#I am never not thinking about those gay little fruit

[katrinawritesthings]

Hey! I saw your post about pairings x weird kinks and I don't know if you write JongTae stuff anymore but if you do could you do blood?

Weird as hell I know but kinda the point I guess? Idk 🤣

Love your blog BTW I've read every single jongtae writing from your masterlist x

"Wait, hold on. I'm gonna pass out."

"you're going to pass out?" Taemin's breath comes out of him in a laugh, confused, astonished. He can't have heard that right. Jonghyun isn't the one tied up with thin knife slices in his shoulders, blood running down his arms, dripping off of his fingers.

Jonghyun isn't the one that's been feeling the sting of the blade, the tingle of nerves, the dull throb of his heartbeat pouring out of his skin. Jonghyun is just sitting there in front of him, knife in hand, hands covered in Taemin's blood, red fingerprints on his cheeks, his neck, streaked down his chest, smeared all over his cock, mixing with pearly white precum.

But Jonghyun is also closing his eyes, taking deep breaths, fanning his face, swallowing hard. "Are you for real?" Taemin asks, grinning, working his hands free of the loose knots keeping his wrists bound to his hips and the wall so he can catch Jonghyun if he needs to.

"Yeah," Jonghyun gasps. He's smiling, too, embarrassed at himself, and he says, "it's just--it's just, you look so beautiful, and I never thought anyone would let me, and I always wanted to but I've always been so scared, and you're so gorgeous, and I kind of want to crawl inside of you, and, like, I already knew but I realized you have to trust me so much, and I--" he sways, he actually gets dizzy, and a tear falls out of his eye.

Laughing, Taemin cradles his head in his arms. So much for the evil kidnapper torture roleplay, he guesses, if Jonghyun is going to get all emotional about how much they love each other or whatever. Way to ruin a good time.

Jonghyun turns and nuzzles into him, giggling against his chest. "Just, like, give me a minute to finish being gay, and then I'll tie you up again," he says.

[respectthepetty]

Pride Petty Watch (SOTUS) 2/5

Since so many people voted for the two blacklisted shows I was supposed to watch during Pride, it unlocked the wild card of me rewatching my sworn enemy SOTUS. I don't remember anything about the show, and the only thing I truly took away from it was hating Krist for the last eight years, so I'm settling in and revisiting the past to figure out why I forgot about every single plot point of this show including that Jan was in it and that Kongpob x M were the perfect ghost ship.

I left off praying that Arthit gets meaner before he gets nicer, which I consider as getting better before he gets worse, but since I'm getting Dangerous Romance flashbacks flash forwards, I doubt Arthit can commit to bullying Kong much longer before he turns full simp.

How am I not supposed to root for Kong x M when M looks so devastated every time Kong leaves his side to go talk to May. I know M likes May, but the way these scenes are set up, it's hard not to think that M likes Kong and he is in pain when everyone else gets his friend's time since he has known Kong SINCE JUNIOR HIGH!

Thrilled that Wad is always ready to lay hands first and ask questions later. Also excited that he is motivated by pettiness just like me, so the only reason he is playing in the tea product placement game is just to spite the seniors. Petty work makes the dream work. Amen.

The pink milk in this series needs to be studied because on one end of the spectrum, we in BL Land know the pink milk is a staple of a Thai BL (which is slowly coming back in Last Twilight, Only Friends, Addicted Heroin and I Saw You in My Dream), but on the other end, the show itself treats the pink milk like those dumb hot takes from people asking if drinking fruity cocktails makes a man a fruit, or if sucking on popsicles makes a man want to suck a dick, or if eating food in general makes a man queer. It just feels as if this show treats Arthit that way every time he orders it, like "GOTCHA, QUEER!"

If I were that food vendor, and Kong started popping out with these little nuggets while Arthit just kept threatening him, their business would be all up in the group chat because I'd be messaging all my friends that these two gay guys were practically foreplaying right in front of my salad pork skewers.

So of course Arthit would show up to the game just to stand there and glare at a man drenched in sweat from playing a hard game of basketball like the internalized-homophobic asshat he is.

God, some things never change.

WE GOT COCA-COLA MONEY?!

I gasped not because of the note on this conversation but because of the comment coming from AN OPENLY GAY MAN on the hazers squad. I am not Thai, so the only way I can relate to the hazers is through Greek life (fraternities and sororities), and even a long long time ago, I knew openly gay men in frats, and they pulled ALL the girls since girls felt safer around them than the straights, but the look Prem and Arthit are giving Tuta when he says this is what I'm laser-focused on because they show toleration rather than acceptance. I'm taking those looks personally.

Arthit continues to say Kong's face is annoying, but he never says it's ugly. Sir, I see your gay awakening on the horizon.

AND M WITH THE FUCKING LOOKS AGAIN! He is looking at Kong on stage then looking at May looking at Kong on the stage, and I know where this is going, but my god does it feel like M is sad because he believes Kong is straight and wouldn't reciprocate the feelings he has for his best friend SINCE JUNIOR HIGH!

I have made it clear that I do not like Krist (I believe his acting is flimsy but I can't even act like I like people, so who am I to judge), but I don't think the people behind the filming of this show liked him either because these opening title cards between the parts of the episodes are doing him dirty.

Excuse me, little stage presenter, I need to know what the fuck was going on with this performance that they had a western theme with modern guns. Was it Big Sean's "I Don't Fuck With You"?

And why is Jan looking like Taylor Swift in "Teardrops On My Guitar"? This show was in 2016, but the styling and hair are in 2003.

Now the judges are coming for Kong, and Lord knows he is going to answer in the most uncontroversial way because Kong refuses to pick a side against hazing and the boy he likes being punished by.

*eye roll* I did not think I'd make it here this quickly, but I'm on Arthit's side because Kong IS annoying. Jan's character looks full-on Stockholm Syndrome into the camera when Kong is answering, yet homeboy is just over there giving the most ridiculous reason of "our hazers have their reasons for hazing us" and now I see the direct line to GMMTV forgiving parents for abuse (Double Savage!).

Kong can play basketball really well. He remembers everyone's name. The whole class wanted him to be president. He is great in school. Now he is the Freshy Moon. Marsha, Marsha, Marsha. I hate this kid.

M, my most beloved, now I see why you're quiet a lot.

I appreciate M for also stating that Kong is just great at everything without trying, but it also feels that he is hyping up his boy because he has been IN LOVE WITH HIS SINCE JUNIOR HIGH!

In a room full of people, only Kong notices that M is unhappy, and now I see the direct they-are-married-but-not-a-couple line to Peaceful Property. New understands these roles well.

THE QUESTIONS THAT NEED ANSWERS! Can you run 54 laps, Arthit? Can you squat 200 times, Prem? These freshmen won everything, yet Arthit is still being a dickwad, and he just got his ass off of school probation. Bold move, sir! I want the juniors to suffer. Except for Bright. My boy has never done anything wrong, and if he did, he didn't.

I saw an umbrella in The Ex-Morning pilot trailer, and if that show doesn't give me a scene of these two arguing in the rain over the dumbest shit, then what is the point?

All those people watching Arthit, and none of his boys could run with him? If the purpose of hazing is unity, obviously the juniors didn't get that memo when they were being hazed as freshmen, so why continue the traditions that they don't even abide by?! Arthit is better than me because I would have crawled my ass back to my dorm before accepting their help SINCE THEY DIDN'T EVEN RUN LAPS! And now this little freshman wants to be up in his face. What's the point of the umbrella now?! He is a boy in a BL who has been in the rain for hours. HE IS ALREADY GOING TO DIE NO THANKS TO YOU UNHELPFUL DOUCHE NOZZLES!

I was just on Arthit's side, but then the show decided to tell me that entire seniors-hazing-the-juniors thing was a setup, and mixed with most of the images on Arthit's door being black-and-white, and one of those images being Charles Manson's Rolling Stone cover, I'm back to hating him again. So in case anyone is still following along, I now hate both of the leads. Can I get M and Bright back?

Kong says several times that Arthit can punish him, then he irons Arthit's clothes. If this show would just lean into the kink of it all, I would embrace everything about it. If Kong could just be a masochist dom, I would be delighted. JAPAN, COME HERE RIGHT NOW! Fuck remaking Love in the Air! Remake this kinky shit instead!

This is what a sado sub looks likes and Japan would know exactly what to do with him. Now I'm mad that I'm watching the babygirl-fication of a perfectly good jerk.

Well hello there you two! You wanna make out before going to the hospital? Maybe keep it all a secret from everybody else? I'm so pissed that I can't remember this plot now because I don't think they will be a thing BUT THEY WOULD BE PERFECT!

And I'm still rooting for my boy M to get his best friend since unlike Arthit, M can at least acknowledge that his friend is pretty to his face. No internalized homophobia here but probably because M isn't even a homo. I've sailed ships with less.

😬🥴🙃 Thank you subtitler for keeping the word. It's important. So are the looks that I'm taking personally. And BRIGHT IS THE ONE TO SAY IT! So I like M now and only M. Everyone can eat dirt and choke.

Arthit's nickname means warmth? I'm starting to remember why I forgot this show. Like Celine Dion, "It's All Coming Back to Me Now"

And I hate it.

[maemaemania]

rushing water

little short story about pidge that takes place in the same timeline as my main pidge fic just a bit beforehand. i hc that pidge couldnt swim when they all first went up in space and they figured it wouldnt be any problem,,,, until it was.

CW drowning

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Pidge hated nature. 

Ok hate was a strong word. They really really didn't like it. Sure they were the paladin of the green lion guardian of the forest and blah blah blah but that doesn't mean they had to like trees or dirt or mud or water. Especially mud and water. Mud was sticky and wet and itchy. It would get inside their armor and they felt like they were losing it whenever it touched their skin. Then the water. If it isn't in the shower, pidge hates getting wet. It makes their clothes heavy and cling to them and weigh them down then all the water in space isn't exactly clean and some of it makes them itchy when it touches their skin. They had sensory issues and mud and water were their biggest enemies because of it. They didn't understand why Keith never had this problem after all he was autistic too why didn't it affect him? It's not like they wanted their teammate to be uncomfortable too but it would make them feel better knowing they were not the only one. So as the team trudged through an uninhabited planet full of thick forests and layers of mud lets just say pidge was not having a good time. At least the air was breathable and they didn't need their helmets.

“This sucks,” they said as they swatted another giant leaf away from their face only for it to swing right back around and knock them over which earned a giggle from the team.

“Aren't you supposed to be in tune with nature and all that jazz?” Lance asked as he helped the younger paladin up off the ground, “I mean this should be your element.”

Pidge fished their glasses out of the mud with a huff and gave them a good shake to get the mud off before putting them back on, “this is not my element. My element is space and science and computers not nature. Nature can suck my di-”

“Pidge!” Shiro interrupted before they could finish, “language.”

Pidge threw their arms up in mock defeat, “I don't even have one of those, how am i not allowed to even say it?” they asked and Lance snorted while Keith rolled his eyes at the two of them. 

“No you can't,” Shiro told her. “Where did you get such a pottymouth?”

Pidge chuckled at that. “Potty mouth?”

“Shiro nobody has said that in like years.”

“Except for old people.”

“Yeah I gotta agree with them on that one shiro.”

“I don't need you to agree with me.”

“Oh shut up lance.”

“You shut up, mullet!”

“Guys!” Pidge yelled to get their attention, “as much as i find entertainment in Lance and Keith’s useless gay pining-”

“That's not-”

“What we're looking for should be just over there.” they pointed past a valley to the other side where a large patch of trees filled to the brim with fruits stood.

“Perfect. Good work pidge.” Shiro ruffled their hair which Pidge pretends to be annoyed by but internally they’re beaming at the praise. Shiro did remind them of Matt afterall so it was the closest they could get to their brother’s praise in space.

“Thanks shiro! Though I still don't think any of this was worth it for some alien fruit.” They said as they rubbed at the collar of their suit where some mud slipped in, “I've got mud in places mud should not be and desperately need a shower.”

“Wow you're actually willingly taking a shower? We’ve prayed for days like this.” hunk said as he made his way down the hill side with the others. Pidge would have thrown something at him if it wouldn't cause him to fall. If he had his helmet on they would have. Instead they followed the rest of their team down and felt better seeing it was dry dirt at the bottom of the valley instead of more mud.

“Weird,” they commented as they bent down to look closer at the ground, “everything else is covered in mud and water but this part is bone dry. Feels kinda hollow too." Pidge stood back up and as if on cue a loud crack went through the ground beneath them and they froze as the others turned to them at the sound.

Lance, who was the closest to them, reached out first. “Walk over to me and go slow,” he said as he held a hand out to them while the others kept a close eye on the ground ready to grab their fellow paladin if need be. 

Pidge took a deep breath then made the first step. There weren't any cracks so that was a good sign. They took two more and the ground still made no move to give away anymore so they figured they could move a little quicker. That was a mistake. They were nearly about to grab Lance's hand when the ground finally gave way beneath their feet and they felt themselves falling and heard someone yelling their name.

Pidge could hear the sound of the water before they hit it, loud and rushing fast. An underground river. Just great. The main reason pidge hated water was because they couldn’t swim. Yes it was embarrassing a paladin of voltron and former garrison cadet couldn't swim but they just never saw the point. They explore space not the ocean in fact they majorly prefer vastness of space over, as they would put it, the horrors of the ocean or any body of water for that matter. The family had tried to teach the youngest Holt to swim plenty of times when they were little but nothing ever stuck. Not to mention little katie would cling to their brother and refuse to let go even in pools. He would always just laugh and tell them that they were safe with him and he wouldn't let them go. They wished he was here now as the water dragged them down and forced its way into their lungs when they could no longer hold their breath anymore. It burned. It burned down their nose and throat and exploded in their chest. Is this what drowning feels like? They thought. God it's awful. It hurts so bad. I can't breathe. Then it all went dark.

•••

It was like it happened in slow motion watching the ground give way beneath pidge’s feet then seeing them disappear below the surface. Lance tried to reach out for them but it was too late. They were gone.

“PIDGE!” he yelled as he peered over the edge and watched their body disappear into the water. “Shit! They can't swim!” He looked up to the others and already saw Hunk taking out the spare rope he brought.

“Lance you're the second lightest-” Shiro started but Lance was already tying the rope around himself and getting his helmet on. 

“I'll get them back.” he said before jumping down the hole after them.

Lance hit the water far more gracefully than Pidge did and turned on his light looking for that familiar hint of green. Finally he saw them floating in the water and swam over. The closer he got the more panic set in when he noticed they weren’t moving besides the small spasms their body gave to show the water was already filling their lungs. He wasted no time in grabbing them and heading towards the surface, making sure they got up first. When he got back above water he tugged on the rope and held onto pidge tight as they both started getting lifted out the water and back up to the hole. They still hung limp in his arms. 

They got back up and Lance handed Pidge off to Keith while Shiro and Hunk helped him out. Keith quickly took pidge to a more stable part of the ground and laid them down.

“They're not breathing,” he said, taking their chest piece of their armor off to start CPR. The rest of the team gathered and watched as Keith did compressions on a body that was way too small to no longer be moving. “Come on, pidge. Come on,” Keith muttered under his breath as he continued to try and revive the kids he's come to know as a little sister. Their face was pale and their lips blue and cold but Keith was not stopping for anything. They heard a loud, mechanical roar in the distance, no doubt the green lion wondering what the problem was with her paladin and that only aided Keith to keep going. If the green lion was still going then Pidge was alive. Finally their eyes shot open and their chest shook as they started to cough up the water that had once invaded their lungs. Keith and Shiro were helping them sit up and Shiro gave their back a firm pat so the rest of the water would come back up too. When it was all finally gone they took a gasping breath and slumped onto Keith's shoulder. Shiro continued to rub their back.

“Easy there Katie,” he spoke softly. “Deep breaths just like that.” 

Pidge tried to do as he said and take deep slow breaths until finally their breathing evened out. Their nose and throat still burned but at least they were alive. Suddenly their body lunged forward and they threw up a mix of water and mud onto the ground. Tears threatened to spill over just from the pain alone but pidge refused to let them fall. They didn't like crying. A hand touched their cheek and gently tilted their head up so the others could see them.

“You with us Pidge?”

Pidge blinked a few times and squinted in an attempt to see who was talking to them. Finally they realized it was Lance and gave a small smile. “I'm ok. My lungs burn and I can't see for shit but I'm ok.” They were slowly helped up off the ground and braced from the side when their legs nearly gave out on them. They tried to shake it off knowing they just needed a few minutes to recuperate.

“We should get them back to the ship and into a cryopod.” Hunk tried to whisper it so Pidge wouldn't hear but they did.

“No. No cryopods. I hate them. Theyre cold and disorienting. I'm not going on one.” as much as Pidge admired Altean technology they hated those pods. How could they be capable of healing the body from injuries yet absolutely suck to be in? Granted Pidge just wasn't a fan of the cold seeing as they were anemic but still. They didn't like things messing with their head and they always came out of the cryopods confused and their brain would feel fuzzy for a bit after. Coran and Allura always assured them that it was just an after effect of them waking up out of a deep sleep but Pidge still didn't like it. Trying to get them into a pod was a fight every time and Hunk had the bite marks on his arms to prove it.

No one said anything in response so Pidge took that as a win (it wasn't) and was sure that meant they wouldn't get put in a pod (they will). They did let Keith give them a piggy back ride back to the castle. Sometimes they did like to enjoy just being a kid.

[fump-2]

History lesson

In the beginning there was r/195. Initially it was started as a way for like 3 roommates to share memes with each other. Their apartment number? 195.

As with any shitposting subreddit people find it and they shitpost. It grew semi-quickly because of its one rule, you have to post something before you leave.

Naturally there are more secret rules. This is obvious as reddit has some guidlines they like to keep, but the guy who made the subreddit from the beginning also removed things he didn't like. What's important is that they deleted a lot of bigotry. The result of him removing things was of course death threats.

Eventually the threats became too much, it was one person dealing with a hoard of edgy 15 year olds mad that their bigotry was being deleted. The apartments lease already passed so while a new community grew around this subreddit, he decided to hang it up. After a couple hundred days, the expirement ended. 195 was closed.

The community moves next door, to 196. The apartment of awesome.

The decisions those initial creators had stuck with this community, you have to post after scrolling before you leave. The community was already shappen though, the initial creator didn't like bigotry and the likes so that stuck with the new mod team.

During this time of course there's discorse. Wasp discorse, pillar discord, british people discorse. But there was never discorse about lgbtq+. It was common for a while to have posts about kicking terfs out of 196, only for there to be discorse about posting those images for karma farming.

Because of all this, that small preference from an initial guy, 196 was just a safe space for trans and nb and anyone else really (except british people, i think one person got doxxed for being british). Soon enough it just became the spot for them. Trans people attract trans people.

There's a whole lot more that could be added. The cake fucker, the fruit fucker, the pasta fucker (All one person by the way). The love of bridget from guilty gear and the slow brain rot of remembering her name (brisket, bronco, bringo). And lets not forget floppa friday.

In the end the mods decided to private it for now. They use mod tools that will probably break and a lot of problems are going to come out of new API changes from reddit so half the website went dark. The site is basically unusable for what I would check on it with all the subreddits down.

It was nice watching the evolution of 196. I was there from the start and I watched as it became gayer and gayer. I never really posted either (which was against the rule), nor am I trans/gay/secret thing. I'm a straight white male and seeing all the little gay people in my phone find and accept themselves for who they are made me very joyful. It also helped change my thinking to make sure I dont do anything bigoted while out in public.

Thank you 196. may you rest peacefully and may you live to see your resurgence.

(disclaimer some of this stuff may be wrong. dont use it as gospel. r/19684 still exist as an offchute with the same mods if you need a better account of the history.)

[fandomanimatic-tournament]

Fandom song animatic tournament: Side A Round 2

Little Miss Perfect - Written by Joriah Kwamé

"Straight hair, straight A's Straight forward, straight girl Little Miss Perfect, that's me"

Good for you - Dear Evan Hansen Musical

"So you got what you always wanted So you got your dream come true Good for you Good for you, you, you Got a taste of a life so perfect So you did what you had to do Good for you Good for you"

Never Love an Anchor - The Crane Wives

"I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel I am all the things they might have said to you Do you ever think of me and my two hands? And wonder why they never soothed your fevers? And wonder why they never tied your shoes? And wonder why they never held you gently? And wonder why they never had the chance to lose you?"

Remember that we're voting on how Iconic they are for ANIMATICS, not for the song itself. In order to make things fair, the tone and mood of the song should not affect how iconic it is (for example, a serious song should not be considered more iconic than a joke song just because it's serious)

Propaganda and animatic links of the songs under the cut:

Little Miss Perfect - Written by Joriah Kwamé

Propaganda:

The song that took The Owl House fandom by storm. Everyone took one listen and said YEP THAT'S AMITY. We stan our favorite spoiled yet emotionally neglected lesbian

Gay ppl 👍

The animatic for this song became so popular, the songwriter, Joriah Kwamé wrote another song from Luz Noceda’s perspective, then went on to make a full-blown musical with the concept of those two songs and the relationship extrapolated from the fanon, but using original characters! I don’t know what’s more cool than that :)

Animatics with the song:

(The original TOH Amity animatic was privated. Although there's a reupload, I've decided not to include it here. You can search for the video if you'd like)

Genshin Impact Xiaoven Animatic

Little Witch Academia Animatic

Fruits Basket Yuki and Kakeru Animatic

BNHA Momojirou Animatic

Ace Attorney

Good for you - Dear Evan Hansen Musical

Propaganda:

No Propaganda Submitted

Animatics with the song:

Naruto

Randy Cunningham 9th Grade Ninja

EDDSWORLD

Lego Monkey Kid

Gravity Falls

Doki Doki Literature Club

Never Love an Anchor - The Crane Wives

Propaganda:

THE tragic gay ship song

I’ve seen so many animatics of this song. I googled “Never Love an Anchor animatic” to triple check that there were more than 10 and I found one from a fandom I am in that I didn’t even know about. Also it’s a great song.

Animatics with the song:

Double Life

The Owl House Eda and Raine

Witch's Tale

The Owl House Huntlow

Our Flag Means Death

Lego Monkey Kid

[silvcrignis]

Claude Frollo Out of Context Sentence Starters || Part I/?

I have a divine mission to spread the Our Claude > Canon Frollo propaganda. What better way to do so than by making various quotes of his a sentence meme?

Clowning

 “What the FUCK is Bible Study & Chill?!”

 “Do you lot think the Booberry ghost is blue because he died by strangulation???

“I was absolutely high as shit last night. The Warwick Davis leprechaun himself could have started playing knick knack on my lung & I likely would not have noticed.”

 “HOW MANY OF YOU FUCKERS SAW ME EVERYDAY & KNEW I WAS GAY & DID NOT FUCKING SAY ANYTHING?!”

 “MA’M/SIR THAT IS FOUR MILLION DOLLAR MERCHANDISE DO NOT BREAK WHAT YOU CANNOT BUY!” 

 “...Why do you smell like Nesquik Strawberry Milk?” 

“The asshole you are trying to reach is not available. Please disconnect the call & do not try again.”

“Also the day you catch me living in a shack is the day to lock me up because that would mean I finally went clinical, pal."

“Quit talking about shoving things in my ass, you perverted old man/woman!” 

 “Well. You are BORING me right now. I cannot relate to your poor person problems.”

“If I could physically meet myself I would beat the shit out of him.” 

“…I am not sweet, __. Slander me again & I will take legal action.” 

“Her vagina could probably host a fucking bounce house for all of them.”

“Na fam. Delete it right now.”

“Nearly every single time you speak you bring this family great dishonour.”

 “There is only so much suffering I can endure.”

 “I FOUND A CAT!

 “You would end up being spilt worse than my firewood.

“You cannot do coke, that is illegal!

 “Down to fucking kill myself.”

 “If you are so insistent on sucking my cock this often you ought get some knee pads.”

“I like snow. It is a good way to hit your enemies with glass shards before they realise what is happening.”

 “Do you want bullshit or the truth?”

 “I am seconds away from a brain aneurysm, son.”

 “You would be a wonderful addition to someone’s mantle. In an urn!”

 “Shut the fuck up, old man!”

 “I do not use Faebook. Faebook is for losers & old people.”

 *sarcastically* “I went out to the woods. Pretended to be a forest nymph for a few hours.”

“That is… Not my problem.”

 “Did the vibrating make it better or worse, son?”

“New Jersey’s state fruit is blueberry, you fucking crackhead.”

“No no. Continue squabbling, bottoms.”

“Like what the fuck like I can say hoe if I want to! I am a hoe, I have the pass!” 

“I want no part in your cockles, __.”

“That is too many babies, Miss/Mister.”

“Ugh no.”

“Pull up then, Fuckboy.”

“Actually I was thinking about that one medieval meme about the leggings.” 

“You cannot cancel me. I am a bad bitch.” 

Being Fucking For Real

“… Unless… Oh fuck… I must be having another psychotic break.

“Would not be the first goddamn time I had a hallucination…”

“Those were the last words I ever said to my own son’s face… Then I never saw him again.”

“... Tell me you love me again? Please?”

“What the hell was I supposed to say to you that would not sound fucking weird & desperate?”

“You know, wills to read & a little brother to parent…”

“… It was always you but… You deserve someone normal.”

“I will be perfectly fine alone, the way I always am.”

*wryly* “Ah yes, because everyone keeps their promises, __.”

“I am going to beat his ass. The next time. I see him.”

“God, I know I do not deserve it but I love you so fucking much.”

[themidnightguardian]

The Hinata Effect (5/5)

Haikyuu | Hinata Shouyou/Miya Atsumu | Rating: T | Mini-Series: Five Times People Got Caught up in the Hinata Effect | each segment can be read as a standalone

warnings: non-graphic allusions to sex, Atsumu being a trainwreck of emotions

pt. 1 (TsukkiHina) | pt. 2 (KageHina) | pt. 3 (KenHina) | pt. 4 (OiHina)

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If you ask Osamu, Atsumu’s been pining after Hinata Shouyou for years. Since that first volleyball match between Karasuno and Inarizaki, even. It’s been hilariously pathetic.

If you ask Atsumu, first of all, he doesn’t pine. Second of all, really, the whole “holy shit he’s hot” moment didn’t happen until Shouyou walked into the MSBY Black Jackals open tryouts looking like sin itself and proceeded to kick ass.

(The only person who knows that Atsumu spent the next 48 hours repeatedly cycling through, “But I’m straight,” and, “Apparently Not,” is Sakusa Kiyoomi, and only because he accidentally walked in on Atsumu panic making onigiri at 5 AM in the communal kitchen. Atsumu had looked up, said, “I think I might be a little gay.” Sakusa, deciding that this was the timeline that God had abandoned, walked right back out.)

Being on a team with Shou-chan is divine torture. He is, hands-down, the most fun spiker to set for. Shouyou defies gravity, bends the laws of nature whenever they don’t suit him, and there’s something mesmerizing in the way he moves. It’s not that the others aren’t as good—despite the ribbing and teasing, Atsumu does genuinely like Omi-kun, and Bokuto is always a good time both on and off the court—but he likes Shouyou best.

Maybe it’s that Shouyou never wants Atsumu to stop setting for him, and Atsumu never gets tired of having someone to set for. Maybe it’s that Shouyou’s eyes are burnt-toffee brown and they shine so bright after every point he wins. Maybe it’s the way Shouyou bounces up to him, tucks himself under Atsumu’s arm without even thinking about it, like personal space is irrelevant and unnecessary, and talks near-endlessly about the different plays they could pull off. Maybe it’s the intensity of his focus, or the firm grip of his hand when he claps Atsumu on the shoulder, or…

Or maybe it’s that, in the early mornings, Shou-chan will sometimes seem quieter, more centered, fresh off his meditation and yoga routine. He’s graceful on the court and graceful as he bends himself into a dozen different shapes—each of which Atsumu has distinct and vivid fantasies about—but when he stumbles into the kitchen, he sometimes catches his hip on the corner of the counter. He’ll offer to make Atsumu breakfast—usually eggs and fruit, or yogurt and fruit, or, if he’s breaking the diet they’re supposed to be on, cornmeal cakes and fruit and ham, all things he picked up from Brazil—because Atsumu is always awake to watch Hinata do yoga to get an early start on his day.

It's one thing to think Hinata is hot, which he is, and for Atsumu to imagine what it’d be like to bend Hinata into one of those downward dog positions on Atsumu’s bed instead of a yoga mat, or get off to an illicit fantasy or ten about what might happen if the two of them were the last ones in the locker room at the end of practice. It’s another thing entirely to dream about some domestic shit where they take turns making dinner in their own house instead of the team apartment complex, to dream about the simplicity of just taking Shouyou’s hand and holding it, to dream about Shou-chan taking him to Brazil to meet the people who’ve become so important to him there, like a second family.

Osamu figures out that it’s more than just physical attraction or admiration for Shouyou’s skill approximately 27 seconds into one of their phone-calls and proceeds to laugh his ass off about it for a solid five minutes straight before saying, “Shoulda known you’d be stupid ‘bout this too.” And then he’d hung up.

Atsumu would like to think he’s not so obvious, that ‘Samu only knows ‘cause of twin shit. He’s pretty sure most of the team doesn’t know. Outside of practice, he only really spends time with Hinata, Sakusa, and Bokuto. And Bokuto’s kind of obtuse about a lot of stuff, probably because it’s Akaashi-Simp-Hours 24/7 in his head. But Atsumu should have known Omi-kun would figure it out.

“Eugh,” he says in Atsumu’s general direction a minimum of twelve times a day, usually when he catches Atsumu distractedly ogling Shouyou. Omi-kun, who seems like he doesn’t like anybody, does actually like Shou-chan, so he probably doesn’t think Atsumu’s good enough for him, but he also has a very firm “if it’s not my business, it’s not my problem” policy. Which is good for Atsumu.

What’s not good for Atsumu—not good for his heart, which is about to beat out of his chest, or his lungs, which have decided to stop functioning altogether—is the way Shouyou is standing in the doorway to Atsumu’s room with a slightly-sheepish, slightly-sly smile.

It’s past midnight, and they’ve finally wrapped up the after-party from celebrating their first defeat of the Adlers for the season. Some members of the other team had come, surprisingly amicable despite losing; Atsumu knows Omi-kun spent most of the evening quietly conversing with Ushiwaka, knows that Shouyou and Kageyama and Bokuto had gotten into something of a drinking contest—Atsumu wasn’t jealous, he wasn’t, even if everyone and their mother knows Kageyama was Shou-chan’s first love.

(Well, first human love, considering Shouyou’s first love is and always will be volleyball.)

Atsumu also knows that Kageyama, who apparently cannot hold his liquor as well as Shouyou can, is passed out in Shouyou’s room right now, on Shouyou’s bed, probably in some of Shouyou’s clothes—if there are any that would fit him—or maybe even naked, since his own clothes smelled pretty strongly of alcohol. He’ll never say it out loud, but this is one of Atsumu’s worst nightmares: that despite all the time and distance and experience between them now, Shouyou and Kageyama will continue to circle back to each other through some force of nature or fate, and there’s nothing Atsumu can do—even if he was brave enough to tell Shou-chan his feelings, even if those feelings were reciprocated in some way—to keep it from happening.

And yet.

Shouyou is here, standing in Atsumu’s doorway.

“Watcha doin’ Shou-chan?” he asks, because he has to say something, because he doesn’t understand what’s happening.

“Bakageyama’s taking up the whole bed,” Shouyou says, pouting. Atsumu’s about 90% sure it’s an act of some sort, but he doesn’t know what the end game is.

“I’m sure ya could fit,” Atsumu says, and then immediately wants to punch himself.

Shouyou’s head tips to the side, those toffee eyes wide and not-quite-innocent. “Why would I do that, Atsumu?”

He swallows harshly. Shouyou doesn’t call him Atsumu, not since Bokuto got everyone started on Tsum Tsum. And no one says his name like that, a little drawn out, quiet and serious, maybe a little teasing, and wow, yeah, Atsumu didn’t know hearing Shouyou say his name like that was going to put a serious fracture in his self-control. He’s pretty sure he’s blushing.

Something cautious flickers over Shouyou’s face, a tiny furrow in his brow, and he says, “Unless…if I’m wrong, I’m sorry, I—”

“No.” Atsumu’s speaking before he’s even aware of it. Something is happening here, something tremendous, and Atsumu is not going to let it slip by just because he’s a little terrified of his own feelings. There’s no doubting what Shouyou’s getting at, and the last thing in the world that Atsumu wants is for Shouyou to second-guess himself now. “Yer not…yer not wrong.”

“Oh.” And then Shouyou smiles, one of those slower, slyer curves of the mouth that hold a promise of something. “Good.”

(Atsumu wakes up to Shouyou’s body tucked firmly against his own, Shouyou’s mouth brushing the base of his throat, hot breath fanning across his collarbone. One of his own legs is tucked between Shouyou’s, and one of Shouyou’s is thrown over his hip. Atsumu is half-hard in his boxers and he doesn’t even care. Sex is the furthest thing from his mind at this moment, because all he can do is marvel at how perfectly Shouyou fits against him, how peaceful it is to wake up like this, how the sun is just peeking through the window, catching on the very tips of Shouyou’s hair, which means he’ll wake up soon and probably start his morning routine, and maybe they’ll have breakfast together, and Atsumu…

Atsumu is not sure yet, if he’s really in love or if he only thinks he is. But he hopes Shouyou will let him find out.)

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Ok so @bi-polar-geminii already made a post about this and had fruitful discussions about it but I feel like what I have to say might be too long to fit in their asks but

I definitely agree that SOME redacted artists seem to be unable of drawing diverse characters, keyword SOME because this fandom is one that definitely has a majority of lovely designs

And before I continue I want to point out that I am a snow cockroach myself so maybe I shouldn't be the one discussing this but obviously diversity is not just about race, it's about everything on a person like sexuality, ethnicity, nationality, body type, facial features and structures, hair textures and overall small features and accessories that differentiate the person

Honestly this is something that I've been thinking about for a long while and I won't name drop anyone because this isn't a call out post and I'm not looking to start drama (even though there is a certain someone that comes to mind but we won't talk about that) but I was scared that people would get really pissy.

I know that diversity is something that could be classified under artistic skill and I believe that not every artist who posts on social media can't just draw for fun and as a hobby without having the goal of improving but I do also think that diversity is not only a type of skill in character design but also a small gift to anyone that doesn't fit the the perfect beauty standards and when you seemingly refuse to draw anyone that doesn't fit that standard and like, only draw tank, Milo n Alexis as brownskin then that just kinda seems icky

And btw I'm not saying that it's bad to draw those three as poc (hell my tank is darkskin) but there's a difference between drawing a good chunk of the characters as brownskin/darkskin (obv including characters that don't fit/go against the racist stereotypes) and and those three just kinda end up being part of that group and then like all of your characters being crackers and only them being poc

I'm just saying it wouldn't kill you not to make all of your listener designs the same pretty faced preppy saltine sister and every male character the same dorito back webtoon guy but just with different hairstyles, clothing styles and maybe sometimes body types (but never even slightly chubby cuz god forbid)

And also, can we get some listeners that are male/masc?

This is something that I was kinda scared to talk about because like 90% of the fandom will draw like 90% of their listener ocs as women or very fem presenting and I definitely have quite a few listener designs that are very feminine or could be assumed women on first glances and again, the listener characters are gender neutral for a reason and they are at the end of the day supposed to be self inserts so the redacted fandom being majority fem/women it makes sense that they would make majorly fem/women listener ocs but like... If you're already making ocs would it kill you to make at least ONE of them masc/male? Like at least one you don't care about?

And I know saying that people should make more masc/male listener sounds kinda???? misogynistic???? But I'm not saying that because I think that male representation is a thing but because I think queer representation is a thing

I just think that maybe just maybe a little gay people wouldn't hurt??? Pretty please???with a cherry on top????

And damihux doesn't count!!! You don't get to draw them once and be the ultimate gay ally but ofc only on gay month because any other and you might get sent to hell!!! /hj

Just saying when naive little may 2022 me just finished watching freelancer and Gavin team tag Lasko (but not really because I'm literally a mineral and don't have the Patreon) and then went on social media just to see that the fandom was full of STRAGGOTS my jaw hit the submarine

And just, as we close off I know I'm not the ultimate master of diversity, my designs still fall under the pretty face fluffy hair m shaped bangs that definitely look too young for their age but I'm still working on making my character designs look distinct and diverse, and I will be actively working on it for like forever but I definitely won't lie to myself and say that I haven't improved from my dolphin smooth same face syndrome anime boy faze when I only ever wanted to put facial hair on a character when they were past the age of 27 but only put it on the jaw so they just ended up looking like Abraham Lincoln- so I know that I will get better at it eventually

I too look at more talented who are way better at making distinct designs and making designs for characters who don't have to rely on beauty standards to be absolutely gorgeous and feel bad, especially when basically the whole fandom simultaneously descides that a character is poc, a decision that I missed out on and then the fact that my design is seemingly the only one that is white makes me feel like those people that turn objects into people but just end up making them the same breed of sexy anime boy that nobody likes

So if you're insecure about your designs not being distinct enough the best advice I can give is to step out of your comfort zone and actively look for little details that might make a character unique and you'll get there

In conclusion, people who descide to be a conformist (/j) and draw Gavin with a human skin tone but then make him as pale as an uncooked chicken breast when he's specifically described as tan are kinda weird<3333

Also UNPOPULAR OPINION ‼️‼️

People who make their Lovely oc fem/a woman are DELUSIONAL ‼️ and are LYING TO THEMSELVES and are going to miss out on all the sexy fanfiction I'm going to write about Vincent riding their girthy monster cock ‼️( SLASH J EVERYBODY!!!!!!)

At the end of the day, people can draw whatever they want, but people can also say whatever they want in response to it, so you can't be mad if someone that's not even talking about you directly says that they find it strange that some people act like drawing a person that's not completely cis, white, straight, able bodied and a super model without it being some sort of subconscious stereotype will give them the plague

[fvedyetor]

Fyodor and Chuuya for the character ask game

oooh ty for the ask! sorry for how long and messy it is i have lots of thoughts just not very coherent

ok fedya first:

Sexuality Headcanon: bi but denies it. lowkey just anyone with white hair huh. actually yk what?? aroallo. hes soooo aro omg (projecting). fyodor himself would be very no-label tho.

Gender Headcanon: um usually just cis actually. cis guy or cis woman. but valleykey's fics are so so good and xir fyodor gender fuckery is so fun. again i think fyodor is pretty no-label. could have queer vibes, but would never tell you. OMG ESPECIALLY IF FEDYA TAKES OVER OTHER PEOPLE'S BODIES wait i wanna see him take over a woman. genderfluid fyodor?

A ship I have with said character: fyosig :3 theyre my toxic yuri. i ship fedya with so many people but him and sigma's relationship is so interesting and brain itching omg. in canon itd be so toxic and bad and fucked up and in my aus its also that but sometimes its fluffy.

A BROTP I have with said character: um. yk what? agatha and fyodor. i want to see what their relationship is like... but for now im just imagining them drinking tea and talking shit abt fitzgerald and stuff.

A NOTP I have with said character: ummm i rarely have notp's. i am super non-judgmental when it comes to stuff like this in fandom. fyodors one of those characters that pretty much every ship i see is super cool

A random headcanon: strawberries. he likes strawberries. idk just thinking abt fyodor and bloody fruit hehe (pomegranates!! he'd struggle opening pomegranates he'd need help from kolya or other)

General Opinion over said character: very cool!! asagiri is hurting my brain with all the lore drops abt him that actually isnt enough explanation of lore. i love fyodor and his religious symbolism omgggg

chuuya!:

Sexuality Headcanon: um gay or bi w/ very masc preference. hes the guy who'd think he's gay and then realize hes bisexual, not the other way around. theres a fave fic of mine with transfem dazai? chuuya is sure hes into men and then after dazais two year defection he comes to the basement and sees the most gorgeous woman ever and is like "oh wait nevermind" also i think he'd be into yosano. but thats it for the women he's attracted to.

Gender Headcanon: trans masc loser :) love him

A ship I have with said character: sigchuu. i have a legend of zelda au with them and omg <3 <3 chuuya would fix sigma. but not really. anyways sigchuu my beloved <3 they have similar pasts if you look close enough... theyre so silly!!

A BROTP I have with said character: tachihara and chuuya!! i mean obviously the flags ofc but i was just reading some fics and omg tachihara and chuuya are besties. they need to hang out more

A NOTP I have with said character: again... i dont think theres anyone here... tho maybe i'll say romantic skk. platonic and queerplatonic skk is so cool and more fitting i think. i'll still read romantic skk fics tho

A random headcanon: ummm hmm i dont think about chuuya enough for this huh. i think he'd be into theatre but it'd be a guilty pleasure. in the privacy of his own home, he's jamming out to rock musicals, but in public he'd never squeak a word about theatre bc hes so embarrassed.

General Opinion over said character: so cool!! hes so awesome. i like him. i like how hes so powerful but then also just so chill. as much as people are sad about how little we see him in canon, i really like how he'll only pop in once a while. good for him for skipping out on the canon's bullshit all the time hehe

haha sorry for how long this is!! i dont have any solid headcanons really, theres so many ideas out there i cant pick lol

ask game

[missmako-chan]

Tagged by @stickers-on-a-laptop!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

26!

2. What is your AO3 wordcount?

21,300. Huh, very even.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Mostly toku, but I've been meaning to get back into writing Kaitou Joker stuff

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. Stone Fruit, Stone Monkey, Stone Humans - First fic I ever wrote, very old, abandoned, and forever incomplete, do not read…

2. Sorry, I'm Not Home Right Now (I'm Walking Into Spiderwebs) - I love myself some Jeramie web hammock shenanigans

3. That's Not How You Spell Monkie - Also forever incomplete, also do not read!!

4. Because This is the King's Game (and Everyone has to Play) - Unofficial Persona 4 musical my beloved

5. Rooftops, Reveals, and Relief - If I pretend hard enough, episode 29 never happened

5. Do you respond to comments?

Most of the time!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Closest to angst would be Scattered Dream/Far-Off Memory, from my AU where Fuwa and Aruto used to be friends before Gai did all his bullshit, but even then the fic still ends on a hopeful note.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

The ending of Rooftops, Reveals, and Relief, probably. Hilbil dies in that one so I'm pretty happy about that.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really. Guess that's one of the benefits of writing for such small fandoms

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

Am child so. no.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve ever written?

Boy, do I! Ignoring the ones from my uncompleted fics, probably Joker Steals a Train Car (Again), which is a Kaitou Joker and Den-O crossover.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope! Again, small fandoms, if someone did, I would have noticed

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Also no!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I've tried, but those fics are uncompleted, and I wrote what little chapters did get written

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Probably Giramie but also. Would it be wrong of me to say my OC x Canon ship IchiKyo?

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

My Ex-Aid phantom thief AU. I have most of it written down but I'm not really feeling my writing in it.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I like to think I'm good at writing dialogue and character's thoughts.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

There's a reason I don't write fight scenes in my fics. I would Die.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

The most I've really done is romaji puns, but other than that I try not to since idk any languages other than English.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Monkie Kid and Dr. Stone

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Either Because This is the King's Game (and Everyone has to Play) or The One Where Kyosuke has a Dog. I think I did good with writing the dialogue in those fics, and I also like giving Ichiko a crisis over ouppy dog

Not tagging anyone this time but if you wanna go for it!

[neednothavehappenedtobetrue]

I also have this problem with grief, which is that at heart I am basically Anya from Buffy the Vampire Slayer wandering around like "she'll never drink apple juice again and that's stupid. she'll never brush her hair again and that's stupid."

people die and then you can't talk to them on the phone anymore! people say they love you for the last time and then they die.

I know it's what he wants. I can respect that. but I'll never talk to him on the phone anymore. and I am struggling with that.

he used to watch Korean television with subtitles for reasons that were never clear to me. regular family dramas but also stories about people on horses going into battle. he watched a lot of black and white movies. he liked to watch the news. I think mostly the BBC but I'm not sure. he liked to garden. he had tomatoes in his garden and a lot of beautiful flowers. he hasn't been able to do that for a long time, but he did used to.

and my grandmother would make fruit salad and peanut butter and jelly and chicken and her Greek meatballs. and she can't do those things anymore, either, because of the dementia. she took me to musicals and theater shows and movies. she took me to see Stardust one year. she was kind about it when I came out as gay. we went to an art museum in her neighborhood and we went to a tea place that did fancy tea and scones. when I was very little, she took me to my PT appointments and gave me non-medicated eucalyptus cough drops as bribe to behave because she always had them in her purse. when I went to summer camp, she would mail me the Sunday comics section, the ones that were in color, and every girl in my bunk would read them.

[respectthepetty]

Since I decided the best way to make it through Our Skyy 2 with minimal damage is to drink my way through it, welcome to the fifth round of

CockTails in the Skyy!

GMMTV is taking the music club into the multiverse of cuteness, so this week's drink is For Goodness' Sake:

sake for Chinzhilla's hot pot adventure

more white wine for all the whining and pining the boys did

lemons, limes, oranges, grapes, and apple slices for the sweetness overload (I was going to comment about the variation of fruits, but I don't know the crowd's feelings on the word, so . . . *takes a big sip directly from the bottle*)

There will be a lot of singing. I fear sake was not the right choice. I did not think this through. I need something stronger like everclear, but it's too late now. *pushes the play button*

Bottoms up!

Glad to know that the gay sheets exist in every universe

And so does Scrabble-telling-the-plot

The colors being gray and brown so far better be a statement about how love brings color into our lives because these two were color-coded in the original, so if we can get The Gay Sheets™ and Scrabble in every universe, I want the colors in this one too!

That lion doll is the cutest merchandise, and I need it.

Oh, so Gun just gets the president position. Nepotism at its finest.

I know some people do not like the Our Skyy 2 theme song, but I LIVE FOR IT! It's Pitch Perfect but gayer.

Tinn's roar is adorable. Like a toddler, just looking cute and making cute sounds.

It's the first song, and it's barely the first part of the first episode. This is not looking good for me.

Damn! Tinn's mom did them like that?! Toto, I have a feeling we're not in Kansas in more.

Does Tinn already like Gun?! He gave him the cape thingy in the gym and now the shaved ice.

ANOTHER SONG! Is there going to be a song each part of this. *doing mental calculation* Are there going to be eight songs?!

I like Tinn's wiggle when he is singing about squishing the bullfrog.

This is how I like my animation.

Another blowing-in-someone's-ear GIF for my collection.

"We'll get to date at the water park" - - Based on a true story via Pond and Phuwin's Little BIG World.

What am I supposed to do with these colors?! Does Tinn already like Gun?! TELL ME! He does, right?!

A song while dancing makes sense, but I'm upset. In my DJ Khaled voice "another one."

Mark looks delicious in this tux with his hair like that. De. Lish.

If SoundWin hadn't ruined my Star in My Mind SeanMaithee agenda, I would be thrilled about them now in this episode. But I'm petty, so I'm going to stay mad.

But I am happy for the TiwsonPor crew.

Another For Goodness' Sake because this is a lot of singing.

Why is this man coming with the logic of throwing out the sake instead of drinking it? WE DON'T WASTE LIQUOR IN THIS CLUB!

Kajorn likes Pat's accent?! Babe, that's so gay of you.

Damn it! I should've named the drink For Love's Sake.

Mark jogging in these sunglasses with those shorts and jacket = Delicious. I'm so excited to see him be a slut and film a sex tape in Only Friends. I pray he blackmails Neo's character with it. I deserve that treat.

I have never experienced such a tensive piggyback ride as the one being depicted on my screen right now. God, just make out already!

Por saying "get out" in English is feeding my soul because it sounds like me telling people to leave my office: "Get out. Okay. Bye!"

Tinn's shirt reads "Happier Times Are Coming" yet I don't believe it because there will be more singing.

This SoundWin umbrella scene is trying to win me over. It's almost working.

I think I forgot pivotal moments of the original series because I don't remember Gun asking Tinn directly during the questions if Tinn liked him, yet here, Tinn directly asks Gun. I like this!

Tiwson and Por talking as boyfriends is giving me everything I didn't think I needed.

How dare this installment make me think Tinn's mom was a sick when she was just asleep!

Giving SoundWin and TiwsonPor some of Tinn and Gun's moments is genius, like Sound not wanting this kiss to be in act with the red and blues, and Por disclosing he is already dating Tiw.

Tinn and Gun running around looking for each other is top-tier romance.

The moms stay doing the heavy lifting in this show. Which is why the dad, who never had a name, is MIA in this installment.

The boyfriend question!!!!! WITH THE FRIEND ZONE BARRIER!

MSP got that Lay's money too! We are rich, fam!

Why did I not think there would singing during the Aof tribute?! It's a music video, so of course there would be singing.

I feel this is GMMTV's way of thanking Aof for keeping the lights on and the fridge stacked these past years because this man is giving this company its life!

I don't need these dolls, but gosh darn it do I want them!

My School President should get a sequel called My Doctor Boyfriend, and they should meet Tan and Bun of Manner of Death (WHERE IS TRANSPLANT?!).

I have no idea what was happening with the colors, which bothers me (and there was singing in a show about singing), but the salute to some of Aof's greatest hits with Tinn and Gun being Med and Thun were an excellent choice. Because of that, I'm going to give this installment the score Vice Versa's could've had before it decided to LIE!

9/10 CockTails for being a solid offering that delivered the same story but with a few twists.

Because A Boss & A Babe just ended last week, getting an Our Skyy feature immediately after feels like it didn't end, and we are simply getting another episode, so I'll be watching (and judging) this in its normal Friday slot before I watch Be My Favorite, that way I'll be too tipsy to care how either of them turn out.

Will we finally get to know the backstory about Jack's previous relationship?

[retropineapple]

I'm just gonna answer all of these lol

1. I guess I have an okay/good relationship with my mom (even though I don't really like her sometimes 😒) and I had a good relationship with my dad when he was alive

2. A family member, probably my mom

3. Well yeah,of course, pretty much everyone regrets something

4. I'm not sure,but I don't think so

5. Single

6. ☠️ I mean,I don't want to do die. So idk

7. Bacon

8. For fun,not like on a team

9. Not really

10. Never

11. Yeah,a few people I think

12. No,but I have stayed up for 24 hours twice

13. Not anyone I can think of,but usually if I "hate" someone it's a toss up between hate and strongly dislike

14. I guess my friends, most of the time it's hard to tell whether I miss people or not. Actually there are a few friends I definitely miss,some I can still talk to I just don't very often,and I few I can't really talk to anymore

15. Yeah,we have a family dog I guess you could call her. She's a German Shepard named Karen, she's named after the bobcat in the movie Talladega Nights (my mom's boyfriend/my "stepdad" named her lol)

16. Idk,maybe just content

17. No. Also wh-,why would anyone make out in a bathroom? I'm genuinely curious

18. Not as in "I have arachnophobia",but like in a "I don't want to get bit by a spider or have a spider crawling on me,so I will keep my distance" way

19. Maybe

20. I've never kissed anyone

21. Just reading and drawing I guess

22. No

23. No,as cool as piercings are I couldn't get one,I just don't like the idea of me getting piercings. I don't like needles, I'd worry that my piercings getting caught on something and possibly hurting me,and maybe some other reason.

24. Art and English although I typically have good grades in all my classes. If you're wondering,my worst is Advanced Math (for the most part,not including Algebra apparently)

25. A few of my online friends that left the website we used to hangout/talk on

26. Maybe fruit 🍍🍉

27. I don't think so/probably not

28. No, I've never dated anyone

29. Again I've never dated anyone,but chances are that I wouldn't make a partner cry

30. Like right right now,nothing. But like in general,a lot of specific and nonspecific things. Really just any situation where people are treating others badly/like shit when they don't need to be

31. Platonically, definitely. Romantically,I highly doubt it.

32. Yellow 💛💛💛

33. No

34. Like usual it was a mix of things, there was one part that was like a video game where you have to get rid of all these vicious and colorful bats in this really dark room. Another part was something to do with GravityFalls it had Bill Cipher and Kyrptos in it. Then there was the part where I remember had to do with romance between someone and a mermaid. The last part I remember was about the game Peggle.

35. I don't know,I don't cry in front of people really. The last I can remember was a little over a year ago,I was having a bad day

36. I don't think I've ever been in a situation where I've needed to give someone a second chance,so idk,maybe

37. Probably forgive,but it really just depends

38. Maybe

39. I haven't had my first kiss yet

40. No

41-50. [REDACTED] lol,for real though I don't know why these ones weren't made

51. Cheese

52. No,not really

53. Probably using the bathroom

54. No,and hypothetically if there was a situation where it would be justified/okay it would be an uncommonly occuring event

55. No in general anyways,sometimes I am/come off as mean/rude

56. Zero

57. I'm not sure

58. Sunny but with some clouds I guess

59. Yeah

60. I don't know,maybe. If I love someone romantically I don't really feel the need to marry them to signify that I want to be with them "forever"/in the long run. But,there are some protections,I guess you could call it,if you get married. I would list those here,but honestly you can just look up the reasons (other than the typical romantic reasons) why LGBTQ+/Queer people fought(/are fight in some places) for gay marriage to be legalized

61. I guess it'd be cute if a partner called me baby

62. A lot of things like: animals,playing video games I like,reading,drawing, listening to music,and my friends

63. Yes,in fact I'm going to legally change my name to Charlie once I'm 18 (and my middle name to Enigma)

64. Again, I've never kissed anyone

65. It just depends on wether or not I like them too (that applies to my friends of any gender or sex)

66. Yeah I guess (again,this applies to my friends of any gender or sex)

67. My little brother

68. One of my friends,not sure which one though

69. No

70. Yeah, all of my loved ones,and depending on the situation I would even die for a stranger or acquaintance

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[the-good-projxct]

June 13th, 2024

11.38pm listening to Inauma by Bien. Weuh, this a chuuunnneee. I wonder if I have repeated some songs. Hmmm, oh well if I have then plis plis plis ENJOY!! I feel like anything serious I do in life must have music in it. It’s like my ideal state to get work done. Anyway, yoh! I went to katika class again today. I didn’t do Tabata last week because that class tried to kill me. Frank, what is you doing in that class fam? I am glad I went to katika. I can feel my body vibrating from Gøod hormones. I got home and the switch to turn on hot water was broken so I took a cold shower in this COLD AF June weather. Last night was cold, I slept in a hoodie and sox. When I get my own crib I will invest in a huge down comforter so my man and I can sleep freely during the cooler months. Heheheh my man, my man, my man. I never ever thought I would be one of these niggas but here I am screaming my man, my man, my man. I am soo annoying and I LOVE it. The last few days have been interesting. I am struggling with focus for the Gøod manifesto. So I am doing what is tried, tested and true…getting bored. I need to get so bored and sleep so much that I get over those things. Then I will want to do something else and writing will be it. I know I am neurodivergent and I have mastered the ways that work for me. That’s what masking for long has done, I figured out what works for me so I can function well in society. I also don’t want a diagnosis because I worry what that will do for my self-image and relationship with self. So I know, I know. But like, there is no proof so I don’t need to know know. Ya know? I also decided to look at job postings in Kenya since I was bored and weuhhh weuhhh. Overwhelm kicked my ass. I literally almost cried. Wow!! I want a career of my choosing and self-directed. I don’t think I can be employed and micromanaged. Like I left that in 2019. Everything else has been self-directed. I am freaking out at the possibility of being an employee. Some days it takes minutes to write this. Some days…hours. I am eating a whole lot of fruit especially bananas and papaya. I am eating a lot of yogurt. Drinking lots of water too. I am honestly realizing that I have to take care of myself. Like, I feel like I am those people that engage with my body as my body needs. Instead of being proactive. Last week I got soo constipated my belly swelled and hurt SOOO bad. That’s when I decided to take some things on, like I need to be my own parent. And it’s step by step. I spent the last few years parenting myself via emotional regulation, emotional and mental needs, spiritual growth etc. Listen, this Auntie didn’t have the capacity for physical as well. Yes, I used to go to the gym but I fell off because it wasn’t a priority. Now I have the internal figured out, I can deal with the physical. So here I am eating better, drinking water and moving my body. I try to walk everyday. But I still eat cake. As I am writing this I have cake and fanta near me. Why? Because I am a well rounded individual. Okaayyyy?!?!?!? I could really go for a massage right about now. All in all, life feels Gøod. I am thriving. Honestly, what a wonderful life I am leading. Like, its such a wholesome, beautiful, Love-filled Life. Two things can be true, as summer arrives in PEI, I am missing my pals deadly. Like I had/have such Gøod pals. Seeing them looking GøodT in the sun with their gay umbrellas and laughing smiles is giving me all the feels. I know I did what was best for me and I am living the life of my dreams but DAMN, I miss them pippo. I miss them with all of my being. And I am beyond grateful to the Universe for the gang, the goonies, the squad. Like they made that goofy little sandbar tolerable. So yeah, Life is Gøod and I miss my pals. All in all, I am Gøod. Love is Gøod. Community care is Gøod. Freedom is Gøod. Ase. Ase. Ase.

[3llisarts]

Oc interview

I was tagged by @noodlecupcakes < 3 ty!! And I tag @disney-dreams-25

Rhys Thompson - Transformers OC

Name: "Rhys Thompson, but don't go telling anyone else that-"

Nickname: "Depends on who you ask, Wraith calls me Little Spider and Dylan usually calls me Rhy' or Baby."

Gender: "Female."

Star Sign: "What's that again? Gemini- i think."

Moral alignment/personality: "Chaotic Evil."

Height: "5'5"- but don't even think about starting with the height jokes-"

Sexual Orientation: "Straight."

Nationality/Ethnicity: "American. You seem trustworthy enough, like I said, don't go tellin' anyone any of this."

Fave fruit: "Strawberries, though watermelon is a close second."

Favorite season: "Summer. It reminds me of bein' back home in Vegas. Miss that place, you know."

Fave Flower: "Roses, as fucking cheesy as that sounds. They're prickly but so beautiful."

Fave Scent: "If i'd have to choose, it'd be a tie between gun smoke and fresh rain."

Coffee, tea, or HC: "Not much of a coffee or a tea woman- I'll take a Monster or one of those canned Cold Brews any day, though- much as Dylan's trying to get me out of that habit."

Average Hours of Sleep: "That depends on if I'm on a hit or not. On a hit, four to five. But if i'm back home with Dylan? Five to six, sometimes seven."

Dog or Cat Person: "I haven't had a pet since Nitor... well, if you wanna consider a lion like Cybertronian a pet anyways. But to answer that? I'd say a dog. There's something admirable about their loyalty and... I don't see myself having another feline, after my old friend."

Dream Trip: "Anywhere warm, really. But specifically? Aruba."

Favorite Fictional Character/Real Person: "I don't have a lot of close people- 'friends' if you will, but i'd have to say, Wraith- my mentor- or my boyfriend, Dylan."

Number of Blankets They Sleep With: "Four to five, I hate how cold it gets here in Chicago during the winter-."

RANDOM FACT: "I always wanted tattoos- But I never had the time- and then there's also the stupid fear of needles."

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Orion Barys - Far Cry 5 OC

Name: "Orion Barys~ Though if ye want, Officer Barys."

Nickname: "Ah got a lotta those- but some a tha' honorable mentions include darlin', love, and 'course, Officer."

Gender: "Male."

Star Sign: "I'm a Virgo!"

Moral Alignment/personality: "Ah would have to say... chaotic good."

Height: "6'1."

Sexual Orientation: "Originally, ah thought ah was bi, but later came to realize, ah am gay~."

Nationality/Ethnicity: "'Merican."

Fave Fruit: "Apples! Specifically red, but ah ain't picky."

Fave Season: "Winter. There's somethin' so peaceful, wit' tha way tha snow comes down and covers everything. Ah love it, though summar is also nice."

Favorite Flower: "Sunflowers!"

Fave Scent: "Either campfire smoke or burnt rubber."

Coffee, tea, or HC: "Ah like black coffee, preferably that extra strong brew ye sip on during long ass nights."

Average Hours of Sleep: "Seven to eight most nights, though if i'm busy, six to seven."

Dog or Cat Person: "Both, actually! Ah got mah Bear and Ozzie, ah love em to death. Ah also have a guinea, 'er name's Snickers~."

Dream Trip: "Ah always wanted to go down to Daytona~ never seen one a them races in person. Though now? Ah wouldn't mind a trip to tha' Whitetail Mountains."

Favorite Fictional Character/Real Person: "Mm. Ah would probably say somethin' 'long tha' lines a John Wick, or one a tha' Fast an' Furious crew."

Number of Blankets They Sleep With: "One~ Ah usually run hot, an' ah don't like wakin' up all sweaty tha' next mornin'."

RANDOM FACT: "Ah recently retired from tha' FBI, 'fore I came out here to Hope County."

[lil228]

Red White and Royal Blue Notes Day 3 Part 1

WARNING spoilers for Red White and Royal both the movie and up to chapter nine of the book

Also I got a lot of reading done and had a lot of thoughts on day 3 so I'm splitting this up into two parts

Ah Zahra’s great

Okay so I’m reading this at work and no one told me it was homeschool days before I agreed to cover for a sick coworker today. So it’s flipping homeschool days and here I am reading a book as gay as the fourth of July and that’s had at least three spicy scenes so far! I mean nothing supper explicit but still! If there’s a day were some’s going to be mean to me for what I’m reading it’s going to be today 

Okay make that four spicy scenes. Is this what non-asexual people are like? Or is this just what early 20’s non asexual men are like?

If someone offred my jewelry in the shape of my own face I would be incredibly weirded out 

Ah! Henry had English degree, if he was a woman I would have the worlds  biggest crush on this fictional person, as it is, I would desperately like to be friends with this fictional prince. 

  The fact that Henry is invested in the queer history of his so cute. I really like him as a character! 

So- I wanting to know more about queer history- googled what Alex researched and here’s what I’ve learned. The Laws of Illinois 1961- it was a law (the first in the US) in Lillison that repealed the states sodomy laws, thus make same sex sex acts legal. The White Night Riots were riots in response to the very lenient sentencing of Dan White after he murdered George Mosacone and Harvey Milk. White was only convicted of voluntary manslaughter (the lightest possible convictions) he was only made to serve five years of a seven year sentence. It is very likely that if it had not been two gay rights activist White would have been convicted of at least 2 murders and spent the rest of his life in prison. The gay community in San Francisco was understandably upset, and riots broke out. I’m really upset by this news because no way in hell would this man have gotten 7 years in prison today, ane he shouldn't have then just because of who his victims were. Paris is Burning is a documentary from 1990 that follows the drag/ ball scene in NY and the trans, gay, Latino and African american communities around it.  Well I have a new movie to watch now!

I learned a lot just now! That’s more queer history than I learned in High School, hell that’s more than I would have learned in college if not for choosing Oranges are Not The Only Fruit for my capstone project.

Okay maybe Zahra needs to chill just a little bit, but I still appreciate her wit. (162)

Alex never staring a phone calls with a greeting is very in character.

Wait? Hold on which two Kings of Enlgnad were gay? (164) To the google! 

After a quick google search it would appear that Henry is referring to Edward II and King James I. It’s not just those homeschoolers learning things today!

Wait, Bea did cocaine? Did I miss that earlier, or is it just being brought up for the first time right now? 

Aww, these two boys are such good younger brothers

Okay its official Amy’s the best! (167)

Oh, okay this is the first time it’s been brought up- it’s a rumor to the public, but Henry knows that it’s true.

Wow Henry’s  dads death was really hard on the family. I think they could all really have used some therapy.

I feel so bad for Henry’s mother, she could really use some therapy, grief is kind of the worst. 

“It’s good to have times when it’s not all about me, as tedious and exhausting as it may be.” (169). It’s almost like Alex know he’s the main character of the book 

Wow one of the ducks at work is yelling and I’m not sure why, I better go make sure sure no ones getting picked on

Nope, just female wood duck yelling, for some reason, seemingly to the male wood duck, their both fine. Their just having a marital dispute 

Lol just heard a kid yell “Look there’s a turtle kissing a turtles butt!” 

I’ve just been told that those two fight all the time. You would not believe how much duck related drama happens in this place

“Gran sat me down… and made it abundantly clear I was not to let anyone know about any deviant desires I might be beginning to harbor that might reflect poorly upon the crown” (170) I’m at working trying so hard not to cry right now!

The love story between Henry’s mother and father is so cute.

 Holy sh*t how did June know? Who told her?

No really everyone knew Alex was Bi before Alex.

“Stop trying to Jane Austen my life!” Lol

As of page 182 there a seven people who know- June, Cash, Amy, Shann, Nora, Bea, and Pez. 

I think what Alex just heard between Luna and Oscar makes me even more suspicious of Luna

Also what did Richards do to Luna also, also what’s this stuff about the kids? Dose Richards have secret love affair babies? Or.. oh, oh, god I hope not (188)

  Oh my god, they got Henry to do karaoke, 

Oh and Bea’s the best!

Okay were are now at five spicy scenes in this book, all of which I have read at work. At least pretty much no one’s around to see how awkward and mildly embarrassed I am while reading them

Wait, Nora has lipstick on the back of her neck… who was it? I know Alex may not want to know but I do!

So the crew is Alex, Herny, Bea, Nora, June and Pez. 

Aww Alex has friends (200)

Well now I have to look up gentleman of the bedchamber 

Okay so if was basically a group of men that would help the king dress, serving him while he ate and were also there for companionship

205- Holy literary references batman! 

There is something so genuine and vulnerable  about Henry telling Alex his favorite British author especially because she is seen even today as writing “girly” books or books for women.

Be right back, going to goggle Daniel Defoe

He wrote a ton of books, but is most well known for Robsinson Cursoe 

I think I shall also be referring to all of my secrest as “fruity truths” 

I think I’m also going to steal “Utah ugly” and “Christian Ugly”     

Okay so if I’ve got this correct the 3 geniuses in the Alex and three geniuses group chat are Nora, June and Henry. 

The royal box comment on 213 made me laugh out loud

I love that now that Alex knows he’s bi he sees David Beckam and is like how tf did I ever convince myself I was straight.

I kind of relate to Alex, after I realized I was lesbain I looked back on so many things and think how tf did I not know sooner?

Okay how on earth have these two not been found out yet. They slept in the same hotel room in Paris! Henry invited Alex to a polo match! Henry invented him to WIMBLEDON for God’s sake? Surely someone must think something is up right? Like come one! I mean June put two and two together! And Amy probably knew before they told her too! Is everyone around them just oblivious? Do they genuinely think these two are good friend

 I have a feeling there’s about to be a spicy scene

Annnd there it is ladies, gentleman, and distinguished non-binaries- spicy sense number 6

“Love doing things out of spite.” (217) made me laugh out loud, because honestly who hasn’t done anything out of spite before?