarten and I’ve never forgotten

36. how do you like your coffee? with cream and sugar

37. favourite pair of shoes? I like my daily shoes (navy Skechers) or I have some nice blue sandals that look like denim colored

38. at what time do you normally go to bed? 11, give or take 45 minutes

39. at what time do you normally get up? 7:45, give or take 45 minutes

40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? Hmmm sunsets make me feel sad/melancholy/regretful for some reason so sunrise

41. how many blankets are on your bed? just the one :(

42. describe your kitchen plates. white with a pattern of flowers on the rim I think???

43. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? I do not drink! but if I did I think I’d like pina coladas because I like non alcoholic pina coladas

44. do you play cards? no but I am a cornelia street stan if that helps

45. what colour is your car? I don’t have one but I need to buy one soon and I want it to be blue

46. can you change a tire? no...

47. what is your favourite province? idk enough about Canada to comment but my favorite American state is Miss Texas

48. favourite job you’ve ever had? my only jobs have been tech internships :) all of which I liked but I loved the most recent one I had

49. how did you get your biggest scar? poison ivy when I was a kid

50. what did you do today that made someone else happy? I let my dad have some ice cream I’d been saving and I fed my dogs some ice cream. So overall...ice cream.

I am tagging @missmericana @care-oh @cages-boxes-hunters-foxes @cardsharksplayingames @pacelikeaghosts @pharmaswift @my-idea-of-luxury @lorelaigilmo @corneliastreetagaiin @ohsovery1989 and anyone else who wants to do it!

[seb-owns-these-tatas]

Positive (Sebastian Stan x You)

Characters: Sebastian x You

Summary: Y/N is married to Sebastian and have been trying to conceive a baby. You’ve been trying the best you can until you were left asking yourself that maybe you were the problem. Until one day, your prayers have been answered.

Warnings: Sweetness, too much sweetness that you’ll have cavities. 😍

Words: 2,028

A/N: ANOTHER UPDATE! AYEAYAYAYA! I was tempted to write something NSFW in this. But, then I decided to make it wholesome and sweet instead. I might have wrong grammars, tater tots because english isn’t my mother tongue. I hope y'all will understand if ever you read grammar errors or such.

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“I think I’m the problem, Seb.”

“No.” Sebastian breathed through the phone. The line going quiet, hearing only his breathing. He was in the middle of shooting another movie, and having his break time.

You, on the other hand have been thinking a lot at home. Negative thoughts couldn’t be stopped once you were left alone in your home. Grasping in the lost feeling that something was missing in the household, and the answer to that was children. You needed to conceive children.

Sebastian and Y/N have been married for five years now. Seeing everyone around them having babies wasn’t helping her, it was just making her feel sad and worried that maybe..just maybe it was all because of her. Especially with Sebastian who have been more understanding and thrilled for her to have his babies by now.

“What if it’s me, Y/N?” His voice began to turn quieter. Breath slow and shaky through the phone. “What if i’m the problem? We’ve been trying for years now, you’ve even had your check-up and the doctors said you were healthy.. I think i’m the one who needs to be checked,”

You felt your heart tighten with the need to comfort your worried husband. There was nothing wrong with him, you know there wasn’t. Maybe it wasn’t just your time, maybe you both should give it another try. “Baby, no. No. I know it’s not you,” You comforted, biting your lip apprehensively. Sebastian gave a faded hum, if your attention wasn’t on the phone, you wouldn’t have heard him. “Let’s try..again. Remember the short quote that people have been saying?”

“Never say die?”

“Never give up?”

You both gave a breathy laugh through the phone, they were two different words but held one thought and shared one feeling. Faith. Hope.

So, you tried and tried till your strong hopes could falter. There was a tiny dot of hope left in you, to the both of you…

Huffs of breath came out of your mouths, shaky, tired breaths. Sebastian’s sweaty, warm forehead on yours as he was laying on top of you. Eyes closed and his arms on either side, you tenderly reached his face, cupping his sharp, scruffy jaw with a hand and tenderly caressing him with the thumb of your hand. No words can be spoken after a toiled night full of love. Just feeling in each other’s arms was enough. He was enough.

“Don’t give up on me,” He breathily sighed against your lips, eyes now opened and fully filled with desperation and love. Sebastian was in the midst of accepting the fact that maybe you both weren’t destined to have a baby. He have been thinking that maybe you were enough. You were, and having you would make him happy and contented with the rest of his life, even if it means that you both won’t be having little clones running around the house.

“I love you,” He whispered before giving you an eskimo kiss. Eyes shut and just appreciating the shared moment. Your lips turned into a smile, giving a soft nod in agreement. “And I,” You tenderly kissed his pointy nose before continuing, your heart beating loudly against your chest, a wave of overwhelming love surrounding you both, “–love you more than anything in this world, Sebastian. I would never give up on you just because we couldn’t..couldn’t conceive a baby,”

“We could always adopt a child, or if you don’t want to–” You were cut-off when Sebastian suddenly piped in, “Why didn’t I ever thought of that?” He spoke more to himself, “But, I do. I’m totally in for it. If this one last try won’t make us have a baby, then we’ll need to,”

Your hands slowly travelled towards his soft, dark locks. Gently dragging your fingers in his hair, making Sebastian’s heart swell in affection, completely loving the need to touch him. “Let’s talk about this when the time comes, but as of now. I just wanna say that..You’re enough for me, you’re completely enough for me.”

“And you are for me too, Y/N.”

Then the days went on for the married couple. You were both having a normal day, just casually spending the rest of the afternoon in each others arms. Considering that this day should be spent peacefully and without any interruptions, both phones turned off so nobody can disturb them. Y/N and Sebastian have been arguing about what to eat. Sebastian wanted nothing more than a box of pizza and Y/N wanted something different…something she couldn’t decipher.

“You want me to cook??” Sebastian uttered oh so surprised, pointing to himself as he eyed you skeptically. He placed his hand on his cleft chin, slowly caressing his scruffy jaw in habit, lost in his circle of thoughts. “But, I don’t even know how to cook?”

You narrowed your eyes on him, huffing out your cheeks in frustration. “Don’t act like I never read facts about you in google,” With both of your hands on your hips, you kept your head up high. “I’ve read that you know how to cook spaghetti bolognese! Don’t lie to me, Stan!”

Was it the hormones that was making you act what you were saying today? you only wanted nothing more than to eat food made by his pretty, sculpted, manly hands. Staring at Sebastian’s hands have been a habit of yours weeks ago. You couldn’t help but keep on holding it when you got the chance, even when you sleep..

“W-What? We could just order something–”

“But, I want my food made by you!”

Sebastian stared straight at you, his baby blues looking defeated, raising the white flag in the back of his mind. That’s what his sweetheart wanted, then that’s what she gets. “Alright, alright. I’ll..I’ll try my best. Just don’t blame me when you’ll end up vomiting in the middle of the night,”

You clapped enthusiastically, and cheered. “Yay! Now, get to work. I’m damn starving,”

Sebastian gave you a hearty smile, nervously chuckling. “Yes, Ma-am!” Before he turned his back around on you and began getting the ingredients out of the fridge.

Y/N kept admiring her husband, she kept her eyes on him the whole time. Sebastian knew he was being watched, he was worried she’ll be starting to bore holes in him. Sebastian couldn’t help but notice how she intensely stared at his hands that was chopping onions in front of her. He observed how her eyes kept her attention on his hands the whole week, how she held it all the time, how she was fond of it even at night and it was beginning to grow weird.

“Y/N? Is there something wrong with my hands?” Sebastian nonchalantly talked, chopping white onions in front of him. Every slice of the knife hitting the cutting board made the kitchen echo.

You sat more comfortably on the stool, placing your elbows on the table and a hand on your chin, giving Sebastian a look that was so pure and innocent. “I..” There was a pause, “I…don’t know, it’s just so pretty and…pretty…so..pretty..” you answered like you were lost in this world.

Small voices have been yelling at the back of Y/N’s mind. She was having a hunch as to why she was acting so weird. It was probably a hunch that could break your hopes down again, yet it wouldn’t hurt less if she would give it another shot. Pain never ceases to be felt in this world we were in. Pain is what gives people a lesson. It gives drama and color in our life.

“I gotta pee,” Y/N announced, hopping off her seat, and quickly sprinting towards the bathroom in the first floor.

You breathed in and out, deeply waiting for the stick to show it’s result. Y/N’s clammy hands couldn’t help but tremble in anticipation. She could feel it inside of her, she knew it wasn’t just her imagination. Will they finally be gifted with a baby? Any gender will do for the both of you, since you weren’t that picky anymore..

It had already been 15 minutes, her husband couldn’t help but start to worry. Sebastian gently knocked on the bathroom door three times, “Honey, you okay in there?”

He began to hear silent sobs, and from the moment he did, the man didn’t hesitate to turn the knob and see her crying her eyes out in front of the mirror, desperately holding the pregnancy test on her chest. “S-Sebastian,” She croaked, voice breaking and sounding vulnerable. “F-Finally…finally,”

Sebastian took her in his arms, tightly hugging Y/N to cease her cries, though that triggered her to shed more tears especially that she was now in his arms. “What happened?” He whispered in worry and held her head against his firm chest. “Finally what?”

Y/N was the first to untangle herself from his arms, eyes full of bliss, gazing up at him to meet his confused, gorgeous blue eyes. “Our prayers have been answered,” She couldn’t help but feel another set of tears that was tempted to fall down. “We finally have the gift we were waiting for, the most precious gift in the whole wide world that not any friend could give,”

“Uhm,” He hummed, still completely baffled as he reached up to brush his short hair back. You placed a hand on his clean shaven jaw, turning his head to look at your sparkling ones, giving him a smile that he wouldn’t forget once you show him your present.

The pregnancy stick was now in front of him, right before his eyes, in between your fingers. His eyes blown wide in surprise, taking few gulps because his throat turned dry, he couldn’t believe it. “Y-You’re…you’re..”

Y/N nodded repeatedly, tears started falling out of her eyes in joy and not in pain, this was the moment they were all been waiting for. She could finally say it out loud, “I’m pregnant, Sebastian! I’m finally pregnant!”

He grabbed onto you, pulling you in his comforting arms. You heard him sniffle, never thinking he would cry at first until warm tears pool on your shirt, your husband was crying..

“I’ve waited so long for this day, Y/N..” His voice shook, grabbing on to you more and keeping his arms locked around you.

Y/N couldn’t help but share more set of tears, caressing her husband’s broad back and keeping her face in his chest, “and I thought I wouldn’t get to say those words in my whole life, Honey..”

The best day had just came. They both waited patiently for their time to come, believing that if it’s destined to happen, then it would. Not probably now, but in the near future, they believed and waited, never forgetting to put effort with the destiny they wanted to have.

“I’m going to be the best father that our child can ever wish for,” He blissfully whispered in your ear, closing his eyes and just enjoying the moment..

A certain moment that crushed your hopes at first, but eventually happened because she was finally pregnant and happy with Sebastian.

Y/N was finally pregnant and that’s all what matters.

***

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[worshippingmendes-blog]

Marked By Love - Instagram Post

I wrote the end now and it’s 00:17 am so sorry if it sucks haha, bear with me! Please let me know what you think about it and what you wnat to happen in the future.

Wc: 2850

The sun was slowly setting, leaving the city of toronto covered in a beautiful orange color. Shawn inhaled the crisp summer air as he slowed down his steps. His tall boy was covered in a thin layer of sweat, and from his hairline a few pearls made their way down his face. His cheeks were rosy and the long curls pulled back by a thin headband. He catched his breath for a moment as he felt an arm patting his back firmly.

“Woah, good job kid” Andrew said between breaths.

The poor guy was drenched and red as a tomato. He rested his hands on his knees and Shawn could not help but chuckle at the sight. The manager breathed heavily and Shawn placed a large hand on his shoulder.

“You okay there man?”

Andrew squinted his eyes and held up his hand with a thumbs up. Shawn shook his head lightly as a smirk creeped up on his pink lips.

“Don’t” Andrew warned.

Shawn held his hands up like a surrender, but still with the cocky grin plastered on his face.

Eventually Andree started breathing normally and stood up, stretching out his body.

“Think you can handle the rest?” Shawn said, voice laced in worry. Andrew nodded and started jogging, Shawn following his footsteps, running a few feet in front of him. Slowly but surely he quickened his pace and after a while they were back to running.

Andrew’s eyes flickered over the tall boy in front of him, needing something to keep his eyes on. He examined the tattoo on the back of his arm, the one of the light bulb. As Shawn straightened out his arm, his eyes stuck to something else on his arm. He furrowed his brows in confusion at the little star that was placed underneath his elbow.

”New tattoo?” He panted, causing Shawn to stop his motions and give him a look.

”What?”

Andrew nodded to his right arm and Shawn wrinkled his brows.

”What are you talking about?”

He screwed and turned on his arm, trying to find what his manager was talking about.

Andrew let out a sigh and pressed his hand against his shoulder, making him look at his elbow.

“Oh shit”

“Wait, it that not-“

“A tattoo” Shawn said, finishing his sentence. Both of them shared a look as he tries to process the fact that he had, for the first time, been marked by love.

“Who is it?” Andrew asked carefully, almost like he was afraid of scaring the boy. Shawn ran a hand through the hair on his neck.

“You know the girl that I wanted to see during that festival?”

Andrew’s eyes widened and he looked down, regretting stopping him from finding her.

“So, what are you going to do about it? I mean, you need to find her”

Shawn looked searching at him, like he was thinking. Suddenly he got an idea and he could almost feel the light bulb over his head lighten up.

“I got it!” he yelled as he starting running back to his place.

Andrew was just about to say something as the boy took off, leaving him rolling his eyes and walking after him, who was long gone by now.

He slammed the door open, making it hit the wall next to it with a loud noise that echoed through the hallway.

Humming on a John Mayer song, he quickly took a shower. As he rinsed out the shampoo from his dark locks he carefully planned just how he was going to get her attention. The plan was to post a picture on instagram, showing of the mark on his arm and caption it with something really cheesy. And hopefully, she would see it. How he was going to get in contact with her, that’s another story, a story he hadn’t thought about.

He dried his hair with the towel while sending a message to the boys, bribing them with pizza and beer if they would only come over. Neither of them could decline the the generous offer and half an hour later they were all seated in the big couch.

Laughing and eating of the family pizza that Shawn ordered, he filled them in on the plan. They thought he was joking at first, but after seeing the little star on his arm, they understood that the picky boy really was in love.

“Okay, but how do we know that she follows you on instagram?” Josiah said, mouth full of pizza.

Shawn licked his lips before letting out a grumbling sigh.

“We don’t, we just have to cross our fingers that she does”

“But she did come to see you during the festival, so she must be some sort of fan” Brian added.

Shawn sent him a thankful look as he stood up, drying of his sweaty palms on his black jeans.

“I need to find an outfit! Josiah, set up the camera, this needs to be good!” He yelled as he walked out of the room, making the guys let out a laugh at how invested he was.

“Will do!” Josiah said and took a sip of his coke.

”How about this?” Shawn said, walking into the living room and making a pirouette as he did. He was wearing a nude button up with a pair of black jeans.

The guys looked at him with distaste as they all shook their heads.

���Dude, no.”

Shawn rolled his eyes and went to change again. This time he had chosen a red and black striped t-shirt. And as he walked through the door a loud booing noise was heard from the crowd of boys.

“I hope you didn’t pay money for that Mendes!” Brian said with a laugh only to be slapped gently by Andrew.

“Did you forget that he’s a literal millionaire?”

Brian furrowed his brows as he drank the last of his beer.

“Sorry” he muttered.

“But seriously kid, that’s awful”

Shawn sighed and turned on his heels.

As he, for the third time, confidently came out of his bedroom the guys were quiet. They eyed him up and down, looking at the way the dark short sleeved button up made him look. The fabric was tight around his arms, showing of his biceps.

“That’s the one” Josiah was the first to talk. Brian nodded and Andrew gave him a high five. Shawn smiled sheepishly at the compliments as he sat down on the chair in front of the gray background.

Josiah fixed with his camera as he nervously rubbed his hands together, or fidgeted with the ring on his finger, something he had a habit of doing when he was nervous. This had to be perfect.

“Okay… we’re all good!” Josiah announced and placed his eye over the hole.

Shawn posed awkwardly as he took a few photos.

As he pulled away from the camera, he inspected the pictures carefully before turning to Shawn.

“What the heck are you doing with your hands?”

Shawn wrinkled his brows and looked down at the small screen, and surely, he was doing something strange with his hands. They were placed awkwardly at his sides, making him look like he was a confused fifth grader.

“I have no idea. When I don’t have my guitar I don’t know what to do with them!”

Josiah looked up at him from where he was sitting.

“Well then you might want to grab that guitar, because this is the most uncomfortable photo I have ever taken of you man”

Shawn chuckled a little as Josiah gave him a playful pat on the back.

His favorite acoustic guitar was sitting on the chair in his bedroom, over a few pillows. The guys used to make fun about how protective he was over his precious guitars, and he couldn’t blame them. He treated them all like they were his children, heck, even better.

He carefully lifted up the guitar by the neck and ran his hand over the strings. The soft sound coming from it was enough to make him fall in love with music over again.

Shawn walked back with his guitar in his hands and sat down on the thin stool. His tall frame was really to big for it, making him have to spread his legs to keep himself steady and from falling.

He placed the guitar in his lap and rested his right elbow on its body, placing his left hand next to it.

A few clicks was heard from the camera and he stared into the dark lens as he ran a hand through his curls. They were still a little damp from his shower, causing them to stay place, slicked back by his large hand.

“That’s the one!” Josiah exclaimed as he once again pulled back from the camera and stared down on the little screen. And surely enough, it was a great picture.

Showing of just enough of the little star on the underside of his arm, and with the intense stare that could get any girl’s knees weak. 15 minutes later, the picture was edited and ready and the only part left was the caption.

The boys sat in silence on the white cushions. All deep in thought of what the boy should write.

“I got it!” Brian almost yelled, startling the rest of the group.

“Thinking about you! But without the ‘a’, you know. Keeping it cool”

He looked at Shawn for approval and he nodded his head lightly, playing with the thought.

“That might actually work” he mumbled as he openes instagram.

Fixing the picture and adding the caption, he skeptically examined it. He was about to fix something as he thought ‘screw it’ and pressed the ‘post’ button. Throwing his phone away as if it was burning hot, he barely had the courage to look back at it.

“Okay, I posted it” he exhaled and the guys cheered him on, causing a grin to crack open his lips.

“You’re going to get your girl man, I promise you!” A slightly drunk Geoff whispered to him. He had his arm wrapped tightly around his neck and a beer bottlw in the other. Shawn shot him a smile and a small ’I hope so’, trying to get rid of the growing lump in his stomach. What if she didn’t see it? What if she didn’t feel the same? What if, the first time he really was in love, ended in heartbreak before it could even begin?

His mind was racing, and the anxiety making his heart pound faster and faster by the seconds.

He excused himself from the group and rushed to the bathroom, closing the door behind him, he placed his both hands on the cold ceramic sink.

Taking deep breaths, he tried to calm himself down. Humming the lyrics to ’In My Blood’ quietly to himself as he washed his face with cold water. It was silly, but the song was important to him and it really did help with his anxiety.

Looking up in the mirror, he realised how fucked he was for her. No, he already knew that from the sleepless nights where he laid awake thinking about her smile, or the way her face light up as he started playing on his guitar. The way she moved her body to the beat of the music and her eyes. God, those eyes. Those eyes followed him wherever he went.

They were like crystals, glowing in the light from the sun. She had the prettiest eyes he had ever seen. And he dreamed of someday being the reaction to that extra sparkle in them. The reason her pupils widened, the way they do when you look at someone you love.

He was so fucked for her, and he could only hope that she felt the same.

-

The apartment was empty. Again. Usually you wouldn’t mind having the flat to yourself but lately you’ve had this feeling, this need, to be around or with someone. You had no idea what had caused this sudden change in attitude but there was nothing you could do. So you’ve tried your hardest to cover it up, taking home one night stands or throwing big parties that only left you feeling like the mess the day after. Anything to get rid of the feeling.

But you knew, deep down, that the feeling meant something more. You longed for a relationship. Someone to be there for you through wet and dry and to fill the empty space that had been present these last couple of weeks. It had been a year since your last relationship, a relationship that ended in broken glass and broken hearts. The thought of how it ended still made you stick to your stomach, no matter how hard you tried to convince yourself that you were over it. But catching, who you thought was your soulmate, and your best friend hooking up in your- now his, bed, was a sight that didn’t wash out very easily.

And no matter how hard you tried to tell yourself that it wasn’t a big deal, that those things happen and it’s only to move on, it had still left it marks on you. It was the reason to why you usually left by the sunset and just stared at your phone when they wanted to meet up again. The incident had wrecked you, more than you were willing to admit. And now here you were, with a brain telling you that it was time to get back in there. And somehow, it didn’t feel too wrong.

You craved intimacy, even though it scared the living hell out if you, the feeling of holding someone close still beat the fear.

You let out a sigh, staring at the empty document in front of you. The assignment wasn’t due until three weeks from now, but you liked to get things done. But this time you had just been sitting in front of the open computer for two hours, not writing a word on the empty paper. Your mind was in so many different places, but none focused on the writing. Closing the computer, you let out a yawn as you sent a quick look to the wall, the big clock that Olivia had insisted that you just needed.

To your disappointment it was only 10, which was almost not an acceptable bedtime for a twenty year old. As your stomach reminded you that your last meal was six hours ago, you decided to get some food.

Cooking was definitely not one of your specialties and you soon settled for a pack of mac and cheese that was stuffed into the back of the cabinet. You slowly stirred the macaroni-water as your phone vibrated, signaling that a certain canadian boy had posted something on instagram. Fishing the phone up out of your sweatpants you placed your finger on the home button and were redirected to Instagram.

It was a gorgeous picture of the boy and you quickly took a screenshot before placing a like. You eyes wandered over the screen as they stuck to something on his arm. A familiar star was placed on the underside of it. You felt your heart race as you read the caption.

“Thinking about u”

The intense stare made your knees weak and you slowly rolled up the leg of your pants, to show of the exact same mark there. You stopped breathing and your eyes flickered from the screen to your ankle. The little rose that was his mark, was still placed on the inside of your wrist, reminding you of the first time you saw him during that concert. He had been so young back then, seventeen years old and just getting started, having no idea of the fame and recognition that was awaiting him only a few years later.

You sank down on the floor, back pressed firmly against the glossy fridge. Emotions were flowing over you in waves and you tried your best not to get up and scream, run around the apartment and just screaming. You knew what it meant when you got another person's mark on you, you knew. It meant that you had fallen in love with them, and there he was. Your idol since four years back, having a pretty little star placed on the back of his muscular arm, your mark.

Showing that the moment you both shared during the festival meant something to him, that you actually did mean something to him.

You heard the water boiling and the timer going off, but still there was only one thought going through your mind.

”He’s in love with me”

So with shaky fingers, you opened the direct messages and sent him a short message. A message that was the perfect mix between cocky and flirty, and that didn’t give away on how every muscle in your body felt like spaghetti.

One sentence that made you completely bubbly inside, and that made him drop his phone into the toilet.

“My mark looks good on you”

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[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #196

“what separates man from beast? turn to your master.”

What's a show that you absolutely refuse to watch? 13 Reasons Why. How many times have you been in love? Twice. Do you remember how old you were when you started swearing? 7th grade, however old that is. How many years older than you would you date someone? ~9, maybe 10. Depends on just how much I'm interested in the person. What was the last thing you pinky-swore on? *shrugs* Don't even recall the last time I did that. Would you consider yourself a nice person? I think I am. Are you a car kind of fella? No. I don't even know the names of the most basic models. Are there a lot of mirrors in your house? Not at all. There's like... two. Who’s the laziest person you know? Proooobably me. True or false: Glee is annoying. All musicals make me cringe. Would you make a good teacher? Why? Fuck no. I'm not dealing with 20+ kids, and I'm also way too awkward for that. Is the fan on? Actually no. I have a small heater in my room that turns on/off to regulate the temperature. Otherwise, my room is frigid this time of year. Have you ever broken someone else’s bone? No. Do you really believe in your ‘one true love’? I don't believe in that concept. There's billions of humans on this earth; you don't have just one that you'd be wonderfully compatible with. Do you worry more about other people’s happiness than your own? It depends. Have you ever had feelings for 2 people at the same time?
 Yes, Jason and Juan until I picked between them definitively. You could also say Sara and Girt, but I'd come to learn my feelings weren't romantic towards Girt. Do you believe that leaving a significant other for someone else is ever a good idea? Sure; if you're even considering someone other than your s/o, that says something anyway. It's a far better alternative to cheating. Is it possible to ‘fix’ a ‘broken’ relationship?
 Mixed emotions, idk. Would you ever throw out/give away something an ex gave you?
 I've thrown out stuff, but I haven't given anything away, though I'd probably be able to. If you found someone seemingly perfect for you, but it turned out they had a child… would you still give the relationship a chance?
 No chance. Who is the first person you see in the mornings? Well, I live with only Mom. Who was the last person you were in love with for more than a year?
 In love, probably Jason. I consider someone being in love and just loving someone are of different intensities. Do you have a secret life?
 The RP site is unknown to just about anyone. Have you ever seen the last person you kissed without a shirt?
 Yes, but she was just changing her shirt rq, and I didn't really look anyway out of respect. Do your parents know EVERYTHING about you?
 No. Are you friends with your best friend’s boyfriend or girlfriend?
 She's the same person lmao. Favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
 Jelly. If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be? At this very moment, probably my left daith. Do you have a nervous habit? (e.g. biting nails, tapping feet, smoking) Most obviously, I knead my hands and I'm fidgety. My eyes dart around, and I bite my lip a lot. Current favorite song? I've been hopping around between a lot lately. Maybe "Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm Of The War Drums" by A Perfect Circle. Do you know anyone famous? No. Do you own a Bible? No. Have you ever pierced your own body part or that of someone else? No. The last time you held a baby: Moooonths ago, like last summer when Colleen needed me to hold her son for whatever. The last form you filled out: Something for vocational rehab. The last time you stayed up past 12AM: Saturday night/Sunday to see the super blood wolf moon. It was incredible. The last time you gave up on or quit something: Well it's not like I'm ever doing anything noteworthy to remember quitting. The last video game you played: Some of The Legend of Spyro: Dawn of the Dragon. The last time you were in a big city: Not since March '18. The last television show you watched: Avatar: The Last Airbender with Sara. I'm surprisingly really into it and can't wait to keep going ahhhhhhh. Who was the last person you sat next to? My mom. Do you wear socks to bed? No, I hate socks. How many Canadian provinces have you been to? None. What kind of car did you take your drivers test in? N/A What is your first memory of being in a hospital? I have very faint memories of when I was a very little kid, my sisters and I played in the room where my mom and her three co-workers worked. I can't remember why we were ever there? All I know is we always wanted to go to the little gift shop to get candy lol. Does anyone in your life treat you badly? Are you allowing them to treat you that way? Or do you stand up for yourself? Not consistently. Have you ever cut someone out of your life because of how they treated you? Rather how she treated most of the human population. How much was the rent/mortgage at the cheapest place you’ve ever lived? Idk, probably here, where I think it's $700-something. Do you still keep in touch with your very first best friend? We're friends on Facebook, but that's it. Who got married at the last wedding you went to? Oh JEEZ. I think he was one of Ashley's co-worker's nephews or something like that?? I can't remember the exact connection, but it was complicated. What was your favorite home-cooked meal when you were a kid? Like, made from scratch? Um. I dunno. Nothing stands out. What was the topic of the last conversation you had with your dad? The laptop we're working on getting. Have you ever been to a wedding where the bride was a total bridezilla? No. How often did you visit your grandparents when you were growing up? Almost never. Dad's were in Ohio, Mom's mother was in Florida (my grampa died when I was like, two), and here we are in NC. We couldn't afford to travel much. Have you ever had psoriasis? I don't think so? I do have super dry skin, but I don't think I've ever had scaly patches. How much of your time to do you spend being bored? What could cure that boredom? Almost every day past afternoon, really... and having shit to do that doesn't confine me to this house, or have Sara here. Do squeaky toys annoy you? Yes. Animals: love ‘em? Why or why not? I absolutely love them; they're our neighbors. It's amazing how creatures that can't speak can be so interesting. Is a solitary person necessarily an unlikable person? Um, no. Are you a picky eater? You have ABSOLUTELY no idea. If you play Sims, have you ever saved a Sim from death? I've played the animals one, in which case, yes, lol. Are you hopelessly addicted to the computer? Admittedly so. Almost everything I do is on there, and it's sad just how lost I am on what to do if I don't have WiFi or a gaming console. I've been this way since I was a pre-teen though, so it's not exactly something I think I can un-learn. Like I'm not one of those people who puts every opportunity behind sitting here on it at least, I'll happily jump up for something fun and/or interesting, but it's still my go-to thing to do. Do you prefer online or face-to-face communication? Why? Depends on the person and my mood, but more often than not, online because I'm a socially awkward abomination. What kinds of things do you watch on YouTube? Let's plays mostly, but also random shit from some people I'm subscribed to, beauty videos with Jeffree Star solely because I love that hoe and am there for his personality, uhhh other misc. things that make me laugh. If you’re offered a trip to either Hawaii or Alaska, which would you choose? Probably Alaska, esp. if it's a good season for the Northern Lights. Do you have any close friends that were adopted? No. If you could have any job/talent, what? (regardless if can or not)? Hyperrealistic traditional artist or meerkat biologist. Who, in your opinion, is the best thriller writer? I wouldn't know. Does your mom eat meat? Yes. Was your dad ever in a sports team? Yeah. Do you prefer thick or thin crusted pizza? I stroooongly prefer thick. Thin is just flaky and hard. Have you ever had an eerie/paranormal experience? What happened? A lot. The top two that scared me the most follow: 1.) I was home alone, very late in the night watching TV, and Teddy, who was glued to me, would not look away from the bottom of the bed and was barking and growling relentlessly. I even tried forcing his head to look away with how badly it was scaring me, but he absolutely would not let it. Me personally, I "felt" a strong and malevolent female presence just fucking staring at me, and I called my mom literally crying. I was so shaken up that at like 4:00 A.M. I think it was, she had to call our poor neighbor to sleep in the house with me. Safe to say, I did not sleep in my bed; I'm pretty sure I didn't for a good few days. 2.) I was outside one night, walking with my iPod as I did most nights. I suddenly stopped dead when I saw this white, transparent thing walk very fluidly out of the woods of my backyard and just vanish. It was fucking crazy because it felt like time had slowed, and I remember perfectly it looked like a bipedal creature walking on all fours instead, but it was not a fucking human or animal. It reminded me of some Rake depictions (which I don't really believe in), but not precisely. My entire body absolutely chilled, and I was like a deer in headlights for many seconds, but after that, I have never run faster than I did going back inside. I immediately told my mom, freaking the hell out, but who knows if she believed I actually saw something. I didn't do nighttime walks for I think around a week, and for a loooong time, I'd altered my path so I couldn't see the spot it had appeared, and I over my dead body would ever go to the clearing at night. I also either saw a star do some weird-ass shit over the course of a week or so, or it was some UFO doing something okay only facts here. All three of these things happened at our old house, sooo glad that is no longer home lmao. Do you have any friends with the same name as you? No. How many people of the same name as you have you ever met? Oh jeez, plenty. How often do you see your best friend? Our history so far has been every ~2-3 months. Do you like incense or does it give you headaches? I love that shit oml. Do you prefer to watch or attempt? Depends? Do you shout when you’re upset? Occasionally. Where was the last place you ate, except from home? I believe Wendy's. What was your favorite thing to do as a kid? Play Spyro or make-believe with my favorite toys. Do you take any vitamins? Which ones? Yes, for vitamin D, as my deficient of it beforehand was absolutely abysmal, and it was probably the cause of my knees wanting me dead. Have you ever lost something really precious to someone else? Maybe? Who makes you feel small/inferior? It's entirely unintentional, but my psychiatrist, ha ha. He is a fucking genius with incredible knowledge of like... everything. Are you protective of your family? Well yeah. I'm especially protective of my younger sister, but not like, incredibly. What size ring are you? Idr. What’s something you regret buying, but you just can’t get rid of it? Sad as it is to say, my rat Mitsu. She's nervous of being held, yet she always jumps up onto the cage's bars when I'm passing and enjoys me petting her through them, but that's all I can do, and I feel awful. Her claws also reeeaaally irritate my skin (maybe from the bedding, idk), but getting rid of a pet rat isn't exactly easy, especially with the fear of her being bought merely as food. What villain do you believe is most worthy of a redemption arc? Is Harley Quinn still even a villain??? What was your favorite school project you ever made? Idr. What role do you take on when you have to do a group project? (for example: leader, delegator, slacker, etc.) The meticulous writer/taking the notes. What’s a funny mistake you’ve made recently? Oh boy, how is nothing coming to me among certainly a million options in the back of my mind??? OH WAIT. I was texting Sara and mentioned I was watching Shane Dawson, but it autocorrected to "Shame," and I was like, "still accurate." What would be your reaction if one of your parents said they were having another kid? My mom's long past that age. And my parents are divorced. How many friends do you have that don’t live in the same country as you? One of my long-time Internet buds, off the top of my head. What is always in your wallet that doesn’t need to be? HAHA. One time in high school, me a few friends got together to just wander the mall. We went into a tux store and got a card there for literally no reason, but it's still in my wallet for memory's sake. What is a strange red flag you have when pursuing a relationship? Excessive and/or raunchy flirting. If a single thing you say fits the latter, you're fucking out. How many people have you thought “Glad I don’t have to interact with them ever again” about? Probably a decent number. What do you NOT want on your tombstone? Don't mention shit about God or Jesus or whatever. How many couches do you want in your residence? One long one or two average ones for the sake of accommodating company. What is the strangest website you have bookmarked? Nothing strange. What is your typical number of windows/tabs open on your computer? Ha, usually 4-5 tabs. Sometimes more, sometimes just two or three. Do you follow the expiration date on food? Like, religiously. What is the coolest name that you would never name a real human child? "Magnus" is the first that came to me. What fish scares you the most? Probably stonefish. Hard to spot 'em, venomous as hell, enough to sometimes kill. How do you feel about snails? In almost all cases, they gross me out. Just not as much as slugs. I hate slimy things. How often do you think about what guys will think of you? The older I get, the less I give a fuck what one thinks, at least about how I look. If you are on birth control that allows you take pills and skip your period, how often do you opt to skip it? How come? I can't skip mine. Is there a book series where you loved the first book, but for some reason the other books in the series just didn’t measure up? Idr. Are there any stores/restaurants that you would like to shop/eat at, but there aren’t any located near enough to you? Oh, I'm sure. I'd have to think. If you are a part of a certain fandom or are a fan of a popular series/musician, is there a rivalry between your fandom and another one (e.g., Lady Gaga fans vs. Katy Perry fans or Marvel vs. DC)? The Silent Hill and Resident Evil franchises are often compared, but I haven't seen much "rivalry." There are some people who pit Markiplier and JackSepticEye against each other with them being close in subs, but it's wonderful that I usually see only great bonding between the two fandoms instead, and they usually overlap with fans. Metallica is constantly shit on by Slayer fans. There's more, I'm sure, but I don't feel like digging deep into the thousand fandoms I'm in lmao. Do you ever have smell hallucinations? Don't think so. If you were told by a professional that you were unable to become pregnant, how would that affect you? Is there something important to you about conceiving a biological child rather than adoption? And finally, if you even want to have children, would you choose adoption or surrogacy or would you go on childless? Honestly? I'd be fucking ecstatic. I'll probably never have hetero sex ever again, but rapists always worry me. I don't at all want kids. Is there something that you did not used to take seriously, that you either now take seriously or wish that you had in the past (e.g., a relationship that you miss, your education, etc.)? Man, I don't know. I would say my college, but I didn't really have a choice in my decrepit mental state, and fuck that school from a trillion different angles anyway. Are you physically affectionate with your friends? Just with hugs. I'm not a platonic cuddler/kisser/hand-holder. Are any of your friends/relatives actually impressive artists or writers? Are you willing to share an example of their work? My cousin is an incredible artist, but I don't believe I've seen her work in years. When it comes to relationships/crushes, are you more often the pursued or the pursuer? Pursued, I guess. Do you ever find yourself making negative comments about other people’s appearances, whether it’s people you dislike or even just people on tv? I generally keep comments to myself. Have you ever dated someone on the football team? No. Do you have any ceramic animals in your house or outside? There is this pointless dolphin in the corner of our backyard?????????? Why????????????? Who made you???????????????? Have you ever made a summer bucket list? No. Have you ever stayed in a hotel suite? No. What type of waffles do you like? (Plain, blueberry etc..) Plain or chocolate chip, 'pending on the mood. Have you ever been to a night club? No. What was the last thing to make you sad? A picture on Facebook of some dick posing beside an elephant he killed at a watering hole. It was in an anti-trophy group or something like that. Do you kill spiders when you see them? If it's in my house and not tiny, unless it's too close to me. Are you allergic to any animals? Which ones? No. Does it bother you when people play with your hair? It would if it was anyone but my s/o or maybe my mom, but even from her, that might feel weird. What is your favorite movie series? SHREK, BITCH. I haven't seen the fourth one though and I am legitimately mad. Not sayin' it for the meme, I legit love Shrek okay. Did your parents get married before or after you were born? I actually found out recently it was after I was born. True/False: You’ve had an odd dream this week. It's weird, I've actually been briefly recalling them lately... but not for long. I believe I have, though. Who was the last person to let you down? Mom, probably. Can you dry swallow pills? I'm capable with small capsule ones, but I don't. What was the last thing you ordered online? Sara's Christmas present. Are you happy with your relationship with God, or do you want more from it? I have no relationship with him, if you're addressing the "God" I'm assuming you do. Even with the entity I believe in, I don't really see us as having a "relationship" in this life. They're just my silent judge that sees me according to how I deserve. Is your spirit made for adventure? Eh. Yes and no. Have you ever been rejected by a church? No.

[lizthesnootyfoodie]

Cheese, please!

Hello my name is lizthesnootyfoodie, and the focus of my blog is food appreciation. Today I would like to talk about cheese. Despite being lactose intolerant, I have a huge appreciation for cheese. Cheese can vary greatly in quality, and pairings. I do recommend these cheeses to any cheese fan out there!

The first cheese I would like to talk about is muenster. This cheese originated in America, even though most people believe the cheese has German origins. When I was a little girl, they used to have this muenster that they would sell at BJ’s. It was honestly the best version of the cheese that I have ever had, and it makes me miss the days of 2007. The cheese tends to have small holes in it, though I have seen it without holes. I’m not sure why, but it just tastes better when it does tend to have holes.

The second cheese I would like to talk to you about is gouda. In late 2013, at the age of 14, my parents took me across Europe for the first time. On part of the trip we stayed in Amsterdam. The city is beautiful, and one lovely aspect of the city is the cheese. A little ways outside of Amsterdam, we saw a Dutch cheese factory, and we even saw a special storage room where they age cheese. This is where my next favorite cheese comes in. Reypenaer X.O. Reserve gouda is aged for up to 3 years. This cheese is a bit intense so picky eaters or first time eaters may not enjoy it. The first time I ate the cheese, the first bite was a lot, but it became my favorite cheese after a short while. The cheese almost had a flavor that was reminiscent of sweets, and it can be hard to not eat too much in one sitting.

Another cheese that I admire would be pepper jack. Every year on New Year’s Eve, my mom would put out a classic American cheese platter along with some other snacks. The platter had swiss, cheddar, colby jack, and finally pepper jack. I swear every year, the pepper jack was gone before you could say, “Happy New Years!” This cheese had a mix of pepper flakes in it, for a mildly spicy flavor. I love making nachos with this cheese or adding it to a sandwich when I want to add a little spice to the overall flavor.

Originating from Switzerland, this next cheese is one that is popular as an ingredient in dishes. I am talking about gruyere cheese. One of my earliest experiences with this cheese was when I had just had a mild surgery. I wasn’t allowed to eat for a day before the surgery, and afterwards my mom took me for a snack as I was starving. Gruyere was heavily featured in the egg bites that we got from the Starbucks from across the street, and I’ve never turned down gruyere in a dish so far. I love seeing all the creative ways modern chefs have integrated this cheese in their dishes.

I would like to end things with a classic Italian cheese. This is a cheese I have enjoyed in Italy as well as in America. My first introduction to this cheese would be mozzarella sticks, with and without deep fried breading. I’ve also had the traditional Italian mozzarella ball which is delicious. I won’t lie to you, whenever I felt like something plain in Italy I would order a margherita pizza which heavily features mozzarella balls, and I do crave this pizza every now and then. Mozzarella is a classic that can stand alone, or work as a flavorful ingredient which is something you cannot say about every cheese out there.

[ravusnightblossom]

Name: “Fox” works just fine. 

Pronouns: She/Her

Selectivity: I’m more selective now than when I first made this blog, for sure. I’m a bit picky, but mostly it’s due to the fact that I want to RP with everyone, and being selective helps me uphold self control and keep from getting too overwhelmed. Plus, I like to make sure that I’m following those who will mesh with my writing.

Favorite animal: Foxes (There’s a shocker.)

Favorite muse you’ve had so far ever: Ravus, actually. I’m so emotionally invested in him at this point, and playing him for years has made it almost effortless to write him as a muse (my only deterrent has been motivation to actually write at times.) He’s my precious beb, though, and is very special to me.

Muse you kinda wanna pick up: I’m actually attempting to practice some self restraint in the category, to be honest. Though, there’s an old OC of mine that’s been prying at my mind, lately. I’ve been considering letting him out to play, but I’m uncertain as to how well he’d be received. I was actually just spouting to @sanguinepeccatorum about this, last night. 

Most identifiable fictional character: Truthfully? Noctis. This is ironically the main reason why I could never comfortably RP him. 

What color your aura is/think it is: Violet, maybe? With a few white ripples that tear through it, once in a while. 

Personality stuff you agree with (astrology, mbti, Hogwarts house, etc be as specific as you want!): I am a Hufflepuff, through and through.I won’t even begin to deny that one. I’m also a Virgo, but I lack so many of the traits a Virgo should have (frankly, I think I act more Libra.)

Do you think you’re a good driver: Well enough. I don’t always stop fully at stop signs around empty intersections in the middle of nowhere, and I have been known to rush a little to avoid a red light, but other than that, I do think I am. I follow speed limits and try to maintain proper safety. <3  Sometimes I do put my phone on speakerphone and talk to my mom on long trips, which I have no guilt for, (even though @lustralium scolds me for it.) Since my phone sits in a dock, it’s no different than talking to someone in the seat next to me. hdjkadhwdhqkhd

Favorite minor discourse (pinapple on pizza, what color is the dress, etc): Um... I have no idea. Is tea vs. coffee a discourse? Because I’ll vote for tea. And I love pineapple on my pizza.

Favorite vine and/or meme:  “Angry Dooting”    

Why did you choose this muse: Well, I wrote Ravus on Livejournal for years. I’m not even certain why I initially chose him. I think it was his aesthetic that appealed to me in the Versus XIII trailer. Then I started to actually adore him. Over the years the FFXV RPC on LJ has become nearly nonexistent, though. Then I ended up following @chancellorizunia to Tumblr and joined this merry bunch of misfits. (And I adore you all<3)

Favorite rp memory: ... Honestly, I have so many. This is something that would take a lot more consideration to answer than just in the time it takes to fill out a meme- something I’m just using as a procrastination tactic anyhow.  

Favorite thing you’ve written, in rp or not:  The take-down of a corrupt Moon God. This was...many years ago, but it was an intense plot between two other friends that last almost a year, and when the whole incident finally went down, it sort of reshaped our little writing circle in an intense way. That whole arc will always be my favorite.

A line/lyrics/quote/etc you like or that means a lot to you: “Blaze through life with a fire that can never be extinguished.”

Give a shout-out to someone(s): I’m going to love on @glacixn for this. Even though I know they can’t be here as much as they’d like to, they’re someone that I love to interact with and every time I see them on, I get so excited. I adore both muse and mun and I hope they know how special they are to me, even though we don’t get to talk frequently. xo        

Tagged by: Quite a few of you, thank you <3

Tagging: Anyone who wants to do it! Steal it and say I tagged you.

[fyp-psychology]

Rare Collection of 100 Introvert Quotes That Will Make You Feel Understood

Dear introverts, it’s difficult to understand you. Many people don’t comprehend that solitude and feeling alone are different things. As an introvert, you know that your solitude is a sacred space where you can recharge. We encourage you to have a look at these amazingly thoughtful and profound quotes, which will resonate with all introverts.

1. “People empty me. I have to get away to refill.” ~ C. Bukowski

2.“I think a lot, but I don’t say much.”~ Anne Frank

3.“I have to be alone very often. I’d be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That’s how I refuel.” ~ Audrey Hepburn

4.“You see things. You keep quiet about them and you understand. “ ~ The Perks of Being a Wallflower

5.“I’m very picky with whom I give my energy to. I prefer to reserve my time, intensity and spirit exclusively to those who reflect sincerity.” ~ Dau Voire

6.“I am rarely bored alone; I am often bored in groups and crowds.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

7.“There is a tremendous difference between alone and lonely. You could be lonely in a group of people. I like being alone. I like eating by myself. I go home at night and just watch a movie or hang out with my dog. I have to exert myself and really say, oh God, I’ve got to see my friends because I’m too content with myself.” ~ Drew Barrymore

8.“Silence is only frightening to people who are compulsively verbalizing.” ~ William S. Boroughs

9.“Quiet people have the loudest minds.” Stephen Hawking

10.“In order to be open to creativity, one must have the capacity for constructive use of solitude. One must overcome the fear of being alone.” ~ Rollo May

11.“What if you love knowledge for its own sake, not necessarily as a blueprint for action? What if you wish there were more, not fewer reflective types in the world.” ~Susan Cain

12.“Please kindly go away, I’m introverting.” ~ Beth Buelow, The Introvert Entrepreneur

13.“A good rule of thumb is that any environment that consistently leaves you feeling bad about who you are is the wrong environment.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

14.“Everyone shines, given the right lighting.” ~Susan Cain

15.“Don’t underestimate me because I’m quiet. I know more than I say, think more than I speak and observe more than you know.” ~ Michaela Chung

16.“Introverts crave meaning so party chit-chat feels like sandpaper to our psyche.” ~ Diane Cameron

17.“I am a minimalist. I like saying the most with the least.” ~Bob Newhart

18.“Let’s clear one thing up: Introverts do not hate small talk because we dislike people. We hate small talk because we hate the barrier it creates between people.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

19.“The highest form of love is to be the protector of another person’s solitude.” Rainer Maria Rilke

20.“Introvert conversations are like jazz. Each player gets to solo for a nice stretch before the other player comes in and does his solo.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

21.“Originality thrives in seclusion free of outside influences beating upon us to cripple the creative mind. Be alone—that is the secret of invention: be alone, that is when ideas are born.”~ Nikola Tesla

22.“In terms of, like, instant relief, canceling plans is like heroin.” ~John Mulaney

23.“Stay true to your own nature. If you like to do things in a slow and steady way, don’t let others make you feel as if you have to race. If you enjoy the depth, don’t force yourself to seek breadth.” ~ Susan Cain

24.”Introverts treasure the close relationships they have stretched so much to make.”- Adam S. McHugh

25.“I want to be alone… with someone else who wants to be alone.” – Dimitri Zaik

26.“Our culture made a virtue of living only as extroverts. We discouraged the inner journey, the quest for a center. So we lost our center and have to find it again.” ~Anais Nin

27.“Silence is beautiful, not awkward. The human tendency to be afraid of something beautiful is awkward.” ~Elliot Kay

28.“After an hour or two of being socially on, we introverts need to turn off and recharge … This isn’t antisocial. It isn’t a sign of depression.” Jonathan Rauch

29.“Your solitude will be a support and a home for you, even in the midst of very unfamiliar circumstances, and from it you will find all your paths.” ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

30.“There’s zero correlation between being the best talker and having the best ideas.” ~Susan Cain

31.“I talked to a calzone for fifteen minutes last night before I realized it was just an introverted pizza. I wish all my acquaintances were so tasty.
” ~ Jarod Kintz

32.“The secret to life is to put yourself in the right lighting. For some, it’s a Broadway spotlight, for others, a lamplit desk.” ~ Susan Cain

33.“As a child, I suppose I was not quite normal. My happiest times were when I was left alone in the house on a Saturday.” ~ Charles Bukowski

34.“When you’re an introvert like me and you’ve been lonely for a while, and then you find someone who understands you, you become really attached to them. It’s a real release.” Lana Del Rey

35.“Blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge.” ~ Paulo Coelho

36.“I was just confused about why I was feeling overwhelmed all the time and trying to adjust to having people work for me. Surprisingly, I think if you’re known on the Internet, you’re probably an introvert.” ~ Felicia Day

37.“’Come out of your shell’ – that noxious expression which fails to appreciate that some animals naturally carry shelter everywhere they go and some humans are just the same.” ~ Susan Cain

38.“I don’t have time for superficial friends, I suppose if you’re really lonely you can call a superficial friend, but otherwise, what’s the point? ~ Courtney Cox

39.“I owe everything that I have done to the fact that I am very much at ease being alone.” ~ Marilynne Robinson

40.“Introverts listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror for small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.” ~ Susan Cain

41.“My imagination functions much better when I don’t have to speak to people.” ~ Patricia Highsmith

42.”For introverts, to be alone with our thoughts is as restorative as sleeping, as nourishing as eating.” ~ Jonathan Rauch

43.“Beware of those who seek constant crowds; they are nothing alone.” ~Charles Bukowski

44.“I’m self-sufficient. I spend a lot of time on my own and I shut off quite easily. When I communicate, I communicate 900 per cent; then I shut off, which scares people sometimes.” ~ Bjork

45.“Loneliness is failed solitude.” Sherry Turkle

46.A happy life must be to a great extent a quiet life, for it is only in an atmosphere of quiet that true joy dare live. ~ Bertrand Russell

47.“Whatever kind of introvert you are, some people will find you ‘too much’ in some ways and ‘not enough’ in others.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

48.“A wise man once said nothing.” ~ Proverb

49.“In an extroverted society, the difference between an introvert and an extrovert is that an introvert is often unconsciously deemed guilty until proven innocent.” ~ Criss Jami

50.“When I am alone I can become invisible. I can sit on the top of a dune as motionless as an uprise of weeds until the foxes run by unconcerned. I can hear the almost unhearable sound of the roses singing.” ~ Mary Oliver

51.“Most people in politics draw energy from backslapping and shaking hands and all that. I draw energy from discussing ideas.” ~ Al Gore

52.“Solitude matters and for some people, it’s the air they breathe.” ~ Susan Cain

53.“I don’t believe anything really revolutionary has ever been invented by committee… I’m going to give you some advice that might be hard to take. That advice is: Work alone… Not on a committee. Not on a team.” ~ Steve Wozniak

54.“Don’t think of introversion as something that needs to be cured…Spend your free time the way you like, not the way you think you’re supposed to.”~ Susan Cain

55.“You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet. ~ Franz Kafka

56.“Wise men speak because they have something to say; Fools because they have to say something.” ~ Plato

57.“I was never less alone than when by myself.” ~ Edward Gibbon

58.Wise men, when in doubt whether to speak or to keep quiet, give themselves the benefit of the doubt, and remain silent. ~ Napoleon Hill

59.“Solitude has its own very strange beauty to it.” ~ Liv Tyler

60.“Better to keep quiet and let people think you’re an idiot than speak up and confirm it.” ~ Rodney Dangerfield

61.“I restore myself when I’m alone.” Marilyn Monroe

62.“Introverts dislike small talk, but we are fluent in the language of ideas and dreams.” ~ Michaela Chung

63.“You may think I’m small, but I have a universe inside my mind.” ~Yoko Ono

64.“Love is essential, gregariousness is optional.” ~ Susan Cain

65.“Your visions will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes” C.G. Jung

66.“As an introvert, you can be your own best friend or your worst enemy. The good news is we generally like our own company, a quality that extroverts often envy. We find comfort in solitude and know how to soothe ourselves.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

67.“People say things to me like, ‘It’s really cool that you don’t go out and get drunk all the time and go to clubs.’ I appreciate that, but I’m kind of an introverted kind of person just by nature.” ~ Emma Watson

68.“I think I’m a weird combination of deeply introverted and very daring. I can feel both those things working.” ~ Helen Hunt

69.“E-mail is far more convenient than the telephone. As far as I’m concerned, I would throw my phone away if I could get away with it.” ~ Tom Hanks

70.“My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude.” Warsan Shire

71.“I really like to stay in my nest and not move. I travel in my mind, and that’s a rigorous state of journeying for me. My body isn’t that interested in moving from place to place.” ~ Bell Hooks

72.“I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself than be crowded on a velvet cushion.” ~ Henry David Thoreau

73.“Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family.” ~ Susan Cain

74.“I don’t want to be alone. I want to be left alone.” ~ Audrey Hepburn

75.“I don’t hate people, I just feel better when they aren’t around.” ~Charles Bukowski

76.“Introverts are capable of acting like extroverts for the sake of work they consider important, people they love, or anything they value highly.” ~ Susan Cain

77.“Sometimes quiet people really do have a lot to say … they’re just being careful about who they open up to.” Susan Gale

78.“You only know part of me. I am a universe full of secrets.” ~ Lupytha Hermin

79.“A bore is someone who deprives you of solitude without providing you with company.” ~ Oscar Wilde

80.“I prefer tongue-tied knowledge to ignorant loquacity.” ~ Margaret Donnano

81.“Alone had always felt like an actual place to me, as if it weren’t a state of being, but rather a room where I could retreat to be who I really was.” ~ Cheryl Strayed

82.“An introvert may feel asocial when pressured to go to a party that doesn’t interest her. But for her, the event does not promise meaningful interaction. In fact, she knows that the party will leave her feeling more alone and alienated.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

83.“Living is like tearing through a museum. Not until later do you really start absorbing what you saw, thinking about it, looking it up in a book, and remembering – because you can’t take it in all at once.” ~Audrey Hepburn

84.“The more powerful and original a mind, the more it will incline towards the religion of solitude.” ~ Aldous Huxley

85.“People are always so boring when they band together. You have to be alone to develop all the idiosyncrasies that make a person interesting.” ~ Andy Warhol

86.“Most inventors and engineers I’ve met are like me. They’re shy and they live in their heads. The very best of them are artists. And artists work best alone…” ~ Steve Wozniak

87.“Kindly remove yourself from my personal space. Thanks.” ~ Gemma Correll

88.“Deep inside, she knew who she was, and that person was smart and kind and often even funny, but somehow her personality always got lost somewhere between her heart and her mouth, and she found herself saying the wrong thing or, more often, nothing at all.” ~ Julia Quinn

89.“Sometimes I just shut down and don’t talk to anyone for days. It’s nothing personal.” ~ Sonya Teclai

90.“I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps but other people emphasize my loneliness.” ~ Anais Nin

91.“Never fail to know that if you are doing all the talking you are boring somebody.” ~Helen Gurley Brown

92.“Lighthouses don’t go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.” ~ Anne Lamott

93.“Study me as much as you like, you will never know me. For I differ a hundred ways from what you see me to be.” ~ Rumi

94.“How much better is silence; the coffee cup, the table. How much better to sit by myself like the solitary sea-bird that opens its wings on the stake. Let me sit here forever with bare things, this coffee cup, this knife, this fork, things in themselves, myself being myself.” ~ Virginia Wolf, The Waves

95.“What a commentary on our civilization, when being alone is considered suspect; when one has to apologize for it, make excuses, hide the fact that one practices it like a secret vice!” Anne Morrow Lindbergh

96.“People inspire you, or they drain you — pick them wisely.” ~ Hans F. Hansen

97.“I’m indecisive because I see eight sides to everything.” ~ April Kepne

98.“In a gentle way, you can shake the world.” – Mahatma Gandhi

99.“So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me. Because I, too, am fluent in silence.”- R. Arnold

100.“Every time we stomp down our introverted nature, we crush part of our soul in the process.” ~ Michaela Chung

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“I am rarely bored alone; I am often bored in groups and crowds.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

“I have to be alone very often. I’d be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That’s how I refuel.” ~ Audrey Hepburn

“You see things. You keep quiet about them and you understand. “ ~ The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“I’m very picky with whom I give my energy to. I prefer to reserve my time, intensity and spirit exclusively to those who reflect sincerity.” ~ Dau Voire

“There is a tremendous difference between alone and lonely. You could be lonely in a group of people. I like being alone. I like eating by myself. I go home at night and just watch a movie or hang out with my dog. I have to exert myself and really say, oh God, I’ve got to see my friends because I’m too content by myself.” ~ Drew Barrymore

“Silence is only frightening to people who are compulsively verbalizing.” ~ William S. Boroughs

“I think a lot, but I don’t say much.” Anne Frank

“People empty me. I have to get away to refill.” ~ C. Bukowski

“Quiet people have the loudest minds.” Stephen Hawking

“In order to be open to creativity, one must have the capacity for constructive use of solitude. One must overcome the fear of being alone.” ~ Rollo May

“Don’t underestimate me because I’m quiet. I know more than I say, think more than I speak and observe more than you know.” ~ Michaela Chung

“What if you love knowledge for its own sake, not necessarily as a blueprint to action? What if you wish there were more, not fewer reflective types in the world.” ~Susan Cain

“Please kindly go away, I’m introverting.” ~ Beth Buelow, The Introvert Entrepreneur

“Everyone shines, given the right lighting.” ~Susan Cain

“A good rule of thumb is that any environment that consistently leaves you feeling bad about who you are is the wrong environment.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

“Introverts crave meaning so party chitchat feels like sandpaper to our psyche.” ~ Diane Cameron

“I am a minimalist. I like saying the most with the least.” ~Bob Newhart

“Let’s clear one thing up: Introverts do not hate small talk because we dislike people. We hate small talk because we hate the barrier it creates between people.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

“Originality thrives in seclusion free of outside influences beating upon us to cripple the creative mind. Be alone—that is the secret of invention: be alone, that is when ideas are born.”~ Nikola Tesla

“The highest form of love is to be the protector of another person’s solitude.” Rainer Maria Rilkej

“When you’re an introvert like me and you’ve been lonely for a while, and then you find someone who understands you, you become really attached to them. It’s a real release.” Lana Del Rey

“Stay true to your own nature. If you like to do things in a slow and steady way, don’t let others make you feel as if you have to race. If you enjoy depth, don’t force yourself to seek breadth.” ~ Susan Cain

“Introvert conversations are like jazz. Each player gets to solo for a nice stretch before the other player comes in and does his solo.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

“Introverts are word economists in a society suffering from verbal diarrhea.” ~ Michaela Chung

“I want to be alone… with someone else who wants to be alone.” – Dimitri Zaik.

“Our culture made a virtue of living only as extroverts. We discouraged the inner journey, the quest for a center. So we lost our center and have to find it again.” ~Anais Nin

“Silence is beautiful, not awkward. The human tendency to be afraid of something beautiful is awkward.” ~Elliot Kay

“After an hour or two of being socially on, we introverts need to turn off and recharge … This isn’t antisocial. It isn’t a sign of depression.” Jonathan Rauch

“Your solitude will be a support and a home for you, even in the midst of very unfamiliar circumstances, and from it you will find all your paths.” ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

“There’s zero correlation between being the best talker and having the best ideas.” ~Susan Cain

“I talked to a calzone for fifteen minutes last night before I realized it was just an introverted pizza. I wish all my acquaintances were so tasty.
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“The secret to life is to put yourself in the right lighting. For some it’s a Broadway spotlight, for others, a lamplit desk.” ~ Susan Cain

“As a child I suppose I was not quite normal. My happiest times were when I was left alone in the house on a Saturday.” ~ Charles Bukowski

“In terms of, like, instant relief, canceling plans is like heroin.” ~John Mulaney

“Blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge.” ~ Paulo Coelho

“I was just confused about why I was feeling overwhelmed all the time and trying to adjust to having people work for me. Surprisingly, I think if you’re known on the Internet, you’re probably an introvert.” ~ Felicia Day

“’Come out of your shell’ – that noxious expression which fails to appreciate that some animals naturally carry shelter everywhere they go and some humans are just the same.” ~ Susan Cain

“I don’t have time for superficial friends, I suppose if you’re really lonely you can call a superficial friend, but otherwise, what’s the point? ~ Courtney Cox

“I owe everything that I have done to the fact that I am very much at ease being alone.” ~ Marilynne Robinson

“[Introverts] listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror for small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.” ~ Susan Cain

“My imagination functions much better when I don’t have to speak to people.” ~ Patricia Highsmith

“For introverts, to be alone with our thoughts is as restorative as sleeping, as nourishing as eating.” ~ Jonathan Rauch

“Beware of those who seek constant crowds; they are nothing alone.” ~Charles Bukowski

“I’m self-sufficient. I spend a lot of time on my own and I shut off quite easily. When I communicate, I communicate 900 per cent; then I shut off, which scares people sometimes.” ~ bjork

“Loneliness is failed solitude.” Sherry Turkle

A happy life must be to a great extent a quiet life, for it is only in an atmosphere of quiet that true joy dare live. ~ Bertrand Russell

“Whatever kind of introvert you are, some people will find you ‘too much’ in some ways and ‘not enough’ in others.” ~ Laurie Helgoe

“A wise man once said nothing.” ~ Proverb

“Don’t think of introversion as something that needs to be cured…Spend your free time the way you like, not the way you think you’re supposed to.”~ Susan Cain

“In an extroverted society, the difference between an introvert and an extrovert is that an introvert is often unconsciously deemed guilty until proven innocent.” ~ Criss Jami